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I want to know this and so I'll leave the topic, was it wrong for you that Kakashi said he would kill S*suke? I know that Kakashi didn't want to do it, that it hurt him and that he said it just so Naruto and Sakura wouldn't have to carry that weight, I understand his decision, but what do you think? I love everyone involved so I'm not looking for hate, I would like to know if his decision was wrong since a certain side of the fandom always says that he should have supported him and not tried to kill him (or say he would) since he always says that he wouldn't abandon a teammate. For these fans Kakashi was wrong since according to them he was ready to kill one of his students even though he knew S*suke was only a victim

Kakashi only made that decisipm when Sasuke decided that he wanted a fight even after Kakashi explicitly stated he didn’t want to fight.

Kakashi saw Sasuke going down a dark path to a point he was willing to fight people who had nothing to do with his pain and who didn’t want to fight him. I won’t state sakura, but Kakashi went there originally to stop Sakura and told Sasuke he didn’t want to fight

Sasuke laughed in his face and told him he was ‘itching to kill him’

At this point kakashi ks left with two choices.

Fight back with intent to kill, or don’t fight back and allow Sasuke to kill him and possibly more of his precious people after his death

The second option isn’t really an option for Kakashi as protecting his recious people is the most important thing to him. At this point not fighting to kill is leaving other’s open to being attacked and killed by sasuke, as Sakura was (i know people say Sakura attacked first, and i originally thought so first, but i re read the scene and when Kakashi saves Sakura Sasuke’s actually attacking her from behind. It’s when Naruto saves Sasuke that Sakura was making the first move of attack and Sasuke is 100% justified in defending himself. The first time, Sakura has her back turned to him and attention on Karin who he has just told her to kill)

Also, the idea of ‘Kakashi should have joined him’ is nice and i do love exploring it, but in cannon it was not an option

As i said Sasuke stated he wanted to kill Kakashi after Kakashi said he didn’t want to fight Sasuke

But also Sakura has just said she wants to join Sasuke and Sasuke tells her to kill Karin tk prove this, but before Sakura can even make a decision on if she’s going to attack Sasuke or not Sasuke sttacks her

He didn’t want help from Kakashi.

He even continues to fight Naruto after he states that he will ‘bared the burden of his hatred and die with him’

The only think Kakashi should have/could have done differently is actually search for more answers about the massacre, but kishi decided to have everyone but sasuke just… drop the issue for the war. Which, fair there’s a war

But also not allowing Kakashi to search for more information after having him state that he wants to is CRIMINAL

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STUDY    :   Christian Ozera    TAGGED BY    :   @sunreliable xo

—    BASICS.

▸     IS    YOUR    MUSE    TALL    /    SHORT    /    AVERAGE ? he is tall!! moroi are typically taller than dhampir, and Christian is no exception to this. he is tall and lanky. 

▸     ARE    THEY    OKAY    WITH    THEIR    HEIGHT ? he doesn’t really think about his height tbh. it’s kind of one of those things that just is, so yeah he’s chill w/ his height. 

▸     WHAT’S    THEIR    HAIR    LIKE ? it is always a little messy. it’s black and actually messy not the i’m trying to come off aloof way but the i cannot contain my hair way. 

▸     DO    THEY    SPEND    A    LOT    OF    TIME    ON    THEIR    HAIR     /    GROOMING ? no!! he thinks that a ton of focus on appearances is very shallow to begin with, but he also was forced to care a lot as a kid despite not wanting to, so it’s a little rebellion for him to not put any effort in now because he finally can. i’ll expand on it more later, but he also no longer had anyone to impress so there was no point to him for a focus on hair at all. as for grooming, he’ll take a longer shower if he needs to destress, but overall he’s in and out. he gets ready in about ten-fifteen minutes every day. 

▸     DOES   YOUR   MUSE   CARE   ABOUT   THEIR   APPEARANCE   /   WHAT    OTHERS    THINK ? ooh this is a very layered question because on the surface, no. he cares more about what others think than he realizes, but it’s in a ....personality way versus his appearance. he takes a lot of comfort in his clothes ( all black with one navy blue shirt and only one dress shirt ), as it was his own ability for self expression. it’s something he clings to, so attacks on them can hit him deeper than he lets on ( usually just responding with some sarcastic comment versus the genuine upset that he feels ). he puts the bare minimum in and would rather just exist on the sidelines rather than in the center. this does change as he gets older and is forced into the limelight, especially as he becomes king where he does put an effort to be more presentable because he represents more now. he does care more than he thinks / wants to show, but he’ll never think it defines him as a like, bad person?

—    PREFERENCES.

▸     INDOORS    OR    OUTDOORS ?  indoors   ▸     RAIN    OR    SUNSHINE ?  rain ▸     FOREST    OR    BEACH ?  forest ▸     PRECIOUS    METALS    OR    GEMS ?  precious metals ▸     FLOWERS    OR    PERFUMES ?  flowers  ▸     PERSONALITY    OR    APPEARANCE ?  personality ▸     BEING    ALONE    OR    BEING    IN    A    CROWD ?  being alone  ▸     ORDER    OR    ANARCHY ?  anarchy. ▸     PAINFUL    TRUTHS    OR    WHITE    LIES ?  painful  truths. ▸     SCIENCE    OR    MAGIC ?  magic. ▸     PEACE    OR    CONFLICT ?  conflict. ▸     NIGHT    OR    DAY ?  night ▸     DUSK    OR    DAWN ?  dusk. ▸     WARMTH    OR    COLD ?  warmth. ▸     MANY   ACQUAINTANCES    OR    A    FEW    CLOSE    FRIENDS ?  few close friends. ▸      READING    OR    PLAYING    A    GAME ?  reading.

—    QUESTIONNAIRE.

▸     WHAT    ARE    SOME    OF    YOUR    MUSE’S    BAD    HABITS ? he has a tendency, especially in his teenage years, to assume the worst in people? he wants to believe in people and make friends, but his entire life has left him very defensive and guarded. he especially believes that people in high status are shallow. he doesn’t have bad habits in terms of biting his nails, instead just knee jerk reactions from years of being ostracized. that does mean that he tends to self-isolate, especially if things are very loud and people are fighting. on the other side, he runs into danger without thinking and is very impulsive, especially if the people he loves are in danger. 

▸     HAS    YOUR    MUSE    LOST    ANYONE    CLOSE    TO    THEM ?      HOW    HAS    IT    AFFECTED    THEM ? lmaoooo. yeah. his parents were killed by the guardians after they turned strigoi ( evil vampires ). he helped this happen, after his aunt had been attacked and was trying to block him from watching their deaths. they were trying to take him, and they were willing to kill tasha to do so, so he created a wall of fire that meant they couldn’t get to him and tasha. he has a LOT of guilt over this action and what he remembers most from the attack is the guardians breaking into his house and then killing his parents -- referring to them as a black wall of death. because purposefully turning strigoi ( draining a person of their blood and killing them -- in their case, they killed their guardians and feeders ) is the worst sin that can happen in their society, tasha and christian were seen as tainted. while his family considered taking christian in, tasha refused and they moved away. the damage was done, though, and everyone in school turned their backs on him because they feared he would also turn strigoi. the entire thing has, reasonably, left him with a lot of distrust and fear of others hurting him and led to him being isolated growing up, with his few friends leaving him for social climbing. he sometimes feels tainted and believes that everyone else thinks he is, too. he ALSO lost his aunt tasha after she murdered their previous queen. @loveisaviolence and I have an entire arc based off the fact that lissa would have needed to execute her, so his reaction to this death is based heavily off our own verse and how tasha doesn’t actually die. initially, christian doesn’t know this though. he begged lissa to spare tasha somehow because tasha was his only remaining family and best friend. when lissa can’t do this because she is a new queen in an unstable position, christian breaks up with her and reverts in on himself. the person he loved most was killed by the person he thought he would spend the rest of his life with. the only people he allowed himself to open up to were rose, his best friend who also was disconnected from lissa at the time, and laurel, his guardian. they’re his only family for a while, so he reacts negatively when it feels like rose is pulling away and eventually leaves because of his abandonment issues that were sparked by losing his parents. basically christian has a lot of trust issues that stem from people that are supposed to love and protect him hurting him / dying on him. 

▸     WHAT    ARE    SOME    FOND    MEMORIES    YOUR    MUSE    HAS ? any moment with his family. i was specifically thinking about the one tiffany and i have of blake ozeras, so tasha, bellamy, and octavia, but also team tasha, and laurel and rose. some of his favorite memories are of making fun of rose as she sits on his couch, stocking up on yogurt for her to eat, etc. cooking with tasha are also some of his favorite memories and why he holds this skill so close to him. it started with her, but it’s something that he has fostered himself and really enjoys -- so making food for the people he loves and seeing their reactions are memories that he enjoys too. hide and seek with tasha was never tainted even though it was because of his proclivity for hiding that led to the attack because he wasn’t with his parents when they turned. ice skating with lissa & tasha is also among one of his most fond memories because the two most important people in his life were bonding !! he just loves his family a lot. 

▸     IS    IT    EASY    FOR    YOUR    MUSE    TO    KILL ? .....yes and no? like strigoi? yeah. human beings? no. it’s harder for him to kill strigoi now because he knows that they can be brought back, and that means he thinks about the implications for his parents and whether they would have regretted it if they could come back. he also couldn’t kill anyone else BECAUSE of his parents. he’d never betray his friends, and while he may torment people...he has way too much control over his magic to accidentally harm them and would never consider actively harming them. however, if it was between the people he loves and someone trying to hurt them, it COULD happen, but no it wouldn’t be easy. 

▸     WHAT’S    IT    LIKE    WHEN    YOUR    MUSE    BREAKS    DOWN ? painful and hard. he tends to isolate himself even when he breaks, but when his emotions are extreme, he just crashes down. this only happens in front of people he really trusts and loves, though. he can be harsh when he is hurting and is especially blind to other people’s pain when he is in pain himself. for instance, when he and lissa are broken up, despite usually being very in tune with her emotions and moods, he feels as though she isn’t hurting at all and is thriving without him. his emotions can be amplified by his fear of being left, but usually he is very reactive ( lashing out in response to feeling like someone is judging him ). he drinks a lot more after tasha’s death because of how effectively that breaks him, so he’s more prone to actual breakdowns while sitting on his floor with rose. he gets better at controlling all of his emotions as he ages, though, and becomes more adjusted in general. 

▸     IS    YOUR    MUSE    CAPABLE    OF    TRUSTING    SOMEONE    WITH    THEIR    LIFE ? he is !! against all odds, he’s actually very capable of this. he trusts lissa, rose, laurel, tasha, bellamy, potentially kara, eddie & mia, potentially ryan, and others with his life!! not just because the nature of their work is really hard and he needs to trust his guardians with his life ( even if he would rather fight side by side with them ), but because he believes that they have his back and his life. he also hopes that they trust him with their lives too. once he decides to let someone into his life, that’s it. he trusts them with everything he is. 

▸     WHAT’S    YOUR    MUSE    LIKE    WHEN    THEY’RE    IN    LOVE ? he’s so soft god. he’ll put his head in his partner’s lap and is always touching them. he’s very in tune with their feelings and will do whatever he can to help assuage their fears / concerns / negative feelings. he’ll do anything for them !! which is true for everyone he loves, but he literally stows away in the back of a car with a concussion because lissa was in danger. he’s very attentive and wants to be around them all the time. he’s very physically affectionate with his partner, which isn’t the same with his friends unless they are incredibly close. he’s also incredibly verbally supportive and will be there for whatever. he is prone to jealousy, but it’s not related to trust so much as just feeling inadequate. he’s actually just a really good boyfriend and i love that for and about him. 

TAGGING :  everyone

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 🗞  STUDY  :   KAI ANDERSON

🗞 BASICS.

IS YOUR MUSE TALL  /  SHORT  /  AVERAGE? 

Kai is 5′11″ so a little on the taller side.

ARE THEY OKAY WITH THEIR HEIGHT? 

Yep, I think any shorter and he might be insecure about it but he’s perfectly fine with his height as it is. 

WHAT’S THEIR HAIR LIKE?  

Usually greasy, stringy-looking, not brushed out in the slightest, of course badly dyed. There’s the rare occasions where he actually washes it with shampoo and then it’s slightly wavy. He actually has a fairly thick amount of hair. He used to take care of it, I honestly believe that when he got addicted to his Adderall prescription he kind of just stopped taking care of himself.

DO THEY SPEND A LOT OF TIME ON THEIR HAIR  /  GROOMING? 

Oh my god definitely not.

DOES YOUR MUSE CARE ABOUT THEIR APPEARANCE  /  WHAT OTHERS THINK? 

Not really? He doesn’t put a lot of faith in his looks, more relies on his words. That being said, he’s aware people find him attractive and he does use it to his advantage a lot. It gives him a big ego boost when someone compliments his appearance. 

🗞 PREFERENCES.

INDOORS OR OUTDOORS? Indoors.

RAIN OR SUNSHINE? Rain.

FOREST OR BEACH?  Forest.

PRECIOUS METALS OR GEMS? Precious metals.

FLOWERS OR PERFUMES? Flowers.

PERSONALITY OR APPEARANCE? Personality.

BEING ALONE OR BEING IN A CROWD?  Being alone.

ORDER OR ANARCHY?  Anarchy.

PAINFUL TRUTHS OR WHITE LIES?  Painful truths.

SCIENCE OR MAGIC?  Science.

PEACE OR CONFLICT?  Conflict.

NIGHT OR DAY?  Night.

DUSK OR DAWN? Dusk.

WARMTH OR COLD?  Cold.

MANY ACQUAINTANCES OR A FEW CLOSE FRIENDS?  A few close friends.

READING OR PLAYING A GAME?  Playing a game.

🗞 QUESTIONNAIRE.  

WHAT ARE SOME OF YOUR MUSE’S BAD HABITS?  

Way too many to list to be perfectly honest. Bad table manners, a lot of fidgeting movements / just constant movement in general sometimes, being loud, smoking weed / popping Adderall, being extremely blunt. Many more. 

HAS YOUR MUSE LOST ANYONE CLOSE TO THEM? HOW HAS IT AFFECTED THEM? 

Look Kai losing his mom, and honestly even his dad affected him badly. There’s a small time gap between the night his parents died and the day Winter got home for Thanksgiving break and I headcanon that this was probably the worst period of time in Kai’s life. He was completely alone and isolated without hardly any support from his brother, saddled with the fact that he can’t let out the secret that his mom and dad are dead. And nobody else to talk to besides maybe random people online. If Kai had never contemplated the thought of suicide being a “way out” before, this is the only time where he did. His mother was his only support system basically and he very unhealthily relied on her. After she was gone, he really just felt lost, which is one of the reasons why he eventually turns to the whole cult and politics bullshit.

Killing Winter was also a hard death on him. Not only did he kill the only family member he had left in his life and the only person who truly loved him; but he found out after the fact that he did it for nothing. His paranoia had cost him the last person he clung to for some semblance of humanity. That, if nothing else. Was the very last piece of Kai’s sanity. There’s nothing else to fight for as much as he attempts to tell himself otherwise. 

WHAT ARE SOME FOND MEMORIES YOUR MUSE HAS? 

Coming home from a difficult day at school and having his mom let him eat raw batter off the spatulas of cookies / brownies / cake / etc. Helping Winter with her homework when she was younger. The few times his father actually hung out with him and got along in the garage fixing up / cleaning up his motorcycle.

IS IT EASY FOR YOUR MUSE TO KILL? 

It wasn’t easy before the Pastor Charles incident. Kai honestly is pretty traumatized from witnessing his parents die in front of him so before that point he was actually against hurting people despite having a fascination for that type of thing. Now, of course, he finds it extremely easy to do so. 

What I find really interesting though, and I’ve wanted to talk about this for a while. But Kai actually hardly does any of the killing himself in the cult minus like a couple of victims. He usually gets the other members to do it while he watches from the sidelines. Not that he wouldn’t or that he has any problem with doing it obviously, but it’s just an interesting thing I’ve noticed.

WHAT’S IT LIKE WHEN YOUR MUSE BREAKS DOWN? 

Lots of shouting/yelling, crying/sobbing, hyperventilating, violent behavior. He looks like a mess when he breaks down and has a difficult time letting people comfort him unless he trusts them somewhat.

IS YOUR MUSE CAPABLE OF TRUSTING SOMEONE WITH THEIR LIFE?  

Depends on the relationship he has with said person? Like with Meadow he clearly was trusting her with his life. Most of the time he wouldn’t.

WHAT’S YOUR MUSE LIKE WHEN THEY’RE IN LOVE?

For the most part Kai doesn’t tend to actually fall in love. When he DOES he’ll usually get possessive of the other, start being more physical, compliment or flirt with the other more often, more smiles on his greasy face. Depending on the person, he’ll sometimes be more awkward around them and more like he was when his parents were alive. There are very rare cases like with @horrorbeauti​​  where you can see glimpses of Kai and Dolores having a somewhat functional romantic relationship, but even then Kai is still selfish and neglects spending time with her. 

TAGGED BY : @trailost  & @beforehistime <3

TAGGING : anyone that wants to do this!!

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