#she doesnt get alot about me......shes my best friend but i have a Sister Mask

[sensitivegoblin]

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[domjaehyun]

Omg if you're chatty would you mind sending me some friendship help too😭😭

Tbh i figured this out to my best ability now but i think its always nice to get a second opinion, i had a friend since kindergarten and we were really close until high-school when we had a break off freshman year, for a short story, i told another friend something critical in a way about her which she told someone else and it got back to her, tbh its not as bad as you may think but early minds yk, i apologized alot and never said more about her but she talked mad shit behind my back to more people when i kept quiet and kept it between us anyways, later on we got it fixed ig, 10th grade for us was casually talking knowing we were still important to each other but i got really reserved i was finding myself out so i distanced myself from her and others who i felt didnt approve or support my way of coping, junior year we got better but because of our different interests we got a bit more cold, senior year, i think we got back in a way to how we were, could be maturing on both sides and finding comfort in each other but it was finally a chance to see ourselves good again, casual talks here and there have always been the norm but we really stopped doing that and when we did it was good until it was basically just me seeking her out, she had personal things going on majorly her becoming a mom, which i had to find through her sister, but i think this really ridged us because i knew she'd have a different chapter in her life which is fine but i dont want to feel bad for always seeking her out when she can do the same, sure i know its heavy to become a mom at a early stage of her life i completely understand, but should i feel like bad friend for not trying to help her more or should i leave as is because there's no hard feelings for letting ourselves kinda fall

omg *cracks knuckles* lets do this thing (under a read more in case this gets long / ppl just dont wanna see it djfgjksdf)

okay so right off the bat: finding out someone’s talking abt you behind your back, esp a close friend, really sucks so i feel for you :( i know technically you did it first but like. weighing it out, what you did doesnt sound as bad as what she did :( oof okay that’s a loaded question i think and there are diff answers i could give :///// lemme see

if she just became a mom and she wasnt expecting it—hell, even if she was—she could probably use a lot of patience and understanding right now. parenting is NOT easy and if she’s got other personal stuff going on, it sounds like she’s probably struggling and might not be as forthcoming about needing/wanting help as she should be. this is from my personal opinion, but i think that it would be a very kind thing of you to stick by her side rn esp w the baby !! she’s probably scared/stressed and losing a friend is a lot to handle esp bc you guys have such an entangled history together :(

when you say “trying to help her more,” what do you mean exactly? you can be a helpful friend, but don’t bite off more than you can chew!! when you say help, do you mean w the baby or with her personal issues? either way, it is valid to be concerned about her situation and even to voice your concerns to her (but in an “i care about you and want to make sure you’re doing alright with all of this going on” way…. tone and delivery are super important in a conversation like this) !!! however, if YOU’RE not in the state where you can handle being that kind of support, then i def don’t think you should feel like a bad friend. there’s this metaphor/quote i rly like that’s basically like “you can’t fill other people’s glass if yours is cracked” (i botched it but i hope you get the drift) and i like. try to live by that tbh!! like on airplanes when they say to secure your own mask first before helping others; you’re no good of a help if you don’t even have all YOUR ducks in a row !! so if you don’t think you feel up to helping (no one should be forcing you to, btw.. i hope u know that) her through the stuff w the baby and other personal stuff, i would maybe communicate that to her!! try smth like “i know you’re going through a lot right now and i don’t want to downplay that, but i just need you to know that i���m also having a hard time (you can say w what if you want or not! up to you) and i wish i could help out more but i just dont have it in me right now. i will be here for you as much as i can.”

but this goes both ways; miss girl is busy busy busy trying to keep a human baby alive and happy and post-partum depression is a bitch if she has it. either way the hormones go crazy dfjgskl but my point is that just like you might not be in the right place to help her out, she probably doesn’t have a lot of mental energy left to help you out either :( but yeah i think that becoming a parent (i mostly mean moms but there are other parents who struggle obvi…but im gonna assume she’s a single mom,,, if i’m wrong then whoops my b fjdgdfjkdfgs) or namely a single mom is a very sudden and scary thing if you don’t feel ready and sometimes even when you do !! if i were to imagine myself in her place, i’d be feeling very scared, stressed, worried, and lonely right about now. as much as you can help it, try to help her not feel so lonely? i wouldnt be saying this if i thought this was a doomed friendship btw like . i think you guys have been through a lot together and that she could really use a shoulder to lean on rn if you can manage it!!

when it comes to the reaching out thing, this part is tricky to me. sometimes in friendships, ppl fall into roles naturally. some people are more proactive and reach out more, whereas others, for whatever reason, don’t reach out as much. i’ll be real? i don’t reach out often … or like . ever really dfjgkgjkdf (i have my reasons !! don’t judge !!) but i really appreciate when people reach out to me bc i’m worried im annoying/burdening them so. if she’s anything like me, she might not want to burden you w her issues? so it could really mean a lot to her if you reached out every once in a while to let her know you’re thinking of her and you care about her !! maybe tell her you guys can skip the formalities when you catch up and stuff? i find that when my friends are really drained and i want to be helpful, i say smth along the lines of like “you don’t have to explain anything to me if you dont wanna; if you wanna text me at 4am to ask me my favorite noodle, i’ll just answer you, no questions asked.” i even tell some friends we can skip the “hi, how are you” stuff (i hate small talk like that anyway) bc they shouldn’t have to lie and say they’re good but they also shouldn’t feel pressured to dump their issues on you yknow?

this is so long dfgjksdfj sorry i rly do feel chatty rn :’) but i hope this helps even a little bit???? if you wanna send her a text saying smth similar to smth i said here, i wouldnt mind looking at it before you send it! GOOD LUCK I RLY DO HOPE THIS HELPED

[whale-shark-queen]

You mentioned fucked up weird AUs in your one post? I'm interested. Tell me about your favourite one(s)!!

AAAaaaah thank you so much!!

Uhhhhhhh heck most of them involve N turning into some horrible Thing because he’s the Estranged Outsider with a Connection to the Bad Guys Even If It’s Not Willingly (yknow like how Eren from snk is a titan shifter or Rin from blue exorcist is part demon) and all of them involve vuvuzelashipping (Nxall the Nuvema lot) I don’t really have a single favourite but I’ll summarize the ones I like most (also note that some of them are good dad Ghetsis/Dadsis aus because u gotta balance out the angst somehow plus dadsis aus are Cool)

Under the cut because I literally can’t summarise for shit and I’m sure no one wants to scroll past 3 pages worth of this (mobile users I apologise since the app is SHIT and refuses to even acknowledge these) 

Also here’s a bit of an index so u can skip to ones that sound interesting instead of going through them all but first u should ask nationalharmonica about her aus bc I love all of hers and they’re awesome and need more love and she also helped with alot of these aus too!! ESPECIALLY the Dragonflower au which I won’t include here because I think she has it on her blog somewhere already.  If ur wondering why I haven’t posted any of these it’s because a) i have neither the skill, time or patience to draw up proper references for all of the characters involved and b) I’m always worried theyll seem too Out There for some people but here we go au masterpost i guess, if anyone reading would like more info feel free to ask!!!

Bacterial Contamination inspired au aka bacterial pestileNce

BotW au

Ib au

PMMM au (the longest one)

Plasma/Aether swapover, N wins+UB monochromeshipping au

Simple fNaf dadsis au

sister locatioN dicksis au (yes I have two for that because I only found out about the secret springtrap cutscene at the end of SL that changes everything the other day)

Nombie (dadsis) au

isolatioN au- Au based on the song Bacterial Contamination.  N goes to the snobbiest most pretentious school you can imagine only because his ex mafia boss dad wants the best for him.  N hides the fact he’s being relentlessly bullied until a teacher phones Ghetsis up asking why N is in such a state whenever he comes into school (BC bruises and cuts and looking roughed up in general).  N goes to therapy and gets meds but surprise they’re an experimental drug and he’s a bug boy now

- BotW au where Touya is Link, Cheren as Revali, Bianca is Mipha and Touko is Zelda.  Ghetsis (who is kinda like Demise if he hung around to make sure his curse worked) is the king of a neighboring region who’s a bit of a warmongering asshole but his son N is friends with princess Touko and her…ahem, associates, which is the only reason Touko’s dad stays civil with him at all.  He uses this to his advantage and infects N with the Malice and reveals his plan to take over Unova, knowing fine well that N would run away to Touko for help.  The truth is he’d set up N to be a ticking time bomb and eventually he becomes the Calamity.  After the whole ~100 year coma and releasing the divine beasts~ thing Touya only remembers who N is after killing him but dw there’s a blood moon just as Touko is sealing the Malice away and N’s freed spirit is brought back to become a friendly giant fluffy spider boy just because I said so

- Ib au with N as Mary (obv Ghetsis is Guertena) except instead of going crazy and trying to kill everyone and being burned up and dying himself the toutous make him sit in the frame while they drag it out of the portal to the real world: problem solved.  I have all this stuff about the others being able to step into his frame but he can’t leave unless someone else draws him so he can possess the drawing but I won’t go into it here BC this post is gonna be long enough already

-Okay I have two madoka aus because possibilities for N are Ndless but I’ve only really developed the dicksis version whereas I only have a witch design for a possible dadsis version so here’s the dicksis one.  The first: Ghetsis is kinda like Walpurgisnacht and N was originally a familiar that represented Ghetsis’ interest being only in things that directly oppose him who was becoming powerful enough to become a witch of his own.  Not wanting him to have even a fraction of power himself Ghetsis transformed him into a human shape, gave him sentience and intelligence and as close to a pure heart as possible so he would be easier to manipulate and led him to believe that magical girls/boys hunt down innocent witches for fun and have witches trapped in their soul gems and tasks N with stealing people’s soul gems to ‘free the witch inside’.  The problem is that the alteration gave N the mindset of ‘innocents who aren’t involved must be protected at all costs’ rather than Ghetsis’ mindset of ‘don’t give a fuck about anyone unless they’re a problem’.  N is also sent to integrate into human society so that he can find magical peepos easier so he ends up coincidentally going to school with the Nuvema kiddos.  He ends up becoming friends with them until he finds out Cheren and Bianca are magicas (I’m just gonna call them that for simplicity) but even though the toutous arent magicas they still support them which is all very upsetting and conflicting for N but he tries his best to protect the witches and steal more soul gems until the others eventually call him out on it and prove to him that the shit Ghetsis told him is bull.  When he goes to confront him about it it’s too late, Ghetsis has absorbed enough witches to become a Walpurgisnacht-like entity, and finally allows N to become a witch.  I’ll link the drawings I’ve done of him but basically his labyrinth would be like a puppet theater and even tho hes the witch he’d have this fuckin giant messed up ghetsis-lookin puppet master familiar who pulls at his strings and coordinates his attacks.  There’d be an audience of masked figures that look like all the magicas he’s caused the deaths of, tiny animals with scissors to represent his wish for freedom and also his fear of his ‘father’ since they never actually get to cut the strings holding him up, and figures that look a heck of a lot like the nuvema kiddos watching in a balcony.  This is all tied into a theory I came up with that almost all the witches are able to be saved since yknow how Homura had that figure of Madoka locked away and Madoka was able to bring her back, and how Sayaka had the violin guy and Charlotte had that doll that probably represents her dead mother? My guess is that if the people those figures represent are brought to the witch and reach out to them the magical girl inside would be able to be freed.  But yeah since N was never really a human the Nuvema kiddos can only really save a fraction of his conscious and he ends up like Bebe.  They all beat the shit out of Ghetsis and everyone lives happily ever after with their pocket witch bf

- the au where 1) plasma and aether are sort of swapped around and 2) N beats the toutous in the final battle.  This is actually based on nationalharmonica’s courtesaN au which is awesome BTW (but it doesn’t involve actual courtesans or N being a courtesan at all but its Sarah’s au so if you’re interested you should totally ask her about it).  Ghetsis keeps Touko and Touya prisoner and just to rub it in their faces blackmails Cheren and Bianca into joining and doing sciency experiment shit which ends up with Touko and Touya becoming UB fusions/hybrids themselves; Touya with Kartana and Touko with Celesteela.  Ofc in the later stages they are able to destroy their place of confinement and escape with Cheren and Bianca to find N who becomes understandably fucked off and upset that his friends have been put through all this shit but begs them not  to kill Ghetsis so he can ask what’s going on.  When he does Ghetsis stabs him with a syringe full of UB fusion shit because he knows fine well hes gonna die he just wanted a final ‘fuck you’ before he is killed by both fire and paper cuts.  Surprise! It’s a Guzzlord.  N becomes a big squishy boy. I’ve done drawings of N in human Guzzlord fusion/hybrid form but I’ve been afraid of posting it but uh if anyones interested i will

- Simplified fNaf dadsis au - basically N and the Nuvema kiddos are the ones that were killed and stuffed in the animatronics, Ghetsis owns the place but risks going bankrupt pouring money into helping find the culprit and also his son and his friends when they’ve been stuck in the one restaurant he kept open to stay afloat.  Nate is the new nightguard and they decide to fuck with him to get rid of some of the boredom of being alone together in the one building for like…30 years or so.  In the end they fess up and make Nate pizza as an apology and they’re chill again

- sister locatioN dicksis au - I already summarised a thing i wrote of it in response to an anon but I’ll include here too.  Once again Ghetsis owns all the shit with the animatronics.  Anthea and Concordia get killed by one of them when they were young so years later Ghetsis sends N down to ‘free’ them (surprise he only wanted to get rid of N) but since their spirits have been fused into one hideous amalgamation of animatronics they’ve gone a bit loopy and want to leave.  The whole scooping room thing ensues and they accidentally turn their brother into a zombie

- Nombie au bc Z is a sideways N heheh I ahven’t thought up much of the background for it but it involves Plasma being a pharmaceutical company that is sort of accidentally being the cause of it.  N gets separated from his dad who ends up being the leader of a large group of people in a little town sort of thing they were able to reclaim but is Sad bc he thinks his son is dead which ends up being half true bc surprise N is half immune and ends up being a conscious zombie boy who wears a curtain as a cloak so he doesnt immediately frighten people bc he got his eye shot out by hillbilies, his face scratched up, his throat bitten out and his heart impaled on a pole (hes a freak without a human heart geddit) zombie apocalypse stuff happens

- isolatioN au - basically spawned from the thought of ’what if N was kept even more hidden away/locked up/never even left at all’.  Plasma is instead secretly in the Pokemon poaching/hunting/selling business but are disguised as…well you already know about Plasma.  The nuvema kiddos had varying levels of rough childhood and were desperate for money so they all joined up; the toutous as night guards and the dualrival s as researchers.  Hidden deep in the facility is a certain tree haired manchild who has been kept in a cage for pretty much his entire life.  Ghetsis does a mother gothel and makes out its to keep him safe and brings him Pokemon to ask about where they live and what other kinds of Pokemon live there so that Ghetsis can release them safely back into the wild go hunt for more Pokemon in the area if there’s anything good there

There’s a few more that I have but I won’t include them because im worried it’d be a waste of time if no one takes interest in any of these but uh thanks for asking and reading if you did!!!

[ask-multi-muses-blog]

Smol Call for Venturiantale RPers willing to do AU

https://discord.gg/fAc4D92 *waves!!* PIA's world is an AU. more or less. So all the characters are sort of different, depending on what happened in their version of the timeline, such as: Johnny Ghost and Gregory do not share a body, only him and Casket. Johnny Toast never cured from being a werewolf, but can now control when he turns, besides full moons. also not a vampire. etc. etc. But you see, theres a small problem I cant write half of the Venturian groups characters. and i try to keep them IC, but tend to have different things for them as well, unless they are in a flashback or flashforward. and the timeline Cassie exsists in, takes place only a year after the Puppet arc. and Cassie exsists in the main timeline of the AU. But the AU automatically ages all the characters down as well..So in order to help with you understanding everything going on, lets figure out whats going on there with current takes on personality and crap. Though they can be changed in any way you'd like. Acachallas Billy Acachalla has left his family, and currently stays off the grid with Maddie Friend, while occasionally visited by Sally and Jennifer. He faked his permanent death in order to escape, and keeps trying to convince Sally to do it, and get Sue to do it. Hes alot smarter then in the videos, and tends to act more like an adult then a five year old, unless around Sally, then he just drops it and goes to his video act. (currently has 15 lives left to give and to use.) [17] Sally Acachallas demon side comes out more then just when she doesnt get waffles, and shes broken up with Slenderman. Sally stays peaceful, but isnt as jumpy as normal, her obsession for waffles has also faded quite a bit, due to an incident at the waffle dimension. (currently has 3 lives left) [15] Gertrude Acachalla doesnt care about her children as much, more paying attention to things outside. She stopped caring about the children when they accidentally killed Papa and Spencer, she had a incident where she got mad and made them both lose one life, before locking them in their room. Which resulted in Billy faking his death to escape. Shes more rude and aggresive towards people, and refuses to talk to anyone who tries to help her or bring her back to sanity for her remaining children, often killing them repeatedly until they are out of lives. (Currently has 2 lives left.) [24] Sue Acachalla is a trans female with the mask sewed onto her face due to previous parents. Shes calm and sticks up for her sister, and tends to be able to calm down demon Sally, though sometimes she might get killed by her. Sue spends alot of her time braiding barbie's hairs and sleeping, or talking to Sally. As shes not allowed to leave the house because she looks like a murderer or Burglar. She gets bored alot more often and will go into fits of rage when shes extremely bored, this has resulted in the closet being bombed, twice. (Currently has 2 lives left) [17] Extra Maddie Friend is a crazy and hyperactive girl. She chases people she doesnt like or has been hired to kill around, and currently works at a hospital, and for Jennifer Ghost + Billy Acachalla, as Billy signs her shirts and Jennifer gives her extra pay so she'll keep their secret, and do stuff for them if something needs to be done. Shes kind and outgoing, but carries around a crowbar and/or a bucket of popcorn occasionally, making her seem a little unapproachable (currently has 5 lives left left) [17] PIE Johnny Ghost is a little bit more depressed then usual, and shows off his highly emotional side more, especially when its his family or his best friend in danger, he argues with people alot more and tends to hide in his room afterwards. Hes still extremely arrogant and sassy mind you, but he tries not to let it show as much. //He also has freckles but whatever// (Currently has 1 life left) [26] Johnny Toast is the most loyal fido you'll ever see. Hes calm and collected, but will do anything for his boyfriend boss. Hes a werewolf that has a bit of control over his power, though is still helpless to the full moon. Hes kind and tends to act smart, or talk for Ghost when hes upset or whatever. Hes still shy and stuttery whenever Ghost isnt around though. Hes very protective of everyone in his team, one one of the most supportive people you'd meet. probably has to stop Ghost from murdering Spooker and Colon (currently has 1 life left) [28] Fred "Spooker" Soup is a pure and happy and perfectly chubby boy. Hes kind and bouncy, tending to ignore anything bad going on around him, unless hes screaming and running from a powerful ghost. Hes welcoming to most people, even people that are held captive, making him a good candidate to be a guard if the captives dont know whats going on. He tends to be very protective towards Colon and the girls, as he sees Colon as a amateur, and is assigned to protect the girls with his life. Though he fails at it alot. (Currently has 1 life left) [22] Chris "Colon" Ghostie is a precious politic hating bean. He tends to yell about random stuff, and doesnt talk to people very often. sometimes he wont even be at work because hes doing his side job as an uber driver. Hes completely pure, and is the only one in the team who has not yet commited Man slaughter. So hes the most innocent one he did nothing wrong. (currently has 3 lives left) [24] Jennifer Ghost {One of my characters } Jennifer is an arrogant, bossy, and protective girl, as like her brother. She tends to boss her friends around, and if in a panic, wont hesitate to go boss-mode on the boys.  Shes rude and sassy, and isnt afraid to slap someone if shes not getting what she wants. Shes really only kind to Jenna Toast and Billy Acachalla. Occasionally her brother if he needs someone to comfort him and Johnathon isnt around. oh yea she cant read and is extremely terrified of water. (Currently has 1 life left) [15] Jenna Toast {One of my characters } Jennas the gay cousin/friend everyone haves, but no one wants. Shes flirty, and smooth with her words when she wants to convince someone to do something. Shes never afraid to shoot someone, even someone she cares about. She tries to make friends with anyone she meets, but if they're close to one of her best friends? Consider them dead. She will kill anyone who gets in the way of her and her trio of girls. Jennifer knows this, so never lets Jenna meet anyone she cares about..though Cassie has issues. She will happily put a bullet in anything or anyone she finds paranormal, excluding the caskets and her brother. (Currently has 1 life left.) [17] Cassie Anderson {One of EvilsNightmare 's characters } im going off what i know about her pls help me frien Cassie is a character the 'Jennys' picked up, pretty much off of the side of the road. She knows quite a bit about ghosts, to the girl's surprises. Shes one of the 'female trio' of PIE, and sticks with Jenna and Jennifer most of, if not all of the time. Shes fun to be around, besides the fact she can be brutally honest. She currently has a ghost named 'Zayne' haunting her. (Currently has 1 life left) [19???] ~~~~ Ye ye, so theres that, beauty/monstrosity. now, I can do all the characters. but,,,, tend not to??? because it goes like a script in my head and gets boring, i like twists that RPs can bring,,, If anyone wants to RP this with me you can,,, ask,,, lol- and you're welcome to twist the characters any way you like, im just laying base facts down lol. List of Characters: Billy Acachalla Sally Acachalla Gertrude Acachalla Sue Acachalla Maddie Friend Johnny Ghost - Currently played by The-gaming-knight Johnny Toast Fred "Spooker" Soup Chris "Colon" Ghostie (ill catch u up on whats going on dont worry) Reminder: You might have to be okay with Toasted Ghost and/or Spoon, as it depends on whos playing the four characters on ships. List of Ships that can happen that im okay with (because of age range and relations and crap, but you're welcome to ask me about it if you and the person playing the other character have talked about it.): Billy x Jennifer, Billy x Jenna, Billy x Maddie, Sally x Jenna, Sally x Jennifer, Sally x Maddie (they,,, arent related dont worry,,,), Gertrude is forever alone unless someone brings a ship up to me, Sue Acachalla x Jenna, Sue x Jennifer, Maddie x Billy, Maddie x Jenna, Maddie x Sue, Toasted Ghost/Johnny Ghost x Johnny Toast (I cant,,, see another character they'd be shipped with???lol), Spoon/Spooker x Colon Ships that are in progress, sort of: Jenna x Cassie, Ghost x Toast (we've all seen the vids its at least platonic but everyone thinks thye're dating lets be honest) Everyone is really welcoming so you dont really have to be scared of meeting us tbh

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