#secretly defiant whumpee

[floral-comet-whump]

I love living weapon whump where whumpee is so conditioned they genuinely view themself as an emotionless tool BUT consider living weapon whumpee who is lying about it. they refuse to give up and be nothing but a mere object to whumper, but they're also aware of their own powerlessness, so they act how others want. they follow protocol, they're efficient, they use "sir/ma'am" for everyone.

all while internally seething, running on nothing but pure hate. one day, they'll kill whumper. one day, they'll be free. but that day is not today, and they're not in a position to be pushing their luck.

[floral-comet-whump]

hiiii I got inspired :3

Content warnings: Captivity whump, implied past torture, execution via slitting throat, captive whumpee, whumper pov, minor/child whumper, child abuse, institutionalized whump (hardly noted), fantasy whump (hardly noted)

taglist (I forgot I have one soz): @lordcatwich @chiswhumpcorner

The senior investigator skims the report a final time, nodding. They make a spinning motion with their free hand, and Walenty scurries to get a pen from the counter, walking on their toes to negate the limp. They look away as the other writes something, trying not to fidget or look at the captive.

It's not difficult. The muffled screaming has grown into background noise, just as normal as the scratching of steel on paper or the humming of magic.

The stench of misery haunts the air.

“Alright,” their instructor starts, and Walenty nearly squeaks, quickly remembering to place their hands behind their back. “Kill him.”

They blink, looking up. The older’s gaze doesn't waver. Walenty feels like a dumb child. Why? They want to ask so, so bad. They still hesitate, looking at the floor, then at the still captive, at their eyes, practically frozen. They hear the nigh-silence occupying the chamber now, a stark contrast to the prior white noise.

“You’re not questioning my orders, are you?”

“No-!” The apprentice speaks before they think, racking their brain for an excuse. Lesson, strict teacher, mistakes. “I, um.. I just wanted to ask how! So that I don’t do it wrong. Sir.”

Their teacher raises an eyebrow, fully aware it’s a lie. They hum, deeming it acceptable.

“Whichever is most efficient, then.”

Walenty nods, taking back the dagger they’d used. It’s already plenty dirty and none of the other tools are suitable. It might splash, but the floor is bloodied anyway.

“Is slitting the throat fine, sir?”

“Sure.”

And so they walk up to the ruined human, ignore the muffled screams and squirming as they tilt the head upwards with a firm grip, and slash. They’re fast with it as to not hesitate, immediately ducking away to avoid the blood spray. It doesn’t come, only oozing out. Huh.

Walenty flinches at the touch on their head. They don't dare reject it, though. “You minimized cleanup. Good job, Walenty.”

“...Thank you, sir.”

“Kill him.”

“…Wh—what?”

The young man stared at the kneeling criminal before him, his specific crimes forgotten. He couldn’t do that, not him, he—

The king interrupted his thoughts, carefully and gently setting the knife in the young man’s hand, even curling his fingers around the handle.

“Was I unclear? Kill him.”

[jordanstrophe]

can I share a trope I really like. defiant whumpee x caretaker who's used to it whumpee being upset and embarrassed over being weak and fragile and needing care so they keep trying to push caretaker away. they hide in blankets, in corners, in closets - they hate being seen in such a state. despite this, they still secretly wish caretaker would reassure them and tend to them and nurse them because they feel valued for the first time and just don't know how to react to it caretaker who's dealt with them before and is overall unfazed. they poke fun at whumpee sometimes too, just because it stuns them into not complaining. being gentle with whumpee who's hissing and kicking and complaining and holding them down to spoon-feed them soup until they're too weak to resist also bonus points when whumpee hates being seen as helpless or being babied paired with caretaker who's mostly used to tending to children and uses those habits to also tend to them

You had me at the first sentence, dear anon. "Defiant whumpee with a caretaker who's used to it."

I just picture a whumpee throwing a ragefit over needing help, medical attention, rules that keep them safe, ect.

Meanwhile our unbothered caretaker knows in about three minutes, whumpee will be exhausted from their fit and will accidently sit still huffing and puffing long enough to change that bandage...

Anyway, thanks for sharing!

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

the sexual tension when whumper and defiant whumpee are archenemies, but with some “training” whumper manages to put whumpee in a collar and a leash and have whumpee sitting on the floor next to whumper, while whumper sits on a chair or a throne above them.

bonus if whumper also hand feeds whumpee occasionally.

bonus if whumpee hates whumper, but not as much as they hate themself for secretly liking being dominated by their own nemesis.

bonus if whumpee has a degradation kink and hates themself for it.

bonus if whumpee, against their own better judgement, can’t hold back a moan when whumper runs fingers through their hair like they’re petting a dog

bonus if whumper smirks darkly because they know they have whumpee right where they want them and know whumpee likes this.

[dresden-syndrome]

Possessive whumper!!! Where someone else comes and DARES to touch THEIR whumpee?? Inexcusable

Whumping in EESU: Possessive whumper

Whumper receives their newly designated whumpee from detention. They don't allow anyone to deliver them; they take the properly restrained and branded whumpee into their car and bring them into their home/office, whispering "You're only mine now..."

Whumper deeply hurt by the fact they can't take their favorite, precious, beloved class 1/2/3 whumpee to themselves.

Whumper, a high rank EESU government official, is obsessed with someone they met. As their obsession grows, they plan an investigation, collect evidence, use State Security spies and finally order them to be arrested for a class 4 offence. Delighted to see them in a detention cell, they make a designation request.

Whumper calling all their subordinates in the building and showing their whumpee, warning everyone not to touch them.

Whumper threatening their colleague for coming too close to their beloved pet.

Whumper punishing their whumpee for coming too close to someone else.

Whumper making their pet hug them, kiss them or sit on their lap.

Whumper secretly making orders to buy clothes or stuff from the West because they just want their whumpee to look as pretty as they can.

Whumper in a position of civilian authority - a boss, a collective farm chairman, a local Party committee worker - threatening to report on their whumpee to State Security and get them arrested if they won't stay close to them.

Whumper making their new pet a room in their facility - a small, lovely, comfortable room with little bars on windows and lock on the door; they're the only one allowed to enter.

Whumper always carrying a few restraints to tie up and punish their beautiful defiant pet on their own.

Whumper refusing to give their sick pet up to the local lab for treatment and having to take care of them by themselves.

Whumper giving their pet to the lab and staying with them for the whole time: watching every medical procedure they have to endure, holding them every time the doctors are about to do something painful, sleeping in their little room.

Whumper talking to their comrades about their new pet, telling how beautiful they are, describing them in an absolutely dehumanizing way. (Bonus points if the whumpee is here, hearing their owner's every word, not allowed to say anything).

Despite it's explicitly stated that class 4 offenders cannot be reeducated or rehabilitated, whumper always tries to make their "property" to become as loyal and ideologically passionate as they can; after all, their pretty little pet needs to be perfect, and for them loyalty to the EESU regime is the best kind of perfection.

Whumper forcing their whumpee attend all their meetings and celebrations. If the meeting is too public to bring a class 4 subject in, or the place doesn't allow that, they lock the poor whumpee up alone in a cell.

Whumper leaving a mark on their whumpee's body - a tattoo, a scar, a touch of a melting iron rod. An ID tag on their ear shows the whumpee belongs to the state; a whumper's mark, however, shows they belong to them.

After a propaganda movie session for everyone ends, another one begins - just for the whumper and their whumpee together.

Whumpee has finally escaped from EESU. Too bad a person who organized their escape now controls their every move and convinces them they'll be caught and returned if they run away.

[Masterpost link]

[whumpy-daydreams]

I love whumpees who are stoically defiant

They don't hold their hands out to be cuffed, but they don't resist either.

They don't do what they're told but they don't fight back (they're secretly plotting their escape)

[whump-lover-and-reader]

Tokyo MER: Mobile Emergency Room Whump List

Synopsis: Tokyo MER was formed by order from the Governor of Tokyo. The members are emergency care professionals who go to sites of dangerous accidents and disasters using ER cars. Their ER car is a large vehicle equipped with the latest medical devices and an operating area where Tokyo MER saves the lives of the injured.

Kitami Kota is a doctor for Tokyo MER and its leader. He holds firm convictions that he goes to accident sites to save lives regardless of the dangers.

Genre: Medical, Thriller, Drama

Whumpees: Kitami Kota played by Suzuki Ryohei and Otowa Nao played by Kaku Kento

Note: Joint effort! Up to the 5th episode this list was done by the wonderful @love-me-a-lotta-whump, the rest is by me

!!Spoilers Below!!

Kitami Kota

Ep. 00: no appearance

Ep. 01: in an explosion, covered in blood/debris/ ashes, traumatic flashbacks, anxious ::: breathing in toxic gasses, feeling unwell, coughing, heavy breathing, blurred vision, passed out, collapsed, saved, in an explosion ::: sitting with an oxygen mask over his face

Ep. 02: none

Ep. 03: shot at multiple times, collar grabbed ::: collar grabbed

Ep. 04: none

Ep. 05: oxygen mask over his face

Ep. 06: secretly watched

Ep. 07: being near an explosion, took off protective mask in a basement potentially full of poisonous gas

Ep. 08: questioned, questioned by a teammate, out in heavy rain, leg hit by a sliding boulder, fell, electrocuted, unconscious, his heart stopped, being resuscitated, his team was ordered to give up on him, coming back to life

Ep. 09: trapped in a place with high CO2 concentration, the team is not allowed to rescue him, running and carrying someone, on the verge of passing out, saved, saving someone by doing cpr

Ep. 10: held hostage by a terrorist, accused of aiding them, held at knifepoint, locked up in a room, saving someone by doing cpr, in explosion, covered in burns and soot, saving someone by doing cpr, his sister died, taunted by her killer

Ep. 11: in hospital after collapsing off-screen, feeling guilty and depressed, accused of being a terrorist, grieving, crying, saving someone

Otowa Nao

Ep. 00: no appearance

Ep. 01: saving someone ::: cuts on his face, covered in ash

Ep. 02-04: none

Ep. 05: trapped in an elevator ::: still trapped, the elevator catches fire and the elevator floods with smoke, coughing ::: inhaling smoke, refusing an oxygen mask (sorta self sacrifice) ::: inhaling more smoke, coughing ::: panicked, pressured, anxious, collar grabbed, defiant ::: inhaling smoke, coughing, looked after ::: inhaling smoke, coughing, losing consciousness, growing weak, saved, looked after, saved, emotional, passed out, collapsed into someone's arms ::: asleep in the hospital, woke up

Ep. 06: none

Ep. 07: being near an explosion

Ep. 08: out in heavy rain, saving someone by doing cpr, out of breath after

Ep. 09: none

Ep. 10: held hostage by a terrorist, saving someone by doing cpr

Ep. 11: breathing in poisonous gas, coughing, losing consciousness, burred vision, on the verge of passing out, held, saved

[a-crumb-of-whump]

Alex, why are you so mean to ollie? give him some cuddles and affection please...

Masterlist

Content: Forced comfort, creepy whumper, [mentioned] weapons, [implied] past non-con, non-con touching [non-sexual], defiant whumpee, pet whump, catboy whumpee.

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Alex’s behaviour couldn’t have been further from normal this evening, and Ollie was terrified of it. Instead of her pocket knife and the bag of toys she always brought down with her when she came to see him, she had a blanket. 

Something Ollie hadn’t seen in months. 

As soon as he saw her, he pushed himself to the very back of his cage curled up as best he could, trying to avoid letting her touch him as much as possible. This had to be some sort of trick. Something to get into his head. She was going to use it to get his hopes up before letting them come crashing down as soon as he realised she wasn’t really going to give the comfort item to him. 

“No pain tonight, pet,” she assured him, though an amused smile played at her lips as she undid the top of the cage rather than the gate and reached down to get him, like you would a puppy at a pet store. The blanket was a shield between Ollie’s bruised skin and her hands, and the second she had him in her arms, she wrapped him up in it as best she could and cradled him to her chest. 

Despite the odd moment of comfort, Ollie struggled to free himself. “Get the hell off me!” he spat, trembling hands pressing up against her chest in an attempt to push his face as far away from hers as he possibly could. Even if she truly meant what she’d said, that didn’t mean “pleasure” was off the table. 

Alex seemed to ignore him as she made her way back up the steps to the main area of the house. With a small, angry noise, he begrudgingly allowed them to carry him into their bedroom, where the door was closed and locked and the chains that kept whoever was with her tied to the bed were already set up for him. He couldn’t believe it, but he was confident he’d rather be in the basement, in his tiny cage with those stupid restraints than here. 

“Don’t give me that look,” Alex rolled their eyes as they placed him down on the bed, still wrapped up in his blanket. Without giving him any time to react, they attached his ankle to the chains and leaned down to kiss his head, ignoring the frightened noise that left him as soon as she did it. He was used to the creepy affection she always gave him - the touches that always crept a little too low down his back for comfort or the kisses that always ended on his lips, but genuine affection? That was completely unheard of. He hated it. 

He squeezed his eyes shut the moment she sat down beside him and brought his resistant body into her arms again. “Stop fighting me,” she scolded, using her free hand to tuck his head into her neck. Ollie tried to remove it again, but she simply held him there until he stopped resisting to such a degree, before gently releasing some of the pressure. 

“I wanna go back to my cage,” Ollie insisted, his voice coming out a little quieter than before. He could feel his body unintentionally relaxing the moment she covered him up with the blanket again, and he teared up a little, struggling to get her hands off him. They were so… so gentle. “Stop. Stop, I do not wanna be touched-”

Alex hushed him. “I’m afraid that’s not up to you, pet. If I want to give you affection and be kind, then your job is to let it happen. I tell you this every day.”

“I do not care about your stupid rules! Let me go!” he just about cried, his entire body seizing up when she started to push them both back so she was leaning against the headboard. He wanted so badly to get away. He didn’t care that it felt nice. He didn’t care that the blanket was soft and warm, nor that Alex’s hands felt devastatingly nice against his wounded body. He didn’t care about any of it. 

He just wanted out. 

“I know you’re secretly enjoying it,” Alex whispered against his temple, using her free hand to scratch him behind his ears. They twitched and flickered pleasurably as a result, and the tears immediately began to come in larger waves. Why was this so fucking nice? “You know, sometimes seeing you trying to escape comfort is almost as fun as watching you try to escape pain. Do you think if I did this enough, you’d start thanking me? Perhaps you might even ask me to do it again?”

“I ha-ate you,” Ollie hiccuped, squeezing his eyes shut when Alex pressed two light kisses to his eyelids. “Stop, stop, stop!” 

Alex simply laughed, running her hand through his curly hair. “I don’t think I will, but keep telling me to stop. It’s cute.”

[floral-comet-whump]

hello!!! my name is shavit, and I'm a whump blog!

my pronouns: they/she/star

my age: 17!!

if you have minors dni on a post and see I have liked or reposted it, it was probably an accident. I'd be a little sad if I get blocked because I'm sensitive, but I won't take offense to accounts doing so

a fun fact about me: my name, shavit, is pronounced sha like shush and vit like bit (down), but the B is a V

things I hope to be known for: being an interactive fan, having unnecessarily intricate character designs, and having good takes (I rlly hope I have good takes, I am trying)

whump tropes I like:

conditioning (both the process and the result. I think the main reason I'm into whump (other than just sadism towards fictional characters bjkbbidb) is the fascination I find in storytelling where characters are broken and reshaped), whipping, stress positions (very illustrative!), begging, fantasy whump/magic whump, magical exhaustion and magical euphoria, institutionalized whump + living weapon whump, bad caretaking, carewhumping, branding, secretly defiant whumpee/liar whumpee. I made this post about them and I'm really proud because a post of mine hasn't attracted attention since I was like... 12 and made a gacha life series

original whump writing

Daffodil Academy is a boarding school taking in talented youths which belong to... less fortunate backgrounds. Throughout history, this institution has consistently nurtured what most would think are children beyond saving into dutiful, competent servants of the kingdom.

contents: minor whump, magic/fantasy whump, institutionalized whump, living weapon whump, multiple whumpees, multiple whumpers, parental carewhumpers, conditioning, non-sexual/non-romantic grooming, generational trauma

post where I ramble about this as a concept

“Kill him.” | Featuring: Walenty

Hurt or be Hurt | Featuring: Walenty

I currently don't have plain writings that don't belong to any particular setting soz </3

Original whump art

just some doodles and references for walenty! no whump, just placed here for convenience's sake

singular kid walenty doodle with thoughts and rambles in tags

KID walenty taking an L (shit doodle edition)

[redd956]

Mini Whump Prompt 33

Whumper is secretly a whumperee. In an attempt to be defiant, whumpee went through some of whumper’s stuff only to find menacing threatening letters from another party. They were so overtaken by the mysterious letters they didn’t hear Whumper return home.

[whumpy-gems]

Beautiful little whump scene from Ouroboros! The bromance top teir in this! We got defiant whumpee AND “I don’t show emotion but secretly I’m super worried” caretaker 😋

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

what are some of the most appealing whump tropes for you? i'm new to writing kind of subject matter, but i love making my oc's/fave characters suffer. i would love ideas from someone experienced!

my top 10 favorite whump tropes

tw: force feeding, implied/reference self-harm, nonconsensual drug use

forced surrender — for me, the trope suits defiant whumpee better than whumpee who’s already broken and terrified. it gives me whumperflies when whumpee who is feisty, defiant and prideful is forced to surrender. so while they are obedient, there may be occasional hissing and snarling from them. should they get punished for such an audacity? the choice is yours.

enemies to friends / enemies to lovers — classic one. though I personally like it better if, prior to their becoming enemies, they started out as friends. so it’s ‘friends to enemies to friends (or lovers) again’. but besides whump, if fluff isn’t your thing and you 1.) don’t want to make their relationship wholesome the second they go from enemies to friends/lovers 2.) want to make it hot and sexy, then I did talk about spicy ;) enemies to lovers trope and the dynamic between two characters here and here. so you can check them out too

medical whump — maybe this one’s not as popular, but it’s still my personal favorite. anything that involves hospital setting, or maybe it doesn’t necessary have to take place in a hospital but a medical ward anywhere where the main focus is whumpee being injured while also being taken care of by caretaker. the more graphic, the better. (it doesn’t really have to be medically accurate, just… you know, how graphic the scene is described, the more the better. give me all that blood and gore, describe to me how each character feels, etc.)

hallucinations — self explanatory. love love love it when whumpee hallucinates from blood loss, infection or high fever, etc. they can hallucinate about anything you want!

sickfic — in my opinion, ‘medical whump’ associates with injuries, while sickfic is about illness. I personally like it when whumpee has the flu and is bedridden, though they’re the worst patient, whining and trying to convince caretaker that they’re fine when they aren’t. unlike medical whump and hallucinations, which deal with angst and stress, I like to throw in some fluff while writing a sickfic. guess you could say sickfic is the fluff version of medical whump and hallucinations (at least that’s how I personally view these terms).

force feeding / hand feeding — bonus if, instead of caretaker, whumper is the one feeding whumpee; they can force feed whumpee as a way to keep whumpee alive (maybe they secretly, genetically care about whumpee, deep down? *cough cough* enemies to lovers?), and they can hand feed whumpee as a way to dominate, humiliate, dehumanize whumpee.

shock collar — whumper puts defiant whumpee in their place by using a shock collar on them.

restraint — there’re so many ways to restrain a whumpee, and they’re all so good, but one that is so criminally underrated in my opinion will always be straightjacket. put. the. blorbo. in. a. straightjacket.

“who did this to you?” — this. this right here. whumpee tries to hide their injuries from caretaker, but of course, they can’t fool them. so when caretaker demands in a low voice that whumpee rolls up their sleeve, caretaker is hardly able to contain their anger when they see bruises on whumpee’s arm (because while they’d rather whumpee not try to hide this from them, they’re not angry at whumpee but at whoever did this to whumpee) and when caretaker asks, “who did this to you?” you know someone is about to pay for what they did to whumpee.

locked up by mistake — I’m not talking about jail here. I’m talking about a psych ward, an asylum. whumpee is not actually crazy or suicidal, but either there’s been a misunderstanding (no one believes them when they say these cuts on their arm aren’t self-inflicted) or they’ve been set up by an enemy. but of course, the more they try to make people believe them, the more unwell they look. and from there, there’re so many ways, so many scenarios to explore, maybe whumpee is drugged until they’re so groggy they don’t even remember their own name, maybe they’re restrained to the bed or are forced into a straightjacket. or maybe they have to undergo a shock therapy.

[vibrato-the-third]

current mood: Whumpees who are defiant... secretly.

Whumpees who are submissive in front of Whumper and their goons, but won't hesitate to talk shit about them the moment Whumpee is around people they trust.

Whumpees who manipulate their Whumpers.

Whumpees who do everything Whumper tells them to and more, who pretend to be broken—while waiting patiently for the perfect opportunity to escape.

Whumpees who find joy in causing minor inconveniences for Whumper.

Whumpees who follow orders in the most annoying way possible.

[captain-bo-bob-bobby]

Before he lost his arm, Whumperee whumped about seven Whumpees in total. For some strange reason, Whumperee would target men with long, blonde hair. It didn't matter their eye color, whether they were brown, blue, green, grey, hazel, or some other sort of color. All that mattered to Whumperee was the length of the hair.

The seventh Whumpee was both stoic and defiant. His spirit was unbreakable, and so when he found the chance to escape, he took it. Whumperee's right arm got crushed in the process, and he passed out immediately.

All seven Whumpees ended up being taken in by the same Caretaker. Seventh Whumpee told Caretaker where Whumperee was at, thinking that Caretaker would turn him in. Caretaker promised to take care of it.

Caretaker decided to go to Whumperee's house by himself. Upon seeing the wreckage in the basement, and Whumperee's unconscious body; Caretaker felt the intense need to hurt Whumperee.

Caretaker helped all seven Whumpees heal, and Caretaker secretly became Whumperee's new master and Whumper.

[throwawaywhumper]

Whump Dump #8

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Training Day Edition

Whumper making whumpee strike a match and hold it between their fingers vertically until the flame burns down past their fingers. Dropping the match or extinguishing the flame by other means is marked as failure

Excessive use of shock collar until whumpee learns to respond appropriately to even the most minimal gestures to supply Whumper's needs

Whumper Supreme™️ that other whumpers bring their more defiant whumpees to when they're having trouble breaking them

Whumpers that pit whumpees up against each other to make the compete for affection and attention

Any stretch of time in solitary confinement for whumpee breaking them immediately, they can't do that for very long.

That first time whumpee uses the proper title for whumper (sir, master, ma'am, gamer, etc.)

Whumper showing off how well whumpee is trained to their friends by instructing them to break their own arm, however they see fit

Whumpee being forced to hold their hand over a candle and slowly move closer towards the flame, holding it there though the emanating heat absolutely burns

Whumper secretly building in sleeper agent style codes into whumpee's psyche. Even if whumpee escapes and manages to recover, just a simple accidental word from caretaker or a stranger can send them spiraling back down immediately

Stress positions for compliance, my beloved. Stretching limbs till they're just nearly dislocated, the stress on whumpee not to move an inch less they break something that's already applied tension, the constant attack on mental fortitude it takes to assure proper weight distribution.

Whumpee who absolutely refuses to remove their collar, even post rescue.

Making whumpee write "i will not disobey whumper again" 200 times on paper using their own blood as ink. (Bonus points if its blood from the bloody nose whumper gave them from doing something stupid. And they're sitting there with a shit-eating grin the whole time glad that they at least got an annoyed rise out of whumper)

A whumper who becomes frustrated that their training isn't going well and accidentally injures whumpee near fatally

Other Whump Dumps

[suspicious-whumping-egg]

❤️ Which of your OCs is most like you? Which is the least?

💞 List 3 tropes that you feature in your WIPs and explain why they’re important to you as a person.

❤️I think Alec is the most like me because he's trans, a masochist, and has chronic pain! He's artistic though which I am NOT dlkghlkfg

As for the least like me, probably Sierra because she's a very cold and ruthless person whereas I am actually a cinnamon roll other than for my love of hurting characters- but actual people not at all, I hate mean people and am actually very soft and try to be nice to everyone.

💞 Pasting the answer I gave to @i-can-even-burn-salad : 3 of the many, many tropes consistent in my WIPs are:

Disabled whumpees- Both Alec and Zhen are physically disabled, mostly because I like whumpees I relate too and think there should be more casual disability representation in media.

Ladywhumpers: Because I like to project onto my whumpees and I would also like to be hurt by a hot lady.

Secretly defiant whumpees: I like them with spirit, but I also like it realistic. They keep it together for the most part, but sometimes they just gotta lash out and go feral after bottling up their anger so long. And I probably use that trope a lot because it represents me as a person a bit in terms of anger about my trauma and situation and such. I will act like it's all fine and rly not think much and just do what makes other people happy but then randomly get super angry about it and actually care about what's best for me.