#shaysima

[hellwizards]

[knifekat]

Hey I was wondering if you could do coshayphine in Tuesdays? That would be lit and hopefully it's not too complicated for a free prompt. Thank you so much - coshayphinelove

I have never drawn coshayphine before :o oof. Here’s them being cute and having a chill Tuesday evening.

This is probably the last request I’ll do for now!

[lobsters-on-their-heads]

OB Rewatch: Certain Agony of the Battlefield

I loved: 

S and Felix Skyping with Kira in Iceland. 

DELPHINE!!!!!! The HBIC is back and in charge! And owning the hell out of Cosima and Scott. Who kind of deserve it. 

The contrast developing between Cosima / Delphine, which I discuss some of below. Now that Delphine’s back, the differences between her and Shay also come into greater focus.

Felix’s little quips

“Be strong, my little urchin.”

 “Now nut up, and lead me to the cyclops.”

“Yeah, Fffff you too.” 

Paul handcuffing Dr. Coady. It’s the best thing Paul’s ever done. His scenes in this episode were actually very, very good. It was a good send off for him.

“We do terrible things for the people we love.” Spoken by Beth, could apply to a number of other characters.

The Rachel and Felix scene was immense, and some of the finest work, IMO, that Jordan Gavaris did on the show (and all of his work was great). If we didn’t know Rachel, Felix’s tormenting her would be cruel, and we would hate him, but of course, we do know Rachel. We know she stuck a sedative in his neck, with a stab that honestly could’ve killed him. She abducted Kira, harassed and threatened Sarah, destroyed (some of) Kira’s bone marrow, withheld life-saving treatment from Cosima, and had Felix himself framed for murder via Paul. It’s hard to feel too terribly bad for her, with that background, when Felix taunts her and physically harasses her. 

Still, she’s human, and this is torture for her. When she cries looking at the picture of her and her father, it’s not just him that she misses, but the little girl that she was, before Dyad did all this to her. 

I liked:

Felix tossing around words like “epigenetics.” It’s like he’s been living with Cosima for the past 5 episodes.

Cosima finally got to have sex without her bra on! 

Cosima, and all the characters, are allowed to be flawed. I especially love it for Cosima, because otherwise she would be the Token Lesbian, but instead she’s realistically complex. She’s selfish and petty, and when she feels like she doesn’t have control she lashes out, and follows her lust instead of her brain. Just like real people do. 

I didn’t like:

Not a dislike, so much, but Cosima asks Shay “How do you know that name?” in reference to Sarah. Sarah. The 5th most popular girl’s name in the US in 1984. A better question would’ve been “Why are you asking me about Sarah?”

Helena should have had her long-sleeved shirt over her head and / or shoulders, to protect against the sun. Maybe she’s only a hearty survivalist in cold, northern climates?

I have a personal dislike for the phrase “play games” in the way Delphine used it here. It implies intentional manipulation for the sake of amusement, rather than being less than blunt for the sake of protection or some other potentially valid reason. It’s belittling. But again, I have personal reasons that might be coloring my analysis here.

“It was never Beth I loved...” Oh, right, Paul’s doing this because he’s “in love with” Sarah, not because he’s a decent person.

Other notes: 

I did not remember that Delphine was AWOL for 4 whole episodes of Season 3, appearing in Episode 1 and not again until Episode 6. Her presence is big enough to fill the entire season even missing those 4 eps.

Kira calls Cal “Cal”, instead of Daddy, in the Skype call.

All things considered, it’s probably good that Cosima had that scarf around her neck when Delphine came back. You know Delphine would’ve noticed the bite marks.

Delphine knows that Cosima likes to sneak around and do her own research. She can’t be surprised to find that she’s still doing that, but she’s probably quite hurt to realize that Cosima’s hiding things from HER. These two got Control Issues out the wazoo, man.

I read somewhere that, while Pupok was a real scorpion for most scenes, the scorpion Tatiana ate here was made of chocolate.

Obvious height difference is obvious, though not as obvious as it will be later. We also have Delphine trying to make small talk, to regain some kind of connection with Cosima, and failing miserably because she has to cover it up with (valid) mistrust and concerns about work and Cosima’s (her subject’s) health.

Compare the Cophine heights with Shaysima heights... With Delphine, Cosima is clearly inferior, but with Shay she’s equal, and even slightly above. 

The contrast in how Delphine speaks to Gracie vs. the way Cosima does is striking, as well. Delphine is professional, and tries to be reassuring and understanding - “You’ve heard many terrible things...” but Cosima is warm and colloquial - “I know how much this sucks.”  

Two characters say “I miss you” in this episode. Only one of them gets “You don’t get to miss me!” as an answer. 

In Sarah’s fever dream, the drawings on the fridge are Helena-style, rather than the pictures from Kira that are actually on Mrs. S’s fridge. Also, Beth’s outfit is an interesting choice.

I have been stuck in a hospital room before, with limited mobility and fucked up vision, and lemme tell you, it really is close to hell. All of the terrible things Rachel did in Seasons 1 and 2, she certainly pays for them now.

I’ve got questions:

Has Cosima/ Tatiana always had that little mark at the bottom of her neck? Or is it a hickey? 

Is Delphine still Cosima’s monitor? Does she also keep track of the other monitors, as Leekie did, or have they hired someone else to do that?

Why doesn’t Alison already work outside of the home? She has a keen business mind, she’s ambitious, and she’s highly motivated. We don’t, of course, see her before she’s in Clone Club, so we don’t know how happy or fulfilled she was before Beth landed in her life. And I’m not suggesting that women can’t be fulfilled at home, either - many women are. Alison just fits so naturally with drug and soap selling, and campaigning, that it surprised me. 

I would have liked to have seen:

Honestly, more of Alison and Donnie dancing, covered in glitter, throwing money around! I do, however, really love this screenshot.

Generally, though, this was a nice tight, Season 2 style episode. Paul’s scenes were good, Delphine was back, we saw her interact with Cosima and we saw her alone with her feelings. 

[coshayphinelove]

Hi! Recently found your tumblr and kind of life it! I was wondering if you could do a story about Cosima falling in love with Shay when they were dating in season 3 and them end up together? (I love Delphine, but I adore Shay!)

hey!  sorry in the delay in getting back to you.  thank you so much for reaching out!!  

unfortunately.. brain juice empty.  i’m trying really hard to get back into fic writing but like.. adult life is hard and busy and technically this summer i have like 4 jobs plus an online class?  so uh.  whoops.

i have this kind of fic tho!!

Loving Two

kind of implied but after season 4 in Hold Me

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ tfw ur gf's ex shows up at your door asking after a urine sample

a potential bonus chapter for Loving Two

that’s all i’ve got for you at this current time, unfortunately.  though i do plan on updating loving two, i do not know when i will do that.  being an adult is very hard and i would not recommend it.

[cosimassexynosetubes]

[frickestsick-blog]

Pretenders: Chapter 1

"Ms. Manning care to explain to me what's so interesting?" The teacher asked and Sarah snapped out of it immediately, shaking her head. "You are a senior, this is your last chance. There's already a small chance you'll get into community college, let's not make it smaller."

"Whatever." Sarah said before tapping her pencil to the beat of London Calling. They were given their worksheets with the assigned problems written across the top. As Sarah stared at it, she realized that she had absolutely no idea what the hell was happening. She pretended to work like she always did during math, waiting for lunch to finally get here. It wasn't that she was the least bit hungry, but she got to see her friends and look at their bullshit.

Alison was in denial about being in love with Paul's girlfriend Beth, Cosima stealing glances across a couple tables at Delphine and occasionally Shay, Tony and Felix pretending not to hold hands under the table, MK always looking for what table Krystal was at that day, and Beth occasionally stopping by and always hugging Alison when she did. Not to mention Helena managing to get all of her food down in a matter of a couple of minutes and then taking whatever Sarah didn't want and half of her twin sister's cookie each day. 

As the lunch bell rang, everybody started to rush out of the classroom. Sarah put her headphones in and walked down to the cafeteria, not knowing what to expect for the rest of her day. She couldn't go home, thanks to the stupid rule that was put in after a bunch of seniors caused chaos all over town after their classes. Now they stayed in the cafeteria, gym, and or at the track.

"How was math?" Felix asked and Sarah gave him a look. "It's so funny that your name was signed up for the tutoring wasn't it?"

"What?" Sarah asked and Felix nodded. "I didn't sign up."

"Yeah and Rachel claimed you." Cosima said, wiggling her eyebrows. "I smell possible lesbian activities."

"Better than whatever you could muster." Sarah teased and Cosima pouted. "MK, you should have claimed me."

"Krystal asked me first." MK said and Sarah nudged the blushing girl. "She has several classes she needs help with though. She says the advanced classes were a lot harder than she expected."

"I'm helping Shay and Tony with science." Cosima said and Shay waltzed over to the table and sat down next to Felix. "Hey, aren't you sitting with the other volleyball girls?"

"Rachel invited her friends over so I decided to leave." Shay said and Cosima nodded. "I'm looking forward to our study session tonight."

"Yeah, totally." Cosima said and Tony scoffed. "I'm tutoring you during our free periods because you'll take longer. She only has one F."

"Ah." Tony said and Felix gave him a disapproving look. "Are we still having movie night Friday?"

"With Saturday brunch?" Alison asked and everybody nodded. "Sarah, ask Mrs. S if we can have it at your house."

"She already said we could use the house if we don't watch anything that'd scare Kira." Sarah said and Cosima nodded. "Also, no porn, that was a weird night."

"It wasn't porn." Cosima said and Sarah gave her a look. "Shut up!"

"I don't think I've seen Alison blush so much before." Felix said and Sarah laughed at the memory. "I think there were a few extra moans."

"You guys sound like a fun group." Shay said and Cosima shook her head.

"Oh my god, how about you come with to the movie night tomorrow. It's after the game since Alison plays and Beth is her personal cheerleader." Cosima said and Shay nodded. "Great, I'm looking forward to having you there."

"Poor guy." Alison said looking over towards Beth's table as Paul shoved Donnie out of the way. "What'd he ever do to anybody?"

"Hey!" Helena yelled running over to Paul. "Stop."

"What?" Paul asked and Helena jabbed his chest with her finger. "Don't touch me bitch."

"I told you to stop." Helena said and Paul moved her out of his way before putting up his tray. "You do not walk away from me when I talk to you!"

"What are you gonna do about it?" Paul asked and Helena's fist connected with his face. "Fucking freak!"

"Oi, don't call her that!" Sarah yelled running to grab Helena. "Talk to, lay a finger on, or glance at her or Donnie again and I'll beat your ass myself. Got it?"

"Psycho lesbians." Paul said and Sarah took her sister back to the table, pulling Donnie with her.

"Thank you, both of you." Donnie said straightening his shirt a bit. "Not a lot of people would stand up for me."

"No problem, I've got problems with Paul anyways." Sarah said before handing Helena her chips. "I'm going to practice with you today meathead."

"Okay." Helena said and Sarah turned to her friends and continued talking.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sarah watched them practice, Helena making hits and dives without wincing once. Every few seconds Rachel would glance up at her. That was always before she made a serve or went to dive for the ball, like she was trying to show off or something. Cosima walked into the gym, Tony trailing behind her, obviously high off their asses. 

"Where'd you go to smoke?" Sarah asked and Cosima pointed outside. They watched the rest of the practice, before going their separate ways. Cosima and Shay rode together, Tony and Felix drove off together, Helena, Alison, and Sarah drove home together, and MK got a ride from Krystal who was more than happy to be alone with the awkward computer genius with crooked bangs.

[in-hell-with-a-dead-girl-walking]

a tiny bit of background i was always hoping to see but we never got

Cosima: We work on classified science. You never told me you were in the military. Shay: She run a background check on me? (Cosima shrugs) I quit basic training. I didn’t have a lot of options for education so I thought I’d try it. Cosima: You’re not a qualified Chinese Medicine Practitioner, are you? Shay: I quit that too, okay? I’m just an RMT. Cosima: Why would you lie to me? Shay: We met on Sapphire. A dating app. You’re supposed to fluff up your profile, reinvent yourself. For that I’m a liar? Because the thing is – I don’t have a clue who you really are, do I? An evil ass scientist? You’re the real liar, lying to me since day one. That lands heavy. Cosima nods, the wool pulled from her eyes. Cosima: I’m sorry, Shay. She warned me… this was never going to work out any other way. Shay: Just go. Cosima hates to… and has to.

[anxiousbluedeer]

I like to pretend Shay never existed...

[watching-crazy-science-fiction]

I met Ksenia Solo last night after a screening of her new movie In Search of Fellini and gave her a Cosima’s Laptop Bracelet.

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[meatheadinthecraftroom]

After returning home from her second tour of duty in Afghanistan with unseen wounds, Shay makes an unexpected connection.

[shay davydov week, day 2: ships]

[hellwizards]

[francescatelford]

Delphine: i'm not jealous. I'm french, we enjoy lovers.

Cosima: ....mhm sure whatever you say

Delphine: *photos of shaysima's first meeting + more pics falls out of her long coat*

Delphine: *struggles to pick them up while more keep falling* THIS IS STRICTLY BECAUSE I SUSPECT SHAY IS WITH CASTOR.

Delphine: rEALLY I'M not jealous,

I'm fren-

Cosima: yes you are french i know you enjoy lovers.

[matthewzmedia]

Y'know… I’m indifferent to saying this, but I actually like this Shay (sp?) character hooking up with Cosima rather than Delphine. Delphine’s role was sketchy and caused Cos WAY too much drama. This girl’s p chill tbh.

[coshayphinelove]

gosh... i wish i had had the subtitles on when i had watched the first time.  it really gives a whole new understanding of the scene.

[lifeorbeth]

145, Shay

145. I lost sight of our dream.

–

Anger vies with hurt whenever Shay’s mind drifts towards Cosima (and often, by extension, Delphine), when she considers how her kindness was used and abandoned - despite how needed it had been (how needed she had been) after that disaster of a breakup.

They had talked together of a drama free relationship: communication, communication, communication - and they’d had it, for most of the time.

And then came Delphine and that dream was lost forever, as was Cosima.

It’s finals week! Send me a prompt and I’ll write you a fic instead of studying/sleeping!

[kairim]

I really hope that more LGBTQ+ people will start going into the film/television/writing industry so that we can all finally get the representation that we deserve. I hope that there will be a day where tv shows will allow more than one LGBTQ+ relationship on screen, and will actually be able to create drama/tension/sub plots without killing one of them.