#she said yes and confirmed that i was still attracted to men

[starryalpacasstuff]

Knock Knock Boys: A Queer Asian Lens

I didn't watch Knock Knock Boys as it was airing, because it didn't really seem like the kind of show I'd be into. However, this post by @lurkingshan and @waitmyturtles' enthusiastic recommendation convinced me to give it a shot. Having binged the entirety of the series in a day, I can say that the show was an absolute delight to watch.

I've seen plenty of people talking about how wonderfully sex positive the show was, so I'm not going to bother with going too much into it, but I will say that the drama clearly showed the kind of sex education and awareness that is desperately needed around the world. I also really liked how Lukpeach and Latte were the ones responsible for pretty much all of the sex education in the show. It was very realistic in that, in my experience, it's extremely common for teenagers and young adults to get a majority of their knowledge about sex from their friends and the internet. The show had a very clear message about the importance of talking freely about sex with younger generations, because the taboo on the topic only harms teenagers in the long run.

Now, besides that, there was one more issue that I thought the show did wonderfully: it showed how asian kids are often hesitant to discuss things with their parents because they assume the worst in the beginning. I'm having some trouble articulating this, because it's such an abstract, ingrained concept to me, so forgive me if this is incoherent. I'm also generalizing my experience as an Indian, so please do correct me if I'm wrong here. That being said, having been raised in a society that values respect and listening to elders without question, discussing alternate ideas with parents can be a very difficult thing for most of us. It's easy to assume what parents would say to an idea and decide that trying to convince them otherwise is a task that is either futile or requires too much energy.

The best way I can describe is that the mindset becomes "It's better to ask for forgiveness if you get caught instead of asking for permission straight away". For example, had Almond asked his mother if he could stay with three other guys, she would've most definitely flat out refused, since she would've had a lot of preconceived notions about the idea. But, because Almond is able to show her that he's happy as he was, she was perfectly fine with him continuing to stay with the others. I think that's the hallmark of most asian parents, they want us to be happy but they're convinced that they know what kind of life will make us happy. They did something similar with Peak and his father, but my feelings on that are a little more complex, so we'll come back to this.

Peak and Thanwa, man. I loved Latte and Almond but these two just stole the show for me. I know some people felt frustrated with Peak's dallying and hesitance, but I just felt so sad for him, and something about his situation just hit very close to home. And Seng, the actor that he is. One particular moment that stuck with me was the scene when he leaned against the door while Jumper attacked Max. I must've rewatched that moment half a dozen times, because his acting was impeccable. I will say, I wish that they'd given us a better resolution on the arc after Max, but those are mostly minor quibbles. What I really wanted to talk about was the arc with Peak's father. Peak gathering the courage to tell his father with the support from his found family was beautiful. The scene at Knock Knock House the day before Peak left was one of the most magnificent, emotionally charged scenes I've seen in asian ql in a while. Coming from a societ wherein arranged marriage is the norm, the storyline hit hard in all the right places.

But. I did not love the resolution of the arc. I think we've had some conversation about how some shows try to be both in the bubble and out of the bubble simultaneously, and the last two episodes of the show felt a little like that. From what we knew about the father, it felt almost too easy for him to simply accept everything right away. There should have been some struggle for reconciliation. I know that the show has a theme of assumptions and lack of communication disrupting parent-child relationships, but in this case how fast they move on just seems unrealistic. My cynicism aside, even if we assume that the father wasn't homophobic, there should've been more of a conversation on the breaking of the engagement! The social implications, the father asking him why he didn't say anything for so long, Jane's involvement (how did the father know that she knew about this?). The only argument I can see against this is that the father, while initially put off by the revelation, chose to act otherwise to support his son. But then, he most likely wouldn't have insisted they take his car. And there still should've been some sort of a conversation about the engagement. Arranged marriages have a purpose; it's to provide financial and social security. I find it extremely hard to believe that a father who arranged a marriage for his son wouldn't have so much as discuss the implications of being gay with him. They tried to have the engagement have consequences with the wedding banquet, but the resolution for that really only made it worse. This is cynical of me, but I simply cannot suspend my disbelief enough to believe that the entire wedding party was perfectly happy with the turn of events. This whole resolution just seemed out of place in a show that was otherwise so wonderfully grounded in reality while still being absolutely hilarious. I think, if the show had done something a little more similar to GAP, it would've felt more realistic.

All of that aside, I really did enjoy watching the show. It was hilarious and heartwarming, and the characters were absolutely wonderful. The resolution of the final arc did drag it down a little, but I would be lying if I said that watching two queer couples get to celebrate their relationships with their community didn't warm my heart at all (Also, side note- Jane having a girlfriend was a brilliant subversion). All in all, it's a great series. It definitely felt like something new and fresh compared to the kind of qls that I've been watching lately.

[lewisvinga]

no me importa | lewis hamilton x fem! reader

summary; when a recent video exposes y/n and lewis’ relationship, other people think they can comment on their age gap, but at the end of the day y/n and lewis will always love each other

fc; cindy kimberly

warnings; age gap , mentions of 18+ themes

notes; loosely based off of mayor que yo by wisin & yandel and mayor que usted by natti natasha, daddy yankee, wisin & yandel :p , also reader is kinda implied as latina but it’s not important

me 🤝 writing smau’s abt dating older men

masterlist !

liked by lewishamilton, lilymhe, and 1,020,047 others!

yourusername: made vegan alfredo for me n bae, definitely went into a food coma after

tagged; lewishamilton, roscoelovescoco

lewishamilton: wifey material

yourusername: yes i do the cooking yes i do the cleaning 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

lewishamilton: it was amazing, love ❤️

yourusername: i put my blood sweat n tears into that alfredo, it better have been damn well amazing😕 ( thank u love💗💗)

username: so this is a confirmation?

username: girl did u not see the video, they were shoving their tongue down each others throat ???😦😦

username: cute but age gap is still icky to me 😕

username: tbh dating someone 13 years older than me is weird asf 😭

rosecoelovescoco: thank’s you’s

yourusername: ur welcome if u stop chasing lunita around 😕

lewishamilton: he is just a baby!

yourusername: so is my gatita lunita , she’s a scaredy cat , literally !!😞

username: she’s so pretty in everything what😞

username: 😍😍😍

lilymhe: cook for me next? 😏😏

yourusername: give me the time n place😉

username: ok but her learning how to make vegan pasta for lewis?? is so??? cute ????🥹🥹

username: he’s a grown man n 13 years older, he can cook for himself

username: it’s never that serious

liked by username, username, and 93,038 others!

f1upadates: Lewis Hamilton and Y/n L/n were both spotted at the British Fashion Awards after confirming their relationship. Thoughts on the new grid couple?

tagged; lewishamilton, yourusername

username: the fact she designed her outfit n did her hair and makeup 😩🙌

username: they’re such a good looking couple even if he’s like 13 years older than her 😭

username: i need her skincare routine!😩

username: be 13 years younger than your boyfriend helps!

username: she’s so desperate that she needs to date someone older than her? how embarrassing 💀💀

username: her parents must be so disappointed…

username: why? shes a model w her own fashion line dating a 7x (8x) world champion, they’ll be fine😭

username: y’all coming at her for dating someone older like you wouldn’t date your faves who are also older!! she’s just living the y/n life

username: REAL

yourusername posted to their story!

trans. for lyrics ; and i don’t care if i’m younger than you

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lewishamilton: heard she likes señores [sirs]

tagged; yourusername

yourusername: sir lewis hamilton 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

landonorris: i can’t take you calling him sir every 5 seconds pls stop i beg

georgerussell63: ‘yes, sir’ THERE ARE CHILDREN HERE ( lando )

landonorris: wait-

yourusername: sorry not sorry, unless you’re a sir you wouldn’t get it 😁

lewishamilton: what she said😁

yourusername: mi amor, te quiero 💗 [my love, i love you]

lewishamilton: i love you🩷

username: idk if i want him or her tbh🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️

username: she’s so😍😍

username: i’d call him sir any day i get her fr

username: they’re such an attractive couple😩

username: how’d lewis bag her im being so fr

username: bc they’re both fine as fuck 😍

username: mis padres [my parents]

username: mami y papi fr [mommy & daddy]

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yourusername: no me importa q usted sea mayor q yo. [i don’t care if you’re older than me]

tagged; lewishamilton

lewishamilton: wait, when did you take the second picture?

yourusername: baby i got a whole folder of those type of pictures, i take them every chance i get

username: SHARE W THE PUBLIC HELLO??

yourusername: y/n.jpg but it’s just pics of lewis’ back

lewishamilton: i love you❤️

yourusername: i love youuuu💗

username: the hand pics i’m going insane 😵‍💫🥴

username: ou that back pic, i’m going ferallll

lilymhe: omg bae stop posting pics of me 🙈🙈🙈

yourusername: ur too cute my bad😪

lewishamilton: stop stealing my gf

alex_albon: gf stealer !

username: the 3rd pic🥹🥹

username: yall need a third??

username: i can take them both ( not in a fight )

georgerussell63: if only he could look at me like he looked at u in the last picture 🕊️🕊️🕊️

lewishamilton: i will if you look like y/n

yourusername: my bad i’m too cute 😁

carmenmmundt: merc double dates now??

yourusername: uh duh, merc wags stick together 🫶

[bobfloydsbabe]

make the tables turn (the rewrite) | jake seresin x oc

a turning tables fic

SUMMARY: Jake goes in for a routine physical, but is shocked to learn that his doctor is Jasmine Lane—the woman he tried to take home the night before.

WARNINGS: Getting weighed, inaccurate medical stuff. strictly 18+/minors dni.

WORD COUNT: 2.2k

A/N: I decided to not take down the original chapters of Turning Tables, so you can still find the fic in its original iteration. It will remain up until I'm done with the rewrite, so you can still enjoy the story in its entirety.

ORIGINAL MASTERLIST | REWRITE MASTERLIST

“Thank you, Lt. Garcia. That’s all for today,” Jas said, putting a final note in his chart.

“Thank you, Dr. Lane,” he said with a crooked smile and did the last few buttons on his khaki uniform. He bid her goodbye with a small wave, exiting the treatment room. 

Leaving the door slightly ajar, she heard him speak to someone in the waiting area, wishing them luck. She glanced at the file of her next victim, confirming that the voice in the waiting room belonged to exactly who she thought.

Martha, the head nurse, came in to top up the supply of needles on the cart in the corner. “Who’s your next victim?” She asked and straightened the already straight line of needle packs.

Martha had become a reassuring presence when Jas was first reassigned to Top Gun. She was a shoulder to lean on and she listened to Jas’ rants about how much she hated prescribing fluids and rest to men who really should be able to handle a little flu without seeing a medical professional. Martha brought her coffee on their shared night shifts and told Jas to get it together when she complained about the long and boring hours.

“Can you please send in Lt. Seresin?”

Martha’s eyes narrowed. “Watch out for that one,” she warned and went to collect him from the waiting area.

Sitting in her chair, Jas tried not to grin at the prospect of the look on his face when he saw her. He had no idea he was about to come face to face with the woman he had failed to take home.

She heard him before she saw him.

“Listen, Doc, I’m in peak physical condi…” he trailed off, stopping in his tracks just inside the threshold of her office, eyes trained on her. Martha closed the door behind him, sending Jas a knowing look.

“I’m sure you are, lieutenant,” Jas said and stood, offering her hand for him to shake, which he took with a skeptical look in his green eyes. “But you’re required to be here, so suck it up. I’m Dr. Lane.”

“You,” was all he said.

“Me.” She let go of his hand and gestured to the exam table. “Have a seat.”

He didn’t move. He looked every bit as attractive in the fluorescent lighting of her office as he had in the yellowish glow of the bar the night before. The only difference was the accusatory gleam in his eyes. “You didn’t tell me you worked here.”

“You didn’t ask,” Jas answered and gestured for him to sit once more.

His eyes hardened, but he still sat. “I asked what you did for work,” he argued.

“That you did,” she agreed. “And I told you I’m a doctor, which I am.” She waved a hand around her office at all the medical equipment, then adjusted the stethoscope around her neck for good measure. She shouldn’t wear it that way for safety, but old habits die hard.

He stared at her. “You lied.”

“I didn’t.”

“Lying by omission is still lying.”

She shrugged. “Maybe, but you were too busy trying to get in my pants to notice.” His mouth flattened into a tight line while his eyes narrowed suspiciously. “Are you ready to begin?”

He grumbled a yes and answered a few routine questions. When Jas asked him to stand at the measurement on her wall, he did so without complaint. She joined him and brought the block down, noting the height on his chart.

“Have I grown, Doc?”

It was as if he’d flipped a switch. The sour mood of just a moment ago now replaced with an easy smile and a confident lilt to his tone. Jas saw it for what it was: an attempt to get the upper hand, but she had played this game many times before. He would have to do better if he wanted her to crack.

She met his gaze. “No.”

His brows drew together for an almost indiscernible second before he schooled his expression back into the unbothered folds of before.

Jas consulted with her checklist. “Okay, if you’ll just hop on the scale for me.” He turned to it, but she stopped him with a hand on his forearm. “Without your shoes.” 

He glowered. Gone was the smirk and the air of nonchalance he tried too hard to put on. In its stead was a seething temperament and barely concealed frustration. If she wasn’t enjoying this so much, she might have taken pity on him and stopped taunting him, but he was too much fun to tease. It was his own fault, really. Hadn’t he been cocky in his conviction that he could get Jas to sleep in his bed just the night before?

He sat on the exam table and undid the laces of his standard issue boots in silence.

He stood on the scale, and Jas joined him by it, adjusting it until it was even. She felt his eyes on her, assessing her every move and breath. Usually, her patients were eager to get this part of the exam over and done with, not keen to be weighed, but Hangman seemed unfazed.

“Alright,” she muttered, clearing her throat. “Weight is normal.” She glanced up, finding his eyes still trained on her. The smile had crept back, the corners of his mouth turned up.

“Do I have something on my face, lieutenant?” She asked, stepping away to note the weight on his chart.

“You’re beautiful,” he drawled as he stepped off the scale.

“So you told me last night,” she reminded him, grabbing onto the ends of the stethoscope around her neck. “But charm won’t get me to change your weight.”

He frowned. “I wasn’t—”

“Now, have a seat on the table so I can check your vitals.” He crossed the room to the table and sat. “Remove your uniform shirt.”

He smirked, cocky and self-assured. “If you wanted me to strip, all you had to do was ask,” he said, his voice lower than before as he undid the buttons on his shirt.

“Your undershirt can stay on,” she informed him.

He frowned again, but didn’t argue. He placed the khaki shirt on one end of the table and offered his arm to her, familiar with the process of a physical. Jas placed the blood pressure monitor on his arm and ignored the feeling of his muscles rippling under the surface of his skin. She could make out every corded muscle in his shoulders under the white undershirt, and her mouth went dry.

She could feel him watching her again. Jas bit her lip, concentrating on reading the results on the monitor, not the thrilling feeling of his attention solely on her.

“Okay,” she breathed and undid the band of the monitor. “Blood pressure looks fine.”

“No need to be modest, Doc. It’s perfect,” he proclaimed. “I’ve gotten many compliments on my blood pressure.”

Jas snorted, unable to help herself. “I find that hard to believe.”

She went to her desk to note down the results before moving on to listen to his heart and lungs. Both sounded good, and she was a little annoyed that his numbers were essentially the same as his last physical. Perfect. If there was ever any reason to hate a man, this had to be it.

“Right,” she began. “I’m just going to have a look at your ears and throat. Open up.” She placed a wooden stick on his tongue and shone a light down his throat. She shouldn’t imagine what that mouth would feel like pressed against hers, or what wicked things his tongue could do to her body, but the vision was vivid in her mind. Jas forced the thought from her mind and ignored the fluttering feeling in her stomach. It was the last thing she needed right now. 

After clearing his throat, she looked in his ears and found nothing out of the ordinary there either.

He really was in peak physical condition, and she almost hated him.

The Navy was truly punishing her. She had saved a man’s leg, and this was the thanks she got? Having to check high and mighty fighter pilots over for issues that weren’t there? 

Silently fuming, Jas walked back to the desk once again to check off the throat and ears on her list, then returned to Seresin, who still sat dutifully on the exam table. “I’m just going to check the lymph nodes in your neck, okay? Then we’ll check your vision afterward.”

He smirked. “Go ahead, Doc.” Jas placed her hands on either side of his neck and felt for swelling under the skin.

“How’d you end up stationed here?”

Jas leaned back, hands stilling on his neck. “Why?”

He put his hands up. “Good, old-fashioned curiosity.”

“It’s a long story,” she admitted, hoping the answer would be enough to discourage any further questions. She dropped her hands from his neck and walked to the back wall, turning on the light in the vision chart.

“Do you take any medications?” she asked, handing him the occluder.

He shook his head. “Make a long story short?”

“Not a chance,” she said. “Now, cover your left eye and read the line with the smallest letters you can see.”

He rattled off all the letters on the bottom row without issue and did the same with his right eye. Jas rolled her eyes and took the occluder back from him.

“Any unusual moles or other marks on your skin?”

“No,” he answered. “Tell the story over a drink, then?”

Jas snorted. “Not gonna happen.”

He hummed. “Alright, your loss.”

“Oh no. How will I ever survive?” Sarcasm dripped from her voice.

His eyes darkened, going from the color of sea glass to mossy green. He stood from the exam table and strode toward her like a predator on the hunt, and Jas’ breath caught in her throat. He stopped right in front of her, their chests a hairbreadth away from each other. He was only a few inches taller than her, but she had to crane her neck to meet his gaze.

“You’ll change your mind,” he said, voice low and sultry. “Soon, you’ll beg for my time.”

The moment broke.

Jas stifled a groan and placed a hand on his chest, forcing him to take a step back and put distance between them. “I think I need to refer you to a specialist,” she told him seriously.

He frowned. “What’s wrong with me?”

Jas turned back to her desk and picked up his chart. She pretended to study it, allowing herself a moment to regain her composure. “I think you need to have your ego surgically removed,” she explained. “It’s a risky procedure, but you should be just fine. You might even get a date afterward.”

Hangman groaned, running his hands over his face. “Are you done?”

She huffed out a laugh. “Not even close, but I’ll spare you for today. You can put your shirt and boots back on.”

Jas jotted down some additional notes in his chart, including his perfect eye test, as he redressed. She put the pen down and placed her hands in her lab coat while she waited for him to finish tying his shoelaces.

He stood, and their eyes met. A battle of wills locked in a stalemate. His signature smirk spread across his handsome face. “I’ll see you around, Doc,” he said and tipped an invisible hat to her, reaching for the door handle. Jas could acknowledge that he was charming without shuddering at the admission. Almost.

“I’ll count the hours,” she joked.

Hangman abruptly turned around and caged her in between the desk and his body. She could feel the heat radiating off him. He bent his head down, and Jas felt his breath on her lips. Her eyes darted to his for a split second, but he had caught her. She knew by the way the corner of his mouth turned up.

“I’ll be thinking of you tonight,” he said, voice barely audible. The implication was obvious, and Jas’ cheeks grew hot for the first time in his presence. She hoped it wasn’t noticeable in the fluorescent light or she would never hear the end of it.

He stood back, and Jas tried to hide the fact that she had to gasp for air.

“You have a nice day, Dr. Lane.”

He winked at her and exited her office, leaving the door open and allowing the thick tension in the room to dissipate. She was still catching her breath when Martha escorted her next patient into the room.

“Dr. Lane, are you alright?”

Jas snapped her head up, finding Martha and a bespectacled aviator looking at her with worry etched into their features.

She forced a smile. “I’m fine.” She offered her hand to the aviator, who shook it dutifully. “You must be Lt. Floyd. Have a seat.”

As Jas went through Floyd’s physical, her thoughts kept returning to Hangman, trying to understand exactly how he had gained the upper hand.

She wasn’t sure, but she vowed to get it back. Whatever it took.

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[thegreymoon]

Mo Ran is so gay it isn't even funny.

Now, this is just my opinion and I realise other people have their own interpretations, but this whole episode is super telling to me of just how unreliable his narration is about having tons and tons of sex with people of both genders in his previous lifetime. He's just so... oblivious. None of this reads as a man with a lot of previous experience with many different people. He did not pick up on her flirting with him at all. Sure, he did have a lot of insane sex in his past life, but as the book unfolds, it becomes very clear that most of that sex was with Chu Wanning. At best, there were only a handful of other people he was involved with, and one was a prostitute he was paying, while the other was his wife whose relationship with him was also transactional.

I know people argue that he is bisexual because he married Song Qiutong, but when we actually get her POV on their marriage, it turns out that they had unenjoyable sex only a handful of times, at least one of which was him taking her from behind and very much imagining that it was Chu Wanning in her place. There are plenty of gay men who end up married to straight women (and vice versa) for whatever reasons and none of this makes them any less gay. He also identifies as a 'cut-sleeve' himself at one point, so he doesn't seem at all confused about his sexual attraction to men. Later on, when we finally get his unaltered POV on his life in the brothel, it comes out that he considered the girls there as sisters at best, never as sexual partners. The only other named sexual partner is Rong Jiu, who is male, and I can buy that there were possibly other people who looked like Shi Mei that he was with under the influence of the cursed love spell, but there was never any real attraction there, which is why some argue that he is attracted only to Chu Wanning and would still be attracted to him regardless of gender.

But I think that this is also not true. He definitely was obsessed with Chu Wanning from an early age, which makes it hard to see what his preferences would have been if Chu Wanning wasn't in the picture, but that chapter when he finally realises his feelings also reveals that he does have a type, which he never dared to think about before because he thought he was unworthy of having a choice. However, Chu Wanning fits this type to a tee, so it's easy to run away with the idea that he is shizunsexual and that Mo Ran's attraction begins and ends with him.

With that said, we do get confirmation later on that he does find other men attractive, in particular, Jiang Xi. It's just that he never has the space or the inclination to do anything about it because of his preoccupation with Chu Wanning. In the extras, when Mo Ran misunderstands Xue Men's relationship with Jiang Xi and thinks they are having a love affair, in his unfiltered Taxian-jun state, he is full of approval because he personally finds these powerful, beautiful, prickly, emotionally unavailable older men to be the height of attractiveness. If Chu Wanning hadn't been in the picture, Mo Ran would have definitely been attracted to Jiang Xi or someone similar. Even Ye Wangxi, whom he also fixates on, fits this type (except for the older man bit because I understood her to be only a few years older than Mo Ran). The fact that she turns out to be a woman also cannot be used as an argument for Mo Ran's bisexuality because she very much presents as a man throughout the book (but whether or not she actually identifies as one is debatable).

In short, Mo Ran does have a type of man he is attracted to and it is definitely men that he likes, regardless of his few dubious and very unsatisfying dalliances with women. While Chu Wanning definitely fits this type of ideal man, there are other men out there whom Mo Ran finds attractive too, it's just that he is too unhinged about Chu Wanning to actually do anything about it. Also, I very much doubt that Mo Ran was nearly as promiscuous as he makes himself out to be because he reads as very oblivious when it comes to sexual relationships in general. Even with Chu Wanning, who was right there and about to pass away from sheer horniness that he couldn't even begin to disguise, Mo Ran was still going, "Shizun is so pure and virtuous!" 🙄

(I'm not going to get into the whole Shi Mei situation and how badly he misread him every step of the way too, but that is because his brain was so badly mangled by him that he really stood no chance on that front until it was entirely too late.)

[thefanboyhub]

More random HeadCannons for the SBG gang because yes:

Aiden has two different music tastes. The goofy kind (party rocks for example) and then the "oh shit, he's depressed" kind. Think Pierce The Veil, Melanie Martinez, Get Scared, any kind of "I'm fucked up" kind of music.

Ashlyn listens to a lot of classical and instrumental music or like indie alternative kind of stuff. Think James Marriott, Fish in a Birdcage, ECT.

Tyler listens to guitar heavy stuff (like I said last time I did this shit) but he really likes rock/metal kind of stuff. Think Get Scared, Limp Bizkit, Three days Grace, Pierce The Veil, that kind of stuff.

Taylor listens to more upbeat things. She also likes classic pop (Gwen Stacy, Shakira, ECT.) Think Britney Spears.

Ben listens to everything and anything. It depends on his mood how much energy he has the vibes he feels ECT.

Logan shockingly listens to rock. He'll say he's a Fish In a Birdcage girly (which he is but he likes Get Scared and Nickelback more) but he is lying. He wants that head bangers that drown out everything while he zooms into shit.

Tyler would be the worst with road rage when driving.

Logan would be the most normal about driving.

Taylor would be scared at first and relax afterwards while Ben is not relaxed and generally hates driving.

Aiden is shockingly the best driver???

Ashlyn is actually decent at driving when a giant monster isn't trying to kill her and her friends.

Tayler tried to become friends with Ashlyn when they were little but it uh... Failed.

Creator has confirmed Ashlyn is autistic and has kind of said Logan has OCD and Aiden has ADHD I believe. I would like to add to this by saying: Ashlyns autism is more on the social aspect, less on the texture and touch, and HEAVY on sound aspect. Logan's OCD gets worse the more stressed he is, his obsession is intrusive thoughts and the need to be perfect at anything academic, his compulsion is auto cannibalism(chewing not his nails but the skin around them, his lips, inside his mouth, and time took a tiny chunk out his hand) and finding work to do. Aiden's ADHD is very low in the aggression and anger, he does still have it but his ADHD is more on the social and focus stuff. Aiden also has an adrenaline addiction and depression. He also has an addictive personality.

Taylor and Tyler are intersex. It's only on the hormonal level but it's still there. (Do you see the vision???)

Ben hates that he's mute. He does and doesn't have a choice in it. He wants to speak often but something just stops him, it's like a part of him has his hands around his throat just like the day he lost his voice.

Logan is actually really competitive but it has to be something he's good at to really get him going. Tyler found that out during trivia game in the back of one of these classes (they decided to not pay attention and okay a random Kahoot. Logan won.)

It is also confirmed Tyler would be in cosmetology if it want for the scholarship baseball gives him. SO. He dyes Aiden hair, he and Taylor has dyed purple hair at one point. He knows how to do piercings, he did his and his sisters. He has more than her (nose and all ear pericings possible).

None of the group is hetero. None. Ashlyn is the closest to it and that's just cuz she's be Demiromantic and heterosexual. Ben comes in second place for that and that because he's bi but female leaning cuz men scare him. (He be the opposite of most people lmao) Aiden is Pan but doesn't really understand it. Tayler is unlabeled cuz she just likes whoever the fuck. Tyler is a literal raging Bi but doesnt think about it cuz he be busy. And Logan is most likely gay or that one thing that's attracted to like masculinity.

Remember that one scene of Ashlyn popping her bones? Tyler has that when he wakes up in the mornings. He does sports. He gonna snap crackle pop.

Aiden has only had four hospital visits before, he actually more careful then people give him credit for. That and Ben stops him a lot.

Ben sticks closer to Aiden even more now because he heard and saw him die.

Aiden and Ben's sister bully each other.

Tyler once had someone ask him out randomly and he was so confused so he was like "Uhm... No? I think?" Because he was up late trying to help his mom pay bills the night before and didn't understand what she said. The baseball team would not stop bullying him for that the rest of their freshman year.

Taylor had an emo phase in middle school which made Tyler follow suit. They were emos in middle school, I know they were. The hair says it all.

The group has two sets of matching outfits that they wear randomly and somehow always wear on the same days without even communicating it. S

Ashlyn becomes a big baby on her period and me willingly let's Adien and or Tyler carry her around. Taylor just gets really mean and aggressive (becomes Tyler 2.0 frfr) or just cries randomly and it stresses our boys out.

Ashlyn knows baby sign language so she can understand some stuff Ben says to Aiden when they us ASL thinking the group isn't paying attention.

Logan writes fanfiction. I'm not elaborating.

Tyler and Taylor both were princesses one holloween and literally everyone thought they was a third one, making them triplets. People from their middle school that go to their current school still ask if their other sister is doing okay and Tyler dies inside a little every time.

Tyler hates mayonnaise. I feel like he'd hate it.

Ashlyn hates Tartar sauce. Like she will punch anyone who tries to give it to her.

Aiden forgets to eat a lot and has to eat timers to remember.

They all share clothes but Aiden and Ashlyn share more than everyone else. Specifically with each other. They trade a lot.

Logan is constantly missing his sweaters because of Ashlyn stealing them.

They all signed each other shoes on the inner left ones with their initials.

Ben tried not to stick out as much as possible because of trauma.

Logan is edging into his emo phase soon. He'd be the fancy emo, more like and e boy but less cringe.

Aiden worships Lady Gaga. No further explanation.

Everyone gives Aiden the side eye when he plays party rockers (party walkers). He just vibes. (He's actually trying to keep the memory of Ashlyn face in his brain so he doesn't fail her again.)

Taylor has a middle school relationship with a girl one time. It ended cuz she moved away and Taylor was like a sad puppy for two weeks.

That's all bye now

[cbsghostsmetasandtrevor]

If we’re sharing confessions and critiques, I don’t really like how the show handles LGBTQ+ representation.

Take Isaac. I say this as a queer man, he kind of feels like a “token gay man” character (not the creators’ intention I’m sure, but still). Not only is he the only confirmed mlm character in the main group, but a lot of his personality traits are stereotypes usually associated with queer men, often found in other shows and movies that have these types of characters (ex: he’s sassy, vain, selfish, overly feminine, was stated to “love musicals” in the second episode of the first season, and a lot of his jokes tend to revolve around the fact that he’s sexually attracted to other men (granted this lightened up in later seasons, but it was still very prevalent in the first)).

Besides that, it’s disappointing that the show’s only mlm relationship ended up being so toxic and messy.

Then we have Flower. She’s openly queer and has mentioned being in relationships with other women in the past. However, I feel like most of time said relationships are brushed aside as either Flower having intimacy issues and simply needing a third, or her just being a sexually active person.

Even the side characters who are confirmed queer have their problems imo (except maybe June and Ally, who, even then, we only saw twice), but I think I’d make this ask too long discussing my thoughts on every single one of them.

Now, the representation isn’t ALL bad, and there are other issues I have with these characters besides (Isaac being a colonizer and hippie culture itself having lots of cultural appropriation), but in regards to this specific issue, I just think the representation could be better.

Maybe at least have the characters hinted at being LGBTQ+ be confirmed queer, rather than having said hints be played off as mere jokes (like how Pete and Thor are both believed to be bi due to passing comments made by Pete, heavily implying that he has a crush on Jay, and Thor’s reactions to the lumberjack TikTok and the Dino stripper, as well as talking about “boat rules”).

This is interesting.

I definitely agree that Isaac hasnt really been handled well. They seem to have his commentary, especially early on, as he's the butt of the joke for not knowing himself and everyone else "knowing".

They had a beautiful moment with Hetty but in the finale of S1, they had everyone fake surprise and even have Nigel somehow already expect that he knew. In fact, the whole relationship with Nigel has been pushing her faster than he's clearly comfortable with. That's why I liked the breakup so much.

And yes, to Flower.

They established early on that she's definitely bi but they make all of her significant relationships men. (Which there's nothing wrong with that but it does make it seem like the women are just because she'll sleep with anything that moves).

Speaking of Carols definitely bi and she's written that way, too. Even Nancy feels that way a bit?

They've played with the bi-impliedness of Pete, Thor, Sass and Trevor especially with dino stripper Chris (I want him back so bad), but not really addressing it?

Like it's there to see in their reactions and I kind of wish they would go into it more. Like because they all died when they might not even have considered that being bi is an option, and defaulted to being into women because that was the expectation, it could be an interesting arc for them to learn and accept themselves.

Especially since they all saw it in Isaac, so they should be able to self reflect?

I'd like that more than the forced endgames I'm seeing and expecting.

Thanks for the confession.

[angy-grrr]

It doesn't surprise me that most people arguing that Toga being used to further Iz/och or that it was the "natural conclusion" to their relationship are cishet men. They simply don't (and often refuse to or dismiss) the reason queer people or women in the fandom find that conclusion insulting and upsetting. It makes sense for them because they are sure to be favored and represented with no pushback or challenge on their views that women and men are only seen working together because they need to be in a relationship by default.

And hey, here's a fun question, would they still respect them if Izuku only loved Ochako as a friend and respected her as a hero? And Ochako admired and loved Izuku the same?

My guess is that they wouldn't really, as per the multiple disgusting jokes and harrassment.

I think, especially in the west, many of them expect everything to be said and confirmed literally when it comes to queerness, while the vaguest heterosexuality has to be canon and real -like with Momo and Shoto, or Camie and Katsuki-; many deny the queer subtext too bc they lack the knowledge behind queerness representation in history even in their own countries. Partially, I also can see how this is related to the idea of queerness they understand, as individuality, something someone "does" more than "is"; this is why coding queer characters are many times denied by these type of ppl, bc unless they directly express attraction towards their own sex/do a sex change, means they are not queer, as cisheterosexuality are the default, a state of being regardless of your actions. Outside of queer coding, queer interpretations of the story are usually denied as "x character never has shown literal attraction towards their gender", bc thats the only way they think queer representation can happen.

I dont see 431 as romantic, but it hurt Ochako as it left her needing a man to be the one making the decisions for her happiness instead of her -this idea that she cant have autonomy outside of helping others, historically harmful.

I liked in BNHA how we do see characters like Nana and Gran Torino being partners in heroism, supporting each other in ways many would find romantic, but actually were close friends instead of lovers or having any form of romantic interest. Its what makes me more optimistic with the extra, partially, bc it seems more like supporting each other into becoming close again after drifting apart than confessing romantic feelings and dating -but it was vague, and the blush makes many, many ppl, accounts and websites claim they are confirmed to be dating. There's still time for them to actually confirm it, and actually show how "in love" they are, but thats the thing: we all, queer shippers included, are waiting for it to happen. I am waiting for Horikoshi to make the one shot about their love life, or include art about them dating, or mention it as a great thing. And thats the part that gets me the most; we cant see any other "actual" conclusion for them beyond them getting into an underdeveloped relationship.

I try to always be careful with my words bc any day, at any moment, they can come out and tell us all "yes, the waiting has come to an end, what we all knew would happen happened finally: they are in love and dating". That's the part that made me feel so cold for a while about BNHA, "knowing" nothing was pushed back, that boy and girl have to end up together no matter what. Even if I dont want to, I still have the same idea those guys have, that they will get together and everything they do is romantic.

And to answer for them: I dont think they would respect them. Probably would see deku as a "crybaby simp with blue balls" or something like that, and ochako as a "frigid bitch who sells it to anyone else", just like some did when 430 came out. But most of them would see it as romantic, as two friends in denial about their feelings, or would get angry at them for "forgetting about the very important arc of ochako confessing her romantic feelings and him accepting and reciprocating them". And while I type this, I think it can still happen, theres always time for heterosexuality to happen; I think in the one shot they could do it, I think he could mention it as an obvious conclusion, I think about how little they need, how they can get nothing and still feel like they are right, that they will always be right (think about 430 and so many pointing out ochako's neck thing/collar/mask as Deku's old mask and proof of them being in a relationship).

They dont really need this romantic ship to happen besides just wanting it to happen (bc they find it cute, think deku "deserves" it, to harass other shippers, etc), but others... others actually need it to NOT happen. I need to know we are getting away from this idea of boys and girls being close means romance. I do personally. It hurt me so much for literally most of my life to internalize this, its actually upsetting. I want more. I just want something more for all of us.

[mooseyspooky]

I simply love love love your page (as a huge Smiths & especially Marrissey fan) and wanted to ask some questions I hope you don't mind me asking! ♡

○ Sorry if this is overasked, but do you think that the truth about Morrissey and Johnny will ever be revealed? Apparently, Johnny said there is more about the band's breakup than we currently know, and we'll find out at the end or something, whatever that means, lol? Also, Bernard's comment on a member (who we can all probably presume to be Mozzer) 'traumatised' Johnny is strange too...

○ Why do you think Johnny's style changed so much (looking at you Electronic lol) following the split? He was much more...gender non-conforming-ish in terms of hair/makeup/etc. in The Smiths and was comfortable emulating the more feminine looks of his favourite girl groups but suddenly went full on urban masc in Electronic. I know personal styles change, especially when you go from band to band (and perhaps it was kinda agreed with Bernard for the group's aesthetic), but it makes me wonder if he maybe wanted to distance himself from that era - the era where he may have had something a little more than friendship with Morrissey...

○ And finally (Apologies for this being so verbose), my partner and I were discussing Marrissey today and came up with the following theory and as huge fans of your blog we had to ask your opinion lol: Morrissey and Johnny were mutually attracted/into each other, but in different ways (at least in the beginning) - whilst Johnny was more casual with his approach, Morrissey saw him as the love of his life and was possibly led on. We both believe that something definitely happened between them, whether that be a chaste kiss or something more, and this effectively 'confirmed' Johnny's feelings for Moz. However, Johnny, who we both think is bisexual but didn't want to be public about it, had a realisation of 'Oh no if I take this/act on it further then the press will no doubt find out' which led Morrissey to believe that, if taking the lyrics into account as possible evidence, Johnny's 'mentality' needed to catch up to his 'biology' i.e. he needed to stop acting a certain way with Moz whilst maintaining the notion that he wasn't that way inclined in any way. We have tons and tons of theories but there are things we're both very certain about: Marrissey happened in some way, shape or form, Moz was and still might be in love with Marr, Johnny is definitely not straight (I mean we're both especially skeptical about his relationships with other men, the strangely family/friend-less rushed wedding & of course him growing up around queer folk) & lots of Smiths songs were written with Johnny in mind.

Thank you ♡

No, thank you! You're too sweet. This ask made me so happy 🤧

I'm mixed about the truth needing to be "revealed." My best friend Jeevey has talked about this concept a lot better than me - but at a certain point there's no need to reveal anything. Moz is very reserved about his lovers and his sex life. He doesn't even like to admit to being bisexual, despite writing a whole song about it (I Can Have Both). Johnny is even more tight lipped, but just by his actions and words alone we know he's very likely bisexual and in an open marriage with Angie (or in a relationship where she looks the other way when he's sexually and emotionally intimate with others). We know that Johnny and Moz were intimate, and even if, by some crazy chance, they didn't become physical with one another - they absolutely were in some type of relationship that went way beyond a normal, appropriate, platonic friendship. We know this through countless songs, pictures, videos, interviews, and books. Moz one day saying "yes, Johnny and I had sex" really doesn't change that, in my opinion.

Johnny's change in appearance in the 90s is interesting, isn't it? I think about it a lot. I mentioned in my previous ask that it was a surface level change at best, because him and Barney were fucking on the down low and aggressively flirting with one another in every interview, but there is definitely something to it. Because after Boomslang, Johnny got more femme again. He grew his hair back out, wore much tighter clothes. He had that mesh, floral shirt a few years ago. His blonde streak. His silver nail polish. Him wearing eyeliner again. So it's clear he naturally trends towards gender non-conforming. But it may very well have been to distance himself, yeah. Because he was constantly being accused of breaking up the Smiths, of abandoning Moz, of ruining his career...Johnny is so finicky about his hair that him shaving it all off in 1989 was a big deal. And that only lasted to late 1996, early 1997. Then he grew it all back. So there's this 5 year period of him seemingly trying to find who he is again after the breakup. And yet in the middle of all that he's driving Moz out to the moors and writing him lovesick letters, telling him he's so sorry and he didn't explain why he left. It definitely seems to reflect that Johnny sort of lost himself. But I know that Electronic did get a lot of influence from Italo disco/Eurobeat music, and I think that more mobster/gangster style was part of that.

Oh my gosh, I have never heard that line from I Want the One I Can't Have phrased so well - with Johnny's mentality needing to catch up with his biology. And it's so easy to think that title is Moz pining for Johnny, but it's just as applicable from Johnny's side of things, isn't it? Because of how incapable he was of accepting his sexual attraction to Moz. God. I am definitely stealing that for a fic. And yes. You're so right about all of these points. His physical need and desires for Moz was so blatant ("because you let yours flail into public view"), but his insistence that he was definitely not into men because of Angie - yes. I can see that, 100%. He lost a lot of those reservations with Bernard, they made more sexual advances with one another all the time, but in those earlier years with Moz I can imagine that Johnny was struggling to accept how deep his need for Moz was. Fantastic points all around. And god, Moz is still so in love (Darling, I hug a pillow in absence of you. Why can't you just give me some physical love?). Johnny is still gone on him, too, no matter how bitchy he gets about Moz' supposed political viewpoints. They'll never be over one another.

[archer-kacey]

Joey Drew is Gay and there's no way around it (Pt 5)

So what about the women in Joey's life? Well, we hear a fair amount about two women in particular- Lottie, and Abby Lambert.

First, there's Lottie, a telecommunications girl who befriends Joey. She takes a quick liking to him, but Joey seems to have an aversion to any displays of affection she shows him.

In fact, he claims to "not have time for girls" in general, and this seems to be his reasoning behind not pursuing Lottie romantically.

Immediately following this...watertight explanation, Joey goes on a little side quest. See, Lottie notices odd initials on his boots:

She goes on a long search to find the previous owner, updating Joey with her findings often. However, she gets very down on herself when the effort seems to lead to nowhere, and grows weary as many of the men she's been sending messages to are continuously reported dead.

Note how Joey responds to her more somber attitude as the days go on:

He creates an elaborate lie in order to "solve" the mystery, entertain her, and spare her some of the pain of her depression.

It seems the "I don't have time and I'm too selfish" excuse doesn't really hold up. How odd, I was quite sure Joey Drew was being honest and introspective here.

This story gets even weirder, though. Nathan points out via footnote that he couldn't ever find the correspondences between Joey and Lottie- so the legitimacy of this tale is immediately called into question.

If it is completely fabricated, then Joey literally made up a story in which he keeps 99 feet away at all times from an extremely attractive and sweet woman who was very interested in him. If this is the case, it also seems to be some hardcore fishing for cool guy points. Joey comes out looking like a saint, AND he doesn't actually have to go out and catch girl cooties.

This brings us to the end of Lottie's tale, so let's talk about the (only?) confirmed real woman friend of Joey's.

Abby Lambert is the initial artist friend that introduced Joey to Henry. She seems to be his closest woman friend and confidant, and he ends up trusting her to run the art department as a whole.

Notice both her and Joey's reaction when she invites him as her date to an art salon.

In the middle of the skit they perform at said art salon, Joey takes a second to emphasize that they were just friends- an already stated fact.

It's all fake, but even during something so simple, he still makes it a point to clarify that they aren't involved romantically in any way.

If Abby and Lottie are anything to go by, he has a weirdly hypervigilant attitude when it comes to romance with women.

Regarding Abby specifically, here's more food for thought.

While not outright stated, Abby is very queer-coded herself. She's outside the "norm" for women at the time, both in wardrobe choice and attitude. She has a commanding presence, a streak of "rude" humor, and seems to be uncomfortable in dresses, preferring not to wear them at all if she can help it.

While there is no outright confirmation of her sexuality or identity, she sits outside the strict male/female roles of American society at the time.

This has no bearing on Joey's sexuality in a direct sense, but it still does beg the question: could there be a reason why Joey felt more comfortable around a woman who was not as rigid in her gender presentation? He doesn't seem to care that she wears men's suits, in fact he seems to be drawn towards her differences rather than repelled by them.

Even if there is no gaydar involved in how they found each other, there is a marked difference between the women Joey keeps close (Abby), versus the women Joey does not keep so close (Lottie.)

Now, to attempt to end this juggernaut. How about I cram in some odds and ends in the final part? Because yes, believe it or not, there's STILL MORE.

Part 6>

[suffarustuffaru]

so @alderamiin said subaru for the ask…. yes your ask was the one i deleted on accident whoops 😭😭 BUT HERE WE GO I MADE SURE TO REMEMBER TO DO YOURS WKDNDN (and i LOVE subaru fr i simply could not skip over him also) (pls expect my usual chaotic rambling im so sorry i really am overusing the caps button 😳😭😭)

Sexuality Headcanon: bisexual 👍 subaru being somewhere on the ace spectrum isnt a super strong headcanon of mine compared to the bisexual hc but i am still fond of it <33 bc i do tend to just hc him as bisexual but i suppose i could kind of see it <33 :DD !!

Gender Headcanon: subaru is literally, as we’ve all discussed, like EVERY letter of lgbtq+ i swear. like natsumi EXPLICITLY being stated to be his ideal self….. what cisgender boy has his ideal version of himself be a woman…. come on….. and hes been like. dressing and trying to pass as a girl for his crossdressing pre-isekai too. like subarus Practiced A Lot at this. subaru clearly enjoys doing this and he was crushed when he couldnt pass bc of his voice pre-isekai :(( AND LIKE subaru and his complex relationship to masculinity and feeling insecure in his own skin like……………… and then natsumi being his ideal self…… natsumi being the Heroine……….. and its like. subaru clearly has a case of “do i want to be them or be With Them” when it comes to men hes attracted to (most notably julius.) so like. it could apply to women too. like. and then the way subaru reacts to felix’s presentation too………. i just think it says a lot. i dont care what tappei says but he wrote all this shit in the text fr!!! and also in general. natsuki subaru being a gender neutral name…. same with natsumi schwartz… so yes genderqueer subaru for the win. i personally hc subaru as genderfluid or bigender!! and also like. subaru being Very LGBTQ+ is so in line with rezero’s themes of self love and self improvement and self discovery and Identity. i think it hits so much harder if subaru Is lgbtq+ versus if he was just insecure straight cis man. like no wonder subaru was struggling Even More. hes so so far in the closet and struggling with like the internal homophobia and shit fr :(((

that and 1. subaru being lgbt is such a great subversion of what you would think when you first meet his character. and also a subversion of ur typical isekai protag which ADDS to rezeros subversion of isekai in general and 2. i love making Certain People mad with these hcs. like its so supported by the text the only thing missing is explicit confirmation. which. i have my doubts with tappei on that but iirc he DID say he nearly wrote a lust if with the guys…. tappei. come on. you already explicitly said that natsumi is subarus ideal self.

A ship I have with said character: im very open to most subaru ships!!! i just love a lot of them—reinsuba, ottosuba, emisuba, remsuba, julisuba… i just like how each kind of dynamic with subaru has so much range like even in just main route alone?? and then you factor in the ifs and it gets So Interesting. theres so much history with each pairing and so much to explore, whether its platonic or romantic. and subaru has a LOT of love in his heart.

i just like each pairing for different reasons hah—like ok ive talked a lot about reinsuba and emisuba already in other asks so. i DO like remsuba okay. not in the sense that i want it to be the endgame ship in main route bc thats very much not happening and i would prefer The Most Detailed emisuba development of all time. which would be more thematically relevant <3 but i DO ADORE remsubas relationship in general. like its so so complicated??? like. yeah theres the conflict in arc 2. theres the conflict in arc 7 with her waking up and being different and being so mean to him about natsumi :((( theres her “youre my hero” versus “youre not a hero” WHICH. URHGHF ITS SO GOOD….. and like yeah remsuba really do be. iffy. in terms of how healthy it is. but its so complicated bc you also have rem being like—she was like the first person, narratively, to be willing to DIE to save subaru the exact way he does for other people (including rem). and then the famous from zero scene in season one which is a MASTERPIECE but i hate how people fixate on “i love emilia” LIKE REM IS HAPPY FOR SUBARU. SHE IS HAPPY AS LONG AS HE IS. EVEN IF HE DOESNT LIKE HER BACK. but also he did like her back romantically for a time. and also of course rem had her fixation on subaru :(( subaru had his own obsession for emilia while rem had hers for subaru pre-being gluttonyed?? :(( yeah like. remsuba being so complicated is so interesting to me. like she and subaru are very passionate people yes. but also they do need to learn to tone it down sometimes you know? REM ESPECIALLY TOO BECAUSE EVEN AFTER SHE STOPS BEING MURDERY TOWARDS HIM… FOR EXAMPLE IN SEASON ONE SHE WOULD CANONICALLY GO TO HIS ROOM IN THE MORNING AND WAIT FOR HIM TO WAKE UP…. like she'd just sit there at his bedside and Stare at him... like girl chill a bit its okay T^T i havent read sloth if. but it seems like they learned to mellow out and have a happy life T^T apart from. a shit ton of people dying in the background and also subaru dying of old age and resetting back to arc 3. i am interested to see if we’ll get further remsuba closure in arc 8 yes. but also im bonking subaru on the head in arc 7 for saying even REM TORTURING HIM was a fond memory. pls let this be addressed again later i swear sodndn.

ok also julisuba and ottosuba. i am no expert on julisuba but on the other hand i have analyzed Too Much Ottosuba so perhaps i am an expert there wodndn. but YEAH i love those ships. they have so much history and moments between them and they are. definitely the more Explicit evidence of subaru being bi (between subarus Interest in julius and reid calling julisuba boyfriends and SUBARUS INTEREST IN JULIUS... vs ottosuba repeatedly being like “omg do you Like Like me?” “NO I DONT SHUT UP” and also their continued divorce arc dynamics yep). but also i will say i really like ottosuba because specifically they are the subaru pairing where theyre like. Very Much Closer To Being Equals. if theyre not already equals in something. like in terms of power levels and intellect and their very loving families and previous inability to fit in or be believed by people and also their status in the narrative as Being Just A Guy in comparison to everyone else. and yet ottosuba are the MOST important members to their camp for their jobs—subaru keeps everyone alive, and otto handles All the politics, which we see over and over again. they are literally THE power duo. otto is so so important too as the second person to die FOR subaru the same way subarus died for others. like the paralleling of otto pushing subaru out of the way when the white whale drove otto insane (and later otto tried to go back for subaru once he regained his senses ;-;;;) versus otto pushing subaru out of the way so he didnt get killed by garf ;-;;;;;. and otto being the second person after rem to also give subaru an EXTREMELY IMPORTANT speech to him (otto-rem parallels...???) <33 except ottosuba also foil a lot bc of their Different Morals. but theyre both stubborn as hell and have a tendency to go off and do shit they think is best without telling anyone bc theyre too deadset (hah) on what THEY think. (OTTO. SPENDING A WHOLE YEAR SECRETLY GETTING THE BOOK OF WISDOM AND HAVING IT RESTORED?? HELLO???) anyway yeah ill stop right here bc i have So Much ottosuba posts on this damn blog wkdndn but i really do think the appeal of ottosuba is that they Are on a more even playing ground. and their morality flipflops sometimes. ottos issues are just more lowkey than subarus widndnd. i am. however. nervous about all the ottosuba and vincent-chisha parallels in arc 8 bc………. possible otto perma death on the horizon??? 😭😭😭😭 itd CRUSH subaru.

also of course the similar flavors of julisuba and ottosuba….. u can have ur tsundere x tsundere ships in TWO DIFFERENT FONTS. anyway ill become a julius lore expert someday i promise.

A BROTP I have with said character: BROTP ottosuba and ramsuba are so so funny and great wofndn but special shoutout to garf and subaru in particular!!! i think its interesting how far their relationship has come bc they had a VERY rough start and its like. 1. im sure garf would immediately regret going into a rage and killing a shit ton of people in that One Failed Loop and 2. we learn garf is a traumatized fourteen year old whos been trying so hard to take care of the demihumans inside sanctuary while his sister and mom left him, one way or another, and hes very afraid of the outside world. and its like YEAH now your behavior makes sense. and its so good to see garfs growth and also his growth in his relationship with subaru (and otto) bc he looks up to subaru sm!!! subaru helped garf so much T^T theyre brothers guys 😭😭 i think its so adorable and so sweet. ill defend garf all day everyday. garf 🤝 subaru with their DAMN hero complexes while otto tries to keep them both on a leash so they dont do stupid shit. subaru IS a good role model for garf though ill say that. subaru tries so hard to be a good role model wkdndn. and yes i always laugh when garf teases subaru for drawing doodles and writing encouraging things for emilia in the temple.

A NOTP I have with said character: okay so. maybe i will spill some tea here. hah so i went over in ram’s ask how i think ramsuba in wrath if is actually super interesting widndns but otherwise ramsuba to me is bland. which. i also just feel like subaru/crusch and subaru/ana and subaru/priscilla are also bland. like. i dont think theyll ever feel interesting to me akdndn. like theres not. as much to work off of imo. like i just dont think theyre a good match romantically at all. like At All. priscilla especially LMAO…. and im tired of people reducing women in the story to just boobs and being fucked by subaru 😭😭😭 like i dont have anything against those subaru ships, my biggest notp is just seeing a bunch of characters be butchered just to have subaru have sex with various women. 😭😭 obviously not everyone in the fandom does that but i see this happens the most with priscilla fr. pls. shes more than just boobs :(((

anyway. my other notp is like. echidna/subaru but like. i feel similarly to ram/roswaal on this where its like. theres a potential there to show a nuanced complex toxic relationship bc THAT IS what echidna/subaru are. even more so in greed if. like theyve spent an UNGODLY amount of time together like their relationship is so fucked. like god the amount of details that were added to their dynamic in the greed if ln makes me go INSANE….. like you know how echidna said that subaru could use her body with this contract?? what she ALSO really meant was HEY SUBARU YOU CAN KILL ME IF YOU WANT. ILL JUST COME BACK BC WE ALWAYS MEET IN A DREAM WORLD AND THERES NO CONSEQUENCES BUT ITLL FEEL REAL TO YOU. LIKE HOLY FUCK FR 😭😭 and like in generally reading through greed if ln is a Trip alright. like “no yeah duh of course it is, suffaru, its GREED IF” but LISTEN……. echidna being subarus weird mother figure and then like. idk there are obvious implications i feel from like the body fluid tea and then echidna being like “you can use my body” and then theres a moment where she puts his hand on her chest and yeah its to feel her heart but LIKE…. SOMETHING ABOUT THAT SCENE FELT LIKE. SOMETHING. TO ME. AND THEN SHES SO OBSESSED WITH HIM AND HES DEPENDENT ON HER LIKE JESUS ITS A MESS. ITS LIKE HOW SHE WAS WITH OG ROSWAAL. GOD. *puts my head in my hands*

anyway my real notp is like. depicting echidna/subaru like it is a Healthy Thing like no it is not 😭😭😭😭 it never was healthy and it literally never will be unless ur changing echidnas character drastically. if ur gonna show off echidna/subaru then they are gonna be SO RANCID in like every way possible there is no other correct way to write them. she is terrible for him. she literally saw him and went “i can make him worse” and then it happened. bc greed if subaru is a Terrible Person. like. its not even a question. the biggest example i can think of rn other than obvious Rbd use is KEEPING MEILI. A CHILD. HOSTAGE AND LOCKED UP IN ORDER TO USE ELSA. HER OLDER SISTER FIGURE. JEEZ. my biggest notp of all time is treating unhealthy relationships as if they Arent unhealthy.

MY OTHER BIGGEST NOTP OF ALL TIME FOR ANYTHING IS SHIPPING A CHILD AND AN OLDER PERSON TOGETHER. subaru/petra SHOULD BE AN OBVIOUS NOTP BUT SURE DOESNT FEEL LIKE IT SOMETIMES….. guys she is a child. come on. hes seventeen and shes TWELVE. GUYS…. and then theres tappei making iirc an ACTUAL petra if????? and idk what the content in petra if is exactly but i worry given tappeis track record with the child characters sometimes 😭😭 AND THEN PETRA BEING IN LUST IF. TAPPEI…… N-NOTHING HAPPENS, RIGHT? *EXPLODES WITH RAGE*. even if petra and subaru get together later when theyre Older Adults in some AU or something its like. subaru knew her when she was a young child. and she had a crush on him then. um. personally idk if im fully comfortable with that hah T^T

A random headcanon: GONNA TALK ABOUT WRATH IF. anyway so the wrath if divergence point is that subaru gets beatrice to teleport him away and ram chases him down, ram tries to strangle him to death but fails, he smashes her head with a rock. yes. BUT OKAY when u watch the anime. beatrice comes for his aid AFTER subaru gets to the cliff and tries to psych himself up to like. jump off to save rem and stuff. THEREFORE wrath if subaru still considered trying to rbd via jumping off that cliff. he just decided not to and agreed to have beatrice teleport him away. this is something not many people seem to mention or maybe even notice (??) but I THINK ABOUT IT A LOT…. :((

General Opinion over said character: i LOVE SUBARU WITH MY WHOLE BEING. he is my absolute favorite anime character of all time. his character arc is so chaotic and complicated and i think the way he Does like still struggle with the same Inner Conflicts is so so much more realistic. recovery and self improvement are NOT linear and he shows that perfectly. and i hate how much people misread subaru T^T the whole chadbaru trend in fandom of how he should get harems or how he should leave everyone or be terrible to emilia for *insert a long list of Terrible reasons here* is so. like did we all read and watch the same damn story or what hah. the whole point of rezero is LOVE ITSELF….. and subaru ultimately has a lot of love for so many people around him. though of course i do worry for how rbd reveal is going to be handled, and im not entirely sure how to feel about subarus arc 7 development atm. rbd reveal is gonna have catastrophic consequences for Everyone. like everyone hes ever been close to finding out hes died a shit ton of times to save him?? that so many of them have like. maimed and killed him or at least Tried To Do That? like HOW are we gonna get a happy ending out of all of this—hows tappei gonna handle this?? 😭😭 i worry sometimes that when rbd reveal happens it wont be nuanced or itll gloss over certain things or it just. wont be so satisfying. bc u have arc 7 subaru out here with SUICIDE PILLS……. ARC 7 SUBARU IN REPEATED INSANE DEATH LOOPS AS A CHILD….. how are we gonna come back from this?? 😭😭 i have my doubts sometimes but tappei loves insane character development for subaru so i suppose i will hope. i just wish for all the trauma to be seen and addressed akdndn and the fact that rbd is so. complicated. it makes subaru and his relationships with everyone else so complicated. and rbd is inherently unfair in a lot of ways to both subaru and everyone hes close to. i cant wait for more subaru development but i also think after arc 8 he NEEDS a break or like otherwise, personally i think subarus gonna snap for good and not be able to return from it 😭😭 or ill just have to suspend my uhh disbelief. i suppose. but yes i do love subaru a lot!!! his hair is a Pain in the ass to draw but ill endure the pain just for him. <33

but regarding all of subarus loved ones maiming and killing him a lot—i think its fascinating how the if routes prove he is JUST as capable of ruining all their lives. like i feel like people forget that sometimes in favor of woaaah cool what if routes where subaru becomes “badass”…. but LIKE…. hes SO SO CAPABLE of so much destruction. he is choice itself. he is capable of changing the entire world and everyone around him. he is capable of causing the deaths and trauma for SO MANY PEOPLE… and like i think rezero itself and subarus relationships are like an extreme version of hedgehog’s dilemma, u know? like u get close to people to love and be loved, but ur also very vulnerable to getting hurt. and rezero is About love. and part of close relationships are that ur so close u Can be hurt. maybe you Will be hurt. but u will also Love….. unless ur one of the ifbarus then fuck u for making the wrong decisions ig wodndndn. im telling u guys that subaru is LITERALLY an eldritch being at this rate. todd is so right.

and. okay one last thing im gonna be real for a second. im a little eh on subaru being a child, honestly. like i DO like the trope of turning characters back into their child selves in order to explore their psychology that way!! but like. idk i feel like the childbaru arc is kinda too similar to the whole amnesiabaru arc in arc 6. it feels Extraneous. it doesnt feel different enough for me personally. (emphasis on personally. this is all my opinion hah.) and then he is STILL A CHILD IN ARC 8 EVEN THOUGH THE OTHER PEOPLE THAT GOT TURNED INTO KIDS ARE NOW BACK TO NORMAL…… LIKE…. im sorry but the childbaru has overstayed its welcome by the time we get to arc 8 imo 😭😭

[freckle-face-ace]

Portgas D Ace X CisFem Reader

5

Both of you were sent reeling. 

You were trying to figure out how someone here knew Ace. It shouldn't be possible, but you supposed you couldn't count anything out anymore.

Ace's mouth gaped, watching in disbelief as the brunette slowly approached. His hair was smoothed back into an impressive pompadour that shadowed his attractive face. Your eyes wandered to the crescent scar that hooked from his left temple to his cheekbone. Realization washed over you, he was exactly how Ace had described him.

"Thatch." Ace breathed shakily, tears beginning to sting his garnet eyes.

The cook stopped upon hearing his name. All the thoughts pooling in his mind confirmed with the sound of Ace's voice. This wasn't a hallucination, a dream or a really impressive doppelganger. It was really Ace.

You watched, heart clenching as the men gawked at each other, tears now streaming down both of their faces. Thatch finally willed himself to move forward almost frantically hugging the raven.

A beautiful strawberry blond walked up adjusting her black framed glasses. She had an authoritative posture that led you to believe she was in management.

"Thatch? Is everything alright?" Her alto voice was thick with concern.

You realized there weren't many people in the restaurant, but all of their eyes were on your table.

Thatch stepped back looking up at the woman with the most brilliant smile you'd ever seen, "This is my brother, Ace."

Her face fell briefly before she smiled warmly, "Why don't we move you to a more private space?"

Yes please!

You were so uncomfortable with all of the new attention. The yet to be named woman motioned for you to rise and follow her. Thatch stayed close to Ace as you were ushered to a small private dining room connected to the main room by a narrow hallway. Three tables swathed in white linens formed a triangle in the center of the room. The four of you took a seat at the nearest.

"I'm Grace." The woman smiled stretching her hand toward you, "I haven't seen you around."

"F/N," You responded mirroring her expression, "I live out near the bluffs...I don't come into town often."

"Ah you're Anabelle's granddaughter." She chimed, "She was a great lady."

"T-thank you." You nodded.

"I can't believe you're here." Thatch marveled at his brother making the rest of you frown.

Grace seemed to be somewhat clued in to how they'd arrived.

"Thatch..." She said softly, placing her hand on his shoulder.

He watched her expression change to something more somber. His eyes widened, tears once again breaching his lashes.

"W-wait...not you."

Your heart broke watching pain flicker across Thatch's sweet face. Grace wrapped her arms around his shoulders. He'd been so excited to see Ace that how he got here hadn't occurred to him.

"Was it Teach?" Thatch asked quietly regaining his composure.

Ace's jaw clenched at the mention of Teach's name.

"Marines." The raven finally replied.

Thatch deflated, "What about Pops? The crew?"

"I- I don't know. There was a pretty big battle. I wasn't around for the outcome."

You flinched at his flat response.

"F/N...why don't we give them a moment." Grace rose running her hand over Thatch's back.

You glanced at Ace.

"I'll come find you." He nodded.

Grace took you down a hallway opposite the way you'd come. You entered a small but cozy office. Grace moved around the wooden desk taking a seat in the office chair folding her arms over the marked-up desktop calendar. You claimed a small armchair directly in front of her still feeling uncomfortable with the whole situation.

"How did you find him?" She asked resting her chin in her palm.

You were hesitant to respond. It was too ridiculous to say out loud and people around here already had their ideas about 'the recluse that lives on the hill'. Grace seemed to notice your discomfort.

"I found Thatch lying on the side of the road on my way to the restaurant one morning. Who knows how long he was there or just how many people had passed him by thinking he was some drunk knocked out." A warm smile played upon her full lips.

This was a pleasant memory for her it seemed.

"I'll admit his story took some convincing. I mean a pirate? Magic fruits and all that? Sounds like something you'd read in a comic book." She chuckled, "I feel bad, there was still a part of me that didn't believe him until I saw Ace."

"He uh-" You cleared your throat, "He fell from the sky."

She blinked at you, "How?"

"I'm not sure. But I saw it with my own eyes. Surrounded by flames, he just dropped right into the silt bank of my pond." You watched her waiting for a sign of disbelief.

She nodded, "Maybe that's how both of them got here."

"What do you think happens now?" You asked feeling a knot form in your stomach.

"Well, I'm not sure what they'll want to do." She started, "We could take him in at our place."

"Our?" You echoed, blushing embarrassed that your curiosity betrayed you.

"Mhm. We live together." She hummed, the look on her face telling you it was more than just that.

"Oh." Was all you could muster.

"It seems you're not keen on giving Ace up though." She used an upward inflection, but you knew it was meant to be a statement.

"I'll be fine with whatever he chooses." You shrugged the knots crawling through your gut away.

She only smiled.

The office door opened slightly as Ace entered the room alone.

"Thatch went to pack up our food." He chirped jabbing his thumb in the direction he'd just come, "Are you OK if I hang out with him tonight?"

You braved a fake smile, for whatever reason dreading being home alone, "Of course. Go spend time with your brother."

A grin broke out across the raven's face.

"We should exchange numbers then." Grace piped pulling out her phone.

After gathering your dinner, you parted ways. The drive home felt longer than usual. Once inside you tossed you untouched food in the fridge and slinked to your room flopping down on your bed. You weren't sure how many times you sighed or how long you stared at the ceiling fan before your eyes grew too heavy.

Something rattled against your night stand stirring you from the comfortable position you'd found in your sleep. You blindly slid your hand across the wooden surface, so you could snatch the device.

"Hullo?" You husked.

"F/N," Grace's flustered tone jarred you awake, "It's Ace. He's having some sort of panic attack."

You were already jamming your feet into your boots, "What's your address? I'll be right there."

[koifishart]

I want to be Your Koi Fish - Nine Tails

Warning: +18 content, criminal underworld, intercourse, strong language - and so on

Fanfiction based on: "Baki" by Itagaki Keisuke

>36<

The months passed, the seasons changed one into the other, and the little ones began to give Hanabi a hard time. The wife quickly jumped to even more flexible and loose clothes, almost hearing the seams cracking through the growing belly. As he watched her, aside from the developing offspring, she began to look more and more like the First Kitsune. Even more than usual, she became almost identical to Sakurai, taking on the figure of a fertility goddess. He marveled at how the female body adapts to change. He figured it wasn't easy. He didn't even have to make any guesses, Hanabi openly admitted that with each week the pair of boys stretches harder and harder, and because of their weight, even trained back muscles sometimes couldn't keep the spine in the right position, so she happily spent the evenings half-lying with a book in her hands. Finally, they confirmed the prophecy of little Fubuki - Mrs. Hanayama actually carried two young men under her heart, which delighted practically the whole family. Even the always skeptical Kimiko, each time they visited Akita's house, did her best to please the pregnant woman and relieve her pain. Fortunately, pregnancy did not prevent Hanabi from eating meat. He couldn't stand another month of watching her cry over a steak she couldn't even smell. The housewife was very eager to use it, which eventually became the first thread of understanding between them.

At the end of December, around Christmas, they also appeared at Akita's house, this time for a bit longer. Kimiko beamed once again at the still-growing, larger gymnastics ball-like belly of the struggling Hanabi. Yes, he could see that the simplest things gave her trouble. She told him about it sometimes, but pride seemed to prevent her from admitting the pain in her feet, knees, and hipbones. Possibly in the evening, when she was already lying, stretching her tiny fingers, twirling her knuckles to move her slightly swollen limbs. Once she had slipped out of her warm coat and boots with his help, she capitulated as he gallantly offered her his arm. He knew that she liked small gestures, and from the expression on her face he could easily read that she had enough attractions despite the early afternoon. With gratitude and undisguised joy, she sat under the kotatsu, covering her knees with a purple blanket. No sooner had he sat down, three girls with platters and a pot of tea began to fly around them.

- I am full of admiration and appreciation for your endurance, Hanabi-sama! - Kimiko said happily. - You are also becoming more beautiful with each passing day, although it might seem impossible!

- For balance, I feel like I've swallowed a whale. - The black-haired girl laughed, taking her belly in her hands. - Looks like the four of us are going to celebrate Christmas!

- Hmm...my family never really cared much about Christmas. - Kaoru replied thoughtfully. - It's neither traditional nor familial ... father didn't seem to like the western holidays very much.

- I shouldn't be surprised at all. - she replied with a slight smile. - For us, it was another opportunity to spend an interesting evening, you know, differently than usual. It is true that when we lived with the six of us, I rather sat alone ... but later my father and I liked to bake chicken, make some dumplings with duck, Croquembouche cake with orange and cinnamon cream ... Maybe it wasn't a typical holiday, but, let's say, "our little holiday". Especially that not every year there was an occasion for it through my father's work.

He half-smiled, then sank his fingers into her long, loose hair and pulled her gently to him, kissing her forehead. She dipped her mouth in green tea with pleasure, while a plan sprouted in his head, which he shared with Kimiko, Kizaki and Naito soon after. They scattered a few people to make it on time. After all, it was the last Christmas, just the two of them. Judging by what the doctor was saying, and how the offspring were jostling, kicking their mother in every possible organ, the birth was imminently approaching. On December 24, he returned home as if nothing had happened. Hanabi seemed to be taking full advantage of not having to go anywhere. She rested, as she did not, sitting with her legs placed a little higher, once again immersed in reading. She did not even notice the increased traffic in the house, or ignored the noise coming from behind the thin walls, assuming that if something required her attention, she would certainly be informed. She was right. That was the reaction he expected. Unless the noises heralded danger, she was unlikely to react. He closed the door of their room tightly, and after a while he sat behind her back and hugged the body lying on a huge chest. With a sigh, she set the book aside, then looked up into a hazel and colorless iris.

- How's your day, honey? - she murmured with a slight smile.

- Busy and boring as usual. - he replied evasively. - Lots of things at the end of the year, final financial decisions for the next one, determining production, I even planned the renovation of one of the motels...

- The one in the center? - she asked interested. - Good idea, about time.

- And how are you? - he bent down to her ear. - All of you, actually.

- The old way, for now. The boys don't seem to be in a hurry. Instead, they start to fuss, didn't like today's lunch. - She groaned, placing a hand on her stomach. - Someone gave me such a kick in the stomach I almost spat out the tuna.

- Do you still have some energy? Shall we have dinner? - he suggested, making a pained face. - I'm starving...

- I thought you ate out! - she was surprised. - I'd love to, Kaoru.

Pushing himself to a standing position, he took her hand gently and helped her up. He looked forward to her reaction, but maintained a classic, stoic expression. His wife knew him inside out, so he had to make sure she didn't notice. He also hoped that the hardships of pregnancy had weakened her desire to guess everything around her. He led her to the dining room. He opened the door and gallantly let her in. She stopped half a step outside the doorway. In front of them, in the very center of the room, stood a kotatsu with a festively decorated blanket, piled with roasted poultry, gyoza dumplings, and lovely sweets. In the center was a glass vase of tea smelling of Christmas spices. Around, at the top of the walls, he ordered to hang gently blinking gold, red and green lamps. He lifted a small hand to his face and kissed it softly.

- Merry Christmas, Hanabi.

[miitarashi]

"Get down!" - Tintin yelled.

Both you and Haddock roll on the floor as the tugs keep shooting,trying to at least take one of you out of the way.

Hiding behind a pilar nearby,you and the jornalist begin to exchanging fire with the men on the other side, always taking care to hide in the second after the shot.

"[Name]! try to get out and call for help,we'll handle it as much we can" - he say almost yelling for you to hear since the noise of gunfire filled the air around you.

It was the most logical plan, so you waved in confirmation and turned to look at the door, but there was only one is the big room and it was located right behind where the thieves were.

"I can't! it's right behind them!" - you explain after giving more two shoots,hitting the pilar that the tugs are.

Tintin only make a small "tsk" with his tongue, stopping for a moment to collect his thoughts, thinking in a way out of this terrible situation by a poorly executed plan to recover a stolen figurine.

"Ok...we'll have to pass through,i know,but this is our only option" - he begin,looking both at you and Haddock.

You and the old man looked at each other, nodding and listening carefully to the plan of the ginger-haired boy in front of you.

After a brief moment to discuss,all of you stayed still and hiden,waiting for the sound of gunfire to stop for a moment, which would indicate they had taken a quick break to reload. Without delay, the shooting ceased. The thieves have stopped, pulling their weapons back to load more ammo and at that moment, you, Tintin and Haddock rush forward.

With the rest of the bullets, you all shoot at the bandits who hide in their hiding places so as not to be hit. Instead of fighting head-on, the best option was to run away due to the difference in numbers, so when you got close to them, the three of you deviated from the path, heading straight for the door.

"Wait! Damn it! Give the figurine back!!" - one of the men shouted, grunting with anger when he saw the object in the captain's hand.

"Come on come on, almost...!" - he said, sounding more like a plea to reach the door as quickly as possible.

As if she heard him, the lucky lady smiles at them and the three of you arrive at the door, opening it immediately and running outside. However, one shot.

Neither of you three looked behind, even after the sound, only making your best to run fast away from the hide out. Getting inside of the nearby forest, hiding between some bushes you all were finally out of sight and reach of the bandits, being able to take a deep breath for a moment.

"That...was certainly close.." - Tintin say out of breath.

"Don't ye tell me..." - he fall sloopy on the floor, letting the statuette aside.

You were about to say something along, ready to take a deep breath first before talking but as the adrenaline sets down, you feel a sting in your chest. Looking down, your vision begin to blur, your shirt is wet. Touching on it and looking better, your blood froze.

That shoot, that one shoot before running away. Your legs feel weak immediately making you fall harsh on the floor attracting the attention of both at the same time.

"[Name]!" - he quickly comes closer, taking you in his arms. Both his and Haddock's face becoming pale at the sight of blood flooding from your chest.

"No...no no no!" - his hand start to shake, fear and guilty filling his mind. If he had do a better plan, not even that, he shouldn't have brought you along!

"By a thousand devils...she got shot in the chest!" - he exclaimed, more like a thought out loud without wanting to believe his own words.

Your body began to weaken from the loss of blood, in Tintin's mind, he knew that it would take time for the police or ambulance to arrive at the place where they are, the shot was accurate enough to not give time or room for hopes.

Tintin was feeling it. The heat of your body decreasing, your skin losing color gradually and your breath growing slower. And he? He couldn't do nothing. Only hold you firmly in his arms, a knot forming on his throat when tears threaten to fall. Your eyes almost closing preventing him from doing so.

"Please- please don't close your eyes [Name]! stay awake...please..." - his voice diminished, little by little becoming a failed whisper, hugging your body with strength and care.

"Please...please stay with me..." - he pleads, whispering. You could feel a tear falling on your face, it was hard to see him crying.

You remember, this happen only one time in Chang's incident but now, he was helplessly holding onto you with all his might.

"...i'm...sorry..." - you replied weakly, taking out a hand that seemed heavy due to the level of effort you were making.

"...sorry...for this to be...our...last adventure...." - you manage to reach his face,a light caress on his cheek.

"Don't say it...please..." - he hold you hand on his face,without containing his tears at this point.

"please...never stop...just because of this...you're...an incredible adventure...and...the...love of my life..." - you speak,each second that pass, more difficult is to breath and talk but you don't give up just yet. Just, a little more.

"be happy...both of you..." - you looked for the old captain by side eye,the men crying as well holding his hat against his chest in a respectful manner kneeling down next to you.

"...i love you..." - your eyes close.

The hand on his face almost falling from there,but he hold it tight with his own,biting his lower lip for a moment to regain a slight amout of composure as he bend down lightly and kiss your forehead before resting his own against yours.

"...i love you too...and forever i'll..."

He whispered back,only hoping that you could hear him. Before you go.

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A/N: boo! I didn't warned on purpose. I know, i know i should,but this wouldn't have the same impact you know? And it's just a creative moment that i was inspires by a tik tok with this prompt. Since Tintin's fandom don't have this type of content,i'm pushing my luck on this one. Hope you guys liked it 😘

[sohmiya]

More hcs cause I promised <3

Crushing stage:

I couldn’t get over Miko and Ev casually bumping into each other at a coffee shop, so I feel like it’s part of their crushing stage relationship now and bc Ev’s a hopeless romantic, I imagine him coming back from like a South American tour with completely different timezones yet he’s still adamant on seeing Miko the morning after.

Like he’ll be walking there, dressed down, all tired, on the phone to Cypress and Cy would go “Evren, why are you awake? You came back from tour yesterday” “I’m going to buy coffee” “…you have a coffee maker and a kettle” “yeah but…I get to see Miko at the cafe” and Cy would just go “oh” “oh? what do you mean oh?!” “no, I mean, it’s just nice you being like this” bc atp Cy would realise that he really likes her and Ev would say “hm, yep, sleep deprivation is such a hot look”

I see Ev and Miko sitting together, like at the same table and everything and they’d be talking, and Evren would say something like “you really didn’t know who I was when we met?” and Miko would shake her head like “not a clue. does that disappoint you?” and Ev would say “no, definitely not. it makes me like you more, actually” but I still see Ev being less confident than usual when he says that so Miko would tease him and say “ohh, you like me? :)”

Evren has a group chat with his band too and they’d definitely say stuff like ‘is this like just a thing or are you wanting to have a relationship with her?’ ‘you’re really falling for her, huh?’ and ‘as long as she doesn’t break your heart and we get good songs out of it, I’m fine with it’—bc they know how Evren can get when it comes to relationships.

And even though Ev knows he’s crushing, he’d definitely wonder ‘do I only feel like this because I think she’s pretty?” and then he’ll be at Miko’s practices, and then he’d hear her laugh at something and find himself smiling and realise it’s definitely not a ‘I’m just attracted to you’ kind of thing.

Relationship stage:

I imagine Evren being on some talk show like promoting his album and stuff and the host is all “your girlfriend is in the crowd, right?” “yeah, so if you see me looking around for her frantically it’s because I’m feeling nervous”

Him wearing Sanada jerseys to Miko’s games <3 which does a great job at confirming their relationship to the world.

But alsoo Ev having Miko’s social media notifications on for when she posts so he can like and comment on everything and his comments are emojis or stuff like ‘hot’ ‘you’re wearing my necklace’ ’if you wanna get married i’m down’ ‘thinking inappropriate thoughts ;)’

I also see Miko and Ev being around with Javier and Rosalie and they ask how Javier proposed, and Rosa would laugh and say “we were at home, he gets down on one knee, asks me to marry him and then flew abroad the next day to play a match” and Ev would roll his eyes and say “mom, that’s terrible. you need more romantic men in your life…unless you and dad are planning to get back together, hint hint, then forget I said anything :)”

each day i get sadder that evren does not exist 🕳️🚶🏻‍♀️

“yeah but…I get to see Miko at the cafe”

PLEASE evren always trying to show up at the cafe at times that miko is most likely there 😩😩😩 miko will 100% tease him at one point: “are you stalking me?” and when they’re about to part ways miko says “have a good day” and he replies with “it already is” UNGHHHH

alsooo !!!!!! CYPRESS LOWKEY BEING A EVREN MIKO SHIPPER AS HE SHOULD

“you really didn’t know who I was when we met?”

the way i knew he would eventually bring this up SHSHAJSJA and yes miko would 100% be a tease about like “what if i told you that my first thought was that you’re just a nepo baby? you’d still like me?” and i imagine evren saying something like “uhuh. you’re cute so i’ll let that slide” 🤭🥰🥰

‘as long as she doesn’t break your heart and we get good songs out of it, I’m fine with it’

LISTEN not to insert maxine but this is one of the conversations that second coming exactly had with her 😭

he’d hear her laugh at something and find himself smiling and realise it’s definitely not a ‘I’m just attracted to you’ kind of thing.

alsoooo this hc is actually perfect for miko because i always imagined her having a melodious laugh shsakdkak but she tends to cackle a lot LMAO so like when she starts deeply crushing on evren she’ll be so self-conscious about it and at one point she starts covering her mouth and idk why but i can 100% imagine evren saying “don’t do that” and miko just going “what?” “that” then he points at her hand just hovering over her mouth then proceeds to compliment her smile or how he likes to sound of her laugh 😭😭😭😭😭😭

“yeah, so if you see me looking around for her frantically it’s because I’m feeling nervous”

STOP I LOVE HIM :(((( miko would tell him beforehand where she’d be in the crowd during the interview then she’d say “but just in case you still don’t find me, just know i’m there” and i think miko would take a picture of the stage from her seat before the show starts and send it to him so he can kind of estimate the angle of the camera or something and have an idea which part of the crowd to search for her hehehe but yeah after every interview miko always tells him “i’m so proud of you” <333333

Him wearing Sanada jerseys to Miko’s games <3 which does a great job at confirming their relationship to the world.

I CAN SEE THIS TAKING OVER HEADLINES like miko would make a lighthearted comment about how “nobody even cares that we won. they’re just talking about us” and evren just chuckles like “sorry babe i couldn’t resist” or if he’s feeling cocky he’d be like “you’re dating me. everyone knows you won” 😭

evren having miko’s post notifs on reminded me of this:

JDHSHSJ but i just know evren’s the kind of bf who would comment “first” or “mine” and when he comments “thinking inappropriate thoughts” miko jokingly says “you are so shameless” but in the comments she’d go along with it to drive the fans crazy and reply to evren “show me 😏” like i just know they’re in the same room sitting next to each other just laughing when the fans swarm the replies 😭😭😭

“we were at home, he gets down on one knee, asks me to marry him and then flew abroad the next day to play a match”

the way miko would literally look at javier all surprised like “you did NOT” and javier’s just 🤦‍♂️ SHSJSKSK also i think after that miko’s admiration for rosalie would skyrocket simply for her ability to make javier aka *THE* manager of inter city look like he’s Just Some Guy shdjsfhshdjsjsjsjs but miko would also just sit there in silence taking in the moment and feeling so soft and happy for evren

and like obviously she would never interfere in their family matters but when it’s just her and evren and they’re both in their feelings she’ll most likely blurt out something like “i want what your parents have” before she realizes they’re divorced and like she’s stuttering out an apology and how that’s not what she meant but evren just laughs and is like “no no i get it. i do too” and like not to push my evren x miko endgame agenda but in my head evren’s looking at her lovingly then he continues “and i think i found it” shhwjeajwhjwaj BYEEEEEEEEEE

[genderkoolaid]

Want to bring up some anthropological examples of societies where rape simply was not an issue women were concerned with, specifically two I think about a lot:

A world in which women move freely without fear of men: An anthropological perspective on rape by Maria-Barbara Watson-Franke

Guajiro women of the desert, however, do not live under the cloud of rape, they are not afraid. A personal experience will illustrate that. I remember walking with my guide in the desert late in the evening. It was already after 11:00 PM and we still had some way to go. I felt uncomfortable but said nothing not to upset her. The next day, however, I brought up the issue to avoid such nightly walks in the future. She replied, yes, she had been scared, too. This, of course, confirmed my conviction that the desert was as unsafe for a woman traveling at night as the big cities. When I then mentioned that a man in Europe had attacked me, she looked surprised and replied: “You were afraid of people? Oh no, there is no reason for that. I was thinking of the snakes.” How different our fears had been.

Secrets Of The Love Huts by Fiona MacGregor (also see this article):

It may seem a risky practice to Westers minds, but to the girls, who are usually aged between 13 and 15 when they first move into their love huts, and their parents, the tradition helps create young women who are confident, independent, and respectful of their own sexuality. [...] Nang Chan is a delicately built and softly spoken young woman, but she has strong opinions on the important role the love huts play in creating powerful young women and helping girls find true love: “The huts give us independence and are the best way to find out which boys we really like,” she explains sitting on the bamboo steps of her tiny hut as several small piglets scrabble around in the rust-orange dust beneath her feet. Stories of women in undeveloped countries heing dominated by men and having few or no rights have been told so often that it can almost seern us if this is somehow the "default" human state. Yet in Kreung culture, which has remained virtually unchanged for centuries, women are not judged on their virginity and the rules of sexual conduct are determined by teenage girls as much as by male religious, social or political leaders. "When boys come to stay the night if I don't want them to touch me they won't. We will just talk and sleep. If I have a special boyfriend and we're in love I will be intimate with him, but if I stop loving him and find a boy I think is more attractive and prefer, I will stop having sex with the other one," says Nang Chan. [...] The male/female friendships that develop during the girls' time in their Love Huts mean that it's good for building a sense of community and means that men and women have stronger bonds with each other and a lot of respect, adds her father. Kreung women and men consistently say that "men and women are equal and that they make decisions together". If a situation arises where a couple really can't reach agreement they will turn to their parents or other elders to help them reach a resolution.

I dunno who still needs to hear this basic shit in the scifi year of 2025, but (as much as I'm generally eager to say that people kinda just do stuff and then rationalize their actions after the fact) dudes are actually able to resist assaulting women. Even women that dress provocatively. Even women that are flirty and affectionate. It's like not even difficult. The idea that seeing some cleavage or the silhouette of a butt will turn good men into helpless unwilling rapists only exists to excuse men for abusing their power (which comes as no surprise etc).

Women were getting sexually assaulted in the 1800s. Women get sexually assaulted in Amish communities. Women get sexually assaulted while wearing burqas. Women get sexually harassed in video game voice chat (where they functionally do not even have bodies).

Men spend time in naturist communities and act respectfully. Men grow up in naturist communities and become so accustomed to naked women's bodies that nudity loses meaning to them.

If men can go to strip clubs without needing to be put into straitjackets then they can survive the sight of a woman in activewear.

The problem isn't women being sluts.

[lordnot]

Hi responding to your questions in good faith here, but well your questions presume quite a bit that is not actually in the texts.

All op says is that when asked about the flirting the friend said she was, "Pre-ordering" given that the op had to go to reddit to ask about what that term meant nowhere did the the friend tell the reader that they needed to change for her. You could maybe argue that the obstruction of details is a problem in its own right, but wouldn't saying "hey I think you might be a girl" be explicitly going against what so many people who talk about "egg discourse" be he more serious concern? Oh also stated that she is happier than she's ever been, everyone who communicated with her about being trans simply gave suggestions and options she could partake. As they were random reddit people there was no real way any of them could enforce said suggestions.

And to answer your genuine questions. I do think there is a clear distinction where privilege and societal dynamics do come into play. In your ozempic example the current societal ideal is for people to be skinny and not fat. There are already many social pressures to do so entire industries built around this idea, in addition to the patriarchal expectations of women listening to men.

Meanwhile those apparatuses do not exist for queer and trans people. In fact I'd argue I imagine it might be quite common for queer people who are friends might say to their friends, "I'd date you if you were the gender I was interested in" simply because sometimes bonds are strong but sexuality is still a thing. Now this is now what happened, because again the friend was very discreet and did not explain much at all but if she had. It would have been fine. There is no demand for someone to do so there.

I think you are well intentioned but I think you are looking for malicious, controlling or negative traits in what is an overall a positive experience that has had a positive effect on a marginalized person. It is good to be concerned about your fellow person but sometimes people just want to help people find themselves. I hope you have a good day.

So yes, I am reading into the texts. You kind of have to, given how little content is actually there. But I would argue that framing it as simply cute and benign also requires reading into the texts. For example, the response "Yea I guess so.." could be read as the person slowly coming to a joyful realization of their trans status. Or it could be read as uncertainty, confusion, ambivalence. They report they are happy, but it is because they are trans and have a girlfriend, or are they happy because they have a girlfriend, and that feels like it makes everything else worthwhile?

At the same time, I think you are also minimizing what is actually in the texts. The friend flirts first, then when questioned, labels it as pre-ordering. Her flirtations communicate a romantic interest. Her labeling it when asked confirms that interest. She might not be actively scheming, but it is not as passive as you frame it. If she has any reason to believe that her attraction may be returned, then there is an implicitly understood power dynamic there. The OP is under pressure to conform to her interests in order to make establishing a relationship possible. She could have denied that it was flirting. She could have acknowledged that she cannot currently reconcile her sexual identity with her behavior and apologized for the mixed signals. But unless you are arguing that the people on Reddit misinterpreted her, she stated an interest and an expectation that put pressure on the OP to reconsider a gender identity. Again, I agree that it is not a social pressure. But it is coercion.

As for pointing to how "it's common" or "it has had a positive effect", I would think it's self-evident that these are not justifications. When someone acts recklessly, we should not accept "Well no one got hurt, so it's fine." And sometimes what is commonly accepted as the way of doing things includes ostracizing gender nonconformity.