#self aware cove holden

[sugar-omi]

Hello, not really a request, but i was wondering if you have any links to you self aware cove posts? I remember reading something about how you like those posts spiralled, it's cool if you don't tho. Thank you for feeding the olba community with your posts

Just finished the game and im...feeling a certain way about cove lmao ( I Am Missing Him Already)

sorry it took so long!!! i hope you see this omg.... i had trouble finding it myself, my archive definitely doesn't show all my posts lol (totally understandable bc omfg.... we've talked abt so much shit and in length!!!)

not all the posts are tagged, but some of the self aware cove posts are tagged with 'yandere cove holden" so if theres any i missed, maybe you can find some more that way

THE BEGINNING OF THE END /j (i think this is the first post??)

2nd post, cove realizing he's in a loop

link 3, suggestive

link 4

self aware!cove overriding mc with you (/small post before this where i brought this to the table, sorry mc🧑‍🦯)

cove seeing mc have a tough time irl

you sticking to your favorite cove

cove being obsessed with touching you (fluff)

cove altering the game

cove being jealous of himself (nsfw)

cove seeing your fics (suggestive)

mc making a plush of cove

mc becoming yandere bc cove replaced them

self aware baxter n derek

that's all i can find rn... but if i find anymore, or anyone else found some i didn't add feel free to share!!!

[avalordream]

Prompt: Imagine you get isekaied in Our Life. Only thing is that you wake up as a child and remember everything. You can only save at this point but you can still access the save and load menu and see your previous runs.

Meanwhile your precious neighbor is slowly becoming self aware, getting deja vu with every passing second- as if this has all happened before...

A/N: A few days after I posted this- a few other thoughts came to mind- SO HERE IS MY ATTEMPT AT VOCALIZING THEM

You’re keenly aware of how small and tiny you are the moment you wake up. 

For the first few days, you started to acclimate to…the family home. 

It wasn’t YOUR family though. It never was. It was MC’s. Not your’s.

You could project all you wanted onto MC but it was never your family or your life to experience. It was theirs.

Even so, you quickly found yourself missing the life you were used to. More specifically:

The cuisine.

It was hard not to draw suspicion to the fact that you were craving different food genres aside from Mom’s Pamela’s mac and cheese and cheeseburgers. 

Ma’s Noelani’s Hawaiian food helped quite a bit to hold you over as you started to ponder over how to approach it.

Kind of hard to bring it up to your MC’s parents that you wanted Asian/Middle eastern/Indian/Pakistani/Mexican/etc food when there was none of that for miles around

For the time being, you had to quietly hint and nudge their thoughts into that direction but not enough to make them suspicious. Noelani obviously had her suspicions about Cove getting into the house from Step 2-3 but never brought it up once. From what you could tell, she was scary observant

Another issue was how clumsy your new body was.

Your mind might be able to remember how to do everyday tasks like writing and such but this tiny body didn’t have the muscle memory to match it

Much to Liz’s dismay, you spent quite a bit of your time forcing your hands and legs to train to do things your adult body could do in a snap

Time wise- technology was a huge sucker punch. It made you feel bad for taking your own devices for granted. 

That being said, self learning everything was going to be hard without a phone or computer on hand, especially knowing that you’d have to go through the cursed education system all over again- but most likely much harder

There had to be a reason older folk complained about it, right?...

Your MC’s birthday was the same as your own, just that the birth year is 1997. That being said, the current year was 2006… Funny. You were only two in 2006…

…

Back to self learning, you tried to practice what you considered basic math long after everyone had fallen asleep

Usually, your day was filled with entertaining Shiloh and Liz, playing in the park or going along with whatever Liz said. Judging by the giant for sale sign across the street and the date, you figured out that you got isekaied roughly at least a month or two before Cove and Mr. Holden would move in. 

Who knew how that would go now that you weren’t subjected to just three choices?

Even after playing around, your body was exhausted and your baby mind was just as pooped out.

The first few days you would wake up early as children do and tried doing your math and remembering as much as you could at that time

Yeah, Liz nearly gave you a heart attack after she barged in and you had to play it off as you scribbling absolute nonsense cause you were bored

After that near collision, you changed your prep time to being at night. Sure, you woke up to Liz shaking you and not getting enough sleep in the morning, but you needed to refresh your memory the best you could

You couldn’t do it every night though and did your best to keep some sort of schedule so you wouldn’t forget - and worry your MC’s moms

They noticed the first few times of how sleepy you’d be when you’d wake up later than usual - granted if Liz didn’t wake you up - and a few nights after, you nearly got caught right in the middle of your review.

Pam was more sneaky than Noelani, so you should’ve seen this coming- but even so, you had everything spread out on your rug when you just barely heard her footsteps come to your MC’s door

You had enough time to shove everything underneath your bed - your room was messy enough but better safe than sorry - and quickly dive under the covers before you heard your door open with the softest of clicks

She was around for a good while before you heard the door close again but you didn’t relax until you were sure her footsteps went back to the master bedroom

After that, you were much more careful about how long you spent studying and when. You haven’t been caught since.

Occasionally, you’d have to sneak in your MC’s parent’s room to grab any books that you needed. Good thing Noelani was a book nerd.

You did have to be careful about your self learning- you didn’t want them getting any suspicions that their kid was suddenly…different out of nowhere.

You had no idea what MC was like as a kid before the events of Our Life so you tried your best to piece together what you could 

Speaking of, there were a bunch of things you quickly realized about Our Life, one of which is that game didn’t go over nearly everything that MC went through, let alone before Cove came or others that it only touched on briefly

For example, the tourists that came and went every year happened to be close friends of Pamela’s from her time in university, hence why they were so friendly to you and Liz in particular. 

It was also why they knew how to… handle your ever changing moods. At least-

That’s what it looked like to them.

To you- it was because you had to battle MC’s initial responses to these scenarios.

Go figure, this body still had its fair share of emotions inside of it, leaving you to figure out if this sharp pang of fear or worry was your own or not.

It left you second guessing everything you did, especially when you’d be up at night, studying and practicing your writing

It seriously irked you, knowing your writing was sloppy even though you knew this body couldn’t help it. It didn’t make seeing your scrappy writing less frustrating though

Despite how much you tried to hide how YOU felt, not MC, Noelani still picked up on the small shifts in your behavior. 

One of these being the irritation you harbored for your writing. 

Speaking of emotions, you found your body easily overwhelmed by any stronger ones- your own irritation making you cry- an alien feeling and one that took even you by surprise.

Worse part? The first time happened was in front of Noelani when she tried to help you practice your penmanship

Naturally, she tried to comfort you MC by trying to console you, saying it’d be better with practice and wiping away your tears but no matter how YOU tried, the tears wouldn’t stop flowing

It wasn’t until much later that you realized that MC’s tiny self had their own limits and by pushing those adult feelings and expectations that YOU had onto it sent it into a messy overdrive.

After that, you had learned to slow down- the world wasn’t ending…even if it felt like it.

…

The nail in the coffin for you that made YOU cry. Not MC’s body: Your dreams started to resemble parts of your life. 

You’d dream that you were back at your desk job or filling out mundane paperwork but no matter how boring it’d be, it was YOUR life.

The one YOU were used to and familiar with

You’d always feel so relieved to be back where you were supposed to, whether you were happy with that life or not

It was that feeling of having all your choices in your hand and being in control of where you wanted to go, if that made sense.

Nobody made those choices for you except well…you.

Only to have that feeling of familiarity ripped away once you registered Liz waking you up to play while “Ma and Mom snooze the day away!”

…

You just want to go home…

To YOUR home…

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[seeminglyseph]

Mini-fic to get it out of my brain, Ari and Jeremy have a chat at the Holden Wedding reception

Jeremy groaned as Ari took a seat beside him even though he had finally managed to catch a break from "Leon's", torturous egomania. "I still have no idea what your sort gets out of clinging on to people like me and Mr. Personality over there."

Ari snorted as he looked over to what Jeremy thought were much more appropriate friends for the newly minted Holden pair. They all were laughing and energetic, much like he wasn't, but then as Ari's gaze turned to him it felt heavier than expected.

"What sort am I again? Is it stupid or crazy?" There was a nonchalance to the young groom's demeanor that Jeremy could just barely identify as entirely fake. His bright green eyes seemed to shine with a mix of amusement and probably anger, though the low light made it hard to tell.

"You look like you're gonna punch me again if I give the wrong answer to that." Jeremy pointed out with a sigh, he really only sort of remembered earning a fist to the face when they'd met, but since the man'd invited him to his wedding it didn't seem like a grudge Ari still held. 

"I think Cove would divorce me if I started a fight at our wedding. Or Baxter would, after all the work he did to make things perfect." Ari laughed and waved the idea off.

"Your wedding planner will divorce you?" 

"You never know, he's highly skilled in the art of ghosting me.” 

"How does someone ghost the world's clingiest couple?" 

"Mm. Almost, but don't wanna let you dodge that one." Ari smirked and raised a split eyebrow quizzically. The scars the man had as an adult had at first left Jeremy to wonder if fighting was a normal routine for the similarly short and green themed man, but it didn't take long to figure out most were self inflicted. "What sort of people do you think I am Jeremy?"

It was a little frustrating that both Ari and his husband both wanted his opinion on them as if they didn't have far better sources for that information. 

"You're obviously still stupid if you're asking me." Jeremy sighed heavily, but did stop to think when Ari's laugh did nothing to break the expectant stare he had levelled at him. “Insufferably persistent if nothing else."

"People have called me a jackass for many reasons, that's true enough." Somehow Ari's acceptance of the insult was more frustrating than if he'd argued.

"Was one of the reasons also because you do dangerous shit to make people like you?" Jeremy wasn't entirely sure that was a correct judgment, but Ari's embarrassed reaction confirmed it.

"I guess I can't really hold it against Leon for spilling my secrets since we made him spill yours." Ari laughed sheepishly and scratched his chin, there was a slight rasp of stubble against his nails and Jeremy was briefly reminded that he hadn't actually met Ari as a little boy and how little that made a difference.

"Shiloh didn't tell me much of anything about you, really. It's just kind of obvious. If you need validation so much that you're asking me about it you're obviously insecure." That was… harsher than he'd intended it, but it would probably be a blessing to have this conversation end. Unfortunately, Ari only laughed in response.

It was honestly more laughter than brushing off an insult should involve. 

"Most schools don't have clubs for difficult people, you know? And probably most towns have more than 3 kids who live there. Isolated outsiders who… mm. Lack proper socialization? What kind of people do we become?" Ari's laughter trailed off as his gaze drifted to his giant dopey husband. 

"Angry." While Jeremy was probably one of the few people in the aquarium tonight who had been the focus of Ari's temper, he was aware he knew the least about it. Even so, he had a feeling that he might've been one of the few people who Ari had allowed to see that side, even if it was just that he'd managed to push the right buttons at the right time. "And then tired and miserable."

Ari  clicked his tongue and snapped a fingergun in Jeremy's direction, "That we do. And when everyone is determined to only see the good in you when you feel like the core's gone bad?"

It was on the tip of his tongue to protest the association between the two but Jeremy bit down and let himself listen instead of react. He did know how infuriating it could be to have people refuse to acknowledge your own opinion, especially about yourself. "So, you keep me and Fields around to insult you?" he asked dryly.

"Maybe. Maybe I just need honesty from people who don't care so much. Cove and Cliff spend so much time acting like I did them a favour just by existing around them, sometimes I dunno if I'm a Holden now 'cause they want me in the family or if anyone else'd been there they'd be just as grateful…" Ari shrugged, seemingly trying to invalidate the feelings even as he said them.

"I was right the first time. You are an idiot." Jeremy sighed heavily at the sad mix of self-doubt and sentimentality.

"That was my nickname for a while, you know?" Ari grinned wryly without much amusement for this nostalgia trip. 

"Your nickname was Idiot?" Somehow that seemed unlikely even to Jeremy, even kids were more creative with insulting nicknames than that.

"Well, no. Technically it was 'ljit' like with the accent? Some girls I was trying to be friends with gave eachother cute nicknames like 'Boony' or 'Katten' and other animals pronounced slightly wrong, but I was sick the day they decided them and when I got back they didn't want me to have one, and when I got too annoying about it they decided I would be ljit." Ari was fiddling with the cufflinks on his sleeves, seemingly focused on them and not whatever reaction Jeremy might have to the story. "So, I was ljit for about 3 years before junior high started and the girls went to different schools."

"I guess tenacity makes up for a lack of creativity…" Jeremy muttered as the ridiculous nature of the nickname made more sense.

"And then when I was finally free some jerk with a bowlcut and a bad attitude brought it up again." Ari's grin was toothy and mean but somehow in a way that seemed playful instead of angry.

"Sounds like a loser, hope you punched him." Jeremy couldn't help a little smirk growing across his face.

"Yeah, his head was harder than I expected though, it really hurt my hand."

"How unfortunate, hope you learned your lesson."

"Mm. Yup, body blows are the way to go. If you're lucky they puke. If you're unlucky they puke on you."

"Thanks for the advice, I'll take it to heart."

[avalordream]

Part 2: Imagine you get isekaied in Our Life. Only thing is that you wake up as a child and remember everything. You can only save at this point but you can still access the save and load menu and see your previous runs.

Meanwhile your precious neighbor is slowly becoming self aware, getting deja vu with every passing second- as if this has all happened before...

A/N: This took way longer than I thought it would but I hope you enjoy!

Nothing was without consequence

Noelani knew something was off with MC…

For all she knew, something was wrong with her child and she didn’t know what to do

True, MC looked and acted mostly the same

But the look in their eyes…

No kid suddenly just looked so…lost 

They visibly looked hopeless and upset…

She didn’t know what to do..

Noelani went on numerous doctor’s visits with Pam but they all said the same thing- 

Her kid was just going through an episode or a mood shift and that it was completely normal. 

To every single one, they ran standard procedures and MC acted… completely after the second or third. 

The first appointment they went to, MC was confused but they were honest about their answers. 

After that? Noelani had a feeling they either caught on or didn’t want to bother anyone - smart as that was for an eight year old

She saw through each front, painstakingly held up by the impression they set on that first initial appointment

It was fake. 

But you wouldn’t know that unless you spent 24 hours a day with the kid.

Noelani didn’t know what to do…

She already tried asking MC if they were ok but she wasn’t blind. 

She loved MC and Elizabeth fiercely - attuned to their little habits - and as was Pam.

So she knew as well as Pam that they tended to share some blunt wisdom / tell a few white lies / spin quite the tall tales.

Yet they giggled, saying “Ma! You’re so funny! But I’m ok! Really!” / pat her arm, thinking for a moment before saying “I’m ok Ma. I just… feel a lil’ different. That’s all.” / paused before wrapping their arms around her middle with a small nuzzle. “I’m… not feeling too good. But I’ll get better soon. Promise.”

The exact opposite than usual…

No matter how comforting they tried to be, MC’s words were oddly unsettling… 

It was so… out of character for them.

The doctors had assured both of them that kids tend to have some mood swings now and then and that it was completely normal. Perfect even.

Even so, she could see it affecting Elizabeth as well.

She would often come barrelling down to herself or Pam whenever MC would shut themselves in their room…

“Ma!! MC doesn’t want to play with me! They said they’re too tired!”

“Mooms!! MC said that they don’t want to play dolls with me and that dolls are for babies! We played dolls YESTERDAY!!”

“Mooom! MC’s not leaving their room! And-! And!! They said they don’t feel like playing with me and Shiloh at the park!”

More frustratingly, at least for a time, was when Pamela tried to console her, seemingly taking on the side of the doctors, insisting she relax

“Kids go through mood swings! It’s normal! Don’t worry ‘Lani!”

“The docs said they were ok, right? Then it’s settled!”

“Don’t fret, Noelani! The kid’ll go back to normal in no time!” 

Sometimes it felt like Pam was just saying those things to comfort her…as if she didn’t believe her.

In retrospect, she knew her wife meant well but in the moment? 

It felt like the world had pitted her favorite person against her.

It felt personal. 

For some time, it caused some friction between the pair.

Friction that didn’t go unnoticed by neither Elizabeth, nor MC. 

Elizabeth was more outspoken on her worry, although she acted like nothing was wrong on the outside.

MC…acted as if nothing was wrong but…she saw the worried glances and sneaky looks of concern from them when they thought nobody was looking

If she wasn’t…as…observant as she was…she would’ve assumed they were just acting aloof.

Slowly, she began to see herself against the world- beginning to question her very position

Why was not a single person helping her?

Didn’t they see how startlingly different her kid had become?

Even their college friends didn’t see a difference….

Surely, there was a reason everyone but her was noticing…

Was she really… overreacting?

Eventually, she stopped bringing it up altogether, although the underlying tension remained for some time.

“Noelaniiii! You still here with us?”

Her head jerked up as she registered the faces of college friends in front of her, unfocused for a moment as her vision cleared to check in the finer details.

“Ah- No, I apologize- What were we talking about?”

Their college friends were nearing the end of their trip and this was the last of many hangouts. At least for the time being. 

After this, it was time for their flight back home so Pam decided to hire a babysitter to watch the kids so they could come.

“Well, it’s alright. We just noticed the house in front has just been sold!”

“Oooh! That’s right! Apparently, it was previously owned by a family a state away! Their home away from home!”

“Aww! That must be nice!”, Noelani hummed, envying this mystery family for a moment. How nice would that be? If she could have a home away from home, she’d have one in Hawaii… The kids’ grandparents just moved back too… 

“Right?? I wonder who’s moving in though?”

“Ditto! Guess we’ll just have to see!”, Pam chuckled, smile bright as their friends gave their opinions on what the new neighbor would be like.

Recently, the couple had reached a truce.

Truthfully, they both wanted the best for their children.

Noelani agreed to try to not worry herself into stressing about them- if this was how she worried about them now, how was she going to live when they were teenagers?, Pam reasoned.

Meanwhile, Pam agreed to be a bit more mindful if any worries were brought up and not to be as dismissive.

Easy to say but...she was glad they were talking again, smile brighter as she felt Pam's fingers intertwine with her own.

Their voices drifted in and out of Noelani’s ears as she sipped on her lemonade with a giggle of her own.

Life ebbs and flows like the sea…That’s the beautiful thing about it…

It changes just a little everyday. 

The best we can do, Lani thought to herself, is adapt and go with the flow.

Only time will tell...

And just like that… summer started.

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-> Extras <-

⊹ ‧₊˚ Isekai Self Aware Taglist: @lilqi @annoying-mary @mellozhi ˚₊‧ ⊹

A/N.2: And just like that, we're finally starting this properly! Just letting ya'll know now, I am in college and thus, future updates might be delayed! I don't have a set schedule to write and stuff and I tend to do it when motivation hits. I liked trying to see what Noelani's thought process would be in this scenario and by GOD- It was HARD. But! I did my best! Aaaand, I don't think it turned out too bad! Again, I hope you enjoyed! :D

[avalordream]

Intermission 1:

In your previous life, you had a specific attachment to a children's book- The Little Engine That Could made by...er... some author.

You were little, ok?! And... your parents had kept that copy you owned back then for memory's sake and to preserve it for as long as possible. They'd gotten it for you as a present and for some encouragement so you could grow some interest in learning to read.

It was a whopping success, to both of your delights!/It took some effort on their end but eventually you got around to reading./It backfired horribly despite their best efforts. Even so, it was originally published in 1930 so chances were that you'd find it.

You hadn't intended on trying to find it but when Ma and Mom took you to the mall and you saw it displayed in a bookstore?

They couldn't understand why you were so adamant on getting the book, since you hadn't shown much interest in it before but Ma saw how you lacked that dull sadness in your eyes at that moment and she didn't need any more convincing to get it for you.

Anything to keep your eyes shining for as long as possible.

Everything you have in your MC's room belongs to Mc, not you. It meant so much to you to have something to call your own.

Especially if it was the very book that shaped a part of YOUR childhood.

Not MC.

You.

-> Next... <-

-> Let's go back to reality together... <-

⊹ ‧₊˚ Isekai Self Aware Taglist: @lilqi @annoying-mary @mellozhi ˚₊‧ ⊹

[avalordream]

Imagine you get isekaied in Our Life. Only thing is that you wake up as a child and remember everything. You can only save at this point but you can still access the save and load menu and see your previous runs.

Meanwhile your precious neighbor is slowly becoming self aware, getting deja vu with every passing second- as if this has all happened before...

I NEED SOMEONE TO EXPAND ON THIS IDEA PLEASE-

@ourlifestan @dragora7747 @rainesrants @sugar-omi

[aspen-090]

Rebloging so I don't lose it

Hello, not really a request, but i was wondering if you have any links to you self aware cove posts? I remember reading something about how you like those posts spiralled, it's cool if you don't tho. Thank you for feeding the olba community with your posts

Just finished the game and im...feeling a certain way about cove lmao ( I Am Missing Him Already)

sorry it took so long!!! i hope you see this omg.... i had trouble finding it myself, my archive definitely doesn't show all my posts lol (totally understandable bc omfg.... we've talked abt so much shit and in length!!!)

not all the posts are tagged, but some of the self aware cove posts are tagged with 'yandere cove holden" so if theres any i missed, maybe you can find some more that way

THE BEGINNING OF THE END /j (i think this is the first post??)

2nd post, cove realizing he's in a loop

link 3, suggestive

link 4

self aware!cove overriding mc with you (/small post before this where i brought this to the table, sorry mc🧑‍🦯)

cove seeing mc have a tough time irl

you sticking to your favorite cove

cove being obsessed with touching you (fluff)

cove altering the game

cove being jealous of himself (nsfw)

cove seeing your fics (suggestive)

mc making a plush of cove

mc becoming yandere bc cove replaced them

self aware baxter n derek

that's all i can find rn... but if i find anymore, or anyone else found some i didn't add feel free to share!!!