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1:43am 10/26/24
Lmao it has been the longest year of my life and it feels like I’ve learned nothing and everything at the same time. I don’t even know what to say anymore. However I do know that I’m stressed, I have no money and no job. Idk lol the universe just keeps testing me!!!!! My friends keep dying or relapsing and I’m doing the one thing Marisa told me not to do lmao oops
Speaking of Marisa, I might get to see her when I pick up my one year and idk if I’d cry or throw up from anxiety lol. I will have a fuckin year completely clean and sober next month. And I’m still homeless and I lost my job lmao and have no savings, and I still live in a very toxic halfway. But I have my cat, and he saves me every day.
There’s a lot in my head. Too much. Also I went on an old tag here on this blue dot. I didn’t think the tag still worked, well, it does. And I fell right back into some version of seventeen year old me.
#faiths posts#recovery#just weird thoughts tonight#do people still talk in the tags#haven’t slept much in two days#I saw something triggering on this website but I purposefully did that#bc I wanted to see if the triggers didn’t bother me#they do lmaooooo#ooh boy my heart rate jumped#lmao also I really do have no money#people are telling me to start a go fund me and I laugh#seeing one of my best friends from tx tomorrow first time in eleven months#I don’t know how to set boundaries lol my therapist said I’m doing problematic behavior#idk lmao
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