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#WIP#art#vampire hunter d#vhd#Sorry I realize I've neglected the folks that only follow me on tumblr for a while !! ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ#mmm and sorry to anyone who follows me in different places y'all are probably sick of it (updated at least...)๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ forgive me ๐ฅน๐ซถ๐#Sorry I tend to focus on one social media at a time -I post the most liberally on my instagram's close friends#.... anyone is free to join it actually just send me a message there if you want โก (เนยดโข แต โขเฅ`เน)#I do want to make drawings that make people think more deeply - to give D the depth that Kikuchi doesn't allow us hahaha#Mmm.... I like some D jesus allegory ๐คค It kinda works if you think about it#then again stress turns me into a perv๐ so don't have high hopes for the future - school oughhhh school....#Also I enjoy seeing strangers going like โhusbandโ or what not - you're not oomf??? Who are you ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ#DW btw I actually really don't care LOL I just think it's funny#I'd rather that then be haunted by private quotes - there's 1 private quote on my Damned D and gosh I'm so curious๐ญ๐#Also I'm back in school it's my final year and I only got fall semester for my entire senior thesis so I won't be able to post as much..oug
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etho said actually you _don't_ understand the intricacies of how tango is my boyfriend and bdubs is my ex
(and how tango and bdubs kiss too)
Scar: We went on that little adventure, you know! Etho: Yeah, yeah, we had our adventure, that's true, that's true. Scar: You disparaged your teammates. That's it, all right, no more spoilers. Etho: (laughs) Our team has -- our team has some weird dynamics this -- this season. Cleo: (overlapping) Really, Etho? Is there trouble in paradise? (pause) Who's third-wheeling with you, again? I can't remember. Etho: (laughs) Uhh. The -- Cleo: Genuinely can't remember. I know it's you and Bdubs. And...Tango? Tango. Tango. Etho: (loudly) Why -- Why is Tango the third wheel? Why -- why isn't Bdubs the third wheel? Cleo: Because it's you and Bdubs. I'm sorry. I understand how that relationship goes. Etho: (dissatisfied) Hmm.
#why is this what makes me post again#tangtho#etho#ethoslab#tango#tangotek#tango tek#bdubs#bdoubleo100#bangtho#< saw that in etho's comments. and. yeah#also consider that tango and bdubs were together first this series and etho is the third wheel#to the fucked up love hate thing they have going on#there's never been something more appreciating and adoring BUT biting each other as tangdubs#goodtimeswithscar#hermitcraft s10#wild life smp#wild life smp spoilers#(Sorry but some people have ethubs blinders on but that's so much less interesting to me than the whole.#Yes bdubs is pathetic and will always be at etho's feet. and Yes etho will pity bdubs and want him protected.#but tangtho (!!!) has SO much more to play with...to Me.)#and Why is etho being a tango girl so under-noticed??? lmao. it's there to be noticed All the time#hot mic! hot mic!#but also lowkey dreading ep2 lmao#anyway I'll regret posting this lol#(also I see you asks in my inbox. sorry I haven't replied yet <3 re: s7 oh do I have thoughts! it's where it truly kinda began... I started#forming a reply to you back in May I think but I've been kinda averse to posting/participating in the fandom side for a while. sorry I#stopped being a good place for your tangtho snippets </3 I've still been watching and enjoying the streams and the tango etho joy continues#just haven't really felt like posting)
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alternate surface au inspired by a few ive seen around on tumblr :3
#my art#pressure roblox#roblox pressure#sebastian solace#painter pressure#thought more abt my headcanons for sebโs anatomy and like. lol that tail is not pure muscle hes got guts in there.#that + the fact that thereโs spinal cord in there means itd be a bad idea to try and amputate it#the wagon/eventual wheelchair is mostly for outdoor use i imagine.#<- specificallt]y for outdoor surface textures/debris thatโd be bad for him to slither on#also. chronic pain have i dont think suddenly shrinking his whole body did much good for that#i imagine he and painter have like. a pool. to help with that and other needs he has now.#but he wouldnt wanna use it for a long while#there was a sort of. disconnect between his idea of freedom from urbanshade vs the reality of it i think.#like. thinking things could. on some level. go back to normal#and not considering that some of his mutations would be irreversible#and having to confront/cope with/accomodate himself about that#seb wants to be normal again but we cant all get what we want can we!#sometimes healing involves working with or around irreversible change buddy!#btw if feligayzed sees this. hiii hii your au was one of the big things that kicked my brain off on this and i wanna make fanart sometime#oh yeah this is . also.#sebpainter#pressure pathways#pathways#wow i dont think ive written a wall of tags that big in a long time. can you tell im having normal feelings about them
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Rick and Michonne Grimes - Their Journey Over the Years
It's a broken world, Michonne. And you're the only thing that puts it back together. Til my last breath I am yours.
#the walking dead#the ones who live#rick grimes#michonne grimes#danai gurira#tvedit#nessa007#chewieblog#richonne#userstream#usergif#dailyflicks#richonnegifs#dailytwd#cinematv#twdedit#towledit#tvarchive#otpsource#romancegifs#denim rose graphics#ajshxbsjakaksksk aka me screaming internally; Iโm so excited to share this with you all#I think this is the most ambitious gifset Iโve ever made??? but I really wanted to see it through#I chose to do a page for each era of their story (S3; S4; S5; S6-7; S8-10; and finally TOWL)#Iโve wanted to do a magazine layout for a couple yrs now but I was too lazy lol#but when the urge came round again this time for Richonne I got my butt up and immediately started sketching thumbnails#I struggled to come up with a time for the mag cover until I remembered the last (?) TWD supply drop chose the CRM Tribune as its theme#tbh researching mag covers; trying to match fonts; hunting down scenes...itโs been some long nights#the amount of sleep Iโve lost over this set lol but Iโm SO SO happy with the final outcome; love these two and their story#I hope you all enjoy!!
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It's always funny to me when in an lu fic the chain is offered bananas and don't accept them. Like, you're offering these high energy adventures free food?? Fruit they'll have never even heard of before??? A ridiculously expensive imported good at best?? AND it boosts your attack?
Not ONE of these idiots would ever turn down something new and interesting to eat at least once. They'd be all over those bananas and immediately get dubbed yiga and I'm honestly surprised no one has used it in a fic yet ๐คญ
#I know it's for plot reasons but it really shows the author's hand lol. 'just a quick bit of standard suspicion now move along we have more#Interesting things to do'#Again I get it it's always funny to see them fail the vibe check and get plied with a random fruit#There could be a fake out where they ask for the bananas and while everyone's panicking they go 'I've never had one before I'd love to try'#Or someone brings up kohga and they're like who???#But you could make a whole fic out of the chain getting mistaken for yiga and getting chased out of everywhere that's heard the news#And them travelling around trying to clear their name when they don't even know what happened.#Heck maybe they figure it out when the yiga mistake then in disguise too XD!#Also featuring as many Wild assassination attempts as you want. Like he's hunting them down but he travels faster than news#Spreads so he's rarely on time and can't set traps#And the 8 of them keep fending him off but he's really got the upper hand and DEEPLY unhappy#I'm just saying it'd make for some EXCELLENT scenes and I know y'all in the LU fandom like your misunderstandings#The chain strolling along in faron like yum these are delicious we gotta stock up while we're here#And in the tree above them wilds eye's twitching#loz#legend of zelda#linked universe#lu wild#lu chain#loz fic#fic ideas#fic prompt#loz link#loz lu#yiga clan
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@ye-xiu's favourite taemin looks โณ happy birthday, al! โจ
#shinee#taemin#lee taemin#kpopcc#ksoloists#dailyshinee#maleidolsedit#kpopco#mgroupsedit#kpopedit#*taemin#*comp#*gifs#happy birthday my bestie my babie my friend from the stars#time goes by so fast how is it your day again we just celebrated it!#I'm gonna keep it short here because I'll say everything on the phone anyway - here's another little something for you <3#it's SUCH a surprise right you would've never guessed it#hehe I had a very taemin-ful weekend (I literally just finished it it took so long I'm ahfhklj idek why)#it's your whole list because of course duh#for some I was like 'yeah of course she likes that one' lol (like the press your number one)#you literally DRESS LIKE THAT sdhfghj it made me chuckle#I hope looking at your second favourite cancer (wink) will make you smile that's all I want <3#I love you sooooo much bestie!!! see you in two days!!!!!
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If I may request a Rise fic!! Iโm a huge sucker for comfort/cheer up tickles, so could you possibly write a disaster twins fic with Lee Leo and Ler Donnie where Leoโs been having a pretty bad day (because of what is your choice!) and ends up feeling self conscious about himself and stuff, so Donnie decides to cheer up his twin!! Please donโt feel rushed and make sure youโre taking care of yourself ^_^
~ย ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐!!! ~
๐๐ ๐ต๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข: ๐ฐ๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐
ยทฬฉฬฉฬฅอ๏ผ*โขฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*ห๐ผ๐๐บ๐ฝ๐๐ฝ๐บ๐ผ๐ณ๐ฝ๐๐น ๐ฝ๐พ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ธ๐ด ๐พ๐ท ๐ผ๐ ๐ถ๐พ๐๐ท ๐๐พ๐. ๐ถ๐ด๐. ๐ผ๐ด!!! ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐ป๐พ๐๐ณ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐น๐ฐ๐ผ!!! ๐ด๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ข ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐โฆ๐ถ๐๐, ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ป๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ข..๐๐๐๐/๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐โฆ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐??? ๐ป๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐!!!ห*โข ฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*๏ผยทฬฉฬฉฬฅอ
๐ถ๐๐๐๐: ๐ท๐๐๐/๐ฒ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐:ย ๐บ,๐น๐ฟ๐บ
๐ป๐๐: ๐ป๐๐ ๐ข๐
๐ป๐๐: ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ข: ๐ณ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐โฆ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ , ๐๐๐๐๐?
(๐ฐ/๐ฝ: ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐โฆ๐ฑ๐๐ *๐ฐ๐ท๐ด๐ผ* ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ข: ๐ณ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ข! ๐*๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐บ๐๐๐/๐ฝ๐๐ต๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ณ๐ฝ๐ธ!!!)
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐:ย @shut-up-jo @itzsana-kiddingmenow @aceofspades-doodles @ziipzeepzop-eez
@tmntheadforever123 @rice-cake-teen10 @aninabanina6969
@savemeafruitjuice @cedarrthefluffylee @saturnzskyzz @titters-and-tingles
@someone1348 @my-l0v3r-v3rse @snipersiniora @mistyandsnow
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: ๐ฐ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐-๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ข๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐ป๐ด๐ฐ๐๐ด ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐!!! ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ขโฆ
๏ผ*โขฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*ห๐๐ด๐ด๐ท๐ด๐ด ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐บ๐พโจ๐๐ถห*โขฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*ห๏ผยทฬฉฬฉฬฅอ
โI canโtย believeย youโreย doingย this to me again.โ Leo grumbled under his breath as he rested his mouth on his palm, glancing away from his brother as he sighed loudly.ย
โWellย maybeย if you werenโt soย fuckingย recklessย I wouldnโt need to.โ Donnie growled lowly, glaring down at his twin.
โIโm not aย baby,ย Don. I donโt need to be supervised like Iโm some bombย triggered toย explode.โ The younger said in exasperation, lying down on his bed whilst grabbing a comic book to read off of his desk.
If Leo was going to be told off and scolded by his dear beloved brow-loving brother, he should atย least have something to occupy himself with in the meanwhile.ย
The softshell groaned eternally at his little brotherโs action, quickly snatching the piece of literature out of the otherโs hands and throwing it effortlessly to the ground.ย
Uninterested lime green eyes locked with a determined yet fierce light golden, both of them refusing to look away or blink to show their dominance.
But after a while, the red eared slider grew more impatient, looking away again as he picked a hangnail on his thumb, โIf youโre going to yell at me,ย can you just get it over with?ย I saw a reddit post predicting whatโs going to happen in The Umbrella Academy season four and Iย needย to read it.โย
โYou can read thatย later,ย Nardo. I promise you, that reddit post isnโt going toย fly away.โ The elder said as he pinched the bridge of his snout, โWhat Iย needย you to do right now is acknowledge what you did today wasย stupid,ย alright?โย
Leo looked away from his older brother, scoffing lightly, โI do stupid things all the time.ย What stupid action of mine are you wanting to scream at me forย thisย time?โย
The softshell turtle took a couple deep breaths at that comment, drumming his fingers on his left arm in a soothing motion because he wasย NOTย going to give into the urge of strangling his twin brotherโฆ
โฆNo matter how much he deserved it.
โIโm not planning on screaming at youโ that wonโt helpย anyoneย orย anything.โ The purple banded turtle explained calmlyโฆbut you could see andย tellย he was starting to lose his paitence.ย
โBut you want to.โ The red eared slider pressed on.ย
โLeoโฆplease.ย Iย donโtย want to argue right now.โย
โWeโre not arguing.ย Weโre justย kindlyย discussing myย oh-soย stupidย descisionย that unfolded earlier today, right?โ The younger twin smirked smugly, his eyes locking once again with his brother.ย
When it came to arguments, the leader in blueย alwaysย had thisย wonderfulย tactic to avoiding things:ย attempting to annoy the other personย so muchย that they drop the subject they wanted to discuss with himย completely.
It always worked withย Raphโฆwhich the red eared slider didnโt know whether that was aย goodย thingย or aย badย thing.
But the only downside ofย doingย this tactic was his dumb twin sawย rightย through itโฆ
โฆAnd Leonardoย despisedย it.ย
โNardoโฆyouย knowย what Iโm referring to.ย And stop picking,ย please.ย Your going to hurt yourself.โ The older attempted to say in a tranquil voice, but it personally just sounded like he wasย one secondย away fromย losing. his.ย shell.
โI sadlyย do not knowย what your referring to.โ The blue cladded teen said coyly, picking on his hangnail more desperately now, โCare to enlighten me, Tello?โย
Donnieโs expression hardened ever so slightly at his younger brotherโs absoluteย persistenceย on annoying him out of hisย right mindย so he could eventually drop the subjectโฆbut the softshell turtle wasย notย budging.
His twin would have to tryย way harderย thanย that.
โIโdย loveย to.โ The light golden eyed mutant said in a fake sweet tone as he walked over to lean his shell on Leoโs closed door, crossing his arms in disaproval. The elder grabbed his brotherโs sword, planting it right next to his foot so the blue banded turtle couldnโt reach for it.ย
The red eared sliderโs cocky grin turned to a small grimaceย (shake)ย as he soon came to terms with what his older brother was doingโฆ
โฆHe physically could not leave from this conversationโฆliterally.
Leonardo crossed his arms, trying to mimick the otherโs serious demeanor but was only met with an icy glare in return.ย
โWhat you did during todayโs mission was completleyย recklessย andย idiotic,ย Leonardoโฆand you know it.โ The second oldest said, โI had that thugย exactlyย where I wanted him butย noooooo.ย Because you saw meย tripย you thought it would be aย spectacularย ideaย to throw yourselfย on topย of me as that hooligan tried to hit me with hisย bat!!โ Donatello seethed.ย
โWeโve been over thisย multipleย times,ย Leo! There wasย noย reasonย for you to do that!โ The light golden eyed teen yelled, his glare only hardening more as he saw the younger stuttering over his words to try to defend himself.
โIโm not done.โ The taller teen growled, all of his calmness and collectiveness thrown completley out of the window.
The slider slightly flinched (which went un-noticed by the other) at his brotherโs genuine angry tone, his left leg fidgeting and bouncing up and down like crazy.ย
His tactic wasย reallyย starting to not work in his favour at allโฆ
โJustโฆstop putting yourself in the middle of danger like youโre just expecting the rest of us to justย watch.ย Weโre your familyโฆand mostย importantly,ย we can defend ourselves justย fine.โย
โWell ihisnโtย thatย hypocritic!โ Leonardo scoffed before creasing his eye ridges together in genuine confusion, mumbling to himself, โHypโฆuhโฆhypocrotic?ย HypโฆHypocraticโฆ?โย
โHypocritical?โ The older deadpanned.
โYES!ย THATย WORD!โ Leo said, โWhen we were fighting Kraang Prime on the ship and he went to take a blow at Mikeyโฆwhat did you do?โ
Donatello scowled, his eyes not leaving his twin, โโฆI went in front of him and shielded him with my mystic tech.โ
โExactly.โ The lime green eyed mutant scoffed, โAnd how is that any different from whatย Iย did, hm?โ
โBECAUSEย Iย HAD A PLAN!!!โ Donatello shouted, โIย plannedย to accordingly go in front of Mikey so my sheild could protect bothย him andย me.ย Did it end up turning out perfect?ย Fuck no.ย Kraang Prime slashedย right through itย and me and Mikey wentย tumblingย towards the groundโฆโ The glasses wielding teen said through clenched teeth.ย
The light golden eyed teen rubbed his face tiredly, his hands clenching and unclenching in frustration, โBut I had aย plan.ย Youย on the other hand, just zoomedย recklesslyย on top of me and hoped for the best.โ
โโฆIย saved you,ย didnโt Iโฆ?โ The younger twin mumbled out meekly, causing Donatelloโs blood to absolutleyย boil.ย
โThatโsย notย theย point!!!โ The elder said as he clenched his hands at his sides again.
โThen whatย is?!โ Leo said desperately, โBecause from the looks of it, it just seems like you want toย yell at meย for just doing myย job.โย
Leonardo pulled on his mask tails anxiously, trying to calm himself down but ultimately just making himself feel worse by doing the action, โIโve beenย tryingย to be a better leaderโโ
โLeoโโ
โโForย youย andย Mikeyย andย Aprilย andย Raphย andย Caseyย andย C.J.ย a-andย Dad!ย But it seems like no matterย what the hell Iย doย thereโs alwaysย somethingย Iโm doingย WRONG!!!โ The younger twin shouted, blinking back tears as he glared at the ground as if it took his Jupiter Jim comic.
Whichโฆitย did.ย The blue banded mutant wanted it back now, actuallyโฆ
โI saved you! I-I didnโt even getย hurtย by doing it butย somehowย thereโs an issueโฆโ The lime green eyed teen murmured, both of his legs bouncing up and down as he tugged on his mask tails harder, โThere alwaysย isโฆโ
โLeonardo can youย pleaseย justย listenย to me?โ The older twin said in irritation.ย
โBut Don Iโmโโ
โNo, Leo!ย Justย listen!ย Thatโsย allย you need to do!โ Donnie snapped as he cut his brother off, โI donโt want you leapingย head firstย into harms way!ย At all!ย Especiallyย if you donโt have a plan!โ The softshell turtle exclaimed as he flapped his hands against the side of his thighs, but his eye contanct remaining on his little brother.
โOho soย nowย you donโt trust me well enough to know that I can handle myself in combat?โ Leo said in a last desperate attempt to make his brother drop the conversation.
โIโฆโ The young scientistโs eye twitched, his eyebrows creasing together as he had to physically restrain himself to not beat the ever livingย crapย out of the other teen, โTHIS ISย NOTย ABOUTย TRUST, NARDO!โ The light golden eyed mutant screamed desperately, his hands flapping faster as the red eared slider shrunk at his usage of tone, โThis is aboutย youย not evenย thinkingย about what would happen to yourself when you doย reckless nonsenseย like this.โ
Leo glanced to the side, his eyes watering as he bit the inside of his cheek.
He just wanted toย helpย and be the leader his brotherโsย deservedโฆ
But he always found a way toย fuck it upย without even noticing, huh?
"You don'tย thinkย about what could happen to you andย Iย hateย it!โ The elder cried, โWhat wouldโve happened if Raph didnโt come behind the guy and knocked him out cold at the last second, huh?! Would you have just stayed right on me as he continued to beat you with his bat?!โ
Leonardo bit the inside of his cheek harder, his legs bouncing up and down more as his fingernails dug unforgivingly into his arms, โI-Iโm sorry, Donnieโโ
โOr would you have tried toย fight himย instead?! Mind you, you dropped your sword before coming to me so youโd haveย no weaponย to defend yourself.โย
โYou don't thinkย about how much itย scaresย me when you do dumb shit like that! Iย hateย seeing you get hurtโฆI freakingย loatheย it.โ Donnie rested the back of his head on Leoโs door, taking a couple deep breaths and hugging himself in an attempt to calm himself down.
Jeezโฆwhen the hell had he startedย yelling?ย His throat stung like aย bitchย nowโฆ
Andย whenย had he started shaking like a bobby head?!
The older twinโs expression softened, pinching the bridge of his snout once more, โI care about youโฆsoย fuckingย much,ย okayโฆ?โ The purple banded turtle said gently as he gradually started to simmer down and become more calm, โYour myย twinโฆmyย little brother.ย And Iย hateย to be repetitive but I-I justย despiseย seeing you hurtโฆphysically or emotionallyโฆsoย pleaseย justโฆโ
The young scientistโs eyes widened, peering down at his brother who did not seem to be followingโฆat all.ย
Leoโs eyes were wide as saucers as he hit his arm with his fist repeatedly whilst obviously trying to suck in whatever tearsย daredย to try and escape.ย
The taller turtle basically ran to his distressed twin, trying to stop him from harming himself any further but was only met with a low grunt.
Shit.
Shit. Shit.ย Fucking shit.ย
Wonderful job, Donatello! You yelled at your brother so much he shut down!
Even though you knew he canโtย fucking standย being yelled at and theย whole pointย of you evenย being hereย was to explain what he did wrongย collectively and calmlyย because that was the exactย oppositeof what Raph does when heโs worriedโฆ
But no!ย You yelled at him anyway.
Wonderful job, Donatelloโฆwonderful. job.ย
The older twin sighed sadly, gently grabbing his brotherโs wrists so he would stop hitting himself. The two brotherโs shared eye contact once again, an unsure lime green meeting an understanding yet uncertain light golden.
โNardoโฆโ The softshell started, squeezing the otherโs hands gently, โโฆAre you with me, budโฆ?โ
Leo just nodded quietly, squeezing back.ย
โGodโฆNardo Iโmย soย sorryโฆโ The older muttered, โI donโtโฆI donโt knowย why theย hellย I lost my cool like that. I-Iโm sorry I yelled. Iย shouldnโtย of yelledโฆI-I justโฆโ Donatello sighed, squeezing his brotherโs hands once again. โIโm not angry with you. IโฆI was just frustrated.โ
โWell, noโฆlet me rephrase:ย I amย angry with youโย livid even.ย You know damn well enough that when you do those kinds of things my heart literallyย jumpsย out of my shell. I need you to put into consideration that I would like to live to atย leastย seventy-sevenโฆโ
The younger twin giggled wetly, fidgeting with his brotherโs fingers as he spoke, โโฆWhy seventy-seven?โ
โAlbert Einstein died when he was seventy-sixโฆI can andย willย outlive him.โ The light golden eyed teen said matter-of-factly, โBut back to what I was initially sayingโฆI know you meant well.ย You saw that I was in troubleโฆand you dropped literallyย everythingย in order to help me get out of said trouble. You donโt think of what happens to youโฆyou just do it because youโll know if you do weโll be alrightโฆโ
โI-I justโฆI just wanted to protect youโฆI-I just wanted to helpโฆโ Leo tried to explain.
โI know. I know, Leeโฆโ Donatello sighed, rubbing the sliderโs knuckles gently with his thumb, โBut you need to understand that with you trying to protect us that way, your putting us in the same situation your trying to keep usย awayย from.โ The elder explained lightly, smiling softly as him and his twinโs foreheadโs touched.ย
โYouโre getting hurtโ or at the very leastย almostย getting hurt. Weโre feeling the same anguish and guilt you would feel if any of us did that. I get that you want to be a good leader and shitโฆbut you can lead wellย withoutย doing thatโฆokay?โย
Leo fiddled with the otherโs fingers a bit more, his bouncing leg starting to calm a bit, โIโllโฆtry to be more careful when it comes to me protecting you guys like that. When I see you all in troubleโฆI justโฆreact.ย I donโt really care about what happens to me as long as you guys end up okay. ButโฆIโll try to be more careful. And if I ever end up, like, being a bitย tooย recklessโฆyou can just tell meโฆdeal?โ
โDeal.โ Donnie nodded, squeezing Leoโs hands one last time before letting go, wiping his twinโs eyes with his hoodie sleeve, โNowย pleaseย stop crying or youโre going to makeย meย start crying.โย
Leo snorted, examining the otherโs now tearing up expression, โI think itโs a bit too late for thatโฆโย
โGAH!ย FUHUCK!โ Donnie cursed, wiping his own eyes as the slider laughed loudly at his exclamation.
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โLeoโฆdonโt you think youโre getting a bit tooย bigย for thisโฆ?โ Donatello grumbled as Leonardo was on his lap, getting all nice and comfy as he rested his chin on the olderโs shoulder. โNoooope.โ Leo drawed out, making a dramatic popping noise at the end of the 'p', โ'Sides, this is what you get for making me emo earlier.โ
โโฆIย saidย I wasย sorryโฆI didnโt mean to shout at you like that. I was just concernedโฆโย
โIย knowย that, you worrywart. I was just kidding.โ The lime green eyed teen said lovingly, squishing his brother into a tighter embrace. The older let out a short shriek at the hug but of course didnโt mind the other being so clingy.ย
If the young scientist really and trulyย didย mind? Leo wouldโve been pushed to the floor by now.ย
The two twins shared a comfortable silenceโฆwellโฆaย semi-comfortableย silence.
The purple banded teen feltโฆoff.ย His younger brother had thisโฆlookย in his eyes; like he wanted to say something but was afraid of what Donnie would say or how Donnie would react.
Which was so damn dumb Donatello didnโt even know how to explain it.
โโฆThereโs something else on your mind.โ The taller turtle hummed, his suspicions only rising as the other glanced to the side. โUhmโฆno there isnโt.ย See?ย This isย whyย I call you a worrywart.โ Leonardo said, tapping his fingers on his thigh nervously.ย
Very convincing Leoโฆveryย convincing.
โDonโt evenย tryย lying to me, Leon. My older brotherย andย twin senses are tingling. You canโt argue against that kind of logic.โ The scientist said matter-of-factly.ย
โWhat are you,ย Spiderman?โ The younger snorted.ย
โWe shall never know.โ The older shrugged, a small smile spreading to his face as he saw the other snort softly at his statement, โNow stop deflecting.ย Spill.โย
โโฆCan youโฆadjust my elbow bracesโฆ?โ The red eared slider muttered.
โโฆWhy canโtย youย do it?โ The other questioned. Not in a malicious way; he was just genuinely curious.ย
โI like it when you do it. You make it more firm, y'know?โ The blue banded turtle whined dramatically, โPleeeeeease?โ
โUgh, Jesusโย fine.ย But drop the poutโฆyou look ridiculous.โ The taller mutant sighed, lightly grabbing his brotherโs arm as he readjusted the braces.ย
The purple banded turtle meticulously took off the otherโs left arm brace, tracing his twinโs elbow to make sure it was healing correctlyโ which the slider couldnโt help but wriggle slightly to.
As the older twin put the brace back on, he looked at the other turtle in complete worry, โโฆWhy are you squirming around so much?โ Donatello asked in confusion.ย
โโฆNo reason.โ Leonardo stated, but let out a tiny squeak as Donnie lightly pinched his forearm.ย
โYohou okayโฆ?โ The glasses wielding mutant giggled.ย ย
โI-Iโm fihine!โ The smaller turtle insisted, covering his mouth as he let out a loud shriek in result to his brother now lightly scribbling his forearm. โEEEEE!ย P-Plehease moohoove yohour hahahand!!โ The younger sputtered out, hiding his face in the crook of the scientistโs neck which the older turtle couldnโt help but let his heart melt to.
โOh.โ Donatello hummed, biting back an amused laugh, โSorry. Sometimes I forget how ticklish you areโฆโ
โSnrtย I-Ihihiโmย nahatย ticklish. I juhust donโt wahant your hand thehereโฆโย
And isnโt thatย quaint.ย
If Donnie had a penny for every time Leo said heย 'wasnโt ticklish',ย the softshell would be richer thanย Elon Musk.
โโฆRight.ย Soโฆyou wouldnโt mind me doingย thisย then?โ The young genius mused as he scribbled one hand over his twinโs ribs. โEEEEHEH!ย Duhuhude noHOH!!ย F-Fuhuck yohou!โ The younger twin managed through his small giggles, pushing on his brotherโs plastron to try and escape while he still could.
The elder laughed fondly at his little brotherโs futile actions, hugging him closer as he lightly tickled him, โNahardo! My brohohother in Christ gehetย back hereย or youโre gohoing to fahall off of the bed!
โN-NOHO!! LEHET ME GO!โ The lime green eyed teen screeched loudly, kicking his legs and pushing even harder on the otherโs plastron, his eyeโs widening in panic as his older brother casually lifted him up and pinned his arms above his head, his plastron now facing up on the bed.
Eugh boyโฆ
Donnie grinned, sitting on the otherโs thighs as he wiggled his unoccupied fingers in the air near the sliderโs side, โThatโs better~!โ
โWAHAIT WAHAHAITย snrtย PLEHEASE DEEHEE!!โ The red eared slider cried, kicking his legs from underneath the scientist.
If he was going to go downโฆhe would atย leastย go down fighting.ย
โI havenโt evenย touchedย you yet, you goofโฆโ The older twin chuckled.ย
โB-BUHUT YOHOUR GOHOHONNA!โย
โ'Gonna'ย what,ย exactly?โ
โTihiHICKLE ME!!โย
โTickle you?ย Well, why didnโt you justย sayย soย in the first place?โ Donatello snickered, using his free hand to skitter his fingers along the crookโs of the youngerโs neck.ย
The blue banded turtle squealed, shaking his head back in forth whilst scrunching his shoulders, โGAHahaโย snrtย EEEEHEEHEHย oho cohomeย snrtย OHAHAN!!โย
โWhatโs wrong, Leo? I thought you said youย werenโt ticklish~?โ The older teased.
โSnrtย STHDHAHAH! Shuhutย UP!ย IHIโM naHAT!โ The younger shouted, tugging and pulling his arms to try and get his handโs free from the otherโs grasp. Donnie just laughed softly at the action, wiggling his fingers above his little brotherโs stomach.ย
The lime green eyed teenโs eyes widened in panic, thrashing in the hold to try and loosen his brotherโs grip but the purple banded turtle did not budge even aย smidge.ย
Leoโs laughs became more giddy and loud as he continued to squirm, small squeals and snorts escaping his beak as his twin brotherโs hand wentย sloooooowlyย to his stomach.ย
โN-NOHO NONONONO DAHAโย snrtย DOHON!!โ The smaller turtle snorted, hiding his face in the side of his arm which Donnie couldnโt help but giggle to.ย
The light golden eyed mutant rested his hand on the sliderโs plastron, making the younger turtleโs laugh raise almost a thousand octaves.ย
โDOHONโTย snrtย DOHONโT DOHOHONโTย snrtย YOU DARE!! YOHOUR SOHOย MEEHEEHEEAN!!โ Leonardo whined, hiding deeper into his arm and becoming a giggly flustered mess.
The older twin shook his head fondly at his little brotherโs embarrassed state, taking the opportunity to tickle the youngerโs stomach while he wasnโt looking.ย
Leo let out a loud scream, descending into high-pitched cackles as evenย louderย snorts followed, โHAHAHAHELP!! IHIโMย SNRTย BEEHEEING SLAHAHAUTERED!!โย
โIโm quite literally only usingย one hand,ย Nardo. Stop being dramatic.โ The light golden eyed teen mused whilst watching his brother snort and squirm, โAnd here I thoughtย Iย was the dancer of the family. Look at you! Youโre making up a wholeย dance routineย right now!โ He said as he let go of Leo, crossing his arms in amusement.ย
โS-Shuhuhutย snrtย upโฆโ The younger twin wheezed out, hugging his middles as he playfully glared at his purple loving brother.ย
Then, a lightbulb went on in the scientistโs brain, a smug smile spreading to his face, โHmโฆyou know, Leeโโ
โDohont callย snrtย me thahat!โ Leo giggly interupted.ย
โUh-huh.ย Well, Leeโฆdid you know that the underarms are one of theย warmestย places on the human body?โ The scientist said.ย
The lime green eyed mutant cocked his head to the side in confusion, โSoho?โย
โSooooย my hands are cold.ย Veryย cold, in fact. Iโd be forever in your debt if you couldโโ
โNO! NONOHO WAHAY INย HEHELL!ย G-GOHOย AWAHAHAY!โ Leo squealed, reaching for his brotherโs wrists as the elder tried to tickle his neck once again.
SighโฆLeonardo made this too damnย easyย sometimes.
The glasses wielding teen wasnโt just going to miss thisย oh-so-definetly-not-plannedย opportunity! The softshell scribbled his fingers along the sliderโs underarms, making the younger let out a loud squawk as he shot his arms down.ย
โNAHAH AHAHAHAโย snrtย GEHET THEHE HEHELL OHAHAโย snrtย OHOHOUT!!โ Leonardo cried while banging his heels on the bed.ย
โWhat~?โ Donnie hummed inocently.ย
โGEHEHET AHAโย snrtย GEHET. OHOUT. OHOF THEHEHERE!โ
โAweโฆwhy~?โ
โBEEHEECAUSE IHITโS SOHO BAHAHAD!!!โย
โAnd?โ Donnie chuckled, โThat sounds like aย youย problem, little brother.โย
โAHHHAHAโย snrtย GAHAHADย FUHUCK YOHOU!!!โ
โPardonโฆwhat was that?โ Donnie questioned as he pinched where Leoโs hip met his thigh. โN-NONOโย snrt NAHAHAH!!ย I CANโTโย snrtย PLEHEHEASE IโMย snrtย SORRY!! I-IHI TAHAHAKE IHIT BAHAHCK!!โย
โNahโฆI think Iโll just stayย riiiiightย here for a bitโฆโ The taller turtle smiled, using both of his hands now to tickle Leo into a laughing and snorting blob.
The younger weakly hit his big brotherโs arms, throwing his head back as he squeezed his eyes completely shut.ย
โโฆAnd you know what, Lee~?โย
โWHAHAHATย NOW?!โย
โIโm feelingโฆkind ofย famished.โ The elder mused, his smile almost looking like the signature Jokerโs as he saw his younger brotherโs face pale.ย
Leonardo scrambled to sit up, fighting with his brotherโs arms as he giggly protested, โPLAHAโย snrt PLAHAHEASE!ย PLEHEASEย snrtย D-DOHONโT!!โย
Donnie pinched his brotherโs thighs unforgivingly, โYou should have thought about that before yapping suchย illย nonsenseย about yourself.โ
โWHAHAโย snrtย WHAHAHAโย snrtย WHAHAT DIHIDย snrtย IHIHIย snrtย EVEN SAHAHAY?!โ The lime green eyed turtle cackled, flapping his hands on the mattress.ย
It took literallyย everythingย in the older twin not to coo his baby brotherโs adorable actions; instead, he lightly moved Leoโs hands away, smiling evily as he lowered his head to the otherโs plastron, โYou donโt even know. Guess youย reallyย want this, huh~?โย
The blue banded teen kicked his knees into his brotherโs shoulders and shell, throwing his head back in complete hysterics whilst waiting for him complete and utter demise.ย
The softshell wasted no time blowingย raspberriesย afterย raspberriesย in the middle of his youngerโs stomach, making sure to move the otherโs hands away any time he tried to push at the young geniusโ head.ย
Donnie didnโt feel like getting brain damage after all.
Plus, he had his signature glasses แด
แดษดแดแดแดสสแด แดแด on! And those wereย trademarkedโฆas you canย wonderfullyย see.ย
โGodโฆcan youย getย more ticklish?โ Donatello giggled, squeezing and squishing the red eared sliderโs knees with one hand and scribbling his sides with the other whilst contuinung to raspberry Leoโs stomach.ย
โDEEHEE DEEHEEHEEย SNRTย PLEHEHEASE!!!ย IHIย SNRTย DAHAHAHโย SNRTย DAHAโย SNRTย DAHUNNO!!โ The smaller turtle screamed, happy stimming with his arms on the taller twinโs shoulder.
Donnie couldnโt help but chuckle, deciding to show his twin aย tad bitย of mercy as he nibbled his stomach lightly.ย
The slider let out bloody murder from his beak, happy tears threatening to fall from his eyes as his bubbly cackles and snorts bounced off the walls of his room.
โJeezโฆI think Peppa Pig has some competition, huh~?โ The light golden eyed mutant snickered.
โPLEHEHEASE!!ย TEHEHELLOย SNRTย IHIโM GOHโย SNRTย GOHOHAโ AHAHAย SNRTย MYHYHYย SNRTGAHAHAHAD!!!โ The smaller teen pleaded.
โDo you promise to stop putting yourself in between danger and your family?โ The older hummed.ย
โYEHEHES!!โ The younger cried loudly.
โDo you promise to go easier on yourself?โย
โYAHAโย SNRTย YAHAโย SNRTย YEHEHES!!!โ
โDo you promise to accept your doing an amazing job as leader and we all love youโโ
โMYย SNRTย FUHUHUCKINGย SNRTย GAHAHAD!!!ย IHIHIย SNRTย GEHET IT!!โ Leonardo shouted, his blush now completley blending into the red stripes on his face.ย
The softshell turtle got off of the other, sitting next to his little brother as his little brother in question hugged his middles and giggled tiredly.ย
โY-Yohou could ohof juhuhust sahaid ahall of thahatย wihihithoutย tickling meeheeeโฆโ The younger grumbled despite the evident smile on his face.
โAnd whereโs the fun in that?โ Donnie smiled back, his expression softening as Leo got up and leaned against him softly. The older wraped an arm around the youngerโs shoulder, pulling him closer into a warm, protective gesture.ย
โAhand would yohohou look ahat that! Ihi got yohour emo bahad boy ahahass toย smileย todahay. Your eheeven hugging me~!โ The blue banded leader spoke softly, his voice filled with affection as he poked his twinโs forehead cheekily.ย
โYou tellย anyoneย that and I willย not hesitateย to deny that extremely untrue statement.โ The scientist huffed, rolling his eyes fondly as his smile spread.
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#Rottmnt tickle#Rottmnt tickle fic#Lee!Leo#Ler!Donnie#WHOOOOOO BOYYYYYYโฆ#Iโm sorry but Iโm not sorry ๐ซถ๐พ#Angst is like my second child ๐ถ๐พ๐๐๐๐๐#But I feel like I need to explain some stuff bc this fandom is probably holding me at gunpoint rn ๐
๐ซ#The reason why I feel like Leo and Raph had so many disagreements when Leon became leader is bc Leo canโt handle yelling#LIKE AT ALLโ he just sees it as whomever is yelling means their mad#So if Raphie boy was like: โI CARE ABOUT YOU AND LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH YOU DUMB ASS BITCH WHY CANโT YOU JUST BE CAREFULโ๏ธโ#Leo would hear it as: โI HATE YOU SO MUCH RN WHY CANโT YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHTโ๏ธโ#This fandom has been sleeping on AuDHD Leo for Y E A R S and I shall not be silent anymore its SOOOOOOO OBVIOUS ๐ญโผ๏ธ#I could not remember the word โhypocriticalโ for the LIFE of meโฆwhen I searched it up I probs wrote โhippopotamusโ#Leon is trying PLEAAAASE catch him a break ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐๐พ#Older twin Donnie is canon idgaf I was in the writers room TRUST ๐๐พ๐๐๐๐#Big bro senses ๐ค๐พ Twin senses#Donnie is fucking UNSTOPPABLE ๐ค๐พโฆbud does need to learn how to control is volume when upset tho eheheheh#He genuinely doesnโt know when heโs gradually getting louder or more upsetโฆthatโs why he was so panicked when Leo had his lil meltdown LOL#Raphie just expresses his worry with yellingโฆex: โAND NOT EAT POSIONโผ๏ธโผ๏ธโผ๏ธโ#Oh yeah this takes place a couple months after the Invasionโฆso everyone is like healed and everything but yk theyโre still traumatized obvs#๐๐๐พ#Leoโs lil tactic on dropping convoโs is a HC I have so donโt quote me on it ๐๐พ#GDGDGSHSN I ALSO NEED PPL TO DRAW DON WEARING HIS GLASSES MORE OFTEN HEโS SUCH A CUTIE PATOOTIE ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฉท#But tysm Nonnie!!! This was a TON of fun to write!#Make sure your taking care of yourself and drinking waterโ or at least get a snack ๐ฅฐ#But after the mission Raph was SEETHINGโฆand usually Don tries to talk to Leon instead cuz like he doesnโt want either party being upset#Nor does he want either of them to feel overwhelmed. So when Leo was like โUr doing this to me again?!โ Hes referring to all the times Don#<- has done that#Leo doesnโt like feeling pitied but itโs not Donโs intention to make him feel that way he just loves him family
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played dragon age 2...just simple scribbles
#dragon age tag#i doubt that will see much use again..but who knows. vvv rambling below#weird game..the characters dialogue stuff and ending were good tho :')#i've played some of the first game but it kept crashing. i knew already despite knowing nothing that this guy was going to be my type#it doesnt feel right making video game art any more bc games like this end up feeling really personal - an experience that happened to me#if i design the main character a bit and fall in love then..that happened to me..i can't make Fan Art of that..only ive been through that..#like i cant make fanart of my dear companions in bg3 despite it having been a huge part of my heart in the last year#almost 1000 hours of playtime in something i can barely talk about bc it means too much.... lol#tons of ideas and conversations and extra thoughts and scenes and emotions about all the incredible times i've been through in bg3#and the maelstrom just rotates around intensely in my own heart forever...but that's ok too...that is so precious to me#but fortunately i already knew people that have played this game and talked/drew abt it recently so it was saved from that for me#sharing scribbly fanart on my Blog is a way to capture the feeling just after experiencing something so it has good points#witch hat atelier escapes that by not being a GAME. games are so immersive. but my wha art & feelings are incredibly immersive too#which makes it difficult sometimes now. i live a complicated and emotional life <3 i am not suited to fandom <3#my character ended up looking so much like oru without me realising that's what i was doing. Kind bearded fireball throwing gay mage. Hmm.#falling for a sad white hair memory trauma fellow that keeps you at a tragic distance. Hmmmmmm.#i see also how very much bg3 is inspired by stuff like dragon age now lol so i'm glad i experienced it. I WANT MY KIRKWALL LIFE BACK...#so dated though as well and unpleasant at times (the city and the dismal atmosphere was depressing.) i hate violence/horror..#bg3 is SOOOO very dismal but it feels like I am killing people and going through horrors because i have to survive i have to be free#Well anyway. ahh it's so refreshing to fall in love. my gay journey continues...
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Lunch with Uncle Billy and Josh and sharing the big news with them!
After lunch, Renee talked about cases with Billy. She was in the early weeks of pregnancy and her work routine was pretty much the same! Renee asked if she was allowed access to the Strangerville archives to read about. At times, she thinks about Veronica and Strangerville. There were too many unanswered questions about the dangerous place and she wonders if she will ever see Veronica again. "I'll check with the director, I don't see why not," Billy replied.
#ts4#sims 4#ts4 gameplay#ts4 legacy#postcard legacy#postcard gen 3#billy reichmann#josh nixon#renee reichmann#vincent kingsley#uncle billy didnt spill the tea this time!#just take this as the 'she has revealed pregnancy with all family' post#and i wanted to see billy and josh again! its been a while hasnt it#you all know i wanted to deal with some story stuff before children#but change of plans lol#fitting in snippets of info whenever i can#like i want a good balance between serious story and everything#also billy isnt highest rank at station
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Concept: While Quiet remains stagnant across the chapters, Hero (the voice) always changes slightly to match the princess they're facing. Not necessarily the voice we get in the chapter, specifically the princess.
He gets more draconic in Adversary's chapter, more 'princely' in Damsel's chapter, more ghostly in Spectre's, and etc etc. Kinda as a way to show visually how malluable his character is, and to parallel the princess/Shifty herself, since I headcanon him as being the closest to Shifting Mound's nature.
#Stranger is the only exception where he looks *the exact same* as his chapter 1 form#maybe in a more simplestic art style even#to show how he didn't have the time to develop#also excuse to keep his chapter 1 form bald and then have him grow hair at (most) chapter 2's lol#wanna draw some of the different forms#but decision paralysisโฆโฆ#(also electricity went down for a bit again and it drained some of my energy ๐ซ )#you can ask me about the different forms to see if that helps motivate me#slay the princess#stp headcanons#voice of the hero#sal rambles#edit: INTERNET ALSO WENT DOWN WHEN I WENT TO POST THIS AISKS'KXJDJXJ#today is not going well for me
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We can't hear it Spam, but it's real to you. I get auditory hallucinations a lot, and usually what helps me is a distraction. Maybe... name 5 things you can see? Or make paper airplanes with old messages, or draw some pictures. Otherwise, I'm sure someone has a crossword or story they can send you to help you out!
#thank you anonnnnn some of these are kinda hard to work with lolll#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#if i get a shiver of guilt when im writing it thats how i know its the one LMAOOOO#sometimes i forget i dont need dialogue. descriptions can do my job for me.#I guess im living up to the every other day schedule i said id be doing#although i wish i could do every day again LOL but its important to take my time with these ones in particular because i want them to feel#certain way while also being effective esp guilt wise. you guys caused this so you get to feel bad ab it when hes miserable. This time you#get to see the aftermath. haha. this is your fault! haha. your actions have consequences for him!#That and the active participation people seem to like lol
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911, a confession
Let me start by saying that I don't really know what I'm doing here, so bear with me. If I actually go through with posting this, and you find yourself tagged and wondering who I am and why, or even if you happen upon it in the tags, I hope you take a minute to read this.
You don't know me, but you've been my community for a while now. I've checked your blogs daily for years, I've read your posts and loved your art and sent you countless anonymous asks to pick your brains- never hate though, because I'm not a Freak.
What I am, however, is a lonely lesbian with depression and (newly diagnosed) OCD, who has always needed some hyperfixation media/fandom to find life bearable. For some ~fun context, I was Raised by the glee fandom, I will die on the hill that watching queer as folk when I was 14 and discovering its fans 10+ years after airing made me who I am, I've got the most bizarrely timed stint in the 1D fandom under my belt, and I find nothing in the world more interesting and also affirming than Queer Reading (verb) media- to the extent that I earned an English degree and wrote a thesis specifically about it.
I haven't posted on here in 1.5 years, since I fell out of my previous fandom (apologies to anyone from said fandom who still happens to follow me and is seeing this, feel free to move along.) But I've been on this app every day since, because of 911.
(starting the read more here to spare you- again especially if you are tagged, I know you're probably feeling miserable rn but I do hope the entirety of this love letter reaches you)
I started "watching" mid season 5- by which I mean I was in a deep depressive state after disconnecting with previous media hyperfixation and, when I happened upon 911 trending while in need of distraction, I quickly fell down a rabbit hole. Tale as old as time, tumblr dot com convinces you that you need to tune into *insert media here* bc its fun and there are gay people! I caught myself up through all the big blogs and by the time May Day was airing I felt like I had a decent grasp on all the lore, all the fandom drama, all the places the writers were "definitely, so brilliantly" going to be taking the show that we had to look forward to, all without ever having actually seen an episode of the show (before you boo me, yes I've watched it by now, even season 1)
But I think it is important, and also a little messed up, that I fell in love with 911 through YOU, through the fans. Obviously watching the show initially through the lens of fan reactions first and not whats actually happening on screen can have some... interesting results. We've heard it all before, with the people who started watching specifically for Buddie around season 4/5 because they saw The Will and by the time they caught themselves up and watched the end of season 6 they wanted their refunds.
Here is where I want to make a clarification- the reason I got so interested, why I started coming back every day to check in on tags and certain favorite blogs I didn't even follow bc I was denying the want to become fully Involved, was because I fell in love with Evan Buckley. I won't lie, it was Buddie that caught my attention first- of course, thats what everyone here was talking about- and as much as I quickly started discover the value of the show outside of them (Henren my absolute Beloveds!!!!! Captain Dad Bobby Nash you are so special to ME. Chimney man of all time i can keep going) none of it was enough initially to bite the bullet and catch up on 5 seasons worth of a show I also knew would have elements I WASNT interested in (Copaganda and Taylor Kelly I am looking at you.)
But then I started really getting into fan's readings of Buck *insert footage of me learning the Buck Begins of it all for the first time* as a character separate from Eddie (as much as people were capable of anyway, and I will say some of yall continue to be absolutely atrocious at it) and I knew I was done for. Buck, this character so full of goodness, and his need to be Found but to also Find his own family and purpose and sense of self, for whom the show's thesis statement concerns the act of working to Make the kind of Love you want to have in this world, even if you were raised without a blueprint for it- I'm sorry but what else were me and my gay ass queer reading inclined hyperfixated brain to do other than take Evan Buckley into the folds and never let him go?
I love Buck. I was convinced by the time the s5 finale was airing before I had actually watched the show that Buck had to be bi. Even if they never did a thing with it you couldn't convince me otherwise and I was also confident that Oliver was portraying him with a similar mindset. I never wavered in that interpretation, even when the utter disappointment of the s6 finale and the failure to do anything truly meaningful character development wise through the lightning strike-Natalia speed run hit, and certainly not as I got fully caught up actually watching the show outside of tumblr live reactions during episode airings. I'll admit I was pretty ready to Check Out after the end of season 6, to the point where I hardly checked in on fandom at all going into 7 until the rumblings of possible canon Bi Buck reached me and I doubled back like "hold on, for real this time?" But when I say Check Out, I mean I was ready to walk away from the hyperfixation with a joint lack of satisfaction with canon & firm conviction that Buck was queer.
Things with Eddie are a lil different- and I want to try and keep this bit brief bc this is ultimately a post about Buck and Bucktommy and I have no interest in unsettling those of you who may have a queer reading connection to Eddie as real as the one I feel for Buck, but unfortunately this conversation cannot exist separately from the Eddie/Buddie of it all- I personally don't think Eddie is queer. I don't really think I ever did, even when I was in the thick of it with falling for Buddie. I know me saying this would cause certain audience to pelt me with accusations of fetishizing Buck or treating Eddie as nothing more than a vehicle for Queer Buck via Buddie- false! I actually think Eddie is an incredibly fascinating character, a deeply compelling representation of grief and fatherhood and masculinity, and also a hilariously weird lil bitch guy. I just don't feel like- especially having removed fanon glasses while actually starting to watch the show, and taking the time to acknowledge that the things about Buddie that appealed to me on a romantic level (this is NOT about their friendship which i stand by being beautiful and important) all boiled down elements I was reading within and onto BUCK specifically, not Eddie. Perhaps an impossible concept for some, the idea that Bi Buck could feel so real and apparent to me primarily divorced from the idea that Eddie had to be queer as well, but I won't bore you with my explanations for it, though I suspect the people tagged and still reading by this point know exactly what I am talking about.
All of this potentially obnoxious prologue to say, I've spent the last however many months falling in love with canon Bi Buck *insert footage of me speed running back into my daily fandom involvement/blog check ins the moment I knew Buck kissed a man*, with Bucktommy, and with Bucktommy fans.
For a long while there I had resigned myself to an odd, though perhaps not as unique as I thought, reality of loving and fully believing in Queer Buck, not necessarily feeling the same about Eddie or Buddie, but also in full agreement with many that already 6 seasons in with literally nothing else having remotely worked, Buddie would be the only satisfying conclusion for Buck's love story. This is again not exactly how I felt about Eddie- but a big part of that for me is that I don't think Eddie's primarily story in 911 is a love story. He's the vessel for telling other important, beautiful stories about fatherhood and forgiveness and that is OKAY bc not every characters story is a love story!!! Evan Buckley's is though (Despite some very weird and confusing things mr stark has just said about his character that actively contradict what hes previously said and what audiences have been looking at and for this entire time, but I digress)
But then! By whatever happy accident we want to call it 911 had Tommy Kinard fall back into its lap as the solution to what felt like the impossible: They found the ONE way they could introduce a non Eddie Diaz love interest for Buck that COULD be satisfying for Bucks story. Someone with connections to the 118 and the shows history and potential for further development within main storylines as his job directly pertains to their plots. Someone with such compelling connections for interweaving these two characters that it got us- including the showrunner- talking about the Red String of Fate. That it got some of the beloved tumblr pals I had been watching for years, who NEVER would have believed they'd ever root for a Buck endgame that wasnt Buddie doing exactly that, and with joy, love, and conviction. Again I'll ask, what else were me and my Buck loving brain to do but take Bucktommy into the folds and never let go? (apparently I hadn't considered that there was apparently horrifying alternative- more on that next!)
As you all damn well know, falling in love with Bucktommy has not come without its trails. I have never seen things in fandom as vile as the things I've seen go down here. And as I mentioned before, I've been IN IT with yall for a while, even if you didnt know it. I was here, lurking, and I know this fandom has had its highlight reels of racism and misogyny and harassment (despite certain factions current batshit consensus that things were "never bad" before *gasp* a couple of people, some over the ancient age *double gasp* of 30 heard about bucktommy through tumblr the same damn way the 90% of you who havent been watching since season 1 heard about buddie and decided to invest)
What happened tonight made me cry, for about 40 minutes straight. And yeah, its been a devastating week for us all for a lot of reasons. On top of the ~national dread (I'm a lesbian in the US btw) today was my 7th out of 9 straight days of open to close shifts in a demanding retail/management position, and I have a head cold so maybe this was just a Breaking Point after a whole lotta shit.
But also, maybe, it was really fucking shitty to watch this play out. I've already seen countless people say it better than I could. Yeah, its a tv show. It's a fictional ship. But its also escapism, a spot of joy many of us were extra dependent on this week. It was something GOOD, queer representation and a love story on national tv days after a horrifying reality set in for queer people, and we are allowed to acknowledge how much losing that sucks just on a general level for a second...
Second over, now lets talk not on the general level. Lets talk about how I've watched real human beings get harassed, sent death threats, be told they are faking cancer and failing to properly grieve dead loved ones, I've watched deeply homphobic language be adopted and incorporated into everyday use despite constant correction and pleas from queer men to knock it the hell off, I've watched homophia as a whole run rampant and unchecked by big blogs, with some biphobia to boot, I've seen some images of horrific anti gay violence and historical trauma invoked as a way to make fun of others, I've seen lesbianism slandered and proffered as an excuse for such vile behavior in a disgusting erasure of the beautiful solidarity that has historically existed between gay men and lesbians in the face of homophobia, and yes, I've seen graphic descriptions of child rape via targeted fanfiction attacks.
Again, others have already said it better than I can: This isn't about Bucktommy. It's about the way that everyone who was Pulling for them as a couple, who DARED to *checks scribble on hand* enjoy a canon queer mlm couple featuring a character (or two) they've grown to care deeply for, has been subjected to all the above mentioned and more, and for...what. For. What.
In the name of a fanon couple that has not been legitimized by the writers in 7 years? of a fanon character interpretation of a canonically straight man (not just assumed straight, verbally assigned straight now on multiple occasions) that people cannot fathom perceiving this show, let alone liking these characters, without? For the version of this story that, if the writers REALLY wanted to happen could have happened so many fucking times by now- especially when the show was coming to what might have been its end in s6- and still hasn't? A version that has been dismissed multiple times by the writers cast crew and every other unfortunate individual who has been harassed repeatedly about it?
And I'm not here to say Buddie is inherently bad!!!! It brought me into this same as the rest of you. I don't even believe it would necessarily be a bad or wrong conclusion for either character or the show were it to eventually, finally happen!! But for the love of god, hear me when i say from the outsider pov of someone who has experience the show in the way I did first through fandom then stepping back to watch for real and now watching it with my mother who is a near Exact representation of the general audience of this show (experienced Procedural watcher, no idea about Buddie or fandom interpretation, had no sense of gay eddie to speak of, and is not shocked but pleasantly surprised by and endeared by Bi Buck) you are SEVERELY deluded if you think what happened tonight by breaking up Bucktommy "makes sense" to any audience outside of buddies who've been writing manifestos for years about how every single thing in this show is "carefully, intentionally, clearly" leading to Buddie canon. I swear to you the people at home do not fucking see it. The people at home saw Buck in a nice, developing relationship that finally seemed to be going somewhere real for him after discovering an important part of his identity late in life, and then they saw that relationship abruptly ended and Buck heartbroken, going to sit with his best, still straight, bud Eddie Diaz. The ONLY people this makes sense for are the people who I am afraid it seems may have legimately bullied this into happening.
And if that is the case? We are sooo far fucking past the point of no return here. There is no true satisfaction in a Buddie canon endgame here for anyone who's lived through the past half a year in this fandom unless you were a perpetrator of any of the horrific shit mentioned above. I mean that with my whole fucking chest. If, and i do think it is a Big Fucking Fat if, Buddie does happen, and you find yourself no qualms happy and satisfied with it as your well earned endgame, I hope you know how rotted you are. And while I'm at it, I hope some way some how you come to see that this was not the carefully crafted beautifully developed loved story of all time you were gods bravest soldier in waiting for. Its just what left after years of meandering storytelling and cyclical character "development" with a bow slapped on top at the last moment because the gift giver was afraid you might kill them if they presented less.
Anyway. I said a million words ago that this was a love letter, and I do mean that. As much as its also been an mental health exercise for me to write this all out. So,
@kinardbuckleys @bucksboobs @kirkaut @tevankinkley @userautumn @sunglassesmish @tommyscurls @ohithankyou @buckxtommy @princessfbi @bigfootsmom @firewasabeast
(And so many other people I'm surely forgetting, and the few artists and writters on other platforms I dared to venture to- maybe never opening twitter again after this xoxo)
Thank you. You don't know me, I never quite got over the anxiety of trying to re-enter a fandom space after a time away, or maybe some of the imposter syndrome or embarrassment I felt accidentally falling in love with this show and Buck by just watching you all talk about him before anything else. But for the last few months, some of you years, you've been my community, my escape. I've loved watching your brains and your hearts work to discuss and create, even amidst the absolute shittiest fandom behavior Ive ever seen. And I am as grateful for getting to experience it from a far as I am devastated at the thought of losing it, of not individually typing in all your blog names (I was too anxious to even FOLLOW you guys truly rip) to see what new content or spec or art or love you had to share about Buck / Bucktommy every day.
In another life- one where idk perhaps people were kinder or showrunners weren't bullied and actors weren't dropped last minute after months of torment and a satisfying canon queer love story for a character who genuinely needs it could just Be in peace- I would have loved to one day put on my big girl pants (aka saved Buck url) joined the fandom for real. To have directly talked to any of you in a way that wasnt... this.
I would have loved to love Bucktommy with you.
#if any of you actually read this i am kissing you directly on the forehead#and if you didnt I am wishing you find some escapist joy outside all this#bucktommy#911 abc#911 spoilers#buddie#evan buckley#yes i am tagging all of it lmao I have SPARED a lot of you by never joining this fandom and saying the shit ive wanted to say so youll deal#with this one time and i honestly hope it reaches outside who its really intended for#tommy kinard#tevan#please let a buddie read it and get pissy see if i care#maybe the last time i used tumblr too since i don't ever want to go through this again lol
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I love the way you drew Sam and Max in your art style! I hope you do more tk art of them (no pressure though draw what you want)
there is nothing id rather draw for you anon!!!! i LOVE making art of these two <3333333333
(dont worry, sam's got a sneaky way of escaping)
(ns//fw and/or fetish blogs please dni๐๐)
#tickle art#my art#SMAX!!!!!!!!!!#see i promised you all id draw them :p#i went through a phase in like 2021 (and again in 2022) where like. ALL i drew was art of sam getting wrecked#havent drawn these guys in ages tho!!!!!!!!! thanks for giving me an opportunity theyre genuinely some of my fave guys to doodle ever :3#max is fine at the end btw hes just being a Drama Queen#sorry for the empty space around the images btw. i considered cropping it but i honestly just didnt feel like it lol#anyway#sam and max tickle#ler!max#lee!sam#thanks for the req anon!!!!!!!!!!!!!#snm is one of the 3 things im super into rn (the other two things being rick n morty and adventure time)#sooo......if you wanna see more of these guys or any of the guys from those listed fandoms then i would be down B)))#i mean i take reqs for anything in my fandom doc. im just more likely to do them if im super into them lol#like i have reqs for dh///mis stuff thats been sitting in my inbox for months#but i answered this in less than 24 hours#SORRY i have adhd blehh
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๐๐๐ rawr ๐๐๐
I've been feeling inspired by lisa frank aesthetics lately, so of course I had to mash them up with my babygirls๐ฅฐ๐๐๐๐ธ
(this is kinda making me want to design a sticker sheet for them๐๐ธ lemme know if there is any interest for that~)
#shuake#goro akechi#akira kurusu#persona 5#p5#eeeeeee my babies#how ive missed them#i know its hardly been any time since ive drawn them#but it feels like forever๐ฅบ๐๐#i saw some really cool enamel pins and got inspired lol#i actually feel like this would be a good base for a sticker sheet๐#but i wanna make sure ppl would like that before i make it#oh! ive also been wanting to try enamel pin making again!!#i already have a design in mind#but im curious what you guys would like to see from meโกโกโก#so just lemme know what youd like~~#โกโกโกโกโกโกโกโก#shitty#(< that's my art tag)
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Come back home when you have some sense
You can throw your life away just not at my expense
Youโre not the son I raised
#jhariah#this one just rawrrfrrr#and then uh another line thats like โtell me did you raise a man?โ#nice#im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it#god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like#hnnnghhh#hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot#the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM#sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like โi just want you to know im so so...โ#like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke#but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me#and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards#the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome#the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear#its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe#but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill#and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill#you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit#and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it#and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was#very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me#which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me#yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend ๐
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you'll forget all but what you chose
[night version below: eyestrain warning]
#art#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art#oc#pink space#eyestrain#guess who was playing w/ inkingggg#meeee :333#also messed around w/ the noise and these two versions have different noise settings which was fun !!#and tried something with the lighting a bit i think i like it ? i think i like it :D#Annnnd that bike again ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ#getting much better at drawing it i hope hbfsvh ; i've gotta work on proportioning n stuff though bloo hbh#also working on clothing folds. bsing my way through it one piece at a time Hkhghfsjvh ๐๐ฅ๐ค๐#/i have these saved as 'gocey run (day).png' and 'gocey run (night).png) so lmfsvh#leo n i were having some sort of conversation abt that as i was drawing but i don't remember what it was about lol#also there's a version of this with a very faint grocery list in the background ๐ singular apple on that list#//yea okay i think i'm gonna pop away now :3#OH MY STARS i forgot abt my late-night jumbo crayon doodles i need you to see them hang ON#[sautees away]
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