#sending good vibes anon

[yellowjacketslesbian]

hi jo! i saw someone shit on the idea of van as a nonbinary butch today and as one myself it made me upset. I love your fics and how you write van so I was wondering if you had any headcanons about van being gnc / nonbinary?

hey! first off, I'm really sorry you saw someone reacting negatively to the idea of nonbinary butch Van. I know it can be really frustrating and upsetting to see someone getting offended at the idea of a fictional character possibly having a similar identity as you. it's like "what's wrong with my identity that makes you deny this character I love and relate to could also be a nonbinary butch lesbian?" (spoiler alert: nothing is wrong with being a nonbinary butch lesbian, some people are just very loud and very wrong)

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! it truly means a lot to know that people like what I write. I'm especially glad that the fics I've written dealing with Van's gender have been well received, and that people could feel seen by them!

I could write multiple essays on Van's gender and why I personally believe they're nonbinary (and why they're already canonically butch), but I'll confine this to just my top nonbinary Van hcs lol

if they had lost states and never gotten on the plane, Van would've gotten a scholarship to NYU and double majored in film and women's & gender studies. They would've become aware of Gender Trouble and Stone Butch Blues through their major, and they also would've met more gnc people in NYC. This would've led to their realization that there are other people like them who share similar experiences. I personally think it would've taken them a year or two to talk to Taissa about it because they didn't want to "burden her with it" (typical Van), but Tai would've been really accepting and went out of her way to read about gender identity and try really hard to understand Van's experiences once they told her. I don't think Van would've been out as nonbinary to anyone besides Tai and close friends until like the early 00s though.

in "canon" where the crash happens, I think it would've taken Van a lot longer to realize they even could be nonbinary. like they had so much trauma to work through, and just surviving was probably a struggle for them. I can really see them spending at least a decade just ignoring any dysphoria they had. they probably also didn't have the same exposure to information about being nonbinary back in the late 90s / early 00s, especially if they weren't living in a very queer area or around academia. I think one of the queer college kids who helped out around their store eventually came out to them as nonbinary in the late 00s. then Van researched being nonbinary so they could be there for them, and that's how Van finally realized they're actually nonbinary.

I think Van would've spent some time exploring what pronouns felt right for them after realizing they're nonbinary, but they would eventually use they/them or they/she by the present day.

I think Van had top surgery in the late 00s in the no crash universe and in the mid-2010s in the "canon" universe

I think that Van's dysphoria is mostly social dysphoria, but I do think they have top dysphoria. I personally read Van's boob jokes in S1 as using humor to deflect from some dysphoria they may have been experiencing at the time. (as a nonbinary lesbian, it reminded me a lot of how I personally dealt with my own dysphoria when I was about Van's age and hadn't yet realized it was dysphoria)

Lastly

important note: all of this is purely my own hcs and opinions, and I am not claiming to know what they will or won't explore canonically on the show. that being said, I am a nonbinary butch lesbian and personally see a lot of myself and my own experiences in Van, and many other nonbinary lesbians also see themselves in Van. we all have every right to hc Van as nonbinary. if you don't like it, you can politely fuck off

[queenoffists]

Is anyone else feeling existential dread or is it just me?? 🌀

[so-very-small]

and remember to send a compliment to your favorite g/t artist or writer today

[humblepoet26]

I guess in honour of being complimented multiple times today (which is so rare like what the heck) you guys can have an awkward selfie.

[certifiedlibraryposts]

I just want you to know that you've made a difference in my life. I haven't actually taken the step to get involved with my local library...I guess you could say that I have issues with being in public. I still don't have a library card BUT... I think I will. That's a huge deal. Thank you. I've begun to think that the library is somewhere that I would benefit from and I'm getting comfortable with what I may be able to do there. Your curation matters. Thank you.

Ohhhhh anon you've made me weepy...I'm so glad this blog has had a positive impact!! I know going out and interacting with people can be really hard, I'm very proud of you for taking these steps and I hope this leads you to many positive experiences! Libraries can really be wonderful places. I'm wishing you so much joy and many many good books for your future!!!!

[where-are-the-spooky-gays-2]

Projecting is always fun!

I'm starting to go to the gym soon and my biggest goal is to just get thicc arms. Like I wanna flex as a joke and then have someone go "nono wait do that again— DAMN YOU GOT SOME MUSCLE" that's my dream. So. :3.

Virgil and Remus have been going out for a while. Virgil tends to hide under baggy clothes and whenever he is in a t-shirt, he's basically already dying so yeah no he's not doing more than he has to. Remus is perfectly content with this. Take their height difference however you like but just take it as Remus does NOT see Virgil as a strong guy. Thin, twig, five minutes from death like a Victorian child with polio — all words to describe his lovely Virgil.

Then that changes.

Remus trips one day while they're out doing something and he screws up his ankle. He's not actively yelling out for the doctor but it hurts and when he tries to get up and put pressure on it, it's a firm "nope" from him, chief. He tries again, tries to just keep going and put his weight on Virgil, but Virgil decides to not let him.

Virgil does a "oh come on" and then ducks down, picking Remus up bridal style as easy as breathing. Remus is very confused.

Why does his emo twink suddenly have him in his arms?

Why isn't he falling over?

Remus is NOT a light fella.

"Oh come on, you're like carrying a blanket. You barely weigh anything."

They go back to Remus' place [virgil carrying him the whole way, remus is sure he's gonna combust by the ending] and while he's icing his ankle, Remus asks what strength Virgil has been hiding for him.

Mysteriously, Remus' ankle has miraculously healed the moment Virgil flexes and shows off his arms because a swollen ankle will not stop Remus from climbing this man like a fuckin tree right now. (It's not fixed, Remus just won't let it stop him).

Remus finds out Virgil started working out as a way to combat his anxiety and then it became a habit then it actually started just becoming fun for him so now it's a regular thing. And Remus is not at all blushing and twirling his hair and batting his eyelashes and doing all sorts of crude gestures to show how that makes him feel. :3

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Why call the ambulance when you have a hot B U F F Emo who has two tickets to the gun show to carry you back home XD I fucking L O V E that the gym was a way for Vee to destress and it just progressively became fun for him now Ree definitely wants to go with him to see him in action XD

[academic-vampire]

please bite me bite me bite me bite me bite me bite me

Oh, look at that, somebody remembered their manners and said “please.” Well, in that case, darling, it would be my pleasure. Tilt your head to the side a bit for me, sweetheart…

[sensitiveheartless]

different from the fanfic writer ask thing, but I just wanted to thank you for always always always being such a friendly and positive ray of sunshine in the fandom! BSD fandom is generally a hostile place to be, but your tumblr is and always has been such a chill place to be! It’s always so fun to see your fic ideas and fanart, and it’s always a relief to be able to interact with you, knowing you’re not going to overreact and lash out unexpectedly! Thanks for being such a bright, safe spot that makes this fandom worth staying in and interacting with!

Anon I will CRY, don’t tempt me — but seriously, I’m really glad I’ve been able to be that for you!

I think I’ve been pretty lucky, to be honest — I might have grown up with too much unsupervised internet access, but one thing that my mom did hammer into my head at a young age was to never ever share anything personal about myself with anyone online. Which my child brain interpreted as “never talk to anyone ever or they will find out where you live”, so I then proceeded to avoid making any social media accounts, and in general tried to never interact with anything online at all up until I was in college.

…Anyway, as a result of that, my default state is not interacting with things, which makes it pretty easy to ignore random internet squabbles or people trying to be inflammatory. (Also I don’t go in the main tags for bsd so I just see things through the blogs I follow, none of which are particularly drama-prone, so I’ve overall had a pretty positive experience in this fandom, considering it’s the first one I’ve ever interacted with. I think in general that kind of curation makes for a much more chill experience, so I do recommend that.)

But yeah! I will never lash out at someone for saying hi, or just interacting with me in general, and I fully intend to keep this a chill blog where I just share the stuff I’m working on :D I am here because I like making things and I like talking with people about the blorbos!

Ah, also, a somewhat related guarantee: on the rare occasions I’ve gotten bad faith hate mail on here, I have ignored it and gone to draw something that makes me happy instead of responding. I will continue to utilize that strategy, and that is a promise. Y’all don’t need to see that kind of negativity, and it’s a waste of energy to respond, so I don’t.

(This also seems like a good time to say that I am dearly sorry if I’ve ever blocked a real person while mistaking them for a bot, it’s just genuinely hard to tell sometimes alskdjfj)

[2aceofspades]

*slinks in and boops a gold star onto ur nose*

Hey you

Yes you

ur amazing and wonderful and ily and hope you are having a great day! because ur absolutely awesome and brighten my day whenever I see u on my dash, even im not verbal enough to express it

Youre a super star, and I will abso-tivelly posi-lutely cover you in gold stars to remind you of that fact, if necessary! 💜

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MORSE ANON!!

Dude

Bro

I was just thinking about you and hoping you're doing well. It's so so good to see ya slide into my ask box again 🙌✨ I missed ya but I sincerely hope you're taking real good care of yourself and keeping safe!

Thank you so much for being so ridiculously nice and sweet you seriously made my day gaaaah- /pos pos pos

You never fail to make me smile 💙

[welcome-to-green-hills]

WHY IS IT TGE ONE DAY I GO TO THE BEACH THE TRAILER DROPS?!

I’m hoping to get service 🥲

What-What? The beach sounds like a perfect place to watch the trailer! You’ve got the waves crashing, salty sea air, sand between your toes! It sounds like a great environment to relax and watch shit go down. Y’all got the whole sha-bang!

But I perfectly understand the fear of phone service. I’m hopeful that you’re able to watch it!🥹

[queenoffists]

Summer time, is my favorite time. 🍸☀️🌿💙

[sophsun1]

omg these losers from 911 are coming to me a qaf/iwtv blog to complain about their ship wars. I couldn't give a fuck get a life you desperate weirdos, I'm laughing at how pressed you are throwing a tantrum like a child. bitch I barely have a toe in that fandom space nor do i ever have a desire to be in it.

Not everyone is consumed by hatred and misery, i will continue to make content for whatever blorbo's i damn well please at least i have the skills to do so unlike you untalented bunch of haters.

Also i come from the toxic gay vampire show and am a die hard brian kinney stan so complaining to me about whatever pathetic nonsense you have going on is hysterical lmaoooooooo.

[where-are-the-spooky-gays-2]

I might not care about Sanders sides anymore but fuck it, I got ideas 🤗

- Do y’all think Vee throws shit at Remus to see if he catches it (either he does with his head turning around like an owl or it smacks him in the back of the head) (no in between)

- Vee always reminded me of a cat, so he should have a cat and name it nightmares or something

- Virgil will randomly lay on Remus and not move. So Remus either has to stay there or pick Vee up and take him to where ever he’s going to

- since Roman knows Spanish as the language of love, Remus should know Latin. As in the summoning eldritch horrors language

- Virgil should know French. (Because I’m learning French and projecting)

- they both HATE the cold and cuddle together, even if Remus is cold to the touch. Virgil isn’t. He’s like a fuckin furnace (it’s 100% that big ass coat)

- they watch supernatural together, vees fav is Sam, Remus’s fav is dean

Ok that’s all, bye y’all 🫶

- Vee 💜

Y E S I L O V E A L L of this!!!

• Absolutely that chaotic Duke has feral Dog instincts and can and will either catch whatever's thrown at him with his mouth or get smacked

• Nightmares is definitely the Spooky Beloved's Cat child (They L O V E to spoil their fur baby rotten with affection and gifts)

• Ree's a winner either way he gets to have a cozy Emo in his arms just from laying down or carrying him

• Ree L O V E S to freak Ro and everyone else out by randomly chanting shit in Latin (Bonus points if he does it in his deep creepy voice)

• French speaking Vee is very underrated and I L O V E that for him

• Ree has his own personal Emo heater while Vee has something to help cool him down they're both winners in the end

• Ree's definitely the one that convinced Vee to watch it with him

[roseofcards90]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA fart

Felt my friend 🫡

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Ngl, I think I’d be pretty neat if you put some more hints of reincarnation au in your fics (not necessarily just sukuna, could be other characters) here and there. I really like how you did it with sukuna and into more of it by you if that’s something you want to do

ah !!!!!! that’s a neat idea anon …… i feel like it fits best w sukuna, but i’d definitely be up to writing a full fic on the concept!!! :3 putting lil nods towards it in other fics could also be fun….

[koshercosplay]

hi hi! i'm jewish myself and while i was looking for more jewish users to follow here on tumblr i stumbled across yours and i'm so glad i did! ;_; (it was through your jewish professor layton post) idk how else to describe it but so much of your blog feels like getting an understanding hug after a very long time. it's such a great thing that i managed to stumble onto your little corner of the internet and i really like your blog, i hope you have a good day

this is one of the sweetest asks I've ever gotten, thank you so much anon 😭