#she thinks zenos takes after varis and not her

[zakifairer]

Emet-Selch meets an old 'friend' from Garlemald.

(Yes, I did make a wol who is Zenos' mom. The Galvus family drama is exactly as messy as you'd think)

[firelightmuse]

Yume Aino Fanfiction Masterlist

This masterlist will be periodically updated as I get new installments out, and all entries are listed in chronological order according to the canon timeline, with the exception of the supplementary fics and writing prompts.

Updated: 10/02/2024

-> The Main Ongoing Fic Series

Wandering Flames: The Story of Yume Aino and Zenos Galvus

((Additional Entries In Progress))

Save Him - Immediately following the final battle with Zenos at the end of 6.0; After granting Zenos the battle he had been pining for ever since he returned from the dead, Yume makes a life altering decision in a brief moment of desperation.

Return to Me - Immediately following “Save Him” at the end of 6.0; Zenos awakens and is surprised to find himself alive and back on Etheirys, all thanks to the one person he considers a friend. **Coming Soon!**

-> Additional Writings

FFXIVWrite 2024

Steer - Prompt #1: During the events of patch 4.3, quest “Under the Moonlight”; Hali tries to convince Yume to take a step back from participating in the investigation of Zenos’ death and potential resurrection.

Tempest - Prompt #3: During the events of patch 4.0; Yume’s heart is in turmoil over her two losses against the crown prince of Garlemald, and she can’t stop thinking about him.

Stamp - Prompt #5: Following the events of 5.3; Zenos looks around his newly deceased father Varis’s private quarters in the Imperial Palace and finds an item of particular interest.

Duel - Prompt #20: Immediately following the events of 6.0; Zenos finds himself strangely alive, and questioning his own motives and beliefs.

[the-rogue-mockingjay]

6 + 10 for the wol questions 🥺

ty gigi!! /dote 🩷

6. how does your wol feel about romance? are they a hopeless romantic, waiting for The One, or are they more casual? do they believe in soulmates?

O'ravi has some mixed feelings on it lol. In her youth she was something of a hopeless romantic, though it wasn't something she actively searched for (her priorities were more on traveling and learning every piece of music, art, and folklore she could get her hands on). She's always wanted a good, solid relationship, but she also hasn't considered it something attainable for most of her life tbh. She also just never really met anyone she had a connection with/felt attracted to (she's ace and autistic so it's a double whammy of not only are such feelings extremely rare, it's super difficult for her to identify what those feelings are when she has them ldkjfhdkjg).

Her feelings for Haurchefant had started shifting into the romantic in the time leading up to the Vault but she didn't recognize it until. Well. 🥲It was too late. She'd had a very fleeting like 3-day crush on Aymeric when she met him in ARR but after the initial 😳💕 he was just an ally/friend to her. She did eventually fall in love with Aymeric for real (in the days after the Royal Menagerie to be specific; it had been building for a while), and it tore her to shreds inside because she felt that even just being friends with him was putting his life in danger, by virtue of the death and chaos that follows her, Twelve FORBID she became romantically involved with him- in her mind, that'd be no different than going and personally shooting him dead fldgjkhfdkjgh. She didn't stop believing that until after the ENW finale, when she was finally, decisively free of her fate.

She wholeheartedly believes in soulmates, but not in the romantic sense, necessarily; her definition of it is someone who you will reunite with and love in every lifetime, regardless of the type of that love. The list of people that she considers soulmates includes Themis, Aymeric, Haurchefant, Hythlodaeus, and Emet-Selch. Zenos goes on that list too depending on the day, other days she hates him and finds him repulsive lfkjghfdjkgh. Regardless of how she feels, she fully expects to see him in every lifetime from here out, though. She has very mixed feelings about that.

10. how does your wol sleep? very light? very heavy? do they need a specific item to fall asleep, or does it take them forever? where do they prefer sleeping?

O'ravi's a very light sleeper, always has been, and she hates sleeping alone (her tribe doesn't do that, they typically prefer to share space or sleep in sort of cuddle piles if the temperature gets low enough where that's an option). When she first left home and began traveling Eorzea alone, it was a huge adjustment. She's also always been someone who dozes off for 5-10 minutes in the weirdest places (a la those pics of actors sleeping between takes in random nooks on movie sets), and now that she has fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue post-ENW, she's doing this more than ever. Catch her taking cat naps in the sun in between Dawntrail MSQ objectives 😂

After Operation Archon, she started getting nightmares on a regular basis, and this just continually got worse over time. I think she also struggles with insomnia, the intensity of which varies but was worst during Endwalker and Stormblood. Now, a year or two post-ENW, she still has these problems (and will for the rest of her life), but they're semi-manageable.

Her favorite place to sleep is cuddled up to Aymeric 🥹 she unofficially moved in with him a long time ago (sometime between Final Steps of Faith and Post-Dragonsong MSQ) and originally had her own room, but after ENW his room became her room too and it's probably the place she feels safest tbh

[pre-dt wol asks]

[heirbane]

I'm realizing I write a lot of headcanons and ideas into long drabble posts instead of just... posting them.

So, hcs regarding the royal family I've mentioned in drabbles before:

- Varis was wed to a Garlean woman of Solus' choosing. The arrangement was made when he was still a boy and Varis' father still lived. They wed at 19. (I think this is semi-canon, but don't take my word for it.)

- Varis' wife fell pregnant within a few months of their ceremony. She first bore a daughter, one that was healthy on all medical scans, but came into the world asleep and did not awaken. A small memorial for her is hidden in one of the many palace's simulated biome greenhouses. Her name is never formally announced, and the plaque memorial simply dubs her "baby Galvus".

- His wife is with child again a few moons later. This time she bears a son, but does not live long after his birth. If there is a memorial for her, Varis has never revealed it publicly.

- While husband and wife were wed just over a full year, the compounded losses severely impacted Varis. With no supportive family of his own, he is left to raise a child that he has mixed, complicated feelings for. As a result, he doesn't raise Zenos much at all.

- Gaius, who lost his parents within a similar time frame as a child, does what he is able when he is in Garlemald. He has been afoot as Midas and his partner raise Cid, a boy a few years Zenos's senior, and is beginning to see the fallout of Garlemald's heavy-handed colonialism abroad. But he, too, is unwed, inexperienced, and emotionally stunted, as many, many men of Garlemald are. To care for his chosen brother and his chosen brother's colicy child is not something he knows how to do.

- So he doesn't. Zenos's physical care is handed over to wet nurses and tutors, and Varis is left to claw himself out of the chasm of his loss. By the time he does, he is not wholly the same man he was when he entered it, and the stage for what we know as Emperor Varis is set soon after.

[dragoon-mid-jump]

I have a new epiphany regarding the extent of how Y'dehlya feels about Zenos by the very end of EW.

The TL;DR of it is that Y'dehlya is much more fixated in upending the system that created Zenos much more than Zenos himself and only agrees to fight him in the wake of defeating the Endsinger because she believes that if she doesn't, his soul will come back like this.

Full musings under cut:

Yes, he's the crown prince of the empire she swore to dismantle for what it's done to her family, her friends and comrades, and a vast majority of the world she knows. Hell, she even swore to Varis himself at Ghimlyt Dark that she would see his Empire crumble. But Zenos literally did not give a rat's ass about his own homeland in any way, shape, or form. Technically, she did see the Empire dismantled by way of being the reason Zenos stopped the Black Rose Project by killing Varis while she was in the First dealing with the Flood of Light and trying to get all the Scions home, but in a twisted personal single-minded fascination way. And his refusal to take the throne created a power vacuum and civil war that ravaged the country and its people. Kinda like cutting a hydra's head and two more sprouting from the stump. Y'dehlya thinks of this as a cruel form of Equivalent Exchange.

If it weren't for her experiences traveling back to Unsundered Times and diving into the aetherial sea via the Aitiascope; learning about the concept of a soul having memories imprinted into them, and encountering souls that have yet to move on and the weights they carried with them into the afterlife; how her strong drive towards everything she's done so far has been in part a result of the imprint the Final Days situation and then some left on Persephone's soul, she would've continued to refuse to entertain Zenos at the edge of the universe.

What shocks her the most is when he said he will accept it if she does walk away from him after everything. Part of her wants to. Part of her really wants to; to deny him still as his "consequence" for his grievous disrespect of her. But seeing how much became imprinted on Hermes' soul even after he reincarnated after his sundering, and how Zenos came all that way to help her fight the Endsinger moved her to finally give Zenos what he had long been craving; to set his soul at peace, without lingering regrets, in hopes that his next life will be much more fulfilling.

She is very clear with him that this is no ordinary battle; she is not forgiving him for anything he's done. This is a ritual. She will kill him if that battle is what it takes to prevent him/his soul from returning as he is in some way, shape or form. What she doesn't outright tell him is that some part of her pities him. Not until the very end, anyway, when he admits he does regret that this is the only thing that makes him feel satisfied. Until then, she doesn't want to hear what he has to say; his projections of the Y'dehlya Rhikta in his head.

Now Y'dehlya herself enjoys pursuing her own self-indulgent pleasures, too, when moments allow: A nice hot bath after a long day of adventuring, long walks on the beach, decadent sweets, sex, fine wine and spirits, shopping, fine dining and new culinary experiences, etc. She can find joy and pleasure in so many things. But then, he's the crown prince of the most powerful and coldest empire in recent history on top of being a supergenius. He was a Lonely Rich Kid taken to extremes. No wonder the only thing he finds pleasure in is from battling to the death after his sword tutor tried to assassinate him. So when she says these final words to him as he dies, she means it in earnest:

"May you know peace, Zenos Galvus. May your next life be more fulfilling than this."

No middle name title. In omitting that while addressing him, she frees him from what he had been labeled as: "Member of the royal family in the line of succession" and "outcast".

She did this with Fandaniel/Amon despite it all. Why not extend it to him, too?

[ungrateful-cyborg-moved]

What do they think about the Empire? Did their feelings on the matter evolve over time?

My imperial engineer feels rather strongly about the Empire, but It's Complicated™

TL;DR: Might makes right. She loved what it’s been and doesn’t care for what it’s become, except for what she can obtain out of its ashes.

Hanae is the daughter of a Garlean nobleman and a Doman servant. She was conceived and born in Doma before Doma fell, and thought for years that her father had tried to prevent the war between the Empire and Doma. Having no real attachment to either land since she grew up in Kugane and both the Empire and Doma were sore subjects for her mother, she didn’t think much of either until her father took her in and raised her to become the perfect heiress (in hope she’d give him grandsons to claim as rightful heirs since his wife couldn’t conceive).

Hanae did everything she could to become what he wanted her to be. Learned how to act like a noblewoman, learned the History of Garlemald, studied to eventually joined the Magitek Academy, joined the Imperial Army, married a Garlean nobleman and gave him two daughters before he passed away, rose the ranks and fought to help Varis gain power after Emperor’s Solus’ death. She saw herself living the rest of her life in the Empire, the greatest nation of the world, only to see it crumble under its own weight once she had achieved so much.

Hanae loved the Empire.

She wasn’t blind to its faults.

Though what she perceived as such is probably much different than what someone from a conquered nation would have identified as such. She never took issue with assimilation to achieve unity for example, but did find how many Garleans went about it to be excessive. The fact she had to go through so much to achieve what other people managed to get with half the effort, for example, is something that often angers her. But like many things about the Empire, she tends to be angered by what affected her rather than what made other people suffer.

Now that the Empire isn’t anymore, of course, things are different. She mostly blames Zenos and his incompetency for it, since she doesn’t really know what exactly happened, and has no explanation for the Towers.

At this point, I would say that she doesn’t care very much, however. The Empire isn’t anymore and what is left of it is for her to take and shape how she sees fit. Or Garlemald is, at least, though she’s got eyes on the provinces too. That said, Hanae doesn’t want to raise too much attention, and her way to gain power is through criminal activities. Think of it as Don Vito Corleone’s beginnings in The Godfather. That’s where she’s at right now.

Thanks for the ask, @kaerwyn-silvermoon!

[ectojyunk]

Prompt #19: Taken

Timeline: 15 Years Pre-ARR.

WolZenos sort of? But moreso about how Aro got into the mess that is wishing to serve the Garlean royal family.

This one is a draft since I want it to be more fleshed out. But enjoy!

The crowd was a torrent of unmitigated excitement, there were chants and cheers along the lings of "Long live the Emperor!" ringing in the air. Arodaeus waded through the adults while also dragging along a whining Doman child- he didn't know why he was complaining, it was Asahi's idea to see the royal procession up close after all.

"Almost there, just push your way forward!" the miqo'te child said with a hint of excitement. And at last, the stood near the edge of the grand promenade.

They were just in time to witness the royal family passing by. Aro was excited- he would see the emperor, the princes and princesses! He let out a gasp of amazement when his eyes caught the glint of the emperor's armor.

Solus zos Galvus was in his sixties now, but the irrepressible air of commanding strength followed him still- not to mention he would still battle on the frontlines of the main campaigns of the empire.

Behind him followed the two princes in magitek walkers- Varis and Titus- the princess Arrecina sat next to his husband with their son, Nerva.

Meanwhile, following beside the car, General Hypatia had a war machina of her own. As expected- she was an honored warrior even before marrying into the family.

The adults were all fearsome leaders in their own right, Aro knew.

He noticed then, that Varis had his son with him too.

What Aro did not guess is that he would fall for one of the members of the family just by a single glance. He was absolutely taken by him- he now recalled the name of the seldomly-spoken young son of Varis.

Prince Zenos yae Galvus.

He had medium length blond hair, a build that would in time match his fathers, and striking blue eyes. Their age must've been close as well, for the young prince looked no older than thirteen summers.

Yes. He was taken. In that moment, he decided— he would serve Zenos as his honorable guard. And perhaps- maybe the prince might even one day become his knight in shining armor… Oh this was great— he had to tell his father right away. The Legionary training school after the Academy, that was the route he'd take! He would apply to change his rank to tomorrow, the process takes long for non-natives after all, even with his adoptive father's help.

"Don't zone out, idiot!" A voice called out next to him. But it was too late- right after Asahi's warning, a lively jostle from the crow made Aro lose his balance. He fell forward, stumbling right into the front of the large black car.

Oh no. Oh no no no.

The car stopped. This is big trouble, trouble even his father would't be able to get him out of. It would've been better to be trampled by the magitek walkers than to interrupt his Radiance's route.

He felt dizzy, and tried to get up. He could hear the voices of confusion around him. Slight red appeared on his hand when he wiped his nose.

Clink, clank.

Something heavy made his way to him. And then, an unmistakable voice spoke, he'd hear it on the radio at times. But this one was softer. "Stand, child."

He looked up and almost nearly cried. The Emperor towered over him- and his intense gaze was enough to suffocate Aro on the spot. But, he stood up, somehow.

The crowd murmured. Why did his Radiance deign to stop for this random non-native scoundrel? Where were his manners? Who was responsible for this child?

The guards moved in to subdue Aro, but were promptly stopped with a gesture from Solus. "You think me weak enough that a child could harm me? Stand down." They froze.

"I said. Stand. Down."

The guards backed away, leaving Solus and Aro in their own unoccupied little circle. Would he leave this circle alive? He shuddered, this wasn't supposed to happen, it wasn't his fault!

"Name."

"Y-Your Radiance?"

"Your name, child. Speak it."

… Perhaps he would get arrested formally. Oh well- it was better than being taken away forcefully.

"Arodaeus… Arodaeus cen… Viatorem," he said, his lips almost quivering.

Solus sighed, "Impressive, you have earned the honorable title of 'cen' at your age but somehow you still forget to salute your superior while talking to him."

Aro was taken aback- amidst the confusion and commotion, he forgot the basic and most important etiquette that was drilled into him.

Thankfully, the Emperor's words carried a certain jovial tone, which put the crowd at ease- some were even laughing… Aro snuck a glance up at the young prince Zenos who waiting next to his father on the walker that was halted- no readable expression on that one. Though his eyes seemed less empty than before.

Aro shook his head to focus and replied to the Emperor, "My apologies, your Radiance. Amidst the revelry, I lost my footing and seem to have interrupted the procession. Please- I accept any punishment you see just…"

Silence. And then, a crack of a smile forming of Solus's face. Not only a smile, but cackling. The audience - even his son and grandson - were shocked.

"Punishment? If I were to punish every citizen who tripped and fell, I would have no subjects left, young one!" He turned to the crowd. "As you can see from the exceptional grasp of language at such a tender age - and his rank besides- our reformed education can teach even the lowest of savages to become humble modern men! Citizens, I ask you to forgive this child's transgression- and celebrate the future of our nation."

The crowd roared. As they cheered, Solus bent low to whisper to Aro, "Do take my apologies for likening you to the foreign enemies- it is a game of politics, you see. You shall understand when you're older."

Aro nodded hastily and muttered a remark of understanding. Before Solus got up, he had one more things to say to the young miqo'te, "Oh and I suggest changing that surname. Pick another foster family if you must. I'm sure you must've realised the connotations…"

"I'll… try my best, your Radiance," Aro said half-heartedly. As much as he respected the Founder, he also respected his father, and didn't care for abandoning his legacy no matter the disadvantages it may give him.

Solus returned to his vehicle as Aro was escorted back into the crowd. The procession proceeded apace, and Aro swore Zenos shot him a cursory glance as their magitek went by. He sighed, it was likely something else in the crowd got his attention because not a moment sooner he was looking ahead, with a bored expression plastered on his face.

"There you are. I thought finally I had the dorm room to myself," Asahi grumbled. "So, what did he whisper to you? Tell me!"

Aro giggled, "Hmm… I'll tell you if I get the top bunk for, let's sayyy… the rest of the semester?"

"That's not fair- half a semester!"

"A whole semester or nothing!"

After the procession, they would finally relent at sunset and settle on three fourth's of a semester.

[kiryll-antiqua]

Ring

Among Kiryll’s gifts was what appeared to be an Eorzea-styled ring of Eternal Bonding, attuned to an aetheryte installed in a closet in the Imperial Palace.

Only used once, or perhaps twice, although, if he remembered right, three times, or maybe a fourth? 

It was a way that was devised to give Kiryll a private audience with Lord Varis at his leisure. It came with a letter of apology after they had parted from their first time together. Since Varis had no way of using such a thing himself, and Kiryll could just teleport anywhere he wanted once he got access to a place, so it seemed discreet enough.

Kiryll had had another such ring once, which was exchanged as more of a way of helping a friend get a leg up on getting her start in adventuring than any kind of romantic encounter. He hoped she was well, wherever she was, for they had both moved on at least twice from each other's circles by now.

The idea of a marriage ceremony was a little skewed in his own mind. His own parents had been married all his life, but his mother's safety had depended upon his father keeping it a secret, so things like ceremonies mattered very little to him in terms of romance. He himself as an escort man found himself on the wrong side of marriage vows quite a lot, usually by accident, usually finding out during or after his services were being performed.

During his first few weeks with Varis, getting to talk about Lady Mia and how devastated he was at her loss, left him in a state of disinterest for marrying again, yet here this letter was, and there this ring was.

Their letters back and forth were always circular. 

I miss you, I love you, I need you, please stop what you’re doing and be with me, sent back and forth to each other, with more or less words added depending on the mood, with various levels of sorrow or contempt added on.

Kiryll couldn’t tell if his fixation was worse, or if Varis’s fixation was worse, but Kiryll figured that if Varis were truly off his rocker, he did have the means to do something intense, like have him kidnapped if he wanted, but it obviously wasn’t what he wanted. And that’s what kept Kiryll’s thoughts swirling back to him.

The first time he tried it, he didn’t even think it would work, but it actually did, and he immediately teleported back home. He had no idea if anyone even noticed he had tried.

The second time he tried it, it was the middle of the night, and he crept out into the room, trying to be as silent as he could. Varis had a habit of sleeping on his side, and usually clutched something close to his chest, usually a pillow or a blanket when a partner was not available. Kiryll placed a hand on his shoulder and tried to wake him, but he was completely out. This would have been the perfect time to perhaps murder him while his guards thought his room completely secure, but that was never what he wanted. Unsure how he would take to waking up next to him, Kiryll wrote him a note instead. “Will call again tomorrow a little earlier.”

The third time was a little more fun, and could have very well counted as the first or only time it was used to its intended effect.

The fourth time was when it fell out of its hiding place as Kiryll was moving out of Ul’dah, after he had helped defeat the Endsinger. He had no idea what he was thinking, but he tried it and found himself in a freefall in Babil Tower, which he supposed was better than finding the room in a state of desecration initiated by Zenos, but it was still upsetting, but not so upsetting that he couldn’t quickly chant Return before hitting some grated metal platform.

Ul’dah continued on, as bright as ever, not having a single clue what he was going through, and for the most part, it was good that it didn’t, and it would be pretty terrible if it acknowledged his grief, because then a lot of people would know about it, but it was too hot outside, and too bright, and too noisy for his tastes, so he just made for his apartment and continued to pack.

[displacedarchon]

Every so often I have the thought, that I should keep Haruchefant alive in Himi’s FFXIV story.  Because I’ve grown to really like their chemistry and writing the two’s adventures is REALLY fun. (Plus who doesn’t want to see angy Haurchefant vs Zenos?) Buuuuut.  Himi is a character I’ve had for 20ish years, give or take. She’s always been a FF/KH oc and due to the nature of things, especially when I started rping with her.... She’s never really had to deal with someone dying and it not being reversible, as a character overall.  It’s not that no one EVER died...but she or someone else could resurrect them. Or they’d come back in some other way.  Including her!  She was part of a consistent RP story line for 15ish years, so there’s NO way I could even begin to delve into everything she’s done in one post. FFXIV Himi has inherited the appearance, a couple of the names, and character traits of Original Himi, she’s truly a shard in a way!  FFXIV Himi is obviously not...a keyblade wielder who has harassed Sora on more than one occasion for Orichalcum, but , y’know. And it’s not that death didn’t ever have an impact or was never taken seriously or never had its solemn moments, it’s just that when your friends are varying degrees of Immortal at best, or at worst, need to be brought back to life every so often there’s less FEAR when it happens. At least for her.  Which is why, that even thought FFXIV Himi didn’t go through anything that Original Himi did, I’m letting Haurchefant die when he does in HW.  Because WOW. When I think about how that would affect her? Her character develops and grows in a way that Original Himi NEVER could (unless jump the shark forced).  It changes how she handles the rest of HW, it changes how she acts in Stormblood, (especially when Thancred passes out) hell, it changes how she interacts with Emet-Selch in Shadowbringers, and by the time Endwalker rolls around she’s not just heehoo Original Himi implanted into FFXIV anymore. Through ARR and the start of HW, she’s a pacifist as much as possible because her healing magic isn’t working as well as it used to. She prefers teleporting her enemies away, or sleeping them, unless she is FORCED to kill other people, she avoids it. After Haurchefant? She’d struggle to still have mercy.  She’d struggle with the title of “Warrior of Light”. When Thancred collapses and for a split second she thinks he’s dead? Aymeric removes her from the room as quickly as he possibly can because she’s got the same expression on her face as the day Haurchefant died and he knows she’s about to start screaming and he’d rather hear her scream like that twice than let anyone else hear her in that much distress once.  Emet-Selch, an Unsundered Ascian? Jumped into the role of Emperor Solus? WELL; he’s already implied that he knew her before the sundering and was quite fond of her so WHAT IF she just tries to convince him to ditch the whole rejoining thing and forget about Zodiark and become a good guy again because HEY he’s immortal which means that he wouldn’t die on her unless SHE stabbed him with a weapon of light so what if she made a genuine effort to get ALL her memories back and rekindle whatever they USED to have and she’d never have to worry about the person she loved dying on her ever again!  And then, in Endwalker, when she decides she’s not a hero because she can’t smile anymore, how does she unpack all the grief that’s been eating away at her slowly? Aggrevated by, more deaths that can’t be undone and never given the time she needs to rest, to grieve, to heal?  What prevents her from helping Fandaniel? What stops her from giving into the Dynamis and turning into a monster, being lost forever?  Hell, how is she able to fight crystal mom? Or Meteion?  How does she make it to the end of Endwalker at ALL?  So as fun as it would be to have Haurchefant (and others) live, to see him smack his shield across Zenos’s face, or have him knock some sense into the Crystal Exarch, or giving the peppiest pep talk to Meteion.  The weight of grief, and how it changes her, would be more interesting and enjoyable for me to explore. Because it’s not a weight that I’ve ever explored with that character in the 20 years that I’ve had her. She’s always had a poetic realtionship with death, and not that there wouldn’t be any poetry for FFXIV, it works better, I think anyways for FFXIV which really seems to want to tackle the meaning of grief (even if the WoL model is silent and has 3 expressions the entire ti,e. dahsjdasjkdhaks). 

[constellationkeeper]

The wording in this is interesting. Most hated rival/villain really makes me think, because despite everything, Tsinaan struggles to say that she hates even villains like Zenos and Emet-Selch. Her most hated people are those who refuse to take accountability or acknowledge that they are victims of their own will or circumstance.

She has rarely hated anyone to the point where she believed that they were beyond redemption or at least dialogue, but those that came to mind were Asahi sas Brutus and Varis zos Galvus.

We all know Asahi is too focused to look at anyone else, so if Varis was after Tsinaan? She would be horrified. In an AU, if the Ascians whispered to Varis that the Warrior of Light was destined to be his new Empress, she would run to the ends of the known world to avoid him. If his son is any indication, there's no doubt that Varis' "affection" would be nothing short of obsession, so the only thing that would make Tsinaan stop and acknowledge him would be if he actually did threaten to wipe out civilisations to make the hunt end.

This is such a wild concept, but I'm enough of a villain-fucker to acknowledge that Varis is hot in his own way.

#WOLpromptAday

April 8, 2024

How would your WOL react if they learned that their most hated rival / villain (not our “friend”) is desperately in love with them? Would they consider themselves lucky or be horrified? How do they feel about someone willing to wipe out entire civilizations to gain your WOLs attention?

[herohikara-wol]

FFXIV Write 2K22 - Prompt 6

Onerous

Hero’s preparing for his Eternal Bonding Ceremony to Zenos as per Garlean Tradition, and has an echo memory far more invasive than normal.

TW: No dead naming, but Hero’s Echo Memory does out someone who’s post-transition and that can be emotionally upsetting on its own. The story does take care to use proper pronouns once it’s addressed, but do be aware.

An Eternal Bond was about love, at least from Hero’s perspective. You love someone, you make a commitment to be with them through everything. He was quickly learning that’s not how bonding worked for royalty. Ceremony after ceremony was giving the viera a lingering headache rivaling the pain he felt from a bad echo flashback. Every time he thought he understood, there was something he was doing wrong.

Of course, his future groom’s father was not helping. Varis was an imposing wall of a man during the best of times, but now? He was just nit-picking. “Back straight, you need to make fluid graceful movements. Every eye in the room will be upon you.”

Hero grit his teeth and tried again, trying to stiffen up and move gracefully at the same time. When he heard Varis inhale sharply through the nose again? Hero finally whirled about on his heel. “What? Say it! Come out and say it. I know you don’t think I’m good enough to be here but for fuck’s sake at least have the decency to tell me the truth instead of piling restriction upon restriction on my every move!”

Apparently he caught the older man off guard, because Varis’ eyes widened and his nostrils flared in a distinctly Emet-Selch-as-Solus way before he regained his composure. “I assure you, that is not my intent. After all that has happened in the Empire, I- I suppose I want this to be perfect so my detractors have less cause for complaint. In trying to do so, I must seem like an over-critical parent to you.”

Thankfully Zenos wasn’t in the room, else he’d be willing to cut the tension between them with a knife. Moreso when Hero suddenly swooned, a memory of Varis’ past bubbling to the surface.

A young Garlean woman sat in the same room Hero was in now, staring at herself in the mirror decorated in wedding finery with disdain. She raised a single fist toward her reflection only to startle out of it when the door opened behind her. “Regula? You shouldn’t be here, it’s bad luck.”

The dashing man behind her was Regula? Then who was the bride? “So is smashing mirrors,” he said a name but the memory itself seemed to drown it out. As if the name had been wiped away. “All this pomp and ceremony doesn’t suit me, and that dress doesn’t suit you.”

“It is traditional.” She replied, sounding almost broken inside. “At least while the country still sees me as their princess.”

“You would be a much more charming prince.” Regula reached out to her and Hero was starting to understand. Not her. Him. Him long ago before Solus broke him. “Have you picked a name yet?”

“For myself or for the baby?” Ah, that would do it. That was the complicating wrench in the matter. No wonder he was angry enough to smash a mirror.

“Yourself, I hate calling you by a name that isn’t yours. I love you, I want to support you no matter what.”

“Varis. I found it in one of the baby name books, I- I think I like that one.” Now that Hero thought about it, he was seeing Varis’ back but not his face. Never his face. This was a memory he didn’t deserve to see, a private moment that should have stayed as such. A curse of his blessing once more.

“Varis then.” Regula smiled and reached out to pull his future spouse close, “I Regula, do promise to take Varis yae Galvus to be my loving husband. To have and to hold, to honor and cherish, to support and protect. Until my last breath.”

“Regula- you don’t know that grandsire will put me in the line of succession.”

“If he doesn’t, he’s a damned fool.”

Varis seemed to soften up, stepping forward. “Fine, I- Varis, do take Regula sas Hydra, to be my loving husband.” Varis repeated Regula’s vows, word for word, closing them with a chaste and lingering kiss. “You know how many traditions we’ve broken, right?”

“I don’t need tradition, I need you and your happiness. That’s all I’ll ever need.”

Hero snapped back to himself on the floor, a medicus hovering over him as Varis paced circles about the room. “I’m fine, I’m fine- echo memory, happens all the time.” He noted it was Varis’ personal medicus too, an odd show of care from a man who only showed love through the most subtle ways.

“A memory?” The medicus left as Varis swallowed hard, his eyes locking on Hero’s own with an intensity that made Hero uncomfortable. “What kind of memory?”

“I think it was your wedding day.” Varis swallowed again and looked torn between making excuses and just silencing Hero permanently when Hero held up a hand. “I heard Regula vow to love you until death, Varis. I promise you, that is the only name I will ever know you by. You’re my future father in-law and I’m starting to understand why you’re pressing me so hard about tradition.” He chewed his lip to try to find the right words, “are you worried that if Zenos and I break from tradition we’ll suffer for it?”

“I-” The larger man sat down quietly in one of the chairs lining the room, letting out a sigh that seemed to rob half his height from him. “I wish I could so easily blame everything that’s happened on Regula and I forgoing tradition and making our own rules together. Except I wouldn’t trade those choices for this whole bloody empire. I had him for twenty wonderful years, and though I wish I could turn back time and keep him selfishly at my side, I am not my grandsire. I will not moor myself to a fixed point I cannot change. I can only try to keep moving forward, take care of our son, and create the future we both longed to share.”

Hero nodded and stood quietly, “I’m sorry my stupid echo invaided your privacy like that, but thank you anyway. I think I do understand better now. Shall we try the rehearsal again? I promise I’ll take it more seriously.”

“Honestly? I hated practicing for it too. Worst three weeks of my life. I’d take having to go back and do military grunt work over this bloody pomp and ceremony any day.” The emperor cracked a smile and sat upright properly again, “besides, Zenos probably won’t care a whit if you remember the steps so long as you’re his by the end of it. Keep that in mind and you’ll probably do fine.”

“As you say, your Radiance.”

[starcunning]

2. Bolt

Breath of Morning

For @sea-wolf-coast-to-coast's FFXIVWrite 2022. [AO3 mirror] References to adult situations/NSFW content. Not explicit.

She wakes with a start to unfamiliar environs.

This is not her ceiling—not the canopy of canvas hung over the bed in her cliffside waystop; not the stone facade that rises above Mor Dhona, giving a name to the likeliest place for her to lay her head. This is certainly not the gilt-tracery mosaic of some Amaurot apartment.

It’s warm.

She hears the rise and fall of breathing far too steady to be her own, and Shasi slowly turns her head.

The spill of his blonde hair is lank and damp from the shower—bells must have passed since then, and in Thanalan the desert air would have wrung them both out long since, but … she strains to listen past Eros’s breathing, and yes; there is the distant rush of waves.

La Noscea, then. With him—neither should be a surprise. How often had she returned to Limsa Lominsa simply for him? Her head hurts and her throat is dry. His arms are heavy, still wound around her.

One touches the small of her back, fingers splayed loosely over the branching, fern-like scar, twin to the one on her front. His other hand is between her legs, thick fingers not quite reaching inside her. Shasi shifts her weight and finds herself sore; his fingertips spark that sensation anew.

Not a surprise that she’d come here. An inevitability. She had found him dancing for money, stole him away for a drink, and turned his head by refraining to follow up with the usual proposition. In return he had poured out a measure of trust; had laid before her a banquet of secrets and suffering, speaking of things too long unspoken. This she was used to.

Then Eros van Aventis—no, Eros yae Galvus—had asked her to unburden herself before him in turn.

This was strange.

So too the fact that she had fallen asleep in this rented bed—she had meant to linger only so long as it took him to fall asleep, but perhaps she had succumbed first. It will take some doing to extricate herself from his grasp, and yet she must. With war-callused hands she grasps his wrists, marveling at the black and red whorls of ink that decorate his skin. Slowly—ever so slowly—she unwinds them from about her.

He stirs, and she freezes, ears trained forward to catch any hitch in his breathing. Her attention lingers upon his face; the fringe of his pale lashes hides those golden eyes, and with his face slack in sleep the resemblance to his kin is more obvious than ever. Awake, he is rather too animated—not given to Zenos’s apathetic anomie nor Varis’s dour mien, the relative he most resembles, she finds, is his grandsire Solus. But Eros’s smiles are more expressive than wry, and that dimple in his cheek is not of the Galvus canon. Something of his mother’s, she supposes.

He does not rouse as she lays his arms loosely atop his chest. Shasi finds the room far colder once she’s slipped from the bed; she gathers her discarded clothing, clutching it to herself. There comes the oddest impulse to stay—after all, he had invited her to, less with words than deeds when he had turned on its face the chronometer meant to keep the time she was allotted with him. No less so when they had washed in the wake of their coupling and he had not handed her those garments she now holds against her body, but tugged her back into the bed that still smelled of them both. But she had been lucky to wake silent once and would not be so again. His face is so peaceful in repose, she thinks. She will not be the one to steal the ease from that countenance.

If she does not go now, she will never make it out. Shasi creeps across the floor, and quiet as she can, puts a door between them, standing naked in the silent halls of the bawdyhouse that—however impossibly—hosts a prodigal prince of the Empire. The sky is pre-dawn grey outside the distant windows, and she hastens to dress, confident now that the sound of her footfalls should not give her away.

Knowing not what she flees, X’shasi Kilntreader steals away into the last of the night.

[autumnslance]

I noticed you doing character bingos again! I’d like to see one for Zenos if possible. I had fun with him in Stormblood, but found that joy to drowned with how he was handled in Endwalker. By the end I just wanted to be done with that monster. If the game had let me walk away without fighting him, like he suggested, I would have.

Wild, we're about the opposite; I disliked Zenos a great deal in Stormblood--he was bloody useless and an annoyance out of nowhere--while I feel they finally figured him out and mostly hit their stride with him in Endwalker, as he gave up pretending to care about military and political matters and became the wandering blood knight he actually is.

Almost got a bingo, but let's be real; I always have too much to say about major characters.

I also won't say anything negative about folks' WoLships, which are by far the most popular Zenos pairing; folks have their fun and they're welcome to it. But fandom is a good chunk of the issue with Zenos. One either loves him or hates him, and both sides tend to take it to extremes and flanderize / mischaracterize the man rather than dealing with the canon portrayal.

In my opinion, he's not that deep. Yes I have read "The Hunt Begins" thank you I own a copy of Chronicles of Light. It told us nothing new about his history and personality, just gave us a glimpse of where he started to find his focus, exactly as the title tells us. The thing is, Zenos doesn't have to be "deep" (whatever one means by that) to be compelling and do his job as a character in the story. Given his straightforward viewpoints, especially in EW as he gives an answer to Hermes' questions, Zenos himself might scoff at the need to find hidden depth of meaning to his personality and existence.

I've also said somewhere, probably my other big Zenos write-up, that he's not quite tragic, though there's tragedy all around and through him. He chooses to not deal with it in any fashion, a creature of the present entirely.

I think he needed a better introduction, seeded over the HW patches, even just in discussion and rumors if we still didn't see him until that patch 3.55 shot. I think he should have done something in StB other than be a "lose the fight the right way" plot checkpoint and just handing Doma and Ala Mhigo back to the heroes without having to really work for them.

I really think a massive part of the dissatisfaction many folks have with StB's story is that the victories are hollow after so much misery in those lands, who are then each shorted due to sharing the expansion. And a lot of that comes down to the misuse of Zenos, whose attributes are mostly told to us as he sleeps on the throne and bullies his underlings. For a supposedly brilliant man, we never see it in his military strategies, and he's played handily by Fandaniel, who knew just how to pull Zenos's strings.

So yeah. I was ready to be done with him in EW; "In From the Cold" is horrifying but I see it more as Fandaniel's scheme that Zenos goes all into. My WoL stopped caring about Zenos the moment trial 1 ended and Fandaniel's scheme became clear. I eye rolled whenever Zenos came back onscreen, though I think the scene in Garlemald with Jullus and Alisaie were good for him and lead directly into the finale.

I know what I just wrote and that I checked "too much screentime" but honestly he got a shade too little in EW. I DID dread/expect some kinda 11th hour teamup, though the "how" made me laugh incredulously. It worked in its weird way.

The final fight he still didn't understand my WoL but she was done and wanted to make sure it was finally over and he wouldn't darken her door or threaten anyone again. The solo duel is not unknown in other FF games, and I rather enjoyed it and the final punch-out at the end as they exhausted themselves entirely.

Mileage varies, depending on one's WoL, feelings on Zenos, and on that tropey duel of mirrored characters. I've also already spoken to the gripes about him being truly gone per Word of God and while one can do whatever one wants in fanfic, there's a lot of reason it does, in fact, work to leave his corpse at the edge of the universe and I'm OK with it. His part in the story, and how that affects Assumed Default Warrior of Light's self-understanding, is complete.

Like the Ascians, he's done. Interested to see what's up with his Avatar, since we also got nothing on his being a Reaper (could have used more on that too!!) as we move into the 6.x patches and build up of the next arc.

[a-boros-named-seamus]

Allow me to rephrase my point more clearly and concisely, because i think i buried it under semi related tangents. And also while i knew Varis was respectful, i didnt know about his mentor.

Zenos (and base Stomblood Yotsuyu) get treated like that because by the point we meet them, they are self conciously and intentionally monstrous people. They both take out the abuse and neglect they suffered on the rest of the world.

Stormblood Patch Content Yotsuyu and Zenos mirror each other fairly well. When Yotsuyu's memories come back and Asahi pushes her into lashing out, she is devastated. You can tell that she does not want to be the dreaded Yotsuyu again. She gets a fresh start, makes hood use of it, and has it ripped away and the story frames this as the tragedy it is.

Zenos, on the other hand, gets a fresh start, and immediately decides that he wants it all BACK. He WANTS to be Zenos yae Galvus. It becomes clear that, however it came to him, he revels in his strength and brutality. And so he is a Villain.

He's hedonistic nihilism incarnate, and it honestly works so well from my perspective.

Also (to adress your reply to me) , Emet and Meteion still very much die for what they did. Emet gets a couple of opportunities to atone and takes them, but it's up to the player if tgat constitutes redemption, or just respect for an opponent. Meteion fought in every way she could against the collective and failed.

Varis gets respect from every Garlean we meet because he is The Emperor. Of Garlemald. He rules pureblood Garleans fairly if with strict policies. The narrative does not respect him as a major player after Emet shows up though. He becomes a pawn, chafing at the one pulling the levers.

To sum up, the narrative treats Zenos as the hedonistic monstr he actively presents himself as and acts like

Hey so someone explain to me why like 90% of all the antags in ffxiv get treated with kid gloves and get redeemed EXCEPT Zenos. Why is he an irredeemable evil despite being arguably the closest thing our WoL has to an equal on several levels.

Genocidal rulers get to be redeemed because they're waifublobs, Golbez gets redeemed because the waifublob of the patch demands it, the fucking bird who wants to wipe out all life in the universe gets redeemed because she's saaaaad (and a moe/waifublob), and lets not forget Emet Selch.

All of these characters have far worse writing, far less connection to the main cast and have committed far worse crimes than Zenos. There is an incredible disconnect in how the narrative treats Zenos vs them.

[twotonedechoes]

So. I'm gonna go on a bit of a diatribe here.

Last night, I finally figured out my issue with Zenos. Simply put, it's that I like him as a character but I hate him as a villain. He's got an intriguing story, unique personality and manner, clearly a good look, and is generally a likeable, if morally ambiguous character. This easily shows in his appearance in Dissidia, where he is awesome because he's in his element. He's there to fight, and he's having a fucking blast doing it.

Comparatively, when used as a villain he fails spectacularly. This is due mainly to the simple fact that he just... doesn't do anything. At all. Ever. His presence never serves to move the plot forward in any meaningful way, and you could remove him entirely, and nothing from the narrative would change.

Yes, there are examples. We get his intro scene where he's marching into the city. He's presented in this ominous and imposing grand manner, but he then proceeds to do... nothing. Literally nothing. He just sits there, looking bored. He takes no initiative, and caused no forward movement. He just lazily slightly reacts to what is unfolding.

The scene in the Reach, which is supposed to be his first truly shining moment, when we are shocked and defeated. But you could completely remove him from the moment, take that whole thing out and. Nothing changes. Even without him, the attack on the Reach would be crushing, and the response the same. It could just as easily have only been Fordola, and her making a retreat after doing enough damage.

Then we have the assassination attempt by Yugiri. Again, this entire sequence could be taken out completely, and nothing would change in the grand narrative. It does nothing for the forward movement of the plot, and if anything feels more like a distraction, or side mission. In the scene with the officers where he takes Fordola's plan to heart, there is nothing he actually contributes. It's Fordola's plan, and she is the one we have to contend with as it's launched.

He threats Yotsuyu all so intimidatingly, but it doesn't actually serve to change anything in the plot trajectory. She was going to keep fighting us regardless.

Ala Mhigo as a dungeon and climax would work just as well if we'd just fought him in the throne room, and he'd killed himself then and there. The whole Shinryu thing plans no part in the grander narrative. In fact, we're the only ones to see it, and it's never mentioned again. It didn't matter, outside of his personal story. Not the WoL's. Not the grander plot. Just his.

The body snatching is cool, but again, changes nothing. Elidibus would have left to come hunt us down after sensing Emet's death regardless. Sure he kills Varis-possibly the only actual impact he has on the plot-but it could have just as easily been a confrontation with Gaius and Estinien that resulted in it and the following civil war, for all the impact he has afterwards.

Fandaniel is the one to take initiative and set the next events in motion. In fact, Zenos makes it perfectly clear that he actually doesn't give a shit about it, and is not going to do a damned thing to contribute. We get his slight plot progression, but again, nothing to the bigger story.

Compare that to Emet-Selch's story impact. His exposition permanently changes the way we as the player as well as the Scions and WoL in game react to and think of the Ascians and the world. His intervention in the Exarch's final plan is the sole reason we have the last part and area of the game. Discovering and seeing Amarout is a huge deal, and it doesn't happen without Emet, and Emet specifically. There's no other character you can swap in to get that forward momentum, without fundamentally changing who they are to fit the role Emet plays. Or, for a lesser example, consider Vauthry. There simply is no Eulmore without him. He is the linchpin that creates every ounce of conflict in Kholusia. Take him out, and there's nothing left. He is essential (and again here, we have Emet once more serving as an essential piece).

Even taking it back to ARR, Gaius' appearance irreversibly changes where the plot goes. His slow propaganda towards pro-Empire feelings is a constant background effect. And when he finally shows up with the Ultima Weapon, our entire goal changes to defeating it. Again, there is no ARR without Gaius. He is essential. Whereas you can literally remove Zenos entirely and nothing is effected.

wtl:dr-Zenos is a good character that fails because he is horribly utilized and implemented into the plot.

[usagi-mitsu]

Prompt #14 Commend

Speaking about ones feelings is hard. In some cases, it‘s harder. But this conversation had been long overdue - and had not gotten easier with time…

@sea-wolf-coast-to-coast // #ffxivwrite2021

Prompt #14 Commend

A continuation of Prompt #8 Friable.

Leaving the spoils of Shia‘s day out in the field behind, the two of them looked for a quiet room. Yes. Everybody was aware of the tensions between them. That did not mean they needed to hear them arguing. Or whatever else might occur.

G‘raha for one hoped they might clear the air. It had been abundantly clear that they needed to talk. Be it how she acted around him or much more, how she tried to avoid his company all together. He had been taken by surprise when she had showed up the day prior, asking if he could lend her an ear or both. That she initiated it was a heaven-sent – he had no idea how to start the conversation to begin with. And he had seemingly even less of an idea about how to have it. Which had ended with her shoving a chair and storming out on him. Half the Rising Stones witnessed it as he had tried to follow, to reason. But that had only enraged her further. She had then been gone for another day and a half. Had Thancred not told him she was back, G‘Raha wouldn‘t have noticed for probably another day or so.

They finally found a quiet space in the back of their headquarters. The front still was a tavern after all and the insides where they resided now had belonged to it, serving as guestbooks and conference areas of sort. But with Mor Dhona not exactly having been a tourist attraction or a centre of commerce (at least not before the Scions arrived), the owner of the tavern gladly offered the space to Minfilla, when she asked.

The rooms walls had been hidden behind bookshelves, with a couch in the back. Where there should have been a pool table though, they found just a simple wooden desk with two chairs. It did feel a bit like they were about to interrogate each other.

Shia knew how to remedy that though. Her eyes searched and found one of the shelves, where she pulled out a thick book.

„Whisky?“

Opening it, the insides revealed not the contents of „The Ishgardian-Limsan Sex and Cook Book and How to Raise Morbols“, but two glasses and a bottle filled with a golden liquid.

G‘Raha simply nodded.

„Do I want to know how you know about this?“

She grinned while pouring. „Thancred and I have had our arguments over the years. This is one of the things we agree on and whenever either of us needs some me-time or if we have to discuss things and such, we get this. And then we discuss. Or just drink. It depends on the topic. And the one having the last of it, has to replace the bottle. It‘s quite the convenient arrangement.“

„I can tell.“

A careful sniff on the glass almost curled his nose hair backwards. This was strong stuff.

„To us,“ Shia sat down and raised her drink. He joined her at the table, clinking his glass to hers.

„To us.“

For a minute they were just silent. The taste of the whisky had caught G‘raha off of his guard – even though he had thoroughly taken in it‘s scent before. He needed that minute to stop coughing.

„You know you are not supposed to inhale this, right? It‘s for drinking.“

The grin in Shia‘s voice was hard to overhear.

„Please don‘t mind me,“ he replied the moment he could catch his breath, „I‘m just the one with the body that hasn‘t had any alcohol in months.“

„I‘m sorry,“ Shia amended, „I promise to consider my words more carefully from now on … well. At least for this conversation.“

And they were back on topic.

„I‘m sorry for yesterday. I had hoped to speak to you about this much earlier, but I never had the courage to do so.“ Shia kept her voice as quiet and controlled as she could, even though the thought of speaking her thoughts out loud made her want to scream and run away. Running away from her problems though had never solved them. Or it had at least that one time when they were running from the brass blades and-

She shook her head. Stay on topic!

G‘Raha seemingly hadn‘t noticed her thoughts trailing off. „Thank you for initiating. I realise that this is not an easy conversation and I commend you for starting it. I would like to apologise for not being in the right mindset yesterday. This could have gone far better.“

„It wasn‘t your fault alone. As I mentioned before, my ego is brittle and you managed to hit some spots that I was hoping you would not. Then again… you were right and I should not have reacted like this.“

„Your ego is not brittle,“ he deliberately took another sip from his glass, „if it was, I highly doubt people like Lolorito or Varis zos Galvus would still be walking this earth.“

„You forget that Varis has kicked the bucked a few weeks ago.“

„Not by your hand.“

„But I would have loved to be the one to do it.“

„You should tell Zenos whenever you next meet him.“

Shia cackled. „Yes. I‘ll say „how dare you kill your father and not letting me do it“! And he might even apologise before trying to kill me – again.“

„You just occupy a very special place in his hear. He adores you, or so I have heard.“

„He is a homicidal maniac with a tendency to gut people, overthrow empires and burn countries to the ground but sure. Let‘s say he adores me. Perhaps I should ask him for a ring and a ceremony of eternal bonding and then we have a „Kill Jill“ style fight on our wedding night. Might end this whole world ending business early.“

„And what about Fandaniel?“

„He can be our target practice instead of having a cake?“

„Sounds lovely.“

„Yeah…“

The two of them fell silent once more.

Shia was the one bring them back to their previous conversation topic.

„Right. So. If I may, I would like to just… I would like to just say what‘s been on my mind? If that is ok? It‘s a lot and I know we don‘t have all the time in the world and we-„

„Shia,“ G‘Raha leaned forward. Very gently he took her hand in his. „We will take all the time we need to get this right. All that matters is the outcome, alright?“

She nodded.

And finally spilled it all.

What she had felt for him when they had been researching the Crystal Tower. How she felt when he decided to lock himself away. How Haurchefant and the Scions had helped her get him off of her mind.

About the feelings she had been hiding form a certain Lord Commander and how she had hoped to finally be over him, when he „decided“ to just barge back into her life and rescue her from the battlefield.

About her fear and dread as the Scions, her closest and possibly only real friends in this world, slipped away one after another with no cure or solution in sight.

Her anger and hatred towards the Crystal Exarch, as he was the one responsible for her fears and worries.

How she came to care about him against her own better judgement.

How it hurt when he tried to safe her, only for him to get abducted by her fiercest enemy. She told him about the relief and happiness at his return.

What that night in the pendants truly meant to her.

And about the hurt and anger at his refusal to be together with her, when he had clearly stated that he felt just the same.

How afraid of loosing him she was once more, when she saw him half encased in crystal. And how it broke her heart to see him die then and there atop the tower.

About her reservations before merging his memories with his younger body.

And finally about how all of this hurt. That it hurt so much, she still wasn‘t able to think clearly about it all.

„You were gone. Then you were back. Then you pushed me away. And then you almost died, actually died and now you are back and now you continuously follow me on my missions – you reenacted our very first meeting, Raha! I just… I just can‘t. And it‘s not like this is the only thing on my mind: I‘m still helping out at the Bozjan southern front. The fourth imperial legion is a nightmare to deal with. And don‘t let me get started with Gaius‘ family troubles-“

„Gaius as in… van Baelsar?“ G‘Raha had not dared interrupt her until now, but this one thing he needed confirmed.

„The one and only.“

„I would like to hear more about that when we have finished this conversation, if you don‘t mind. It sounds… interesting.“

„I‘ll tell you all about it – afterwards.“ Shia groaned and hid her face in her hands. „So… to sum it up… these last few weeks, months have been an emotional roller coaster for me. I love you. I want to love you. But I don‘t know what you feel and you have not exactly been forthcoming about it. To distract myself I jumped into work and just… I didn’t want to think about this. I really didn‘t. I still don‘t want to. Having this conversation is overdue, but I‘m so afraid of what comes next. I‘m so afraid, Raha. And then again I‘m not even sure if I should like you! You are the one responsible for almost loosing my best friends – my family! And you almost killed yourself with your plan and-“

Her last words were drowned out by a sob and to G’Rahas horror she began to cry.

„And… and all of that on top of us having to save the world.“

Her last words were almost inaudible. Thick tears rolled form her baby blue eyes while she kept on sobbing uncontrollably.

G‘Raha wasn‘t sure what to do, but he followed his instincts. He was quicker on his feet than he thought he could be and had his arms around her within the blink of an eye.

And for a few minutes they just stood there, arm in arm with Shia sobbing uncontrollably into his shoulder.

After everything she had just told him, after having to bottle all of this up, it wasn‘t really a surprise to him. Had she ever allowed herself to be vulnerable with anyone before? Like this? Not just speaking about her worries for the politics and battles fo the world. But also about her worries, feelings, hopes and dreams?

„I‘m here,“ he whispered, „I‘m here Shia. Iti‘s ok. I‘m here.“ It was all he could do: Reassuring her, that she was not alone. That she did not need to suffer on her own. That it would be ok.

Shia gripped him tighter and only let go after what felt like an eternity.

„I‘m sorry…“ she sniffed and looked at him. Her eyes were swollen, her cheeks puffy and red. She had probably worn at least some mascara, which now outlined that path of her tears across her face to her chin.

„No… I‘m sorry. I can‘t really take the blame for all the things that happened in the world, but at least for my part in it… yet…“ he took a deep breath and tightened his hold around her, „to be frank, I think I would do it all again if I had to.“

She nodded, still sniffling.

„The world depended on it. And I would not be here, if you hadn‘t done it… So being mad about that is actually a bit stupid.“

„It is by no means stupid.“

„Let‘s just agree on that. But…“ Shia looked up, brows furrowed, „where do we go from here?“

They were still locked in a tight embrace. His shoulder wet with her tears and her eyes seemingly ready to spill over once again at a moments notice.

The two of them exchanged uncertain glances. A moment went by. And then another. Until G‘raha gently let go.

„I cannot say that I am good at any of this,“ he confessed, „but how about we start where everything should start? Right at the beginning?“

Shia must have looked more than confused, but he smiled and grabbed her hand.

„My name is G‘Raha Tia. I am over 300 years old and have lived through at least one apocalypse. My body though belongs to the 24 years old me from this timeline – did I mention I‘m from another time and another dimension?“

Shia giggled.

„I am now a member of the Scions of the Seventh Dawn. It is my wish to support them in their every endeavour to protect the interests of this star. My idol is the Warrior of Light, a fierce fighter committed to the protection of their star. Fighting alongside them is my dearest wish.“

He paused.

„And whom do I have the pleasure with?“

It took her a moment to respond. But when she finally did, she did so with a smile.

„I‘m Shia Tamriel, Warrior of Light and resident trouble maker. But you can call me Shia.“

„It‘s a pleasure.“

It would be a new beginning. A fresh start. And finally, they would continue on together.

A continuation of Prompt #8 Friable.

Leaving the spoils of Shia‘s day out in the field behind, the two of them looked for a quiet room. Yes. Everybody was aware of the tensions between them. That did not mean they needed to hear them arguing. Or whatever else might occur.

G‘raha for one hoped they might clear the air. It had been abundantly clear that they needed to talk. Be it how she acted around him or much more, how she tried to avoid his company all together. He had been taken by surprise when she had showed up the day prior, asking if he could lend her an ear or both. That she initiated it was a heaven-sent – he had no idea how to start the conversation to begin with. And he had seemingly even less of an idea about how to have it. Which had ended with her shoving a chair and storming out on him. Half the Rising Stones witnessed it as he had tried to follow, to reason. But that had only enraged her further. She had then been gone for another day and a half. Had Thancred not told him she was back, G‘Raha wouldn‘t have noticed for probably another day or so.

They finally found a quiet space in the back of their headquarters. The front still was a tavern after all and the insides where they resided now had belonged to it, serving as guestbooks and conference areas of sort. But with Mor Dhona not exactly having been a tourist attraction or a centre of commerce (at least not before the Scions arrived), the owner of the tavern gladly offered the space to Minfilla, when she asked.

The rooms walls had been hidden behind bookshelves, with a couch in the back. Where there should have been a pool table though, they found just a simple wooden desk with two chairs. It did feel a bit like they were about to interrogate each other.

Shia knew how to remedy that though. Her eyes searched and found one of the shelves, where she pulled out a thick book.

„Whisky?“

Opening it, the insides revealed not the contents of „The Ishgardian-Limsan Sex and Cook Book and How to Raise Morbols“, but two glasses and a bottle filled with a golden liquid.

G‘Raha simply nodded.

„Do I want to know how you know about this?“

She grinned while pouring. „Thancred and I have had our arguments over the years. This is one of the things we agree on and whenever either of us needs some me-time or if we have to discuss things and such, we get this. And then we discuss. Or just drink. It depends on the topic. And the one having the last of it, has to replace the bottle. It‘s quite the convenient arrangement.“

„I can tell.“

A careful sniff on the glass almost curled his nose hair backwards. This was strong stuff.

„To us,“ Shia sat down and raised her drink. He joined her at the table, clinking his glass to hers.

„To us.“

For a minute they were just silent. The taste of the whisky had caught G‘raha off of his guard – even though he had thoroughly taken in it‘s scent before. He needed that minute to stop coughing.

„You know you are not supposed to inhale this, right? It‘s for drinking.“

The grin in Shia‘s voice was hard to overhear.

„Please don‘t mind me,“ he replied the moment he could catch his breath, „I‘m just the one with the body that hasn‘t had any alcohol in months.“

„I‘m sorry,“ Shia amended, „I promise to consider my words more carefully from now on … well. At least for this conversation.“

And they were back on topic.

„I‘m sorry for yesterday. I had hoped to speak to you about this much earlier, but I never had the courage to do so.“ Shia kept her voice as quiet and controlled as she could, even though the thought of speaking her thoughts out loud made her want to scream and run away. Running away from her problems though had never solved them. Or it had at least that one time when they were running from the brass blades and-

She shook her head. Stay on topic!

G‘Raha seemingly hadn‘t noticed her thoughts trailing off. „Thank you for initiating. I realise that this is not an easy conversation and I commend you for starting it. I would like to apologise for not being in the right mindset yesterday. This could have gone far better.“

„It wasn‘t your fault alone. As I mentioned before, my ego is brittle and you managed to hit some spots that I was hoping you would not. Then again… you were right and I should not have reacted like this.“

„Your ego is not brittle,“ he deliberately took another sip from his glass, „if it was, I highly doubt people like Lolorito or Varis zos Galvus would still be walking this earth.“

„You forget that Varis has kicked the bucked a few weeks ago.“

„Not by your hand.“

„But I would have loved to be the one to do it.“

„You should tell Zenos whenever you next meet him.“

Shia cackled. „Yes. I‘ll say „how dare you kill your father and not letting me do it“! And he might even apologise before trying to kill me – again.“

„You just occupy a very special place in his hear. He adores you, or so I have heard.“

„He is a homicidal maniac with a tendency to gut people, overthrow empires and burn countries to the ground but sure. Let‘s say he adores me. Perhaps I should ask him for a ring and a ceremony of eternal bonding and then we have a „Kill Jill“ style fight on our wedding night. Might end this whole world ending business early.“

„And what about Fandaniel?“

„He can be our target practice instead of having a cake?“

„Sounds lovely.“

„Yeah…“

The two of them fell silent once more.

Shia was the one bring them back to their previous conversation topic.

„Right. So. If I may, I would like to just… I would like to just say what‘s been on my mind? If that is ok? It‘s a lot and I know we don‘t have all the time in the world and we-„

„Shia,“ G‘Raha leaned forward. Very gently he took her hand in his. „We will take all the time we need to get this right. All that matters is the outcome, alright?“

She nodded.

And finally spilled it all.

What she had felt for him when they had been researching the Crystal Tower. How she felt when he decided to lock himself away. How Haurchefant and the Scions had helped her get him off of her mind.

About the feelings she had been hiding form a certain Lord Commander and how she had hoped to finally be over him, when he „decided“ to just barge back into her life and rescue her from the battlefield.

About her fear and dread as the Scions, her closest and possibly only real friends in this world, slipped away one after another with no cure or solution in sight.

Her anger and hatred towards the Crystal Exarch, as he was the one responsible for her fears and worries.

How she came to care about him against her own better judgement.

How it hurt when he tried to safe her, only for him to get abducted by her fiercest enemy. She told him about the relief and happiness at his return.

What that night in the pendants truly meant to her.

And about the hurt and anger at his refusal to be together with her, when he had clearly stated that he felt just the same.

How afraid of loosing him she was once more, when she saw him half encased in crystal. And how it broke her heart to see him die then and there atop the tower.

About her reservations before merging his memories with his younger body.

And finally about how all of this hurt. That it hurt so much, she still wasn‘t able to think clearly about it all.

„You were gone. Then you were back. Then you pushed me away. And then you almost died, actually died and now you are back and now you continuously follow me on my missions – you reenacted our very first meeting, Raha! I just… I just can‘t. And it‘s not like this is the only thing on my mind: I‘m still helping out at the Bozjan southern front. The fourth imperial legion is a nightmare to deal with. And don‘t let me get started with Gaius‘ family troubles-“

„Gaius as in… van Baelsar?“ G‘Raha had not dared interrupt her until now, but this one thing he needed confirmed.

„The one and only.“

„I would like to hear more about that when we have finished this conversation, if you don‘t mind. It sounds… interesting.“

„I‘ll tell you all about it – afterwards.“ Shia groaned and hid her face in her hands. „So… to sum it up… these last few weeks, months have been an emotional roller coaster for me. I love you. I want to love you. But I don‘t know what you feel and you have not exactly been forthcoming about it. To distract myself I jumped into work and just… I didn’t want to think about this. I really didn‘t. I still don‘t want to. Having this conversation is overdue, but I‘m so afraid of what comes next. I‘m so afraid, Raha. And then again I‘m not even sure if I should like you! You are the one responsible for almost loosing my best friends – my family! And you almost killed yourself with your plan and-“

Her last words were drowned out by a sob and to G’Rahas horror she began to cry.

„And… and all of that on top of us having to save the world.“

Her last words were almost inaudible. Thick tears rolled form her baby blue eyes while she kept on sobbing uncontrollably.

G‘Raha wasn‘t sure what to do, but he followed his instincts. He was quicker on his feet than he thought he could be and had his arms around her within the blink of an eye.

And for a few minutes they just stood there, arm in arm with Shia sobbing uncontrollably into his shoulder.

After everything she had just told him, after having to bottle all of this up, it wasn‘t really a surprise to him. Had she ever allowed herself to be vulnerable with anyone before? Like this? Not just speaking about her worries for the politics and battles fo the world. But also about her worries, feelings, hopes and dreams?

„I‘m here,“ he whispered, „I‘m here Shia. Iti‘s ok. I‘m here.“ It was all he could do: Reassuring her, that she was not alone. That she did not need to suffer on her own. That it would be ok.

Shia gripped him tighter and only let go after what felt like an eternity.

„I‘m sorry…“ she sniffed and looked at him. Her eyes were swollen, her cheeks puffy and red. She had probably worn at least some mascara, which now outlined that path of her tears across her face to her chin.

„No… I‘m sorry. I can‘t really take the blame for all the things that happened in the world, but at least for my part in it… yet…“ he took a deep breath and tightened his hold around her, „to be frank, I think I would do it all again if I had to.“

She nodded, still sniffling.

„The world depended on it. And I would not be here, if you hadn‘t done it… So being mad about that is actually a bit stupid.“

„It is by no means stupid.“

„Let‘s just agree on that. But…“ Shia looked up, brows furrowed, „where do we go from here?“

They were still locked in a tight embrace. His shoulder wet with her tears and her eyes seemingly ready to spill over once again at a moments notice.

The two of them exchanged uncertain glances. A moment went by. And then another. Until G‘raha gently let go.

„I cannot say that I am good at any of this,“ he confessed, „but how about we start where everything should start? Right at the beginning?“

Shia must have looked more than confused, but he smiled and grabbed her hand.

„My name is G‘Raha Tia. I am over 300 years old and have lived through at least one apocalypse. My body though belongs to the 24 years old me from this timeline – did I mention I‘m from another time and another dimension?“

Shia giggled.

„I am now a member of the Scions of the Seventh Dawn. It is my wish to support them in their every endeavour to protect the interests of this star. My idol is the Warrior of Light, a fierce fighter committed to the protection of their star. Fighting alongside them is my dearest wish.“

He paused.

„And whom do I have the pleasure with?“

It took her a moment to respond. But when she finally did, she did so with a smile.

„I‘m Shia Tamriel, Warrior of Light and resident trouble maker. But you can call me Shia.“

„It‘s a pleasure.“

It would be a new beginning. A fresh start. And finally, they would continue on together.