#seniste

[brittscafe]

𝐒𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬

Pairing: Shuhei and Shinji x fem! reader (separately)

Summary: Reader is afraid to sleep with Shuhei/ Shinji and they comfort you.

Request: Britt can i ask for the same setting with one of the fics you wrote with Ichigo where reader is afraid to sleep with him because of past experiences with Shinji and Shuhei? P.s.: lots of love, i love your writing a lot

A/n: Hiii, of course! Aww thank youuu! I hope you enjoy this piece <3 Mwuah <3

Content: Angst, past sexual trauma, fluffy angst.

Shinji: You're sitting on Shinji's lap, hips rocking back and forth, grinding on him. He's got his large hand around your throat, having a firm grip on you.

His lips are pressed against your neck, lips sucking on your senistive skin as you moan softly. His other hand is on your waist as your arms are wrapped around his neck.

You close your eyes for a moment and you get lost in the past. You gasp a little, trying to get out of your own nightmare. Remembering all the yelling and belittling.

"Y/n?" Shinji calls out and you open your eyes. You blink harshly, coming back to reality and you climb off of Shinji. You grab onto a pillow and squeeze it tightly.

"Sorry," you mumble out.

"Hey, y/n...I lost you there for a second. Is something wrong?" he asks with a soft voice that pulls you in.

"Um..." your voice trails off, tearing your eyes away from Shinji. He cups your cheek and turns your face towards him. He brushes your skin with his thumb, tilting his head as his eyes glisten.

"Come on...tell me," Shinji urges you, pressing his fingers to your side to tickle you. Your body jolts and you chuckle, pulling away from him and sniffling.

"Ok...well. It's kind of embarrassing, but I'm honestly am really afraid to have sex," you admit and Shinji's jaw drops open.

"With me? Please, you have nothing to worry about. I will make sure you finish everytime," Shinji tries to reassure you and you shake your head.

"While that's nice, Shinji, I don't mean I'm worried about that. I'm worried about how I'm gonna make you feel. I'm worried if you're even gonna like it," you inhale through your gritted teeth.

Shinji chuckles and furrows his eyebrows with confusion. There's no way you think that he won't like it. He's been dreaming about it for weeks.

"Wow, that's insane to say, y/n or even think. I know that you are going to make me feel very good and I don't doubt it. I cannot wait for the day that you do make me feel good, but there is nothing that I want more than for you to be ready. Let's go at your pace," Shinji offers and your eyes light up.

For Shinji to say all of this is so nice and welcoming. He is nothing like your past and you are so grateful for that.

A smile spreads across your face and you throw your arms around Shinji. He chuckles and hugs you back, treasuring you in his arms.

"Thanks, Shinji. That made me feel better. It's really nice of you to go at my pace," you say.

"Just don't let anyone else know how nice I am," he teases you, squeezing you tightly.

He is never going to let you go.

Shuhei: Shuhei is on top of you, lips melting and smacking together almost violently. His hands are wandering all over your body, at first it feels really good and makes you want more.

Then your mind flashes back to your past, being ridiculed about your performance. You can't help the tears that form in your eyes as Shuhei pulls away from you, breathless.

Your eyes are watery as Shuhei gazes at your puffy face. He pulls away from your face and his eyes widen.

"Oh, y/n. What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Shuhei asks, worry flooding into his eyes as he climbs off of you. He sits beside you as tears stream down your face.

"I'm just really scared," you sob out and Shuhei's eyebrows furrow as he inches closer to you. He moves slowly and carefully to not frighten you.

"Scared of what, baby?" he asks, placing a hand on your arm and rubbing it gently. You wipe away your tears and glance into his kind eyes.

Shuhei's face is a bit blurry from the tears scattered in your eyes, but you can still make him out. His face of sympathy and kindness.

"I'm scared to have sex. I know it's dumb or whatever, but it's because of my past. I know that I shouldn't really bring up my past problems because I'm trying to move on, but...it's really hard to," you speak with trembling lips.

Shuhei's lips slightly part open as he studies your face. He can see the pain behind your eyes and how you look so defeated. He hates to see you like this, it just breaks his heart.

Shuhei smiles softly at you, taking him into his arms and snuggling you.

"I don't care about your past, y/n. I'm not like that at all, I promise. You can take all the time you need to. I'm not going to rush anything or force you to do something you don't want to."

Your body fills with relief and Shuhei presses a soft kiss on your forehead.

"Thank you," you whisper out. He wraps an arm around you and pulls you onto his chest.

"Ok, now let's watch a movie," Shuhei comments as you rest your head on his chest.

[butcharium]

Yesterday I reveived my copy of E. M. Forsters "Maurice" (illustrated!) and I have become enraptured, all I want is to read and read and read and read (oh most wonderful of feelings) but I have to restrain myself because I have some very time senistive work tasks that really really needs to be done :'(

[tartagliatum]

I think a lot about Wrio allowing himself to indulge and gaining some weight as a way of healing, he went hungry for a long part of his life, but now he gets to be safer, to eat his fill and go to sleep with a full tummy. I also think of Neuvillete encouraging him to do it so, cherishing his softer body and rubbing his tummy, empty or full, which is great bcs Wrio not only lived starved of food but of affection too. I LOVE WG AND STUFFING AS HEALING, AND I LOVE WRIO. I CAN HEAL HIM FR (BY FEEDING HIM)

AHSJSHUS I LOVE THIS cherishing his softer body and rubbing his tummy <3333

i feel like so many canon profile bits and exchanges with him point to him being quite an indulgent character already; slacking off work, turning up his nose at the less desirable welfare meals, strolling around fontaine's patisseries, taking little tea breaks whenever the opportunity arises. as he deserves to!

given that he's said to be seen visiting bakeries while on duty in the overworld, i like to think he has a sweetooth :3 perhaps neuvillette often brings him pastries and cakes as gifts whenever he visits during work hours. he invites him to furina's famous tea parties whenever the chance makes itself available (one of which is sure to be hosted each time the warden has official business to discuss in the court of fontaine, no matter how trivial.) he is always delighted to see him treat himself, and wriothesley is just as happy to satisfy his sweet tooth on such a decadent feast; not only did he never think he would have the opportunity to live so luxuriously, but also because now he believes he deserves to do so, no longer holding back from his desires out of guilt and little self worth.

not only does he give in to his newfound large appetite, but neuvillette rather likes to indulge him too. he brings him out to restaurants and orders fine foods and wines - a gloved finger pointing out the dishes on the menu as he orders for the both of them. at furina's tea parties, he offers him another slice of cake or suggests which desserts to try next, even as wriothesley places a hand on the swell of his quickly filling stomach.

"kouign-amann pair quite well with ginger tea. i must say this batch has been baked long to perfection," he muses, delicately pushing a plate across the table to wriothesley, who is still making his way through the gâteau he insisted he try. "though if you are drinking something sweeter, i would suggest a few canelés, or this pear tarte tatin. what do you think, furina?"

"the red wine caramel is exquisite, wriothesley."

"these macarons from lucerne's, though, are truly delectable. they are still light and crisp from this morning."

"let me breathe first." wriothesley swallows, smiling fondly at his enthusiasm to see him eat well. (and, really, breathing may become slightly more challenging if he continues on like this.) "i haven't even finished the last few you so kindly bestowed upon me."

and ohhh the belly rubs,,, !!!!!!!

ofc i believe wriothesley is so weak for having his tummy rubbed in the first place - neuvillette's warm hands are the perfect balance of heavy and firm but gentle, and just feel so inexplicably nice - so when the deep circles he rubs into his belly are accompanied by the pleasurable feeling of being full of baked treats or a yummy dinner, he quite positively ascends to heaven. and when his lavish lifestyle inevitably fills him out and he amasses a few extra inches on his waistline, the iudex's hands on his newly senistive tummy send him out of this world entirely. falling asleep is a difficult thing for wriothesley, but under these circumstances - whether neuvillette is settling a meal in his stomach or simply providing affectionate rubs - he feels safe and cared for in his arms, and despite fighting it, sleep takes over him and he's snoring lightly into his boyfriend's shoulder. indulging is a fun little hobby, but having somebody to indulge with - somebody to pamper you - is much preferable.

(also consider - tummy kisses. neuvillette is absolutely over the moon when the soft cushioning of wriothesley's tummy means he can easily take it between his teeth, trailing little love bites over the gentle curve of his belly. or simply just pressing his lips to his warm middle in soft, adoring kisses, much to wriothesley's blissful delight.)

[rueclfer]

omg rue happy birthday ily !!!

eeeep thank u senister illyyyyy

[stellisketches]

I was looking through the Ro’Meave tree and I was wondering how Zane The First died cuz like I feel like that dude had a lot going on considering he was both the high priest and relic wielder ?

hahahahahahahah you have no idea the wellspring you've just unearthed.

I actually planned on writing a whole thing on Zane the First (aka Zane the Martyr) because his story is an interesting one. 

Zane I was the first born son of Rikard II. From and early age it was said that Zane I was magickally blessed, and received divine visions from both the past and future (though he could not always tell which was which). It was decided that he would enter the priesthood (to which he was very enthusiastic about) and inherit the relic of Esmund when he came of age. (Side Note: The relic of Esmund was actually owned by the church, not the Ro’Meaves, meaning the church controlled which Ro’Meave wielded the relic. This is why there are so many generational gaps between relic wielders). It was almost predetermined that Zane I would become the High Priest thanks to his visions, and was treated almost as a messiah for the people of Ru’aun. This only strengthened as he got older, as he was incredibly generous, pious, and kind. It was said that every word that left his mouth sung like poetry, flowers would bloom in his presence, and his voice gentle enough to make the birds sing. (obviously historical embellishment but you get jist. The man was practically Jesus sugarcoated with the mannerisms of a Disney princess). Anyway, he was THE it-boy of Ru’aun for pretty much his entire life. 

Up until the end of the Divine Crisis.

See, the Divine Crisis was a schism that happened in the religious beliefs of the Ru’aunians. See, before the Crisis, The Divine Warriors were worshipped fairly equally, with Irene only worshipped slightly more because she was native to Ru’aun (This belief was referred to as Senism). However, a new church (known as the Matronists) rose up who focused ONLY on Irene. The Matronists believed that since Irene was the only Divine Warrior that didn’t have any recorded instances of going through reincarnation, she was the only Divine Warrior that was an actual goddess. In the beginning, the church was mostly tolerated, as there had existed some small sects that focused on worshipping one or two particular divine in the past (though they didn’t really hold any degree of power). They started up in the southeast of Ru’aun and began to spread. They must’ve had some really good speakers in their ranks, as within seven years of popping up almost half of Ru’aun converted to the new faith is some shape or form. 

The only major city who’s population didn’t have any Matronist population was O’Khasis. This was because 1) They were far in the west and hadn’t really received any missionaries yet, 2) O’Khasis possessed the biggest archive of information about the divine warriors in Ru’aun, meaning belief in ALL Divine warriors was pretty steadfast, and 3) Zane I was a REALLY GOOD public speaker who preached the Senist message. 

Eventually, a group of Matronists DID show up in O’Khasis. This caused some controversy in the city-state as to whether or not they would be allowed in the city and allowed to build their own church. Lord Rikard II was apprehensive to the idea. His younger brother, Garmen, thought the Matronists should firmly be kept out of the city as they were a threat to their rule (Side Note: Garmen was extremely bitter about the fact that he did not hold the title of Lord. He had repeatedly questioned Rikard’s ability to rule in the past and would devour any power he was given. He was also religious to a certain extent, but moreso in a “divine right to rule” way). However, Zane I (true to his benevolent nature) believed everyone in O’Khasis was allowed to practice their own beliefs. Rikard eventually sided with his son and allowed for the Matronists to enter O’Khasis, and a year later allowed for a church to be built. 

Now, several years later, the church had become even bigger, and more radical. The Matronists had begun to preach that Senism was heretical and practicing idolatry through worshipping the “mortal” Divine Warriors. Book Burnings had started popping up around Ru’aun and there was even a little Senist persecution in the far east. There were even whispers of overthrowing Senist Lords. 

In O’Khasis, Garmen was the first to hear of these whispers, and figured that if something like this came to pass, then the new Lord would be replaced with a Matronist. Realizing this, Garmen ‘harmlessly’ converted to Matronism and began secretly supplying zealots with extra funding and encouraging more Matronist preachers He also began encouraging Zane I to let Matronists use the Archive of religious and historical text kept in the Cathedral of the Divine (known as the Juumel Katedraal). Zane agreed, of course, and slowly the number of converts in O’Khasis steadily began to rise. Somewhere along the way, Garmen actually started to believe in the Matronist method seriously instead of just using it for power. However, one day a Matronist zealot took a bunch of books from the archive and began burning them in the street. This caused Rikard II to ban and punish book burnings with a heavy prison sentence of 6 years per text burnt. Things got a LOT more tense in O’Khasis as book burnings kept popping up along with more Matronist whispers of overthrowing Rikard II. At one point Rikard tried to plead with Garmen to speak on his behalf to the Matronists (Side note: Rikard wasn’t mad that his brother had converted to Matronism before. He was surprised and a little worried, but was never prejudiced against him. They more so got into arguments about how his personal beliefs shouldn’t affect the people of Ru’aun). Garmen lied and said he would, but then started spreading lies to the Matronists that his brother was planning on persecuting them and burning them at the stake. Then, after one larger book burning that involved a group of Matronists, Rikard made the hefty decision that Matronists were officially banned from using the Divine Archive. It was this act that, unfortunately, sealed his fate. 

Eleven days after the order was enacted, the Purge of Pages began. The Purge of Pages was a riot that began in the evening of the eleventh day and continued until dusk of the twelfth. Matronists took to the streets and began forcing their way into different libraries to take books and burn them in the street, along with persecuting Senist people. Honestly there is way too much to go over in a single post but the important stuff is this: 1) A mass or rioters stormed the royal palace in an attempt to kill Rikard 2) Rikard’s other child, Raine was smuggled out of the palace and taken to the Juumel Katedraal 3) Rikard was murdered by his brother 4) Zane I was able to hold off the destruction of the Juumel Katedraal via magick 5) Zane ordered that Raine be taken out of O’Khasis 6) The Juumel Katedraal (along with the entire archive) was set alight 7) Zane I refused to leave the Cathedral even as it burned around him, and was last heard reciting the Divine Prayer until the roof of the building collapsed on him and 8) Raine was intercepted by Garmen’s men and taken back to the palace. 

In essence, Zane I died a martyr trying to protect his sister and save his beliefs & history from being burned to the ground, though ultimately it was somewhat in vain. The Purge of Pages was the single most devastating loss of historical and religious information in all of Ru’aun’s history, with over 80,000 books, scrolls, and texts lost to the flame. 

[muckmagister]

do you think a robot powered by bees is a good idea? this is time senistive, dawg.

fuck yes this sounds awesome, do this immediately 👍

[ohtobeleah]

Congrats on your one year anniversary! 🥳

It's honestly so hard to pick like a stand out because I feel like all your stories are great in their own way!

I personally love how you write angst and (even if it hurts) that you are not afraid to kill off people lol

I love Radar, because I love Bob

I love terms of endearment, because I love how you tackle real life though and senistive topics so well (and i love Dot lol)

I love Bruises, because I love sensitive and caring Jake (and have little concerns for my mental stability haha)

I could go on an on🫶🏻

Radar! 🥹 oh my gosh we love her here. Fun little fact. Webb was my first born, that one-shot with Rooster. But Radar Spencer-Floyd was my second born and she’s born on the 9th of September!

Yeah. Terms of Endearment is defs a colt classic hands down. It’s got everything you need in a good hearty series. Angst, fluff, a little smut, a story line that intertwines and just keeps getting better. We love Felix. She’s a 10/10.

It’s my one year anniversary

[thestarwarslesbian]

This or That

Thanks for the tag @t3mpest98

barbie or oppenheimer (i didn't like any of them and perfered Mission Impossible)// ketchup or mustard // crinkled fries or curly fries // robots or dinosaurs // silly hats or silly socks // spring or autumn // Harry Potter or lord of the rings // vacation or staycation // day or night // board games or video games // books or movies (I love both) // money or love // milkshake or iced coffee (I like both but perfer coffee) // waffles or pancakes // chocolate or candy // beach or pool (neither, I can swim but I have very senistive skin and i get bad reactions from salt water and chlorine in water) // laundry or dishes // take-out or dine-out (depends on the day but i perfer a homemade meal) // fantasy or sci-fi (both) // walkers or pringles (I corrected it to my british mind)

[ohtobeleah]

Every senistable man above the age of 100 needs a best friend who drives him crazy….. But gave him a family

the domesticity is killing me softly

[kyle-fiore]

Ok said normal post no I need to be deranged

Literally, when the TWST anime drops, Im probably gonna end up cutting myself days after 😭

Not because Im upset or anything, but because of how exicted Ill be & the stress of not being able to put ALL my attention on it during school

Hyperfixations suck!!!!!! I know Im more senistive than the average person, but come on!!! I dont want to be having an anxiety attack during class just because I cant focus on TWST!! That already happened with Treys loungewear, damn it!!!!!!!!!

[seneon]

senister. senion. senate.

hello rue

[master-jarrus]

Me: *explaining why the puzzle piece is harmful* the puzzle piece says that we are incomplete but we are whole people so majority of the aitistic community with actual autistic people having a say ask that you don't use it to represent us

Autistic warrior mom: but my children are my puzzle pieces that made me whole

Me: *internally* no you were a whole person before they were born just like how they will be whole people when you die

Me: *What I actually said* No you are more like paintings in a series. Yes you all look great together but being separate doesn't take away from what you already are

Other autistic warrior mom: YOu neeD to sTOp beIng So senIsTive anD PutTing YOUR FeeLings oN the reSt of the aUtiSm comMunIty. JuSt becauSe yOu haD a bAd exPerIence wItH auTiSm SpEaKs doSN't maKe theM aLl bAD!

Me: I was sharing my personal experience but there are hundr- you know what never mind. *internally* If you actually cared you would take in consideration of my experience and would appreciate my input as an autistic adult

[jeintalu]

ORBAN NATO KOHTUMISEL VILNIUSES

Ungari peaminister Orbanit on Läänes, kaasaarvatud Eestis, väga palju laimatud. Teda on tahtlikult valesti tsiteeritud või tema seisukohti moonutatult ümber jutustatud.

Tavaliselt teda ei tsiteerita ja allikatele ei viidata, võttes lugejailt võimaluse Orbanile omistatud vaateid kiiresti kontrollida. Olulisi fakte seoses Ungari ja Ukraina suhetega on ajakirjanduses maha vaikitud.

Äsja ilmus Eesti peavoolumeedias Argo Ideoni artikkel, mis kohe algusest peale hakkas Ungarit ja Orbanit halvustama, esitamata Orbani asjakohaseid tsitaate.

Kuna Ideon kurtis, et tal on halb Orbani kohta midagi lugeda, siis oleks ta pidanud kohe sealsamas esitama sobilikud tsitaadid Orbanilt endalt.

See on sovetiaegne stiil — moonutada kellegi seisukohti ja esitada neid valesti, varjates originaali.

Äsja Vilniuses toimunud NATO tippkohtumisel tegi Orban oma avalduse.

Esitan siin tõlke eesti keelde mõnedest Orbani tekstilõikudest. Originaalidega saab tutvuda Orbani Twitteri kontol.

Pangem tähele, et sellel NATO tippkohtumisel tehti NATO ühisavaldus, milles sarjati Hiinat ja Venemaad ning vastandati neid Lääne "reelgitepõhisele maailmakorrale".

Aga Orbani tsitaate lugedes peaks kohe selgeks saama, et Orban ei nõua mitte midagi muud kui seda, et NATO organisatsioonina omaenda põhikirjast ja reeglitest kinni peaks. Orban:

"Selle asemel, et tuua Ukrainasse relvi, peaksime me tooma rahu. Ungari seisab kindlalt rahu poolel. Sõja asemel tuleks võimalikult kiiresti alustada rahuläbirääkimisi." "Kuna sõda on meie naabruses ja kümned tuhanded ungarlased on vahetus ohus, sest Ukrainas (Taga-Karpaatias) elavad ungarlased, nõuab Ungari, et NATO ei peaks oma senist seisukohta muutma: NATO on sõjaline kaitseliit. See loodi oma liikmesriikide kaitsmiseks, mitte sõjaliste tegevuste läbiviimiseks teiste riikide territooriumil." "Läbirääkimiste alguses langeb Ungari seisukoht täielikult kokku NATO seisukohaga, sest NATO ei saada vägesid, ei saada relvi, ei koolita välja lahinguväeüksusi, vaid püüab pigem tugevdada oma liikmesriikide kaitsevõimet. See on vajalik ja õige ning Ungari toetab seda."

11. juulil 2023

[minkuparks]

i can’t handle anyone using sarcasm with me it makes me shut off completely but i also always think that i am overly senistive... someone asked me about my day, and i had a lot to say so we talked for a while about it and then i got really distracted bc i was at the park and we just spoke about other things and then he said, my day was fine thanks for asking............. and it will never not bother me 

[mucizelinde]

🌚🧘‍♀️En eski çağlardan itibaren fiziksel ve ruhsal dünyaları birbirine bağladığına inanılan ve spiritüel ritüellerde, ibadetlerde ve meditasyonlarda odak noktası olan epifiz bezinin fiziki özellikleri de onun üçüncü göz olarak nitelendirilmesini destekler.👁 ✨💎EPİFİZ BEZİ COŞTURMA RİTÜELİ 📌Öncelikle ayağa kalkın ve iki elinizi birbirine hızlıca sürtün. Arkasından bir elinizin avuç içini iki kaşınızın arasına gelecek şekilde,diğer elinizin avuç içini kafanızın arkasına gelecek şekilde tutun. 1 dk kadar bekledikten sonra aynı bölgelere parmak uçlarınızla 7 kere vurarak şu sözleri tekrar edin. “HAYDİ EPİFİZ BEZİM COŞ,HAYDİ EPİFİZ BEZİM COŞ,HAYDİ EPİFİZ BEZİM COŞ.” Ve iki elinizi kocaman açıp karşıya bakarak son bir kez daha “HAYDİ EPİFİZ BEZİM COŞ”diyoruz ve ritüeli tamamlıyoruz. ‼️💎Unutmayın EPİFİZ bezi psişik gelişmemizin hayati bir parçasıdır.Ayrıca sağlıklı olmamızın en temel direğidir. Sevgiyle....✨🙏🏻 . . . #epifiz #epifizbezi #ritüel #ritüeller #ezoterizm #dilek #istek #olumlama #seniste #mucizelinde #mucizelereinan #pozitifenerji #şans #follow #followforfollowback #like #likeforlikes #reiki #reikienergy #reikimaster https://www.instagram.com/p/B9wzMHgjk0A/?igshid=wutetjnjllqi

[annamlynska]

Attention!!

It contains potentially sensitive content and addresses child sexual abuse issues.

(One comment from the statistics. 90% of perpetrators of sexual abuse are people who know the abused child personally)

I wrote this text because I think that although the situation described by Noragami is much more complicated, the authors try to draw attention to this very sensitive topic, among other things.

As far as Kazuma is concerned, I've been thinking for a long time that what he did to Yukin actually corresponds exactly to a situation where the sexual abuse of a child is committed by someone the child knows. Like a family friend

Kazuma will actually use his superiority and without Yukine's permission, against his will, will enter his intimate space and force Yukine to do something he did not want at all. There are many cases where sports coaches or educators are the culprits of sexual abuse. 

The reason it always takes so long for the police to deal with them is that none of those who should protect a child are able to believe that someone they know so well and whom they trust enough to entrust the child to him, he would be able to do something like that.