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It's so funny that Cindy has organic webbing when she and Peter got bit by the same spider and therefore should have the same powers. She walked out of that bunker and said "You can't make your own webs? Skill issue :/"
#not just organic webbing either!#kickass organic webbing that she can spin and somehow color into clothes#and can somehow make dense enough on her hands to give her claws!#she's so much cooler than him#cindy moon#silk
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kind of expected that the ability breakdown wouldnt get that much traction (especially on twitter bc if it doesnt do well in the first few hours it might as well be dead) but what i didnt need to wake up to was looking at my twitter notifications and thinking there was a long comment on it at first but then i read it and it turned out to be some guy having dug up one of my old totk tweets where i talked about how zelda was treated-
and if a quote retweet with a thread attached already starts with "this entitled brat didnt understand that zelda was being a history nerd by being in the past and getting to experience it herself" with two screenshots attached of the end of totk with zelda staring at the cam all uwu (which has ??? to do with their point??) i dont even want to know what else was in that thread
if thats how the majority of the fandom is then im even less surprised that nintendy doesnt even have to try to write anything good :I
ah yes, i am a game nerd, and by putting me in a game where i stand around doing puppy dog eyes while being shoved around by NPCs is me being a game nerd OBVIOSULY
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#sorta#like ok im not saying you cant like the game ffs#but acting like everything is perfect and anyone who dares speak something critical is a heathen and must be PUNISHED or PROVEN WRONG-#-is so godammn annoying#just went on their profile to block and of course it was all screenshots of totks ending with uwu zelda and shirtless cool guy link#also find it interesting that zelda has always been a history nerd now#didnt know interest in shiekah tech and ... frogs? counted as historian#and dont get me wrong it would fit her being interested in that too but the way it was done in totk felt so artificial#like doesnt she say she read in a book that the king who founded this hyrule was called rauru and all that?#like ........ how did that even happen#a book that mentions him BY NAME surviving for WAY OVER TEN THOUSAND YEARS just convenietnly materializing or what#how the hell did that survive when next to nothing did of the ancient shiekah#(granted you can make the argument that the -other- ancient king of hyrule that persecuted them destroyed most of their stuff-#-which would make sense and im rolling with that too but you get my point??)#but raurus shit was even older than shiekah stuff like ......... ok???? how convenient she now suddendly is interested in nothing but#-that and also read a book about it!!! somehow!!#also how does something like that exist but then the sonau where pretty much non existent and irrelevant at all in botw#and even what we had was ACTUALLY done ..by hylians as a tribute to rauru you seeeeeeee#and the botw sonau style was the hylians work .. even though the totk sonau style aligns more with hylian than botw sonau..#if the hylians were so grateful to rauru they built giant stone monuments as a tribute for him that didnt even fit their style-#-why was that the only stuff that survived on the surface ... wouldnt it make more sense that they would maintain the og sonau stuff instea#sure the temple ... castle .. whatever went up into the sky and whatver SOEMEHOW but not everythign did and it was everwhere#but then the stuff left on the surface crumbled away while everything left to rot in the underground and sky is just .. fine#what#also ... where did their castle go anyway#like ... we only see the -new cooler sonau- temple of time on the plateau but its interior doesnt match at all with the throne room#so where was all that#funny it wasnt in the same place as hyrule castle
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Thinking about....... Sun Onceler.........
#sometimes the sun is a twink and he loves you and he refuses to leave your brain apparently#he's just so fun! what if instead of knitting thneeds he spins water into clouds! and they can be anything bc they can be any shape!#i realize in hindsight i have a tendency to make characters that embody some aspect of nature and may or may not be a deity lol#so maybe the others could make an appearance! sunler playing a lyre or smth singing about them#the stars and how she knows the fate in the cards#the siblings summer wind and rain#the beast and her orchard#but of course ending with how he's totally cooler and more important than everyone else#and it turns out apollo is not only the god of the sun but also of art and music so it really fits him methinks!#i doubt i could ever pull off running an askblog. however#i like the idea of him causing mischief. oh someone wants this thing to happen? let's make it a game!#keep your friends close from epic comes to mind#i don't have much in the way of story but. there are these two scenes in my head that are SO good#i wanna talk about em so badddd but i don't wanna spoil in case i do something with em#but i will say that one of them is a really really fun reference >:D#and the line “RED IS THE NEW GOLD”#but anyways i think an important part of him is that he loves people. he loves these silly little humans running around more than anything.#because all of this ultimately stems from the idea of the sun missing you when you've been inside for a long time#wanting things to get better for you and being there to celebrate the little victories yknow?#my nonsense
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alisa was too good for nash
#from what ik#she was#i mean come on even just seeing her twice#i can tell she's so much cooler than him#tig rp#the brothers hawthorne#eve laughlin#the hawthorne brothers#the inheritance games#the final gambit#the grandest game#the hawthorne legacy#the hawthorne vault
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ok picture this. an ahura luna leer petras alecto comic set during/immediately after doti where the kids are like. Huh Haven't Heard From Mom In A While. n they gotta go figure out why gorgon isnt returning their calls and then get swept up into the Holy Shit bc they get to attilan somehow and see how completely destroyed it is. i havent thought of it much past that but cue the looking for dad typical comic. and thats whag i want for the inhumans rn. i crave a 2nd gen (? if the kids can count as that) centric comic so bad :(
#obvs alecto wouldnt be too on board. like maybe she only gets involved bc petras#or she isnt really too interested until the discovery of attilan being a bunch of rocks and bodies#alecto has a lot of potential right there especially as a critic of the typical attilan hierarchy and culture (? or like. you know.#The Known Inhumans Issues. idk how to describe it rn im tired as shit rn)#and alecto is cool and i love her and i want her back so bad i need her to be sooo mean to gorgon#she needs to make gorgon regret he was born. literally she deserves to beat him up alecto was put through so much shit#like on one hand i kind of love to imagine she made a clean break and just Does Not talk to any of them and wjll never ever again bc that is#definitely good for her and completely understandable bc HOLY SHIT.#but also i think she should kill gorgon. just a bit.#literally why did gorgon survive doti over triton. my beloved fish man is so much cooler and hotter#like hes also complicit in the Known Inhumans Issues but he also a fish#i mostly just really wanna see alecto again. but also pleaseeee i need leer and petras to have even a little bit of a personality#half of those kids have never interacted with each other!!! what!!!!#also ahura being a chaperone to a bunch of kids he absolutely despises is the funniest thing to do with him and i love that ff#did that a bit with him. bring annoyed slightly trampled applesauce BACK.#and luna is tragically underused and her powers are cool as shit and marvel PLEASE let her do something other than be 11 its been so long#ahura boltagon#luna maxmimoff#alecto petragon#petras petragon#leer inhumans#leer mander azur#? ok not actually sure how set in stone any of these last names are now that i think about it#inhumans
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EMILY AND MURPH ARE MARRIED??????
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am i letting my mother's biases cloud my opinion of this american uncle or is he actually kind of a shitty person pt 2743666887
#i mean i asked him if he eats meat and he immediately was like yeah sOrry like i would kill him for it#and he kept adding excessively defensive ass disclaimers to my aunt (his wife) when she was talking#like she was telling us about people drinking and partying and he goes “iTs nOt a bAd tHiNg” super defensively#when she never implied it was#but idk if I'm reading too much into it because of what my mom has told me#she specifically also told me not to let her views impact mine but still#apparently one time she stayed over at his place in the us with her parents and he was super bitchy about it#anyway idk this is so inconsequential why am i even making a post about this lol#he gives always trying to seem cooler than these backward ass indians vibes but that might just be me#vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com
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having a parasocial with a youtuber: normal, we all do it, inevitable after watching some videos of theirs
having a parasocial with a youtubers wife: next level sicko, being gay, never recovering
#predictably whenever mrs gooden posts im going very much hearteyes she really is cooler than him and i love her#did the mistake of following her insta and thinking 'oh it's just photos it's fine' but she looks so cute#this is however next level creepy because I think while a yter gives a conscious decision of being an online personality their so's really#have no say in it so i wont say anything about it but im. big gay for her truly#she looks so great in that reel you can really see that she's been filmed by a person who loves her and similarly her photos of drew are#so cute you can feel the love being there i think#anyway i love her so much ever since it turned out that the cooler vinyls are hers#just endless appreciation honestly i hope nobody sees this lmao
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is it too late to not make rera an only child and give her a younger brother she tormets because he just got out of his eighth grade syndrome phase?
#his name is bikki though his land of fire name is hibiki so everyone thinks rera's just giving him a nickname#he's 14/15 around shippuden time so he was in the class below the konoha 11#he's like 5'11'' already and rera's bitter that he clearly took all the height in the family#lowkey disappointed in his big sis for 'settling' as a chunin and thinks she was much cooler when she was younger#she just wants him to go back to being shorter than her
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I guess we’ll see how long it takes me to finish the third book lol. Another year?
20/558
#text#i don't remember the events of the last two books as well as the first two tbh#i do remember the pov character is older now so there's the stupid romantic plot line SNORE#the love interest is fine but like tbh#she's much cooler than the pov character and it highlights what a drag he is#like why would she possibly be interested in him is what i remember from the first time i read it
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william and mia are so cute
#arrow#7x14 rewatch#flashforward#siblings haha#william talking mia into joining him dinah roy and zoe#i like grown up zoe too#she's so much cooler than her dad
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Kim Dokja will forever be hilarious to me because of how he simply does not know what cool is and can’t help but wish he were cool like his peers who aren’t.
“oh if only I were like my hero a pro gamer who hates talking to people.”
“If only I wrote web novels”
“Shit I can’t tell my coworker I read web novels that’s embarrassing. I can tell her it’s lord of the rings that’s cool and not considered nerdy right?”
“man my coworker is so cool she doesn’t really ever talk to anyone but she has doulingo and reads history books when she’s bored. I’m not even going to try to do that I could never be that special”
like bro. You’ve got to be fucking kidding me. Every single one of those are major fucking nerds. I love you.
#He’s right about Jung Heewon tho she is cooler than him#And everyone#Hyunsung is just some dude who’s a bit slow with a huge fucking heart in the military which Dokja was also in#So like#idk if he’s jealous but if he is he’s stupid for that too#Just have so much love in your heart for everyone you meet and have big beautiful puppy dog eyes#Do love Hyunsung tho one of the characters of all time to me#Dokja is a looser we been knew#But so is everyone else a little#And I love them anyway
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every time i listen to wrecking ball by miley cyrus and remember that they got back together and even got MARRIED (they got divorced ofc but still)… that’s crazy
#when she used to perform it and be a wreck literally#she’s so much cooler than him and i don’t think he could handle it#she must have loved him so much to make that song and then find a way to love him again#but that’s the feminine experience fr 🤪
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Ok so I saw a post about Steve as a teacher letting his kids control his Spotify which means his Wrapped is All Over The Place but the top artist is Corroded Coffin and Steve finds out from the thank-you video that Eddie is hot. I see it, I love it, it’s inspired.
I’m thinking something… a little different.
“Alright, class!” Steve calls. “Marcus, it’s your turn to choose the music, right?”
“Actually, Mr. H?” Amber pipes up. “Spotify Wrapped came out today!”
Steve blinks. “Spotify… what?”
Marcus is nodding. “Spotify Wrapped! It tallies up what you’ve listened to and gives you stats and stuff. It’s cool!”
“Ah,” Steve says, nodding, squinting at his computer. “And I see that… how?”
There’s a cacophony of noise until Steve holds up a hand. Everyone quiets, and Becky holds her hand up. He nods at her. “It’s at the top,” she says softly. “Where your recently played is.”
He smiles at her. “Thank you, Becky.” He navigates to it, clicking on it and letting the graphic play.
Their genre, apparently, is soft grass indie metal. He’s entirely sure that’s made up. Their top artist, making up sixty-four percent of the music they listened to, is Corroded Coffin.
There’s a video; a little thank-you the band put together. It starts with Eddie up front, as the lead singer. Gareth, Jeff, and Freak are slightly behind him, grinning at the camera. Steve recognizes the background as Jeff’s living room. “Hi!” Eddie starts. “Thanks so much for listening to our music this year.”
“We couldn’t do what we do without you,” Gareth adds on.
“And everything we do is for you!” Jeff says.
“It’s totally metal of you to listen to our music, and we appreciate it!” Freak finishes. They all wave, and the camera cuts off.
Steve is… gobsmacked. He loves his husband, truly, but he looks so uncomfortable, and the way he’s speaking is weirdly stilted. He was not made to stand still.
He shakes his head, knowing he’s about to make Eddie’s year, and blow these kids’ minds.
Eddie had always been more vocal than Steve about coming out, saying fuck it to the consequences. Maybe being gay was accepted in the metal community, but Steve had been too new in his current job to even think about the jeopardy this could put his career in.
But honestly. That video was terrible, and his kids deserve better.
He sighs, raises a hand to get the class’s attention. “I know that was cool,” he chuckles. “But if you can be quiet and patient, I could get you something even cooler.”
“Cooler than a video from Corroded Coffin?” Nick asks.
Steve tilts his head. “Cooler than that video, at least.”
Nick doesn’t look convinced. “Are you sure?”
Steve just smiles. “How about we find out?” He puts a finger to his lips and FaceTimes Eddie.
He makes sure his volume is low, enough so that he even has trouble hearing when Eddie picks up.
“Baby!” Eddie exclaims, then clocks the background and is instantly worried. “Wait, you’re still at work. Are you okay? Is everything okay? Did you hit your head again? Do I need to come get you?”
“Christ, you’re dramatic,” Steve mutters, grinning wide. “I’m fine. I’m with my class, and we just finished looking at our Spotify Wrapped. Guess who our number one artist for the year was.”
Eddie’s eyes sparkle. He grins. Steve nods. “Corroded Coffin,” he confirms, then sighs. “I have to say, though, I was a little disappointed by the video.”
Eddie groans, throwing his head back. Steve gets a great view up his husband’s nose. “I know! I know, it sucked, but the guys were happy with it and it was, like, our eighth go, and-”
“I get it,” Steve promises. “But how would you like to one-up it?”
It takes Eddie a second, but his eyes gleam. “Are you sure? Your career-”
“Is stable enough now,” Steve finishes. “I’m sure. If you are.”
“Fuck,” Eddie mouths, conscientious of Steve’s class. “I love you.”
Steve smiles, blows a kiss to the camera. He gets a smattering of awws from some of his female students.
He figures out how to connect his phone to his computer to the screen, pushes the volume button up, and nods. “Go, Eds.”
Eddie grins and waves at the screen. “Hi, Mr. Harrington’s class! I’ve heard so much about you guys. It’s totally metal that you’re listening to our music—that’s something your teacher neglected to tell me.” He grins at the screen, a private thing for Steve, who dutifully rolls his eyes.
“I hear your music every day, Eds, forgive me if I don’t think anything of it when I hear it here and at home.”
“Mr. H,” Nathan asks in a pseudo-whisper, “how the hell do you know Eddie Munson?”
Eddie bursts out in a laugh. “You must be Nathan,” he says.
Nathan goes white, then pink. “H-hi, Mr. Munson, sir.”
“I think you should be their teacher,” Steve says, grinning first at Eddie, then his class. “I don’t think I’ve ever heard Nathan say sir before.”
Everyone laughs—including Nathan—and Eleanor raises her hand. “How do you know him?”
Steve takes a breath, glances at his phone. Eddie’s smiling patiently at him, and Steve’s own smile grows as he answers her. “I’m his husband,” he tells her.
“Ten years and counting!” Eddie crows. “Though we’ve known each other for… twenty… something.”
Steve chuckles. “Twenty-three, Eds. If you count high school, which I don’t.”
“But I do,” Eddie nods. “Twenty-three years. And counting.”
Steve chuckles again. “And counting,” he agrees.
As his room explodes into noise, he looks back at his phone to find Eddie already looking at him.
That’s the way it goes, he thinks. Eddie saw him the whole time. It took Steve a while to catch up, but now that he has, he’s never been happier.
Twenty-three years and counting, indeed.
#stranger things#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie#I don’t know what this is#it’s probably terrible#my brain didn’t want to do this#but I made it#starambles
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Touch Starved
Summary: Finally being close to Spencer makes you emotional
Request: Touch-starved Reader who hasn’t been with anyone in a while and her and Spencer get to the dating stage where they start experiencing that and she gets all emotional about it
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Fem!Reader
Category: Fluff
Content Warnings: Nervousness, cuddling, heavy kissing, happy tears
Word count: 1.1k
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The silly organ inside your ribcage didn’t calm down no matter how many deep breaths you took. It threatened to jump out of your chest even before you knocked on Spencer’s apartment door, beating so loud you could barely hear your own thoughts.
It’s just a movie night, you told yourself when you finally announced your presence with a firm knock on his door.
Of course it was more than that and you knew it. After having many wonderful conversations with him over coffee and dinner, he invited you over to watch a movie together after you mentioned you had never seen one of his favorite films.
Spencer had been the perfect gentleman on your dates, tentatively hugging you and waiting for you to initiate a kiss when you said goodbye. However, you hadn’t found the courage to actually do that so far. Brief embraces were all the physical contact you’d let happen and even those were almost too much for you to bear.
“Hi,” Spencer said with a sweet smile on his face once he opened the door.
With an even wider grin, you answered, “Hi Spencer.”
Stepping aside, he mumbled, “Come in.”
Just like on your dates before, he pulled you into an innocent hug. Even though you desperately yearned for his nearness, you were glad he let go of your body after just a second. Otherwise he would have been able to feel the erratic beating of your heart.
He helped you shed your coat before he motioned for you to take a seat on the couch. A glass of water and some snacks were placed in front of you before he plopped down beside you. You felt his eyes on you as he scanned your body language.
“I’m just a little nervous,” you awkwardly laughed before he could ask if you were okay.
Locking eyes with you, he wondered, “Why? We’re just watching a movie.”
“It’s just been a while,” you tried to explain.
He seemed confused. “Since you watched a movie?”
The way his words were laced with innocence let your heart jump. You realized that when Spencer invited you to watch a movie, he had been candid. There were no ulterior motives to be found, he’d be perfectly happy to just sit an arm’s length away from you all night if that was what you wanted.
“No,” you snickered. “Since I was alone with a man in his apartment.”
“Oh,” he said when he realized the implications of his invitation. “I uhm… that’s not what I…”
“I know,” you interrupted him. “Don’t worry.”
Your words were genuine. Spencer had made you feel so safe and comfortable unlike any man before him. The reason you were so nervous about tonight was because you knew you’d combust if you didn’t initiate physical contact soon. Every fiber of your being was craving his touch and you couldn’t wait to finally feel his lips against yours.
“Okay,” he said and turned on the TV to start the movie. “I promise, it’s really good.”
It only took a few minutes for you to be able to relax against the cushions of the couch. Halfway through the movie you started to shiver slightly as you noticed that Spencer apparently kept his apartment cooler than what you were used to. Before you could say anything, he had already noticed your discomfort.
“Here,” he said as he reached for a blanket. “You seem cold.”
Carefully, you placed the blanket over your body before you looked at the man beside you.
“What about you?” you asked as you lifted the fabric to offer him some warmth.
Without saying anything, he accepted your invitation and scooted closer to be able to place the blanket over his legs. There was barely any space left between the two of you, a fact that let your heart pound loudly inside your chest once more. You decided it was now or never and leaned against his arm.
As if it was the most natural thing in the world to him, he placed his arm around your body to pull you even closer until you were curled into his side.
“Is that okay?” He softly spoke.
“Yes, it’s perfect.”
The truth was that being close to him was mesmerizing. Breathing in his scent while basking in his warmth clouded your mind and you felt like you could get drunk on the sensation. When Spencer began gently brushing his fingertips along your arm, your entire body started trembling ever so slightly.
It was almost embarrassing how intense your reaction was to his touch but you couldn’t help it. Your current position only let you be satisfied for a few minutes until you craved even more of him. It became impossible to hold back any longer. Sitting up beside him, you caught his attention. He loosened the hold he had on you to allow you to move while he found your eyes.
“Is everything okay?”
“No,” you said with a playful smirk spread over your face. “I really want to kiss you.”
“Yeah?” he cooed. “I would like that, too.”
Trembling fingertips found his jaw to brush over his skin before you leaned closer, gently nudging his nose with yours. His breath felt hot against your lips in this moment of anticipation. When he finally closed the remaining distance, a relieved sigh escaped your throat and was muffled by his mouth on yours.
Feeling his soft lips against yours broke any restraint you had. You kissed him with a fervor that knocked the air out of his lungs, even more so when you climbed into his lap, not allowing any space between your bodies. He welcomed you on top of him without hesitation, his hands flying to your hips to pull you even closer.
Your hands found the nape of his neck, intertwining your fingers with his hair to tug on his curls every so slightly. With your chest pressed against his you could feel the erratic pounding of not only your heart but his as well. It was as if the two organs were trying to make contact with their counterpart hidden underneath all these layers of fabric, skin and bones.
Spencer whined and tried to pull back for air but you didn’t let him. Feverishly, you kept kissing him until a saline taste found its way into your mouth.
“Hey, what’s wrong,” he breathed as he leaned back, concern laced over his voice.
His hands moved to your face, wiping salty droplets off your cheeks. You hadn’t even realized you had been crying and began giggling as you rubbed the tears away from your lashes.
“Sorry,” you sighed. “I’m just so happy to be close to you.”
“So they are happy tears?” Spencer asked and you nodded.
“I know it’s silly, it’s just been so long since I’ve been close to anyone,” you confessed.
“It’s not silly,” he softly spoke. That was when you noticed the glimmering in his eyes. “I’m very happy to be close to you, too.”
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Actually sorry coming back to this to amend it a bit bc I had a late realization. I think Marcille absolutely sees herself as an elf, just a unique kind of elf, and that plays into why she's not actually that bothered about it. The crucial thing to remember is that being half-elf definitely makes her completely unlike other tallmen, but being half-tallman doesn't seem to make her less of an elf, functionally speaking. Again, impossibly long lifespan, big ears (even if they're slightly different), and the highest capacity for mana and precise magic among all the different races.
And that actually. Makes her line about elf supremacy being embarrassing SO funny to me. She's really like... She has all the elf features that supposedly make them superior, and she really just doesn't think it's All That. She legit thinks it's so cringe that other elves are so hoity toity about it bc she also can do everything they can do and it's like... It's not that big of a deal oh my god stop,
do you have any particular thoughts regarding marcille being a half-elf? its interesting to me considering the fact that she seems self-conscious about being a half-elf, but denies it when its brought up
i remember marcille looking visibly uncomfortable over laios simply asking her how old she is, which i think the only reason she might feel nervous about this is because it might reveal her as a half-elf to him.
she's never corrected anybody whose called her an elf either.
never mind the circumstances of the reveal, in which thistle goes on about how half-elves are inferior and accusing her of wanting to become full blooded elf, she seemed particularly upset like he struck a nerve-
i wish the half-elf thing was built upon more. also, underrated marcille line:
okay so i revisited this sequence just to make sure I could back myself up and it's just... man. there's a lot going on.
the first reaction we get from Marcille is this huge panel that takes up half of the page
she is viscerally affected. flushing to the tips of her ears with the intensity of it. and we see it again, a few pages later
so it might seem like she's embarrassed about it and lying to herself, but... I really think it's just that Thistle is accidentally hitting sore spots. If you really look at what he says to get these reactions
"you'll live out your entire life [...] and die that way too"
"a hundred years from now, nobody will be there"
Hear me out. I think, if he stuck to harping on about her inferiority without bringing up how terrifyingly long-lived she is, she wouldn't have been as bothered. But right now, Thistle is accidentally hitting all the marks on Marcille's deepest fears-- and this is after the Winged Lion promised her that her dreams could come true in an extremely vulnerable moment, so it also hits her slightly guilty conscience as well.
I do truly believe that Marcille isn't bothered about being a half-elf the way that people assume she'd be bothered by it. To her, the biggest problem with being a half-elf is that it's isolating.
On one hand, it's not hard to imagine why she'd distance herself from elves in the west. A lot of them can clock her as a half-elf on sight, unlike other races, and therefore she's always branded with this weird stigma of being Othered -- I would even say that she considers herself lucky for being born outside of elven culture instead of having to grow up in it. I mean, just... look at the way elves talk about her.
Skipping past the uncomfortable implication of what 'not tolerating the existence' of half-elves would actually entail, this is incredibly fucking annoying. You can see why she wouldn't want to be around elves much. You see a lot of Marcille reacting badly here, but honestly, almost all of it can be attributed to her freaking out that her bluff completely failed. She's honestly more paying attention to Izutsumi's footsteps and trying to coordinate an opportunity to escape.
And in the end, you see her built-up frustration at being asked if she wants to be a full-blooded elf like 2-3 times in a row.
Yeah, yeah, "the lady doth protest too much," and all. But we know Marcille. We know that she's a lot more embarrassed and horrendously unconvincing when she's being prodded about something she's actually self-conscious about.
Moving onto the flipside of things, it might seem weird that she "pretends" to be a full elf around other races, but it's not really that strange if you think about it. Again, people are weird about her being infertile or whatever, and a lots of them don't even know much about what sets half-elves apart from everyone else. I mean, look at how uncomfortable Laios is just asking her about it
and look at how exasperated and resigned she looks
And like... she's right. Where would that come up in normal conversation? Why would she go out of her way to tell them? She's functionally a normal elf to other races anyway -- got the ears, the abnormally long "childhood", and the huge mana capacity. Unless it's directly relevant or important for people to know, I don't think it's all that strange or indicative of insecurity that she prefers not to bother with it.
(This combined with her sense of being an "outsider" to elf culture also explains why she thinks elf superiority is embarrassing. She sees the way elves treat short-lived races from the "outsider" perspective nonetheless, and thinks it's obnoxious; especially more so because she usually has to play the elf around short-lived races and deal with the reputation of arrogance that elves have built up.)
The sad thing is, this all means that... she doesn't actually fit in anywhere. She doesn't like going out West much because of how elves treat her. But she's also an outsider in the continents she was born in, treated like this exotic long-lived alien choosing to live among short-lived races for some reason. She is always an outsider, the Other, no matter where she goes. Add in the fact that she'll live longer than literally anyone she knows, and it's honestly kind of heartbreaking.
And I think that's the crux of it. Marcille really doesn't act like she's at all self-conscious about being a half-elf because of any feelings of inferiority or being half-made or whatever. She considers herself a perfectly legitimate being and might even, in some ways, consider herself superior to normal elves because she's not blind with elf supremacy or whatever. (And whatever "elven biases" she displays, all of them are born more out of the fact that she's kind of bad at conceptualizing how other races age and mature compared to herself, not that she actually considers herself better or more mature simply for being an elf.)
I think that whatever self-consciousness Marcille has about being a half-elf is, instead, related to terror and loneliness. The reminder that it ensures she'll never truly belong anywhere for the rest of her very long life. The reminder that, in truth, even she's not actually sure how old she is by other races' standards (hence the discomfort when asked how old she is). She doesn't want to not be a half elf, or be a full elf or full tall-man-- in her ideal world, she's still a half-elf. She just gets to live out her life at the same pace with the people she loves and doesn't have to say goodbye again and again and again until she dies.
and one last very important panel, right after Mithrun tells her that all her desires would be devoured
In her ideal world, she's still a half-elf and reality magically starts marching at her pace. But failing that, the second best thing is that she's still a half-elf-- but one who is able to accept reality and let go of her fear.
(But the rest of the story pans out the way it does because, to Marcille, taking reality apart and reshaping it was less scary than simply and fully reconciling with it.)
#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#marcille donato#shes so real for that actually#yknow what i wouldnt be surprised in the least if she actually had like#a 'not like other elves' superiority complex where she secretly thinks shes cooler than normal elves#anyway i do love that despite her toxic orc racism#she respects other races' magical abilities for what they are so much#like you never hear her saying a single bad word about gnome magic#its just a different methodology to her#and she respects falin as a mage so much despite being an older and more powerful spellcaster#you see it in how much she praises laios too#like#hes a total beginner and she gets that. not once is she condescending about it#just strict when teaching him#dunmeshi panel meta#marcilleposting
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