#settling in / loving someone

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Look what we've become.

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[screwpinecaprice]

I was trying to eat noodles neatly and for some reason I got sad midway. So I drew them messy eating a biscuit and a strawberry to combat sad noodle blues.

[slavhew]

dreaming of friends

[pose reference: Reunion by Salman Toor (2018)]

[astradyke]

warning this might be a nothing post i'm just a little emotional & rambling but like... i think a lot about hometown showdown and gay and not proud a lot. and i understand this was in the peak of YouTube's fuckery with Dan and disrupting his plans for DINOK so i understand there's like a tension behind a lot of what was ongoing. i also realize that YouTube-- more obviously with hometown showdown-- but generally had strong business rationale for wanting Phil to feature in these videos, with Dan & Phil being the duo of HS and Phil being there in gay and not proud (sorry the acronym for this looks ugly).

but man... i think a lot about how hometown showdown was just kind of a lot of dates. i've not seen the other ones but i hear a lot that they were way more competitive versus Dan and Phil were just casually exploring their hometowns together, showing pieces of themselves to the other. i think about all the dialogue that was cut (that I think was alluded to in WDAPTEO 2?)

and i think about like. the seismic Importance of Phil being in gay and not proud as like... Dan's safe space. the same way he's remote crisis manager, the same way he was part of WAD's pre & post show, the same way he filmed that haircut video basically to promo YWGTTN and Dan is leaving me to talk about WAD. the same way that Dan got a taxi to his place after his nightmare experience at the laundromat to do laundry because "for the first time since I was a tiny child, I actually felt safe."

and after the latest mukbang it's like... it's really insane to me how their personal relationship has continued despite the pressures they've faced as being a comedic influencer duo. the fact that they work as business partners but still have this relationship. the fact that even in these YouTube originals that Dan was resentful of at the time anyway you can still glowingly see how much they love each other. like Phil being in gay and not proud wasn't a cameo, it was a fucking love confession.

i dunno. this is something that's been talked about a Lot but i do think about it frequently. i don't tend to rewatch these specials a lot because Jesus Christ the editing really gets me, but like... idk. "you're next to me in my life," or whatever. 15 years have passed and Phil's still cheerleading for Dan, from his first YouTube video to his first solo tour. i dunno.

[plutoloulou]

Seeing all the "where's Tommy??" posts, like come on guys... He's clearly at home sorting through his drawers, seeing what he can get rid of so Buck can have space for his things when he inevitably asks him to move in with him!

He's putting up a whole shelving unit so Buck can turn it into his own personal spice rack for when he's cooking them a nice meal!

Let the man DIY!

[cry-ptidd]

The red means ily!!!

[dykedvonte]

Do you have anything you've been thinking on but just haven't made a post about it yet? Also I'm really enjoying your fic!

I have a few things but it's likely mostly headcanons that I consider somewhat disconnected from my analysis.

Curly's parents had him old, only child, died shortly after he graduated and got the pony express position. It was the last big thing they saw him do which is a reason he stayed for so long.

Doesn't admit how much their death affected him

Jimmy has a largish family. One of the cases of too many kids to keep tract of, parent never really noticed any of them nor their behaviors

Anya lived in a lot of houses growing up, regular supportive family that just struggled to support themselves.

Became a nurse largely to avoid their financial struggles but mostly because she felt too many people weren't being cared for and advocated for in the world properly

Swansea likes high top sneakers most. Likes how snug they fit and how they shield his ankles at work

Curly has a bit of a caffeine problem since he can’t sleep. Can occasionally be found wandering the ship at “night” when he had some too late or just couldn’t sleep.

Daisuke knows a little about a lot of things. Starts conversations with “did you know” a lot but please don’t ask him deeper questions

Curly has known Jimmy longer but has worked with Anya and Swansea longer, met them during his middle years, met Jimmy shortly before college.

Swansea rents a house, Daisuke’s family lives in a big nice apartment, Curly has a condo, Anya live in a small one bedroom apartment and Jimmy has a studio.

Curly's home is very disconcerting. It's too normal to a like uncanny degree.

Anya is ambidextrous but prefers her left.

Anya and Curly are both not native English speakers so occasionally they forget words and bond over the mutual mocking they get from the rest of the crew. Daisuke knows some Japanese but is still learning, never picked it up as a kid

Only Swansea and Daisuke know how to drive, Earth in my mind is very post capitalist so only older people and like the extremely wealthy can afford cars.

It's also like walkable just due to how many businesses are in your face. Probably strict living vs shopping districts

I have more but the way that I headcanon about them is like too long.

[morganbritton132]

David kinda hates that he has to interrupt the truly bizarre conversation Steve and Dustin are having about wiretapping and a ‘Cerebro’ but Career Day is about to officially start and-

Steve: David! Hey, have I intro- no, I introduced you guys already. How do you feel about older women?

Dustin: Oh my god, Steve, El and I are just friends! And anyways, she’s not going to want to date this literal child!

David, reluctantly: I’m twenty-four

Steve: I’m not asking for El. I’m asking for Susie since you won’t marry her either.

Dustin: What’s Susie going to do with a middle school teacher? She’d have a more intellectually stimulating conversation with a brick wall.

Steve: Dude, harsh. Apologize.

Dustin, unconvincing: Sorry

David: Uh, no problem? Steve, um. You wanted to know when… Well, your ex. He’s here.

Steve HE’S here???

[bitchthefuck1]

Still thinking about this by the way

[glyphes]

Happy, healed and healthy adventurers Gale and Astarion! I chose all the Astarion origin/ rogue dialogue specific options for this

[kacievvbbbb]

Look I like Roger enough, I understand what he represents and I generally don’t think he was a bad dude. I do however think he was shit at interpersonal relationships because, what the fuck. Whitebeards crew is infinitely more well adjusted and I’d say he arguably had the more traumatic death.

Like what even, what kind of planning leads a 53 year old man to sire a child knowing he is dying of an incurable illness and is about to turn himself in to be excuted by the marines where he will cause so much chaos it is literally still turning the world on its head 22 years later. He knew he was going to cause so much of a stir that he literally disbanded his crew and told them to spread far and wide to keep them safe. Because he knew the marines would hunt them far and wide But yet he still brought a baby into the world. Babe. What the fuck? What even is that? What was the thought process. I sincerely hope it was an accident and not a deliberate attempt to bring about a new era.

Because if so babe I need to see the recipe or I’m afraid we can never let you cook again

[buckevantommy]

it's so wild to look at s1!buck compared to s7!buck

[mikeslawyer]

“i think will should have his happy ending with a new character they introduce as his love interest for him in s5” = “i hate will and want him miserable” for me. please stop saying that ❤️

[batcavescolony]

Why do people keep saying they want Agatha to adopt Billy or that Billy is a motherless child or that Agatha is Billy's new mom.... Y'all he says Rebecca is his mom, canonically in the show. Agatha isn't his mom.

[3lji]

domestic:

adjective:

no longer wild; domesticated; tame:

(all translations by @alexc1ting ♥️)

[polin-erospsyche]

I saw someone say that the mature thing to do is to realise that Debling is the better choice because it took Colin almost loosing Pen to realise his feelings and honestly I’m flabbergasted.

I mean yeah sure, I know there are people out there who prefer Debling. But they’re really out there trying to convince people that he is the better choice? When he essentially said « I don’t have time for this, I don’t have time for you »? But just with a nicer smile and a softer voice. To be convinced that the better option is the man who will not give you the time of day. To be convinced that a life without love is a better option than one with it. To be convinced that it is alright to sacrifice what you hope for the most out of life. A love like the one in the books you read. And for what? A lonely, isolated and cold life? Pen was ready to sacrifice her hopes and dreams and happiness for that. And the saddest part was she was miserable when that slipped out of her grasp. Because she was in a position where a loveless life in a big empty house was better than a miserable one with her family. She was in a position that affected her mental health so much that she was willing to sacrifice herself. And I know that the time period is not the same, but I’d like to think that even back then you’d try to find someone who you could at least become friends with if you had a choice in the matter. Not someone who was going to marry you and pin you up like a doll in his perfectly manicured doll house.

So I’m sorry but if you think for one second that the prospect of a life like that is a better choice than one by the side of someone who is utterly lost in love with you, who was in the middle of loving before he even realised he had started to fall, who wishes for your happiness above all else, who knows you better than anyone, who is a mirror to your soul, a home for your heart and a best friend who will weather any storm right by your side than we are not watching the same show. Or we just don’t want the same kind of love.