#seniste

[tartagliatum]

I think a lot about Wrio allowing himself to indulge and gaining some weight as a way of healing, he went hungry for a long part of his life, but now he gets to be safer, to eat his fill and go to sleep with a full tummy. I also think of Neuvillete encouraging him to do it so, cherishing his softer body and rubbing his tummy, empty or full, which is great bcs Wrio not only lived starved of food but of affection too. I LOVE WG AND STUFFING AS HEALING, AND I LOVE WRIO. I CAN HEAL HIM FR (BY FEEDING HIM)

AHSJSHUS I LOVE THIS cherishing his softer body and rubbing his tummy <3333

i feel like so many canon profile bits and exchanges with him point to him being quite an indulgent character already; slacking off work, turning up his nose at the less desirable welfare meals, strolling around fontaine's patisseries, taking little tea breaks whenever the opportunity arises. as he deserves to!

given that he's said to be seen visiting bakeries while on duty in the overworld, i like to think he has a sweetooth :3 perhaps neuvillette often brings him pastries and cakes as gifts whenever he visits during work hours. he invites him to furina's famous tea parties whenever the chance makes itself available (one of which is sure to be hosted each time the warden has official business to discuss in the court of fontaine, no matter how trivial.) he is always delighted to see him treat himself, and wriothesley is just as happy to satisfy his sweet tooth on such a decadent feast; not only did he never think he would have the opportunity to live so luxuriously, but also because now he believes he deserves to do so, no longer holding back from his desires out of guilt and little self worth.

not only does he give in to his newfound large appetite, but neuvillette rather likes to indulge him too. he brings him out to restaurants and orders fine foods and wines - a gloved finger pointing out the dishes on the menu as he orders for the both of them. at furina's tea parties, he offers him another slice of cake or suggests which desserts to try next, even as wriothesley places a hand on the swell of his quickly filling stomach.

"kouign-amann pair quite well with ginger tea. i must say this batch has been baked long to perfection," he muses, delicately pushing a plate across the table to wriothesley, who is still making his way through the gâteau he insisted he try. "though if you are drinking something sweeter, i would suggest a few canelés, or this pear tarte tatin. what do you think, furina?"

"the red wine caramel is exquisite, wriothesley."

"these macarons from lucerne's, though, are truly delectable. they are still light and crisp from this morning."

"let me breathe first." wriothesley swallows, smiling fondly at his enthusiasm to see him eat well. (and, really, breathing may become slightly more challenging if he continues on like this.) "i haven't even finished the last few you so kindly bestowed upon me."

and ohhh the belly rubs,,, !!!!!!!

ofc i believe wriothesley is so weak for having his tummy rubbed in the first place - neuvillette's warm hands are the perfect balance of heavy and firm but gentle, and just feel so inexplicably nice - so when the deep circles he rubs into his belly are accompanied by the pleasurable feeling of being full of baked treats or a yummy dinner, he quite positively ascends to heaven. and when his lavish lifestyle inevitably fills him out and he amasses a few extra inches on his waistline, the iudex's hands on his newly senistive tummy send him out of this world entirely. falling asleep is a difficult thing for wriothesley, but under these circumstances - whether neuvillette is settling a meal in his stomach or simply providing affectionate rubs - he feels safe and cared for in his arms, and despite fighting it, sleep takes over him and he's snoring lightly into his boyfriend's shoulder. indulging is a fun little hobby, but having somebody to indulge with - somebody to pamper you - is much preferable.

(also consider - tummy kisses. neuvillette is absolutely over the moon when the soft cushioning of wriothesley's tummy means he can easily take it between his teeth, trailing little love bites over the gentle curve of his belly. or simply just pressing his lips to his warm middle in soft, adoring kisses, much to wriothesley's blissful delight.)

[rueclfer]

omg rue happy birthday ily !!!

eeeep thank u senister illyyyyy

[stellisketches]

I was looking through the Ro’Meave tree and I was wondering how Zane The First died cuz like I feel like that dude had a lot going on considering he was both the high priest and relic wielder ?

hahahahahahahah you have no idea the wellspring you've just unearthed.

I actually planned on writing a whole thing on Zane the First (aka Zane the Martyr) because his story is an interesting one. 

Zane I was the first born son of Rikard II. From and early age it was said that Zane I was magickally blessed, and received divine visions from both the past and future (though he could not always tell which was which). It was decided that he would enter the priesthood (to which he was very enthusiastic about) and inherit the relic of Esmund when he came of age. (Side Note: The relic of Esmund was actually owned by the church, not the Ro’Meaves, meaning the church controlled which Ro’Meave wielded the relic. This is why there are so many generational gaps between relic wielders). It was almost predetermined that Zane I would become the High Priest thanks to his visions, and was treated almost as a messiah for the people of Ru’aun. This only strengthened as he got older, as he was incredibly generous, pious, and kind. It was said that every word that left his mouth sung like poetry, flowers would bloom in his presence, and his voice gentle enough to make the birds sing. (obviously historical embellishment but you get jist. The man was practically Jesus sugarcoated with the mannerisms of a Disney princess). Anyway, he was THE it-boy of Ru’aun for pretty much his entire life. 

Up until the end of the Divine Crisis.

See, the Divine Crisis was a schism that happened in the religious beliefs of the Ru’aunians. See, before the Crisis, The Divine Warriors were worshipped fairly equally, with Irene only worshipped slightly more because she was native to Ru’aun (This belief was referred to as Senism). However, a new church (known as the Matronists) rose up who focused ONLY on Irene. The Matronists believed that since Irene was the only Divine Warrior that didn’t have any recorded instances of going through reincarnation, she was the only Divine Warrior that was an actual goddess. In the beginning, the church was mostly tolerated, as there had existed some small sects that focused on worshipping one or two particular divine in the past (though they didn’t really hold any degree of power). They started up in the southeast of Ru’aun and began to spread. They must’ve had some really good speakers in their ranks, as within seven years of popping up almost half of Ru’aun converted to the new faith is some shape or form. 

The only major city who’s population didn’t have any Matronist population was O’Khasis. This was because 1) They were far in the west and hadn’t really received any missionaries yet, 2) O’Khasis possessed the biggest archive of information about the divine warriors in Ru’aun, meaning belief in ALL Divine warriors was pretty steadfast, and 3) Zane I was a REALLY GOOD public speaker who preached the Senist message. 

Eventually, a group of Matronists DID show up in O’Khasis. This caused some controversy in the city-state as to whether or not they would be allowed in the city and allowed to build their own church. Lord Rikard II was apprehensive to the idea. His younger brother, Garmen, thought the Matronists should firmly be kept out of the city as they were a threat to their rule (Side Note: Garmen was extremely bitter about the fact that he did not hold the title of Lord. He had repeatedly questioned Rikard’s ability to rule in the past and would devour any power he was given. He was also religious to a certain extent, but moreso in a “divine right to rule” way). However, Zane I (true to his benevolent nature) believed everyone in O’Khasis was allowed to practice their own beliefs. Rikard eventually sided with his son and allowed for the Matronists to enter O’Khasis, and a year later allowed for a church to be built. 

Now, several years later, the church had become even bigger, and more radical. The Matronists had begun to preach that Senism was heretical and practicing idolatry through worshipping the “mortal” Divine Warriors. Book Burnings had started popping up around Ru’aun and there was even a little Senist persecution in the far east. There were even whispers of overthrowing Senist Lords. 

In O’Khasis, Garmen was the first to hear of these whispers, and figured that if something like this came to pass, then the new Lord would be replaced with a Matronist. Realizing this, Garmen ‘harmlessly’ converted to Matronism and began secretly supplying zealots with extra funding and encouraging more Matronist preachers He also began encouraging Zane I to let Matronists use the Archive of religious and historical text kept in the Cathedral of the Divine (known as the Juumel Katedraal). Zane agreed, of course, and slowly the number of converts in O’Khasis steadily began to rise. Somewhere along the way, Garmen actually started to believe in the Matronist method seriously instead of just using it for power. However, one day a Matronist zealot took a bunch of books from the archive and began burning them in the street. This caused Rikard II to ban and punish book burnings with a heavy prison sentence of 6 years per text burnt. Things got a LOT more tense in O’Khasis as book burnings kept popping up along with more Matronist whispers of overthrowing Rikard II. At one point Rikard tried to plead with Garmen to speak on his behalf to the Matronists (Side note: Rikard wasn’t mad that his brother had converted to Matronism before. He was surprised and a little worried, but was never prejudiced against him. They more so got into arguments about how his personal beliefs shouldn’t affect the people of Ru’aun). Garmen lied and said he would, but then started spreading lies to the Matronists that his brother was planning on persecuting them and burning them at the stake. Then, after one larger book burning that involved a group of Matronists, Rikard made the hefty decision that Matronists were officially banned from using the Divine Archive. It was this act that, unfortunately, sealed his fate. 

Eleven days after the order was enacted, the Purge of Pages began. The Purge of Pages was a riot that began in the evening of the eleventh day and continued until dusk of the twelfth. Matronists took to the streets and began forcing their way into different libraries to take books and burn them in the street, along with persecuting Senist people. Honestly there is way too much to go over in a single post but the important stuff is this: 1) A mass or rioters stormed the royal palace in an attempt to kill Rikard 2) Rikard’s other child, Raine was smuggled out of the palace and taken to the Juumel Katedraal 3) Rikard was murdered by his brother 4) Zane I was able to hold off the destruction of the Juumel Katedraal via magick 5) Zane ordered that Raine be taken out of O’Khasis 6) The Juumel Katedraal (along with the entire archive) was set alight 7) Zane I refused to leave the Cathedral even as it burned around him, and was last heard reciting the Divine Prayer until the roof of the building collapsed on him and 8) Raine was intercepted by Garmen’s men and taken back to the palace. 

In essence, Zane I died a martyr trying to protect his sister and save his beliefs & history from being burned to the ground, though ultimately it was somewhat in vain. The Purge of Pages was the single most devastating loss of historical and religious information in all of Ru’aun’s history, with over 80,000 books, scrolls, and texts lost to the flame. 

[muckmagister]

do you think a robot powered by bees is a good idea? this is time senistive, dawg.

fuck yes this sounds awesome, do this immediately 👍

[ohtobeleah]

Congrats on your one year anniversary! 🥳

It's honestly so hard to pick like a stand out because I feel like all your stories are great in their own way!

I personally love how you write angst and (even if it hurts) that you are not afraid to kill off people lol

I love Radar, because I love Bob

I love terms of endearment, because I love how you tackle real life though and senistive topics so well (and i love Dot lol)

I love Bruises, because I love sensitive and caring Jake (and have little concerns for my mental stability haha)

I could go on an on🫶🏻

Radar! 🥹 oh my gosh we love her here. Fun little fact. Webb was my first born, that one-shot with Rooster. But Radar Spencer-Floyd was my second born and she’s born on the 9th of September!

Yeah. Terms of Endearment is defs a colt classic hands down. It’s got everything you need in a good hearty series. Angst, fluff, a little smut, a story line that intertwines and just keeps getting better. We love Felix. She’s a 10/10.

It’s my one year anniversary

[thestarwarslesbian]

This or That

Thanks for the tag @t3mpest98

barbie or oppenheimer (i didn't like any of them and perfered Mission Impossible)// ketchup or mustard // crinkled fries or curly fries // robots or dinosaurs // silly hats or silly socks // spring or autumn // Harry Potter or lord of the rings // vacation or staycation // day or night // board games or video games // books or movies (I love both) // money or love // milkshake or iced coffee (I like both but perfer coffee) // waffles or pancakes // chocolate or candy // beach or pool (neither, I can swim but I have very senistive skin and i get bad reactions from salt water and chlorine in water) // laundry or dishes // take-out or dine-out (depends on the day but i perfer a homemade meal) // fantasy or sci-fi (both) // walkers or pringles (I corrected it to my british mind)

[master-jarrus]

Me: *explaining why the puzzle piece is harmful* the puzzle piece says that we are incomplete but we are whole people so majority of the aitistic community with actual autistic people having a say ask that you don't use it to represent us

Autistic warrior mom: but my children are my puzzle pieces that made me whole

Me: *internally* no you were a whole person before they were born just like how they will be whole people when you die

Me: *What I actually said* No you are more like paintings in a series. Yes you all look great together but being separate doesn't take away from what you already are

Other autistic warrior mom: YOu neeD to sTOp beIng So senIsTive anD PutTing YOUR FeeLings oN the reSt of the aUtiSm comMunIty. JuSt becauSe yOu haD a bAd exPerIence wItH auTiSm SpEaKs doSN't maKe theM aLl bAD!

Me: I was sharing my personal experience but there are hundr- you know what never mind. *internally* If you actually cared you would take in consideration of my experience and would appreciate my input as an autistic adult

[jeintalu]

ORBAN NATO KOHTUMISEL VILNIUSES

Ungari peaminister Orbanit on Läänes, kaasaarvatud Eestis, väga palju laimatud. Teda on tahtlikult valesti tsiteeritud või tema seisukohti moonutatult ümber jutustatud.

Tavaliselt teda ei tsiteerita ja allikatele ei viidata, võttes lugejailt võimaluse Orbanile omistatud vaateid kiiresti kontrollida. Olulisi fakte seoses Ungari ja Ukraina suhetega on ajakirjanduses maha vaikitud.

Äsja ilmus Eesti peavoolumeedias Argo Ideoni artikkel, mis kohe algusest peale hakkas Ungarit ja Orbanit halvustama, esitamata Orbani asjakohaseid tsitaate.

Kuna Ideon kurtis, et tal on halb Orbani kohta midagi lugeda, siis oleks ta pidanud kohe sealsamas esitama sobilikud tsitaadid Orbanilt endalt.

See on sovetiaegne stiil — moonutada kellegi seisukohti ja esitada neid valesti, varjates originaali.

Äsja Vilniuses toimunud NATO tippkohtumisel tegi Orban oma avalduse.

Esitan siin tõlke eesti keelde mõnedest Orbani tekstilõikudest. Originaalidega saab tutvuda Orbani Twitteri kontol.

Pangem tähele, et sellel NATO tippkohtumisel tehti NATO ühisavaldus, milles sarjati Hiinat ja Venemaad ning vastandati neid Lääne "reelgitepõhisele maailmakorrale".

Aga Orbani tsitaate lugedes peaks kohe selgeks saama, et Orban ei nõua mitte midagi muud kui seda, et NATO organisatsioonina omaenda põhikirjast ja reeglitest kinni peaks. Orban:

"Selle asemel, et tuua Ukrainasse relvi, peaksime me tooma rahu. Ungari seisab kindlalt rahu poolel. Sõja asemel tuleks võimalikult kiiresti alustada rahuläbirääkimisi." "Kuna sõda on meie naabruses ja kümned tuhanded ungarlased on vahetus ohus, sest Ukrainas (Taga-Karpaatias) elavad ungarlased, nõuab Ungari, et NATO ei peaks oma senist seisukohta muutma: NATO on sõjaline kaitseliit. See loodi oma liikmesriikide kaitsmiseks, mitte sõjaliste tegevuste läbiviimiseks teiste riikide territooriumil." "Läbirääkimiste alguses langeb Ungari seisukoht täielikult kokku NATO seisukohaga, sest NATO ei saada vägesid, ei saada relvi, ei koolita välja lahinguväeüksusi, vaid püüab pigem tugevdada oma liikmesriikide kaitsevõimet. See on vajalik ja õige ning Ungari toetab seda."

11. juulil 2023

[minkuparks]

i can’t handle anyone using sarcasm with me it makes me shut off completely but i also always think that i am overly senistive... someone asked me about my day, and i had a lot to say so we talked for a while about it and then i got really distracted bc i was at the park and we just spoke about other things and then he said, my day was fine thanks for asking............. and it will never not bother me 

[mucizelinde]

🌚🧘‍♀️En eski çağlardan itibaren fiziksel ve ruhsal dünyaları birbirine bağladığına inanılan ve spiritüel ritüellerde, ibadetlerde ve meditasyonlarda odak noktası olan epifiz bezinin fiziki özellikleri de onun üçüncü göz olarak nitelendirilmesini destekler.👁 ✨💎EPİFİZ BEZİ COŞTURMA RİTÜELİ 📌Öncelikle ayağa kalkın ve iki elinizi birbirine hızlıca sürtün. Arkasından bir elinizin avuç içini iki kaşınızın arasına gelecek şekilde,diğer elinizin avuç içini kafanızın arkasına gelecek şekilde tutun. 1 dk kadar bekledikten sonra aynı bölgelere parmak uçlarınızla 7 kere vurarak şu sözleri tekrar edin. “HAYDİ EPİFİZ BEZİM COŞ,HAYDİ EPİFİZ BEZİM COŞ,HAYDİ EPİFİZ BEZİM COŞ.” Ve iki elinizi kocaman açıp karşıya bakarak son bir kez daha “HAYDİ EPİFİZ BEZİM COŞ”diyoruz ve ritüeli tamamlıyoruz. ‼️💎Unutmayın EPİFİZ bezi psişik gelişmemizin hayati bir parçasıdır.Ayrıca sağlıklı olmamızın en temel direğidir. Sevgiyle....✨🙏🏻 . . . #epifiz #epifizbezi #ritüel #ritüeller #ezoterizm #dilek #istek #olumlama #seniste #mucizelinde #mucizelereinan #pozitifenerji #şans #follow #followforfollowback #like #likeforlikes #reiki #reikienergy #reikimaster https://www.instagram.com/p/B9wzMHgjk0A/?igshid=wutetjnjllqi

[annamlynska]

Attention!!

It contains potentially sensitive content and addresses child sexual abuse issues.

(One comment from the statistics. 90% of perpetrators of sexual abuse are people who know the abused child personally)

I wrote this text because I think that although the situation described by Noragami is much more complicated, the authors try to draw attention to this very sensitive topic, among other things.

As far as Kazuma is concerned, I've been thinking for a long time that what he did to Yukin actually corresponds exactly to a situation where the sexual abuse of a child is committed by someone the child knows. Like a family friend

Kazuma will actually use his superiority and without Yukine's permission, against his will, will enter his intimate space and force Yukine to do something he did not want at all. There are many cases where sports coaches or educators are the culprits of sexual abuse. 

The reason it always takes so long for the police to deal with them is that none of those who should protect a child are able to believe that someone they know so well and whom they trust enough to entrust the child to him, he would be able to do something like that.

[5376051449herbalife]

Güzelimiz geldi hoşgeldiii 🙏😘💃💚💖 🤩😃💚💃 #herbalifenutrition #pazartesi #haftanınbereketi #hayırlıcumalar #canımailem #hedefler #inanç #azim #bollukbereketenerjisi #pozitifenerjim #herşeymümkün #seniste #danışmanlık #network #wellnesscoaching #engüzelhobim #azim #istikrar #kocaeli #izmit #kentkonut #derince #yarımca #körfez #körfezkent (İzmit) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvKGWRYnDY1/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=n7si0gowqotc

[ryan-spinel]

CHAPTER TWO

“Perri's Letter and Spinel's Revenge”

It was another boring day at school. Today I avoided Steven and Connie, at least until things cool down. Now Perri and I are walking to her house, later going to see Lexi. I suggested we go right after school, but poor Perri had a meltdown when that phone addicted bitch Sophie teased her about liking Lexi. Saying “A spaz like you can't date someone like Lexi Joel. You have a better chance at hooking up with your catnapping psycho of a friend.”

I would have said “go fuck yourself and stuff your mouth with a dumb jocks cock.”But I kept silent to avoid more trouble. Even though she's a threat to my relationship with Steven, she went too far attacking my wittle buddy. After today, she will pay.

“So. How you feeling bud.” I comforted

“A little better Spinel, thank you, for walking with me.” Perri lamented

She didn't seem any better, so I stopped walking and placed my hands on her shoulders. She jolted a little bit, she does that when someone touches her without her knowing, I need to stop doing that.

“Perri, please don't worry about Sophie. She will never bother you again.” I reassured Perri

“You don't know that Spinel, you can't just make her disappear.” Perry doubted

The truth is I can, and I will.

“Just, please trust me okay. She won't hurt you anymore.” I asserted, starting to get annoyed

“I-,hmm. Okay Spinel, I trust you. Now can we please go to my place.” Perri faltered, noticing me getting annoyed.

Even though Perri and I been friends for a while, there were times I lost my shit. One time in elementary 5, Perri had this cute green alien head chewy. Back then Perri would chew on the collar of her shirt, so Brooklyn got it as an alternative. Later, a boy by the name of Ronaldo ask if he could play with it. Perri didn't say anything, she looked away from the fat little shit. He started to get annoyed and grabbed her arm. When I saw tears running down the poor kids face, I said. “Don't touch my fucking friend, she doesn't want to share. So piss of you bitch-ass comic book reading fat pussy.” After I stand up for my nerdy buddy, the little shit started to ball his eyes out. So I got detention for the weekend, and then Grandmother Whitney put a bar of soap in my mouth. She's an amazing Grandmother, but if you push her buttons she can be a mean old hag.

We finally arrive at Perri's place, it's a cute little cabin-like house. With a more rustic style unlike my home, a traditional Japanese minka. Once we walked to the door, we were greeted by the outgoing Brooklyn Fitzgerald. A fierce and friendly soul, who looks out for her friends. She works as a lumberjack at the local saw mill, fell in love with the stubborn lawyer Pearl Harpor and once one first place in the wood chopping competition at the county fair. Brooklyn was always that person you feel comfortable around, she is a great role-model for Perri and always wants the best for her. She's like the cool aunt I never had, and the only adult I feel comfortable around that isn't my family.

“How you doing kids, I made a tray of onigiri for an afternoon snack.” Brooklyn greeted

“Thanks mom, we're here just to get a bite to eat, spinel and I are going to a study group at the library.” Perri replied

Perri doesn't lie often, but she's surprisingly good at it. It's scary if you think about it.

“Well okay Perri, but remember. Always have your phone, come back home before six, and don't walk in Black Hawk Clan territory.” Brooklyn directed

“Well of course mom.” Perri acknowledged while to two of us walk inside

Their house interior was like one of the those shacks in the movie Friday the 13th. Brooklyn kept it very well maintained, she may be a lumberjack but she's a amazing carpenter.

“I'll be back Spinel, I'm just getting some things from my room.” Perri called, going to grab the letter

“Alright Perri.” I concurred while eating some homemade onigiri

“So, umm. Spins, how's Perri doing.” Brooklyn worried, she's not always the serious type. But when she is, you need to listen and shut up.

“She's, okay. Why do you ask?” I denied, having a good feeling what she's going to say.

“I got a call from the school, saying that Perri had a meltdown.” Brooklyn took a deep breath and continued. “Spinel, I know your aware that Perri is a little different than the other kids. She thinks in a different way and does things differently.” Brooklyn fretted

“I think you are aware of this Spinel, but Perri has Autism.” Brooklyn said looking that she's not finished speaking.

I was aware that Perri isn't like other kids, that why I like her. I love that she would ramble on and on about robotics, AI and Elon Musk. I love that she has that burning passion to expand her learning, even if it's just one topic. In a way, Perri's like a little sister to me. I love her because she's unique, not mediocre like those bimbos at school. She's her own person and doesn't follow a crowd.

“There were many incidents that kids would tease her because she's on the spectrum. They would tease her for being jumpy, they would pick on her because she wouldn't play with the other kids. And let's not forget the time a student grabbed her over a god damn chewie.” Brooklyn bawled, on the verge of tears. Even someone as strong as her can feel defeated sometimes.

“I'm scared spinel, I'm scared that my little girl will get herself hurt. After the diagnosis her father couldn't take it and left. Saying that he wanted a normal child with a normal life. Pearl has a hard time dealing with Perri sometimes, but she still cares about her. All I ask is Spinel, please look out for her.”

“Brook, things won't be like this forever. There's a lot of people with autism and live great lives. Overtime they grow and learn how to cope, Perri's still a kid. She's going to be an amazing person one day. Building robots or something. The point is that sometime people outgrow these problems, it's sometimes doesn't bother them or they cope with it. Your very lucky to have a daughter like Perri. You just have to remember that every successful person had those days that they want to give up. But they keep pushing until they reach their goals. Just like Perri.” I monotoned

“You maybe right Spins, Perri has been growing up. It just seems like yesterday she didn't need her chewy anymore.” Brooklyn hoped

“See, everything's going to be okay. Sophie won't bully her anymore, I promise.” I concluded

“Alright Spinel, lets go to the library now. ” Perri intrupted

“Be safe girls, look out for one another.”

It took us 30 minutes by bus to arrive at the Black Hawk clan's main nest, I don't know why they would call it a nest but whatever. Their nest was a giant old warehouse outside of town, it had a barbed wire fence all around the headquarters. Like those fences you see in prisons. There was a giant chain link fence for the entrance, two bikers were guarding it carrying AK-47s.

“Yo what the fuck, you can't be-, ohhhhhh. It's the catnapper. What business do you have with the Black Hawks.” Thug one marveled

“Is that what they're calling me now, it was psycho bitch last week. We don't what any trouble, we just want to see the road captain.”

“Wait are you talking about, Lex. Hah,well Spins, we can't let you just see the road captain. You have to talk to the founder first, she decides not us.” Thug two announced

“Oh for the love of god.” I whispered to myself

“Well, can we see. Fucking, Jasper or someone.” I badgered

These biker act so tough and fearless. But really, their just a bunch of leather-wearing douches.

“Ahhhhh, if it'll make you shut the fuck up then sure. ” thug one complained

The two annoyed thugs opened the gate, Perri and I walk cautiously into the nest.

Inside the warehouse wasn't any better than the outside. On the left side, there was a bar with tables, chairs and stolen arcade game machines. The right side was their business operation, with safes, factory equipment and a security system. Every biker gang has their source of income. It can be drugs,weapons, cigarettes or anything valuable on the yami-ichi.

The Black Hawks are the kingpins in the drug industry, but they don't just sell any type of drug. They created their own drug that is booming in the Japanese black market. It's called Menohoyō, meaning eye-candy in Japanese. Menohoyō is made just like regular eye-drops, because it is eye-drops. The only reason why it's addictive and illegal, is because it's made of 45% of diethylamide. A main chemical component to make LSD. There's been cases all across the world, reaching places like Brazil, United States and even Russia. There has been many gangs and drug cartels trying to replicate this drug, but all of them failed. Today, the Black Hawks dominate the drug industry, even bribing politicians to keep their business running. It's greasy business, that's why I want Lexi to get out when she still has the chance.

In front of us are the three masterminds of the whole operation.

Jasper Alder, the founder of the gang. Sitting on an old puke green recliner and smoking a five inch Pyramid cigar. She was born in Tokyo and was a target for bullying because she has vitiligo. Due to the bullying she became a mean bitch, once she broke a kids arm because she called her giraffe. Later in life, Jasper got into bodybuilding and motorcycles. Causing her to follow the wrong crowd. She got involved in a lot of crazy shit involving rival gangs. Once she turned twenty-three, she created the Black Hawk Clan. She called it that because one day, her father and her were hunting hawks. A giant common black hawk attacked her father and scratched his throat, causing him to bled to death in the middle of the woods. Jasper manage to shot the hawks wing and flew off. For three nights she was searching that hawk. Later found it on the ground near an old Japanese Wisteria. Jasper chose not to put the bird out of its misery, instead she watched it bled out for three minutes. So long story short, she's twenty-five and runs a drug cartel now.

On her left was the president of the clan, Eleanor Monsoon. She was Jasper right-hand gal, those two used to rob gas-stations when they were teens. Eleanor was also known for her great grandfather being in the Imperial guard divisions during WW2. That's where she gets her fierce comanding attitude.

On the right was the Vice President of the clan, Persephone Windsor. Nothing to special about her, all I can say is she's a snobby bitch born in a very rich family, she supply's most of the equipment and weapons. She's a narcissist and a manipulator who will destroy lives to get her way.

“(Puffing a smoke) Well, I didn't expect to see the pip-squeak and the catnapper today. ” Jasper snarled while inhaling on her cigar.

“Let me do the talking Perri, I got this.” I whispered to Perri

“Hi Jasper, hows the gang and so. Also can we talk to Lexi.” I urged, trying to convince the butch

“(Puffing a smoke). Well Spins, if you have business with the road captain you have business with me. Now spill the beans crazy.” Jasper chided

“It has nothing to do with.Business. We want to see Lexi, because-”

“Because I want to get to know her better, and hopefully she'll get out of this dirty, greasy motorcyclist club you call a business.” Perri interrupted me and dared Jasper

Thanks a lot Perri, we're fucked.

“How dare you, a worthless pest like you speaking to the founder like-” Persephone chastised

“Wait. Hold on your saying you want to hangout and bond, with the black hawk clan road captain. Out of all the nerds at your snobby school. You choose an angsty, hot-headed, with drugged up parents and possibly slept with more guys than you know how many bones are in the human body. So tell be spaz, what makes you think a nerd like you, can ever be with someone as fucked up as Lex. Because honestly, you can do better.” Jasper insulted

I saw that Perri was starting to get upset, but instead being sad, she got mad.

“You, you don't know anything. How dare you talk to someone like that, your not any better you, you, you f-f-fucking clod.” Perri exploded

It would take a tiny miracle to get us out of this shit.

However, the three bikers looked at each other with confusion. There was a silent pause, until.

“...............Haaaahahahahahahahaha.hhaaaaaaahaaahahahaahahahahhaaaahahah.” The three clan leaders burst with laughter

Perri expression turned back to sadness, trying to hold in her tears.

“Hahahaaahhaa, is,haha, is that the best you got tiny,hahhahaha. That's fucking pathetic, hahaha. Oh look at me, I WUV Lexi, hahaha.” Jasper mocked

I could see Perri starting to sob, I wanted to say something but that would be a suicide mission.

“Perri and Lexi sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-” the three clan leaders laughed and mocked

“What the fuck is happening, it's like a fucking circus in here. ” Lexi interrupted

Thank God she's here

“Perri, Spinel. What are you guys doing here.” Lexi gasped

“We were going to see you, until these donkey's stop us from doing so.” I explained

Lexi then turned her attention to the brainy-baby.

“Hey, hey, hey. Perri, my dude. I'm here, it's okay.” Lexi tried comforting Perri

“(Whimpering) it's good to see you again rockstar.” Perri sniffled

“It's good to see you to buddy.” Lexi sympathized

Lexi then turned her attention to the three douches

“What the fuck did you three do.” Lexi accused

“Lex, know your place. You do not bark at me, or I'm sending you back on the streets like the runt you are. ” Jasper retaliated

“Well I guess you have to put be back on the fucking streets, because no one talks to my friends like that.” Lexi condemned

It warms my cold heart to see Lex care so much for Perri, it's so sweet.

“Ah you fucking bitch, alright. You can see your, friend now.(inhaling on her cigar).” Jasper said in defeat

“Come on Perri, is there something you wanted to tell me.” Lexi adviced

“One second Lexi.” Perri protested

She turned her direction towards me, running up to me and giving me a hug. It was a tight hug, like a bear hug.

“You are the greatest friend in the world, I'm so lucky to have met you.” Perri chirped

I still didn't understand this platonic affection, this is the second time in a row, and I don't feel anything. My heart feels heavy and silent, there's no emotion. Why am I like this.

But to make her feel better, I hugged her back.

It lasted for 3 minutes, everyone in the warehouse was staring at us. But I didn't care, as long as she's happy.

She finally let go and walk towards Lexi, both of them waving goodbye to me. I guess it wasn't such a bad day after all.

“Hold on Spinel, just a minute.” Jasper asserted

I spoke to soon.

“Even though I'm letting your friend hang with the road captain, you still have to do something for me in return. ” Jasper decided

“Jasper. I can't be your drug mule.” I stated

“Don't worry your panties off, your not delivering drugs. I've chosen something that you may like. Do you know Sophie Turner.” Jasper explained

“What about her.”

“She hasn't been paying her IOU's for the Menohoyō's she's been buying for her parties. She keeps saying “My dad is rich, I'll get your money, stop bugging me, bla bla bla.” So because of her I'm losing money, she's my top buyer in Akuma no tochi. So what I need you to do is, take her out.” Jasper offered

Well isn't that pure irony.

“I think I can do that Jasper, but I'm going to need some equipment.” I demanded

“Sure, anything. You just can't tell the clan was involved.” Jasper added

“I need a hacksaw, trash bags, bleach, cleaning supplies, nails and the key to the saw mill.” I listed

“Done. Go to our SGT at arms, Ruth. She'll get you what you need. Remember Spinel, this never happened.” Jasper concluded

Once I reached the exit, a familiar voice called out for me.

“Spinel, Wait. I want to talk to you!”

Well what do you know, I thought Ryan was the last person who would talk to me here.

“Listen Spinel, I did some thinking and wanted to apologize about yesterday. I took my frustrations out on you, it was wrong. I should have never called you runner-tits, your a beautiful, smart girl. One day, some very lucky guy will meet you. I'm sorry.” Ryan apologized

I didn't expect someone like Ryan to say that, it took a lot of guts to admit something like that. I respect that.

“I forgive you Ryan, no hard feelings.”

“Thank you Spinel, I'll let you go now. But remember, the Black Hawks have your back.” Ryan thanked

“Your welcome, I'll see you around.”

It is time, time to give that bitch what she deserves. Good thing I didn't give all that birthday cake to the meow-meows.

I finally arrive to Sophie's place, no ones home but her. I have everything I need to silence her for good. And it all starts with a piece of cake.

I walked to her door and placed a small pink box on the doorstep. I knocked on the door and hid behind a bush.

“Hello, is some out there. Justin you better not be fucking with me.” Sophie cautioned

“Oh, what's this. (opens the box) aww, it's a piece of cake. I guess Justin isn't a dick after all. ”

Sophie picked up the cake from the box and went back inside, without locking the door. I quietly snuck in behind her, when I found out that she took the bait. I always make the best cakes, thanks to Momma. But for this special occasion, I added my secret ingredient.

I saw her take the first bite, then the second, and finally the third. Until she took her fourth bite.

“Mmmh mhhhh- ACK,ACK. Gahh. Barf.” Sophie said while gagging and puking blood

That's right, the secret ingredient os nails. I placed a couple of small nails in the sweet-treat, hoping it would tear her esophagus apart.

“Aww, did poor wittle Sophie bit off more than she could chew.” I teased her while kneeling down beside her.

“Who's a spaz now bitch. I would have came for your ass later. But you had to pick on my wittle buddy. That's one step to far.” I rasped

I looked at her in disgust while watching her struggle to breathe. This was the first human I ever killed, I'm tired of releasing my pain on cats. Taking them from their owners, putting them in a bag, and slamming that said bag onto the concrete floor! Who ever knew inflicting pain on someone like her can feel so, pleasurable. Reliving. The pure horror in their eyes fills my desire, my desire to butcher these whores that stand in my way. I shouldn't have done this sooner.

“ACK ACK ACK, gahh. Fuck youu, you psychotic cun-(pukes blood). Barf. Huff, puff, huff, puff. Huff...ack....ack...ack.........ah.” Sophie cried her last words.

“Just so you know, it's homemade not store bought.” I joked

Well that took longer than I expected. I had to saw her in ten part, bag them, clean the floor, bleach the floor, dispose any evidence, take the body parts to the saw mill and shred them up. I also had to burn my cloths as well, at least I brought a spare set. But it all ended smoothly. I got my revenge, and now only five more rivals to go. Perri can now see Lexi anytime, I hope they worked out, they'll make a cute couple. Even though school sucked ass at least it ended on a positive note. Now time to go home, and great my amazing famil-.

“Hey. Spinel.”

Okay who could that be.

I turned around wanting to know whose behind me. And oh fuck I wish didn't. This day was perfect for Perri and I, and she's the last person I wanted to see, God damn it!

“Hello Spinel”

“Hello. Connie.”

To be continued

[thecaffeinebookwarrior]

Hi, sorry, this isn't a writing question more of a...how do I not panic? I have really bad problems when I hear planes flying overhead, especially at night and I can't sleep and my breathing picks up. Do you know how I can calm down from this? I generally have a bad fear of planes and the dropping feeling, but the sound keeps me up. And it's loud, we're close to an airport with a window open or not

Hello!  First and foremost, I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through this.  Sadly, I lack the qualifications necessary to answer this question.  This is a question for a licensed mental health professional.  

However, in my personal experience, this kind of extreme noise sensitivity can accompany forms of ADHD, PTSD, autism, and anxiety.  While I don’t have much to offer by way of treatment options, I know people who cope by using noise cancelling ear plugs, earmuffs, and earphones.  At the very least, you can use these to sleep better at night.  If it’s loud enough that it’s still audible, the addition of a white noise generator might help to drown it out.  Finally, I will direct you to this post on how to get through a panic attack.

I certainly hope this helps! 

[xxvictusxx]

Me, when my friend keeps texting back one word replies: I must be really annoying! Am I bothering them? I should probably stop. They probably don't even like me and are just humoring me. What if our friendship is all just a lie? What if everyone who's ever cared for me was just pretending along??!

Also me talking to people I really care about: K.

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