#seb should've gotten one...

[snowysakusa]

Okay by now we all know Charles bleeds red, will it really be a surprise if he signs another 5 year contract with Ferrari? no... not really. That man wants Ferrari dot com, he supports Ferrari rights, mostly Ferrari wrongs, but it is like this.

I really thought this year, 2024, would be the decision maker in regards to the contract, like the outcome would be it. If Ferrari does poorly or do they actually become a threat to other teams.

But now these rumours, listen 5 years is a long time, Fred has got to be making the boat move in the right direction... otherwise why 5 years Charles...

Lets trust that Fred Vasseur is making magic happen, next year's car will be competitive and that's why Charles is going for another 5 (if its true).

The fact that Carlos Sainz wants a 2 year extension and Ferrari would rather have only 1 year... that's also pretty much speaking for itself: will Carlos adapt to the a car that leans more towards Charles? if not, Ferrari probably would rather see him go, than adapt the car to a middle ground that doesn't benefit the driver they offered a 5 year deal...

anyway idk what im talking about but yea, basically i think for this 5 year contract to be even put on the table and considered, Charles has to truly trust in Fred Vasseur and next years car. I think more than anyone he might be seeing the changes happening and believes heart and soul in them because 5 years... is a lot of time.

Charles Leclerc WDC soon trust-

[landoscaring]

my thoughts on monza '24

let me preface this post with a big fucking heave of a sigh

[siiiiiigh]

i gotta admit that i was nervous for this one. the tension has been building up, the pace has gotten stronger, and the media have had a field day commenting on mclaren's strategy. it's been stressful.

on the one hand i gotta say as a mclaren purist that yeah, this blows, but also the fact that this is what we're worrying over? two wdc-potential drivers in our team??? the pace being too good??? like. yeah. give me this over the DNFs and the shit car.

but then.

ugh.

i support lando and oscar equally. always. until the day their contract's up. that being said:

McLaren need to make up their minds

Oscar didn't do anything wrong today

Lando wasn't going to win the race even if he'd kept P1 from the beginning because the tye strat was off anyway

the media NEED TO STOP THE NARRATIVE AROUND OSCAR HELPING LANDO SCORE A WDC BECAUSE THAT'S NOT WHAT LANDO WANTS. do you think he wants to win a wdc because his teammate, who he knows is competitive enough, rolled over and let him through? fuck no, that's not the lando we know

i completely understand the frustration some fans have, but it's misdirected. IF mclaren stepped the fuck up and gave clear orders to both their drivers, this wouldn't be such a shit show

i don't fully agree that team orders are the way to go, but also, i would appreciate if they just made up their minds about it already? time's running out

some fans' takes about this whole thing are just...bad

insert taylor swift quote about "you wouldn't have survived in the asylum they raised me" or whatever because hah, this is nothing, you guys. a few people would've fainted with the way things happened with lewis and nico, mark and seb, prost and senna... and countless more. this sport is RUTHLESS. and CUTTHROAT. it's not tiktok edits with taylor swift songs in the background. oscar did what he knew he could do under the orders given to them both (papaya rules)

in a way i think this needed to happen -and has been building up for a while- for a few reasons, a) for mclaren to wake the fuck up and make up their minds already, b) for fans to realize that oscar is not lando's lapdog and he fully intends to fight for race wins, and c) that just because we like to imagine they're bffs or boyfriends in our fan spaces it doesn't mean they got to be okay with each other all the time. let them be upset. let them be angry. it is what it is.

it was a great race. probably one of the best we've seen all season. as a retired ferrari fan (but really, everyone is a ferrari fan in this sport) i thoroughly enjoyed watching charles win today. he deserved it on grit alone. and their strategy worked, which is something that mclaren needs to learn from.

i will continue to support these two idiots in their highs and lows. neither of them are perfect, and there's so much room for improvement. they're young. allow them some grace when you comment about how this or that should've happened. lando is wdc material, yes, but he wants and needs to earn it.

that's all, folks

[the-kcm-muggleborn]

Spin Off

"Kind For You"

"A Glipse Into The Future"

Fandom: Hogwarts Legacy

O/C: Sebastian Sallow x Edwart Thompson (My OC) ✨️Romantic✨️

Warnings: angst, swearing, lil kissing;)

Word count: 2k>

Sebastian was sitting at the table. Sipping tea while carelessly browsing through a small stack of papers he took home. He was all finished with the important ones, now he was just waiting. Ominis went to sleep long ago. but Sebastian couldn’t not until Edwart was home. Three men have been living in a house for about 6 years now. Edwart has been a few hours late… again. “That man always finds himself getting into more trouble.” Sebastian thought. He was worried sick, Ominis tried to calm him down earlier but to no avail.

 Edwart and Sebastian were both Aurors. Sebastian stepped down from fieldwork after he’d been seriously hurt a while ago. Now he’s taking care of recruitment and general paperwork. It pays a little less but he’s grateful to work in a safe environment. The same can't be said for Edwart. He was obsessed with field work, never stopping or taking a breather not even when he was sick which was why Sebastian was so worried. He hasn’t been sleeping well for a long while. He refused any help, even Ominis’s as he was a Healer.

Sebastian took a deep breath. Looking at the clock: 01:28 a.m it read. As Sebastian finally got up to his feet, giving up the wait and deciding to go to sleep, he heard the front door quietly open. 

Sebastian stopped dead in his tracks. Waiting for Edwart to undress and come in. 

“Hello Seb…” Edwart’s quiet voice sounded through the quiet house. 

He looked awful. The dirt covering Edwart's hair was visible and sweat glistened his skin. Sebastian also noticed a few blood stains covering Edwart's clothes but no cuts or holes.

“Where have you been?” Sebastian said with a clenched jaw “Do you know what time it is!? I-”

“I’m sorry.” Edwart interrupted. “I know I should've owled you. The haunt took longer than expected…” Edwart was covering the right side of his face as he moved to the kitchen to grab something cold from their refrigerator to keep his right eye covered. But of course, Sebastian took notice of that. 

He took Edwart’s hand holding a cold beer and moved it aside. Then Sebastian noticed what Edwart was trying so desperately to hide.

“What the-!” Sebastian said as he gently touched the purple bruise covering Edwart’s hazel eye. Sebastian looked at him bewildered as Edwart took his hand and kissed it gently on the knuckles. 

“I'm fine! I swear Seb. I just made a mistake. It will be mitigated soon enough. Already took a Wiggenweld.”

“I hate your job.” Sebastian shook his head as he put a hand on Edwart's left, not bruised cheek. “I wish you would just change the department like I di-” 

Edwart signed annoyed as he stepped away from Sebastian. “And do what exactly? Go through papers like you do?” Edwart said with a grimace. “We've been through this! Not. Happening.”

“You're going to get yourself killed,” Sebastian said quietly with disappointment knowing he would not convince his stubborn boyfriend. “If you'd only take less hours then-.”

“There's nothing to talk about.” Edwart just shut down as he usually did lately

“Ed-” Sebastian began but Edwart just pushed him once again.

“I don't want to hear it, Sebastian!” Edwart said and locked himself in the bathroom. 

“Edwart! Come back out here! We have to talk about this!” After a minute Sebastian heard a shower and decided to give it up and go to sleep. 

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Sebastian was doing less paperwork and more actual training than the 18-year-olds who had just graduated from Hogwarts. The past year field work has gotten as dangerous as ever. Poachers were at it again and for some reason cutting deals with Goblins. As much as Sebastian wasn't keen on Goblins nor Poachers. Unfortunately, he was aware Edwart wasn't going to step back from fieldwork. It was too important for his Hufflepuff righteous heart to drop it and focus on his health which was quickly worsening. Sebastian was unsure what would need to happen for Edwart to take more than one day off.

Sebastian looked at a wall clock in his office. Only half an hour of paperwork till his day comes to an end. He sent an owl to Anne this morning yet to receive an answer, when someone stepped into his office space...

“Oh! Nice to see you Natty, how are you?”Sebastian smiled.

Natsai Onai has gotten a big promotion this morning. Not counting a new spiffy paycheck, she's been moved to a different department. "Overseeing Outside Mission" meant she would be working in the field much less but would be earning much more. She and Edwart were working quite often together. Getting into different sorts of trouble but Sebastian was sleeping better knowing someone as competent as Natty was overseeing him. 

“I’m good actually. I was just hoping you had that holiday form so I could fill it out. I just got approved.” She gave Sebastian the letter to confirm

“Oh Nat! That's wonderful! I heard of your promotion! Congratulation! Where are you off to?”

Sebastian took it. He rummaged through one of his desk drawers to find the form and give it to his friend.

“Thank you, Sebastian. I am going to travel to Uganda, again! Oh, I am so excited! Are you and Edwart planning to go anywhere soon? I know he has a lot of unused vacation days. It seems he never stops working against those nasty poachers. Very noble of him but...” Natsai's glee has subsided for a moment. “Seems he really needs it…”

She quickly filled it out as Sebastian took notice of Natty’s words. He knew exactly what she was talking about. As a little side work, Sebastian has volunteered to organise off days for the Auror Fields department. He has seen debriefing of many field missions mostly to keep a close eye on Edwart since he was no longer his field partner. As Sebastian has stepped down, his lover, on the other hand, has gotten almost obsessed over the past year. He was glad Natty was his new partner. That was until today when she got that great promotion...

She handed the filled-out forme as Sebastian put the ‘APPROVED’ stamp and hid the copy in another drawer.

“What do you mean?” Sebastian asked with concern. 

Natty sighed. “He didn’t tell you?” Sebastian shook his head as Natty continued.

“He fainted yesterday, I tried to ask him to go home but he wouldn't.”

Sebastian hid his face in his hands with frustration. Natty kept on explaining. “He wanted to finish the mission. You know how he is… anyway I’ve got to go now. Thank you. And see you soon.”

“Goodbye…” Sebastian was frustrated. Edwart was really going to get himself killed if he continued like this! Thank Merlin he had a day off today. Sebastian has run out of ideas as to what to do. He tried talking with Edwart, but he wasn't having it. Sebastian didn't know what he would have done if he found Edwart working today...

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“I'm home.” Ominis sounded as he was back from his late evening shift.

“Hi,” Sebastian spoke as he was reading a book. “There's food on the stove if you're hungry…” 

“Oh? Who cooked it?” Ominis asked as he tried to feel a smell. ;;

“Edwart did. But he's out cold. Sleeping I think but I’m not sure. He actually went to bed this time. Not that bloody couch.” Sebastian spoke without raising his sight. 

Ominis came into the kitchen. Grabbed himself food and sat at the table with Sebastian with a sigh.  “What time did he return yesterday?”

Sebastian put down his book as he spoke. “Almost 2 a.m… He was foul-looking and had a big bruise over his eye. Looks to be better today.”

“Merlin… Seems Poachers are getting active again. I've read the Daily Prophet. ” Ominis spoke as he took a spoonful of a delicious stew Edwart prepared. Then Ominis signed. "Edwart is going to kill himself off with that job."

“He won't listen to me. Natsai told me… he passed out yesterday on the job. She was pleading with him to go home. He wouldn't budge.”

Ominis took a deep breath. “What do you want to do?”

“I have no clue…” Sebastian hid his face in his hands in frustration. “...any ideas?”

“Hmm…” Ominis thought. “I can write a recommendation for Edwart to get a medical check to determine if he is fit to work. He'll most likely fail it and then he will have to take a mandatory week off. Is that's what you want..?” 

“Oh, that's a great idea. Please do that, send me the details and I'll forward it with a report of last night's job. That should work.” 

Just then as If Edwart’s ears had been burning he came down the stairs in silence. He poured himself a cup of tea and he sat down at the table.

“Hi.” His voice was quiet and marked by tiredness. “I wanted to apologise for yesterday. I-I made your favourite...” He looked shamefully at Sebastian.

“Were you sleeping alright?” Sebastian asked as he took Edwart's hand and gently kissed it a bunch of times.

“No. I had a nightmare again…” Edwart sighed as he sipped his tea.

Sebastian looked at Ominis who frowned and nodded slightly in understanding. “Listen, we think-.”

Edwart interrupted. “Before you say anything. I-" He took a deep breath. “I've just requested two weeks off.”

Sebastian and Ominis looked surprised as if they were in school again. Amazing Edwart could still shock them like this after all these years. Or maybe he was listening to their conversation.

“Why the sudden change?”Sebastian squeezed Edwarts's hand.

“I'm not doing okay.” Edwart shook his head. “I haven’t been for a while. I can't pretend. I just-. I can't do it anymore.” 

Ominis put his hand on Edwart's shoulder. “That's completely fine Ed! More than fine! You need this break more than any of us.” 

Edwart sniffled slightly. Sebastian could see he was on the brink of crying. 

“Alright. Let’s get you to bed. Not a couch. Come on.” Sebastian instructed as Edwart followed “Goodnight Ominis.”

“Goodnight,” Ominis spoke with a small smile.

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As Sebastian and Edwart settled into bed together. Sebastian has laid Edwart on top of him trying to comfort him. Sebastian knew Edwart was a mess. He needed that form of affection now, more than ever. Then as Sebastian predicted Edwart's walls crumbled down as he started silently crying.

 “I'm sorry,” Edwart said just below a whisper. “I'm so sorry. I was such a dick to you. You didn’t deserve it.” 

“I'm sorry I didn't press harder.” Sebastian kissed Edwart’s forehead as he gently flipped the position to be on top of his boyfriend. “But you have nothing to apologise for. Weeks, I've let you sleep on that dreadful couch… in your own house  nonetheless. Let me make this up to you…” 

Sebastian started kissing Edwart gently and slowly as if to make a statement. He started with his earlobe.

 “I’ll kiss away every bad dream,” Sebastian whispered and he moved down to Edwart’s neck. Sucking the skin earned him a throaty low groan from his boyfriend. As Sebastian progressed to make Edwart feel good for the first time in weeks. He sucked different areas until a moan was extracted. Sebastian kept going as Edwart kept squirming; he grabbed Sebastian by the roots of his hair to steady himself. 

“Sebastiaahh..!” Edwart tried to get a word in but was unable to as Sebastian started a make-out session trying to make Edwart think of something else. Or not to think at all. Edwart was a moaning mess when Sebastian was kissing and sucking every inch of his upper body. Edwart had his hands locked on Sebastian's neck deepening the kiss. This time Sebastian groaned as Eddie kissed his neck. Sebastian started kissing Edwart’s collarbone leaving love marks and bites. Before going lower to receive from Edwart, more pleasant noises. He was moaning and groaning as Sebastian held Ed’s hands above his head as he was pestering him with deep chest kisses. 

Sebastian hung low again just above Edwart's ear as he said. “I'll make you forget your nightmares…” 

This time Edwart didn't have any unpleasantries, just pure pleasure at the simple yet very effective affection given by his freckled boyfriend.

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MASTERLIST

Ahhhhh! Thank you so much for reading! I AM NOT writing smut and even writing heavy kissing like this is new territory to me. Especially male. Either way I love this part. Sebby being comforting again Edwart being sleep deprived again. Beautiful mix. And Ominis is living with them, bc why not? They're still young and it's good to have roommates. I think this one is my favourite one so far:) there are more to come.

[0nlinejournal]

04/07/2023 2:04pm

I love doing absolutely nothing on my days off. I used to feel so much guilt/shame around not doing anything, but now I am so grateful to be able to have days like this. I should probably shower, though.

I went over to Alex and Liz's apartment for a couple hours last night. Watched them take turns playing Little Nightmares 2. It was a fine visit, glad I was able to make it out. I didn't particularly enjoy Alex screaming at the top of her lungs right next to me, but nothing I could do except gently remind her she has fucking neighbors.

I always have to park in visitor parking when I go over there and wait for one of them to open the gate (like the whole ass car gate). I called and texted but Alex's phone was face down on the coffee table. I didn't text Liz because Alex has gotten upset in the past that I only talk to Liz, so I was trying to include Alex through small actions. Anyway, two gals left through the gate after only about a minute of me standing there, so I slipped in while they slipped out. But, when I left, so on my way out, I also texted Alex to let me out. I stood there for like two minutes (and it was cold) before she finally texted me that there's a foot door on the side of her building to get out. Which meant I would have to backtrack, go through the gate, and then walk to, and past where I was already standing. I'm not gonna lie I was a little salty about it. Ultimately it's whatever, but jeeeeez alriiiiiight. Liz texted me when I was pulling out asking if I made it to my car alright. I said yes but it was cold I didn't like that, and she said I should've texted her she would've let me out. And I know I should've. I wanted to, but I was still trying to make Alex feel more involved and special and it was all for nothing whatever.

Such a minor event, but still. It's stuff like this that seems to build up when it comes to Alex. Things have to go how she wants them to go and also fuck other people's feelings. I don't know if that last bit is true at all, I'm just a little pissy from last night and the previous text message conversation I had with her. Which, I still didn't get to talk to her about. I honestly don't know how to bring it up? Like, "hey you can't say shit like this to me even when you're upset". I don't feel like I can tell her how to behave. I mean, I know if I think about it for more than two seconds I know I wouldn't phrase it that way, but it still feels like it could come off that way.

"I want to be there for you when you're upset, but I am not capable of doing that if you start to get accusatory or try to guilt trip me. There are certain phrases that you have said in the past (insert: but like fuck alex right? that's fine, i just don't have any friends. i just want to hang out with my friend's for once) that are not accurate and overdramatize reality that I feel are intended to make me feel terrible. I don't react well when people intentionally try to guilt trip me, because of my mother. It will have the opposite affect that you want." blah blah blah something along those lines, I'm still kind off irritable so there still might be some aggression in between the lines, idk. I'll work on it.

You know, I was talking about the trivia night texts with Seb and he stopped me early on into me relaying the conversation to him to say that she (Alex) for some reason is putting her not-being-able-to-go onto me. That she is putting this restriction on herself (she doesn't want to hang out with my bf anymore) but putting her deciding to miss out on things on me because I said yes to something we were invited to. And like, yeah, she is! I think she 100% is and that's why she said the things she said. I don't think she even realizes that that isn't an okay thing to do. Ah, that's something else I'll have to add into the conversation I want to have with her.

"This is a restriction you have chosen to put on yourself (mind you, she won't go to things at all if we'll be there, even when she wouldn't have to interact with my bf at all) and it is not my responsibility to bare the weight you feel from the consequences of that decision." Something like that.

God, I am so tired of thinking about this. I literally don't ever think about people this much when I'm alone. I like to fuck off and do my own shit, but this whole ordeal has really consumed my brain and I feel like a fucking crazy person. At least it's not a constant thing, but it is still far more prevalent than I'd like for it to be. I didn't even mean to write this much. I'd love to talk about literally anything fucking else, but I guess I don't have much else to say since this is all I could manage for today.

2:57pm

[buckysboobs]

Annnd Chris and Anthony haven’t given him a birthday shoutout. Anthony gave one to Holland recently. Kinda odd. It’s still 13th in the US but it’s already 14th in Spain where Sebastian is.

yeah... if both of them don't start typing up an essay real quick i'm gonna have to throw hands i fear

[musette22]

hey! just a lil question in case you know the answer but why did so many people expect the sexiest man alive to go to Seb? I'm seeing so many comments about that and even in the just Jared account, those are two of the top comments "it should've been Seb" but i don't get it. did he mention anything or what did I miss? 😅 as a Seb Stan i feel like i failed this one and I'm only *confusion* ps: congrats to you and the Chris fandom<3

Hi lovely! Thanks for your message. I've gotten quite a few asks about this, but I'm just going to answer this one, because I don't want to dwell on the negativity that's attached to it.

Thanks so much for the congratulations, and thank you for not being argumentative or polarizing in your ask, but let me first of all reiterate, just in case, that I am just as much as Seb stan as I am a Chris stan. I can hear some people rolling their eyes because they're like 'hello you've literally only reblogged chris today' but like........... if it had been Seb, I'd have done the exact same thing obviously, so come on. (I'll put the rest of my reply under the cut because it got long)

Now, I don't know for sure why some people thought it would be Sebastian (I think some people started discussing that it *should* or could be him and that created rumours, but correct me if I'm wrong). As far as I'm aware, there was no real indication that it could be him, beyond that apparently the SMA title is 'supposed' to go to someone who's had a 'big' year in their career, however that might be defined. We can all agree that Sebastian 1000% had a big year, and that he's been doing incredibly well for himself, and that he's looking sexier than ever, so OBVIOUSLY he would have deserved the title, I'm not at all debating that.

But while Sebastian has been doing amazingly well for himself and is much more well known that he was a few years ago, I think he's still not quite at the level of stardom that most people who get 'crowned' SMA are. So to me, it's not a surprise that he didn't get it, and I would have never expected him to get it (at least not this year). Again, not because I don't think he deserves it, but just because I don't feel like he's at at level of fame (yet). And even if I'm wrong, and he is on People's radar, then he'd still have to accept the title, and honestly, I'm not sure if I could see him doing that. Maybe not ever, but especially not at this time in his career. He's focusing on being taken more seriously, and I'm not sure how well a title like this one would help with that. This is just my personal feeling though, and I'll readily admit I might be wrong.

However. That still doesn't change the fact that Chris getting the title does not mean he's stolen it from Sebastian, which is apparently how some people have been acting. That's just complete bullshit. Only one person can get the title every year, and it's a tribute to that one person, NOT a slight to literally every other man on the planet. I personally find it unbelievable that some of Sebastian's stans are saying that Chris doesn't deserve the title because Sebastian should have gotten it. That makes no sense. Maybe if People had announced a shortlist and Chris and Seb had both been on there I'd have sort of gotten it, but that wasn't the case so ???

I've also seen people say Chris hasn't had a big year in his career and he therefore doesn't deserve the title ('what has he had? two bad movies?'), which, with all due respect, get lost. Chris has worked his ass off this year too, he's given us two movies (which I personally genuinely loved, for the record), done two world press tours and given us a whole lot of other stuff too (puppy interview and ASP to name but a few) and in my opinion it's incredibly rude and entitled to say he doesn't deserve the title because his movies didn't do as well as Sebastian's, or because you personally didn't like them. AND THEN, apparently now there are also Chris fans actively mocking and picking fights with Sebastian stans over this, which.... lord help me.

They BOTH did well this year. They're BOTH sexy and wonderful. They BOTH deserve the title, but only one person can get it, and this time it was Chris. Deal with it. Maybe some other year it's gonna be Seb, that would be wonderful!

Pitting these two against each other is something I'll never understand. It's so childish and lame, my god. Do these Seb stans honestly think that Sebastian saw the news and thought 'fuck this guy, it should've been meeee!!!!' or something? Or that Chris is gloating, thinking "I outsexied Sebastian, mwahaha!' Like? Chris and Sebastian are friends. Sebastian is without a doubt happy for Chris, and probably mostly amused about the whole thing. Knowing Sebastian, he'd be embarrassed and upset to know his fans are fighting Chris's fans online, saying it should have been him, and Chris would be disgusted that people are being mean to each other online in his name too. So just... don't do that. Grow up. Stop being negative about literally everything and try and contribute something good and positive to the world instead. In other words: take a leaf out of your faves book.

(just for the record, nonnie, I'm not talking to you here, just the people who are being idiots <3)

[mrs-nate-humphrey]

what do you think about carter baizen

i love him, we should've gotten more of him, he was really interesting &. the wasted potential of having seb stan play a character like baizen, sleazeball w/ a heart of gold, but making him such a minor character is just. :(

carter/serena is my #1 serena ship as far as endgame ships go, i would've loved for the show to end with carterena, or with serena being single but being happy w/o a boyfriend. i feel like carter was one of the only people who saw serena just for serena, and not as ✨ Manic Pixie Dream Girl Serena van der Woodsen ✨ - so i liked that.

i also loved the brief blair/carter we got, and how blair was just. all over the place and carter actually wasn't bad to her at all, despite serena and chuck's concern.

carter/nate, though? ahhhh, what a tragedy. baizen my man broke natie's heart so badly. i love the angst potential, but i always feel a little sad on nate's behalf.

anyway, ships aside, i feel like he could've been a really interesting character. being a few years older than most of the main crew, he could've brought in some more layers of history re: constance/st jude's history and culture, in the way that alumni can do, and it would've been a valuable and interesting sort of insight to have carter show what things were like, while we see blair's era pave way for jenny's era pave way for sage's era (i hate sage spence but whatever). like. who came before blair? old serena being queen s, maybe. but who came before that? carter could've opened a lot of interesting narrative doors if he'd been given main character status and that kind of space within canon.

[hyacinthsdiamonds]

I don’t think Seb meant it badly. I do actually think it is a good and an important point to make here. If there’s a 7 year old kid out there who wants to be an f1 driver and being emotionally and/or physically abused by one/both of their parents, hidden behind a ‘tough love’ facade, seeing max being successful and seeing that “oh tough love works! look at max verstappen” it is important to also see that you don’t have to have been treated like shit to be successful. Sebastian Vettel was incredibly successful with the same team but with a completely different upbringing. He was supported and loved no matter what his results were and managed to live a fairly normal life before he went into f1. It says, you don’t have to be treated like shit to be given the drive and resilience to make your dreams possible. Also, if I heard a kid say in school “oh my dad left me at a petrol station because I came second in my race” I would absolutely report that to authorities it’s not fucking ok? That’s child endangerment, abandonment and emotional abuse? Why would anyone even try to entertain that that is a healthy relationship. Maybe it’s better now between Max and Jos, and they were the 1% that it worked for and we will never hear the 99% of other stories where kids were abused to be successful in their sport and the traumatised kids who didn’t make it and were broken by it will remain unheard. And if it’s never called out how do we know that the cycle won’t continue.

You have very valid points. And yes, we absolutely should call out abuse and advocate for victims but it's important to take care not to speak over or to re-traumatize the victims in question. Recovery and healing is a lifelong process. It's a long journey and it takes some victims decades before they can even acknowledge that what they went through was abuse and that what happened to them, what was done to them, wasn't their fault. There isn't a step by step guide to healing, every victim has their own journey.

I'm not going to speculate on Max's private life or his relationship with Jos now. But Seb (allegedly) discussing the things Jos did to Max as a kid to a journalist, isn't going to magically make Max's entire perceptive shift. Publicly he has never said he regarded what happened to him as abuse. If anything Max will probably double down and say that he's glad it happened because of where he believes it got him, if asked about Seb's alleged comments.

I'm not defending Jos or condoning his behavior in any way shape or form or saying his relationship with Max was healthy in anyway. We've heard those stories, heard the allegations regarding Jos' behavior and conduct towards his partners and towards others. Jos should've been held accountable years ago. It's says so much about our society that he wasn't. Our society has been closing our eyes to this sort of abuse for decades, whether it be parents of athletes or performers etc, time and time again they've gotten away with it so long as there's a new talent, a new prodigy in the industry in question. And you're right, we don't talk about the kids who endured the same abuse but didn't make it. That has to change, it all has to.

We absolutely should call out abuse but by centering that quote on Max, the focus is shifted away from the issue and onto "oh how Max will react!" By shifting the focus onto Max, he is going to be made to answer for what happened to him. The media doesn't actually care about victims. The media only cares about the story they can get out of them, about how they can exploit that story for views. Max was likely only referenced for the click bait, as he one of the most recognizable drivers on the planet and is likely to claim his second world title soon.

[violethoneyb]

Prompt “One kiss is just never enough.”

Thank you for the prompt! This one was so much fun and allowed me to write the scene we should've gotten in 2x11 where Seb comforts Carlos before the show and the I love you scene we deserved in 2x12🥰 (also i didn’t proof read this before posting because it’s 1am where I live rn so if there’s any spelling mistakes, i apologize) (prompt list)

TW: Panic Attack

“There you are.”

It was opening night of Beauty and the Beast and Seb had been searching for Carlos for a good 15 minutes. They were starting to get worried until they found their boyfriend tucked away into a small corner of the hallway.

Seb noticed that Carlos was on the floor, already in costume, with his knees tucked into his chest and head down.

“Hey, hey,” Seb said softly, kneeling down in front of Carlos, “What’s wrong sweetie, are you okay?”

Carlos tried to speak but nothing came out. Instead, his breathing became faster and shaky, and he was clearly on the verge of a panic attack.

“Oh no, you’re panicking.” Seb realized, worriedly. “Okay love, I’m gonna try and help. Is it okay if I touch you?”

Carlos nodded and Seb took his hands into his own.

“Alright Los, I need you to try to breathe with me. Inhale for 4 seconds.”

Carlos did as he was told and shakily breathed in for 4 seconds while Seb counted.

“Good job. Can you try and hold it for 7 seconds?” Seb asked.

Carlos held his breath for about 5 seconds before having to let it out, a small sob escaping.

“Hey, hey, it’s okay baby. I’m right here.” Seb squeezed Carlos’s hands a little tighter to show him that it was okay and they were still right there and then brought one of their hands up to Carlos’s face, cupping it gently and wiping away the tears that were flowing.

“You’re doing great. Can we try it again?” Seb asked, voice low and soft.

This time when Carlos did the exercise, he was able to hold his breath for the whole 7 seconds.

“Now exhale for 8 seconds.” Seb instructed, and Carlos let out the air in his chest.

They did the exercise a few more times together until Carlos’s breathing became steady again.

“It’s okay love, you’re okay. Here, take a drink of this.” Seb said, handing Carlos a small bottle of water he had and letting him take a few sips of it.

“Do you wanna talk about that? About what caused it?” Seb questioned, still holding onto one of Carlos’s hands and letting their thumb caress the back of it as a sort of soothing gesture.

Carlos hesitated for a few moments.

“I’m so scared. Like gut-wrenchingly, panic-attack-inducing type of scared.” He finally utterted, voice slightly groggy from the situation that just took place. “It’s my first opening night ever as an actor and now I have to walk on that stage knowing I’m actively going against North High. I mean, I know we all are but, their Luimiere was literally on fire! How can I even begin to compete with that? And worse, what if I mess up? If I forget a line or a dance step. Then we’ll lose and it’ll be all my fault–”

“Carlos.” Seb cut him off. “Listen to me. Yes, North High performance last night was good. Great even because they have the budget, and the costumes, and the sets. But they don’t have the heart that we do. We care about our performances. Plus,” Seb, hooked one of his fingers under Carlos’s chin, forcing him to look up at Seb, “We have talent that they’ll never have. How could you possibly think you’d ever miss a step? I’ve watched you dance with your eyes closed in the middle of a test. If anybody is gonna carry us to that first place prize, it’s gonna be you.”

Carlos finally began to smile. “Thank you, honey.”

“And no matter what happens tonight, I am so proud of you.” Seb leans forward and kisses Carlos’s cheek. “Now, let’s go play some games with everyone else while we’ve still got time.”

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“Carlos!” Seb exclaimed.

Curtains closed about 10 minutes ago and Seb was already out of his costume, looking for Carlos that way they could congratulate him.

This time, Carlos was found in the dressing room, standing at the mirror, removing the gold glitter that Kourtney had smeared all over his face. Everyone else had already left to greet their parents and head to Slices so it was just the two of them.

Seb ran up and hugged Carlos from behind, causing him to erupt into giggles.

“I’m so so proud of you! Your first opening night and you absolutely killed it. With your ‘Be Our Guest’ performance, there’s no way we didn’t leave a good impression on that judge!”

Carlos turned to face Seb.

“I couldn’t have done it without you. I don’t think I would’ve been able to move from that little corner without your pep talk earlier.” Carlos said sincerely, wrapping his arms around Seb’s neck.

Seb smiled. “You know I’d do anything for you.” He says, before leaning in and kissing Carlos.

They pull away from each other, and the words come falling out of Carlos’s mouth before he can even try to stop them.

“I love you.”

Carlos watches as Seb’s eyes widen. They had only been dating for a few months now but there was no denying how he felt for Seb. Carlos was completely in love with him. However, Seb’s still staring at him with a deer in headlight expression and now Carlos is nervous that they don’t feel the same. Scared he made the wrong choice, he tries to take the words back.

“Er, I mean, uh–”

He’s cut off by Seb’s lips on his again in an attempt to shut him up. It’s quicker than the other one but it works.

Seb pulls away with a massive grin on his face.

“I love you too, you big dork.”

Carlos lets out a sigh of relief and wraps his arms around Seb in a big, tight hug. He can’t believe this. He loves Seb. And Seb loves him back! He wants to scream it from the rooftops. “I love you so so much!”

Seb giggles and peppers kisses all across Carlos’s face.

When their lips meet again for real, it’s a passionate kiss that’s filled with so much pent up love that’s finally been let out. It’s a little messy because both Carlos and Seb are smiling like idiots but it's perfect and they wouldn’t have it any other way.

When they pull away, they take a few moments to just stare into each other’s eyes. Their faces mirror each other with the big dopey, lovestruck grins that are plastered across them and the moment is flawless.

Finally, Seb breaks the silence.

“We should probably get going before everybody wonders where we went.”

Carlos agrees. “Can we find Miss Jenn before we leave? I want to have her sign my program.”

“Of course. Let’s go look for her.” Seb says, grabbing Carlos’s hand and beginning to walk out.

Before they make it out of the dressing room though, Carlos spins Seb back around and kisses him one more time.

“Sorry, one kiss is just never enough.”

[stiles-hoodie]

HSMTMTS REWATCH - TAKE TWO 1x7 Thanksgiving

Episode 6

Ricky vs Bowen Count: Ricky [5] Bowen []

This Episode:

Hair Ribbons: [1]

This Episode:

This opening is so chaotic

Gina getting a little jealous in the background.

Ricky seems genuinely taken aback and slightly confused that Nini is saying something nice

Seeing Ricky, Gina and Seb talking reminds me that Seb and Ricky are technically love interest in the play. Seb is Sharpay, Ricky is Troy. I really wish we got to see them rehearsing together or at least saw a small scene on opening night.

I like how Mike cared more about how late the party would be and who he was going to be hanging with more then trying to stop him from going.

EJ has been caught up with trying to be perfect and being seen that way that when he finally admitted his mistakes it actually felt good. It made him feel free from this thing he's been trying to be and felt more like himself. Not because he was being an honest person but because he finally admitted to not bein perfect. This episode is when he goes overboard with the honesty, but honestly (not intentional) I think he needed it. It said it feels right, and it probably does. To move forward you need to deal with the past sometimes. Getting everything off his chest gives him a step forward to being his actual self.

Redlyn my heart obviously!

HIs mom still should've been the one to try calling him not the other way around. I will say through how Todd says his name it's like he thought Ricky actually knew about him, maybe he thought Lynn mentioned him.

It was one thing when he thought his dad was starting to look for other people, that obviously bothered him but I believe they probably talked about how that happened and how it only happened once (as of now), so he was able to try putting on his facade a bit. But finding out both his parents are moving on and not only moving on, but that his mom has a full on new boyfriend out of town would be a lot. You brain would start going to different places. He's not just thinking about the change, he's thinking about how long they could've been together, is he the reason she decided to stay in Chicago instead of coming back. Cause lets think about this his mom could've very easily just gotten a different place in town so it be easier to see him at least, but she chose a completely different city to get away, then decided to stay there to stay away.

I love how Gina obviously never really been to a party before especially with people she feels comfortable around so she made cupcakes.

The hate is absolutely adorable on Josh

Ignoring your feelings is obviously a bad idea but she's saying what she personally does, which eventually doesn't work for her and she obviously realizes that it's not a good idea probably.

I love how they use West Side instead of North High the feud was there

The scene of Ricky and Ej doing the exercise with each other the first interaction they've had since the bathroom scene. Doing that exercise probably helped ease the tension a bit and realize they at least on their way to being better around each other.

I never realized how the kistechne scene with Nini and Gina reminded of Sharpay asking Gabriella about her staying in the second movie.

Gina's little happy dance is still very cute

The moment Gina's mom gets serious on the phone everyone is awkwardly smiling or just making an award face simply because she was on voicemail and everyone heard it, except Ricky. Ricky is the only one who knows about FEMA so it's safe to say he immediately knew something might truly be wrong.

Ricky is the first to get up, he knows whats about to happen and he gets Gina's stuff ready for her she doesn't have to deal with the awkwardness and uncomfortableness of getting everything ready in front of everyone.

I feel really bad for Gina here

Ricky was trying to reassure her that she still has him and that he's there for her, but because Gina has been through this before she automatically assumes there's no point in Ricky calling her. She's never really made friends that she's gotten close to before so she thinks he wouldn't actually want to keep in touch with her and pushes him away

Ricky at this point is thinking I started getting close with someone and now she's leaving. Just like his mom did. Gina telling him she doesn't think there's any point in calling her I feel like is what got Ricky to think about calling his mom again. Cause he's willing to try and stay in touch with Gina, so he'll try better to stay in touch with his mom

Nini running up to say sorry is has good intentions but after her conversation with Gina talking about how she wished she was the one to be able to leave it comes across weird. Especially with how later on what happened didn't seem to face her how leaving might actually effect her or her friends.

Honestly even though it feels out of nowhere and Ricky could've tried staying calmer at this point Ricky is probably really confusing him and not actually making him feel better at all. Gina was the only to properly understand what he's been going through. For majority of the show Nini has been going out of her way to avoid Ricky and then all of sudden is acting like everything between is immediately okay. He obviously still loves her to. HIme mentioning his mom getting a new boyfriend after two weeks of leaving sounding familiar makes sense here. Nini did quickly move onto to EJ no matter what she would've tried saying here, which most likely would've been aimed at him and start a fight that he didn't want. Nini would've easily declined this thought and pass the blame to Ricky but in the end Ricky did call her out on the truth

NIni getting annoyed by the word buddy is honestly annoying she seems more annoyed by him using it because he didn't let her talk. He used the buddies in his voicemail to show whatever she chose he'll try dealing with it. She then continued to avoid him then came out nowhere acting like hadn't then used the word buddies herself she doesn't really have a right to then get annoyed what he said to her.

[alexalblondo]

I love Gio sooo much. he's such a wasted talent in the alfa, like don't get me wrong he's good for the team, nothing against carlos but he should've gotten that Ferrari seat... bottleneck sharl and bottleneck gio? keeping everyone but seb and lewis behind them? let a girl dream. also note how he was able to keep seb behind him when pierre has been like "how does he do that" after being past by seb twice? King shit behavier Gio

To be fair to Pierre (yes I am shocked I’m saying this as well) Honey Rider is a much better car at overtaking than Lucilla ever was

But also, yes, even last year if the chance was there Seb went for it, like, he spent a lot of time behind George as well? but they were always switching positions 🎶… and he even overtook Lewis in Lucilla and so on … but if Seb was behind Gio, well, he was behind Gio until he outdrove him cause Seb’s tyre management is better

Also: EVERYTHING AGAINST CARLOS!!! And not just cause I dislike him but if Ferrari had picked Gio instead of Carlos than Callum would have a seat and Cyril would still be the #1 beekeeper (which would mean Este still getting screwed over so huh, maybe not)

Honestly, Gio deserves so much more respect than he gets he’s a really great driver and he’s proven himself last season and this season again, like, no one gained as many positions after a start on average as him last seasons I think? And he’s usually able to keep some of it?

I think he is shaping up to be one of the best midfield drivers on the younger side of the current grid and I hope he’ll get the recognition for that one day cause he deserves it 😍

[sweetmusingss]

I stare back into your eyes as we sat in the car together, not even speaking for a bit. The silence with you was never awkward for me and I liked that we could be together in comfortable silence. I finally look out the window, noticing that we were going uphill and heading up a mountain. I smile softly when looking back at you, so curious as to what you planned, already knowing this date was going to be like nothing I had experienced before. "You are just full of surprises, aren't you?," I smirk back at you, lacing our fingers together. When the car finally stopped, I was full of so much excitement rather than nerves. I was afraid that I would be so nervous but being with you had become so easy and comfortable for me and I was more excited than anything.

"I'm really not that good at surprises... I just used the element of surprise considering you've never been here before so everything seems like a surprise." Seb chuckles, holding your hand during the ride. Once the car stopped, he helped you out of the car, the restaurant seeming normal enough from the outside. He led you inside, keeping his hand in yours as he speaks to the woman at the front desk, following her over to a large window that went around the entirety of the restaurant, giving off perfect panoramic views of the mountain range. "I hope you're not scared of heights, baby... but this was voted the most beautiful restaurant in this area."

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Frank kept his arms wrapped around you, just staring back at you lovingly as he recovered from his orgasm. He was happy to be in your little bubble for a bit before he had to return back home and prepare to be with Jamia again. The more time he spent at home, the more drained he was. It was almost exhausting to him to pretend to even like his wife anymore but he still hadn't taken a step to tell her how he really felt about their marriage. He tensed up a bit when hearing what you asked him, it being so hard for him to say 'no' to you but there was no way he couldn't because he had a commitment to go to Jamia's friend's New Year's Eve party like they did every year. He takes a moment to answer you, hating to let you down yet again. "I wish I could but I can't.. I have a party that we go to every year..," he says, still never really saying Jamia's name in front of you but it was clear he was referring to the both of them. "I would much rather be here but it would be impossible for me to not show up to that party," he said, already dreading having to go to the party and see Jamia's snooty work friends and now he was even more bummed about it. He wished he could ring the New Year in with you instead and he felt immensely guilty to be saying no to you. "I wish it was us celebrating the holidays together so badly..," he says softly, burying his face into your neck and inhaling your scent.

I had gotten pretty used to Frank saying no, him saying no far more often than he ever said yes, but it still stung nonetheless. My face falls as soon as he said 'I wish', not needing to hear the rest of his sentence since I already knew that was his way of letting me down. "I should've known... I shouldn't of asked. Just disappointed myself." I give him a small smile before turning my head away from him, pretending to look at the time, just not wanting him to see my disappointment although I knew it was evident without him needing to analyze my facial expression. "Well, there's always next year... maybe. Just another year of me begging Gabe to kiss me at midnight so I'm not the only loser not getting a midnight kiss..." I knew Frank's weak spots; his jealousy was his biggest one. He got jealous of waiters if I smiled at them for too long when we went out, jealous of the guy bagging up my groceries if he made me laugh a little too hard, even jealous of the guy who pumped my gas if he talked to me about gas prices for a moment too long... Frank was the most jealous person I had ever met and I knew exactly what I was doing. Putting the image of me kissing someone else, even someone as innocent as Gabe, would live in Frank's head now. Especially since it was the midnight kiss, it being the most romantic kiss of the year.

[puppyrogue]

"But it is my fault. I shouldn't have been so easy to take. I'm the fucking Trickster. And I should've gotten out on my own! I should've been able to escape. But that fucking asshole had me all tied up and..." he snuggled into Seb and fell quiet for a few moments.

"I missed your trial. I promised I'd be there. But that fucker went instead. He fucking went to your trial!.. he.. he somehow knew. Or figured out about... us and I'm sorry. He didn't know at first, he asked me which one of you brothers I dated.. I dunno, I must've made an expression when he said your name.."

puppyrogue:

   “I love you more.” Everything, everything felt so much better being here now. He had wished to just magically end up back home when he had been kept in that room. That cold, dark room. And now he was here… a warm, clean home. With Sebastian.

   His boyfriend did look tired, exhausted even. He was pale and just low… Axel looked over him and then met with his eyes. “…I’m sorry.” he began, “There.. there was this man that pulled me into his car and then drove off somewhere. He threw my phone, everything away..  I couldn’t contact you..”

❝ hey, hey, hey, hey, ❞ sebastian repeated, shaking his head slowly, as he ran his thumb over axel’s cheek.  ❝ don’t apologise. okay? this isn’t your fault. you don’t have to say sorry. ❞

he leaned forward, pressing another kiss to axel’s forehead. he wasn’t sure how to comfort him. he was worried he’d say the wrong thing…but he was going to try the best he could. sebastian felt like he should be the one apologising. this shouldn’t of happened. he should’ve been better at protecting him.

[musette22]

Minnie!!! your ask about the josh interview! 👀 i actually keep thinking about something he said in that interview. He said he's been around a lot of time and it's been hard to keep people "paying attention", so i wonder if he works so much because he actually likes it or because he feels like he has to in order to stay relevant? because for example Chris, Chris does anything, whatever and he's a trending topic, he's relevant without having to work his ass off in the way Sebastian does so i truly wonder if Seb feels it as an obligation or what's going on there, i don't know but i can't stop thinking about it. Also because I think he's still pretty present at least with his fanbase, let's just remember 2019 when he was pretty much hidden yet we never forgot about him <3

And by the way i know he loves his art, i mean the men went to college to study it and he keeps on studying (he's said this) but I'm still wondering if maybe he'd like to slow down. For example this year, he doesn't have any upcoming project to film but he does have projects coming out this year so he's still working but i wonder if he might take this year as a "free" one from filming? he seems to be gaining monumental attention with pam&tommy and fresh so i really wonder if he's considering relaxing a little

Hi lovely!! Hmmm that's a good question! I definitely think there's an element of wanting/needing to stay relevant behind Sebastian's decision to work almost non-stop, but I don't think it's the only or even most important factor, personally. I feel like if it was, he'd make more of an effort to pick more high profile roles, you know? He does do high profile stuff as well, but he's also talked at length (in the Josh interview too) about the kinds of things that influence his choices of projects, and it doesn't seem like how much attention those projects are likely to get is usually the deciding factor in that.

I think the love for his trade and his hunger to grow as an actor and person are the most important elements for him, but of course he wants people to see his work and to get the appreciation he's due, after working so hard for so many years! And that's also partially why I don't really think Sebastian will take it too easy this year: he's come so far, and he's finally getting the recognition from critics and non-Marvel audiences that he should've gotten years ago, so I feel like this would be a strange moment for him to take a break, you know what I mean?

If anything, you'd think he'd want to use the momentum, because with the success of Fresh and P&T, and even with his role in The 355, I'm sure he's getting offered a lot of new and exciting things now! So maybe he's just taking his time picking the right projects? Or maybe he's already attached to something new he can't talk about yet (he did seem to imply that in that one interview)? Or maybe he is taking a break, but if he is, I personally don't think it'll be longer than a few months, not least because he just loves acting and working too much! But we'll have to wait and see, of course, I may be wrong 🤷🏻‍♀️

[sweetmusingss]

I swallow hard, walking around the counter and leaning against it so I was facing you, feeling my heart racing in my chest just from being so close to you. "I didn't want to make things more awkward for you since we live together. You're constantly in my mind though and I can't get you out. And deep down, I don't think I want to," I say softly. "You make me crazy, Seb. I am sorry for making you jealous earlier but selfishly, I love that you clearly are into me enough to be jealous," I tease you a bit, not that set off by your jealousy. "I haven't flirted with another guy since I met you, though," I say, taking another step closer to you. "Even in my backing away and trying to avoid being alone with you, I was physically having to stop myself from going to the bar to see you and I was stuck daydreaming about you," I admit quietly to you, looking back at you with bright blue eyes. "I have never wanted someone so badly in all my life.."

"You never should've pulled away like that. I don't do good with that sort of thing..." Seb really had possession problems and he also had abandonment problems, especially when they were tied up together. "You make me crazy, too, obviously... look how I fucking acted." His tone was still a bit harsh and he was still unsure of what to do but right now he didn't care, he just wanted you right now. He rushed forward towards you, cupping your cheeks in his hands and kissing you heatedly, throwing all caution to the wind now.

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Frank swallowed hard when hearing you refer to him as just your professor. In a perfect world, he would be able to perfectly claim you as his and admit to being yours but that wasn't what could happen. He had a wife and despite how complicated their marriage had gotten, he couldn't admit out loud what was going on between the two of you. He wished the two of you could show the people in your lives what you meant to each other but he knew that could not happen right now. He looked at you with pain in his eyes when you were so formal with him and you left, wondering if you were really leaving the hotel and he was panicking internally, knowing he had to go after you before you left completely, not wanting your little weekend to be over just yet. He looked back at Gerard before shaking his head at him, trying to deny it even though it was obvious he was lying. "What? No.. She's just a really good student. Passionate about Literature," he said, feeling guilty for lying to his oldest friend but he didn't want him finding out because this could have repercussions for the both of you.

Gerard didn't look convinced, Frank acting so weird. "She's passionate about Literature but this presentation had nothing to do with Literature... I think she's passionate about you, Frank." He shakes his head, not wanting to believe that Frank could've fallen for one of his students but he was pretty sure that was what was going on here. "I just find it odd that there are no other students here but her. She was wearing sweatpants and based on how dressed up she was at Halloween and what I learned about her that night, she isn't the type to just wear comfy clothes like that to such a big event... she wouldn't of driven here dressed like that and she didn't have any bags on her which means she's staying here and just came down here from her room... If she's staying here and she was still dressed like that, it means she didn't expect to be attending such an event so she came here suddenly..." Gerard was really good at puzzles and putting things together, being an artist allowed him to think in a way like that, and also Frank was a shit liar especially when it came to their friendship. "Is she here for you, Frank? Is this why you didn't want Jamia to come?"

I rush back to Frank's room, having no idea what to do besides just wait for him here, terrified that Gerard would want to come back and hang out here and obviously if that were the case, I couldn't be here. I just felt so out of sorts, rubbing my hands over my face and trying to keep calm, knowing I needed to wait for Frank to tell me what to do before I just left. I didn't want this weekend to end, especially like this.

[sweetmusingss]

I smile when you gave me a hug, inhaling your scent and nuzzling my face into your neck, pressing a gentle kiss to your skin. I pull back just a bit to look back into your eyes, reaching out and stroking your cheek gently. "Știu, iubito. O să vorbesc cu tine în curând, bine?" I kiss you sweetly once more, unable to resist before finally pulling back and pecking your lips one last time. "I will text you soon, handsome." I smile softly at you before taking my bag and heading out just in time to get into the car I arranged for myself for the airport. I thought of you the whole flight there, texting you as soon as I landed. 'Just landed. I got some more rest on the plane too so hopefully that makes you happy. I have a big surgery in a few hours and thanks for making sure I was well-rested. Your bossiness paid off ;)'

Mackie walks into the kitchen in the morning, seeing a bunch of papers on the counter and looking at them curiously, smirking to himself when seeing that she left recipes for the three of you as well as a detailed grocery list for what was needed for the recipes. The three of you had gotten by just fine before but he couldn't help but be amused by her attention to detail. "Did you guys see this?," he said while you and Chris were nearby, gesturing to the papers.

Seb says goodbye to you and goes back to sleep for the rest of the morning. Seb wakes up to your text, smiling to himself, happy to know that you landed safely. 'And I just woke up again. We are not the same ;) One of us is about to do a surgery and on is just waking up. I am glad that you got that extra rest! See, I know what I am talking about sometimes!' He smiles as he gets up and walks out into the kitchen, seeing Mackie rifling through the papers on the table. He looks over at what Mackie was looking at, walking over and peeking over his shoulder, smiling when he sees the recipes. "She knew we would all starve without her and she left us little recipes. How adorable. She's the best."

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Frank woke up, feeling a little disoriented and having to remember where he was. He rubbed his eyes tiredly, hating that you weren't in bed beside him. The bed suddenly felt a little too cold without you. He was about to get fully dressed before noticing that his shirt was missing, smiling to himself since he realized you must have been wearing it. He didn't love the idea of being shirtless but he did love you in his clothes. He was about to walk out of the bedroom when hearing voices, hearing you talking to a man. He grew curious, staying close to the door and listening. He felt weird about it but he was trying to figure out who the guy was, soon putting two and two together and realizing it was the guy that you had been talking to. Just his voice sounded super masculine and that made Frank a little insecure. He was happy that you spent last night with him though but he wasn't sure what to do in this situation, unsure if this guy was a student who might recognize him so he stayed put for now.

"You should've called me, I would've come over and helped you. You shouldn't of spent the entire night alone in the dark, Nay... I was so worried about you." He reaches out and tucks some hair behind my ear, being pretty crazy about me and wanting to be with me but he felt something was off right now. "Are you sure you're okay, Nay? Who's shirt is that?" He narrows his eyes as he takes in the shirt, it not looking familiar.

"I know... I was just high and watched some stuff on my laptop and went to sleep early." I didn't want to tell him about Frank, not sure how Frank would want me to handle this since he was married and my professor so I kept it quiet for now. I look down at my shirt, feeling slightly panicked. "It's Gabe's. Super old. Stole it from him ages ago... I'm just really tired, Chris, I had a shitty night... can I call you later on when I'm fully awake?" I walk over to the front door, making it clear that I don't want him to stay or anything. "I'm just sort of cranky and exhausted." I try to act normally as he leans down and pecks my lips, giving him a hug and promising to call him later. I close the door and sigh, hoping that Frank was asleep, turning to walk back down towards my room and seeing him in the hallway, knowing he for sure heard everything. "Oh... good morning, baby." I give him a soft smile, a bit worried how he'd react to everything.