#she's younger than my parents she doesn't even have the excuse of old age

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my fucking god hey alexa tell me how to tolerate my idiot coworker without committing what could be classed as voluntary manslaughter

[salem-witch-slut]

He Doesn't Know (18+)

Abby Anderson x Fem!Reader

SYNOPSIS: You said you loved him all the time... But you couldn't care less about him. He wasn't her. No man could compare to Abby Anderson.

WARNINGS: Modern AU!, Semi-public sex (car sex), strap-on use (r!receiving), pussy eating, hair-pulling, choking, cheating, improper use of church parking lot, age gap (14 years), dom!Abby, sub!reader, no use of y/n, slight knife/blood kink, very aggressive sex (im warning you, it's intense)

WORD COUNT: 4K

A/N: You guys heard "Scotty Doesn't Know"? Yeah, well I heard the song and ran with it. Fight me. Also, I have very deep and disrespectful vendettas against men named Dylan. 95% of them suck.

Sunday morning was bathed in the golden light of the sun rising, basking the old church building in the most prolific illumination with the golden accent to the stain glass windows. Rainbows were cast across the carpet and over the walls, beating down on the patrons inside of the church pews. It was the epitome of holiness… and yet, you were nowhere to be found.

Not that they would look for you. You usually only showed up for the morning Sunday classes and then you would leave before service started… well, leave was a strong word. You were still around, but no one could ever find you, so they assumed you were gone. If only someone was hanging around the back parking lot where nobody ever looks, they would see a beat-up old van covered in decal stickers, and the entire vehicle was shaking against the concrete.

Your fingers moved quickly over the screen on your cell phone as you replied to your boyfriend on the other end of the text, biting down on the pillow underneath your chest and trying to contain your cries of pleasure.

“Yeah, tell him how much you love him,” The cruel, sexy voice behind you growled down in your ear. Your heart pounded in your chest as you sobbed into the pillow, strong veiny hands gripping at your ass and leaving clear bruise marks behind on your skin. “Can’t let him know… you’re creaming on my fucking dick, princess…”

“Ahhhh… Abby…” You whined, your back arching a bit more in order to look at the person who belonged to the voice. Hands released your ass before they dropped down on the floor of the van underneath you. Massive, muscular arms caged you down as you felt the tickle of her long blonde braid caress your cheek, her boots digging into the floorboards as she hammers that thick fake cock into your cunt.

It was the same every single Sunday… Abby would show up, you two would sit in class together, and then as soon as it was over, she was dragging you into her van and pushing your skirt up before fucking you senseless. Your boyfriend never came to church with you, so your absence was always excusable. He never even bothered to look to see if you were telling the truth. He trusted you, and that was his mistake.

Dylan was pathetic. He didn’t know how to make you feel wanted like Abby did. He didn’t know what you liked, nor did he take an active interest in the things you loved to do. Abby, on the other hand… Abby was your literal dream. Blonde, tall, built like a work horse, sweet and caring, rough… She was perfect. There was only one problem… Both of your parents were extremely homophobic. Not to mention you were 14 years younger than her.

At 20 years old, Abby was 34 and that was enough for your parents to freak out. You were in your second year of college, and you had been convinced you were straight… right until Abby walked into your life. At first, it was harmless flirting. And then, it quickly went to not flirting. Abby had been the one to make a move first. She pressed you against the bathroom door when she caught you going back to service.

And since that day, your life has never been the same. Your parents loved Dylan, and thought he was a proper gentleman. He went to church with his own family across town, and you went with your parents every single Sunday. Of course, you made up the lie that you would need to work after morning classes on Sunday, which they didn’t like at first but let slide.

It was the perfect guise to get you away from everyone and everything, and to sneak inside of Abby’s van… It was where the sin first began, and now it was where it would never stop.

You never got tired of this. You would always and forever love the feeling of Abby’s strap stretching your velvety walls as she bottomed out inside of you, holding you down like some filthy sex toy that she abused to her heart’s desire. You loved hearing her groan and growl out your name, calling you her little whore, saying how well you are taking her cock like she was made for you… watching you text your boyfriend and mocking you whenever you said you loved him.

“You love him, huh?” Abby breathed down against the back of your neck, moving your hair away from your shoulder and kissing along your skin. “Then why… is he not inside of your fucking pussy, right now?”

You didn’t love him, at all. He became annoying and desperate after 2 weeks and you wanted nothing more than to cut Dylan loose. But your parents adored him, and you kept up the charade just to pretend like you still had a straight bone in your body. When it all came down to it, whenever Abby texted you… you were at her every beckon call. You were hers, through and through. Dylan doesn’t ever come close to Abigail Anderson.

Your soft little cries filled the back of the van as Abby grabbed your wrists, the veins popping in her hands as she held your arms back and began to fuck with more vigor than before, probably fucking the van’s suspension and creating the most vulgar sounds imaginable. How you two were never, ever caught, you would never know.

“Fuck, take it baby,” Abby snarled, watching your ass bounce and jiggle with each snap of her hips against your own. Your moans carried in the small space, feeling like a fucking sauna with how hard you were breathing. Sweat dripped from her brow as she yanked on your arms, making your back arch even more, forcing you to look up at her from behind. “Nnngg, you look so fucking perfect… so fucking pretty, baby…”

“Abby,” You cried out, panting and drooling with each passing second. “Fuckfuckfuuuuck, d-don’t stop… don’t fucking stop—”

“You gonna cum for me, princess?” Abby smirked, reaching down and wrapping both of her massive hands around your neck and pulling you up until your back was pressed against her chest, the fabric of her jeans digging into your thighs and without a doubt going to leave a burn in its wake. “Go on, princess… be a good girl, yeah? Be my good little slut and cream all over my cock.”

You were so fucking close that it hurt! Right on the edge of your climax, so desperate to feel that sweet release and give Abby exactly what she wanted. Very slowly, Abby wrapped her huge forearm around your neck and with one hand, she slid it across the front of your dress, pausing to grip your breast before sliding her hand down the rest of the way and gently rubbing at your throbbing clit. You made a noise that was a cross between a cry and whimper and Abby groaned, deep in her throat.

“Fuck, that’s a pretty noise princess… like it when I rub your clit like that? Huh? Come on, come on! Fucking cum for me!” Her words sent shockwaves all over your body as you began to twitch and jerk in her hold. Abby kept her pace and basked in the sounds you made, watching as your legs wobbled and threatened to give out, forcing her to hold on even tighter and fuck you through your earth-shattering orgasm. “Good girl, good fucking girl, that’s it baby… just like that, yeah just like that…”

You were completely beyond forming coherent sentences, or even making comprehensible sounds as you collapsed against her body, drool dripping down your chin from your lips as a fresh set of tears tracked your face. Abby chuckled sweetly and slowly laid you down on the mass of blankets and pillows she started keeping in the back of her van just for you after events like this take place.

Abby took her time as she pulled her hips back, watching the thick silicone cock slide out of your stretched cunt, chuckling at the white ring around the base from your juices. You wanted to cry, feeling so empty now without her strap taking up your entire being. Abby let the toy flop down against your ass, and then gave your cheeks a rough smack, making your entire body jerk forward at the contact.

“Little slut,” Abby barked, pulling the harness off her hips and reaching down to grab at your hair. You don’t know why you thought she was done… Abby was never done. Of course, you didn’t want to be done. That would mean you two leave your little bubble that you created with her… In here, you were able to pretend that Abby was it. Abby was your everything and you could give up on this stupid ass mistake.

Before you could ask Abby what was next, she was forcing you on your back and unzipping her jeans. You watched her shimmy out of the fabric and made quick work of her boxers before she crouched over your face. If this wasn’t the sight of heaven, church hadn’t done shit for you. You started salivating almost instantly, grabbing at her hips and attempting to pull her down so you could enjoy the feast, but Abby was far too strong for you to control. She chuckled and ran a hand through your hair.

“Easy, princess… I know, you wanna taste this pussy so fucking bad, don’t you?” Abby grabbed your chin with one hand, sliding her thumb across your bottom lip and you sucked the digit into her mouth. Your tongue stroked over her flesh, and you slurped on her thumb, closing your eyes for a brief second and watching her grin before she pulled her hand away from your face, delivering a hard slap across your cheek. “Yeah baby, I know you fuckin’ love that, don’t you?”

Why you enjoyed it when she hit you, you would never truly understand. The stinging sensation left behind after she delivered a soft blow to your face, or your ass, even your cunt, you would be almost purring with desire and arousal. You loved how strong she was and loved it when she showed it without even trying. Abby always held back, never wanting to actually hurt you, but wanting to make you whine.

Without another hit, Abby lowered herself down and grabbed you by your hair once again, clutching your locks and making you gasp. “Open. Tongue out… all the way, princess…”

You opened your mouth up immediately at her command and stuck out your tongue as far as it could humanly go, drooling on your face and watching as she lowered herself down onto your mouth. You were quick to nuzzle your face into her cunt and you began to lick at her almost immediately, holding her by the hips and making the obscenest slurping sounds ever. Abby groaned, her head going back and her eyes rolling back in her head.

“Nnnnn… that’s my good little whore… fuck, no one eats my pussy like you do, sweet thing…” Your heart soared at her praise, paying attention to her clit and using the flat top of your tongue to lap at her like a dog drinking up water. The very thought of someone else having their mouth on her cunt had you moving with desperation. Abby was well aware of your stupid boyfriend, but you didn’t know how many girls she had doing this exact same thing… It turned you fucking feral.

A low moan rumbled out of you, sending vibrations through her clit as you wrapped your lips around the swollen nub and began sucking, hard. Abby bucked her hips against your face, her ass flexing in your hands before she shoved her whole fist against the side of the van. The movement of her body had your teeth scraping against her and she groaned with pleasure.

“Fuck, keep that up baby,” Abby praised, looking down and watching your eyes squinted shut and your brows knitted with what she could only assume was concentration. The noises your mouth created as you slurped, sucked, and drooled on her pussy were beyond vulgar, and if anybody from church could see you now, they would perform an exorcism, assuming you had been possessed by some filthy whore.

Your nails bit into Abby’s skin, creating crescent moon shaped indents in her ass as you released her clit with a wet slurp and scooted down a bit further. Abby rolled her hips forward, watching your eyes as they opened up and then rolled back in your head, almost drowning in her slick cunt. You took your time, mapping her out with your mouth before you gripped her strong, muscly thighs and began to push your tongue inside of her hot cavern. The noise Abby made was the start of a whimper, and then immediately faded into a snarl of aggressive pleasure.

“Fuck, princess… fuck, you dirty little slut… God you feel so fucking good on my pussy, sweet girl…” You practically cry with her praise, leaning into her hand as you thrust your tongue in and out of her, licking her spongey inner walls and feeling her practically bounce on your face as she humped your face.

You didn’t give a shit about anything else, and all that was on your mind was feeling Abby cum on your mouth. Your phone was lighting up, and Abby could see the countless texts from Dylan, and she had to resist everything inside of her to not pick up your phone to record you eating her out.

“You love the taste of my cunt, don’t you baby?” Abby moaned out, nails scratching across your scalp and making you whimper on her pussy. She rolled her hips slowly, grinding her clit against your nose and biting down on her bottom lip to try and keep her composure… But fuck, did you make it difficult…

Abby could feel her orgasm creeping up on her as she rode your face, tugging on your hair and shivering with pleasure that simply coursed over her entire body. And even though you were the one drinking her cunt, she was the one that felt like she was drowning. Her eyes rolled back, swear words tumbling from her mouth and filling the van that was one good thrust away from losing a damn wheel.

“Fuck, ngh, fuck… Fuck, go back, baby… Lick my clit just like before—” You immediately did as she told you, and Abby huffed with pleasure. “Just like that… shit, just like that babygirl… just… fucking leave him, baby… leave his stupid ass and be mine.”

You heard what she said, but it didn’t register… You kept licking at her clit and sucked on it every few seconds before flicking it hard with the tip of your tongue, sending her crashing into the most vulgar climax of her entire life. She chanted countless swear words over and over again as she chased her high against your face, coming closer and closer to falling apart on top of you.

Abby tossed her body forward and squeezed your face with her inner thighs, smushing your cheeks together before she bit her lip and tried to hold in her sounds but it became fucking impossible with you. “Fuck! Fuck! Don’t you fucking dare stop! Don’t. Fucking. Stop! C-Cumming… fuuuuck, m’cumming baby!”

Abby sounded so fucking wild whenever she would climax, and it made you horny all over again. Her hips twitched and pushed down into your face and you opened your mouth wide, lapping at her liquids that drooled out of her and onto your tongue. Her taste was fucking addictive, and she had to literally pry your hands off her legs in order to pull her pussy away from your mouth.

Your face was soaked from the bridge of your nose down to your chin, glistening with her arousal. You licked your lips and reached up to grab her by the front of her shirt and yanked her down, pressing your lips against hers. Abby groaned on your mouth and pushed her tongue in, drinking in her taste on your mouth and basking in everything that was you.

Another thing she had that Dylan sure fucking didn’t… her lips were so fucking soft and she tasted so, so good…

Both of you never addressed what she said, and when you stumbled out of her van and through the backdoor of the church to clean yourself up in the bathroom, you could hardly keep your knees from wobbling. Bruises were forming on your ass in the shape of her hands, and you rubbed your fingers across the marks, blushing at just remembering who gave them to you…

Abby found your panties in her front pocket when she got home, and she couldn’t stop from smelling them. Fuck, you smelled so fucking pretty; she’s never wanted someone more in her entire life than she wants you all of the damn time.

Even during the week, she was on your mind. You couldn’t shake her off. Abby was like a leech that you grew attached to and now its simply just apart of you. She fed off you, and you liked it that way. Abby liked playing your secret lover, but she would much rather be your one and only.

Fear of disownment had you paralyzed. You wanted nothing more than to tell your parents that you were happy, but with a woman. Abby was everything you could ever need…

“Fuck… Abby… Abby, ohmygod, Abby…” Your whimper echoed through the empty house, your parents gone for the afternoon. You were quick to invite Abby over, and she had you laying down on your bed in literal seconds, legs spread and tongue lapping at your pussy faster than you expected a human being to be able to lick.

The sounds of her eating your pussy echoed off the walls of your bedroom, your hands fisted in her long blonde hair that fell down her shoulders in soft waves due to always being in a braid. You loved her hair, and Abby loved it when you pulled on it, her eyes rolling back as she slobbered all over your cunt in the most explicit, wet, messy display ever.

Abby ate pussy like a woman starved! All tongue and lips, slurping and drooling, creating the biggest wet spot on your sheets and squeezing your thighs with her huge hands. You loved how messy she got, watching as she pulled back with her tongue hanging down, a thick string of saliva connecting her mouth to your pussy. She smirks, reaching down with one hand to slap your clit before she dives back down and immediately starts licking you without a care in the world.

You chanted her name, each time growing louder and louder. You always got so close so fast when Abby was eating you out… You were so close…

The sound of your phone ringing had you tensing up and Abby simply glanced up from your cunt, not stopping her movements even a little. Your hands shakingly grabbed at the phone, seeing Dylan’s picture appear on the screen. Your heart began to beat faster, gently swatting at Abby’s head.

“F-fuck, fuck, stop, wait,” You begged, watching her roll her eyes before she pulled back, rubbing her face against the inside of your thigh and watching how shaky your hands were when you answered the phone with a forced neutral expression. Of course, your flushed face was a dead giveaway to anyone else.

“H-Hey, baby, what’s up?” You said breathlessly. Abby rolled her eyes, kissing up and down your thighs as your boyfriend spoke on the other end of the phone. A hearty giggle erupted from your throat, and you responded. “N-No, I’m fine! Just uh… went for a run! Yeah, that’s all, don’t worry…”

Your face immediately brightened, and you looked down to see Abby slowly rubbing at your entire pussy with her hand, biting your inner thigh and basking in the expression you had on your face. You fell back on the bed and huffed, trying not to moan into the receiver as you listened to Dylan.

“To…Tonight? I-I-I’m not… not sure about that baby… I have a… fuck, assignment due… t-tomorrow,” You struggled to keep your noises neutral, biting down on your knuckle as Abby began to slowly ease her middle and ring finger inside of you. You bit down so hard that you left a bruise behind on your finger. “N-No! Y-You don’t h…have to come over… m’fine… t-totally fine…”

Abby was having none of your shit, and before you could prepare yourself, she grabbed your hip and slammed herself knuckle deep into your pussy. The sound you made was so loud that she was sure EUROPE heard you! Your eyes crossed in your head, and you yanked on the bed sheets above your head, completely abandoning your phone call for a second. Dylan asked you what happened, and you were quick to cover it up. “I’m okay! I’m o-okay, baby… j..just hit my arm, t-that’s all… fuck me…”

With a smirk, Abby immediately complied, spreading your legs a bit wider before she began to fuck you on her fingers like it was her damn birthright. Her digits were so thick and strong, hitting every single sweet spot inside of you and making you purr like a kitten for her. Pleasure raced down your spine and you whimpered into your hand, masking your noises as Dylan continued to say whatever the fuck he was saying, you weren’t listening.

“Fucking give me that,” Abby snapped, reaching for the phone and hanging up on him. Your eyes widened and you reached for the phone, but Abby tossed it to the far side of the bed before wrapping a hand around your neck and shoving you into the bed. Her pace picked up to brutal levels and you gasped against her movements. “I’m done, princess… Fucking done sharing you with him.”

“A-Abby, you… fuck…” The look in her eyes was wild as she pushed in a third finger and you reached out to grab the muscle on her shoulders, her hair creating a curtain around your face as she destroyed you.

“Say it,” Abby snarled. “Fucking leave him. You’re mine. You’re mine… you’re fucking mine!”

“Yours!” You cried out, rolling your whole body up against hers and digging your nails into her back. Abby bent down and began to kiss your face, trailing them down to your neck and latching her lips against the flesh of your throat. You groaned as she stretched out your pussy and left an absurd amount of hickies on your neck.

“No one… can fuck you like I do,” Abby rubbed your clit with her thumb as her fingers stroked your inner walls, making you see stars behind your eyes. “No one can kiss you like I do… no one can love you like I do…”

“Yours, Abby,” You whimpered, pushing your face into her neck, grinding down against her hand as you chased your orgasm on her thick digits, desperate to cum for her, and for her alone. “I’m yours… Only you… please, don’t stop! Please, so close…”

“Come on princess… my pretty girl, fucking cum for me…”

And you did exactly that. Your whole body shook with euphoria, and you raked your nails down her back, nearly drawing blood as you reached your high and squeezed around her fingers, liquid slowly gushing from your cunt and drenching her hands. Abby kissed your neck, and then your lips, tears tracking her face.

Finally… she finally had you…

It was made official with one text.

Dylan almost had a fucking heart attack at the photo an unknown number sent him. It was you, sprawled out on the bed, covered in hickies from your neck down to your chest, drool dripping from your lips with one very veiny hand and massive forearm holding you by the throat. You had a stupidly happy grin on your face and your cheeks were tinted with a deep pink blush from either overexertion or embarrassment. And on your stomach, there was something literally carved into your flesh, blood dripping from the fresh wound… it was an A.

There was only one block of text to accompany the picture.

She’s mine now, asshole.

[fanaticsnail]

Every day I wake up and think "Why is there no Childhood Friends Doflamingo x Reader fics?" and every day one of my Discord friends tell me "because Kid Doffy would literally treat Kid Reader like someone beneath him cus everything is still fresh for him" but I bring you counterarguments for the Childhood Friends Doflamingo x Reader story:

1. He meets Reader after his house gets burned down. Reader is Rosinante's age, so eight years old. It's when DQ brothers are being beaten by the thugs; kid Reader gets a bat and protects him and Rosinante from the thugs who were beating on them over bread

2. she brings them food from the restaurant her parents own - home cooked - and meets Homing & Mrs Donquixote, who encourage Doffy & Rosi to befriend her but Doffy remains careful

3. Doffy has confused feelings about Reader but she's only ever treated his injuries (the first human not to hurt him) so he decides Reader is "his human to protect" not "human to enslave" yep he has groups in his mind, little crazy baby flamingo boy

4. Reader teaches Doffy & Rosinante to climb trees. Doffy comments that's what monkeys do, but Reader teases him that whether it is what monkeys do, he still can't reach her if he doesn't climb. Doffy accepts the challenge. He doesn't take long to get the hang of it. Right when he is nearly at the top, he nearly falls but Reader grabs his hand and pulls him onto the branch. I think this is where Doffy starts having a little crush on Reader. He doesn't realise that's what it is.

5. I don't know Ace, Sabo, Luffy I know Doffy, Rosi & Reader. Sure they would not be as wild as ASL since the thugs in North Blue are probably much more deadlier than in East Blue, but they'd be good thieves.

6. Reader is so gentle with Rosi and Doffy gets jealous and says his brother is a crybaby and Reader shouldn't help him, he needs to learn on his own. Reader just blows Doffy a raspberry which makes Rosinante giggle - the first time Rosinante has laughed since their house burned down

I just think if we just put in some thought, it can be plausible for Kid Doffy to have Kid Reader as a friend in his childhood days. He'd feel challenged by a "human", someone younger than him, and want to prove his heavenly status, why he's better. Reader just nods along with it and is kind to them both. They don't do any sort of competitions, they just co-exist.

Kid Doffy is like a street cat. He bites and scratches, and tries to claw your face off, but it's cause he's been through terrible shit and he doesn't trust strangers. He needs patience and kindness.

The fic would require just some patience and kindness I think, for the childhood part of their story, so Doflamingo by the end of it considers Reader precious to him to the point he thinks he is the best person to protect her. That it's his duty. He'd probably call himself her heavenly guardian or sth in his mind when he reaches that point.

Of course, that then can turn into him becoming very possessive of Reader as they grow up (Doffy even when becoming the young 10-11 year old leader seems to stick to one headquarters in that timeframe) and his crush from childhood evolving through time from protectiveness into a wish for a romantic relationship.

Anyway, kid Doffy & kid Rosinante deserve to have a friend during that terrible time, and they both latch onto that little amount of kindness, they appreciate it a lot. Doflamingo only realises it later down the line how much it meant for him Reader supported him.

They show appreciation for that differently later. Doffy comes into the restaurant Reader inherited from her parents all the time and makes sure everyone in the North Blue knows that's his territory, and the place where his crew gathers to celebrate things. He always sends Reader gifts such as jewelry, and kisses her on both cheeks whenever he sees her, using the excuse of it being a custom in Dressrosa to his advantage. Rosinante shows his love with hugs. When he sees Reader when he's Corazon he just hugs her. He doesn't give a shit.

Also, Reader & Kid Law & Baby 5... Reader would feed them all the food and pamper them.

Doffy can't go without Reader's home cooked meals. Food is very important to him, I think, after experiencing starvation. He probably invites her to join the crew as their chef cook when they head for the Grand Line. If not...

Well, kidnapping you is always an option 🤣

(he would lie about what happened to Rosinante. either that or get completely drunk and cry in your lap, confessing everything. You know what, I like the latter. Let the big man cry. I love pathetic drunk Doffy.)

- Yandere Doffy Anon

Okay okay okay okay okay. This was gorgeous. I am in love, and all of the relationships with all of the kids, and the coddling of Rosi. Yes. Please. I love their relationship, the silent confusion in the "what is this feeling" -> it's addictive, and I love it. "My human to protect" WHERE DO I SIGN UP????

Here is my interpretation of what childhood friendship would look like with Doflamingo.

What about a young son of a celestial dragon having regular interactions with a contractually bound daughter of another celestial dragon? And then he's taken away from you by his father? Doflamingo x f!reader image.

Your parents schedule regular playdates with one another so your faces do not grow lost on you both over time. From toddlerhood, to childhood, your friendship grew with your betrothed spouse as you both read with one another, and made puzzles and sculptures together. He pulled your hair, you brushed off his glasses, he bit you on the hand, and you cried to your maid.

You are a bit stuffy and spoilt, but what child of the pinacle of society isn't? Similar to Doflamingo, it is your birthright to be treated with the utmost respect and worshipful adoration.

But your heart becomes kind.

When becoming lost in a crowd of unfamiliar faces, the kindness of a stranger who knew nothing of your face changes you from a prissy young miss to a girl spun in webs of charity and compassion.

It makes the young Doflamingo disgusted seeing you interact and thank his servants when they fix you and him lunch. Conversing so freely with the chaperone, asking questions about his children, it makes the eight year old sick. He'd rather trick them into being scolded and thrashed.

When Donquixote Homing defects, the ties that strung you together lay severed and desolate. The friendship between you forbidden, but your mind often wanders into what had become of him. You both had this unspoken hatred and the closest friendship with one another any two children could have.

Inseperable.

Until you were separated.

It took four adults to restrain you from running to him in the council chambers. Hearing Doflamingo had returned with Homing's head, you had nearly lost yours with glee at his return. When he was denied a rise in reinstating his former title, you were overwhelmed with a grief beyond your years in capacity.

Over the decades, you wondered what had become of him. Your heart had been broken when your father renounced your coupling. Each time a potential spouse was presented to you, you would shut it down with haste. Although you were only young, you spoke with such indignation regarding your disdain for such an alliance. What if this one was taken from you too? Nothing would ever match up to him.

They would never be Doflamingo, and you refused to be the spouse of anyone who didn't meet his equal. His insanity mirrored a darkness in your heart that you had since clothed in kindness. He was your absolute, the stop at the end of the line. He was yours, and you were his completely.

When Tsuru had invited you to the first gathering of seven warlords of the sea, you had no idea what to expect. No matter what you prepared yourself with, your readiness mattered not for the sight that was to welcome you in. Charity was your character, and your humility is what made you the chosen celestial dragon the world government asked to converse with the most.

Pink feathers, rosy glasses, blonde hair, and a sinister grin you had long since burried, had your chest swell and eyes flood with every emotion. Silence was all you offered in your shock, your face shrouded behind a veiled cloth you often travelled with.

You knew exactly who you were looking at, and he had no idea it was you. The way his presence demanded attention, his sinister playfulness with Sir Crocodile and Tsuru, the way he openly taunted the former Marine Hunter Mihawk: each motion captured your soul and held you hostage.

It was only when Tsuru had asked you to speak did you stifle the warmth in your chest. You knew Doflamingo would likely hold disgust for the Celestial Dragons due to their lack of restoration, and you chose to ignore him - just as he ignored you.

When your attendants removed the veil from your extravagant headpiece, the first sound to travel through the realm was a collective gasp. You were young, a woman, and incredibly beautiful. Nothing any of the seven warlords were expecting was anything amounting to a single scrap of you. And you chose to play coy to the slack-jawed blonde in the corner.

After speaking your well rehearsed speech, Tsuru thanked you with her head bowing low, encouraging the other marines to pay their respects in kind. Sir Crocodile offered you a polite bow alongside Kuma and Jinbe. Mihawk tipped his hat to you, which you nodded in kind.

Immediately rising to his feet, Doflamingo's arms hung limp as his lips lay parted and almost quivering. His hands shook, his shoes feeling like lead in lieu of leather, and he finally stood before you. Your attendants sprung up to your side, your guardians guiding their hands to the hilts of their weapons: only ceasing when you hold up your own hand to stop them.

With that same hand, you hover it in front of Doflamingo's face, guiding it in an intimate expression without ever colliding with his skin. He rises his own, mirroring your motions and causing your eyes to flutter shut. An inaudible movement of your name courses through his lips, no sounds to voice them other than a single breath.

"Time has not been kind to you, mi amor," you whisper, Doflamingo's knees buckling at the tone your voice had grown into. It was the greatest symphony he had ever heard, the voice of his childhood friend blossoming into the bloom of the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.

"Time saved all it's kindness for you, mi querida," he managed string together beneath his petrification.

The room was silent, all watching in awe as the most detestable inhabitant in the council chambers was brought to his knees with a single look from a powerful woman. The familiarity had Tsuru's stomach tighten, wondering if extending an invitation to you was in her best interest. Although, seeing Doflamingo behave with his absolute best manners had her lip twitch up at the corner.

He was yours again. A man who was once everything, became nothing, and built himself up to something again. And he was yours.

And he couldn't be happier to be in your presence once more. Why else would he have fought so hard to rise to the top? For mere power alone?

No. That is far too simple. He is far from simple. It was for the chance to be once again worthy to stand in your presence and kneel at your feet as an equal in potential matrimony. But would you still have him after all the time that had passed between you?

Only you held that answer.

Edit to add, I got distracted by the roast chicken and forgot to add the tag list. I'm sorry everyone.

Tag list: @mfreedomstuff @daydreamer-in-training @since-im-already-here @gingernut1314 @writingmysanity @sordidmusings @i-am-vita @indydonuts @feral-artistry @the-light-of-star @empirenowmp3 @racfoam @sunflowersatori @carrotsunshine @skullfacedlady

[panlight]

I still can't get over Jasper being in high school. Can you imagine him, stiff and with a thousand yard stare, doing a book report in front of the class about what he did this summer. Or having to do a group project and meet up at some random kids house to record a video on the how cool chemistry is. SM really goofed up by making Jasper half feral and then shoving him into high school were kids have to do all sorts of silly and dumb assignments.

Yeah. And I don't think it adds anything? There's no narrative reason he has to be in school. Just say he's a few years older than the others, or he goes to a charter school because reasons, or he's homeschooled or whatever.

I mean I generally find the idea of them going to high school at all pretty ridiculous. It could work, maybe, if their cover story weren't so laughably weird (our 20-something parents adopted teenagers barely younger than they are! and they take us out of school on sunny days to go camping!), they weren't all publicly dating their foster siblings/legal cousins, and if they put a bit more effort into actually blending in. Also if they seemed to get anything out of it? They all seem to hate it. They don't seem to be enjoying being around their physical-age peers, or learning new slang, or keeping up with pop culture or whatever other excuse. It's just so Edward can meet Bella in school.

But Jasper is the one for whom it's the MOST ridiculous. He's the one who was leading the most adult life before he even became a vampire, and then AS a vampire was living as the second in command in a vicious vampire army for 90 years or so . . . and now he sits in high school classes? He does group projects? Writes papers on The Great Gatsby?

Edward, Rosalie and Emmett were immediately taken in by Esme and Carlisle, they went from living with their human parents to living with Dr. and Mrs. Cullen; they've been frozen in that teenage/young adult phase of their lives the whole time, so it makes a little more sense in my head for them to go to high school (although at 20 and 6'5" Emmett is too old and too big, like . . . trying to pass him off as a sophomore or whatever just, again, seems counterintuitive to BLENDING IN), but Jasper makes zero sense. He's not in that headspace. He hasn't been since the 1860s. And THAT's not even getting into his control issues. Again, maybe if the high school thing were presented as a way for them to help them get used to being around human blood with their siblings around to monitor and support them or whatever, but even then seems like a big risk.

I think SM would answer this with "he does it for Alice" but like . . . does Alice even want to be in school? She's was on her own for awhile before meeting up with Jasper and the Cullens, too. Like Jasper, she wasn't introduced to vampirism with 'parents' there to look after and provide her like Ed, R and Em were.

They're in high school so Edward can meet Bella. That's the real reason. But that doesn't mean the rest of the 'kids' have to be there, especially the physically older ones like Jasper and Emmett.

[thefanboyhub]

Bronte headcanons?!??!

(Sorry if I've already asked you that)

Do you want to give Bronte a kiss on the forehead and cuddles???

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I LOVE HIM MORE THI OBVI ALSO YESSSSSSS I DO AND YES I WILL GIVE YOU MY HEADCANNONS

He started the whole vampire shit with humans. He was so emo and brooding and all that silly stuff when humans were around and it made the myth/legend of vampires.

He actually loves his curly hair but refuses to be taken as a joke so he keeps his hair buzzed. (Too many people said he looked soft with his curly hair long)

If he were to step down from the council it would be to adopt a child. DONT ASK ME WHY I JUST HAVE A FEELING HE WOULD OK.

Use to be reckless and wild until he accident hurt people he cares about which set him down the path to becoming what he is today.

Is more up to date with the times than any other ancient elf. He is actually surprisingly patient and loves to learn the new stuff no matter how hard he tries to bullshit it and say he doesn't care and all that emo bs.

If he cares about you he's very attentive and does a lot of silent acts of service; like making food and having it sent to you and all that jazz. But it's hard for anyone to get in his heart, mostly because he takes his job seriously.

Definitely not straight. His sassy ass is most definitely bisexual but also not really into anyone. He just thinks everyone is hot and doesn't think much farther than that.

The OG emo/goth but when he was younger he was the OG punk/scene kid. Don't ask, I just know it ok.

When not sober he's literally the softest and silliest guy ever: one time he flirted with Emery while drunk (he made an excuse the next day saying he thought Emery was a women while drunk. It was a lie. He knew.)

Switches from the parent of the council to the bratty child who doesn't like complying with the group.

Very close with Oralie, even before Sophie. He was one of the few people to support her and actively gossips with her. They are besties your honor.

He used to be much sillier and laid back when he first joined the council but after the thousands of years and all that he's seen he learned to become cold and do what has to do.

Out of all the council he would be the least likely to have his mind shatter from guilt: especially if the guilt would be murder of any kind. He's seen a lot and he's desensitized to it in a sense. He wouldn't feel an ounce of guilt if it was to protect the helpless.

He is very against hurting helpless people in any kind. He was only aggressive with Sophie because he knew she wasn't helpless and that she was probably dangerous; He never wished her to be harmed in the way she was. Even when inflicting he went easy on her.

I also think he only basically bullied Sophie to push her to be better to prove him wrong. He did not want her to be evil, so he was the bad that pushed her to do good ifykwim.

Likes to nap any chance he gets. He just likes how comfy his bed is tbh.

Not fond of land animals unless they're fluffy as all hell and adores sea creatures.

Use to hate change when he was younger and now he's so used to change that he handles it the best out of anyone on the council.

Mourns his old friends as if they were dead because he cannot connect with anyone due to his job. Secretly thinks of Oralie and Emery as his friends but never tell him. (They know and they also don't say anything.)

Emery and Him have kissed. I just know it.

Disassociates a lot. Dawg is traumatized, like he's been alive for how long? Ain't no way he ain't traumatized.

Anyways

That's all <3

(I could make this man smile I swear I could. Like I could make him happy. Once chance Bronte PLEASE. AGE IS JUST A NUMBER 😭/J)

[simplyanotherartist]

hi am a 7th grader and I was wondering how you don't get embarrassed bc in my school they make fun of me for things I like like dt and you really encourage me to ignore those people and keep liking what I like

I know it's long, but I want EVERYONE to read this.

Okay, this REALLY hit home, because even though I am just recently entering college(I'm 19), I still feel this way at times. But you know what? It's okay.

At your age, other kids in your school or even a little older than you will probably tease you about this, but not for the reasons you'd think. I mean- what? DuckTales is an amazing animated show about a family that goes through hardships and helps protect one another and all that they value. It's a reboot from an old classic revolving around Donald Duck- one of the most popular animated characters in the world(to be honest I often see him being more popular than Mickey even). Something about this that makes it so amazing, to help you not feel embarrassed? The show is made by adults. Not overgrown children: adults. These people are well older then even myself, voicing, writing, and animating anthropomorphic ducks for one of the largest and most popular film/entertainment industries in the world. This was made by adults, and it's enjoyed by adults. Most of the humor or context provided in the show can't even be understood by most children younger then you, which just goes to show that it's well loved by those even older.

It's not just a kids show. And even if it was- guess what? You get a larger excuse then someone like me even, because you're still a kid. You can like this and people don't have the right to say anything about it.

You said you're in seventh grade? Do me a favor then: show pride in liking this show, and if someone so much as gives you a dirty look for it, I want you to say "Well what kind of shows and movies do you watch?"

If those kids are honest, then the majority of them like watching Disney and animated films as well. If they don't, then it will still be a show meant for younger teens/kids. If they answer that they watch shows and movies that are rated R or meant for adults; then point out that they're still kids too and that their parents shouldn't be okay with that as it is inappropriate most likely. Watching DT17 though? There's is nothing wrong or embarrassing about that.

Like I said; it's made by adults, it should be enjoyed by adults. It's a kids/family show? Then it's enjoyed by kids and families! My mother doesn't care to watch Tv, but when I played the intro for her, she was so happy because it reminded her of her childhood watching the original show and she and my older family members like watching it from time to time because that's what reboots and Disney do. The show is meant to be enjoyed by people your age and even decades older- that's the pure beauty behind it!

If people give you a hard time on it, you know what's the problem? They're embarrassed themselves. I've seen it and received this issue in person myself. Other kids have teased me on liking "little kids shows", only for me to learn later on that they like something others would have found even more childish. They're embarrassed because they have an interest in either the same thing or something else, but they don't want others to find out and act rudely towards it to be kept secret. It's sad, and it's slightly pathetic, but it's understandable because they're just as embarrassed as you and me.

When I got to college, I was more nervous about it then I was even back in high school- but you know what? On the first day, I saw nearly twenty different students wearing clothes with animated characters on them- from Mickey Mouse to Batman, and from Stich to Bratz. The thing is; people stopped caring what others thought, and it helps us realize that others don't actually care. Think about it; if you saw someone at your school wearing a hoodie themed after Bluey or Hilda or Adventure Time, would you care? Probably not in the way you think others would. If people your age do care, its because they're reaching an age of "maturity" where they think they're supposed to grow up and out of these things, when these fandoms are actually aimed to them.

Unfortunately, I will have to admit that the acceptance of this doesn't really fade away early enough. People will act like they're too mature and grown for such things for a while, with the once in a while exception of that one kid you shows off their interests at every turn(this level of confidence is something I will always admire). This usually shows up as early as fourth grade, and it will mostly continue until you all graduate from high school. But when you become an adult and finally leave school, you'll look at the world differently, realizing that this is now your world too. The feeling will be real and you'll actually feel it after you graduate, and goddamn is it a scary but exhilarating feeling. But you know what happens after that? You'll look around and see that most adults won't care- you say you like Disney shows and movies; "Dude, same! I love watching the old classics and reboots!" I have heard this response more times then you would ever believe.

It's just how people your age feel because you're all growing up. But please for the life of me- don't. Don't try to grow up- not like this. If you do, then you'll push yourself away from the beauty that the world tries to give you as a child. I know you can't stop from growing up, but truly enjoy it for now, before it becomes expected of you.

If you like DuckTales? Then show it off. If people make fun of you or tease you, even if they're your friends? Then who needs them. Your real friends will understand and accept you, and the others are either lying to themselves; they grew up too fast and are making fun because they aren't as happy as you, not enjoying their childhood as much as you, and not letting themselves experience the world like you.

Your interests are your interests. Screw the haters.

[cabin-3-counselor]

i have a confession, i really think that jason and thalia shouldn't have been siblings by mortal parent, and that they should have been a mirror to nico and hazel's relationship.

there are many inconsistencies in the pjo saga that never got well translated later on in the hoo saga, but one of them, that gets to me, is when we are told that thalia had a younger brother, that she knew of his existence throughout the entirety of pjo and that she wanted to or did look for him WHILE being a Huntress of Artemis, which it doesn't make sense cause Artemis, from the books, would never let her fuck off to somewhere before and after the war with Kronos, before because she lost two huntress and couldn't afford to loose another lieutenant and after because many other huntress died and they needed to get more numbers and Thalia would have to fulfill her role as lieutenant/general and seeing who is worthy of joining or not.

so, given that being a huntress would not help her out, why did she joined if she wanted to find her brother? a brother who surely wouldn't remember her and if he was alive, which was a shot in the dark given that she didn't even go to hades when she died because zeus stopped that by turning her into a tree and putting her in a coma therefore not given her concrete evidence that he was dead, there would be a big chance of him joining kronos's army given that he would've been the perfect choice for them, a son of Zeus (Jupiter) who did not get claimed and is utterly alone in the world.

if rick wanted to make them the grace siblings, related by mortal blood, a nice and interesting topic he could've gone with two routes (in my mind):

1. The Romulus and Remus

The brothers that helped in the foundation of Rome, who were nursed by a wolf, but eventually Romulus kill Remus because he doesn't want to share the title of Creator of Rome.

Jason being Romulus and Thalia being Remus, but instead of killing Thalia, he plays an active role in her choice becoming a huntress. He has been training years non stop in battle and politics, by the age of 14 he would've been an active menace, and he could've, perhaps out of respect for their dead mother, or perhaps to make sure that he would only have to fight with Percy and Nico, he played her, and heavily advised her to enter the huntress, solely to stay out of his way towards glory. It could be an interesting concept of having the Greeks idea of combat and glory rivalry the Roman way with them.

And it would be an interesting comparison to Hazel's and Nico's relationship, specially if it showed that they decided to put the roman vs greek side aside because they don't share any blood relation to anyone else.

2. Thalia choosing to disappear and stay as away from godly business even though she doesn't have a concrete answer as to where Jason is and having him confronting her and her decision after she is forced to fight in the war against Gaea

Thalia coming back from a comatose state seven years after what she thought was her death, and coming to the knowledge that no she didn't die, the choice of Elysium or Re-Birth being taken away from her by her father, a father who didn't interfere when she was in real danger, finding out that her closest best friend is using her and her "death" as an excuse to manipulate demigods into helping him bring kronos back from his slumber and take out the gods, and that he left Annabeth alone and that he stabbed a 12 years old kid because said kid called out his bullshit.

Rick could've shown a Thalia completely traumatized by the events that happened in the night of her death, she despising the sounds of branches and leaves crushing under her feet, because that's what she heard alongside her bones breaking in a fight against the ciclope, her being even more terrified and hostile of Tyson than Annabeth in The Sea of Monsters,when he entered camp for the first time after her resurrection, even being mean to Annabeth and Percy after she is told that they were the ones to take Tyson there, seeing Annabeth disappear and noone, no mortal parent nor godly one, only her, Percy and Grover getting worried and actually doing something.

And after everything she saw in the Titan's Curse, she chooses to not fight because she can't, she, at that point in life, realizes that she wouldn't stand a chance as a warrior, so she decides to turn her back to the mythological world, and she manages to stay away untill years later Annabeth knocks at her door and tells her that Percy is missing and that she needs help to look for him, and so Thalia is dragged back, and when she finally sees Jason again at the Grand Canyon she doesn't know what to do, specially because she didn't go looking for him and now he shows up but without memories of his entire life, and when he comes back to himself and he sees her he asks why she gave up, why he wasn't enough to make her want to fight, could be a very angsty scene that could help give Jason an actual personality.

so yeah, i have many thoughts on this thalia and jason siblinghood specially that it never made sense to me and that it was such a flashed out and boring arc that it would've been better if it didn't happen at all and if it did rick should've either introduced jason in the first saga or create a good reason for thalia not being able to find him.

[curryfury13]

Hello again!!

I'm back again for the next retrospective of my first ever fan-fiction, True Friends. This time, I'm going through the second and third chapters.

As a reminder, you can click on the banners to go read the chapters for yourself in full. I'll just be giving some commentary about them about where I was as a creator at the time and my thoughts.

Thank you for reading!

Hinata awakens!

And I've realized I had her awaken with brown eyes, rather than golden as she has in the rest of the story. Ah well!

There's little bits of description in this chapter that have still held up for me, but I was still very much to the point and direct with a lot. Still caught up in the, much to do, much to see. Chop chop! It's fun to see at the beginning, considering things slow down soon when I get caught up in the fun of being on Destiny Islands.

I remember when I chose the name Aiko. I thought I was so clever! If any of my old readers are going through this, did I trick any of you with that? I'm certain I didn't. I won't say the spoiler on the off chance someone is reading this that doesn't know, but Aiko is something Hinata still refers to in her current story. It's stuck around even after all this time! Even if I cringe a little bit every time I use it. I will keep insisting on its usage.

And then we get to Kairi and Sora beginning their research about her memories! I liked this concept. I still do in theory. It reminded me a bit of the Twilight Town shenanigans and the 7 Wonders in Sunset Terrace. But, I will be honest, I was coming up with that "research" for Sora and Kairi on the fly and it shoooows in later chapters.

Outlines are important, guys!

"That would be nice," Riku unknowingly said aloud.

A sigh escaped Riku's lips as he leaned back in his chair and stared at the ceiling, thinking about Hinata. He remembered that she looked about the same age as him, and maybe she would end up being in the same grade.

"Excuse me Riku," Riku's History teacher, Mr. Zhoa called; bringing him out of his thoughts and making him look up front at the teacher. "You think that forcing children to do manual labor would be 'nice'?"

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When I tell you I thought this was hilarious writing back when I wrote it... I thought I was the bee's knees. And who, may I ask, also picks up on the super subtle ATLA reference with Zhoa as the history teacher, soon to also be the sparring teacher? That's right. I was both amusing and with the times a decade ago.

There's so many lines in this series that make me groan now days. That sort of groan that actually aches your soul a little bit, like why did I do this? Ok, maybe that's a little bit dramatic. It's more like when Facebook likes to remind me of a status I wrote when I was in junior high and thought I was hip and everyone just needed to know when I needed a snickers.

In the end though, both those statuses and those silly lines aren't bad. Sure, they might make me groan a bit or snicker, but they are harmless and fun, too. And why can't we all have fun with storytelling?

Moving on with the rest of the chapter, we had Sora and Kairi getting to meet Hinata officially! It was all under the guise of the "research" that quickly led to Kairi's adopted parents also adopting Hinata. Like a domino effect, I guess. There was a cleaner way to do it, but I understand the reason I went with it the way I did. Kairi's family already handled this in the past, they'd be the go-to people for it again. I don't think the research needed to be tangled up in it.

It is also where we first learn that Aiko isn't Hinata's younger sister's real name, but a nickname! This was an interesting concept to me and is why I'm not sure I like Aiko for it. The idea behind it, that I don't recall if I ever really explored in the story, is that Hinata's parents were split on the name for her sister. Mom wanted Aiko, Dad wanted the other name that ended up getting chosen. After she was born, the mother continued using her chosen name, claiming it as a nickname.

In that sense Aiko works. Without that explanation, Aiko isn't like her real name at all and is just confusing as to why it's used. It's my story, so why didn't I put that explanation in from the beginning? It's because I didn't think of that explanation at the time and figured it out later.

Another point goes towards story planning!! And multiple drafts, I suppose.

[vivid-vices]

I follow you because you've lived a very different and difficult life from mine. It's very interesting and like reading someone's diaries, except that someone is a total stranger, older than you, and has dealt with sm trauma but they still keep going. tbh, sometimes i think you could qualify in a crime documentary (except thankfully, unlike most of those, you're actually alive and im happy and intrigued to see how your life continues even after all those horrible things).

also you've made my mind more open to things and more aware of certain realities.

just recently, for example, i saw your nsfw post about how being complimented by married men for being better than their wives got you off.

the concept of married men and mistresses disgusted me, but seeing someone so close (in that I follow your blog) be involved in that, made me think about it on a deeper level.

it made me realize that, instead of those common tropes where the mistress and wife fight over the husband, what if the mistress doesn't care at all? what if it's all just for the nooky, and so the wife should rather fight with her husband, because fighting w the mistress would be pointless? not saying this is excusable of course, but it just made me think things differently.

also that was the first post that made me think that yes, you are kinda "bad." 😅 well, some of your other posts do hint on it as well, but i digress.

at the end of the day, when i look at your blog, i see a person whose trying, despite their tragic past and destructive coping mechanisms and flaws and everything. and i enjoy reading about their everyday life. i want to see how they're doing everyday, whether it became shittier or better for them.

"studying under a microscope" (<- except said creature is at a safe distance and i can observe them and support them from a far.) ❤️

since i get to see so much of your personal posts and you don't get to see mine, i guess it would be interesting for you to know some things about one of your followers? (<- excuse to yap about myself)

our age difference is enough for you to be my parent (edited this one a few times so that "you're old" or "im young" doesn't come across insulting :'D)

I'm a pampered "good child" so seeing rebellious people or people who act against the norm intrigue me (that one time you shared about being a professional pickpocket as a kid..i thought, "huh..she must have been one of those cool kids/had a wild life. that's pretty interesting.")

i have some trauma with an older mentor in the past and that seeps in which is why im afraid to approach you off anon. (i really like reading abt you though <3). you 🤝 me - people who are better off as concepts /jk

i read your kalluto fic and liked it

also i hope you continue healing :)

my response is going to be all over the place, just a warning.

firstly, and probably most importantly, i'm actually glad you don't approach me off anon (and i mean that in the most positive way possible) because i'm very hesitant in the way i interact with people much younger than me. plus i'm awkward in general. but please feel free to continue sending anon asks, of course :)

i think a crime documentary about me would be interesting but i am happy to be alive and therefore not a contender for one lol. and thank you for the encouragement 🙏

personally i feel like i have no place to judge what a married person chooses to do, i'm just sort of like an object in that situation. their personal life has nothing to do with me so their marriage isn't my concern. i'm probably an asshole for that but i've never cared very much for people that i don't actively choose to care about (and the list of who i do care about has grown dramatically over the last few months, especially in regards to my tumblr mutuals, who i often genuinely care about and want the best for)

but if you're young enough for me to be your parent, should you be on my nsfw? 🧐

and again, thank you for your support even though you're a complete stranger to me. that's such a strange concept to me - i can imagine people following me to watch the disaster in progress, but not because they actually care. so thank you 🙏

i definitely didn't pickpocket because i was a cool/wild kid, it was just a better alternative than getting food out of the trash. i only knew three kids close to my own age and by normal standards would've probably been a total loser.

i'm so glad you enjoyed my kalluto fic!!! it's one of my least popular fics so i'm happy to see it get love 🖤

anyway this was lovely to wake up to and thank you so much for the explanation 🖤🖤🖤

[thaleleah]

awe tal 🩷 don't even apologize!

no girl same i have not met a single step parent who's at least a bit decent! my uncle recently married this woman who has two grown kids, my uncle also has two grown kids. and let's just say that both my cousins disowned their dad 👀 his wife and her daughters are all so problematic that my uncle only hangs out with them and he doesn't even talk to his sons anymore. it's honestly so sad how divided a parent and their child's relationship becomes. and they are so blind to it!

my stepmonster is 43-44! same age my older sister 🥴 and her dad is a year younger than my dad like it's actually so gross 🤮 i do not have an issue with huge age gap relationships, i was in one myself 2 years ago, but when it comes to it being the same age as your own kid or dad i'm like ew dad 😂

and tell me about it? how can they still get it up is the question 😂 my stepmom is actually sick. you know what she would do? she would come up to me and tell me how good my dad fucks her 😑 like bitch i don't want hear how my dad is in bed. i was about to throw up with the details she was providing me 🤢

also girl don't even feel bad for my dad. he fucked up his kids lives so much. he's been a serial cheater since he married my mom, which is why they got divorced, and yet he claims he's still in love with her like what? 😂 and my mom is just selfish. both did so much wrong. my dad actually has a girlfriend on the side rn 😂 and stepmonster knows, but it's all about the money for her. it's a mess of a shitshow lmfao 😂

i just went on a long ass rant i am so sorry girl 😂

your poor mom 😢 your step dad is such a pos. and of course he uses religion as an excuse to control your mom 🙄 "God first, then the husband, then the children" - fuck off clown. he knows damn well it's the kids that come first, you're not even her father? like stfu dude.

girl i get you, i also have to be civil, and it's so hard. i can't imagine how hard it is for you 🩷 it's so sad we have to keep the peace in order to still be in our parents lives 🫤 it's so unfair to us. some parents are just selfish. both mine fucked up everything for their own sake and happiness and completely forgot how it would affect us.

but... thank god we're not alone 🩷 like we always have each other to talk to about this stuff and that helps a lot to know that there is a lot of us who have gone through this!

thank god for tom blyth cause that man is my happiness atm 😩 he literally makes me so happy. whenever i see his face i have this instant smile on my face like an idiot 🥰 i honestly can't for june!

and tal, my love, you have gift.... that tom blyth drabble ughhh 👄💦

THE FUCKING DRAMA WHAT

First of all, I take back everything I said about your dad lol. That man is a cheater and therefore I have ZERO sympathy for him.

I agree that the age gap isn't an issue but it is superrrrrr uncomfortable for him to be older than her own dad and her to be the same age as his daughter. Those vibes are NOT it 😭

Also, your stepmom is fucking horrid. Staple her lips shut cause no! No one wants to hear about their parent and how they are in bed. And that man is almost in his 80s. I'm sorry but there is no way he's fucking anyone that good. He'd probs break a damn hip, be so for real right now. I'm actually so curious how "attractive" your dad is to be having a side chick at 78. Or is his side-girlfriend trying to get money too? Is the side-gf nice at least???? How old is she??

I have so many questions lol. Tell me the tea ☕️ (if you're comfortable of course, no pressure)

My stepdad is the absolute worst. Nothing pisses me off more than someone using religion to control people and cause harm but it seems more and more that that's the norm. Also like... she loves me because I'm her daughter. She chooses to love him. He won - can he stop this bullshit feud now? I'm tired of it. Having to deal with him and constantly be in survival mode, plus seeing how he mistreats my mom has absolutely fucked me in terms of my own romantic relationships. I have never had a relationship that lasted longer than a month cause if I see even one thing that reminds me of my stepdad, I'm gone. He completely messed up my sense of trust and I'm trying to work through it but its sooooo hard.

Also, he threatened to take me to court once cause I pissed him off. That's not relevant to anything other than to further show that he's an asshole lol

But yes, you can 100% always talk to me about this cause even just going through these messages was actually really cathartic. I don't have any siblings so anyone that I talk to about this really can't understand anything completely from my perspective so its nice to talk to someone who gets it.

JUNE CAN'T COME FAST ENOUGH. I'm so excited for the new episodes, I'm gonna be completely unbearable for a lot of people lmaooooo

Thank you, babesssss 😏 I'm glad you liked it! I'm proud to serve 🫡

[ilikelookingatthings]

The Person I Loved Asked Me to Die in My Younger Sister's Place

I got some thoughts about this shoujo I'm reading recently.

Its got a interesting situation where the main character is 20 years old at the begining of the story. She was adopted by GENUINELY kind and loving people who have a younger daughter and has a childhood friend name bright(who seems to have silver hair and gold eyes).

She was researching Miasma which is a energy that filters to become magic that she has some resistance to with the plan to make a breakthrough to achieve multiple things. first is to gain honor which she could gift to her loving adopted family (they seem to be fairly high up but not too high up)since there is a hierarchy which could affect people. Second is to help her friend Bright(who can't use magic) to be able to use magic.

With her third Goal where is she helps Bright in this way and gets achievements she could proudly confess her feelings...as despite being close friends she doesn't have the confidence to admit her feelings to him when she feels the hiearchy might get in the way.

Her sister was then chosen to go to this side realm called the Dawn before time as a guardian(sacrifice) to put a dragon tree to sleep which is a guarnteed death sentence. Where as you guessed it our character goes in her sister's place but ends up surviving for 23 years where we REALLY begin our story...where out of the blue a portal opened up where Bright walks through...only its not Bright...its Bright and her sister's son Llyod.

I think what I find most fascinating is the people aren't strait up evi; people. Its a cliche at this point that to up the tradgedy the story would have her adopted parents be terrible people, and her sister a brat who would willingly sacrifice our main character because isn't biologically related to them, or Bright being our main character's lover who chooses the sister over her.

But it allows the situation to be genuinely complex because her adoptive parents genuinely care about and love our main character. The mom did impulsive wonder why it couldn't be Elaine(our MC) but its clear the mom is desperate and not thinking strait and the dad immediatley shuts that down and there is immediate apologies. Not to mention it was also influenced by the fact our main character who has Miasma resistance has a better chance of survival rather than the guarteed death the younger sister would face.

Though I will not excuse the fact that everyone still saw it as a death sentence because too much exposure will certianly kill you regardless of your resistance. Its still messed up....but at least the mom didn't impulsively say it with nothing in Wisteria's favor.

They all had looked for alternatives to try to save the sister from going for ages. exhausting all the options for what seemed like a while even though they can't refuse the royal request as their daughter had been chosen due to age, a low amount of magic and because they were the lowest rank of the canidates.

We can't blame others for refusing to volunteer since its a death sentence and it seems without a sacrifice going the miasma would cause alot of death.

and the younger sister is GENUINELY a good person. She gets upset on Elaine's behalf when people all her a witch and talk bad about her. had cried in her place when someone broke a hair clip that was important to Elaine. She clearly admires Elaine who is a composed lady with good manners and picked fights with others when they talked smack about her. and it seems she had to be distracted and was not aware that Elaine was going to volunteer in her place and seems to feel such sorrow her memories got fuzzy. often praising Elaine her eldest sister as well and roasting/bantering with Bright at times.

Even Bright who I assumed was trash is more complex than I though. Elaine doesn't like him for shallow reasons...he's genuinely not a bad guy. He complimented her eyes when he first saw her and when we see her get insecure about being called a witch due to studying magic, or being too tall he makes sure to compliement her and distract her. He seems fairly socible and seems to have a strong sense of justice. He was willing to put himself in danger to protect a stranger(luckly Elaine saved him in time by sucking up the Miasma).

When her parents thought they could just get her a new hairclip...he noticed she was hurting emotionally becuase its what teh hairclip represented to her that was important and he picked a fight to defend her feelings and honor even if it could get him in trouble since the other guy was higher in hiearchy over a hairclip that no one else took seriously.

while I could see why she could feel led on since he did compliment her alot and why some people reading it could feel like he used her....its pretty clear they ARE friends. and he doesn't owe her to return her feelings which she never told him about since she feels like she can't proudly say her feelings as a adopted daughter who's family is lower in the hierarchy than him. He clearly loves her sister who he banters with and who doesn't hold back with being blunt with him...compared to our Elaine who wanted to help fix his issue with magic and tip toed around it since she knows it a sore spot...her sister is direct in saying he'd get a bigger ego and doesn't pity him for it.

He does his best to find alternatives to try to save the sister who cried in his arms about not wanting to die who he loves.....until in his desperation he asks Elaine to take the place of the sister due to her having a higher chance of survival after exhausting all other options and in his desperation to save the woman he loved. No doubt he is still trash for asking someone else to die in someone else's place and implying he'd pick the love/her sister over his friend who's life is just as valuable. but he also clearly KNOWS what he is asking is unreasonable and fucked up and the surprise on his face in the manga when our main character agrees so easily!

Like he couldn't help asking because he loves the sister but wasn't actually expecting her to agree to sacrifice herself...how he's still messed up because he asked and how he could see her shaking even as she put on a brave face saying she knew this was one the only way to save the sister and that she feels bad that she needed him to say it instead of volunteering herself on her own. god when she asked him for at least a hug and how it parallelled the scene she saw when her sister was being held as she cried in fear earlier and teh contrast in how her feelings aren't returned.

just DAMN.

How despite herself our main character can't hate him for it because she never told him her feelings. How Elaine had felt dirty because she had for a moment felt she might have a chance with Bright if her sister was out of the picture. How everyone sees her as this great sister but she knows when seeing her sister cry over potentially having to die she herself was crying and upset because she saw how Bright dearly loved her sister and held her and hearing it fully confirmed. How she had tried rushing her research previously because she sensed Bright's feelings for her sister and just wanted a chance to grab him before the sister took him...even though she knows Bright doesn't owe Elaine his feelings. How she understandably doesn't want to die herself so had been avoiding the obvious idea of volunteering in her sister's place and she had so much to live for. and yet how she is so upset having to hear her crush ask her this....and we see her try to play up her doing it for her sister and not adress her hurt feelings....

yet I can't tell if Bright caught on or not since she asked for a hug and gave in so easily. How despite how she is clearly loved by her family she might have been putting pressure on herself to be a good girl and feel grateful.

And I'm pissed because she had tried to study Miasma specicially because of her feelings for Bright for a chance he could use magic...which had caused people to judge and look down on her due to the ominous stigma about Miasma...calling her Witch....so the guy asking her to go instead of her sister HURTS...but it was also her choice to study that since she had felt it was a requirment to try to ask him out...even though it seems she could have just told him.

Like..I'm pissed at Bright because Elaine deserves the world...but I also like how they don't make him evil or callous. He KNOWS what he is asking is unreasonable and horrible. that its selfish to ask a friend to die in the place of someone you romantically love.

Its also interesting because considering how he treated our main character...I can't help but wonder if maybe she could have had a chance if she had spoken up in the past to him about her feelings as he did treat her really well..and how we see Bright has insecurities was something she let affect herself as well...along with her own...

like Bright was always good to her and defending her...but she was good at magic (or at leats could use it) while Bright who was seen as perfect aside from the fact he couldn't use magic...so her study on Magic to some degree drove a small wedge because he was cearly upset that while he was incharge of protecting her...she was teh one who protected him with magic...and how he knows if she had been in his position he wouldn't have been able to help her. and while she was senstive and knew it hurt him...by not being blunt about it...it just made him more self conscious about it. and he didn't seem to know she wanted to help him gain magic. He never tried to make her selfconscious about it but ELAINE was definitly thinking it was putting salt in his wounds.

which contrasted her sister who was blunt and harsh and didn't pity him about it(even if it wasn;t REALLY pity on our main girls side).

Alot of the society seemed to judge her for being tall and it seemed Bright was on the short side of things and so she thought that he wouldn't be interested by herself.

it keeps a nice balance where I might not like Bright that much because he asked out Elaine to sacrifice herself....but issue that blocked him and Elaine wasn't him leading her on(aside from maybe being too nice), or using her, and he never tried to put her down/discourage her....but it was semi due to the society and Elaine projecting her insecurities as well as being sensitive/aware of his own. I want to be mad at him because she liked him for good reasons and was affected by him on her own due to her love for him.

I adore her talking sword which is a holy sword that when it sensed her choosing to sacrifice herself for her sister despite it meaning her own death chose to follow her.

This holy sword is funny because it screams when its unsheathed like she got it naked X'D and pokes fun at her for being old(I think she is technically in her 40s when the main story starts since its been 23 years since she sacrificed herself and she was 20 at the time). and the holy sword is sensitive because she might have agreed to sacrifice herself for her sister...but she was still wronged for being asked...and she was influenced because the person she had loved asked her to do this. along with herself hatred due to her jealousy of her sister and wanting to get away from her broken heart....she wouldn't have been a bad person if she had said no because it was unreasonable...and I like despite her sister being a motive for her....the sword doesn't ignore her broken heart and how she was influenced by love

What I find fascinating is the people aren't simply bad or good. Our main character wasn't so sweet she could happily wish Bright and her sister happiness and had thoughts of if only her sister wasn';t around and being jealous. but that also didn't negate she loved her sister and her family. the family loved her but they impulsively treated her different in the heat of losing one even if they backtracked and hadn't realized her trying to be so well behaved was due to feeling like she had to be grateful for being adopted. Her sister genuinely loved and and defended her and thought the world of her and cried on her behalf...but also hadn't realized her obvious feelings for Bright and didn't realize that crying on her sister's behalf made her sister feel like she had to be more responsible. Bright was genuinely a good friend who did his best to cheer her up and try to support her...but he also didn't notice her feelinsg and how some of his insecurities might have influenced her and being to nice gave her false hope..and he asked her to go in the place on the person he was inlove with despite knowing thats unreasonable and unfair of him to ask of her to do...he still asked.

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Now the more Juicy Drama is now 23 years later the son of Bright and her Sister has come for the holy sword and he looks JUST like bright aside from the bangs and longer hair(he's got a pony tail!).

which is awakening alot fo mixed feelings in her understandable..she had been in love with Bright since they were kids and she had focused so much on surviving in the Land before Dawn....seeing someone who looks just like Bright is alot for her....like so much time has past the romantic feelings seem to have faded understandably...but it seems she stagnated a bit in that land emotionally to soem degree because it seems she does not age as she looks exactly the same as she did when she entered). which caused a misunderstanding as Llyod assumed she was a monster or a phantom taking the shape of her at first since she never aged and he had been warned of the possibility before entering...as no one would assume she would have loved that long.

(as she does have natural resistance and the holy sword is whats been keeping her safe as she foudn other ways like a special tea to handle the Miasma).

It seems they have a magical devise now that helps absorb Miasma as Llyod came for the sword but it might not last too long.

I'm having a interesting time with Llyod becuase he didn't make a great first impression and looking like her first love both does and doesn't work in his favor...but whats most fascinating is he doesn't seem that sociable..which is strange because both his dad and mom are really popular..they both smile easily and are good at talking and gentel...while our guy seems to frown, be nuetraul or smirks like a bit of a brat.

It gets even more interesting because his younger siblings are social and good at expressing emotions and are very expressive much like their parents unlike him...who seems to have a bit more of a pokerface as his nuetral face.

which made a interesting parallels with our MC as she felt like a outsider in her family due to her looks physically and how she was calmer than her sister and strugged to say her feelings as openly...

But then I actually think he is closer to his mom in his bluntness. He isn't the most tactful and definitly not a sweettalker but he is blunt and honest and we see while at first he seemed rude....he tends to be fairly straitforward in his own way.

He doesn't know how to feel about our MC because his parents don't talk to her much. aparently due the the nature of teh holysword leaving and someone volunteering in the sister's place...people decided to act like she was banished and that she had stolen the holysword(which is honestly a dick move). Its basically a human sacrifice that went around teh order of the royals since the peron they chose didn't go...and ist not a good look that a adopte daughter was sent in the place of the biodaughter...and it seems to truth was covered up by the royals....which is REALLY unfair...but does imply her family wasn't allowed to say the truth.

We see the issues a interesting dynamic between Llyod and his father Bright when it comes to Magic. Llyod unlike Bright was tall but also VERY talented at magic...so talented that prideful teachers would quite becuase he learned so fast...and his father seemed insecure about not being able to use it himself...so seemed to try to drive home that he shouldn't rely on it/use it...like we see how his mom had soothed Bright by loving him as a person and pinting out that the magic wasn;t what was important...its you as a person...but by doing so his parents seemed to discourage and not praise him for his abilities the way he deserved ebcuase he honestly was very talented.

and he tried to make a name for himself and work on his magic and swordmanship to differeintiate himself from his dad...but also to use this great talent he had.....so much so he joined battles and wars against monsters which most nobles would avoid...but he was looked down there as well because people would assume it was just a hobby, that he wasn't serious about it, and that he was only in there becuase of connections where they would ask like his talent was due to his fatehr or his family name anyway.......in fact he was so talented that he was compared to a monster even though he works really hard.

We also see him struggle with relationships becuase he isn't very expressive... as many girls like him...and if he sees something in the girl he sees as interesting or that he coudl like he will say yes and date them and do his best to treat them well even if the feelings are unbalanced at first...just for them to dump him because he isn't in love with them...not matter if he does like them and is sincerely doing his best...he feels like he keeps messing tht up.

WHats fasinating is at first we assume he came to get the sword becuase he has great love for someone...as we know Elanine's motives for a great feat had been to ry to get Bright;s attention and teh right/courage to act on her feelings...and how Bright had a love for her sister......and he seems to have planned to get the sword for the princess to prove his sincerity....

but whats fascinating isn't really romantic...he was drawn to the fact the princess seemed to see him and not a shadow of his dad and unlike the otehr girls who said they just wanted to be by his side and wanted him to give love which he did his best to give his sincerity which never got across. the princess wants something concrete to prove a feelings...a action that can prove his is of great merity and how far he is dedicated to try to be a suitor.

like...on one hand it feels kindof messed up to have someone have to PROVE their feelinsg by going on a dangerious mission...on the other...teh orinces and Llyod seem to be on the same wave length and she honestly seems pretty cool and she was straitforward with him.

If Elaine and Llyod aren't a couple I actually wouldn't have minded the princess and Llyod as they give of a practical relationship based on respect energy in a different scenerio...but then of course Llyod wouldn't get a chance to grow in that case.

Whats more interesting is while we could see Bright's issue with Magic is based on his insecurities...there ARE layers to it as well.....as it seems Bright and the sister are forever reminded of Elaine due to her magic and Miasma...it seems the mom got so sad afetr she went her her place she had a breakdown and they avoid mentioning her to not risk triggering a attack of her memories...and we know that people with magic were often prideful(like Llyod's other teachers) and how someone had attacked Bright before on purpose using magic. WE can also assume there is guilt from it on Bright's part becuase he has asked Elaine to sacrifice herself for her sister's sake.....WE know Bright had been a genuinely good friend to her before and had cared but the trauma to his loved one and that he is directly responsible for his wife's sister going in her place would have understandly caused some issues in the relationship.

So him telling his kids not to mention Elanine or ask about her around the mom does genuinely seem to be avoiding hurting the mom...but also feels convenient because how do you look your kids in the eye and tell them about a dear friend/their aunt who you convinced to go in the place of the mom? How do you tell them the truth when the royal family has a ruling and a story about her stealing the sword and being a criminial?

It fascinating trying to guess how others feel about eachother in this family? Does Llyod remind them of Elaine which is why they struggle with him? like how like Elaine he chooses to keep going into magic and going into a dangerious situation as he seemed to do things against his parents wishes.....

We can assume there is a shared trauma for the parents about losing their kid Llyod like they lost Elaine...as we have seen a flashback about how he had saved his younger siblings from going over the cliff but ended up falling himself...he had almost died infront of his parents eyes....He also isn't expressive like his siblings and even less so that Elaine who was able to show her care properly on her face and was expressive in her own way...

We know that Llyod has a complex because people keeping comparing him to his dad but don't praise the things he wants to go into(magic and swordsmanship)....or how they attribute him as taented de to his bloodline dismissing his efforts, and how he is VERY strong...where people comapre him to a monster becuase he is so talented.....even though they completely ignore the signs he has complex feelings...how he seriously struggled against and monster and instea dof automatically giving him help and feeling guilt since they didn't send people to help him...they try to sooth their guilt and bruised pride by acting like he is a monster just because his face isn't that expressive.

We saw his parents unintentionally imply that something was wrong with him/his personality just because he wasn't as expressive as others...and while it seems he DOES seem to struggle with emotions at times...it also feelings its due to how he could pick up disapproval from others.

He has a fasinating desperation because he doesn't really feel accepted for being himself and due to how exceptional he is it causing other sto judge him quickly...even more because he isn't palitable socially compared to others. even more because he is genuinely pretty sincere.

while the Aunt nephew things is weird(not being related being a saving grace at least) let along the age gape....I'm not against shipping it eventually...and at the very least I can sense a interesting dynamic between Llyod and our main character because he isn't 'kind' like Bright is or sweet towards her like her sister but he has a bluntness that her sister had and a sincerity and firm drive when he has strong feelings about something..which are thinsg that drew Elaine to her sister and her crush in the first place...but he also acts a bit like a brat at times...but also pretty respectful at the same time.

and the drama is fascinating....Llyod can banter and get under Ellaine's skin and he is interesting in magic and genuinely respects her and can talk shop so to speak with her compared to others(like bright). His complimenst are just as sincere as Brights but even more about her skills which she has worked hard to survive on. He can be just weird enough that elaine is thrown off her kilter at times XD

the mixed feelings on her part becuase he looks so much like her first love who hurt her nd his direct connection that respresents that union as well as the connection he has to the people and family she had adored so much. YES! how when he gets her heart skipping a beat we can't ell if its becuase she isn't used to people, if its due to how he looks like Bright and she is projecting and when its actually due to a specific Llyod aspect.

How hi simularities to his dad drawns her in but also repells her...but we also see the bigger differences in him as a person due to the comparisons on her part which really makes me excited to see if they'll fit as the better couple.

ot gets even more interesting because we's seen her view on Bright and her sister which was from ages ago...and we get to know how they've changed and how Llyod knows a different version of them.

the excitment of how Llyod doesn't know the details yet of what happened...he doesn't know she chose to sacrifice herself for his mom...or that she did it more because his dad asked her to do it. How she is used as a scape goat when she is genuinely a good person...how the witch comment was them being assholes when her research was genuine and she is so smart and talented and how she probablycould have had breakthroughs if she had stayed. and he is already uncomfortable with the idea of people talking bad about her when his one good teacher(her old friend who was in her research lab) tried to tell him a bot more of the truth...the unfairness of how she doesn't get mentioned depite what she did for that family.

and if he falls for her...will she believe it? will he be seen properly or will the sins of the father block her from falling for him?

not in the romantic sense...I''m just SO excited to see what happens if she gets back home? will she be accepted with open arms? judged as some witch or monster because she didn't die? Dig up old wounds and guilt for her loved ones because of what they let her do.

and supposedly they could be there up to half a year as he tried to learn from her and try to beat her for the sword.

We know she already made an impression on Llyod for how talented and strong she is and all she's been through and how she is caring and saved him. She upset him by comparing him to his dad(which she doesn't know would be a bad thing but she picked up made him uncomfortable) while we know he has alot of complex thoughts about her because her family doesnt talk about her properly and how her being different is pretty refreshing for him...but was a sore spot for her since she was adopted and self-conscious about it. and how he seems so desperate to try to prove his value...but also doesn't value himself enough which pot calling kettle black on her part...she fell with him and assured him she'd catch him if he fell and properly scolded him but didn't discourage him from magic like his dad and mom does.

Elaine seems perfect for him who feels a bit off in a different way from his dad...and I'm even more curious because Llyod got to do this due to help from the princess...but how will the royal family being involved make his family feel? like his mom and dad lost elaine to the land before dawn and now their eldest son has gone to a dangerous place with no guarantee he won't die from Miasma(even if he has a device) let alone the monsters in that dimension...and we know how he is loved by his siblings...

its also kind of curious because both Llyod and Elaine are eldest siblings....the research alone though is going to be so interesting if they bring the info they know back!

and trying to guess how everyone would react if they go back....let alone if they don't go back...

let alone any mysterious involving the holy sword XD

will she see Llyod as his own person or will her feelings for Bright get in the way?

its So exciting!

[romeoflowers]

I started typing and suddenly it became a longer rant than I originally intended uhm.....

I really wish I had a therapist I could trust on so I can talk about my age regression in an environment where I can actually feel safe because age regression is the part of my trauma that I am the most ashamed of because I know it's what pisses people off the most, when I act the age I was when I was abused. And the thing is I don't have an on or off switch that I can access willingly for this, I know that for some people this is a willing coping mechanism but slipping into the mindset of a 13 yr old kid is something that Just Happens for me and it really doesn't help me when I'm in such a shaky situation with my verbally abusive parents. I think a good example was this morning when I felt sick and went to tell my mom this before she asked me to sweep the kitchen, but she thought I was giving her an excuse to not sweep, so she basically jumped at my throat and started yelling and berating me for being sick, then as she tried to continue antagonizing me I started yelling back, I kept yelling until she decided she couldn't win the argument and stopped trying to back me into a corner. This is the only way I have to defend myself at this point, barking back, but when I slip into my younger self its harder to do, I suddenly don't want to or I am scared to defend myself against people. The day went on and we were going to the bank so I could open my bank account, I. Went to the bathroom before going out which pissed off my mom royally because I took a few more Seconds to go out than she would've wanted. She started shouting up a storm in the car like it was the end of the world and if she didn't yell at me until i killed myself she would instantly explode. I couldn't defend myself, I was suddenly scared to, I couldn't even tell her to leave me alone. Regressing to the mindset of when I was 13 leaves me more vulnerable, sometimes it's because something bad happened and I resort to it to cope and sometimes it just happens. And people find the way I act ridiculous. It makes it easier for people to hurt me

[nothingtherefornow]

At first I also beleive the theory of Lila being an adult with a condition that makes her look like a teenager, but while Miraculous can tackle serious subjects like parental abuse, mental trauma and its consequences, school bullying, and show quite serious scenes such as all the deceased Parisians transformed into Pompei-style statues in Cat Blanc, I don't think they will go as far as making Lila an adult, if only because it would make her a pedophile in view of her attraction towards Adrien.

Especially since in the Miraculous universe, 14 year olds seem to be fucking geniuses, you just have to see everything that characters like Marinette, Max, Adrien and Sabrina are capable of doing while they're still so young of which many adults would be incapable. So it wouldn't be that far fetched for Lila/Cerise/Iris to really be 14 years old and be a con artic with great hacking skills.

And I know for a fact that even at 14 years old, some deranged human being can be quite cruel and heartless in reality.

Now the question remain of when did Lila start collectioning false identities and mothers, and where her money come from (maybe she started with her own and slowly cummulated more from her fake families ?) Who knows how much pocket money from 3 different mothers who seem to live on a rather generous salary represents ?

Now I still think it would be interresting if Lila was at least 2 or 3 years older than Marinette and Adrien. It's not that much of gap in age that it would be schocking to see her being attracted to a 15 years old Adrien. And it would make Lila seems more twisted and truly dangerous and good at what she does if she can pass herself as younger than she is with her fake families and her school, and if she's ready to repeat her schooling at college in order to get closer to her targets use as many excuse as she wants for her absences in order to manage her other false identities (her repeated absences could indeed be more tolerated in college than in high school)

I also think that Lila having some kind of twisted crush toward Marinette would make their rivality more interresting in the future seasons rather than if Lila just hates Marinette purely due to her psycopahty which makes her deranged enough to intensely hate somoene for the pettiest reasons of all.

Syndrome from the Pixar movie The Incredibles, for example, at the very least guenuinly admired the Hero Mr Incredible, and due to his psycopathy, his feelings of betrayal and deception when Mr Incredible rejected him went overboard. But years later Syndrom also developped his own ambitions outside of his grudge toward his idol, and that's why he was such a good and memorable villain in my opinion.

Lila on the other hand, she hates Marinette and Ladybug to a passion only because they hurt her ego, and she doesn't seem to have any interresting ambition outside of ruining Maribug's life and becoming somoene famous and popular.

Some thoughts about Lila Rossi/Cerise Bianca/ Iris Verdi (Part 2)

Hi again....... Yes I am doing this again. To be honest it is not healthy how much I think of this character. But there are some more things to think about. Remember, english is just my second language. Enjoy!

If you think about it, the idea that Lila is an adult woman and not a teenager becomes more realistic. I mean think about it. Not only does she have multiple mothers and is going to different schools but she also got this weird lair underground. How can she do that? I mean if you rent that room, where did she get the money from? Or who is paying it for her?

Not just that. When Chloe got defeated and Cerise took miss Tsurugis Laptop, she must have used the alliance app program to protect herself. She used a skrewdriver to open it. Ok..... but don't you think that the laptop and the app should have a password or something like that? Are the writers trying to tell us, that she must have hacking skills now too?

How smart is this girl/woman supposed to be?

One thing is clear. The writers did not do the best job with making her look smart.

Also another thought about her last scene in season 5. You know? This "I look forward to seeing you again." Scene.

A few hours ago (while writing this) i saw a post where someone said that Lila's obsession with Marinette almost has a homosexual touch.....

I want to make it clear, that I don't like that idea all that much. It can be done well, I know the fanfictions but i would not like it when the writers did that. I would like them to stay rivals. Lila seemed like an Anti-Marinette.

However. We do have scenes where Lila has an evil smirk or is pleased with how things are going for her and this scene does not have that. Look it up I am waiting here.

She looks very calm and..... happy(?) in that moment. There is no malice in that smile. Again she is talking about Marinette here. So what is that?

So as much as I don't like that, we maybe should not throw that idea too far away.

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So yeah. Some more of my thoughts abou her. I am also thinking about writing a fanfic about her too. I don't want to tell you too much now. I am still thinking about it. If i do it, you will see it. Also i might do something like this "my thoughts about..." for Chloe too. We all probably think the same things here but still. Anyway. See you again soon!

[flowerisevil]

MAD DRAGON | Harwin Strong x OC! Targaryen

this is not proofread im sorry

summary: in which Harwin tried to get the attention of the only and only Tatria Targaryen the second born of Viserys and late Aemma Targaryen.

A/N: this is my first fanfic so sorry if it's shitty also English is not my first language so excuse my wrong grammar, I think its kinda long so sorry if it bored you😭

words: 2k+

"Father please, you told me as long as I will help you at the court you wouldn't wed me to anyone then why are you doing this?" The second born princess" yell echoed throughout the room his older sister Rhaenyra tried to stop her from fighting with their father but the princess didn't listen to her.

"I know my dear but you can't live your life always at the court, you have your duty and it is to be wed to a man," Viserys said in a calm voice, after all, he understand why her daughter is acting like this she was in pure shock.

"Was that really the reason? or perhaps I have no use in your eyes anymore because Rhaenyra is now the new heir" Viserys and Rhaenyra looked at her in disbelief.

Ever since the princesses were kids the Tatria never showed any signs of jealousy towards Rhaenyra she already knew that she will be the heir to the Iron Throne that's why she just decided to help at the court as much as she can, she helped them transfer some products from Driftmark help her father with the councils she did everything so she wouldn't lose her use in this kingdom.

"You off to marry me to some creepy old bastard king, because if Nyra became the heir I will have no use anymore!" the princess yelled again.

"Tatria, let's not argue now there will be a feast happening for your brother-" Viserys was cut off when her younger daughter slammed her hand on the table in front of him.

"No, I want to know why you're suddenly doing this to me. I've been a good daughter to you! following your orders and sick rules! I do everything you told me to do!" she swallowed hard she feel that she can't form any words anymore without shaking.

"then be a good daughter and obey me! be a good daughter like your sister and have some use!" Their father snapped, and she leave the room with tears streaming down her eyes.

After three years of being a good daughter to her, this is what she will get? she will never let herself be trapped in a loveless marriage.

The young Targaryen was walking down the halls when an arm snaked around her shoulder she turned around and saw her older sister behind her was her knight, Ser Criston Cole.

"I'm sorry about earlier Nyra, I just can't stand the idea of a forced arranged marriage" She started and looks down at the floor while they were walking, she did feel guilty about her sudden burst out she could've handled it better then maybe her father wouldn't shout at her.

"You really do care how will father see you do you?" Said Rhaenyra she feels like her sister could hear her thoughts.

"Being a Targaryen is all I have Rhaenyra I'm no future queen like you in no time I will have no use anymore so having a good image in our father's eyes is a really big thing to me" Rhaenyra looked at her as they rode their horses.

Tatria's horse runs faster than them she is a skilled rider having to travel to different places gave her the benefits of being a great horse rider but that doesn't mean she's not also a great dragon rider, at a very young age her eggs didn't get to hatched no one knows why some say maybe she isn't destined to be one even their parents thought the same but the young princess don't believe them so when she turned 6 she tried to claim one of their old dragons Icaras everyone was shocked and worried for her when she landed in front of the castle while riding the big dragon.

Rhaenyra can see her sister's potential and how special she is some might not notice but she is very smart, she's a fast learner unlike her who is a slow learner, Tatria learns new things every month studying various languages, cultures, and such. She knew their father can't stop her from whatever she is planning no man can stop her after all a mad dragon cannot be tamed.

Tatria stopped in a forest to calm herself nature always makes her calm the sound of the birds made and the smell of fresh air is enough to ease her anger.

"no use" she chuckles passionless, her small smile faded when she heard a growl she looked around and saw a huge boar preparing to attack her, she tried to ignore it thinking it wouldn't hurt her but she was wrong it chase her and she ran.

fuck! how could I forget my dagger right now?

"Shit!" she shouted when it catches her and hover on top of her she tried to pull away but it keeps on scratching her dress she was holding its mouth to keep from biting her while trying to grab something she can defend herself with.

Finally grabbing a stone she almost dropped it when the boar bites her arm and shoulder tearing that part of her dress too, she held the rock tightly and slammed it on the boar's head, it dropped beside her she keeps hitting it until it wasn't breathing anymore.

"you will make a great gift for my brother" she laughed and looked for a stick where she can put the boar after she finished her small gift she rode her horse and go to the feast.

She finally arrived at the feast she walked around blood dripping down her broken dress the bite mark on her arm and shoulder was visible but she paid no attention to it, everyone was looking at her but didn't care.

"stop that" Harwin looked at his brother who was now glaring at him.

"stop what? " he answered while peeling off the skin of the rabbits.

"stop lusting over the princess" Larys his brother said not looking at him.

"She's just very amazing, seven hells I would do anything for that woman" Harwin sounds like a little boy, Larys made a face.

"She's crazy and a pain in the ass, some knights say that even the King can't tame her, she is reckless" Larys looked at Tatria she was looking for her family.

"Look at her, she doesn't look like a princess" Larys added.

"Yeah but she's hot" Larys rolled his eyes at his brother's answer.

"Don't tell me I didn't warn you, some say she's very fond of men who will submit to her" Larys smirked and leave his brother to grab more coal.

He watched her walk with the boar in her bare hand he needs to consult a maester and see what's the problem when him, and why it turns him on with this side of her, this is not the first time he feels like this towards the young princess.

Way back before when Tatria caught some guards trying to steal some of their products he remembers her pulling her sword and pointing it at the thief's neck.

"Those products you're stealing are for the people in my kingdom so I suggest you let that go or the only thing that will come back to your families are your heads" that's the exact words you said to them, everyone working for you knows how much you hate injustice.

"Harwin the goddamn rabbits!" He's brother shouts at him.

Tatria's attention was caught when she heard a shout when she looks at it, she saw Larys Strong talking to a guy he looks familiar but she doesn't know his name.

"Tatriea! Where have you been?" Alice her best friend slash her new stepmother and immediately ran to her, They are still friends even though she married her father she understands her as also a woman fighting to survive a patriarchial society she understands her.

"I'm great do not worry I have a gift for Aegon" Tatreia smiled and show her best friend the boar. It was a genuine smile Tatreia rarely smiles only when she accomplishes something she wants.

"You could've gotten yourself killed!" Alicent was worried she already felt there was something wrong the moment Rhaenyra came without you and when she heard that you and your father fought.

Someone pulled Alicent away from Tatreia it was her sister, Rhaenyra looked so worried and when she saw the bite marks on her sister's body she instantly panicked.

"Call the maester! get help my sister is injured! " Rhaenyra yells some knights tried to hold her but Tatreia refused.

"I'm fine, I want to give this to father a peace offering," She said and walked over to her father but Otto Hightower blocked her.

"Princess I think you should stay away from the King first you caused a scene here you should go to the tent and clean yourself" He whispered at her, Tatreia's eyes shut when Otto put his hand where the bite was a squeezed it. He and Otto never really get along after what he did to Alicent her hatred towards him just got worst

"Get out of my way," she said but Otto still push her away it was a soft push no one would think that he is intentionally hurting you.

You held his hand where he place it on your shoulder and took it off you "I will leave whenever I want, I'm not going to ask again Get. Out. Of.  My. Way. " Tatreia moved forward and bumped Otto's shoulder.

She goes to his father and sends him a small smile.

"I came here to gift my baby brother, In Vale, it's lucky for babies to be gifted by wild animals and turn their fur into some apparel" Viserys looked at the boar his daughter was holding.

He knew its a peace offering not wanting to fight with her anymore he smiled at her and gave her a small nod.

"Thank you, my daughter, you can give it there to Ser Larys Strong he will take care of it" Tatreia nodded she went beside her father a give him a peck on his right cheek giving him some bloodstains.

"Now where is Larys Strong?" her smile has now faded finding the guy her father mentioned.

On the other hand.

"Come on brother! Just introduce me to her please I'm begging you" Harwin beg to his brother he knew his brother knew the princess he works for her before.

"Why me? I can't even talk to her without stuttering! I'm sure father could help you with that" Larys shrugged him off

He was about to beg again when the princess approached them, they both looked at her at the same time.

Harwin examined her, her dress has scratches like a lot you can see her arm that has a bite, and her shoulders god he can see her collarbones, her white hair that was covered with blood, and her face too.

He snapped back when the princess throw them the boar it was heavy, how did she manage to carry this?

"Father told me you will take care of that, Larys Strong right?" Her low and raspy voice and her strong valyrian accent are also visible when speaking.

"Yes, princess anyway this is my brother princess" Larys voice was trembling.  Tatreia nod acknowledging his name.

"Tatreia the maester is here, he needs to look at your bites" Harwin tries his best not to show annoyance when they're interrupted but he can't do anything about it the princess needs to be healed.

"Nothing to worry sister" Her deep chuckle sounds like music to Harwin's ear.

Tatreia wrapped her arm around her sister's shoulder, Tatreia is younger but she's quite taller than Rhaenyra.

"Brother you're drooling" Larys teased him he push him away because of annoyance he didn't even introduce him properly.

"Fuck off"

Tatreia took off her clothes the maester looked at her bleeding arm and shoulder the only people in the tent were her, Rhaenyra, and the maester.

"The bites are a bit deep princess but they will heal soon when the wound close I suggest you apply this so you wouldn't get any scars from it" The maester suggest as he gave the princess a small circular container but Tatreia only refused.

"No, I don't need it maybe a scar would look good on me," she said Rhaenyra rolled her eyes and sit beside her.

"Men wouldn't like women who have scars," Rhaenyra said.

"Well if men don't want them maybe women would" she advised and teasingly raise her eyebrows.

Tatreia was always open to Rhaenyra about her preferences as she said before "who cares if it's men or women as long as it can give you pleasure why reject? "

"Whatever you say, anyways have you seen how Harwin looks at you?" Her eyes squint to what her sister has told her? Harwin?

"Who is he?"

"Seven Hells you were just talking to her earlier! Larys' brother Harwin "Breakbones" Strong" Rhaenyra opened a bit their tent and pointed at the man she called breakbones.

"oh sorry I forgot," she said, they stayed there for a while as soon as Ser Criston came and hand Tatreia her new clothes to wear, she wear them immediately and go outside.

She walked between Alicent and her father she asked permission if can carry baby Aegon, and Alicent allowed her.

"he seems to like you, look," Alicent said, Aegon was nuzzling inside your neck.

"Rhaenyra, come here look at your brother" Viserys invited her but Rhaenyra refused instead she told their father that she was tired and will go home.

"She just needs time, father" Tatreia explained earning a small nod from her father and a smile from the queen.

She knew Rhaenyra is having a hard time accepting everything after all Alicent was their friend and marrying their father after their mother died was her last straw, Rhaenyra also knows that Aegon might get in his way of inheriting the Iron Throne.

Days passed after the feast she and Viserys never opened up about the marriage as much as possible and proceed to go back to normal.

Tonight she goes with Ser Lyris to visit the City, this will be the first time she will visit their city she did once visit it but not the whole city her father forbids her from going in the city without any guards with her even now.

"The King told me to look after you princess, wherever I go you must be there too, trust me, princess the city is more dangerous at night," Ser Lyris said to her.

"Women are never safe, Ser Lyris," Tatreia said and walked past him.

"This kid is much worse than I thought" Lyris whispered to himself though he meant it not in a bad way, not in a good way either she doesn't hate the princess why would she hate the princess who helped them when they were in so much need

They arrived at the quarters of the City Watch everyone stood up when they saw the princess, confusion filled their faces, confused about what is the princess doing there.

"The King ordered starting now all of us will help Princess Tatreia in her work you will oblige everything she said," Lyris told the guards they all bowed to her, and she took off her helmet and her white hair revealed tied in a low ponytail.

"I'm sorry to disturb your knight but there are new products from Driftmark and Runestone that will be transferred here tonight and my men cannot bear all this, so I need your help Lord Royce and his ship will drop in the port and so is Laenors" she explained everyone is listening they wouldn't want to anger the princess.

After explaining they all traveled to the port to get the derivatives while riding her horse she notice a man knocked off his horse, and she immediately went to him and helped him stand up.

"Are you alright?" She asked she take the fabric from her pocket and helped the man wipe off the blood on his nose.

She looked at him and big seductive eyes meets her she couldn't tell if the man's eyes were brown or deep blue because of the night, but he looked familiar. 

"Ser Strong right? You're Lary's brother?" the man nods he's still looking at her.

"You can ride with me I think you broke your nose, Ser we need to get you to a healer" she helped him stand up and go to her horse, Tatreia felt Harwin's arm around her abdomen she gulped and try to brush off the tingling sensation in her stomach.

"Maester, please check on him" Tatreia yells and she lay Harwin on the nearest bed.

She pulled back as the healer tries to check on him, she was just watching them check on him and when they were done the maester talked to her, he said it was nothing serious.

"Breakbones is used to this kind of accident," The maester said before leaving them. breakbones?

"How are you feeling?" Tatreia sat beside his bed.

"I'm okay now, I'm sorry for bothering you princess" he apologized, he can't even look at the princess without getting embarrassed.

The wound didn't hurt he had experience way worse but when Tatreia offered her the ride he took it as an opportunity now he's guilty because instead that the princess being in the port to talk with her partners she was stuck here with him.

"Nothing to apologize for, I'll just send a raven to Lyris that I cannot come tonight, I must stay here the maester can't look after you tonight he's child is also sick" The princess explained now he felt more guilty.

"You can go now, princess" Harwin insist.

"No I want to make sure myself that you're okay I can go there later" Harwin didn't fought with her anymore after all the Princess doesn't take no for an answer.

Tatreia just sat beside her reading the book the maester left and sometimes she would look at Harwin to check him but she would always catch him staring at her.

"you know it's rude to stare, Ser Harwin" Tatreia said without looking at him.

"So tell me do you fancy my sister?" Harwin's eyes widen.

"Princess?" Harwin asked

"I'm sorry I don't know how to start a conversation" The princess said and stood up, she already forgot what her older sister just told her earlier at the tent.

"I'm leaving now Ser Harwin, I'll go back tomorrow" She bow her head a bit and pat the knight's shoulder.

As soon as the Princess left the room Harwin released the breath he's been holding.

"God, she's truly a goddess" Harwin sighed all night Tatreia's face wouldn't leave his head and it makes him hard to sleep.

"Fuck sleep Harwin!" he said to himself.

A/N: I hope you liked it im sorry if its so long.

[alyswritings]

Girl in the Chair

Request: saw a post regarding this and now i can't get this out of my mind: how about a teen!cousin sister!reader x ag!peter parker fic where she's may and ben's daughter so they're basically raised together and one day she finds out about him being spidey and then starts helping him out with little stuff (like making silly excuses for his absence at home and patching him up)?

Peter Parker (Andrew Garfield) x cousin!reader

Summary: Y/N helps Peter keep his secret identity.

Warnings: swear words, kind of angsty ig, some fluff

a/n: thank you for the request! yes, i did get the whole "person in the chair" thing from tom's spider-man. hope you all enjoy!

(gif not mine)

Y/N was the closest thing that Peter had to a sibling. She was only four years old when Peter's parents left, only two years younger than him. Even before he had to move in with them, they were still very close and each other's best friends.

After Peter's parents disappeared and he permanently moved in, they ended up growing closer and they did practically everything together. They were there for each other through all of the hard times.

When Ben died, it destroyed both of them. For the first few days, they comforted each other, but after that Peter started getting distant and he was almost never home.

Currently, Y/N is lying on Peter's bed, her hair hanging off the end of it. She's on her phone, waiting for him to get home, though she doesn't really expect him to get back.

The window opens and Y/N looks over, watching as Spider-Man climbs in the window. Her eyes widen and her jaw drops as she watches him come through the window. Spider-Man drops to his feet and takes the mask off only to reveal Peter making Y/N's eyes practically pop out of her socket.

"Oh, my God!" She yells, sitting up. Peter jumps about a foot in the air, finally noticing her.

"Y/N." Peter says heavily. "He-- uh, hey. What's, uh... what's up, sis-cuz?" He awkwardly laughs.

"You're Spider-Man!" Y/N gasps.

"What?!" Peter's voice raises a few octaves. "I-- no. No, no, I... I'm not."

"Then what the hell are you wearing?" Y/N asks, raising an eyebrow.

"Uh..." Peter looks down at the suit. "Um... I... school play?"

"You go to a science school, genius." Y/N remarks.

"Uh... well, what the hell are you doing in my room anyway?" Peter asks, locking his bedroom door.

"You promised we'd watch Harry Potter, remember? And despite you not keeping a single promise the past couple of weeks, I was still holding out a little hope." Y/N explains.

"Okay. Right. We can watch it now." Peter says.

"Oh, who cares about wizard children right now. You're Spider-Man." Y/N states.

"Okay, okay, fine! Yes! I am Spider-Man!" Peter hisses.

"What the hell?" Y/N asks.

"I-- it's a long story." Peter says.

"What, because I'm so busy?" Y/N scoffs.

"Look, you... you can't tell anybody. All right, nobody. Not a single soul. Not even Aunt May." Peter says.

"You want me to lie to my mom?" Y/N asks.

"Like you've never lied to her before?" Peter retorts, knowing full well that she has.

"Well, yeah, on my own accord." Y/N says. "Why can't I tell anybody?" Y/N asks.

"Because then they know who it is, and I... I don't want that. Who knows what kind of attention or-or danger that could bring." Peter says.

"Danger to who?" Y/N asks.

"Me. Us." Peter says.

"When did this happen?" Y/N asks.

"I... I might've snuck into Oscorp one day... trying to find stuff out about my parents. I snuck into a lab that had genetically altered spiders and one kind of, you know, bit me. And I woke up and could do stuff."

"When did you decide to start using the powers?" Y/N asks. "Once you learned how to control them, at least. Assuming you didn't have instant control."

"Look, can we just talk about this later? I don't... I'm not in the mood." Peter says.

"Oh, come on. I just found out you've been Spider-Man, you're gonna make me lie to everybody, you've been keeping this secret and God knows how many more from me, and you want me to let it go?"

"Okay, okay. After... after Uncle Ben, I... I started to look for the robber who-- who, you know..." He doesn't really want to say it.

"Who killed my father, yeah." Y/N forces a pained smile. "Go on."

"I... and I started trying to find the one that did it. And at some point I made the suit and-and the web shooters and I became Spider-Man and... well, I'm still looking for the robber, but I'm also now Friendly Neighborhood Spider-Man. Fighting crime. With no true identity."

"You know my dad wasn't your fault, right?" Y/N asks.

"He was out looking for me, so--"

"Pete..."

"Rather it was my fault or not, I'm finding the guy that killed him, okay?!" Peter snaps.

"You're also putting yourself in danger. Especially going after the guy." Y/N argues.

"Well, you and Aunt May were pretty broken up that night. I can't... I can't just let him live with it." Peter says.

"You're gonna kill him?" Y/N asks.

"I'll probably just turn him in." Peter says.

"You're a dumbass." Y/N says.

"Just promise me you won't tell anybody." Peter pleads.

"Fine. I promise." Y/N says.

"Pinky." Peter holds his pinky out.

"Really?" She asks.

"You're the one who started it." Peter counters. Y/N rolls her eyes, but links her pinky with his. "Just don't die on me, please."

"I won't." Peter assures. "So... Harry Potter?"

"No. No, uh... I think I'm just gonna... stay in my room tonight. See you tomorrow... or whenever." Y/N says, unlocking the door and leaving.

- - -

A few days later, Peter gets home from school, immediately greeted by May.

"Where were you last night?" She asks.

"Wha-- where was I?" Peter asks.

"Yes. Yes, where were you?" May repeats the question.

"I, um... I, uh--"

"He was up on the roof. You know, how we always used to sneak up there as kids." Y/N says, quickly walking up.

"Right. Right. Yeah... yeah, I was... I was there." Peter nods.

"Wha-- why?" May asks.

"He got too hot in his room. And he lost track of time and fell asleep." Y/N says.

"I-- just don't do it again." May says.

"Got it." Peter says.

May looks between the two before just sighing and leaving, shaking her head muttering under her breath.

"The roof?" Peter mumbles.

"What, because it's too much of a lie? We used to do that all the time." Y/N says.

"Yeah, but... still, really?" Peter asks.

"Come on." Y/N grabs his arm, dragging him to his room. Y/N shuts and locks the door. "Okay, so I've been thinking and I'm gonna help you."

"help me with what?" Peter asks.

"Being Spider-Man." Y/n says.

"What?" Peter chuckles.

"Yeah." Y/N nods.

"No. No, no. I'm... you don't have any, you know, powers or anything." Peter says. "And I'm not taking you straight into danger."

"Not like that. Just like... you know, I can lie for you. Make up excuses when mom asks where you are. Or-or help you with injuries. Surely, you get hurt... which makes me feel worse about this whole Spider-Man thing, but, uh, you know. Or if you need help figuring something out."

"I can make my own excuses." Peter says.

"Yeah, but you suck at them." Y/N says.

"Wha-- no I don't." Peter frowns.

"You told mom you were fixing my bike one time." Y/N says.

"Yeah, and?" Peter asks, not seeing the issue.

"I haven't had a bike since I was twelve." Y/N says.

"I thought it was good." Peter mumbles.

"Yeah, maybe if I still had a bike." Y/N says. "Oh! And I can help you make more web fluid shooting things."

"You're failing science." Peter reminds.

"Because you have no time to help me and the tutors at my school are assholes." Y/N retorts. "And fine, not that, but everything else."

"Y/N..." Peter sighs.

"Oh, come on. I wouldn't even have to leave my room for any of it. It's like... like I'm your, uh... oh! Your girl in the chair." Y/N grins.

"Girl in the chair?" Peter echoes.

"Yeah!" Y/N nods.

"Okay, if it's... just stuff like that... which can be done from inside the house... then, fine." Peter agrees making Y/N grin.

- - -

As time went on, Y/N continued to make up excuses for why Peter wouldn't be somewhere, but always making sure they were excuses that didn't sound dangerous. She helped him with whatever injuries he got, quickly becoming skilled in the patching up process.

Y/N is sitting in her room and staring at her science homework with the most confused expression on her face.

"Y/N? Honey?" Her mother knocks on the door before opening it. "Sweetie, do you know where Peter is?"

"Oh, he's, um... he's... I wanted some ice cream. So I made him go get it." Y/N says.

"You made him get it?" May asks.

"Yeah. Yeah, I mean, I am a teenage girl in the 21st century. It's... it's dangerous out there. He offered, as well." Y/N says.

"Oh... okay. Just... let me know when he gets back. I'll be in my room." May says.

"Got it." Y/N nods, smiling at her mom. May softly smiles at her before leaving, shutting the door behind her.

"That one was actually pretty good." Y/N mutters.

A few minutes later, there's a knock on Y/N's window. She looks over, finding Peter in his Spider-Man suit, but she can see his face, able to spot the multiple cuts on his face.

"Oh, my God!" She exclaims, rushing to the window. She unlocks it, pushing it open. "What the hell happened to your face?" She asks as he climbs in.

"Nice to see you, too." Peter sarcastically smiles.

"Your chest is bleeding." Y/N points out.

"Yeah. Yeah, I know." Peter says.

"Y/N?" They hear May call out. "Honey, you all right?"

"Yes!" Y/N yells, rushing to the door. Peter hides in the closet as the door starts to open, Y/N quickly getting there, stopping her mom from opening it any further. "Yeah. Yes. I'm... I'm great."

"Why were you yelling?" May asks.

"Oh, I was just... I finally understood something in science." Y/N says.

"Oh. That's great, darling." May smiles.

"Yep." Y/N smiles.

"Okay. Keep it up." May says.

"Will do." Y/N says, watching her mom walk off. She sighs, shutting the door and putting a chair in front of it to block it. She turns to Peter who walks out of the closet.

"That might be your stupidest lie yet." Peter teases.

"You know, disinfectant stings. And I'm gonna be the one holding it." Y/N says.

"Sorry." Peter quickly says.

"Yeah." Y/N nods. "Bed." Peter sits on her bed and Y/N gets the first aid kit out of her desk. Y/N grabs her desk chair and puts it in front of Peter and sits on it. She puts the kit next to him and starts cleaning up the injuries on his face. She finishes with his face.

"Okay... take the top part of your suit off." Y/N orders.

"What?" Peter asks.

"I need to clean the wound on your chest. Unless you'd like to continue bleeding." Y/N says.

"I... it'll heal soon. What's the point?" Peter says.

"Pete, I'm your cousin, I've seen you shirtless before." Y/N says. "it's not a big deal."

"Fine." Peter grumbles, taking the top part of his suit off, letting it fall onto the bed. Y/N starts to clean the cut, Peter hissing in pain at the disinfectant. He squirms a little in discomfort.

"Stop being a baby." Y/N chides. Peter quietly mocks her. Y/N presses the cloth with disinfectant harder on his chest, making him let out a quiet cry of pain.

"Ow! God, Y/N. Jesus!" He whispers, pushing her hand away.

"I warned you to watch what you say." Y/N says. She continues to clean his wound.

"I have a question." Peter says.

"What?" Y/N asks.

"Why do you do this?" Peter asks.

"Do what?" Y/N asks.

"Help me." Peter says.

"Why would I not?" Y/N asks.

"You just didn't seem... you know, super supportive of the whole thing." Peter says.

"Well... I figured if you're gonna be brave and stupid, I'd be stupid with you." Y/N says.

"Cool." Peter mumbles. "You're brave, too."

"Well, I'm not the one fighting crime, am I?" Y/N retorts.

"Yeah, but you don't have to be... you know, a cop or-or another sort of crime fighter or something to be brave." Peter says.

"Well, thanks." Y/N mumbles. "There. Done."

"Thank you." Peter tells her.

"Help me with science homework?" Y/N hopefully asks.

"Fine." Peter lightly rolls his eyes.

Peter went to change into pajamas while Y/N sits back at her desk and puts the first aid kit up. Peter soon returns and grabs a chair, sitting next to her.

"What do you not get?" Peter asks.

"Everything." Y/N states.

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[innocentimouto]

"(I’d say Azula, but I doubt they intended to portray her as an actual person so)"

What makes you think that? can you elaborate,please?

Huh. Wasn't expecting to get an ask about Azula.

Basically, she wasn't written as a child, she's set up to be a bigger person for Zuko to defeat than Ozai, and the creators actively call her crazy and get a kick out of her ending.

Most people are shocked to find out she's actually 14. Her first appearance in "The Storm" has her smiling as Zuko screams. Zuko even looks younger than her when she should actually be 11. Her voice seems much older, and she constantly acts older and more mature than Zuko. She commands the people around her and is only ever shown to lack experience in "The Beach" which people mostly ignore when it comes to Azula.

Also the way they drew her in Book 3 made her seem in her twenties. My mom was horrified when I told her Azula was 14, and the first thing she said was, "Why did they do that? That bothers me. Why would they make her look like a woman?"

When Azula meets Zuko and Iroh, they immediately glare at her, suggesting they have reason to hate her. Except the last time they would have seen her was when she was 11. What horrible thing did she do to Zuko and Iroh at that age? What evil thing could she have even done for Iroh to make him hate her?

We could excuse Zuko, but Iroh is a grown man who should have the understanding that an 11-year-old child wouldn't understand the full weight of their actions.

Zuko and Iroh didn't know they were considered fugitives then. Really there was no reason for that much hatred to her. People say it's because Iroh recognizes the worst part of himself in her or sees Ozai in her, but that's kind of weak for a wise old man who spent years fighting for the Fire Nation and yet thinking a young girl is too far gone to help.

In "Zuko Alone", the flashbacks take the time to show her: lie to her mom, play a prank, disrespect Azulon, zoom in on her burning her doll ominously, mock Iroh for failing at BSS, perform better than Zuko, smile when Ozai angers Azulon, seem happy about Ozai killing Zuko, doesn't care that Ursa disappeared, and has no issues with the suspicious circumstances surrounding Azulon's death.

It's clearly meant to make us think she was born bad. Except it's extremely stupid.

Really, anyone else who hates it but doesn't call it stupid is just being polite. Siblings prank each other all the time. Ty Lee, whom plenty claim is innocent, also found the prank funny. Are we really basing a person's morality on a dumb game?

She's eight (or close to that). Children that age repeat what they hear from their parents, especially if they know it'll get a reaction. Also children at that age believe everything their parents do is right. Anything Ozai would have said to Azula---she has no reason to question it. He's her father.

I could go more in depth, but it can really be simplified down to: a child's actions should not be treated as if their brains and understanding of right and wrong have developed enough to recognize the meaning of their words, and children can be menaces.

My brother held a knife to my neck so many times to try and reenact some action scene, but it was constantly ruined by us breaking out into laughter. Because it was funny to us. We didn't see the danger in it. I poked a pencil into his knee really hard one time and was genuinely confused when it hurt. Kids just...don't understand consequences that well.

This also includes the whole turtleduck thing. It's funny people bring it up so often when Zuko was the one to actually do it on screen. And that's the proof. He looked confused and then got angry at the mother for biting him. Zuko gets excused for doing it, but Azula who's two years younger, doesn't? How are people raising their kids these days?

Then Zuko's fever dream. It's meant to be good and bad, which side he should choose. Yet instead of having Iroh and Ozai, it has Iroh and Azula.

Why? What purpose did she serve in that regard? Why is she given more focus as someone Zuko needs to deal with rather than the man who burned and banished him? Zuko has never wanted to join her side. Even after he supposedly changes in BSS, he wants to face Azula.

What would that accomplish? He's banished, so he can't turn her over to the Fire Nation. He's the Fire Nation prince, so he can't give her to the EK. She's currently in control of the Dai Li, which are all around her, so he's outnumbered.

If he had actually beaten her, then what? But the show doesn't take the time to question these things. She's solely an obstacle for Zuko, a character the narrative has empathized with, to overcome.

Then the ending in Book 2. Everyone believed she was lying and would backstab him after he helped her. It seemed like the writers had to scramble for a reason because otherwise...

She just gave up her right to the throne and saved Zuko when she didn't need to. If she wanted, she could have used him, then imprisoned him. Those were Ozai's orders. No one would stop her.

So they quickly move past that and focus on Azula lying to Ozai about Zuko being the one to kill Aang, and now the viewers hate her for endangering Zuko's life.

There's no going into the fact that Zuko was betraying his nation by hiding that the avatar was alive, and it's not out of the good of his heart. He hired an assassin to kill Aang. He didn't care.

So Zuko never thanked her for bringing him back to the Fire Nation when she didn't need to. She also could have had him imprisoned after finding out that he visited Iroh, or could have blackmailed him through that. The fact that she actually warned him to be careful was something he never acknowledged either.

Zuko realized his father was abusive and that the war was wrong and that he wanted to create a world of peace and happiness, yet he didn't even try to reason with Azula. What great sign of peace and happiness was directed to her? How come Ozai's abuse was only limited to Zuko? How come Zuko got to bring up an Agni Kai for a child was abusive, but sending Azula out to fight the Avatar, to fight in the Invasion, to be a soldier wasn't?

The show doesn't allow for it. She was confident, she was malicious, she was evil doesn't matter when she's fighting a war as a child.

Then Iroh convinces Zuko to face Azula right after he said he couldn't fight Ozai because it would be seen as senseless violence between brothers.

What message does that send? Zuko mentions putting Azula in her place, which again, seems like what the writers were going for with her ending (they laugh and call her crazy, it was intentionally cathartic for them).

Why...does Azula need to be put in her place? What does that even mean? She's following the Fire Nation just like he was. She's a child just like him. He was free from Ozai and then declared a fugitive for no reason and he still wanted to capture/kill Aang to get back home. Any argument that Azula should have known better should easily be directed at Zuko.

Favoritism from an abusive parent does not mean you're safe from abuse. It's the reason she strived for perfection in everything. Zuko stepped out of line once and look at what happened. When he returned Ozai honored him in the war meeting and asked for his advice.

Ozai only cared about Azula because she was useful. The same reason he accepted Zuko back. Any studies on the behaviors of abused children will shed a lot of light on the siblings.

Everything about Azula having depth is accidental on the writer's part. Even her line in the beach episode is used against her ('see, she knows she's a monster'). Her not being able to be a regular child is portrayed, but majority of people either ignore it, still call her crazy in that episode, or just say she was too far gone which is why no one should bother helping her.

All of which go against the themes of the show. Iroh also plays a major part in this by helping the misguided Zuko but actively not helping Azula, suggesting even he can do nothing to help her.

There's other people who know her character better, but this is just what I was referring to.