#self-indulgent post

[crookedteethed]

Monthly self-indulgent post.

〜* grey ᥫ᭡.

[curator-on-ao3]

A year ago today, in the early morning hours, I finished the first draft of Youthful Exuberance (Some Kind of Love) … and promptly burst into tears.

[greenapplebling]

Sun god Aten and... love goddess Hathor?

So I'm not an expert myself but I was hearing a podcast about underrated love gods (Valentine coming up and all that shadda shadda) and Hathor came up and I was like "yooo, you sound familiar?"

And then I remembered it. It was like 2 years ago when I looked her up briefly bc someone made a Yuunoa theory and the gist of it was that if Yuu is/represents sun god Aten and if the cover of Vol 23 (see below) implies that Shinoa is/represents the goddess of the moon (I don't remember her name, but I think it was a goddess that was linked to cats/had the head of a cat) then that could be a foreshadowing of Yuunoa being endgame bc those 2 gods are married in the Egyptian mythology

Anyways, the op of that post got fact-checked by the whole comment section (lol). That moon goddess they were talking about is portrayed as Aten's daughter more often than not, is love goddess Hathor the one who's usually portrayed as Aten's wife and mother of his children (Note: including Aten/Ra*, Hathor had lots of spouses but all of them were related to the sun)

*Note #2: Aten and Ra are confusing to me but it seems like they are different entities, but there's a moment when Ra merges with Aten, though Idk if it's permanent or temporary

I didn't say anything at the time, but to me, the more I learn about Hathor the more I believe that there is a character who could represent her: Mika

1- The entity of many forms

Even though Hathor is known for being the goddess of love and motherhood, it seems that binding her to just a concept is unfair bc Hathor is known as the goddess of the many faces or forms. This is a little confusing to me, but she seems to have many roles. For ex, not only is she Ra's wife and lover but she can also be his protector if needed (more on this later). The way I connect this to Mika is that he's the character that passed through the most forms along the story: from angel to human to vampire to demon

Love goddess Hathor

2- Motherhood

I don't think this should be a surprise but I always thought one of Mika's most prominent traits is how motherly he is. He takes cares of others, he protects, he loves. We don't get to see this side of him often in the present (unless it's Yuu) bc of his trust issues, but I think it's noticeable how much he cares about others. And if that is not convincing enough, let me remind you of Mika's biggest desire: have his family back. In the dream Yuu and Mika took care of the other children, made food for everyone, bathed them, etc., Mika even jokes that they're like their parents and if that doesn't scream family-oriented then I don't know what does

3- The first vampire

I mentioned before how one of Hathor's forms is to become Ra's protector, right? Well, there's a story of how Ra mistrusted the humans and thought they were conspiring against him, so he sent Hathor in the form of Sekhmet to earth to punish everyone that was scheming against him. At some point Sekhmet tasted blood and, no longer caring about her divine job, she let her bloodlust run wild to the point she almost destroyed humanity. Sekhmet is the first vampire in mythology that we have records of. Not only do I tie this to Mika bc of his former vampirism but also bc his protection of Yuu was at his peak when he was a vampire

War and healing goddess Sekhmet

BONUS: 4- Aten's wife

Mika being Yuu's wife is a running joke in ons, do I need to say more?

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What do you guys think? Do I have a point or am I going bananas? Lol, I'm open to corrections and discussions if I got anything wrong

[fangsandfeels]

Jerra *to Astarion*: I'm not kind.

Also Jerra, when dealing with any of the bazillion traumatised kids throughout the game:

Astarion: *silently commits to collecting every dictionary they come across, ripping out the page with the definition of "kind" and compiling these pages into a huge book, so he could throw it at Jerra's head*

But the funny thing is: Jerra is serious. She doesn't consider herself a kind person. Kind people, she thinks, have life on their minds. They live. They think of giving to life and sharing. They wake up and go to sleep with the thoughts of what they will see the next day and what the next day will grant them.

Jerra thinks of death.

It's always in the back of her head, always there: a grim reminder of how the world actually works.

Kind people endear her and make her feel uneasy because she knows the fragility of their mirth: how quickly it all can be shattered, how one rotten person or one act of cruelty can wipe the smiles from their faces or suck out the joy of expecting tomorrow. She doesn't want that to happen to them; she doesn't resent them, but she knows that even though she is the one who would kill the said rotten person and put an end to their cruelty, she won't restore what's been broken. She will always be an extension of the tragedy that happened. And to be the one delivering vengeance means being merciless. An honorable opponent? A dignified end? The "if you kill me, you'll be no better than me" speech? Oh, she could care less of this drivel. She isn't here to be better than someone. She is here to give tyrants and tormentors back what they have generously given to others, not to give them a fancy duel or a lecture. If she is here, it means, it's too late for a lecture. She is here to be everything they were afraid of. I imagine, that she had walked out of the houses carrying someone's head even before Nere.

So, in truth, Jerra is a lot more cynical everyone gives her credit for, and she always anticipates the worst - she isn't just loud about it. Also, she is like this because it's part of her calling, not because she is happy to rain on everyone's parade, which is why she won't drag others into her place: she'd kick them out somewhere nicer because why, in the Hells, would they want to be here? Shoo.

And, she doesn't see a point in being harsh to a kid. Especially a lost and scared orphan whose mere existence is uncomfortably familiar. She won't coddle them or lie to them: she knows that children are smart and won't take kindly to sugarcoated half-truths, but they are also vulnerable and helpless, and it's not their fault. So, she is always honest with them but doesn't deny them the comfort they need - because why would she?

[bluebunnyvk]

♡ MilkLove in Gmm Outing 2023 ♡

[davnittbraes]

BREAKING NEWS

I AM ALIVE HI HELLO HEY

Whether or not this is good or bad news depends on your opinion of me but I’m honestly not cool enough to have any Mortal Enemies so I guess the real question is - is this breaking news? What constitutes “breaking” news? What is actually breaking in those situations, is it our attention to mundane tasks in favour of something exciting? Is it our expectations? I’m sure greater minds than mine have philosophized on this very important question, I shall leave it with them to determine an answer.

ANYWAYS, I’m back to my shenanigans, here’s what’s on my docket for those five beloved mutuals of mine who might be mildly interested:

I have finished editing the next chapter of TWILE however I’m going to hold off on posting until Saturday so I can get back to a weekly posting schedule, and use these few days to try and get ahead a bit because I have a stupidly busy month coming up - but GOOD NEWS (again dependent on your opinion of me but it’s good news for me so I’m just gonna roll with it) I will have even more time to write than ever before once the chaos has calmed down to a manageable level

I will be catching up on messages, comments and reblogs in the next day or so, I’m so so sorry for the ghosting, it was not my intention AT ALL and I love (platonic*) each and every one of you who has reached out recently 🥰

I don’t really have a third point but this post looked weird without three things. So. Hi 👋

Peace, love and smutty feels,

Davnitt

*except for @shirks-all-responsibilities because we got married in a previous post and I don’t want her to think our relationship is on the rocks so I’m calling it out here

[eydilily]

(look at what i have to offer) — this is the spider's nest.

[bumbleboa]

oh what a joy it is to get to grow old

[mintaii]

is this anything

[daxwormzz]

Who are these people…

[anna-scribbles]

adrinette exes! and marichat! part 4!

(part 1 / part 2 / part 3 / part 5)

[curator-on-ao3]

Basically the plot of Something Sweet (Pikeuna, G), plus cake.

“Your flirt game is so bad, no wonder you’re still single.” “My flirt game isn’t bad, and the person I like is a fucking idiot. That’s why I’m still single.” “…Okay, but why are you looking at me like that?” AU

(@dumplingsjinson)

[ninjasmudge]

they tell everyone this before they go on crusade every single time and faith is STILL low when they come back

[cj-the-random-artist]

Ok hear me out: Narilamb but they're both aroace and in a qpr.

I've been rolling around in my head for like a long long time this idea that Narinder and Lambert could both be aroace and (after like. A couple of centuries or so) end up in this like very comfortable very close relationship that neither of them define as anything specific other than calling it a "companionship". But on the other hand most of the cult thinks that they're dating in secret or something despite the fact that both of them have said they don't take lovers, because they are clearly very tight but maybe not super openly so, so maybe the cultists thing they're being secretive and hiding something or something like that. Idk but my aroace brain loves thinking about extremely close (mostly) platonic relationships and for some reason my brain decided hmm. I'm going to take this and throw it at Narilamb and see how I like it.

So then I decided to make a ridiculous joke comic about Narinder asking Lambert's hand in marriage specifically because he wants to get out of paying taxes. Because like, I know that spouse followers do actually still have to pay taxes in the actual game but. Hey Narinder and Lambert have presumably never married so they probably don't know that...? Honestly the only reason I made this was because the concept tickled me and I spent too much time on this for no one to see it, so. This comic and all it's absolute ridiculousness be upon ye.

While there's a tiny part of me that's been thinking about making this into an AU (which I'd probably call something like the "Strictly Platonic AU" or something), I know for a fact that I would blatantly not do anything legitimate with it so. It's an unofficial AU I guess?? But. Anyways. I thought this would be funny. Enjoy my ramblings and I hope you enjoy this thing that I spent. Actual time on. Lol

[tealgoat]

None of this will matter in an hour

[pixelwixard]

A fanfic realization

While in that morning state between sleep and wakefulness, I just realized something I can do while writing fanfiction. If I don't want to do something, I don't have to do it! I can gloss over ANYTHING I don't care about! I can literally write "and then Rutherford said some extremely technical things that explained the problem and gave them something to do to SAVE THE SHIP." It may not be as good as being able to write about the extremely technical thing, but I am not stressing out about that.

I've said it before, but even though I would love to write something more adventurous and exciting sometimes, most of the time I will be writing fluff. Or perhaps it would be better described as low-stakes? Might not always be as happy as fluff implies, but I'm more interested in "smaller" stories most of the time. "Cozy" fiction, you know? I don't know if low-stakes also has to be cozy, but it's the word I see most often to describe what I'm getting at. I don't want to write about the fates of galaxies or quadrants or entire Federations.

I'll probably end up bringing a sitcom energy to my work. Gotta love a good sitcom.

You know that one scene from a Lower Decks episode, I don't remember which one, where the Four are in a shuttle bay or a storeroom or something, and it's quiet and they are doing boring work, and then when someone goes to open the door, there's like a full red alert going on outside and they didn't hear it because Rutherford turned off the klaxon in the room? I feel like that's a metaphor for the sort of thing I'm going to write. All the BIG Star Trek stuff is happening outside of that door, mostly unheard and unnoticed, while the story is in the quiet room.

I am spending way too much time writing ABOUT writing lately, aren't I? I know. I should start my Lower Decks character dossiers. I know I could find all the information I'm gathering by just searching for it online, but I want to do it myself because 1) it gives me a chance to rewatch the series again, and 2) it's developing a skill I want to have (information gathering and organization). And maybe nobody else has all the information in one place, and certainly not my interpretation of it. Oh, I have to come up with a format for my dossiers. Probably won't be anything too complicated since the show hasn't given us every single fact about them, but I need at least some broad categories. I'm off! LLAP, humans.