#she knew that she would never be on peytons level LOL

[williamprattz]

“hey jenny loves peyton”

[andsmile]

i actually shipped brucas and leyton as well and i believe lucas loved them in very different ways but ultimately he definitely loved both of them but they were both sort of spoiled for me because of the way lucas treated them and the way they treated each other. back in season one i was more into leyton and in season two i was more into brucas but then came the moment when brooke made a joke about peyton's moms after peyton's confession. and i fucked right off of both. (+)

i understood brooke's frustration and anger, i really did, but that just crossed a line for me. if it were season one, i might not have liked it, but i would have understood. but (and as much as i dislike love triangles just for drama) after peyton was being honest (even though she was in love with jake but whateva) and she got her dead moms thrown in her face? i promptly dropped the hell out of brucas, leyton and it took me two seasons to even like brooke again. never is a ship worth it.

hey! sorry for the delay in answering. lucas obviously loved both girls and different parts of him flared up whenever he was around them. it was pretty awful how they went against each other but i feel like it was a very hurtful situation from all parts: peyton’s feelings were real but she couldn’t admit to them, brooke’s feelings were real and so new to her, lucas’s heart was very confused and the girls were SO close and like sisters, it was a very messy and hurtful triangle i think.

so, like i said in some earlier question, i tend to analyze the writing choices more than the character drive... because at the end of the day, you have a group of writers telling that story and the characters make decisions that are influenced by a bunch of external factors outside of the storyline. i’ve said many times that i think brucas was dismantled too fast and suddenly because of chad and sophia’s bts drama, and it ended up being a careless point in oth’s writing... and that was the entirety of season four.

if brooke had said all those things to peyton in s1 i think i would’ve understood it better, but in s4 it was just a little out of character. she had grown so much and ultimately she was the one choosing not to be with lucas, so there was no point in making her so angry and resentful to peyton. maybe ignoring them both would’ve been more in character. but i think that absolutely no one was rooting for peyton (except the lp shippers ofc! lol) after what went down again in s3. she didn’t have to tell brooke about her feelings for lucas, i did think that was kind of shady, she knew how much of a sore spot that still was. i’m not blaming peyton exclusively cause lucas had his feelings too and he’s to blame, but like brooke said herself, she could’ve buried it. 

anyway, like i said, i think come s4 no one was rooting for peyton and they really needed to go for leyton, so the way they found for ‘leveling the playing field’ was villanizing brooke. they gave her that stupid brathan sex tape (my biggest eye roll) and made her joke about peyton’s mom so we would feel sorry for peyton, like you and i’m sure a lot of other viewers did. and this way no one wouldn’t think peyton was being awful for hanging out with lucas.

(and although i hate most of oth’s s4, i do appreciate that brooke saved peyton from psycho derek, and not lucas! i thought it was a nice way to mend their friendship...................however i never felt sorry for peyton lol so i would’ve rather seen brooke put in a position of danger for once and peyton helping her. i was never a fan of the ~saving peyton~ idea. i also appreciate that scene in the hospital when brooke tells lucas he has to come back to take care of peyton! that was nice.)

but i feel like at least one tree hill gave some real consequences to hurt between friendships you know? things aren’t usually magically fixed, friends betraying you hurts SO MUCH more than anything else, and i appreciate that they always worked through it, comparing to other shows *cough*riverdale*cough*. 

[ghosttownaz]

Underground Uprising’s “Artist of the Week” - D. Carter

We are back with the Underground Uprising's "Artist of the Week" and this time we have a director/videographer to showcase!  D. Carter, the man behind "To the Top Visuals" is the first "AOTW" to  be chosen for their skills behind a camera and after you get to know him and his work a little better, you'll be a fan or an eager artist that wants to work with this diversely skilled man from Arizona.

Where are you from?  What was it like growing up there?

"I was born in Mesa, Arizona. Raised in the East valley of Phoenix, bouncing from Chandler, Gilbert, Mesa, and Tempe. I've been here my entire life. I moved a lot, but mostly throughout the east valley. I love AZ, it is a place I'll always represent and call home. I've met several solid people who've played huge roles in my life. I've had a lot of great memories and a lot of bad one's. But I'm sure it's like that anywhere you are from. The one thing i love about Arizona is its difference in nature. You can go from the Phoenix desert at 120 degrees and take an hour and a half drive up North and be in cooler weather and surrounded by pine trees. Growing up here has been a long experience and journey. I don't know any other place better than I do Arizona."

What kind of videos/movies/tv inspired you as a kid?

"I grew up loving a lot of sci-fi and comedy films. "Star Wars" brings out my nerdy side and i could watch those movies over and over despite how many times I've already seen them. I also loved movies like "The Matrix" , "Romeo must die", "Predator", "Alien", "Rush Hour" "Chappelle show" and stand up comedies to name a few. As a kid I was heavy into "Pokémon" and "Yu-Gu-oh!" I don't care what nobody says that was my thing. Lol. I really enjoyed movies or shows where their was a main character who was separated from the rest "The one" or they had special abilities that no one else had. Some badass "lone ninja" type stuff. Lol. I actually try implementing that on my own projects. I think it's cool."

When did “To the Top Visuals” start?

"[It] originated as "Carterora Productions" about two years ago. As I was building my portfolio as an artist going by "D Carter", I needed content. I didn't have the money to afford photo shoots or music videos all the time with what I was trying to do. I knew I needed to put things out but I was limited. I hated that feeling. I originally invested into camera equipment with a business partner who had experience in multimedia in hopes to grow as an artist and build a business shooting music videos and doing photo shoots for other artists. My partner and I had conflicting schedules and (life happened) at the time and couldn't run it full force attacking it head on together like i was intending to. So I ended up doing it by myself. I started building relationships and taking on big projects like Weddings, Corporate videos, small business videos, artist photo shoots, artist music videos etc.. I really had no experience what so ever with a camera or knew anything about it. But I did my research and learned more and more over time. I had to learn the ins and outs of a camera, a drone, editing, all while having my own style to it. It was very over whelming for a while because I was also trying to be a music artist. Then all the sudden I was a videographer and a photographer.

I've had my fair share of gigs and the experience is really what took me to a new level. Although I still am the learner and have much more to figure out. It has skyrocketed my opportunities and building relationships being able to it all.  Until I met my manager, (Danielle Ellis) aka "The Matrix" We built a team together under the label "To the Top Music Management". She has helped me immensely to grow as an artist. We decided to partner and run the multimedia business I had built, together and rebrand the name to match what we had already started in To the Top Music management. To make things simpler, thus the name "To the Top Visuals".

Favorite director?

"I loved Tarantino films, Spielberg, and of course George Lucas for giving us star wars lol."

What do you both think of the current state of AZ Hip Hop?

"I think anyone can agree that Arizona is a hotspot for talent. I've met so many talented and credible like minded individuals who are all here trying to do the same thing. The driving direction in AZ hip-hop is in full acceleration. One day i believe AZ will be known for Hip hop like California, New York or Atlanta. One driving force will be Respect the Underground and what they have put on for the city, year after year. Especially with the showcasing of talent at each years Annual Hip hop festival."

Advice for up and coming creators and artists?

"My best advice, do what you love to do. Not because it's cool. If you truly love the ART and can dedicate your life to it, then take every opportunity thrown at you. I mean that as in right away. Not next week, next year, or when you're ready.. Because you will never be "ready". The time is now fam."

Biggest lesson learned in your career?

"My biggest lesson as a music artist, was to stop making music for other people. Make music that YOU like. Don't follow the trends. Separate yourself from the rest. I see to much of the same things nowadays. I also learned that this is a business, not a hobby. You need to have both a business mindset and a creative mindset or else this will be very difficult for you. It was for me. The last important thing I learned is don't listen to what people think or criticize you on about your art. And that goes for the multimedia side as well. Your art will never be good enough for some people and that's okay. You have to accept that. The ones who enjoy what you do will follow."

What are you most proud of, what is your biggest accomplishment so far?

"What I am most proud of in this journey in the music business and multimedia business is the experience itself. Never did I think 4 years ago I would be where I am today, strategizing and executing a clear vision with Mic Myers, Talika, KMRN, Genesis, and Drk Matr, all of which are a part of our label “To the Top music management” as well as hosting Hip-hop night at Good Time Charlis in Chandler. I've worked with or had the opportunity to surround myself with several successful artists and media artists such as Whitney Peyton, Sincerely Collins, Fat Belly Filmz, Shot by Dub, Delly Everyday, Bag of Tricks Cat to name a few. I've collaborated with super producer Kato on the Track, on a beat and had the opportunity to meet and learn from him. I've taken pictures of several local artists whether it be photo shoots or performance photos for groups like The Kotton Mouth Kings... The opportunities are out there.. I'm proud of my journey and I cant wait for what's next."

Who would you like to collab with in the future?

"I would love to collab with Futuristic one day, but I'm sure everyone would want that since he's one of the faces of AZ hip hop right now.. J Rob the Chief is another artist i believe is next level. I'm open to collabs with anyone who is serious about this honestly. Eventually I'd like to expand outside of AZ and collab with other we'll known artists. But overall I want to grow and help others grow too."

What’s the next move for To The Top Visuals?

"To the Top visuals has a few videos coming out that we are excited about. One of which being Whitney Peyton. She is an incredible talent and has given us the opportunity to collab with her. So stay tuned for that. Otherwise, To the Top Visuals is open for business and taking all inquiries for video, photo, beat production, studio recording, album art or cover art, or even if you need help learning the business side of music etc.. So hit us up we got you!"

by: Steven Sandage

[aquakris]

1-40 💘 I’m so sorry you’re having a rough night pumpkin. I wish there was a way that I could make it better.

Anon you don’t know how much you made me feel so much better tonight. I love you so much like I’m literally tearing up🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💕

1. What was the name of the first person you ever had a crush on? Why did you like them?

It was first grade & his name was Peyton Bellinger & I liked him because he was super smart, cute, & funny. He was also my first kiss lol

2. What is one thing you regret having done or not done in your life?

I think I regret spending my time on ppl who knew that they weren’t going to stay in my life in the long run & basically how some ppl just don’t give a fuck about my feelings honestly. (That’s the reason why I’m so sad tonight lol🥴) I have more things but that’s one of them

3. Which parent do you identify with the most?

Well I was raised by my mom & grandma (because my dad is asshole tbh) so I’m gonna say both of them. I have both of their personalities mixed together

4. What do you think you cook or bake the best?

I don’t really cook often but I can bake some good ass muffins lol

5. If you could change your first name what would it be?

I honesty don’t know LMAOOOOOO maybe Ashley since that’s one part of my middle name?

6. Can you hula hoop?

Yes but I’m not that good

7.What embarrasses you the most in front of other people?

I hateeeeee crying in front of ppl ugh it’s so embarrassing to me because I look so ugly when I cry but also, I don’t want ppl to see my emotional side? Idk it’s weird loll

8. Have you considered running for president?

Lmaoooooo yes I have but I don’t think ppl would vote for me

9. If you had to choose one thing you were most passionate about, what would it be and why?

I’m so passionate about making my mom happy. I just want to make her so proud of me like everything I do, especially my education ( which I’m also passionate about) is for her & mostly myself. I love her🥺

10. Who are you most envious of—real or fictional—and why?

I don’t really envy anyone honestly🤷🏾‍♀️😂

11. Where is the most beautiful place on earth and why?

In my opinion, I think the most beautiful place on earth is anywhere with a nice beach & a sunset. Idc where it’s at, but a nice sunset on the beach makes me so happy.

12. Are ghosts real?

Yessssss

13. Are aliens real?

Hell yessssss

14. How old is the most expired item in your fridge?

I think it’s yogurt that expired maybe 3 days ago? (Ew💀)

15. What are your favorite style of underwear?

Boyshorts, cheeky, & thongs🌝

16. What’s the saddest song you’ve ever heard?

The climb by Miley Cyrus (I cry everytime)

17. How about the sweetest song?

The way by Ariana Grande because I fucking love her omg & my favorite part by Mac Miller because I miss him:(((

18. Do you know how to play dominoes?

Nah lol but I would love to learn

19. What’s under your bed?

A bunch of shoes & other shit💀

20. Have you ever prank called someone?

Yes lmaoooooo I’m kinda childish😂😂

21. 100 kittens or 3 baby sloths?

3 baby sloths because my little heart can’t take all that cuteness especially with 100 kittens

22. Are you proud of what you’re doing with your heart and time right now?

Sort of

23. Why or why not?

Because I’m doing good sort of but I can be better. My heart is kinda hurting at the moment but once I get myself together, I’ll be fine

24. How many bones have you broken?

None! I’m actually surprised because I have low vitamin D levels & also iron

25. Have you ever won anything? Big or small?

I’ve won some prizes before but it’s nothing major lol

26. If you could buy one material thing, and money was not an issue, what would it be?

A custom black & pink Porsche so me & Grayson can race each other & for Ethan to be in the passenger seat hehe☺️

27. What’s your favorite movie from your childhood?

Hmmmm… I want to say every Barbie movie you can think of & also the Bratz movies

28. What food will you absolutely not, under any circumstances, eat?

I would absolutely not eat lobster or crab. I’ve got sick from it before & it wasn’t great at all

29. What’s the best way to comfort you when you’re having a really terrible day?

Like tonight lol, just talk to me. Let me know that everything is gonna be ok… cuddle with me? I need a hug rn

30. Has anything/anyone every saved your life before?

I want to say first, my mom because if I died today, she would not be able to live & I hate seeing her hurt but also, my close friend from high school. I was very depressed & kinda suicidal towards the end of senior year but she kinda saved me. I’m still friends with her too. That’s my bby

31. Would you ever adopt a child?

Yes!!!!! I want to be a mom sooooooo bad so if I wasn’t able to have my own kids, then I would loveeeeeee to be a mom for someone that will become mine🥺

32. What is one thing you’re embarrassed to admit you want to try?

I want to try skydiving. Ppl think I’m weird but it seems fun! I also want to get a tattoo on my lip like E & Gray💀

33. If you were a cake which cake would you be?

Pound cake because it’s thicc like me😉😂

34. What is the most important material possession you have and why?

My 3 gold necklaces & my Rings because they we’re given to me at a young age & also, I just love them a lot lol

35. What is the most important memory you have and why?

I’ll never forget when I first time I got my first car. I was hitting everything LMAOOOOOO it was terrible because I have bad anxiety when I drive so I don’t really drive now but I need to like now lol because Lyft & Uber adds up quickly

36. When was the last time you cried?

Around 10 mins ago:(

37. How old was your mother when she had you?

20 so basically my age rn. She raised a bad bitch & that’s the tea😉

38. Which famous person would you like to be BFFs with?

Ariana Grande or Ethan & Grayson

39. Is there something you wish you had said sorry for but never did?

Yes:((((

40. Have you been on your first date? If so, how did it go?

No but hopefully, someone would take me on a lovely date one day🤧

Thanks for asking anon! You made my night better & I love you bby🥺🥺🥺🥺💛

[gleelistrp]

Welcome to the GLEE LIST RP !! Thank you so much for applying to the group, ASH.  We are extremely excited to have you playing, PEYTON ‘TY’ TYLER ZIZES and bringing them to our dash. After reading over your audition, we think THE CLEAN SLATE, will totally fit them. However, if you aren’t so sure of that we can gladly discuss a change. You have also successfully earned the base point level of 100 points !!

         CODY CHRISTIAN is now taken and has 1 slot open.

You’ve got 48 HOURS to get your characters page ready and don’t forget to look over the GUIDE. Remember to have fun and never hesitate to come to us if you have questions, comments, concerns or even ideas !

Out Of Character Information.

Name/Alias: Ash. They/Them. Age: 22. Timezone: PST. Activity Level: 5/10. I suck and my internet sucks. And y’all already knows this but I work 3rd shift now, sucks tbh, but I can be on super early for me or super late. Love me? ( copy and paste boo ) Anything Else: Honestly all we can say is lol. How do you come up with these things? 

In Character Information.

Desired Character: Peyton 'Ty’ Tyler Zizes. Faceclaim: Cody Christian Family Relation: Cousin, Alec’s brother. Ships: Peyton/Chemistry. Anti-Ships: Peyton/Forced Age/Grade: 17/Junior. Sexuality: Pansexual. Traits: 3 negative: secretive, flirtatious, insecure. & 3 positive: friendly, charming, humorous. Relationship Status: Lonely. Label: The Clean Slate. Secrets: Ty had never felt 'right' growing up or he had never fit into the normal stereotypical roles when it came to his sex at birth. He never felt like a girl, he never wanted to wear dresses or play with dolls, instead he wanted to play sports and go outside and get dirty. Growing up in the back of his mind he had always felt like a boy, he never envisioned himself any other way but it was always something he kept to himself. That was until he had came across the word transgender one day on the internet and everything started to make sense. Growing up his mother was never pushy, she would shop for him in the boys section but that didn't mean she was okay with it. When he was thirteen he finally talked to his mom and showed her stacks of paper that he had printed off to explain things to her and how he wanted to transition. She wasn't okay with it and as time with on, by the time he was fourteen he was getting kicked out of his house, forced to go live with his father. His father however was accepting, he was a psychologist and helped him get a visit to a specialist and counseling to start the process. On his fifteenth birthday he got his first injection of testosterone. It wasn't an easy process and most of his family is still not accepting of his decision but he's been on T for a little over two years and he hasn't told anyone at his new school yet. He has a lot of built up anger, he's actually bipolar but has stopped taking his medicine and it's been over a year since he had. Now that he feels more comfortable with his appearance he goes out and does a lot more. He's physically fit and goes to the gym five times a week. He is also trained in Mixed Martial Arts and one night he had gotten into a argument from a comment someone made and beat the other guy up so bad he got hospitalized. He took off, never confessing to the crime, hoping no one saw it was him. Most people don't know that he used to be Alec's 'sister', not even Alec knew. When he was forced to leave he didn't keep much contact with him because of how he was and everything that happened with their older brother. People that knew Alec well did know he had two siblings but not much else.  ( headcanons ) He takes pride in his physical image a lot. He's healthier and active, even more outgoing than he had ever been. He goes to the gym, plays sports: basketball, football, hockey and baseball. He is new to McKinley. He started attending there at the beginning of the year. No one knows that he's transgender and he plans to keep it that way because the school he attended about a hour away before he moved from, getting bullied, being taunted and into fights constantly. If people ask him about his last night and if he is related to Alec he just claims to be his cousin because he isn't ready to tell people and he wants Alec to know first. He has never fully had a girlfriend, he's very flirtatious by nature. He can't ever see himself settling down with one girl for more reasons that he doesn't think he can find someone willing to date him. Then there's the fact that he's kind of shallow. He makes YouTube videos to document his transition. In hopes that it may help others in the future that have gone through the same things as him. He doesn't know how he'd react if someone from McKinley found them but he'd deal with that when the time came.