#she was like 'idk im just around theater people a lot i guess' HE IS! HE'S DOING SHAKESPEARE RN!!!

[corvidaedream]

a coworker (who is also a neurodivergent lesbian like me) who comes to me for advice a lot was asking me about one of the guys at work i hang out w bc shes been hearing rumors about him being "violent" outside of work that were making her nervous

(i assume this rumor is the end result of the original story of how he broke his jaw in bar fight a couple years back, which he didn't start, these things just happen sometimes at the kinda sports bars he goes to, and i suspect i know the source of the less savory version of the story that she heard, but the guy i suspect quit last week so...)

and while i was trying to be like "hey, idk where you heard that, but outside work he's in my roommate's curse of strahd campaign, and watches basketball, he's extremely normal"

she was like, "idk he just gives off straight neurotypical guy vibes, and i dont like that. i know hes not those things, but like. he still kinda is."

and im just fucking baffled, like i didnt know how to respond. i kinda just gave some half-assed well, sometimes its just safer to present like that for some people and thats his business

but like ???????!!!!!!

[yesimadeanotherblogfuckoff]

GO S2 OPENING ANALYSIS PT 1 (also Potential GO spoilers idk)

I haven't really seen anyone go in depth on the opening for season two yet so I'm making to this to point out all the things i spotted and some theories this is SUPER LONG POST SO BE WARNED

Crowley crawls up while Aziraphale floats down which is fitting but there's also storm clouds in the distance so there might be a scene after the flood or it's a sign of impending doom

right after crowley and aziraphale go through that dark tunnel Gabriel(?) can be spotted with that infamous box

they're in the middle of a scorched village and crowley sets goats on fire which pretty much confirms that they are somehow going to be involved with the story of Job if not directly involved

here we have that Gabriel statue from the trailer and a gravestone with "EVERYDAY" written on it, the reoccurring song that somehow related to the mystery

here's another gravestone with something written on it, this was the best photo i could get and i tried lightening it but i can't figure out what it says so if anyone has any ideas feel free to share

gravestone with jane austen on it, this author has been referenced quite a bit from the info we have about s2 so far and is on the cover for the episode "The Ball" so looking forward to that

"HERE LIES THE FORMER SHELL OF BEELZLEBUB" so i guess that's Neil's explanation for them having a different actor? Beelzebub molted? gross but very creative

also im pretty sure that bottom one says "Here Lies ADAM" as in antichrist Adam? oh man i hope he isn't dead he was such a sweet kid

there's a guillotine in the far back during their walk through hell hope that isn't foreshadowing anything 0-0

they also have this office on a pillar above the fiery pit of hell which i find very funny but this could also maybe be related to Shax? where she used to work maybe??

a sign for an underground train station so i guess we'll be expecting a train station scene of some kind?

the group walks through this gate with "GENTS" at the top no idea what that implys but i'll put it here anyways

there's a "WINGS FOR VICTORY" sign on the side of this bus which is a reference to British saving campaigns during WWII so confirms more WWII era stuff with aziraphale and crowley

there is this poster for STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN and my first thought was the LED ZEPPLIN song but actually it's a reference this 1946 movie

in which a British wartime aviator who cheats death must argue for his life before a celestial court, hoping to prolong his fledgling romance with an American girl

so thats INTERESTING and COOL and totally doesn't imply ANYTHING about aziraphale and crowley's relationship or (potentially) maggie and nina's

but there is also a Zeppelin (it looks more like a blimp but whatever) and later on they go into a theater which looks very similar to the album cover for Stairway to Heaven

so I'm not gonna rule it out

there's a poster that says "THE FABULOUS LADIES OF CAMELOT" which is probably the group name of the show girls we saw in the trailer it says they are performing at the Windmill Theatre in London which is real and very famous for its Windmill girls who performed as nude living statues

i think this box is part of that saw a person in half trick and i can't wait to see Aziraphale attempt this trick and miserably fail like he always does, lot of laughs for sure

here's aziraphale on stage in his magician's outfit from the trailer but crowley is there as well so maybe he's his assistant? if so thats super funny and explains why crowley is not a fan of his magic act later on

very cute moment of crowley and aziraphale twirling around each other in the stars (this could be a nod to that moment that people spoiled for the first two episodes will know what im talking about )

this bridge they're walking on could potentially be the Humber Bridge near Kingston upon Hull, East Riding of Yorkshire, England (?)

or just a random ass bridge lol i do love to theorize tho

this airplane has "THY KINGDOM AIRWAYS" on its side very funny gag

these cotton candy hearts appear to be raining from the sky which im not sure what that implies but this season is focusing more on romance so it fits (also crowley and azira sitting together on the roof cute <3)

here we have maggie's record shop and nina's cafe right next to each other with record banners on the street, maybe a promotional party for the store? there's also a jukebox with records stacked in front of it. there's a promotional image of aziraphale holding everyday on vinyl (that i can't find sorry) so maybe he's gonna use this jukebox to play it?

i believe this is Gabriel(?) holding the package and going down an elevator from Heaven so he wasn't lying about needing to deliver something to Aziraphale something must've happened to him on his way over

one of the group is holding a sign for the "The 2nd Coming" as in the second coming of Jesus Christ?

A bar called The Dirty Donkey, new location for aziraphale and crowley to dine at? there's a smaller sign there but it's impossible to read HOWEVER

it looks like a holy figure standing in front of the opening of a cave, maybe an angel? considering the clothing maybe Jesus Christ?

I'm at my limit for photos so I will continue this in my next post!

(edit: here's the link for pt 2)

[ham-sandwich-lol]

Ya know that one post that says “ASK ME” and it’s an ask game?? I triple dog dare you to answer all how ever many questions from that post..

I WAS LOWKEY WAITING FOR THIS

OH BOY

HERE I GO

based off this post ;)

1. the last person i texted would be my mum, so it would be something along the lines of "whats going on now?"

2. i haven't kissed anyone other than my parents, and my dad's a bitch soooo

3. i honestly wouldn't. as long as it doesn't hurt them

4. nope

5. uhhh sober? im a minor and i haven't kissed anyone outside of my family..

6. y e p

7. uhhh "Thank you for texting Crisis Text Line. The Crisis Counselor has closed the conversation. You matter."

we don't talk about that

8. last person was my mum, so idk

9. my kitchen

10. don't have a sister

11. water

12. i just woke up.. in my bed.. so

13. they are

14. no, if im being honest

15. no

16. right now? sunny, it's the beginning of pride month!! but im a rain person

17. A LOT OF PEOPLE

18. sweatpants rn

19. maybe..?

20. i don't know, and if they do..? i also don't know how to respond to that-

21. nope

22. no

23. Y E S he's name is nicky and istg i might just kill him sometime soon-

24. maybe something small wouldn't hurt no one.. except maybe me ofc HAHAHA

25. i cried yesterday because i couldn't bring my inhaler to work.. so HEY MAN IT WAS FIELD DAY AT THE SCHOOL AND I COULD DIE

26. i saw my dog last, and she's a... mutt?

27. inside the shower

28. no

29. not really..

30. yeah

31. i just woke up, so idk yet!

32. ive seen it everywhere, and honestly? no

33. warm 100%

34. ...yeah

35. a relationship 100%

36. both at once HEHEHE

37. hermit the frog - marina

38. depends on the person and what im apologizing for

39. y e s

40. i don't know actually. he's just really nice

41. last night, 1:03 am

42. my allergies are killing me

43. i was literally inside the last female i texted what do you think- (IT WAS MY MOTHER OK DONT TAKE THAT THE WRONG WAY)

44. yes, ain't saying who

45. n o-

46. i guess?

47. my brother

48. BLU

49. yea..

50. not atm

51. yeah, actually.

52. a few times, actually

53. Y E S

54. no

55. YEP AND I DONT REGRET IT

56. YES

57. i think??? im really antisocial around new people..

58. depends.. are they a bitch?

59. NO WHAT IM LITERALLY SINGLE IM NOT

60. my phone, and my inhaler

61. HELL YEAH I LOVE HAUNTED HOUSES

62. i probably could

63. no

64. I'D PROBABLY GO INTO SPASMS IF HE DID THAT

65. to me? no. to LITERALLY EVERYONE AROUND ME? yes..

66. uhhh my mum, she's 47 i think

my dad is 48

and my grandma (i think) is 68

67. i don't do my nails-

68. i have no idea deadass

69. HAHA NICE anyways, no

70. uhh idk?

71. im on an android rn so

72. i can't remember.. ummm.. maybe 2-3 months ago?

73. i don't like soda actually

74. a beige... ish.. i wanna paint over them..

75. i don't want to say that yet

76. no..?

77. i babysit, so does that count?

78. ....E.G.G...

79. omfg YES AND IT WAS SO BAD

80. nope

81. i don't have Facebook

82. the first person would probably be my mum... so what do ya think?

83. definitely my mother

84. i used to do gymnastics, but then i tore something, and little me had an irrational fear if it

85. i haven't been to the theaters since the beginning of the COVID shit, so i think the last movie i saw was Frozen 2

86. n o

87. flip flops, but i never wear any other shoes other than sneakers, and if the occasion is special, idk then maybe i'll see if my mums shoes fit me

88. yes

89. its usually wavy, so i guess straight?

90. i have, but my parents didn't care

91. pool ngl

92. no..?

93. n o???

94. im single????

95. drawing (no i wasn't just doing that i was texting the crisis hotline but we don't talk about that-)

96. memorial day

97. i do!

98. no

99. no? im a minor? i don't drink??

100. im friends with people irl that i hate, so that counts (also i don't have Facebook??)

101. N O????

102. probably "blow"

103. not atm, im really pale and i don't get tan easily

104. i haven't done it... yet

[purplesurveys]

1115

survey by vintagekid

Name:  Robyn.

Happy with it? I am now, but I certainly wasn’t as a kid. Other kids were cruel and would tease me solely for my name, which made it hard for me to socialize. I got the same bad Batman jokes too many times and I also got called a boy. These seem petty now, but as a kindergartener adjusting to life in school, it had been traumatizing and made me wonder if my classmates were going to remain the way they were for the long run which no 4-year-old should be mulling about, really.

Do you wear stilettos? When I get the chance, which isn’t very often at all. But I do love stilettos.

How important are looks to you? I find this question very vague, but generally looks matter to me to a certain extent, like how I’d want to look nice and proper for a job interview or for formal occasions such as weddings. Relationship-wise, I also think I have to feel a level of physical attraction towards someone for me to consider seeing them.

How often do you download music? I don’t anymore. I stream all my music.

Can you name a philosopher? Socrates.

What would you do if two unicorns tried to whisk you off to candy mountain? I just looked this up and this is apparently in reference to an ancient viral video, like it was around before viral videos were even a universally-acknowledged concept. That said, I don’t have a clue how to respond to this lmao.

You became the deciding vote in an election, which party would you go for? I don’t base my voting decisions on parties because the party system in my country is a tragically broken shitstorm in which every single party rallies the same values and principles, just executed in their own – and usually poor and unsustainable – ways. I do my research on each candidate, see how they answer in debates, look at laws they’ve authored, see which marginalized groups they proactively support (if they do), and decide from there.

Do you have a bzoink account? I don’t but I’ve been a semi-regular visitor since like 2009.

How many phone calls do you typically make in a day? Zero. People usually call me.

What song are you listening to? Tell Me It’s Okay by, surprise surprise, Paramore.

Do you understand things others your age do not? I don’t know. Maybe. Everyone’s bound to understand some things better than others.

Do you hate people that label themselves? Why would I hate that? And why would their chosen label be my business?

How many windows do you have open? None. There’s plenty of mosquitoes at night, so even though the cold evening air would been pleasant to have we have to keep the windows closed by nighttime.

How superstitious are you? Not at all.

If you were in Harry Potter, which house would you be in? I’ve been told either Gryffindor or Ravenclaw.

Which comedian can always crack you up? It’s not a habit of mine to watch comedians.

Are you nagged about being on the computer too much? Not since I was a teenager. Since college I’ve been doing most of my work, if not all of it, through my laptop, and I think my parents understand that I have to use it all the time.

Do you feel bad about anything you've done lately? Nothing comes to mind, no.

What's your texting bill typically like? My SIM is prepaid, so it works the other way around. I put load credits in it only if I know I’ll have to call/text/surf regularly.

What song did you/do you want played at your wedding? Turning Page by Sleeping At Last.

Do you have a lot or hardly any lines on your palms? Idk, a decent amount I guess? I don’t think it hits either extreme.

What's your favourite word? Poignant.

Are you allowed to swear in front of your parents? Yeah. They’ll shoot me a glare sometimes, but I’m in my 20s and...they know they can’t really do anything about it anymore lol.

Do you eat apples? No.

What are your addictions? Coffee, I suppose.

What are some words you use in daily life? I use intensifiers often, like very, really, super, absolutely, etc. I’m also big on expressions hahaha like oh my god, seriously, for real, and ugh.

Do you look things up on Google constantly? Yes.

Where do you get your music from? Spotify. Sometimes YouTube if I wanna look for a leak.

What do you think of people with afros? That they are people with afros...? I don’t really know what you’re looking for me to say, lmfao.

--

survey by charey-chas

Do you like getting your picture taken? Not for the most part. My body instantly gets all frozen and awkward when a camera’s placed in front of me, which I hate because I do wish I could have more photos of myself around. Is your phone anywhere near you? It is not, actually. It feels great and I really should start making it a habit to keep it away from me entirely on weekends. Do you ever enjoy going to school? In my first school, I enjoyed going mainly (and probably only) for my friends; but Catholic school was predominantly a torturous experience. The rigidity isn’t something I look back fondly on, and it felt like being kept on a tight leash for 14 years. College was a lot more enjoyable in every way possible. I liked going to (most of) my classes and learning as much as I loved the vibrant org culture and the general freedom that comes with university life. Have you ever gone on a road trip? Lots. The Philippines is a relatively small country and unless you want to jump to a different island altogether, there are many provinces you can readily travel to by car.  Who do you get along with best in your family?  Nina, my sister. Then my dad. I clash a lot with my mom and I don’t talk to my brother. Based on your personality, what animal do you think you'd be? Cats and I don’t get along very well hahaha but I think I’m similar to them. Would you ever buy anything from an infomercial? Maybe once, just to be able to say that I have. Have you ever made a snow angel? No, because I’ve never seen snow before. Have you stayed in a hotel in the last month? No. We had a brief getaway in Tagaytay but we switched things up and went to rent a condo, instead of book a hotel room, for a weekend. What's your most comfortable outfit? If I want to go for comfortable, I usually go for my rompers or jumpsuits. Do you text or IM more? IM these days. Would you rather listen to music or play it? Listen. I have no music-playing skills whatsoever. Have you ever been in a hot tub? Sure. Do you like pizza? LOVE IT Are you sleeping in your own bed tonight? Yes. If not here, the couch. But most likely it will my bed tonight. Are any of your friends having a sleepover right now? I doubt it. Angela and Hans had an overnight stay in Batangas a few days ago for their Valentine’s shenanigans though, which I guess kinda counts as a sleepover. Have you ever been to a house party? I don’t think so. That’s something I missed out on in my college days, but I don’t mind. Do you listen to your iPod or the radio when you're in the car? I think I keep a good balance. If my phone’s battery is not very high I’ll rely on the radio; and sometimes I’ll sync my phone’s Spotify to the car as well.

--

survey by charey-chas

What song is stuck in your head at the moment? RAVI’s BUM. What's your fathers' middle name? He doesn’t have a second name, but I’m not sharing his legal middle name on here either. How many hours a day do you spend on the computer? On work days, I’d say 8-10 hours. On weekends, maybe a little slightly less than that since I do like getting off the laptop sometimes to rest my eyes. Could you live without the internet? People from the past managed to live without it, so I know I can. It would just be extremely inconvenient; and having been dependent on it for such a long time now, I would likely be clueless on how to navigate most activities. What's something you're really into? Learning about cultural differences!! That’s why reading survey answers has always been fascinating to me. I would love a website that dives into the various everyday behavior people observe in other countries, but the ones that do exist use like 20- or 30-year-old sources, so they aren’t even relevant at all anymore. What's the last movie you saw in theaters? Knives Out. Have you ever seen a movie in 3D or in an IMAX theater? Just once. It was Denise and Leigh’s 18th birthday treat and they brought us to watch Doctor Strange in 3D. Do you prefer skirts, shorts, or skorts? Shorts. Have you ever vandalized? Just a few school chairs in grade school, but otherwise I’m too paranoid for vandalism lol. What's the longest you've stayed up? Maybe a little longer than 24 hours. Who'd you have a sleepover with last? Gabie. When's the last time you baked something? Nearly a decade ago. Our oven was new at the time and I wanted to try baking cookies. Do you like to dance? When I’m alone. Do you scratch mosquito bites, even though you're not supposed to? Yup. Are you afaid of spiders or do you like them? I mean I’m not fond of them, but I also don’t scream and run away when I see them. I just don’t care for them for the most part. What's a pet you've always wanted? I’ve only ever wanted dogs, and now I’ve got two of them. Do you like mice? Not really. Would you ever get a tattoo? Sure. I’ve been considering it for a while now; it’s just a matter of being able to save up for one. Do you prefer to walk in the street or on the sidewalk? Street, if it’s bare and safe enough. Otherwise if I’m in a busy city with regulations and all I’d obviously rather be on the sidewalk. What's your favorite t-shirt? My CM Punk Best in the World merch. Who did you last think about? I remembered Deina when I was thinking about the tattoo question. She got a pawprint tattoo on her wrist shortly before her senior dog passed away and ever since learning about it I’ve also been thinking about getting the same tattoo. Do you like giving hugs? I love giving hugs and it’s an automatic response for me whenever I see someone I love, which is why Covid is such a torture for me. Do you prefer hardwood flooring or carpeting? Hardwood. Did you/will you get a car for your 16th birthday? No. I got a car when I was 17, around six months before I started college. Have you ever eaten a worm? No but I’d be willing to try.

[vampire-christ]

friends

i only have 2 friends, well 3 including my cousin. its not a problem, they are good friends too. i used to have more it just became distant or i just stopped talking to them because they did something. the last friends i had were some from middle school. we became distant once we got to high school because we had no classes together and then they all went to another school. we tried to keep in touch by hanging out, but i always felt left out. there was 3 of them and one of me. they all were closer to each other than i was with them. eventually it just became them hanging out with me just to smoke my shitty weed and leave me in the corner. and that was also at a really low point in my life it hurt seeing them, knowing they didnt really want to hang out with me, but to smoke. so i dropped them and ive been better without them. they were my old irl friends. so when i was at school i would just walk around the building for fun, or go in the library and work on all my school work. i had another friend at school but idk it wasnt like deep friendship, like we only hung out at lunch cus we had it together. i also dropped her because she wasnt really good friend, or i guess she was, she just had too many friends and hung out with too many people around me. not saying i didnt like her having other friends, i just dont like being in groups. so thats when i started going to the library more, or going on walks.

i had a good friend tho. she was always a good friend to me. i feel like i didnt return that though. when i first moved to a new middle school, she was my first friend. we hung out a lot. but i met new friends, the ones who would later use me for my drugs, and i stopped hanging out with her. i feel so guilty for treating her like that. i did it again sophomore year. it was the first time ive seen her since middle school. every other day we had english and lunch together. that year was a bad one for me but at least i had her. some days were bad and i would be able to go and cry to her. in english we always sat next to each other. and then one day we had seat changes and i got sat with a new group of people. we had one open spot at our table and i told her sit with me. the new people were funny too. pretty sure they were seated with me because i was the quiet kid and they were the bad kids.. but one of their friends was separated from the group and some days he took my friends spot. he was a funny guy too but he didnt really like my friend. it eventually became that guy always sitting there instead of her. i felt like i replaced her again. me and the girl always went to lunch together, even if she didnt sit with me. she was a really good friend. we always walked around the school together or went to the library. or we sat in the stairwell in the basement next to the theater and music rooms. we would watch house shows lol. and it was always just us two, which was good cus i hate being around too many people. we always had fun together. i feel so bad for using her. idk if its using her, just replacing her. she was always good friend to me..

its hard making new friends. i rarely text first when it comes to new people. and some people just make me uncomfortable and i ghost them. kinda shitty thing to do. idk. its just hard for me. i only like a few people in my life. a lot of people just annoy me and make me mad. hate people who get offended over stupid shit. sometimes i can be rude but just as a joke, and my friends know its a fucking joke. people get me mad. that why i dont like talking to new people too. well.. i guess i like meeting new people but little things aggravate me and i guess im being a little hypocritical. but i dont really care. i dont care about a lot of shit but i also care abt stupid shit. but isnt everyone like that?.. dunno.

[stevesharrlngtons]

120 steve

he’s pampering me, let him be 

not a shot for shot scene (bc u know im not a fan), but may hold slight spoilers for those who haven’t finished st3 yet. but it’s kinda an au? idk, but i hope you enjoy lmao

you were getting sick and fucking tired of coming so close to your death. you were far too young to have seen what you had, experience the trauma that had been dished your way, and have to live forever with the knowledge of interdimensional creatures out for blood.  

and as you sat now in the starcount food court, with blood caked skin, a throbbing headache and the knowledge of possessions, russian spies and more upside down bullshit, you longed deeply for a time when wondering if steve would like your new lip color was your biggest problem. that’s what mattered, not hoping that you would evade monsters and live to see the next day.  

everything just kept happening so fast. in ‘83 it felt like days. in ‘84, weeks. now, you swore you, robin, steve, dustin and erica had been fighting for months, years even. you had to remind yourself continually that it was only friday, and not months in the future. two days ago steve had planned a date for the two of you. nothing fancy, just a movie and burgers at the drive in, but you had been looking forward to it. you had been looking forward to a night off. you were supposed to be swapping spit with your boyfriend in the back of a movie theater, not listening to chief hopper and dustin play rapid catch up on the newest threats.  

you gnawed at your thumb nail, letting your mind go blank and take a rest. you weren’t sure when you’d be privy to another calm moment like this. it needed all the time it could get.

you stayed in your blissfully unaware bubble until you felt a tap on your shoulder. thumb still resting on your lips, you glanced up to see one of the men who had come in with hopper looming over you.

when he saw he caught your attention, he shook his hand at you gently. he held a damp handkerchief and was montioning to your blood covered knees.

“oh, um thank you.” you offered a sweet smile as you gingerly took the handkerchief from the man, who grinned when you took it.

he then turned to the other tag along, muttered in words you could now recognized as russian and looked back to you, smile still intact.

“he says to tell him if you need anything else.” the man informed you.

“uh, alright. tell him thank you?” you breathed an uncomfortable laugh as your eyes darted between the two strange men.

“она говорит спасибо.”

she says thank you.

his grin only widened.

“i don’t think i caught your name, either of you.” you looked between both of them again.

“murray bauman,” he extended his hand which you took, “and this is alexei.”

“(y/n) (y/l/n), it’s a pleasure. though, i wish it weren’t under less threatening circumstances.” you said with a charismatic lit to your voice.

murray relied your words in russian as you shook alexei’s hand, who placed his free hand on the back of your hand clasped in his.

“удовольствие все мое.”

the pleasure is mine.

with him still holding you hand, you glanced over to murray, your smile staying put as to not tip alexei off on your slight discomfort.

“he says the pleasure is all his.”  

“quite the charmer.” you demurely dipped your head.

“она сказала, что ты очаровательный.”

she says you’re charming.

“она очаровательная.” alexei replied almost instantly, a slight blush dusting his cheeks.

murray chuckled, “he says you’re the charming one.”

“did he flirt with joyce this much?” you prompted, turning back to rid the blood from your knees.

“that was jim’s prerogative.” murray scoffed, and you laughed.

“well, it is nice to know that i am the least bit alluring in this state. i feel like i’ve been hit by a truck.”

alexei’s eyes were ping ponging between you and murray as you spoke out of his native tongue.

“так?“

so?

“она польщена твоим флиртом.”

she is flattered by your flirting.

alexei didn’t reply, but his bashful look said it all.

while you cleaned, alexei flirted and murray translated, steve stood watching it all from a far. his eyes narrowed as he watched you laugh and reply back to whatever murray had just said. the russian asshole he was with was giving you some looks steve didn’t approve of. this green feeling wasn’t unfamiliar territory for steve, but he didn’t think he’d be experiencing it here and now, of all times.

you were naturally appealing and attractive to others, you exuded it. people were drawn to you, adored and worshipped you when your orbit caught them. you couldn’t turn it off, couldn’t push people away, no matter the situation. but right now, steve wished you could.

“aye, what do you think they’re talkin’ about?” steve elbowed robin and tipped his chin over to where you sat.

robin observed the scene for a moment before speaking.

“if i had to guess? russian doctor dude is trying to butter up your girl. i can tell from here he’s flirting hard core.”

steve didn’t need any more encouragement than that to stalk across the food court toward to three of you. when he arrived, steve joined in on the laughter, his obviously forced and angry.

“wow, what’s so funny over here? didn’t think the end of the world would be a laughing matter.” steve practically berated.

“well, we were actually just making light of this situation. we’ve done this before, baby. y’know if we get to in our heads, we crumble.” you reached up to take steve’s hand in yours hoping it would calm him, but his resolve only hardened.

“yeah, yeah, yeah, cool, cool, cool. so, shitbag soviet over here ain’t bothering you?” steve glared daggers into a very confused alexei.

“oh, goodey. another man in this group incapable of expressing their insecurities in a constructive way.” murray chimed in sarcastically.

“the fuck you just say?” steve took a step forward and puffed out his chest at murray’s comment. sadly, only proving murray’s point further.

you quickly turned around to the two men behind you and kept a death grip on your boyfriend’s hand.  

“murray, darling. alexei,” he perked up at the mention of his name, “can you both go grab me a cup of ice and something to eat? i’m starved.”

“она попросила лед и еду.” murray relayed.

she asked for ice and food.

“женский мальчик ее разозлил?” alexei asked, worried.

did the feminine boy make her angry?

“нет, что-то говорит мне, что она много занимается этим.” murray snorted a laugh before leading alexei off to find what you requested.

no, i have a feeling she deals with this a lot.

“what? what did they say about me?” steve craned his neck to watch them leave.

“sorry, i didn’t become fluent in russian since the last time i saw you.” you replied.

“well, i know it was about me. commie assholes.” he cursed.

you slapped his leg, “hey! what the hell?”

“those commie assholes are helping us figure this shit out. don’t be an a dick.”

“you’re only saying that because he’s kissing your ass.” steve muttered as he flexed his jaw.

“can’t get mad at him for something you love to do too, harrington.” you shot him a smile.

he looked at you and rolled his eyes, why did your smile have to be so cute? could you stop being so cute for five fucking seconds?

“whatever, it’s still annoying. even robin could tell how thick he was laying it on with you.” steve grimaced, coming to sit next to you.

“he’s pamering me, let him be.” you sighed and rested your temple against his shoulder. as you did, steve slung his arm around you.

“i should be pampering you. not that fuckin’ babushka.” steve brought you closer to him, reveling in your closeness and satiating his protective instinct.

somehow after a day of running from russians, being tortured and sweating from pure fear, you still smelled amazing. god, he hated how perfect you were sometimes.

“let him. let’s me conserve my energy for when i pamper you after this is all over.” you lifted your head briefly to press a kiss to his cheek.

“if we get out of this.”

“we will. this is all gonna work out.”

steve wasn’t so sure. there was still so much that could go wrong. the obstacles were rising and viable plans were dwindling. billy was out there with his army of flayed, ready and waiting to kill them all, and their one weapon was weak and acting faulty. but, steve wasn’t going to let himself be cynical. like you said, you had done this before, side by side and won. so what was a third time? what was the saying? third time’s the charm? he could only hope that applied now.

but in case it didn’t, steve memorized this moment with you. curled to his chest, smelling like fresh air and wild flowers.

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It’s All Too much THxreader

idk where i was going with this. just had an idea in my head where the reader tried to watch Cherry but had to stop bc it was too much and Tom comforting her afterwards. its a mess but full of fluff. 

warnings: none, its all fluff, mentions of Cherry sex/drug use but no spoilers, its not bad i promise, no editing, bad writing, im sorry

word count: 1524 tagging; @starksparker @delicatetom @spooky-starks @heyhihellowhatsup0 @osterfield-holland-andcompany @worldoftom @peterplanet @hazshauntedbelle @hoforhaz @angelic-holland @angelhaz11

You never been more proud of Tom. Out of all the projects and movies he’s has done, this one, Cherry, is what you were most excited to see. It was nothing like he’s ever done before and you hyped to see him on screen.

“Ready, darling?” Tom asked as you double checked your reflection in the mirror to make sure your make up was perfect.

“Yep!” you replied with an extra kick.

Tom reached out for your hand, smiling. “You look beautiful, y/n. You’re not trying to upstage me at my own movie premiere are you?”

You shrugged playfully. “Eh, maybe.”

Tom laughed as you two left your apartment. Tom held you close, kissing your cheek in which you scolded. “Tom! I don’t want you messing up my makeup!”

“Sorry, love, I couldn’t resist.”

You rolled your eyes. “My face is off limits till we get home.”

Your boyfriend pouted. “But y/n-”

“No buts.”

“Least lemme kiss your lips, darling?”

You shook your head. “Lipstick.”

He sighed. “Fine…”

The both of you got into the limo that would take you to the premiere. Tom was a little annoyed, you could tell. You took his hand and squeezed it. “Tom, don’t be mad. I just want to look perfect.”

Tom turned to face you. “I’m not mad, y/n.”

You gave him a dull look.

“Okay, maybe a little. But only because I wanna kiss my girlfriend and show her off and she won’t let me.”

You rolled your eyes again, smirking. “Okay, fine. A few pecks but that’s it.”

Tom smiled. “I knew you would cave.”

The driver stopped in front of the premiere. You smiled, your eyes dazzling at all the celeb guests, paps and fans. 

“You alright y/n?” Tom asked, squeezing your hand. 

“Yeah, I’m okay. Excited actually.”

Tom smiled. “Then let’s go.” Tom opened the door and you were both greeted with loud screams and flashing cameras and handshakes from people you didn’t really know. But Tom was the main guy of the project so you understood. He held you close to him, knowing this was new to you. You only been to one other premiere so he wanted to make sure you were comfortable.

It was all a blur. What you remembered most was Tom. His closeness, the pecks he gave you on your pink lips, the squeeze of his hands. You thought you were okay but it was becoming too much and you guessed Tom sensed that and he quickly led you inside ahead of everyone else. “You okay?” he asked.

You blinked, trying to focus. “Y-yeah. Just was a little overwhelming there towards the end but I’m okay.”

“You need a minute?” he asked.

You nodded. Tom took you in his arms, careful not to mess your hair or makeup. He kissed the top of your head, gently stroking your arm. 

More people were coming inside and you pulled apart. “Guess the movie is about to start huh?” you smiled.

Tom smiled back, squeezing your hand. “Let’s go. We have the best seat in the house.”

You sat right next to Tom, his arm around you protectively. He kissed the side of your head and your lips despite your scolding look. He just smiled and you giggled, not really being that annoyed. You curled up the best you could to him with the arm rest between you both. You knew what the movie was about but you didn’t read the book. You wanted to be surprised. 

The movie started and you looked over at Tom who was smiling. His name came on the screen and everyone clapped. You pecked his cheek. “I’m so proud of you, Tommy.” you said just so he could hear it.

He smiled down at you, eye crinkles and all. He leaned in to kiss you which you accepted graciously. You pulled away after a few moments, not wanting to miss any of the movie.

You knew what the movie was involved with. Drugs. Sex. But you had no idea what it was gonna be like on the big screen. A few scenes you had to tuck your face in Tom’s side, unable to watch. Less than an hour in the movie, it became too much and you had to leave. “Need to use the bathroom.” you whispered to Tom before quickly leaving the theater.

It was all too much. You tried to remind yourself it was just acting. It wasn’t real. But the drug use, the sex scenes. You couldn’t watch them anymore. You stepped outside for some fresh air, taking deep breaths. You then went back inside to the bathroom to freshen up.

“Y/n? You okay?” Tom’s voice was muffled from the door.

“I’m okay. Just uh had to take a break.”

“Anyone else in there?”

“No.”

He stepped inside, frowning. “What’s wrong, love?”

“Nothing. Just...was a lot to watch is all.”

Tom stepped towards you, pulling you closer to him. “You know it’s just acting right?”

“I do, just...really good acting.”

“Love, we were just acting-”

“No it wasn’t the sex that bothered me as much. It was...the other stuff.”

“Oh…” Tom frowned. “I forgot you didn’t like that stuff...I thought you would be okay with it…”

“I thought so too. Guess I was wrong.” You shrugged.

“You want to leave? I understand if you do.” Tom said.

Your eyes were glassy. “I don’t want to...but…”

Tom nuzzled your noses together. God he smelled so good. The softness of his suit, the cologne. It calmed you down almost instantly.

“Let’s ditch them.” he said.

You gasped, staring at him. “What? No. You’ll get in trouble.”

He shrugged. “I’m Spider-Man. I can do what I want.”

You chuckled. “Okay. Let’s go.” You both giggled as you rushed out of the building. You felt like rebellious teenagers. 

You two stopped at a nearby diner, getting hungry. You first sat across from Tom, reading the menu. He hid his face then peaked above the top, winking. You giggled, sticking your tongue at him. He made a goofy face and you laughed. 

You forgot all about your unsettledness from Cherry. All that mattered now was you and Tom. Once you ordered, Tom took your hand from across the table. But it wasn’t enough. “Scoot over.” you said.

He did and you switched sides, snuggling right up to his side, sighing happily. “No arm rest in the way this time.” you smiled.

Tom kissed you. The waitress served you your milkshake and smiled. “You two are adorable.” the young woman spoke.

“Thank you.” Tom said.

“Hey, you’re that spidey guy right?” she asked.

He chuckled. “I am.”

“My son is a big fan. He wears his spidey onsie almost every night. Least when I’m not washing it.”

Tom laughed. “Would you like an autograph or something?”

“Oh, no I couldn’t. That’s too much.”

“I don’t mind.” Tom said. “Okay, if you wouldn’t mind.”

Tom signed something for her and she smiled. “Thank you so much, Mr. Holland. I’ll get your order. Be right back.”

You smiled up at Tom. “You’re the sweetest guy ever you know that?”

“Who me? I had no idea.”

“Don’t get cocky.” you said.

Tom laughed.

The waitress returned with your food and you both shared a milkshake. Tom dipped a french frie in the shake and you grimace. “Ew.” you gagged.

“It’s amazing, try it.”

“No thanks.”

It was completely dark out by the time you were done. You two waited till almost closing time to chat with the kind waitress. Tom gave her a good tip and she nearly cried. You smiled and offered to take a pic of them.

You said goodbye, promising to come back. Tom took your hand, smiling. “I love you, you know that right?”

“Really? I had no idea.” you replied.

You both walked in the night, still warm. You found a bridge nearby and you rested on the edge, enjoying the peace and quiet, only hearing cicadas and a few cars nearby.

Fireflies faded in the forest nearby and reflecting on the water. You sighed happily, Tom right by your side. 

“You’re probably gonna get in trouble for ditching the premiere.” you said.

“I don’t care.” Tom nuzzled into your soft curly hair. “You’re all that matters to me right now.”

You blushed, feeling your body heat up from his kind words.

Tom tucked his finger under your chin. “I love you, y/n. So much.”

“I love you, too, Tommy.”

He leaned in and kissed you, making you feel like you were floating in the clouds. The kiss deepened and you wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling at his curls. It was a kiss that topped all kisses. Memories of every kiss you and Tom shared didn’t beat this one. Not your first kiss. Or the ones you shared when making love. This one was different. You couldn’t explain it. It tied you two together like no other kiss has before. Tom was here to stay and you knew he wasn’t going anywhere.

 It wasn’t too much at all but instead, not enough. 

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i watched the poughkeepsie tapes and, ignoring everything else about it, i seriously legitimately at the end of the movie went "huh, thats a cool twist. the serial killer is the one making the documentary," but i cant.... find anyone else saying as such online

like!!!!! to me, it makes so much sense. the obsession with filming, the occasionally odd interview questions("do you [admire him]?", the entire interview with Cheryl), the fact that he's already proven to be someone who taunts the police and likes to insert himself/make his presence known somehow, it feeds into how "intelligent" and "good at hiding his tracks" they said he was, it adds a beautiful layer of irony at the end when the cop is like "man when yr documentary comes out we're gonna be watching the theaters, he'll come see it, mark my words," it explains why there was so much graphic footage that would NEVER be allowed in a documentary, and it could also explain the MISSING TAPES(he kept some of them in order to have footage for the documentary)

also i figured at the end, either cheryl's death was faked and then he went and picked her up(although that seems a bit elaborate), OR she did actually kill herself, because he left AGAIN and didnt take her AGAIN and she was too devastated to handle it.

plus, if he's that vain and intent on documenting his story and his crimes WITHOUT getting caught or revealing personal information, then surely a long movie where you hear about all his crimes, step-by-step, and also all the cops are admitting that he's a genius who gave them the run-around and saying they might never find him, where we learn nothing about who he is in the slightest except that he was so good at murder, would be pretty appealing to him.

so like you can imagine my surprise when i dont see ANYONE else mentioning it lmao. so after that i gave it another thought.

admittedly, it does raise a few issues.

1) the cheryl interview. the weirdness of some of the questions couldve just been awkwardness in the face of someone so clearly and extensively traumatized. she didn't fall over herself with joy about how "you came back for me!!!" but with how hardcore he trained her, i think he could easily get her to act like she doesnt know him. in general, her acting here works for being read as both "abuse victim and no other reason" and "youre pulling a con and im in on it but i dont know the plan and im Flighty and Nervous(and also an abuse victim)."

the "i dont know what you want me to say," is completely applicable whether he's the killer or not. she's either saying "i dont have an internal barometer yet for what answer you specifically are looking for from me, so i dont know what to say," or shes saying "im frightened that if i answer that im happy to be home youll be mad at me for saying i missed it, but if i say im not happy to be home itll make your documentary unconvincing, you didnt fill me in on what you wanted from me(possibly on purpose to distress me) and im scared of the repercussions of me making the wrong choice." the stuff at the end about how she loved him makes just as much sense if its not the killer, but when i saw it i read it as a semi-coded message. "i love him(you), and i know he(you) will sweep me away from here soon, *makes heavy eye contact with the camera man*"

2) the mother didnt recognise him, and no one recognised his voice from the tapes. this ones a big sticking point, but if hes so meticulous at preparing crime scenes and has such a wide array of tools and "toys", he must have a decent amount of time and money on his hands, so he couldve possibly hired a dude off, idk, craigslist to interview the mom. as for his voice, he was only ever shouting and growling in the tapes, but the interviewer was very quiet and softspoken whenever he did speak. possibly that was enough to make him sound different? he was shown using sign language at one point, so maybe he hired an interpreter and signed questions to obscure his voice, so the voice we hear when the interviewer speaks would actually be the interpreter's voice.

3) i guess, thinking about it, documentaries usually have a whole crew, not just the guy doing the interviews but a lighting guy and a sound guy and a camera guy and an editor... but again, he doesnt lack the resources to do time-consuming and expensive tasks, so i dont have a hard time believing he'd be able to cobble together a small crew, just bare-bones enough to technically function.

actually, if he had something to mount it on, he wouldnt need anyone to hold the camera, and he could set up the lights and sound himself before he starts each take. and i cant imagine he'd let anyone construct his magnum opus except himself, so he'd do the editing. itd be work, but he could probably pull off being a 2 man crew(him+either an interpreter, or a craigslist interviewer.)

4) if he did, indeed, take the missing tapes in order to use them in the documentary, then as soon as it was played somewhere, theyd find out this was previously unseen footage and theyd know he was the killer. BUT if he gave them fake info and didnt leave any dna, they might not be able to find him. BUT ALSO itd be nearly impossible for them to not get him on surveillance footage, so he'd have his image spread around like wildfire. but then again, this issue could be solved by just saying "ok he used footage from the tapes in police custody. the other ones were special, possibly mementos or future breadcrumbs to taunt the police with."

idk. idk!!!!! i think my theory holds up. i think it makes a lot of sense, and also its literally the only reason i can think of that such graphic scenes would EVER be allowed-- or put-- in a documentary... because he doesnt care about censors or ratings(like pg-13 sort of ratings) or legality. all he cares about is showing off and preserving his legacy. he led the cops to the house because he wanted them to see the tapes, yaknow?? he wanted someone to see them.

like!!! the interview segments, while not perfect, were good enough that i felt more than a little jarred when we just straight up saw mr. serial killer decapitate someone. and not, like, a good jarring, like how horror movies are supposed to be upsetting. it just brought me out of the experience and felt so fake it was almost goofy. it was preposterous. (and also the effects were a little cheesy/plasticy in that scene, so that didnt help.)

a regular editor, putting that clip in, unblurred? who. who on gods green earth would ever do their job that poorly

a vain serial killer who wants people to see his creepy snuff films putting in that unblurred clip? extremely logical. makes sense.

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primed to scream PRIMES! PRIMES! PRIMES!!

f i just typed the answer to most of these questions and chrome crashed so christ i have to fucking retype all these but much condensed because i am lazy.

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

chocolate bars. but only milk. my mom buys exclusively Very Dark Chocolate though so i usually just stare at those and Wish.

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

well bubblegum or cotton candy flavored stuff neither they both taste nauseating. if we’re talking about the actual stuff then bubblegum because i can pop it. this actually reminded me i have gum in the pantry from the beginning of the semester i havent even opened yet so now my roommates have you to thank for popping noises the next hr or so

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

soda bottles because i dont like to drink soda quickly and so i want to close it and not let the carbon dioxide escape. soda cans a close second because it’s satisfying to open the tab.

7. earbuds or headphones?

wired earbuds because headphones are too big and clunky and you cant easily lay on your side with headphones on. but if my next pair of earbuds break within a month i might consider Switching because ive had 3 break on me in the past month and half and im at my wits end with earbuds.

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

i dont eat much for breakfast cause i want to sleep in until the last possible moment and i get stomachaches when i eat a lot in the morning but ill eat a piece of bread and yogurt maybe.

13. lanyard or key ring?

key ring but that’s just because i havent used a lanyard before. i think i would like a lanyard. im constantly looking for my keys in bags.

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

this pair of black sandals that i have tan lines on my feet from how much ive worn them

19. sleeping position?

ill sleep however... i like sleeping on my left side. on my stomach with my head to the right. on my back with my arms crossover my chest to keep warm. at the end of the bed with my head where my feet should be. i dont move at all when i sleep so freshman year when i had a lofted bed i think my roommate was a bit concerned in the beginning when i refused a bedrail because she thought i might fall. i never fell which was nice.

23. strange habits?

oh man idk i probably have a lot of those but nothing i can think about right now when im being put on the spot.

in elementary school i used to refuse to step on the yellow tiles at school.

29. best way to bond with you?

talk to me about the stuff i love!!!! and watch the stuff i love with me!!!! i am always down to [whatever the rabb.it replacement is these days] stuff with people and just generally both yell at each other and be passionate about stuff. currently what im passionate about is the stuff im screaming over at @winstonbillions​ so talk to me about that stuff!! please. i am always 3 seconds from screaming about ANY of that stuff.

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

idk about outfits to kick ass and take names but i have outfits where i get my ass kicked and name taken aka what i wear to exams. which is my tower of pimps shirt which ive deemed lucky. is it lucky in any way? no, but i’m hoping if i wear it enough to exams it might.

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

duffel bag. suitcases are so large and unwieldily. that reminds me i have a suitcase of winter clothes in my trunk i need to take out.

41. last person you texted?

as in actual texts on my phone? that would be my dad. asking him if i should drop my class im failing. 

as for the last person i instant messaged, that would be one of my mutuals through my musical theater sideblog im currently yelling at about [musical theater related interest]. im not kidding guys talk to me about the stuff i post about on @winstonbillions​ PLEASE

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

2 months ago i would have said hoodie but im kinda becoming a cardigan kind of person now. theyre just Soft and and Long and Casual and i love them. hoodies are too hard to take off.

47. favorite type of cheese?

mild cheddar, american, and mozzarella. i actually only Recently started cataloging cheeses in my brain to their actual names so for my entire life i was like i just like cheese even though there are certain ones i hate like swiss and blue cheese.

53. what is the current state of your hands?

a bit cold and a bit tired from typing all the answers to all these asks tbh. but other than that good. i just cut my nails because they were atrociously long. 

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

“worm” or “fuck” or “no!” according to my roommate

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

oh my ogdokh oym ogdos sd fdospohm to mo edf ucmign fugod mfyo uacant just ask me this im going to absolutely die

in absolutely no order, all from completely from memory, and favorite for a variety of different reasons

“fuck you, math man. if you’re such a genius why can’t you count to loyalty” - mafee in 4x11 lamster billions

“captain, he think, and feels that much more powerful” - luminousbeings in you don’t have to (say yes) the star trek fic

“more than you know, i understand wanting to walk away from the jedi”“i know.” - anakin skywalker and ahsoka tano in 5x12 the wrong jedi star wars the clone wars

“i won’t leave you, not this time.” “then you will die” - ahsoka tano and darth vader in 2x12 twilight of the apprentice star wars rebels

“there is nothing so pure as a man on a mission. when faced with the fire, never quivers or runs. there is nothing so noble as sticking together, for lonely is the life lead when sticking to its guns." - narrator in bloodsong of love by joe iconis

“now i’ve got myself a name and i’m ready to risk it with a battle cry disguised as a sing-along” - never heard nothing by joe iconis

“i’m frickin done with being the loser, the wuss, the underdog. being the misfit, the old school analog. being the oddball, the weakling freak. the failure, the sucker, the please-don’t-speak. oh i can’t hardly wait for the moment when i’m not the loser the geek or whatever, ever again” - jeremy heere in be more chill by joe iconis

“i’m tired of being the person that everyone thinks that i am” - various in be more chill by joe iconis

“q is for quantitative, baby!” - winston in 4x12 extreme sandbox billions

“the cheering is just as important as the song” - lisa and ms. werring in the black suits by joe iconis

“first, best destiny” - spock in star trek ii wrath of khan

“be proud of your place in the cosmos. it is small, and yet it is. how unlikely. how fantastic, and stupid. and excellent.” - cecil in welcome to night vale old oak doors part b

“are we living a life that is safe from harm? of course not. we never are. the questions is are we living a life that is worth the harm?” - cecil in welcome to night vale parade day

“as I turned and my eyes beheld you, i displayed emotion. i beg forgiveness.” - spock somewhere in star trek tos

“the sky collapsed without a sound. these broken pieces hit the ground.  the rain fell down around me and i drowned, but i will save you.” - part of me from dear evan hansen

“this is, after all, the story of how i died” - epsilon in the rvb13 trailer

“and while the law has many punishments for the atrocities we inflict on others, there are no punishments for the terrors we inflict on ourselves.” - the director in the s6 finale of red vs blue

that was in no way an exhaustive list but all i could think of at the moment

67. good luck charms?

not really any tbh. i try to wear my tower of pimps shirt whenever i take an exam but that’s about it.

71. least favorite pattern?

what does this even fucking mean?????? i will say the observer design pattern in programming because i don’t understand it well despite having used it twice now.

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

oh god idk why are all these questions getting harder. nothing i can think of at the moment.

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

i say school id tentatively, but neither of them looks great. my school id photo was a selfie.

83. writing or drawing?

writing. i wish to GOD i could draw and i probably could if i put in the amount of time i need to to learn how to draw but im a lazy bastard. but i’m not that great at writing either as i’ve found out. everything is way too short and out of character and too venty and i am weird about letting people i know read what i write (sorry @ all the people who keep asking me to let them read my writing.  it’s not that great you’re not missing out at all and i hate the Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known) and i abandon ideas literal minutes after getting them.

89. who would you put before everyone else?

what the fuck kind of question is this?????? i GUESS the answer should be me but uh i am not even putting myself before myself as i am procrastinating on a shitload of homework with this. i guess my “close” friends. they’re pretty chill. but generally ill do anything for anyone all you have to do is ask.

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

4, my own, my home landline, my dad’s cell, and my dad’s work.

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after the fall spoilers! please be warned!!

hot mess incoming im still processing and NERVY AF ASJDKLDFHJ

ok.  my muse isn’t canon of course so i am focusing on the vacuo revelations.  

1) it is very nitty gritty and super survivalist, the wildlife was more dangerous than expected, shade being described as the only source of order makes much more sense now.  in v4 sun expressed surprise that menagerie didn’t expand inland and blake said that menagerie’s desert wasn’t like vacuo’s - it was inhospitable, and had wildlife more dangerous than average.  if that’s still true then holy shit.  the grimm, harsh nature, lack of resources, and wildlife we get exposed to in this book?? vacuo is a hard fucking place to live.  

2) vacuo organizes itself mostly around settlements which was surprising to me too, i didn’t expect nomadism to be that much of the norm even though it’s forced due to grimm attacks and sandstorms / other natural disasters.  it just brings a nice contrast to the utter luxury of love’s upbringing, being landed outside of vacuo city.  they have had the means, money, fortune, luck, security etc to give up nomadism.

3) added headcanon: love’s tribe definitely has their own small cct support tower.

4) i hummed at some of the more callous/uncaring descriptions and stereotypes of vacuans...

surviving is what we do here, or we don’t. we look out for one another but if it’s down to your life or someone else’s, you choose your own. no hard feelings.

the only home you have in vacuo is the people you keep close.

settlements described as honestly meagre places. “there was no way is could ever compare to beacon, let alone any village in vale”

but i’ll take em since they came from the mouths of vacuans, from their experiences living among different settlements.  still, just the first page had trite stuff like  vacuo: the wrong place at the wrong time  and  a terrible place to visit, but you wouldn’t want to live there.  SO I STARTED OFF SQUINTING REAL HARD. i was really scared of just .... not liking the vacuo we get, after all this time of waiting and worldbuilding on my own.  i was terrified that my hype would fall apart or be disappointed by some mad max wild west bullshit.  and terrified that i’d feel overly protective of my headcanons or salty if others suddenly started paying attention to vacuo thanks to cfvy, who aren’t even from there (bar you know you), so vacuo would just become a theater again.  

5) but fox and slate especially brought a lot of feeling and sense and heart to these sayings and environments, so i really wound up liking it! (“no matter how long you’ve been away, you’re always part of your tribe, and your tribe’s always part of you,” slate said. fox smiled.)

6) although i liked much less the judgments made by coco & velvet when they’d only been living there for a little while and obvi are there because their hands were forced after the fall.

7) i guess the clarkia tribe’s strong ethics and emphasis on hospitality can be a product of their wealth too. they can afford this generosity, whereas a lot of others need to focus on survivalism.

8) most vacuans wore simple, light-colored tunics and linen cloaks and head coverings for crossing the desert. ...  inb4 love really is extra Extra for his sense of fashion.

9) the bits on vacuan attitudes on leadership vs authority were very interesting and i have old headcanons that i need to dig up and think about. fox said most tribes and settlements don’t have elected officials which...personally feels incredibly yikes and unsustainable. incredibly. “it’s even more unusual for a tribe to have a leader that they trust” honestly, i don’t like this canon. i’ll trash it when it comes to love. on slate’s good leadership, from coco’s thoughts: “it was because she cared more about them than she did herself, and that was a rare quality in vacuo.” ... like, objectively i know this attitude is probably true but god do i hate generalizations!! i felt like this when rping ciel too, on generalization about atlas that was all rly about class.  ah!! oh well. i’ll think about it.

10) velvet dabbled in fortune-telling when she was younger can we TALK about this.

11) all the grimm were beautiful by the way, beautiful and terrifying and fucking everywhere, though that was mostly because Plot. gotta remember that that high level of threat is not typical, but due to Plot.

12) speaking of plot: someone seeking out people with strong semblances?  love has a Strong Semblance.  his semblance, in fact, has a whole mound of its own lore and celebration behind it. pls fuck him up, or warn him that this is happening.

14) descriptions of shade, too, i am on the fence about. “It felt like everyday at the school was a test to see how good you were, to prove that you deserved to be training to be a Huntsman. Survival was more important than teamwork, and it was more competitive than Beacon Academy- even within your own team- placing CFVY at a unique disadvantage” / “...focus on survival and results rather than teamwork and studies.” ... we get it, you have to survive. why the fuck wouldn’t teamwork and studies be important to survival and training career huntsmen? i just don’t get it and it doesn’t quite align with my views, though i know that attitude certainly exists in vacuo, ffs it’s not monolithic. in a huntsman institution?? i don’t buy it. idk!!

15) “Vacuans were typically more respectful and less wasteful than anyone else.” !!! A GOOD ONE!!

they acknowledged several times that vacuo’s problems has roots in other kingdoms taking advantage of them!!  “Their whole existence was centered on picking up and moving on. And it was the other kingdoms that had created this situation for them. No wonder they didn’t want to get involved in Remnant’s politics.”  I FUCKING STOPPED AND CHEERED AT THIS PART. AAAAAA GOD FUCKING BLESS. i have added legitimacy to how love doesn’t at all sign onto the grandeur of being a huntsman especially if it leads him out of vacuo, he does it for other and personal reasons.  the goodness is a happy bonus.

i’ll stop here or else i never will. big takeaway: i fucking love fox alistair. i love him. i adore him. every time fox alistair did anything i wanted to scream. also, i’m upgrading my velvet cosplay. also, brnz. also sssn. FUCK.

[bugborgs]

ENDGAME REACTIONS FROM MEMORY

quotes are not exact bc unfortunately i have the memory of a 90 year old granpa AND ALSO my reactions/recollection of events are absolutely NOT in order lol BUT

also again anyone who wants to is free to message me if u wanna talk about the movie or if you want spoilers i guess??? lol ALSO im gonna turn anon on like i said after i post this 

Someone in my theater actually brought a bigass infinity guantlet and wore it to the screening lol

I don't really like Tony much but ngl the opening scene with him and Nebula on the Milano was so good omg

I love Scott so muchSCOTT-CASSIE REUINUON WAS SO GOOD I CRY

i love that nebula and rhodey seem to be friends omg??? like she called him specifically to make fun of scott im djhkdjhsd

“Rhodey, be careful coming in, there’s an idiot on the landing strip”

hulk giving scotty a taco after his got blown away lmaooo

LOTS of cheers and clapping when cap held mjolnir!!! like SO much you guys

HUGE cheers when everyone was un-dusted

when t’challa, okoye, and shuri showed up, i heard several “Wakanda Forever!”’s from my audience

i think the guy sitting next to me even did the Wakanda Forever arm cross

LOTS of cheers from my audience when pepper showed up in an iron suit

lots of cheers when valkyrie showed up on her pegasus too!!

People were actually audibly crying at the end

there were at least a couple distinct criers i could make out

you will Know When if you've seen it

I wasn't one of the those people but no disrespect to those that did i feel u man

I DID however cry like a fucking bitch at Nebula's scenes

So many of them

Y'all I was near sobbing what the fuck

And Gamora???? Wtf TEARS

not. Happy that she's still Dead but ://///

"I have blasters, or you could use knives if you want"

"Ooh yes please use knives!"

Agfdjdhdhdjdg????

mantis what the fuck

Mantis darling.......you've been hanging out with Nebula too much jahsgshsgs

"As far as I'm concerned that is the ass of america"

"That IS America's ass"

I'm still crying about nebula

My endgame wishlist mostly came true lmao

They almost made me feel a Tiny emotion for Clint and nat so like

Good job marvel

Almost

CAROL’S SHORT HAIR AAAAAAAAAA

I'M GAY

IM SO GAY

I called nat dying but it was iN JOKE FORM LMFAO I joked about it with my friend for last minute predictions last night

And rhen it DID happen and I'm laughing fuck

I almost had like 10 heart attacks over Nebula this movie

Nebula. ........😭😭😭😭😭

"You can change" "he won't let me" fuck u marvel

"I tried to kill you several times. Then we became friends. And then sisters"

What the FUCK yall

Fuck

Peter dancing and singing along to come and get your love.......classic

"He's an idiot, isn't he?" "Yeah"

I'm not. suuuuuper happy about the Peter-Gamora scene

I know it's pre guardians Gamora so she like. Has no attachment to him or anything but

Idk it seemed callous to turn it into a joke after Peter's reaction + what happened in IW

i kind of laughed tho ngl but i hated myself for it kjsdfkhjfshkjs

I have mixed feelings about the Nebula - Gamora scene at the Avengers compound like I'm not mad? But it left me feeling SO SAD

I don't know how I feel

Nebula.................

im just gonna like

cry about nebula all night

fuck

y’all im so sad

Thor killed me this entire fycking movie

I wish we'd had more valkyrie but omg I'm so happy to see her

NEW ASGARD

Idrk how I feel about caps end?? like

ok i guess

i SERIOUSLY thought tho like

when they panned over to him on the bench

that they were gonna turn him around and he was gonna be just

a fuckin SKELETON

OLD MAN SKELETON

that would have been hilarious but also terrible and im glad it didnt happen but i also kind of wanted it to lol

Sam receiving caps shield tho...!!!!

Nebula should have killed thanos lol

Sorry you can't change my mind :)

that being said seeing thor fucking decapitate thanos was fucking amazing god bless

sidenote this movie was a lot?? bloodier than i was expecting esp with other marvel movies that avoiding showing blood/death

like the dora milaje killmonger killed in bp comes to mind considering hawkeye. slits a dude’s throat in this movie

and you see blood

lmfao

OK THAT’S??? A LOT?? OF THOUGHTS

I FEEL LIKE I HAVE MORE BUT THIS MOVIE WAS SO LONG Y’ALL I BARELY MANAGED TO REMEMBER ALL OF THIS

im still crying about nebula

im never gonna not cry about nebula

ANYWAYS I HAD A LOT OF FUN i wanna go rewatch it like. immediately. i still stand by my tag statement that i dont think it’s a perfect movie and i have some issues with it but honestly? most of my main wishes came true so i can like

not forgive it but i can overlook it :^)

[simblrbreezycakes]

i was tagged by @chippedcupanddustybooks sweet bb. i am tagging @irrelephantsims @magnoliidae @simplymelaninated and anyone who hasn’t been tagged i swear i feel like the last person doing this LOL. heckin long ass questionnaire under the cut.

1. What is your full name? Brianna Leigh [Redacted] 2. What is your nickname? Breezy 3. Birthday? may 4th 4. What is your favorite book series? hmmmm series? idk.... i really like every single john grisham book and they aren’t related but when you have such a niche brand of book i feel like it counts lol.  5. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? kinda on both. 6. Who is your favorite author? oh whew. tough one right here. idk man, i have a few? but if i had to choose i guezz i would say george orwell.   7. What is your favorite radio station? who tf listens to the radio like det anymore lmfao. i don’t have one. before i listened to 107.1 in memphis in the car sometimes, but i moved so. 8. What is your favorite flavor of anything? i loveeee pineapple anything. 9. What word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? lit 10. What is your current favorite song? currently really into pink in the night by mitski and also sicko mode by travis scott.

11. What is your favorite word? good ole fuck(in/ed/etc.) i also really like voluptuous and bubbles. 12. What was the last song you listened to? last thing i listened to was another lifetime x nao.  13. What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? absolutely check out the good place. also hilda, the dragon prince, she-ra princess of power, criminal minds, law and order (the original), and snapped. 14. What is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down? i used to watch the notebook religiously when it rained/felt upset like shit. but lately i’ve been watching say yes to the dress to combat my depression lol. 15. Do you play video games? yah 16. What is your biggest fear? dying alone and no one finding me. like literally alone not like meta alone “oh no one loves me” like dead ass alone somewhere isolated. 17. What is your best quality, in your opinion? hmmmmm idk that i care a lot about other people? 18. What is your worst quality, in your opinion? all of them lmfao. i’m annoying, i’m physically unattractive, i talk too damn much, i can be kind of a bitch both intentionally and unintentionally, i’m a trash writer, i can be selfish, and i self depreciate a lot (lol see above response “all of them”) and i’m sure that gets on people who love and care about me’s nerves ((but like....i mean it lmfao)) 19. Do you like cats or dogs better? whew tough. prolly cats though.  20. What is your favorite season? winter followed by a tie between spring and fall.  21. Are you in a relationship? nah lmfao.  22. What is something you miss from your childhood? not being so fuckin ugly and depressed lmfao. 23. Who is your best friend? “my person” as greys anatomy stans would say is ivy lynn [redacted] [redacted] but i also wanna shout out my home girl mary (i know you follow me on here), my home girl christina (also follows me on here but she never checks her simblr anymore), my smoothie gang bitches, my NSA bitches (which includes both ivy and mary lmfao), and my memphis as fuck family. honorable mention to loml [redacted] who is skating on thin fucking ice with me right now lmfao. 24. What is your eye color? brown 25. What is your hair color? brown 26. Who is someone you love? don’t make me answer this tumblr gods. 27. Who is someone you trust? all my best friends, my parents, my brother. 28. Who is someone you think about often? fucking murder me @ this question lmfao. my friend kate (RIP) my grandmother grannypeg (RIP) and [redacted] 29. Are you currently excited about/for something? i’m excited to spend christmas in a new country! forging new traditions and all that. 30. What is your biggest obsession? currently i’m obsessed with wedding stuff and mens fashion and how mens fashion such as suits translates into womens fashion. we love a hot lady in a tailored suit amiright? 31. What was your favorite TV show as a child? spongebob squarepants RIP :”( 32. Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? [redacted] 33. Are you superstitious? kinda i guess? not really about stuff like stepping on cracks breaking mamas’ backs or opening umbrellas indoors but little things about familial traditions. 34. Do you have any unusual phobias? not really a phobia but i have misophonia. i also hate eye shit. like eye violence or anything fuckin around with eyes is a big no from me dawg. 35. Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? absolutely behind the camera. i used to be a theater kid so like being on stage i don’t mind but when it comes to the spotlight and being filmed??? no no no no no. lemme be a cinnamontawgrowfur all day.  36. What is your favorite hobby? watching movies, playing skyrim (I MISS IT SO MUCH), reading, watching music videos, modern calligraphy/hand lettering, baking (ALSO MISS IT MUCH) 37. What was the last book you read? lol a textbook about developing countries.

38. What was the last movie you watched? i just rewatched the swan princess the other day but in terms of watching something brand new i think it was this tom cruise movie my friend showed us and i thought she said someone else ( i don’t remember now. maybe tom hanks?) it was pretty good he was irish or sum with nicole kidman and they came to the united states and pretended to be siblings but the sexual tension was so fucking high dawg. 

39. What musical instruments do you play, if any? nothing i’m wack and a disappointment to my musically gifted family (my dad and brother)  40. What is your favorite animal?  polar bears followed by giraffes. 41. What are your top 5 favorite Tumblr blogs that you follow? i’m gonna go with my main tumblr because ion wanna hurt nobody’s feelings but i follow a celebs of color page i really love, a fashion page i really love, and a few artists i really love. 42. What superpower do you wish you had? teleportation or shape shifting.  43. When and where do you feel most at peace?  i feel most at peace when it is raining and i’m in my room, everything is clean and tidy, candles are lit, i have nothing to do so the world is my oyster, i have a nice cup of coffee or hot cocoa or tea, and i just am v i b i n g.  44. What makes you smile? seeing my friends, my brother (when he isn’t pissing me off), funny videos of red dead people falling off their horse in cinematic mode, pretty flowers, cute art, round birds. 45. What sports do you play, if any? i don’t lmfao. 46. What is your favorite drink? honestly a frozen margarita no salt. 47. When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? a month ago.  48. Are you afraid of heights? absolutely. 49. What is your biggest pet peeve? people chewing with their mouths open and people talking to me like i’m incompetent/assuming i don’t know anything about what they’re trying to talk to me about especially if it is my area of expertise lol. 50. Have you ever been to a concert? hail yeah. many. 51. Are you vegan/vegetarian? nope! 52. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? honestly i don’t know but i have a distinct memory of a bunch of girls in my second grade, yours truly included, wanting to be strippers. and i don’t know why or how this came up or if we even truly knew what stripping meant but. yeah. OH i guess around the time i was in 4th/5th grade i started wanting to be a harvard law graduate and be a lawyer but i gave that up in like high school and then bounced being a lawyer back and forth in my noggin up until i applied for grad school. shout out to my mary for doing it though.  53. What fictional world would you like to live in? hmmmm idk. none of em really. 54. What is something you worry about? if i made the right decision(s) in life lol.  55. Are you scared of the dark? not really.  56. Do you like to sing? yeah i do! doesn’t mean i’m good at it though haha. 57. Have you ever skipped school? yeah lmfao. 58. What is your favorite place on the planet? i miss Rwanda a lot. but honestly my favorite place is wherever the people i love are. my family loves to travel so whenever i’m with someone i love sharing an experience? i’m in heaven. 59. Where would you like to live? idk anywhere i guess. somewhere it is mostly cold most of the time though haha. 60. Do you have any pets? my bb boi fred lives with my dad and my mom has a dog and 2 cats. we used to have 3 but one of em ran away when she moved to her house, we caught him, he ran away again. oh whale. 61. Are you more of an early bird or a night owl? oh a big time night owl. big time. 62. Do you like sunrises or sunsets better? honestly i like sunrises better but i am never awake to catch em hahah. 63. Do you know how to drive? yah and i fuckin love doing it. 64. Do you prefer earbuds or headphones? i prefer headphones. like really quality ones too. but i tend to use earbuds more often because i don’t need quality while im working out or going to class just easy grab and go. 65. Have you ever had braces? nope but i used to want some so bad. 66. What is your favorite genre of music? i love rap, dream-y pop music and dream-y rap music, i love 80s music. all 80s music really lmfao.  67. Who is your hero? mi mum and mi dad. also viola davis queen of inventing acting and every single color in the rainbow. 68. Do you read comic books? kind of. i was trying to build up a collection before i moved but i only had my BP comics. 69. What makes you the most angry? injustice and offensive ass content and behaviors. also don’t fuck with my friends. i got two dudes on my shit list right now that it is *on sight* if i ever see them again. 70. Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? a real book all the way. idk what it is about digital reading my brain shuts the fuck down. i am super fast reader but the second i try and read something digitally it takes me maybe like 10-15 min to get through just a few sentences. 71. What is your favorite subject in school? history lol i was a history major. 72. Do you have any siblings? yeah my chicken nugget puppy brother dylan. asshole. 73. What was the last thing you bought? some historical romance i think? it’s in dutch so idrk.  74. How tall are you? 5′7 i think. 75. Can you cook? yeah i love cooking but saddly don’t do much of it. 76. What are three things that you love? my teddy bear my momma got me for valentines day, my st. agatha figurine, and my yikes tapestry mary got me. i realize now after reading the next question you probably meant like shit in general so. the smell of a fresh cup of coffee, snuggly warm sweaters, postcards and tiny gifts from friends. you know the ones “i just got this for you because i thought you’d like it” 77. What are three things that you hate? funky ass attitudes, the smell and feel of lavender oil, corn. 78. Do you have more female friends or more male friends? female 79. What is your sexual orientation? i’m a big ole heterosexual. sorry to disappoint :/  80. Where do you currently live? the netherlands. 81. Who was the last person you texted? my friend and former roommate. today is her birthday. 82. When was the last time you cried? like an hour ago lmfao. 83. Who is your favorite YouTuber? i don’t have one haha. vevo i guess. 84. Do you like to take selfies? do i like taking them? not really. it takes me too damn long to get one that looks good enough. i like sending stupid selfies to friends though. 85. What is your favorite app? i use twitter probably the most but my favorite app is my spider solitaire game haha. 86. What is your relationship with your parent(s) like? we are very close. i would say both of my parents are my biggest supporters and cheerleaders but how they do that looks a bit different. my mom and i are very similar but sometimes how we handle certain things is very different so we can be the best of friends one day and the completely butt heads the next. 87. What is your favorite foreign accent? i loovveeeee a scottish accent and an irish accent. also tbrh i love a good southern boy drawl. like idk if i could play for you all the way this one dude who works with my mom talks? i would because i wanna bottle it and listen to it whenever i feel bad. 88. What is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit? i would really like to go to norway for my birthday. 89. What is your favorite number? i don’t have one. 90. Can you juggle? nope but i did try and learn i have a video of it somewhere lmfao. 91. Are you religious? kind of. i’m more spiritual than religious and lowkey hate saying that because it sounds so hoitietoitie but it’s true. 92. Do you find outer space or the deep ocean to be more interesting? the ocean. so much of it we haven’t explored. thinking about space makes me feel existential and dead inside.  93. Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? nah haha 94. Are you allergic to anything? yeah i’m supposed to take one claritin a day but like i don’t. 95. Can you curl your tongue? yeah 96. Can you wiggle your ears? nope :(  97. How often do you admit that you were wrong about something? i’ll admit i’m wrong if i’m actually wrong but you’re gonna have to a helluva lot of convincing to get me there lmfao. though if my being “wrong” has caused harm to someone else i’ll apologize quicker than lightning because the last thing i would want is for my stubbornness to hurt someone i love. 98. Do you prefer the forest or the beach? um the mountains 99. What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? "never turn down a date. you never know who you might meet while you’re out” -my grandmother to my mother to me. 100. Are you a good liar? lmfaooooo i am a reformed liar. 101. What is your Hogwarts House? HUFFLEPUFF BAYBEEE 102. Do you talk to yourself? yah 103. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? an introvert. i may be loud and talkative sis but i promise you i’m over compensating because i want you to like me lmfao. 104. Do you keep a journal/diary? i have a private twitter does that count. 105. Do you believe in second chances? depends. 106. If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do?imma keep it real with you chief i would keeps the money lmfao. in the past i would’ve tried to return it to the owner but i am big broke bois with a lot of unexpected expenses coming up so like... yeah lmfao. we keepin that coint. 107. Do you believe that people are capable of change? sometimes. 108. Are you ticklish? yes lmfao 109. Have you ever been on a plane? yeah! 110. Do you have any piercings? yah i got my lobes pierced one on each ear, my nose, and a cartilage piercing. 111. What fictional character do you wish was real? my girl nancy drew. 112. Do you have any tattoos? yeah i got 2 of em. 113. What is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far? idk lmfao. probably when i applied for cityterm and when i appled to go back to undergrad. 114. Do you believe in karma? Yeah but not in a “oh you hurt me? you’re gonna get your come uppins” way but in a every action affects your soul and your being kinda way.  115. Do you wear glasses or contacts? im supposed to wear glasses but ask me if im wearing em right now lmfao. 116. Do you want children? presently i don’t see myself wanting or having kids but i want to foster. 117. Who is the smartest person you know? my friends lol. 118. What is your most embarrassing memory? literally every single memory has a tinge of embarassment lol. but probz when i walked into the cafeteria my first day of highschool as a smol freshman and my knees locked up and i fell forward and my giant ass backpack (because i never used my locker ever in any grade) wrapped around my neck and had me stuck in a strange position in the middle of the parting of the tables in the cafeteria.  119. Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? hell yeah lmfao. 120. What color are most of you clothes? blue or black 121. Do you like adventures? yeah! 122. Have you ever been on TV? yeah but like on the news and shit. 123. How old are you? 24 124. What is your favorite quote? i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) 125. Do you prefer sweet or savory foods? OOF TOUGH BUT UHHH probz sweet. 

[divorcedfiddleford]

aaaaaaa mcu rant below break

i think the last mcu movie i saw in theaters was civil war and like after that i just swore off superhero movies in theaters; honestly i’d been losing interest since i was so disappointed in age of ultron - i went to see gotg2 because i have such a soft spot for the first gotg but i didnt like it at all and ended up having a seizure like fifteen minutes into it so i left. it took a lot of songs i loved and now people associate them with that movie; mr. blue sky is one of my favorite songs ever and now the soundtrack version has almost more views on youtube than the official version and idk that pisses me off more than it should. anyway i still havent seen the rest of that movie and i dont intend to - i went to see black panther because i wanted to support the (almost) entirely black cast and incredible filmmaking but i didnt care about how it tied into the mcu and it was pretty stand-alone anyway. a damn good movie

aside from those two ive only seen two other superhero movies in theaters since - i saw wonder woman because she’s my favorite superhero ever and it’s the first female superhero movie in the new superhero movie age (it only took ten years! :)))) *fucking strangles someone*) at first i was ambivalent towards it, but now i legitimately dont like it because i think it fucked up diana’s character, focused too much on steve, and played into too many “girl movie” stereotypes (they literally had a makeover scene kill me rn) - i almost didn’t see spiderverse because i swore off superhero movies, but it won me over in the end and im so glad i saw it. besides it wasn’t mcu. spiderman is my favorite/objectively the best marvel superhero; he’s probably the most relatable superhero ever and they did him really well here. they breathed so much life and charm into miles too, making him also relatable. instant animated classic i would recommend it to anyone

other superhero movies i’ve seen outside of theaters since civil war: - ragnarok: an excellent film; immensely enjoyable and all-around fun - homecoming: meh? everyone really liked it and i guess it was fine. im pissed because it ripped off miles so much and directly caused the exclusion of ganke in spiderverse, not to mention all the other shit it hurt in that movie. honestly ive switched opinions on it so many times i keep going back and forth. actually im trying to remember now that im thinking about it i feel like i saw it in theaters but i honestly cant remember. weird

i haven’t seen any of these movies and i have no intention to - doctor strange: fuck this stupid “white guy masters ancient vague asian mumbo jumbo magic and becomes better at it than all the poc” bullshit and fuck benedict cumberbatch - infinity war/endgame: the avengers movies just dont interest me anymore at all they’re so cluttered and boring and annoying - antman: who? - antman and the wasp: ok this one pisses me off IMMENSELY the wasp was CRUCIAL in the founding of the avengers in the comics and they just completely cut her out from all of that in the mcu. she didnt even get her own movie she had to be the deuteragonist to fuckin antman. not to mention she was killed at the end. growing up the wasp was my favorite avenger and they did her so so SO dirty. fuck this movie - captain marvel: took over a decade for them to make a female superhero movie and its a blonde white chick. they didnt even have the guts to make her gay. smfh. dont have any interest since this iteration doesnt seem to have a personality beyond trauma and “girl power!”, not to mention all the armed forces propaganda in and surrounding it

really doubt im going to see any more superhero movies after this; i have no interest in the mcu anymore and never had interest in the dc movies. i doubt ill even see the spiderverse sequels (especially not in theaters) because im even more anti-sequels than i am anti-superhero movies

anyway. crying rn because media hates girls so much. obviously it also hates poc, lgbt+ folk, non-christians, and disabled people but whats presently on my mind is how much it just absolutely loathes women. im angry and sad

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surveys to keep me up at work

Your ex taps you on the shoulder and says, “I still love you.” You say? um, who are you?

Do you play video games? cod, thesims4

Is your house more than two stories tall? yes its a building with 6 floors

Have you ever hit your significant other? Has he/she ever hit you? no for either

What makes you an attractive person? (Talk about your personality too!) funny , kind, eyes, personality as a whole

What color is your hairbrush/comb? black with a unicorn on it

What snacks do you have available in your household atm? chips, cookies, noodles, soup

Has anyone recently told you that they like you, or find you attractive? yes my boyfriend!

Are you attracted to the last person you Facebook messaged? not at all

Do you care about anyone that doesn’t care about you? I did but I had to stop

Was your last Facebook friend requests from a male or female? males mostly

Which one of your relatives is most likely to embarrass you? my sister

When was the last time you ate a bar of chocolate? ooh idk but now I want one

Do you play any games on Facebook? not anymore

What would you like to get a degree in? idk

Do you wake up a lot in the middle of the night? a lot more often than I used to

Would you prefer to read a book, watch a movie or TV show, or play a video game? tv show. i like to veg and book

Do you usually get popcorn or soda at the movie theater? yes as a treat to myself

What genre of films do you like the best?  horror

How many bank accounts do you have?  for each platform one

Have you ever had the flu? too many times so far

What is your goal for the next few months? loose weight, be a better me all around

Have you ever had some kind of sleep-disorder? Nah.

Have you ever had food poisoning before? Describe the experience. yes and it was terrible >.<

What are two things that you have no problem paying full price for?  hmm.. nothing XD – food i guess.

Funny, charming, cute, romantic, smart - choose only 2 for the opposite sex. romantic and funny

Have you ever let somebody use you? Why did you do it?  not intentionally

You can go back in time & change something in your mom’s past - what is it?  her childhood upbringing

Do you know anybody who is around the exact same size as you? Who?  yea one of my coworkers is pretty tiny like me

Ever been to a haunted house? How scared were you?  yes but only at amusement parks so they weren't;t good

Been on any websites today you wouldn’t want your parents to see?  not recently

Which is worse: dusting or mopping dusting

Would you marry somebody who was intensely religious?  lol. no.

Did you pull a senior prank?  no I got kicked out lol Did you graduate?  i did.

What was the last song you listened to?  the Witcher on Netflix

Are you one of those lucky people with 20/20 vision? yes.

Is fashion one of your interests? meh.. not much anymore. i grew up. clothes are clothes. yes i like nice things but they aren’t high on my priority list.

Do you think you’ll eventually find that special someone?  i did find that special someone.

Do you care what people think?  not really. lol.

Is acting something you enjoy? not particularly

What was the last thing you broke/sprained?  my hand

Have you ever fought with a friend because of their boyfriend/girlfriend? Because of yours?  not that I recall

Has a stranger ever yelled at you for your language?  yea lol I curse too much for people

Whose house, other than yours and your families’, are you most comfortable at? parents or friends at this point

Has any of your friends’ family ever yelled at you?  not that I remember

Did you ever play a sport as a little kid? Did you enjoy it?  figure skating is my passion

Is there a celebrity you are just DETERMINED to marry? i don’t think I’ve ever been determined to marry a celebrity. <<

Have you ever burned someone’s picture? no

Would you ever get a lip tattoo? yea

Who is the first person of the opposite sex that pops into your head? Jabril

Do your parents smoke cigarettes?  never.

What does one of your T-shirts have written on it?  im not shy, I just don't like you

Name a pet you definitely wouldn’t want.  chihuahua

Would you prefer your partner smaller or taller? taller

Do you enjoy going through old pictures? love it.

Do you believe people when they say they don’t judge people? no

What did you love the most about the town you grew up in? it was small and cute and safe.

What’s a movie that you laughed the hardest during? step brothers and Pineapple Express

What’s a movie you cried the hardest during? the fox and the hound, Selena

What’s your favorite restaurant?  mamas Jamaican food or Panera bread

Is there a dessert you don’t like? anything with walnuts or pecans

Favorite album?  Jhené taikos trip album

What’s a book that you read because everyone else was reading it? idk

Underwater or outer space?  underwater

Kittens or puppies?  all animals

Bird watching or whale watching?  whale

What is your spirit animal?  probably a sloth lol or a dolphin

What was your best subject in school? gym lol

What was your worst subject in school?  math

What is one thing you wish you knew in high school?  this isn't everything in life

Who is your fashion icon?  I don't have one

Diamonds or pearls?  diamonds.

What color dress did you wear to prom? pink and black

[deeeelightfuldee]

What can you hear right now?: so nighttime is a real big struggle for me in terms of emotions and such so I have to have a lot going on. right now I have a movie on, a instagram live video, my fans, and benny’s purr.

Have you ever had a walking taco?: of course. they were so bomb

Are you watching anything on Netflix?: No. I’m watching movies I’ve bought on amazon prime.

Do you have a MoviePass?: Nah. literally I only watched things on whatever Kile bought. now I am reduced to what I have lol.

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?: little women

Have you ever been to Singapore or Bangkok?: no, never been out of country

Black or gold?: depends on what for. clothing? black. jewelry? gold.

How do you prefer your caffeine?: eh, limited. I don’t need it and I don’t crave it

Do you like coconut water?: no i can’t do coconut tasting anything. I do like the smell tho

Do you prefer hand sanitizer with aloe or not?: I am so over most hand sanitizer. the only kinds I like come from bath and body lol

Have you ever had to comfort a friend after they were caught cheating?: hmm. I’ve had 3 friends in my lifetime come to me after they cheated and I am not sure why people come to me with that. I used to think I was really good at supporting people or comforting them and the older I get the more i realize i’m not at all the supporter I thought I was. or I guess i’m less able to find the right words to say. idk. cheating especially, that is just not tolerable for me. so it’s hard to empathize with the major emotions of that. 

What was the last thing someone got you for your birthday?: umm, not much for this birthday but mom did make sure she gave me great experiences.

What was the last thing you got someone for their birthday?: I bought mom flowers to be delivered to her work, a bunch of watches she wanted, and all of the adele cds.

Where’s the last place you received a postcard from?: my friend Jon always sends me postcards. I love it so much.

Do you have a Nintendo Switch?: wow, i do. i really love it. its one of my favorite things.

Have you played Breath of the Wild?: like 30 seconds lol

At what venue was the last concert you attended?: school

Who was playing at the last concert you attended?: i can’t remember his name. it was really bizarre. he was a jazz musician

Describe what the bag you use looks like.: ummm depends what for. the last bag i used was a savers reusable bag. the last bag I used for myself was my small wristlet

What’s your favorite Bath and Body Works candle scent?: anything tree smelling

Do you have any tattoos?: No

Do you have any anniversaries coming up?: no. I don’t have any special days anymore

Have you ever been to Chicago? If so, what was your favorite part?: more times than I could ever count. I love that city it really is so special.

Who is the last person that texted you?: i think Jason? or mom

Who is the last person you spoke to on the phone?: mom

Do you live in a college town?: nope. 

Have you ever enjoyed just walking around a campus?: YES. I love moraines campus and trinity’s campus. but i was definitely more at home at moraine

Do you like craft beer? What’s your favorite?: not really no. I am not a beer drinker and most of them contain wheat so not my thing.

Would you try grapes on a pizza?: that sounds horrible

Have you ever tried an oyster? How would you describe the experience?: once and it tasted like a booger. so gross.

Do you like wine? What’s your favorite?: honestly, no. i am so far from the girl who is like “wow, i’m craving some wine!” nah. pass me a diet coke in a styrofoam cup. 

Has anyone ever specifically painted you a painting?: yes many times.

What are people from your state called?: illinoisians lol

How do you like your steak?: medium-rare or medium

Do you have any corduroy skinny jeans?: no, i don’t. How are you feeling-- really? extremely alone. like a shell of myself. I am struggling and definitely feel like im slipping away and no one sees it.  Who are you in love with? kile, but maybe not for longer. idk. im hoping to fall out of love. When did you last cry? I have had panic attacks and full blown sobbing almost every night this week. that is just me. I’m such a happy girl always that this is just so not me. Who makes you feel safe? i miss feeling safe. that’s honestly such a huge part. I feel so beyond alone. When did you last get asked on a date? this week Do you feel pretty? I think I am attractive in many ways. It’s not a huge self-hate thing for me. I am a bigger boned girl and I’m OK with that. My physical body is a vessel, not the important part. 

[survivormetaverse]

Episode 4 - "Now the fun part begins" ~Colin

All I gotta say....finesse

Look at us go✨ I say us because if I say me that sounds conceited even tho it was literally a hero challenge 😂. [HI THIS WAS BURIED IN MY TABS IT'S FROM ROUND 3 I WAS PROBS GONNA WRITE MORE BUT OH WELL]

We tribe swapped and I was really stressed at first because now im on the tribe that loses all of the challenges. But its fine bcs im friends with everyone now and im in an alliance with Ginny and Amy. I also love Danny he is literally under the influence rn im exposing him. But hopefully when hws sober he remembers how cool i am and we will work together. And Jennifer is on my tribe and we're friendly with each other. But honestly it would be in my best game interests to have her the one voted out. If it comes to that. Bcs Im literally working with everyone and shes pretty inactive.

Welp. Here we are. Swapped. It's a lil fucked up but I saw it coming. So I got stuck with Brayden which is like whatever to me, I'm glad him and I talked enough on original phantoms. But the issue is that it's just him and myself. Along with that its the two S.E.E.S. and one Fool. So I immediately swooped in on Jared, I tried to be relatable with him by talking about Danny and Shaad, who I know, and I think gthat brought him comfort. I spilled to Jared that Danny and Shaad know each other to show him that I have info and I'm willing to be open about stuff and talk with him straight up. We got to talking, and we declared that we want to work together WHICH IS GREAT!! Idk how much I can trust him, but if I show him loyalty and openness I think I'd get it back from him which is clutch. I need him to be the third with Brayden and myself, but I'm sure Jay and Elle are thinking the exact same thing. That's why I swooped in so fast, and I'm sure he'll tell them what they want to hear and theres a chance hes doing that to me as well (and I don't blame him, make your own decisions Jared king), but I need to show him that sticking with me is the better option. Idk idk I'm just trying to avoid playing my idol rn. I'll keep working on Jared, and I'll see what Brayden's been up to. ALSOOO APPARENTLY so Brayden tells me that him and Elle played together (which I knew), but he voted them out so idk how their dynamic is. Lots to think about, I guess now I actually do want to win immunity because I don't feel as secure as I did on original phantoms. But I def have Brayden on my side, and I'm really hoping Jared is truly gonna ride with me. Idols/advantages are also a potential problem here because what if Elle or Jay have one. I hope Brayden is just lying to me and he secretly has something too. I almost told him about mine but I decided against it. Much to think about, much to do, much to win.

I got an idolllll✨ lol so glad i signed up because no one else from my tribe did so it was super easy 😄 Tribe swap!! Sad bc i'll miss Colin 😔 real homie right there um i mean sure others too maybe lol I switched with Jay so no worries there and Anastasia I'm sorry to say we've never really clicked like we've worked together before (and she's backstabbed me before) but we've never really been like *this* y'know??? And Babs and Jennifer I barely talked to Babs likes musical theater and vine references tho so she's cool B) Anywayssss Dennis knows the pain of being a Starbucks barista and I was with Jared in the shape memory and felt bad for them oof so yeah OH! and Brayden helped vote me out in Kyoshi after saying he wouldn't vote for me... Dont Love That but also it was kinda a hopeless situation in Kyoshi kinda tragicccc for me funnily enough I was tribe swap screwed over but that's not like this time (if it is I will SCREAM but also I'm chill with whatever place I get in this game so eh) yeah i kinda made myself stop drinking caffeine/copious amounts of sugar for a year and then started back at Starbucks and immediately broke soooo I have no idea how coherent this is I think we'll do well in the challenge!! It's scavenger hunt but also I am working this weekend :( hate that for me ik me too boo so we'll see how much I can do I remember being upset at myself in prev. seasons because I went too hard in challenges and I feel like in this one I just don't have the time to 😂 the way to get priorities is to get a life apparently lol kidding but also am I??? Idk kinda forgot what I was talking about. Yay in the Phantom tribe now and we will crush this challenge✨

This tribe is getting on my nerves. 2 of them are super nice and I'd love to work with them but I don't know how the pre-alliances worked before this tribe. I really enjoy Amy and Anastasia but trying to talk to Ginnifer is like pulling teeth and Jennifer still hasn't said....anything.

https://youtu.be/maj4CRLrsjQ sorry this is really long i didnt mean to

My tribe is going to council.

At first, I thought I was SCREWED because I got neither Amy, Dennis, or Brayden from my OG tribe for the swap. I barely spoke to Josh, but at least he tries in challenges and we have that going for us. I absolutely adore Colin, he's experienced and he doesn't hide it, but here's a good support system and I see why he goes far in these games. By virtue of me being active, I can hopefully stay alive from this swap. As for the challenge, it's incredibly difficult to do since only the 3 of us are actively doing it, and with 3 slots, it means everyone has to do everything, which is virtually impossible. Shaad complained about his old tribe but a lot of his tribemates' confessionals about him were about him being inactive, and I'm definitely seeing it. Babs hasn't even accepted my message request yet. I absolutely trust Colin and I'm debatable with Josh, but I sure hope that he's not working with Shaad and Babs. But I'm 99% sure that's not the case because even Colin hasn't talked to Babs much and they haven't even been accepting message requests. I absolutely think we're headed to tribal, but honestly, that might be fine because it'll save my other allies in the other tribes. I just hate going to tribal council because it's never fun and it makes me nervous. Every time. But hopefully my social relationships I've made will get me through this swap even if I have to (at last, I guess) go to tribal council. 

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https://youtu.be/FJOPBi8cnBk

The swap is fun so far doing a fun and hilarious scavenger hunt but yuck my face is sticky blech 

Okay I think I figured out a lot. I think all the idols are on my tribe. The way Jared and Jay talk to me shows me that theyre smart players and I realllllly think they both have idols. And the three of us are just dancing around that subject. So if we go to tribal, I have to move very cautiously and thats why im trying to get another advantage. I think Jay is going for it too, homeboy messages me in 10 minute intervals. I think I can only afford going to tribal once with this tribe, I'm just hoping we win out especially if all the idols are chilling here I don't want to play it yet. Ima just keep hunting i dont have a lot of thoughts rn.

I'm not sure where I'm at. I feel decent about elle, she has familiarity with me, it should be convenient for her and I to stay together. I do like Jared too...the hope is that he links up with us and we can take out Brayden. Nothing personal against Brayden, but I like Dennis more, and I feel like I can work with Dennis in a merge scenario. If we can get Brayden out whenever we go to tribal, I'll also be put in a scenario at that point where I can either go with Jared and Elle, or maybe Jared and Dennis. Dennis seems very low key and more social than strategic, so he's a good person to play with for a decent amount of time. 

Uh idr my last confessional or when it was :( we just did the scavenger hunt challenge and are waiting for results and i really hope we don't have to go to tribal bc what a crappy birthday present that'd be!! Bc my birthday is tomorrow :)))))) I hope people remember bc I'm not going to say anything 😶 just to see who remembereddddd probs no one and ill break midday or maybe I'll leave it alone who knows! I'm going on a picnic tomorrow tho and then probs celebrating with fam so it'd be a bad day for a tribal :( OMG what if I got voted out on My Birthday that'd be so r00d but like kinda iconic too very memorable 21st brithday the one where I was voted out Metaverse... anyways uh hope we win this challenge lol 😅

Okay so it's cute and all that we won but Miss Jennifer needs to go ASAP. I low-key wanted to go to tribal just so I could let her GO, but it's whatever. I get a day to chill finally. I don't have to think as hard anymore. I feel good.

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I think the thing I am very interested in seeing is what's about to happen with Shaad in that tribe.

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But also, I really love Amy. I think she's really gonna be good for me.

okay i've been slacking on confessionals so im gonna pretend this is like 2 days ago and make one solely about the swap AHHH TRIBE SWAP i'm kinda excited that none of my alliance members are on my new tribe. that seems opposite but its gonna give me a better chance to branch out and make new connections, then when merge hits rekindle the old alliance that existed pre swap. hopefully that all pans out!! immediately I started vibing with Jodi. she's an absolute QUEEN and we match each other's energies perfectly. we've been shading others in the tribe, joking around, connecting personally, it's been great!! honestly i knew within like the first 20 mins I wanted to duo with her and be a f2. the rest of the tribe however? sheeeeesh babs and shaad are very inactive. apparently shaad blew up on his last tribe bc they almost voted him out... for being inactive? like sir if the shoe fits. pls fix it. babs is going THRU it and I feel for them. but... just say somethin josh is kind of a king. jodi likes him. he's putting in a lot of effort and I appreciate that. not sure if it makes him a threat but it definitely makes him an asset SO I approached both of them with an alliance!! and it worked!! i now have ANOTHER alliance woo!! with josh and jodi!! woo!! here's part of my host chat rambling bc I confess way more there than I do here i think Jodi and Josh might be like a duo tho the way Jodi talks about is kinda sus imma need to weasel my way in maybe I'll suggest a trio alliance as the most 'active' people on the tribe as a means to get close to them, then I'll use that to secure a f2 with jodi jodi radiates the same type of chaotic energy I do in games but she gets more bored than I do which is not good but more fun

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we LOST but im not SURPRISED i feel like we shouldve won SOLELY bc I got SANDRA DIAZ-TWINE to send me a selfie. that's fucking iconic. one of my proudest org career moments. anyway now the fun part begins. gotta decide who goes. it's either shaad or babs. I think the easiest and most common sense thing to do is vote babs because they've been more inactive. but also its the first live tribal and I think shaad will give drama if we vote him off. and that makes GOOD FUCKING TV. so idk. options options. we'll see!

holy shit phantoms won immunity. phantoms stays the winning tribe 4 times in a row holy shit. i actually wanted to win this time and put a lot of effort into this because no ma'am i need safety rn and work on these relationships. just need time. speaking of time, im about to hit hour 12 of the endurance hunt and im starting to feel like a madman. but babyyyyy i want another advantage and hopefully another fucking idol holy shit can you imagine???? i still haven't told anyone and my lips are gonna remain sealed. however i still think that yall are messy and set up my tribe where u knew brayden and i werent super close and from what ive gathered jay and elle weren't close either. so u put the two pairs that arent close with the one fool. okay so what else could we possibly have in common on this tribe to add more mess? IDOLS!!!!! like the three people that got the idols got swapped onto the same tribe like that has to be it. so jared would have to have one, even though he told me he didnt but the way he talked to me about idols in general literally makes me feel like he has one. i was like it would be so nice to have a little bit of security and hes like yeah i know what you mean. like bro just tell me u got a fuckin idol already. so then jay or elle have to have one. and i am convinced jay has one. maybe elle is gonna gag me with her idol but im gonna assume its jay. jared has spoken with him, and i have spoken with him. the three of us feel really good with each other (but im pretty sure jared has me above him bc i got to him first). we'll probs make an alliance chat shortly. i recognize that jared and jay are good at the strategic part of the game and are really smart and just good overall competitors and ESPECIALLY if they have idols that makes them even more dangerous. so i have to work with them than against them i have to make sure that they know i have them above everyone else. i think three strong players naturally gravitated towards eachother and if we really all do have idols its so funny that we're not telling each other. but im slowly but surely working on getting it out of them but if theyre as smart as i think they are they wont tell me. im just gonna continue being "transparent" with them and we'll see where it goes i hope they dont catch on. also jays a fucking liar because we were on a call today and i asked him if he did any hunts. he gave me a pause and then slurred his speech when he said "i haven't done any" like broooooooo ur fuckin lying to me right through your teeth. im convinced hes doing this one because he was up early for some breakfast and his lil skype thing showed online status allllll day like i gotta assume hes doing it. even if he didnt do the first three like hes def doing the last three dont play dumb with me!!!! i am not the one baby. but actually as im writing this hes not online anymore so if he really was doing it maybe he stopped? so if he was up early i would assume he started at 7 or 8 and ending by 9:30 he did 13 or 14 hours? idk im literally going till i cant stay up anymore ive already hit the 12 hours mark now if i went this long i have to go for the w likeee i have to. thats all i got for ya right now dont ever ask me for anything again.

no joke my brain is melting pls help

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i want a survivor wiki page :(

During challenge: https://youtu.be/IsGPtYtgnQ4 After challenge results: https://youtu.be/CgmLGWBvEhw

https://youtu.be/Yfsh_odV-Zg

The tribe swap really confused me. I was finally getting the hang of this game but now I'm doubting myself again. I also haven't been active much for the past 2 days and I think my tribe mates have noticed. I need to stay on top of things better if I don't want to (eventually) get voted out.

That this tribe swap screwed me over. It left me with Babs whos been completely inactive and Shaad whos been completely useless. At least I gained an alliance with Jodi and Colin but this is fucking pitiful.

https://youtu.be/pE207b8VRFE

can't wait to vote out jared and jay once jury starts

So I had planned on doing hourly milestone activities like calling a friend at 15 hours, eating ice cream at 16 hours etc and I was filming it to vlog the evening for my confessionals.. but my mom called me around 10:55 for a family emergency and when it was done it was 11:01 and my alarm got overridden by the call. That’s how I dropped and I’m really sad 😔 i low key don’t wanna play the game today but I literally have tribal so I have to stay online, even tho I’d still be more active than babs and shaad ☠️ I wanted this one so bad because the only thing I’m good at is not sleeping. Whoever went longer than 15.5 hours is now at the top of my hitlist, if I find out you also tried this hard for an advantage, I will take u out w my army. Even if it’s a superidol. The only good thing from this L is it ignited a huge motivator for me to play this game hard again (but not too hard) but have a goal and mission to complete. 

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https://youtu.be/PR8XWvdH-Hc

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update: i think Amy has it. I'll ask her about it at the merge, she won the 24 hour comp in her last org so it's very possible she gunned this advantage out. if she tells me she has it, then i know I'm absolutely her #1, if not, then we'll see what happens ..... 

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Edgic:

Power Rankings:

Phantom

Jared: He has done well to place himself firmly in the middle of his tribe. The two sides are definitely going by tribal lines at the moment which makes him the most powerful person on the tribe. Everyone wants to work with him. He will definitely be safe if his tribe has to go to tribal council soon.

Jay: This comes as a surprise, but Jay has bonded well with Jared. So much so that Jared listed Jay as the person he trusts the most currently on his tribe. This gives the S.E.E.S. side a bit more longevity on this tribe which is definitely in Jay’s interest. I can see Jared and Jay forming a tight duo.

Dennis: He is definitely in a better spot than he was on his last tribe. No one on this tribe has explicitly said they distrust or want to target Dennis. He’s playing it safe which is good. He lands himself higher than Elle because Jared seems to trust him more. If the decision was between Dennis and Elle, he would be the one safe. Additionally, he’s also sniffed out that the idols are all on this tribe (which is just a coincidence). However, he believes that Jay has it rather than Elle which is an unfortunate guess from him. However, what is excellent game sense is that he wants to form an alliance with Jay and Jared which could definitely benefit him in the long run when he needs to separate himself from his Phantoms.

Elle: It is sad to see Elle near the bottom, but it doesn’t seem like they have won anyone over with their charm on this tribe. Everyone besides Jay sees Elle as someone expendable if this tribe were to go to two consecutive tribal councils. On the plus side, Elle has an idol. If it comes to that, she may be able to keep herself safe.

Brayden: For some reason, no one except Dennis trusts Brayden. In fact, I would not be surprised if Jared, Jay, and Elle came to the consensus that he should be the one to go out of the two Phantoms. Brayden’s unwillingness to work with Dennis rears its ugly head as, even now, Brayden wants to distance himself from Dennis. He seems to believe that he is good with Jay and Jared when both parties have listed him on the bottom of their trust rankings. If Brayden is not careful, he is going to find himself blindsided and voted out premerge in this game.

Fools

Danny: Amy and Anastasia want to keep Danny in spite of their alliance with Ginny. It feels as if both of them want to work closely with him AND want to ditch that alliance. Danny easily has the most control as he has key allies that are willing to go to bat for him if things get messy. I even believe that he would be saved rather than Ginny if this tribe were to go to tribal council consecutively.

Anastasia: Her prior connection with Ginny has instantly landed her in an alliance with Amy despite the fact she doesn’t even know Amy like that. In fact, Anastasia doesn’t even trust Amy that much, but is still willing to work with her and pretend to be allies. Additionally, she has gotten into the good graces of Danny for whom she is trying to work closely with. Anastasia is the most connected with Danny which means she is the safest out of the group. However, Amy sees right through the veneer which means that Anastasia could be labelled as a big threat and be subsequently taken out at the early stages of merge. It was definitely a mistake to inform Amy about their prior connection with Elle.

Amy: What lands Amy here is that Anastasia doesn’t trust her. I was surprised too, but, looking at it, Anastasia would cut Amy over Ginnifer. What puts her above Ginnifer is her activity, however. Hopefully Amy can gain more trust with Danny and Anastasia and be safer in the future. Amy has a good read on Anastasia which keeps her in this position as well. She knows exactly what she needs to do to survive this tribe with the necessary numbers, but can she do it?

Ginnifer: I believe Ginnifer made a misstep by creating an alliance with Anastasia and Amy. At least for Amy, she doesn’t know how to feel considering Ginny never mentioned the alliance and just put them in it. It may have been a bit too presumptuous which leads to hesitation and distrust with the people she wants to ally with. Finally, Danny was also annoyed by Ginny being inactive near the start of the challenge which lowers her overall safety at tribal council

Jennifer: Where is Jennifer San Diego? Her inactivity and unhelpfulness in the challenge makes her the easiest target. There’s not much to say except if she doesn’t pick it up soon and socialize, she will be sitting in the VL.

S.E.E.S.

Jodi: Once again, Jodi has emerged as the tribe leader. Despite being on a plane for the whole day, she has been the most vocal about organizing the challenge. People are very attracted to Jodi’s energy making it easy for her to make allies in any situation she finds herself in. Right now, she has allied with Colin and Josh which easily puts her on the top of this trio alliance. Therefore, she is the safest person on the tribe. She has also been dictating this vote pretty heavily. I fear that Jodi just does not know how to chill though. Her biggest weakness is that she will jump out at anything and try to keep talking when she should just hold back. If she keeps playing the way she is, she will end up as an early jury boot.

Colin: Colin has attached himself to Jodi pretty heavily. I can definitely see this being Colin’s Final 2 rather than any of his allies back on S.E.E.S. The good part about it is that Jodi seems to feel the same way which is great. Additionally, Colin can hide behind Jodi’s massive target at merge.

Josh: Josh does very well in the challenges which keeps him in people’s good graces. His activity definitely helps him survive this tribe as well. He has found himself allied with Jodi out of necessity though. I do not doubt that Colin and Jodi will leave Josh in the dust once merge rolls around and they have their allies back. However, Josh is doing the thing he should be doing at pre-merge: being good at challenges and being active. Anything more would put an unnecessary target on his back at merge.

Babs: Babs is never online and did not even try to help in the challenge. This leaves them low. However, they do still have a Vote Blocker so they can pull some shenanigans if they so choose. Additionally, their inactivity may be used as a shield for now as, at the very least, Jodi is still willing to gtry and get to know Babs.

Shaad: I do not particularly understand why the trio alliance wants to target Shaad. He has a pre-established enemy in Jared and is willing to blow up if he wants to. He could make a great shield in the future, and he would not target these people. However, they believe that Shaad is more useless in the challenges than Babs (despite Babs never being online). And, without any allies on this tribe, there is no one there to vouch for Shaad making his demise seem clear. I hope somehow Shaad can pull himself out, but it does not seem likely.