#shakarian angst to fluff

[strawberrykidneystone]

butterflies

summary: sole survivor and colonist shepard longs to have a relationship with garrus, but everyone she’s ever cared about has died or left. he wouldn't leave her, would he?

a/n: me3 after shepard and garrus reunite on palavan. i know that commander shepard doesn't cry, but this one does!! (in private at least)

tags: angst to fluff, negative thoughts, shepard kinda has abandonment issues, reassurance, ooc garrus bc he says i love you

ao3 version

there was a tentative knock on shepard’s door and she knew who would be there all too well, the person she wanted to see more than anything, yet the turian she dreaded to talk to the most. she knew what talk was coming and she was scared, more scared than she ever had been in a battlefield surrounded by geth with a nearly empty thermal clip. at least she had some control in the battlefield, but when it came to emotionally letting someone in, she was at a complete loss, feeling around in the dark with no light to guide her. until he came into her life, showing her something she hasn’t felt like a long time.

safety.

if she was being honest, she had never really had a real relationship before. sure, she had a few relationships, but they had all ended a few months in. she's never felt like this before, she used to think that people were exaggerating when they said that they got butterflies in their stomach, but she had no other explanation for the light bubbly feeling that would fill her chest whenever he was close to her.

spirits, she couldn’t watch him die. not like everyone else.

she could barely stand it when he took a rocket to the face. she couldn't stop thinking about the feeling of his hot blue blood on her hands as she cradled him in her arms, she refused to let him go even in the shuttle. she was completely stone faced after her initial cry out of his name, she steeled herself to be strong for her crew, but she wanted nothing more than to sob and yell at him for not watching his own 6 since he was always watching hers. when the got back to the normandy, chakwas had to kick her out multiple times while he was in surgery, insisting that her pacing and hovering was more of a hindrance than it was hepful. even though she knew that cerberus had brought her back from the dead, she was overcome with the worry that he wouldn't still be alive at the end of it. until he walked into the meeting room with a bandage on his face and the attitude "can't kill me that easily" that she's come to love about him, she had a tightness in her chest that had released as soon as she saw him upright. even though she was a little pissed that chakwas didn't immediately tell her when garrus was conscious again, it quickly dissipated with the relief of him being alive after everything.

shepard was unconsciously white-knuckling her fists so hard that her nails left red indents in her palms that almost drew blood. she couldn't let him wait outside her door forever.

maybe it was time to actually let someone in for once.

and who better to do it with than the person she trusted most in the galaxy?

"come in," she said softly, cursing herself under her breath as she heard her voice waver ever so slightly.

the door slid open and revealed garrus in the doorway, one of his hands sheepishly rubbing the back of his neck. seeing him nervous was oddly comforting to her, maybe he was just as unsure as she was.

he cleared his throat and tensely straightened his back, “shepard, can we talk?”

she gulped and steadied herself the best she could, “of course," she choked out. she nodded to him and patted the space next to her on the bed, wanting to make this as casual as possible. get a grip girl! this wasn't just anyone, this was garrus, the person who had her six from the very beginning. the one who she looks to for support and advice, the one that she's truly fallen in love with. but she couldn't stop the tiny bit of doubt that was telling her that he would leave her just like everyone else.

he wouldn't.

....would he?

garrus could sense her weariness from a mile away as he approached her, tentatively sitting down in the spot next to her. she fidgeted with her hands and kept her gaze down, picking at her cuticles. garrus followed her gaze and carefully reached over, cupping her hands in his. she looked up into his beautiful blue eyes, searching for any indication as to what he might say next. he gazed back into her eyes with nothing but love and admiration filling them.

there's the butterflies.

garrus took a deep breath and brought their clasped hands up to his chest. “shepard, when i heard that earth fell to the reapers, i feared the worst. i thought i would never see you again and i would have to live with the regrets of what i wish i had done when we were together.”

shepard held her breath and could feel herself tearing up. oh god, she wanted to run, or maybe throw up? she couldn’t tell but every instinct in her was telling her to flee, but for once, she didn’t listen.

she wanted him by her side. no matter what the cost.

she had never felt like this before, never felt so strongly about anyone in her life.

and all she wanted was to run.

who does that?

but not this time.

this time, she would stay.

“shepard, i love you and i can’t spend another second of my life without you being by my side. i only ask that you’ll have me in return, if you feel the same way of course,” he said the last part so softly she would’ve missed it if she wasn’t so close to him. a tiny smile crept its way onto her face as she stared at their clasped hands, feeling the warms of this taloned fingers warming hers.

shepard took a deep breath and could feel her hands clam up. she was still shaking like an aspen tree in the wind. she looked up into his cerulian eyes, preparing herself to let him in more than anyone else in her life.

"garrus, i feel the same way, when i heard that palaven fell, all i could think about was how much i needed you to be okay. but i'm scared-" a forced chuckle leaving her lips,"-i'm honestly terrified. everyone who I've ever loved has died or left and i couldn't stand to see you-" her voice cracked as she rambled and tears betrayed her by falling from her eyes before she could even process their descent down her cheeks. garrus scooped her up in his arms and she pressed her face into his chest, clinging onto him like a small child holding onto a parent for comfort. he soothingly stroked her hair and held her as close to him as possible.

he pressed his lip plates against the crown of her head and rubbed her back, "i know you're scared shep, hell even i'm scared, and nothing scares turians," he said with a twinge of sarcasm in his tone as he poked fun at his own species.

she cracked a smile and sniffled, her breathing steadying out as she relaxed in his close embrace. she hated the doubt in the back of her head that was screaming that he would leave just like everyone else, but being this close to him and feeling the love in the way he held her close lowered the voice into a small whisper that she could barely hear anymore, until it fell completely silent.

and yet the words spilled out of her like bile, barely audible that he would’ve missed if he wasn’t so close, “please don’t leave me.”

garrus swiped his thumb softly against her cheek, hooking his talon under her chin and tilting it up to have her look up at him.

"shepard, i promise with all that i am that i won’t leave you. i don't know what the future holds for us, but the one thing i know is that i want to do it with you."

she nodded and felt her heart flutter at his supportive words, leaning her forehead back onto his chest to stay in his arms, even for just a little bit longer. the two of them stayed there for who knows how long, and frankly, neither of them cared.

her eyes burned when she finally pulled away and genuinely smiled at him with red puffy eyes. garrus combed his fingers through her hair and looked down at her with nothing but love in her eyes, “you should know by now shepard, i’m hard to kill, and even harder to push away."

shepard scoffed and playfully hit his chest, "i know, i know."

the two sat in a comfortable silence, gratified by a moment of stillness in the chaos of the last 3 years have been for them. she had him and he had her, as long as that was true, they would be okay.

a/n: notice how i used spirits instead of god to show shepard picking up garrus’ vernacular😋 very mindful, very demure

[thatwildwolfwrites]

Shakarian WIP

Edit: This post is really blowing up recently. It's more popular than most of my actual fanfics! If you like this little snippet, please consider checking me out on AO3, I write a lot of Shakarian both longform and one-shots!

[ThatWildWolf on Archive of Our Own]

[dispatchwithlove]

I have a chapter update for In Your Arms that's nearly done 👀

“So,” Garrus finally said, “What are you wearing?”

She hesitated for a split second, then glanced down at herself and said, “Um, white shirt, black pants, work boots—”

“Smart-ass,” he said affectionately. 

“What are you wearing?”

“A suit,” he replied simply.

“What color suit?”

“Black.”

“Why not blue?” 

Brat, he called her with narrowed eyes and a flick of his mandible. 

Well, he could play games too He gave her a look to make her knees weak. “Black makes my colony markings pop,” he purred. “Why? You wanna see me in blue?”

With the widest grin she turned away from him to stare at the traffic zipping by. Headlights flashed over her, giving her hair the effect of dancing flames. “Makes sense,” she said like her tone was balancing on a beam.  

The blush on her cheeks, the grin too wide to hold in, that was for him, because of how she felt for him and what he could do to her with some simple teasing. He had the sudden urge to provoke her further, make her burst for him, admit everything she felt in that moment not because he couldn't guess what she felt, simply because he wanted to hear it spoken.

“I’ll wear blue for you next year,” he said. He adjusted his tone, direct and deep, to rein in the brat inside her. “Now, what are you wearing?”

Her chest swelled and she bit her lip. When she finally looked back at him, her chin dipped. “Maybe it can be a surprise,” she mumbled with a soft breath that made his heart swell right up against his keel.

Read the fic here

[kalliesa]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Mass Effect Trilogy Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Female Shepard/Garrus Vakarian Characters: Female Shepard (Mass Effect), Garrus Vakarian, Liara T'Soni Additional Tags: Fluff and Angst, Established Relationship, Post-War, Injury, Angst, did i mention angst already Series: Part 1 of Year of the OTP - 2023 Summary:

Year of the OTP - 2023 January Prompt - First Kiss

[insomnikat-mused]

Obsession. Character study. Art.

for Feedback Fest 2024 I went through my bookmarks and managed to choose 10 completed fics + 1 I am avidly subscribed to. Some are novel-length. Some are ficlets. Some are fluff and funny and others are the most exquisite angst I have ever read.

All have an undercurrent of one or all of the themes above.

In no particular order (because Tumblr acts funny when I try to move them) and color-coded by medium for convenience:

Astarion's No Good Terrible Day by Qoboe. Tav x Astarion (BG3). Astarion keeps living the same day at the goblin camp, and Tav dies every time.

Seasons by StinglessWasp. GhostSoap (CoDIII). Four seasons, five countries, six months.

those hands were meant to love by Ahenix. TwiYor (SxF). Five times Loid Forger uses his hands to express love, and the one time he receives love through touch.

keepsakes hold power by dustandstatic. ThanZag (Hades). God's keepsakes and blessings change zagreus' appearance and behavior during an escape. Thanatos takes notice.

Things More Initimate by icarus_chained. Steve x Natasha (MCU Avengers). He'd asked her if he could draw her. She'd teased, wondering at the kind of drawings he meant. In the end … in all innocence, maybe he'd drawn something more intimate still.

i found my heart in your chest by snickiebear. KakaSaku (Naruto). Here’s the thing about loneliness: it eats you whole.

a knife in the country by cicak. Agnes x Rios (Picard). Agnes can't even begin to state the nature of her psychiatric emergency.

Conquest by ProlixInSpace. Shakarian (ME3). She doesn’t resent it exactly, but it’s just very hard to be comfortable in the presence of a 15-foot bronze replica of yourself. (She wonders often which of them has more metal parts.)

The Space Between by theSealby. Sylvix (FE3H). Felix keeps noticing a man in a museum.

must be this tall to ride by viperbranium. Stucky (MCU Avengers). Or how Bucky should probably pay more attention to the people around him before talking obscenities about a National Icon.

I Look To You to See the Truth by BitchBot3000. NejiHina (Naruto). Post-war, Hinata's life takes a different path and Neji is given the chance to dream.

[my-hot-awkward-turian-boyfriend]

2.3k words | rated T | shakarian series timeline | character study | no dialogue | fluff/angst/hurt/comfort | open ending

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55607125

[amalthea-fictions]

Hi there! I'm Amalthea and I like to write! Feel free to make a request!

WORKS

🔥 Kyojuro Rengoku X Reader [KNY] 🔥

Fractured Sunlight [Aftermath of Mugen Train]

Kankagari [Pregnancy]

Red Light District Under Cover [Request]

🍃Suzukaze X Kamui [Fire Emblem Fates] 🍃

Snow [Fluff]

Taking a Hit for the Other Person [Angst to Fluff]

Kamui's Kimono [Fluffy Drabble]

Fruit Salad [Fluff, only on A03]

An Important Question [Marriage Proposal, only on A03]

Epilogue [Angst to Fluff, only on A03]

Camilla [She Reacts to Kaze X Corrin, only on A03]

As King and Queen of Valla [only on A03]

🌌 Shepard X Garrus [ME] 🌌

Commander Shepard's Nickname [AKA Trolling James Vega]

Alternate Shakarian Reunion [ME2]

🐉 Charlie Weasley X Reader/Jacob’s Sibling [HPHM] 🐉

Small Moments [Fluffy Drabble]

Quidditch Rescue [Exactly what the title says LOL]

Charlie Learns You Can Speak to Dragons [Request]

Charlie Hurt to Comfort [Request]

Charlie Gushes About You [Fluffy Drabble]

🦅 Talbott Winger X Reader/Jacob's Sibling [HPHM] 🦅

Talbott's Surprise [Request]

Love Potion Mishap [Request]

🐍Sebastian Sallow X Reader/MC [HPHL]🐍

Don’t Mess with MC [Seb vs. Beasts Class Bully]

💫Aaravos X Reader [TDP] 💫

General HCs [Request]

Stuck in Mirror with Artsy Reader [Request]

Platonic: Aaravos being a big bro to a young reader [Request]

[that-wildwolf]

Get to know your fanfic writer!

Thank you @callista-curations for tagging me!

When did you post your first ever fanfic?

Circa 2008 I think. Let me tell you those were the wild days. FF.n wasn't really that popular and AO3 straight up didn't exist yet. You would make a whole ass entire blog. And you would post your fic on that blog. And people actually found that shit???? Wouldn't work now.

First Character(s) you wrote?

OCs actually, in the PJO fandom. I don't really enjoy writing OCs now but that's what was cool back then 😅 The first canon characters I wrote were Sarah Jane and the Doctor from Doctor Who.

Main Character(s) you're currently writing?

Well I've always got that Shakarian brainrot, don't I? Also like. Saren and Nihlus I guess.

Character(s) you haven't written about before but plan to soon?

Jolyne and Jotaro Kujo! I've still lowkey got that Eyes of Heaven brainrot, and isn't it cool to write characters that are biologically parent and child as having a sibling relationship, but I'm aware that the target audience of that fic would be uh. me. so I'm not in a rush.

Fandom(s) you're currently writing?

It's mostly mass effect. Even the WIPs I have of other fandoms are scarce among my mass effectses.

Platonic Pairing(s) you're currently writing?

Jotaro and Jolyne, definitely. Shepard and Saren is always a lot of fun to write, though my Kryterius fic mostly focuses on Shepard and Nihlus. Also fun, but not as much.

Romantic Pairing(s) you're currently writing?

Shakarian and Kryterius. I mean what did you expect? a magic trick?

Your top AO3 tags?

Interspecies Relationship(s) absolutely sweeping at 32 fics. Followed by Fluff (19 fics) and Post-Canon (18 fics). Like I said I have no idea where this idea that I'm an angst writer came from, I'm all about the fluff--

Current platform you use for posting?

I guess I might as well officially say that since finishing up my first contact Shakarian AU two years ago, I am no longer posting my fics on FF.n anymore. It's all AO3 now.

Snippet of the WIP you are currently working on?

"Saren." Nihlus is immediately at his side, one hand on his cowl and another grabbing his good arm. "Saren, you're not going to die. I'm getting you out of here. I swear."

"Shepard will never allow that."

"She doesn't have a say in this. You're my responsibility." Nihlus nearly growls at the thought of anyone getting in the middle of that. After everything he's done, the Council will have to agree if he asks. Damn what Shepard thinks. "She doesn't have the authority."

"Nihlus..." Saren shakes his head at him. His subvocals, as always, remain infuriatingly silent, but Nihlus has learned to read his body language to make up for that. He doesn't like what he's seeing: Saren's eyes are completely vacant of any emotion and his shoulders drooped. There's nothing left in him, no fight, no hope. He's given up already.

And that's something Nihlus can't accept.

“I’m getting you out of here,” he promises again. This time, he receives absolutely no reaction.

It nearly breaks his heart to leave now, but he has to. He has to get Saren out of this as quickly as possible, he can’t allow this to go on. So he quietly slips out, silently hoping that Saren isn’t looking. He wouldn’t bear to have that hopeless gaze on himself right now.

Shepard is waiting for him just outside the holding cells. Of course she is. Nihlus doubts she would ever allow anyone to make a decision about Saren that she didn't approve, or at least know, of.

Which is probably going to make things very difficult for him from now on.

"You can release him," he says simply.

Shepard, to her credit, doesn’t say a word. She just looks at him like he's just done the worst thing she could imagine. In all honesty, the flicker of rage, disappointment, and disapproval that lit up her eyes almost made him pause.

She slowly shakes her head and walks away without as much as a single look back. Nihlus isn’t sure how he feels about that.

He just hopes he hasn't just made an enemy he won’t be able to deal with later on.

Tagging (but you guys know my tags are no pressure. I won't be upset if you don't do it.) @whiskynorocks @milkywayes and @nicolasadrabbles

[kaviary-blog]

20 Q’s for Fic Writers

I got tagged by the wonderful @wedonthaveawhile

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

None. That might change soon. But I’ve got like 9 here on tumblr

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

Zero

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently mostly Hogwarts Legacy but I’ve been writing little fics and stories since I was in elementary school

But to give a taste of what I did… when I was a small child I wrote a multi chapter story about fruit (fruit fandom was all the rage). I’ve written for Undertale, FNaF, Miraculous Ladybug, Mass Effect. Maybe more than I’m remembering and they will never see the light of day. (Most of what I wrote was original ideas instead of fanfic)

4. Top five fics by kudos?

Horrors of the Scriptorium parts 1&2, That Which Lurks Behind, Never Knew Her Name, After the Nightmare

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes! I try to and I love feedback and talking to people

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Pluv says Never Knew Her Name has the biggest gut punch but I write alot of angst so…. Idk

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

After The Nightmare. Kinda the only non angst fic I have and even then.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I have

9. Do you write smut?

I have not

10. Craziest crossover?

Those exist solely in my brain and the ears of my sister

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I seriously doubt it

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Probably not

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not really. I have characters I share with people. But even in my youth I don’t think I co-authored anything

14. All time favorite ship

SHAKARIAN!!! Garrus x Femshep

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

So so many. The amount of ideas that have barely even taken shape is a whole other list entirely

16. What are your writing strengths?

Tearing your heart out. Idk

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Fluff. Idk how to be happy

18. Thoughts of dialogue in a different language?

Super cool when done right! (Don’t ask me what that means. I’m not fluent in any other languages)

19. First fandom you wrote in?

Uhhhh. I think the first fic I ever wrote I was really little and it was about Rapunzel. (Her and her kids in the future and like, half of them died. Angst even back then)

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Ummm of the ones I’ve posted here…. I’m really proud of That Which Lurks Behind

But usually when I write something I forget I wrote it. I write bastard words with my evil fingers and make it everyone else’s problem.

No pressure tags: @cuffmeinblack, @eternalremorse, idk who else. Everyone I know has done it

[callista-curations]

Get to know your fanfic writer!

Tagged by @thetrashbagswasteland 👀👀👀👀👀

When did you post your first ever fanfic?

Some time around 2012-2013 iirc?

First Character(s) you wrote?

Irelia from League of Legends and a few others

Main Character(s) you’re currently writing?

Saren Arterius, Nihlus Kryik, Garrus Vakarian, femShep.

Character(s) you haven’t written about before but plan to write about soon?

Castis Vakarian and Adrien Victus.

Fandom(s) you’re currently writing?

Mass Effect, been on the fence about trying a League of Legends fic for shits and giggles.

Platonic pairing(s) you’re currently writing?

Not currently writing but sketching some outlines on Saren & Avitus. Also femShep & femSaren in my Kryterius lives AU.

Romantic pairing(s) you’re currently writing?

Kryterius, Shakarian, Sheterius, Castis/Adrien.

Your top AO3 tags?

Angst lol... Fluff... Slice of Life

Current platform you use for posting?

People use anything other than AO3 lol?

Snippet of the WIP you are currently working on?

A snip from my Sheterius fic I NEVER expected to start writing... Something possessed me and I had to write them jsksjksk

I really don't know what happened, but this just somehow became the crack fic I always wanted to write

It takes a lot of effort not to reach out and touch him — the soft, dark fabric clings to his figure so well. She'd smooth her fingers down his front, down his side, down his thighs and along the curves between them. But now isn't the time. Silently she reaches for the bag he'd set on the ground beside him, warding him off with her free hand when he tries to stop her. "Come in," she says, leading him through to the living room. "Shall I leave this in your room?" There's no objection so she purposefully makes off with it. He initially follows, but stalls barely past the doorway, standing there awkwardly when she returns. Nervous or shy as he may be, his eyes still obediently catch her as she crosses the room once more, just as her own zero in on him. Again the sight of those perfect lines reaching from below his chest to down between his legs takes hold of her.

tagging @biowareruinedmylife @innepttia @starhoppcr @whiskynorocks @stormikins @jtownnn @that-wildwolf @zet-sway @milkywayes @spookyvalentine @ferusaurelius

pls let me examine your writing brainz 🙂

[yamisnuffles]

Fic Writer Interview

I was tagged by @feralkwe

Will put a cut in this one because it's so long

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

I currently have 49 fics on AO3. A lot more fic spread out across the universe (including old notebooks and journals, I'm sure) but that's what I have there.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

388,596 which is not much but I'm not really surprised. OH WELL

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Blitzed (558)

The Altus Inquisitor (500)

For Want of Words (471)

Get Closer to Me (449)

Heartbeats (424)

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I really try! Sometimes my brain is not good and I can't think of anything to say. But I do try! Because I really like chatting with people and I love to hear what y'all have to say about things. I just apologize if all you get is a bland, "Thanks!" It is meant with all my heart, even if all my brain is static.

5. What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

Uuuuuuuuh... that's a hard one. I generally do try very hard to have at least a glimmer of hope for the future, so I generally consider most of mine to be bittersweet. Off My Head And Onto Yours is fairly angsty because Aziraphale is going through some time period appropriate denial of feelings. For Want of Words was also constrained by current GO canon. I didn't feel good having them work things out just yet. Sadly fucking didn't fix anything lol. Similarly, All Good Things, despite being an AU was still covering the events of S2. I think in some ways it ended a little harsher for them because they were in a very different place than their canon counterparts.

I think probably the one with closest to just plain angst was Wicked White. Again, canon meant there was going to be sadness at the end. Emet-Selch has his canon end and I wasn't going to change it. So, for the same reason, Starshower will probably be angsty when I finally finish it.

6. What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

I think Just For Two is an easy pic since that was a pure fluff, future established relationship GO fic. Too Much of a Good Thing was the S1 fic for my AU and I also made sure to give them a very happy end there, knowing what was coming.

7. Do you write crossovers?

Nope!

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not that I can think of? Some good natured wailing and gnashing of teeth over some angst but nothing actually angry or hateful.

9. Do you write smut?

Yep!

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Also not that I'm aware of.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yeah, though not in a very long time. As a teen, I used to write a lot with my best friend. It was a lot of fun and I loved doing it but haven't done it since.

13. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Oh man, this is so hard. Bioware of course owns some of my faves. Hawke/Anders/Justice is one I can fall back into any time. I love them individually and together. They're all passion and fight and nothing is easy for them but it is good. Inquisitor/Dorian is also just SO GOOD. It's full of love and support and has a nice splash of angst to keep things interesting for me. Shakarian is another romance that is just canonically so perfect and good.

But, and this will surprise no one, I think Aziraphale/Crowley are the winners. They just have everything. They're both so clever but they're also SO STUPID. They're enemies to lovers but they were never really enemies and haven't actually figured out they're lovers. They're immortal and have pined for thousands of years, even before they figured out they were pining.

14. What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

Oh man, most of my One Piece fics. I had a lot of fun writing them and I'm still very much into OP but, for various reasons, I don't know if I'll ever be back into the right headspace to work on them.

15. What are your writing strengths?

I think that I'm good at characterization. It's the thing that matters the most to me when I'm reading fic and so it's the thing I definitely put the most thought into. If I don't think I have a good handle on a character, I don't usually try to write them. Otherwise, there's lots of little things I think I am pretty good at but nothing that super stands out to me. I'm too close to judge, honestly.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

I don't know. And this isn't me thinking I'm great at everything, I just can't think of one particular thing that I really struggle with. A lot of times it depends on the day. I have gotten worse with description. Not in that I think I'm bad at it but a lot of times these days, I just don't include nearly as much as I'd like. So things feel a bit sparse.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

For me? I just don't do it. Unless it's a phrase I am really certain on or it's some fantasy bullshit, I know that I'm shit with other languages. That said, if someone has a good handle on a number of languages, I think they should go for it.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Technically it was Jurassic Park. When I was but a wee bab and long before I knew what fic was, I wrote about some raptors killing people LOL. The first fic I wrote when I knew what fic was I think was a DBZ fic.

19. What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

I actually can't think of any fandom that I'm really in that I haven't written for already. I suppose I haven't written and TLT fic but I never will because there is SO MUCH going on there, I can't even imagine trying. Oh! I haven't written any Hythazemet and would love to because I adore them.

20. What's your favorite fic you've written?

Gosh, IDK. I have a lot that I like for different reasons. So I'm going to cheat and name a few, along with why because they're each different kind of faves. I'm really proud of a lot of For Want of Words. I think the smut is pretty solid and I'm proud of a lot of the writing I have there in general. I also think that And You're To Blame is really good. I thought it was a strong concept and I was quite pleased with how I handled it. Though it wasn't the first GO S2 fic I wrote, it was the first I thought of and I was happy to finish as planned. It's also a bit of a canon divergent AU, which...

I tend to get really attached to my AUs because I put a lot of thought into them. I like to think of a universe where just one notable thing is changed and follow the threads of how everything changes. I don't think that Too Much of a Good Thing is necessarily my strongest writing but I adore it all so much because of that. The Altus Inquisitor has my heart for similar reasons and I really like a lot of the writing there (and I will finish one day, I swear).

And I'm lazy, so if you wanna do this, consider yourself tagged.

[strawberrykidneystone]

mass effect masterlist

(☆=smut, ♡=fluff,❀=angst)

shakarian brainrot:

from earth with love (garrus x fem!shepard)☆

shepard-vakarian love nest (garrus x fem!shepard)♡

interspecies liason (garrus x fem!shepard)♡

turians don’t get jealous (garrus x fem!shepard)☆

i was gone for two seconds (garrus x fem!shepard)♡

just blowing hot air (garrus x fem!shepard) ☆

it’s too quiet (garrus x fem!shepard)❀

sleepy shakarian sex (garrus x fem!shepard)☆♡

butterflies (garrus x fem!shepard)❀♡

this dream isn’t feeling sweet (garrus x fem!shepard)❀♡

hey pumpkin (fem!butch!garrus x fem!shepard)☆♡

misc. crew fics:

midnight margaritas (normandy crew hanging out)♡

Mary "Bunny" Shepard ME oc:

background

what did you want to be when you we’re small? (mary bonding with garrus)❀

peeling the pomegranate 📌(ongoing):

chapter 1: once more from the top

headcanons

me1 companion masterbation hc pt2☆

brief moments of intimacy with companions ♡

the normandy cat ♡

munch garrus vakarian ☆

[thatwildwolfwrites]

Stabbed With A Star [AO3 link]

Category: F/M

Fandom: Mass Effect

Relationship(s): Shakarian

Summary: After the war, Shepard and Garrus finally get to explore parts of their relationship they never got to experience before. Smut and fluff and angst.

Excerpt/Sneak Peek:

Garrus smiles, head slightly leaned to the side, and Shepard returns that smile, sitting back at his hips.

She still hasn't gotten used to this, to seeing Garrus in this context. He's so beautiful, spread open for her with all his vulnerabilities and scars on full display. And it's all for her.

“I love you,” she says softly. She runs her hand across his side, taking in the sharp curves and ragged edges of his body. He's beautiful. Like a work of art. And she's the only one who gets to see him like this. This alone makes everything she's been through worth it. All the pain and the suffering, all the time she's spent thrown from one fight to the next… it's all worth it to see him like this.

She grasps his hand and holds it in both of hers, trying to feel all the callouses and scars as she slowly traces circles on his palm. She lines their hands up, intertwines their fingers, then just inspects it in silence. Garrus lets her, watching with a small smile.

Shepard brings his hand to her lips and gently kisses his knuckles.

“You're perfect,” she whispers.

“That so? You must be going insane,” he chuckles. “Is your brain okay?”

Shepard rolls her eyes. Maybe one day he'll be able to respond to a compliment like a normal person.

read it on AO3:

[thefloatingstone]

Love your Shakarian art pls do more, I adore the little couple stuff that you never see in the games.

hhhhh THANK YOU???? I'm honestly so happy people actually like my dumb Mass Effect nonsense 🥺

I finished my video so I am taking a few days off before working on the next part. So, if the electricity lets me, I wanna get back to drawing more comics of silly ideas I have while replaying the games and any other self indulgent Shakarian fluff and angst that comes to mind because I have terminal brainrot which has not subsided even in the SLIGHTEST since 2010.

[luciferbecons]

Five things you might find in my fics

Tagged by: @nicolasadrabbles

Tagging: @wonderingaround1980 @izzzzzzieeeeeeeee @otemporanerys @thismotherloverrighthere and anyone who hasn’t been tagged yet.

1. Angst

Angst is my default writing style and without trying my writing always tries to write angst. It’s good to know your strengths and what comes naturally. My latest fic was heavy angst compared to my first one but I think it showed my writing style the best.

2. Mental Health

One thing I’ve heard is “write what you know” and I know mental health issues intimately, and it pairs so nicely with the angst. Also I hope writing about depression and PTSD helps destigmatise them and that it’s okay to talk about.

3. Heart Felt Dialogue

I like to think that my dialogue is heart felt even if in a good or bad situation. I hope my dialogue gets across the characters emotions while still moving the story along.

4. Shakarian

My fics are purely Shepard x Garrus at the moment. I’m open to writing other pairings but a Shakarian discord I am on gave me motivation to write my first fan fic and I’m still on that Shakarian train at the moment. However I’ve only played part of Mass Effect 2 most of my knowledge comes from my lovely partner or the discord. I must play more.

5. Currently No Happy Endings

Both fics I’ve written so far don’t have happy endings, I find it difficult to write happy fics/endings because I’m not used to it and it wasn’t something that was nurtured. However you will see I say “currently”, I am currently working on my next fic which is fluff. It’s difficult but I’m doing it as a challenge and to start encouraging that part of my writing style.

If you want to check out my fics I’m on Ao3 as ABearAtopAnotherBear

[ragesquidff]

Fractured

Working on fanfiction again has been extremely rewarding and has reminded me exactly what my goals in life are. To create beautiful stories and worlds that allow people to escape the every day, the mundane, for a few minutes or for several hours. 

Fractured is a WIP that takes place during ME2, and I’ve been working on it since finishing the ME:LE in June this year. Honestly, it’s grown me so much as a writer and I am so grateful that it exists and that it has received the support it has. 

This is an excerpt from the very first chapter, and if you’d like to read the entire thing, I will post the link below. Please enjoy! 

          The door to the cockpit slams open and I grab Joker instinctively and watch as the cockpit falls away and Shepard grips desperately to the side of the ship. A black, ominous ship is looming right overhead and I see the spark of light begin in it's forward battery. It's about to deliver the final blow and we're looking directly at it. Ice blue meets ethereal green and I know what she's going to do before I even start screaming for her not to.

"Later big guy," she grunts through the radio before she lets go. Joker is screaming her name and I haul him towards the closest remaining escape pod, trying desperately not to break or hurt him but the way he's flailing and screaming Shepard's name makes it almost impossible.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/32321173/chapters/80118418