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uncontrollablyme · 6 years ago

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Here is real life after an abusive relationship. . This is an everyday, even every minute, and definitely most situations occurrence. . Self doubt, blame, judgement... we don’t need it from anyone else because we are harder on ourselves then you ever could be. . We question and wonder if there is any single thing we could have done, breaking our backs and our spirits in the process, to please the abuser knowing that no matter what, we were going to get the bad either way. We fought to stay and make it work, we leave and face the world alone, we lose both ways. And at the end of it all, we think “this is my fault” they said this is what I deserve. . Whether in words or actions, often both. The physical damage heals, the emotional and mental battles we face even years later. NO ONE who says they love you, should hurt you. Read that again! They should not belittle you or doubt you, they shouldn’t bring out the worst in you and then blame you for your unhinged being. They shouldn’t leave marks on the skin or on your heart. . More than all of that damage done though, is the doubt we maintain in ourselves. Even clear of the situation, at times our voice mimics theirs until we are bleeding all over again. The wake of their behavior creating a disastrous trail of who we used to be. . Meanwhile the abuser loses no sleep, their menacing ways unfaltering. . When these times leave you in pieces battling to go on, remember the facts. Remember that love should not hurt. . Remember that you are not alone and that there is hope available. . There is peace again, on the other side. . . . #sendingoutmylove #uncontrollablyme #speakyourtruth #my_story #survivalmakesusbetter #unabashedly #shineondarlin #blogsohard #iliveoutloud #isharebecauseican #compelledtolove #realisttalk #domesticviolencesurvivor #linkisinthebio #thankyouforreading #humancondition #wildchild #resiliencesquad #lets_chat #breakthecycle #stopdomesticabuse #enablevictims #bethelight (at Virginia Beach, Virginia)

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anubitebaby · 10 years ago

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To ALL my followers (tumblr, twitter, facebook, etc.):

Apparently I have been made out to be quite a bitch to some people that have responded to me. I'm here to say that this is far from the truth. I'm quite fluffy and gooey and people mistaken my smile for a snarl. However, allow me to clarify this little problem that I have come across...

I recently had someone that anonymously harassed me with stupid questions that I don't tolerate. I don't tolerate mocking when it comes to someone's beliefs or their religion or even their creed, this includes my own. I am a healer (and am getting back to getting back on the right path after hitting my lowest of points in a long time) and I don't harm unless someone harms me (or anyone else) first. I don't take being crossed or challenged well, and won't take your shit. You will get a verbal beat down and will be made a fool of.

If it is a genuine understanding that you seek in your answer, watch your way of using your words, I know when it is a trap to only condemn me and others like me and I will rip you apart for it.

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Now that that has been cleared up, let me tell you that I have taken off my anon option for this reason, and I don't want anyone to feel like they are intimidated when it comes to sending me anything. I'm really very open when it comes to some things and if it is a subject that I can't give a good answer for, I know many people to turn you to for answers.

Twitter is the best way to contact me for questions (and comments!), only because I am on the go, or not on Tumblr or my other social media much. If you shoot me a chat request on Facebook 9 out of 10 times I will respond and will talk to you for the time that I can, or even on here, send me a message if you don't wish to ask questions or follow me on twitter and chat with me via a direct message (I follow back those that follow first) and I will respond as soon as I am able to.

Again, I'm really not the Big Bad Anubite-Wolf that everyone sees. I'm a giant puppy that loves hugs (kinda...I'm not really a hugger, I'll hang like a dead animal if I'm hugged by anyone) and scratches (this is very true, leopard can back that up) and long walks (I really love running though!) and games (I-Go is one of my favorites! ^ . ^) and intellectual chats (decryption of metaphors are a large part of that! As well as symbolism in plot lines!). I'm a spaz at times, and my patience can be short too (everyone has that moment of breaking, even healers aren't all perfect and sometimes have to remember that), but though I prefer to be alone and don't like to start conversations (I'm shy, I don't care what leopard says! If you were in front of me I would talk to you and start the conversation, I'm really shy when it comes to online interaction! > . <) it doesn't mean that I don't want to interact with the outside world, I just don't know what to say to you guys sometimes, but I still love you all!

So in conclusion, if you want to say something, or are bored and want to converse, please feel free to talk! I don't mind it!

#anubitebaby #sendingoutmylove #tomyfollowers

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