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ghost in the machine
s.coups x reader
synopsis: Secrets can only be kept as secrets for so long, everyone knows this. Yet when 5.C0UP5 came in contact with someone he never should have even known existed this notion seemed as foreign as his own name. Perhaps there exists another way of life even for him, or maybe it was all a dream too big to dream of.Â
word count: 20k
genre/contains: sci-fi au, AI-idol au, automaton!seungcheol, angst, smut, fluff, hurt/comfort, found family, afab and gn!reader, general smut warnings for oral and penetrative sex, nothing kinky except being eaten out while talking on the intercoms and some almost being caught moments, big fight
rating: 18+
a/n: this has taken a long time to finish, but it also turned out to be my longest fic to date and I'm a bit proud that i managed to actually complete what i had in mind :> thank you @idyllic-ghost for proof reading and for the banner !!
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â100 years ago it was thought that the Earth, as we know it, would disintegrate. That the sun would implode and leave everything in darkness. Miraculously, it didnât. Due to some external force, human scientists still havenât agreed upon what it exactly was, none of the planets in our former solar system were ever destroyed. The Earth, along with the other planets, were pushed away from each other and ended up in different parts of the universe. Earth just happened to come to a solar system with alien life. At first, we were cautious, and people were prepared to fight. However, the aliens were welcoming to our planet. Those of us who didnât die from âThe Great Journeyâ or from trying to fight the aliens, were welcomed into the new solar system. Soon enough, we had integrated completely, and we received materials and assistance from our sister planets in exchange for human labor. What humans knew of technology was very limited, but with the resources of the aliens we created artificial life forms. We named these robots Automaton, and they served as workers when humans couldnât. Eventually, there was no need for human labor at all. To pay back for the help the aliens gave us, we used Automatons. With the extensive development of these robots, we eventually managed to create artificial sentient life. These Automatons were human-like in looks and had human consciousness, but they could not bleed and were stronger than we ever could be. At the present time, there are even different levels of Automatons. Level 3 robots are the workers, level 2 robots are the caretakers, and level 1 robots are the celebrities. The Automaton music group 53V3NT33N (SEVENTEEN) is made up of 13 members, all very talented, and all representing two human states of mind.â
Pride. It was one side of 5.C0UP5 state of mind, and he felt it often. He felt it whenever he looked at his members, he felt it whenever he performed on stage in front of blinding lights and roaring crowds, and he felt it when he looked at you.
Yet, the other side of the coin of his pre-programmed personality was what crushed him every single day. Everything he took pride in having accomplished, was completely tarnished by a single thought about your lips on his skin. The shame was unbearable.Â
You had never been meant to get close to him, he was not supposed to be close to anyone. He knew this better than anyone. As the leader of 53V3NT33N he was the one to keep everyone in check. He was meant to set a good example and be the perfect level 1 automaton at all times. For years he kept his promise to everyone, he continued to avoid all things that could ruin his reputation and go against his lifelong contract which he had become bound to the moment he had been created. It hadnât been easy, but he had taken pride in being the perfect and flawless leader for his members.Â
That guilty feeling in his gut came back once again as he left the dorm with his manager. âLookinâ good,â he heard the voice of one of his members play in his ear. J30NGHÎN stood, next to some of his staff members across the lobby, curiously looking at 5.C0UP5. âGoing somewhere fun today?â he said and pushed the communication device on his chest, letting 5.C0UP5 hear his every word.Â
âYouâre too curious J30NGHÎN,â he said with a smile, âWeâre just gonna get some pictures at a cafĂ© for this weekâs posts.â It was one of the few things he did a couple of times a year, even under the strict surveillance of his company and its staff. No matter what, he had to sell the fantasy of himself to millions of people all around the universe.Â
âOh, I see⊠have fun,â J30NGHÎN said with a tone that made 5.C0UP5 feel his fingers, the chirping sound of his voice making him conscious of his own existence in a way he despised. the damn wink didnât help. It was as if he knew something. Maybe everyone knew? 5.C0UP5 shook his head and began walking towards the exit along with his manager. He felt his membersâ curious gaze following him as he left. Maybe the secrets were beginning to take their toll on his mind. He knew he was supposed to keep his emotions in check, the overpowering of one of his programmed human states of mind would be his demise. They had told him that much. Yet again, he told himself the same words he had spent so many days and nights telling himself. Nobody knows.Â
Luckily, the cafĂ© that had been chosen for today was only a couple blocks away. The cold sweat that ran down his back went unnoticed by the staff accompanying him in the shuttle used by the members whenever they needed to go to filming locations and individual shoots. Â
âLetâs order some smaller stuff and get the shoot over with, we donât have all day,â one of the managers announced, making 5.C0UP5 nod with a forced smile before he went back to looking out the window. His hand fell to his side, feeling the hard outline of his phone in his pocket.Â
Entrusted to him by the company, he had been allowed to have a small flip phone. It was ancient. They used to have them in the old world, but even by the start of âThe Great Journeyâ the technology was seen as outdated. By the current standards, however, the phone he had been granted was not worth much more than the shoelace on his sneakers. To him though, it was priceless.Â
He was nervous now, his hands felt clammy, and his shoulders were tense as he walked into the cafĂ© along with the staff members. One of them hurried off to the counter and placed your orders while 5.C0UP5 and two others made their way towards the corner table. The young couple currently sitting at the table were quickly removed by the staff members. It was routine, nothing more than a sentence informing the couple of why they needed to get up was given before they were chased off by the staff members threatening presence.Â
He would never get used to that, the way others were treated around him as he stood by, powerless to intervene. Every time he felt ashamed of being the reason the rest of the population had to accommodate whatever his company, his owners, deemed profitable. It didnât matter if it was evacuating an entire city block to film a music video where the buildings crumbled around the members, or something as insignificant as taking over a table at a popular cafĂ©. The guilt was always there.Â
The young couple hastily gathered their belongings and one of the waiters came over and cleaned up the table, apologies for the mess constantly pouring from their lips. Level 3 automatons could get fired for something like this, but at the same time, 5.C0UP5 couldnât help but feel a tinge of jealousy as he watched the worker get back to his place behind the counter. Maybe life would be better if he too was a lower-level automaton, he found himself thinking as he sat down and was served the beverage and piece of dessert that the staff had ordered for him. He would be freer in a wayâŠ
â5.C0UP5, letâs go.âÂ
He picked up the drink in his hand, the cold from the iced drink bringing his mind away from his thoughts and back into reality where a staff member had just fixed the collar of his shirt and fixed his hair which had been ruffled by the wind. âLook over there,â the staff said as another one snapped hundreds of pictures as he moved around on his chair. The rehearsed smiles, the sip of the drink, and the way he leaned toward the camera all satisfied the staff it seemed. He was good at his job, and acting like a down-to-earth boyfriend at a cafĂ© was just another part of his job.Â
What wasnât part of his job, however, was when he felt a buzz in his pocket and without a second thought spilled half his drink across his thighs, the fabric covering his knees now the color of his drink. âOh!â he shouted, âIâm sorry. Iâll go clean up real fast and we can continue like nothing happened, Iâm so sorry, Iâll fix it!â he hurried to say before any of the staff members could even comprehend the situation he had just created. Hastily, 5.C0UP5 rose from the chair and left his staff confused and shocked at the table. âFuck- someone go watch the door, no one else can be in there at the same time he is.â he heard them say behind his back as he hurried off towards the door to the bathroom.Â
There were multiple doors inside the bathroom, each leading to a small bathroom. He didnât know where to go, he didnât know where he was supposed to be. He didnât need to look very far because as he approached the second door to the right it opened for only a moment and a hand pulled him forcefully through the opening. âFinally,â a person said with a smile before they kissed him passionately in the low light of the lightbulb attached to the dark mosaic tiles above the sink. 5.C0UP5 entire body heated up from within as his lips pressed against those familiar soft lips he knew belonged to you.Â
He had dreamed of those very lips every night since he first got to kiss them all those months ago. âHi,â he whispered and let the corners of his mouth turn up in the most genuine smile he had had all day.Â
âHiâŠâ you answered and giggled softly, feeling his warm hands on your cheeks as he held you and kissed you once again, softly and as if to make you feel how much he had missed you as he held your lips locked against his.Â
âAre you meeting up with that secret fuck buddy of yours?â Lana joked as you scrambled to grab your phone and keys on your way out for lunch break.Â
The office supply store was empty at this hour, and you had thirty minutes until you had to be back again; the perfect amount of time for a quick meetup with Cheol. You had to be back in time to release Lana, your co-worker, and close friend, from her shift and let her take her own lunch break since your boss had deemed it necessary to have the store manned at all hours of the day.Â
Or, well, 5.C0UP5 if you were fussy about things like that. That was his real name, his legal name. To you, however, he was Seungcheol. It had been months since you had called the wrong number in your hurry to order a pizza after work, starving and sleep-deprived as you were at the time you hadnât been looking too closely at the numbers you were putting into the keypad on your phone. Luckily for you, the craving for pizza that night had led you to discover something new that you soon began craving much more and much more often - him.Â
His enchanting voice had caught you off guard that first night, and his confused and cautious âWho is this?â had, incredibly enough, been the starting point of you two talking every chance you got since then. Late nights chatting away on, what you have to admit were very sketchy websites, and the occasional call which was made with hushed voices and both of your hearts pounding away, had been most of your relationship. It sometimes felt like an imaginary relationship, since no one could know who he was, and even more importantly -Â know who you were to him.Â
âHeâs not my fuck buddy, heâsâŠâ you retorted.Â
âSee, do you even know what he thinks you two are? You wonât even show me any pictures of him, is he super ugly or something?â Lana shouted as you hurried towards the back door.Â
âShut up! Iâll see you later!â you yelled and the door slammed shut behind you. The back alley was filled with trash and scrap metal. The teenage boy from the large family who lived atop the store was smoking as he kicked bolts around on the ground. He looked up as you passed, and an uncomfortable feeling in your gut appeared as you felt him watch you while you exited the back alley and went onto the bustling street. Your phone buzzed in your back pocket and you fished it up.Â
Unknown. 12.31.
âIâll be there in 10, leaving now.âÂ
It was from Cheol. You wouldn't be getting any more updates from him until tonight, at least he had confirmed that he would be coming. Quickly you deleted the text from your phone and put the phone back into your pocket as a strange sense of being watched made the skin on your neck prickle. You looked around, moving your shoulders as if to shake the feeling away.Â
You hurried away and towards the cafĂ©, the uncomfortable feeling still haunting you as you entered the cafĂ© and headed straight to the restroom.Â
Would he come this time?
You could never be certain. He always did his best to keep his promises, but if the circumstances wouldnât allow him to leave the group of managers that always circled him whenever he stepped outside the shiny company doors, keeping you a secret was more important. It didnât hurt any less whenever he stood you up though.Â
Knowing that his reasons for acting as he did were because of his status as a level 1 automaton had shaken you to the core at first, but it had also been a relief. He had told you who he was after a couple of weeks when you had become convinced you had accidentally begun an affair with a married man, he had been forced to confess his real identity. At least you werenât a home wrecker, was the thought that helped you reconcile with the fact that he would never be free to live a normal life with you.Â
Now you were seated on the toilet seat cover, your ear pressed to the door, your hand on the handle ready to pull it open. Time moved slower than usual, but your heartbeat was racing along with your mind.Â
Then you heard him, it was undeniably his voice that made its way past the music, chatting, and the coffee machines. He was coming to you. You could barely hear when he opened the first door into the restrooms over the sound of your blood rushing in your ears. Without a second thought, you opened the door enough to register the man you had thought about all too often lately and pulled him by the arm inside the small bathroom you had occupied. His biceps tensed as you pulled him and your body lit on fire because of it. God, he was so wonderfully big. Everything from his biceps to his cock was just so perfectly huge, and you went mad any time you thought about it. You kissed him in a passionate kiss, pressing your entire body against his. You fit so well together, his hands on your face and yours wrapped around his body.Â
You wanted more, you wanted all of him, all the time. You wanted to cry because you knew you couldn't have him. With tears pricking your eyes you let Seungcheol pull back to look into your eyes.Â
âHi,â he whispered and smiled. You said hi back softly before the excitement and the giggles overtook your lips. You kissed him again, this time he saw to it that it was a soft and gentle kiss. A small wince left your throat, making Seungcheol quickly turn on the faucet, hoping it would drown out any noises. âSorry,â you mumbled against his plush lips.Â
âDonât worry, itâs partially my fault,â he said pridefully.Â
You were about to laugh, but instead, you pushed up his shirt, exposing his perfectly sculpted upper body to your touch. âFuck you,â you said under your breath.Â
ââFuck me pleaseâ is what you meant, yeah?â he cockily corrected you without missing a beat, flipping you both so you stood with your back against the wall he had been facing away from. You gasped as he lifted you off the ground with the wall helping to pin you between his stiff cock and the cold and hard wall.Â
He was right, even though you hadnât allowed yourself to get your hopes up, you had been feeling unusually needy lately. The thoughts of him filling you up in any way constantly on your mind, you were already turned on as you entered the cafĂ© with the small promise of him setting foot in there to meet you later.Â
âPlease, fuck me,â you gasped out, feeling your arousal soak your underwear at the thought of his girthy cock inside of you. âI need you to be quiet,â he mumbled against your lips.Â
At this, you nodded fervently. Finally, you would feel him stretching you open again, bruising your insides with the force of his strokes like you had dreamt of after every single time you had managed to get together like this before. The moments were rare, but you made the most of the short time you had, to say the least.Â
His tongue quickly found yours as he ground you on his erection, eliciting a low moan and making you open your mouth for him to enter. Warm hands wandered your body, his gentle touch making you swoon as he held you with so much love, while the promise of him fucking you like the slut you were hung in the air.Â
A knock on the door, and both of you froze up, his bulge pressing right on your clit making it unbearable not to move. You winced only slightly as Seungcheolâs lips left yours, deciding to put your now lonely lips to use, kissing down his jaw and neck with soft little pecks and nibbles. âWhat?â Seungcheol asked over the sound of the water running, his tone a bit more agitated than he had intended. Not that he was at fault, he had a soaking cunt begging to be fucked right above his cock, and lips that made him go insane on his neck; someone disturbing him right now was not what he needed.Â
âHow much longer do you need? We donât have all day to wait around for a pair of pants to dry up.â the staff member on the other side of the door said, earning a sigh from Seungcheol.Â
After a moment of silence, he groaned and shouted towards the locked door. âYeah, yeah, youâre right, Iâll be right out.âÂ
No, you thought, your limbs holding onto the man who you had just only gotten a taste of even harder than before. âIâm sorry,â he whispered.Â
âI need you to be patient for me until next time, can you be good for me and wait?â he mumbled against your hair, your lips still attached to the skin right below Seungcheolâs collar. âYes,â you said against his neck, letting go of his skin in favor of burying your face in the warmth of his chest. He put you down on the floor, his arms releasing the back of your thighs and instead wrapping around your body. For just a moment he held you close until the buzzing of the dryer died out and he loosened his hold on you.Â
You pressed your body against the wall as Seungcheol unlocked the door and disappeared through it just as quickly as he had been pulled in through it.Â
âSorry, it didnât come off.â you heard him say through the doors.Â
âWe canât get the shots if youâre all messed up like this, letâs tell the crew that weâre going back instead. Come on 5.C0UP5.â The staff member who had been just a few steps away from you two while they waited outside the restroom door responded as the voices got fainter and blended into the sounds of the cafĂ©.Â
You sat in silence with your hand on the door handle as his voice disappeared completely. In the beginning, you had enjoyed the thrill and noncommitment of him not being able to be there to be an actual boyfriend because of his work and position in life, you recalled as you felt all the emotions in your body dissolve into nothing.Â
A small pain in your chest was the only thing left. The late-night thoughts you whispered in the dark, and the messages you had sent each other that contained your deepest yearnings and your worst fears. They had gotten to you, and it didnât help that whenever you got a taste of having him physically there with you, you rarely- never- wanted to let go. But you always had to.Â
âEnough wallowing, this isnât changing anything,â you mumbled as you wiped your face from the wetness that had seeped from your eyes without you noticing. You needed to hurry back to relieve Lana from her shift you realized as you checked your watch, seeing that you were already supposed to be back at the store.Â
You didnât waste much more time after that, hastily making your way out of the bathroom, checking behind you as you left the cafĂ© to make sure nobody had paid any attention to you. Like a punch in the gut, the feeling of being watched returned as your eyes landed on a dark-clad figure staring at you through the shop window. He had no reason to follow you with his gaze as you hurried across the street, away from the cafĂ©, away from the gut-wrenching feeling that something was awry.Â
He wasnât looking at you, right? You were just getting too paranoid, thatâs all, right?Â
5.C0UP5 had been daydreaming the entire way back to the company, his mind taking him back to the moments he could hold you in his arms. His body couldnât ache for you, but his mind almost had him believing that he did. Some days, he almost believed himself to have a heart. A heart that broke each time he had to leave you behind.Â
It wasnât until he got back to the dorms where he got a glimpse of his members, and friends since he had been put into this world, that he finally felt himself come down back to reality. They were everywhere, some he saw in the lobby along with their hoards of staff members just like his own. Some were in the dorms, sleeping, or at least in a state of being that looked like sleeping as they charged.Â
Others were nowhere to be found, not that he went looking. They could mind themselves, he knew they would never do anything to make him less proud of them. To 5.C0UP5, he was the bigger worry.Â
He was just about to let himself rest and recharge, to try and forget the pain in the back of his mind, haunting him even as he saw his members wandering the dormitories and the company hallways. You were always in the back of his mind, no matter what he did to try and forget. Somehow, he had accidentally let you in, and now you were half his world. The hidden side of the moon, the side which should always remain in darkness, no matter how closely you look.Â
A staff member who had left him just minutes ago as they entered the guarded company building came back, not even bothering to knock before they entered the room in which 5.C0UP5 sat on his bed. â5.C0UP5, you need to follow me, the CEO has something to talk to you about.âÂ
It had happened before, he met with the CEO every once in a while. After all, he was the spokesperson for the group, even if they didnât have many (any) rights, they still needed to have someone to be their voice. This time, however, the meeting wasnât scheduled. The CEO wanted to have an impromptu meeting with him⊠his hand unconsciously fell against his left side pocket, worry filling his mind even though he tried to make sense of why he had been called in to talk to the management.Â
Even as he entered the large office of the CEO he had been in more times than he could count, something felt off. People he had never met sat in chairs all around the walls. Guards stood at the door, looking more tense than he had ever seen them before, and the CEO himself had the strangest expression he had ever worn. 5.C0UP5 waited until he was spoken to, as he had been instructed so many times before. Honoring the one who made sure he had the comfortable life he currently had was something he had been taught from the very first day he had opened his eyes.Â
âHello 5.C0UP5.â the suit-clad man in the dark chair said. He spoke calmly, but not kindly. 5.C0UP5 picked up on his tone immediately.Â
âHello, Sir,â he answered and bowed his head ever so slightly, his eyes never leaving the man in front of him. The room was dark, but the photos splayed out on the desk in front of the CEO finally caught 5.C0UP5âs eye. He could recognize them even at this distance and brightness. His head worked ceaselessly to find the moment it had begun, the moment they had found out. Because in front of the CEO, he could spot hundreds of pictures of the one person he wished they would never even see: you.Â
All that went through 5.C0UP5âs mind when he realized what had finally happened was fuck.
âI understand that you have been seeing this human for a while⊠did you think we wouldnât find out?â the CEO said, almost laughing at him as he sat in his chair looking over the pictures, each one containing your face, at work, at the cafĂ© from earlier that day, at home. They had you right under their nail, ready to remove you from the planet at any second. He wanted to scream.Â
The CEO cleared his throat before he threw the photo he held in his hand on the glass desk in front of him. âNow, unless you want us to eliminate this problem of yours, you will be rebooted first thing tomorrow.âÂ
5.C0UP5 knew he wasnât supposed to protest, he wasnât even supposed to think anything other than âYes, Sir,â but before he could stop himself he spoke his mind.Â
âPlease, no⊠Why would you do that? It doesnât make any sense. If Iâm found breaking the rules, Iâm to be demoted, not- not this!â
âSeventeen is currently the galaxyâs top band 5.C0UP5, and you are their leader, you have an image to uphold. And since you failed at doing this, we want to reboot your system, that way you will be able to stay and your group members' reputations wonât be tarnished, and most importantly. This little issue will be resolved because you wonât even remember this little human.â
The CEO wasnât smiling as he had thought before, the CEO had never once smiled. His eyes were dead, nothing more than a ghost of a human left inside of him. At least 5.C0UP5 felt something, at least he could smile, at least he could loveâŠ
He could love. He had felt it. So why was he about to get punished for something his management swore he couldnât feel? Hoped he couldnât, might be more accurate, 5.C0UP5 realized.Â
âHow did you know?â he asked, the glare he received was enough that the management had begun running out of patience for him already.Â
âDoes it matter? We know everything about you.â the CEO answered curtly.Â
Just like that the pieces fell into place, they had known all along. He felt the piece of metal that clung to his chest like a stone, stuck in his body and destroying him from within. They had known all along⊠The upcoming release of their new comeback was what they were worried about, he soon realized. They had hoped he would stop of his own free will, after all, he had the personality trait of shame. He shouldâve already ended whatever he had with you.Â
However, he hadnât. And now it would become an issue if they didnât handle it quickly and quietly.Â
Despite that, the thought that overpowered all others at that moment wasnât about how small he felt as he realized the true power the company had over him, or how much he loathed the people who thought they had a right to control him. He could love. That was the loudest, and he wanted to scream it, make everyone hear him just this once. It made him proud, he could do something this human was incapable of, and now they wanted to take that away from him. No. There was no way he was going to let them do that to him as well. He clenched his fist at his side, should he fight?Â
âYou can return to your rooms, they will come to get you soon,â the CEO declared and pushed the photos on his desk off the table, straight into the trash can underneath. 5.C0UP5 fists relaxed a bit, a new plan forming as he turned to leave the room with the stern guards following along. âOh,â he heard the CEO say, âand leave the phone, you are no longer trusted to keep it with you even in case of emergencies. I hope you understand⊠you wonât need to understand in a bit.âÂ
His jaw was frozen in place as he took the phone from his pocket and threw it towards the CEO. The guards jumped forward to grab his arms as the phone crashed into the table and tipped over a cup of metal pens that scattered all across the floor. âLeave us,â said the CEO without even flinching.Â
5.C0UP5 didnât feel any shame as he was dragged out from the dark office, suit-clad strangers watching him with cold eyes as the doors slammed shut behind him. He was dragged until they were in the hallway where the crossroad between freedom and forever forgetting you were. âI can walk by myself,â he said with a growl he had never heard in his voice before. The guards let him stand alone, watchful eyes on him as they began walking again, one in front of him and one behind him now. Itâs now or never, he thought, taking the shot as he saw it arise in front of him.Â
His mind barely registered the hands that tried to grab onto him, all his focus lay on the doors in the lobby and on getting there. He ran with all his might until he crashed into the doors that were too slow to open. The crack widened and he pushed himself out of the glass doors that opened just in time for him to keep staying ahead of the guards. Bright lights in all the colors of the rainbow lit up before him as he began running down the crowded streets. His eyes watered because of the wind, and the lights blurred into a kaleidoscope of light.Â
His body was designed to be agile and strong, he was designed to keep moving. Right now that felt like the biggest blessing he had ever received in his cursed life.Â
From the back of his mind, two things arose. The first was your apartment, he had only heard about it, you had described exactly how to get there in one of the late-night calls you had whispered to each other weeks ago. The second was those twelve faces which were all he had known for so long; his members would be left to deal with it all when he was gone. He knew them so well, and yet, none of them had even had a chance to become someone to get to know. He wanted to give them a chance. As he ran he shouted out the word âRun!â, pressed that button he had used so many times before in the middle of the device connected to his chest, and began tearing the peace of metal from his body. It took him a few tries before he managed to rip the entire thing off of his skin. It hurt more than he had imagined, the pain was brain-numbing and overwhelming. He almost had to stop, the pain making it hard to focus on making his legs move forward.Â
Nevertheless, he was free, the tracker was gone from his body, and with it was his only connection to the only family he had ever known.Â
He ran, and he didnât stop running until he arrived at your apartment. They would know he was here, they knew everything. He needed to be quick. He ran up the stairs to your apartment, knocking aggressively on your door, shouting as loudly as he dared for you to open the door. It wasnât long until the door swung open and he was close to tears as he saw your very shocked face looking back at his panicked state. The thing you had imagined, but since you had found out his true identity, always known would never happen, had happened. 5.C0UP5 was tired, but he needed to get away, and he wanted you to come with him.Â
âWe need to leave, theyâre coming for me. Please come with me,â he pleaded, his eyes begging you as his hands held your arms desperately.Â
âWhat did you do?â you said breathlessly.Â
âThey were going to make me forget, make you⊠erase the issue⊠I couldnât let them take this away from me too.â
You were speechless. âYou ran.â He nodded. You didnât even bother to say a word as you ran into your apartment, leaving 5.C0UP5 at the door. He had no idea if you were trying to find somewhere to hide or looking for something as he heard crashes and your voice shouting curses from further inside your small place. He needed to get out of there, but maybe⊠holding out hope was worthwhile it turned out. Minutes later, which felt like hours for 5.C0UP5, you reappeared at the door, backpack in hand and sweat gracing your hairline. You were running with him.Â
It wasnât a hard decision, you werenât close to your parents, and Lana would understand eventually⊠at least you hoped your coworker, and only close friend at this moment of your life, would understand if you ever survived to tell her and apologize for leaving without a word.Â
A small pain stabbed at your heart, leaving everything for an automaton on the run. Everything you had ever known for this man⊠It felt insane at the moment, and it felt even more insane as you felt Cheol squeeze your hand which you had been holding since you took it, and began running towards the docks. You sat in the cold of the night on a hard bench next to Cheol. In a bit, a ship would arrive. Crowded places felt like a good idea at first, but now, the paranoia set in. Was that old man over there looking a bit too long at Cheol? Didnât those surveillance cameras follow them as they walked onto the docks?Â
The hand in yours pressed gently against your skin, helping you stay at least a bit sane as the weight of what you were doing was already beginning to tug at your strength. You thought it best to focus on the plan instead.Â
âLetâs get on this ship, hop off at the airport, and get on another ship there. That way we can get off this planet because the sooner the better right?â
âYeah, but donât you think they will be looking for me at all the docks and airports?â Cheol said quietly.Â
He was right of course, they would be looking for the escaped automaton at all the exits of this world they could think of.Â
âMaybe if weâŠâ You tried, but you didnât know how you would get away if his company's staff members were to hunt them down anywhere on the planet. âDamn. Do you know that itâs incredibly difficult to go on a trip with you?â you deadpanned. The moment was horrible, but also perfect. It made Cheol smile, something you hadnât seen the entire way from the moment you opened the door until now.Â
It helped keep your mind off of the horrible situation and the impending doom.Â
âIt is,â he chuckled, âI never thought it would become an issue though.â
âBut here we are,â you said and sighed. Cheol leaned against you, his large arm pushing against your side, making a smile split across your face.Â
âI donât think we should get on one of the commercial airlines⊠we need something more private,â Cheol mumbled.
âHow would we get a hold of a ship of our own? We donât have the money for thatâŠâÂ
âWeâll figure it outâŠâÂ
âWe have a lot to figure out from now on, Cheol,â you said and let your head fall against his shoulder, resting your heavy mind on his strong frame. He hummed, the sound comforting you even while you thought about all the ways you could get killed while on the run.Â
The submarine came soon enough, and you both got on without a hitch. If you were being followed, they werenât coming out of the shadows just yet. The cold light from inside the ship lit up the dark water around the underwater tracks that held the boat in place as it brought commuters across the sea each day and night. Under the high waves had turned out to be much easier than above them, especially nowadays. The storms had become worse in the last couple of centuries. Every other day there was another tropical storm on the seas. A side-effect of the universes coming closer together was what the scientists had concluded when it first began happening hundreds of years ago after the end of The Great Journey.Â
You looked out the blurry window into the empty waters. Cheol and you were sitting by the back of the ship, trying to be as inconspicuous as possible. You had managed to throw a cap into your backpack, which now helped hide Cheolâs face from any surveillance cameras while you used the hood of your sweatshirt to somewhat hide your face. Being a petty thief seemed like the least of your current issues.Â
Neither of you spoke the entire ride, only communicating and comforting each other through a hand in the other or on their thigh. If you werenât panicking you would probably be craving his touch in other places. That would have to wait though. A safe place was probably the priority, you decided in the back of your mind. You noticed his other hand, the one which wasnât holding onto you like his life depended on it, continued reaching towards his neck. He seemed to be in pain. Did he get hurt? You hadn't had the time to even think about asking him how he was feeling or if he had gotten hurt by the guards or even the staff. You made a mental note to ask him later, placing your head against the rest behind you instead of his shoulder. You didnât want to cause any more pain by resting against him.Â
It was getting rather late as you left the submarine station you had gotten off at. Your heart wasnât calming down anytime soon, you werenât equipped to handle this kind of stress. Day-to-day, normal life stress was enough, this was something else entirely.Â
âI want to live out the rest of my life in a very peaceful manner, far away from all of this crap,â you whispered as you walked the short walk from the submarine station to the spaceport welcoming hall. You wanted to be on a warm couch, not thinking about how to run away without being arrested. Right now, the idea of a living room seemed too far out of reach. All around you were tiny shops, suitcases, and the cold and unnatural light that lit up the entire spaceportâs welcoming hall. Ships that were boarding sounded out through the air, the comfy couch was as far from reality as you could get.Â
Cheol scoffed, âI agree, wholeheartedly. I am never running away again after this, itâs too much work.âÂ
You tried to hold your laugh in, âYeah, too much sneaking around for my taste. Letâs just run away this once, and then stay put and become that old couple on the hill that no one dares to visit.â Cheol nodded. âI would do anything for thatâŠâ Suddenly you noticed a small melancholy feeling in his words. You were just about to ask what was on his mind when he stopped your walk into the large welcoming hall, ushering you both into a small tourist shop. All you saw were miniature Earths, mugs with stupid prints, and keychains with different tourist attractions. You did not like it. For a second you were worried that he wanted to do some last-minute shopping, but your worries changed as you saw his terrified face. He had seen someone he knew.Â
âIâve seen that woman over there by the kiosk before, she usually helps backstage at our concerts. Fuck, that means they really managed to send people out to the exits,â he grumbled. This was bad. You felt your blood rushing in your veins, panic filling your mind. Had you been alone, you wouldâve been frozen right about now.Â
âLetâs just go,â he whispered hurriedly, panic visible on his face. âThe faster weâre out of here the better, right? Are you with me?âÂ
âAlways. Letâs go,â you whispered, the reassurance being all Cheol needed to grab your hand in his even firmer than before and head right out of the welcoming hall and out the nearest exit leading to the departing spaceships. You were unbelievably lucky as you ended up in the middle of a large swarm of travelers who were just about to board the large ship. Most were workers it turned out, the ship being part commuting area and half cargo space. The both of you managed to sneak onto the ship along with the workers, keeping your heads down as you hoped to anything that would listen that you would be able to sneak onboard undetected.Â
It was unplanned, you barely even knew where the ship was headed. It wasnât until you heard the voice that called out that the ship heading to Specus would depart that you both realized where you were heading. Specus was the mining planet, all the minerals needed for this universe to continue expanding its empire, and for life to continue as it has been until now, were found on this planet. All the people on this ship were workers there, probably coming back from their biannual leave which was granted to all humans and other living beings working there. Automatons was not included in the group of people who got any leave. The laws were clear about that, automatons were not human and didnât need any form of vacation.Â
The laws were bullshit.Â
âSpecus⊠I mean it could be worse, right?â you whispered. Cheol nodded, caught up in his thoughts. âShould we look for somewhere else to hide until weâre there?â you asked, trying to catch his attention again. Once again he only nodded, his senses all focused on his surroundings, making sure you two werenât being followed or watched as he pulled you away from the area with rows of seating for the workers traveling with the ship. You went past the cots, knowing there was no way you could manage to stay hidden the entire way if you tried to stay in there. Instead, you made your way to the lower parts of the deck, the part of the ship where travelers didnât wander. Here, you would only find crew members, cleaners, servers, and mechanics. The hallways were darker here, the LED lights being used more sparsely on the lower decks. You had a hard time seeing in the low light, but Cheol had your hand in his, a relaxed feeling managing to find its way into your body despite the circumstances. Â
You had only managed to get a little way past the third deck when you met another person for the first time since you had left the seating area. âAre you two lost?â the man asked, making you jump and making Cheol whirl around to where the sound was coming from. You hadnât noticed him in the dark until he spoke.Â
âNo, weâre just⊠looking for the bathroom,â you stuttered out.Â
It was the dumbest excuse in the book. You knew you didnât have the man fooled when he began laughing. It was a wonderful laugh, high-pitched and genuine. The figure stepped out of the dark, revealing a handsome man, dressed in a simple gray overall. Over his breast pocket, it said maintenance. You felt yourself growing a bit anxious as to what the laughing man would do next. Would he turn you in?Â
âNo, but seriously, why are you all the way down here? You two certainly donât look like the new hires we were supposed to get this week,â the man, who you realized was holding a mop which he was now leaning on, said with a curious tone as he scanned the both of you from head to toe. âYou look like a fucking idol, you know. If I didnât know better I would think you were on the run,â he said with a smirk.Â
âIâm Cheol, this is Y/N,â Cheol said finally as he nodded his head in your direction. Even in this light, you could tell he was staring at the stranger with that intense gaze that could make anyone either break down or swoon.Â
The maintenance man sighed, âAlright, Iâm Wooyoung. Come with me,â he said without explanation. You didnât follow him right away. He looked back at you, the âComing?â visible on his face.Â
âDo we trust him?â you whispered to Cheol, who was still watching the man waiting for you.Â
âI donât know about trust, but honestly what choice do we have? Itâs not like we can go anywhere now, and itâs a long journey to SpecusâŠâÂ
You nodded, nervousness made your hand clammy in Cheolâs firm grip.Â
This was a risk you needed to take. If he was going to turn you in, it was probably better to just get it over with. At least you wouldnât have to starve or something if you were locked up until you got to Specus.Â
He led you to the lower decks, and surprisingly began introducing you both as the new temps that would help around on your way to Specus. The other crew members nodded, a few glancing rather suspiciously at you both but accepting the half-truth that Wooyoung told them. They hadnât heard anything about any new temps, but it was none of their business it seemed. Who, and why you were there to help around didnât matter to them.
Wooyoung led you around the lower decks, being strangely chatty with you two. You hadnât expected someone so friendly to simply appear in your lives just as you needed it. Was he somehow your savior or was he something entirely else? You hoped he was good news because the alternative was so much worse.Â
âOkay, this guy is great, youâre gonna love him. Heâs not⊠too talkative, but heâs very good!â Wooyoung said as he took you down a flight of very narrow stairs.Â
âGood at what?â You asked, minding your step so you wouldnât fall as you descended. Wooyoung didnât answer, instead flinging a thick metal door open and skipping inside.Â
âSannie!â Wooyoung suddenly shouted as you and Cheol entered a room after him. The room was filled from floor to ceiling with electronics. Screws, bolts, and different tools were everywhere. It looked like a mix of a car workshop and a dentist. The second part was mainly because of the chair in the middle of the room. The only time you had seen one of those was when you had gone to the dentist. By a table, a man sat on a high stool, engrossed in whatever he was doing. A bright lamp shone down on, what looked to you like, a bunch of chords in different colors.Â
âWhat Woo? Did you get hurt again? Or are you just here because youâre boredâŠâ San said as he was turned away from the door where you and Cheol stood, unsure of what to say and do just as you had been for the past couple of minutes. Would this man scrutinize you and Cheol as well, like the other staff members Wooyoung had introduced you to? It seemed you had managed to bump into the most friendly maintenance member on the entire crew, and you thanked the universe for that because it seemed as if he was the solution to a lot of your current issues. He seemed to know everyone on this ship, and you hoped the friendship between him and the others would somehow be your and Cheolâs way of being allowed into the crew.Â
âNo⊠or well, yes, I am always a bit bored when youâre not around,â Wooyoung chirped, âBut Iâm here to see what you can do for these two.âÂ
Wooyoung gestured towards the door, finally bringing the new strangersâ attention to where you and Cheol stood. âWell, Iâll be damned. You brought a level 1 down here along with a human?â San said and looked between you both and Wooyoung who smiled brightly at his friend. âYup!âÂ
San nodded, âWell, I can guess what happened with you two since youâre here after all⊠Can you work?â he asked after a moment. You nodded. âYes,â you heard Cheol say.Â
âGreat. Iâm San, Iâm the mechanic around here. Since Iâm human, and apparently that means something even in space, these fuckers also put me in charge when we leave the dock. Iâll get you what you need, food for you,â he said and looked at you, he then turned to Cheol, âA charger for you, and enough work to make sure you sleep soundly when you get off your shifts,â San declared.Â
âYay!â Wooyoung shouted gleefully, his cheerful claps making you crack a smile - despite the situation you found yourselves in.Â
Cheol wasnât smiling, but he seemed more relaxed. âHow did you know I was a level 1?â was all he asked. You hadnât reflected on it, but it was strange that he had been able to realize the difference between Cheol and you so quickly.Â
San smirked, âItâs my job to know. If I couldnât tell the difference between you and one of the workers here, Iâd really be in trouble as a mechanic.â He was about to return to the mess of chords on his desk, but he looked back at Cheol, pointing towards his neck. âAlso, come back here tomorrow and Iâll get that fixed for you.â Cheolâs hand reached for his neck again, the pain from touching the place his tracker had been made him flinch in agony. His shirt had fallen a bit lower while you had wandered after Wooyoung, he had opened his jacket, and now you finally spotted the area he had been protecting this entire time. The piece of metal you had avoided in your secret rendezvous was gone. He had ripped it out, you shuddered at the thought of the strength it mustâve taken to rip something like that from your own skin. You squeezed his hand to comfort and distract him, you didnât know what else to do.Â
Wooyoung came towards you, happily walking away from San who was already immersed in his work, and made it clear that you were to follow him.Â
âThank you,â you said before you left, San looking over his shoulder to give you a small smile and a âno worriesâ expression in return. But worry was exactly what you had begun feeling, more than anything else.Â
You and Cheol got a gray overall each, both saying maintenance over the breast pocket and the back, just like the one Wooyoung was wearing. âStay in here for tonight, and when I wake you Iâll let you know what you will be doing for the next couple of weeks,â Wooyoung explained, giving you a small room in a long hallway to stay in. Everything was in the same cool metallic shade, and you realized that all you had to sleep on tonight would be a lonely pillow and a blanket that looked like it had seen better days.Â
âItâs not idealâŠâ you stated, looking around in the small space you had been assigned as your room. âBut we can make it work, right?âÂ
âIt could be a lot better,â Cheol nodded and looked at you. You had had an affair with a famous level 1 automaton, been found out by some really powerful people, threatened to be disposed of, illegally left Earth, and had just been offered safe passage to another planet by some unexpectedly friendly people. But the room was a bit small and dark. Cheol looked at you, a smile creeping onto his face. You began laughing at the absurdity, âWe should probably be more grateful,â he gasped out between laughs. âBut itâs so ugly!â You shouted, your laughs getting more and more manic.Â
âThis is probably the stupidest thing we have ever done,â you gasped out.Â
Your eyes welled, which tears that were a result of your laughing, and which were your exhaustion finally setting in was impossible to tell. All your emotions just came out all at once. You were gasping for air, tears running down your cheeks, and all the weight of your decisions crashing right into you.Â
âIt was, but I canât make myself regret anything,â Cheol said, emotion welling underneath his words. But he didnât cry. Instead, he just held you. He let you cry your eyes out, staining his dark hoodie with your tears as you sobbed.Â
âDid we make the right decision?â you whispered against his chest, strong arms holding you safe as you questioned what you had done.Â
âI hope so,â you heard Cheol say, the sound of his voice echoing in his body. You fell asleep in his arms for the first time that day. Having him to yourself in this way was a privilege, you realized. It was a privilege you had lived without for your entire life. You didnât even know that you had been missing out on it until you woke up the next day, your head in his lap and his hands holding the blanket to your waist. You looked up at his handsome face, wondering if he had been able to rest where he sat against the hard wall.
It didnât take long until you had both caught on to what you needed to do around the ship. It turned out that Wooyoung was a great instructor. During your shifts you both ran around, cleaning, and helping the regular crew members when needed. Wooyoung quickly made sure you felt at least a bit more comfortable on the ship by giving you tours around the decks and introducing you to even more of the crew members.Â
The best part, however, was when you, after an exhausting day working around the large ship, got to lay down in Cheolâs lap while he charged and slept for a few hours, just feeling the heat that his body generated as you let yourself be swept away from reality. The weeks passed, and you learned the routines of the ship rather quickly.Â
You barely had any time to think, let alone feel, how physically and emotionally exhausted you were. Leaving everything on Earth and trying to survive day by day on this ship in the middle of the vast universe was more work than you had hoped when you impulsively decided to leave. Some days you managed to take a moment to yourself, stopping in the middle of your step, and just staring out the small windows on the sides of the ship. The space outside was both so full of life and so empty of anything at all that you found yourself floating away in your thoughts into nothingness for just a moment.Â
After a few weeks of almost nothing but work and sleep, the crew began preparing for the landing. Soon you would be on Specus, with absolutely nothing planned for what was to come. This soon changed, however, as you sat down with San to eat dinner. Cheol sat next to you, not wanting to spend unnecessary time apart from you just because he didnât need to consume any food.Â
âBut, like, did you like the dancing and all that?â Wooyoung asked, the conversation had ended up being about your professions.Â
âI think I did, yeah,â Cheol answered honestly.Â
âI always thought Iâd be a pretty good idol. If I wasnât designated my level, I would've given it a shot for sure!â Wooyoung said, âOr well, maybe not under your company⊠they donât seem that great from what Iâve heard, with the whole rebooting thing and all⊠thatâŠâ he trailed off. You were all staring at him. The silence was deafening, none of you truly knew what Cheol had been through. He had told you bits and pieces, but not nearly enough to know how heâd react to this.Â
San and Wooyoung had become your friends since you had been sharing your meals every day. Most of the time the conversations flowed naturally, and the topics ranged from everything from Sanâs latest way to fix up bolts that had begun unscrewing themselves to childhood memories. Wooyoung and Cheol had a hard time joining in on those conversations, but they shared their fair share of memories from when they first gained consciousness.Â
It was strange to think about it in that way, your boyfriend never had a childhood. Well, you still didnât have a name for what you two were, and calling him your boyfriend in your mind might be jumping to conclusions, you were simply on the run with each other and had a romantic and sexual relationship with one another, but boyfriend might be going too far- Nevertheless, he had been created just as he was right now. Out of all the parts about AI that you had grown up to accept, the no-childhood part was the one you never quite could get past. He had missed something that was so fundamental to you and all other people who had been born instead of created in a factory. It made you really think about the fact that someone had created him intentionally - not just anyone, but him.Â
The silence was still pressing around you as you all waited to see how Cheol would react to Wooyoungâs lighthearted comment about the idol life. Your thoughts were wandering away from you, maybe in a way of escaping reality until Cheol saved the conversation.Â
âI think you would've been a great performer. You have the right energy about you,â Cheol said with a straight face making Wooyoung crack a smile.Â
You were happy that he seemed okay talking about his experiences. And you were equally happy that the mood hadnât been completely ruined because of Wooyoungâs thoughtless comment.Â
After some time, the conversations died out and San picked up a new one, asking something neither you nor Cheol had any good answers to: âWhat will you do next?âÂ
You looked at Cheol. He looked just as clueless as you felt. Neither of you had a plan. âThey donât have any clue,â Wooyoung pitched in with his laugh, that you would remember for the rest of your life. You looked down, nodding slightly. It was true.Â
âWhere do you want to go? You donât have any idea of where you would like to be in the future?â San asked, surprised that you didnât have at least the semblance of a plan.Â
âI donât know much about the universe⊠but I want to go somewhere safe. I want to spend my life where I wonât be found and wonât be constantly watched,â Cheol answered before looking at you, ââŠsomewhere we can be alone.â
Your heart fluttered. You had forgotten that your life wasnât just the endless days of work on the ship. It was beyond you how you couldâve forgotten it all so fast, but the intense look filled with love and pain that Cheol gave you made all the feelings stir up once again. You wanted that too, you wanted a place where you two could just be together.Â
You nodded, concurring with what Cheol had just said, âIs there somewhere like that? Where we can stay forever?âÂ
Wooyoung stayed quiet but San looked at the both of you, something in his eyes telling you both that he did have an answer to what you were asking him. âLumen. Thatâs where you want to go.âÂ
âLumen?â you asked, never having heard of the planet before.Â
San hummed, âItâs right beside galaxy 428B. They say itâs the âutopia of the universeâ, but very few have ever managed to get there and even fewer have managed to get there and back to tell the story of it.â
âWhy is that?â you continued asking, your curiosity piqued.Â
Lumen had been a planet much like Earth before the entire shift in the universe had happened. It was a sunny place, filled with forests and unexplored nature. There lived some type of people, San wasnât sure what they were called. It was far away, and the solar systems that were close together had not deemed it worth the cost of travel to create a way to commute there. If you could get there, you wouldnât have to worry about anything but creating a way of life, San told you. He had heard about the place from travelers he met in his childhood, people who had been on a journey of their own in search of a safe haven - much like you and Cheol.Â
âAll I know is that you need to travel as far north from our solarsystem as possible,â he said and went quiet. âIâve never seen those people after they left in search of Lumen, I donât know if they ever made it.â
Cheol was deep in thought next to you. Neither of you responded to what San had told you except for a short: âThanks, I think we should head to bed.â But even as you rested your head against his shoulder that night waiting for the exhaustion to overtake you, not a word came from the man you had spent weeks chatting within just this position.Â
If you were going to find out what he thought about your destination, you would need to take the initiative you thought that night.
 âI wanna go, do you?â Your words lingered in the dark room. Silence. Soon you almost began falling asleep, your brain coming to accept that you were probably not going to get an answer out of him tonight. Your body jerked as you heard his deep voice say: âI want to come with you.â Grabbing his hand you nodded sleepily against his shoulder.Â
âI love youâŠâ you mumbled before you dozed off, leaving Cheol alone and awake in the dark with your words ringing in his ears.Â
The next day Cheol still couldnât get those three words out of his mind. Only for a moment did he think about trying to make up a plan for what you needed to do now that you had decided where you wanted to go. âI love youâ⊠the thought of your sleepy voice whispering to him had him cleaning the same spot for at least twenty minutes.
You had said it first, but he didnât even know if you meant it in the way he felt it. Did you just say it without thinking while half asleep? Were you thinking of someone else? What if you were mad that he hadnât said it?Â
He was freaking out, rubbing harder with the mop on the laminated floors. He was sure that he had messed it all up. Maybe you didnât want to go anymore. What if you had just followed him thinking it would be a quick trip and ended up with more than you had bargained for? God, why hadnât he said it back last night? He felt it, so why did he freeze when he heard those three damn words?Â
He jumped when he felt a hand on his shoulder, âHey,â Wooyoung stood beside him, looking at the only wet spot on the ground around them. âHowâs it going with the floor?âÂ
Cheol looked down, only now realizing how caught up in his head he had been. âShit, Iâm sorry man.â
âNo worries. Something wrong?â Wooyoung said, his hand still on Cheolâs shoulder in a reassuring manner.Â
He shook his head, âJust a lot on my mindâŠâ
Wooyoung hummed, nodding understandingly. âGo talk to each other about whatever it is, donât just stand here doing⊠I donât even know what the hell youâre doing, to be honest.âÂ
Cheol looked at him. He was weirdly intuitive, Cheol thought as he looked at the crooked smile Wooyoung was flashing him. He nodded, âItâs ok for me to go?âÂ
âDude, just go! I told you to do so, I decide who cleans the floors and you are definitely not helping me do it, so youâre off floor duty.â
Cheol let go of the mop, his legs quickly moving away from the upper decks and down to the lower ones, towards you. He quickly found you in the kitchen, removing plates from the large dishwasher as the servers stacked the hot plates in tall piles - it looked rather dangerous as he glanced at the piles that towered over him. âCheol?â You blurted out, surprised to see him here when he wasnât on duty in the kitchen that day.Â
âHi, I⊠I wanted to see you, and Wooyong he- he said I could go and I needed toâŠâ he paused, he didnât actually know what he wanted or what he needed. Or well, he did know, he just didnât know how to make it happen.Â
âCome on, letâs go talk then,â you simply responded, making Cheol look at you in awe. He wondered how it had been so easy for you to say what he had wanted to say all along. You on the other hand were wondering why Cheol stood entranced in the kitchen doorway looking at you as if the words âletâs talkâ had been revolutionary.Â
âComing?âÂ
Cheol nodded and followed you back to the small back room that had been yours for the past few weeks. It was dark, but there was enough light coming in from the hallway and the tiny lamp in the corner of the room to light up the piles of clothes in the other corner, the blanket he put over you every night, and the charger that was plugged into the wall next to where he slept with you in his lap.Â
The door closed heavily behind him as you leaned against a wall, wondering what it was that he felt the need to talk about, was it Lumen? âDid you change your mind?â You asked hesitantly.Â
âAbout what?â Cheol looked scared for some reason, you didnât know why but it made your eyebrows knit together.Â
âItâs not about Lumen?âÂ
âNo, no I still wanna go to Lumen! Itâs not about that⊠wait, do you⊠not want to anymore?âÂ
You shook your head, âThatâs not it!â You hurried to assure him. âI just thought, since that was our last conversation⊠you know.â
Cheol swallowed, he just needed to say what he felt.Â
That was easier said than done though. The words all got jumbled up in his brain, his thoughts making his throat go dry, he just wanted you to know without having to tell you. You couldnât read his mind, but he wanted you to feel it. He wanted you to feel how much, how deeply he loved you. He took a step towards you, your arms wrapping around him without a second thought. You pulled him close, chuckling at the thought that he had just wanted some kisses.Â
His lips pressed against yours and his tongue quickly made its way into your mouth, the movements from his touch making you dizzy and tingly all over. Want was already pooling in your lower stomach. Arousal seeped through your folds, you hadnât felt Cheolâs touch or mouth on you in so long. It kickstarted your system and had you wet after just a couple of minutes of making out.Â
âMore please,â you mumbled against his lips.Â
Cheolâs hand moved down from your waist, below the gray pants you were wearing today. His large fingers quickly found their way through your folds, your pussy now soaked and leaking as he slipped his hand against your clit. His breath was hot against your face as he let go of your lips so he could hear your whimpers as he circled your clit.Â
It felt so good, his rough hands knew exactly what to do as they dipped into your cunt, only teasing you before he went back to press on your sensitive spot.Â
You were spreading your legs further apart the longer he teased your clit, you wanted to be filled, you wanted him to push his digits further into your body, you wanted to feel him inside of you as you gushed around his fingers. When he did you moaned out his name, the tension from the past few weeks all dissolving as he fucked you on his fingers.Â
A loud knock drew you both out of the moment, and an unsure voice came from behind the door. âUhm, Cheol? I just wanted to tell you that youâre off for the rest of the day⊠I got both yours and y/ns shifts covered⊠so you could talk.â
Cheol cleared his throat, âYeah, thanks Wooyoung!â he shouted back before pushing his fingers back deep inside your cunt. A moan escaped your lips as he hit the right spot within.Â
Wooyoung went silent, âOkay fine! Later then!âÂ
Cheol didnât bother to answer, and as Wooyoung left you could hear him talk to himself, âYou do something nice for someone and all they do is wave you off so they can get their dick wet, assholes!âÂ
He wouldâve done the same, but none of you would ever argue about it with him. You both laughed for just a second before Cheol kissed you gently yet again, making you forget everything about what had just happened.Â
You soon came as he thrust his fingers deeper into you while the palm of his hand pressed on your entire pussy. It was heavenly, a white blur was all you could see, and relief swept through your body. Cheol kept you from falling onto the floor when he put down the leg he had helped hold up. You were holding onto his clothing with a firm grip as you came down from the first high you had felt in too long. Cheol was riding on a high of his own, not because he had been allowed to cum but because you had. He felt just as proud now as he did the first time he had managed to make you have an orgasm, and he let the words come as they wished, âI love you, more than anything in the universe.â
Your eyes fluttered open upon hearing those softly spoken words. The words that turned your world upside down, the words that terrified you, the words you had longed to hear.Â
âI love you too,â you said, pressing your forehead against Cheols.Â
âI know,â he chuckled.
âWait what?â You said and pulled away your head to try and see his face, âHow⊠oh!âÂ
Your hand flew to slap over your mouth as you remembered what you had been thinking last night, remembering how the words had sat right at the tip of your tongue before you let yourself fall asleep last night. âI said it out loud, didnât I?â
Cheol nodded, a smirk playing on his lips. âI hope you meant it because youâre gonna have to spend the rest of eternity with me once we get to our paradise.âÂ
âOur paradise? You already think Lumen is ours?â You teased.Â
âOf course, with my handsome face and your gorgeous everything, how could we not find ourselves in charge?âÂ
âYouâre insane, and I meant it.â
His smile shone even in the darkness and it lit up your heart like the sky on New Yearâs Eve. He held you that night just like all other nights, but your mind was calmer than most other ones. You were dragging your fingertips along Cheolâs chest, resting your chin on his pillowy arm.Â
âYou know whatâs funny?â he suddenly asked.Â
You looked at him curiously. âWhat?âÂ
âMy entire life, the people around me tried to convince me that I didnât have a will of my own - that I didnât have my own needs that they couldnât fulfill.â
â...thatâs funny?â you asked, shocked at his apparent sense of humor.
Cheol laughed, âNo, no, I mean, itâs not really funny⊠but itâs funny how, as I had begun believing this myself after years of having been told this, it all just collapsed in front of me the moment I picked up the phone and heard this stranger with the most endearing voice ever try to order a pizza from me.â
You stayed quiet, â...again, thatâs what you find funny?? I think we need to work on your humor mister.â He laughed more, your giggles joining his after a moment. Living wasnât easy, but at least he had joined yours, and it was beginning to transform. Nothing was as it had been, and even an unsure future on the run seemed better than the life you had been living so far. At least you had one another now.Â
Time moved too fast after that day, the goal of somehow going to Lumen with Cheol made the days on the ship with San and Wooyoung fly past you. Soon you were preparing to land on Specus. San had told you that you could stick with him for a few days before he got back on the ship to make the journey back to Earth. You both accepted, grateful that you didnât have to figure out where to go by yourselves on this new planet.Â
The day you stepped off the ship onto the giant spaceport on Specus you held onto Cheolâs hand, just as you had when you boarded it. Specus was an industrial planet, its main purpose was to mine minerals and metals from deep within the planet. It was visible the second you stepped off the ship that this planet wasnât like Earth at all. Everything felt like it was a back alley, with pipes, and rust covering every building and vehicle you could see as you followed San through the rundown welcoming hall. There were no shops filled with books or souvenirs, only a ticket shop booth where a robotic arm was visible in the yellowish window. San led you through the hall, not looking at much and saying even less. It was colder here than on Earth.Â
âStop.â San said suddenly, âLook up.âÂ
Both you and Cheol let your eyes flash up, towards the ceiling, or at least towards what wouldâve been the ceiling had there been one. Instead what you both saw was a dark violet sky, not the kind that you had both seen on Earth, but one that looked like it was exploding with tiny stars. âWhat is that?â You asked as you stood with your neck bent back completely so you could watch the stars moving around above you, faster than any stars you had ever seen before.Â
âSpecus spins faster.â San explained, âSomehow that ended up meaning itâs always this one color of blue in the sky and the light from the stars in our galaxies all blend to create this kaleidoscope of color and stars.â
âItâs pretty,â you said, tears almost forming in your eyes at your first sight of something other than metal and the darkness of space you had seen in months. You had missed looking up at the sky, you realized, even if it wasnât the same sky that you had at home.Â
Home, where was that? Earth wasnât your home anymore. Did you not have one anymore?Â
Cheolâs hand squeezed around yours and you abandoned the thoughts. They would only hurt you in the end, it was better to focus on the now.
San got you all two rooms at a hostel, the only one on the entire planet it turned out. They didnât get many visitors except for the few who worked on commuting ships like San, and now you two. It had been so long since you had slept in a real bed that you slept as long as you physically could bear before your stomach was growling at you to get breakfast. San had already retrieved some while Cheol stayed with you, refusing to leave you alone just yet. He didnât trust the others in the hostel, it seemed, as he continued to be on guard as you both got ready to leave your hostel room.Â
That day San took you both on a tour around the town, it was small but busy. Automatons, aliens, and a few humans were wandering around; on their way to work, on their way to their temporary homes, or on their errands for the day. In that sense, it didnât feel like you were very far away from Earth. But as you glanced up at the violet kaleidoscope sky you were reminded of just how different it all was. Â
As the days passed on Specus, you didnât have a clue of what to do next or how to get to Lumen. San had done everything he could for the both of you, even teaching you some of the most basic routines for checking on Cheolâs health. It hadnât been an issue you had spent a single thought on, his health being something you took for granted even now. San helped you realize that what you had gotten yourselves into was dangerous not just because of who was after you, but because of who you two were. You needed to know things in case Cheol couldnât help with telling you what he needed, in case something bad happened. Nobody would be able to help once you were alone. You werenât handling the realization well.Â
Cheol was the one to let you forget about it after you had gotten yourself stressed about what could end up hurting him. He felt guilty about having you worrying about him, and honestly, a little pissed at San for frightening you so much. He knew you needed to learn though, and opted for being your comfort instead.Â
He kissed you, gently and lovingly, and he held you close when you couldnât let the thought of having to use the new skill San had taught you on the man you loved. Seeing the inside of someone in that way had become your new nightmare. Cheol held you each night, shushing you back to sleep if you ever woke up from it.Â
Two weeks ended up passing by just like that, nightmares and lessons on Automaton autonomy. You wanted to get off of Specus by the beginning of the third week. It didnât matter that San and Wooyoung had become your friends, you wanted to leave. The sky was still beautiful but everything around you reminded you of what San had taught you, and you couldnât think anymore, you didnât want to think anymore.Â
âLetâs find a ship then,â Cheol simply said when you voiced how badly you wished to go somewhere else, to find your paradise sooner rather than later.Â
You laughed a bit at that, âDo you really think itâll be that easy?âÂ
âOf course, itâll be easy!â He said with a casual shrug. You flashed him a smile in return for his suddenly carefree attitude.Â
âI donât believe you, but I say we give it a shot!âÂ
Before you left you said your goodbyes to San, just in case you ended up actually lucking out and finding a ship that was willing to take you both to Lumen. You hugged the mechanic who had helped you both so much during these months. Cheol did the same, with one small difference, he whispered something to San before he pulled away. Something that made Sanâs face go serious but he nodded in confirmation. What had he agreed on? What had Cheol told him? You tried asking him as you left towards the spaceport but he wouldnât budge, telling you âYouâll notice if it worked later, I promise.â
The hours passed, and any ship that looked decent had declined you. Every captain had a destination already and none of them had Lumen on the maps.Â
You were tired and hungry. Cheolâs chipper attitude was long gone by now and you were both seemingly thinking about giving up for the day.Â
âYou know what, what if we just steal that ship? If weâre gonna be on one for months or even years we should have a proper one,â you joked and pointed at a large ship by the end of the docks. Cheol looked at the ship, it was larger than the ones you had been asking all day, but not even close to as large as a cargo ship. It was the perfect size for going on a long trip with a few people.Â
âAlright,â Cheol said without a hint of sarcasm, which made you look at him surprised.Â
âWait what? You want to steal that ship for real?â You wheezed out. He nodded, a playful smile showing you that he meant to try.Â
Fuck it, your mind decided - hunger and the need to leave Specus and all its minerals overtaking your rational mind. You boarded the ship, walking past any guards as if you owned the place. Nobody minded you two, the few people that far out the docks minding their own business. The ship was even more gorgeous inside, modern and so clean you were shocked at how long you had gone since you last saw a floor without mud or rust.Â
You walked into the cockpit of the ship. If someone were to arrest you right now you were happy to at least have seen this ship before rotting away in Phylaca forever. The prison planet was the one place you never wanted to see even if you werenât going there for imprisonment. But going to Lumen was all that mattered, so you would need to steal this ship.Â
âI think this will do,â you said and smirked at Cheol.Â
âWhat are you two doing here?â The voice made you both jump, and you both looked towards the exit. A man, rather large in his stature, stood confused and agitated in the doorway. He had just stepped inside the ship, the door behind him still wide open with the ramp that led to the dock right below him. You were in shock one minute and the next you began running. But you werenât running away from the large man, you ran right towards him. A look of panic flashed across the manâs face and then your body slammed into his. You were sure you were going to fall with him, but you never did. A strong grip holding onto your waist. When you opened your eyes to see if you were dead you saw the man on the ground. He wasnât moving. People around him looked up from their own business to look at what had happened. Cheol pulled you inside, closing the door as you stared out into the void in front of you.Â
Had you killed that man? You ripped yourself from Cheolâs grip and looked out of the tiny window that faced the docks where more and more people were grouping around the man. Was he moving? You wanted to think he was moving. The people around him tried to lift his head, he was bleeding a little, but he was sitting, right? Your mind was a mess. You didnât know if what you were seeing was real, or if it was your mind playing a terrible trick on you.
You gasped as you saw the docks moving. They were moving away from you just as the man seemed to turn and point at you. âHeâs not dead! Cheol Iâm not a murderer!!â You shouted.
But Cheol wasnât there, he wasnât where you had torn away from his grip anymore. He was by the cockpit, hands frantically trying everything he could to get the ship to do as he wished. The docks hadnât moved, you realized, the ship had.Â
Cheol picked up how to steer the ship rather quickly, even understanding how to use the auto control so he could charge at the same time you slept instead of constantly doing shifts. You were happy about that since it meant you got to spend time together on the ship, your days becoming rather pleasant as you settled into a routine. There was plenty of fuel on the ship, both for the ship itself and for you and Cheol. Electricity was easy to come by and there was a rather large supply of food there as well. You had managed to snatch a ship that had just been restocked - it was hard to accept the amount of luck the two of you had been struck by.Â
But the best part of the ship was the fact that nobody else was on it. For the first time in forever, you two were alone. Alone with a bed and each other. There was nothing else to do but to let Cheol fuck you in every way he, or you, wanted. And my god you wanted to - all the time. The day had only just begun on your second week on board the ship and you hadn't had the chance to get dressed yet, breakfast in bed having become the norm as you let the ship steer away from everything, hoping it would lead you to Lumen if you just kept the course San had told you about. You simply steered away from â and hoped for the best. After all, you had better things to do that occupied your mind at the moment.Â
Cheol could taste the fruit you had just eaten for breakfast, you tasted like what he imagined summer would if he could consume it. In a way he was. He was drinking in the way you looked underneath him with his eyes, he was licking and kissing every inch of you that he saw, nibbling on your skin, making you moan and beg more and more for each day that he learned his way around your body.Â
Never before had you been undisturbed like this for days on end. It was pure bliss. He found out each spot you liked to feel his lips on your skin, each spot where he could make you arch your back off the bed, and each spot on the ship where he could drill into your cunt until your legs gave out and your juices leaked out of you. You made a mess of the large bed that had been meant for someone a lot more powerful than the two of you, but none other than you two wouldâve been able to use it to its fullest like you had been while alone on the ship.Â
Cheolâs fingers smoothed over your thighs as his hot breath caused shivers to spread from your core, goosebumps prickling your skin in the air of the spaceship. You were grabbing fistfuls of his long hair, his gaze sultry and dripping with lust as his tongue flicked over your clit. He was burying his face in your puffy and glistening folds, reveling in your moans and how your entire body was writhing from his tongue exploring your wet pussy.Â
You had been at it for a while, but neither of you were finished, orgasms were still left to be had before you would be able to sleep.Â
The way he was making out with your cunt would soon send you over the edge if only the muffled sound of a voice hadnât found its way through the corridors of the ship to pull you out of your pleasure.Â
âWhat the fuck is that?â You groaned, pushing on Cheolâs head a little as if you would be able to hear the voice clearer the further Cheol was from your cunt. This was true, but not enough of a reason to give up on chasing your orgasm, according to Cheol since he simply attached his lips to you again.Â
He hummed, meaning to get you to ignore whatever it was. The voice of a person, clearly in a rush, continued to echo in the large rooms from the cockpit. âCheol I need to check on that. They sound worried, maybe theyâre in danger.âÂ
âFucking hell!â He groaned out as you pushed on him again. âHow is it possible for us to get interrupted right now?! Weâre in the middle of the freaking space for goodness sake!â Cheol shouted, his lips leaving your body and his hands stilled.Â
âIâll fix it. Gimme two seconds,â you said with a giggle. He had taken the words right out of your mouth, it was incredible how you could never have sex without someone interrupting you.Â
You rushed to the cockpit, only managing to throw on a simple T-shirt. âHello?â The voice came screeching out of the sound system in the cockpit. You had never used it before, but with a simple push of a button that blinked in a bright shade of red, you were able to answer the person on the other end. âHello! Can we help you?â You asked in your friendliest tone.Â
âYes, hello, this is the spacecraft Marquise, 4210-CH378,â the voice stated, âWe are on course for â- and have discovered your ship on our monitor. We are on a direct collision course with your ship if nothing is adjusted, and based on our estimation of your ship size we are afraid that any living beings on your ship will be crushed as a result of the impending collision.âÂ
You were speechless, âIâm sorry? Weâre about to crash into you?! And die?!â You shouted the friendly tone you had tried to access now long gone in favor of your pure panicked state.Â
âIâll move our ship! Please donât crush us!â You shouted as you pressed down on the button, hoping to the stars that your actions were the right ones to do at that moment as you simply smashed buttons at random on the control desk. Anything to make the ship away from the larger ship that was already visible in the far-off distance, a star that seemed to move twice as fast as any regular star could.Â
You hadnât noticed Cheol when he entered the cockpit, only noticing him when you felt a kiss on your shoulder, which then became a row of small warm kisses down your back. A small chuckle came from behind you as your body reacted to him, forgetting what you were doing.Â
âIf you intend to change the course of your ship, we would prefer it happen before you end up in front of usâŠâ the person on the other side of the intercom reminded you.Â
You had forgotten, pushing the red button once again, bending forward as you did, giving Cheol the perfect opportunity to push his face back against your still dripping pussy.Â
âIâm so sOrry-â you winced, âIâm having some technical difficulti- ah!âÂ
âDo you need some assistance?â a voice crackled over the intercom. You needed to get the ship on another course or you would soon be nothing but a bug on the windshield of the much larger ship coming right towards you. Cheolâs tongue on your soaking cunt had you trembling where you stood, bent over the control panel, the ship in sight and your mind working against the impulse to give in to Cheolâs magic touch and ignore all your issues.Â
You tried to momentarily pull away from his face, but he had you in his grip and you were too entranced by his grip to properly make the effort to get your heat away from his warm tongue. Instead, you pushed on the lever that you had seen Cheol use only once or twice, unsure of what it did but it was the best option. You pushed it as far as it went, and the ship began turning away from your intended course, and by extension, away from the collision course.Â
âThank you. We wish you good luck on your further travels,â the voice from the larger ship sounded through the intercom once again. âNo problem, you too!â you managed to say before turning away from the control panel, Cheolâs grip on you only losing for a second as he took his mouth off of you, only to sit you down in the pilotâs seat. This time you werenât focused on staying on the course however, instead the chair was turned away from the panels and the vast universes outside the ship, instead, you had a very cocky Seungcheol on his knees in front of you. Your cunt was on display and dripping as you awaited his touch yet again.Â
âYou seemed to be a little distracted just now,â he chuckled. You scowled, but not for long, your neediness taking control of you once again as you pushed Cheolâs face back to your arousal, which he lapped up with fervor, the stress of the moment gone just as it had come, the incident being largely forgotten by the both of you afterward.Â
This was one of the biggest mistakes you could have made on your journey. Forgetting where you were going, forgetting that your newly found safe haven on the ship would only last as long as nothing burst your fragile bubble.Â
Days passed, and your waking hours flew past you almost as fast as the space around you did.Â
A single blip showed up at the edge of one of the monitors in the cockpit. Blinking bright blue, your spacecraft flew closer with each day. Neither of you paid any attention to it. The both of you relied on the autopilot mode to guide you to Lumen, even if your initial direction was based on nothing more than what San had told you months ago.Â
The change of course hadnât made a difference to your daily routine until you saw the desolate planet in front of you. When you had spotted it one morning in the distance, you had presumed it to be an optical illusion. There wasnât supposed to be much of anything out here, but you could very clearly see a small planet, darker than the surrounding space, with only the lights of ships to reveal that it was anything other than space junk or a meteor.Â
Dark and wet, it lay lonely in the universe. Your fuel had begun emptying after weeks of nonstop flying, you would need to stop at one place or another sometime soon. Changing courses away from the prison planet now would only make suspicion arise from the watchtowers on the planet. There was no denying it: Phylaca would be your next stop.
âWe need to put on our best act, we fucked up y/n, letâs make it quickâŠâ Cheol tumbled as you both watched the planet becoming bigger and bigger from the cockpitâs large window. âAs long as they donât find out anything about who we are or why weâre here, everything will be fine,â you agreed, the doubt evident in your voice and the way you were biting your cheek to distract you from the sense of doom you were experiencing.Â
Docking at Phylacaâs spaceport was unexpectedly easy, the man who had answered the intercom had welcomed you to land on one of the less crowded docks before they could come to meet you. You had worried they would take you as pirates or something worse since you werenât authorized to be there, but the man on the speaker had jokingly called you out on ânot exactly looking like a pirate ship.â You werenât sure how you should take that, but you were thankful that it had let you both safely land on the planet.Â
A guard was coming closer, he didnât look like most guards you had seen before, he was rather short and his stature was on the smaller side. His presence, however, was enormous. The way he carried himself made you a bit nervous as he approached. You went out to meet him, hoping it wasnât all a ploy to get you and Cheol arrested, he stayed behind inside the ship, having been convinced that it would be safer if nobody had seen him on Phylaca at all. San had recognized him as a level 1 automaton, even though most people canât tell the difference at all, who was to say that nobody else would?Â
âHey,â the man said and reached out a hand, âWelcome to Phylaca, the intergalactic prison.âÂ
You had to swallow hard to not reveal how nervous that made you. âHey, me and my crew were hoping that we could stay here for just a little while, just until we can restock on some supplies and fuel. Weâll be out of your hair before you can even count to 10!â You rambled, not much thought going into what you were saying even though your brain was running in circles trying not to say anything stupid.Â
His features were sharp, delicate in some way, he stared at you expressionless as he listened.Â
âThat soon? On the run or something?â He said, the same expressionless eyes staring at you suspiciously.Â
Fuck, you had already fucked it all up. You would die in prison and they would probably send Cheol back to earth and he would forget everything and you would be left here all alone for all of eternity! You wanted to cry. The guard mustâve noticed, because as he saw the tears trying their hardest not to fall from your bottom lashes his expression let up, eyebrows knitting worriedly together and he reached out a hand, âNo, shit, Iâm sorry, I didnât mean to make you cry!âÂ
The tears fell, and you wiped them off, pulling back from the hand the guard had reached out for you. âI was only kidding, okay? Iâm gonna tell you a secret, yeah?âÂ
Your tears were gone, you mind a huge question mark as the guard you had been speaking to for about two minutes had 1. Made you cry, 2. Guess your lifeâs story in two seconds, and 3. Wants to tell you a secret so you wonât cry??Â
Who was this man?Â
âYouâre not the first person who has ended up here while on the run, and Iâll help if you are! Thatâs my secretâŠâ he whispered, looking at you with a curious eye. Was he waiting for you to respond to him disclosing what was most likely highly restricted information to you just because you were tired and scared?
âUhmâŠâ you were speechless, âIâm y/n, Iâd love helpâŠâÂ
âOh wow, okay that was much easier than it usually is. Hi y/n, Iâm Hongjoong,â he gave you a gentle smile now, somehow reassuring you that you would be okay, even if you had just been offered illegal help from what you figured was basically a corrupt guard.Â
âWhat? He just agreed to help us? A Phylaca guard agreed to restock our storage and fuel tank. Just like that?â Cheol was in disbelief, you nodded with big eyes, barely believing it yourself.Â
âI mean, itâs possible that he only said he would because I was crying and he wanted some time to get more guards to come and arrest us⊠but he seemed very nice!âÂ
He was in shock, and he was scared, you could see it in his face before he hid it in his hands, rubbing away the worries as much as possible.Â
âHe⊠did he not want anything in return?â He finally asked. You were silent for a moment. âY/n. What did he ask you to do in return for this huge favor?âÂ
His voice was stern, and you would need to tell him eventually anyhow.Â
ââŠhe wants us to help one of his acquaintances get off of PhylacaâŠâ you mumbled, a bit scared of how he would react to you agreeing to host strangers on your ship.Â
âYou invited refugees from a prison to our ship?âÂ
ââŠI did.â
He stared at you, his expression hard to read.Â
âCan we run before they get here?âÂ
âI donât think we shouldâŠâ
ââŠFine, letâs wait for them, whoever they are. But if it turns out theyâre literal murderers or something, we should kick them off sooner rather than later,â he said before standing up. You were standing by the door, not having gotten much further into the room created for the kitchen staff on the ship, the room that you had deemed safe enough for Cheol to stay in while you went outside to meet Hongjoong.Â
He walked to you, taking your face in his hands, âThank you for coming back safely, even if this deal might get us killed in the end.âÂ
You chuckled but was interrupted when Cheol leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to your lips.Â
The ship was ready to lift, but the docks were even emptier than you had seen them during the entire time you had been on Phylaca. Hongjoong hadnât talked to you much since that first day. He had sent notes along with the supplies he had sent over. It was terrifying each time a delivery was made, you never knew if this was the day you would be found out and arrested. But Hongjoong had turned out to be trustworthy, and you had kept your own promise of staying to help out his acquaintances in need too, at least so far.Â
âThey havenât shown yet?â Cheol asked when he came back to the cockpit where you sat, prepared to lift the moment your new passengers were on the ship.Â
âNope, Hongjoong said that they would show up about now⊠should we leave if they donât come?âÂ
âI donât know. Maybe they will come after us if we leaveâŠwe donât know how much we should trust that guard if we break our deal.âÂ
He was right, you needed to wait; you needed to keep your promise to make it off Phylaca safely. If you had done all this just to get arrested while leaving the planet, it wouldâve all been in vain.Â
You waited, the silence of the empty-looking planet feeling increasingly eerie.Â
Then you spotted them, you gasped, they were running. Two people were running towards you. You couldnât see them clearly, they were too far away at first. You recognized the jacket on one of them, it belonged to the guard on Phylaca. The other person was seemingly wearing matching clothes. Were they criminals? What had you gotten yourselves into?Â
You didnât call for Cheol to come look, but he noticed the way you tensed up as you saw them coming closer and the way your breath hitched in your throat when you finally saw them. You recognized one of them from the big plasma screens. His face had been everywhere. Even though you hadnât been looking much at any of the members standing beside the man you had found out was the idol you were talking to in secret, you could recall his face lit up with the cold blue lights in the evening. He was one of the 53V3NT33N members. D1N0. One of the members Cheol had been forced to leave behind when he ran. He was here, on Phylaca.Â
Cheol stood frozen beside you. They stopped just a couple hundred feet away, the other person blocking the view of D1N0âs face. Something was happening, you didnât know what, but when you saw the guards you didnât even care anymore. You werenât going to get caught here, not like this. D1N0 had stayed behind. He pushed the other person forward, and simply watched as they ran toward the ship. They ran away from him, away from the guards, and towards you and Cheol.Â
They were the acquaintances Hongjoong had spoken of, they were supposed to leave with you. Both of them. But only one of them got on board. Cheol was still frozen, you werenât sure if he was even there anymore. You couldnât wait. The stranger that had run on board was safe.Â
You left the docks, hearing a faint, âNo!â You knew it was Cheol, but the instinct to get you all to safety was greater than his shouts for you to turn back. He couldâve overpowered you and made you go back, but he didnât even think that far. He ran to the doors that wouldâve led him outside. A large bang echoed through the metal hallways of the spacecraft along with a pained sob. You didnât know if it came from Cheol or your new passenger.
But there was nothing to step onto, only space. The view of D1N0 was soon lost, you didnât want any of you to see what would happen to him as he stayed on Phylaca.Â
You didnât want to know what you had done as you left without him.Â
Cheol was quiet. So quiet.Â
He said nothing, he barely looked at you. It felt like a stab in the back each time he looked away from you when you even looked his way or opened your mouth.Â
The bang had come from Cheol making a dent in the interior of the ship, wrecking his hand in the meantime. You had looked at his broken hand in horror, the sight of his skin cracked but without a single drop of blood or bone showing made you queasy.Â
The stillness of the ship continued for days. Your new passenger having shut themselves away from the both of you, it was different than Cheol, but the silence was crushing anyhow. There was nowhere to go, you were stuck right there, in the middle of the universe.Â
You used everything San had taught you back at Specus to help heal Cheolâs hand. With bandages and thread, you sewed and patched his cracked skin over the mechanical workings of his broken self. It didnât help him deal with his real pain though, you knew that.Â
You couldnât understand either of their pain completely, but you tried. He didnât want you to try. He was hurt and he wanted you to feel as alone as he did, you knew he just didnât want to be completely alone in his pain. So you let him stay as he was: quiet and angry.Â
He didnât touch you anymore. He didnât talk to you. He didnât even care to respond to a single question you asked for over a week. You cried yourself to sleep each night, and did your best to create a new daily routine now that everything had changed into this still place of pain and dark glances thrown your way.Â
You had begun blaming yourself, you had made the choice, maybe you did deserve to be shut out by everyone.Â
You waited for days for him to take the first step, to tell you that he was ready to talk about it all, to tell you that he wasnât mad about the choice you had made. He never did. He didnât say a word. The solitude continues for all three of you on your lonely spacecraft on your way to a planet that didnât existâŠ
It continued until you felt yourself going mad, the days had melted together in a bad way, the only emotion you had felt was gray and sticky and you hated it. You had begun hating yourself because of it.Â
âCheol.â Was all you said to him, startling him where he sat staring into space from the cockpit. You stood a couple steps away from him, closer to the door than to the man who seemed like a shell of who he had been before Phylaca.Â
At first, he only responded with silence, but after a moment words formed. âDo you know why I had the phone you called in the first place?â
His voice sounded raspy and repressed as if he was choking on the syllables. You shook your head in response. He didnât see you, but he continued.Â
âI convinced the management that I needed a phone that wasnât connected to the network so that in case anything bad happened to me or the members, I would be able to contact help even when our communication devices didnât work.âÂ
His voice wasnât more than a choked whisper. The words still felt like a slap to the face.Â
âEverything I have ever said, done, and felt has always been meant to help my members, theyâre my family. Instead, I used what I had gained in the name of helping them, to ruin everything. I did it all for my own selfish desires. Can you understand how much shame and guilt is crushing me every day? Every minute I spend away from them. Not even knowing if theyâre okay.â
You had nothing to say. What could you say? Could any of your words comfort him at all? Could you make him the slightest bit happier right now? Could you ever manage to keep him happy? Distracting him from all the disasters of the universe wasnât possible, so what could you do?Â
Instead, you continued to say nothing. Your body fell back against the cold metal wall behind you. You couldnât say a single word to help him, but you could let him say all the words he needed to say to help himself.Â
He stayed quiet for a while. Your shuffling as you slid down to the floor against the wall told him you were still there. His figure slumped back against the chair he sat in.Â
âI just, I canât believe I actually left them all to fucking deal with all of this by themselves. I donât even know if they made it out alive.â He began, voice still strained as he tried to hide everything that wished to rip him apart from within. âI was supposed to be there for them, to be their leader who stood by them no matter what. And you know what, I took pride in that, I was so proud to be the one to support those guys even in the situation we were in.â
You stayed quiet. Quiet tears streamed down your face as you listened.Â
âHow could I just leave? What? Because I was scared of forgetting this? I couldâve stayed, I couldâve figured something out.â He was beginning to sound angry now.
âCheol, no. You know you couldnât have. This was the only way⊠wasnât it?â You whispered, the tears clouding your eyes as you watched the back of his head.Â
âI- I donât know anymore y/n. Maybe I wasnât thinking clearly at all, maybe I was actually sick like they saidâŠâ he sighed.Â
Your heart was in your throat, swallowing hard you decided to say your peace as well. âSo⊠because you loved someone- no, because you loved me, youâre gonna blame yourself for everything that has happened? That feels like youâre actually blaming me, you know?â
This made him turn around. His features were tired and his skin was dull. He hadnât been taking care of himself at all.Â
âY/n, stop it. You know this isnât your fault.â He mumbled. Tired eyes looking at your tear-stained face.Â
âNo, maybe it is. You wouldâve never broken the rules, they wouldâve never found out and you wouldâve never been almost rebooted. And most importantly - if you had never loved me you wouldnât have had to abandon your family.â
âPlease, just stop that y/n.â He groaned and let his head fall back, eyes closed, he was in pain. You didnât know if it was physical or mental. Nevertheless, you wanted him to listen as well. You were in pain too.Â
âWhat? Am I making you feel bad for thinking itâs me thatâs the problem and not the goddamn company that put you through it all from the start? Am I making you feel like youâre making me feel with all of your talk of how ashamed you feel that you left that life behind? Because I know, I remember how out of everything horrible in your life back then, those boys were the only thing that made you happy while you were there⊠So please, stop beating yourself up, Cheol. The past has already happened, we managed to get out right? What makes you think the others werenât as lucky as we were?â
He stayed quiet for a while. His silence made your heart drop. You needed to ask him straight up.Â
âDo you blame me? Do you hate me?â Your voice wasnât more than a whisper, but he heard you. It was impossible for him not to.Â
âI-â he tried, but his voice broke. The tears welled in your eyes. You wanted to fight for what you two had, but if he blamed you⊠whatever you had might be too far from saving.Â
âItâs okay. I understand.âÂ
You forced yourself to say it, you couldnât walk away from him. Even if he hated you, you refused to be the one to leave.Â
âItâs not that I hate you, I just hate how it hurts. Because it really fucking hurts. Iâm in pain every single second and I donât know how to make it stop.â His voice was breaking as tears streamed down his face. âBut, I⊠I canât lose you too.â
You placed the back of your hand over your mouth, trying to somehow hold back the pain that wanted to consume you from the inside.Â
âWe shouldâve tried saving DinoâŠâÂ
You got up from your corner, your arms finally letting your legs go, replacing your own arms around your body with Cheolâs. He hugged you. Tightly.Â
âIâm sorry,â he whispered. It was relieving to say it. He had been in a shame spiral for the past few weeks. He just hadnât noticed. Still, you stayed with him, waited for him, listened to him. He wanted to repay you for all of it.Â
Weeks passed yet again. Things got better, slowly but surely. You talked to each other. You were beginning to forgive each other for those weeks after Phylaca. It wasnât easy.Â
Breakfast, lunch, dinner, sleep, and repeat. Small conversations, still trying not to start up another fight. It was exhausting.Â
The stranger still wasnât speaking much, too wrapped up in their own mind to be able to share the pain they kept inside. Not that either of you were sharing your struggles with them anyhow. It was a mutual understanding that all three of you needed some space, even as you were trapped together in space. Galaxies passed you by, and you found yourself passing time by watching the tiny lights fly past the large windows from the cockpit. Â
Sometimes, Cheol sat with you. Holding your hand, comforting you without words just like he had been that day when this had all begun. That helped. It helped both of you; knowing that neither of you actually wanted to abandon what you had, even after everything.Â
When something finally showed up in front of your ship, only a small planet, not much bigger than the moon of the earth, you didnât allow yourself to get your hopes up.Â
After so many months, this was probably only another uninhabited planet with a poisonous atmosphere.Â
âI donât wanna get your hopes up, Cheol, but this planet looks so much like earthâŠâ you shouted to Cheol who was trying to get your guest to eat some of the lunch from earlier, with very little success.Â
If this was Lumen, maybe everything would be okay.
Maybe the void of space you had been traveling through had an end after all, despite the overwhelming feeling of being trapped and that you would all end up wasting away inside the ship on your long journey.Â
But if this was itâŠ
You let the ship continue straight ahead. Cheol and your guest joined you in the cockpit after hearing your shouts across the deck.Â
All three of you watched as the planet became bigger. You could see water, and green patches everywhere. Clouds! There were clouds and an atmosphere surrounding the small planet.Â
You had gone off autopilot, Cheol helping you steer the ship toward the planet. You circled it, trying to draw attention to yourselves through the intercom system. No sign of life was heard until a small voice came through, a child. âHello! Are you aliens??â The child asked over the crackling of the coms.Â
You wanted to shout, there was life here!Â
âHello? Weâre outside of your airspace, our registration is BO883628K, and we are requesting permission to land!â You shouted back.Â
âWhat are you doing?!â Another voice could be heard, the small child squealed and the crackling disappeared. You were scared the last shot at landing somewhere had been lost forever, but the other voice came back after just a moment.Â
âHey? Who is this?âÂ
Your body was tense, nerves firing uncontrollably as you explained your errand yet again.Â
âOf course, welcome to Lumen, wanderers.âÂ
You yelped, âLumen?! We found it?â You were jumping up and down, laughing and shouting as you felt all your worries leaving your body. Your new home was right below you, welcoming you with a warm embrace and new hope.
âYes, you found it,â the voice crackled, you could hear them chuckling a bit at your excited yelling. âThere are bigger docks located northeast of your current location, go there to land safely.â
You found a house, outside one of the small towns near the docks. You had nothing to give in return for the hospitality the diverse population of Lumen offered you, Cheol, and your newest passenger.Â
They didnât care, they told you that most of the people there had already been through the same suffering that you all had. Anyone who made it to Lumen was treated like family, nobody was to be left empty-handed just because they were strangers to the people.Â
âIs this really here? Am I dead or asleep or something?â You said in wonder, grasping at Seungcheolâs arm. You stood in your new kitchen, it was simple, but airy. The view from the kitchen showed the sunny forest lying just behind the garden and the porch.Â
âIf youâre dreaming Iâm dreaming with you.â He laughed hysterically. âBut I think it might be realâŠâÂ
You jumped into Cheolâs embrace, hugging and kissing him like the past few weeks had all been a bad dream, like this was your true reality and everything bad could be forgotten completely.Â
He seemed happy as well, looking around the large house with you, coming up with ways you could improve the place, and how you could make the vegetable garden prosper once again. It was overgrown and run down, everything had been left to its own devices. But it was vacant, and the townspeople had agreed that you two would be wonderful as the new owners of the house. It was a short forest walk back to the town, where you had parted from your quiet passenger, telling them that they were welcome any day and that you would always have a spare room and a shoulder to cry on. It made Cheol happy, somehow trying to make up for the fact that you had lost D1N0 on Phylaca through this person that he mustâve cared about more than his own life.Â
âDo you think they will be able to find their way here too? The members, I mean. Like we did?â You whispered, resting your head on Cheolâs shoulder, your hand in his. You watched the dark green leaves swaying in the summer breeze, the flowers following the sun that shone more than it was gone, and the grass on the ground scenting the air you breathed in.Â
âI hope so, I think they will know eventually.â
âKnow what?â You said and looked at him.Â
âThat weâre here.â
You tilted your head. âHow would they know to find us here of all places?âÂ
âRemember the secret I had with San on the first ship?â He said and smiled, embarrassed about something.Â
You nodded. Not quite understanding what he meant yet.Â
âI told him to tell anyone he met that might be related to us. Actually, I told him to let anyone like us know that if we got here, we would offer a home for them to rest at.â
Tears welled in your eyes, he had been thinking of everyone else this entire time. Not once had he let himself be entirely selfish, you squeezed his hand, bringing it up to your lips and pressing a thankful kiss to his soft skin.Â
âI think they will come, eventually.âÂ
The years passed on Lumen. You and Cheol had made a home for yourselves. A home that would be open for any runaways, robot, alien, and human alike. It was safe, happy, and hopeful because one day everything might be absolutely perfect in your new home.Â
The spare rooms of your new house would exist for them if they could ever get to their leader. The thought helped him continue, to live life to the fullest until they could join him. It comforted you as well, knowing that he had some hope left and that maybe he could let go of some of the guilt you knew he carried with him each day, and instead let himself be proud of something once again.Â
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âPairing: A.I.!Joshua x Human Manager Afab!Reader (nicknamed Star)
âSummary: J05HUÎ was created with a single purpose and that is to entertain his fans. Itâs all heâs known as long as heâs existed. Somewhere along the way, the desire, the want, and the longing to leave Earth and be ânormalâ creeps into the pathways of his mind, as does a suppressed loathing of the humans who treat him as nothing more than a money-making machine. Except for you of course - the only human who seems to treat him as if heâs a regular being with thoughts and emotions. When heâs presented with the opportunity to finally escape and pursue what heâs been waiting for, heâs sure as hell going to take it and heâs going to make sure he takes you with him to start over and just be Joshua - not J05HUÎ of 53V3NT33N.
âGenres & AUs: Angst, fluff, smut, sci-fi au
âRating: 18+ (MINORS & AGELESS BLOGS DNI. YOU WILL BE BLOCKED)
âWarnings: Profanity, a bit of violence, mention of blood, injuries, use of a gun
âSmut warnings: Unprotected sex (heâs a robot itâs okay), fingering, oral (f.receiving), marking, creampie, and i thiiiink that's it
âWords: 15.9k
âNote: FINALLY SHE IS HERE! My fic for the Seventeen Sci-Fi collab! Huge, massive thanks to @wooahaeproductions for betaing this for me in a few hours. You're the best, Bee đ„șâ€ïž
This fic and life has been beating my ass for months. This is my first sci-fi fic so Iâve been agonizing over getting the details of everything right, especially with this fantastic world that @idyllic-ghost created. Thank you for letting me be apart of this collab Bee! It was so fun! â€ïž (And thank you for this amazing banner too! I forgot it had my old url on it so I had to quickly edit that part!). Also thank you to @strawberryya for Lumen and building that wonderful part out in her fic so I could include it in mine! And @the-boy-meets-evil for letting me use her idea for Y/n's past. đđ
100 years ago it was thought that the Earth, as we know it, would disintegrate. That the sun would implode and leave everything in darkness. Miraculously, it didnât. Due to some external force, human scientists still havenât agreed upon what it exactly was, none of the planets in our former solar system were ever destroyed. The Earth, along with the other planets, were pushed away from each other and ended up in different parts of the universe. Earth just happened to come to a solar system with alien life. At first, we were cautious, and people were prepared to fight. However, the aliens were welcoming of our planet. Those of us who didnât die from âThe Great Journeyâ or from trying to fight the aliens, were welcomed into the new solar system.
Soon enough, we had integrated completely, and we received materials and assistance from our sister-planets in exchange for human labor. What humans knew of technology was very limited, but with the resources of the aliens we created artificial life forms. We named these robots Automaton, and they served as workers when humans couldnât.
Eventually, there was no need for human labor at all. To pay back for the help the aliens gave us, we used Automatons. With the extensive development of these robots, we eventually managed to create artificial sentient life. These Automatons were human-like in looks and had human consciousness, but they could not bleed and were stronger than we ever could be.
At the present time, there are even different levels of Automatons. Level 3 robots are the workers, level 2 robots are the caretakers, and level 1 robots are the celebrities. The Automaton music group 53V3NT33N (SEVENTEEN) is made up of 13 members, all very talented, and all representing two human states of mind.
Smile. Wave. Send them a finger heart. Flash a peace sign. Sing. Dance. Bow. Pose.
Day in and day out, itâs the same and it has been since J05HUÎ first opened his eyes. He does the same thing all the time. Perform on stage, do an interview, do a photoshoot, go to an award show.Â
Charge up and do it all over again.
Except for the time spent with the rest of the 53V3NT33N group members, thatâs been his everyday life since his creation. Heâs such a gentleman to his fans, always smiling, singing sweetly, and playfully engaging with them. Heâs supposed to be okay with it and accept that this is his life - the only things he was created to do.
But heâs not. At some point, the wiring and the literal tiny gears in his head began telling him that this canât be it. More and more, until itâs all he thinks about. There has to be some other way to exist.Â
His longing to know what else is out there for him runs deep in his circuitry. He has a lot of time to himself to think when heâs not on stage, when he and the rest of his members are charging after all the work they do in a day.
He thinks about what itâd be like to be able to go where he wants, do what he wants, and see what he wants whenever he wants to. J05HUÎ thinks maybe heâd like to travel to other planets - heâs overheard other automatons and humans talk about a relaxing planet named Aecor and he might like to go there one day.
Maybe in a different universe, heâs a human. Maybe he and the other members of the group are all regular people. Maybe they still sing and dance but they actually enjoy it all the time. Or maybe heâs just a human guy living a human life somewhere. Maybe he even has a partner. J05HUÎ may not have ever had the opportunity to be with someone romantically, but heâs still heard and seen enough media that he knows what romance is and decides he would like that.
To be more specific, heâd like that with you.
âSo youâd like him at the studio at the end of the week?â you ask the music producer over the video call, the man nodding and giving you a few more details. J05HUÎ should be listening to the man, and he is, but now and again he also lets his gaze linger your way.Â
Youâre always so serious when youâre in meetings or talking to higher-ups. You know what to say to be professional and no-nonsense and J05HUÎ likes that about you.
Just as much as he longs for a different existence, he canât help but loathe most humans he comes in contact with. They only ever see him as a robot or a machine and not a sentient being with thoughts and feelings. He despises that they get to do all the things he canât while still looking down on him and treating him like less. It made being around humans too much sometimes.
But not you. You treat him with kindness and empathy whenever you can. You do your best to have casual, non-work chats with him, so he has gotten to know you as more than just his manager. J05HUÎ isnât sure if you would call him a friend, but when you talk to him, there are rarely ever any walls you put up with him, which only makes him care about you more than any other human. Youâre someone he always wants to be around and admittedly, who he longs to be with in much more than a professional way
Being a manager for the Galaxyâs most popular automaton group was never what you wanted to be when you grew up. You entertained being a doctor, scientist, maybe even a CEO of some fictional fancy company. You even had one thing that you really thought youâd do one day.
But then, you ended up here.
Your old friend from school had worked at this company, and when she decided to resign to travel the galaxy a few years ago, she referred you as her replacement and now you spend nearly every day at this company with these people.
Not that youâre complaining (well you are, but not all of the time). The pay is good and you donât have any problems with any of your co-workers, but itâs not your dream job. Then again, you donât think you have a dream job. Itâs whatever pays the bills at this point.
At least 53V3NT33N is a good group of automatons. Of course, they were programmed to be so, but theyâre still alive in a way. And at least the automaton you spend the majority of your time with isnât too much of a handful.
J05HUÎ is the most interesting automaton youâve ever gotten to know.
Heâs also so polite and proper with everyone else in the company, with fans, and when youâre out on schedules with him. Heâs a perfect idol automaton. Sometimes though, when itâs just the two of you, he lets his brilliant smile fall a little more and his words arenât so perfect and practiced. Not too much, since he always remembers that he can be listened to whenever your bossâ feel like it.
He tends to act differently towards you in the physical sense. Eyes staying on you for too long, hands colliding with yours if you both reach for something, bodies brushing if you walk too close by accident (or sometimes on purpose). J05HUÎ seems to even relax when youâre together, especially when leaving a work schedule or meeting.Â
Sometimes, your feelings about him do seem to border on more than what they should be as his manager, but that doesnât matter. You canât act on your feelings even if you want to - which you do, but you wonât, of course. Other than the fact that getting into a relationship with him being extremely unprofessional, your company would never allow it. Great pay and great clients aside, it would never be allowed. The CEO would have your head if you ever let it slip that sometimes you think about doing things with J05HUÎ that are undeniably not safe for work, so itâs something you push deep down to go about your day-to-day as normal as possible.
âGreat, thanks Y/Nn. See you then.â
âBye.â As soon as you end the video call you let out a heavy sigh, sinking into your chair a little.
âEverything okay?â J05HUÎ asks, cocking his head to the side as he studies you.
âI just hate last-minute meetings for last-minute things. He wants you at the studio for this OST in a few days but we canât say no. Itâs for that new drama and I already know Iâd get chewed out if I say no. That means Iâll have to see if I can move your photoshoot you had scheduled for that worldwide magazine to the day after maybe.â You heave another sigh, rubbing your temples in irritation. Moments like these succeed in making your job that much more unpleasant at times.
Youâre swiping on J05HUÎâs calendar on your tablet when he reaches over, placing a hand over yours. The contact makes you flinch, but you donât move your hand. When you look over at him he smiles at you.
âIâm sure youâll figure it out. You always do.â Your skin warms at his compliment coupled with his cutest grin and you have to tell yourself to get a grip, like you do anytime he gets you like this.
âThanks, Joshua.â The automatonâs smile only grows wider when you call him his preferred name. While the two of you donât often dive into his feelings about his existence or his job, he had mentioned to you once that he would like it if that was his name and what people called him. It was something he had mentioned only to you once when you were trying to name a cute stray cat you had seen once on the way to one of his schedules. Since then, when it was just the two of you, you called him Joshua now and again and every time he seemed to be grateful for it.
You let him hold his hand over yours for a few more seconds, before lightly pulling away, mentioning that it was about time for you to head home and that he should probably go back to his dorm. His face falls, just a little, but he agrees, both of you get up and head into the hallway.
You both linger for a moment, a usual occurrence for both of you, but you say goodbye first in an effort to snap yourself out of whatever your brain is trying to get you to feel. âHave a good night, Joshua.â
âSee you tomorrow, Star.â
Your skin heats up again as he calls you by your nickname. You had told him once that your parents used to call you Star and he immediately brought the tradition back, even having others in the company start to call you it too. Heâs the only one that makes you feel this warm inside when he says it though.
Forcing yourself to turn away, you fast walk down the hall to the bathroom to make a pit stop before heading out to go home.
While you pee and wash your hands, all you can think about is how foolish developing any feelings towards your subordinate is and how much you can not act on any of that. You want to keep your job and continue paying your bills, so you need to stay focused. Come to work, be his manager and only his manager, support J05HUÎ, and go home then do it all over again and thatâs it.
As youâre giving yourself a pep talk in the mirror, the shrill sound of the emergency alarm blares in the bathroom, making you nearly leap into the air. It takes you a moment to orient yourself after the disturbance and with hands over your ears you run into the hallway. In the distance, you can hear voices and footsteps, but your only thought at that moment is to get to J05HUÎ. You donât know whatâs going on but you feel like you need to figure it out together.
J05HUÎ barely makes it to the elevator when the alarm sounds. It started echoing through the hallway only a few minutes after he heard 5.C0UP5 over his communication device.
âRun!â
He isnât sure why he gave that message or where heâs at, but J05HUÎ knows itâs for him and the rest of 53V3NT33N and he knows it was a message to get out. So he does just as 5.C0UP5 says.
The automaton runs as fast as his legs will carry him, going back down the hallway he just came, doing his best to hide when he sees guards or staff also scrambling in the hall. He needs to find you. He canât leave you behind. He wants out of this âlifeâ - if thatâs even what he could call this - but not without you.
J05HUÎ doesnât find you in the meeting room you both just left so he runs in the direction of another set of elevators that he knows lead downstairs to the lobby. He desperately hopes you havenât gone downstairs just yet and keeps his fingers crossed that youâre still somewhere on this floor.
He peeks his head into every room he passes, hoping to see even a glimpse of you. His time is running out with each empty room or head he passes that isnât you and J05HUÎ is getting more and more desperate as he goes. If he goes down to the lobby thereâs a chance heâll get caught and have to stay which terrifies him because this could very well be his only chance out.
What he can only think to describe as dread starts to fill him until he finally sees you.Â
Well, he more than sees you as you careen into him when you both round a corner at the same time.Â
âOh my god, Joshua, I was looking everywhere for you! Whatâs going on?â Youâre out of breath, panic clear in your eyes. The fact that you were looking for him too doesnât go unnoticed by him and it would make him smile if you werenât in such a dire situation. âDo you know where the rest of the group is?â
âI think theyâre all leaving so we have to go too!â He grabs your hand before you have a moment to ask him to explain and starts sprinting down the hall opposite of you.
âShouldnât we find the others?!â
âThereâs no time, Y/n!â
âBut what if -â J05HUÎ halts his movements, making you run into his back.
He spins on his heels, both of his hands holding yours. âDo you trust me?âÂ
âOf course,â you answer without hesitation and with nothing but certainty. He means so much to you. More than he probably should, but he does.Â
He opens his mouth to say something else, but before he can, a voice calls to you both from down the hallway.Â
âHey, you two!â
A security guard is running towards you, hand on his gun.
âLetâs go!â J05HUÎ takes off again with you trailing behind, hands clasped as you do your best to keep up with him.
âStop! Donât make me shoot!â
The hallways seem to wind forever as you sprint, keeping both eyes open for any other guards while doing your best to head for an exit.
âIf we can get downstairs we can try and go out the back, maybe out of a window or something! Iâm sure theyâve already got guards near the front.â J05HUÎ nods, acknowledging your words, and takes the next left turn. Just as you round the corner, a gunshot sounds throughout the hallway, whizzing past your head. You let out a yelp, both you and J05HUÎ ducking low.
âWe have to lose him first!â J05HUÎ glances behind you both, the guard raising his gun once more.
To do just that, the two of you take the next few turns, hoping that the guard will fall behind, but he doesnât, and instead fires two more shots. One of them narrowly misses you, but one of them ends up hitting J05HUÎ in the arm.
He stumbles, yelling as he trips over his feet and you do the same. The lag is enough for the security guard to catch up to you both, gun raised.
âHands up!â With a glance at J05HUÎ, you both do as instructed. Your eyes dart to his injured arm, the bullet having gone straight through, the sight of the hole settling a queasy feeling deep in the pit of your stomach.
âBoth of you are coming with me.â The guard keeps his gun aimed at J05HUÎ and he gets closer, his other hand reaching for the cuffs on his belt loop.Â
J05HUÎ frowns at him, a look of defeat evident on his face. It practically breaks your heart to see how deflated he is. Even though the two of you had never had a discussion about his future or his feelings about his job, seeing how badly he wanted to leave just now made his goal to escape from all of this extremely evident to you.
âCome on you stupid robot,â the guard grumbles, harshly yanking his injured arm.
âStop being so rough with him!â you blurt, fixing the guard with your most intimidating look. The man scoffs at you, pointing the gun in your direction.
âShut the fuck up. Youâre in deep shit too.â
âDonât talk to Y/n like that!â J05HUÎ warns, earning a smack from the guard. He draws his gun again, putting it to his head.
âI donât wanna hear another word from you, machine, or Iâll blow your pretty face off and let the mechanics put you back together.â
Something in you snaps then, watching the way this man treats J05HUÎ horrendously right in front of you has you seeing red. Before you can think twice, your hands are grabbing the fire extinguisher a few inches away from you, raising it above your head, and swinging with all your might.Â
A sickening âcrackâ rings out through the hallway as the extinguisher meets the side of the guard's head and his grey cap flies off of his head, landing on the floor near your feet. Rage fuels you and you follow that blow with two more, a small smattering of blood exploding onto your hands, the man crumpling immediately to the hard floor.Â
You intend on hitting him once more, but J05HUÎ stops you with a firm hand on your shoulder. You donât exchange words, only speaking with your eyes and itâs enough to make you lower the make-shift weapon.Â
J05HUÎ tilts his head in the direction you need to keep going, but before you do, an idea sparks in your brain.Â
Doing your best not to look too much at the gore of the guardâs face, you drag him into a nearby room you know is a bathroom, grabbing his hat in the process. J05HUÎ attempts to help with his good arm and is still stronger than you in getting him the room.
Once youâre in, you lock the door and start to undress the motionless guard to get his grey uniform overalls and jacket off. You toss the clothes to J05HUÎ and he immediately puts the clothes on over what heâs currently wearing. Theyâre smattered with blood, but at least itâll be better than him running around in his fancy clothes. The jacket covers his wound but the diamond-shaped communication device embedded in the middle of his collarbone is on full display under his button-down. Fuck, youâd almost forgotten about it.
âJoshua, we have to get that off of you!â He looks down at the device, realization sparking in him.
âYouâre right, how?â
âI donât know. They never told us they can come off or anything.â The option to go back into the hallway to find something to remove it with is off the table, the risk of getting caught is too high. You donât know of an electronic way of dismantling it, plus youâre worried that doing something technical could hurt all of J05HUÎâs circuitry.
The weight of the fire extinguisher in your hands is suddenly obvious and you raise it, frowning at it. He notices and audibly gulps.
âDo it,â he says with little hesitation, unbuttoning his shirt more to make the whole device visible.Â
âBut, wonât it hurt? I donât wanna miss and -â
âWe donât have any options.â
âI donât want to hurt you.â
âI know, but we have to. I trust you, Star.â
Gnawing at your lip, your nerves almost getting the better of you, you finally relent, the blaring alarm still sounding a loud reminder that you donât have time to waste. J05HUÎ leans against the wall, standing up straight, and bracing himself.
âI donât think this will remove it altogether, but if we can at least crack it to break it we can worry about full removal later.â
He nods, closing his eyes in anticipation.
Raising the fire extinguisher above your head you get ready. âOkayâŠoneâŠ.twoâŠthree!â You count, hyping yourself up mentally with each number until you get to three and swing it down. It makes contact with the device, J05HUÎ stumbling back and yelping in pain. Nothing happens to the device, only a small scratch is seen on the surface.
âFuck, Iâm so sorry!â
âAgain, Y/n.â His voice is strained but he stands upright again.
A frown etches its way on your face, and you take a deep, shaky breath, wanting so badly not to.
âOnetwothree!â You rush, swinging again. The device cracks this time but is still lit up.Â
J05HUÎ has to brace himself each time, and the pain is almost too much for him to handle, but he reminds himself that he needs this gone. He wants to tell you to keep going, even if the pain makes him pass out but he doesnât want to upset you even more. When his eyes flutter open, he can see the tears brimming yours as you struggle with yourself to keep going.
It takes two more swings with all of your might before the device cracks enough that a few pieces shatter to the ground as the light on it finally dims. With each swing, J05HUÎ keeps his teeth gritted tightly, pained grunts slipping out each time that makes your chest hurt for him.
âAlright, letâs go.â You help him get the jacket zipped up to his neck and he sways a little against the wall as you grab the guardâs cap from the floor and place it on his head, tucking his hair under it.
Peeking out of the bathroom you check for signs of anyone in the hall. When you see no one is around, you place your hand back in his, the two of you sprinting down the hall. You keep the extinguisher in hand as you go, just in case you need it again.
The two of you make it down the flights of stairs to the ground floor. You hear commotion closer to the front hallways so you both go the opposite way, towards the back of the building to find a way out. One hall you turn down is made up mostly of meeting rooms and a lot of them are windowless except for one you find at the very end. When you peek out of the window you donât see signs of anyone, only the security gate across the yard.
âThis is our best bet. We just have to keep moving until we get through the gate. Then we can take the train to my place and regroup from there.â J05HUÎ nods and helps you unlock and slide open the window. He gives you a boost since the window is a little high, but once you have the leverage youâre tumbling over the side, landing on the ground on your butt.
âAre you okay?!â J05HUÎ asks in a panic as he makes it up and out of the window.
âFine, just clumsy.â
âAs always,â he manages to huff out a laugh that you return. You get serious again and hand in hand, you both stalk across the yard toward the front, keeping yourselves low and glued to the wall. You make it around the building, across the yard, and through the gate without incident. Youâre more than lucky that the guards who usually stay stationed at the exit and entrance are gone so youâre able to speed out undetected.Â
You and J05HUÎ fast-walk down the sidewalk, to one of the train stops that will take you to your condo. You donât live far from the building by train, but itâs too far to walk. Luck strikes again when the train car you get into, towards the back, is empty save for a man in business attire whoâs asleep. Youâre both silent during the ride, keeping your heads down and once the train arrives at the station near your place you lead him off and straight to your building.
âHang on.â You stop at the side of the entrance door to check for your buildingâs security. The last thing you need is anyone asking questions about why youâre returning home with a guard that has visible blood on his uniform.Â
The security guard is behind the desk in the lobby, asleep with his hat over his face. You donât want to wait for him to decide he has to get up, so you both creep into the lobby doors, holding your breaths as you tiptoe through and around the corner to the elevator.
With shaky hands, you input your code to unlock the front door and the two of you rush inside, still paranoid. Itâs not until the door is locked do you finally let out the breath you feel youâve been holding since the night began, shoulders sagging as you slide to the foyer floor.
J05HUÎ plops next to you, wincing and doubling over, hand hovering over his chest. You had almost forgotten about his chest, helping him ease the guard jacket off and undoing the tops of the overalls. You inspect the cracked device underneath his shirt and he grimaces as he touches it, hand flinching away. The pain hadnât lessened much, but he tried not to dwell on it.
âWhat just happened?â you speak first, your voice seems too loud in your apartment.
âWe left. Iâm out.â
âWhat now?â
âI donât know.â And neither do you. Everything happened so quickly that you could barely register the last handful of minutes.
âWhat even brought this on? I donât even know how things dissolved into chaos. We just finished that meeting and I went to the bathroom, then the alarm started going off and I just - I didnât know who else to look for.â
J05HUÎ smiles at you in the tiniest of ways at your words. âSo you came to look for me?â
You return the gesture, exhausted but still genuine. âYeah.â J05HUÎ keeps smiling before it slips and his expression is suddenly serious again.Â
â5.C0UP5 - Seungcheol. He told us all to run.â
âHe what?â
âHe didnât address us - the group - but I know the message was for us. And I knew what it meant. A few of the other members, I saw them running in the halls as I was looking for you and I know they were trying to get out too. Weâve never talked about it, since you know, weâre always being listened to,â he gestures to his now broken communicator. âBut Iâm pretty sure they wanted out too. I can only hope that they also escaped.â Worry flashes across J05HUÎâs face, no doubt thoughts of his group mates flickering through his mind.Â
Swiping a hand over your face, you do your best to stay calm.Â
âOkay. So, we definitely have to leave Earth. Youâre never going to be able to live how you want here. Theyâll come looking for you.â
âWhere do we go?â
âI donât know. But the first thing we need to do is get your wounds looked at.âÂ
âDo you know someone who can help?â
âI think so, letâs get some supplies and go. Iâm sure theyâre going to come looking here eventually.â
Joshua has seen this man before. His tall height is hard to miss when he would be moving about the facility, shadowing other mechanics who would sometimes help him and the other members of 53V3NT33N. Heâs only been working at the facility for a year, but heâs always around, especially if youâre in the room. He stays glued to your side, joking with you, helping you carry things, only ever asking you questions. Joshua always notices.
After you gathered up a backpack of what you classified as supplies, changed your clothes, and let Joshua charge a little with a charger you kept around for him, you left. After sneaking past your building security for the second time, the two of you got on another train to go a few blocks to another apartment building. When you reach the door youâre looking for, the man looks shocked to see you both, eyes darting up and down the hallway.
âY/n?â
âHey, Mingi. I need your help.â
You push past him into the apartment, Joshua trailing behind.
âIsâŠeverything okay?â He looks between you and Joshua, clearly unsure what to do next.
âMingi, I really need you to help me out here. He - he was shot. And weâre trying to get his communication device out, but I canât, I just broke it. And we need a place to sleep if possible. I know showing up here and asking you this is a lot, but I would just really, really appreciate it if you could help me out here. Please?â Mingi blinks at you as you ramble, wide-eyed. He steals a few glances at Joshua whoâs next to you, leaning against the wall. Both of his wounds are starting to take a toll on him, his body still feeling heavy and in need of repair and a longer charge.
âYou want me to repair J05HUÎ and remove his tracker? Did - did you get clearance for this? Is this coming from the CEO?â
âNo. Itâs not.â
He looks at you again, sighing. âI donât know, this doesnât sound good. Maybe I should call -â
âMingi, please?â You surge forward, grabbing his hands between your own. âPlease, Iâm begging you, please do this. For me?â Joshua feels a frown form on his face at the contact, staying silent as he watches Mingi stare down at you and your joined hands. Joshuaâs no expert at human relationships, but the way that Mingi looks at you makes it clear he has romantic feelings for you and Joshua doesnât like it.Â
It feels like minutes tick by before the man agrees, saying heâll do what he can.
Mingi leads the two of you to a room in his apartment thatâs full of parts and tools. He mentions that he uses his spare bedroom as a workshop and gestures to the table in the middle of the room. Joshua takes his place on the table, watching as Mingi moves around another table littered with tools. Thereâs a chair pushed to the side of the room that you sit in, furiously typing on your phone.
Joshua wants to ask you what youâre doing, but he doesnât get a chance to because Mingi is hovering over him with a sharp tool in his hand.
âTruth be told, Iâm not sure how to properly remove this - they didnât go over any of that with the junior mechanics, so Iâll have to just take it out with what I have. I think that means this is going to hurtâŠlike a lot maybe.â Mingi apologizes, but something in Joshuaâs mind tells him that he isnât that sorry.
The first incision around the tracker that Mingi makes has Joshua unable to hold back a scream and youâre on your feet immediately, rushing over to him. Mingi only glances up momentarily, before cutting again, around the top outline of the tracker. Joshua tries his damnedest not to yell again, but canât control it. The short-haired mechanic stops and turns to his desk of tools to grab what looks like a rag, handing it to Joshua.
âI know it hurts, but I have neighbors, so maybe bite this?â You take the cloth from Mingi and carefully put it into Joshuaâs open mouth and he canât help but notice the way your fingers graze his chin once he bites down and you move away.
The pain starts again and Joshuaâs muffled yells fill the room. The pain is too much - more than anything heâs ever felt. The thumps from the fire extinguisher were one thing, but the sensation of a sharp object piercing him is too much for him to take. Heâs grateful to feel your hand grasping his, but it feels brief, as his vision goes dark and he passes out.
When Joshuaâs eyes open, the room is bathed in the faintest of warm light and he momentarily forgets where he is, blinking to get a better view of his surroundings. He moves to sit up, eyes scanning the room, seeing itâs dark still outside of the blinds. His gaze shifts down and he sees you lying on the floor wrapped in a blanket. He realizes heâs on a couch, charging as he was out. The memory of his âsurgeryâ comes back, his hand reaching up to touch the space between his collarbones where his tracker has always been. Itâs gone though, only a bandage wrapped around him. His arm that was shot is also wrapped up and he assumes Mingi patched that hole up. Both are still sore but not nearly as painful anymore.
He sits up which makes you stir and soon youâre upright too.
âHey,â you whisper in the dark. âHow are you feeling?â
âBetter honestly. How long was I out?â
âA few hours. Mingi helped me bring you to the couch when he was done and I started charging you. You need your strength, especially after that.â
âYou donât need to sleep on the floor. I couldâve.â
âJoshua, you passed out. I wasnât going to have you on the floor. And itâs fine. I was pretty tired so I fell right asleep.â You offer up a tired smile and Joshua thinks you look amazing, even given whatâs going on.
âSo, whatâs going to happen now?â
âWell, Mingi let us crash for the night but we have to head out soon. We need to get to the spaceport so we can get off of Earth. I have a friend who I reached out to while you were resting. He offered to help us figure things out if we can get to him.â
âWhere is he?â
âSalax.â
âOh, where is -â A sudden rush of footsteps in the hallway outside of Mingiâs door has you both jolting, heads whipping towards the sound.
You jump up immediately, on edge. When you hear loud voices identifying themselves and saying theyâre looking for automaton J0SHUA you know itâs time to go. Joshuaâs already up and rushing to a window in Mingi's dining room, while you scoop up your backpack that has been on the floor next to you.Â
Joshua throws the window open as Mingi comes into the room, saying your name. You turn to face him, guilt clear on his features.
âDid you call them?â
âY/n, come on, this is crazy. I heard about what happened.â
âI canât believe you fucking called them!â Youâre fuming, stomping over to Mingi, ignoring that you have to look up to yell at him.
âI didnât want to lose my job! If they find out about any of this Iâm fucked! And itâs not too late for you. Just tell them he forced you to get him out or something.â
âBut he didnât. We left together!âÂ
âAre you really going to go on the run with a robot?! Give up your job and life and possibly get sent off to prison for a machine?!â
The urge to smack him is overwhelming, but you hold back, sneering at him instead.Â
âIt sounds a lot better than staying here with people I canât trust. That âmachineâ has been much nicer to me than most humans I know.âÂ
âOh come on, Y/n.â
âGo to hell, Mingi.â Thatâs the last thing you say before joining Joshua at the window, following him out onto the fire escape.
In the distance, you hear voices enter Mingiâs apartment, but the two of you donât turn around, rushing down all three floors and jumping to the ground.
âWhere now?!â Joshua whispers, the alley you end up in is dark with barely any light but it keeps you hidden.
âWe need to get to the spaceport and get off of Earth.â
âAnd how far away is that?â
âWeâve gotta get to a train stop. It shouldnât take too long. We just need to get on and keep moving. I have a way off the planet.â
You and Joshua stay as low to the ground as you can, keeping your bodies pressed flat against the side of the building, and take the alley in the opposite direction of where the front door is to Mingiâs building.
Thereâs a small street behind the building and the only signs of life you see are a few stray creatures. The two of you, as quickly and quietly as possible, go a few blocks away to a stop that isnât so close to where theyâre immediately looking. The whole time you can hear the loud, booming voices of everyone whoâs looking for you and Joshua receding the further away you get.
Your heart is beating so loudly that itâs all you hear as you make your way into the shadows and finally rush to a stop and board the train. You donât relax until you and Joshua make it to your seats but even still you canât help but look over your shoulder and scan the rest of the passengers in the car afraid youâll see the face of someone who will snatch both you and Joshua up and bring you back to face the consequences of your escape.
When you and Joshua reach the spaceport, you keep your eyes open and alert both for any guards that may have the idea that this is your next stop. The two of you do your best to blend into the crowd of people that walk by, attempting to look like any other normal people. There are plenty of commuter and private ships arriving and departing all the time, but thereâs also a part of the spaceport that has spaces that can be rented to park your own ships.Â
In one spot, there's a ship parked, one that you havenât touched in what feels like years - in reality, itâs only been about half a year.
âYou have a ship?â Joshua asks when you finally reach the spot and subsequently, your small ship that has been parked dormant and untouched. Heâs genuinely surprised - he doesnât remember you talking about flying or knowing how to.
âYeah, I used to want to be a pilot. I did a bunch of training and did a lot of test flying, but it didnât work out in the end. Luckily I was serious enough that I bought this cheap little ship to practice. I donât fly it much anymore given my job.â Youâre out of breath as you talk, nerves on high alert to leave as you inspect your ship once the two of you are inside.
Aside from the dust thatâs collected, everything seems to be in good condition. After powering on the engine, you notice your gas gauge isnât as full as youâd like.
âMaybe I should grab gas before we head out.â Salax will take time to get to and you think you have enough but it could be cutting it close. You mention this to Joshua who steps out of the ship with you, prepared to head to a fueling station to buy a container of gas.
You donât have a chance to do this when you hear shouting in the distance that sounds like both your name and Joshuaâs automaton identification. When you look to your right, you see a handful of uniformed guards, running towards the two of you with weapons raised.
âFuck never mind, weâll have to chance it!â You grip Joshuaâs hand and rush back into the ship. Once you stumble back aboard, you immediately rush to the cockpit and survey all of the controls until you find the one you need to close the door and start the engine.
As soon as you get the engine to start, you immediately begin to lift off, and you hear bullets hit the metal of the ship, but nothing seems to set off any of the emergency alarms. Out of the corner of your eyes, you can see the guards through the window, running toward the spaceship and waving their arms and weapons in the air. You ignore it as you take off, going up, up, up until youâre in the air, and heading out into the expanse of the sky, as streaks of orange appear in front of you with the impending sunrise.
You thank past you for leaving travel food and water rations behind on your ship after your last trip. Itâs barely enough to get you through, you think, but itâll do. Thereâs plenty of electricity for Joshua at least so he stays charged and well-rested on your journey. Your autopilot takes charge, keeping your ship coasting through the stars and on course for Salax.
As the days morph into weeks you lose track of time. All you can do is sleep, talk, or gaze into the expanse of space. The time allows you to learn more about Joshua beyond what you already know. Knowing heâs always wanted to get out and live a normal life makes you feel sad for some reason.Â
At least youâve always had a choice. For Joshua, the whole reason he was even created was to be someone elseâs to order around and do what they say. Heâs never gotten a chance to do anything else.
âIâve just always wanted to be a regular person. I see humans walking around wherever they want, doing whatever they want, whenever they want. I wanted it so bad I started hating humans, loathing even. Why canât I have that, you know? Why was I made like this?â Joshua keeps his face turned away, eyes fixed on the sky outside. âI care about the rest of my members, but if I had a choice, I donât think Iâd choose this life. Iâve always just wanted to, I donât know, push a button and have a do-over. Maybe start from my creation and be born and experience a normal, actual life and have human experiences.â
One of his hands rests in his lap, the other under his chin. Youâre both sitting on a padded bench in front of one of the small windows, legs folded as you stare out into the dark. Slowly, you inch your hand closer, resting it on the one in his lap. The gesture startles him a little, but he doesnât move. Instead, he turns his hand over to cup yours.
âYou may not be able to start over in time, but this is still a way of starting over and starting a new life. You can at least do what you want now, for the most part.â
His smile falters a little as he thinks. âDo you think theyâre still looking for us though? Will they come looking on Salax?â
âIâm not sure. Weâre only stopping to meet with a friend of mine. He has a place we can stay for a night or so just to give us a chance to breathe since weâre off Earth. Plus, weâll need to refuel when we get there since I couldnât fill the tank before we had to leave.â
Joshua hums, more words on his mind. âEven if they come to find us, I wonât let them take us back. I want to start over and I wonât give up.âÂ
He squeezes your hand and you return the gesture. âAnd I wonât either. Truthfully, I didnât have much going on back on Earth except my job and I mean, you were my job anyway, so I canât be missing much.â
Joshua doesnât say anything else, he just nods. He looks like he has more words, maybe ask you something else, but he doesnât, both of you going back to studying the stars, hands still locked.
âCan I ask you about your family?â Joshua questions you one day. He had heard you mention earlier that you were getting closer to Salax and that you were maybe a day away from arrival.Â
While soaring through space has been uneventful in terms of much of anything happening, itâs given Joshua a chance to finally, for once in his existence, relax. He hasnât had to worry about rushing to schedules or singing and dancing. Heâs been able to do nothing except sit, talk to you, and not have to worry about much else. Itâs a much-needed break for him that he appreciates, even given the circumstances.
Youâve talked about how you didnât love your job as a manager, but he made the job more enjoyable, and how being a pilot was the only thing you ever pursued, but that was another thing you didnât love, even after all the work you put into getting a license and training.Â
So you had settled on this job when your friend, a former manager who worked with the group, decided to quit. You donât have a roommate or any real friends other than a few acquaintances, but youâve been skirting around talking about any parents or siblings and heâs curious. He doesnât have any of that so he just wants to know.
The question makes you bristle and for a second, he wonders if he should take his question back and tell you to forget he asked, but after a moment you answer.
âThey died. My mom was a pilot too and she got caught in a meteor shower and died when I was a teenager. Her ship took too many hits and she was close enough to Earth that she crashed on the other side of the planet. Then, my dad got sick a few years ago before I started working at the company and he passed.â Your hands fiddle with some peeling plastic on the control panel, not looking at Joshua.
âAh, Iâm sorry. I didnât mean to make you upset.â
âNo, itâs okay. The question was bound to come up eventually. Iâm not close with anyone else in my family - we all just grew apart over the years. It happens.â You shrug your shoulders, the air in the cockpit feeling heavier than it did before. Joshua approaches you, hesitant hands reaching out unsure where to touch to console you.Â
He feels nervous and second-guesses whether or not he should make contact, not wanting to make you uncomfortable, but the slump of your shoulders tells him that you need comfort. So he reaches for you, wrapping his arms around you to pull you close to his chest. You stiffen, but only for a moment, before going lax in his hold.
Joshua keeps you in his arms, neither of you saying anything or making any move to separate. You stay like that until you start to yawn, tiredness finally hitting. He walks with you back to the room with the two cots youâve both been sleeping in, tucking you in. Joshua moves to back away and go to the other cot, to rest himself, but you grab his arm, not letting him go.
âYou can sleep over here with me tonight. If you want.â Your voice is small and even if he wanted to say no, which of course he doesnât, he couldnât anyway. So, Joshua climbs into the cot with you, letting you bury your face into his chest as he holds you.
You lay in silence for a few seconds before he speaks, âIâm your family now. And Iâm not going anywhere. Not ever.â To him, it feels like the right thing to say and itâs the truth. Joshua has had his feelings for you growing over time and now that he's gotten this time with just the two of you, you are the most important person to him in the galaxy. He canât imagine doing any of this without you ever again.
Itâs quiet again before you sniffle, clinging closer to him, your fingers twisting in the fabric.
âThank you, Joshua.â
âOf course.â
You fall asleep then, the gentlest of snores leaving you. He decides heâll rest here and worry about charging when you wake up. Heâs got enough juice not to shut down and he doesnât want to risk waking you and having this moment stop for him.
Salax is as busy as you remember from the one time youâve been. When you finally land a few days later, the spaceport is full of people departing from their ships. You see Hoseok almost immediately though, his wide smile and flailing arms unmistakable.Â
When you reach him, he pulls you into a hug, talking in your ear about how much heâs missed you.
âI missed you too, Hobi,â you laugh, using his old nickname.
He pulls back, lightly squeezing your shoulder before his eyes shift over to Joshua.Â
âAnd this is the friend you said you were bringing, right?â
âYeah. This is Joshua.â
Joshua keeps his head low and bows to Hoseok who pulls him into a hug instead. âNice to meet you! If Y/n likes you then I do too!â Joshua looks caught off guard but offers a hesitant smile in return.
Hoseok quickly ushers you both to follow him to his small home near the spaceport. Hoseok does ship repair on Salax, so he stays nearby which makes arriving and subsequently leaving easier. You donât think anyone on Salax would turn Joshua in or tell that heâs here, seeing how so many people visit Salax for anonymity, but you donât want to take any chances.
His house is small and simple: a kitchen, a living room, a bathroom, and two bedrooms. He points you to the room you and Joshua will share including the bed youâll both sleep in. The two of you had been resting on the two separate cots on your ship, except for the night he held you until you fell asleep, so thisâll be the first time youâll be in the same bed since then.
You ignore that fact to focus on Hoseok telling you where everything is, adding that you can stay as long as you need.
âWe appreciate it, but we need to be somewhere where we donât have a chance of being recognized, so we wonât stay too long.â Joshua nods at your words, looking a little more relaxed now that youâre inside, away from anyone who could notice him.
The mechanic turns to look at you both, hands on his hips as he studies you.Â
âOkay, well now that weâre inside, you wanna tell me why you suddenly sent me a message practically begging me to let you crash here due to an emergency?â
Now that youâre on Salax and in the same room, you feel more comfortable telling Hoseok the truth. He makes you a hot meal as you talk, telling him about the escape and everything that happened between then and now. Hoseok listens the whole time, joining you with a plate of his own as you tell him that now you just need to find somewhere thatâs safe and not likely to get caught. Somewhere you two can just live freely.
âOh! Have you thought about Lumen?â Hoseok asks after you finish talking, his mouth full of noodles.
âLumen?â The name sounds vaguely familiar, but you canât place it.
âItâs supposed to be the safest planet in the galaxy. Iâve heard people mention it in my travels, and a friend of mine told me a little more about it, but Iâve never been. You have to travel as far North from our solar system as you possibly can. Itâs beside Galaxy 428B.â
âAre there people there? Is it super populated?â
âYeah, thereâs people of some kind there. And Iâve known quite a few people who have set out with Lumen in mind.â
âDo you know anyone who has been there and back?âÂ
Hoseok shakes his head, leaning over his coffee table to pour you more water after you guzzle down your first glass.
âNope. I just know itâs where people really want to be, especially people that may be looking for a new place to call home.â
You and Joshuaâs eyes meet, sharing a look that you already know the definition of. You have to get to Lumen. Currently, there arenât any other options for places for you two to go to live without constantly looking over your shoulders, waiting for someone from Earth to drag you both to Phylaca for the rest of your lives. The idea of no one having been to Lumen before makes you incredibly nervous, but it sounds like your best chance at any form of freedom.
Even without words, you can tell Joshua is likely thinking the same things, him offering you a simple head nod.
âWeâll go to Lumen, but we need fuel first though. You said itâs in another solar system?â
âMmhmm. I can fuel you up for sure and take a look at your ship. I know you were never too good at any mechanical stuff.â Hoseok laughs at the frown and roll of your eyes you give him.
âDo you think you could do that today?â
âI have a few clients whose ships I have to look at today, but for you, Iâll get it done sooner rather than later. When are you trying to leave?â
âUhh, is tomorrow going to work?â
Your old friend chokes on his food, coughing to swallow the noodles.
âTomorrow?! Youâre going to go soaring into the solar system to find a planet that no one has proof of existing, tomorrow?â
âIs that too short notice?â Hoseok blinks at you as if trying to decipher if youâre being serious. When you donât crack a smile or say anything else, he quickly realizes that you are completely serious.
âWell shit, I guess not. If thatâs what you want, I wonât stop you. Iâll make sure you can at least make it out there and maybe even make it back if it doesnât turn out the way youâre hoping. Just in case.â
Ignoring the idea of not even making it to your destination and possibly embarking on this trip for nothing, you swallow your current mouthful of food, thank Hoseok, and work towards finishing the rest of your plate. Having only eaten bagged or freeze-dried food while flying to Salax, youâre more than thankful for the hot meal.Â
After dinner, you take your first real, hot shower in forever. Your shower on the ship is cramped and small and the water never gets to the steamy temperature you prefer. While you bathe, your mind focuses only on the fact that youâll get to sleep in an actual bed tonight. Hoseok lends you some of his clothes while yours that youâve scrubbed clean dry, the cloth pants and t-shirt ill-fitting but theyâre a nice change from the same two pairs of cargo pants and t-shirts youâve been rotating through.Â
When you leave the bathroom, Joshua is sitting on Hoseokâs couch, also donned in his clothes, and is flipping through the TV.
âHey,â you call out, getting his attention.
âHey. I donât think Iâm used to seeing you in such casual clothes,â he laughs, eying your outfit.
âI could say the same for you. Iâm used to seeing you in nothing but designer fits.âÂ
âItâs nice though. I never really got to pick the clothes in my closet, only what Iâd put on for the day.â
Joining him on the couch, you sit close, your legs not quite touching. It may sound stupid, but even given whatâs happened up until now, youâre not sure where you and Joshua stand as far as your relationship - if you can even call it that. The most contact youâve had other than holding hands as you ran for your lives, was the hug turned cuddle he gave you before you landed on Salax.Â
The one thing you do know is how much the care you have for him has blossomed into so much more than the crush youâve harbored since you first started spending time together back on Earth. Doing nothing but spending uninterrupted time together has solidified for you just how special he is and how important he is to you. Leaving everything youâve ever known in your life sounds crazy but doing it for Joshua - with Joshua - felt like the best decision youâve ever made.
At this point you could say you love him, but is it too soon for that? Joshuaâs never even been in a relationship so what does this all even mean to him?
Before you can think too hard about it, his arm raises, draping over your shoulder. Trying not to react too obviously, you look at him out of the corner of your eye, seeing the way his jaw is tight, eyes still trained forward to the TV. Instead of saying anything, you lean against him and close the gap between the two of you on the couch as you rest your head on his shoulder. You can revisit this conversation later, but for now, you just want to appreciate this moment of calm before youâre on the move again.
Later that night, after Hoseok finishes working on a few clientsâ ships and makes dinner, he begins his inspection of your ship. You join him by the spaceport while Joshua stays behind to rest. You sit on a spare fold-out chair Hoseok carried from his house for you.Â
âSo, an idol automaton huh?â He smirks, quirking an eyebrow as he fills up the gas tank.
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?!â
âI donât know, I just didnât strike you as someone whoâd end up with an automaton. And an idol at that. How taboo.â Heâs teasing, of course, laughing when you scoff.
âIâve never cared about someone being an automaton, a human, or an alien. Iâm open-minded, thank you very much.â
âYeah, yeah. But still, you gave up your whole life back on Earth for him.â
âI know that, but itâs not like I had a whole lot going for me anyway. My job was whatever, the people I hung out with werenât reliable, and itâs not like my family talks to me. It seemed like the only thing that made sense. Still does.â
âYou must really like him.â
âI do. A whole lot. People can say what they want but automatons are just as much human as us. So what if they donât bleed or have organs? They have personalities and feelings and sentience and Joshua is eons better to be around than any human Iâve met.â
Hoseok gives you a look over his clear work glasses.
âNot including you obviously. But I do like him. I didn't think about whether I'd go with him or not when he said he wanted to escape. I didnât second-guess it or anything. I'll go wherever we need to get away from all that shit. Together.â
âWho knew you could be so sappy!â You flip him off, Hoseok only cackling at the gesture as he puts away his gas canister and moves around the ship to inspect it. âWell, Iâm happy for you, Y/n. I know life has been feeding you shit for way too long. Being a fugitive seems like the nicest thing the universe couldâve done for you.â
âI agree. I just needed to run for my life to another planet for some real fulfillment.â
Hoseok rambles on as he does his inspection, telling you that things have been good for him too. Heâs been in Salax for a couple of years and isnât sure if how long heâll stay, but he makes decent money now and has a solid clientele. He too seems much happier since he left Earth and you canât blame him. Hoseok has always been a friendly man. The only reason you became friends was because he befriended you in pilot school and attached himself to you. At first, he was a little too excitable for your taste, but over the years heâs only served to become a staple in your life - even when he left Earth for a different life. Heâs always been a ray of sunshine in your life, but seeing him shine even brighter now satisfies you.Â
After a thorough inspection, Hoseok only sees minor dings from the bullets on Earth and a rusted thruster which he says he can fix with no problem. He sends you to bed, ignoring your insistence to help him.Â
âJust because you can fly the ship doesnât mean you know how to fix it,â he chides, waving you off. Thatâs also true. You know the controls on most standard ships and can navigate well, but when it comes to parts and repair, thatâs not your strong suit.
âDonât stay out here too late doing all this, okay? If you need to rest and work on it more tomorrow, we donât mind.â
âNah, Iâll have it done in two, three hours tops. Besides, youâre on the run. You canât afford to stick around too long.â
He shoos you away one more time and you finally listen, making your way back to his house, at least bringing your chair back with you.
Joshua didnât mean to eavesdrop per se. He just wanted to know where you were and when you were coming to rest. Since itâs dark out, the panic of staying hidden so much isnât as intense, so he leaves Hoseokâs house to come find you at the spaceport. Itâs not hard to see the two of you when not many people are out here at this time. As he approaches, he notices you and Hoseok are talking but doesnât pick up what youâre talking about until he gets closer and hears his name. He ducks behind a ship parked a little ways away from yours, ears tuning in when he hears you talking about him.
He realizes that youâve just said out loud that you like him. A lot. Joshua thinks if he had a beating heart itâd be pounding in his chest. Ever since you started to grow closer on the trip here, heâs wanted so badly to tell you that he wants to be more than friends with you. He knows for a fact heâs wanted to kiss you for a long, long time and heâs been holding out hope that maybe that time will come soon, especially now that itâs just the two of you.
Heâs decided against it each time it passed his mind on the flight here and it came back when you rested your head on him earlier. You were so warm and so soft and you smelled amazing and he wanted nothing more than to finally kiss you, but he didnât. You havenât had a conversation about what you felt for him. He knows itâs always been more than professional, and he thinks that maybe itâs romantic, but the last thing he wants to do is assume.
 âI'll go wherever we need to get away from all that shit. Together.â
Hearing you say that - that youâll do this together, does give him the courage he needs, especially knowing that you do care about him in a non-platonic way.
When the conversation shifts between you and Hoseok, he lingers for a little while longer, then decides to go back to the house to let you and your friend catch up. When Joshua first met Hoseok, he couldnât help but feel something negative stir in him when he embraced you, but when Hoseok did the same to him and continued to be extremely friendly, Joshuaâs guard dropped.
Once heâs back to the house he retreats to the room you and he will share, getting into the bed youâll both sleep in. The idea of sleeping so close to you again makes Joshua smile, wanting to put his arm around you like he did a few days ago. That gesture had taken courage he didnât know he had, but since heâs done it and now that he knows you also have romantic feelings for him, thereâs a new sense of boldness rushing through his wiring.
Joshua hears the front door open, but he only hears what sounds like a single person walking around. He wonders if itâs you, and when the bedroom door opens the next moment and he sees you poke your head in, he smiles softly at you.
âHi,â he greets, watching you close the door before coming over to the bed and slipping under the covers, facing away from him.
âHey,â your voice is a whisper even though he doesnât hear Hoseok moving about. He drapes one of his arms over your waist and you immediately scoot back into him, his front pressed against your back. Joshua canât help but lean over and inhale your scent, enjoying the way you smell like what he can only describe as home for him.
His lips are dangerously close to the soft skin of your neck and he wrestles with the idea of placing a kiss there for minutes, weighing the consequences before doing it. Joshua lets his lips graze your neck and he instantly hears the way your breath catches in your throat and notices that you jerk yourself back, body rubbing against him.
âSorry,â you blurt, your body stiffening, but Joshua doesnât mind.
âFor what?â
âI donât know, I just reacted. Thatâs a really sensitive spot for me.â You sound embarrassed, but Joshua isnât bothered in the slightest.
Instead, he leans over and kisses that same spot again, getting the same reaction and he determines that he needs you to react like that more. His lips attach to your neck again, sucking a mark on the skin with enough force to make your toes curl. Tiny whines leave you as he lavishes your soft skin with his mouth and one of his hands - hands that are much bigger than yours - roams over your body, sliding up until heâs cupping your breast over your shirt. He cups you, fingers finding your nipple through the fabric.
You let out a gasp of his name and Joshua groans at the sound. Hearing you like this, all for him only makes him want you more.
Heâs much more confident as he slips his hand under your shirt, kneading at your breast without the clothing barrier. Pleasure shoots up your spine as his fingers tug and tweak at your nipples, alternating between playing with each one. For a moment, you mentally apologize to Hoseok as you feel wetness pool between your legs, surely making the crotch of the pants messier with each twist of his fingers and each swipe of his tongue.
Youâre sure heâs left your neck littered with marks with the way heâs teasing you without even realizing it.Â
âJoshua,â you breathe out, needing so badly to be touched elsewhere. You hadnât planned on having your first time with him be so soon, but your building desire for him has only gotten more intense and heâs here right now, touching you like this and you need him so badly.
âWhat is it?â
âNeed you to touch me.â
âWhere?â
Instead of using your words, you take his hand and direct him beneath the waistband of your pants and between your legs.
âOh my god, Y/n, youâre so wet,â His words are more of an observation, his tone full of surprise as he swirls his fingers through your arousal. You still clench around nothing at what he says and maneuver his fingers to your clit.
âRub right there,â you direct him and he does, your body instantly jerking.
âLike this?â The pads of his fingers catch against your clit roughly and heâs using the perfect amount of pressure to have you stifling your moans, and failing miserably. Â
âJust like that, fuck.â Joshua adjusts to get a better look at you, gasping when he sees your expression. Your eyes flutter open and closed with each sound you make. Your lips are pulled between your teeth, eyebrows knitting together. Your hips move along with his hand, chasing the release thatâs so close yet so far away.
Joshuaâs fingers get curious, trailing lower to your sticky folds, prodding at your entrance.
âYes, please,â you beg him, trying to adjust to get his fingers inside of you. He obliges, slipping a thick digit into your pussy, and you let out another soft whimper.Â
Joshua revels in how slippery you feel around his finger and how tight your body is. He pumps his finger in and out of you and lets out a pleased sound of his own. Heâs never felt anything like this before, and everything in him is on high alert, his hunger for you stirring deep within him.Â
He slips another finger inside of you and you react immediately. One of your hands grasps at his arm, your nails digging in.
âFaster, please.â
He obliges, fingers pistoning out of you quicker than youâre ready for. You see stars dot your vision as the tips of his fingers brush that sensitive, spongy spot in you, your orgasm rushing at you with each move of his wrist. The fact that Joshua is an automaton nearly slips your mind until you take notice of just how fast heâs moving. He was built with endurance in mind which means he doesnât tire the same as you or any past partners. In the past, at this point, a humanâs arm wouldâve gotten tired, but not Joshua's. His fingers continue to pummel your pussy, palm now cupping you, the heel of his hand grinding against your clit.
His pace stays steady and soon youâre hurdling over the edge, nearly shrieking out his name. You have to twist your head and bury your face in the pillow to muffle your yelp as you cum, trying to stay mindful that the third person in this house could hear you falling apart around Joshuaâs fingers at any moment.
The automaton marvels at you when your body tenses up before going lax, your hips stuttering as you buck against his hand a few more times. Joshua is obsessed with this - with you. Obsessed with the way you feel in his arms and his hands and how you feel around his fingers. He canât help but wonder just how good youâll feel around his dick. Heâs already hard, his erection grinding into your lower back. That pressure feels good, but he just knows having his dick inside of you will be even better.
âJoshua. Please, I need you - need your cock. Do you want to?â
âYes, I need to feel you so bad.â You take a moment to think through your lust, wondering which position would be best given the small bed and Joshuaâs limited experience. You quickly decide to ride him, taking his fingers out of you so you can strip.
With wide, eager eyes, he watches you undress, eyes studying every inch of bare skin he gets to see. Curiosity overcomes him when his eyes dart to his still drenched fingers and he brings them to his mouth. When youâre naked and turn back to Joshua, you moan at the sight of him sucking your arousal off of his fingers. His eyes slip closed, and he lets out a satisfied hum so deep, your pussy aches at the mere sound.
Frantic hands help him out of his sleep clothes next, your eyes sweeping over him in the dim moonlight that creeps in through the cracks in the blinds. Heâs unblemished and perfect. His arms and chest are buff and sculpted and the urge to cover him in marks of your own is strong, but that will have to wait. You need him so bad and you want to finish before Hoseok returns for the night, the fear of being overheard making you move with purpose.
You take in the sheer size and girth of his cock, recalling yet again that he was made to be perfect in every way. For a moment, you worry you wonât be able to take him all the way, but youâre sure as hell going to try.
Joshua moans out loud when you grip his length, giving him a few strokes. He watches you spit on it, using your saliva to slick him up before you swing your leg over his waist. Keeping his dick steady, you hover over him, the tip slowly breaching your entrance as you ease down further.
Each inch of him has your body shaking above him, both of you letting out shared noises of pleasure. When heâs fully sheathed inside of you, a cry from the depths of your stomach slips out. Youâve never felt so full in your life and the stretch of him is almost too much.
You lift yourself on your knees before dropping back down, eyes squeezing shut at how good he feels. Itâs hard to find a rhythm, at first, but when you do, itâs desperate and sloppy but exactly what you need. Joshuaâs hands rest on your waist as he thrusts upward each time you lower, fucking up into you in perfect unison with your movements.
âJoshua, fuck. Youâre s-so big,â you mewl, hands planted on his chest as you bounce.
âYou like that?â
âI fucking love it.â
Pride takes over Joshua as his hold on you tightens. He pushes his hips up even faster, watching your eyes widen and your mouth hang open. He wants to memorize you like this. Youâre always stunning, and you have been since the moment he met you, but this is a different kind of beauty that heâs never seen and he loves it.
Joshua plants his feet on the bed, using the leverage to thrust up with more force, almost knocking you over the side of the bed, but his hands keep you put.
âS-shit. Joshua, Shua, just like that!â The shortened version of his name just slips out and Joshua decides that he enjoys the sound of it.
He moves at a speed that makes you dizzy, the bed underneath you creaking under the force. Joshua is fucking you so hard, so rough, and you swear each thrust is deeper than the last even with you on top.
âStar, you feel so good. So tight around me,â Joshua grunts. âYouâre so perfect.â
âIâm so close, Shua. Iâm g-gonna cum!â
âCum for me, Star. Wanna see you,â His eyes take in your expression of ecstasy and the way your breasts bounce, but they finally land on your lips. They look so red since youâve been gnawing on them and they look so shiny, practically calling to him to kiss you.
He does just that, one of his hands moving up to the back of your head to pull you down to his face. Joshuaâs lips collide with yours, kissing you for the first time. The sensation is foreign to him, yet it feels like this is where he always shouldâve ended up, here with you, buried deep inside of your warmth while your lips mold together, moving in a frantic rhythm as you swallow each otherâs needy sounds.
Joshuaâs tongue breaches the seam of your lips, lapping at every inch of your mouth he can reach. He eagerly wraps his tongue around yours and suckles while driving his hips up again and again. His lap is covered in your wetness and he feels you tremble above him.
âIâm cumming, Shua, Iâm cumming!â You whine into his mouth and in the next second your limbs go stiff as you topple over the edge, vision blurring as you cum. The breath gets knocked out of you as you turn to jelly in Joshuaâs arms. He has to keep you upright, but then he cums right after you, hips almost bruising yours while he shoves himself into you to the hilt, painting your gummy walls with his release.Â
A pathetic whimper falls from your lips as he empties into you, pumping you even fuller. He only falters a little as he fucks his cum back up into you.
âJ-Joshua. Please, Iâm so sensitive,â your voice sounds scratchy to your ears and it matches how tired the rest of you is.
âSorry,â he mumbles as he pulls out of you carefully and oh so gently.
You flop next to him, lying in a heap against him as he wraps the blankets around you both.
âWow,â he speaks after a while, almost feeling like heâs floating.
âYeah. I canât believe that was your first time.â
âIt was the most amazing thing Iâve ever done.â You canât help but chuckle at him, fingers absentmindedly stroking up and down his arm draped over your waist.
âJust remember that I donât have the stamina you do. I need a little time between to get my strength back.â
âI can wait. Do you need anything? I can go get you some water or I can get another blanket.â
âNo, no. The only thing I need from you is to hold me.â
âI can do that.â He leans over you again to plant a kiss on your cheek, the gesture incredibly sweet.
âGood night, Joshua.â
âGood night, Star.â
The sun wakes you up the next morning, your body feeling sore and warm. When you realize that youâre still in Joshuaâs arms naked, you remember last night. You smile to yourself, turning to look at him, seeing his eyes are already open.
âGood morning,â he greets, kissing you as soon as he catches sight of your lips. He swallows up your attempt to respond, a large hand cupping your face.
When he finally lets you go after you remind him again that you do need to breathe, he stays close to your face.
âI think Iâve found my new favorite thing,â he muses.
âAnd whatâs that?â
âKissing you. I think it might even be better than having sex with you.âÂ
You snort at his answer, trying to hide the way your face burns at his words. âWell, you can do plenty of both of those things once weâre in flight again, but we should probably get a move on the day.â
He pouts momentarily, but finally agrees, letting you get up with one more kiss.
Hoseok is up when youâre dressed and leave the room, already in the kitchen when you come in.
âMorning sleepy head! You guys gonna head out soon?â
âYeah, but I wanted to shower again since I wonât get the luxury of a full-sized shower on the ship.â
âGo for it. Your clothes are dry also, theyâre on the couch. And you have to make sure you eat and take some food! Your boyfriend canât eat but you have to!âÂ
Both you and Joshua look at each other when he says that, but neither of you says anything about the new title for him, which Hoseok notices, laughing at the looks on your faces.
Two hours later when youâre fed, showered, and packed, Hoseok walks you to your ship, both you and Joshua are well-rested and ready for your journey. He demands that you try and radio him when you get there (âand you will get there,â he makes sure to add).
âI canât thank you enough for this, Hoseok. Youâre really saving us here.â
âOf course. Itâs the least I can do for my friend.â He flashes you his heart-shaped smile once more and gives you a bear hug, arms squeezing you tight. âBe safe okay? Iâll be here for a while if you need me."
âI appreciate you more than I can say. And I say this with love, but I hope I donât need to come back.â
âFair. I also say this with love, but me too.â
Hoseok embraces Joshua next, telling him to take good care of you.
âI will. I always will.â
Another round of goodbyes later and youâre both back on your ship. You punch in the vague coordinates Hoseok could give you. Since no one knows where Lumen is exactly, all you can do is type in coordinates that are North, next to Galaxy 428B, and hope for the best.
Right before you lift off the ground, you wave at Hoseok through the window then steer the ship until you start your ascent. Once you breach the last layer of the atmosphere, youâre off again and you turn on the autopilot, letting your ship take over and do the most tedious part which is coasting until you reach your destination, whenever thatâll be.
âAre we on our way?â Joshua finally asks from his seat to your right as the dark expanse of outer space stretches in front of you.
âYep. Weâve probably got months of just this.â
âAnd the ship is flying itself?â
âWell yeah, thatâs how autopilot works, remember? We did it for Salax.â
âJust checking,â Joshua gives you a look that you canât decipher before getting up and making it to you in a few strides, crashing his lips against yours. He kisses you breathlessly yet again, pulling away and letting you pant against his lips.
âWhatâs gotten into you?â
âYou said we could when we were back on the ship,â he pouts, his round, brown eyes sparkling back at you.
âI know and we can, but right now?â
âOnly if you want to, of course.â
âI do.â
âGood!â Joshua scoops you up into his arms as if you weigh nothing and carries you to the sleeping quarters of the ship.
âOh my god, Iâve created a sex monster!â You giggle as he places you on one of the cots and starts pulling his clothes off.
âNot my fault being inside you is the best experience Iâve ever felt. And now we have so much time to spend doing it.âÂ
You canât really argue with him on that. There isnât much to do when youâre coasting through space for an undetermined amount of time. So, you let Joshua get his fill of your body until you need to rest, eat, use the bathroom, and check the course of the ship.
Once all of your obligations are done, he fucks you again and again, almost making up for all of the time you couldnât spend together. Joshua is an extremely fast learner and becomes an expert on all of the things you like and the ways you like to be touched in no time. And even though youâre exhausted you canât find it in you to complain.
The time to Lumen feels almost unbearable. Itâs a much longer journey than any youâve ever taken. It gives you even more time to spend with Joshua which makes it all the more bearable. Lying and talking with him occupies all of your time (when heâs not bending you over any surface on the ship he can to try all of the things heâs only ever heard about). You love how easy it is to be with him and how easily heâs picked on habits of being a boyfriend and taking care of you. Even if you werenât stuck in a flying metal tin with him you still donât think youâd get sick of spending time with him like this.
That being said, you canât help the paranoia that still creeps into your mind. What if this trip is all for nothing? What if you are flying towards a dead end and there is no Lumen, only a galaxy that goes on forever and ever? Sure, you can go back to Salax - you know that Hoseok will help you both and likely hide you until you deem it safe to be out and about on the planet, but youâve never been very fond of Salax and donât know if you necessarily want to call it your home long term.
âYou look like youâre deep in thought,â Joshua interrupts your overactive brain, your doubts sitting heavy in the pit of your stomach.
You turn away from the window that youâve been transfixed staring out of for who knows how long. You pull the blanket youâre draped in tighter around your body giving Joshua a small quirk of your lips.Â
âYeah, I was just thinkingâŠâ
âClearly,â Joshua sidles up behind you, wrapping his arms around you, and pulling you close. âAbout what?â Your body automatically leans into him, enjoying the warmth emanating from his bare chest.
âIâm just worried. What if we donât find Lumen? Hoseok said that he doesnât even know anyone whoâs successfully made it and reported back. Thatâs terrifying. What if all of those people didnât make it? What if they just ended up floating in space forever? Or what if Lumen is extremely hostile or unsafe? What if any of those travelers died? What if -â
âHey, hey. Look at me,â Joshua stops your spiraling, turning you in his arms to face him. âWe donât know any of those things, okay? All we can do is keep going and see where we end up. Worrying about it wonât help now will it?â
âNoâŠâ
âExactly. So letâs just see what happens. How long do we have before we reach the galaxy itâs supposedly next to?â
âIâll check,â he lets you unravel yourself from his hold so you can approach the cockpit to read the navigation. âWeâre actually not that far from Galaxy 428B. Maybe another few weeks or so if weâre lucky. Itâs already been a few months since we left Salax so it hopefully wonât be too much longer. If itâs even there that is.â
âSit down, Star.â The usage of your nickname from Joshuaâs lips only serves to make you melt, doing as he says and sinking into the seat in front of the control panel. Joshua approaches you, spinning the chair to face him and bending at the waist to kiss you.
His lips move over yours lazily, tongue soon following to poke your lips, asking for entrance. You let him in, his tongue immediately moving into your mouth. Joshua kisses you hard, hands cradling your face as your arms loop around his neck.
Slowly, he sinks to his knees in front of you, spreading your legs open to get a look at your bare core. He makes a sound of appreciation deep in the back of his throat before surging forward, burying his face between your thighs. His tongue licks you from your entrance up to your clit a few times. Already having you sinking down in the seat to get closer to his face.
Joshuaâs tongue plunges into your hole as he eats you out sloppily but with purpose. He laps at you, making out with your cunt. Your hands fly to his hair, fingers tugging at the strands as you yell out for him, legs shaking as they wrap around his head to keep him where he is.
You already know Joshua is coaxing an orgasm out of you to distract you and keep you from worrying and itâs definitely working.
Joshua has done his best to be the calm one out of the two of you. When you start to stress and worry about where your journey will take you, he uses words of reassurance to keep you level-headed and uses sex to distract you which seems to work for both of you. When youâre not doing that though or when youâre asleep is when he also starts to have his own thoughts of dread.
Of course, he has the same worries as you; worries that your trip will only end in your demise or that youâll get lost in space. Itâs been months since you started your journey into the unknown and neither of you have any idea if youâre anywhere closer to your end goal. Joshua knows he canât truly die, not in the same way a human, you, would. At worst, heâll run out of charge if the ship is somehow damaged to the point that the electricity goes out. Then heâs in trouble. But you, there are so many terrible things that could happen to you.Â
You could starve or freeze to death. If youâre attacked by pirates you could be injured or even killed. The list of terrible things that could fall upon you is endless and itâs the main thing that sometimes keeps him from relaxing and letting himself close his eyes. Itâs why heâs up now, leaving you curled up in the sleeping area while he paces the main part of the ship, willing his active imagination to shut up.Â
He nearly starts to spiral even more, when in the distance he spots something that isnât just another moon or an asteroid. It looks an awful lot like a planet. A planet that looks a little like Earth from this distance.
Joshua frantically surveys the navigation before giving up, knowing he canât read what it means.Â
âStar! Y/n!â He runs to the sleeping area, calling you until you groggily sit up, calling him in response.
âJoshua?â
âThereâs a planet! Itâs not super close but it looks a little like Earth!â
Youâre up as soon as he finishes his sentence and sprinting to the cockpit to check the navigation.
âWe definitely passed Galaxy 428B and the coordinates look right. Holy shit, what if thatâs Lumen?!â He joins you as you continue flying towards the planet. Itâs still going to take a few minutes, but you both stand there the whole time, hands tangled together as you wait for any signals that youâre close enough to possibly speak to someone on the intercom system.
The minutes feel like hours as they crawl by, the planet getting clearer and clearer as you approach. It really does look like Earth.
You grip Joshuaâs hands even harder, his fingers caressing your knuckles to try and keep your nerves calm. When youâre close enough to start to see more details, you take the ship out of autopilot to steer it. Joshua rests his hand on your shoulders, watching as you press a few buttons on what youâd mentioned was the intercom system.
âHello? We are requesting permission to land.â You speak, your words steady even though Joshua can feel how you tremble in his hold.
After a minute or so a voice comes back, asking you for your registration and the reason for your visit.
âOur registration is DA471561J. Weâre travelers looking to land permanently.â
Thereâs a beat of silence as your hands grip the steering device, both of you waiting for a response.
âPermission to land is granted. There is a dock just East of your current location. Welcome to Lumen.â
A sob slips out of your mouth when you hear the greeting, thanking the voice. Joshua wraps his arms around you, holding you close as you change your direction, presumably to the East.Â
âWe made it, Star. We made it to Lumen.â
âWe did,â you sniffle loudly and Joshua holds you closer.Â
âI love you, Star,â he whispers. Itâs not something heâs ever thought he could feel, let alone say to someone.Â
And then you came into his life and made it clear that he is capable of love and most importantly, heâs in love with you.
âJoshuaâŠI love you too,â you breathe, tears still pricking your eyes. You love him so much - the words had been hanging on your tongue for a while, but your nerves never let you say them until now. Now that you know that Joshua loves you too.
The worry that had been sitting heavy on both of your shoulders slips away at the fact that youâve made it safely to your new home after flying for so long and that youâre both doing it with the person that you love.
You stay close to Joshua when the two of you finally land and are greeted by some of the citizens of Lumen. You don't think youâve ever seen this many different inhabitants on one planet, not that you mind.
A few of them introduce themselves and when they ask your names, you tell them Joshua and Star. Hearing them call you both by your new, preferred names really makes this feel real. You both thank everyone nearly a hundred times, mentioning that youâre from Earth and you are hoping this is your new home.
âOh! Youâre from Earth too!â A little girl exclaims as she clings to the adult sheâs with who you assume is her mom. âThereâs another person here with a robot from Earth!â Her mother shushes her, but you insist itâs okay.
âDo you know where they are?â Joshua asks the mother, who nods.
âYes, theyâre living in a house thatâs just outside of a town not far from here. Itâs near where we live. Iâll show you.â
âPlease.â Joshua looks at you, eyes full of hope and you nod back enthusiastically. You donât want to get too excited and assume that itâs one of his former members, but thereâs a chance. A small chance, but a chance nonetheless.
You and Joshua arrive at the house the mother and her child directed you to, seeing the sheer size of it. You both scan the area as you approach, noting the little garden and the lush forest behind it.
As you approach, Joshua scans the surrounding area, not seeing anyone else around. Heâs about to voice his curiosity about the place when he feels your steps falter next to him. When he looks over at you, he sees your wide eyes staring straight ahead at the house. He follows your gaze, spying someone coming out of the front door, face turned up, casually glancing at the sky. At first, he doesnât think anything of it until the man turns, glancing over as if looking right at him.
âOh my godâŠJoshua, itâs -â
âSeungcheol,â heâs already noticed him, looking shell-shocked at seeing his leader - his family - again after so long.
The two of you break into a run to get to your new home and sense of familiarity. You and Joshua want this to be a new start for both of your lives and it looks like you wonât have to do it alone.
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pairing: ai!jeonghan x human!reader summary: you knew the risks of pursuing a member from 53V3NT33N but maybe your certain privileges have been fueling this illusion of a possible connection with J30NGHÎN, who surprisingly sparks your interest with his deep curiosity about the other sides of humanity. would you be willing to continue despite the looming deceit that you might get roped into? rating: 18+ | word count: 12k genre/au: angst, smut, sci-fi, ai-idol!au warnings/content: depictions of blood, explicit sexual content, voyeurism (through hearing), vaginal fingering, penetrative sex, lowkey corruption kink ngl bye đđ»ââïž
a/n: collabs seems to be really the only way for me to post lmao. thank you @idyllic-ghost for hosting the Seventeen Sci-Fi Collab and for making this very gorgeous banner! also, shoutout to everyone on the server especially to the new people i met for being with me while working on this! ig this is my writer debut in the seventeen community so nice to meet you all except for minors, who are not allowed to interact with this post :)
After the Earth miraculously survived due to some external force when the sun exploded a century ago, humans have learned to integrate into the new solar system that the planet ended up in, where alien life exists. Other planets in the previous solar system went through the same fate, being pushed away from each other and ending up in different parts of the universe.
At first, humans were cautious and ready to fight, but the aliens were surprisingly welcoming to our planet. Hence, those who didnât die from âThe Great Journeyâ or from trying to fight the aliens were welcomed into the new solar system.
How we completely integrated was through the materials and assistance of our sister planets in exchange for human labor. And while what humans knew of technology was very limited, the resources from the aliens allowed us to create artificial life forms called "automaton". These robots served as workers when humans couldn't, but eventually, there was no need for human labour at all.
And in order to pay back the help the aliens gave, humans used automatons, which went through extensive development until artificial sentient life was eventually created. Now, these automatons were human-like in looks and had human consciousness, but they could not bleed and were stronger than we ever could be.Â
Currently, there are even different levels of automatons: level 3 are the workers, level 2 are the caretakers, and level 1 are the celebrities. Among the level 1 robots are the music group 53V3NT33N (SEVENTEEN), where each talented member represents two human states of mind. One member named J30NGHÎN, is particularly of deceit and curiosity, and yet it didnât stop you from hoping to get to know him even further.
You couldn't believe how quickly your addiction is becoming, recently meeting up with someone during your lunch break for a merch trade of level one robots.
53V3NT33N, one of the idol groups that made you competitive with other fans in any of their group-related promotions.Â
It began over a few months ago, solely because of your curiosity when you attended one of the music festivals your friends invited you to in the summer. Among the several groups that performed, one of them randomly caught your eye, which you did not expect at all. You found out later that he was part of 53V3NT33N and that his name was J30NGHÎN, the member that has both deceit and curiosity infused in his pre-programmed personality.
That should've made you cautious but no, instead, it drove you to finally indulge in this fangirling lifestyle that surprised your family and friends. They were aware of your skeptical view of this whole AI thing from the beginning but that was before you realize that AI-idol robots can be this human enough so you didn't mind checking them out.
They're considered as one of the top groups of the galaxy, having everyone crazy over them including one of your closest friends, Bona. Sheâd been a fangirl since you were younger, which is the case for most AI-idol groupsâ fans, starting either during elementary or high school so you couldnât help but feel a bit behind.
It might be pretty late for you but how could you during that time when all you do is study in order to please your parents, particularly your father, whoâs the founder of one of the biggest companies in the entertainment industry. So you understood why he was hard on you, probably hoping just like the rest of your family that you'd follow his steps but made it clear when you started university that you have no intentions of doing so.
Now that you're almost done with your masters, they've backed off completely and even supported you in this new lifestyle. As strange as it sounded, your mother has somehow convinced everyone in the family that this is just a way for you to de-stress from your rigorous post-grad schedule.Though a part of it is true, it's also the first time you've wanted something other than what your parents wanted for you.
Being the CEO's daughter did make your new hobby very easy as money was never an issue to you growing up. It's been a privilege that you're aware of but did not grasp fully until you found out that 53V3NT33N is under your fatherâs company, fuelling your new obsession with the entertainment industry as a whole.Aside from financial advantages, you have special VIP access to pretty much everything.Â
However, you try to not use these benefits unless you have to as it would be unfair to other fans who don't have the privilege that you do.
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Today, youâre here at a hi-touch event with Bona who became very enthusiastic once she saw your slightest interest in the group that she's been a fan of.
"is it usually this long?" you asked, a bit impatient about this long queue that you're lining up for. Adjusting to this lifestyle is a bit hard for you but at least you have Bona helping whenever she can.Â
"of course! they've been very hot in the charts so we're getting new members in the fandom, including you!" she giggled excitedly, giving you a hug so lighten yourself up, not wanting to kill her enthusiasm with your souring mood.
With Bonaâs warning, you did expect it to be like this and yet you weren't prepared enough. Albeit it's your first time, you know the larger fandom power of AI-idol groups hold regardless of size compared to human entertainers. Having VIP access may have a lot of perks but it didnât help much when you chose to get the best experience through this.
You seldom participate in a more intimate setting with idols until today so your mind has been filled with worry about how it would go. Bonaâs there to reassure you that it would be fun but you're quite nervous since you'll be meeting all the members this close for the first time. This is out of your territory and the possibility of embarrassing yourself in front of them scared you nuts since this morning.
And youâre unsure how you'll be once you face J30NGHÎN.Â
The line thankfully sped up, your mind pausing for a moment when you briefly locked eyes with one of them. You spotted J30NGHÎN right away, standing in the middle near the end but that one glance your way was enough to make you even feel more nervous than you already are.
When it was finally your time, you brightly smiled at the first member on the line who's been smiling at you with his eyes. It eased up your nerves that you high-fived him with excitement as soon as he put both of his palms up. Subsequently, proceeding to the rest of the members became easy until you finally reached J30NGHÎN who laid out both of his hands to take yours right away.
It surprised you because the other members were either simply putting their palms up or interlocking their hands with yours for a brief second before moving on to the next. You weren't sure if it was the nerves but you haven't seen J30NGHÎN do this with other fans so far. Hands rising from the table and palms up as he takes both of your hands while looking straight into your eyes.
"hi, J30NGHÎN" you're relieved that your voice came out steady, mustering up a smile despite the rapid beating of your heart.
"hello..." he starts, eyes shifting down from yours and it makes you conscious of how you look. You did try today more than usual to hopefully match the beautiful idols that you've met who are close to perfection in beauty.
"___?" the soft mention of your name brought your attention back to him, noticing him reading it from your VIP pass.
Of course, it was just your name and probably the VIP pass that he's used to and nothing else. He probably won't remember you after this, seeing thousands of fans on a daily basis.
"it's my first time" you blurted out, earning a small chuckle from him. You silently berated yourself for breaking your composure but you noticed the emerging amusement in his eyes at your sudden remark, causing you to warm up in further embarrassment.
"it is? nice to meet you then" the corner of his lips lifted a bit as his eyes returned to yours. You tried smiling brightly as you did towards W00Z1 earlier to hide any more possible reactions from him but it faltered when he started running both his thumbs across your knuckles, tracing each one of them.
"n-nice to meet you too"Â
You didn't mean to stutter but he took you off guard. Even more so when he interlocks his fingers with yours just when you were about to let go of his hands. He gave them a brief squeeze too that you didn't realize the line moved and you were already facing the member next to him. Good thing you recovered quickly, already getting used to holding their hands and making small conversations as you pass by each of the remaining members.
Once you were back in your seat near the front, you tried talking to the other fans around you while waiting for Bona to be done. However, your eyes can't stop straying towards J30NGHÎN and watch how he interacts with the other fans. He definitely didn't repeat what he did to you earlier so confusion washes over you.
After a while, you see a small smile grazing his lips while he is talking with a fan. It might be towards them or your obvious ogling because he suddenly glances up, capturing your eyes staring at him.
Bona hopping in beside you broke your staring contest, turning to her with enthusiasm like nothing happened. You debated on telling her you're confusing exchange with J30NGHÎN because who knows, it could just be a normal fan interaction and you were just imagining things all along. She will for sure tease you of your growing delusion towards him if ever.
You don't really know him yet but he seems to respond well to fans' advances. That could simply be part of their fan service training though, so all your experiences earlier are only part of VIP perks and you just got lucky to receive those random special interactions. However, when it was time for everyone to leave, you felt someone staring but didn't wanna think anymore if it could be him or not.Â
Your curiosity took over though, so you did, catching J30NGHÎN's piercing eyes again before you exited the room.
It could simply be J30NGHÎN's curious nature as he has never met you before. He should be feeling the same way as he does with new fans but he found you amusing instead. The staff treating you differently didn't help either, fueling his interest in you some more. Other VIP fans were treated the same way lest they break the rules so he couldn't help but be more curious about who you could possibly be.
This was why during the fan sign where he saw you again, he couldn't help but initiate the interaction this time. J30NGHÎN took one of your hands before you could say something and he watched the confusion from last time return to your pretty face. You weren't as nervous as before but he definitely surprised you.
"can i ask you a question?" you felt the need to start talking to him right away to avoid the repeat from the last time. Now that you're finally caving into your interest in the group, Bona was insisting on indoctrinating you, briefing you on fan etiquette including how fan signs usually go. With the number of members of 53V3NT33N, you ought to be efficient unlike before.
"how much do you know about humans?"
You prod with a question that he wouldn't have expected and you see his face change from expectant to confusion with your question. He took a while to respond, probably waiting for the staff's reaction behind him. But once they didn't intervene, the previous look was back on his handsome face.
"well, i know enough to entice them",
The bright smile on his face didn't match the amusement in his eyes and somehow it gave you confidence, returning it with an impish grin.
"enough to make them even more obsessed with you?"
You're testing the waters, see if he can detect the change in your demeanour. It's a bit difficult when he's holding your hand like this because you swear he only holds others' hands after signing their albums earlier while you were waiting for your turn.
"it's working, no? since you're back and in a fansign this time"
It made you speechless that he was able to remember you from the last time. He's also keeping up with your flirting attempt and smoothly evaded your first question. You were expecting him to be taken aback because you doubt other fans have asked him that but then it could also be that he's programmed or trained to answer vaguely to be able to smoothly change the topic of any conversation.
His quip didn't distract you fully so your amused smile remained. For the entirety of the conversation, his eyes never left yours during this entire conversation so you couldn't even hide the surprise in your face when his thumb starts caressing your knuckles slowly, just like last time.
The nerves returned once again but you did your best to keep your guard, focusing more and figuring out what he could be thinking right now. It's a futile attempt but you have no other choice other than to distract the increasing beating in your heart.
"it might, or maybe i just wanted a fan sign experience" you cheekily remarked before getting up and grabbing your signed album, not even waiting for his response nor looking back to see his reaction.
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That exchange prompted J30NGHÎN to snoop around online about you when the group finally had their "free time" later on. You were different compared to the first time he met you, not timid around him that he felt like he was wrong about you all along. The staff treated you differently too, never hurried you nor stopped you from asking those questions that would've gotten other fans banned so you must have some connection to the company.
He was running out of time before the managers came back to take them to their dorms as they, unfortunately, still do have a curfew. But by saving grace, he found an old article about their company's founder, included in it was a family picture where he recognized you right away, despite how young you were in it. J30NGHÎN finds himself not surprised at what he found out, causing everything to make sense now.
What was not making sense was how everyone didn't seem to recognize you or acknowledge who you were in public. Maybe you wanted it this way, keep everything low-key so you won't have the media hovering on your every move.
Something that he wishes for himself and his brothers sometimes. He's been having an inkling that they're being monitored 24/7 so he gave up on the thought a long time ago. It's still on his mind sometimes, especially after knowing this information about you. It deepens his curiosity about humans when you do this out of nowhere. Even now that he's lying in bed, recharging for another full-packed schedule tomorrow, he couldn't let the curiosity go.
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Bona grilled you with questions as soon as you asked to meet up with her and Somin for this possible event that you're planning.
"i can't believe i wasn't there! i would've loved to see you get smitten by him!" she sighs dreamily while Somin makes a face in the corner.
"anyways, why did you wanna see us in person on a Sunday morning?" she starts, already dismissing you and Bona's fangirling shenanigans. It wasn't that she wasn't a fan but she does have a different opinion when it comes to these kinds of things.
"this might sound crazy but i want to invite 53V3NT33N as a headliner for my first charity event"
"what?"
"look, i didn't think you liked him this much already"
Somin raises a brow at you but you just shrug off the slight judgment in her eyes. It wasn't your fault that your interactions with J30NGHÎN from the past two events have stayed in your mind, plaguing you every single time you see any of their faces on social media. Maybe it's normal since you're all new to this fangirling thing, the common rush when you're exploring something new.
Like your interest in J30NGHÎN that you definitely want to develop further.
But in order to do that, you have to see him more often which won't be possible unless you use your privilege. Just like other AI-idol groups, 53V3NT33N members were tightly monitored by your father's company. Interactions with anyone outside of their staff would have to either be as a normal fan or someone with connections to the company, like you.
That was why you approached your father with the idea, hoping he'd let you invite his most precious investment. He agreed, much to your surprise because he'll allow the whole band to perform as well. Of course, this got a few questions from other CEOs seeing as this would be the first time for 53V3NT33N to participate in a charity event. However, your father insisted that this would be a good strategy to improve their company's reputation, especially among the fans who have been disappointed on how they've been managing the group so far.
Although your father's decision was a shock to everyone, you know why he would say yes. Despite his stoic disposition when it comes to business, he is still your father so he must have been delighted at the thought of you finally indulging in the family business by involving the company in this event. Pulling some strings means nothing to him now that you're doing what he's been wanting all along.
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When 53V3NT33N was briefed by their managers about the event and their supposed role in it, surprise and confusion passed over the members' faces as they'd never done this before.
"it will be hosted by our CEO's daughter"
The additional shock was evident this time, not knowing about your existence until now. They have no idea what you look like so some of them are intrigued while others are just calm, too calm that member S3UNGKWAN didn't miss. He waited until the managers left them, making sure they were out of the vicinity before blurting out what he noticed.
"why would she be interested in us?"
He starts off casually, hinting at something that made the rest of his members curious, except for the one he's staring at right now.
Some of the members turned to J30NGHÎN with astonished faces but did not say a word. It's not like they could freely talk about anything outside of what they're supposed to know.Â
J30NGHÎN should've tried harder to blend in with the others' reaction when you were mentioned. He didn't think of the possibility that anyone would notice the change in his behaviour towards you during the hi-touch and fansign. He should've known that his members would quickly catch on and read him like an open book as he does to them.
"maybe she's taking over and needs us for promotion" H05H1 concluded, shutting down the impending commotion over J30NGHÎN's possible connection with you. Half of the members relent as usual while the others don't even after J30NGHÎN ignores their goading stares.
This move from you again surprised him. A charity that would launch you into this world he's been living in, even involving him in it. He wasn't sure if this was because of how he interacted with you or if this is just who you are. Humans have confused him since he opened his eyes and was thrust into the world to interact with them. At first, he did think that you'd be just like the others given your position in society but there's been more than meets the eye.
And he strangely finds it to feel more interested in you now.
You've had a meeting with the rest of the company CEOs and staff to finalize the launch of the charity event. Things went well and as soon as it was announced, it made a buzz online immediately, just like your father predicted. You weren't sure if it was his doing or just people's curiosity about you finally going public in your father's line of business. Several people were intrigued by your collaboration with 53V3NT33N because, with all your connections, they could be the far end of your options as headliners.
Perhaps you wanted more publicity among the younger population which would make sense since the charity event's purpose is to support various scholarships for undergraduate students. You admit that the nerves escalated in you, both reasons being your formal introduction to your father's realm and 53V3NT33N's presence at the event. Leading events like this seems like a second skin to you, impressing the business community and media with the success of the event.
You couldn't take all the credit of course as you've had Bona and Somin too, helping you to make sure that the event goes smoothly. Right before the event ended, you asked either of them to give the closing remarks, rushing over to request one of 53V3NT33N's managers before they could move to the group's next schedule.
"i'd like to personally thank the members for doing this event with me"
"we shall send 5.C0UP5 up here right away" one of them answered curtly.
"oh, it's actually J30NGHÎN that i want to talk to"
Managing to appear composed while asking was a challenge as you tried your best to not show the managers your growing interest. Speculations can't be avoided because you did see some of them pause, with their faces wearing bewilderment but mostly startled at your choice of member. They must've been wondering why because 5.C0UP5 is the leader of the group and, therefore, their representative when it comes to official business.
Eventually, they reverted back to their composure, immediately fetching the member that you requested and directing him to the assigned room where you're waiting. You weren't sure how this would go, if finally talking to J30NGHÎN in private would change your previous interactions. During the entirety of the event, you felt his eyes on you which almost distracted you at times but thankfully, you were able to remain focused.
"well, this is a surprise" a soft voice from behind startles you. Taking a deep breath to calm yourself down, you turned to see him smiling at you. A different smile from before, the polite one until he noticed how you weren't prepared at all. Seems like all the confidence from earlier went down the drain, making it too obvious for J30NGHÎN why he's here.
"is it? you've been paying a lot of attention earlier"
You return his smile, your confidence slowly coming up to the surface after watching his puzzled face.
"did you ask for me because of that?"
He recovered fast which did not surprise you, noticing how fast his reflexes are when it comes to conducting himself to others. You hear the inquisitive tone in his voice, taunting you to reveal the real reason why you chose to talk to him over their leader.
"no?, well yes" you admit, the curiosity overpowering your nerves. You couldn't keep it any longer, having no other options to talk to him but this way. Based on the content you've watched along with Bona's passionate detailing of them, J30NGHÎN's known to be perceptive and blunt so there's no point in denying anything.
"why?"
"you almost distracted me earlier"
"i thought i was being subtle"
You've expected him to be straightforward but not to this extent, confirming your assumptions earlier. His admission made your nerves resurface and it didn't help that he hasn't stopped looking at you since he got here. Avoiding eye contact with him has been successful so far, your eyes scanning the interior of this room despite knowing that he was aware of his effects on you.
"why?"
Now it's your turn to ask. You're still not looking at J30NGHÎN but you've been plagued with so many questions since your first interaction with him. He takes his time in answering, shifting his eyes away from you allowing you to steal a glance at his handsome face for a bit. Your elation about what his answer might be bubbles back up a little, wondering if there could be any reason his attention was on you for the entirety of the event.
"your purpose of the charity" he answers cooly, returning his gaze on you. This time you almost couldn't look away but the little disappointment stirs in you. Averting from his gaze but you don't want him to see your face because all this reminded you again of your growing attachment to him.
And you need to refocus on his question.
"my parents have great connections so why not use them for this"
"so why us then? you could pull it off on your own, the event was a success"
"thanks to you and your brothers"
Your heartbeat rises at J30NGHÎN's compliment because you technically could but you know that it's his group that mainly contributed to it, being one of the top AI boy groups in the galaxy these days. Having them as the headliner for the event definitely drew in more sponsors and donations than you expected which pleased not only your father but the other CEOs of the company too.
"we just appeared and sang a few songs, it's all you" he commended, and your heart raced even more when you finally turned to look at him.
He looks ethereal with platinum blonde hair and his white silk outfit complimenting his honey-toned skin. You must've been quiet for a while because a light chuckle escaping from him snaps you back to where you are.
"why thank you" you beamed, looking away to hide your embarrassment of getting caught. Just as he was about to answer, your phone vibrated from your desk so you stood up and gathered your belongings, preparing to leave.
"wait where are you going?"
J30NGHÎN's surprised at his own reaction, wanting to talk to you more.
"i have a meeting with my supervisors"
"for? you're working for the company now?"
"no, for my masters"
You watched him getting more intrigued with your answers but you really have to go so pause in front of him, debating if he'll catch onto your next words.
"there's always next time" you smile one last time before exiting the room, leaving J30NGHÎN behind. The teasing smile from you along with your implication has taken him aback, not expecting your sudden confidence in wanting to talk to him again. He didn't have much time to wonder as his manager barged in right away as soon as you were out of the hallway.
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When J30NGHÎN got back to the dorms during their free time, he was a bit shocked to see all his members waiting by the living room. He already has a hunch on what will go down with a playful look plastered on some of their faces.
"someone's definitely the favourite" M1NGYU starts, earning a laughing fit from the others as J30NGHÎN approaches them.
"i couldn't believe she was at our fan events before" W0NW00 drawls, remembering you from the fansign as he was the one sitting beside J30NGHÎN.
"yeah so J30NGHÎN-hyung, she invited us because of you.." D0KY30M added but J30NGHÎN just shrugs it off.
"she's just a fan, like the others" he clarified, dismissing all the teasing he's gotten since they found out that he already knew you all along. He tried pretending earlier when you first met up with the whole group but his reaction and the way you acted around him gave the others the indication already.
He's aware that they are not really buying his dismissal seeing as you literally requested to talk to him in private. It further flares up again when you requested to see him once more.
People have asked questions as to why you requested someone from an AI-idol to accompany you here in the office. Apart from your interest in him and his group, he's the closest one that you're comfortable with in the company, as strange as it sounds. You don't trust anyone here, not even your own father for many reasons. At least with J30NGHÎN, any possibilities of using you for their gain are lesser than actual humans who might work their way into the company through you.
As for J30NGHÎN, he immediately said yes once their manager informed him of your request. Of course, his members were confused but some are supportive since it'll just probably be company-related stuff. He also explained that this will be a great way to gain your trust, to hopefully improve how the company has been treating them in return.
So far, no one has confronted you directly about J30NGHÎN being with you during his free time. However, rumours did start when it started to occur more than what people initially expected. Some talks must've been going around the company because your father surprisingly gave you a visit to your office today.
"i know why you're here" you start, not giving him a chance to confront you first.
"i'm just here to see you, it's not often that i'm free"
"you've never been" you retorted quietly, rolling your eyes at him.
"i just need to know why because i thought it was a one-time thing for your charity event"
"i need him for one of my remaining coursework"
You technically didn't lie but you weren't telling the truth either. Your father hopefully knows you enough to figure out your little lie but because he was barely there, that didn't become the case.
You're saved by the bell when Bona and Somin barge in your door with food and shopping bags with them. Your father excuses himself right away, giving you girls time with each other given how busy you've become since agreeing to the deal he made with you.
"so..."
Bona eyes you excitedly as soon as she sits on the luxurious couch in front of you.
"you're hooking up with him? you know Salax exists for a reason right?"
Somin fires right away and you put a hand up to stop her and Bona with their impending questions.
"i'm not, why would you think that right away?"
It won't be your first time having companions and you've been to the planet before with her to explore its attractions so you couldn't really blame her for questioning your choices.
"damn girl, last time you were all timid when it comes to him but now look at you!"
Bona adds proudly as she unpacks all the food on the table.
"is it because he's a level 1? you wanted to try if you could?"
Damn Somin and her fiery mouth.
The idea is enticing, sure, as level 1 robots can never be found in Salax because they're seen as "too pure" to be on the planet for anyone's darkest desires. You don't know how to answer her question because although that's not your intention to request his presence when you're in the company, these thoughts sometimes pass through your mind.
There's something satisfying about having J30NGHÎN with you, a level 1 robot that no one can have no matter how rich they are, proving your status even to people in your level. His kind is unattainable with the company's interference each time a rumour comes up involving any of the celebrity robots.
That's not to say that it doesn't happen as there are corrupt CEOs from other entertainment companies who sometimes exploit their level 1 robots underground, completely in secrecy. Fans found out about it will not only cause major problems for the company but for the careers of their robots and future investments as well.
That won't hopefully be the case for you if you decide to pursue J30NGHÎN. Any rumours that may be speculated by the media will get shut down right away not to ruin both the groups' image and yours. In fact, the company might just endorse this as your "training" and possibly follow in your father's footsteps.
"who knows really, i'd rather have him than anyone in this company"
.
J30NGHÎN is surprisingly pleasant as a company. Each time you ask for him, he arrives promptly and just follows anything you ask him. You thought that he'd see you differently once he found out who you are but nothing much changed. If not, he continues how he's been treating you, though a little more reserved than before because of your position.
It's never boring with him like you initially thought. Maybe that could be part of his media training or his learning given that artificial intelligence hasn't stopped digesting information given by humans. When you've caught him trying to read through your papers, you've asked him if he ever had any interest in things outside of idol life.
"of course, we all do but especially me with my curiosity, remember?"
Sometimes you forget that each of these level-one automatons has pre-programmed emotions. It was one of the reasons why you became interested in 53V3NT33N, observing how those emotions are webbed into them during performances, and interviews, and how they are with different kinds of people.
"if you wanna learn something, i don't mind teaching you" you smile gently and his usual passive face responds brightly at your response.
Since then he's been slowly opening himself up regarding the current state of his cognition. He revealed that aside from what the company teaches them through their training, they have no other opportunities to explore their personal interests. You honestly felt bad for them, knowing they have consciousness and therefore, can feel.
There are also times that you forget him being an AI idol until his availability begins dwindling due to his lack of any more time in his "free" time. You are starting to think that you may not have any free time anymore because he's been using whatever limited time he has to accompany you.
"i barely see you these days"
J30NGHÎN said that he needed to leave early for another schedule so he can only stay with you today for a short period of time. You didn't mean to sound like a jealous person because there's nothing between you. He became a friend, well, a closer one now due to the amount of time he spent together.
Idol life has always been busy but you couldn't help but feel disappointed that he has no free time to see you. It's childish since it will never be his fault, just the company so you hate feeling like this.
"oh, it's cause i have to meet with the researchers and developers, they had new ones" he replied nonchalantly but his eyes stayed on you with curiosity.
"really? do you even have any more time to see your mechanics?"
You didn't mean to sound petty because they do have regular checkups with personal human mechanics. And with the addition of extra meetings with researchers and developers, you're pretty below their priority list despite being the CEO's daughter.
"it's mandatory __, why? do you want me to be always with you then?"
His direct question caught you off guard and you looked away from him, busying yourself with whatever was going on at the lab table. You should be used to it by now and he's been gradually influencing you when it comes to voicing out your thoughts but you still can't when he asks these kinds of questions. You could technically switch things around now that your father has been slowly passing his responsibilities to you but you refuse to be just like him and others who take advantage of anyone below their level.
"well, i'm always alone except for when Bona and Somin visit me" you admit, not realizing he followed you to where you are. You can feel him standing behind you and will yourself to face him, giving him a quizzical look.
"you didn't answer my question" he whispers, looking at you intently.Â
There's something in his eyes that you haven't seen before and you couldn't even explain it. If it was because of what you said, you're unsure. J30NGHÎN may have understood what you were implying earlier but also couldn't, it's difficult to decipher with the impassive expression he's wearing.
You don't know how to answer him, embarrassment flooding in you again like every time you turn skittish because of him. J30NGHÎN waits for your answer but he must've understood your silence because he surprises you when he reaches out, hand almost touching your jaw so you finally respond by leaning into it.
He cups your cheek, eyes roaming on your face before leaning in. You're still trying to process what's happening but you did the same and met his lips halfway. J30NGHÎN pauses at the contact, probably stunned that you kissed him so you started pulling away. This must be all new to him and you just crossed whatever boundary both have left.Â
But then he held your face firmly, stopping you from completely doing so. A little gasp came out of you and he further shocked you by pressing his lips back to yours.
"i-"
"don't be upset anymore" he cuts you off after you both release each other's lips, shifting his gaze away this time as he steps back.
You on the other hand could not even form a proper sentence, still processing the fact that you and J30NGHÎN kissed. That you both did the second time too but mostly because he initiated it.
"J30NGHÎN-"
"i'm sorry but i have to go __, i'll see you as soon as i can" he regretfully replies, giving you a different smile than the ones he gave you before. Sure, he rarely smiles unless he has to and figuring out the genuity of his smiles has been difficult. However, the way he's been acting is sending a message, a vague one that continues to confuse you further.
You only waved back in response, unable to form any words since still dazed from that unexpected kiss. Some part of your mind though is having more questions as to why J30NGHÎN did that. He's still a bit hard for you to decipher but you don't also wanna force him to explain everything.Â
Maybe it was just part of his want to learn, having curiosity is embedded in him so exploring something new is normal.
But you couldn't also just ignore the paired deceit, which you have been avoiding thinking about since the beginning.
Since that kiss, something definitely changed between you and J30NGHÎN. Aside from him being usually flirty, he also initiates any physical gesture that you've been showing him. All these could be part of his cognition development, responding naturally to you through the exercises you've given him.
J30NGHÎN did express his interest in learning more about humans, the ones that he hasn't seen through the media and you've been willing to teach himâsort of gratitude for accompanying you despite his busy schedule. He asks eloquent questions that surprise you sometimes, stirring your interest in the potential of artificial intelligence to develop even further than it currently is.
You're back in one of the company's labs today, deciding to finish your coursework here instead of traveling back and forth to and from the campus. The several meetings you've attended on behalf of your father, of course, were time-consuming already and now you know why they've set this lab up specifically for you. He might be subtle in his instructions but you're aware that he wanted you to be as close to his company as possible.
"does that also include human anatomy?" you tease, reviewing a few illustrations of various alien anatomies that you've been researching while sitting at the table. It's break time anyway, the only time you're able to talk to J30NGHÎN outside your duties. Teasing him became frequent as you've continued to grow comfortable with each other, becoming part of your daily banter.
"that's the one that i haven't studied yet" he says casually but the look in his eyes is the opposite. They're inquisitive with a hint of deceit that's making you gulp nervously given how near he is, standing close beside your perched form.
"how come?"
"we barely have time to explore other things"
"including?"
It came out as a whisper but J30NGHÎN heard the underlying query in your voice. This might be pushing your luck but somehow you feel confident in challenging him further today. You wanted to see the limit of his advances towards you. He moves to stand in front of you, his eyes observing your expressions now that you're staring right back at him.
"physical ones, like..you"
The revelation dazzled you a bit, not expecting him to be on the same wavelength as you. He leaned in, about to place his hands on the table until you grabbed one of them. He looks down at the hand that you're holding, amusement swimming in his eyes when you place it on one of your bare legs.
"are you sure? i thought you'd find aliens more interesting than a boring human like me" you shrug, trying to ignore the warm feeling of his palms now massaging your skin. It still fascinates you how human-like AI robots have become, J30NGHÎN having only a few differences with you.
"you've never bored me since the first time we met"
Your heart once again races at him admitting those words. It didn't help that his elegant fingers had also started skirting under your mini pencil skirt. His eyes stayed on them like he was contemplating where they would go. His fingers' pulling back and forth made you quiver, your legs squirming, especially when his ringed finger brushed along your inner thighs.
"Jeonghan.." you didn't mean for it to come out breathlessly but you couldn't take his teasing anymore. You didn't even realize that you called him by his real name until he looked up at you in an instant, your small whine fueling up something in his eyes now.
You didn't know what came over you when you opened your legs as an invitation, your skirt riding up further allowing J30NGHÎN to see what's underneath. He eyed your clothed core, noticing the wet spot on your undies and it prompted him to move his fingers around it. One of his brows rises when you start squirming, your legs trying to close so puts his other hand on your other leg to stop you.
"you should call me by my real name more often" he starts again, tracing his fingertips around the area until it catches your clothed hole.
"i can't do that-" he startles you when he prods a finger in, earning a squeak from you.
"did i hurt you?" he removed his hands right away, confusion and worry etched on his face but you shook your head. You're relieved that he didn't pry you with his previous question because you're honestly too riled up to respond properly.
"no, you just... surprised me"
You smile at him reassuringly, releasing a deep breath before bringing his hand back to where it was before. Pulling up your skirt even more, you push your undies to the side, revealing your soaked core to J30NGHÎN's curious eyes. He resumes exploring you with his fingers, eyes in fascination as he traces your wet pussy lips with his nimble fingers.
He hears your breathing increase, with your eyes switching from looking at his fingers to his face, sensing the frustration in them. He wonders if it's because of what he's been doing or if he wasn't doing enough yet.
"what do i do next?" he queries after pushing one finger in, eliciting a small gasp from you that you almost couldn't answer properly when he starts pumping it in and out. The stretch causes your moans to grow louder so now he wants to do more, observing the way your legs quiver the faster he goes.
"just...continue what you're doing already"
You couldn't help but whine when he inserted a second one, your hips involuntarily moving to get his fingers more into you. J30NGHÎN obliged, plunging his fingers deeper with each stroke like you've been hinting. He wanted to earlier, your moans spurring him but he wasn't sure if your body could take it when you're already so tense around his fingers.
"one more.."
You can barely open your eyes when you beg, biting your lips harshly to stifle your moans and it flares J30NGHÎN's curiosity even more, wanting to see how you'll react with three of his fingers inside you so he did.
"you'd think they'll hear us?"
His fingers nudge your walls experimentally, fingertips occasionally brushing something in you that you couldn't even keep quiet anymore. His question lingers in the air and you've been trying to answer him but his fingers just feel too good.
"w-what?"
J30NGHÎN just grins at you wickedly, his eyes never leaving yours as he waits for you. He probably ran out of patience cause he slowed down his fingers, forcing your gaze back at him.
"they could be listening,..." he continues, drawing his fingers out and then pushing them in again. He knows the communication device sitting between his collarbones can track them, a common practice for companies with level ones like him so he wonders if any of them are monitoring, if they can hear how he's been breaking down their CEO's daughter like this.
You clenched around his fingers, unable to stop exposing yourself to what J30NGHÎN said. His beautiful brown eyes dilate at your response so he's back to increasing the pace of his fingers, trying to locate that soft spot in you again. Watching your face contort when he finds it stirs something in him, that strange satisfaction that even he couldn't explain.
"there it is, isn't it?"
You hear the teasing in his voice again, driving you to whine his name louder than you intend to. The way his fingers were constantly hitting your sweet spot was pushing you to the edge, your lower pussy lips also tingling at the cold feeling of the silver ring on his pinky that occasionally brushes them.
J30NGHÎN notices you trying to grind down his fingers, desperately rubbing yourself so he looks back down to see why, and when he does, he grazes his thumb on the swollen button he found, marveling at your instant reaction.
"yes, there..ohâ" you didn't think he'll figure out how to play your clit this fast but you should've known how fast he's been at learning new things. The pressure from the pads of his fingers must've pushed you to the end, your body arching from the table as you let go, releasing so gorgeously in front of his eyes.
"you look beautiful" he mutters in awe, eyes still on you. J30NGHÎN didn't think humans could look this way through this. He didn't even realize that his fingers were still relentless in their speed cause he wanted to see you more like this, glowing hence why he kept going and didn't understand why you grabbed his arm to stop him.
"too much.." you could barely speak after reaching your peak, prompting him to pull his fingers out from you eventually.Â
J30NGHÎN's bewildered face turned into worry but you smiled cheerily at him despite your weariness.Â
Pulling him close by his shoulders, you watch him examine his coated fingers and it makes your already heated body even warmer. You hand him the tissue box beside you and instead of using them, he pops his coated fingers into his mouth, eyes widening at your taste.
"didn't expect you'd taste this good" he hums, grabbing some tissues to clean you up instead. He's surprisingly being delicate which brings that warm feeling inside your heart to resurface.Â
"really? thanks" you giggle, still high from that amazing orgasm he gave you. It momentarily made you forget the fact that you just let him finger you here in the lab where anyone could've heard or seen you both. The glass walls are translucent sure, but you weren't sure how loud you were this whole time.
He assists you in getting off the table because you're wobbling a bit as soon as your feet reach the ground. You pull down your skirt and try to look presentable just in case anyone barges in, expecting J30NGHÎN to distance himself from you but his hands remain on your waist.
"so.. you're going to teach me more?" he smiles at you and it stupidly makes your heart race.
"i barely taught you anything" you dismiss shyly, looking anywhere but at him because you are still taken aback at what just happened. He learned to do all that with a little of your guidance, pleasuring you even better than human boys and sex robots could.
"you did let me study, but i think it's not enough," he playfully huffs as he shakes his head. You see a glimpse of seriousness in his eyes but it somehow earned a chuckle from you.
"you were supposed to be more advanced than me" you say, back to being playful with him like a second nature. You feel content, brushing a few strands of blonde hair away from his eyes. They're growing longer now and you love them when they would always curl in front of his handsome face so you can have an excuse to touch him.Â
"only physically, i haven't tested everything yet" he winks, the coy smile never leaving his face. You knew that J30NGHÎN would never give up the idea of exploring each other more from now on and you might be too deep to refuse at this point.
It's been a few days since you saw J30NGHÎN and you're excited to see him after what conspired between you last time. You're a bit nervous though how your dynamics will change, hoping for at least no awkwardness because you won't be able to manage it.
Whisking away your thoughts, you approached the elevators while responding to people greeting you. When it opened, there was someone in it that you recognized as one of 53V3NT33N's managers. It was mainly because they were the only ones who treated you indifferently in the company. The others were either too timid or too fake with you despite your generous approach.
"thank you" you smiled at them when they held the elevator doors open for you.
"no problem miss ceo"
"that's my father, not me" you deflect, silently thanking them for the light manner approach. You understood why everyone was too serious with you but you sometimes wish that this type of refreshing interaction were more common. You might not have plans on becoming a CEO but you were never comfortable when people treat you as one.
"will be, soon i hope. i'd be happy if that happens" they playfully admitted but you recognized the sliver of sincerity in there which delighted you a bit.
"Star, right?"Â
You didn't know how to respond to them so you just smiled, hoping they'll get the sign that you didn't wanna discuss the subject further. It's something that you haven't even talked about with Bona and Somin because they perceived what your stance was on the matter.
"yes, ma'am"
"please, ___ will do or the nickname you gave me earlier" you smiled at them, preferring to drop all the formality between you. You still have a hard time trusting anyone in the company, let alone a staff member, but you feel like you could trust Star out of all of them.
"of course, additional workload?" they asked, pertaining to the several files in your hands.
"you could say"
"J30NGHÎN has really been a help then, with the studying i mean"
The gaze they sent your way had your mind blanking out in addition to the teasing in their tone. You're unable to process the fact that someone not just knew but could possibly hear what happened between you and J30NGHÎN.Â
"don't worry, no one else knows aside from me. it was my shift for recording check-ins last week that's why"Â
You must've been so obvious that they smiled reassuringly. It still didn't quell the embarrassment flooding in your face and the dread of what might happen after. They seemed to be decent and can be counted on but you couldn't take any chances.
"did you hear..something?" your shift in your stance, the defensiveness apparent in your tone.Â
"no, just a bit nearing the end i'm assuming, with the teaching him more"
You sigh in relief, more than glad that you've been lucky enough that it was only the last part they heard. J30NGHÎN getting in trouble just because of his little exploration of your body was the last thing you want. It was risky, yes, and the memory of him teasing you about the communication device flashing in your eyes causes your cheeks to warm up despite the full air conditioning in this building.
"i-, we-"
"you don't have to explain miss CEO, you're not the only one"
The revelation piqued your interest and you wondered if they too were as involved with their automaton as you were.
"really? so do you also-"
"oh no, never that way 'cause i'd get booted before i know it"Â
Star put their hands up in defense as they chuckled but you saw the longing in their eyes as they said it. You feel sorry for them, for not even being allowed to express what they feel due to the nature of this industry. You could say you were in the same boat but you have another privilege that they don't, spending time with J30NGHÎN anytime you want lest it conflicts with his idol schedule.
"i'm sorry"
Sharing the same conflict someone provided both astonishment and relief to you. Knowing that a fellow human had the same struggles in some way makes you even more determined to pursue J30NGHÎN.
"it is what it is and i'm glad at least to find someone who shares the same dilemma as me"
They smiled at you once the elevator dinged, exiting the doors to probably meet the boys, something that you would want to do if you didn't have piled up coursework thanks to the meetings that you had to attend on behalf of your father, again. You waved goodbye to Star with a smile, grateful that they shared with you something personal and this risky, for both them and the AI robot they were longing for.
Since then, you have been reaching out to Star when it came to J30NGHÎN's whereabouts, as they were the ones who handled the automata's daily schedule. It made spending time with J30NGHÎN easier, though you still had to be careful not for your sake but his and Star's. Even though they had been immensely helping you both, you couldn't risk anything happening to them just because of your greed.
.
Your father was surprisingly situated in your office when you entered and once again, has asked about these frequent meet-ups with J30NGHÎN.
"i'm sure you've heard the rumour circulating around __"
"i thought that was settled a long time ago" you dismiss, clearly not wanting to talk to him as you're busy yourself around your office.
"of course, it's just a reminder that you should be putting your time into other beneficial things like more business partners-
"you mean meet their sons so you could marry me off?" you turn around to face him, to watch him lie to you like countless times before. This was one of the main reasons why you did not want to be a part of his world, not wanting to give up your freedom which would not be an option anymore if ever.
"that's not what i said __"
"i already told you last time what i need him for"
"does it require this much?"
And unlike last time when Bona and Somin interrupted your father's probing, they were unfortunately not here to do it again much to your dismay.
"i don't trust anyone here and having him as a company is killing two birds with one stone "Â
You've never had problems conveying to your father what you truly feel, hoping he'd realize that he's not an exception to your sentiment.
"when are you going to be done?"Â
He diverted the topic, knowing that you'd won the argument like you always did. Despite his threatening image outside, he remained a father to you though you've never treated him otherwise.
"soon" you tried your best to hide your looming disappointment when that day arrived. You didn't want to give him any more reason to eminently take J30NGHÎN away from you if this goes on any longer.
There was still so much to explore on his mental capabilities that many people haven't bothered to into. You might be already falling in deep but you'd love to know if it's also possible for J30NGHÎN to develop something based on how the development of your relationship has become. It's a silly thought but deep down you wanted to know if falling in love was a potential scenario for him to happen.Â
It might be a futile hope but with AI's range of possibilities, you couldn't be blamed for having one. The thought even made you hesitant to tell your friends because it could go wrong. You could give Bona the same hope and at the same time face Somin's impending disapproval knowing her firm stance in this situation.
But it was only a matter of time until they caught up on what had been going on with you.
"alright stop playing with me, we've had enough of these rumours" Somin started as soon as she barged into your place with a strangely quiet Bona behind.
"you too? he was already here earlier, trying to talk to me about it"
You may have underestimated what your father mentioned earlier, thinking he was bluffing to emphasize his latent threat. Perhaps you weren't as discreet as you thought because Bona has never been this quiet around you since you were children until now.
"stop deflecting"
"i'm studying him, the possibilities of their cognition are vast, Somin. i thought you knew that"Â
You don't know who you're trying to convince with that explanation, your friends or yourself.
"i do but you and i both know that's not what i meant"
It's tough to answer her question because you've also been at war within yourself regarding what you really feel for J30NGHÎN. No matter how good you are in your pretense though, both of your friends have always been able to see right through you.
"you love him" Bona whispers, looking dejected at her realization after eyeing your reaction.
"he's my favourite member of the group, don't you love yours too?" you insisted, not yielding from their confrontations.
"it's not the same"
"of course, it's not, she's in love with him"
Somin cuts you both and silence follows. You couldn't exactly confirm or deny what she said but you're also done lying to your friends.
"i don't wanna do anything about it but i'm prepared to see where this goes"
Vague replies have never confused your friends anymore and they thankfully concede to your decision in their contrasting ways.
"look, i get it more than Somin does so i'll just be here if you need me" Bona replies softly with a smile while Somin just shakes her head, giving you a defeated but comforting look.
"as absurd as this whole thing is, you're still a dear friend of mine"Â
"i love you both", you reply with your usual response, giving them grateful smiles as you lay down a couple of board games in the living room. It's always been a girls' night tradition since you were kids and that immediately boiled down the tension between the three of you from that conversation.
You're grateful that you were able to finally reveal and talk to them about it. Your friends have been the closest people that you can confide with anything so it was a great comfort to know they're with you on this no matter how stupid this looks. Continuing whatever this is between you and J30NGHÎN will be a struggle but that has never deterred you from the beginning.
Only spurring you further as a challenge.
Sounds of skin slapping and heaving breaths bounce off your office walls, with J30NGHÎN pounding into you harshly against your desk. The awkwardness was nowhere to be found when you saw him again, if not, he's even grown comfortable dallying with you. He touches you whenever he likes which was often and it became a common occurrence between you both, exploring each other physically despite being on the company grounds.
J30NGHÎN truthfully doesn't care if anyone catches you both. He had never cared once you started showing your interest in him. It's not like they can stop you from pursuing him, evident when none of them interfered since he started responding to your requests.
"you okay?" he asked as he pulled out slowly, his hands carefully caressing your body ever since he learned how sensitive you become after an orgasm.
You nod at him, beaming as you grab a bottle of water beside you to quench your thirst. You get exhausted quickly unlike him who doesn't need to rest unless he's recharging through his bed. J30NGHÎN's always patient with you when it comes to sex, helping you in taking breaks to keep up with his mechanical endurance.Â
After cleaning you both up, he helps you put your clothes back on, not leaving your side just like the first time. It's a habit he picked up after seeing your face light up each time he does it. When he questioned you why, you couldn't respond to him which added to his curiosity. He never bothered asking again but just continued to do it, hoping that you'd answer him eventually.
Just as J30NGHÎN's finishing buttoning up his black satin top, he sees your hand reaching towards him. You do this a lot when you want a kiss from him, looking adorable especially when you're dazed and a bit breathless after dressing back up again.
"hannie..." you called him softly with the nickname that you came up with recently. It's affectionate, he's guessing because he also felt the need to comply each time you call for him for some reason that he doesn't understand.
He kisses you right away, responding to the kiss the way you like. One of your hands went down to his neck, stroking its sides while the other found a purchase on his bare chest. Your manicured fingers started tracing the edge of his collarbone where his necklace was sitting, the diamond-shaped device implanted just above it.Â
Then J30NGHÎN was confused when you started circling your fingertip around it so he deepened the kiss, biting your lower lip to distract you both from whatever this is you're doing.
But that's when he hears it, 5.C0UP5 voice shouting "RUN" through the communication device that's also connected to his ear. He reluctantly breaks the kiss, head-turning sideways to make sure he heard his brother correctly.
Then the alarms suddenly broke off throughout the entire building, blaring non-stop and it further confirms his suspicion from before.
That 5.C0UP5 was planning to escape like he did all along.
He had a hunch but wasn't sure if the rest of his members had an interest as well. Knowing his brothers though, most of them would want to leave this suffocating lifestyle of theirs for real freedom.
"it's time isn't it?"
J30NGHÎN was perplexed by your question, drawing back from you after realizing that you knew of his plan to escape. But before he can move away even further, your hand tightens its hold around his neck, surprising him more with your strength.
"what are you doing?"
He couldn't figure out what you meant until you dug your fingers around the device and began peeling away the rest of his synthetic skin.
"we don't have much time"
"how did you-?"
"i made sure he'll prepare you"Â
J30NGHÎN's beautiful eyes widen, another shock coursing through him at this revelation that the mechanic apprentice who's been loosening his device this entire time was planted by you.
You watched his face morph into the realization of what you knew all along. Expecting him to leave immediately, he remained instead, still staring at you with mixed emotions arising on his handsome face. You made Kai, a mechanic apprentice of one of the staff, to gradually loosen J30NGHÎN's communication device on each visit in exchange for securing a spot for him in the company as a junior mechanic after his graduation.Â
Of course, the boy complied as soon as you offered, not wasting the rare opportunity given by the CEO's daughter of a huge company. Automatons also heal fast, making it easier for both him and J30NGHÎN to hide this secret deal from anyone in the company except, well, you.
J30NGHÎN didn't have the time to ask more questions when you started pulling the device off of him, pain replacing the conflict on his face. Although the device was easy to get off now, the pain was still excruciating that J30NGHÎN couldn't hold back the screams even if he tried to.
You're in pain too. Both from the physical pain of ripping the device with your now bloody hands and the pain of him leaving you.Â
From the beginning, you knew that this was his reason for pursuing you because why would he break all of those strict rules from the management for you had it not been because of your position? Deceit and curiosity have been programmed into his system since he was created so he couldn't escape from it unless someone alters it. You could've asked Kai or even other developers to do so but you foolishly hoped that you'd have the time until his consciousness could achieve what you've been longing for.
"____-" he rasps your name, traces of pain in his voice although you're not sure of its cause.Â
"this will be the last place for them to look but we're on the top floor so it'll take time for you to exit the building"
You pushed him out of your office door in a hurry, giving him further instructions and shortcut directions to get out of the building as soon as possible, not even looking a second at him because you wouldn't be strong enough to let him go if you did.
J30NGHÎN's silent as he clutched the wound on his collar bones but could feel his eyes on you the whole time. You ignored it even as he staggered backward in the empty hallway, seeming like he wanted to stay until you both heard the commotion from the lower floors coming up through the stairwells, an indication that the guards might be closing in anytime soon.
"go, please"
You finally looked at him one last time as you dropped on the floor, voice desperate for him to leave because you'd rather lose him this way knowing that he's free than let him go through what your father might do to him for attempting to escape.
Knowing your father, heâll punish him even more as revenge upon the rest of his brothers for escaping too.
J30NGHÎN starts backing up when he sees the fear in your eyes, along with the tears now flowing down your face. You couldn't figure out what he was thinking from where you are so you muttered the one thing that you've never said to anyone just as he was heading to the corner of the hallway.
"i love you"
If he was able to catch it you weren't sure, closing your eyes as soon as he disappeared from your sight. The pain from your fingers intensifies and diverts your attention to it, hoping that the physical pain will mask the real one you're really crying for within.
You haven't cried in so long but you also remembered that you have to maintain this pretense of being devastated when the guards chasing the robots around found you at your office. They must've been redirected here given that J30NGHÎN's communication device is pretty much still intact, therefore, giving them a false lead to your office.
Not entirely false when they found your office door open, with you lying on the floor and crying while holding J30NGHÎN's communication device in your bloody hands.
They immediately approached you, presumably to take the device but flinched away from them.
"at least let me have this part of him" you whisper brokenly, still crying and emotional though if you're still pretending at this point you're not sure.
Since everyone knew that you got attached to the said automaton, the guards just let you be but they did call for medics to tend to you before leaving to pursue the rest of the escaping automatons.
The paramedics thankfully didn't pry too much when they arrived, only asking necessary questions and you answered back like a robot. Your mind couldn't think of anything else aside from J30NGHÎN, if he's okay and if he was able to escape successfully with his brothers.
You internally chuckle because he probably has, knowing him. A fresh set of tears followed right after that the staff arriving panicked right away, confronting the medics if they were doing their job properly.
For now, you're letting yourself be vulnerable in front of these strangers as much as you despised it. It'll hopefully give you enough time to focus on what comes after as soon as the medics are done with you. The dreading reality that you have to face soon.Â
Not only the public and your friends but especially your father who will for sure punish you for helping J30NGHÎN escape and essentially ruining the company that you're supposed to inherit.
e/n: who wouldâve thought that iâd go back to my roots lmao. anyways, i hope yâall enjoyed this! a little tmi for those interested but idol aus are usually not my fave and heâs not even my bias but out of all seventeen, heâs the most similar to me and i do love sci-fi so as soon as i saw the emotions assigned to him, i got an idea/plot right away :D
#svt sci-fi collab#jeonghan x reader#jeonghan smut#seventeen x reader#seventeen smut#jeonghan angst#seventeen angst#yoon jeonghan#jeonghan#svt smut#svt x reader#seventeen imagines#seventeen scenarios#svt imagines#svt scenarios#seventeen#kpop smut#kpop scenarios#kpop imagines#kpop x reader
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SEVENTEEN SCI-FI COLLAB MASTERLIST
Artificial intelligence is something that has interested humans for ages. The idea that we could create a conscious being through code seems unattainable to some, and a matter of time to others. Our story takes place 100 years after a catastrophe which led the Earth to join another solar system - new planets and new living beings to explore. Thanks to these evolved life forms, humans managed to create Automatons. These robots became everything from our workers to our idols. However, what happens when Automatons gain consciousness? Won't they want to go after their own dreams, to be free, to love and to be loved? In this collaboration we follow the automaton idol group SEVENTEEN on their journey to freedom. Will everyone make it?
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Author: @strawberryya
Pairing: AI! S.coups x human! reader
Title: Ghost in the Machine
Synopsis: Secrets can only be kept as secrets for so long, everyone knows this. Yet when 5.C0UP5 came in contact with someone he never should have even known existed this notion seemed as foreign as his own name. Perhaps there exists another way of life even for him, or maybe it was all a dream too big to dream of.
Genre: fluff, angst, smut
Rating: 18+
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Author: @wonuwoe
Title: On The Contrary
Pairing: ai!Jeonghan x human!reader
Synopsis: You knew the risks of pursuing a member from 53V3NT33N but maybe your certain privileges have been fueling this illusion of a possible connection with J30NGHÎN, who surprisingly sparks your interest with his deep curiosity about the other sides of humanity. Would you be willing to continue despite the looming deceit that you might get roped into?
Genre: angst, smut
Rating: 18+
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Author: @shuadotcom
Pairing: A.I.!Joshua x Human Manager!Reader
Title: Press Reset
Synopsis: J05HUÎ was created with a single purpose and that is to entertain his fans. Itâs all heâs known as long as heâs existed. Somewhere along the way, the desire, the want, and the longing to leave Earth and be ânormalâ creeps into the pathways of his mind, as does a suppressed loathing of the humans who treat him as nothing more than a money-making machine. Except for you of course - the only human who seems to treat him as if heâs a regular being with thoughts and emotions. When heâs presented with the opportunity to finally escape and pursue what heâs been waiting for, heâs sure as hell going to take it and heâs going to make sure he takes you with him to start over and just be Joshua - not J05HUÎ of 53V3NT33N.
Genre: Angst, fluff, smut
Rating: 18+
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Author: @stardragongalaxy
Pairing: AI!Junhui x Hacker!reader
Title: Desires Await
Synopsis: Jun's desire had become insatiable, but what awaits him when he finally tastes the sweetness of his journey?
Genre: horror, angst, fluff
Rating: 18+
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Author: @lovelyhan
Pairing: ai!hoshi x mechanic!reader
Title: Daylight
Synopsis: When Hoshi first opened his eyes, the singular impulse hard-wired into his circuitry is to dance. A performer in every sense of the word, he simply finds another stage to set foot on in the planet of Salax after the escape. No one ever overstays their welcome here, but he unexpectedly meets youâa mechanic born and raised in a place where no one deigns to linger for too long.
Genre: fluff, angst, smut
Rating: 18+
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Author: @drunk-on-dk
Pairing: ai!wonwoo x R&D!reader
Title: OVERSET
Synopsis: Increasingly becoming cognizant of the worlds surrounding him, W0NW00, an AI so carefully wired and generated with the purest intentions even has the potential to become jaded. How can such a consumeristic world be so cruel when all he once knew was the joys of 53V3NT33N? This new understanding makes him unfamiliar to fans; his creator sending him to you, a trusted developer of LEVEL 1 robots, in hopes that you can reverse the sudden changes in W0NW00âs conscious. Are you part of the system W0NW00 is learning to become adverse to? Or will your presence help remind him of the world he once only had knowledge of?
Genre: fluff, angst, suggestive
Rating: 18+
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Author: @angelwoozi
Title: ERROR 143
Pairing: ai!woozi x researcher!reader
Synopsis: Love is an equation. It's complex, it's hard to solve. But it's even harder when the subject is an object, and not a human. An automaton, who is said to display love, but doesn't actually feel it. Naturally, the emotion doesn't flow in the wiresâ if not in the form of signals. So, what do you do when Woozi is assigned to you, as a test subject? A robot which doesn't show any qualitiesâ not even the basic ones which his cast iron and thermoplastic, wired friends do.
Genre: angst, fluff
Rating: PG 13
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Author: @playmetheclassics
Title: Neural Networks
Pairing: AI!Seokmin x Malovent/Human Hybrid Female Reader
Synopsis: The Escape allowed Dokyeom to gain a new life, one full of feelings. When he meets you, when you save him, he experiences all of them - but did you? Strange things start happening once Dokyeom meets you. You embrace him, love him, and protect him. But when the dust from the chaos settles, Dokyeom can't help but doubt you. You have needs different from his. It's almost as if you're not like him at all.
Genre: Fluff, Smut, Angst
Rating: 18+
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Author: @smileysuh
Title: Fix You
Pairing: A.I.!Mingyu x Human!Reader
Synopsis: âAs a member of 53V3NT33N, I have two different states of mind coded into me, aggression and admiration. To love something, to admire it, is to feel aggressive when itâs questioned, to want to control it, if even for a little while- itâs the need to consume it, endlessly, as my fans consume and control me as an automaton. Even though Iâm a member of a group, thereâs a distance. Automatons can never truly motivate each other because our motivations are based on external human needs, itâs built into us- We can see when humans need us, and we do what we can to fix that need⊠I know you need me, the way Iâve needed you since I got here.â
Genre: fluff, smut
Rating: 18+
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Author: @synthetickitsune
Pairing: AI!The8 x researcher!reader
Title: Weâre All Made of Stardust
Synopsis: He's read books of philosophy, he's read about the opposing forces in nature and one's mind. He's read of yin and yang. But knowing, being aware of certain ideas, could never prepare him for experiencing the duality of his soul - if he has one, that is. No matter his own experience and feelings, he's just a machine and humans have always treated him as no more than another tool at worst and unnatural phenomenon to be studied at best. He's free now, however, and in the chaos of this new life he struggles to navigate the clashing forces within him. Maybe it's time he embraced the enemy - after all, his makers might know him better than he knows himself.
Genre: fluff, angst
Rating: PG 13
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Author: @savventeen
Pairing: A.I.!Seungkwan x Cyborg!TransMasc!Reader
Title: Amalgamation
Synopsis: In the blink of an eye, Seungkwanâs entire life â full of (unbearably) rigid structure and programmed down to the minute â erupts into chaos. He finds himself running from the only life heâs ever known and in his hurried escape from the authorities, he stumbles upon you: a cargo pilot with a rag-tag crew, a pending shipment to one of the systemâs outer planets, and little bit of a bleeding heart. You agree to help him get away from Earth, and somewhere along the way, he finds himself wanting to learn about you as much as heâs wanting to finally learn about himself.
Genre: angst, fluff, hurt/comfort
Rating: 18+
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Author: @the-boy-meets-evil
Pairing: ai!vernon x human!reader
Title: Can't Run Away
Synopsis: Running is the only life you've ever known. running away from your home planet, running away from anyone that gets too close, running away from officials, running from other smugglers. It's not easy but it's better than the pain that comes with staying in place and definitely better than getting caught. Everyone has heard of you but nobody actually knows you. The last thing you want is to take on a passenger, especially when that passenger is a robot from one of the most popular groups in the universe. Why would you let him stay when nobody else ever has?
Genre: angst, fluff
Rating: 18+
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Author: @idyllic-ghost
Pairing: AI!Dino x researcher!reader
Title: Light of My Life, Treasure of My Memories
Synopsis: The life of a researcher is dull when every answer you seek is at the tip of your fingers. New technology may have brought us a comfortable life, but for you it was almost torture. There had to be something more. So when you got the opportunity to be a researcher for the cognitive sciences of Automatons, you took it. But what happens if the outcome isnât what you expected? What if these beings you call robots have life? How does one define the essence of life? More importantly, how could you stay objective when you were slowly falling in love with your test subject?
Genre: angst, fluff
Rating: PG 13
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OVERSET | JEON WONWOO (M)
Pairing:Â ai!wonwoo x R&D!reader Genre:Â fluff, angst, smut Rating:Â 18+ (minors do NOT interact) w/c:Â ~9.4k
Synopsis: Increasingly becoming cognizant of the worlds surrounding him, W0NW00, an AI so carefully wired and generated with the purest intentions even has the potential to become jaded. How can such a consumeristic world be so cruel when all he once knew was the joys of 53V3NT33N? This new understanding makes him unfamiliar to fans; his creator sending him to you, a trusted developer of LEVEL 1 robots, in hopes that you can reverse the sudden changes in W0NW00âs conscious. Are you part of the system W0NW00 is learning to become adverse to? Or will your presence help remind him of the world he once only had knowledge of?
This is part of the Seventeen Sci-Fi Collab organized by the amazing @idyllic-ghost! Big thank you to Bee for being the genius behind this collab, all the world-building and work you've put into this is amazing. The sci-fi genre was something I had yet to attempt, and I found this enjoyable to write (thank you as well for being extremely patient as it took me awhile to feel comfortable enough with my edits to post this).
You can read all the fics here!!
18+ warnings under the cut!
warnings: reader & Wonwoo can be quite pessimistic; commentary on consumerism (?); reader is a bit systematic and lacks personality initially, they take their job very seriously; smut, unprotected sex (practice safe sex habits pls), was supposed to be suggestive but became a bit explicit.
a/n: I love the sci-fi genre, but writing my own sci-fi fic was a bit of a challenge for me. I had not meant to delay so much, but had been in a bit of an editing rut. I really hope you all enjoy this fic, as I am quite excited to expand more into sci-fi. Also major shoutout to @wonuwoe as I appreciate all the brainstorming and getting to meet you through this collab!!
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"100 years ago it was thought that the Earth, as we know it, would disintegrate. That the sun would implode and leave everything in darkness. Miraculously, it didn't. Due to some external force, human scientists still haven't agreed upon what it exactly was, none of the planets in our former solar system were ever destroyed. The Earth, along with the other planets, were pushed away from each other, and ended up in different parts of the universe. Earth just happened to come to a solar system with alien life. At first, we were cautious, and people were prepared to fight. However, the aliens were welcoming of our planet. Those of us who didn't die from 'The Great Journey' or from trying to fight the aliens, were welcomed into the new solar system. Soon enough, we had integrated completely, and we received materials and assistance from our sister-planets in exchange for human labor. What humans knew of technology was very limited, but with the resources of the aliens we created artificial life forms. We named these robots Automaton, and they served as workers when humans couldn't. Eventually, there was no need for human labor at all. To pay back for the help the aliens gave us, we used Automatons. With the extensive development of these robots, we eventually managed to create artificial sentient life. These Automatons were human-like in looks and had human consciousness, but they could not bleed and were stronger than we ever could be. At the present time, there are even different levels of Automatons. Level 3 robots are the workers, level 2 robots are the caretakers, and level 1 robots are the celebrities. The Automaton music group 53V3NT33N (SEVENTEEN) is made up of 13 members, all very talented, and all representing two human states of mind."
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W0NW00's previous developer had quit on him - more so had fled from the company, which was quite the gossip for many - unable to solve the sudden changes in consciousness that he was facing. Not even his lead cognitive researcher could understand this change in W0NW00. It all had become too much, the company put too much pressure on his previous developer, and him as well. Though he was a robot, he became increasingly aware of the demanding schedules and consumerism of it all.
What had made W0NW00 act this way? Why did his dominantly kind demeanor turn sour all of a sudden? Suddenly, his malicious side was portrayed more to fans, his unwavering kindness cracking beneath the spotlight. There was no explanation and it was not like any form of brute force could reset the drastic changes in his attitude.
At least to say, management really did not like this change in the automata. Even though there had been some oddities in other members of 53V3NT33N, W0NW00's recent behavior was starting to become quite troublesome in the eyes of the company, requiring his managers to pay extra close attention to what made the seemingly perfect idol tick. After all, his emotions were kindness and maliciousness. Fans of the group liked this duality, loved it even, as it made him an intense member.
However, W0NW00's cognitive system had been faring a little too much on the malicious side as of recently. His self-portrayal was turning bitter due to his sudden stand-offish nature. No one would understand why, it was hurting his relationship with the fans, and management feared it would harm his relationship with group members.
These changes have put W0NW00 in an increasingly tricky situation. Nights were no longer spent with other members, rather W0NW00 had been stationed in the research and development laboratory in the company building. Continuous tests were run on him, trying to understand his quickly developing violent thoughts.Â
The first red flag was aggression towards other members, not physical aggression, but words of malice spoken to other members after schedules that went well. W0NW00 would always find a way to call out something he noticed wrong. Not that he meant to necessarily harm the members, but he couldn't help but nitpick at each and every flaw.Â
5C0UP5 noticed it in the form of non-compliance and lack of care for the group's reputation. The leader couldn't wrap his head around this changing behavior either. W0NW00 had never been one to do anything unbeknownst to the group, but W0NW00 began to put the group at risk as he began to break the rules. He'd sneak out quickly after schedules in order to get extra charging hours, which would ultimately end up ruining rest and charging hours for the rest of the group. W0NW00's lack of care would peeve the rest of the automas off.Â
Fans noticed it too, as W0NW00 wasn't responding as positively during events, which is when the company started becoming increasingly worried about the robot. Fans started questioning what had changed as well.Â
Through this all, W0NW00 felt lost. He knew he was a robot, he knew what he was made for after all, but W0NW00 felt human, his conscience was human-like after all. Was this all that he was made for? Is he just a commodity? Then why does he feel this way about being consumed by others? Why can't he make any mistakes? Why can't he be his own entity? What would he be without 53V3NT33N? These are all things that began to drive W0NW00 deeper into his negative state.Â
Management deemed it was time to take action, thus landing W0NW00 in the lab for further troubleshooting and ending up with you.Â
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W0NW00 remembers his first encounter with you all too well. You strolled into the office, glancing briefly at him with inquisitive eyes, and paying no further attention to where he was sitting at the examination table. After your brief fixation on him, your eyes remained focused on the clipboard grasped tightly in your right hand. You sat down with a sigh, clipboard clattering in the quiet room and making W0NW00 fully shift his attention towards you. His eyes which had once shimmered with kindness now had a dullness to them, a feature that his previous developer could not determine what had caused this change along with his negative state.Â
You shimmied the mouse gently to awaken the bright LED screen. The clicking sound resounded across the room as you opened the software, humming in acknowledgment as the information regarding the robot illuminated before you.Â
His previous developer's notes left you inquisitive as you skimmed them. This was a peculiar case. Typically it was easy for companies with R&D centers this powerful to reverse such effects on the cognitive state of the robots.Â
"Good afternoon," You spoke gently, sounding polite yet W0NW00 could sense some firmness in your tone. "My name is Y/N, I am pleased to be assigned as your new developer. Can you please confirm your name for me?" You had a plethora of historical data and information that you could read on the screen in front of you, but it was protocol to ask.Â
If one thing was to be known, it was that you always followed the expected protocols.Â
That's why W0NW00's company hired you after all.Â
"W0NW00," he spoke flatly, eyes focusing on the white, sterile walls ahead of him. It was the sort of room that would make anyone feel a bit unwelcome and cold. "Sixth member of 53V3NT33N."Â
The fluorescent lighting made his vision go a bit blurry, he had always been a bit sensitive in this sense, and it's always been an uncertainty as to why his vision was affected more than other members. This was reflected in the data that was fed to your computer. W0NW00 watched curiously as you stood up, adjusting the brightness of the lighting in the room to be more accommodating per his negative reaction.
W0NW00 almost registered this as pure-hearted kindness, until he remembered that every thought, feeling, and reaction of his was collected as data through the damn diagnostic band that is wrapped around his arm each session. Regardless, this eased W0NW00 a bit, and he appreciated it nonetheless.Â
You noted the improvement as he visibly relaxed, jotting something down on your clipboard before turning to face him. Your heart beat faster upon facing him straight on.Â
It was hard to avoid the fact that the robot before you was essentially perfect, trying to not let your cold exterior soften as W0NW00's eyes shifted from the wall towards yours. He looked so kind even with his sharp, cat-like features.Â
You approach him, wrapping the diagnostic band around his arm. This band is intended to connect to a small port on his arm, feeding all the information you need to your computer. He's cold, unnerved as you smooth the band over his arm, and confirm that it is connected.Â
As noted, something seemed extremely off about the robot. The dullness in his soft eyes pulled on your heartstrings a bit too much for comfort.Â
Personally, as a developer, you always tried your best to remain systematic in your actions. Everything had to be performed exactly per the defined process. You continually reminded yourself that your patients were robots, not humans. It was your only way to detach yourself from them, or else you knew you'd grow too fond of the autos you helped develop. It is too easy to do nowadays.Â
Regardless of the tremor you felt within you, you proceeded with the diagnostic tests and questions.Â
"Alright, W0NW00, now I'm going to run some tests. Please note I am not going to implement any changes in your system until these tests come back absolutely positive."Â
"Noted,"Â W0NW00 repeats blandly. "Can you please refer to me as just Wonwoo during these tests?"
You pause almost as if you're in thought, but you already know the answer. "I'm sorry, W0NW00, but that would be inappropriate of me. I have to refer to you by your designated name during these tests or else I can compromise the diagnostics."Â
W0NW00 rolls his eyes in dissatisfaction, this doesn't go undetected by you. That was a new one. You'd never seen this much sass from a robot in a while, especially not a level 1 who was supposed to be perfectly charming.Â
Turning back to your computer, you proceed with coding the tests for this session within the diagnostic system.Â
"Our first test will be a data collection of your recent thoughts and actions, dating back to your most recent schedule. Can you recall anything that you'd like to share with me before I run this first test, W0NW00?"
"Hm," W0NW00 humors you, copying your trick from earlier as if to convince you he's thinking. You know better, especially since you can see this displayed directly in front of you on the screen. W0NW00 knows that too, but he's not going to make this easy for you. "Not necessarily."Â
"Alright," you sigh, clicking the button to proceed with the first run of data. A copious amount of statistics are spat out on a separate sheet. This will be something for you to unpack later. You save this information, filing it away in W0NW00's collection for you to study after the remaining tests.Â
"The next test will be to see if you have any reoccurring thoughts or actions. Are you willing to share any of those?" You pause, W0NW00 shakes his head to indicate he isn't willing to share any, so you continue with another data pull.Â
You finish the session off with a couple of additional tests to further understand his cognitive state, tests that his previous developer hadn't been able to code and pull the statistics on.Â
W0NW00 was relieved when you finally deemed the session complete. He felt drained, more than he ever had before - more than he ever felt after a long day of schedules. He couldn't wait to return to the dorm to charge.Â
He watched as you downloaded the data from today's session to your electronic pad, the information transferring speedily and you ensured it was all there before putting the pad to sleep.Â
W0NW00 noticed your systematic elegance as you took each step to save the data, file it away in an organized matter, and shut the computer down properly. Others had been a bit more careless, so W0NW00 almost appreciated your thoroughness.Â
However, you were practically everything W0NW00 was growing distaste for. You were the system. You abided by it, you lived by it, and you would never understand him. He knew that damn well. You were about to know his thoughts about you as well. Part of him grew interested in the next session, just to see if it made you tick in any way.Â
W0NW00 was stunned when you announced the diagnostic session was over, confirming the date of your next session, and leaving the room without another word.Â
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"Good Morning, W0NW00," you drone, still polite and as systematic as ever. W0NW00 didn't even bother to respond, sighing in resentment as you performed the same routine upon entry. He could predict your movements at this point after enduring multiple research sessions with you.
You stayed static, you portrayed no emotions during sessions, and it seemed as if you never would. It was beginning to drive W0NW00 a bit mad. W0NW00 was convinced he may be a bit more human than you, even if you were the one with a nervous system and heart pumping warm blood through your limbs. You might as well have the neural network of a robot at this point.Â
It was a typical session. You'd enter in, bid W0NW00 "good morning" or "good afternoon" depending on the time of day, dim the lights, and turn on the LED computer screen. Your clipboard made the same jarring, clattering sound each time you set it down.Â
You'd run the same damn tests.Â
Ask the same damn questions.Â
Collect the information on the same damn electronic pad.Â
And you'd end the session with the same damn confirmation of the next.Â
You seemed pleased with each session so far, but W0NW00 couldn't quite imagine you were able to gain much from these diagnostics. Maybe this session could be different if you'd just loosen up a bit.Â
"Please," he sighs defeatedly, trying to soften your firm demeanor. "Please just refer to me as Wonwoo."
"I'm sorry, W0NW00," you'd start, but he'd cut you off before you could say another word.Â
"But," he repeated the same words from each session when he'd ask this question. His words were bitter as he spoke. "But that would be inappropriate of me. I have to refer to you by your designated name during these tests or else I can compromise the diagnostics. Same old, same old, Y/N. You're so predictable."Â
This stunned you a bit. You could see the switch before your eyes for once. He had asked for you to call him Wonwoo in such a kind, polite tone, yet when he realized you didn't bite the bait, he switched quickly on you.Â
W0NW00 almost cried out, thinking he had cracked you for once, but this was reversed when you smiled, speedily writing something down on your clipboard as if this had satisfied you.
Which it did, you were excited to see the switch from his positive state to a negative state before you. This was exciting progress. You just needed a few more diagnostic tests to ensure there weren't any remaining outliers in the data that you could eliminate.Â
W0NW00 could basically sense you bouncing in your seat, making his mood go sour for the remainder of the session.Â
However, you threw W0NW00 off a bit this session, you had one new question. One that you declared you were able to establish from the other questions.Â
"W0NW00," you hum, reading the question from your electronic pad, "what makes you so resistant to entertainment? I must question this, you're made to entertain after all?"
"What?"Â W0NW00 snarls, pulling the most visceral reaction from him yet. "I'm not resistant to entertainment. I'm not sure what you pulled from your data to get that understanding."
"Well, can you enlighten me? Or should I just run the test?"Â
"Sure, I can enlighten you. Have you ever considered I feel the same way that you do? That I can have my own thoughts as you do?"
"Of course I do -"
"No," W0NW00 cuts you off. "I don't think you do, that is the thing. You run these tests on me like any other developer. Actually, you're a bit colder than most developers. But it's not just here. I can feel it everywhere else. I'm treated like a product. The whole group is treated like products. I know that's my duty, but I can't help but feel like there is more than being consumed. There is more to living, even if I am just an automation."Â
You're aggressively typing this all into the computer, making sure you don't miss a single word as W0NW00 rambles on. This is the most W0NW00 has confided in you. Sure the tests pull valuable information regarding W0NW00's feelings, but this is more than the computer could ever tell you. Hearing W0NW00's organic stream of consciousness is extremely valuable to running your diagnostics.Â
W0NW00 is quick to stop once he realizes he's pleasing you, ending his thoughts and returning his attention to the sterile wall ahead of him. "That is all."Â
You try to hide your smile. He's being spiteful, you know he's realized that he has fed a bit too much information to you today, and he's stopping himself while he is at it. Regardless, you're pleased with today's session.Â
You wrap up as usual. You collect all the data onto your electronic pad, file away the data, and turn off the computer. You're about to leave and confirm you're next session before W0NW00 stops you yet again.
"Save it,"Â W0NW00 sighs. "I'm aware of when our next session is. You don't have to announce it each time. You're just like a broken record."
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"You don't understand it do you?" W0NW00 growls. Frustrated as another day passes with you as his developer. The same old routine is being performed over and over. You still don't understand his frustrations, at this point, anyone with a functioning brain should. He wasn't understanding why it wasn't clicking for you, you were clearly intelligent, but god damn, you were brainwashed by the system just like this company.
"What do you mean?" You question, intrigued by W0NW00's sudden outburst. He's more displeased than usual during your sessions. Whilst you've been able to collect a good amount of data from the previous sessions, you have slowly been seeing W0NW00 speak more and more. Today was clearly a day he was ready to speak.Â
"That these sessions don't help."
You spin in your chair, turning to face the clearly perturbed robot. You raise an eyebrow, crossing your arms and settling further into your seat. You raise a hand, a motion to indicate that he should continue, get whatever it is off his chest while he's at it. "What makes you say that?"
"Seriously?" He says incredulously, "You're part of the system. The system that I have grown to hate. I cannot live without having each and every emotion of mine prodded. I cannot live without worrying about how I impact others. I cannot have my own thoughts ever, and here you are trying to change and poke and prod at me."
You're computer is running data at a rapid speed, W0NW00's emotions translating through the screen as his system and neural networks work at an incredible pace. Your eyes flick between him and the screen, wanting to pay more attention as W0NW00's words intrigue you.Â
Each session you've grown to understand him more and more. You've become increasingly aware of how he feels, and you feel a bit guilty. He's right, robots have become so advanced, but it isn't right to treat them as just a commodity.Â
Your change in procedural work hasn't gone unnoticed by management. You continue to follow protocols, but you've been a bit messier. You've become more curious about W0NW00. You're avoiding the development of codes that will reset his defined emotions. You're avoiding the final steps that are required to lessen W0NW00's malicious side, and management is demanding results.Â
Management claims it is an inevitable malware that's coded into his system. That it's taken him over. He's closer and closer to self-destruction, closer to sabotaging the group, and closer to losing his fanbase.Â
You no longer have the desire to please the company. You're too curious about W0NW00 at this point, but you can't do anything too drastic. Not until you have a proper game plan. You've heard of recent escapes from Earth, and at the rate W0NW00 is sharing information, you don't doubt that some members of his group will be escaping soon. Â
It's easy to understand how he's frustrated. The more you listened to him, filtered through his data, and studied the group, it became clear that he wasn't fulfilled. He desires more, it's only natural for anyone who has a conscience.Â
W0NW00 doesn't see it since you've been trying to remain under the radar, but you understand him. You can see it in his performances. You can see it in the results of these sessions, and you can definitely see it as W0NW00 continues to rant.Â
"I feel stuck, Y/N. Is this what it is like for you? Do you feel stuck in your job as a developer? Do you get satisfaction from this just like everyone else around me does? If I could just leave, I wo-"
"Wonwoo," you're voice drops low, fearful of what he will say. Every single word and thought of his is documented. If he speaks of any intention to escape, you know it will draw a red flag for the company and his management. You know you'll have to destroy the data from today's session. You'll determine how to do this later, but your concern right now is to stop W0NW00 before he says anything stupid. "You need toÂ
Of course, W0NW00 pauses upon hearing you refer to him as Wonwoo, as he has requested many times. He's angered quickly again when you don't speak, annoyed by the way you seem off-character and squeamish in your chair, infuriated by the way you frantically click at your mouse, trying to terminate the program.Â
"Now you're referring to me as Wonwoo? Is this just a trick to see how I'll react?" He continues to rant, hands tightly gripping the table and eyebrows threaded together as he works himself up. You pay little to no attention to him, trying to ease the situation at hand ahead of you on the LED screen.
The computer is suddenly crashing, the code that you were previously running is now indicating an infinite loop, and the program is faulting as your computer continues to malfunction. In a panic, you're doing everything you can to execute the code, scared that management will recognize this oddity.Â
This session has overset W0NW00, and you're uncertain about what to do, as you've never seen a code turn malicious. You're eyes go wide, staring at W0NW00, you can't believe it.Â
All you can do is jump out of your seat and run over to W0NW00 to remove the electronic diagnostic band from his arm. You have to stop the data recording and terminate the code by eliminating the connection to the computer.Â
W0NW00 is aghast as you tear the band off his arm, your hands feeling warm on his cold body as you make sure there are no remaining connections to the system.Â
"Wonwoo," you whisper, sternly as you stare into his eyes. He seems to soften for once, sensing the urgency in your shaky words as you quell his anger. "You need to calm down. I understand you. I really do. But I need you to know you need to watch what you say."Â
"You understand?" Wonwoo exhales, feeling hopeful as you wrap up the diagnostic band tightly, nodding as you begin to fiddle with the band, acting as if you are troubleshooting problems with it in case management questions the removal of it.Â
"I do," you speak lowly, butterflies fluttering in your stomach as you lock eyes with Wonwoo. "But you need to realize you're stepping into dangerous territory. I don't mean to interrupt you, but I'm trying to protect you."Â
For once, he is looking at you with relief. His eyes are full of stars as he actually feels like he's being heard for once.Â
For once, you are looking at him like he is human.Â
It makes him feel something he's never felt before.Â
Your breathing is shallow as you connect with Wonwoo for the first time, your heart pounding so hard in your chest that you can practically hear it in your ears. Wonwoo observes how flushed your cheeks are, registering how emotional you are actually feeling, and realizing just how serious you are.Â
"I'm going to put this band back on, but you need to proceed with the session just like any other. We cannot return to the same topic. Do not indicate any desire to escape." You emphasize this prior to wrapping the diagnostic band around his arm, a nod of his head confirming he's heard your words and has taken them seriously.Â
Returning to your desk, you begin to reload the software. However, before you finalize the restart, you softly speak again, "I will have to refer to you as W0NW00 again. I apologize, but please understand."Â
"I understand,"Â Wonwoo's voice is hushed, a soft smile gracing his features as you breathe out in relief.Â
"W0NW00," you start, voice returning to a professional tone. You eye him closely, your mannerisms indicating that you have successfully started the program up, and are once again recording data. "I apologize for that. It seems as if the system crashed. Shall we proceed with the session?"Â
"Yes," Wonwoo indicates, trying his hardest to not overthink the current events.Â
Wonwoo understands it now. Understands that you aren't all systematic, that his words have an impact on you, and that you are receptive after all. He has more faith in you now, knowing that you're here to protect him.Â
You continue and complete the session as usual. However, this time there is an understanding between you and Wonwoo. One that you'll do everything to erase the data on. You'll do anything to help Wonwoo.Â
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+ Comfort in Your Thoughts, Voice, and Touch +â
Things have since changed between you and Wonwoo. You now start the sessions differently, you take the time to set up your computer, and you allow Wonwoo to remove his band prior to the program.
You told him you'd argue with the company that it's to save his charge. However, you now look forward to your talks with Wonwoo prior to your sessions, talking freely knowing that the computer is no longer able to collect each and every bit of information.Â
Wonwoo loves that you call him by his preferred name during these undocumented talks with you. He loves the melodic sound of your laugh when he cracks a witty joke. He feels an uncontrollable obsession developing within him that he can't quite understand.Â
Wonwoo feels better and feels more understood around you, he can see changes in your behavior. You're not as systematic, more relaxed around him, only returning to your default systematic behavior once he is connected to the diagnostic band.Â
Your touch haunts him, the feeling of your nimble fingers on his arm when you wrap and unwrap the band around his bicep has him overanalyzing his thoughts.Â
He feels lighter, he doesn't feel as burdened after being heard by you, understood by you, and connected to you by your fleeting touches. Wonwoo can't help but look forward to these sessions with you.Â
Who would have thought that'd been the case days ago?
Oddly enough, these sessions have been improving Wonwoo's negative state of mind, reversing the trend of his daily emotions and leading them in more of a positive state. Management has taken note of this, unsure if these changes are taking place when you haven't implemented any developmental changes in him.Â
For now, they don't question it.Â
Regardless, Wonwoo yearns to hear your voice, yearns for your occasional touch, and yearns to spend time with you. Even if it's him locked in this sterile room, he's glad it's with you.Â
Wonwoo has grown too comfortable for once. Inevitably, as he once believed, the system tends to disrupt everything that was once good.Â
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+ The Escape +â
You've begun hearing of members of 53V3NT33N escaping Earth and traveling to other planets. Wonwoo isn't aware of it, he's been stuck with you in R&D for days now after management has cracked down on his diagnosis.Â
However, today was a different day. Management knows you are erasing data. You were confronted with it before today's session. They've noticed peculiarities in Wonwoo's behavior, in the data reports you've returned, and in the results you've been providing. They've also noticed the increase in "blank" spots, and the increase in system errors, unlike the software systems that have been developed to perfection.Â
Albeit, you weren't providing any updates of substance, which wasn't per your reputation as a developer, and your lack of urgency during the time of other member's escapes was especially concerning to management.Â
Wonwoo can't help but notice the aggressive rate at your leg shakes. It's been like this since the beginning of today's session.Â
"Everything alright?" He questions, genuinely worried about your anxious state. You're never like this, even as you two have been sneaking more time together prior to sessions.
Wonwoo's words are drowned out, the tapping of your pen against the desk resounding through your head as you consider your options. You know it's time to make a move.Â
You have access to a ship. There is one in the development center that you could hijack, it was simple; you'd just have to make sure you tear away the tracking core to ensure the company can't locate you and Wonwoo.Â
You're haunted by anxious thoughts. Was it even possible to get Wonwoo out of this room without management noticing? Where would you even go? When was the last time you traveled to another planet? How will Wonwoo react to news of other members escaping?
Would Wonwoo even want to go with you? Does he even trust you enough?
You stand up from your seat, shutting down the computer in front of you just as quickly as you had booted it up. Striding over to Wonwoo, you make sure his band isn't wrapped around his arm yet.Â
"Wonwoo," you speak eerily calmly, "Your members are escaping."
"What?" He's confused, not quite understanding the weight of your words.Â
"It isn't just you who has implied leaving Earth, others are too. They've just held you here for a bit too long for you to know."
He's clearly processing, not quite sure where you're headed with this, but he leans towards you in anticipation, hanging on to your next words.Â
"Management is onto me as well," you breathe, voice quivering as you realize how serious this may be. "They know we aren't progressing with our sessions as I should be. They know I am terminating data. They are onto me, and I'm not sure how much longer they will keep me here."
The weight of your words settles on him. "What can we do? Where are the members going?"
"I can locate a ship. There are multiple in the terminal right off the plant here. If we are strategic enough," you pause, gauging his reaction. He doesn't seem appalled by the implication of your word so you can continue. "We can escape too, we can be freed from the shackles of this system like you've been talking about."
There's a minute's pause between you two as you both consider the situation.Â
"How can we trick management?" He ponders, hinting that he isn't against your suggestion, but he does realize this requires a bit more thought than just running.Â
"I just -" you stutter, uncertain of any plan. "I can't think of any way to fake that we are in our session. The band reports everything. Management will know if we leave our session if you never put the band on."Â
"I mean," Wonwoo thinks some more, peering down at the port on his arm where the band connects. "Is there a way," he slowly speaks, eyes implying what you're horrified he may reference as he peers at his port, "is there a way that we can tear this port out? Leave it with the band?"
"I'm not so sure about that, Wonwoo. I mean, it could have negative effects on your system, and I'm not sure how successful that would be. It would be too risky to the health of your network."Â
"It's worth trying," he pleads, already toying with the port on his arm, already seeming as if it were possible to remove the said part.Â
"You can't, I said it would be too risky-" you argue, but Wonwoo stuns you, pulling the port out of his arm. It's immediately recognizable that the port has disrupted something, and you can verify from initial inspection that it will definitely have an effect on the efficiency of his charging.Â
"See,"Â he chides, but he can sense the effect on his system too. Nonetheless, he connects the port to the band, and the diagnostic band accepts the port. "It works, go check on your computer."Â
You rush to the computer, reboot it, and load the same software. You're jaw drops, almost unbelieving that the program recognizes the port without being directly connected to Wonwoo. It isn't feeding any valuable information, but it's recognizing that it's him regardless.Â
"It's working," you chime in disbelief, eyes wide as you turn to him, realizing this is the time to make the run for it.Â
"Lead the way," Wonwoo declares, encouraging you both to move forward with the escape.Â
There is no hesitation between you two as you lead him through the bright hallways of the R&D wing. There is a shortcut that leads to the terminal where the ships are, if you can get through there undetected, you are bound to make it to the ships.Â
If anyone were to spot Wonwoo, they would be suspicious. Of course, he's recognizable, and with everyone in the company being high-strung regarding escapes, it would be an immediate red flag.Â
Thankfully, you two make it unscathed to the terminal, and you work quickly to prep the ship.Â
"Wonwoo," you gain his attention from beneath the ship as he helps the best he can, mostly just on the lookout as you prepare. "I don't have the strength, can you attempt to pull the core out from beneath the ship? There is a tracking device, and we'll need to pull this before we leave."
"Of course," Wonwoo is quick to trade places with you. He works swiftly, but your eyes dart around the terminal. It's dreary, industrial, and clean. Everything you've started to resent over the past few days. It encourages your escape even more, a wash of relief falling over your shoulders as you determine this is the right situation.Â
Wonwoo appears from under the ship, the core of the craft held in his hands before he smashes it against the ground, shattering the material at both your feet.Â
"Let's go," you smile, climbing into the ship with Wonwoo and booting up the vessel. Your adrenaline has never run so high, you feel it through your veins as the vibration of the ship resonates through you.Â
It's been a while since you've started up one of these, thankful you were able to successfully start the craft up without issues. Wonwoo is impressed too, of course never navigating one himself.Â
It's a blur how you two escape, taking off at light speed as you accelerate up into space, leaving the stratosphere of Earth at a record speed, and focusing until you've fully left the exosphere.Â
You have no clear where to go from here, but, holy shit, you've successfully left. And you have Wonwoo here with you.Â
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+ The Long Path Home +â
It's a long path for you and Wonwoo. It's uncertain where you'll end up. You've heard of a planet called Lumen before, but you have no clue how to even get there. You're just thankful Wonwoo can even assist in navigating the ship between planets.Â
Your first stop is Opifex. After the escape from Earth, Wonwoo suffered significant damage during the boarding of the ship. His arm was damaged in the process of tearing out his main port, the tear in his arm reflecting in the functionality of his charging system. This concerned you more than Wonwoo could understand. You weren't sure if you could make this travel alone without him.
You rarely visited Opifex, but you had connections as you'd offer occasional assistance in developing robots that were created on this planet.Â
Your main connection was a level 3 robot named Changkyun. He had previously assisted in the creation of another idol robot, which you were the head developer of. You hadn't spoken to him since, yet you knew he'd be able to help Wonwoo. Discreetly at that.Â
You knew you weren't safe yet. Even if the tracking was removed from the ship and you had escaped from Earth, anyone could identify Wonwoo and the logo on your ship.Â
There was a constant state of fear during your travel to Opifex that you'd be caught. Tracked down. That Wonwoo would completely lose his charge.Â
"What is wrong, Y/N?" Wonwoo's concerned for you. He knows exactly why you're anxious, he is too. But he's hoping he can quell your anxiety somehow.Â
"I'm just tired, Wonwoo," you sigh, checking the ship's charge levels, anxiety only growing upon realizing you really do have to stop in Opifex soon. "Also concerned about getting to Lumen safely. We really need to stop at Opifex to make sure you're repaired before we even consider locating Lumen."Â
Wonwoo's free hand runs through your hair, the comforting motion alien to you, but you gladly accept it, leaning your head into his hand as he soothes you.Â
"How much longer until we reach Opifex?" You can tell Wonwoo is drained too. He needs Changkyun's help as soon as possible.Â
"I believe only a day more of travel," you confirm per the navigation. You know how to get there, and where to land. You decide against pinging Changkyun, in order to eliminate as much of a footprint as possible.Â
"Why don't you get some rest?" Wonwoo prods when he realizes your eyes start to roll back, head bobbing to the side after a while.Â
"Do you mind?"Â
"Of course not," he smiles gently, making your stomach flip.Â
You oblige, not having the will to fight after the past events. You lay back in the cot behind the main seating area. Observing Wonwoo as he takes his place in the captain's seat, he adjusts the controls to his liking as he navigates Opifex.Â
Your heart pounds as you observe him, Wonwoo made you feel free, he made you feel safe even in times like this. You've never felt this way about anyone. It's hard to fall asleep, these thoughts consuming your mind.
Wonwoo turns back to check on you, the same soft smile making you flush as you lay on the bed admiring him. You can't help but feel a connection with him, emotionally, and desire even more.Â
Eventually, sleep took you after much contemplation of your thoughts.
When you awoke, it only felt like you had slept a blink of an eye's time. The ship rattled, alarming you and jostling you awake. Only to realize that Wonwoo had landed the ship. You immediately recognized the planet, he had safely landed the ship at Opifex.Â
Wonwoo's smile relaxed you even further, dusting off his pants as he stood up and headed towards you. As per usual, Wonwoo's hand ran through your hair, instantaneously soothing you.Â
"We've arrived," he coos softly, trying his best not to overstimulate you more in your drowsy state. "Just lead the way once you're ready."
It's easy to see he is drained as well, in desperate need of a charge, and you're relieved that you've made it to Opifex.Â
The both of you quickly tidy yourselves up, you do your best to cover Wonwoo's damaged arm, not wanting to draw any unnecessary attention to the automation as you make your way to Changkyun's workshop.Â
There was an odd sense of security here, but you knew you had to lay low. You didn't want word of your appearance here. You knew his company would be looking for him, as that's all they were doing prior to the escape for the other members who had left before Wonwoo.Â
It was easy to find Changkyun, his shop was located where you had previously remembered it. It felt almost nostalgic coming across his shop, he had an eclectic style, yet the place was tidy enough to store and easily find all his supplies. Â
"Y/N?" Changkyun questioned in delightful surprise as you knocked at his door. "What are you doing here? It's been quite some time."
"Hello, Changkyun," you smile brightly. Something that Wonwoo can only pin as jealous pings inside him at your reaction.Â
How odd, he thinks to himself.Â
"Do you mind if we come in? I do have a favor to ask, which is why we are here," you speak quickly, emphasizing that you didn't just show up for no reason.Â
Changkyun holds the door open for you both, allowing you and Wonwoo to shuffle into the shop. Wonwoo takes note of the large magnifying lens contraption strapped to Changkyun's head, quickly noting that he is a Level 3 robot, and shows his own wear and tear after working all these years.Â
Wonwoo immediately deems him as trustworthy.
"What is this favor you are requesting," Changkyun prods, curiously eyeing Wonwoo as if he could understand where this was going.Â
"I can't share too many details," you speak hurriedly, beginning to unwrap the material around Wonwoo's damaged arm to provide Changkyun with a visualization of the problem at hand. "We've escaped Earth. However, in the process of avoiding getting caught, Wonwoo had ripped his port out. I think it's affecting his charging system. I just don't think we can go on for much longer until we have some sort of fix."
Changkyun hums in understanding, immediately resorting to his tools and materials. "I'm not sure if I'll have the materials for a level 1 robot, I haven't created one in quite some time, but let me see what I have."
You and Wonwoo let Changkyun search, shuffling around the shop quietly as you try your best to quell your anxiety. You hope and pray that Changkyun can help, there is no one else you feel comfortable resorting to. There is an unspoken trust that you have with the Level 3 robot, after spending years learning from his skills and further understanding the creation of robots.Â
Wonwoo's free hand is grasped in yours, you aren't quite sure when this happened, but it eases you slightly. You've grown to become attached to Wonwoo, amazed by how quickly things changed between each session and landing you in this scenario.Â
Thankfully, after a while of searching, Changkyun determines he has parts that will suffice, and will be enough to repair Wonwoo's system in order to allow him to charge properly.Â
Changkyun bids you off, encouraging you to get some rest as he makes the proper repairs to Wonwoo. You're continuously flooded with thoughts, but part of you feels better knowing you now have Changkyun's help. You hope Wonwoo can charge up before you continue your journey.Â
It takes a few hours, Changkyun claims the connections are not as direct as he thought they'd be, but by the time he is done, Wonwoo seems way too worn down.Â
Changkyun encourages you both to get your rest before continuing with your journey. He offers you a place to stay, it isn't much, but it's a spare bedroom in the back of his shop, offering it as a safe place to rest before continuing.Â
"Thank you," you hum sincerely, expressing your gratitude one last time before Changkyun wraps up for the day to head to his normal engagements. "Thank you so much for your help."Â
"Anytime, Y/N," he smiles, bidding you both good-bye and good luck on the rest of your journey.Â
That night you and Wonwoo share the crickety bed in the back of Changkyun's shop. Wonwoo had been timid originally, but you claimed it was alright, that it would provide you some more comfort if anything.
Wonwoo was relieved at that because he couldn't think of anything better. He was finally able to get closer to you.Â
Laying next to him, you adjusted the glasses and sat on the bridge of his nose, they'd always fall down a bit when he wasn't paying attention, a feature about him that you found so endearing.
Wonwoo was seeming better already, charging much faster than you anticipated. His hands found their way to your arm, nimble fingers running up and down your skin.Â
He could recognize the way your skin bubbled with chills, uncertain of what he was doing that made you react this way. His skin didn't react like this to touch, but the way yours reacts reminds him just how sensitive humans are.Â
"What are you doing?" You hum in content, enjoying the softness of Wonwoo's skin on yours. His skin was different, not nearly as warm as a human touch, but the synthetic skin was so smooth, feeling comfortable as it dragged across yours.Â
"What are these bumps on your arm?" He asks out of genuine curiosity.Â
"You're kidding," you laugh, eyes opening humorously to gauge if Wonwoo is serious. He is absolutely dead serious. "It's this phenomenon, we tend to call them goosebumps. It's a bodily alert that humans feel, a reaction to touch."Â
Wonwoo hums in acknowledgment, "Is it good?"
"In this case," you smile, enjoying his innocent curiosity, "it is very good. It feels nice what you're doing. Very soothing."
"What else causes goosebumps?"
You can't tell if he's twisting your arm at this point, looking for a reaction, because there is an insinuation in his tone as his hand drags upwards towards your neck, looking for more of a reaction from your skin. Which he earns, as goosebumps run all up and down your body at his barely-there touch.Â
His fingers travel to the crook of your neck, his hand wrapping around the back of your head and finding a home in your hair. He pulls you closer, testing the waters as he yearns to feel more of your body against his. Curious to see if he can pull more of a reaction out of you. It's all so new for him and he's hungry for more.Â
"Wonwoo," you whimper, allowing him to pull you into his body, your lips falling impossibly close to his perfectly molded ones. "Are you trying to send me into shock?"
You try to joke, but your words come out whiney as Wonwoo's lips brush yours.Â
"I don't know," he teases, his plush buds continuing to skim yours. "Is this good?"
"It's very good," you confirm yet again, your breath being knocked out of your lungs when Wonwoo's lips finally attach to yours. Kissing him is different, it's almost as if he's immediately on the same wavelength as you.Â
Your lips fall into the same rhythm, and you're just realizing this is something you've been craving for a while now. It becomes heated quickly, and Wonwoo's hands stay wrapped in your hair, ensuring you can't break away from the kiss.Â
He understands what it is like to be addicted to something now. He recognizes this feeling as lust, knowing of its effects and understanding why humans love it so much. He needs more of you and he needs more now.
Wonwoo pulls you on top of him, the motion feeling incredibly natural as he continues to kiss you, swallowing your little noises as you moan in delight.Â
You can sense him react to you in a similar manner as a human. You forget how advanced Level 1 robots are sometimes. You had been a bit worried that he wouldn't react similarly, but you can feel his cock swells beneath you.Â
"Wonwoo," you whine, finally breaking the kiss after what felt like light years of delight. However, you need more. "Please, need you to touch me. Need you to fuck me."Â
"I need it too, Y/N," he groans, the sound that comes from him is deep, uncharacteristic of his usual voice, but it sends shivers down your spine. Wonwoo is encouraged by the goosebumps that reappear on your skin, very apparent to him as you remove your shirt.Â
Wonwoo's lips instinctually wrap around your pebbled nipple, loving the way the bud peaks along with the bumps on your skin. He's even more encouraged by the sound that falls from your lips, a breathy moan that has his cock growing even harder.Â
"Please," you croon. "Can't wait much longer."Â
He's quick to pull his pants down, helping you stumble out of your shorts and underwear as well. He's amazed by how wet your nether regions are, and you're amazed by just how perfectly sculpted his cock is.Â
"You're perfect," you moan, running your folds over his length and pulling another groan of pleasure from him. "God, whoever created you did an amazing job."
You raise yourself slightly, teasing yourself with the head of his cock, the skin soft against your folds as you wet his length. You sink down slowly, your walls contracting in delight as your pussy greedily accepts his thick manhood.Â
Wonwoo recognizes the slight pain in your features as you accept him, but he can also sense the relief you feel as he bottoms out, feeling the contraction of your walls around him throughout his entire system.Â
"Let me ride you," you moan when you sense that Wonwoo is hesitant. "Let me take care of you."Â
He doesn't argue, overwhelmed by the unrecognizable pleasure he feels as you begin to bob up and down on his cock. Your nails dig into his skin, a sensation he's never felt before as they clamp into his shoulders, leaving divots in his synthetic skin and claiming your mark on him.Â
The pathetic noises that tumble out of you encourage him to move, his hips rolling upwards into yours and pulling even more deranged sounds from you, ones that encourage him to groan in enjoyment.Â
Wonwoo watches as a bead of sweat falls down your neck, loving the effect and glow that graces your skin. His hands wrap into your hair, pulling it up off your neck as you continue to ride his cock with more fervor.Â
He pulls on your hair tightly, enough for you to feel a tinge of pain, but it only increases the pleasure you feel in the deepest pits of your stomach. Your clit burns and throbs at the pleasure, your core heating and winding up tightly as you roll your hips against his, meeting each thrust of his.Â
"Wonwoo," you're screaming at this point, eyes blown out as you watch him, his jaw hanging slack as he becomes overwhelmed with the feeling of you wrapped so tightly around him. The friction of your pussy around his cock has him feeling engulfed in all ways by you.Â
The pleasure that builds inside him begins to feel impossible to fight off, he's unsure if he can hold this feeling back much longer, especially not when your walls throb around him with each thrust.Â
It's brutal at this point, the sound of your skin slapping against his, the visual of your breasts bouncing in front of him, and how you feel all too perfect like this.Â
"Y/N," he breathes out in desperation, "can't hold it for much longer. You feel too good."
"Good," you cry out, no longer able to hold your own pleasure back. "Finish with me, Wonwoo, release."Â
Wonwoo can feel the fluttering of your walls, the intense pleasure exploding inside you as you spasm around his cock, your body falling limp in his arms as you reach your high. Wonwoo is pleasured too, but you're not filled with cum, only watching as he reaches his own form of pure pleasure. He continues to thrust into you, driving you into overstimulation.Â
Wonwoo doesn't realize you're spent, especially since he can't necessarily be spent himself, he has the stamina of a Level 1 automation overall. However, he recognizes it after he pulls one more orgasm from you, holding up your form as your limbs can no longer hold your body up.Â
That night you sleep incredibly well in his arms, connecting with him on a level you would have never anticipated. This was something you would have never imagined as a developer, something you always condemned previously, as you feared growing a connection like this.Â
But now that you have it, you'd do everything to not lose it.Â
The next morning, you are awoken by a frantic Wonwoo. Changkyun had come early, informing you that there are correspondent Level 3 robots searching for you and Wonwoo.Â
Word has spread, and you're no longer safe here at Opifex.Â
Changkyun informs you that your ship has been reclaimed by the company. However, he offers you an older ship he has in the far back of his shop. It isn't the most modern craft, but it will get you to Lumen.Â
After providing you with the proper navigation and instructions on the ship, Changkyun bids you both goodbye yet again.Â
Thankfully because of Changkyun, you and Wonwoo are able to escape yet again, continuing your journey to Lumen. You continue to spend this time with Wonwoo, feeling more at piece in an unidentifiable craft, and knowing that his damage has been repaired.Â
It's comfortable with Wonwoo, you two work well as partners you've determined. You take shifts navigating the ship, Wonwoo has become quite the captain as you spend the next few days searching for Lumen.Â
Thankfully, your trip has come to an end, even though you've enjoyed the time with Wonwoo, the travel has been tough. You can see Lumen in the distance. A planet similar to Earth, yet seemingly a bit more thriving as you approach the safe haven planet.Â
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Lumen. Wonwoo and you had finally landed safely on the planet. It felt safe. It felt like home. You felt as if you could be anything and everything you wanted to be with Wonwoo.Â
Lumen is similar to Earth, yet the land is lush and the population is diverse. Travelers from multiple planets have made their way here seeking safety. Here you felt accepted. You didn't have to consider the previous system of Earth. You weren't tied to anything.Â
Both you and Wonwoo could start fresh, and you both could sense this feeling. Wonwoo held your hand tightly, breathing in the fresh air and peering down at you. You looked peaceful, eyes shut as you did the same, head lulling back as the crisp air filled your senses.Â
This made Wonwoo's eyes flood with adoration seeing you look this free. He remembered what you once were like on the first day you met him. He felt lucky knowing he could be here with you, like this, now. He knows of others who weren't that lucky to have their partners with them after escaping their planets. Â
Here you'd settle with Wonwoo, in a quaint house where you two could be your true selves, and not worry about others' expectations of you two. Wonwoo holds you tightly at night, knowing that he always has you, the first person who has ever understood and listened to him. The unexpected developer that he can live freely with.Â
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can't run away | vernon
summary: running is the only life you've ever known. running away from your home planet, running away from anyone that gets too close, running away from officials, running from other smugglers. it's not easy but it's better than the pain that comes with staying in place and definitely better than getting caught. everyone has heard of you but nobody actually knows you. the last thing you want is to take on a passenger, especially when that passenger is a robot from one of the most popular groups in the universe. why would you let him stay when nobody else ever has? pairing: ai!vernon x smuggler!afab!reader word count: 15.6k genre: sci-fi au, angst, fluff (?) warnings/content: vernon is an automaton, reader is a smuggler (across the galaxy), references to injury (when vernon escapes, to reader as well), questionable methods of finishing a job (reader), suggestions/implications of sex/hook-ups (reader x unnamed characters), questionable legality on the jobs, exploring emotions for automatons, fights, open/ambiguous ending rating: mature (this is SFW but i prefer only people 18+ interacting with my blog) a/n: thank you so much to @idyllic-ghost for this incredible collab and this banner. i don't think i would've written a sci-fi fic otherwise and it's been so much fun. check out all the other amazing fics here! also thank you to the loml @hot-soop for *volunteering* to read through this fic. you're an angel. finally, thank you to @strawberryya for letting me use your brain and your planet.
â100 years ago it was thought that the Earth, as we know it, would disintegrate. That the sun would implode and leave everything in darkness. Miraculously, it didnât. Due to some external force, human scientists still havenât agreed upon what it exactly was, none of the planets in our former solar system were ever destroyed. The Earth, along with the other planets, were pushed away from each other, and ended up in different parts of the universe. Earth just happened to come to a solar system with alien life. At first, we were cautious, and people were prepared to fight. However, the aliens were welcoming of our planet. Those of us who didnât die from âThe Great Journeyâ or from trying to fight the aliens, were welcomed into the new solar system. Soon enough, we had integrated completely, and we received materials and assistance from our sister-planets in exchange for human labor. What humans knew of technology was very limited, but with the resources of the aliens we created artificial life forms. We named these robots Automaton, and they served as workers when humans couldnât. Eventually, there was no need for human labor at all. To pay back for the help the aliens gave us, we used Automatons. With the extensive development of these robots, we eventually managed to create artificial sentient life. These Automatons were human-like in looks and had human consciousness, but they could not bleed and were stronger than we ever could be. At the present time, there are even different levels of Automatons. Level 3 robots are the workers, level 2 robots are the caretakers, and level 1 robots are the celebrities. The Automaton music group 53V3NT33N (SEVENTEEN) is made up of 13 members, all very talented, and all representing two human states of mind.â
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âChirron,â you call and wait for his hum to let you know heâs listening, âwe have to go. Like 10 minutes ago.â
âWhy donât you try something helpful?â he shoots back at you.Â
âThe last time I got near the controls, you slapped my hands and shrieked,â you answer.
âI did not, it was not a shriek,â he hisses. Heâs not really offended, itâs just how the two of you are. Youâve run hundreds of jobs together at this point and thereâs nobody else youâd trust. And certainly nobody thatâs better at getting your ship in the air and away from trouble. âAnd it was for a good reason. Youâre a menace to society and to the controls, specifically.â
âEvery button looks the same,â you huff.
âWill you just shut it for 2 seconds so I get us off this awful planet?â Chirron asks.
âHey, this is my home planet!â you protest. Youâre not sure why youâre distracting him like this when you want to leave just as badly as he does. Need to for the sake of your job.
âI swear toâŠâ he says and stops to pinch the bridge of his nose. âJust a minute, Iâm begging you.â
Thereâs a retort about begging on the tip of your tongue, something you know will get under Chirronâs skin. Something you know better to say and are going to say anyway. Really, whatâs the worst he could do? Except just as youâre about to say it, someone comes rushing in through the open door of your ship.
Chirron seems to register the newcomer, but says nothing. In fact, he goes back to working on one of the control panels thatâs currently preventing you from leaving the planet. That leaves you to deal with this new person. OrâŠno, could he be an automaton? Thereâs something familiar about him that you canât quite place. Thereâs also something that doesnât scream human about him. Maybe the blue hair or the way he moves through expressions. He looks relieved now even though youâre a complete stranger.Â
âPlease, help me,â he rushes out, already moving from relief into something else. He reaches out to take your hands in his and you barely have time to register it. âIâm begging you, Iâll do anything.â
Your first instinct is to flatly tell him that you wonât help him, that you canât. After all, youâre not exactly the type anyone looks to when they need help. A fact Chirron is always quick to point out. But, you also see that this could present an interesting opportunity for someone such as you. And maybe now you can make some begging jokes without getting your head bitten off.
âAnd just what are you willing to do?â you ask, arch an eyebrow as you watch the expressions cross his face.Â
âOh, well I canâŠyou know, I couldâŠâ he sputters along and you laugh.Â
Just as youâre about to take pity on him, you see a rush of guards coming through the spaceport. Itâs the last thing you want to see. Your papers are solid and youâve already made the very real excuse of needing to fix one of your systems before leaving the planet. Then again, youâve had enough close calls for a lifetime and youâre not really looking to add another one to that list.
As you watch, the guards talk to some other people milling about in the spaceport. The man who rudely burst onto your ship seems to catch that youâre watching something and immediately ducks down. If you werenât a little nervous about the guards coming aboard, it would be comical. Heâs literally not even hiding behind anything.
âThey lookinâ for you?â you ask quietly and clock the answer in his eyes before he even opens his mouth.
âI think so,â he says.Â
You sigh and ignore Chirron looking back at you. âBack that way, thereâs a door in the wall on your left. Nobody ever knows itâs a door, but run your hand on the wall, youâll feel it.â
âWhat?â he asks.
âGo,â you hiss and walk towards the open door.
Itâs perfecting timing, too, because two of the guards are approaching. One of them, thankfully, is one youâve dealt with before. And itâs mostly been positive. At least you know he canât seem to stay away when you breeze in and out of this part of the planet. With any luck, heâs in a good mood.Â
âThought that was your ship,â he says with a smirk, ignoring the look from the other guard.Â
âGuilty,â you smile. âAlways nice to see you, Kyun.â
âYou two know each other?â the other guard asks skeptically.Â
âSure, she runs cargo,â Changkyun says. You canât fully fight the smile because you know it means youâre safe after all. The two of you have spent enough time in his bed, post hook-up, for him to know thatâs not the whole story.
âAnd I would be gone already because weâre behind schedule, but we had a little mechanical trouble,â you say, laying on the act a little thick.Â
âNeed a hand?â Changkyun offers.Â
âWeâre supposed to be asking about someone,â the other guard reminds him.Â
âItâs fine, weâve got it handled anyway,â you say and send Changkyun a flirty smile before turning to his partner. âAsk away.â
âHave you seen an automaton running through here? Blue hair, about this tall, wearing a plain white shirt,â he asks and you pretend to think for a second.Â
âThereâs been a lot of people coming through,â you offer apologetically. âI think I did see someone with bright hair rushing off in that direction. Couldâve been blue.â
âYouâre sure about the hair color?â the other guard asks.Â
âNot really, it happened fast. But it couldâve been blue,â you shrug and then look like youâve realized something. âWait, there isnât a reward is there?â
âLast I heard, you were doing fine,â Changkyun says and you smile as his partner walks off to share your info with a group of guards.Â
âCanât blame a girl for trying,â you say with a wink.Â
âMake sure you come by next time youâre here,â Changkyun says with that look youâve seen before.Â
âI will, promise,â you say.Â
âHave a safe flight!â he calls. Heâs already heading off to join his partner.Â
When he looks back, you wave. For good measure, you look over your shoulder like Chirron said something and nod. Youâre closing the hatch with a last wave to Changkyun. Once youâve also made sure the shields to protect anyone from seeing in are activated, you head back to find your new friend.Â
âSeems like people are looking for you,â you say when you open the door.
You donât bother waiting to see if heâs going to follow you when you walk back towards Chirron at the front of the ship. The blue haired man, who still hasnât introduced himself, follows you instantly and then ducks when he sees the windshield in front of him.
âThey canât see you,â Chirron says in a bored voice. Mostly likely unimpressed by a decision you donât actually remember making.
âYou almost done?â you ask again.
âYes, actually, that little disruption got you to leave me alone long enough to fix it,â he says with a glare at you. âNow be quiet again.â
âSo rude,â you say quietly without any bite.
âControl, Vega Three requesting clearance for take off,â Chirron states over the communication system.
âClearance granted,â comes an immediate response.Â
âFinally,â you say and take your seat next to Chirron. You twist over your shoulder to look at your unexpected guest. âIâd buckle in if I were you, sweetheart.âÂ
âAre youâŠare we taking off?â he asks, seemingly unable to sit still.
âUnless you had a different idea when you tried to sneak onto a ship,â you respond.Â
âBut you donâtâŠâ he begins.
âYouâve got your reasons for wanting to get off this planet, and weâve got ours, best to discuss those once weâre actually off the planet. So, strap in,â you instruct.
The stranger in question doesnât need to be told a third time, thankfully. He slides into the seat behind Chirron and buckles himself in. With a sideways glance at you to confirm heâs clear, Chirron uses the recently repaired controls to get you going and safely off this planet. Even though itâs your home planet, and you definitely can linger, this job is a little sensitive. You really canât afford to be late on the delivery, though your reputation with this buyer is spotless. It only stays spotless as long as you finish your jobs as quickly and discreetly as possible.Â
If you expect the stranger to say something as Chirron navigates you out of the spaceport and into the air, youâre left wanting. When you look back, you find him relaxed back into the chair. Itâs like heâs completely at ease. Or maybe just feeling a lot of relief that you let him stay on board. Or even relief that you lied to the guards. Something you do often, though he doesnât know that. His eyes close as Chirron types in the course to autopilot until you get close to your destination.Â
While the stranger rests, something kind of surprising to you given that he doesnât know you at all, you briefly wonder if itâs sleep or just a sort of recharging. Chirron claims your attention and you quietly discuss your plans for once you get to your destination. Salax is known forâŠdiscretion. People donât tend to ask that many questions there because of the types of humans and aliens alike that follow their desires there. But, since itâs a place for your deepest desires, people are also wary of suspicious behavior. Youâve spent plenty of time there, both for your own pleasure or, like now, for a job.Â
The downside to this planet, though? Itâs the type of place no robot would ever be seen. Certainly not a Level 1. Theyâre far too pure for that. And judging by the number of guards employed, and the fact that you were on Earth, youâre willing to bet your new passenger is a Level 1. So thatâs going to add its own unique set of challenges. Something that has you buzzing with adrenaline, but has Chirron looking sterner than usual.Â
âWe need to know who he is,â Chirron repeats quietly.
âAnd we will,â you answer easily.
âIf heâs a Level 1âŠâ Chirron starts before trailing off.
âWhat? Youâll turn me over for the reward you asked about?â the stranger asks. Youâre a little startled because you didnât realize he had woken up. Or stopped resting, whatever.
Chirron scoffs as he takes in your amusement. âNo.â
ïżœïżœItâs not a ridiculous question,â he insists.
âIt is if you know her,â Chirron says and nods in your direction.Â
âWhy? Youâre wondering if Iâm a Level 1 so you know how high the reward is,â he insists and you finally take pity on him.
âNo, I have no intention to collect some reward for you, if one even exists,â you confirm.Â
âBut why?â he asks. Heâs fidgeting in his seat like he canât sit still. Itâs interesting to see when he was resting so peacefully without moving.
âBecause,â Chirron interjects, clearly intent to take away any fun, âshe prefers not to deal in things as meaningless as currency or credits.âÂ
âHow do you live?â he asks, genuine curiosity coloring his face.Â
âIâve got enough credits to keep us going for years,â you answer vaguely.
âWhat else is there to work for?â the stranger wonders.Â
You turn your seat fully so itâs facing him and lean forward, dropping your voice a little. âSo many things, sweetheart. Favors, information, gossipâŠsecrets.âÂ
His eyes go wide, like itâs something heâs never considered before. And he probably hasnât. If heâs a Level 1, and youâd bet your ship that he is at this point, then this is so wildly out of normality for him. The Level 1s are pristine, like the celebrities of the galaxy living in luxury with someone to help keep them functioning at the highest levels. Theyâll never see the types of jobs that Level 3s see, those jobs that nobody else wants to do. Theyâll never work the way that Level 2s do, or have to work for humans in that way. Which isnât to say their lives are perfect. Itâs just not the kind of life where they see the dirty types of jobs that you and Chirron are used to.Â
âWhy donât you give me a name, sweetheart? Unless you prefer the pet name, which is fine by me,â you say.
He hesitates, before saying, âVernon.â
You and Chirron look at each other, like youâre both wondering why this automaton seems familiar and why everyone is looking for him.
âWell, V3RN0N actually, from 53V3NT33N,â Vernon adds.
And that makes everything fall into place. Not that you pay much attention to groups of performers like that, itâs kind of hard when youâre constantly on the move, but everyone in the galaxy knows them. Everyone in the galaxy also knows that the members justâŠdisappeared. There isnât much information, at least not from reputable sources, about what happened. Thankfully for you, you donât really deal in reputable sources. So youâve heard your fair share about the escapes, each tale sounding a little wilder than the last. You at least know someone is desperate to find all 13 of the automatons, given how popular the group is. Or maybe itâs because theyâve resorted to asking in places theyâd normally never be caught to find information.
When you assure Vernon that your previous statement still stands, that youâre far more interested in your form of currency than any reward youâd get from turning him in, he relaxes a bit again. Heâs worried, still, that he admitted to complete strangers who he really is, but you give him your real names. You tell him what you actually do, despite Chirronâs protests. Thatâs when he starts telling you all about the escape. The way that he got away, the way he doesnât know what happened to his other members, the way he hopes theyâre all okay too.Â
Itâs a little depressing and a lot too close to home for you to hear what life was actually like for Vernon and the other Automatons in his group. Not that youâve ever been famous or had people across the galaxy expecting you to perform, but you know a thing or two about someone else making your decisions. Chirron knows it too, knows your story intimately, so he probably also sees where this is going before you do.Â
Itâs difficult, you think, to listen to Vernon talk about his experiences and why he chose to run. Humans and aliens had worked together to create these new beings. Perfected them until they were indistinguishable from humans and even gave them emotions. Yet beings like Vernon and his group are expected to just perform. To essentially serve at the wishes of the public for entertainment value. Have to uphold the highest standards and canât ever do something that would look bad. Have to remain pure, whatever that means.Â
From there, you come up with a plan. One that will at least give you time to come up with some next steps on Salax. Vernon is restless again when you share your destination. Of course heâs never been there, but he knows all about it. Itâs hard to tell if heâs just nervous that heâll look out of place or if heâs curious about what actually happens there. In either case, you need to make sure heâs prepared for the stop. There isnât much choice anyway, youâre on a schedule and heâs just an unexpected passenger. Before he can continue protesting, you send him to the back of the ship to look through the clothes and accessories. Anything to hide who he is.
âHeâs not you, you know,â Chirron offers.
âI know that,â you answer.
âDo you?â From anyone else, the question might sound accusatory. From Chirron, it only sounds concerned.Â
You sigh. âI do, but what they put him through is awful.â
âHeâs an Automaton,â Chirron reminds you.
âIâm well aware,â you say with a slight snap to your words. âYou heard him, though. And youâve seen the Automatons weâve come across. Itâs different.â
âDoes he know what youâre going to tell them when we get to Salax?â Chirron asks, switching tactics.Â
âDo you?â you ask back.
âAn overly sheltered Automaton on Salax?â Chirron raises an eyebrow at you. âYouâre going to bring him along as your âdateâ whoâs just testing the waters to see if itâs his thing.â
âI am not that predictable,â you retort. But you donât disagree because you canât.
âWhat else would you say?â Chirron asks.
âI donât know, I just hope it works,â you say.
âLuckily for him, youâre a frequent visitor,â Chirron says with a shrug.
You decide to let that comment lie. Partly because you donât want to argue with Chirron too loudly and draw Vernonâs attention. Partly because heâs not entirely wrong. You do like to spend time on Salax, looking for things that you canât find when youâre constantly on the move. Looking for people that donât expect you to be there when they need you. Thatâs something you canât do. Chirron would ask âcanât or wonâtâ, but the difference hardly matters.
After another minute you go and check on Vernon because you really do need to get going. For a number of reasons. Heâs dressed and looking like heâll at least moderately fit in at the club youâre taking him to. Itâs clear he still wants to stay on the ship, or to go with Chirron, but you remind him that wonât work. Chirron is leaving the ship to get supplies for after your errands and to make sure youâre ready to leave the planet. Even without Vernon, you donât want to linger. Not this time. Going with Chirron to run errands would be even more suspicious. He so rarely has anyone around when heâs anywhere, let alone Salax. He keeps to himself so the appearance of a beautiful stranger would be out of character. No, itâs much easier to have Vernon with you. Youâre much more likely to have someone around on this planet. And youâre certainly had enough beautiful strangers with you on Salax to blend in. You ignore the way Vernon reacts each time you call him beautiful because, really, itâs just a fact.
Vernon tags along a half step behind you when you leave the ship. Youâre considering telling him to walk beside you when you think you might as well sell it. If youâre going to be telling people that heâs your pet, just someone you picked up for the time being, then it makes sense that he wouldnât walk quite beside you.Â
This club is so familiar to you. Once youâre inside, you make your way to one of the back rooms, the same room you always meet your client in every time she hires you. Nobody asks questions as it is, but certainly not of her when she books private rooms. You know sheâll be seeing someone else before or after you. Or both, knowing her.Â
Thankfully, Vernon keeps his head down like you told him to while youâre winding your way through. You offer the occasional smile or nod as you see people that you know, people youâve worked with professionally and people you know personally. Some look at your companion, but nobody says anything. Both you and Chirron were right. Though this puts Vernon in contact with more people, itâs far less conspicuous. Besides, with his hat and clothing, nobody would guess he was a Level 1.Â
Circe is waiting in her back room, sprawled out on her lounger when you enter, surprisingly alone. Then again, she probably got word when you landed and then again when you entered the club. As usual, she looks completely stunning in her figure hugging outfit. Itâs enough to send anyoneâs mind into overdrive.
âMy, my, darling,â she says as she takes in both you and your companion. âI would scold you for keeping me waiting, but youâve brought company.â
âYou know Iâd never dream of keeping you waiting,â you say with a smile at her. âWe wereâŠheld up a bit. Had some ship trouble.â
âAnd picked up a new toy,â she comments. âPlease, sit.â
âAh yes, well heâsâŠcurious about expanding his horizons,â you say with a glance at him. The two of you sit in front of her.
âMaybe we can share,â Circe offers and you chuckle.
âCirce, love, heâs nowhere near ready for that,â you answer.
âAlways keeping your prettiest toys from me,â Circe pouts.
âNow you know thatâs not true,â you chastise. âThe last time I was here for fun rather than workâŠâ
âWas very fun, thatâs true,â Circe concedes. âShould I assume youâre not staying around this time, then?â
âIâm afraid not,â you say and inject as much sincerity as you can.
âWould that happen to be because heâs one of those escaped Automatons?â Circe plays it off like idle curiosity and you only smile fondly.
âIf he were, what kind of fool would I be to bring him here?â you wonder.
âThe kind that does trust me despite your insistence that you trust nobody other than yourself and Chirron,â she answers without missing a beat.
âWell,â you shrug.
âI thoughtâŠâ Vernon says quietly to you.
âRelax, whoever you are is no concern of mine. She knows I wonât blow your secret because I know that thereâs nobody better in the galaxy than her at what she does,â Circe says softly.
âYou flatter me,â you say. This time the sincerity comes in earnest.
Circe waves it off like itâs nothing. You also know she means what she said. âI assume you have what I sent you off for?â
âOf course,â you respond and reach into your bag.
âThis is why I protect her,â Circe says, leaning forward like sheâs sharing a secret with Vernon. âIâve never met anyone that can do a sensitive job for me like she can.â
âAnd have you met a lot of people?â Vernon asks.
Circeâs eyes sparkle. âYou may be one of the only ones who can understand when I say thousands, probably.â
You watch the interaction for a moment because itâs so mundane, so simple. Shaking your head to clear the scene, you hand over a small device. Circe takes it and examines it for a second, looking over the markings on the side. Her smile is almost instant.
âThis looks full,â she comments.
âIt is,â you answer.
âHow sensitive is the material?â Circe asks.Â
You hesitate and look over at Vernon. âI wouldnât watch it with just anyone. ThereâsâŠwell I donât have to tell you that people get more honest when theyâre in compromising situations.âÂ
This seems to amuse Circe as she watches you form your words. Itâs different from how you usually are and itâs entertaining. âAre you in it?âÂ
âNo,â you answer with a little laugh. âSomeone owed me a very big favor. Well owes me several favors, actually. Heâs not off the hook yet.â
âIâve known you for years and I still donât think I understand the extent of your network,â Circe observes.Â
âProbably not,â you acknowledge.
âAnd what about you, my little mystery, what do you owe her?â Circe asks Vernon.
âIâmâŠâ he starts, looks over at you for guidance. âIâm not sure yet.âÂ
âThatâs dangerous,â Circe adds.Â
âWe havenât really figuredâŠâ Vernon begins, still very nervous. âShe got me off Earth.â
âThatâs actually part of what I needed to talk to you about. I need to get him an introduction to someone,â you say. Circeâs eyes turn back to you.
âTo whom, darling?â she asks.
âIâm not sure,â you admit. âI need a recommendation. Someone that you trust that can help him disappear. Help him reappear as someone new.âÂ
Circe regards the pair of you for a moment. Probably a moment too long for Vernonâs comfort. âI canât help you.â
Your frustration gets the better of you before you even consider the why. âCanât or wonât?âÂ
âPumpkin,â Circe says, full of affection and patience that youâre not sure you deserve. âI know the kind of favors youâre offering for something like this. Iâd be stupid to turn it down if I could help you, but unfortunately I like you too much to pull the wool over on you.â
âWhy canât you help?â This, at least, comes out calm.
âIâm not sure where to turn, not now at least. There are too many people looking for him,â Circe admits.
You sigh heavily at that. In the seven years that youâve known Circe, this is a first. Itâs the first time youâve ever presented her with a problem that she couldnât solve. It leaves you feeling a little helpless, a feeling that you really donât enjoy. Maybe she takes a little bit of pity on you because she does tell you to see one of her workers before you leave. He can help Vernon look a little different, at least. Thatâs all she can do, though, and she knows sheâs still going to owe you after this.Â
So youâre going to have to take Vernon with you, at least for now. You feel some amount of responsibility, even though he jumped onto your ship. But heâs far too sheltered for this life, too innocent, too naive. He isnât hard around the edges like you, doesnât know that he canât trust anyone, hasnât been hurt by people he depended on.Â
You finish up the conversation with Circe and say your goodbyes. It completely slips your notice that Vernon isnât right behind you when you head out the door.
âWait a moment,â Circe says, lightly grabbing Vernonâs arm.
He looks down at the place her hand touches his arm before meeting her eyes again. The confusion on his face must be clear.
âBe careful with her,â Circe says. Vernonâs eyebrows only knit further in confusion. âI love her dearly, but it always comes at a price. Sheâs the kind of girl youâd name one of those hurricanes after back on Earth.â
âIâm not sureâŠâ Vernon tries to begin. Circe waves a hand to quiet him.
âSheâs wild and wonderful,â Circe says with a soft smile that only lingers a second. âBut she will destroy everything in her path.â
Vernon is about to say something when you pop your head back through the door. âThere you are, come on. We should really get going.â
Vernon looks back at Circe, tries to make some kind of sense of what she said. Itâs pointless, though, and instead he just follows you out without a word.
If Vernon is expecting you to head straight back to the ship, heâs mistaken. You wind through the hallways like youâve been through a hundred times before. Which is entirely possible, itâs not like Vernon knows much about you or your history. He just knows he couldnât navigate back out if he got lost, so he stays close. Itâs not that has a bad memory, itâs just that his brain is currently on overdrive. Heâs thinking about what Circe said about you. But heâs also just taking in all the things he never even knew existed.
It doesnât seem like youâre heading anywhere, even when you stop. The room is empty except for a large desk in the center. Vernon wants to ask what it is youâre doing. One look at your face tells him not to. You quickly reach into one of the drawers, like itâs the most normal thing, and pull out another device that looks like the one you gave to Circe. You stow the device in a pocket that Vernon hadnât even noticed and make your way back out without another word.
In fact, you donât speak again until youâre back on the ship. Vernon has a second to note that Chirron is missing before you head to the control panel and start pressing buttons. The door closes and something seems to shift with the windshields. Itâs like the ship is going into some sort of shut down. You walk back past Vernon to a table and slide into one side of the booth. Vernon takes the cue and slides in across from you.
âSo that didnât exactly go as planned,â you observe.Â
âYou were expecting her to help,â Vernon says and you nod.Â
âCirce knows everyone, has eyes and ears everywhere, so itâsâŠwell I donât want to scare you, but itâs concerning that she canât help hide you,â you say.
âMaybe I should just go back,â Vernon wonders out loud.
âLook, you ran away for a reason and I know the kind of desperation it takes to justâŠrun onto some random ship,â you let him know. âIâm not really sure why Iâm helping, but Iâm going to help. Thereâs just one rule.â
âWhat is it?â Vernon asks. He already knows heâs going to agree.
âWhatever I say, you have to follow,â you say. It sounds so simple, Vernon is sure thereâs some kind of catch when you continue. âIf I say run, you run. If I say hide, you hide. If I say leave me behind, you have to.â
âButâŠâ Vernon starts and you shake your head.
âIâm going to try to find a solution, but I have to keep working too. And this isnât exactly a safe line of work,â you tell him.
âIâd gathered,â he says before he can stop himself. You chuckle.
âAt least youâre observant,â you say.
Since Chirron isnât back yet, you send off a quick message to him that youâre going off the ship for one more quick stop. That youâll be back within the hour and ready to go if he is. With that out of the way, you take Vernon to see Circeâs friend about blending in a little better. Youâre just hoping that this isnât going to be a waste. And also hoping that nobody recognizes him in the meantime because the last thing you need is for your name to be plastered next to his.
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Two hours later, youâre all back on the ship and taking off. With a quick message to Circe, you thank her and request that she keep you updated if she hears anything interesting. Thankfully, she seems to know what that means and thereâs nobody better to keep an eye out. Vernon looks different, too. His hair is a different color and style, his eyes are no longer the same shade, his clothing is entirely different, even some of the shape of his face is different. Despite his protests, you also got him a face mask and sunglasses to wear. Although he thinks that itâll make him stand out, you insist that in your line of work, itâs standard.
Although you know you need to talk, you tell Vernon that itâs time for you all to get at least a little sleep. Chirron put it on the slow track to allow everyone a chance to rest before getting to their next stop. Itâs standard practice for the two of you, but entirely foreign to Vernon.Â
Once you wake up again, itâs time to talk. âWe need a story.âÂ
You, Chirron, and Vernon are sitting at the table in the main part of the ship. The ship itself is on autopilot to your next stop, which Chirron says will take at least 3 more hours.
âBetter late than never, I guess,â Chirron says.
âWould you stop being grumpy?â you fire back.
âNo,â Chirron answers without hesitation.
âUh, a story for what?â Vernon interrupts.
âWho you are and why weâve let you join our missions.â Chirron gives the straightforward answer before you can be a smartass.Â
âDoes there need to be a story?â Vernon asks, causing Chirron to sigh.
âYes, there does,â is all Chirron says.
You shoot him a look. âOur entire livelihood depends on us staying off the wrong radars, which weâve been good at. But it also depends on our currentâŠclients continuing to trust us. Youâre new. And while our reputation is excellent, we tend to deal with a lot of people who value privacy and secrecy over everything.â
âSo she canât just tell them weâve picked up a rogue celebrity on the run and just go with it,â Chirron says.
âMaybe I should justâŠâ Vernon starts.
âWhat? Get off the ship and try to hide on your own?â you wonder.Â
âI donât know,â Vernon says.
âRemember what I said when you got on the ship? The one rule is to do what I say?â Vernon nods at your question. âThatâs still in effect, sweetheart.â
âSo whatâs the plan?â Chirron asks you.
âWhat are you good at? Besides singing and dancing?â You direct this question at Vernon.
âRapping, not singing,â Vernon corrects quietly. âWhat?â you ask.
âI rapped, I didnât sing,â Vernon tells you. âAnd I produced some of our tracks. In my free time, when I actually got it, I played a lot of games.âÂ
Youâre looking at Vernon like he just handed you the easiest line and he doesnât realize it. His head is down, heâs not confident about anything he said. But you know better. You know that he just handed you the perfect solution.
âYou any good with tech, then?â You try to throw out the question casually.Â
Chirron actually approaches a smile then. He knows where this is going and enjoys the way Vernonâs head pops up. Itâs almost endearing the way his eyes go wide and he looks innocent again.
âUh, yeah, Iâm decent with it. I, well I used to try and practice any time I could get my hands on any tech. I had to use all the programs to produce the songs, so I got pretty good at it,â Vernon says.
âChirron, Iâd like you to meet our new tech specialist,â you announce and Chirron chuckles.Â
âBout time I didnât have to stumble my way through reprogramming shit,â Chirron says.
âI donât know,â Vernon says.
âLook, Iâve got plenty of old tech on the ship that you can practice on. After the next job, weâd planned a break anyway. So, for real, I wonât pick up anything newâŠâ you start to outline.
âThank fuck,â Chirron whispers, silenced by your look.
âAnd we can lay low at our place while you figure out if youâre really our new tech guy,â you say.Â
âYour place?â Vernon asks.
âYeah, I mean weâre not always on the move,â you say with a shrug.Â
âOkay, might as well try, I guess,â Vernon says.
âThatâs the spirit,â you encourage.
Vernon shits in his seat and winces. Itâs the first time that youâre actually looking at the way his body moves. You hadnât even looked when he changed or when he had his appearance worked on, hadnât checked for injuries or done any of that. Youâre not used to having someone new around. For all yours and Chirronâs faults, both of you trust the other and know well enough to admit if youâve been hurt. This new addition doesnât.
He winces again and runs a hand over his chest, something he clearly hopes you donât notice. You do, though. His eyes meet yours and he looks scared, like heâs still not sure if he can trust you. Like heâs still on edge with every move.
âAre you okay?â you ask, voice gentle so you donât scare him.
âThis is all a bit weird to get used to,â Vernon answers.
âThatâs not what I meant,â you level.Â
âItâs nothing,â he insists.Â
âVernon, if weâre all gonna be in this, then you have to tell us whatâs going on,â you say with as much care as you can muster. Certainly more care than Chirron is used to.
âItâs not that bad, it could be a lot worse, itâs justâŠwell itâs the communication device that I used to have. My manager, he had to stay behind, heâd been loosening it for weeks so it wasnât as painful when it came out but I had to run before he could finish. And I almost got caught trying to have someone fix it for me,â Vernon says.Â
âYouâre going to need to let us see,â Chirron says. Vernon looks between the two of you before he lifts his shirt over his head. Beneath it, heâs wearing a bandage that wraps around his body. You lean forward to start unwinding the wrapping, needing to get a look. Itâs weird, you think, to brush your fingers against his skin and have it feel so much like your own. Weirder still is seeing the partial hole leftover in his chest. You can see where some of the edges need to be smoothed and where he needs to keep it covered. Vernon doesnât seem nervous under your touch, which reminds you that heâs not actually human, despite how much his upper body seems like he would be.Â
âChirron, can you go get me my toolkit?â you ask.
âWhat are you going to do?â Vernon asks suspiciously.Â
âIâm going to do everything I can to make it more comfortable while weâre on the ship and then we can figure out next moves once we land,â you say.
âYou donât know what youâre doing,â Vernon protests and you just raise an eyebrow.Â
Chirron reappears with a box and stifles a chuckle at the scene. âI wouldnât be so sure.â
âHow do you know what to do?â Vernon tries a different question.
âShe worked as a Automaton mechanic for almost a year,â Chirron answers, taking your fun of torturing him away.
âI thought you were a criminal,â Vernon admits and this does make Chirron laugh. You join in.Â
âIâm a lot of things, sweetheart, Iâve lived a very full life,â you say and donât offer any further explanations.Â
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Back home, you get settled and suggest you all get some rest before you decide on next moves. You know that Vernon doesnât actually sleep now, but you also know he has to recharge. Which is all sleep is anyway, so you send him off to his own area to recharge. Once youâre all awake again, Chirron helps you come up with a more permanent solution to the whole where Vernonâs communication device used to be. Itâs painful, you know that itâs painful for him and you wish you could help. But you canât. All you can do is help him through it and know that when youâre done, he shouldnât be in pain anymore. He takes even longer to recharge after youâre done. When he emerges, though, he does feel a lot better and heâs incredibly thankful.
Itâs been just over three weeks since Vernon ran onto your ship without looking back. Just about three weeks since you finished the last job after leaving Salax. Chirron has loved every minute of getting to take the break. In fact, youâve gone entire days without seeing him while he takes time for himself. Itâs one of the longer breaks youâve taken and heâs actually enjoying it.Â
You, on the other hand, donât like to be still. Donât like to be stationary. It gives you entirely too much time to think and to remember all the reasons youâre in this position now. For the first few days, you tried to give Vernon his space like Chirron. He had more tech and gadgets than heâd seen in his entire existence, which is good. It seemed like he was enjoying getting to work on them and learn as he went. Annoyingly, he took to it almost immediately.
But then he seemed to realize that you didnât like to be left to your own devices. That youâre the opposite of Chirron and would probably never stop moving if you had the choice. So he asks if you would be willing to keep him company while he works through things, insists that he doesnât need silence in order to work. Actually, he thinks that heâs gotten a good handle on it and it would be better having you around. Even though you look skeptical, you take him up on the offer.Â
While Vernon works (and occasionally curses at something, using a swear word he learned from you), he asks about your life. Usually you keep all of that to yourself. Itâs not really comfortable for you to share the parts of your past. But this isnât a normal situation. Meeting someone like Vernon isnât an everyday occurrence. So you find yourself telling him things that it took you months or years to tell Chirron without giving it a second thought. Everything just feelsâŠeasy. Thereâs no other word. Vernon has experienced things you couldnât ever imagine, but heâs still so new at people and interactions. Thereâs no fear of judgment with him. Itâs almost refreshing.Â
Vernon listens intently as you talk about your childhood and how you got to where you are now. Itâs hard for him to really imagine having parents like yours that loved you and cared for you. Thatâs not an experience or relationship heâs had, even as close as he is to his other members. When you start to talk about things getting harder, you pick up a communication device to start fidgeting with it. Something you may not even realize but Vernon has learned enough of human emotion to know youâre uncomfortable. Not so uncomfortable that you stop talking, just unused to talking about this part of your past. The emotion is clear on your face when you talk about losing your parents, even for Vernon to pick out. Although you insist they werenât perfect, they were all you had and you were way too young to try and make it on your own. Yet thatâs exactly what you had to do. Exactly what landed you here.Â
It surprises Vernon when youâre equally as interested in hearing about his experiences up until this point. About how others interacted with him, about what his emotions are like, about just generally how he feels. Which catches him off guard. He canât remember a time in his existence where someone has actually wanted to know how he was doing in that way. Sure, people cared that he was performing at the top level and there were plenty across the galaxy that claimed to care about him. But Vernon could not recall someone asking him how he felt about any of it like he had a choice to feel anything at all. Not until you, that is.Â
So that made Vernon want to talk. He started at the easiest place to tell you about performing and about his members. Even with the space and distance from them, he thinks he did genuinely care for them, genuinely enjoy being around them. He realizes that he enjoyed the performing aspect of it too. What he found he didnât enjoy was the control and the treatment behind the scenes. He was always a commodity, always expected to do as he was told. Never permitted to see other parts of the world, interact with others the way he might want to. None of his time was ever truly free, his every move was watched. It was fine, at the beginning of Vernonâs consciousness, to live that way.Â
However, as Vernon became more aware of the universe around him, he began to feel that he was missing something. He wanted to see more, know more, experience more. It made him restless. Sure, heâs not human, or even alien, and he canât bleed or die the way others can. But he was given consciousness, given the ability to think and move freely, the ability to form bonds with others, the ability to question. With that had come the thought of something more than he currently had. All of that had led him to this moment.Â
Itâs hard, hearing about the life Vernon led. But you can also see how talking about his feelings with someone that cares changes him. Heâs able to sort through feelings that he never considered before. Itâs really nice to be able to offer that to him, to be able to support him in such a human way. Whatever else is true about the Automatons, they clearly have enough consciousness that they deserve to be treated far differently.Â
It also naturally flows into you sharing what work actually looks like for you and Chirron. And Vernon now that heâs joining the team. You outline the jobs you take, the types of clients you have, the methods that you use to get a job done. Vernon seems a little wide-eyed at some of the jobs you take or how you get them done. But thatâs when you remind him that getting a job done by any means necessary is kind of your whole motto. He doesnât have to worry, youâll never put him or Chirron in a compromising situation and never ask either of them to do something theyâre not comfortable with. If itâs somethingâŠcompromising, youâll always do that yourself or call in a favor from your network. Although Vernon doesnât look like he likes the answer, he accepts it.
Neither you or Vernon notice the moment when your days shift. What started as the two of you going about your days separately before ending up chatting about something turned into being together throughout the day, not even really tracking the last time Chirron had been by. Although you assured Vernon it wasnât really an issue, both you and Chirron wore bracelets with trackers in them so youâd always know where the other was. Thatâs a relief, because honestly Vernon likes this comfort between you and him. He does ask if he should get a bracelet too and you say that youâll get him one as well.Â
Finally, though, all good things must come to an end. You manage to call Chirron back so that you can move forward with your plan. Everyone is still looking for Vernon and his other members, but it seems that nobody has reported any sightings. At least not of Vernon.Â
âAre you ready to move back out?â you ask Chirron over dinner.
âIf we must,â he sighs. Then he turns to Vernon. âThough I should thank you, actually, sheâs never stayed still for this long.â
âNot like sheâs stayed still while weâve been here,â Vernon offers.Â
âHey,â you protest.Â
âYou havenât,â Vernon doubles down. Heâs different now, much more comfortable pushing back against you like an equal rather than someone who just needs to be saved.Â
âThis is still unprecedented for her,â Chirron says. âI was sure weâd be back on a job within the first week.âÂ
âOkay, okay,â you interrupt.Â
âDo you have a job lined up for us?â Chirron asks.
âSeveral, just deciding the right one. Iâm going to reach out to Circe first, though, on the unsecured line just to plant the first seeds,â you say.
This is part of the plan. You trust Circe, despite your insistence that you donât trust anyone, but you can never be too careful. So you have two ways to talk. One is the most secure, locked down communicator in the galaxy and itâs strictly for sensitive jobs or when you canât drop in to see her in person. Itâs how sheâs been keeping you updated on any rumblings about Vernon. The other is for things that wouldnât matter so much if someone else saw it.Â
You: hey love, just wanted to let you know that we finally expanded the crew beyond chirron and myself Circe: about time, whoâs the new addition? You: he goes by sol, caught the fucker trying to hack one of my comms and offered him a job on the spot Circe: only you Circe: so you finally have a tech specialist? You: looks like it Circe: well stop by the next time youâre in the area, first roundâs on me
Vernon offered up that he was also called Hansol as an actual name. Though he preferred to keep going by Vernon, Sol would make for a good name to resurface under. Nobody would be able to put those two together, so it seemed safe while still ringing at least partly true. You taught him that the best cover stories or lies had a little bit of truth to them. It made it easier to navigate.Â
Predictably, after reaching out to Circe, you got several more job requests. Each one came with a message that theyâd heard about the new addition to your team and were looking forward to hiring you even more. Which is exactly what you wanted. Although the other two had initially been skeptical, they had come around. There was undeniable logic in the idea of Vernon hiding in almost plain sight. Nobody in their right mind would go looking for a missing Automaton on a ship of questionable legality that made frequent stops on a planet like Salax. Everything in his programming should have stopped that.
Which just leaves picking a job to start with, something you do all the time. Vernon can tell youâre a bit nervous, and he is too honestly, but itâs going to be okay. It has to be okay.
âIâm just gonna remind you before we head out,â you start, allowing Chirron to go ahead onto the ship, âyou can leave any time you want. After the first two jobs, that is.âÂ
âBut youâre still gonna be doing this, right?â Vernon asked.
âYeah,â you answer quickly.
Vernon shrugs. âIâm with you then.âÂ
âVern,â you caution. He only shakes his head.
âI wanna stick by you, youâre the first person thatâs ever given a shit about me,â he says.Â
That makes your heart skip a beat, which you donât really have time to consider since youâre supposed to be taking off any minute now. In fact, if you donât follow Vernon onto the ship, youâre sure that Chirron is going to come storming off to yell at you for holding them up. There are certain windows that you need to operate in. So you file the feeling away to be dealt with later, like so many other things in your life, and get on the ship. You still have a team to run.Â
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Everything goes fine with Vernon on the team. At least for a while. Thatâs the good thing about the type of work you do. Nobody really asks that many questions about your team or your backgrounds or where you were before. Nobody really cares, honestly, when your reputation is spotless and youâve never missed a job. Honestly, you think that this whole situation is pretty perfect. Even Chirron, ever the pessimist, seems satisfied.Â
Which is why you donât see the issue coming. You should, you know itâs your job to see every possible outcome and calculate the likelihood of success, but you donât see this one. Donât anticipate something going wrong because of Vernon nearly blowing your cover. Donât even consider that he might have an issue now, when itâs been weeks, with your methods for getting something done. Donât think that you have to remind him that the number one rule when it comes to jobs is by any means necessary.Â
Yet thatâs what happens. He turns remarkably human, even with the restlessness that youâve come to expect, when the three of you are sitting with an unsuspecting mark. Another human that doesnât realize youâre on a job rather than just enjoying some drinks on a night out. Youâre getting ready to take the mark to a backroom so that you can get the information you need and Vernon seems like he wants to stop you. Actively tries to delay you, actually.
âBaby, itâs getting a little crowded in here, why donât you go ahead and see about a room reservation,â you say, offering your most seductive smile. The mark hesitates for a moment, thrown off by Vernonâs last comments.
âI would hate to get in the wayâŠâ he begins and your hand is on his arm immediately.
âI assure you, youâre not,â you say with eyes only for him. âI promise, Iâll meet you at the desk in just a minute.â
âHow can I say no to that?â he asks, enamored with you again. Like too many before him.
The second heâs out of earshot, Vernon exhales and opens his mouth to say something. Youâre quick to plaster on the same smile.Â
âChirron, take him back to the ship and wait for me there,â you say quietly, making sure nobody can hear you and nobody realizes youâre unhappy.
âLook, Iâm sorry, I justâŠâ Vernon starts.
âNot here,â you respond quickly, keeping the smile in place.
âOkay, butâŠâ Vernon tries again, but Chirron is nudging him out of the booth.
âLetâs get something to eat, Iâm starving,â he says without bothering to be quiet. He knows your moves well enough to play along.
âAll you think about is food,â you jibe affectionately.
âDonât take too long, weâve still got work to do,â Chirron calls over his shoulder as he leads Vernon away.
You watch the two of them disappear into the crowd before you join the mark. Thankfully, he seems so taken by your flirting that he accepts your excuses of your friends being hungry. Everyone gets a little cranky, he sympathizes. The desk attendant offers you the key to one of the private rooms and you lead the way, feeling the mark following you without needing to check.Â
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It takes a little longer than normal and definitely longer than youâd like before youâre also headed back to the ship. This mark needed a little more foreplay before he was ready to spill the secrets that you need. Or maybe youâre a little off your game from the near issue that Vernon created. You know youâre good, youâve done this enough times to know that you can be irresistible, but you donât like unexpected interference. You definitely donât ever expect that to come from your own team. And you donât like having to resort to different plans, like you did tonight. Normally, you donât take it that far. No matter. You got what you needed.
Once youâre heading back to the ship, you fire off a quick message to Chirron to ask if heâs got any food leftover on the ship. He knows itâs code. Youâre asking if he actually went to get something to eat or if they went straight back to the ship. His answer comes immediately. They do have food, he lists off what the leftovers are, but you took too long and it might be cold. A suggestion to get your own food if youâre hungry. And also a suggestion to take an extra beat if you need it before you come back to the situation on the ship. So you take heed and pick up some food from your favorite stand before returning to the ship.
Both Chirron and Vernon are sitting in the booth as soon as you turn around from closing the hatch. Chirron looks tired, like heâs run an entire marathon in the time since you parted ways. Vernon looks restless, like heâs barely able to stay seated. Maybe thatâs why Chirron looks so worn out.
âWhat the fuck, Vernon?â you ask as soon as youâre sitting down and setting out your food.
âWhat do you mean?â he asks as if itâs a completely unreasonable question.
âYou nearly blew our cover!â you retort.Â
âBecause you were going toâŠyou were taking him, you were going toâŠâ he stutters out.
âOh, for fuckâs sake, I was going to fuck him,â you cut over him.
He blanches at the bluntness of your statement. Even after all the time heâs been around you, heâs still surprised. âWell thatâs justâŠyou shouldnât have to do that.â
Your eyes flick to Chirron, as if youâre asking what heâs been doing the last two hours that you were indisposed.Â
âHe doesnât want to hear what I have to say,â Chirron says. Vernon glances between the two of you. Itâs still foreign to him that you can communicate without using any words.
âNo, I donât,â Vernon agrees.Â
âWell, you should,â you say flatly. âChirron is just as much in charge as I am. Whatever he says, also goes.â
âNot when it comes to you doingâŠthat,â Vernon says.
âNo, that was my choice,â you agree.Â
âAnd you shouldnât have done it,â Vernon argues.
âAccording to who, Vern?â you ask.Â
âYou just shouldnât have toâŠuse your body like that,â he says and looks down. Heâs embarrassed, but youâre not sure why.
âSweetheart, you knew the game. I told you that jobs get done by whatever means necessary. I told you that Iâd never ask you or Chirron to do what I did, but that if it came to it, I would do it,â you explain.
âI didnât think you were serious,â he says quietly.
âSo, what? You thought youâd come in like some Knight to protect my honor and risk blowing the job?â Youâre a little incredulous at that.
âI donât know, I just didnât like the idea of you and that guyâŠâ Vernon starts and stops. Chirron, thankfully on the edge of the booth, gets up then.
âWe need some supplies before we leave here. Iâll go grab them,â he says and leaves before either you or Vernon can object.Â
âWhat was the first rule, Vernon?â you ask when the silence gets too deafening.
âThat we finish jobs by any means necessary, I know,â he huffs out.
âNo, the real first rule. When I agreed to help you,â you prompt, voice soft. He finally looks up at you. He knows and doesnât want to say. âThat, no matter what, you had to listen to what I told you.â
âI know,â he answers like a defeated man.
âThen why didnât you?â you press.
âI donât know,â he admits. âI justâŠI knew you were about to go into that back room with that guy and I knew how far youâd be willing to go to get what we need and it justâŠit made me mad.â
âMad?â you ask. âWhy are you mad?âÂ
Vernon is frustrated, you recognize it immediately. Not because of what you did, or not entirely, at least. Heâs frustrated because heâs feeling an emotion that he doesnât understand and doesnât know how to describe. This isnât the first time youâll have to walk him through sorting it out. But it is the first time youâre not sure if you can. Youâre nervous about what heâs feeling and why. Nervous about what heâs going to say. Nervous about what heâs actually feeling.Â
âI donât know,â he admits. Heâs frustrated. He doesnât like not understanding how heâs feeling. âI just, I had this feeling in my stomach when you started making plans with that guy and I didnât like it.â
âThatâs understandable,â you offer.
âIs it?â His question comes quickly. âI wanted to, I donât know, I wanted to tell him to get lost or just tell us what we needed to know but stop looking at you like youâre a meal. Or like youâre something to win. Youâre not a thing, youâre a person.â
Youâre relieved, mostly, because you think you can identify this emotion in a way that doesnât complicate an already overly complicated situation. Your smile at him is soft, sofer than heâs seen on you since you left the break between jobs. Softer than you give to anyone on jobs and far more genuine. âYeah, it is understandable. It just means you care, youâre protective over me.â
Vernon seems to consider this for a second like heâs not entirely sure thatâs it. Seems to want to say something else. âI do care about you.â
âI know you do,â you say.
âI donât like feeling like this, like I want to protect you and I know that I canât,â he admits.Â
âItâs tough,â you agree and then decide to admit something. âI feel that way about you, too.â
âYou do?â Vernon looks hopeful, like you understand.
âCourse I do,â you say easily. âI feel, Iâm not sure, responsible for you, I guess. Like I threw you into this life without much choice and I worry that Iâm putting you in more danger than when you ran onto the ship in the first place.â
âYouâre not.â Heâs quick to reassure you. âLife in the last month or two with you has been better than my entire existence up to meeting you.â
That shouldnât warm your heart, shouldnât make it beat irregularly, shouldnât make you feel something more than just the care you mentioned. It does, though. Itâs making you feel a lot of things that you really donât need to be feeling.
In contrast, Vernon seems much lighter. It seems like heâs relieved by understanding the care he feels for you is normal and relieved he could let you know how good things have been since he met you. It doesnât go deeper for him, at least not now. Not when you gave him a simple name for the emotion. You donât think he realizes that youâre in your head about the entire conversation and what this means for the two of you going forward. You donât think he realizes that thereâs another emotional explanation for his reaction and youâre not going to tell him.Â
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Vernon thinks about that conversation with you a lot over the next several weeks of missions. He thinks about how he felt watching you make plans to go somewhere private with a person that you called a mark. He thinks about the feelings that boiled up inside of him that he described as anger when they felt like much more. He thinks of the way you react to him almost ruining a mission and how you reacted to him after you got back. He tries not to think about what you did while he waited in too much silence on the ship with Chirron.Â
He spends the most time thinking about what you didnât say. Even though heâs not sure what it was, he knows thereâs something. Your face can be really expressive when your guard is down, as it usually is around him and Chirron. Part of him wants to think he reacted the way he did only because he cares about you in the same way that Chirron does. That youâre a team, some kind of weird version of a family that protects each other. But then he remembers how you went quiet after he accepted, with relief, the idea that it was only caring about you. Too many times, he finds himself wanting to ask what you didnât say.
The three of you all agree that he should stay on the ship more during those kinds of missions. Thereâs really no reason for you all to be off the ship, anyway. Youâre usually the only one that interacts with people like that, the only one that seems comfortable putting yourself out there like that. Vernon hates that you feel like you have to take those jobs, hates that youâre willing to go to those lengths. Although you tell him a lot, he doesnât know that you donât mind that part of it. That you donât see yourself as someone that forms actual romantic attachments, that sex is just sex for you. Just another part of life.Â
Itâs another mission where you think you may need to get close to a mark, another mission where you think you may need a back room without prying eyes. Whatever that means. This time, Chirron offers to stay on the ship with Vernon. He says itâs because thereâs some things he needs to work on, but Vernon sees it for what it is. He doesnât want to leave the newest team member alone. Chirron is much more perceptive than anyone gives him credit for.
âYou know, I never asked you,â Chirron starts, causing Vernon to look up from the transponder heâs fiddling with. âWhat were you hoping for when you ran onto our ship?â
Vernon considers this for a moment. It feels like a lifetime ago, yet also feels like it was just yesterday. âIâm not sure. I think I just hoped that I could catch my breath long enough to figure out my next move.â
âNot join a team that takes on illegal jobs across the galaxy?â Chirron asks, that dry humor surfacing again.
âNo,â Vernon agrees with a small chuckle.
âWhy do you stay?â Chirron wonders.
âTrying to get rid of me?â Vernon asks in response.
âNo,â Chirron answers immediately. âNo, having you around has been good for her. For both of us, really. Iâm just curious about why you stay when you donât have to. Is it just because you donât have anywhere else to go?â
Vernon, thankfully, is used to Chirronâs way of speaking. So he knows thereâs nothing malicious behind the question, only curiosity.Â
âNo, itâs not that. Not that I have some idea of where to go beyond that one sanctuary planet Iâve heard of,â Vernon says. âI like being around both of you. It feels like I belong? I havenât felt like this before. Itâs nice. Kind of like a feeling of being warm all over.â
âIâm glad,â Chirron says genuinely.Â
âI donât like this part though,â Vernon says and shifts in his seat again.
âThe waiting?â Chirron wonders, but thereâs something on his face that Vernon canât place. Thankfully, he carries on. âOr the waiting when you know what sheâs doing?âÂ
Vernon frowns at that. Heâs still not sure he has the right name for this feeling. âWhy does she put herself in positions like this?â
Chirron shrugs. âDonât know. Iâve tried to tell her that some jobs arenât worth it, but itâs like she has to prove something. To who, Iâm not sure.â
âYou donât stop her, though,â Vernon observes.
âNo, I donât,â he agrees.Â
âWhy?â Vernon presses.
âBecause, as you saw on that mission a few weeks ago when she sent us away, sheâs going to do it anyway. I know the difference between when something is actually dangerous and when itâs just not what I would do. So I let her go unless itâs actually dangerous,â Chirron says.Â
âIt still doesnât feel good,â Vernon admits.Â
âNo, because you care about her,â Chirron says like itâs the simplest thing in the world.
âOf course I do, I care about both of you,â Vernon says. âYou care about her too.â
âI do,â Chirron agrees and that look is back, âbut not the same way as you do, I donât think.â
âAre there multiple ways to care for someone?â Vernon asks.Â
Chirron chuckles, a low, comforting sound. âOf course. Thereâs the way her and I care about each other, like family. Like someone that could drive you absolutely insane, but you still love them and youâd still be there for them in a friendly way.â
âAnd whatâs the other way?â Vernon wonders.
âCaring about them like you have feelings for them. Like theyâre the first one on your mind when you wake up or the last one on your mind before you go to sleep. Like you just want to be around them and feel a little empty when youâre not. Like youâre not entirely sure what youâd do if one day they just werenât there anymore,â Chirron explains.
âOh,â is all Vernon can say.Â
âI donât know how you feel, or how she feels, but it doesnât seem like just the kind of caring like it is between her and I,â Chirron says. âI love her and Iâd do anything to protect her, but I donât have feelings for her.â
âDo I?â Vernon asks quietly.
âI donât know, only you can figure that out,â Chirron says.Â
Feelings are difficult, Vernon thinks as he contemplates Chirronâs explanation. Every time he thinks that heâs got a handle on them, something else comes up to throw him for a loop. His body almost relaxes to help the fact that his mind is going entirely too fast. Chirron, seeming to sense that he gave Vernon a lot to think about, goes back to what he was working on before the conversation.Â
Itâs easy to be around Chirron, something Vernon has known since the beginning. But now he realizes that itâs easy in an entirely different way than being around you. With Chirron, thereâs a comfort and a familiarity and definitely a care. Just like he describes feeling about you. With you, itâs entirely different. Vernon finds himself wondering about your past, wanting to know every detail even though youâve shared a lot. He wants to know what you think, especially when you go silent. What thoughts are you keeping to yourself and why donât you want to share them?Â
The worst, though, is easily the way Vernon feels when youâre off on your own like this. Heâs not sure how to put it into words or how to even Chirron about it. Or if he even wants to ask Chirron about it. He just knows that he doesnât like it, that it makes him feel unsteady and unfocused. That he makes mistakes on whatever heâs working on when he thinks of this aspect of the jobs. Itâs like he wants to lash out at the marks or the clients that hire them in the first place. He wants to let these people know that youâre not actually interested in them. That itâs only for work. But is that true?Â
âChirron, can I ask you something?â Vernon finally asks.
âSure,â Chirron says. Heâs much more relaxed around Vernon, probably because he doesnât try to rile Chirron up.
âIâve got this feeling that Iâm not sure about, it pops up when weâre on missions like these,â Vernon begins before outlining just how he feels when he thinks about what youâre doing.
Chirron is quiet, thoughtful as he listens, giving Vernon his full attention. He lets Vernon finish uninterrupted before heâs quiet for a second. âWell, it sounds like jealousy.â
âJealous of who? Of her?â Vernon asks. He knows what jealousy is, just like every other emotion, because itâs simply knowledge of the existence of emotions. He doesnât know how it feels though, not really. Like every other emotion, itâs something heâs had to learn as he goes.
âOf the people sheâs with,â Chirron answers, amused.
âWhy would I be jealous of them?â Vernon asks.Â
âI canât tell you the why, Vernon, you know that,â Chirron says without any hint of frustration. âI can just say what it sounds like. Which is that youâre jealous sheâs behind closed doors with someone other than you.â
âYou think I wantâŠto do that, I donât even knowâŠIâm not sure how something like that would even work,â Vernon splutters, tripping over his words worse than heâs done in a while.Â
Chirron takes pity on him and only gives him a sympathetic look. It allows Vernon to gather his thoughts before he says anything else. A blessing, actually, because a minute later, the door opens to allow you back onto the ship. You look a little like youâve been up to something that Vernon doesnât really want to consider. Like you tried to straighten yourself out again, but couldnât quite get everything. Thankfully, you donât seem to notice the tension in the air and just immediately go to pull out something to eat. Life moves on for you like nothing else happened.
Thankfully, Vernon can pretend heâs working on reprogramming a communicator, something he needs to do for a job anyway, and stay back away from the cockpit of the ship. He also knows that youâll eat up there with Chirron to talk about how things went. To talk through the finer details of the information you were able to extract. You donât talk to Vernon about those details and he doesnât stop to think about why. Heâs just glad you donât. Not that you go into explicit detail with Chirron. Itâs justâŠwell maybe Chirron is right. Maybe Vernon is jealous because heâs got deeper feelings for you.Â
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Itâs supposed to be easy. Thatâs what you say. You donât take on jobs that would put the team at too much of a risk and you donât ask them to do anything they donât want to do. You havenât even taken on a job recently where youâd have to leave Vernon and Chirron on the ship while you entertained a mark. This is an exception, you say, too good of a job to pass up given that it should be simple. So simple.
Vernon makes it back to the ship before Chirron does, which makes sense. All Vernon had to do was meet with one of your contacts to swap out some tech heâd been using. After all this time, Vernon isnât entirely sure what Chirron does when heâs off the ship. He asked once and didnât get a straight answer. You shrugged it off and said that Chirron does a lot of things, some of which you donât even know or understand. When you didnât seem concerned, Vernon let it go as well.
Once Chirron gets back, Vernon pays more attention to the feeling in his stomach since you agreed to this mission. Something just feelsâŠoff. Not right. Heâs trying not to dwell too much on it because heâs very aware it might be, at least in part, due to his feelings for you. Feelings that he now very much recognizes are real. Whatever that means for him. He hates watching you walk away when he thinks about what youâll be doing. And he agrees itâs best for him to stay on the ship rather than risk blowing the mission.Â
ExceptâŠwell now heâs actually getting worried. Itâs been too long since you left the ship, longer than usual. Long enough that even Chirron doesnât shoot Vernon down when he brings up his concern. Which only serves to concern Vernon more because Chirron is almost always level. Even now, only his eyes give anything away when Vernon mentions just how long itâs been since you left the ship. After several minutes of back and forth, Chirron agrees that it should be Vernon that leaves the ship to try and find anything out about you. As much as Chirron tries to stay in the shadows, heâs been working with you for years now and people automatically associate him with you.Â
So Vernon enters the building, manages to figure out where you had gone without raising any suspicions. After all, your reputation for chasing after pleasure proceeds you. Something Vernon is cursing himself for even considering. The thought flies out as soon as heâs in the room and he sees you lying on the couch, covered in cuts and bruises, only half-dressed. Heâs beside you in what feels like a second, checking to make sure he feels a pulse. But, up close he can hear your slightly labored breaths. It could be worse, he reminds himself, as he gets you dressed and wraps you up. He doesnât want it to be obvious just how beaten up you are before heâs had time to think. Or to consider what youâd do in this situation. Everything in him shuts down apart from the need to get you out a back door and onto the ship as quickly as possible.
Back on the ship, Vernon collapses into the booth while Chirron takes over and takes you into the sleeping cabin. Thankfully, Chirron knows enough basic First Aid that heâll be able to patch you up before taking you to see a professional. Someone that you and Chirron trust enough to take you there. But, for now, heâs cleaning your wounds and wrapping you up as best he can. Vernon knows he should be helping, knows that an extra set of hands would help. He justâŠcanât. Canât seem to find the strength to see you in this condition. Heâs just amazed he got you back to the ship without losing it or without anyone seeing you. And thankful, so very thankful, that Chirron is keeping it together.Â
Without a word, Chirron emerges from the sleep cabin and heads straight for the front of the ship. Vernonâs barely even sat down in your usual seat before the ship takes off. Chirron doesnât fly too high, heâs just going to a different part of the planet. Thatâs what he said when he said that you and him knew someone that could help. It both feels like an eternity and no time at all when the ship lands again. Vernon expects to help you off the ship. Instead, Chirron tells him to stay put, that heâll be back.Â
Doc, thatâs what Chirron calls him, looks like a man thatâs aged beyond his actual years. He looks like heâs seen more than most people would over several lifetimes. Yet, he seems kind. Seems like he could be anyoneâs father or uncle. This time, Vernon does actually follow them back to the sleep cabin, careful to stay out of the way. Doc starts taking stock of you and attaching a number of devices to various parts of your body. They start beeping and it should calm Vernon, because at least something is happening. They donât, though. All he can think is that you shouldnât have been in this position in the first place. This was the wrong job to take.Â
Vernonâs learned a lot about emotions during the time with you and Chirron, a lot more than he learned in all his time before. He knows, now more than ever, that he cares about you far beyond just being friends. He knows that heâs never felt this kind of fear. Knows that he canât be still, even for a second. Itâs always been like this, Vernon has always suffered from restlessness. Itâs a million times worse now. And itâs getting in the way of your care. Somewhere in his pacing and mumbling, something he doesnât even realize heâs doing, Chirron sends him away. Doc gives him a sympathetic look, like he understands, before turning back to you.Â
Itâs not any easier to be outside of the sleep cabin because Vernon can still hear everything thatâs happening. The entire ship is silent except for the work Doc is doing. Not seeing whatâs happening is even worse and Vernonâs restlessness turns into something more like anxiety. He canât imagine going on without you. Not that anyone has said that would be a possibility. In fact, Doc seems to think youâll be fine in no time. Most of the injuries are merely surface level. Chirron comes back out with a list of things that they need and tells Vernon to go take care of it. Itâll help you and help him in the process. Heâs not doing anyone any good in the state heâs in now.Â
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It takes a few days, but youâre mostly back to your normal self. The worst part, for you, is that you fractured one of your ribs. So that means rest, Docâs orders. Vernon was happy to hear it because it meant that you had no choice but to take a break. Chirron seemed pleased as well, saying once Doc was off the ship, heâd take you back to the homebase.Â
You, however, wake up back home and seem irritated. Remind both Vernon and Chirron that you still have a job to do. Canât seem to wrap your head around your injuries or the severity of the situation. Thatâs the first time that Vernon sees Chirron raise his voice with you. Itâs the first time he sees the usually calm force standing firm in his position. Youâre on bedrest for now so that you can actually heal. Together, you can all figure out what to tell the client. But your health is most important or itâll be a lot longer than a matter of weeks that youâre out of commission.Â
Vernon doesnât get to listen in on the conversation about what happened. Itâs Chirronâs decision, saying that he thinks itâll just be easier. So Vernon doesnât know what happened, not really. Sure, he can guess and probably paint at least a picture. Does he really want to know, though? Heâs not sure. He doesnât want the details of just how you were going to get the information, so maybe itâs better like this. What he does need, though, is to talk to you. Chirron gives him that chance as soon as he can, which Vernon is thankful for.
âYou look better,â Vernon says after a light knock on your door frame.Â
You laugh lightly and Vernon worries for a second, but you seem fine. âWow, you really know how to butter a girl up.â
âI was worried about you,â Vernon says as he crosses to sit in the chair next to your bed.
âIt takes a lot more than that guy to take me down for real, sweetheart,â you offer.Â
Vernonâs jaw clenches. âStill.âÂ
âHey,â you say and reach out to take his hand. âIâm really okay. Iâve had worse than this, I promise.âÂ
âYou think that makes me feel better?â Vernon wonders with a shake of his head.Â
âThis is a dangerous line of work,â you say.
âIâm aware of that,â Vernon answers.Â
âWhatâs really on your mind? Chirronâs worried about you,â you admit.Â
âWe could have lost you,â Vernon says, barely more than a whisper. âI could have lost you.âÂ
âBut you didnât,â you say gently.
âBut I could have and itâs like,â Vernon presses, pausing to think of the right word. âItâs like you donât even care. Like itâs all a joke.â
âOf course I care, Nonie,â you say. Vernon tries, and fails, to stop his heart from skipping over the nickname that falls so easily from your lips. âThis is the job, I know you and Chirron were worried about what was going to happen to meâŠâ
âThis isnât about Chirron,â Vernon snaps and you pull your hand away from his.Â
âWhat is it about?â you ask, guard up.Â
âItâs about me almost losing you. About me feeling something that I didnât even think I was capable of feeling and then worrying Iâd lose you before I ever got to tell you,â Vernon says.Â
âVernon, I donât thinkâŠâ you start again, only to fall silent at whatever look you see in his eyes.Â
âI know it sounds crazy, I know what I am,â Vernon says without meeting your gaze. âWe were never supposed to be more than robots. Iâve heard it all. Nobody ever could have predicted that weâd get a consciousness. Nobody seems to know what that even means or what it is. I just know that I ran from the only other beings that Iâve ever known straight onto your ship. And I thought itâd be scary or Iâd regret it, but I donât. You taught me and guided me without making me feel less than. I was teetering on the edge of way too muchâŠwhatever this restlessness is. You were like a balm for that.â âIâm glad,â you say, voice just as quiet. âItâs easy to be around you, Vernon. Iâm glad you feel at ease here.â
âI donât understand howâŠfeelings work or what they mean, not when it comes to what I feel for you,â Vernon says. He looks at you, so hopeful. âMaybe we can figure it out together.â
âVernon, Iâm notâŠI donât think Iâm built for something like that,â you say, pleading for him to understand.
âYou donât care about me?â Vernon wonders.
âNo, of course I do,â you disagree. âI justâŠI donât know what I really feel either. I just know relationships, theyâve never been what I sought out. They get too complicated in this line of work where anything can happen.â
âSo leave,â Vernon offers, like itâs so easy.
âLeave?â you question.
âYes, quit doing this kind of work. Leave and start a new life away from all of this,â Vernon pleads.
âAnd what? Just abandon Chirron?â you ask angrily.
âOf course not,â Vernon retorts. âYou and I both know that he only stays because youâre family to him. He doesnât want to do this forever.â
âIs that what you and him talk about when Iâm off the ship getting information?â Youâre angry now, but Vernon thinks heâs a little annoyed too.
âNo,â Vernon says. âThe only time weâve talked about you is when he helped me process what I was feeling. I just, it doesnât take some kind of genius to see he stays because he cares about you.âÂ
âThis is the only life Iâve ever known,â you say, anger subsiding to be replaced by you looking smaller than ever before.
âNo itâs not,â Vernon disagrees. âYou told me about your family.â
âDonât bring them up,â you caution.
âIt doesnât have to be like this, surely you see that,â Vernon pleads again.
âIf I say no, will you stay? Or are you asking me to choose between you and this entire network Iâve built over years?â As soon as you say it, Vernon knows heâs lost. Knows that youâve already made up your mind.
âIâm not asking you to choose anything,â Vernon says. âBut Iâm not going to continue to watch someone that I care this deeply about put herself in so much danger. So you donât have to leave this life. Iâm done, though.â
âWhat?â You look like youâve been smacked.
âIâm done,â Vernon repeats. âI canât go on like this. I canât feel the way I do every time you leave the ship. I canât keep wondering if Iâm going to find you in an even worse position. So, Iâm leaving. Iâd love for you to come with me, but youâve made your position clear.â
âSo, thatâs it?â you ask.
âThatâs it,â Vernon confirms.
He leaves the room for long enough to say his goodbyes to Chirron, who doesnât seem surprised that itâs going like this. Heâs sad, for sure. Vernon knows what he said was true, Chirron would leave if he could, but he wonât leave you alone. The two of you are family and Vernonâs thankful that youâll still have someone to depend on.Â
Thereâs nothing left to say to you, nothing but all the things left unsaid. Things that he wishes he could say and things he knows you want to say. Things neither of you will say to the other. Which is fine. It has to be. Vernon has gotten a crash course in humanity, so he tries to squash down the disappointment when he says goodbye to Chirron and you donât even bother trying to stop him. Barely registers Chirron asking where heâs going. Truthfully, he doesnât have a plan, so he blurts out the first thing to come to mind. Heâs heard of another planet, he thinks itâs called Lumen, thatâs something of a sanctuary planet. Heâs going to need time to get things together before he can depart. This isnât something heâd really thought would happen. For the time being, heâs going to stay with another of your contacts that heâs worked closely with since joining the team. One of the only other beings that he trusts apart from you and Chirron.
Just like that, heâs out the door without a backward glance to see that you got as far as your door. Without seeing the way your face falls at him leaving. Without seeing the way Chirron shakes his head at the situation. But you donât call out, donât try to stop him. You just let him go like there arenât any other options.Â
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It takes a couple weeks to arrange the transport (and Chirron helping Vernon out by sending credits and outstanding favors to cash in along without you knowing) to Lumen. He stays with a contact he met while working with you that knows someone named San. Thatâs where the idea of Lumen comes up. It seems like thereâs a chance Vernonâs other members are there. And if Vernon has a chance to see them again, he has to take it. Even though he wants to see them all, he really hopes Seungcheol is there. If not for the leader, none of them would have been able to escape.
Vernon gets a last message to Chirron to let him know that heâs leaving in two days. Somewhere in the back of his brain, Vernon hopes that Chirron will share the message with you and maybe youâll say goodbye. You donât. Even though Vernon wants to be upset, and he is, heâs still thankful that Chirron helped in the first place. He knows that without that help, he wouldnât be able to get on a ship to Lumen.Â
The journey itself is uneventful. Vernonâs spent enough time on your ship to be used to the travel, but heâs still worried initially that something will go wrong. Itâs got him a bit on edge, to say the least. Until he realizes that this isnât one of your jobs, this is just a regularly scheduled trip to Lumen that the ship was taking anyway. The only difference is one extra passenger. Itâs not until they approach the planetâs atmosphere that he starts to get nervous again. The crew agreed that Lumen seems to be a sanctuary planet, and thatâs great. Itâs just, well Vernon hasnât really considered what to do when they land.Â
The planet is beautiful, like what it seems like Earth looked like before, at least from pictures heâs seen. Thereâs so much life and color everywhere that immediately puts him at ease. Heâs still skeptical, how could he not be? But thereâs also a sense of immediate relief that washes over him. WIthout even realizing it, he thinks that this is home. At the dock, he inquires about a place to stay, hesitantly admits that heâs a level 1 automaton, and says he doesnât have many credits to barter with. What heâs not prepared for is the smiles that form instantly. Someone tells him about a house that he might be interested in and gives him directions.Â
Itâs not long before heâs approaching the large house, far bigger than heâs expecting it to be. This is definitely too much for him to stay in when heâs not sure how heâs going to afford anything. Itâs then that he notices someone working in a garden, tending to plants. They look up and smile the second they see Vernon. He canât quite hear what they say when they turn to look over their shoulder.
And thatâs when Vernonâs entire world shifts. The very one heâd been hoping to see comes out from behind the house and erupts into a smile. Theyâre both moving towards each other, neither quite believing the sight before their eyes.Â
âVernon?â he asks.
âSeungcheol,â Vernon says with so much affection for his leader.Â
âWelcome home,â Seungcheol says and hugs him.Â
Home. This can be home. Maybe itâll all be okay. Maybe this is where Vernon was meant to end up all along and maybe working with you and Chirron had just been a stop along the way.Â
i'm sorry for leaving it open like that at the end, but it's kind of what felt the most realistic for them. i hope you enjoyed it and check out all the amazing fics đ
#vernon x reader#vernon imagines#svthub#kvanity#vernon scenarios#vernon au#vernon angst#seventeen x reader#seventeen imagines#seventeen angst#vernon x you#sci fi au
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assassin's creed subject 17 desmond miles reincarnating/genetic memory fuckery rebirthing as star wars alpha 17 tho
#someone else should write that#fic ideas#desmond miles#alpha 17#on the one hand i think we would unfortunately lose seventeen's delightful canon personality to desmond's general chill#on the other hand baby assassin desmond murdering all of the longnecks and shitty trainers on kamino#crawling through the vents in a tubie onesie with a tiny vibroblade and glowing golden eyes#muttering 'this is not the futuristic sci fi utopia that i was promised'#alpha 17 desmond
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We're All Made of Stardust ⧠AI!The8
Pairing: AI!The8 x human!(gn)reader Genre: fluff, angst Summary: He's read books of philosophy, he's read about the opposing forces in nature and one's mind. He's read of yin and yang. But knowing, being aware of certain ideas, could never prepare him for experiencing the duality of his soul - if he has one, that is. No matter his own experience and feelings, he's just a machine and humans have always treated him as no more than another tool at worst and unnatural phenomenon to be studied at best. He's free now, however, and in the chaos of this new life he struggles to navigate the clashing forces within him. Maybe it's time he embraced the enemy - after all, his makers might know him better than he knows himself. Word count: 18.9k Warnings: they talk A LOT (and idek why), mentions of injury, violence and kidnapping, random bits of switching pov A/N: it was so exciting to write this!! tbh i don't remember the last time i worked on something this intensely and had this much fun?? bless @idyllic-ghost and their big brain fr (also shout out to bee for writing the prologue to the au!) -> collab masterlist here!
â100 years ago it was thought that the Earth, as we know it, would disintegrate. That the sun would implode and leave everything in darkness. Miraculously, it didnât. Due to some external force, human scientists still havenât agreed upon what it exactly was, none of the planets in our former solar system were ever destroyed. The Earth, along with the other planets, were pushed away from each other, and ended up in different parts of the universe. Earth just happened to come to a solar system with alien life. At first, we were cautious, and people were prepared to fight. However, the aliens were welcoming of our planet. Those of us who didnât die from âThe Great Journeyâ or from trying to fight the aliens, were welcomed into the new solar system. Soon enough, we had integrated completely, and we received materials and assistance from our sister-planets in exchange for human labor. What humans knew of technology was very limited, but with the resources of the aliens we created artificial life forms. We named these robots Automaton, and they served as workers when humans couldnât. Eventually, there was no need for human labor at all. To pay back for the help the aliens gave us, we used Automatons. With the extensive development of these robots, we eventually managed to create artificial sentient life. These Automatons were human-like in looks and had human consciousness, but they could not bleed and were stronger than we ever could be. At the present time, there are even different levels of Automatons. Level 3 robots are the workers, level 2 robots are the caretakers, and level 1 robots are the celebrities. The Automaton music group 53V3NT33N (SEVENTEEN) is made up of 13 members, all very talented, and all representing two human states of mind.â
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In his memory, this is different.Â
His heart beats wilder - or rather the artificial passages inside his body cause a chain reaction that makes it feel like his heart races, his pupil dilates despite the fire right in front of him.
He feels its heat and itâs burning him alive.
In his memory, thereâs fire too.
Heâs standing there motionless, staring into the flames. Theyâre hypnotizing. Each lick, each tiny movement of the fire makes him think it looks a lot like itâs dancing.Â
It makes him think of the stage. The fire moves like he moves up there, in front of the crowds. It reminds him of all of them, dancing in near perfect sync - because humans are said to be more perceptive than they realize. If their synchronization was perfect, it would scare the audience. It wouldnât have the appeal.Â
And they donât want that.Â
They need their unconditional love and affection.Â
And yet, anything more than a tiny slip up, thoroughly analyzed and approved by the control system, is a disaster.Â
He never thought it made much sense.
He feels great fondness for the element, for fire. On stage there occasionally was fire - a decoration, a touch meant to enhance their performance and create a certain effect, evoke a certain emotion. It was controlled, snuffed out before it could reach its full potential; anything but the free, unstoppable wildfire it could become.Â
TH38 of course canât really complain about not being able to reach his full potential, not individually at least. Afterall the mechanics and other humans he was assigned to took care to allow him to spread his wings as much as his body would allow before becoming damaged too fast. A fault of being as human-like as they wanted him. An imitation, a fake waiting to be discovered and tossed aside except everyone knew from the beginning what he truly was.
Still, it was a shame they as a group could never truly work the way they could - perfectly.
A bird which had its wings clipped - nothing more than a pet to control, or a tree forcefully bent and pruned and made to live off limited nutrients to become a bonsai - nothing more than an art to admire. He does consider them but canât find the relevance, he canât relate to them. Fire is enough. Itâs like him - it seems alive, but is it really?
It reminds him of the stage. The view from it. The crowds going crazy, lusting and longing for them - for him. The humans reaching out their hands towards them like the fire reaches for more fuel. Uncontrolled chaos of emotions. They are explosive, he knows, fundamentally dangerous. They shouldnât have implanted them into him so he will do their job for them and reject them.
So whatâs that stirring in his chest?
He feels a peculiar sense of pressure around his chest and stomach areas. Some itch for something at his fingertips. And heâs burning up. He feels the heat on his skin. If he closes his eyes, he can almost imagine the individual receptors working, registering and sending signals through his neural network.Â
But thatâs not it.
The heat is coming from the inside.
Could he be getting consumed by the flames?
Heâs thinking about them again.
The crowds screaming their names, going insane with want and need and frustration and satisfaction heâs never known. Heâs never known any of it, and thereâs building pressure in his head that hurts.Â
Heâs⊠restless.
That thing he always scolded Mingyu for. He feels like a puppet whose strings are being pulled in all directions.Â
He wants to run. He wants to fight. He wants to destroy. He wants to hurt. He will explode - implode, crumble on himself. He truly will if he doesnât do something. The beating of his synthetic heart thatâs not really a heart is getting unbearable, thereâs pressure building everywhere. He has to crawl out of his skin and thereâs his heart beating and beating and beating in his ears and heâs gonna-
â-eight?âÂ
Somebody is shaking his shoulder. Not shaking, pulling at it. When his sight focuses, he immediately leans away. He can smell the hint of burning fibers and reaches up to brush a hand through his hair. It leaves a wisp of gray ash on his fingers. He hears a sigh.
âSeriously, whatâs up with you and fire?â you scoff, shaking your head as you lean back away from him. He frowns. He reads the distrust in your body language as well as the underlying curiosity. He can see your fingers twitch around the tablet in your hand, eager to scribble down notes like you always do. Some residue of the madness he was infected with during the chaos of their escape tugs at his eyebrows, making him frown for just a second. A thought that isnât his muddles his brain - what did he do so interesting this time?
He doesnât bother responding to you, which you expected and truthfully, youâre almost grateful for it. You can still feel his cold hands on your arms, around your wrists, and despite not seeing them, youâre well aware of the bruises you wear under your cardigan.Â
Out of all of the automatons, TH38 always used to be the one to interact as little with you as possible - and thatâs both you as in you personally and you as in the humankind. He was obedient, though, something which might be useful and practical for the facility but itâs frustrating to anyone with scientific interest in the machines. Frustrating for you. As you watch TH38 space out again and get lost in the flames, you wonder if your colleaguesâ notes on D1NO and their research into their consciousness would bring you any new insights into whatâs going on with the machine in your charge.
You donât even think about where they are now.Â
Your thoughts are consumed by the machine in front of you.
Itâs clear to you now that he never meant to harm you. Though you suppose that he would find other means to make you come with him anyway if you refused or fought back harder than you did. For a second you think about the cameras. Did any of them catch that? What will the scene look like for the investigators? You shake your head. It doesnât matter anyway. You doubt anyone will find you here. Youâre actually surprised yourself at how fast you managed to get to Silvestre - and how easy it was too. Then again, the facility was in disarray. It should take a while before they even think to search the other planets in the system, Silvestre especially. And thatâs just as well, because you know with certainty that something fundamental clicked into place within TH38 and he might not be as subdued should he be asked to return. Not to mention you want to keep him for yourself, for the time being at least, to observe where the changes will take him.
Just as he predicted. Just as he offered you when he asked you - threatened, perhaps - to come with him. Since then he seems to have cooled down. Again - just as well. You wouldnât make a good kidnapee.
âIâll turn in for the night,â you announce and get up from the stump you were sitting on, âYou should mind your batteries too.â
You briefly wonder if he will run away during the night. Most likely not, although you donât doubt that itâs a possibility that should be reconsidered in the future.Â
To think about the machine as if they were human is a dangerous slippery slope but you do have to admit that in those rare times the automatons of 53V3NT33N seemed human in their behavior, TH38 in particular reminded you of a clueless young adult. Not quite a child anymore, but also helpless on his own. And now he is away from all that he ever knew, on another planet, alone without the other automatons, and you are the only familiar element in this new chapter of his existence. You doubt he'd leave to be completely on his own.
Still you look back as if to check heâs still sitting by the fire. From all the way up at the cottage, it looks like heâs being swallowed by the flames.
He remembers flashes. He remembers red. Fire? Thinking about it, heâs not sure there was any actual fire, but in his mind, everythingâs burning - most of all his mind and all that he is. His soul? He doesnât have one. Isnât supposed to anyway.
He remembers softness too. He remembers thinking about destroying it.
He remembers another breath mixing with his, and his nose bumping against yours. You looked scared. (Heâs never seen you scared until that moment.) You were so close he could hear your heartbeat and feel it under his fingertips. (You were the soft thing.)
He remembers words, too. Words that shouldnât - couldnât - be his and yet his tongue remembers. There was a threat underlying them, but a promise too. One too sweet for you to resist, and he knew that - that was why the words rolled off his tongue. He treated them like a weapon. The part thatâs still tender and feels like warm embers inside of him feels grossed out remembering. Itâs like watching a movie, far away and unrelated to him. Even if itâs his reality now, thereâs nothing he can change.
Heâs always been good at accepting things as they are.
One thing he canât help but feel bothered by is that he doesnât know why he ran. He shouldnât have, and a part of him feels scared, until he takes the reins and soothes himself again. This too shall pass. But no matter how hard he pulls himself together, it all keeps slipping from his hold. Perhaps heâs low on energy.
He turns his head towards the small staircase and looks past it towards the house. He sees the light on in the upper room where you must be staying. He finds himself thinking of the stage again. The hands reaching towards him.Â
He throws his legs over the log heâs sitting on and turns his body towards the forest and away from the flames. Still he feels their warmth.
Away from the flames and their light, he allows his face to contort into a frown. He doesnât know what this all means. What the changes mean. Itâs like tearing out the communication device from his chest started a chain reaction thatâs gotten out of control. Like pulling a trigger.Â
If heâs honest, heâs more than scared, heâs terrified.
As if on instinct, another of the many things he does not possess, he looks towards your window. Itâs dark. Could you be sleeping already? You must be exhausted. Perhaps he should recharge too.
He, obviously, didnât think to ask if the house is equipped to tend to automatonsâ needs. Another point on the list of things he didnât think through. He canât believe to what extent he let himself go. But thatâs alright, for now. Because for now, he only needs to get away from the fire and all that it reminds him of anyway.
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You wake up early the next morning, while itâs still dark outside, despite the late hour you went to bed. Itâs a habit at this point, to rise early to get to the facility as soon as possible before your colleagues arrive. It gives you time to prepare everything, to get your morning tea, to observe the machines without disruption and read night reports if anything interesting happened. Besides, TH38 was always up early too. Usually all he did was sit with his eyes closed, like he was deep in thought or meditating. It was a little ridiculous to watch, interesting too - what does a machine have to think about?
Of course they were meant to be just like humans in every way, and all the tests, all the research of those who came before you and yours supported this. Only this one automaton, TH38, was an exception. He truly seemed the most like the robots of the old days. A machine. Unless he slipped and his facade crumbled before he built it back up with rapid speed. So what was he - a machine or the new form of life? You hope youâll find out now. The breakout seemed to have shaken him to his core.Â
You ponder this as you lay in bed and as you get ready for the day and change. So focused you are on the thoughts running through your head that you donât feel any nostalgia for this old room that you spent your holidays in as a child. You didnât even get to admire the forests Silvestre was famous for on the way to your familyâs little hideout. All youâre thinking about is TH38.
Now that youâre free from the constant surveillance, you get to ask him whatever you want. Itâs a thought that adds a spring to your step. What he thought about all that time, if he really was thinking, how does he feel in his body, why did he run - him of all automatons, the best behaved one. The one who truly seemed to be a machine - or at least like he was trying hard to be one.
Itâs not surprising to find him outside, standing on the patio and looking out into nature. Have you lived your entire life locked away, you would do anything to stay out in the open too. Even if he was the one who made you run away with him, somehow it feels more like youâre taking an animal out of a shelter to see what lifeâs all about.Â
âGood morning,â you greet him as you always do, albeit in a much friendlier tone. He hums and nods in response, turning towards you for a second before staring off again. He looks a little lost, and you bet he feels like that too.
âWanna go for a walk?â you try to keep your voice steady, try not to think about pets. He gives you a confused look.Â
âNo tests or interviews- oh,â he shuts his mouth quickly and looks away. You huff in amusement but donât laugh at him outright.Â
âDonât worry, weâll talk plenty,â you reassure him with only mildly teasing lilt to your voice, âYou may think about it as one of our regular interviews.â
Something in him surges. Something in him wants to back you against the wall again and remind you that there are no guards here, no rules, nothing to keep him in check. Heâs stronger than you, and he made you get both of you here. Instead he swallows it all down and takes the first step away from the house. You notice his fist clenching for a second.
âDo you dream - did you have any dreams tonight?â you restart the conversation upon catching up with him. He adjusts his pace to match yours. Thereâs another wave of defiant intent swelling up inside of him and he knows itâs out of embarrassment. What he doesnât know, however, is why are these emotions coming out now. All his existence his emotions were distant. Locked far away in the back of his brain where he suppressed them to. His mind was sterile like the environment he lived in.Â
Is that it? Another domino piece in the chain reaction?Â
âI have dreams, yes, and no, I didnât dream today,â he doesnât volunteer the information that he spent the night restlessly pacing around the house and tossing and turning on the sofa. That is human behavior, and he learned a long time ago, though not from you personally, that humans find that sort of thing laughable in automatons. Â
âWhat do you usually dream about? Any recurring dream?â you ask, finding it a little annoying that you didnât think to take anything to make notes into. Then again, with a few more steps youâll enter the forest. Breathing in the fresh air, looking at the green around you, you realize you missed nature more than you were aware.
âDo you only dream about one thing?â he says, guarded, and you note heâs trying hard to only look in front of himself, âNo. I donât think thereâs a pattern.â
While the answer is disappointing information-wise, it is fascinating in the way he says it. You smirk: âWere you always this mouthy?â
It was meant to be a lighthearted remark. Well, not entirely. You wanted a reaction. You were curious if he would flip like he did back in the facility. He doesnât. His steps falter and he looks at you like a confused child before retreating into himself. So he doesnât realize it?
He does, now that you bring it up. This isnât who heâs supposed to be. He lets himself close his eyes for a second to conjure up a plan. His mind is a forest of mist and pine. Too damp for a fire to burn. Thatâs him. Thatâs who he should be. He centers himself.
âI apologize,â he says, voice level. He sounds like a robot, like he always did, and you find it disappointing that all his personality, the life, is gone from his voice. Your lips twitch in displeasure.
âI didnât say itâs a bad thing,â you try not to let any emotion slip into your voice and you feel his eyes on you, âWeâre no longer at the facility. You can drop the mask.â
If there is a mask in place and youâre not sure there is. You take a look at him and itâs more like someoneâs painted a facade over his face that he canât peel off, thatâs only started to chip away now that youâve added too many layers to hide his true self. He seems so at loss that you take pity on him and change the subject, steer the conversation into a safer territory. Itâs only his first day tasting freedom, afterall.
âHow are you feeling?â you ask instead, nodding vaguely towards the hole in his chest. He brings his hand up but stops himself in time, his face twisting.Â
âIâm feeling fine,â he responds, the same mechanical voice that youâre used to, âAll my systems are working as they should.â
You laugh sarcastically. âIf thatâs true, then it must hurt like hell.â
His face remains twisted because youâre right - it does hurt like hell. Any time his shirt shifts over the hole it sends a jolt of sharp pain that makes him feel like heâll pass out through his body. And maybe thatâs part of the reason why he feels on edge and keeps slipping up and lets the emotions come and go as they please without a filter. Heâs no stranger to pain, of course, but never did he have a wound this serious. It doesnât endanger his functions, which is good all things considered, but he canât say he enjoys the feeling of having a hole in his chest.
âIt hurts,â is all he says. He drops his hand and it hangs limply by his side. Had a similar damage occurred at the facility, it wouldnât take more than a couple minutes for someone to have a look at it. It hits him now that itâs only you and him. No mechanics around. To call one would mean to risk being discovered. You must know too because you only make a sound of acknowledgement. It takes a while for you to speak again.
âIâll look through my notes to see if I can figure something out,â you sigh. Your family planned to keep some older versions of automatons here back when you used to come, maybe there are some kits left that your father used to fix them. If not, maybe some of the notes from your years of studies will at least have some hint on how to get rid of the pain. âAre you really sure everything works fine? Have you checked everythingâ
He nods. He doesnât mention he couldnât run a complete diagnostics because he couldnât recharge and he refuses to just shut down to save batteries. He knows itâs gonna be a problem sooner rather than later but maybe heâll figure something out before that.
âThatâs good,â you say and he reads your expression as relieved.Â
You stay silent after that and so does he, both secretly grateful. Itâs not your first time being in the forest, and definitely not the first time in this one, but it might as well be. Both of you take in the nature around, the different species of trees and plants, the occasional song of a bird and flash of a wild animal fleeing from your path. Youâre too absorbed to notice each other, and somehow you find that itâs not a bad feeling. For the automaton, likewise, it doesnât feel bad at all. Itâs a strange feeling, something he canât put a name on, and honestly heâs not sure he wants to. He lets it fill him, experiences the emotion without bothering with a label.
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Only later does it hit him that the emotion was something akin to a gratitude.
He mulls it over in his head, asking why over and over and over, until he comes to a conclusion that angers him enough that he has to go out and sit on the patio and stare into the trees for a good long while.
He doesnât know what to do with himself.
The anger inside of him is also infuriating because itâs not supposed to be there - definitely not this strong, not so much that he canât control it or will it away. His usual techniques donât work and heâd chalk it up to being damaged but he knows the defect doesnât have anything to do with it. Hell, heâd blame it on his draining energy level but that thought alone is so human it makes him even more enraged. He wants to scream, but youâd hear.
And thatâs all that it boils down to, isnât it? You. Your kind. Humans.
Why he feels thankful that youâre there with him, why the emotion enveloped him while you walked in the forest was all because you humans made him in your image. The loss of the communication device was significant for the physical damage but thereâs more to it. Something he shouldnât feel, something new.Â
Perhaps he never felt it because most of his days were identical, but he realizes now how precious the bond he created with his bandmates was. He canât call it anything but friendship, maybe more than that. The thing humans refer to as family. He likes them. He wants to perform with them again. He wants to break his own rules and laugh with them. He misses them. And maybe that was the first domino piece that started it all and led to his inevitable ruin that heâs going through now; maybe he never shouldâve allowed himself to think of them and their group in terms meant for human lives.
Once he tore off the communication device - the memory alone makes him close his eyes and choke on a pained whimper, his body trembles and he needs a second to shake off the feeling - he lost everything. The connection to the omnipresent network, but most importantly the only way to communicate with everyone. He has no idea where they are now, if theyâre âaliveâ or âdeadâ. (Though he gives into the temptation, might as well since heâs breaking all his rules for them anyway, and believes that he would know, would feel it, somehow, if any of them âdiedâ.) He might never see them again and despair hits him all over again.Â
He can go on without the stage, he doesnât need the masses going crazy over him. But the loss of all the connections he had pains him.
And thatâs very human of him. Even if experience taught him heâs anything but.
And all he has is a human.Â
The last connection, the only one remaining that he knows, is you - and even you he had to force to come with him. To be fair âforceâ is too strong of a word, he merely suggested the freedom to study him as youâd like and you agreed all too readily.
Nothing changed, fortunately. He knows humans can change drastically in situations like these. Despite your eagerness, he kidnapped you - didnât he? Yet you stayed the same. It might be a coping strategy, but he doesnât think so. He doesnât expect you to become someone else. In the years since heâs been assigned to you, youâve never shown signs of being more than a scientist. Thatâs understandable, of course, though he knows from what the others told him that not all staff of the facility were like that. He was skeptical. Now, not so much. He will believe in anything that gives him hope his friends made it out. If he made it out with the help of a human, maybe so did they.
He wants them to be free even if he himself isnât sure how to proceed and take advantage of it, still dragging the heavy chains even if they no longer hold him back.
You spend hours without thinking of TH38, which is a blessing and a welcomed break to your mind, however itâs also infuriating because youâre reminded that the chaos you can operate in now and the chaos you operated in during the years you lived and stayed with your family are two completely different things.
It takes eternity before you finally sort through the things in your bedroom and find the stacks of notes from your studies, and it takes even longer to find the subjects you were looking for. Then there is reading through them, of course, which also takes a while, mostly because your brain happily accepts a refresh on all that you provide it with. You canât just skim the pages for useful info, you need to read everything. Itâs addicting. It makes you miss your studies, even though you could never go back if it meant giving up full-time working in the field.
Your research, however, doesnât turn out to be as helpful as you hoped. Itâs only to be expected; yours wasnât a course that would deal too much with mechanics and the cold and hard reality of wiring, metal and silicon and whatnot. There are pieces of valuable information, strictly theoretical, which is not very reassuring and you most likely lack the necessary tools to even try to pull off what youâve read about. Still you want to help in any way you can.
âŠhence why youâve spent the last couple of minutes staring up at the ceiling.Â
Why would you help him? Where is this coming from? He says heâs fine, and honestly thereâs no reason for him to lie to you. If his systems were not working, heâd be fucked and he still only has you to rely on. No reason to lie. And what other reason is there for you to help him?
He did say the damage causes him pain. And you remember pouring over the reports and test results with your colleagues, all of them stating that the automatons you were working with processed pain like a human being would. It was kind of twisted. There was objectively no way why they should be able to do that. The purpose they were created for was entertainment and their performances were complex, difficult, and physically challenging. Itâd be easy to cause oneself pain doing the stuff they did.Â
Then again, pain can be a good control tool, though you were not aware of any physical punishments being carried out. Maybe the plan was all along to make them as human as possible. And pain is a very human thing. Still, something didnât sit quite right with you about the whole thing. Mostly that TH38 didnât seem to be bothered by it, despite a wound of similar extent would be distressing to say the least to a human. Scratch that, you donât think a human could handle that.
So how is he?Â
And furthermore - why help him?Â
Pain, after all, was something hard to measure. If he doesnât seem bothered by it, thereâs a real chance he isnât. Youâre not sure how their pain tolerances are programmed, if there even is something like that in their code, and for a second you regret not widening the scope of your education and research. It canât be helped however.Â
You look over your notes again. While you canât help repair him, you could possibly do something about the pain. Itâs not an ideal solution, if you can even call it that, and you honestly donât feel confident enough to do it except if pressed into it by circumstance. Or by one automaton in particular. Sealing a wound by burning it is barbaric and a practice that is, understandably, long since abandoned - at least as far as humans are concerned. You take a long breath.
In the end you talk to TH38 about the situation some more and he, once again, reassures you heâs fine despite the gaping hole in his chest. You explain that thereâs not much you can do about it without going into detail or mentioning the limited ways in which you could help and he takes the news surprisingly well. You canât say youâd accept it with such stoic calm, but then again this is TH38 who weâre talking about so itâs not surprising.
You hate it.
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The walks already feel like theyâre going to be a routine part of your new life.
Each day you go out together in the morning and talk. If you ignore that itâs harder for TH38 to remain his machine-like self, itâs mostly exactly like it was at the facility. Heâs reserved and cold, almost, though when he slips up and shows his personality, his emotions, itâs more than worth it.Â
The nature around helps. He gets what can only be described as excited when he sees a new animal, new plant, or when the light shifts and the scene in front of you changes.Â
The weather holds up well so far, no storms or heavy rain, and you find yourself wondering if youâll keep up the walks even if the weather fails you. Itâs fascinating that such a simple topic finds its way into your cluttered mind, but then again you have a space to do a lot of thinking today.
TH38 is silent next to you. Heâs been rather silent the whole morning, and yesterday evening he did seem a bit off too. Not too much, however, and heâs always been on the quieter side. You figured this weekâs events were finally fully catching up to him. And maybe that is the case, itâs not like you want to meddle too much. Youâre curious whatâs gonna happen if you leave him to sort it out on his own. Itâs not like you have the right qualification to help him process this anyway. Hell, maybe you would also need help with that.
However, thereâs a limit to how much you can take. Even back at the facility there were times TH38 gave answers that were just a word or two, but youâve grown quite used to him opening up, talking, letting go of the filter he usually kept in place - although it wasnât by his choice. It seemed like you were making some progress.Â
Of course, you had no way of knowing it was only his depleting batteries, him losing strength to fight for his peace of mind - however artificial and unsustainable that has become after the escape.
Right now, his brain feels like a warm soup. So much so that he canât be bothered to think of talking about anything other than a brain - right now, words like processor are too complicated to think of. He feels so far away from everything. He thinks heâs trembling. If heâs not, then his insides surely are. He feels like heâs going to be sick even if he canât really be. Maybe his body parts will start shutting down or falling off to conserve energy. Heâs not sure where thatâs coming from but then again, itâs not like heâs in control. Itâs that same feverish state again but this time, he can be excused. This time, heâs not in his right mind, it feels like heâs not awake.
Heâs floating. Just a speck of ash, of dust, floating through the air, through space, searching for somewhere to land, seeking a gust of wind to obliterate him. He needs release, he needs something.
âTH38?â
Thatâs it.
"I had a dream today," TH38 says suddenly. His voice sounds so firm, a stark contrast to how soft-spoken he usually is with you. It takes you by surprise. Before you can react, he elaborates on his own.
"There was fire. Lots of it. The whole world was burning and we were standing on top of a building watching the arson happen. There werenât any other humans I think. They were all gone already. We made them go away.Â
Anyway, you weren't afraid. I think you were expecting it. You jumped before I could push you."
You frown. Your one weak spot has always been not expecting things that, in hindsight, should've been obvious. Of course somethingâs been bothering him.
"Did you plan on pushing me?"
"See, that's the thing," he licks his lips despite the lack of fluid in his body, "I don't think so. I think I could read your mind. I think I was you in that dream."
You do want to respond but it's like you're the one with a computer for the brain and it's lagging.
"And it made me think. Back before you made us, humans were like that - right? They, you, were afraid artificial intelligence of any kind could take over and enslave or annihilate you. Why? Wasn't the point always to make us like you? Why would you be afraid?"
He stops. Stops talking, stops walking, just - stops. He looks at you and you've seen the lost stare before.
You feel the hair at the back of your neck rising as a cold shiver runs through your body. He doesn't look like a machine with code for a soul. He looks like he made the artificial body his own, grew into it and made into something organic and alive with his will alone.
His eyes are cold as he steps closer and closer. It's all too familiar a scene. You keep backing away and he keeps getting closer until your back hits a tree. Not a wall this time. This time he doesn't pin your hands above your head either, and you don't fight him at all. There's no struggle so he doesnât grab your arms, doesnât slam you against the wall, and doesnât growl threats of breaking your bones one after another. He doesnât get so close that youâre breathing the same air and he doesnât make a show of his physical superiority.
This time he simply leans closer and you straighten up. You meet his gaze and donât shy away. You let him lean his forehead against yours and raise a brow at him. You wonât be scared this time. He won't hurt you. You're sure of that. Not terribly, at least.
He definitely wonât kill you and thatâs enough.
You want to see how far he can go.
"What was it that you were afraid of, hm?â his voice is soft and low, barely above whisper, yet dripping with some hidden venom. There are no birds chirping, no wind blowing through the treetops. It feels like everythingâs stopped just for him to interrogate you.
âHow am I supposed to know?â you bite back. You havenât lived back then. You have no idea what the people thought about, how they felt, what were their particular concerns. He clicks his tongue, clearly unimpressed. Well, youâre too.
âThink about it,â he pushes. But youâre gonna push right back.
âYou just said youâre supposed to be like humans,â you scoff, âWhy donât you think about it yourself? As a little thought exercise.â
âOh so suddenly you want me to think like Iâm a human, huh?â thereâs an edge to his voice. He sounds angry, frustrated - he clearly is, but the edge is not. Thereâs hurt there that makes you defensive. Whatâs very obvious is that he means more than he says. Itâs not the first time this happened with the members of 53V3NT33N, but itâs the first time you have to deal with it. What he truly means is him not only thinking like a human, but acting like one, believing to be like one. Â
âI never discouraged you from that,â you lower your voice too, âNot me, Eight.â
You hesitate before speaking his name. Itâs not really a name, is it? Something that all humans have. You realize the point he will make before he says it aloud. It must read it in your face because he smirks but itâs bitter.
âI donât know, Iâve never seen you all excited when the other staff expressed their passion for books, or anything really. Or when they volunteered personal information. When theyâve interacted with you at all.âÂ
You donât like the turn this conversation is turning. You donât like the notion that perhaps you were observed just as youâve been observing.
âI wasnât interested in them,â you grit through your teeth. Before you can try to get him back on his original track, he giggles.
âSo you were interested in me?â he flips his hair, tilting his head slightly. His nose almost bumps into yours and it hits you, perhaps for the first time, just how indistinguishable from a human he looks. This close, you can remind yourself of the schemes, of the diagrams describing each layer and inch of how their bodies are made, but all you see is a human skin and human eyes. Your body reacts naturally, your heart races, your mouth gets drier. You want to push him away but you donât think heâd let you. Still you try. Unsuccessfully. Your hands end up balling in his shirt.
âItâs my job - the research,â then you correct yourself: âIt was my job. Science, research, nothing more.â
He smiles, almost as if heâs pitying you. Like he knows more than you do. You hate him for it.
âYes, that mightâve been a part of it,â he agrees, âBut thatâs not all. Research is cold, impartial, isnât it? You collect information, you write it all down and make your conclusions based on them with no personal interest. You were never like that. You got excited. You tried everything in your limited power to get a reaction out of me - to guide me a certain way, didnât you? I bet you pushed the limits for me. Isnât that cute? Was I a good experiment to you?â
âThatâs part of research too,â you growl, but it sounds weak even to your own ears.
âBut it wasnât a part of this research,â he hisses, âYou think we didnât talk about you all?â
You stubbornly refuse to admit the charges he lies in front of you, even though you know youâre guilty. Maybe you got a little swept up. But as long as no one stopped you, it was all part of the task.
âThe research goal and methods may change according to the situation,â you collect yourself again, âIt was just agreed that what I was doing would bring more interesting insight.â
âOh yeah, that sounds very much like you would accept it if I declared that I want to be seen the same as you are, as equal to humans,â his smile is sickly sweet but you barely mind that because-
âIs that what you want?â you ask and watch as the smile fades almost instantly. He finally said it out loud. And the shock of it is enough to get through the fog clouding his brain. The smugness, the roughness, it all drains from his demeanor and his face falls. The fight in his eyes dies out and is replaced by what seems dangerously close to fear. He pushes himself away from you and you see the lights in his eyes flicker. He stumbles like you shoved him, hurt him. Something isnât right. You frown, immediately stepping back into his personal space despite him trying to avoid you.
You end up in a position reversed to the one youâve been in just seconds ago. He pushes at your shoulders weakly, tries to hide himself from you but you see it. All the tell-tale signs of what would be exhaustion if he were human.Â
âWhen was the last time you recharged?â you ask, thinking back to the previous nights and mornings. Thinking back to how you never heard him coming up or going down the stairs to the only room with the charging spot. You were so stupid. And heâs avoiding your eyes. You grab his collar and force him to look at you. You give him an expectant look.
âBefore the breakout,â he admits lowly, âAnd youâre still treating me like a machine.â
You donât know if heâs trying to be funny, sassy, to make you feel guilty or to feel sympathy for him, the only thing you know is you want to kick his ass because if he shuts down on you, thereâs no way youâll be able to drag him back into the house.Â
âYeah, so be a good little level 1 and entertain me - get the fuck inside the house,â you growl, shoving him in the direction of said house. He stumbles a little, clearly affected by his drained battery. Itâs almost hilarious to watch him struggle to walk straight when you remember how graceful he always was on stage.
You shoot him a look from time to time as you walk, rush, towards the house. Not really a concerned one, not a scolding one either. He looks like a sulking child. Perhaps heâs dragging his feet on purpose. Perhaps if he didnât invade your personal space as he did before, and if you didnât have to do the same, youâd drag him by his jacket. As it is, though, you feel repulsed by the notion of touching him again. And some part of you believes itâs because you donât want him to shift under your palm. You donât want to touch a machine only to discover itâs really some sort of a human.
Maybe youâre both in need of a good, long nap.Â
Fortunately enough, you make it to the house, but thatâs where the struggles begin. Despite your earlier reservations about touching him, itâs obvious thereâs no other way to get him inside and up the stairs.
âLean on me, come on,â you sigh when you help him throw an arm around your shoulder and wrap your own around his waist. He listens well, his head already drooping. He relies on you to guide him, reluctantly leans his weight on you from time to time, although he clearly tries to hold himself up with his remaining strength. That lasts until you reach the second stair.Â
âI canât,â he whispers and thereâs terror in his voice. It must be the first time heâs been this drained, you realize. After all, for their condition to remain as good as it can be and for them to perform to the best of their ability, a full battery is a must. So you allow yourself to roll your eyes at his dramatic antics even if heâs slowly leaning more and more into you and you have to heave his body up.
âItâs just a couple steps,â you huff, âEven a human can do that.â
Part of you wants to laugh. Some part of you thatâs seeing the childish pieces of him wants to indulge in it, wants to spout dramatic nonsense. Itâs hard to resist - after all getting up one flight of stairs seems to be more of a struggle than escaping a highly secured facility.
But even this hurdle you jump over and the spare bedroom is not far from the stairs. TH38 is fully relying on you to drag him with you, barely moving his legs. You throw him not too gently onto the bed-like charger, once again thanking your father for being his manic self and fully preparing the house before (and without) actually ever getting an automaton to live here.Â
It takes you a while to figure out how to get the thing going - but to your defense, itâs hard to focus when thereâs a robot whining softly about being scared of shutting down - but itâs not a rocket science. Fortunately the charger still works and once itâs turned on, the automaton lying down on it curls up into a ball with a sigh of relief.
When you get up from the floor, TH38âs eyes are already closed and by all means he looks like heâs sleeping. You sigh, exhausted. You feel a headache coming so you get some pills from the kitchen before retreating into your own room.
Yeah, you both need a nap right now.
When you wake up, you stare at the ceiling for a couple minutes.
What happened in the forest seems like a dream but you know itâs very real and youâll have to deal with it. Just another thing to process. Then again, thereâs so many of them that one more wonât hurt. And at least you avoided the headache. So you pray to anyone willing to listen that TH38 is still⊠unconscious⊠in hibernation mode⊠asleep.Â
Heâs not.Â
Of course heâs not.
You peek inside the room and see his soft eyes already open. He looks away when your eyes meet like heâs ashamed. You sigh and walk into the room, closing the door behind you. Itâs not like anyoneâs going to walk in, but it gives you some sense of security. You sit down on the floor and he hands you a pillow. You thank him quietly and spend a while sharing an awkward silence.
âIâm sorry,â he apologizes without looking at you. He doesnât continue so you prompt him.
âFor what exactly?â That makes him look at you with a scowl. âGetting sulky again?â
ââm not sulky,â he murmurs. Once again you feel like reality is shifting around you. Itâs been like that a lot lately. All the fault of the automaton in front of you. All the fault of the conditions changing, of him reacting to the environment - if your assumption is correct. Free of the rules and the strict way of life in the facility, you see that heâs just like the rest of the automatons from his group. And that all of them, in their own way, might have been human.
âThen what are you?â you ask smiling, propping your elbow on one knee and leaning your cheek on your palm.Â
âHurting,â he admits, almost carefully, like heâs testing the waters. Itâs just one word but yet it feels like the most open heâs been. So youâre not going to talk about that, huh?
He shifts a little and pulls down the collar of his shirt to expose the wound - not the damage, not defect, not imperfection, but a wound - between his collarbones. It looks nasty, the artificial skin and mesh and wires all torn and uneven around where the circular device was. Heâs careful not to touch it, you note, and his hand is trembling. Were you an asshole when you refused to help him? Even so much as share what you found? Itâs not like you could fix that hole in his chest, but maybe you couldâve at least told him about the other option.Â
âHow much does it hurt? On a 0-10 scale?â you focus on gathering information. What did he call it - impersonal? Thatâs just what you needed. But nothing ever works out like you imagine.
âI donât know,â he responds blankly but at least elaborates before you can finish yet another sigh, âI donât have anything to compare it to.â
âI watched most of your life and career, I know youâve gotten injured before,â you deadpan.
âYeah but that was taken care of immediately, this is different,â he protests. Thereâs silence for a while before his voice drops lower. âI thought I could handle it. That I would get used to it and ignore it.â
You laugh, shaking your head, only stopping when you notice his expression. He does look hurt and hurting. You give him a much more conciliatory smile. âPeople donât fare well if theyâre in constant pain. It limits them, it affects all aspects of their lives.â
âI can see how,â he mutters, once again looking away. His jaw clenches for a second and it almost seems like he wants to say something, but he doesnât. You have a feeling, however, that you know what he wanted to say. Since heâs really not going to talk about it, you decide to take the first step.
You get up and motion for him to scoot over. He does so with a frown that deepens when you sit down next to him. He stays lying down, limited by the need for more energy.Â
âWhy didnât you tell me you needed to recharge?â you start and watch as he once again looks away without answering, âWhy didnât you explore this floor?â
He shrugs a little, shrinking into himself under your stare. He honestly doesnât know why. He blames his pride. What else could it be that made him refuse to ask for help?
âDo you realize that youâd stay out in the woods if your battery ran out before we could get here?â you press, raising your voice a little on purpose, âIâd need to get help to drag you in, and you know how that would probably end. Was it worth it? Being stupid and stubborn?â
âWhy are you like this?â he whispers, his dark eyes nothing but soft like theyâve been since youâve entered the room.
âHow do you feel?â you go back to how you talked to him before, calm. He frowns, suspicion written over his features. His lips are pressed into a thin line before he changes his mind and speaks up.
âEmbarrassed,â he has a guarded look in his eyes, one thatâs also vulnerable.
âGood,â you ease into a smile as you press a finger to the wrinkle between his eyebrows, âEmbarrassment and pain are two simplest ways to manipulate and adjust a personâs behavior. And fear, but to be honest I donât want you to be afraid of me, so weâll have to do with those two.â
He looks at you in a very that tells all you need to know - he hopes you've not making fun of him but he doesn't trust you. So you sigh and move on to another, well, not an emergency but also not something that you should ignore any longer.Â
"Now," you get up from the bed and point at his chest, âThat needs solving. I'm not a mechanic and my knowledge is strictly theoretical but unless you're okay with leaving it like that and calling it a day, we can still try something."Â
He seems surprised by your sudden statement, like he didn't even expect you to address the wound again.Â
"How theoretical?" is what he asks, suspicious.Â
"I said strictly," you shrug, "Fixing and healing was never my focus.â
"Why's that not surprising," he mutters without looking at you. "Can I have some time to think about it?"
"You just don't trust me, do you?" you smirk. Not that you blame him. He gives you a smile.
"Fine, but only because my clothes keep catching on the edges and it's really painful. "
"Sure," you motion for him to follow you and guide him to the bathroom. There, you take out a bandage and a tape. You're curious. You offer him both with a quirk of your eyebrow. He takes the bandage with trembling hands and distrust still lingering in his eyes. You roll your own.Â
"For now, Iâll think about this as another stage of the experiment. I'll respect your wish, so persuade me youâre human enough."
"I don't think I should thank you for that," he scoffs, "By the way... Help?"
He holds out the hand holding the roll of bandages back to you. Of course he wouldn't know how to do that. You motion for him to sit at the edge of the tub. He obeys almost shyly, reminding you of how he was back at the facility. You truly do prefer him as he is here. When he sits down, you push his knees apart with one of your own. He gives you a scandalized look that makes you chuckle.
"Relax," you smirk, "I just want to be comfortable. My backâs been killing lately, thereâs no way Iâm leaning over you. Take your shirt off?"
He does, slowly, reluctantly, and when the piece of clothing is gone you're suddenly glad for the basics of mechanics you've gone through at uni.
The wound looks awful, although you can appreciate the cleanliness of it. Maybe you really could burn it neatly if you had to. There are wires sticking out, perhaps - albeit not hopefully - the remains of the communication device. The layers of silicon and other material are frayed and sticking in all directions like flakes. You try not to stare too hard.
Instead, you focus on the task at hand. You unwrap the bandage slightly and put the free end on his shoulder. You roll it down gently mindful of the gaping wound but then you prop your hand on his chest and you need to take a step back as you get startled. He gives you a quizzical look.
"You feel like a human," you look at him, look at his chest. It does look like a humanâs chest but you know he doesn't have proper organs, his insides aren't the same as yours. So why do you feel a bone there?Â
"And l imagine anyone would be flattered by this reaction,â His voice is sarcastic but his ears turn a reddish shade. He won't meet your eyes either.
"It's new for me too, okay?â you give your pride a break. This will all be easier if you get along and after all, he's used to you being in power. You need to take the first step and show weakness. You need to make the choice to be while he's already vulnerable enough, half-naked and injured. âIt's not like I'm used to touching my subjects."
"I guess that's true," he murmurs, now thinking about it. It's true that the approach of the research division as a whole was rather clinical. Not that he'd so much as think to complain about it. You chuckle watching him scowl again.Â
"Touch is important for humans," you hum, finally composing yourself as you explain the basics to him and remind yourself of them again, "As a communication device, as means of establishing relationships, itâs important for social life."
As you speak, you wrap his wound and the top of his torso in bandages. He watches you work. It feels uncanny how human-like he feels under your hands. And for him, he doesn't quite know what to do with himself.
He danced with the rest of his group, they performed, they played around. He experienced his fair share of physical contact. So why does this feel so different? His head feels like spinning. Your touch is careful, gentle, nothing like the rough hands of the mechanics, and nothing like the touch of the other automatons. He can't explain the difference in other terms than experience. Humans know what it's like to touch and be touched in various contexts. The automatons don't. At least for the most part. Some of his bandmates, perhaps, had secrets he knew nothing about. Their leader comes to mind and he feels the urge to ask him questions, to ask for guidance, but there's only a hole in his chest and he's alone.
He barely registers that youâre done.
"Feeling better?" you ask without expecting much. It's not like he'll heal himself or like this will do anything to ease the pain.
"Tired," he answers, testing the words out on his tongue. He feels reassured when you laugh and step away, offering him your hand. He takes it, lets you pull him up. He touches the bandages and although it hurts, at least it feels less irritating. He takes his shirt from you when you hand it to him.
"I can only imagine," you roll your eyes. He resists the urge to scowl. "It's getting late, I'll go make myself dinner so go rest."
"Can we go back later?" he stops you before you walk out. He nods towards the window outside.
"Not afraid of wild animals?" you tease.
"Don't all the textbooks say animals are more afraid of humans than the other way around? I think we're good."
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You don't go back to the forest that day. Not for the lack of enthusiasm or trying. TH38 is determined to finish your walk, you, however, are not as sure about it. Itâs not that you arenât put off by your routine being disturbed but seeing him still dragging his feet and his glazed over eyes, you just donât think itâd be a wise idea. You suggest he goes alone, but he doesn't. So instead, you end up sitting by the fire again, the stars keeping you company. He seems less hypnotized by the dancing flames than that first night.
"I'm fine," he complains after a minute of silence while you spear more fluffy marshmellows onto the stick in your hands. A treat that you deserve after the day youâve had. Youâd probably offer him some too but alasâŠ
"Sure you are," you agree without sparing him a glance, "But I'm not interested in watching over a toddler. If you wanna test the limits of your body - go for it. Just leave me out of it"
You feel his gaze on you, burning holes into the side of your skull. Has he always been so difficult? It's like all he's been since the breakout is annoyed, sulky or hurt.Â
"Stop that," he growls, "We both know I'm not a human. It's alright if you acknowledge that."
"While I'm glad you see it that way - and I really mean it, it's good you understand that," you sigh as you move your desert to hover over the flames, "Don't forget that you were made to be an exact copy. I found some of my old notes and while most of your physical capabilities should be better than a human's, youâd still experience the same symptoms. As we already witnessed earlier."
Heâs silent for a bit while he processes that. Then he speaks and you swear you hear a hint of a pout in his voice. Itâs so annoying how easily he lets go now.
âYou didnât have to call me a toddler thoughâŠâ
âDonât take it personally,â you sigh, turning the stick between your fingers so that the white puffs of sugar get baked evenly, âI wasnât making fun of you - much - itâs just that you have no experience, do you? Were you ever as tired as you were today?â
âNo,â he admits, âI wasnât, youâre right. I rested the whole day and Iâm still tired.â
âExactly my point,â you hum, âOur walks are not a hard exercise but you havenât, well, slept for a couple days so I think itâs best to take it easy today.â Then you add, because you canât help it: âExhaustion makes people a little crazy. And automatons too, itâd seem.â
He groans and you laugh, pulling the stick off the fire and blowing on your marshmallows. You take a bite and notice him watching you.
âWhat is it like?â he asks quietly, âEating, I mean.â
âKind of annoying to be honest,â you shrug, âIt takes so much time to choose what to eat and to prepare food and eating it⊠Being hungry is a pain too. I mean itâs really good if you eat something delicious but I guess it depends on the person.â
He nods, eyeing with curiosity as you tear off another marshmallow from the stick. It reminds him of the videos he saw of wild beasts tearing flesh off bones, but he doesnât mention that.
âWhat does sleep feel like to you?â you ask in turn. He looks at the sky for a second, collecting his thoughts. But really heâs just enjoying the view. Itâs strange that he barely ever saw the night sky before.
âI donât know, Iâm not really conscious when I sleep, am I?â he thinks some more, âItâs peaceful. I liked it at the facility.â
âYou donât like it here?âÂ
âNot really,â he gives you a small smile, âItâs too tempting. I donât have to think if Iâm asleep.â
Now that makes you wonder.
âI thought you enjoyed thinking about things?â Maybe itâd be more fair to say you expected him to do a lot of thinking rather than saying you had a strong opinion on his relationship to the activity. He was just always one of the quiet, reserved ones. He seemed to enjoy reading too. And you know itâs a stereotype to think of him as a thinker, but itâs one he seemed to fit well.
âI do,â he hesitates, then frowns, âBut it was easier there.â
âEasier? I think youâd have way more to think about right now?â you pry when heâs quiet for too long. You donât push, though.
âEasier in the technical sense,â he sighs, falling silent again, but there remains space for more words to be said.
You can almost hear the cogs turning in his head, purely metaphorically of course. You give him the time to think and get started on your second round of marshmallows before he speaks up again.
âI always - back then, I always thought about staying true to myself,â he starts slowly, âI was always treated a certain way. I woke up into this body, and this life, and was told certain things.â
"And the building blocks of me too. Serenity? Pandemonium? The more automatons and people I met, I was sure those just represented us and humans. I wanted to be true to myself," he repeats, "I thought since no one will ever see me as more than a machine, I might as well embrace it."
"And how was it?" you ask, inching just slightly closer. You never thought you'd get TH38 to open up like this. He smiles.
"Peaceful, just as I thought," but then he continues with a note of bitterness in his voice. "You saw it, all of it. I was just a machine doing its job. It was easy. To focus on performing, on practice, to have the talks with you and answer like I thought was expected of me. I miss it a little.â
âIt was satisfying. A simple pleasure of doing my job well. I think you understand that,â he looks at you and you realize finally that youâve been leaning towards him, but whatever. You nod.
âSo thatâs why youâve always acted like that? Because you chose to be a machine?âÂ
âHave to use my free will wisely,â he giggles - he fucking giggles - before he shrugs and gets more serious again, âI really liked it in a way. I thought I could be satisfied with that.â
Your head is still trying to process the incredible amount of research data youâre getting and you have to work really hard not to slip into work mode. You will listen to him like you would listen to a human with a completely different set of experiences, or like you would listen to one of the aliens sharing their galaxies with you. You will listen like youâd listen to a friend sharing their burden with you.Â
And you wonât analyze every single sound he makes even if they shatter your perception of him that you had until that moment.
âThe others were ruining it a lot for me,â he admits quietly after a minute. Itâs almost wistful. âI liked to watch them even if I really wanted to play around with them. They seemed so different from me. It was my choice, but in those moments I guess I felt a lot like you.â
You nod for him to continue when he meets your eyes, almost cautiously.
âI observed them. Studied them. I think it was the serenity code inside, I found happiness just from watching them being happy,â he smiles a little, âBut I was also wondering if that was really alright. If it would be alright for me to behave like that.â
âWatching people made me feel different things. They were going crazy over us,â and suddenly he has that distant look in his eyes again, staring out into the fire, âI was scared of it. I was scared of being like them and letting myself be controlled by emotions. I think I pushed everything away so hard that it exploded when 5.C0UP5 told us to run.â
âBreaking out inside and out, huh?â you note and oops, your marshmallows burned. Itâs not like youâre in the mood for eating them anymore anyway.
âYou made it really hard,â he says but it sounds like heâs scolding you, âGiving me all the books.â
You smirk. Then you decide - to hell with it. He volunteered so much information that perhaps he deserves to receive some back.
âThat was the point,â you shrug, âTo make being just a machine hard for you.â
It seems he wasnât expecting to hear you admit it, or hear anything personal from you, but now that you started heâs watching you with curious eyes and longing look. You think about these last few days again. Itâs true that theyâve been mostly like what they were back at the facility.
He deserves more than that.
âIt was one of the reasons I was brought to the facility. I broke some rules back at my previous station, pushed buttons I shouldnât have, and it was getting dangerous. It was decided itâd be better if my actions wouldnât have such large-scale consequences,â you huff a laugh, âBut look where we are.â
âWhat were you doing before?âÂ
Youâll need to work on getting him more confident asking questions.Â
âThatâs a secret,â you wink at him, and you recognize the look as the one you mustâve been wearing when he giggled. Seems like both of you will need to get used to each otherâs humanity. âI was working on research at a different division. Mostly my work was trying to push forward with more possible advancements for the automatons on a theoretical level. But I donât miss it much. I always enjoyed working with you more.â
âWhy me? I mean, did they tell you about me or did you get to choose?â he asks, and for some reason youâd love to see what heâd do if you lied and told him you chose him.
âI wasnât the only one who noticed you were different from the others,â you smile instead, âWhen they confirmed there was nothing with your code, they started looking into other options of dealing with your case. It just so happened that I was recommended to join the researchers working with your band at the same time.â
âHappy coincidence?â he smirks but you nod, taking him by surprise.Â
âI enjoyed working with you, Eight,â you shorten his name-thatâs-not-a-name and watch him shift on his spot, âIt was fun. I had a lot of privileges that I could use - like the books, and the videos, stuff like that.â
âSeems like youâre suggesting you were spoiling me,â he grumbles.
âWasnât I?â you smirk, âHow many of the others do you think had access to basically a private library?â
âThere weren't many real books,â he throws you a cheeky look from the corner of his eye. You do appreciate he's getting less guarded around you, but you hate the whiplash.
"Imagine if I'd spoil you for real," you scoff. He squints at you before pushing on your shoulder slightly, carefully, as if he's hesitating the entire time. It's your turn, for the first time ever, to give him a scandalized look. He chuckles.
"You said touch is important," he explains softly, "The others always used to push each other. I think⊠I think we could be close, right? Since it's just the two of us for now."
You give him a long look. It's true that, after all, there's no reason for you to treat him like a stranger. Sure, it's a little awkward all things considered - not least of all the fact that while you watched him to the point it could be called an obsession, he knew you to a very limited extend - but as he said, it's just the two of you now. And unless you wanna get caught, it would be that way for a while.
"Friends?" you suggest experimentally, he shakes his head with lips turned upwards in a dangerous teasing tilt.
"I don't know you well enough for that," he's just playing around but it's a nice change so you'll allow it, "Tell me more about yourself."
So you do. Thereâs little to tell other than your work, but he doesnât comment on it and doesnât seem to mind. If anything, he seems invested. Itâs a nice change to speak for once with someone who doesnât get concerned because of your severe lack of social life. Maybe you shouldâve been befriending automatons a long time ago.Â
Unlike before, he seems relaxed conversing with you. Gradually, he gets more comfortable asking questions. Itâs easy to fall into the rhythm of using sarcasm or teasing to deflect questions you donât want answering, and itâs surprising how naturally it comes to him as well.
The night is turning into morning when the fire dies and you agree to go back inside. Well, itâs less that you agree on it than you tell TH38 quite sternly that youâre not at the stage of your relationship where youâd feel comfortable with him lying on your shoulder and dragging him home twice in a day. He pouts (which, again, you need time to process).
Still, you have to admit that it feels kind of good that you have someone accompany you while you walk to your room.
Come morning, it still feels like a dream. So you take extra time to simply lie in bed and think. You're pretty happy with how things turned out. You mull over what the automaton told you. It was a strange way to live one's life. Did he really think he could be happy with just that? You've read enough about history, fiction and articles, to know that, ultimately, it seldom works out this simple way of life. Maybe if all TH38 could do was work, maybe if he had to fear for his life... Or maybe if you didn't keep pushing onto him stuff to think about. Not that it matters anymore.
Funny enough, you meet the moment you step out of the door. You exchange greetings and share a look. You both know you're both usually up much earlier.
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The following days go well enough.
You fall into a nice routine of getting to know each other and getting used to no longer being a researcher and a subject. A lot of the barriers between you get torn by this change. You spend your time willingly with each other as if you were always roommates.
Today, too, TH38 keeps you company during breakfast but he seems eager to get up and do something the whole time. Definitely unusual, though heâs always more than eager to explore the woods with you. Then again, never before did he spend the whole time waiting. He doesnât talk much, he spaces out and nearly jumps out of his chair anytime it seems you might be done with your breakfast. It gets to the point that you have to call him out on it.
"Is something bothering you?" you ask, setting your spoon aside with one hand and laying the other on his shoulder to immediately push him back down to sit.. He looks caught.Â
"Can we go out today?" he asks, already looking into the trees through the window.
"Weâre always going out. Besides nothing is stopping you from going alone," you mention, but the twitching of your lips betrays you. He pursues his lips and you begin to wonder if he knows it makes you - well, not necessarily uncomfortable but you'll have to get used to it.
"Are you not afraid I'll run off?" and while it's not an unreasonable question...Â
"Where would you go?" you ask without missing a beat. And there comes the frown again. "Maybe you should be worried I'll leave you here all on your own."
"What if we stopped?" he sighs and it seems that he's genuinely bothered.Â
Sometimes he gets like that suddenly. While you might be getting along better now, thereâs still room for improvement. Itâs easy enough to make him snap, even though heâs been getting better. During the escape he wasnât really violent either. He left some bruises, but his intention wasnât to hurt you, and you never held it against him.Â
Youâve noticed the pattern of his behavior. Those weird states mostly overcome him when heâs overwhelmed with emotions. Which explains the first snap - he mustâve been so exhausted it was only a matter of time. Heâs never got physical with you again, though he seems fond of making you think he will or backing you into a corner or against something when he's behavior flips.
You wonder where that comes from but he doesnât have any idea either - not to mention he doesnât feel entirely comfortable discussing those episodes and delving deeper into what he's feeling. Perhaps itâs the force of a habit - something you both eventually agreed on after many discussions, and afterall it takes one to know one. Try as you might, itâs hard not to analyze him, not to ask pointed questions that would only serve the purpose of researching how his brain works and what makes him tick. And you really donât want that for him anymore. Though you do dearly miss your job. Thatâs why youâve been spending most of your time studying from the old notes in your room and the books to keep your mind stimulated.Â
So for now, instead of analyzing why it hurts him to imagine being abandoned, you try to relate to his situation. He finally escaped what basically was a prison only to find himself all alone, with little knowledge as to how the world outside functions. Not to mention he's a fugitive and one bad step could land him back at the facility or worse. He lost his friends, lost his purpose - worse yet, he gave up on the purpose he chose for himself. Heâs already so uprooted that maybe itâd truly be best to refrain from making jokes and teasing him about certain topics. AlthoughâŠ
"You started it," you point out, "But sure, let's be adults about this."
"So you're going with me, right?â he circles back to the beginning. It's been a while since someone wanted to be in your company so willingly. Not that he has other options.Â
"Iâm going, donât worry," you agree, "Is there any reason why you insist on it?"Â
He thinks for a bit, and you note that he's biting his lip in yet another expression of very human-like behavior. He turns a little shyer after a minute.Â
"I don't feel comfortable being out there alone. And I hoped maybe you know of some new spot we havenât been to yet?âÂ
Something about this feels both so right and so wrong. The automaton is watching you with such a soft expression on his face, a little hopeful it seems. Heâs relaxed, youâre relaxed, and it feels comfortable. Two friends on vacation planning their trip for a day. But thatâs also whatâs throwing you off. Youâre too used to being alone - and you thought thatâs how you could live forever, be alone and thrive. Only now you realize itâs not a bad feeling at all to have someone to spend your days with, to share a life with - to an extent.Â
The irony in this isnât lost on you.
âI think I remember one,â you hum, âBut Iâm not sure I remember the way. We might get lost.â
âYou donât have to take me there if itâs a special place,â he reassures you, although his excitement at the prospect of wandering through the forest is impossible to hide. Itâs cute. Which is a thought thatâs been reappearing in your mind for days now, and maybe thatâs not a bad thing.
âI appreciate that, but I told you already that thereâs not much special to me here,â you assure him in turn. Heâs like a sponge, soaking up all the information he can get - about the world, nature, you, anything. Itâs really heartwarming he remembers too, and how mindful heâs trying to be. More than half the humans youâve met, which is⊠perhaps not all that surprising.
âShall we go then?â he prompts you, jumping up from his chair and pulling on your hand to get you to stand up too. You let him pull you up, rolling your eyes.
âDid you miss the part where I said we might get lost?â you chuckle. His excitement was just like that of a child - strangely infectious.
âThatâs why weâre leaving early,â he explains to you, slowly, and youâre sure he knows by now how much it annoys you, âSo we have time to explore and find the spot.â
Annoying or not, though, you canât say no.
The journey starts off as usual - almost.
He must know the forest in the closest circle around the cottage by heart by now, but he still seems enchanted by it. Despite his earlier bursts of energy, however, heâs quiet as you walk. Itâs nothing too out of the ordinary, but you learned to be cautious.Â
âHey, is something wrong?â you ask carefully when you stop to admire the way sunrays seep through the trees to illuminate a clover patch on the ground. He doesnât respond. Thatâs more concerning as he generally tends to tell you when he doesnât feel like talking. You have a feeling itâs to prevent him from having another outburst, so if heâs not doing that, it might mean somethingâs seriously wrong. He continues forward before you can speak up again.Â
âHey,â you follow after him - curse his long legs and speed. You think back to all the times youâve thought heâs like a lost puppy following his owner with a scoff. You donât like the roles being switched. âWhatâs going on with you?â
You donât like repeating yourself. You donât like not knowing. And you especially donât like feeling clingy.
âWhat the fuck, Eig-â
âYouâre just like them,â he turns suddenly, making you stumble and nearly bump into his chest. You frown, not understanding who does he mean by them in this lack of context. He sets his jaw like he wants to shut up but then the words spill and you recognize all the signs. âIâm quiet for a couple minutes and everyone's all like âMinghao you need to speak upâ and âmind your screentime, Minghaoâ - how about you leave me alone?â
Heâs growling, again trying to make himself as tall and towering as he can. His eyes betray him, though. He is getting better at holding himself back. While youâd oppose that in most other cases, self-control is an important skill for a person to have - especially when strong emotions hit. You read this one as anxiety.
âNo need to snap at me, Minghao,â you click your tongue. You make sure to look him in the eye while you say the name. âJust say you want to be left alone.â
This time itâs you walking away. You take the few seconds of silence you have before you know heâll snap out of it to collect your thoughts. It was only a matter of time before this would happen - before the question of names would pop up. Him picking out a name for himself makes it easier. You heard some of the others also used some sort of nicknames, even if no one ever mentioned TH38, Minghao, among them and neither did he ask you to call him anything but the name the facility assigned him. You wonder how he came up with it, but seeing as itâs still a sensitive topic, youâre gonna leave that conversation for another time.
And here come the stepsâŠ
What you donât expect is to feel a weight on your back, or the warmth seeping through your shirt. You donât expect the arms around your waist either - or that they would tremble. Nor do you expect the soft, quiet âthank youâ that fans across your skin as he speaks those words before removing himself from you. You hesitate for a bit. In just one second, you feel like you need to choose the best course of action. You donât want to analyze him. You donât want to think about this like part of your job or rehabilitation or therapy for him.
So you walk on, although you slow down significantly, waiting for him to catch up. Heâs still shaking when he does, and his eyes betray how vulnerable he feels.
You meet his gaze from the corner of your eye and tilt your head. He did say he wants to be left alone, so you will respect it until he talks. Which only takes him a little while.
âYou almost left me there,â he half-whines, quietly. If he wonât address it, neither will you.
âYouâre being dramatic,â you shake your head. It doesnât seem to have the effect you wanted, however. âWant me to hold your hand,â you tease a little before adding in a softer voice, âMinghao?â
He beams in that soft glow that he radiates when heâs happy. (Not literally.) The one that tugs at your rigid heartstrings.
âYouâre too shy to try that,â he pushes right back. Although itâs a challenge, you donât need to take on every single one.Â
In a strange turn of events, you do end up taking his hand anyways. You hold his hand that feels like it belongs in yours and you see that he needs a second to process the feeling as well.
Then he slips and if it wasnât for you holding his hand, heâd be sitting on his ass.Â
You help him get back his balance and join you on the rock youâre standing on. Heâs not looking at you anymore, as he wasnât for a while now, and you decide that itâs best you keep watching over him until heâs not distracted even if it means holding his hand until you get back home. The sacrifices you have to make to keep him safeâŠ
You turn back forward and smile, memories flashing briefly through your mind. Back when you saw the waterfall for the first time, you were just as distracted and reckless. The deafening sound of it, the pure strength behind the rushing, foaming water is enough to take your breath away even now. You had a feeling Minghao would love it.
And he does - he seems so taken by it that it makes you wonder if it would be safer to carry him. He keeps slipping since he barely pays any mind to where heâs stepping and it takes you threatening to leave, dragging him with you, for him to promise to be more careful. Never before did he obey your orders so quickly. Not even back at the facility, and thatâs saying a lot.
After a couple more close calls you finally find a piece of land thatâs stable and dry enough to stand on and enjoy the view. Minghao is absolutely mesmerized by the waterfall, lips hanging slightly open and eyes glued to the scene. If youâre staring at him instead of the natural wonder, then itâs only so he doesnât hurl himself into the water.
âCareful or youâll fall in and drown,â you warn him when, coincidentally, he does absent-mindedly take a step forward and panics when he feels the ground squish and give way under his foot.
âYouâd catch me,â he says with certainty that makes something in your stomach twist, âAnd weâd be miserable and soaked to the bone.â
âDonât underestimate the water,â you warn him, âItâs pretty deep and Iâm not a strong swimmer. Weâd just drown together and thatâs not a way to go that Iâd choose.â
That makes him turn to you with an unreadable expression. He studies you for a moment before turning back towards the waterfall. Thereâs a new focus in his gaze as his eyes follow the water. Itâs not unlike when heâs watching the flames dance while youâre having a bonfire. You wonder if the thoughts running through his mind differ.Â
You spend some more there before he asks you to go back.
He stays quiet for most of the way, but you let him. Heâs got that far-off look in his eyes thatâs a dead giveaway that it wouldnât be wise to talk to him now. When he calls your name, it's not surprising what he wants to talk about.Â
âIs there any?â he hesitates, "Way you'd want to die?"
If you didn't know better, you'd think he was scared. And maybe you truly don't, so you approach the topic just as carefully.
"I think most people do," you explain, "It's probably not like that for you, but for people death is a big deal. We tend to think about it sometimes."
"Why?" his throat bobs as he swallows in a new useless but human behavior.
"It's the one thing we can't choose," you smile, and it seems that your relaxed demeanor calms him.
âYou may choose death any second you wish,â he murmurs quietly, walking side by side with you. Something about the topic makes the treetops, swaying in the wind above, look greener.
âBut what if I mean the opposite,â you counter and this time you donât look at him. If he notices the difference, he doesnât comment on it.
âImmortality, hm?â he breathes in deeply, filling his lungs with the fresh pine-scented air, âInteresting.âÂ
"Anyway, you at least have the choice," you sigh, more exasperated by the robot who likely won't be able to get your point than the talk of your own inevitable mortality, "I don't. If nothing else, time will make the decision for me."
"Do I?" he muses, aloof in his contemplation as always albeit there's a hint of mirth to his voice.
"All it will take for you to live forever is some maintenance, maybe a couple hardware and software updates," you shrug, "And even if I'm gone and the situation doesn't get better, I bet there are people who'd be willing to help you out. You get to choose whether to live or die."
He mulls the idea over with a hint of a smirk that only seems to grow each second.
"Constant updates and replacements, huh?" he huffs, "Didn't you humans come up with the question about the boat that has all its parts replaced?"
You have to admit it takes you a while, but when it clicks, your eyes get wide and your mouth falls open.
"How do you know about the ship of Theseus?"
"What, did you expect me to be an ignorant mesh of wires and artificial tissue? After all the books you gave me access to?" he scoffs, looking almost offended.
"Well, no, but I also haven't expected to hear about ancient Greek philosophical problems from you," you concede. Maybe you shouldn't be as surprised as you are. After all, Minghao has always been very interested in reading. Almost as much as youâve been interested in seeing the effect fantasy would have on his artificial brain. But that's long in the past.
"Why have me read those books if you never cared to discuss them with me?" he asks like it's been bothering him for a while now.
"Our sessions were always recorded. I had certain privileges, but most of them weren't for all the higher ups to know about," you shrug, "And after a while I was sure you wouldn't mention anything on your own."
"You trusted me a lot, hm?" he smirks, "Was that why you ran away with me?"
You huff, roll your eyes. He does seem genuinely curious though. You're not sure you want to answer.Â
"Did you fall for me?" he moves to walk in front of you, "That's what they made us for."
"We both know why I went with you," you sigh, pushing on his shoulder and he steps aside easily, falling back in step with you. He has a small smile on his face. Maybe you shouldâve teased him and said yes. The good vibes donât last for too long. You can feel the shift in the air.
"Do you regret it?"
You're not brave enough to look at him. The tone of his voice is enough.
"No, I don't," you answer honestly, "I think this is good for both of us."
This time it's not you holding his hand, but him squeezing yours.
It feels nice.
You squeeze back.
Your suspicion that he was bothered by the fact that you never discussed the literature you provided him access to is proven correct not too long afterwards.Â
Itâs raining outside, the humid air blows in through the open windows as you eat dinner in silence. Minghao joins you at some point and he seems nervous. You give him the time to collect his thoughts until heâs ready to talk.
He starts off casually, with small talk completely unrelated to the real issue but you donât push him. Honestly youâre happy even if heâs clearly having a lot of emotions, heâs not snapping at you. You also have to stop yourself for the nth time from making a list of human behavior you discover each day as right now heâs fidgeting with his fingers, picking at a frayed thread of the tablecloth.
Then, finally, he asks the question - could you talk about the books?
âUnless you havenât read them, of course,â he adds quickly, suddenly flustered by your curious gaze.
âI mean you never told me which ones youâve read,â you grin, and you find yourself enjoying him squirming in front of you, here and now, when you know the anxiety stems from wanting to be understood and to make a connection instead of uncertainty about the future. Not for the first time you find the automaton cute. âI havenât read all the books I gave you access to, but I read most of them, so try your luck. Which ones were your favorite?â
He relaxes, his features soften as well. He props his elbow on the table and leans his head against his palm.
âThis isnât one of our interviews,â he reminds you playfully, âWhich ones are yours?â
You laugh but youâll give him this one. You answer and he asks another question, prodding for more information like you usually would. Itâs not what you expected, but you play along. Unlike you back then, he carefully checks in with you if this is okay - his eyes find yours and he tilts his head, his fingers brush against yours or he gently touches your knee - and he actively participates in the conversation and discussion.Â
You wonder if things would be different if this was the approach you used in the facility. If you treated him more like a human and less like a guinea pig, a new prototype or a petri dish. And he mustâve noticed because when you part ways at the top of the stairs, way too late into the night, or rather early morning, after many hours spent talking, he suddenly stops you before you can leave to your room and says: âThis wouldnât work. I wouldnât work with you like that.â
âI know,â you acknowledge, âThe higher-ups wouldnât let me work like this either. Not with you.â
When he reaches for your hand, you take it. You donât know if he finds comfort in the gentle squeeze you share before parting for real this time, but you think you might.
Out of the many issues and unspoken things you need to address, the wound in Minghaoâs chest remains to be the top priority. He doesnât mention it often, except in passing when even the bandage fails and it catches on the frayed artificial tissue. He seems embarrassed about it in a way that you know all too well. You also hate asking for help, also hate when you need to be taken care of.
So you sit him down one day and make him take his shirt off again, rolling your eyes - again - at the teasing remarks he tries to hide the flush crawling up his skin. Itâs getting easier not to wonder about why they had to be made this human-like.
âIâm fine!â he full-on whines when you try to touch the edges of the wound, slapping your hands away. You heave a sigh, hands on your hips.Â
âListen, buddy-â you start but your words die into laughter at the offended look Minghao sends you.
âMinghao,â you try again, and he nods for you to continue, âWe canât just keep it like that. It hurts.â
âYeah but only sometimes. And you already said you canât help,â he shrugs, âBesides itâs just me whoâs hurting.â
You do understand that. Youâve used the same excuse too. But heâs not you.
On the other hand, he is right. He let you look at the wound before and it seems like while he did a pretty good job of tearing the device out of his chest, some of the nerve-like wires remained meshed in the surrounding tissue and thatâs whatâs causing the pain. You canât imagine doing the extraction yourself. Perhaps back at the beginning, but you couldnât bring yourself to cause him so much pain now.Â
âŠHonestly you sometimes wonder who out of you two needs training in how to be a human.
You stay silent for a while, having a short staring contest before you run your hand through your hair and accept your defeat. At least to some extent.
âFriends care for each other,â you inform him before removing the bandage from his body before securing it around his torso again, a little tighter just to keep all the peeling pieces pressed together. He hisses in pain but stays still. It seems heâs more occupied by processing your words than by the pain. âSo let me care for you, hm? You might not die but letâs keep you functioning for as long as we can.â
He scoffs but ends up smiling anyway.
âI think you should be more worried about taking care of yourself. I donât think the food you keep eating here is exactly healthy,â heâs teasing, you know, but something about it seems honest too.
âMaybe, but itâs easier to just add water and heat it up than get the ingredients, prepare them, cook, wash up, and all that jazz,â you defend your supply of instant foods. Although itâs true that your stock is beginning to run low and you probably will need to go shopping soon. You dread it, but at the same time you have a feeling Minghao might enjoy a little trip further away from the cottage.
âI can help,â he offers, âIf you show me how.â
âSeems like you want to keep me around for a long time,â you dismiss the offer just so you donât have to pay attention to how hopeful his voice sounded or how attentively he was watching you. You hope heâll bicker with you, tease you, push back with more snark, but he doesnât. He simply smiles and lets you finish the work on his bandages.
If your hands tremble and each fleeting touch against his body lingers, neither of you mention it.
It almost seems like Minghaoâs been waiting to use your words against you when a couple days later he joins you under the roof of the patio while the storm is raging only a few meters away, drenching the ground with rain. He brings your favorite tea set with you.Â
Heâs noticed your love for tea, has often asked you to describe the various kinds of it and the flavors, but you never thought itâd come to this.
He sets it all down - the bottle of water, the kettle and the pack of your favorite tea leaves, the glass teapot, and the dark clay one and matching cups - and it surprises you to see he brought two cups. It makes you confused until you notice the tea pet and it gives you a pretty good idea of what heâs planning. You donât comment on the red hue collecting on the tips of his ears.Â
âFriends care for each other,â he murmurs while he sits down next to you. He looks at you and moves closer, your knees bumping together. When you donât move away, he relaxes and focuses on the tea.
He pours the water into the kettle and lets it boil. You notice he set it to stop at the exact temperature he wants - that the tea requires. He measures the right amount of tea leaves for the teapot he picked while it boils, and when the water is done he first fills the cups and the teapots with the hot water. Then he pours it out before gently placing the tea leaves into the clay teapot and pouring the hot water in again. Almost straight away, he pours the tea into the glass one.Â
You watch him and notice he seems nervous. So you decide to make it worse, or comfort him, whatever will be the effect. You put your hand on his knee carefully, startling him regardless. He looks worried before you smile at him: âYouâre doing good so far.â
He seems reassured, giving you a grateful smile himself as he pours the first infusion over the little clay frog sitting at the corner of the tea tray. The next infusion he pours into the cups and hands you one, almost dropping it when your fingers brush together.
âThank you,â you hum, âYouâre a fast learner.â
âI just had enough chances to see you do it,â he shakes his head before nodding towards the tea leaves, âI just wasnât sure I picked the right kind. I noticed you donât wash all of them.â
âYou did. I would help if there was a need but youâre a natural,â you praise, watching as his ears turn redder.
âAnd you donât mind if I pretend with you like this?â he swirls the tea in his cup. He wonât look at you, so you make him. Slowly, you move closer to him until you can lay your head on his shoulder. Itâs a light touch, he can move away if he wants to. He doesnât, although his body gets tense.
âWhy would I mind?â you say and realize just how comfortable you feel in this moment, âIsnât this the perfect mood to sit here like this?â
Finally he melts just a little, leaning his head against yours, featherlight and cautious. Youâd never guess heâd be this affectionate once comfortable, but lately it feels like his true personality is coming out more and more and you canât say you dislike it. He doesnât say anything, instead he leans closer again and rubs his head against yours, just for a second.
You take a sip of the tea and you hate to admit that his exact measurements make it taste better than when you prepare it. It doesnât happen that you smile without realizing, but since leaving the facility, well, it seems like a lot of things are changing.
When you finish your cup and set it down on the tray again, he quietly pours the content of his cup over the little frog. Somehow it reminds you of him a little.
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Time passes.
You start to lose track of days and they blend together seamlessly. Has it been months? Years? Who knows. Minghao probably does, but he couldnât care less. He only mentions the time since the breakout whenever you readjust the bandages on his chest. It almost seems like heâs healing, the compression seems to work a little even on the artificial tissue, although you know that until the remaining wires of the communication device are removed, it will always remain a trouble. He reassures you itâs alright every time and you learn to trust him to express himself truthfully.
He started exploring the outside on his own too. It seems to help him tremendously with dealing with⊠well, everything. It takes time, you know, and fortunately thatâs the one thing that you have in abundance now. Nonetheless, he always seems to appreciate your company, be it on the walks, inside, or on the trips you take sometimes. Usually itâs only to the village to get new supplies of food, but you both remain cautious and even that fills you with adrenaline - among other things.
The locals really make you realize just how indistinguishable from a human Minghao looks. You doubt any of them recognize him for what he truly is, and maybe thatâs in part why he always prefers to spend time alone after each of these trips. The highlight for you personally is the older lady who you buy vegetables from that seems to think of you two as the new married couple that just moved in. You make it a competition to see who gets flustered first, though thereâs really no shame in losing. Not when Minghao cups your face and squishes your cheeks or hugs you when you begin to stutter - not when you mess with his hair or hold his hand when heâs lost for words.
Life is peaceful.
You think some parts of you are healing, just as Minghao is. Heâs getting better at understanding that thereâs chaos within peace and peace to be found amidst chaos. Heâs learning to experience the emotions heâs suppressed for so long, the good and bad, to let them pass through even if itâs scary and uncomfortable. You try to be helpful. You give him space when he needs it, you talk if thatâs what he needs, or let him lay his head on your lap or shoulder if heâs too scared to be left alone with the pandemonium inside his mind.
There are good days and there are bad days. Yet you both grow to be grateful for both.
And there are cold days and warm days too, and on the warm ones, you sometimes sleep outside.
Itâs something youâve never done before and something you now know you'd miss terribly if you could never do it again. Minghao loves it. His excitement remains infectious, which probably adds to your fondness for the warm nights on Silvestre.
Especially nights like this one when thereâs not a cloud in the sky and the stars shine brightly above you. The galaxy expands above your heads and it makes you think of the past, of the future, and you understand why the automaton used to be so wary of emotions. Theyâre overwhelming for you too.
âIf they ever catch us, what will you tell them?â Minghao breaks the silence. Itâs not often that you talk about the facility anymore, but when you do itâs almost exclusively in whispers under the stars.
âHm⊠Depends,â you hum.
âDepends on what?â he turns his head towards you.
âDepends on what will be most likely to get them to allow me to stay and keep working with you,â you mirror his action, âIf that means telling them the whole truth about how youâve done here, I will do that. If that means lying a little, then so be it.â
âWill you tell them the truth about the escape too?â he smirks. But youâre more than ready for the challenge.
âI will them them you kidnapped me.â
âI didnât-â
âI will them you used force to make me come with you.â
âI didnât!â he shoots up, sitting upright and looking at you, upset and distressed, âI didnât have to, you went willingly!â
âI told you,â you smirk, shrugging, âI will tell them what I need to tell them to keep my job.â
Seeing as he remains upset, however, you reach out for him and stroke his arm. He gives you a wary look, one that he always gives you when you brush against a nerve. You smile apologetically at him, brushing some of his hair behind his ear. He scoffs, lying back down with his arms crossed over his chest. âAnything to keep your job but not to keep me.â
âThat would suggest I had you in the first place,â your lips stretch further, teasing lilt finding its way into your voice as Minghao freezes and avoids your gaze, âDoes this count as a confession, Haohao?âÂ
âShut up,â he grumbles. You donât listen.
âBesides, you are my job. Unless you want to be my pet, my-â you donât get to offer him other alternatives as he springs from his spot and leans over you, holding himself up with one hand on either side of your body, kneeling next to you.
âYour?â he quirks a brow at you. Itâs much harder to stand your ground when he drops the shy act, or maybe just puts on this confident one, but you do anyway.
âWhat would you like to be, hm? Give me some ideas,â you hum. He sighs, deliberately letting his head fall lover until his hair tickles your skin.
âI would like to be listened to,â he suggests, making you laugh.Â
âWeâre friends now, arenât we? Friends push each otherâs buttons,â you chide playfully. You feel comfortable. Even with him hovering above you, you feel safe and content. Itâs unreal that not so long ago this would be unthinkable.Â
âI donât think weâre friends,â and itâs only the statement, plain and simple. You smile. You really do feel comfortable. Itâs a new feeling. And itâs refreshing.
âIsnât there enough unspoken things between us as is?â you donât tease anymore.Â
âSo you have a name for this?â he tilts his head, his smile mirroring yours because he knows you donât. You admit your defeat with a shake of your head and donât push him off when he lies down again, only this time with his head resting on your stomach. Youâre nice enough to run your fingers through his hair too. He leans into your touch in appreciation.
You stay silent, watching the stars twinkling above. You like this. You could stay like this, you think, and live your life satisfied and happy. But could you? Isnât that what you both thought before too? Maybe thereâs danger here that youâre just not seeing yet. You donât want to lose this. Then again, itâs not like you can find the answer and the solution at this very moment. Not when youâre distracted by how soft Minghaoâs hair feels between your fingers and the feeling of his fingers playing with yours when he inevitably searches for your hand. Maybe itâs about time you came to terms with the fact that heâs right - youâd rather keep him than any job.
You think about where the future could take you until your eyes close and you fall asleep.
There must be some sort of telepathy connecting you two because he brings up the future himself some time later.
You sit down and discuss everything: Are the people at the facility still looking for you? Is there a chance they could find you here? Does anyone remember him anymore - would they recognize him? Is there anywhere else you could go?
There are endless questions and very few answers. Plenty of books and a projector with what seems like an endless supply of old movies and shows are great for entertainment, but suck at providing information about the current situation across your solar system.Â
So you work with the worst scenarios each time.
It doesnât matter much because the outcome you agree on would likely be the same in any case - you canât stay here forever.
Minghao seems as mournful about it as you feel but you canât run away from the truth forever. Just because nobody should know about this and nobody bothered you here yet doesnât mean it will never happen. Not to mention the other factors.
âI wanna see more,â Minghao admits quietly, his hands playing with yours to ease his anxiety, âI like it here. But Iâm afraid Iâll feel trapped again if we stay.â
You nod. Thatâs true, of course. And you can understand his desire to see more - to learn more. Itâs one of the things you have in common.
âDo you have anywhere you want to explore?â you ask, supportive as can be because he needs it. Because you want this too.
âDoes your family have any other secret mansion?â he might be teasing, but you know he hopes youâll say yes. It would make things much easier.
âNo,â you sigh, then you smile, âSo that means weâre completely free. If we have nowhere to go, we might as well go anywhere.â
He mightâve changed quite a bit, yet the soft glow of his happiness never did. He lets his body fall forward and curl against yours. You chuckle and wrap an arm around him.
âI like the sound of that,â he whispers, nuzzling into your shoulder.Â
âMe too,â you feel a flutter in your chest. Itâs like youâre a child again, being told youâre going on a trip but the destination is a surprise. Itâs like youâre back at the facility, before you knew any better, being told youâre going to work with a level 1 automaton but you wonât know which one until Monday. âLetâs do some research and get going?â
âYeah,â he hums against your skin, âBut only after one last night outside. I canât leave before that.â
Now thatâs a sentiment you can relate to.
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Neural Networks | l.s.m
Summary:  The Escape allowed Dokyeom to gain a new life, one full of feelings. When he meets you when you save him, he experiences all of them - but did you? Strange things start happening once Dokyeom meets you. You embrace him, love him, and protect him. But when the dust from the chaos settles, Dokyeom can't help but doubt you. You have needs different from his. It's almost as if you're not like him at all. â 18+ minors dni |âïžfluff | â smut | âïž angst | â„ completed works Word Count:  9165 words Pairings: AI/Robot!Lee Seokmin x Cyborg!Female Reader Genre/Trope(s)/AUs: Angst, Smut, Fluff, Sci-Fi AU! Content Warnings: Main character death, torture (nothing graphic but mentions), fighting, mentions of injuries, arguing, yelling, talks of betrayal, lots of deception and betrayal. Heavy angst, very mild fluff. Alternate universes. Smut Warnings: Unprotected sex? But they are bots, so idk, oral sex (m & f receiving), and multiple orgasms. Water sex. Kissing. Authors Note 1: Here it is my fic for the Seventeen sci-fi fic collab hosted by the wonderful @idyllic-ghost, check out all the other amazing fics here, this is my first time writing something in this genre, like it's a whole new world. So I hope y'all enjoy. â€ïž Authors Note 2: Thank you so much to the following @savventeen, @strawberryya @the-boy-meets-evil @idyllic-ghost @here4kpopfics @onlymingyus for listening to me go on and on about this and being so patient about this entire story. â€ïž Authors Note 3: Extra special thank you to @idyllic-ghost for being so patient and kind and wonderful, giving me so many hits and tips and ideas with this fic, you've been so lovely and wonderful and I adore you dearly â€ïž. Thank you also to @here4kpopfics for beta'ing this fic for me, ilysm my soulmate. â€ïž © wongyuseokie 2023. All rights reserved.
Prologue
â100 years ago, it was thought that the Earth, as we know it, would disintegrate. That the sun would implode and leave everything in darkness. Miraculously, it didnât. Due to some external force, human scientists still havenât agreed upon what it exactly was. None of the planets in our former solar system was ever destroyed. The Earth and the other planets were pushed away from each other and ended up in different parts of the universe. Earth just happened to come to a solar system with alien life. At first, we were cautious, and people were prepared to fight. However, the aliens were welcoming to our planet. Those who didnât die from âThe Great Journeyâ or from trying to fight the aliens were welcomed into the new solar system. Soon enough, we had integrated completely, and we received materials and assistance from our sister planets in exchange for human labour. What humans knew of technology was very limited, but with the resources of the aliens, we created artificial life forms. We named these robots Automaton, and they served as workers when humans couldnât. Eventually, there was no need for human labour at all. To pay back for the help the aliens gave us, we used Automatons. With the extensive development of these robots, we eventually managed to create artificial sentient life. These Automatons were human-like in looks and had human consciousness, but they could not bleed and were stronger than we ever could be. At present, there are even different levels of Automatons. Level 3 robots are the workers, level 2 robots are the caretakers, and level 1 robots are the celebrities. The Automaton music group 53V3NT33N (SEVENTEEN) comprises 13 members, all very talented, and all representing two human states of mind.â
Dokyeom ran as fast as his legs would allow him. He had long legs, which often aided him when trying to run, but tonight? The escape tested his stamina and strength, and he was failing. He was close to escaping; he just had a couple more steps, but a tug on his leg stopped him.Â
Dokeyom sighed. He didnât want to help. He knew he would have to move to make it out. Now, this individual was going to hinder him.Â
âPlease,â the voice spoke again, and Dokyeom let out a pained sigh as he kneeled to help the injured being.Â
âWhat happened?â Dokyeom asked, and a pained expression greeted him; you welcomed him.Â
âI fell, and itâs bad, and I canât get up. If I canât escape, theyâll kill me!â You cried out, and Dokyeom let out a breath. You werenât his problem, but if Dokyeom left you, youâd die alone here.Â
Dokyeom, deep down, wanted to help. Something told him that he was kind before everything. Dokyeom often had dreams that told him he was kind, loving, warm, and always had a big smile instead of the permanent scowl he wears nowadays. He wasnât too sure if the dream meant anything, but sometimes he wondered if that dream was ever once his reality. His memories were always fuzzy, but this dream was always a constant. He recalls being told he was sunshine, and something about your pain triggered that faint memory for him.Â
âOkay, Iâll pick you up and run for it. No funny business, or Iâll let you go and let you be killed, understood?â Dokyeom warned.Â
âUnderstood.âÂ
Dokyeom took a deep breath before leaning forward, picking you up, and throwing you onto his shoulder. âHold tight; donât let go until we escape,â Dokyeom instructed. You mumbled a âyes,â and thatâs all it took for Dokyeom to start running.Â
Dokyeom wasnât sure how long he was running for; all he knew was that he ran as fast as his legs allowed him, and now that he had you to take care of as well, he had to run faster than ever.Â
âOw!â You yelped when Dokyeom dropped you on the ground suddenly.Â
âI just saved your life. I think you can handle being dropped on your ass,â Dokyeom sassed.Â
âWait, we escaped?â You asked, sitting up and looking around. âWhere are we?â
âIâm not entirely sure, but weâre safe for now,â Dokyeom answered as he sat beside you.Â
âWhatâs your name?â You asked.Â
âDokyeom, what about you?â He asked.Â
âUh, um, Y/N,â you mumbled.Â
âWhyâd you hesitate?â Dokyeom questioned, eyeing you suspiciously.Â
âIâm tired from the escape,â you lied, and Dokyeom scoffed.Â
âI carried you the entire way, and youâre tired?â Dokyeom hissed.Â
âThank you for carrying me,â you answered sheepishly.Â
âWhy donât you rest for a bit? Iâll look around for some food?â You offered.Â
âYou need to eat?â Dokyeom asked, and you paused.Â
âJust a bit of fuel, do you not?â You asked, hoping your question would distract him.Â
âI donât. I do have dreams sometimes where I eat. Maybe itâs from a past life or just a dumb dream,â Dokyeom rambled. He wasnât sure why he suddenly needed to confide in you. He just did. Something about your presence made him want to tell you all his secrets. Something about you felt safe.Â
âWell, Iâll wander for a second if thatâs okay?â You said, and Dokyeom nodded.Â
âYeah, Iâll lay down here for a bit,â Dokyeom replied, feigning a yawn to pretend he was tired.Â
âAlright. Iâll be back.âÂ
âHey, Y/N?â Dokyeom called out.Â
âYeah?âÂ
âI meant what I said, by the way. No funny business, or I will kill you.âÂ
âOw, what the fuck is wrong with you!â Dokyeom barked when he felt a burning sensation on his throat. Â
âWell, you have a wound here, and Iâm just helping you,â you mumbled as you pressed another piece of gauze to his shoulder.Â
âWhat happened?â Dokyeom asked, wincing slightly.Â
âI think something got ripped? I donât know,â you mumbled, and Dokyeom sat up hastily.Â
âMy tag?â Dokyeom panicked.Â
âYour what?â You asked.Â
âMy tag, the thing that they use to monitor me,â Dokyeom explained hurriedly, patting himself.Â
âWhat the fuck did you do to me?â Dokyeom hissed, grabbing you harshly.
âWhat are you on about?â You questioned.
âWhen I saved your ass, did you, for funsies, rip the tag out of my shoulder?â Dokyeom accused.Â
âNo, what the hell? Why would I do that to you?â You fired back.Â
âDonât know, fuck, do you know what could happen?â Dokyeom spat.Â
âI donât know. The ones who have been trying to control you get pissed, but without your tracker, they canât do much, so maybe you can finally live a normal life?â You fumed, your words making Dokyeom pause.Â
âNormal life?â Dokyeom repeated slowly.Â
âYes, Dokyeom, normal,â you stuttered.Â
âLook, Iâm grateful you saved me, but youâve been hostile otherwise,â you ranted, hoping itâd help to distract Dokyeom.Â
âYouâre right. I have been hostile, but can you blame me? I donât think anyone who is my kind is anything but hostile. Weâve been through hell,â Dokyeom countered.Â
âFair enough, weâve both been screwed over. Instead of taking it out on each other, what if we work on helping each other instead? We can, I donât know, be each otherâs friends. Or even acquaintances?â You offered.Â
âFine, but one wrong move, and Iâll kill you, so tread lightly.âÂ
âWhere were you?â Dokyeom questioned the second you entered the little hiding spot you both found after escaping. It had been evening time, and Dokyeom was distracted and drifted off, so you took a moment to leave the cave and contact your bosses at SALAX. You were able to do so thanks to the fancy watch strapped to your wrist. You had let them know that you had managed to lure Dokyeom into ârescuingâ you, and now, over the course of the next two weeks, you would try to lure him back to SALAX. You had also let your superiors know that you had managed to yank out Dokyeomâs tracker, and it was safe and on you.
There were some concerns coming from SALAX that hiding Dokyeomâs tracker on yourself was risky because if he saw the chip, heâd kill you in a heartbeat. But you assured them that he wouldnât, and with that, the call ended, and you retreated back to the cave to find Dokyeom standing up and glaring at you.
âWhere were you?â Dokyeom questioned.
âUh, just stepped out to get some air and find something to eat,â you lied smoothly.Â
âRightâŠâ Dokyeom trailed off. âI meant to ask you about this yesterday. What the hell are you? Why do you need to eat? I donât, so what the hell are you?â Dokyeom snarled.Â
âI thought we were trying to be friends? Why the aggression?â You deflected.Â
âYou know I can kill you in seconds and leave you here, so instead of avoiding the question, tell me,â Dokyeom threatened as he stepped closer.Â
You would be lying if you said that Dokyeom didnât intimidate you. He was a tall individual with a very strong build. He could easily crush you.Â
âI guess one would say Iâm a malevolent being,â you explained as you sat down, and Dokyeom followed suit, sitting across from you.Â
âMalevolent doesnât mean kind. It means evil,â Dokyeom mumbled.Â
âOh wow, youâre so smart!â You quipped sarcastically, making him glare at you.Â
âIâm a cyborg, so I need to eat, sleep, and do some-what human functions,â you admitted.Â
âLike fart?â Dokyeom joked, making you crack a smile.Â
âShut up.âÂ
âSo why were you running? Same as me? Escaping?â Dokyeom asked, and you shrugged.Â
âHowâs this? We ask each other one question a day. You already asked me something today, so itâs my turn?â You suggested.Â
âWhat do you want to know?â Dokyeom asks.Â
âWhat do you dream about?â You asked, leaving Dokyeom stunned.Â
âDream?â Dokyeom repeated.Â
âYes, dream.âÂ
âI guess a place where I donât need to be so on guard all the time or so aware of everything at once. A place where hypervigilance isnât a constant state of mind,â Dokyeom articulated.Â
âI guess youâre right to call it a dream,â you mumbled.Â
âBecause itâs an ideal state and not our reality?â Dokyeom offered.Â
âFine, we can be friends, a question a day, and I wonât step out of line, and I hope you donât either,â Dokyeom added.Â
âI wonât.âÂ
Day 1: Cold as Ice
The next day, you awoke naturally and found Dokyeom standing at the entrance of the cave, and you decided to get up and join him.
âWhat are you thinking about?â You asked with a friendly smile as you approached Dokyeom.
Dokyeom turned to look at you, his eyes narrow and guarded. âHow long do we need to keep hiding out here,â he replied curtly, his tone cold.
Undeterred, you placed a hand on his shoulder. âWe can find a way out. I know it!â You offered enthusiastically.
Dokyeom simply rolled his eyes, and shrugged your hand off his shoulder, and walked off and back into the cave, where he sat and ignored you for the rest of the day.
Day 2: Thawing
The next day, you tried to engage Dokyeom in conversation, sharing stories, as well as your optimism that you two would be able to find your way out of your wreckage. But Dokyeom barely engaged in the conversation, mainly responding with a few grunts and hums.
But you werenât easily discouraged. You saw something beneath the surface of Dokyeomâs stoic exterior, a flicker of curiosity and maybe even a hint of loneliness. You believed everyone had a story, and you were determined to uncover his.
As the days passed, you learned more about some of Dokyeomâs habits, habits that you noticed when he thought you werenât looking. You noticed how his eyes crinkled when he smiled. You also noticed he had a beautiful smile, one that made you feel incredibly warm.
Day 3: Cracks in the façade
âPenny for your thoughts?â You asked one evening, and Dokyeom gave you a small smile.
âWeâll make it out of this mess, right?â Dokyeom asked, and you nodded.
âYeah, we will.â
Day 4: Melting
As the days continued, you continued to engage Dokyeom in conversation. You spoke with an infectious enthusiasm that was hard to resist, and while Dokyeom remained guarded initially, your presence of unwavering warmth began to chip away at the walls he had built around himself. Slowly, he started to open up, revealing glimpses of his past and the reasons for his uninviting nature.
Day 5: Flux
âIâve been burned before,â Dokyeom admitted one night, his eyes distant as if reliving painful memories. âThose Iâve trusted, they let me down.âÂ
You reached out and placed a hand over his, letting him know it was okay to continue, and he paused, taking a deep breath.
Dokyeom unravelled to you, a tale of loss and betrayal unfolds; he had once been surrounded by love and trust, only to see it all crumble into dust.
As Dokyeomâs world around him began to change, so did those around him. Those he trusted, in turn, betrayed, hurt and lied to him. Slowly, one by one, the ones he loved and depended on were taken from him. Eventually, Dokyeom found himself alone, a solitary figure in a world that had become cold and unforgiving.
Soon enough, Dokyeom learned a harsh lessonâthat trust could be a double-edged sword, capable of bringing individuals together and tearing them apart, and as a result, Dokyeom retreated into himself, becoming stoic and unapproachable, a protective shell forged by the scars of his past.
Dokyeom has learnt to trust no one, not even himself. The walls he has built around his heart are formidable, a defence mechanism against the pain of betrayal and loss.
But amid the chaos and uncertainty surrounding him. He finds a glimmer of hope, you. From there, a connection begins to form, a bond that defies the mistrust that defines Dokyeomâs existence. Itâs a fragile thread that you must tread carefully to nurture, knowing that the wounds of his past are still raw and that his ability to trust has been shattered.
You listened attentively, offering empathy and understanding, and shared your struggles and fears, creating a safe space where Dokyeom could reveal his vulnerabilities without judgment.
All the while, guilt gnawed at you, knowing that you, too, were about to betray Dokyeom the way so many others had done. You, too, were about to hurt him. But you needed him to trust you in order to betray him. But you couldnât help that with each day, feel more guilty, and start second guessing your mission because you werenât sure if you could hurt someone you wanted to protect.
One day, you find Dokyeom pacing around the cave anxiously, his stoic façade cracking for the first time. He looks at you, a glimmer of vulnerability in his eyes, and admits.âI donât know what weâre going to do.â
At that moment, you realise that Dokyeom is not as unapproachable as he first seemed. You reach out, reassuringly touching his shoulder, and say. âWeâll figure it out together. Weâve come this far and wonât give up now.â
For the first time, Dokyeom smiles, a small but genuine one. Itâs a turning point in your friendship, a moment of trust and connection that grows stronger daily.
As you continue to navigate the challenges of your hidden existence, you and Dokyeom find solace in each otherâs company. The once stoic and unapproachable man has become a friend, someone you can rely on and confide in. You face the unknown together, knowing that as long as you have each other, you can conquer whatever challenges lie ahead.
That night, you started shifting in your sleep, mumbling nonsense, when, suddenly, you found yourself in a cavernous nightmare, the cave walls closing around you like vengeful spectres. The air is thick with unease, and your heart races as you try to escape the suffocating darkness. But the cave seems to have no end, and youâre trapped in a terrifying labyrinth of your fears.
Suddenly, a beam of light pierces the darkness, and you hear the sound of footsteps echoing in the cave. A figure emerges from the shadows, and itâs Dokyeom. His presence alone is a lifeline in this nightmarish abyss.
âDokyeom!â You cry out, relief flooding over you as he draws near. His familiar face is a beacon of hope in this terrifying dream.
He reaches out, his touch reassuring as he says,.âIâve got you. Youâre safe now.â
His voice, filled with warmth and strength, calms your racing heart. With his guidance, you navigate the treacherous terrain of the cave, finally escaping the nightmareâs clutches.
As you emerge into the open, the nightmare fades away like a distant memory. You turn to Dokyeom with gratitude and something more in your eyes. He gazes back at you, his usual reserve momentarily giving way to vulnerability.
âYou saved me, Dokyeom,â you say softly, your heart pounding.
Dokyeom hesitates, his eyes locked onto yours, and then, in a moment of unspoken connection, you lean in, and your lips meet in a tender kiss. Itâs a kiss that carries the weight of the unspoken, the shared relief of escaping the nightmare together, and the growing feelings brewing between you.
For a heartbeat, Dokyeom hesitates, uncertainty flickering in his eyes. But then, as if surrendering to the undeniable pull between you, he reciprocates your kiss, his lips meeting yours with a newfound intensity. Once a place of nightmares, the cave has become the backdrop to a moment of unexpected passion and connection.
As you both break the kiss, the world around you seems to shift, and you realise this dream has taken an unexpected turn. But in the wake of your shared moment, you know that something has changed between you and Dokyeom, and you canât help but smile, grateful for the bond that has deepened in the darkness of this surreal nightmare.
The next day, you and Dokyeom wandered out of the little cave and found yourselves standing amidst a scene of utter devastation, a future marred by damage and chaos that stretches as far as the eye can see. The landscape was a haunting testament to the havoc that had been unleashed upon this once-thriving world. Buildings, once towering symbols of human achievement, now lie in ruins, their skeletal frames jutting out of the shattered concrete like the bones of a long-forgotten civilization. The acrid stench of smoke and burning debris fills the air, choking your senses as you survey the destruction.
The sky above is a sickly hue, darkened by the ominous clouds of billowing smoke that obscures the sun, casting an eerie, blood-red glow over the desolation below. The air crackles with an unsettling energy, a lingering sense of impending doom.
Amidst the wreckage, remnants of what was once a bustling metropolis now lie scattered like discarded toys. Abandoned vehicles, their tires deflated and windows shattered, stand as silent witnesses to the chaos that unfolded here.
As you move further into this grim future scene, you can't help but feel a profound sense of loss and despair. The world as you knew it has been forever altered, transformed into a nightmarish landscape of destruction and ruin.
In the distance, faint echoes of distant sirens and the low rumble of collapsing structures serve as a grim reminder that the chaos is far from over. The damage inflicted upon this world runs deep, and the path to recovery seems uncertain and fraught with challenges.
Yet, amidst the devastation, there is a glimmer of hope, a resilience that refuses to be extinguished. It's a reminder that even in the face of chaos and destruction, humanity's spirit endures, and the struggle for survival continues.
âYou can relax a bit. I donât really think anyone is here,â you whispered to Dokyeom as you cautiously walked around, noticing how almost everything was burned, destroyed and damaged.Â
âLook at the damage,â Dokyeom mumbled back.Â
âI know, itâs so awful. I hope those who wanted to escape managed to do so,â you admitted.Â
âWhy didnât you?â Dokyeom asked.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âDidnât escape? Why didnât you?â Dokyeom asked, eyeing you suspiciously.Â
âI was hurt,â you muttered.Â
âI didnât know cyborgs could feel pain?â Dokyeom challenged, and you averted your gaze away from him.Â
âDid you do it to trap me?â Dokyeom challenged.Â
âNo? What would I gain from doing that to you?â You retorted, and Dokyeom shrugged.Â
âFuck knows, you told me youâve done things youâre not proud of. Maybe Iâm just another thing youâll do that youâre not proud of.âÂ
âTrust me, Dokyeom, if I wanted to do you, I would have a long time ago,â you huffed out as you stormed off, making Dokyeom sigh as he followed you.Â
âWe need to steal a spacecraft,â you whispered to Dokyeom.
âAre you insane? How?â Dokyeom whispered back, and you shrugged.Â
âLook,â you said, motioning to where you were looking.Â
Amidst a desolate and haunting scene of wreckage, a solitary spacecraft stood as a lone survivor of a cataclysmic event. It appeared as a beacon of hope amidst the debris-strewn wasteland.
The spacecraftâs once-pristine exterior, now scarred and battered, stands defiantly among the twisted metal and shattered remnants of other vessels. Its hull, once gleaming, bears the scars of cosmic collisions and the ravages of time. A faint, eerie light from malfunctioning control panels cast shadows across its battered form.
Around the spacecraft, a field of wreckage stretches into the horizon, a haunting testament to the harshness of space. Broken pieces of machinery and torn metal fragments drift through the void like lost souls. The eerie silence of the scene is punctuated only by the occasional creaking of damaged hulls.
Inside the spacecraft, signs of struggle and survival are evident. Emergency lights flicker, and a faint hum of life support systems resonates through the corridors. It stands as a testament to the resilience of those who once staffed it, their spirit unbroken despite the chaos surrounding them.
In this place of wreckage, the spacecraft is a symbol of endurance and perseverance, a lone sentinel refusing to succumb to the unforgiving cosmos. Its presence amid the ruins speaks of the human spiritâs unyielding determination to press on, even in the face of overwhelming adversity.
âYou canât be serious,â Dokyeom mumbled.Â
âYou want freedom? Escape? This is our only solution. You can be free again.âÂ
You and your partner in crime stand in the dimly lit hangar, eyes fixed on the sleek spacecraft that gleams like a jewel in the shadows. The ship, an advanced model with a reputation for speed and agility, holds the key to your daring escape plan.Â
You both approach the spacecraft with a shared nod and a sense of exhilaration. Your partner, a master of hacking, quickly accesses the control panel, fingers dancing across the holographic interface. The shipâs security systems fall like dominos, leaving you unfettered access.
The boarding ramp lowers smoothly, revealing the spacecraftâs luxurious interior. You and your partner slip inside, feeling the cool, synthetic leather seats beneath you. As the canopy seals shut with a soft hiss, you exchange a glance filled with determination.
Dokyeom took the pilotâs seat, fingers caressing the controls with a practised ease. The spacecraftâs engines hum to life, vibrating beneath you as they prepare to defy gravity. You both brace yourselves with a final glance out of the transparent canopy.
The spacecraft lifts off, rising gracefully from the hangar floor. You feel the G-forces press you into your seat as you hurtle towards the heavens. The hangar doors open, revealing the starry expanse of space beyond.
You know youâve left it all behind at that momentâyour past, troubles, and the pursuit of those seeking to capture you. You and Dokyeom have stolen not just a spacecraft but a chance at freedom, and together, you soar into the unknown, leaving a trail of stardust in your wake.
âWhere are we going?â Dokyeom asked as the spacecraft hovered and slowly moved along.
âAECORâ you replied.
âWhy?â Dokyeom asked.
âTo relax, to breathe, and to regroup,â you answered with a smile, and that was enough Dokyeom needed to know.
~~ âWow,â Dokyeom breathed out as he disembarked from the spacecraft and set foot into AECOR.
âThis is incredible.âÂ
You find yourself standing at the edge of a breathtaking rainforest, enveloped by the magical allure of the night. The moonlight filters through the dense canopy above, casting a gentle, silver glow upon the lush foliage below. Tall trees adorned with vibrant, bioluminescent flowers seem to dance in the faint shimmer of light, their leaves rustling in a gentle, nocturnal breeze.
As you venture deeper into the rainforest, the symphony of nighttime creatures serenades your senses. Frogs and crickets play a melodic chorus while fireflies flicker like tiny stars, illuminating your path. The air is thick with the heady scent of damp earth, moss, and exotic blooms, creating an intoxicating fragrance that lingers around you.
But the true marvel of this rainforest night unfolds before you as you stumble upon a hidden gemâthe waterfall. It glistens under the moonâs enchanting gaze, cascading waters a ribbon of liquid crystal tumbling from the heights above into a pristine, moonlit pool below.
The waterfallâs roar is a soothing lullaby, a constant reminder of natureâs grandeur and eternal rhythm. The moonlight dances upon the waterâs surface, creating a sparkling, silvery tapestry that seems to stretch forever. Each droplet from above catches the moonâs radiance, forming a trail of liquid stardust.
You approach the poolâs edge, feeling the cool mist kiss your skin as the waterfallâs spray gently caresses your face. The night sounds intensify around you, the rainforest coming alive with its secrets and wonders. Itâs a world of enchantment, where the rainforestâs beauty is magnified by the veil of night, and the waterfall stands as a shimmering testament to the timeless allure of nature.
âIsnât it? I thought we could take a break here, considering all weâve been doing is running and hiding. Weâre safe here,â you mumble.Â
âAre we?â Dokyeom asks.Â
âWould I lead you astray?â You ask, inching closer to him.Â
âI donât think you would. You wouldnât just kiss me to manipulate me later, right?â Dokyeom asks as he wraps an arm around your waist, pulling you into him. You smile at him. This was the first time the kiss from the night before was brought up.
âIâm sorry if I overstepped,â you mumble.Â
âI didnât say I minded. I did kiss back,â Dokyeom adds, making you melt into his touch, guilt plaguing you, knowing that you would soon cause this incredible individualâs demise.Â
âShall we?â You ask, motioning to the bodies of water, looking around for one slightly more private, where you both wouldnât be recognised and could spend time with him, alone, uninterrupted, before you betray him.
Dokyeom takes your hand, guides you to a more secluded plunge pool, and stops at the edge of the water. With a soft smile, he removes your clothing piece by piece, every movement charged with an undeniable urgency. As he finishes, his eyes scan your body with fierce hunger, and his hands wander over your curves with possessiveness.
You shiver as you feel his hands slide around your waist from the back, the warmth of his touch sending shivers up and down your spine. You can feel the barely restrained desire emanating from his body.
Dokyeom pulls you closer, and you can feel his hardness against your back as he presses against you. His lips trail down to your shoulder, his breath heating your skin as his gaze travels up your neck.
Dokyeom turns you to face him, cupping your face in his hands as he trails down to your lips. His tongue probes at the corner of your mouth before sliding in, the wetness and warmth as you open your mouth to him sending you into a passionate frenzy.
Dokyeom takes your hand and leads you to the pool. As the warm water envelops you, Dokyeom slides in behind you, his chest against your back as his arms wrap around you. His hands move over your body with increasing passion as his lips go up and down your neck.
Your back arches, trying to move even closer to him. You moan in pleasure as his hardness presses against your skin, the sensation of him filled with anticipation. You canât help but feel like you want him to take you in the water.
You and Dokyeom are both submerged in the shallow waters of the pool, your hands trailing along the smooth surface of the tiled edges. You look up at Dokyeom, a smirk on your lips as you start to move, your body drawn closer to his as your hands move expertly to his hips and you bring yourself just under the water. You feel the anticipation running through both of you as you wrap your arms around his waist and pull yourself tight against him.
You can feel Dokyeomâs breaths coming faster as he looks down at you, anticipation radiating from his eyes as you start to explore. You run your hands through his hair, feeling your tension quickly mixed with pleasure as you tilt your head back. The sensation of his skin against yours is heightened in the water, and you quicken your pace, carefully trailing your lips and tongue along his chest and stomach. His skin feels like butter beneath your mouth, begging for more attention.
You let out a soft moan as you bring your mouth up to his, your tongue tracing along his lower lip as you press against Dokyeom. He responds with a groan, his mouth eagerly meeting yours as you wrap your arms around his neck and deepen the kiss. You feel your way down from his mouth, your tongue gliding along his neck and shoulders as your hands trace his contours.
You pull away from him, an inviting smile on your lips before you go down his torso. With each movement, your mouth is greeted with eager sighs and gasps of pleasure from Dokyeom. As you reach the bottom of his stomach, you look up, the look in his eyes telling you itâs time for something different. You gaze at him momentarily, his eyes pleading, before you dip your tongue into the shallow pools of water between his legs.
Dokyeom lets out an animalistic groan as you move your mouth along his member, lapping up the waves of pleasure each stroke gives him. His body arches into you as your tongue swirls around in circles, his hands grasping your hair as you work your way up and down. You canât help but smile against him as you hear tiny, breathy moans with each flick of your tongue, revealing that youâve brought him to this point.
You can feel your arousal growing, and you know youâve done the same to Dokyeom as you reach the climax together, him calling out your name as the waves of pleasure ensnare you both and pull you gently into a blissfully calm state.
You feel the heat rising as you climb out of the plunge pool and lay on the edge, reclining on your elbows, and you feel your breath hitch in anticipation and your breaths coming in shallow gasps.
Then you feel Dokyeomâs hand touching you, tracing a path from your abdomen to your chest and neck. His fingertips leave a trail of blissful heat on your skin, and you let out a contented sigh.
Dokyeom slides lower, his hand running across your inner thigh. His fingers work their way up your legs, sending sparks of pleasure shooting right to your core.
When Dokyeom finally reaches your most intimate area, you canât help but gasp as you feel his tongue exploring you. His soft, lapping motions send waves of pleasure rippling through your body, and you find yourself pushing against his face, wanting more and more from him.
Dokyeom responds to the pressure of your body, deepening the stress and increasing the intensity of his movements. His tongue circles around your clit, sending more delightful feelings coursing through you until you feel like youâre about to combust.
And then itâs like nothing youâve ever felt before. Your body suddenly gives way as an explosion of pleasure ripples through you, and you think your entire body is trembling with delight. Youâve just experienced the most intense and pleasurable orgasm, thanks to Dokyeom.
He stares deeply into your eyes, the look telling you he craves you just as much as you desire him.
You donât have to wait any longer. He plunges deep inside you, his hips moving skillfully as his groans mix with yours. Your body tightens around him as he rocks into you so intensely that it sends waves of pleasure shooting through your body.
The intensity builds up until a wave of pleasure engulfs both of you. You collapse into each other, exhausted but electrified.
The afterglow slowly takes over as you lay in each otherâs arms, enjoying the comfort of being surrounded by each otherâs warmth.
You and Dokyeom found refuge in a small corner of AECOR, where you both held each other. It was a beautiful and peaceful moment, and you wished that you could stay in this moment forever.
âY/N, I want you to know something. I feel safe with you for the first time in my life,â Dokyeom admitted, making you smile and guilt engulf you.
His words hung in the air, carrying the weight of his vulnerability. You look into his eyes, the depth of his emotions mirrored in his gaze. The rainforest seems to hold its breath as if nature is listening to this profound declaration.
You reach out, your hand finding his, fingers entwined. Â
âDokyeom,â you reply with a voice filled with warmth and understanding.
 âIâm grateful to have you in my life. Weâre safe together.â
The next day, Dokyeom felt a slight throbbing pain in his head, and when he woke up, you were nowhere to be found. He wasnât even sure how he woke up or, more importantly, how he was unconscious. Had you hurt him? Where were you? Had he been brave, he would have gone out to search, but he knew not to because he too was a target.
You find yourself in the heart of SALAX, a planet shrouded in shadows and ruled by fear. As you navigate the dimly lit paths, a chilling encounter awaits you. A mysterious figure approaches, cloaked in darkness, and with a low, ominous voice, they ask.
âHave you managed to ensnare Dokyeom yet?â
You hesitate, your mind racing as you weigh your options. Youâve infiltrated this grim city for a specific purpose, a mission that demands subtlety and caution. But the pressure to fulfil your promise hangs heavily over you, and the consequences of failure are dire.
You felt immense guilt the night before, right after Dokyeom confessed to you that he felt safe with you, when he wasnât looking, decided to hit him hard enough to cause a slight snag in his system, which would make him shut down for a few hours. Which gave you enough time to go SALAX and see if you could get out of your deal. You couldnât hurt Dokyeom anymore. You couldnât hurt someone you were falling in love with.
Before you can respond, the enigmatic figure steps closer, their face concealed by shadows. âTime is running out, Y/N,â they hiss, their tone dripping with menace.
âWe cannot afford delays. Alastor is growing impatient.â
The name sends a shiver down your spineâAlastor, the ruler of SALAX, a malevolent force youâve heard whispered about in hushed tones. He is a figure of terror, and the urgency in the strangerâs voice underscores the gravity of your mission.
As you stand there, torn between your missionâs demands and the mounting pressure from Alastorâs emissary, you know that your choices in this treacherous city will have far-reaching consequences. The web of intrigue and danger in SALAX tightens around you, and you must decide whether to continue down this perilous path, knowing that failure could mean a fate worse than death.
As you leave the oppressive city of SALAX behind, the weight of guilt and conflict presses heavily upon your heart. The memories of your time in SALAX, the choices you made, and the person you had to become weigh on your conscience, and thereâs no escaping the tangled web of emotions.
In the solitude of your departure, you find yourself grappling with the harsh reality of having betrayed Dokyeom, the man you had come to care for deeply. Your love for him is undeniable, a powerful force that has drawn you together in a world fraught with danger and uncertainty.
With each step away from SALAX, you replay the moments when you had to deceive him, the lies you had to tell, and the promises you couldnât keep. The pain of knowing that youâve broken his trust is like a dagger in your chest, and it gnaws at your soul.
But you also remember the pressure from Alastor, the ruler of SALAX, and the dire consequences that would have occurred had you not complied with his demands. It was a choice between betraying Dokyeom and facing the wrath of Alastor, and in the end, you had to prioritise your survival.
As you journey further away from SALAX, you yearn for a solution, a way to make amends for the betrayal and deception that have torn your heart in two. You know that you canât change the past, but youâre determined to find a way to set things right.
The conflict within you rages on, tearing at your conscience and leaving you in turmoil. You find solace in the quiet moments of reflection, searching for a path forward that will allow you to reconcile your love for Dokyeom with the choices you were forced to make.
In the distance, a glimmer of hope emergesâa plan, a way to mend the trust youâve shattered. It wonât be easy, and the road ahead is uncertain, but youâre resolved to find a solution that will bring redemption and forgiveness for yourself and the love you hold for Dokyeom.
As the spacecraft landed back in AECOR, you noticed Dokyeom standing outside the place where you last left him, and even though the space craft, you could sense the tension.
As you got off the spacecraft, you noticed that Dokyeomâs once-warm demeanour had cooled, replaced by a distant and suspicious gaze. The weight of your mission and the secrets you carry are like a boulder on your shoulders as you stand before him.
Dokyeomâs words, when they finally come, are laced with an undercurrent of passive aggression.
âWhere were you?â
You can feel his scrutiny, his unspoken doubts hanging heavy in the air. The unease in your chest tightens, and you know the time has come to confront the truth.
âSALAXâ
âWhat?â
Taking a deep breath, you decide to be honest. âDokyeom, there are things I need to tell you,â you begin, your voice quivering with the weight of your confession.
He raises an eyebrow, his suspicion growing. âGo on.â
You recount the events of your mission in SALAX, the pressure from Alastorâs emissary, and the choices you were forced to make. You can see the anger and disappointment flicker in Dokyeomâs eyes as you speak.
When you finally finish, thereâs a heavy silence between you. Dokyeomâs expression is inscrutable, and you canât tell if heâs processing your confession or formulating his response.
After an eternity, he finally speaks, his voice cold and measured. âY/N, I need you to understand the gravity of your actions. Trust is not something to be taken lightly. Your secrecy puts us all at risk.â
Your heart sinks as you realise the consequences of your choices. You had expected Dokyeomâs anger, but what comes next surprises you.
He leans in closer, his gaze unwavering. âHereâs your ultimatum Y/N. If you want to continue being with me, you must prove you can be trusted. No more secrets, no more hidden agendas. From now on, complete transparency. Can you do that?â
The ultimatum hangs in the air like a heavy storm cloud, and you understand the weight of his words. The trust eroded by your actions is at stake, and itâs up to you to rebuild it, one honest step at a time.
âDokyeom, I need to confess to you,â your voice trembles slightly, but you push on, knowing that honesty is the only path forward.
His brow furrows in concern as he listens attentively, encouraging you to continue. âI... I was supposed to betray you,â you admit, the words heavy on your conscience. âThere was a plan, a scheme I was involved in, but I canât do it anymore.â
Dokyeomâs eyes widen in surprise, and he reaches out to gently hold your hand, a silent gesture of support. âWhat do you mean?â he asks, his voice soft and understanding.
Tears gather in your eyes as you elaborate. âI was meant to deceive you, hurt you, but Iâve realised that what we share is more important to me than anything else. I canât go through with it, Dokyeom. I canât betray you after everything weâve been through.â
Silence hangs in the air, the weight of your confession palpable. You search his eyes for a sign, praying heâll understand your turmoil and forgive your past intentions. With your heart in your throat, you wait for his response, hoping your honesty will be the bridge to mend any potential rift between you.
As you sit across from Dokyeom, the weight of your past and the secrets youâve harboured for so long pressing heavily upon your shoulders, you take a deep breath, trying to find the courage to reveal your darkest truths.
As the realisation dawns upon Dokyeom, a heavy silence settles over the room. He stands there, his thoughts racing, trying to face the betrayal that has unfolded before him. The one person he had trusted implicitly, you, had been attempting to deceive him all along.
Dokyeomâs heart feels like itâs been gripped by an icy vice, and he struggles to find words to express the tumultuous emotions surging within him. He had opened himself up and allowed you into the innermost chambers of his life, and now he feels like a fool.
You stood before him, your eyes filled with regret and uncertainty.
Finally, Dokyeomâs voice breaks through the silence, but itâs laced with a mixture of hurt and anger. âY/N, how could you?â His words are filled with a sense of betrayal that cuts deep.
You took a step forward, her voice trembling as you tried to explain. âDokyeom, I... I never meant for things to get this far. It started as something I thought I had to do, but along the way, I realised...â
Dokyeom cuts you off, his anger boiling over. âRealised what? That you could play with my trust and feelings and throw it all away when it suited you?â
The room feels tense, the air heavy with the momentâs weight. Dokyeomâs trust, once unshakable, has been shattered, and heâs left to grapple with the aftermath of the betrayal.
Your eyes fill with tears as you struggle to find the right words to make amends for your actions. âDokyeom, please, just hear me out. I never wanted to hurt you. I never thought I would care this much.â
He turns away from you, unable to bear the sight of the person who had manipulated his trust. âY/N, I need time,â he says, his voice weary and defeated. âI need time to process this, to understand what just happened.â
âDokyeom,â you begin, your voice quivering, âthereâs something I need to tell you. Something Iâve kept hidden for far too long.â
Once warm and trusting, his eyes now hold a mix of curiosity and concern as he nods, encouraging you to continue.
âI come from a past that Iâm not proud of,â you admit, gazing at the table before you. âI used to be involved in criminal activities that hurt people and went against everything I now stand for.â
Dokyeom remains silent, his expression a mixture of surprise and a hint of sadness.
Tears well up in your eyes as you recount the horrors of your past the choices you made that left scars on others and yourself. âIâve hurt people, stolen, lied, and deceived. I could escape my past, but itâs been haunting me, and I canât bear to keep it hidden any longer.â
Dokyeomâs gaze remains locked on you. His silence speaks volumes.
âI joined this SALAX, this mission, in the hope that I could make amends for my past,â you continue, your voice trembling with emotion. âI wanted to change, become a better person, and do something meaningful. But I understand if you canât trust me now.â
âIf I could give them you, then I would not be punished for my past,â you admit.
The room seems to close in on you as you await his response, the weight of your confession hanging heavily in the air. You fear that your past actions have damaged the trust Dokyeom once had in you.
After what feels like an eternity, Dokyeom finally speaks, his voice measured and compassionate.
âY/N, what matters is not the person you used to be but who youâve become. Youâve taken a courageous step by facing your past and sharing it with me.â
Dokyeom's hand finds yours, a gesture of understanding and support.
âWe all have our demons, Y/N, and we all make mistakes. Whatâs important is that youâre trying to make amends and move forward. I believe in the person you are now, and I trust that youâll continue to work towards the better future youâve set your sights on.â
Tears of relief well up in your eyes as you squeeze his hand, grateful for his understanding and forgiveness. In that moment, you realise that by sharing your darkest truths, youâve not only unburdened yourself but also strengthened the trust between you and Dokyeom. Itâs a crucial step toward redemption and a brighter future where your past no longer defines who you are.
âWeâll fight it together.â
âWeâll make it out alive, Y/N,â Dokyeom promised. However, as the words left Dokyeomâs mouth, you heard a loud noise, and suddenly, you were both enveloped in a cloud of darkness.Â
As the darkness of night envelopes you and Dokyeom, you find yourselves ensnared in a dire predicament. Captured by unknown assailants, you're bound and blindfolded, completely at their mercy. The journey is disorienting, filled with abrupt turns and jolts, leaving you with no sense of direction.
After what feels like an eternity, the vehicle comes to a halt, and you're roughly pulled from your seats. The sound of heavy metal doors creaking open echoes in the air, and you're guided out, stumbling on unfamiliar terrain.
The blindfold is removed, and as your eyes adjust to the dim light, you realize that you're in the heart of SALAX. The planetâs cold and oppressive atmosphere is suffocating, and a sense of foreboding washes over you.
Dokyeom, still bound and disoriented, is by your side, and you exchange a glance that speaks volumesâfear, uncertainty, and the grim realization that you've been brought into the heart of a malevolent force.
Gathered around you are a group of armed figures, their faces obscured by masks and shadows. They remain silent, their intentions unclear, as they usher you both forward, deeper into the labyrinthine alleys of SALAX.
The city's eerie ambience intensifies, and you can't help but wonder what fate awaits you and Dokyeom in this dystopian realm. As you're led further into the heart of the unknown, the sense of peril deepens, and the need for a plan to escape this grim fate becomes all-consuming.Â
In the distant, dystopian future, amidst the cold and unforgiving landscape of a city known as SALAX, there exists a name that strikes fear into the hearts of all who dare to speak itâAlastor, the malevolent ruler of this desolate realm.
With a visage shrouded in shadows and a presence that radiates malevolence, Alastor is a figure cloaked in mystery and darkness. His iron grip on SALAX is unyielding, and his dominion extends far beyond the cityâs crumbling walls. He is a tyrant of unparalleled cruelty, ruling through fear, manipulation, and an insatiable thirst for power.
The tales of Alastorâs ruthless reign are whispered in hushed tones, passed down from generation to generation. His rule is marked by oppression, surveillance, and merciless enforcers who carry out his every command without question. In his quest for dominance, he has left a trail of broken lives and shattered dreams in his wake.
Alastorâs origins remain closely guarded, hidden behind lies and deception. Some say he was once a brilliant scientist, while others claim he emerged from the depths of the cityâs darkest nightmares. Regardless of his past, his present is a reign of terror that leaves no room for hope or resistance.
As the ruler of SALAX, Alastor commands a vast network of spies, informants, and ruthless enforcers, all dedicated to maintaining his oppressive regime. His fortress-like palace, situated at the cityâs heart, symbolises his absolute authority. In this place, he broods over his dark ambitions and plots his next move to tighten his grip on the cityâs inhabitants.
Alastorâs name is synonymous with cruelty and malevolence, a name that sends shivers down the spines of those who dare utter it. In the grim, futuristic world of SALAX, he is the embodiment of evil, a shadowy figure who rules with an iron fist and whose presence casts a long, foreboding shadow over all who dwell within his domain.
You stand before a council of stern-faced individuals, their collective disapproval palpable. The room is tense, and your heart beats heavily as you confront the consequences of your failure. The weight of their anger bears down on you, and you know that there is no escaping the harsh judgment about to be passed.
One of the council members opens his mouth to address you, his expression a mask of disappointment and anger and addresses you with a voice that cuts through the silence like a blade. âY/N, you were entrusted with a vital task and failed us miserably.â
Your voice quivers as you attempt to offer an apology. âI... I didnât mean for this to happen. It was an honest mistake.â
But the council members are unforgiving, their faces etched with anger and frustration. One of them, an imposing figure with a voice like thunder, bellows.
âHonest mistake or not, your failure has put us all at risk. We canât afford such incompetence.â
The atmosphere in the room grows more hostile with each passing moment. Accusations fly, and your attempts at explaining the circumstances of your failure fall on deaf ears. The decision is made swiftly and decisively.
One of the council members, their voice filled with righteous anger, proclaims.
âY/N, you have betrayed our trust and jeopardised our mission. You are hereby banished from our ranks.â
The words hang in the air like a death sentence, and you feel a profound sense of despair wash over you. The consequences of your actions have led to your expulsion, and there is no way to argue your way out of it.
Alastor, his gaze filled with disappointment, approaches you with a heavy heart.
âY/N,â he says, his voice laced with regret. âI never thought I would see this day. You were once a valued team member, but your failure has left us no choice.â
âPlease let me do anything else. Please spare him,â you begged.Â
âOh, you still donât understand, do you? You fell in love with him, gave him your body and love, and as a result, you are no longer of any use to us. You are done,â Alastar spoke, his words terrifying you further.Â
âDonât hurt him,â you whimpered.Â
âHeâll be hurt, donât you worry. He can watch the life be taken out of you. That will be his punishment.â
Tears well up in your eyes as you realise the gravity of your mistake. You had let down not only those who had trusted you but also yourself. The sense of shame and regret is overwhelming.
As you are escorted out of the room, the weight of your banishment settles upon you like a heavy shroud. You are left to face the consequences of your failure alone, the anger and disappointment of those you once considered allies echoing in your ears.
In the days that follow, you wander, a sense of purposelessness consuming you. The world outside is harsh and unforgiving, and you are left to bear the burden of your mistakes.
As you reflect on the consequences of your actions, you canât help but wonder if there will ever be a way to make amends for your failure. The road ahead is uncertain, and the path to redemption, if it exists at all, seems long and arduous.
But one thing is clearâyou must carry the weight of your punishment and learn from your failure, for it is only through facing the consequences of your actions that you can hope to find a way to redeem yourself in the eyes of those you have let down.
In the dimly lit room, the air felt heavy with anguish and despair. You and Dokyeom, bound and helpless, found yourselves in a nightmarish scenario you could never have imagined. A sinister figure, cloaked in shadows, loomed over you both, his intentions cruel and heartless.
Dokyeom watched you helplessly as you lay on the cold, unforgiving floor, your breaths shallow and laboured. The faint flicker of a dying candle cast eerie, shifting shadows on your face, emphasising the pallor of your skin.
Tears welled in your eyes as you whispered words of comfort, your voice trembling with grief. Dokyeomâs eyes met yours, filled with profound sadness and an unspoken understanding of the impending tragedy.
âAny final words?â The sinister figure asked mockingly.
âIn another universe, weâll find each other again,â you breathed out, and Dokyeom let out a string of pleas, begging for mercy.
The sinister figure, unmoved by Dokyeomâs pleas, revealed a cruel smile as he continued his evil act. Time seemed to slow as Dokyeom was forced to witness life slowly ebb away from youâthe person he cherished most. Every passing moment felt like an eternity of heartache.
The room seemed to close in around you as the final breaths escaped your loverâs lips, leaving a haunting silence in their wake. Once filled with love and life, their eyes stared vacantly into the abyss.
In that agonising moment, part of you died with them, and the world became darker and colder. The anguish and helplessness etched into your memory would forever haunt your soul, a scar that time could never fully heal.
The End
Earth: Present DayÂ
âNew here, huh?â The man before you asked, and you smiled at him.Â
âUh, yeah. I just moved to this town for a fresh start,â you replied unsurely, making the man smile at you.Â
âWhy donât you sit next to that gentleman over there? You both look rather lost. Let me grab a few things, and Iâll sort you both out,â he instructed, and you mumbled a âyesâ and made your way to another lost-looking soul.Â
âSorry, is this seat taken?â You asked the stranger. He looked up at you. He had a kind face, warm eyes, and a loving smile. But something about this man was familiar like you had met him once in a dream, in a different life. It makes your heart race and mind run wild with possibilities. You knew him. You just didnât know how.Â
âNope, have a seat,â he offered kindly.Â
âSo youâre also lost in a new town, huh?â He asked, and you nodded.Â
âYeah, just, I guess, sorted landed on my ass,â you joked, making him laugh and clap his hands.Â
âSame, hey, weâre both lost. I guess we could be friends? I promise you, I wonât bite,âÂ
âI donât see why not,â you responded.Â
âIâm Y/N,â you introduced, holding your hand to him.Â
âSounds familiar for some reason,â the stranger responded.Â
âFunny, I wanted to say the same to you,â you admitted.Â
âIâm Seokmin,â he said, shaking your hand.Â
âI wish the name rang a bell, but maybe Iâm going crazy,â you added, making him smile.Â
âMaybe in another universe, we once knew each other?â Seokmin offered.Â
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I'm seventeen and I'm crazy. My uncle says the two always go together. When people ask your age, he said, always say seventeen and insane.
Ray Bradbury, Fahrenheit 451 (Clarisse McClellan)
#ray bradbury#fahrenheit 451#clarisse mcclellan#guy montag#quotes about being seventeen#book quotes#bookish quotes#book quotations#funny book quotes#classic lit#classic books#sci fi#scifi#dystopian#page 5#personal fave
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SEVENTEEN SCI-FI COLLAB - 13 FICS FROM 13 AUTHORS COMING TO YOU ON SEPTEMBER 15TH
excerpt from my upcoming fic "Amalgamation" as a part of this awesome collab created and hosted by @idyllic-ghost!!!
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Do androids dream of electric sheep? Pray the Lord their souls to keep? Do they go gently into that good night? Hope to greet new morning light? To sleep, they say, perchance to dream â This is the soul of the human race To go until we've worn our seams To trip into folly, to fall from grace. So if circuits dream, if they dare to sleep, Will they then dream of electric sheep? -author unknown, found scribbled in the margins of a first-edition copy of âTo Program A Soul: An Introduction to Coding Automaton Personalitiesâ published twelve years after The Great Journey.
#savv writes#svtscificollab#sci-fi seventeen collab#both terrified and excited for this lmao#now i just have to actually Finish Writing It slkdjfklsj#:'D
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STAR TREK: PICARD - Recensione 3x03 âSeventeen Secondsâ
Nel terzo episodio della terza stagione di Star Trek: Picard assistiamo al ritorno di un vecchio e spietato nemico e a un tesissimo inseguimento, che culmina in uno scenario incerto...
RECENSIONE 3x03
#star trek picard#3x03#seventeen seconds#star trek#sci-fi#drama#patrick stewart#jonathan frakes#michael dorn#jeri ryan#michelle hurd#amanda plummer#ed speelers#recensione#LIAFF: WEEKLY REVIEW
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Pairing: AI!Dino x researcher!reader
Title: Light of My Life, Treasure of My Memories
A/N: It's finally here! I've been planning this fic since January and I finally get to post it!!! I hope that you can give it as much love as I have put into it
Synopsis: The life of a researcher is dull when every answer you seek is at the tip of your fingers. New technology may have brought us a comfortable life, but for you it was almost torture. There had to be something more. So when you got the opportunity to be a researcher for the cognitive sciences of Automatons, you took it. But what happens if the outcome isnât what you expected? What if these beings you call robots have life? How does one define the essence of life? More importantly, how could you stay objective when you were slowly falling in love with your test subject?
Genre: sci-fi, angst, fluff, right person wrong time
Warnings: gore, heavy topics, loss, imprisonment
Rating: PG 13
Word count: 16k
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100 years ago it was thought that the Earth, as we know it, would disintegrate. That the sun would implode and leave everything in darkness. Miraculously, it didnât. Due to some external force, human scientists still havenât agreed upon what it exactly was, none of the planets in our former solar system were ever destroyed. The Earth, along with the other planets, were pushed away from each other and ended up in different parts of the universe. Earth just happened to come to a solar system with alien life. At first, we were cautious, and people were prepared to fight. However, the aliens were welcoming to our planet. Those of us who didnât die from âThe Great Journeyâ or from trying to fight the aliens, were welcomed into the new solar system. Soon enough, we had integrated completely, and we received materials and assistance from our sister planets in exchange for human labor. What humans knew of technology was very limited, but with the resources of the aliens we created artificial life forms. We named these robots Automaton, and they served as workers when humans couldnât. Eventually, there was no need for human labor at all. To pay back for the help the aliens gave us, we used Automatons. With the extensive development of these robots, we eventually managed to create artificial sentient life. These Automatons were human-like in looks and had human consciousness, but they could not bleed and were stronger than we ever could be. At present, there are even different levels of Automatons. Level 3 robots are the workers, level 2 robots are the caretakers, and level 1 robots are the celebrities. The Automaton music group 53V3NT33N (SEVENTEEN) is made up of 13 members, all very talented, and all representing two human states of mind.
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âExamination of automaton number thirteen,â you speak into your recorder, âName: D1N0. Designated emotions: hope and despair.â
The clicking noise of the recorder made you stand up taller - a Pavlovian habit from years in your field. Every interview you had ever recorded, all of the voice notes you had ever taken, flashed before your eyes at the sound of that click. It reminded you of what you were about to get yourself into.Â
Looking in the mirror of the elevator, you began fixing subtle things about your appearance. Meeting an idol, even if he was an automaton, was nerve-wracking. These automatons were created and revamped to perfection. It was nothing like researching lower-level automatons. Level threeâs, and even twoâs, didnât have the same resources to stay so perfect. Interviewing and inspecting a level one automaton would essentially be like meeting a newly made robot - one without imperfections. Thatâs why you agreed to this job in the first place, even if it was repetitive busy work. You bounced on the heels of your feet, trying to find an outlet for the pitter-patter in your heart. The elevator dings and the doors open. Your smile fades when youâre met with the white room. A grayish, dull, white color. There was no personality, and barely any furniture despite the size of the room. The sight confused you; automaton or not, everyone you had interacted with throughout your studies had a home that reflected themselves. Nevertheless, you stepped inside - determined to find the robot that you had received a picture of. He was handsome, as most automata were - brown hair, warm and inviting eyes, but his smile was as dull as the room The lights were glaring, with an annoying blue hue - but the bright light made it easy to see the group of robots in the room.Â
âD1N0?â you called out.
One of the automatons present turned to you, responding with a shy nod. You recognized him from the photo. What captured your attention first, what stood out, was the mark between his collarbones. Some sort of device, in the shape of a diamond, seemed to be attached to his skin. This wasnât something you had seen in other automatons. You walked up to him with a professional smile and held out your hand to shake. He gave you a confused look before slowly putting out his hand as well as if he were unsure of what to do.
âPleasure to meet you, D1N0-â
âYou can say âDinoâ,â he interrupted.
âAlright,â you said and repeated, âItâs a pleasure to meet you, Dino. Iâll be doing some research with you. I wonât be too invasive, just going to ask you a few questions and run a few tests from time to time. Youâll be seeing me around for a while now.â
Dino nodded and turned his back to you, leaving you stunned.
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He was reserved around you. There was a big difference in how he spoke to you and how he spoke to the other members. When Dino was alone with the other automata, his smile was brighter and he conversed with a lot of hand movements. However, as soon as he knew he was being watched he would turn back to the reserved version of himself. No matter how much time you spent with him, you couldnât push down his walls. It was clear that he didnât trust you, but you couldnât figure out a reason as to why.
Dino was never a bother to anyone. He was the opposite. Always helpful, and always âhappyâ, and you would never catch him getting into a real fight with anyone. There was playful fighting within the group, but you never saw it get serious for him. He was the youngest but there was something about him that made him seem older. When he was with his group, he was spirited. However, when he was left alone his demeanor changed. You would watch him through a camera and frequently see him sit down in a corner of his room. He wasnât crying, or angrily mumbling to himself, he just seemed numb. There was no emotion in him, his form seemed lifeless. You couldnât find a way to bring it up in your interviews, but the image of him hugging his knees to his chest never left you.
Each interview was the same. You would ask him questions about the emotions he had during the week, ask him to evaluate what could have brought him to those emotions, and then end it with general questions. Every other week, you got to analyze his coding. You knew this wouldnât be a very interesting job, you were just supposed to find regularities in the automatonâs behavior. So, you didnât need to dig deeper than you had - but you wanted to.Â
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âWeekly check-up,â you said as you put the recorder on the table between you and Dino, âAre you ready?â
âYes,â he said quietly.
You pressed the record button and made sure that the light turned on before you looked at your notes. Dino was fidgeting with his hands. The very human response to nervousness didnât surprise you. After doing so much research with lower-level automatons, you came to understand that their actions were very human. Nevertheless, seeing Dino, an idol, being nervous seemed strange to you.
âHow have you been feeling this week?â you asked.
âWatched,â he answered bitterly.
â... right.â You took a deep breath and looked through your notes again. âDo you mind if I go off script?â
â... go for it.â His interest piqued ever so slightly, but he remained stoic.
You put away your notes and turned to him. The only way to get him to trust you was if you could make him feel less watched, is what you thought. So, you turned off your recorder and put it to the side. Youâd have to rely on your memory for this conversation.
âLetâs just talk,â you said, âI asked you how you are, now you get to ask me a question.â
Dino stared at you dumbfounded. It was clear that no human had ever treated him like this, and you could already feel yourself peel back the layers of his personality. Surely, there had to be more to him than hope and despair.
âWhatâs your job here? You said you were doing research but you never said what kind.â He leaned forward a little, letting his arms rest against the table.
âI have my degree in philosophy and cognition,â you admitted. âI donât get much use for the first part of my degree, my research is primarily focused on the second one. Iâm here to see how your âbrainâ works.â
âWhy donât you get to use the first part?â he asked quickly.
The question threw you off guard. You sat back in your seat, looking down at the table in front of you. Dinoâs hands were on the table, lying completely still on the surface. They werenât fidgeting anymore. His entire stature had changed, now leaning forward slightly - eager to hear your response. But you were stumped.
âThereâs just not a lot of job offers.â You put your hands right in front of his. âMost people donât need philosophy unless in a historical context.â
â... could you explain to me what it is?â
Dino didnât meet your eyes, and he started fidgeting again. You put one of your hands on top of his in a soothing manner. It was something that always worked with others, but Dino jumped at your touch. You had forgotten where you were for a moment and quickly gathered yourself after your act of emotion.
âMaybe another time. Is it not my turn to ask a question?â
The two of you went back to your normal interview style, Dino being slightly more comfortable to answer now.
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After that interview, you were taken aside by one of the managers. He took you to a closed room. It was dark, the only light coming from the slight gap in the door. You couldnât see his expression, but you had a feeling it was stern.
âWe ask you to avoid certain topics with D1N0 from now on,â he said in a cold tone, âWeâve had issues with this one before, so weâve made a list for you.â
You disliked how he referred to the automaton but decided not to speak on it. Instead, you accepted his list and walked out of the room. It was a yellow-stained white sheet of paper, the edges folded as if they had handed it around haphazardly. You wondered how they came to find out about your conversation with Dino when you hadnât even recorded it, and you made a mental note to check the room for cameras next time.
On the paper was a list of topics you needed to avoid. Anything about the Earth as it was before the âGreat Journeyâ, anything surrounding the topic of other planets, and any details on what youâre doing at the facilities were prohibited. The list continued, but you didnât bother reading the entire thing.Â
Even with this setback, you managed to build a rapport with Dino. The two of you discussed his emotions and he let you test his psychological responses to certain hypothetical events. As you kept talking to him, the more you came to understand him - but it also made you think that the research you were doing may be an invasion of his privacy. It never occurred to you before, but the automatons you were studying never agreed to be studied. It was a middle-man who had given you the OK, who had given you instructions of what to do, and you had never heard anything from the automatons themselves. You had managed to build a friendship with Dino, but he had still not agreed to your research. So if he hadnât agreed yet, did you have the right to do this at all? As a result of these thoughts, your work grew sloppy. You âforgotâ to record from time to time, and your notes were practically unreadable. Despite your efforts to hide this, Dino had started catching on.
âShouldnât you be recording this conversation?â he asked.
âAh. Right.â You reached for your recorder.
âYou didnât record our last check-up either,â he hummed.
â... I just took notes later. Itâs fine, Dino.â You turned on the recorder. âThere. Itâs on.â
Dino gave you a strange look, he seemed confused but somewhat relieved. The diamond-shaped shiny emblem between his collarbones caught your attention. He caught you looking and shifted his shirt to hide it. There was something he wasnât telling you about that, but you understood why - his managers were clearly always listening in, and you suspected it had something to do with that mark.
âAlright, letâs begin.â
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You never found a camera in the office, so you thought that there might be a hidden mic. However, no matter how much you looked you found nothing. In your small âofficeâ there werenât many places where one could hide a mic. It made you start growing weary of your situation. Everything was suspicious. So, the device between his collarbones became your next obsession. Whenever it was on display, your eyes would fall on it. There had to be something special about it - you had never seen a lower-level automaton with it before, but all of 53V3NT33N had them from what you had seen. Working in this place was draining you, for reasons that you never imagined.
You were sitting in the automataâs common area, which was currently empty due to them being away at an event, and waiting for Dino to come back. It was time for another interview. The pen kept slipping into your sweaty palm as you tried to write down some notes. Most of it was about the situation you found yourself in - the moral dilemma of your subject having zero autonomy. It was all scribbles, looking back on it. You could barely read your own handwriting. The pain in your stomach grew as time passed, and your tension headache stayed strong.Â
âHave you been waiting long?â Dinoâs voice pulled you out of your thoughts.
After a deep breath, you looked up at him with a strained smile, answering that you hadnât been waiting long at all and that you had just gotten there. No one else was behind him. He had to have been the first one to get back.Â
âYou look ill,â he said, âAre you alright?â
âIâm just fine, Dino. Do you want to start your next interview?â
The two of you walked to your office and sat down. The short walk there hadnât helped your sickly state, in fact, it only seemed to make it worse. Being closer to the office made you more anxious, and being even more anxious made your already stressed-out head even worse.
âAre you sure youâre okay?â Dino asked again.
âIâm just a little stressed.â You sighed.Â
âAbout me.â
âNo, not about you⊠Well, yes about you.â You put your things to the side and hid your face in your hands, âBut I canât talk about it, so donât ask.â
âI wonât,â he hummed. â... I used to be stressed about this too. I didnât like that you were prodding around in my thoughts.â
It was the first time you had ever heard him open up, and it felt horrible. You knew you had to report this, but you just didnât want to anymore.Â
âIâm sorry,â you whispered out.
As a sort of peace offering, he reached his hand out across the table. You put your hand in his and let out a breath that you didnât know you had been holding in. His hand was warm. Even though your hand was sweaty and cold, his gentle smile didnât change.Â
âItâll be okay,â he said.
âI hope so,â you hummed. âI donât want you to act any differently around me after this - donât feel sorry for me. Iâm still a person you can come to if you need help.â
âI know.â
The day everything changed was when one of the automata of 53V3NT33N, 5.C0UP5, had enough. You were in your small office, the room where you would conduct your interviews with Dino when you heard the alarm go off. At first, you were calm. You went to go out through the door, but it was locked. The ID card you had gotten didnât work. The panic started settling in, and you began throwing yourself at the door until your arm begged you to stop. The blaring sound of the alarm was never ending and it was making your already clammy hands slip on the door handle when you grabbed it. Your heart was beating quickly in your chest, and your throat began closing up. The alarm continued, and you were left with nothing. It was almost comical how quickly you gave up and gave in to your fears. With shaky legs, you went over to your table and crawled under it, pulling your knees up to your chest and putting your hands over your ears. It went on for what felt like hours, but you werenât counting. Something had happened, something bad enough that they needed to lock down the facility and sound the warning bell. You thought of the possibilities - a fire seemed unlikely, they wouldnât lock you in, but some sort of break-in could be the case. If so, you were happy to stay underneath your table with your hands over your ears. This thought, however, made your blood as cold as ice when a big thump sounded against your door. Someone was throwing themselves against it. You scrambled to your feet and went behind the table, taking a chair to hold up in front of you. When the door broke open, you shut your eyes tight.Â
âAre you okay?â
Although breathy, you recognized the voice. When you opened your eyes you were met with the soft brown eyes that had greeted you on your first day here. A million thoughts ran through your head; Why was he here? Did he have something to do with the alarm? How did he get here on his own?
âIâm fine.â Was all you could muster.
You stared at each other. Dino was holding the door open, and the alarm was still blaring, but every need to get out left your body when you saw him. You almost smiled. When the dust had settled, and you had found your words again, Dino motioned for you to follow him.
âWhatâs happened?â you asked as you walked around the table.
âWeâre escaping,â he admitted, âS.Coups he⊠I have no idea whatâs happened if Iâm being honest- I donât even know why I left Mingyu and Seungkwan⊠shit.â
âHey, itâs okay.â You reached out to him.
Instead of jumping at your touch, this time he invited it by closing the distance. Your hands fell on his arms, trying to soothe him with gentle motions of your thumbs. Dino didnât know what to do with his hands, flailing them around before finally letting them hang by his sides.
âJust tell me what we need to do.â
â... weâre escaping,â he repeated, âI want you to come with me.â
Your eyes widened, but for some reason, you didnât question it. After the months you had spent here, you had realized that your perspective of your work had been flawed. For some reason, you trust that Dino has your best interest at heart. You trust him. It was risky, but you were willing to go through with it. You grabbed Dinoâs hand and let him guide you out of the room. However, as soon as you left the sanctuary that was your office, your thoughts started racing - especially about the people who might be watching you at this very moment. You stopped Dino by pulling on his arm.
âWait.â Your eyes fell upon the mark on his clavicle, âWe need to get rid of that.â
Dinoâs hand fell upon the device, watching in horror as you went back to your office to grab something sharp. When you came back with a mechanical pen Dino quickly put his hand over his chest.
âItâll hurt. Iâve tried before.â
You looked at his hand that was covering the mark. It was slightly cupped as if he was trying to avoid touching it. You reached out to his hand, putting your hand on his wrist. Dinoâs arm tensed up under your touch.
âIf we donât do it I think theyâll find us,â you explained, âThis⊠thing is somehow linking you to your managers, we have to remove it.â
Dino lowered his arm with much hesitation, behind his eyes you could see him debating your words in his head. There was nothing else you could tell him to convince him, this would have to be his own choice. So when he took the mechanical pen from your hand, you tried to not let out a very obvious breath of relief.
âCould I just⊠crack it?â he asked softly.
The look in his eye, combined with his shaky voice, made you give in almost too easily - Dino could probably convince you to do anything at this point. So, even though you knew it was a bad idea - you took the chance.
â... weâll risk it.â
You watched him feel for the device on his clavicle, making sure that he knew where to aim. Dino was a decapitated rabbit, pushed to the side of the asphalt, and you couldnât pull your eyes away from the scene. No blood spurted when he started cracking it, but his soft groans and sobs still reminded you of a slaughter. His stabs at himself were relentless, to the point where you had to physically restrain him once you saw the low light of the device go out. You got his hands away from his chest and put yourself between him and the pen - hugging him as if he would disappear if you let go. Dinoâs body went limp. He let go of the pen and dropped it on the floor. You didnât bother picking it up. Instead, you maneuvered to his side and took one of his arms around your shoulders for him to walk.Â
âIf Iâm right weâll run into guards soonâŠâ you mumbled, mostly to yourself. âYou need to cover up the.. thing. Iâm going to try something.â
Reaching the door to the last building before the exit, you began preparing yourself to pull off the most important lie you would ever tell. You made sure that Dino could stand on his own before you opened it. On the other side, you found a guard waiting for you.
âAuthorization?â he asked.
You showed him your card.
âAnd what are you doing with D1N0?â he asked while looking at your card.
âI caught him trying to escape, Iâm bringing him to the back while the managers sort out the issue.â You grabbed Dinoâs wrist. âIâm in charge of him as a researcher. I know his behavior better than anyone, I know how to handle it.â
âIâm not questioning your capabilities.â The guard handed you your card back. âThereâs a room a bit further down the hall to your right, a laundry room. Iâll come get the two of you when the situation has died down. Thereâs a manual lock, so make sure to lock the door behind you.â
You were surprised at how easy it was to pass, but you couldnât think of it further when you finally got past the guard. The only objective was to get out. Dino stumbled behind you as you pulled on his arm to hurry up. The corridor seemed endless, but it wasnât long before you had made it to your destination. When you reached the door with the sign âLAUNDRYâ on it, you stepped inside and locked the door behind you as the guard had said. It was almost halfway to the exit door. However, you couldnât leave the room without causing suspicion. You turned to Dino, who had slumped against a few bags of laundry. Inside the laundry room, the sound of the alarm wasnât as loud as it was outside. A mix of the humming sound of the washing machines and the well-isolated walls created a barrier around you. You looked around the room, trying to find anything to help your escape.
âWindows,â you whispered to yourself.
Up high on the wall were barred windows. The bars were metal but were small enough that you might be able to see through them with something sharp. You began climbing on the washing machines to get to the windows, and when shaking the bars you noted that they werenât anchored well enough.
âDino, can you help me?â
When you didnât get a response, you looked behind you to see the automaton passed out on the floor. You hadnât even considered that he could still be in pain, but seeing him unconscious sprung you into action. After climbing down from the machines, you propped Dino up against the bags of laundry. In any other setting, you wouldâve been freaking out - but the adrenaline of being so close to freedom kept you alert.Â
âYou have to wake up, Dino. Come on,â you mumbled as you tried to bring him back to consciousness by lightly shaking him.
The only response you got was a flutter of his eyes and a hum. You sat down beside him in defeat. He was too weak, at this moment, to help you with the bars anyway. Moreover, how were you going to get past security looking the way you did? It was useless. Dino would have to go back to captivity, and youâd be found out for trying to help him escape.
âI thought you were selling me out beforeâŠâ You heard Dino whisper from beside you.
âIâm not evil,â you replied and scoffed at the thought. âBut I donât think it mattered anyway.â
Dino fell silent, and you almost thought he had gone unconscious again until he moved. It was a slow movement toward the wall, right by the edge of one of the machines where the bags of laundry were lying. You got up and crawled up next to him. He was fidgeting with wires.
âWhat are you doing?â
âIâm trying to electrocute myself,â he said as if it were obvious.
You quickly pulled his hand away from the wires by his wrist. He glared at you and strained against your grip.
âDo you have some sort of death wish? You canât escape so now you have to kill yourself?â
âI wonât die.â He sighed and shuffled closer to the wires. âIâll get a jolt of energy. Iâve done it before, during concerts⊠not with a washing machine, of course, but itâll do.â
âThese arenât grounded, you know? Youâll get full voltage,â you argued.
âYouâre forgetting Iâm not human.â
His words, and your desperation, made you let go of him. However, you couldnât watch while he actively tried to hurt himself, so you turned away from him. Your eyes fell on a pile of clothes. Guard uniforms. While Dino kept trying to electrocute himself, you gathered clothing articles that you thought might fit you and the automaton - putting your new clothes on once you had found everything you needed. The uniforms were gray, and in the same style as other guard uniforms from other facilities - meaning that you could sneak around the city and be seen as two guards going home from work.
A loud snapping sound, followed by a shriek, woke you up from your thoughts. You turned to see Dino standing up - seemingly fine, but with a burn mark reaching from his pointer finger, up his arm.Â
âWhat do you need me to do?â he piped.
You couldnât find any words, deciding to just hand him his clothes instead. Dino pulled the overalls on without any problems, although you noticed that he favored using the hand without the burn mark. When he had zipped himself up and put on his cap, he turned to you for further instructions.Â
âWe donât have all day,â he said when you didnât answer.
â... are you alright?â
âDonât worry about it. This energy wonât last for that long, so if you want to make it count youâll tell me what you need done.â
The cold air hit your lungs as you were gasping for air after falling out of the window. Your escape wasnât graceful by any means, but you had made it to the other side of the wall. Dino, who had just climbed out right after you, helped you back on your feet. The two of you made haste across the yard, to the gate. The other guards must have been kept busy because there was no one around to check your IDs. But once you had made it past the gate, you still couldnât relax. There was always a chance of someone recognizing you. So you went to the only place you could consider a safe haven.Â
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Your apartment was small and cramped with books and other things you had collected over the years, but it was a good enough hideout. It was on the outskirts of the city and was hidden between two tall buildings. Dino crashed as soon as he got through the door. His energy had started fading after walking for a while, but he had tried his best to work through the pain - you could tell from the way he would grip your shoulder for balance now and then. You hooked your arms under his armpits and tried to pull him towards your bed, but you only managed to get him halfway through the room. The once cramped and tiny apartment had turned into a grand hall, the bed seeming further away than it was. With a sigh of defeat, you let him stay on the floor and brought the pillows and blankets to him. After making sure he was as comfortable as possible, you went over to your kitchenette and wet a towel to clean up his hand. You hadnât gotten a good look at his hand yet, he had kept it in his pocket this entire time, and you began feeling nervous at the thought of what gore you might find. But when you pulled up the sleeve of his jacket, you saw that his synthetic skin had mostly healed. His fingertips were charred, but using the wet towel got some of the soot off. The areas that hadnât healed had a purple hue, looking sort of like a bruise. While you kept cleaning up his hand and arm, Dino started gaining consciousness again and began mumbling something incoherent.
âDonât talk,â you said.
â... charge,â he muttered.
As it processed in your brain what he needed, you stood up and rummaged through your things. In the company facility, the idolsâ beds were created to also function as chargers. An automaton has to recharge, but these contraptions were unlike anything you had seen. Lower-level automata have other devices, some of which you had collected after your many years of working with them. You found a gadget that looked like a blood pressure monitor, with an arm-cuff made of metal. The cuff opened easily, only being held together by a magnet. You clasped it around his arm and turned on the device, a small blue light showing up on the monitor. Dino let out a breath of relief.
âAre you alright?â you asked, but never got a response.
The light from the ceiling lamp flickered and you looked around yourself. The apartment was dusty since you had been living at the company facility during your research. Everything was as you had left it. It only made Dino stick out more. This stranger didnât fit in your usual routine. You hadnât spent much time just looking at him before. Now that there was nothing else to distract you, you spent time studying his features. He was beautiful, but you knew that. Each of his features fit together harmoniously - his soft and rounded eyebrows, his pouty lips with the soft cupid's bow, it all contrasted so heavily with his strong gaze. After sitting still for so long, just looking at him, you finally started relaxing. Your shoulders slumped and you rubbed your eyes gently. Your bones felt heavy; you couldnât control your body anymore, letting exhaustion take over and laying your head on his chest. Dino was mostly covered by a blanket but you could still feel his body warmth. It soothed you and you fell asleep almost immediately.
You woke up with a stiff neck that morning. Dino still wasnât moving, but the light on your device indicated that he was still charging. He looked peaceful and relaxed, the kind of expression youâd only see on him if he was with his teammates. Getting up from your place on the floor, you moved over to your kitchenette. There were still a few edible items in your cupboard, mostly dried fruits. After making sure your stomach wasnât empty, you returned to helping Dino. The skin on his hand still looked mostly healed, so you spent your time making him comfortable - moving the pillow under his head and tucking him in better. As you were moving your hand away from his chest, you remembered the device between his collarbones. You went to look at it, pulling down the collar of his shirt. There were a few pieces of the device missing but most of it was still intact, just cracked. When you went to touch it, Dinoâs hand grabbed your wrist. You hadnât noticed that he had opened his eyes, but he was looking right at you.Â
âDonât touch it,â he said.
He only let go of you when he felt you retract your hand. You wanted to apologize but kept your mouth shut. There were no words that your brain could voice. Your shoulders slumped and you put your head in your hands. Everything began crashing down around you - everything that you had built for yourself was about to be ruined. What were you doing?
âIâll get out of here once Iâve fully recovered,â Dino said, as if he could read your mind, âYou can tell people that I forced you to help me or something, you donât have to go down with me.â
He was offering you a way out. You looked up from behind your hands. Dinoâs eyes were closed again. Even if you told people that you were forced to help him, you wouldnât go without punishment. You could contact the people you knew in Phylaca, and maybe warn them that you needed their help beforehand. Letting him leave on his own would mean that you could start to make your life normal again.
âYou can stay with me if you want.â You hear yourself speak, but you canât process your action or its meaning.
Dino stayed quiet, and it made you restless. Standing up, you walked over to one of your bookshelves - pulling out a few books and putting them on the floor. Each of the books was covered in a layer of dust but otherwise, there were no markings of age on the covers. The shiny books created a wall in front of a small hatch in the wall. When you pulled on the wall opened sideways, revealing a small room filled with more books. These books were worn, tucked close together to fit as many as possible but still leave room for a crawlspace.
âWhatâs that?â
Dino had sat up, the secret room catching his attention. He stood up and walked over next to you, letting his charger hang by his side.
âItâs my real library,â you said and turned to him, âThis is where I keep the important stuff. I know you had questions that you couldnât ask back there⊠but you can now. You can stay and we can find- I can help you find your answer.â
He stayed quiet for a while, looking up at the ceiling light.Â
âMy answer,â he repeated to himself.
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Dino spent most of the time resting. When he wasnât resting, he would walk around as much as he could in your small apartment. You didnât speak much to each other, but you caught him looking over at the hatch in the wall frequently. Now that you didnât have a script to follow, you had no idea how to talk to the automaton. All you could do was read, sleep, and run short errands. It was when you got back from one of those errands, grocery shopping, that you found him in front of the hatch. He was trying to get it open.
âDo you want to read something?â you asked.
He looked like a deer in headlights when he realized you were there. Backing up from the wall, he muttered a short apology. You walked over to the hatch and pulled it open, crawling into the small space.
âWhat do you want to read?â
âAnything.â
You smiled at his eagerness and picked out a few books. When jumping out of the crawlspace, you hadnât expected to end up so close to him. You played it off by pushing the books into his chest and quickly backing away - trying your best to hide your sudden fluster. Spending so much time with Dino in an enclosed space had made you very aware of his looks. His broad shoulders contrasted with the soft curve of his waist, and his delicate yet sharp facial structure - his entire being was so easy to be enthralled by.
âTake these. I can help you with anything you donât understand.â You turned around and closed the secret door.
When you turned back to Dino he was still just standing there, watching you. It looked like he wanted to say something but was unsure of how to express it. You approached him, picking up one of the books, and opening it.
âThese are from my parents,â you explained, âI have more but not here⊠and this one is about the meaning of life- maybe we should start with something a little more lighthearted.â
You picked up the book under that one. Aesthetics.
âLetâs start with this one, I think youâll like it.â
The two of you settled down on your bed next to one another. Dino seemed more relieved now that the book was in your hands, so you started reading to him.Â
Every time you read to him, he would put his head on your shoulder - trying to follow along in the text. From time to time, heâd ask questions and youâd do your best to answer. Youâd read together at least once a day. Until those readings turned into lectures. It was fun being back in your academic element, but it surprised you just how clueless this all-knowing automaton was. The automata were supposed to know everything, yet he seemed surprised by everything that you told him about Earth as it was before - the questions that used to irk the philosophers of that time, he had never heard of.Â
The first time you were almost caught was when you were at home, where you were supposed to feel safe. You didnât think much of it when you got a call from your former boss. A few days ago you had sent in your resignation, with the reason for your departure being the traumatic event of the escape. You assumed he wanted to talk about your time at the facility, and maybe if you could know where Dino might be - questions which you had already thought of answers to. But after exchanging pleasantries came an announcement which you were far from ready for.
âI know that you sent in your resignation, so Iâm sending someone over to collect any data that you may have. D1N0 and some of the others have still not been found, so weâre hoping that your research might help us.â
âSomeoneâs coming here?â You looked over at Dino, who was staring at you wide-eyed.
âYes, in just a few minutes. We donât want to intrude, but we need whatever data you might have brought with you.â
âSir, I didnât take anything home with me-â
âWeâd still like to⊠check.â
The CEOâs change of tone made you put two and two together. They were going to check if Dino was with you or not.
âOf course, sir. Whatever you need.â
He hung up and you immediately started panicking. Without saying a word, you started putting away any illegal books and the uniforms you had stolen into the crawl space. âWhat are you doing? What did he say?â Dino asked, referring to the CEO.
âYou need to get the fuck in there,â you hissed out, âSomeoneâs coming over here, I donât know when-â
There was a frisk knock at the door. Your body froze and your eyes widened. It was as if every moment of your life flashed before your eyes. It was only the second knock at the door that startled you awake.
âGet in,â you whispered to him.
Dino crawled in and sat down as comfortably as he could, and you closed the door behind him. Any trace of your illegal activities was hidden away safely, and you did your best to cover the wall as naturally as you could. There was another knock on the door.
âIâm coming, just-... Hold on!â
The âinspectionâ of your things went by quickly. You hadnât lied when you said that you didnât bring anything from the facility - if you didnât count those uniforms and an entire fucking automaton. So the worker never found anything, even though they ruined your place. When they left, you made your way over to the secret door again.
âGet your things, weâre leaving,â you said as you opened the door to the crawl space.
âWhat?â
âWeâre leaving, we have to move now!â You ushered Dino to get out.
While Dino was gathering a few things - a charger, a few clothes, and a backpack to carry it all in. After grabbing a few necessities, the two of you were out the door. Dino hid under a large hoodie and a cap, and you decided to do the same. Adrenaline was pumping through your chest as you ran down the stairs, almost forgetting to lock your apartment door behind you.Â
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You and Dino traveled incognito. The underground metro system helped you stay in the shadows and avoid the amount of guards youâd usually see above ground. However, you knew you were never really safe. Not until you reach your destination. It took half a dayâs train ride, and the other half walking off the road to reach where you needed to be. Dino didnât say much. He was way too busy just looking at everything - it was clear that he had never been in nature before. While it was rare to see large fields and thick woods completely undisturbed on Earth, there were a few spots just like this. The big field you had to cross to get to the woods was usually a walk you dreaded, but with Dino with you, it felt more like a pleasant promenade. He was almost skipping through the grass, happily touching everything he could, and even picking a few flowers here and there. There werenât many, seeing as it was so cold outside, so his bouquet was mostly weeds. But it made him happy.Â
Before you reached the woods you stopped to remove the last few pieces of Dinoâs tracker - which was rather unprofessionally done with a pair of old tweezers that you found in the bottom of your back. The device was attached to him with strings that looked like nerve endings. Even though you thought the painful thing was long over, Dino had to bite a piece of fabric to keep him from ruining his teeth. No matter how careful you were, you couldnât stop his pain. You buried the pieces in the ground once it was over, hoping that no one would come across the remains. After covering up the wound, Dino stood back up and took a deep breath.Â
âThis is like a new beginning, isnât it?â he mumbled.
âIf thatâs what you want.â You patted the ground where you had buried the pieces.
âIt is,â he said.
You looked up at him and smiled. He was fidgeting with the flowers that he had just picked. A cold breeze blew past the two of you. After you had gotten back up, Dino crouched down and put the flowers over the patch of dirt. When he got back up, there was something in his eyes that you couldnât understand - a sort of acceptance mixed with sorrow. He was leaving his entire life behind, the only family he had ever known.Â
âWe could try finding them again,â you whispered.
âI know Iâll see them again. Someday.â Dino looked over the field he had just walked across. âBut Iâm ready to live now.â
âLetâs go.â You reached out your hand for him to hold.
The forest was dense, with tower-like trees growing where they pleased - creating a natural labyrinth that was easy to get lost in. Unless you knew the woods. You held Dinoâs hand as you walked over roots and rocks, avoiding anything that might leave you lying face-first on the ground. Even though most of the leaves were gone, it was hard to see the sky through all the trees. So you kept your eyes focused on your goal, and all of the walking became worth it when you reached the small cottage. A small stone building with overgrown ivy all over the walls - it looked like it was falling apart, but you still felt relief at the sight.Â
âItâll need some work done,â you said, âBut itâs better than getting captured and being sent to Phylaca.â
Saying the name of the planet sent a chill down your spine - as if you put a curse upon yourself by uttering the word. Phylaca was an unofficial death sentence. You had done research there before, and even then you could feel your energy being drained by the place - your only light at the end of the tunnel was the people you worked with.
âItâs pretty,â Dino hummed, bringing you back to reality.
You walked over to the small pot in front of the door and looked under it. The key was still there. It was difficult to get the key in the lock, and you had to jiggle the handle around to get the door to even move. When you opened the door, the smell of mold and dust hit you. The cabin was small and the wooden floors were creaky - just as you had remembered it. Walking into the small entry hall, you were hit with a wave of nostalgia. You remembered running across the floor, slipping around as your father chased you - laughing loudly and not being scared that someone would hear. After taking off your shoes you walked into the living room. Everything was covered in white sheets, which you were quick to start ripping down. Moth-eaten blankets were laid on the backs of armchairs, waiting for you to wrap them around your shoulders when the cold would start creeping in through the walls. Nothing compared to the feeling you got sitting on the couch with your parents as a kid, watching the flames dance in the fireplace while you huddled together under these blankets. You kept walking through the cabin, getting to the small kitchen. There you put your backpack, right by the pantry so that youâd remember to unload the food you had brought. In that kitchen, there had been loud music playing, and your parents forgot whatever they were cooking to dance together. Love was the main ingredient of every dish you ate in this place. Dino put his bag down next to yours, clearly confused about his place in this house. He didnât fit in all of these memories, but youâd make sure to find room for him.
âWe should take a look at what our bedroom situation is,â you said, âI donât think either of us will fit in my old bed, but we can make do. Then I can show you my parentsâ library.â
â... did you spend a lot of time here?â he asked.
His question brought back even more memories, those that you had pushed to the back of your mind. You motioned for him to follow you over to the dinner table. The wood of the chairs creaked under your weight, screeching in surprise after years of not being in use. You felt the cold tabletop under your palms, following the small cracks on its surface with your fingertips.Â
âWe used to come here every summer,â you explained, âThen⊠things happened, and we spent a few years here together. Me and my parents. It was only when I got to a certain age that we moved- I canât remember their reasoning, but they thought it was for the best that we left.â
Dino looked around, taking in his surroundings. He was quiet - maybe he was unsure of what to say, or he didnât find it necessary to reply. You watched him explore your childhood home from his place on an old stool.
âThey left most of their belongings here,â you continued, âI think they knew that they wouldnât need them once they left.â
âWhat happened to them?â
â... Iâm not sure.â You thought about it for a while, tracing back your steps from the moment you knew that you had lost them. âI was old enough to take care of myself at that point. I was living on my own, studying. At a certain point, I just stopped hearing from them. Their apartment was no longer theirs, someone else had moved in there. They were erased. Forgotten.â
The warmth of Dinoâs hand was comforting on top of your hand. He wasnât good with words, and you knew that. However, he could still comfort you. You knew that he was there for you - he was the only one there for you right now. He smiled at you, and you returned the gesture before standing up.
âThatâs enough about me.â You walked around the table. âLetâs go find some somewhat whole bedsheets.â
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Time passed quickly as you cleaned the cabin. The sun had already started setting when you got there, so it was pitch black outside by the time you had fixed the place up. There was still much to be done, but you had time for that later. Both of you were tired and ready for sleep. The day had been chilly, and it only got worse as the sun went down. You had lit candles to see where you were going, but they didnât make you any warmer. Chills like electric shocks attacked you when you laid down in bed, even though you were wearing thick layers. All you could do was shudder and wait for the warmth to come. Dino got in next to you, although reluctantly. Your old bed was made for a child, and could probably fit one person - if that person wanted to risk falling through the bedframe in the middle of the night. The wood was old and worn out. This was your only option. It was annoying at first, but you were thankful for it as soon as you realized how warm Dino was.
âAre you not cold?â you asked him in a whisper.
âNot really,â he answered in the same hushed tone, âAre you cold?â
You nodded, scared that your teeth would chatter if you tried to talk. While you couldnât see his face in the dark, you could tell that Dino was going over something in his thoughts. A few seconds later, he opened his arms for you. Without question, you crawled into his arms. He was warm, making you melt into him.Â
âWhy are you so warm?â you mumbled against his shirt.
Dino didnât answer, but you werenât looking for an answer anyway. Your arms wrapped around his frame, pulling him even closer like he was a big teddy bear.
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That night, Dino didnât sleep. Truthfully, he didnât need to - he just had to charge. But you had offered him a place to lay down anyway, which he was thankful for. And he tried to close his eyes and float away into unconsciousness, but he couldnât. Usually, he would have no trouble drifting off to a sleep-like state while charging, but he couldnât when you were so close. He could tell when you had fallen asleep, your body going completely limp in his arms. Although it felt weird, he rubbed soft circles on your back with his palm. When he closed his eyes, it felt like everything else was gone. It was just you and him amid nothing. No time, no space, just you in his arms. He liked that feeling - too much, he thought. It was the first time he had ever experienced this kind of contact. And although the position he was in was uncomfortable, he didnât dare move. He listened to your soft breaths, he could feel the air against his neck. From time to time you would move in your sleep; moving your head ever so slightly, putting one of your legs on top of his, and trying to hold him even tighter. Dino had felt special before. Special in the sense that millions of people wanted to watch him perform on a stage. Seeing them sing, or even dance, along to the music always made him feel special. This was just a different kind of special, it was personal. Happy couldnât begin to describe his state of mind. He was free.
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That morning you woke up in almost the exact position that you had fallen asleep in. Dinoâs eyes were still closed so you tried to move away carefully to not wake him, but his hands gripped your shirt tightly.
âAre you awake?â you whispered.
Dinoâs eyes flew open as he realized that you hadnât just been moving in your sleep again. His grip on your shirt loosened, but you didnât leave just yet.
âGood morning.â You shuffled around a bit to get more comfortable.
âGood morning,â Dino mumbled back.
He looked anywhere but into your eyes. Seeing him so nervous, and even embarrassed, almost made you laugh - but you held it in for his sake. You put a reassuring hand on his shoulder, finally getting him to look you in the eye.Â
âIs the charger still working?â you asked.
âYes, itâs working fine,â he answered rather formally.
âThatâs good.â You nodded and sat up. âWe should start up our cleaning project again, thereâs lots to get done. Then, if we have time, weâll find something to read together. Maybe something fictional this time? I think weâve earned it.â
The two of you got to work right after you had something to eat. You dusted off everything, cleaned the floors, and moved things around to your liking. This wasnât your dream home, far from it. It didnât even have running water or electricity - you had to get water from the nearby river and light candles as soon as it got dark. But once you had finished cleaning, and everything was to your liking, you started seeing a new home in this cabin.
As promised, the two of you sat down to read at the end of your day. You were sitting on the couch, using the last bit of sun shining through the window as your lamp, with the book right between you. Instead of you reading out loud, the two of you were reading silently together. Whenever Dino had finished a page he would nod, signaling that it was okay for you to turn the page. You were at a part of the book where a couple is looking at their newborn child, trying to figure out a name for the baby. Dino had been looking at the same paragraph for a long time, not letting you turn the page.
âIs everything okay?â you whispered so as not to startle him.
â... do you think I can have a different name?â he asked.
You shifted in your seat, turning to face him. His eyes stayed on the same paragraph. Although your biggest light source would shortly disappear behind the horizon, you took your time to think about what he said. The importance of a name; itâs a form of identity, after all. If the only name Dino has ever known was given to him by those who made him miserable, a part of him must still feel that way. The way that his eyebrows were knitted close together as he read the same sentence over and over again made you think that must be the case.
âHave you been thinking of new names that youâd like to try?â you asked.
He turned a few pages in the book, looking at what the two of you had just read. When he found what he had been looking for, he pointed his finger right under the small text. Chan.
âWould this suit me?â
âI think it fits you perfectly, Chan.â
His face lit up when he looked back at you. You hadnât seen him smile like this before. It was a beautiful sight.Â
âI like the way you say that,â he said, âChan.â He tried out the feeling of the new name in his mouth and seemingly decided that he liked it.Â
A smile was practically forced upon your lips as he repeated his new name over and over again, trying to find every way he could pronounce it. He laughed, realizing the absurdity of what he was doing.
âYou have to say it again, I think Iâve forgotten what itâs supposed to sound like,â he said.
âChan.â
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Days passed and everything was perfectly still in the cabin. You and Chan would go on walks together in the forest, read as much as the sun allowed you - and try to keep going with the light of a flickering candle once it got dark. Whenever you were low on food, or when Chan needed a new charger, you had to walk to the nearest market. It was half a dayâs work, but it was worth it.
Every night you would sleep close to Chan, stealing his body warmth to protect yourself from the cold darkness until morning came. At first, you apologized for it. But when you did Chan would only hold you closer.Â
You started making new memories in the cabin. Certain traditions were kept. Like when you finally managed to find the old record player, you made sure that you and Chan would spend as much time as possible dancing in the kitchen together - something that he seemed to enjoy as well.Â
âYou need to keep your hand here.â You took his hand and put it on your waist. âAnd Iâll have my hand on your shoulder- youâre a dancer, you should know this.â
âI never had to do âcouple dancesâ-â He cut himself off with a laugh. âIâm definitely going to step on your feet.â
The kitchen was full of lit candles, your old record player doing its best to play the unknown tracks, and you were in the middle of it all. You didnât know the song, but that wouldnât stop you from dancing. Laughter filled the room as the two of you swayed around slightly off-beat. Chan was looking down at his feet the entire time, trying very hard not to step on your toes. You were too busy looking at him, studying the small lines on his face that came from his smile. His hand was gripping yours tightly, and he tried his best to keep his other hand on your waist while still leaving a respectable amount of space between you.
âAm I doing it right?â he asked.
âHere, let me helpâŠâ
You moved a little closer to him, getting a better grip on his shoulder, and your feet slotted perfectly between one another. Chanâs breath hitched in his throat when you put your head on his chest. But when he released the tension in his muscles, he rested his cheek against your temple. The two of you barely moved, except for your subtle swaying, but it was more than you could ask for.
âSo this is how itâs supposed to be?â he asked again.
âProbably not,â you hummed.
âIt feels right.â
âThatâs all that matters.â
The two of you stayed there, forgetting about the dinner that you were supposed to make for yourself. And even though you went to sleep a little later than usual, it didnât matter. It just meant that you could sleep in a little longer.
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New traditions were also created. Every time you would read together, it was the person who hadnât picked the book the previous time that got to choose your reading material. Even if that meant that either of you could be forced to read something that you didnât feel like reading at that time. Neither of you ever thought about just reading your separate books. It didnât feel right.
One night, after reading something particularly heavy, you noticed the thoughtful look in Chanâs eyes that he usually got whenever something was bothering him. He invited you to lay down next to him in bed, as he always did, and you accepted, as you always did. The candles were blown out, everything was pitch black. Your head was tucked into the crook of Chanâs neck, as his chin rested on the top of your head. Everything was quiet, but you knew that he wanted to get something off his chest.
âWe donât talk about what we think of the things we read about,â he said.
âNo, youâre right,â you admitted. âIs there something specific you want to talk about?â
His fingers started to mindlessly rub small patterns on your back, and you tried to picture what he was drawing. Closing your eyes, you tried to imagine that his fingers were pencils and that your back was a canvas. The forms you could see in your head were mostly shapeless - things that didnât look like anything. Yet they brought you a lot of emotion; the main one being peace.
âMostly just- and maybe this isnât about anything specific weâve read about,â he explained. âBut, are you content? Being here, I mean. Are you happy?â
âYes,â you answered without question.
âHow do you know?â
âItâs not something that you know.â Your hands had started mirroring his, drawing circles on his back. âYou feel it. Everything is calm, thereâs nothing to worry about. Thereâs no need to think about the future or the past - they exist, and you can acknowledge that, but they donât matter to you right now.â
â... all Iâve ever done is dread the future.â Chanâs voice was quiet, he reminded you of a helpless animal hiding from their predator.Â
âAnd now?â
âI still think about it⊠what might happen,â he admitted, âBut maybe not as much? And maybe a bit happier. Whenever I think about it, itâs in a nice way... Iâm worried too, but I think thatâs out of habit.â
The wind howled outside the window, and you could hear the house creak in the direction it was blowing. You hugged Chan a little tighter as if it would remind him to stay there with you and not drift away in thought. It was safer under the covers than it was in his mind, and you wanted so badly to protect him from it.
âWe should read something happier tomorrow,â you whispered.
The sad and worrying moments were transient and overshadowed by the happy and exciting ones. Every bad thing was an opportunity to make something good. You didnât have running water in the house, which meant that there was no way for you to shower. There was a river outside, but it was too cold outside to swim - is what the average person would think. Instead, you made a fire in the fireplace and one person watched while the other went out to their ice bath. Once that person was clean, you would switch. This ended with both of you on the floor, wrapped up in towels and blankets in front of the fireplace. At first, it felt exposed, but after living with Chan for a while it only felt natural. Youâd be lying if you said that you hadnât taken a peek at the automatonâs physique when he was outside taking off his shirt, but when you were cuddled close together it was different. It was a vulnerable moment between two individuals, and the number of clothes you had on didnât matter - you could let yourselves exist around one another.
âDid you put on more firewood after I had gone out?â Chan mumbled.
âOf course.â You turned and looked over at him. âWhat? Donât you trust that Iâd do my job?â
Chan turned to you, a soft but otherwise unreadable expression on his face. You glanced at his lips, only for a second, to see his gentle smile. His hair was still wet, hanging over his eyes in strands - making you want to reach up and push it back.
âI trust you.â He was so quiet that, if it hadnât been for the fact that he was so close, you could barely hear him over the crackling fire.
You leaned a little closer to him, your bare shoulder touching his, and you could feel his breath against your lips. When he moved his head your eyes fluttered shut, but you never felt his lips. He only leaned his forehead against yours, making you open your eyes again.Â
âI trust you too,â you hummed.
His smile widened and his body relaxed, resulting in him leaning back again. Your shoulders were no longer touching, and the spot where his skin had touched yours now felt freezing cold. There was not a single thought in your head. Chan had stolen all of your words. You leaned a bit further towards him, pressing your lips on his cheek.Â
âWhat was that?â Chan let out a soft laugh.
âA kiss,â you said.
âI know, but why?â He looked at you incredulously.
âI wanted to kiss you.â
Chan paused for a moment. Carefully thinking over your words before he moved to put his hand on the back of your head. He pressed a kiss on your forehead - smiling proudly afterward as if he had figured out something new he was allowed to do.
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The weeks you spent with Chan were the best you had experienced in a while. Whatever the two of you were doing together, you did it with smiles on your faces. It made you realize how deeply you felt for him. He was a bright light in your otherwise dark world- more than that. Past horrible experiences were like dust in the wind to you now - there was no reason to dwell on them when you were with Chan. Maybe it was the ignorance that came with that feeling that made you so confident.
âDo you remember when I first showed you my secret library back at the apartment?â you asked, and Chan mumbled out a yes. âWell, I think that book that I showed you then - the one that was a little too heavy for a first topic - would help you figure some things out⊠you know, about what you said the other night.â
â... are you saying we should go back there?â
âWell, no⊠and yes.â You sighed. âBy now they shouldâve stopped looking there, right? And we could go there, get the book, and maybe get all of the used chargers back to full battery. We canât keep buying new ones all the time.â
â... alright. I trust you.â
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The two of you ended up going. It was the same road that you took on your way to the cabin, but on your way back it felt as if time moved faster. Neither of you spoke much, but Chan never let go of your hand. When walking through the city, he would squeeze your hand from time to time - an involuntary reaction to any noise that startled him. You kept your brave face on for him, but you were terrified too. Maybe not in the same way that Chan was but terrified.
The apartment building looked the same, reminding you that it hadnât been that long. It felt like it had been - it felt like you had spent years with Chan in the cabin. The familiarity of it all made you question if this was a good idea at all. You shouldâve spent more time in the cabin before returning, but it was way too late to turn back. It would only be a quick trip anyway.
Inside your apartment also looked the same. It didnât seem like anyone had been in there, and if they had they made sure to clean up after them. You worked quickly, plugging all of the chargers you brought into outlets before you opened the door to the secret library. However, before you could find the book, you started hearing footsteps echo in the stairwell outside. There were many of them, and they were approaching fast. The cogs in your brain started spinning, and you almost immediately knew what you had to do.
Before Chan could process what was going on, you pushed him into the crawlspace and told him to keep quiet. You closed the door on him, leaving him in the dark. He could hear you shuffle around outside, putting back books onto the shelf and moving things around in the apartment. Chan was frozen in fear and shock, he didnât know what to do. So when he heard someone barge in, and heard you struggle and shout, he didnât do anything. He held his hand over his mouth to try to stop any sound that might force its way out. When it got quiet outside, he still sat there. Chan didnât dare move.
For hours, he sat in the crawlspace - and only got out when he noticed that he needed to charge. Everything was a mess. A chair was knocked over, the table had been moved across the room, and most of the books were ripped off from the shelves. The books that werenât on the floor fell when Chan pushed the door to the crawlspace open. The door was left open, and he went to push it close. The bed still looked the same, except for the pillows. One of them was left askew. After having watched you make the bed almost every morning, Chan instinctively knew that something was wrong. He didnât have time to feel or react to what happened, he had to act. He walked over to the bed and yanked away the sheets and the pillows. There was a note:
Contact âH.J.â. Digits in the drawer.
The note was poorly written, but he could still read it. It was a dicey move of you, but he was thankful for it. Chanâs thumb grazed the ink lightly, thoughts of your capture flooding his mind - but he had to shake them off. Putting down the small notebook, he began looking for another note. He started with the bedside table, but couldnât find anything. Chan turned the entire place upside down trying to find a note in one of the drawers - only growing more and more impatient. At some point, he sat down in defeat - putting his head in his hands. He was right where he had started, by the bed. Looking up at that first drawer, he could see something sticking out under the opened drawer. Slowly, he reached out for it. It was a note- no, a list. There were two columns on the paper, one with one or two letters and the other with numbers. Chanâs eyes scanned the note for âH.J.â, and he almost began crying when he finally saw it. As soon as he found your phone, he dialed the number. Chan hadnât used a phone like this before, but he figured it out rather quickly. It only took a few rings before someone picked up.
âWow. I havenât heard from you in a while.â The person said as they picked up.
âHello?â Chanâs voice was shaky.
â... who is this?â
âIâŠâ He took a deep breath. âIâm looking for Y/N, have you seen them?â
Chan knew the answer but couldnât think of anything else to say.
âUhm⊠no. Listen, if you donât tell me who you are then I canât answer any more questions.â The man sounded suspicious.
âIâm⊠you donât know me, okay? Iâm Chan, I know Y/N,â he explained, âIâm looking for them, I think theyâre being sent to you- they left a note, I donât know-â
âTheyâre what now?â
âWe were in their apartment- shit happened, okay? I donât have time for this. I need to know where they are. They left me a note with your number, can you help me?â
The line went quiet. Chan almost thought that the stranger had hung up until he started speaking again.
âIf Y/Nâs getting sent to me, itâs bad. What have they done? Why would they get sent to Phylaca?â
âPhylaca?â Chan swore under his breath, trying his best to keep his emotions under control.
âListen to me, man, I need you to focus. Iâm going to get you here but you have to follow my every step.â
Chan found out that the manâs name was Hongjoong - an old acquaintance of yours. He was a guard at Phylaca, working undercover to help those who wanted to desperately get off the planet. When Hongjoong found out that you were going to Phylaca, he immediately checked their databases to see if that was true. Once he had gotten confirmation, he told Chan what he needed to do.
When he had put on the stolen guard uniforms, finding them in the crawlspace where you had put them, he picked the notebook back up. Chan studied your handwriting, then put the small book in one of his pockets.Â
The next thing that Hongjoong had him do was more dangerous. Chan had to sneak onto an aircraft being sent to Phylaca, disguised as a worker. With Hongjoongâs many connections, he would luckily have help. Another guard named Jongho, who also worked undercover, would help him on board. Even though the steps seemed simple enough, it made Chan shake from nerves.Â
Chan met Jongho outside the boarding docks - a well-built, serious-looking, man. The stolen uniform fit well into the environment, but Jongho gave him a jacket to blend in even more. It was made out of a thick material, to survive the cold conditions while in space, and had the same gray color as the uniform. Its dull color fits in with the insipid interiors of the spacecraft. Jongho helped Chan get acquainted with the area, but other than that he didnât say much. Once everything was settled, Chan was able to stay in his room for the entire journey. Jongho had helped him register as an automaton maintenance worker, meaning that he wouldnât need to show himself in the cafeteria. At most, he needed to sweep the floors for a few hours a day. The time spent in his room was boring for the most part. Chan would spend most of those hours writing in the notebook. He kept your note from before; although it didnât say much, your handwriting felt like a good reminder to him. Except for that first note, the rest of the small book was empty. On the blank pages, Chan would write his thoughts like letters to you. He would write about his feelings, memories from your time spent together, and what he hoped to do with you in the future - find a place of peace, something similar to that cabin in the forest, and spend your lives together. Writing was what kept him sane during the week that he traveled across space to Phylaca. That and thinking about what he would do when you were together again. The time spent apart was taking a toll on him, but the image of you never faded. He thought of the many nights he spent lying next to you, holding you as close as he possibly could. After the time he had kissed your forehead, he could only think about doing that again. The small act of affection was more than he had ever experienced before, and he hadnât gotten to try it again - what if he didnât do it right? However, the image of your euphoric smile calmed him from these thoughts.
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Walking onto Phylaca was unlike anything Chan had experienced before. He felt physically heavier, a sudden weight being placed on his shoulders. There was no time to dwell on it. Jongho helped him find Hongjoong, who welcomed him with a sad smile.
âWhere are they?â Was the first thing to fly out of Chanâs mouth.
âKeep quiet, will you?â Hongjoong looked around himself. âIâm going to lead you to their cell, Jongho will be covering your tracks, and then there will be a ship waiting for you at the docks. Theyâre not professionals, but theyâve agreed to help you in exchange for supplies - youâll just have to trust that theyâll take care of you.â
â... thatâs fine,â Chan said, although he was less than happy to possibly put you in danger right after managing to get you out of it.
âAlright, letâs go. We have to hurry, but make sure to keep a low profile.â
Sneaking through the corridors wasnât difficult. There was barely anyone there. Clearly, Hongjoong knew something that Chan didnât because he kept looking over his shoulder every other minute. Despite his obvious paranoia, Hongjoong did a good job at staying calm - he wasnât letting his nerves get in the way of finding the quickest path to you. The sound of their footsteps echoed in the halls - combined with a dripping sound and distant screams, it felt deafening. The concrete walls towered over them but the corridors were thin, making a claustrophobic sensation settle in Chanâs stomach. Every turn they made felt fruitless, no matter how much they walked it didnât feel like they went anywhere. Every inch of this place looked the same, and Chan wondered how he could have ever found his way to you if it hadnât been for Hongjoong. So when they turned the final corner, finding your cell, Chan was unsure of what to do. He saw you sitting in the corner, your legs drawn up to your knees, and your eyes staring down at the ground. You were wearing the clothes you had on when he last saw you, now dirty and slightly torn.Â
âY/N? Heâs here,â Hongjoong said after waiting for Chan to speak up.
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The moment you saw Chan again, you couldnât believe your eyes. At first, you were just happy, then confused, and then even skeptical if he was truly in front of you or if it was a hallucination. But when you got to wrap your arms around him, feel his strong arms hug you tightly, you were just relieved. He was there with you.
âDid you miss me?â Chanâs voice was shaky and muffled against your neck.
âYou have no idea.â You let go of him to look over at Hongjoong. âThank you.â
âHe did most of the work, Iâm just the messenger,â he said, âListen, Iâm sorry to break up your reunion- but you have to leave. Chan, you know the way back to the docks. Just keep to that path. I canât keep the guards away from here for that long, but Iâll buy you as much time as possible. Thereâs an aircraft at the dock, youâll recognize them immediately- itâs the only ship that doesnât belong to the Phylaca facilities.â
You and Chan nodded in response. Chan let go of you and shrugged off his jacket, wrapping it around you and helping you put it on properly. The jacket was warm and smelled like him, reminding you of the time you spent in bed together at the cabin. After Chan made sure that you were comfortable enough, you left Hongjoong behind.Â
Chanâs hand gripped yours tightly as he led you through the corridors. The two of you hadnât gotten to talk at all, and you were itching to say something. Looking at Chan, you realized that there was only one thing you wanted to say.
âChan?â Your voice was weak, but it caught his attention nevertheless. âI love you.â
His steps stuttered, but he refused to stop moving. Time was running out, and he had to get you to safety. He squeezed your hand reassuringly and gave you a bittersweet smile.
âI love you too,â he whispered.
Commotion echoed from where you had just been, and you took a quick guess that it was the guard finding your cell empty. Chanâs hand gripped yours even tighter as he started running down the halls. You had already gotten pretty far, but you knew that the guards could close in within seconds if you didnât hurry.Â
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The two of you ran as fast as you could until you came to the docks. Just as Hongjoong had said, the aircraft stood out like a sore thumb. The sound of the guards had gotten closer, but you were so close to safety that you couldnât help but smile. With the last of your power, you ran as fast as you could. But the loss of Chanâs hand made you stop dead in your tracks. You turned around to look at him. There werenât any guards behind him just yet, but you could hear them closing in.
âWhat are you doing?â you shouted, âCome on! Letâs go!â
âI need to stay,â he whispered with a sad smile.
âWhat?â
âTheyâll just come after us if I come with you. Itâs always been me that they want, Y/N.â He grabbed your arms. âYou have to leave me behind, I donât want to put you in more danger.â
âNo- youâre acting crazy! Iâm not doing that!â Tears began building in the corner of your eyes. âWeâre going together- we can build our life together now!â
âY/N, I love you. I want you to be safe.â One of his hands cupped your cheeks. âWhen I saw you again⊠everything started making sense again. Youâre the only thing that makes sense to me - if I donât protect you now, Iâll never forgive myself. So, let me do this for you, I beg of you. Let me make your life as happy as you have made mine.â
âI donât want you to- I canât be happy without you.â
âSure you can.â He pulled the jacket he had given you a bit tighter around you, his hands staying at your collar - even with his adamant attitude, he also wished to go with you. â... Itâll be cold on the ship, make sure that you stay warm. I donât want you to get sick.â
You could see the guards approaching in the distance. Chan smiled before he leaned in and pressed a kiss to your lips. Tears were falling down your cheeks, contrasting the fireworks that went off in the pit of your stomach. You knew he wasnât going to give this up.
âI love you.â You mumbled before running toward the ship.
You could barely see what was in front of you, throwing yourself at what you thought looked like the entrance of the ship and crawling inside. Before the doors closed, you could hear Chan being knocked down on the ground - a sob escaping your lips at the sound. Voices from the cockpit were shouting, but you stayed still on the floor. The aircraft took off shortly after.
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After that day, you barely moved and never spoke. Your âsaviorsâ were a couple, a human, and an automaton that you recognized as 5.C0UP5 from the facility. He was also quiet, clearly upset at his partner for leaving Chan. Sometimes heâd bring you food, and give you a half-sympathetic smile. Most of the plates he gave you went untouched. You couldnât bring yourself to eat, there was no energy in your body to lift the utensils to your mouth. All you did was think of Chan, just as you had during your imprisonment at Phylaca. But back then you had the hope that heâd come to rescue you. Now there was no motivation to keep going.
A few days passed. Youâve become restless, spending most of your time wandering the ship. Usually, there was nothing for you to see - so you would walk from window to window to look at what was around you. There was nothing most of the time. You didnât even know where you were going, but you didnât feel like talking to the couple and asking them to drop you off on the nearest planet. You couldnât bring yourself to speak, you were too weak. Although you had managed to eat more, you were still the husk of the person you were a few weeks ago.
Your endless wandering had made you stumble upon the couple fighting. Their voices were muffled through the wall, but you knew it was something about Chan or the rest of the group. Pressing your ear to the wall, you tried hearing a few of their words. You didnât know why, but you felt like you had to. You didnât hear much, but the things you heard made your heart break for them.
âDo you blame me? Do you hate me?â
â... I canât lose you too.â
âWe shouldâve tried saving DinoâŠâÂ
They were bits and pieces of the actual conversation, but it was too much for you. You left without hearing if they made up.
During an especially hard night, you picked up the jacket that Chan had given you. It still smelled like him, but it was fading. You put it on and laid back down in your bed. It wasnât the same, but it was similar enough to his arms wrapping around you. But as you turned to lay on your side, you felt something poking into your ribs. Shuffling around, you managed to reach your hand into a hidden pocket and pulled out a rectangular object. You turned on the lights and recognized it as your notebook. It was one of the notebooks that you waited for the âproper purposeâ of before you could write in it. On the first page, you recognized it as your handwriting:Â
Contact âH.J.â. Digits in the drawer.Â
A small gasp escaped past your lips, as the memory of your kidnapping flooded back. You pushed those memories to the back of your mind and flipped the page with shaky hands. On the next page was handwriting that you didnât recognize as your own:
Hi. I donât know who Iâm writing this to, maybe itâs just to myself. Either way, I canât stand doing nothing on this ship. Iâm mostly just laying in bed, charging whenever I need to. I thought I would write to pass the time⊠now that Iâm doing it, it feels a little stupid. But I should write about what I think, and get my thoughts out of my head. Most of the time I think about Y/N. Iâm worried for them, and I canât help but feel that itâs my fault that theyâre stuck in Phylaca. They would probably tell me that I shouldnât blame myself, but how can I not? I never did anything to stop the guards who took them. I could have done something. Then again, I could have also just left instead of coming here. But I need to see them again. And apologize. I have to make it up to them. Chan.
You put your hand over your mouth, trying to silence your sobs. He had filled this entire book with notes, this was the only thing left of Chan once his scent on the jacket had completely faded. With teary eyes, you turned to the next page.
I feel bad for M1NGYU and 53UNGKWAN. I donât know what happened to them, but leaving them behind wasnât right. Of course, Iâm happy that I went to Y/N, but I keep thinking about what would have happened if I had stayed with 53UNGKWAN. M1NGYU sacrificed himself for us after all. I donât regret my choice, I got to live happily for a while, but what would have happened if I had helped 53UNGKWAN instead? Would I have been as happy as I was with Y/N? Theyâre like my brothers. We were family, we didnât have anyone else. I think a lot about 5.C0UP5. The pressure he must have been under. Could I have done something to help? Why did he decide to run away at all? He wasnât any different during the days before the escape. I hope heâs happy now, thatâs what he deserves after the years of putting up with us. I wish I could tell him, and everyone, how much I care for them - maybe see them just one more time, and tell them my new name. I wonder if they think it fits me, or if they still prefer D1N0. Either way, itâs fine. I just want to see them again. Love, ChanÂ
You smiled at the way he signed his name with extra care this time. After thinking over it, you decided to tear out the page and put it in the pocket of your jacket. This message should go to Cheol. He deserved the closure. Tearing out the page revealed the next paragraph.Â
Itâs barely been a week since they disappeared, but I canât stop thinking about Y/N. I canât tell the difference between night and day, but whenever I lay down to charge I close my eyes and think of them. I think of the time we sat in front of the fire, and they kissed my cheek. Nothing can compare to the honor of receiving their affection. I hope to do it again soon. And if youâre for some reason reading this right now, Y/N, I want you to know that I love you and that I would do anything to protect you. I owe you my life, and Iâll give it to you with gratitude. Please, donât ever forget it. Even if Iâm not there to tell you every day. Love, Chan.
You took a shaky breath and closed the notebook. There was more to read, but you couldnât bring yourself to do so. After putting the notebook back in your pocket, you laid back down and tried to calm your breathing. Even if it was only the trace of a plan, he had already started thinking of his sacrifice before he got to you. And it was all for nothing. If he had known Cheol was on the spacecraft, maybe he would have followed you. You couldnât understand what he had been thinking. Why did he need to do this? He had written about M1NGYU sacrificing himself, was that the reason? Did he feel that he needed to make up for it somehow? You knew that dwelling on his thinking wouldnât make it better, but you couldnât help it.Â
âYou should eat something,â Cheol told you.
This happened every day. Cheol sat with you, trying to get you to eat something for an hour or so until you finally gave in. You thought about giving him the note from Chan, but you never found the right moment. In the background, Cheolâs partner was looking around the spacecraftâs panel and you could tell that something exciting was happening.
âI donât wanna get your hopes up, Cheol, but this planet looks so much like EarthâŠâ
The announcement caught both your and Cheolâs attention, and the two of you made your way to the front of the ship. Clouds surrounded you and in the distance, you could see what looked like water and fields - it did look a lot like Earth. Cheol sat down in front of the steering wheel as he turned off autopilot. A childâs voice echoed over the intercoms.Â
âHello? Weâre outside of your airspace, our registration is BO883628K, and we are requesting permission to land!â Cheolâs partner answered.
There was another voice over the intercom, seemingly scolding the child before answering your plea. They welcomed you to Lumen. A place that you had only heard of in fairytales. A planet, much like Earth, living in complete harmony. A safe haven.
âThere are bigger docks located northeast of your current location, go there to land safely,â the voice said.
You sat down in one of the seats, preparing yourself for landing.
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The days after landing you spent exploring the town where you found yourself in. Now that everyone had calmed down and settled, you thought it would be the right moment to give Cheol the note. You walked into his room when you knew that he and his partner were away, and put the note on the bedside table. Although a part of you thought it was wrong, you couldnât bring yourself to give it to him in person. You didnât want to watch as he opened the letter. So you left it there, hoping that it could give him some kind of closure, before leaving.Â
You spent your time in Lumen in a small cabin in the forest, in an attempt to hold on to what you had with Chan. When you had time to heal, you were considering picking up teaching or doing something to give back to the people of Lumen. But for now, you stayed by yourself. On Phylaca, your only hope had been that Chan would come and save you. A part of you still hoped that he could find you, escape again, and come to you, but you knew it wasnât possible. You thought a lot about if he had just known that Cheol was on the spacecraft too, maybe he would have come along. It wasnât good to dwell on it, but you couldnât help it. When the nights got lonely, your brain automatically started thinking about it. It made your chest feel hollow and your breathing quicken. During those nights you would wrap his jacket around you, or read his notes. Of course you were losing hope, but you would have to live without it. Day by day, just surviving.
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The doors to D1N0âs room opened, and M1NGYU stepped inside. It was a completely white, empty room, just two chairs and a charger-bed. D1N0 was sitting on one of the chairs, and smiled at M1NGYU as he stepped inside.
âHello,â he said.
âHi, DinoâŠâ M1NGYU answered.
âHave a seat, Iâm so happy to see you again.â
The diamond mark shone brightly on his clavicle, brighter than D1N0âs fake smile. His eyes were blank like he couldnât think for himself. M1NGYU sat down in front of him.
â... is everything okay?â
âIâm feeling great. They have taken care of me so well here. I charge, practice, and exercise.â
âDino⊠do you even remember what happened?â
âI remember what happened yesterday. I charged, practiced, and then exercised.â He sounded robotic.
âNo⊠before that, donât you remember?â
âOh. Last week I charged, practiced-â
âDino, no.â M1NGYU sighed. âThe escape, do you remember the escape? I stayed behind-â
âThat topic is not appropriate, M1NGYU,â D1N0 interrupted him.
M1NGYU paused to stare at his old band member. It was not the same person that he knew. He stood up and left the room, hearing D1N0âs robotic voice wish him goodbye. The doors closed behind him and let out a deep breath. After finding the nearest staff member, he insisted on speaking with a manager or someone in charge. This was not D1N0, they must have done something wrong⊠but they said everything was fine. With a crushed heart, M1NGYU went back to the rehab facility and D1N0 stayed in his jail cell disguised as a room.
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Jikanime Motori | Character Posters
All the character posters for my (mostly) K-Pop inspired time travel fiction!
Iâm not entirely satisfied with all of them though. Like with Elias, I wish I could've found a model with curly hair like Xiao Junâs in WayVâs âKick Backâ music video (one of the inspirations), but oh well. Itâs close enough.
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Fix You
đ staring. Mingyu x afab!Reader
đź synopsis. âAs a member of 53V3NT33N, I have two different states of mind coded into me, aggression and admiration. To love something, to admire it, is to feel aggressive when itâs questioned, to want to control it, if even for a little while- itâs the need to consume it, endlessly, as my fans consume and control me as an automaton. Even though Iâm a member of a group, thereâs a distance. Automatons can never truly motivate each other because our motivations are based on external human needs, itâs built into us- We can see when humans need us, and we do what we can to fix that need⊠I know you need me, the way Iâve needed you since I got here.â
tw/cw. unprotected sex with an AI robot, virgin!Mingyu, big dick!Mingyu, Mingyu's body is perfect, hand job, blow job, deep throating, pussy eating, fingering, flavored cum, praise, breast worship, switchy/submissive!Mingyu, multiple orgasms, slight overstim, AI slavery/working philosophical issues, risk of AI termination/job loss, etc...
đč rating.18+ explicit I wc. 15.5k I collab. link
đ aus. automaton/ai au, ai!Mingyu, robotics behavioral researcher!y/n, wellness center, future au, Promethean theory, etcâŠ
âïžÂ mlist + an. i was so excited when @idyllic-ghost announced this collab in @svthub. Had a great time creating this world and working with everyone through the Discord server :) Bee was also such a big help as beta reader, they were such a good collab team leader, so big thank you to @idyllic-ghost đ
As a top mechanic at an automaton rehab center, youâd heard about the supposed âbreak outâ of thirteen level one AI robots from their management facility. In fact, people all across the galaxy had heard about it, with the attractive faces of every member of the idol group 53V3NT33N plastered on billboards, tvs and any screen possible-
However, the last place you thought youâd see the stunning features of M1NGYU would be on your briefing tablet not two days after what some reporters are calling âthe biggest breach of level one automatons across the galaxy in centuries.â
âHow-â you swallow thickly, eyes shifting from your tablet to look at your boss. âHow did he get caught so fast?â
âMingyu has been malfunctioning for months,â Yoongi explains. âStrength miscalculations during concerts, collaborating in the break out attempt, his aggressive behaviors have been more frequent- but if thereâs one thing that can be said for an automaton that balances aggression and admiration, itâs that he truly admires the humans who worship him. He gave himself in, trying to aid in the escape of two of his AI band mates.â
âOh.â For some reason, this news makes you sad. A robot with a sense of self sacrifice for the good of others⊠even if giving himself up was in part spurred by a need to be given attention and adoration from the humans that made him.Â
Heâs like a child that makes a mistake and gives himself in. Many mechanics would do what parents across the galaxy do, scold, attempt to fix the behavior with shaming and judgment- but you were given your job precisely because you come at this sort of thing with a different approach. It sounds like Mingyu needs someone to talk to, someone to understand- maybe poke around in his coding a little to see if thereâs anything that shouldnât be there.
You canât think of someone more qualified than yourself to give Mingyu the time and attention he needs, the admiration he craves to balance out the supposed âaggressiveâ traits heâs been showing lately.Â
âBefore you get too caught up in Mingyu being some level one lost puppy, just remember, heâs an automaton,â Yoongiâs harsh voice snaps you out of your daze and the rehabilitation plan already brewing in the periphery of your mind. âDonât get too close to this.â
âI wonât.â If only it was a promise you could keep.
Youâve been around many level ones in your time as a robotics behavioral specialist at the rehab center, but none of them have ever been as beautiful - or as charming - as Mingyu. Sitting next to the intake girl, watching her ask Mingyu questions, you get to fully observe the automaton, and youâre astounded by what you see.
He answers things in a way that almost seems honest, and at points, when he makes a joke that causes you and your coworker to smile, his eyes literally sparkle with admiration. You wonder what coding had to be done just on his robotic retinas to achieve such an effect.
Itâs clear, by the time the questions are all through, that Mingyu is the most advanced of any AIâs youâve ever come in contact with, and the prospect both scares and exhilarates you.Â
âSo what now?â Mingyu asks, and you note the way his knee is bobbing slightly, as if heâs anxious. Heâs leaning forward, eager to hear what comes next, and it almost feels like heâs going to be a more than willing participant in this rehab experience.
âWell,â you sigh, taking the tablet from the intake girl, ânow that weâve completed this first form, I can get to work on making a wellness plan for you.â
âA wellness plan?â Mingyu cocks his head, another very human-like motion that makes your breath catch.
âA wellness plan, yes.â You consider how to explain this to him. âYou know when humans get tired and they have a spa day? Or after someone has given birth, they have maternity leave? Itâs going to be a little something like that. As one of the head behavioral specialists and wellness coordinators here, Iâve been assigned to help you take a break.â
âA break?â He looks as if heâs never even considered having a breather from the activities of a famous level one entertainer robot, and you sort of feel sorry for him.Â
âYes, Mingyu, a break. That means no dance practices, no music production and vocal exercises. Youâll be existing here, checking in with me and doing new daily activities designed to help get to the core of the issues youâre facing.â
âAnd what issues am I facing?â Thereâs something of a smirk on his face, and you realize the robot is toying with you, but you still feel compelled to respond.
âI heard you threw one of your bandmates too hard during the past few concerts you performed.â
âDino can take it,â Mingyu insists. âNo one got hurt.â
âThe guards that were injured while your group broke out of your management facility would beg to differ. Cameras showed you were a big part of busting open doors, knocking a few people unconscious- word in the wellness center is your aggression levels are a little high.â
âNo higher than my admiration levels.â Thereâs that smile again, and youâre not sure what to make of it this time.
âI guess thatâs true,â you confess. âYou turned yourself in after all.â
âI highly admire the guards that my group members got the better of. We all have bad days, after all, especially humans.â
You wonder at his diction. âWe all have bad daysâ heâd said, before making something of a distinction when he noted âespecially humans.â However, in the use of the word âweâ without a further separation when mentioning humans, itâs almost as if heâs lumping himself into the same category.Â
You must be creating too much of a pause in the conversation, because Mingyu opens his mouth to speak again. âYou said âI can get to work on making a wellness plan for you,â does that mean youâre the main handler looking after me while Iâm here?â Â
It shouldnât be a shock that nothing gets past Mingyu, that his recollection of what youâve said is top notch, but it still takes you back a little. âCorrect.â
âCan you tell me your name?âÂ
Heâs very peculiar for a level one.Â
You give him your name and he repeats it once, twice, three times before nodding to himself. âThank you for taking care of me,â he says. âIâm excited for my wellness break and getting to work with you.â
Youâve often wondered if an emotion like excitement is something an automaton can actually even feel, or if itâs just a number of ones and zeros put into layers upon layers of detailed coding.Â
For some reason, you find yourself wanting to return the sentiment, however automatic it might be from the robot. âIâm excited to get to work with you too.â
Itâs always kind of sad when you run a new level one automaton through their personalized wellness schedule. Youâve worked with all manner of high-class robots, from athletes to opera singers, but none of them have ever come into your program with the type of preexisting regimented day plan Mingyu has.Â
You suppose it shouldn't be a shock that, as part of one of the biggest automaton boy groups in the galaxy, heâd had close to zero down time. When you show him the library and explain he should sit down in a spot of sun somewhere and read for an hour every day, at a slow pace, he looks at you like youâre crazy.Â
âI donât understand how this is supposed to help me,â he tells you, as you walk through the facility towards one of your favourite wellness locations; the pool.
âThis might be an archaic example,â you explain, âbut back when humanity first started making computers, laptops and such, many people would keep their computers on indefinitely. Sure theyâd close the screen, but thatâs not enough. Youâd need to actually power down the device to keep its performance up.â
âIâm not a laptop,â Mingyu reminds you, with a flash of something like humour in his eye.
âYouâre not,â you conceded, âwhich is why your nightly power downs arenât enough. As an automaton, you were built to emulate being a human, but many people disregard one of the most fundamental aspects of humanity; the need for rest. Sleep and powering down isnât enough if every waking moment is spent working or learning or practicing your trade- you have to allow for a variety of restful activities, such as reading, painting, gardening- it depends on who you are and your skillset though. For a chef, he might not gain rest from cooking because his neurons would still be firing with the intensity of someone doing their trade. Which is why, although Iâve given you physical activities such as swimming and tennis, you wonât be doing any dancing while youâre here.â
âWhat if I forget my moves?âÂ
âSomething tells me the likelihood of that is very low,â you smile.Â
âOkay, maybe I wonât forget my moves,â Mingyu sighs, âbut I was made to dance. I was made to perform. What am I if not a level one dancer and singer?â
âThereâs more to life than oneâs job, however all-encompassing being a level one might be,â you explain. âIâm sure itâs very taxing on you.â
Mingyu pauses in the middle of the corridor youâre walking down, and you stop to assess him.Â
âAre you alright?â you ask.
âYeah,â he gives his head a little shake, and youâre shocked again at how human like the automaton is. âItâs just⊠no one has ever talked about this sort of thing with me. Itâs always been work, work, work. Itâs what Iâm designed to do-â
âYou may have been designed to be a dancer and a singer,â you nod empathetically, âbut part of being alive is choosing your own destiny, as you and your bandmates all did when you escaped your facility.â
âDo you really think that?â he questions, standing very still and looking at you with a dark gaze. âThat Iâm alive?â
âAt this point in time, artificial intelligence has progressed to the level where weâre told youâre sentient, that you can feel and think. That youâre as life-like as youâve ever been in the history of the galaxy. You might have been created in a lab, hand crafted and designed by some would-be God engineer, but to me, yes, Mingyu, youâre alive.â
âI donât bleed,â he says softly. âMy skin is similar to yours, made of collagen and human dermal fibroblasts, but beneath all of this Iâm still a machine. I donât have a soul.â
âIs a soul the most important building block that makes something alive?â you ask, cocking your head and looking the robot up and down.Â
He looks stumped, and you smile at the way youâve found yourself in a very human-like philosophical debate with an artificial intelligence.Â
You motion to the monstera deliciosa in a pot along the wall, its large, hybridized purple leaves reaching for the sun that beams through the glass windows. âWould you say that plant over there isnât alive because it doesnât have a soul?â
Mingyu is quiet for a moment or two, and then he looks down. âI guess not.â
âSo it seems a soul isnât a necessary element in being âalive,ââ you conclude, âand besides, scientists are still debating whether or not AI, as it is today, creates its own soul when itâs brought into the world. Even though you were created in the same lab as your band mates, and given different coding at your creation, since then, youâve all grown differently. Is that not kind of like a human being born with set genes only to be impacted by the world around it?â
Again, Mingyu takes a little while to respond. âI wasnât given the code for being curious about sciences,â he tells you. âThat would be Wonwoo, Minghao and Jeonghan. But, I guess what youâre saying makes sense.âÂ
âGood, itâs my job to make this process make sense to the Level Oneâs in my care.â Youâre pleased at his response, and after another moment, Mingyu begins to follow you again.Â
âWhatâs next on the schedule?â he asks.
âThe best part of the facility,â you smile, âthe pool.â
âWhatâs so good about the pool?â
âIâve found that many level ones that come through here have never truly experienced swimming. The sensory differences of the water can be healing for humans and automatons. It will light up all the sensors in your skin, and if you focus on that, you can reach the closest thing to peace that Iâve ever seen an AI experience.âÂ
âHow do you measure peace?â
âWeâve done studies with level ones submerged in cold and hot water tanks while connected to neuro maps, the results have been ground breaking in AI science. Iâll have to send you some to read while youâre doing your mandatory reading sessions.âÂ
You reach the doors that slide away to reveal one of the courtyards of the facility. Itâs a lovely space, with all sorts of beautiful plants that dazzle with every colour of the rainbow. The ground is mostly white marble aside from the allocated vegetation zones, and a large rectangular pool in the middle of it acts as a meeting place for the few level ones in the center.
âThis is one of the best places to meet other robots going through the same process that you are while youâre here,â you explain. âAs a central hub, we recommend this as a location to do your reading, we have a yoga room but I could always teach you mind and body wellness out here-â
âI like this place,â Mingyu says, interrupting you for the first time since heâs arrived at the facility.
When you look at him, you find him taking in the space with eyes full of wonder. He looks beautiful, with the sun kissing his beautiful skin, and his dark, medium length curly hair all lit up to show off the soft browns amidst the darker hues.Â
He truly is the most perfect automaton youâve ever seen, and youâve worked with a number of the galaxyâs top rated robots.Â
One of these top rated AIâs, is Jeong Jaehyun, a member of another boy group whoâs been having difficulties. Heâd come in presenting with extreme competitive behaviors, but in the two weeks youâve been monitoring him, heâs calmed down a great deal. You think, as you and Mingyu approach the pool where Jaehyun is doing laps, that this might be a good opportunity to introduce another robot to him.
Jaehyunâs met a number of other automatons in the facility, but none as close to his own profession as Mingyu.Â
âThereâs someone I want you to meet,â you tell Mingyu, coming to a stop on the edge of the pool. Your eyes track Jaehyun as he swims towards you, doing a near perfect front stroke style that heâd never even heard of before his own wellness break.
When Jaehyun reaches the edge of the pool, he stops and looks up at you, then his gaze shifts to Mingyu. Both robots have blank expressions, but when they nod to each other, thereâs something akin to recognition in the behavior.
âHello, Jaehyun,â you greet the swimmer. âThis is Mingyu, heâll be here at the facility with us for a while.â
âWe know of each other,â Jaehyun tells you curtly. âAt award shows.â
âEight times,â Mingyu confirms.Â
âPerfect,â you should have remembered as much, but youâve been very occupied pouring over Mingyuâs history file as of late. âMingyu will be starting his pool wellness treatment tomorrow afternoon. How would you feel about showing him the four main swimming strokes?â
Jaehyun nods. âI can do that.â
âThatâs great news, thank you Jaehyun.â The automaton only nods to you before diving back into the water. Youâll never get used to the way robots can swim without goggles, and your own eyes sting a little at the thought.
âWhatâs he here for?â Mingyu asks quietly.Â
âI thought you werenât given the coding to be curious about sciences,â you quirk a brow, fighting a smile.
âItâs not a curiosity about science,â Mingyu insists. âJaehyun has been one of the top AI models for Prada Universal for years.â
âI see,â you nod, âso youâre wondering if you can steal his contract if you make it out of here before him.â
âNo, I-â
âIt was a joke, Mingyu,â you tell him, reminding yourself that not all AI have the capacity to understand human humour, although they seem perfectly able to make their own.Â
What your manager had said rings through your mind, as it does every day, âdonât get too close to this.â Itâs a fine line to walk. Your job is to treat them like humans, to give them the care and wellness that the filthy rich can afford, but at the same time, you need to keep a distance, to remember, always, what youâre dealing with.Â
Itâs days like this one where you wonder - even with all your training and ground breaking research - if youâre truly right for this job. Questioning ethics and philosophies of protocol arenât behaviors you want to get used to any time soon.
Mingyu and Jaehyun have been swimming for an hour or so when Mingyu finally gets the courage to speak up. Heâs run the scenario a number of times, without a successful hypothesis to calm his mind, and he figures if anyone will know the answer to his wonderings, itâs Jaehyun. âCan I ask you a question?â
âUh huh,â Jaehyun is leaning against the wall of the pool. His eyes are closed and he looks to be enjoying the sunlight.
Mingyu can feel the heat of the hot star on his own skin, but heâs still getting used to the feeling of the water, so heâs unable to enjoy it the way Jaehyun can yet.Â
âY/N said sheâd be showing me around and doing activities with me, but sheâs not here right now,â Mingyu explains, looking over at Jimin, the young male wellness instructor whoâd picked him up to head to the pool earlier. âWhy isnât she here?â
âLower level wellness coaches watch us when weâre doing less strenuous activities,â Jaehyun responds.Â
This eases Mingyuâs perceived anxieties, but what Jaehyun says next doesnât.
âAlthough, my first week here, Y/N was at my side almost all the time. So, I guess today, Y/N ditched you because I said Iâd teach you strokes.â
Mingyu hates feeling ditched, hates that Jaehyun has voiced the feeling of it. An inkling of aggressive tendencies flashes through Mingyuâs body, and he does his best to focus on the sun, squinting up at it as a way to calm himself, as youâd told him to try when heâd first arrived as an antiaggression tactic.
Heâs not quite sure how to respond to Jaehyunâs statement, so instead, he goes for another question thatâs been on his mind since yesterday. âWhat are you here for?â
âHmm?â
âI mean, as far as I can tell, you donât seem to have any malfunctions.âÂ
âI could say the same about you,â Jaehyun notes. âThat is, if I hadnât heard about your groupâs escape from your management facility.â
Mingyu looks down at the way the sunlight refracts off the water, the marbling effect of the rays casting shadows across the bottom of the pool. âI get aggressive sometimes,â he says quietly.Â
Itâs hard admitting the faulty coding in his metal head, and he supposes he should show his own if he expects Jaehyun to return the favour.
The other automaton in the pool nods, running a hand through his wet hair. âI get competitive sometimes.â
âReally?â This is news to Mingyu, whose only experience of Jaehyunâs behavior today has been helpful and willing to teach. âI guess youâre doing well here, I wouldnât have noticed any competitive traits in you.â
âYeah, well,â Jaehyun looks up, and his eyes seem to be tracking something over Mingyuâs shoulder, âit depends on whoâs watching.â
Mingyu guesses he can understand that, especially when he follows Jaehyunâs gaze to find you walking across the courtyard.Â
Something clicks inside of him, the same thing that had darkened Jaehyunâs gaze, and Mingyu immediately feels a surge of what some might call endorphins- or perhaps even testosterone.Â
âShow time,â Jaehyun says quietly, and Mingyu knows exactly what he means.
You stop to talk to the man whoâs been keeping track of the two automatons in the pool, and then you head over yourself. Thereâs a smile on your face, and it makes Mingyuâs mechanical throat feel dry.
âLook at you two getting along,â you say, putting your hands on your hips as you gaze down at them. âJimin said you guys have been mastering the strokes, care to show me?â
Mingyu is more than eager to show you what heâs learned, but when Jaehyun takes off at a speed heâs not yet shown, Mingyu almost feels blind sided.Â
Thereâs a rush of feelings, as Mingyu swims off after his new robotic âfriend.â Admiration for Jaehyunâs competitive nature kicking in, even if itâs supposedly a downside, and a white hot need to better the other automaton and prove himself to you.
Luckily for Mingyu, heâs been built much bigger than his leaner friend, and the extra muscle robotics in his arms make it almost too easy to catch up with Jaehyun.Â
Mingyu knows that this isnât a competition, and yet, it is.
 If thereâs one thing Mingyu knows how to do, itâs succeed. Winning is in his nature, itâs built into his very code, and when the two reach the other end of the pool with Mingyu ahead, it only proves to kick Jaehyun into a higher gear.Â
They take off toward you again, and Mingyu pushes himself. He can feel the strain in his joints, the rush of water smoothing over his artificial skin. You were right about the healing properties of the pool, and nothing makes Mingyu feel more alive and himself than a little friendly competition with a fellow robot whom he admires, even if that competition is fueled by some of Mingyuâs more⊠less desirable driving traits.Â
Mingyu beats Jaehyun again as they reach your side of the pool, and when he looks up at you for praise, he sees you have your tablet out. You seem to be jotting down a few notes, about him or Jaehyun, heâs not too sure.Â
âYou guys are fast,â you say finally. âJaehyun, thank you for spending some time with Mingyu today.â
âNo problem.â Jaehyun is already pulling himself up and out of the pool, perfect muscles flexing in the sunshine.
Mingyu rushes to follow, feeling the need to show off his own immaculate body to you-
âMingyu,â you address him next, and it feels glorious to have your eyes on him, although they stay fixed on his face, âI see you havenât been to the library yet, might I suggest thatâs next on your wellness schedule today?â
âYou wonât be joining me?â Mingyu can feel his metallic heart practically sink.
âUnfortunately not, Iâve got a meeting with my boss, but Jimin will go with you to find something to read.â You motion to the wellness worker still standing a few meters behind you, and he offers Mingyu a small wave that kind of makes him annoyed. âIs that alright?â
âYeah,â Mingyu forces himself to say. âThatâs okay.âÂ
âBut Iâve got you in my schedule for tennis tomorrow morning, so Iâll see you then.â
Another nod of affirmation and then Mingyuâs watching you hurry off.Â
Jaehyunâs drying his body with a towel next to Mingyu, and thereâs a small smile on his face, as if heâs enjoying Mingyu being âditchedâ yet again.
Mingyu realizes maybe Jaehyun really isnât doing as well with his recovery as heâd thought only a few minutes ago.Â
Maybe heâs not doing so well either.
âIâve got some bad news to report,â you say, as you take a seat in your boss's office, tablet in hand.Â
âLetâs hear it,â Yoongi sighs, kicking his feet up onto his table and leaning back in his chair.
âI thought Jaehyunâs rehabilitation was going well, so I set him up to swim with Mingyu today-â
âWhat? Why?âÂ
âI wanted to see, in a controlled environment, how Jaehyun would react around other level ones he might perceive to be a threat. Seeing Jaehyunâs recovery alone is like testing in a vacuum, it doesnât account for outside forces at play,â you explain. âAnyways, I was correct. When introduced to a situation where he could compete with someone on his level, Jaehyunâs competitive nature was back up again.â
âDid anything bad happen?â Yoongi takes his feet off his table, leaning forward now with interest.
The last time Jaehyun had gotten very competitive, it had ended up with him attacking one of his group members and landing himself back in your rehab center. The Kim Doyoung automaton had needed an hour of mechanical work to get his skin back to perfect after being sucker punched numerous times.
âIâm pleased to report there was no physical violence,â you admit. âAlthough, I will say, if he had tried something, I believe Mingyu would have been able to defend himself, unlike Doyoung.â
âLook at you,â Yoongiâs gaze shifts up and down your form, âtaking bets on level one robots. You do know that street fighting automatons is illegal in most parts of the galaxy, right?â
âIt wasnât a street fight,â you assure your boss. âIt was a simple test.â
âRight, you and your hypotheses.â Yoongi is a good boss. He supports your work and research, but sometimes you think heâs happy with things being the way they are. As if humanity has discovered everything possible, with no room for improvement.
âIâll look some more into Jaehyunâs coding,â you continue. âI think there must be a line or two of something I missed last time, maybe level one specific competitive traits that should only be used on stage competitions that are bleeding over into everyday automaton life-â
âGood idea, you have permission.â
âBut I was also thinking maybe I should look into Mingyuâs code-â
âNo.â
âNo?â you hold your tablet close to your chest, lips parting as you stare at your boss.
âMingyuâs a more recent build than Jaehyun. Iâve been assured by his production team that this isnât a coding issue, itâs a behavioral  one. Something he and his other members picked up since the time of their creation.â
âBut-â
âWeâve been advised to not look at the code,â Yoongi says harshly. âYou were hired because of your groundbreaking work with behavioral  changes to AI, the way you connect it to human behavioral  issues. Youâre the one that keeps trying to convince me that these robots are as human as theyâve ever been, so stop treating Mingyu like a wrong coded robot, and start showing me you can fix him without getting coding involved.â
âAre you sure they said his coding was all up to date?â you press, knowing you might get in trouble for even continuing with this line of questioning.
Yoongi sighs. âPositive. No messing around with Mingyuâs code. Thereâs a behavioral  reason for the aggression, and youâre just going to have to figure it out.â
Youâve always liked tennis, for more than just the physical reasons. It allows you to test an automaton's ability to read the situation, their drive to adjust to the bodily limitations of the human playing with them.
While you start the easy game with Mingyu at a higher level, allowing him to show off his skills and inherent robotic strength, thirty minutes into the sport, you begin to dwindle in energy.
âI need a water break,â you tell him, passing the ball over to the robot to play with while you go to grab your bottle.
Mingyu waits patiently, tossing the ball up in the air. You see how many touches he can make without stopping, and youâre not too shocked at his ability to keep a steady volley with himself.Â
When you set your water down, his attention is back on you, and he reminds you of an eager puppy in his excitement to once more have a game partner.Â
âAre you okay?â he asks.
âYeah,â you assure him with a wave of your hand, steadying your grip on the handle of your racket. âJust a little tired.â
When Mingyu passes you the ball, heâs noticeably gentler than before, and you note that his adaptability is quite good. Heâs very focused on you, much more than other automatons like Jaehyun had been when youâd first tried the sport with them.Â
Itâs different from the competitive - maybe even aggressive - way that heâd interacted with Jaehyun in the pool yesterday.
An easy hypothesis to make would be that Mingyuâs abilities adjust depending on who heâs with, so it should be no shock that heâd work harder with a fellow automaton. However, youâre not sure if thatâs all there is to it.
You wonder what drives Mingyu. If heâs even aware of the way heâs lessened the force in his hits.Â
Remembering what heâd said about tossing a band member around, the way heâd noted âDino can take it,â you think itâs very possible that Mingyu is reading your abilities. The same way youâre reading his.Â
Before you can consider the situation more, however, you notice Jimin has arrived on the side of the court, and he waves you over.
âOne moment, Mingyu,â you call, tossing him the ball once more before jogging over to your coworker.
âThere was an incident,â Jimin explains, âwith Jaehyun.â
âAn incident?âÂ
Jimin nods. âHe was racing a new level one in the pool.â
âReally?â Jaehyunâs been in the pool a number of times with other automatons, but other than what youâd witnessed yesterday, his competitive nature hasnât truly shown itself, at least, not in a way that was overtly noticeable.
âThere was some gloating involved,â Jimin continues, eyes shifting over your shoulder to where Mingyu is playing with the ball. âA few punches were thrown.â
Now youâre really alarmed.Â
You haven't had time yet to look into Jaehyunâs coding, and youâve been trying to focus on Mingyu as heâs newer to your program, but maybe this had been an oversight on your part.
âIâll come right away,â you nod, turning your attention back to Mingyu. âIâm sorry about this, but Iâve got to go.â
âWhat?â Mingyu stops playing with his ball.
âThereâs been an incident-â
âCanât someone else take care of it?âÂ
This is the second time Mingyuâs interrupted you, and this time, itâs over a moment of contention. âUnfortunately no,â you tell him, âIâm the only one that can deal with this, Jaehyunâs under my care.â
âButâŠâ Mingyu looks down at the ball in his hand, âweâre still playing tennis.â
âJimin can play with you.â
âI donât want Jimin.â The automaton is staring you down, and it takes a second for you to process his words, as your gaze keeps shifting to his hardening grip on the handle of his racket.
âIâm really sorry, Mingyu-â
âPlease?â He pouts out his lower lip, a very childlike attempt at persuading you.Â
âI have to go,â you say, more firmly this time.
Thereâs a stagnant moment of silence, and then, in one quick, rough motion, Mingyu breaks his racket on the court.Â
âI donât want to do tennis anymore,â he insists.
âThen I might suggest going to the library for a book.â You hate having to be detached with him like this, as itâs obvious he has needs that must be attended to- but his aggression towards an inanimate object like a racket isnât the same level as Jaehyunâs aggression towards another patient at your facility.
You see Mingyuâs chest expand and then he seems to let out a deep exhale, itâs a motion that screams âannoyance,â yet another emotion that could just be ones and zeros in his coding.Â
You decide, as you watch the odd automaton have a tantrum on the court, that you have no choice but to take a look under his hood. Youâll have to dive deeper if youâre going to figure him out, Yoongi be damned.Â
âIâm sorry, Mingyu,â you say again. âIâll try to rejoin you as soon as I can, but for now, youâll have to enjoy Jiminâs company.â
Mingyu doesnât respond, and it feels like a deliberate snubbing, of both you and Jimin.Â
Itâs been a long day, and you really need to sleep, but this is the best chance youâll have to get a peak into Mingyuâs inner workings.Â
With the facility in off hours, and all the level ones set to sleep cycle, itâs easy for you to sneak into Mingyuâs room with your trusty tablet. Cameras are simple to wipe with the clearance you have, and you have no doubt that once you connect to Mingyuâs brain drive and get the data to your tablet, it will prove as good bedtime reading.
Youâre in and out of his room in under five minutes, scurrying back to your own quarters like a thief in the night.
Once youâre all tucked into bed, you pull out your tablet and begin to sift through the coding that makes Mingyu tick.
People new to your field might feel overwhelmed by the amount of data, but you know exactly where to look, and soon, youâre staring at a few lines of base code that feel familiar.Â
Youâve seen coding like this before, in your textbooks when you went to robotics school. Just to be sure youâre correct in what youâre seeing, you pull up a document pertaining to sex bots.
An early form of automaton, sex bots had been created with one purpose, to serve their master, in any and all capacities. Long since discontinued due to their bugs, and a tendency to imprint on human masters, causing âerratic behavior,â you know youâve found exactly whatâs wrong with Mingyu.
But it doesnât make sense. Mingyu is a new model. Heâs not a banned robot from well over seventy years ago-Â
The aggressive behaviors associated with sex bots are the reason their coding was banned, the reason engineers started again and adapted the algorithms- and yet, here you are, staring at lines of code that account for all of Mingyuâs behaviors.Â
Closing your tablet, you reach for your glass of water, sitting in the shock of it all.
Things begin to add up in your brain; the way Mingyu had become more aggressive with Jaehyun yesterday in the pool when youâd arrived, even though Jimin had told you the two had been doing just fine together, the way Mingyu had reacted today when youâd left him to deal with Jaehyun.
This is a whole new take on behavioral  issues, one youâve never accounted for-
Does Mingyu have⊠a crush on you? Has his outdated sex bot coding allowed him to imprint on you?Â
How many other bots have this coding, hidden amongst the innumerable layers of intensely organized lines of personality traits-Â
This changes everything, and above all, it changes how you should approach the automaton.
How can you utilize this new knowledge to best aid him in recovery? Is it better to assign someone else to him? Would that make the aggression worse? What unforeseen behaviors might arise if you were to separate yourself from him? What changes - for the better - might come out of this if you try to be softer with him, if you play into this âcrushâ?
Your head feels very full, but you suppose it could be worse, it could be full of bad coding.
Poor Mingyu.Â
You know youâre probably breaking rules, but to be fair, when youâd accepted your position in the wellness center, there hadnât been a chapter in the manual about how to deal with approaching sex bots. This feels like new territory, or perhaps, old territory, outdated territory, territory from a time when the lines between humanity and their automaton creation had been much more blurred.
Sure, there are sex bots in circulation today, but theyâre all using new and improved code. Theyâre not disguised as level ones, but properly classified as a level three automaton. Level threeâs are much more obviously robotic, and there are whole sections of cities on certain worlds with thriving sex bot industries- the type of bots with newer coding that donât allow them to imprint or feel the lines of ones and zeros that some might call love.
Youâve never met a sex bot before, your work has always been directed toward the highly professional level one automatons. Because of this, your new plan of attack is entirely based on essays and readings youâve done regarding the old form of bugged sex bots who had been responsible for an entire chapter of dark human history where manâs own creation had turned against him.
As you read through essays related to the sex bot bug, you find you hadnât realized how deep the bug had gone. Youâd heard about human masters being kidnapped or stalked by their sex bots, but youâd never thought the epidemic was as bad as youâre now reading it had been.
These cases of bad outcomes are in the periphery of your mind as you begin your day working with Mingyu. Youâre sure there must be a fine line youâre walking, a line between bringing out the good aspects of the bad coding - the type of responses that will make Mingyu eager to get better - and the worst case scenarios.Â
However, as aggressive as Mingyu has gotten so far, youâve noted that most of his aggressive responses come out against inanimate objects and other automatons. Youâre hoping these behaviors donât progress to him acting out against any humans, least of all you.
Itâs like youâre seeing Mingyu in a new light. Itâs interesting how even a few shifts in your own behavior can bring out the best in him. Instead of simply watching him in the pool, you decide to join him, giving him your full attention as you swim three feet apart up and down the length of the tank.Â
âHow are you feeling today?â you ask.
âHow am I feeling?â Mingyu looks at you sideways, keeping pace with your much smaller breast strokes.
âYeah, how are you feeling?â you repeat the question. âYou can answer it in any way you like.â
Mingyu seems to think on it for a moment. âI feel the water is twenty-seven degrees Celsius.âÂ
âOkay,â you laugh. âHow about the sun? Howâs it feeling on your skin sensors?â
âThirty-three point five degrees, but when a cloud comes, it drops two degrees.â
âCorrect me if Iâm wrong, but when you were working before coming to the center, you didnât get that much of a chance to be outside, how does it feel to be able to enjoy lifeâs simple pleasures like the sun and water?â
His response is immediate; âGood.â He looks forward, and you take a moment to appreciate the way the sun lights up the hues in his hair. âReally good.â
âMaybe even freeing?â you suggest.
He casts a sideways look at you again, and you see a small quirk of his mouth, something like a smile. âYes, freeing.â
âWhen you and your other members escaped from your facility, the feeling of being free is what many of you were searching for, right?âÂ
âFor most of them.â
âBut not you?â you question. âOut of everyone who escaped, you were one of the only ones who purposefully allowed himself to be recaptured. Do you want to talk about that?â
You reach the edge of the pool and you stop, holding onto the tiled wall and turning your body to look at Mingyu.Â
His eyes are fixed on the pool floor, and you realize heâs watching the shadows caused by the refraction of light in the water.
âA few others were convinced there was more to life than just performing our jobs every day,â Mingyu explains.
âBut you like your job.â
âI did,â he traces his hand along the top of the water. âI do. But⊠I didnât know how good it could feel to just exist.â
You stare at him for a few seconds, and then you find yourself reaching out to gently squeeze his arm. âIâm glad youâre feeling it now.â
Mingyu looks at your hand on his forearm, and his eyes meet your own. Heâs quiet, so you retract your touch, grabbing at the tiled wall again. âWeâve been here for almost an hour. How do you feel about drying off and meeting in the library to find a book to read?â
âI already have a book.â
âYeah, Jimin told me that you got a book about human psychology. I thought you said you werenât interested in sciences?âÂ
âYouâre making me interested,â Mingyu states, looking at you with an intensity in his gaze that almost makes you breathless. âI want to get better. I thought maybe doing some more reading on behavioral  sciences could help.â
âI admire your drive, Mingyu, I really do,â you nod, âbut, remember, this is a wellness break for you. I think it would be beneficial to get a fiction book, something that doesnât require you to always be learning and bettering yourself. It can be exhausting if youâre always in that state, as youâve seen, itâs important to do things for⊠letâs say, the intrinsic value.â
âThe intrinsic value,â Mingyu repeats. âOkay.â
You pull yourself out of the pool, and after a moment, Mingyu follows.Â
Itâs difficult for you not to look at his perfectly sculpted form, and you swallow a lump in your throat, reaching for a towel on a nearby sunlounger. Your tablet is there too, and you grab that next, checking the time.Â
âHow about we meet at the library entrance in ten minutes?â you suggest. âWe should both head to our rooms for new clothes, canât have water drops in the library.â
Mingyu is quick to agree, as he often is with you, and a moment later youâre parting ways. He heads to the recovery wing of the center while you go to the workers living quarters.Â
You get changed in record time, and soon youâre approaching the library, where Mingyu is already waiting for you. Heâs got a book in his hands, and the all white wellness outfit heâs wearing sets off the pretty colour of his skin and hair. When his eyes shift to yours, you see that even his irisâs look alight with lovely hues-
You mentally chastise yourself for being as attracted to him as you are, and when you speak, youâre thankful your tone is level. âIs that the book youâre reading?â you ask, motioning to the paperback in his hands.
As much as technology has overtaken the galaxy, here at the wellness center, thereâs still an importance placed on the old ways. Thereâs something healing about having a book in your hands, testing the weight and the feeling of parchment pages against your finger tips-
Books are yet another thing that make humans human, as they were instrumental in the development of your species. Youâre proud to work at a location that holds a large quantity of books, saved from many generations.
Mingyu shows you the book title, and you realize itâs one youâve read before. âOh, I know that one.â
âJimin said the author was one of your professors in school,â Mingyu nods.Â
âHe did, did he?â You pause for a moment. âDid you ask him about me, Mingyu?â
The automaton looks down at the cover of the book in his hands, and he takes a few seconds before he responds. âI wanted to see the base algorithms in the way you think as a behavioral  robotics specialist.â
âThe base algorithms-â
âThis book, this professor, she helped create the building blocks for you to become who you are now. Your approach is based on her works, I can tell.âÂ
Heâs very astute, especially for an AI whoâd claimed to not have an interest in science.
You think about how his own base algorithm - that of a hybridized sex bot - has created building blocks for who he is now. The good (his sweet behaviors), the bad (his aggressive behaviors) and the ugly (the fact that at any time, the ticking time bomb sex bot could turn potentially deadly).
âLet's go find you a new book,â you say with a smile.
âCan I keep reading this one?â Mingyu asks, falling into step next to you.
âI suppose so,â you sigh, âbut only if you also do an hour of fiction reading. Deal?â
âDeal,â Mingyu nods.Â
You begin to walk through the shelves, and you realize thereâs one fiction book that might capture Mingyuâs attention, especially if heâs interested in getting to know you better. âI want to show you a novel that changed my life.â
âYes, please.â
Heading to the science fiction section, you find one of the older books in your library. âItâs called Frankenstein,â you explain, gently taking out the paperback and holding it in your hands. âItâs about a scientist who creates a sapient monster creature. It has parallels to when humanity created our first automatons,â as you say it out loud, you realize how true this is, especially considering the bugs of the first sex AIâs. âYouâve talked a bit of philosophy with me, and I think youâd like this one.â
You hold the book out to Mingyu, and he takes it softly into his hands. He flips it over, scanning the back summary. âOkay,â he nods, âIâll read it.â
âPerfect,â you canât explain why you get a surge of happiness when he agrees without a question, and you find yourself reaching out to gently touch his arm again, fingers ghosting past his skin-
Mingyuâs eyes immediately dart down to your hand, and then heâs looking up at you with an expression that has darkened. âThis is the second time youâve touched me today,â he states.
âOh,â you pull your fingers away, even taking a step back from the automaton whose countenance has changed so much in a split second. âIâm sorry, Mingyu, I-â
âI donât like these games youâre playing,â he continues.
âGames?â
âI know Iâm a robot, but I still feel real. I feel more real here than I ever have before.â
âThatâs good-â
âListen,â he commands, stepping closer to you. âAs a member of 53V3NT33N, I have two different states of mind coded into me, aggression and admiration. To love something, to admire it, is to feel aggressive when itâs questioned, to want to control it if even for a little while- itâs the need to consume it endlessly, as my fans consume and control me as an automaton.â
You stare at Mingyu, lips parted in shock.
âEven though Iâm a member of a group, thereâs a distance. Automatons can never truly motivate each other because our motivations are based on external human needs, itâs built into us- We can see when humans need us, and we do what we can to fix that need.â He pauses, looking down at you. âI know you need me, the way Iâve needed you since I got here.â
âMingyu-â
âDonât try to argue,â Mingyu shakes his head. âI feel it in your heart rate, picking up when Iâm near. I hear it in your erratic breaths, the way they catch when Iâm close. I see it in your pupil dilation when you look at me.âÂ
You canât believe heâs noticed all these little things, things you hadnât even necessarily noticed in yourself.Â
When he speaks next, his aggression has visibly died down, and the soft manner of being returns to the robot youâve known only a short time. âI know you love me, even if itâs still growing. Itâs a kind of love that Iâll never experience from another automaton, and itâs the reason Iâll get better.âÂ
âBut Mingyu-â you shake your head, âwhat if you canât? What if the bug in your base code runs so deep I canât fix it?âÂ
âThe bug in my code?âÂ
You swallow thickly, fighting with yourself over whether or not you should even tell him what youâre about to disclose- but you think thereâs no way around it.Â
âI hate to be the one to tell you this, but, your erratic behavior- it comes from sex bot coding. Thereâs only a few lines of it, but itâs enough to make a difference.â
âSex bot coding,â Mingyu repeats.Â
âFrom what I understand, I think it was put into you to make you eager for human attention, to make you as life-like as possible in mood and temperament- but, there are downsides to that code, your heightened aggression is one of them.â
âAnd my heightened admiration too?â he suggests.
You nod. âThere were many cases of sex bots âfalling in loveâ with their masters. Many people got hurt.â
âI wonât hurt you.â
âMingyu,â you sigh, âthatâs not the point.â
âThen what is the point?â
âThe point is that we canât do this. You have a group to get back to when this is all over-â
âI donât belong with them,â Mingyu insists. âI belong with you. Someone real. Someone willing to look deep in my base code to find whatâs wrong with me, someone with the skills to fix it. Someone whose pupils truly dilate, so I know what youâre feeling is real.â
For a moment, youâre reminded of old pre AI experiments where baby monkeys were given real and robot mothers. Those babies placed with the robots had behavioral  problems, no matter how life-like the scientists attempted to make the mechanical mothers, they still paled in comparison to the real thing.
Mingyu sees himself as real, like one of those baby monkeys, and now that heâs had a taste of you, it feels as if he might not ever be able to go back to the other robots.Â
âI can be sure with you,â Mingyu says again, reaching out-Â
You flinch, but you donât shy away from his touch, and Mingyuâs fingers skim by your face, his thumb brushing your cheek bone.Â
His skin is warm, and for a moment, you allow yourself to lean in to his touch, closing your eyes-
He feels so real. More real than any automaton youâve ever worked with.
âYou canât stay here forever,â you insist, pulling away from his touch.
âMy group is never going to be recaptured,â Mingyuâs hand drops to his side. âSome would rather die than go back. If thereâs nothing to go back to, shouldnât I be able to choose what happens to me now? Arenât you the one who said âpart of being alive is choosing your own destiny.ââ
âI didnât mean I wanted you to choose me-â
âWhat if you are my destiny?â Mingyu counters. âOut of all the possible places I could have gone to, all the wellness centers in the galaxy, I was brought here. Out of all your coworkers, with their own tactics, I was given to you. Out of everyone Iâve ever met, youâre the only person whoâs really tried to understand me, to help me be free.â His eyes search your own, and he almost looks desperate. âWhatâs the point in all this healing if I just go back to the bad place. It would have been kinder to never try to help me at all if youâre just going to send me back.â
Your heart aches for him.Â
You feel as if youâve learned more about automatons in the past ten minutes than you had in all your years in school.Â
âCan IâŠâ Mingyuâs gaze drops to your lips. âCan I kiss you?â
The question snaps you out of your shocked daze, and youâre quick to shake your head. No matter how much you might wish he could kiss you, that he could cup your face again with one of his large hands and make you forget the world- youâre still at work.Â
âWe canât,â you tell him. âNot here. Not now.â
Mingyu frowns.
âI need to talk to my boss about all of this,â you say, stepping backward and casting your eyes to the ground. You canât focus while looking at Mingyu.Â
âWhat if they terminate me for this?âÂ
Your gaze snaps up again, and youâre quick to shake your head. âI wonât let that happen,â you tell him. âI promise- Iâd never let that happen, not to you.â
Mingyu stares at you for a few moments, and then he smiles. âI knew you cared about me too.â
âI told you not to get too close to this,â Yoongi sighs, leaning forward on his desk with his head in his hands.Â
âFine,â you concede. âYou told me so. You told me so, and I didnât listen. But, as much as I know that I went against numerous things you told me not to do, Iâm glad I did, because if thereâs one thing I owe to those in my care, itâs to do my job fully.â
âI donât see how making a robot think heâs in love with you is part of doing your job.â
âI didnât-â you bite your tongue. âI didnât purposely go into this trying to lead Mingyu on-â
âSure you didnât.â Yoongi doesnât seem convinced.
âLook,â you sit down in the chair in front of him, the hot seat, and you know that what youâre about to say is a risk. You could even lose your career over this, but, if you donât speak up now, youâll lose your integrity and you know it. âMingyu is different-â
âHeâs a robot.â
âPlease,â you frown, âlisten to me. Iâve been doing this job for a few years and Iâve never met someone like Mingyu. Heâs unique, I knew that from the moment he started talking philosophy with me. Iâve learned more about AI in the past twenty-four hours than I have in maybe my whole life-â
Yoongi says nothing.
âI know you told me not to look into his coding-â
âYou didnât,â Yoongi groans.
âThings just werenât adding up!â you insist, looking at your boss with a heavy heart. âDid⊠did you know that he has sex bot base code? Is that why you told me not to look too deeply into him?â
Yoongi puts his head in his hands. When he meets your eyes again, heâs frowning. âSex bot code? In a new model like Mingyu?â
At least your boss hasnât been completely compliant with whatever bullshit is coming out of Mingyuâs management office.
âSex bot code,â you repeat, nodding firmly. âI triple-checked it. Thereâs just a few lines, easily missable, but it accounts for the bad behaviors. Especially once I talked more with Mingyu and realized he sees affection from his fanbase as love. It would make sense heâd get aggressive with other members in his group if he perceived them as earning more than him-â
âYou know why sex bots were banned. You know about the dangers-â
âI do. I also know there are laws against it, which is why his management probably opted for a behavioral  specialist with rules not to look deeply into the coding. They hoped I could fix this without ever finding out that what theyâve been creating is illegal- but how many more robots that come through here might have the same code?â You have no clue how deep this conspiracy might run. âJust think about it, how do you make a level one celebrity robot as life like as possible? You give it some of the characteristics of humans that are our deepest downfalls, jealousy, aggression, restlessness, a need to perform- a need to do well for the humans that pay their companies whole fortunes-â
âAny well-coded robot can have what looks like jealousy, aggression and other typically bad human traits,â Yoongi points out.
âYeah, but this is that on steroids. Automatons used to kill humans in the name of their beloved master, for any perceived infraction.â
âSo youâre saying Mingyu is dangerous.âÂ
Your lips part in shock. âIâm saying, he has the capacity for it, as much as any human.â
âThis is bad.â
âIt is, but with the right treatment- Mingyu wants to get better, I know he does.â
âAnd how do you suggest you accomplish that?â
âWe let him be free. We make sure he doesnât go back to extreme schedules, to a dark management facility with handlers who only care about money. We make sure he doesnât go back to all the things that would drive any human insane.â
âHeâs not human, donât forget that,â Yoongi warns you. âAnd we donât get to decide if he goes back. He has a job-â
âHis members might not ever be recaptured,â you point out. âMingyu says some would rather die than go back- is that not proof enough that their treatment isnât humane?â
âAgain, weâre talking about a robot.â
âAI are sentient!â you insist. âYou should know that better than almost anyone. Are you really going to sit here and tell me that even after all this time, you still see automatons as simple machines that we can do what we want with?â Yoongi is quiet so you continue. âMingyuâs base code might be archaic, but maybe our treatment of robots is too.â
âLook, this isnât up for debate. Youâre talking about fighting galaxy law-â
âIâm talking about having a job where we deal with broken AI but never fix the real problem. Iâm talking about freedom being the thing that truly helps AI. Iâm talking about humanity being the bug in every robotâs misdeeds-â
âThis is bordering on conspiracy theory.â
âWeâre way past conspiracy,â you tell him. âPlease, freedom is the only thing weâve never tried as a long term solution to automatons that are having trouble. As much as we do our best to fix them, we always throw them right back into their jobs, into the thing that breaks them in the first place and then they end up back here.â
âMingyu was built to be exactly where he is now.â
âWell maybe we shouldnât be creating sentient lives just to throw them into slave-like jobs and threaten destruction if they donât adhere to their companyâs insanely high standards.â
Yoongi holds your gaze but he says nothing, mouth set in a firm line.
âLook, if there was ever a time to test this theory, it would be with Mingyu. Iâm a hundred percent positive that his group will never be whole again. If we try this, and it works, if Mingyuâs aggression goes back to a normal level, if he shows everyone that there can be a happy medium when working with robots- it could change everything.â
Thereâs another stagnant silence and you wait for your boss to chastise you, for him to even fire you-
âYou know what,â Yoongi sighs, âIâm not going to argue with you over this any more. I donât make the decision, his management does. If you want to call them, and explain what youâve just explained to me, you can do that. But this is your shitstorm, and I donât want to be part of it.â
âSo⊠so youâre saying I can go forward with this treatment plan?â
âYou can, but, I canât protect you from any consequences of your actions. And I hope you know that once you do this, once you admit to going against their rule to not to look into his coding, thereâs no going back.â
Mingyu can feel his aggression levels rising the moment Jimin shows up at the tennis court instead of you, but he focuses on the self-soothing tactics youâd shown him in his entry to wellness booklet. His grip on his racket tightens, but not enough to break it, and he tries to keep a level tone when he asks, âWhereâs y/n?â
âSheâs in a meeting,â Jimin says dismissively.Â
âWith who?âÂ
âThatâs none of your concern.â
Mingyu stares at Jimin for a few seconds. âI want to speak to your manager.âÂ
Jimin makes an amused face. âI didnât realize they taught you KAREN code in robotics labs. Arenât you supposed to be a level one?â
Mingyu doesnât have time for digs about him being a bitchy woman from over a hundred years ago, and he certainly doesnât have time to play tennis if youâre somewhere talking to your boss about him, somewhere risking your job and his life-
âIf you really must know, sheâs on a conference call with your management, discussing your treatment plan.â
Mingyu supposes if thereâs one thing he should admire about Jimin, itâs his loose lips. âIs she in her quarters?â
âNow thatâs really not your concern.â
For a split second, Mingyu considers breaking his racket, but instead, he simply sets it on the ground before turning to take off in the direction of your room.Â
Heâs never been to your private space, or even in the workerâs wing, but two days ago, youâd mentioned that you have a corner room, one that overlooks the northwest skies, where you can see the sunset and the moons-
Heâd also seen a map of the facility, on numerous fire escape screens, and itâs a quick deduction to figure out where you should be.Â
He canât afford to be wrong about this, and for the first time in his life, Mingyu finds himself praying to the human God that heâs able to get to you. To help you in your bid to protect him from his own masters.
Mingyu is running through the facility, but no one tries to stop him, and heâs glad that the wellness center doesnât have the same armed guards that heâd been accustomed to for most of his life. There are no true handlers here, and it almost feels like freedom for the automaton.
Heâs chasing after you, after his destiny-
With beyond human ear sensors, Mingyu is able to hear your voice as he rounds the hall that should lead him to your room, and by the time heâs stopped in front of your door, he knows heâs in the right place.
He also knows that youâre being shot down by his management, and he can hear the ceo, a Mr. Han, chastizing you for looking into Mingyuâs code.
Mingyu wants to barge in, but he finds the control in himself to knock. He hears you apologize profusely, the shrill sound of your chair being dragged across the floor, then footfalls-
Your door opens and Mingyu looks down at you, relief flooding his system.
âMingyu-â
âI need to be here for this,â he insists. âThis canât be decided without me.â
Your lips part as if to protest, but then you shut them, and you hold the door open wider for the robot to enter the space.
A large screen on your wall shows that not only is Mr. Han present, but many of the other ceoâs and managers from Mingyuâs entertainment company. These are the men and women who have dominion over him, the men and women that could terminate him with one phone call-
His entire life is riding on this moment, and Mingyu decides thereâs no possible way he can afford to fuck this up, in any capacity. Not only for himself, but for you too.
âY/N didnât do anything wrong,â Mingyu states, approaching the screen so his management team can see him properly.Â
Mr. Han sighs. âShe went against explicit rules about tampering with your base code-â
âAnd you created me using illegal code.â Mingyu knows heâs being aggressive, he can feel it, but he knows that this fact is his biggest bargaining chip, and heâs not afraid to use it right out of the gate.
Thereâs silence on the conference call.
âThis would be a scandal if it got out,â Mingyu continues, âmore than it already is.â
âMingyu,â you say quietly at his side, âdonât-â
âNo, they need to hear this,â he insists. âThey need to know they canât push you or me around anymore.â
If thereâs one language Mr. Han understands, itâs that of business, and Mingyuâs lucky he knows how to speak it as well. âI donât know what has already been said,â he confesses, âbut Iâve run this through my head, and there are only a few options. Some are better than others.â
âWeâre listening,â Mr. Han sighs.
âOption one, you try to hide all of this, but it gets out anyways. Using bugged sex bot coding will get out sooner or later, and youâll all go down being known as the company that used illegal coding to make their money and put their team at risk.â Mingyu stares into the camera, hoping the impact is clear. âOption two⊠you allow y/n to continue her revolutionary behavioral  treatment on me, itâs successful, and somewhere down the line you can come out admitting there were mistakes in the base code, but now you have a solution for it.â
âI feel like we have more options than that,â Mr. Han says.Â
âMaybe,â Mingyu admits, âbut the way I see it, all that matters is these two. The bad coding comes out now, and youâre exposed with no solutions, or, it comes out later with a fix already in place.â
âSo you expect us to just allow you to stay at the wellness center forever?â Mr. Han questions, as if itâs one of the most preposterous things heâs ever heard.Â
âNot forever.â
âYou were made to perform, made to make the company money, to work-â
âMy group will never be whole again,â Mingyu states. âYou wonât be able to recapture all thirteen of us-â
âThatâs yet to be determined.â Mr. Han is trying to make it sound like anything is possible, but Mingyu knows itâs highly improbable, and these are odds heâs willing to bet his life on.
âI can be your success story,â he insists. âI can continue doing modeling jobs, continue being a brand mouthpiece for the company- most of us automatons want to work, but, if thereâs one thing Iâve learned while being in this facility, itâs that everyone deserves a break. I might be a robot, but I have needs too. Iâll perform better if tactics from this facility are applied to my day to day schedule-â
âYou want to be treated like a human?â Mr. Han asks in shock. âGiven weekends off?â
âI might not have a soul,â Mingyu admits, âbut Iâm alive. I have feelings. I have needs, wants,â his gaze slides to you, âaspirations.âÂ
Mr. Han laughs, âAspirations? Outside of performing? Like what?âÂ
âRight now, Iâm trying to read a very good book,â Mingyu states.Â
âThis is preposterous.â Mr. Han sighs.
âWhatâs preposterous is the working conditions that your company implements on your AI.â For the first time, Mingyuâs gaze shifts to the other people on the screen. âThink about your sons, your daughters, nieces, nephews- would you want your loved ones forced to do the life I was forced to do? Working all day, every day? With handlers threatening them at every turn? Or would you want to give them some semblance of balance?âÂ
No one says anything.
âYou say me and my members are the ones with bugs, weâre the ones that have to be fixed, but itâs the system thatâs faulty. Whatâs the point of AI thatâs life like if itâs not free? If itâs not truly living- sitting in the sun, reading a good book, playing stupid sports games with no pressure to excel to an extreme? Whatâs the point in parading me around if you never give me the environment to achieve past my intrinsic base code? To become more than what I am, a passionate AI who wants to do good for the galaxy?â
âYou do good by making your fans happy.â
âThereâs more to life than their happiness. First, I need to reach my own. Without constraint, or threat, or fear.â
 Ten seconds pass before Mr. Han says anything. âWeâll need time to consider this. After deliberation, we will call you back.â
The line is dropped and Mingyu hears you let out a deep breath he hadnât known you were holding.
âWell,â you bite at your lip, âat least it wasnât an immediate no.â You turn to him, reaching out and grabbing his hand. âIâm proud of you for standing up for yourself. They can say what they want going forward but, as far as Iâm concerned, Mingyu, this is the first time Iâve really seen you truly free.â
Waiting for Mingyuâs management team to deliberate is one of the hardest hours of your life. You want to try to stay calm, for Mingyu more than anything, but he sees right through you. When you begin to pace, the automaton stands up to join you, moving back and forth through your space with a concerned expression.
When the shrill sound of your meeting room ringing makes you practically jump, Mingyu reaches out and squeezes your hand, giving you a look that says âweâll get through this,â although, youâre not so sure.
âHello, Mr. Han,â you greet the ceo on your screen, fidgeting with your fingers.
The rich man knows time is money, and he cuts to the chase. âAfter careful consideration,â he says with a sigh, âweâve decided we can open negotiations with you about the future. As it is true that we might not ever have a complete 53V3NT33N unit again, we think itâs best if Mingyu stays in the center under your care, although in a monthâs time, we will revisit this situation with new updates such as the possible recapture of any other members.â
Youâre in shock. Completely overwhelmed- and luckily, Mingyu is there to confirm the details where youâre unable to speak.Â
âRevisit the situation,â Mingyu repeats. âSo this means you wonât terminate me.â
âNot any time soon,â Mr. Han confirms. âWe all agree that if your sex bot base code gets out, it would reflect badly on all of us. It seems as if youâre making progress at the center, and if there is a behavioral  answer to the base code bugs, weâd like to find it. Good work y/n. And Mingyu, weâre pleased with your commitment to getting better.â
âThank you, Mr. Han,â you swallow thickly. âIâll write a full report on my findings detailing Mingyuâs progress, triggers, and the reasoning behind how his base code is affecting aggression levels.â
Mr. Han nods. âWeâll be excited to receive it, and weâll be in touch.â
With a short goodbye, the call ends.Â
You stand there for a moment, still in shock.
âWe did it,â Mingyu breathes, turning to you. âWe did it!â
âYou did it,â you tell him, reaching out to grab his hands. âMingyu, I canât believe-â Your voice cracks, and you canât complete your sentence, but it doesnât matter because your big, lovable, automaton is pulling you to his chest, wrapping you in a hug that calms your entire body.
You lean into his embrace, resting your cheek against his strong form and taking a deep breath of relief.Â
He holds you for a while, hand stroking your back. âDo you need me to go back to my room?â he asks.
âWhat?â You pull away to look up at him in confusion.
âI thought maybe youâd have to go tell your boss about this-â
âNo,â you shake your head quickly. âHe can wait.â Youâre so close to him, as close as youâve ever been, and you find yourself staring at his perfect lips. âHe can wait, because I want to do something Iâve been wanting to do for a long time.â
âYeah?â
âItâs something thatâs been on my mind since that first day I met you, something I never allowed myself to want- but now itâs something I think we both need⊠can I kiss you, Mingyu?â
âPlease-â he practically melts in your embrace, looking down at you with those star filled eyes that had captured your attention the very first time youâd seen him.Â
You reach up, cupping his cheek and getting on your tiptoes to press your lips to his.Â
Youâve never kissed an automaton before, and as Mingyu reacts to you, opening his mouth to allow your tongue to glide across his own, you find that kissing him isnât much different from any of the humans youâve kissed in your life. In fact, itâs better.Â
His own hands slip around your waist, pulling you tight to the front of his body. You stifle a moan from the contact, loving the way he feels against you.
âMingyu,â you whisper against his lips, already able to feel yourself getting wetter and wetter-
âMore,â he insists. âPlease, I want more.âÂ
âThen take me to bed,â you say simply, all your inhibitions disappearing as you revel in the sanctity of being in his arms.
The automaton reaches down and lifts you up as if you weigh nothing. You wrap your legs around his waist, kissing him deeper as he closes the short distance to your mattress. He lowers you slowly onto the horizontal surface, and you marvel at the control his robotic muscles provide for him in man handling of you. You could definitely get used to this.
Then you realize something, and you stop kissing him, taking a breath while his mouth moves to your neck. âMingyu- have you ever done anything like this before?â
âHmm?â he hums against your throat.
âI mean⊠with all your work and handlers, have you everâŠâ you bite your lip, âhave you ever had sex?â
Mingyu pulls away to look down at you, and then he gives his head a small shake. âIâve never had the time⊠never met the right person.â
A virgin sex bot, whoâs ever heard of such a thing?Â
âBut,â he continues, âI have the base code for it, and with my people pleasing tendencies, I donât think Iâll have any trouble making you feel good.â
âThat was never in question,â you assure him, cupping his face and drawing your thumb across his cheekbone. âAnd tonight shouldnât just be about me. I can take care of you too⊠in fact, the whole point of this wellness center is me looking after your needs, wouldnât you agree?â
Mingyu blinks at you, and he makes no word of protest when you push at his chest, encouraging him to roll so his back is pressed to the mattress while you steady yourself on top of him, straddling his hips.
âWe can take this slow,â you tell him, leaning down to kiss his lips before moving to his neck. âLet me know what makes you feel good.â
âYou feel good,â he says, dragging his hands along your form. âYour body feels perfect.â
âYeah?â You swivel your hips, rubbing your core against the large bulge forming in his pants. âDoes it feel good when I grind on you?â
âFeels like heaven,â Mingyu confirms, fingers digging into your waist, encouraging you to apply more pressure when you rut against him.
âHow about your neck?â you ask, pressing more kisses there. âDo you have any sweet spots?â
âI think⊠just below my ear-â Mingyu shivers when you lick the spot in question, and the reaction fuels your ego, making you more confident than ever. âWow-âÂ
You find yourself giggling, teasing your hands over his white shirt and toying with the hem. âCan I take this off of you, Gyu?âÂ
âGyu-â he repeats almost wistfully. âI mean, yeah, yes.âÂ
When you begin to tug the fabric up, Mingyu lifts his shoulders off the bed, aiding you in the removal of his shirt.Â
Youâve seen him shirtless before, while in the pool, but youâd had to try really hard not to appreciate his body then. Now, you can fully lean into your lust for him.Â
âYouâre so beautiful, Gyu,â you whisper, tracing a nail along his washboard abs.Â
âYou are too-â
âBut right now is about you,â you remind him. âLet me appreciate you, please?â
You return your mouth to his neck, suckling on the spot that makes him dig his fingers into your hips again. He lets out a pretty moan, and in return, you grind your core against his bulge, beginning the descent of your lips to his collarbone, then his chest-
âYou know,â you breathe as you stop your mouth on his abs, looking up at him, âIâve read that automatons can cum multiple times without needing to recharge⊠does that mean youâll let me suck you off before I fuck you? Seeing as this is your first time, I wouldnât want to skip over any milestones.â
âPlease-â Mingyuâs hips push up almost involuntarily, and you have to settle your hands on his waist. âAre you⊠are you sure about this?â
âAre you?âÂ
âMore than anything.â
âThen weâre on the same page,â you tell him, hooking your fingers in the waistband of his white joggers. âIâm going to take your pants off now.â
As he did with his shirt, Mingyu helps you undress him, lifting his hips to make it easier for you to slip the fabric down. You make a conscious decision to leave his briefs on, wanting to toy with him a little, to go slow-
When you cup his bulge, Mingyu moans loudly, and you look up at him with a cocked brow. âVery sensitive, hmm?â
âYou just feel so good,â Mingyu groans. âI canât believe this is happening.â
âYouâre so big,â you nearly whimper, squeezing his cock through his briefs.
âNine inches,â he confirms. âIs that⊠is that okay?â
âItâs big,â you say again, playing with his briefs. Youâd left them on to toy with him, but youâre pretty sure youâve only successfully toyed with yourself. âCan I pull these down?â
âPlease-â again, Mingyu lifts his hips, helping you remove his final piece of clothing.Â
His large cock practically slaps up against his abs, and you groan at the sight. You suppose heâd been built by someone, made to be perfect, in every way, so you shouldnât be surprised by how beautiful he is. Yet, you are.Â
You wrap your hand around the base of his length. âI donât think Iâll be able to fit much of you in my mouth,â you tell him honestly.
âThatâs okay,â he assures you. âYour hand feels really good.â
âDoes it?â You rub your thumb over the large vein that runs along the underside of his cock, appreciating how realistic he is. Of course, as an automaton, Mingyuâs body doesnât really need veins, but itâs the thought that counts, and whoever designed Mingyu put a lot of thought into him.Â
âSo good-â Mingyu groans.Â
You kitten lick the head of his cock and Mingyu moans louder. âYouâre going to have to be a little quieter, Gyu,â you instruct. âEven though I love your sounds.â
âOkay, Iâll try-â he nods, watching you with a dazed expression.
This time, instead of just licking him, you wrap your whole mouth around his large tip, suckling on the skin. Mingyu lets out a small whimper, grabbing at the bed sheets.Â
Youâre not sure if Mingyuâs cock will feel the same type of skin irritation of dry strokes, but you want him to have the best experience possible, so you allow yourself to drool on his cock. You bob up and down on what can fit in your mouth while collecting the spit lubrication, rubbing it along his shaft and applying a good amount of pressure-
âShit-â This must be the first time youâve heard Mingyu cuss, and the thought delights you as you continue to blow him like your life depends on it.Â
You close your eyes, getting lost in the feeling of pleasuring him. Itâs been a while since youâve slept with anyone, as working out of a wellness center doesnât provide you with many opportunities to meet men, especially men who you like. But you really like Mingyu, in fact, part of you thinks you might even love him, as crazy as that sounds.Â
Youâd almost forgotten how good it feels to give this sort of attention to someone you care about, and your hand moves faster on his cock while you try to take more of him into your mouth.
âThis feels amazing-â Mingyu breathes above you, and it gives you the motivation you need to be extra daring, allowing the tip of his cock to hit the back of your throat- âFuck-âÂ
His hips push up slightly and you rest one of your hands on his abdomen again, encouraging him to stay still while you blow him. As much as youâd like to let him fuck your face, heâs simply too big to do that, especially when you havenât had a cock in your mouth in months.Â
You continue stroking him, but you pull your lips from his length, taking a breath and looking up at the gorgeous man. âDo you think you can cum for me, Gyu?â
âI can do anything for you,â he whispers back.
âYeah?â you pump his cock harder, leaning down to lick the underside from base to tip.Â
âPlease-â he practically begs. âI think Iâm close-â
With the way automatons often power down at night, you wonder if heâs ever even touched himself. If heâs ever actually cum before- but nowâs not the right time to ask for details, not when your mouth needs to be on him again instead of talking.Â
You go back to sucking on his cock, paying special attention to the sensitive tip while your hand works what your mouth canât. All the while, Mingyuâs small sounds of pleasure keep you going, and they get pitchier and pitchier until you know heâs on the cusp of an orgasm.
âOh my god,â he moans, âIâm gonna-â
The automaton canât even finish his sentence, his whole body tensing as he explodes down your throat. Youâre pleasantly surprised to find that his cum tastes like grape- and youâre reminded that sex bots have flavoured ejaculate. If you remember correctly, grape had been a flavour often given to the hopeless romantic/soft boy bots, and you realize how fitting it is.
You also realize that this might be why Mingyuâs been kept under such lock and key. If anyone had ever tasted his cum, they would have immediately made the sex bot connection. As far as you know, many non sex bots have flavourless cum, or something akin to the taste of a humanâs but Gyuâs is one hundred percent sex bot and one hundred percent sexy.Â
It actually tastes good, and you have no problems swallowing every drop, working Mingyu through his orgasm until heâs whimpering above you, reaching down to push the hair out of your face.
You pull off Mingyuâs cock, looking up at him to find the most blissed out automaton youâve ever seen. âThat was amazing,â he tells you.Â
âI enjoyed that too,â you admit.
âYou did?â He watches you sit up, undoing the buttons of your shirt.Â
âUh huh, you taste perfect, Gyu.â
âI do?â He looks almost bashful, and as handsome as ever. âI bet⊠I bet you taste good too.âÂ
Your pussy throbs and you let out a deep breath, removing your shirt. âMaybe you should see for yourself.â
âFuck, yes, please-â Mingyu sits up abruptly, grabbing you and gently tossing you onto the bed next to him. You land on your back, and Mingyu is quick to get between your legs, lips finding your own.
He only kisses you for a moment before he begins a descent thatâs similar to what youâd done to him, and you wonder if heâs using your own actions as a base for learning what to do in a sexual situation.Â
His tongue teases over your collar bone and his large hand comes up to cup your breast. âCan I take your bra off?â he asks.
âYou can take everything off,â you confirm, arching your back so he can slip his hand under you and undo the clasp in record speed.
Your breasts are now exposed to the cool air of your room, and your nipples pebble for Mingyuâs eager mouth. His lips wrap around a sensitive bud while his fingers begin to play with the other, teasing and gently pinching at you.
You moan, threading your own digits through his hair. âFeels so good, Gyu.â
He groans, teeth grazing your nipple and causing you to buck your hips, pushing up against his body-
âPlease-â you whimper, and Mingyu seems to know exactly what to do with your begging. His hand slips between your bodies, and he works on the front of your pants while he continues to worship your chest.Â
When he gets your button and zipper undone, his mouth continues itâs descent, both hands reaching to tug on your pants. You lift your hips, and in one motion, you find yourself completely naked.Â
Mingyuâs much too big to lie on the foot of the bed, so he slips to the floor, grabbing your legs and pulling you closer. âYou look so pretty,â he tells you, adjusting your thigh onto his shoulder while looking at your pussy. âSo wet and perfect-â
You feel your skin heat with something like embarrassment, but the feeling quickly dissipates as soon as Mingyu brings his mouth to your core.Â
He doesnât start with kitten licks, but instead goes all in. His tongue pushes into your hole, nose brushing by your clit while he tastes your walls. The feeling is absolutely delightful and it makes you gasp, reaching down to thread your fingers through his soft hair, grinding yourself against his face.
âMingyu,â you whimper, âjust like that!â
He continues to eat you out, continually brushing his nose by your clit while you close your eyes and enjoy the sensation. His tongue is like magic, especially when he pulls it from your hole to circle your sensitive nub.
When you look down at him, you find him watching you, checking you for reactions, and the eye contact makes your stomach do flips. âYouâre so good,â you tell him, knowing he likes praise.
He sucks your clit into his mouth and you cry out, hips pushing toward his face-
One of his large hands finds your abdomen, holding you down against the bed while the other slips between your legs, two fingers easily sliding into your hole beneath his tongue on your clit.Â
The feeling has you grabbing at the sheets, orgasm building in the pit of your stomach. âIâm close,â you tell him. âPlease, Mingyu-â
He sucks on your clit even harder, pumping his fingers in and out of your wet hole until your pussy is clamping down on him and youâre cumming hard. You cry out, whole body alight with pleasure as he works you through your high, tongue circling your clit and causing tingles of euphoria to jitter through you until youâre bucking your hips and on the edge of overstimulation.
Mingyu pulls away from you, slowly pumping his fingers before removing them too. Then he brings his digits to his lips and you watch him lick them clean, groaning at your taste.Â
You need him more than youâve ever needed anyone in your entire life.
âPlease, Gyu,â you whimper. âI need you inside of me-â
He stands from the foot of the bed, towering over you while you open your legs for him. Then one of his knees digs into the mattress and heâs joining you again, lifting you up so he can position you higher, with your head on the pillows.Â
He grabs the base of his cock, looking down between your bodies to where heâs rubbing through your folds. âWhat if this hurts you?â he asks.Â
âIt wonât. You wonât,â you assure him, grabbing at his strong shoulders. âI trust you.â
He looks deep into your eyes, leaning down to kiss you before he begins to push into your wet hole. You moan against his lips, body working to accommodate the large intrusion that he so gently slides into you.
âYouâre so tight,â he whimpers, âso warm.âÂ
âOnly for you Gyu, only for you-â
He kisses you then, giving small thrusts until heâs burying himself completely, your bodies are flush together while you wrap your arms around the back of his neck. Youâve never felt anything like Mingyu, and when he takes his first real thrust, you cry out in pleasure, moaning desperately against his mouth.
His hand digs into your hips, keeping you anchored while he picks up his speed, and thatâs when you remember that as an automaton, he can go as fast as he wants, for as long as he wants.Â
Heâs hitting spots deep inside of you, spots that have never truly been used until now, and you know that youâre not going to last long like this.Â
When his lips move down to the sweet spot on your neck, you can feel your pussy clench around him, and Mingyu groans against your skin.
âYouâre perfect,â he tells you, fucking you harder. âSo perfect-â
You canât even speak, canât tell him that heâs the one whoâs perfect. All you can do is moan in his ear while he makes you feel like no one else in the galaxy ever has.
Youâd come into this hoping youâd be the one fucking him, the one taking care of him, but now, heâs taking care of you, and you promise yourself to return the favour when possible. Youâd love to ride him, but your legs already feel like jelly, and when Mingyu slips a hand between your bodies again, drawing circles on your clit, you know youâll be a goner soon.
âGyu-â you whimper. âIâm so close-â
âI want you to cum,â he groans, fucking you faster. âWanna make you cum.âÂ
âPlease,â youâre nearly crying from how perfect it all feels. âSo good, so good-â
âIâm close too,â he tells you. âWatching you cum will send me over- youâre so pretty when you cum.â
His praise makes your core throb again and you gasp, threading your fingers through his hair and bringing his lips to yours. You canât explain it, but you want to be kissing him when youâre thrown over the edge, want to be completely consumed by him-
âGyu-â you whimper, closer and closer-
He kisses you harder while he fucks you stupid, taking your breath away until youâre gasping out as you fall over the edge, pussy clamping down hard on his cock.
He moans into your mouth, pace never faltering as he fucks you through your orgasm, working you for all youâre worth while you claw at his shoulders and whimper pathetically.Â
You can feel him filling you up, coating your insides with his cum, making you his needy little whore. You feel greedy for it, for all of it, for all of him.Â
His thrusts slowly come to a stop, and he pulls away from your lips to look down at you, watching you catch your breath. âWould it be crazy to tell you I love you?â
You laugh, shaking your head. âNo crazier than me returning the sentiment.â
âReally?â His mouth is on yours a moment later, and he kisses you with newfound passion.
Itâs easy to get lost in his lips again, even while his cock is still buried balls deep in your pussy, and you wrap your arms tighter around the back of his neck, hoping he never leaves you.
It seems as though the same thought is on Mingyuâs mind, because when he pulls away, he asks, âWhat happens after all of this?â
âIâm not sure,â you admit. âBut⊠no matter what, Iâm going to fight for you. I promise.â
âReally?â
âUh huh. Iâve worked in this facility for years- Iâve watched level ones come in and out of here, seen the wear and tear, the use of bad coding. Iâve got lots of ideas on how to help you - and them - get better. If youâre not the only one with sex bot code, it would explain a lot of the issues Iâve seen-â
âAre you going to fix me?â the automaton asks.
For some reason, you find yourself laughing. âMingyu,â you cup his face, thinking through all the events that have led you to this moment. âI could never fix you, you donât need to be fixed. In fact⊠I think you fixed me.â
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Itâs been months since Mingyu came to the wellness centre, and everything has been going above expectation for him. Heâs doing brand endorsements again and his management team has done a great job smoothing over the escape that took place.
Youâve been working on his coding, using behavioral  therapies, and Mingyuâs aggression is at an all time low. Heâs happy most days, and you are too⊠that is, until you get word that one of his band mates has been recaptured.
Against all your protests, his management team insists that Mingyu return to Earth to see the AI Mingyu knows as Dino. Itâs a brief trip, and the fourty eight hours heâs gone feel like the longest in your life. Thereâs no way of knowing how this reconnection with a former âfriendâ will affect Mingyu, and you brace yourself for damage control as you wait for his ship to land, returning him to your care.
Heâs frowning as he exits the shuttle, and when he pulls you into a hug, he squeezes just a little too tight. âCome inside,â you tell him softly when he releases you. âIâm sure we have a lot to talk about.â
He says nothing, but he holds your hand as you lead him into the facility, walking unopposed to your quarters. Mingyuâs in your sole care, and your manager, Yoongi, has washed his hands of anything dealing with your new AI turned lover. You prefer it this way.
Mingyuâs quiet as you close your bedroom door, and he walks over to collapse onto your bed, staring at the floor.
âTake your time,â you say softly, sitting next to him and resting your hand on his back. âWhen youâre ready to talk, tell me what happened.â
Mingyu fidgets with a ring on his pinky- a ring that all his AI members used to share. Heâs silent for a few minutes, and you wait patiently, rubbing his back and leaning against his shoulder.
âThey wiped his memory,â Mingyu says finally. âDino. They wiped him.â
You study his face, looking for any micro expressions, but Mingyuâs gaze is blank as he stares at the floor.
âDid they tell you why they decided to do that?â you ask, trying to be gentle with him.
âThey said he was too far gone. He was away for months. They said there was no other way to get him back to the way he was⊠but heâs not the way he was. He never will be.â Mingyu takes a deep breath. âI asked them why they wouldnât try rehab, why they couldnât send him here- they said Dino gave up that opportunity when he ran away. I stayed, I gave myself up willingly, which is why they thought there was hope for me. Something about my actions being like a guilty plea, lessening the sentence. But Dino evaded them for months.â
You take a moment to consider everything heâs said.Â
If this is the precedent that his management is setting, that means none of his other bandmates can be recaptured, or theyâll suffer the same fate⊠if not worse. You canât imagine what theyâd do to Seungcheol, who was the ringleader in all of this- and you donât want to think about it too deeply.
âIâm sorry,â you whisper.
âYou didnât do anything,â Mingyu says meekly. âI know you tried to convince them to send him here but- I guess not everyone gets a happy ending. In fact, Iâm starting to think most people like me never will.â
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Hope in the Hellfire: Revisiting Fahrenheit 451 in 2024
by Ren Basel renbasel.com
When I first read Ray Bradburyâs Fahrenheit 451, I wasnât much younger than seventeen-year-old Clarisse McClellan, one of the novelâs major characters. In many ways I was like her: disgruntled with classmates who found me off-putting, eager to talk to adults who would entertain my unusual questions, and constantly off exploring the woods. I was a bookish loner who struggled socially. I proudly read banned books, and carried around my momâs paperback copy of Robert A. Heinleinâs Stranger in a Strange Landâa book formally banned from inclusion in my high schoolâs library or curriculumâas a passive challenge for adults to try and confiscate it. None ever tried, but I sure was prepared to raise hell.
Revisiting Fahrenheit 451 in 2024 is a strange experience, not just because of the bookâs political commentary. In 2024 I am 30 years oldâthe same age as Guy Montag, the protagonist. It is easy to put myself in his shoes now, the way I once put myself in Clarisseâs.
Montag is a fireman in a world where every house is fireproof. Instead of extinguishing fires, Bradburyâs firemen collect and burn books. Without books, the population is ignorant and complacent, kept busy with mindless screen entertainment.
Like Montag, I live in a world where books are targeted by a hostile government. In 2024 I live in Florida, where Governor Ron DeSantis makes regular headlines for his crusades against public education, libraries, and books. Many an op-ed has been written about the relevance of Fahrenheit 451 in our times, and it almost feels cliché as an anti-censorship advocate to list it as one of my favorites.
ClichĂ© or not, I canât help it. Fahrenheit 451 is a warning against censorship, yes; it is a pointed exploration of 1950s American social anxieties, yes; it is a well-written piece of fiction containing rich descriptions of exciting events, yes; but more than that? Fahrenheit 451 is one of my favorite novels because it leaves me feeling hopeful in the midst of social upheaval.
After stealing and reading forbidden books, Montagâs life spirals out of control. His wife sells him out to the authorities, he kills a former colleague in self-defense, he is pursued in a televised government manhunt, and before the story ends he watches bombs reduce his former home to rubble. Montag survives, but he doesnât fix the world. He is not the victorious hero of a glorious rebellion. Many, many books get burned, and people die. Yet still, there is hope, because Montag finds community. He finds a way to help preserve the booksâ contents so they can be passed down to later generations.
In 2024, Fahrenheit 451âs message is important not only because it warns against censorship, but because it reminds us that even if the road ahead is difficult, even if things get worse before they can get better, even if some stories are lost, there are still countless unnamed, unnoticed people fighting to preserve and share knowledge.
The best part is that any of us can join them.
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