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tesruinedmylife · 5 years ago

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🐟 and 💚 for Isa and Livia!!

Ok so THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR THE QUESTIONS, i had so much fun writing this!! And also, as you can see, i got a bit carried away and wrote veery long answers that even got a bit fanfic-ish jdntjdntj so thank you even more for breaking my curse of writer's block 💙💙💙

🐟: What was your OC like as a baby? What were they like as a child? A teenager? An adult? How do you think they'll develop ten years into their future? Twenty years? Will they live to an old age?

Isa: she was lively and loud as a baby, always craving attention and messing around. It didn't change much while she was growing up - with mostly absent parents, she countinued being as mischievous as possible, running around her family's estate and giving servants headaches.

It was her teenage years that truly changed her, since as a young heir to a rather wealthy Breton family she had many expectations thrown on her. It was also then when she started questioning her gender identity and fully embraced that she's a girl. Her parents promised her that one day they will fund her transition, but only under the condition that she will fulify their every wish. So, she tried and tried to become what they wanted her to be, but ended up failing every time. She couldn't embrace the noble lifestyle with all it's sophistication and unhonesty, she couldn't become a great mage who would continue her family's tradition, she couldn't handle the army's discipline... Her parents got more controlling and demanding with her every unsuccesful attempt to reach their expectations, and she became more insecure and started believing that she was just as pathetic and weak as they described her.

She stayed under their absolute influence until the age of 25 - when she finally had enough and, motivated by a bottled up anger, stole a lot of their valuable belongings and ran away. During her young adult days, for the first time in many years, she actually had a possibility to decide who she was really, but at the same time she felt so, so lost, because beyond very basic values she lost the sense of herself while chasing after her parents' dreams.

She had to find it again - and it was a long, tough way.

When she escaped the imperial prison, after avoiding the death she was certainly not ready for, she came to a rather sad conclusion that she still didn't know who she truly was: but she knew what she wasn't.

She wasn't particularily brave - any louder sound gave her a heart attack and she definitely didn't handle the blade well, but the rushes of fear and adrenaline she got in dangerous situations mostly helped her make it out alive.

She wasn't a liar, not anymore - she lived out of deception for a long time and it eventually led to her downfall, so she swore to herself to stay as honest as possible.

She wasn't strong - she broke down, gave up, ran away. But beyond everything, she wasn't a quitter - a longing to live, to survive long enough to experience some peace, kept her going.

Ten years later, she mourned this unstoppable woman.

After the fateful last day of the third era, she returned to the Shivering Isles, the place she did visit before, but was saved from by the purpose she still had - assisting in saving the Empire from the Daedra. It felt like the easiest thing to do, mantling Sheoghorath, though she still didn't completly loose herself, not until her daughter died.

Death surrounded her, but she stayed untouched by it - rather a good ending for a person so desperate to stay alive, right?

Livia: alll the way growing up, she was a quiet, humble girl, more willing to stay inside and study all day than to play with other kids. Raised in Bravil by her father, Mara's priest, she quickly learnt how unfortunate some people are, and with his asistance she could often be seen tossing coins to local beggers. Her life turned upside down after his unexpected death; her mother, who arrived at the city strangely in time, took her to her new family in Hammerfell.

Her stepfather and his son were rather out of the picture, given their high ranks in the Imperial Legion, which gave her mother the biggest influence on Livia - just as she planned. The girl often didn't quite understand the lessons given to her in secret, about Sithis, the Night Mother, the Void, their family's heritage, about the unfulified duty... But she listened.

With years, she grew more familiar with all the concepts, with the idea of killing in the name of a deity - the idea so different from the one she knew when she was younger. While studying theory, she also practiced fighting, to become a silent, obedient, deadly weapon just as expected.

Then, not a long time after she turned 17, she was sent to the Imperial City, to some distant relative, where she was supposed to learn how to "blend in", as her mother described it. While still rather cold and sharp, she started using her wits and charms for her advantage, guided by her upstate aunts and cousins. She got quite used to this lifestyle and after a few years she could be easily mistaken for a wealthy born young lady.

Yet, she did not forget her past, and the information of her mother's death shock her deeply.

She was instructed to go to Skyrim in a last letter from her, but it was where the clues ended; she had to make her own decisions in a cruel and an unknown world. Luckily for her, she was a quick learner; with little to no guidance, she rather hurtfully realised when to use a blade, and when to use words.

With the world trembling down, with the indescribeable responsibility on her shoulders, with people coming and leaving, she didn't have time to be soft - she was all power, all rage.

At the beginning, she tried to stay on her own, just like she had for most of her life, but, in the end, she got people she could rely on, and slowly stopped being the lone warrior the ballads described her as.

Her future is indefinite and blurry, but I like to imagine she gets to find some peace eventually.

💚 Are you writiny anything with this OC or planning on writing anything for them? Do you rp with them or are they just for fun to mess around with?

I actually do have a couple of short stories started for the both of them, and ideas for even more!! And since my writer's block is slowly but surely wearing off, i might actually finish some of them soon 👀

#the elder scrolls #tes oc #oblivion #skyrim #hero of kvatch #the last dragonborn #seriously thank you so much i owe you my firstborn child #💙💙💙#ver's ocs

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yekistraight · 4 years ago

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Hey, could you explain what being a feminist means? I’ve heard all these terms before, and there’s this huge stigma around it. So do you think there’s a way you could clarify at least what your beliefs are, and what you believe it to be? I’m simply trying to study stuff and see what it’s become or is. Thank you.

Sorry I wrote so much i just wanted to make it comprehensive:

General definition of feminist is someone who believes in the socio-economic equality of the sexes. In the beginning this was a straightforward ideology to follow. Women needed to be equal to men. It’s only fair, there’s no reason not to be. But sharing power is not something the ruling majority particularly enjoys so there’s been some bumps in the road. Decades and decades of bumps.

The feminists of the past started this push a long time ago with one message: “we want to be taken seriously, we are humans too and we need rights that benefit us and protect us from you[men]” and they were right. Sex based crimes against women were happening at an alarming rate. So much so that it had become part of some cultures and traditions, meaning it would be defended and men would be protected while women basically died, physically and socially. Women lived in fear and helplessness, being sold a dream of subservience promoted by religion and ego in exchange for protection from men. What about the women that still, despite the odds, wanted to choose a different path? Well, they were brave enough to step out of line and others followed. They exist throughout history, inspiring other women will their bravery and confidence, proving that it was possible to have the power and authority that men had. Now imagine giving every woman that access to power? They’d have everything right? Well feminism didn’t start like that (it was racially exclusive actually) but fortunately the ideologies spread out through cities, across oceans and into continents where women wanted, no, NEEDED such power; the power to change their destinies that had been set upon them by another mere human being.

So feminism is like a sisterhood, where we’re only related by a common goal to protect each other while trying to defeat our common enemy. Here’s where the simplistic ideology begins to mutate based on strategy and cultural progression.

Feminism is a sisterhood, but not a monolith. There’s been different waves (eras) of feminism where each sisterhood used different tactics to achieve their goals for equality. Its like making a new checklist after the old one gets checked off. However there’s been one item that still needs a lot of work before ticking off and that’s dismantling gender roles. Gender roles are the root cause of every.single.thing. Toxic masculinity, performative femininity. Gender roles were created to control humans and keep them in their place. For a feminist to push her way into male dominated spaces, she must first acknowledge that gender roles have been constructed to work against her and break through it. So take note, everything is the way it is because of gender roles.

In this era, the sisterhood has been split into two major groups, two warring tribes if you will: libfems and radfems.

Liberal Feminists accept everyone. They use the tactic of assimilation, where they water down feminist ideologies to make it inclusive for everyone. They follow the lead of oppressed minorities who reclaimed slurs and instead reclaim methods tused to oppress women that past waves of feminists fought to dismantle. Remember what I said about gender roles? These women are bringing it back and think they’re reclaiming it. How do you reclaim something that hasn’t been dismantled yet?The only power they’re concerned with is the feeling of superiority that comes from thinking bowing down to the patriarchy is their idea. Their feminism tackles issues like rape, victim blaming and misogyny, things that affect them personally, while taking on the burden of other marginalised groups as their own, pushing their own goals to the backseat while feeling a self-righteous high. Basically, they’re activists who have lost the plot but would keep pushing blindly than admit it. The second group was born from libfems that wanted more than a feel good pat on the back from the patriarchy for not being too interfering.

Radical feminists are still following the original objective of their predecessors. They still have their eyes open to sex-based oppression and are aware there’s still a lot of work to be done. They don’t put the opposite sex’s needs above their own or let other group’s ideologies influence theirs and because of this, other groups as well as libfems have dubbed them as enemies to progress. Ironic isn’t it? The group that still fights for sexual equality has been silenced by none other than their own. Of course hatred for this group of feminists didn’t come out of nowhere. Radfems and their female-only values are presumed to hurt trans women, as trans women are biologically male and don’t have the same sex based experiences as biological women. Trans activists took these as transphobic fighting words and ostracised radfems, silencing them and their ideologies, claiming that everything they fought for was an attack against the trans community. Conservative americans also share some radfem values, basically the one on keeping the movement focused on female only issues, and because the right is notoriously bigoted (ironic because conservatives are the ones who uphold the gender roles feminists fight against so a conservative feminist is paradoxical) this is enough to tell people that radfems can’t be trusted. That they’re all racist, transphobic white supremacists. Because all groups that share similar ideologies are bad. The public, not wanting to be on the Unpopular Opinion side of history, shifted away and further pushed radfems into the background while libfems and their blind acceptance values were hailed as the patron saints of feminism.

So what feminism was and what it is now are vastly different. It started as a movement in different countries with different goals, then it graduated and took on more serious topics. It was like a game where every level gets tougher to prepare you for that last boss, the one who holds all the power you need to physically change your reality.

Today in the year 2021, young girls are being told that it’s feminist to enjoy selling their bodies for money. That it’s the same as working in a mine (a common comparative statement). That it’s feminist to look as womanly as the gender roles men created dictate. That it’s feminist to watch porn and be happy your romantic partner watches it to; this means you’re sexually liberated. Grown women go to Tiktok full of minors in the style of pimps to show off stacks of money they’ve made from pleasing men. They say “i did it because i wanted to and so should you”. Minors are all over twitter trying to lure men with financial dominatrix tags. They can’t wait till they become legal to start selling their nude bodies to men. They were told it would make them feel powerful. People who are skeptical are shamed into silence, because the popular crowd is always in control and no one wants to be the odd one out.

Now compare that to women who spend time researching horrifying news of sexual violence still happening today. Women still having to sell themselves to survive in 2021 is a clear indicator that we’re still not taken seriously. Sex buying, pimping and displaying women as commodities is the reason little girls are being stolen off the streets and shipped off to a disgusting dreg who think he’s owed sexual satisfaction.

Radfems want to end child sex trafficking, sex slavery, wedding night virginity checks, honour killings, femicide, sewing up little girls vaginas to avoid them exploring their sexuality before their wedding night and bring attention to way more hardcore shit being run by top dogs who are cooperating with the old powers that influence the governments.

Whose side do you think the media will be on? Whose side is worth not risking ruffling feathers?

Feminism has become many things now. You can choose the one that reminds you of the cruelty of man or the one that creates a comfortable fantasy of false empowerment while women’s violence continues. Both get stigmatised anyway.

If it wasn’t obvious already, I’m a radical feminist.

I’m an autistic radfem living in a backwards country where the lgbt community can’t thrive so there’s no pride parades, no trans movement, nothing that can be publicised anyway. I can’t create a fantasy where everything works because nothing works. Women are dying around me everyday for being female, my best friend is trapped with an abusive father who hates her for being a female firstborn (something babies get killed for), I’m not worthy of basic respect without a husband, a poor woman from a muslim state gets death threats from her fellow muslims for wearing a backless top while a rich married one gets praised and women can’t apply for anything important without a man’s permission.

Now why on earth would i want to pamper the gender that made and uphold those laws? The battle here is still greatly a battle of the sexes. Despite this stale level of progress, our movement, like many others have allies. Male allies are great, allies are great, we need them to push buttons yes but also remember they can never fully understand what we feel. All they can do is try their best to help and in return we give them acknowledgement and support; so no we’re not supposed to be misandrists or transphobes. We just hate anyone who uplifts what we and our ancestors have been fighting to destroy.

That’s all

#radfems do interact #radical feminism #feminism #terf

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thawedpatriot · 6 years ago

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okay, my e.ndgame thoughts are below the cut. beware, they’re somewhat incoherent at times mainly just because my brain is still trying to wrap my head around some stuff. also it’s really really long. like 3k words long. major spoilers ahead!

-okay so the whole beginning felt. really rushed, if that makes sense? like, i’m glad that tony got back to earth fairly early on but that was very sudden, having carol show up and carry the ship to the compound. however, i can’t complain too much because watching steve book it to tony’s side as he was coming off the ship gave me life. the fact that he just hovered the whole time and was there to support him and show he cares just. pleased me.

- tony had every right to blow up at steve. i mean, god, the man’s been through so much. he’s lost so much and is still recovering from everything that happened. he’s frustrated and angry and hurting and steve pressed for information too callously too soon, and it set an exhausted tony off. totally valid. and tony was right, he saw all this coming and no one listened to him, even though half of that was just bc aou was a fucking mess writing wise. but steve told him ‘together’ and because they weren’t together when shit went down, they all lost. would it have killed either of them to call during the two years they had to do so? no, probably not. that probably would’ve been a step towards working back to that ‘together’ thing. because there’s years of unresolved tension and conflict between them at this point, none of it ever got resolved between them, so it’s finally coming to a head now that they’re properly in the same room again.

- that said, the ‘you weren’t there when i needed you’ bit rubbed me the wrong way. because it was bruce who ended up calling. tony never made a call, never asked for steve’s help. never let him know he needed him, even though he had that ability to. so yes, steve is at fault here too, but it’s not 100% on him that things went down the way they did, if that makes sense.

- tony shoving the arc reactor into steve’s hand???? killed me on the spot, thanks.

- the devastation steve must be feeling when they figure out the stones are gone??? gutting. he was so sure they would be able to bring everyone back wit the stones once they’d taken care of thanos. he was so ready for a fight, so ready to get his revenge and make things right, and there just. was no fight, no way to bring his friends back. he’d lost bucky all over again, and now he’s lost sam, too. sam, who he dragged into all this. that kind of guilt festers in him for those five years, no doubt.

- i wanna know what steve did for those five years. because, yes, we see him talking in that small therapy group, but not only is he giving advice he’s not taking himself, but he’s just not shown doing much of anything else. he’s holding on to all his trauma and grief and not dealing with it, just like he’s been doing since he left the ice. so what is he doing all that time??? but also seeing him in a therapy group setting made my heart swell a little bit because you know he did that for sam. he misses his friend and is doing that for him, i will not believe anything otherwise. sam was and is so important to him.

- this is unrelated to steve but is important to me as a bi: carol’s hair looked so good i made a noise when i saw it and my friend hit me in the arm

- god i wish we saw more of steve and nat interact. because clearly they’ve been in contact with one another for the past 5 years and that’s probably the longest running friendship he’s had going besides bucky so. it’s nice to know he didn’t lose everyone in one way or another for those 5 years. they just know each other so well and recognize the similarities between one another and i’m just really glad he wasn’t all alone all that time.

- steve is so done with everyone throughout this movie, including himself. it’s beautiful.

- sidenote, i could not take bruce seriously as a character the way he was and i don’t know why. also they did thor dirty. they did thor so dirty. he was a joke until they needed him to fight. the level of guilt and trauma thor is dealing with is immeasurable and they turned it into comic relief by leaning into fat-shaming and joking about alcoholism???? nah man, that’s not okay. not at all. address that he’s dealing with ptsd, show that he’s using unhealthy coping mechanisms, and help him. don’t make fun of him, don’t just let him keep doing that to himself, help him. the only scene in the whole movie i genuinely liked with him in it was his scene with frigga. because she took him seriously, she was willing to listen and offer advice and tell him what he needed to hear. that scene was so important.

- another sidenote, as much as i disliked p.epperony in the past, this movie made me appreciate them more. because i’ve always loved them both as individual characters, pepper potts owns my whole soul, but as a couple they were just written in a way that made me not love it as the movies went on. however, this movie really showed growth in their development as a couple, in pepper accepting tony for who he is and the needs he has to do good. also tony is an amazing father and it’s just so validating to see a character who grew up with an abusive parent break the cycle and become soft and kind in any interactions he has with his daughter. you can tell how much he loves his family, and it’s what he deserved.

- okay so i hope we can all agree the time travel science in this movie was fucked and they did a really bad job at explaining how it works. it was not clear, did not make sense, and following standard time travel laws there were a million paradoxes happening and it makes me angry. nebula killing her past self? bullshit bc she should not exist after that. steve’s whole ending??? also bullshit but i’ll get to that later because that’s an essay in itself.

- tony giving steve the shield back was such a big deal okay. the fact that tony has acknowledged that holding onto the resentment was detrimental to his own health and being was so important. we got a handshake and i really thought they were gonna go for a hug but noooo that’d be too much to ask for i guess. but steve hasn’t seen or held that thing in like 7 years it has to be nice to have it in his hands again, seeing as he always refers to it as an extension of his arm and all. and to be getting it back, nice and polished, from tony probably means a great deal to him as well.

- okay now let’s get to the actual time travel bit. steve and tony being the ones to zap back to 2012???? my god its like everything i ever wanted was handed to me on a platter. that movie was what got me on this marvel train and as even with its issues, it holds such a dear place in my heart. so you know the second that ‘2012′ popped onto the screen i was ready to combust. and then it just got better because it felt like an extension of the movie, like we were seeing deleted scenes, which was just. really nice??

- god okay “america’s ass” gave me so much life as dumb as the whole joke was. because tony blatantly checking out steve’s ass?? my dude thats the gayest thing i’ve ever seen with my own two eyes. but then tony commenting on how his ass looks in the suit???? i was living, okay. living. and the fact that he checked out his past self’s ass and was like ‘yeah, damn straight’ amused me greatly.

- ngl the ‘hail hydra’ bit made me uncomfy initially, but honestly i’m just gonna appreciate how clever my boy is and how stupid hydra is. his ‘i’m clever and i know it and i just outsmarted piece of shit nazis’ smile as he walked away from the elevator with the case???? priceless. i was half expecting another elevator fight but i guess that wouldn’t really make sense sfdghj

- steve fighting himself? past steve reacting to the compass appearing and getting super fucking pissed over the concept that someone might’ve taken it or something??? the fact that it was ‘bucky is alive’ that had him going full stop???? oof. also, the ‘i can do this all day’ and ‘yeah, i know’ was funny initially but oh my god is my boy exhausted. he’s so tired. he’s been fighting for decades. someone let him rest. please.

- also unrelated, i wanna know where the fuck loki fucked off to when he grabbed the tessaract. like is this where the concept for his spinoff show comes from???? what did he do????

- steve and tony being on the same wavelength and trusting each other??? steve trusting tony wholeheartedly even if he didn’t fully know what it was tony was planning?? important. so, so important.

- steve in camp lehigh. oh my god. why did no one recognize captain america???? it’s been twenty years, sure, but y’all slapped ‘birthplace of captain america’ on your sign and there’s probably pictures of his face around in more places than peggy’s desk. you’re telling me no one would recognize him standing in the middle of the military camp??? nah, i don’t buy it. y’all had poor disguises and didn’t even get him sunglasses or anything. c’mon guys, you’re better than this.

- okay look this isn’t a tony blog but what the fuck was that scene with howard,, i understand it in terms of why they included it when looking at the narrative. because of tony’s whole ‘resentment is corrosive, didn’t like it’ thing and the need for closure on that front before his story ends, but he didn’t owe howard jack shit, let alone a ‘thank you’. that man, even if he had the best intentions and wanted tony to succeed in the future because he knew he had potential, was neglectful and abusive. he was not affectionate, he did not make tony feel as though he were loved, and it deeply affected tony as a person. the fact that he doesn’t know how far along his own wife is with their firstborn child??? big red flag right there, friends. sure, it’s good to show kids with bad relationships with their parents that its possible to work through negative emotions and resentment and move on with their lives but this was not the example to give. tony did not owe his father anything at that point. he’d moved on, made himself better, became a better father than howard was to him. i’m just. so angry about it okay.

- steve looking through the glass of peggy’s office at her, believing this was the last time he was going to see her again??? broke my heart but i called it as soon as i knew time travel was involved in this movie. i knew they’d throw a ‘steve sees her while traveling and is really sad about it’ bit in there somewhere. and i would have been content if that was it, if that was all he got. if that was the closure he got, one last glimpse of her. the fact that twenty years later she still has the picture of him, before he was captain america, on her desk??? erases any of the development and growth we know she went through in her series and whatnot, but it’s a good reminder that peggy carter was one of the few people that saw steve for who he was. she saw the skinny kid from brooklyn and knew he had what it took to be a hero, she saw him for the good man he was. she loved him for who he was. that means a great deal to steve, who no doubt struggles with the line between steve and cap a lot. but by this point, peggy would have moved on. in the series, she had moved on. erasing all of that development is detrimental to her character and i refuse it.

- seeing jarvis again was a treat. i squeaked.

- what the fuck was that with natasha??? what kind of man-pain fuel was that??? and why didn’t she get the proper funeral/mourning she deserved??? she’s been around since im2, she was the one who united the avengers, she was the first female avenger (bc they swept janet van dyne under the rug but thats a whole other rant), and that’s the end of her arc??? as soon as i saw where her and hawkeye were headed i just knew. i knew what was gonna happen and i was hissing internally. because i knew there was no way she’d be like ‘yeah you’re my best friend, you have a family, you go ahead and jump’ and on behalf of all the mcu writers i wanna apologize to all c.lint.asha shippers for the mess the mcu gave y’all. i’m so sorry j*ss fucked it up for y’all bc he wanted something for two characters no one else wanted. she deserved to be mourned. she didn’t deserve to be forgotten for like the rest of the film after that initial ‘she’s gone’. she deserved a funeral, too. steve just lost one of his closest friends???? on top of everything else he’s lost, let him express that. please.

- so back on my s.tony shit, the ‘that’s my man’ when tony nudged steve awake to hand him back his shield after the compound blew up??? not heterosexual at all. y’all aren’t even trying to hide it anymore u bastards

- STEVE ROGERS USING THE HAMMER. Y’ALL. Y’ALL. MY BOY IS WORTHY AND I KNEW IT AND THIS MEANS HE SPARED THOR IN AOU BC HE’S A COMPASSIONATE LOSER WHO DIDN’T WANT TO HURT HIS FRIEND’S PRIDE AND FEELINGS. BUT GOD THAT WAS THE COOLEST GODDAMN THING I’VE SEEN ON SCREEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. HIM USING BOTH HIS SHIELD AND THE HAMMER AT THE SAME TIME, MAKING COMBO STRIKE OUT OF IT??? USING THE LIGHTING???? MAN I CAN TELL YOU WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT I HAVE NOT SCREAMED SO LOUD IN A MOVIE THEATER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. GOD I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

- all the ladies fighting together?? shielding peter???? kicking ass together??? gave me life. that was the most beautiful scene in the entire mcu,,, it made my bi heart burst,, all it was missing was nat, but it was a nice way to be like ‘this is what she started’. and seeing pepper out there as rescue was just the cherry on top okay i love her sm she’s so cool and finally fighting out there alongside tony and rhodey. my wife carol danvers is also the coolest??? not even flinching when thanos does whatever head-butt thing he was going for??? god i love my wives.

- ‘on your left’ god damn yes let sam wilson be the one to announce that they’re all back my boy deserves it. i wanted a proper reunion between steve and sam and/or bucky. we didn’t get that. we didn’t get that!!!!!! we didn’t get anything like that!!!!! steve was primarily on his own for 5 years because he lost his two best friends and we don’t get a reunion scene??? i call bullshit, marvel

- also rocket trying to shield groot with his own little body during the aerial attack??? broke my little heart??? like he just got him back and is terrified that he’ll lose him again,,,

- no one talk to me about tony stark i can’t handle it, he deserved to be happy and live a long life with his family. he deserved that happy ending, but i’m so grateful that pepper just. understood what he needed. she knew what he needed to hear and was there for him and could just ‘we’ll be okay, you can rest’. and give him that peace of mind. he did it, he saved the universe, he brought everyone back, he can rest. but god he really deserved to be able to rest with his family, happy and alive, okay.

- steve’s small exchange with bucky was like a nice reference to the first cap movie, but that was all we got. steve has spent multiple movies trying to get bucky back and help him, and we don’t even get a reunion scene and then just this one little bit of back and forth. a soft ‘i’ll miss you’, even though its technically only supposed to be seconds for them?? like,,, does that means bucky knows??? like, he has a feeling he knows what steve’s gonna do??? idk man, idk. all i do know is that they deserved better in this movie. i’m also summing up bucky’s telling sam to go talk to steve as bucky’s ‘i don’t know if i can handle that’ admission tbh.

- god bless sam wilson. between being the one to be like ‘bring him back. where is he? get him back.’ the second something seemed to go wrong with the time travel was,,, really nice. like, thank you for caring about my boy. thank you for always having his back. i love you so much sam wilson. and anyone who thinks sam shouldn’t be the one to get the shield can meet me in a back alley okay, this man has earned it, he’s the right pick for the cap mantle. the cap theme playing when he was given the shield? Iconic. did i cry whenever the cap theme played during this movie?? Absolutely.

- time travel in this movie is a fucking joke but i wanna know if steve had to see the red skull when he returned the soul stone because can you imagine??? that interaction??? like, did anyone warn him??? did anyone tell him the red skull was there or was it only implied when clint said something about a red man or whatever after coming back and being upset about natasha???? but also where did steve travel back to in order to start his new life??? were there just two caps in the universe??? one in the ice and one living his life w/ peggy???? none of it makes sense. none of it. where does the shield go/come from???? guys??? guys.

-okay now we address the end of steve’s arc. i’m gonna start by saying i see both sides of the discourse it’s stirred up. i understand the intention behind it, not wanting steve’s story to just be one big tragedy. because that’s where it was headed. if they killed him, he would have been fighting for decades on end without rest, without knowing peace, and that would’ve been it. that’s not the end people want to see for their heroes. he deserves to be able to put down the shield and rest. he deserves that ending for himself after fighting his whole life. However, the way they did it not only flattened his entire arc, but it flattened peggy’s entire character as well. she built a life in his absence, she moved on, and he knows this. he knew this, and i refuse to believe that steve would selfishly go back and disrupt that, take that away from her for the sake of his own personal happiness. that’s not steve rogers, a good and compassionate man. because think about the life he’d have to lead, knowing all he does. because if he isn’t supposed to disrupt the timeline, he has to let everything with hydra happen and infiltrate shield, something he knows peggy’s dedicated to, he has to let everything with bucky happen and be okay with not stepping in and rescuing his best friend from that horrific life/killing tony’s parents, he has to watch both tony and sharon grow up knowing everything about their lives??? (not to mention how fucking weird everything with sharon would be considering the mcu just forgot about her after they made out in the parking lot???? sharon deserved better.)

- this wasn’t an end of an arc, it was the flattening of an arc. he didn’t actually deal with anything that he’d been through. tws was all about how he needed to move on, peggy herself told him that the world was changing and he had to move with it instead of lingering in the past and what he lost. he was supposed to be building himself a new life, addressing what he lost and the trauma he’s been through and work through it all to push onward. that’s development. he got away with not working on himself or anything he went through, the group therapy was never actually beneficial because he didn’t take any of his advice, he clung to his emotions and grief and wasn’t able to move on and says as much. giving him this easy way out just feels lazy in my opinion. like they didn’t know what to do with him, wanted him to end up happy, and this was the only way they saw that happening because he wasn’t properly developed over the course of the mcu. i’m happy my boy ended up happy, don’t get me wrong, i was very close to sobbing over him finally getting that dance, but it was highly unsatisfactory in terms of a story and character arc.

#sir that is my emotional support canon divergence ( ooc )#long post #endgame spoilers #avengers endgame spoilers #a4 spoilers

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btswishes · 7 years ago

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Taehyung’s guide to take care of a dragon baby.

BTS AU

One Shot

A/N: I thought that this was a cute idea and I tried to write it as best as I could. I hope you guys like it and sorry for the mistakes made.

Word count: 2,781

Warnings: None.

The scent of the morning had just arrived in your house, mixing slowly with the smell of freshly made coffee. You were sitting in your bed with the computer on your lap and a cup of the dark caffeine drink next to you.It was a Saturday morning so everything around you was peaceful.The only sound that could be heard were your fingers typing from time to time and the movement under the bed sheets.

It was cold outside, but you didn’t feel the weather at all, after all under the covers you had two little angels sleeping onto your lap. Surprisingly the clingiest one was the oldest. The sudden long beep pulled your attention to your email.

“Oh.”you silently said and opened it to see what it said

“Who is it from?” looking up from your screen you saw two half asleep eyes looking at you.As you were typing you explained.

“It’s from my mother.It seems something popped up and they need me to go as soon as possible.” you checked your spelling mistakes and continued “I told them that I can’t possibly go.”

“What?Why?” in just a matter of seconds his energy manifested itself, he looked like he drank 3 cups of coffee “It sounds really important.”

Looking up at him you took off your computer glasses “I can’t fly with YongJu. He is still too small. He might fall off my back and who knows what else could happen.”

“Jagy.”Tae cupped your cheeks to make you calm down, because he noticed that you were starting to get worked up “Why don’t you go and I will take care of him.”

You started laughing silently because your son was still sleeping.When you noticed how serious your husband’s face was you stopped “No.Kim Taehyung I will not leave you alone with him. Do you know what could happen???”

“Y/N, it’s ok.” after what seemed like an hour and a half of begging, you sighed and decided to give him the opportunity of taking care of your son all on his own.

As soon as you said yes, Tae started jumping and yelling and all the good stuff.He awoke your baby boy in a matter of seconds and he started searching for you.

“Just make sure he isn’t doing anything dangerous behind your back.”you were putting on your shoes as you were telling Taehyung a bunch of stuff he needed to know, but probably didn’t remember.

“Babe, don’t worry.He will listen to me.”he crossed his arms in front of his chest and rose his nose up

“Oh really?What makes you so sure?”you asked

“I am sorry but I think it’s obvious who he likes more.”

You felt a slight tugging on your pants and in no time your son climbed to your back, resting his sleepy head onto your shoulder.

“Are you still so sure?” you smirked, but Tae didn’t give up, not one bit.He was determined to make you believe

“Ok YongJu.Mommy has work.Why don’t you come and play with daddy?”the moment he placed his hands on the baby’s sides, something slapped his hand away “Ow!”you looked at the culprit and noticed the green tale swinging in a defensive mode.You pulled your angel off your back and looked at him.

“That wasn’t very nice YongJu.You must apologize to your father.”

“Sowy.”he mumbled out.He just learned to speak so the words were difficult to pronounce for him yet

“Good boy.”you kissed his little cheeks, making him giggle “Mama has to go somewhere.I won’t be gone for a long, so in the mean time play with daddy,ok?” he nodded “Here you go.”you passed him over to is father “Change his clothes.When his tale goes back, he might catch a cold from that big whole that will be left in his pants.”Tae nodded “Well then, I am off.”you pecked his lips and left.After locking the door, Taehyung placed YongJu on the carped next to his toys and sat on the couch.Both of them were looking at each other for a long time.

“So....”Tae said “What do you want to do?” the little angel just looked up at his father and whispered a silent

“Ba?”

“Ok.It’s decided.”Taehyung grabbed his phone and in a split second called all the boys, he needed back up.The amazing part was that everyone arrived at your apartment in 15min.The only difference it made was that six people were staring at YongJu and he was looking back at them.

“Do you want to play with these handsome hyungs?” Tae asked his son again, but he shook his head with another “Ba!” this one being louder

“See, nothing?” he told the boys

“Didn’t you say he started to talk?”asked Namjoon

“Yeah he did, but he talks only when Y/N is around.I don’t know why.”he sighed

“Let’s check then.”Jin got up and walked over to the small bookshelf in the room, pulled a very old looking one that had gold on the edges and jewels on the cover.He sat back down and opened it.

“What is that?”asked Taehyung

“It’s in your house and you don’t know?” Jungkook commented very surprised

“It’s ‘The Origin Of The Firstborn’.”explained Jin

“How do you know this hyung?” Jimin questioned, amazed

“That is easy.”he closed the book for a second and looked at the boys as seriously as he could “I am a dragon too.”

WHAT!?

“Just kidding.”he laughed out

“That is not funny!”Hoseok jumped in the conversation

“Y/N told me about it just in case something happens and you are left alone with YongJu.”he was flipping the pages and stopped somewhere “Ah! Here it is.Let’s see.”the boys were listening as close as they could “It says here that newborn dragons are very attached to their mothers.Females usually start changing that feeling around puberty, when they start noticing the males around them.With male born dragons that doesn’t change.They are forever attached to their mothers and prefer living with them more than with their fathers.”

“What!”Tae gasped

“There is more.”Jin pulled their attention back to the book “It says here that the father figure often must be strong and vigilant at all times, because the male newborns try to eliminate them.They try to fight for their mother’s full love, attention and care.Often for the young ones the father is an enemy occupying their mothers too much.”

“Well hyung it was nice knowing you.”said Jungkook

“What!Why?”

“Didn’t you hear?”asked Jimin “He will try to eliminate you.”

“It’s not like that will happen.”the silence didn’t make him feel better “Right hyung?”he turned to Namjoon for advice and help

“Well if we think about it logically.You are a mortal man and he is an immortal fire breathing dragon.”

“That doesn’t help at all.”which it really didn’t

“You won’t even live to see him as a full fledged dragon.”

“HYUNG!!!” the boys slapped Yoongi’s shoulder

“What did I say?” when he looked over at his dongsaeng he noticed the depressed look he had.It was something he had never thought about before, looking at his son it had become a very real concern.

“We will go now.”Jin pushed the boys out of the apartment.Once the door closed, Tae snapped out of his state of mind.

“Wait!You were supposed to help me look after him!!!”with a big sigh he looked at his son who was shaking his little butt in front of his face “Let’s get you changed.”he picked him up and walked in the baby room, placing YongJu on the changing table. He took off the pants and put on new ones.Turning his back on the baby for just a second was enough for...

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Tae turned back and saw the new hole placed in the pants “I just changed them!” sighing for the 5th time today he put on new ones, which didn’t stay intact for long as well.After a few sweat gathering changing sessions, Taehyung looked down at his son’s smiling face “Ok, fine.Two can play at this game!”he made a small hole in his dipper in the back “You are going to be pantsless today, so said your father!”

And here they were again, looking at each other in the living room, back to square one.

“I feel like this is turning into a staring contest.....is it?” the little one didn’t blink and all “It seems it is.In moments like this I as the adult have to do the right thing.”he made himself comfortable and leaned his elbows onto his knees.”YOU ARE GOING DOWN!”

It’s hilarious how fast he lost.Tae couldn’t even believe it, but Google had an answer for that too.

“Ok...so here it says that lizards have something called a nictitating membrane.”he turned around to look at the carpet “Do you have it?”

“Ba?”

“Ok. I’ma ask your mom.” speed dial saves lives, trust me “Babe?”

“Tae did something happen!?” you panicked of course, it’s been a few hours since you left your husband alone with a baby dragon.A lot of things could happen during that time.

“Yeah, sure we are fine.I just wanted to ask you something.”

“Thank goodness.Make it fast Tae, I have a few problems on my hands.”

“Do you have a...” he squinted at the computer screen “...nictitating membrane?”

“A what?”

“This thing that is like a transparent third eyelid.”

“Can we talk later?I have to go now.”

“Wait, babe?” you hung up in a matter of seconds “Guess we will never know.” he placed his phone on the table and pointed at his son, who waddled over to him “This doesn’t mean you won.Just because you have an advantage over me....in more than one way doesn’t make me a looser, ok?” the baby nodded “I am an adult arguing with a child over a game?Wow,my standards went down.I am so pissed I lost to my son that my hand is trembling and it hurts.....wait it really hurts!!!”

With just one look he saw YongJu hanging from his hand with his teeth deep into Tae’s arm. “Now be a good boy and let go of daddy’s arm.” he smiled and the little one made a motion with his eyes to indicate thinking, when he shook his head and bit down harder.

“Ow ow ow.”there was a small sigh, when he noticed the book that Jin was readying. He walked over to the couch with his son dangling from his arm and started searching for a solution to this painful problem. “Let’s see.New born, nope he is older.Ah! Here we go, biting.”he read everything that was written down about this situation “So I just have to pinch his nose?” Tae placed his two fingers on his nose “I just read 5 pages just to figure out something that is as simple as pinching his nose?You know what?I am so desperate that I don’t even mind at this point.”

YongJu had to release his father so he can breath and plopped onto this butt.

“Finally.” the sudden whimpers echoed in the apartment when a crying storm was about to begin “Awww sunshine.” Tae lifted his son up and placed him in his arms “Don’t cry angel, daddy didn’t mean to do it, I just had to.” normally the first dragon teeth come out in a pair The upper two, lower two or in your son’s case the top left and bottom right, which made his bite really strong.

He wiped away the little one’s tears and kissed his cheeks, making him giggle “That is more like it.Do you want to watch How To Train Your Dragon?” YongJu nodded in excitement.The movie started and both of them made themselves comfortable on the couch “It’s funny how parents use this movie to keep their kids entertained, while I am watching as a parenting guide.”

YongJu seemed to like this a lot, so in just a matter of seconds Tae fell asleep on the couch.The peace and quiet were just perfect, it was a bit cold so he did move around from time to time, but at a certain point he felt really warm and cozy.One could say it was a bit like...

“FIRE!!!” he yelled out (and I don’t mean the song😐)

Taehyung jumped up and his fist instinct was to run his hair under water, after that he went to grab the fire extinguisher.Seeing as everything was perfectly fine after all of this he was surprised ”Wow ,dragons do know how to fire proof a house.Cheers to that.” he placed the red metal bottle back where he took it from and turned off the TV “Note to self, no dragon movies or any kinds that include fire breathing.”

There was only a bit of time left before you returned home, so he rubbed his chin as he was thinking how to entertain his son. The game should be safe, for him and something that won’t provoke any kind of deadly behavior for the neighbors. As he was moving his hand over his face he noticed the beard.

“Did I forget to shave today?” looking at the clock he figured it was too late, but ended up going to the bathroom anyways.The sound of the sink pulled little YongJu’s attention and he waddled over to the bathroom, curious to see what his dad was doing.

Tae placed the shaving cream all over his facial hair and noticed in the mirror the little sunshine looking at him with wide eyes.He smirked and picked him up, placing him on the sink, making sure he wasn’t going to fall. As Tae was foaming up the cream on his face, his son bend over and pressed the shaving cream container, spraying the content everywhere.

“Oh dear.”while Tae was cleaning up the sink, the baby smeared the white cream on his own face, leaving on his eyes clean. Taehyung picked up the razor and started shaving.In a pinch of time YongJu found a flat wooden stick laying around who knows from what and started making the same motions as his dad.He even cleaned it under the running water each time, like his papa did with the razor knifes.

“You are so adorable.” Taehyung took the stick and ‘shaved ’ his son with it “There you go.”he even placed some lotion on his cheeks to imitate the toner.Placing his hands onto his hips Tae looked in the mirror “Aren’t we handsome?”the sunshine did the same pose “Baaa!”

“I will take that as a yes.” in just a matter of seconds they started posing in front of the mirror ,wearing random pieces of clothing “Here, wear daddy’s Gucci tie.” stepping back he gasped “Ah! My son looks like a model.Work it YongJu!Make dad proud!!!” he was clapping like crazy with DNA playing in the background

“No you have to do this D-N-A.There is a way to move your hand, don’t just flap it around like bird.”

The sun had set and you were almost home. It was indeed hard to find anything in the a female’s bag.Opening the door you saw something priceless.Good thing that you had your phone in hand.

Taehyung was in his underwear, wearing a white business shirt, high socks and a black tie around his head. YongJu was in a dipper with a whole in it and dancing to DNA ,wearing the big hairy gucci slippers your husband loved.

“Evening.”you said and they froze

“MAMA!”the little one flew over to you, literally

You closed the door and kissed your baby boy “Did you have fun today with daddy?”you asked him, making your way towards the kitchen, knowing that they probably didn’t eat anything the whole day.

“Yes.I love daddy and mommy.”

“WHAT!?” out of nowhere Tae slid in the kitchen “Did he just say daddy?Not ONLY mommy?”

“I think so.”you were just as shocked

“YongJu loves daddy?”

“Vewy vewy much.” he even kissed his cheek

“Babe it’s happening!”he sat on the floor

“Tae are you ok?”you panicked a bit

“No I am not, my blood pressure is out of the window,I think I am so happy I will die!”

“Make sure you get dressed first, you don’t want 911 to find you looking like that.”he looked down and realized the state he was in, so he jumped up

“Yeah, you are right.But he said he loves me.”smirking he looked at you “Not to brag, but he said daddy before mommy.”

“Oh really?YongJu?”

“Mmm?”

“Who do you love more?”

“Mama!”

“It was worth a shot.”Tae sighed “I will go and change.”

“Wait babe.”you ran up to him and kissed his cheek “I am proud of you.I am making your favorite tonight.”

“YES!”

He ran as happy as he could.Having a crazy family is one thing and having a supernatural household is another, but they both include a very happy and energetic life style.

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chicgeekgirl89 · 7 years ago

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VHS

When Roberta Deeks comes to dinner, she brings along something Deeks had hoped would never, EVER see the light of day again. Something he ESPECIALLY does not want his girlfriend to see.

“How do you like the pot roast Kensi?” Roberta Deeks asked from where she sat at the head of the dinner table.

“It’s delicious. Thank you so much. You really didn’t have to go to all this trouble,” Kensi told her, taking another bite of the equally tasty mashed potatoes the older woman had prepared.

“Well I know neither one of you can cook so I just feel like I need to fatten you up when I’m in town.”

“I can cook!” Deeks protested.

“Mmhmm, we know honey,” Kensi patted his knee under the table dismissively as she took another bite.

“Well then I guess it’s a good thing you don’t come by more often or Kensi would—“ Deeks winced as the hand on his knee tightened. “Ow! I was going to say you might try to cook and then we’d both die of food poisoning!”

“Right, I’m sure that’s exactly what you were going to say.” Kensi rolled her eyes and pointedly added another serving of pot roast to her plate.

“So how’s the move going Mom?” Deeks asked.

“Oh you know, as well as moving ever does.” Roberta told them. “That reminds me, I brought a box of your things. Trying to de-clutter as I downsize.”

Deeks set his fork down, blood suddenly pumping loudly in his ears. “I don’t remember leaving anything at your house.”

“It’s a bunch of old things sweetie.”

“What exactly Mama?” He tried to keep his voice even. Any display of alarm would tip Kensi off and he absolutely did NOT want that.

“I don’t know Martin, it’s just some clothes and trophies and some old VHS tapes.”

“Oh, okay.” He nodded. “Can you excuse me for a minute? Just going to run to the little boys’ room.”

As soon as he reached the hallway he took a hard left, grabbing his mother’s keys from the bowl by the front door. He reached the car and spotted a large, cardboard box in the back seat. Opening the door he took it out and sighed in relief, until he turned around and nearly jumped out of his skin. “Oh god!”

Kensi stood in front of him, arms crossed. “What’s in the box Deeks?”

“What? Nothing.” He tried to sidestep her but she was too quick.

“Well it must be something important because you’re clutching it like it’s our firstborn child.”

Deeks felt himself start to sweat. She wasn’t going to give this up without a fight. “I just didn’t think my mom should be lifting heavy things like this. She’s not as spry as she used to be.”

“She’s not an invalid Deeks. And if it’s nothing, why won’t you let me see it?” She held out her hands, eyebrows raised.

He reluctantly handed her box, which she immediately began to rifle through. Dread crept into the pit of his stomach as she held up a VHS tape. “What’s on the tape?”

“Nothing.” He’d said it too quickly and he knew it. She was onto him.

“Deeks…”

He reached for it, but she pulled away, holding it just out of his reach. “Kensi, just hand me the tape.”

“Why? What’s on it?”

“Nothing that would interest you.”

“Then why do you want it so badly?”

“I don’t. I don’t want it. I just—“ he lunged for it but she sidestepped him again. “Damn it Fern, give me the tape!”

“Martin? Kensi? Are you ready for dessert?” Roberta wandered toward them and Deeks wanted to melt into the asphalt. “What are you two doing out here?”

“I was just helping Deeks bring these things into the house,” Kensi said sweetly.

Deeks glared at his partner-turned-girlfriend and her two-faced ways.

Roberta reached for the VHS. “Oh, yes. Martin, which year was this? Hello, Dolly? Or Grease?”

The single shred of dignity he’d had left died at the look of triumph in Kensi’s eyes. There was such glee on her face that there was no way he would ever, EVER, live this down.

“I uh, I don’t know Mama. It probably doesn’t even work anymore. Let’s just go back in for dessert. You made pie, right?”

“Wait Roberta, are you saying this is a tape of a musical?” Kensi asked. “One that Deeks was in?”

“Of course! Didn’t he tell you he did some performances in high school?”

“No, actually, he’s never mentioned it.”

“With good reason,” Deeks muttered to himself.

“Well his junior year he was only in the background.”

“It’s called the ensemble,” he interrupted.

“But when he was a senior he was Danny Zuko! He was just so cute with all his hair, swinging his hips around—“

“Mama!”

“Martin, you should be proud of your accomplishments.” Roberta frowned as she looked at the tape. “The label has faded. I wonder which one this is?”

“Well, why don’t we go inside and find out?” Kensi asked, a wicked grin on her face.

“I think the VCR is broken,” Deeks said loudly.

“It’s not,” Kensi chirped, plucking the tape from his mother’s hand.

“Oh perfect. We’ll have dessert in the living room.”

Roberta turned to go back inside and Deeks caught Kensi’s hand. “Babe, if you love me, you will not do this.”

“Oh honey,” she put a hand on his cheek. “I love you so much. But this is going to be the best night of my life and there’s no way I’m putting the brakes on it.”

She kissed him soundly on the mouth and followed his mom into the house, leaving him no choice but to do the same.

By the time he reached the living room the women were already settled onto either end of the couch, dessert in hand. “Sit right here, Martin. I got a piece of pie for you.” His mom patted the empty cushion in the middle of the sofa until Deeks reluctantly settled in. He looked at his girlfriend. “There’s really nothing--?”

“It’s happening Gene Kelly, just accept it,” she told him.

“Okay, here we go.” Roberta pushed the play button.

“Please be Grease. Please be Grease,” Kensi breathed, here eyes glued to the screen.

Shaky camera work revealed a stage with a single, bright spotlight shining on a set of faded green curtains. The conductor lifted his hands and a slightly out of tune orchestra began playing strains of what was unmistakably “Greased Lightning.”

“Yes!” Kensi pumped a fist in the air, nearly upending Deeks’ pie all over the sofa.

“What I would give for a murdered Naval officer right now,” Deeks grumbled, tucking his elbows in so she wouldn’t bump into him again.

“Martin!”

“Sorry Mama.”

“Hey Zuko!” a portly young man with a heavy Long Island accent yelled.

And onto the stage stepped an 18-year-old Marty Deeks, running a comb through his slicked back blonde curls, sunglasses and an over-large leather jacket in place. As he made it to center stage he whipped off the glasses and let out a theatrical, “Hey guys!”

“Oh my god,” Kensi sighed. “It’s so much better than I imagined. Are you going to sing? When does the dancing happen?”

“Martin has such a lovely voice,” Roberta said, squeezing her son’s hand.

“You know I think Monty needs to go out.” Deeks tried to rise but Kensi stopped him.

“It’s rude to leave in the middle of a performance.”

“That’s the one thing about theatre you remember? Seriously?”

“I’m never getting over it,” Kensi told him as she pulled back the covers on their bed several hours later. “The shimmy. The back-flip off the table. That thing with your hips where you almost took out the girl in the yellow poodle skirt. Babe, I never knew you had those moves.”

“You know, all is fair in love and war. First thing tomorrow morning I’m headed to your mom’s house. She’s gotta have some embarrassing, middle school Kensi with frizzy hair and braces pictures around somewhere,” he grumbled.

“I never had braces.”

“Of course you didn’t.”

“I don’t understand why you’re so embarrassed! It was a great performance. I’m sure no one even noticed that giant crack your voice made when you started the last song.”

“All right, that’s it. I’m sleeping with Monty.”

“No!” she grabbed his arm, pulling him back down onto the bed. “I’m sorry. You were amazing.”

“Damn right I was amazing. I was the best Danny Zuko any high school’s ever seen.”

“John Travolta’s got nothing on you,” she agreed.

He grudgingly allowed her to pull him closer. “You know I improvised that back flip off the table. That wasn’t in the script.”

“No! Really?” Her eyes shone with pretend surprise and amusement.

He frowned at her and tried to wrench his arm out of her grasp. “You’re mean. You know that?”

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry!” she giggled as she held on tightly. “I’ll make it up to you.”

“You promise?”

“Yes. I will call my mother and have her send over pictures from the time I got a perm.”

“Well, as thrilling as that sounds, I actually had another idea…”

“Oh really?”

“I still have that leather jacket. Is that something you’d be interested in putting on?”

She grinned. “Tell me about it stud.”

#Grease is the word #NCIS LA #Densi #Marty Deeks #Kensi Blye #VHS #Roberta Deeks #Densi Fanfiction #Fanfic #Look who finally wrote something #After like #A long time #Of not writing Densi #Woot

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eloarei · 7 years ago

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Tagged by @chocochipbiscuit to post my current WIPs. Thanks, Choco! (lol this is going to be self-indulgent and painful XD;) (As with Choco, I also have more bits and blobs and ideas than I know what to do with, but I’ll focus on the ones that have a remote chance of ever getting finished.) Active WIPS (I have at least opened the document in the past month and I honestly intend to finish them this year.) In order of recently modified: OP CM BB -- "One Piece, Cobymeppo, Beauty&Beast" I mean, it's kind of what it says on the tin: it's vaguely a Beauty and the Beast AU. (Factoid: this is at least the 3rd or 4th fanfic I've written based on friggin' B&B. It's my favorite fairytale and I'm weak.) Currently at 12.5k (when did that happen?!) out of, I dunno, 18k? I honestly never intended to write this. It just sort of happened-- and kept happening, which is the weird part. I'm liking it though. Factoid #2: there are a lot of dogs in this fic. JD LLW -- "Jak and Daxter, Love Like Winter" 100% inspired by the AFI song, I won't lie. I've been meaning to write this for at least 7 years. I have a lot of thoughts and headcanons about the Jak and Daxter series, and this incorporates my hardcore favorite: Daxter is a Precursor. It also uses a couple tropes I love: reincarnation cycles, and fated lovers. As with any song, I can't say what it's actually supposed to be about, but I always heard it as the story of, well, reincarnation and fated lovers. "I met my love before I was born", and then switching between he, she, and then back to he. The story became very vibrant in my head! And this format especially allows me the opportunity to explore Jak/Keira as well as Jak/Daxter, because while I'm not a huge fan of Jak/Keira, I don't like just ignoring canon if I can avoid it. Currently at 7k out of... maybe 20k? It was supposed to be a lot shorter, but I'm only on chapter 1 out of 3, so less than 15k is probably not happening. Factoid: I think a lot of people only know this series second-hand, so I feel the need to mention that Daxter does, in fact, have a human form. XD FO4NV -- "Fallout 4, Nick Valentine" A very creative document name! XD; The story will probably eventually be titled "Same Heart" unless I come up with something better. It's a Fallout4 AU(ish) centering around Nick having been recaptured by the Institute, getting a memory wipe, and then living there during the years when Shaun is being raised there. Eventually, he and kid-Shaun break out to explore the Commonwealth and try to find Shaun's parents. I swear it'll be a Nick/Nora story if I ever friggin' get to that part, but right now it's mostly a Nick&Shaun story. Currently at 30k out of, I dunno, 70k to 100k? It's on chapter 7 out of 17, I think. I have this one planned out pretty well chapter-by-chapter, so of all my fics it has the best chance of actually happening. (Aside from the length, which sort of counts against it. It was supposed to be shorter, but I apparently couldn't shut up.) I'm thinking about focusing on this one for my NaNoWriMo, since it has about 50k left to it. Factoid: I get more emotional about parental relationships than I do about romantic ones, despite the fact that I LOVE romance. Stories I write about parent-child relationships always end up being my favorite. BttF On Track -- "Back to the Future, On Track" The only one I've actually started posting. I feel bad because I meant to continue writing this through December and January, but I got lazy and distracted, so it didn't happen. The season is just about right to jump back into it though (Fall is a more BttF season for me), so I HOPE to finish it this year. Currently at 18k (holy shit, seriously?) out of probably 30k. Chapter 3 (out of 6 well-planned chapters) is aaalmost done, but I might have to go reread some of IrisBleuFics stuff to get back into the mood of it. (Or maybe Rae's or Edgebug's.) Factoid (actually a question) : does anyone else have seasonal fandoms? Inactive WIPs (there are lots of these, so I'll put them under a cut for you. Still, these are only the ones I’ve worked on in the past year. Again, from most- to least-recent.)

HP GOtG -- A silly Harry Potter/Guardians of the Galaxy fic I have like a page of. I was mentally explaining the concept of fanfic to someone and this... happened.

HPCM Ways to Live -- Another One Piece Cobymeppo fic, and AU (or UA) about if Luffy had never met Coby in ep.1 and skipped right over to kick Morgan's ass in Shells Town. tldr Coby and Helmeppo become pirates.

FFXV parents AU -- I was REALLY into this one for a while, got a couple thousand words and a good plot outline on it. It's Final Fantasy 15 AU (or, as usual, a UA) in which Noctis is only a baby when the empire attacks, and teenage Ignis and Gladio have to run away with him, and end up raising him on their own. I 100% intend to finish this one, but it's not top priority at the moment.

A modern prometheus -- A magical-world retelling of Frankenstein. Probably gay.

FO4 WFM-- "Fallout 4, Waiting for magic" On the day the bombs drop, Nora's husband is still at war, while she's several months pregnant and working on her legal cases from home. Her friend Nick Valentine has come to give her some documents and check on her when they're suddenly ushered into the vault and frozen. AKA the romantic adventures of Nick and a heavily pregnant Nora out in the Commonwealth. (Inspired by an Ace of Bass song)

Fo4 Sky-- "Fallout 4, Skyrim" Basically a riff off the previous story, but not the same at all, somehow. Set in Skyrim, Nora is essentially sleeping beauty. Wait. Snow white? Er, yeah. Magically frozen in a coffin, yeah.

MEA Avi -- "Mass Effect Andromeda, Avi: a sci-fi ghost story" REALLY thought I was gonna finish this one, but I got distracted from MEA altogether. The story of Avitus Rix and his SAM unit, which has begun to think it is the late Macen Barro, its previous owner/partner, and Avitus' longtime boyfriend. Still can't decide how sad I want it, but it'll be pretty gloomy even if I go with a happy ending.

DCo side story AU -- A modern mini-fic about my DamselCo characters going on a double date, except Addisson and Hunter are both late so it's just Ellery and Isabelle being kind of awkward.

FFXV Dear Fellow Traveler -- AU, Prompto was raised in Niflheim and meets Noctis and the others on their (very long, winding) trip to Noct's engagement. Promptis, no war.

FFXV mermaid AU -- More Promptis. Noctis fishes up mer-person Prompto. They have adventures. Ignis has to go looking for Noctis later and meets mer-person Gladio.

OW Sagittarius -- Eheh, posted the first chapter of this in January and then just gave up. XD;;;; I feel so bad. An Overwatch teenage McHanzo AU, where Jesse is a centaur sold into slavery to the yakuza. Trained by the Shimada clan, he falls in love with the heir, Hanzo, who then helps him escape. Many years later, they meet again in Overwatch. I have a GOOD plot outline for this, so I really have no excuse for not finishing it. It's on the to-do list after the first few.

FFXV Firstborn son -- Question: is a person still consider a trans-person if they're born female, but both raised as and identify as male (because patriarchal bullshit)? If so: trans-Noctis, Promptis fic.

FFXV Mirror Sword Shield -- Yet another FFXV AU, obviously inspired by that one Coldplay song that I love. Hundreds of years ago, Noctis defeated the darkness, but was sealed away inside the crystal, only to return when he needed to do it again. Prompto, Ignis, and Gladio have trained as his guardians all their lives, for the slim chance that he does return. (I really like this idea, but if I write this one, it'll only be after I finish the other FFXV fics.)

OW BB -- Guess what? Another "Beauty and the Beast" fic, Overwatch flavored. Except it's really more like, "the beast and also another beast". McHanzo, of course, featuring a snarky dragon spirit that constantly taunts Hanzo about his guilt.

BttF Ashes -- Hot damn I gotta write this fic some day. I have a GREAT plot outline for it, following a chiptune song called Ashes. I love it, it makes me cry. It's a Back to the Future AU, about Doc dying when his house burns down. Years later, ghost-Doc teams up with Marty to finish the time machine, and then (spoiler alert) Marty goes back in time and saves Doc, pulling his corporeal self into the future ala The Mediator and they live happily ever after the end. XD

PacRim Redefined -- Another one I feel bad about, because I have posted most of what I have written, but I don't know if I'll ever finish it. It's a far-future semi-AU about Newt and Hermann. TBH it's one of my favorite fics I've ever written, but I'm a loser and can never finish anything. Hopefully next year??? I've got much of a plot outline, so.

Bttf Dino prompt -- Braincoins prompted me last year to write a fic about Marty and a dinosaur, and I started to! But then I had no idea where I was going with it, so I stopped a few pages in. ^^; I'd like to figure out an ending to it that isn't both boring and bleak.

Bttf Solving for X -- A series of short AUs about if either Doc or Marty (or both) were women. I'd like to maybe work on this one again sometime.

HxH AU Laughter Lines -- A Hunter x Hunter fic that makes me cry when I think about it XDXDXD Based on the Bastille song of the same name, it's an AU in which Gon is like... a tree nymph. A little hard to explain, it's a sad little Killugon fic, and it should be pretty short, so I ought to just sit down and write it one day.

BttF Thirst for Romance -- I love this idea! Why haven't I written it?! In his 30's or 40's, Marty is a nurse at a convalescent home/ hospice, where he meets Doc, who loves to tell wild stories. He tells Marty stories about adventures that the two of them had in the 80's and with time travel. Everyone assumes Doc is just very creative and lonely, and they love his stories. He and Marty become close, and when Doc passes away, he leaves his meager possessions to Marty, including a mysterious set of keys which unlock his old garage, and a strange old car inside... (Really want to write this one eventually!) (Based on the song of the same name.)

BttF Hell Valley -- A sad AU, taking place in the Hell Valley timeline from movie 2. Marty has run away from his abusive step-dad and finds himself living in Doc's garage. They're just two broken people trying to get by. Marty wants Doc to run away with him, someplace far away, but Doc has a better idea, if he can get it to work. (Inspired by the song Fast Car, the sad-sounding Jonas Blue version. "You got a fast car. Is it fast enough so we could fly away?")

BttF SG fusion -- and last and possibly least, yet another BttF AU, but a fusion with Steins;Gate, because time travel is not complicated ENOUGH, I have to make it WORSE. In this story, Marty is raised in the dystopian future with the goal of going back to the past to kill Doc Brown before he can create time travel. I liked the idea a lot, but to be honest I think I even confused myself with it. I'd sort of like to keep writing it, but it'll take a lot more effort than I can foresee me wanting to put in any time soon. Tagging: (if I can remember which of my friends write) um... @braincoins, @nomadsky, and, uh... I know that more of you are writers, so just... take it and pretend I tagged you!

#elo talks #long post #elo fics #holy jeez this is long #I have a LOT of WIPs you guys #tag meme #lol I spent hours on this XDl

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