#seeking peace

[dbaydenny]

Cruel as mankind

time rips away bits of youth,

precursor of death

why can't you impart some peace

before you let go of me?

.

D W Eldred

[theperplexedpoet]

I started a verse

I started a verse spoke of my frail heart breaking the world wouldn't know how deep the pain would go and what's even worse words did not stop the aching numbed to their effect unable to protect I penned all my pain gave it all to the bleed the world stayed the same for none saw fit to read I started a line that foresaw what was coming knew it'd go unread so why let it be bled prayed for the divine still only heard the drumming war on every front the poor playing the grunts I penned all my pain gave it all to the bleed the world stayed the same for none was fit to read I started a verse wrote of the weight I carried as it took its toll the weight it touched my soul and what's even worse now with how deep it's buried my will is withdrawn my will to carry on I penned all my pain gave it all to the bleed my world stayed the same for none saw fit to read I started a rhyme that wasn't worth the pages but I was too lost to understand the cost I hadn't the time and yet I built these cages most were built for free but all were made for me I penned all my pain gave it all to the bleed my world stayed the same for none was fit to read I started a verse I never should have started (2/24/24)

[missinvisibleandco]

"Calm"

.....yet racing. (3.2.23)

[themindfulnessofslowliving]

My mindful morning walk. I have been neglecting myself and have been getting bogged down by stress. I realize at times stress has become a part of who I think I am. I want to let that go because it's suffocating. I need peace.

[middlenamesage]

Personal Venus transits can be some of the hardest transits for me. 🧐

I definitely tend to prefer Mars transits because at least transit Mars can motivate me to actually put my Mars’ energy constructively forward into action instead of just let it eat me from inside.

But looking at how memorably my worth was challenged and difficult interpersonal dynamics I grappled with, now a couple different times within recent years that Venus conjoined my ascendant, PLUS some other examples of Venus transits that come to mind, I can see how these transits put me face to face with one of my biggest life struggles: Not allowing myself to be open to receiving love or blessings, or even peace. My compulsion to turn away from these things is SO strong, with my natal Venus under siege of both Mars and Pluto (not to mention burning away in a fire sign, which Venus does not prefer). 🌸

The biggest struggle of my life is going to be learning how to not struggle. Even with my life of unemployment due to mental health, but still having all my basic expenses covered, it feels like every day is just a battle to use my energy constructively for the things I need to do. Neither my Mars nor Venus is winning in this dance they have together.

It’s time to retreat from social media for a while, maybe make it a point to reconnect with nature more again too. I restored beauty to nature with my Taurus rising man last time we were together, picking up litter with grabber sticks around the local river and bike paths. Maybe making that a goal to do by myself sometimes could be a form of Venus remediation.

The Moon is Venus ruled today, and when she first moved into Taurus last night I broke down in tears, telling her that I just want peace.

Struggle is a universal thing amongst us humans, and you will never be able to tell how much someone struggles unless you are personally walking their path.

I wish less struggle to all of us weary humans right now 🙏

[tom4jc]

Isaiah 48:18 Why There Is No Peace

Oh, that you had heeded My commandments! Then your peace would have been like a river, and your righteousness like the waves of the sea. Isaiah 48:18 The desire for peace can be found in people all over the world. In many places, this peace is seen as the absence of war and fighting that is occurring on a daily basis. Other places, it is the inner peace that people are looking to attain but are…

[stygiovictoria]

i keep thinking about in book 2 when zuko was like horrifyingly happy after he got ovdr his fever and imagining if people saw him like that

[refresh-reload]

[redravenpoems]

Shattered Peace

A gentle breathe, a simple pace Are the things I love the most. Just the quiet times when I can be me Gazing towards the skies and into eternity. Yet does it last, will it survive? Rarely, for in chaos I seem to thrive. Screaming, yelling, wildly rushing Spinning this way and that, head aching and bursting. The sounds, the sights, they destroy the peace Shatter the mood, break the walls…

[smlvctrvns]

When surveying individuals across various demographics, the majority express a fundamental desire for a tranquil existence. Their aspirations revolve around basic human needs, such as a nourishing meal, affectionate embraces from loved ones, a comfortable sleeping arrangement, and a nurturing home environment. Moreover, they seek moments of shared joy and companionship, often symbolized by laughter and convivial gatherings over beverages. Tragically, the toll of conflict is borne by these very individuals. A mother deprived of seeing her son again, a father who never returns to his family, siblings robbed of the shared pleasure of communal meals, an aunt whose smile has vanished, and friends lost along the arduous journey—all are casualties. Countless homes were devastated and an untold number of cherished memories shattered simply because external forces deemed it appropriate to unleash the horrors of war upon them.

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

[fanfic-gremlin-ft-trauma]

bad day need hug

[kennel-rage]

I wrote your name on a bay leaf. I held it in my hands and pressed it against my chest. I let my feelings flow freely from me and I asked again and again for an ending or a beginning. I set it on fire and the smell cleansed my thoughts. I breathed it in and blew away the remains. Wherever you go, whatever happens I just want you to be ok. If our eyes ever meet again let them not be wet with swirling emotions. Let your red cheeks fade and my grimce turn into a smile. Whatever I held onto is free. It's no longer mine. Please.

[entertainingthewhatifs]

A Day in My Life, Day 28

Jan. 29th- Day 28 of #ADayinMyLife Welcome to Sunday sit-back-and-relax! I sleep in late, which was so much needed, and spent time with my man last night sharing laughter and a little poetry, which was also much needed! My side of town was mercilessly busy last night. Chris and I had a hard time getting seating at Chili’s, so we went to a smaller scale place for him to get a burger. I was…

[zetasattic]

Day 25, And So It Continues

And so it continues. Wayne didn’t want me to blog about all this but why stop now? This is life. Wayne wasn’t able to work on the toilet plumbing yesterday. We ran into other problems with the septic tank but on Thursday it will be pumped (cha-ching) and then it’ll be good again. After that Wayne will finish up the plumbing on the hall bathroom and hopefully the construction will be about done…

[firstfullmoon]

Fady Joudah, from “I Seem As If I Am: Ten Maqams,” in [...]