#searching for her other half
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just because i saw no post about it but billy saying that he’s not looking for wanda because “i already have a mom” rebecca kaplan mom of the year
#also happy it follows the canon of the comics#his connection to wanda and his looking for her in CC was more about figuring out who HE is. rebecca was always his mom that wasn’t a debat#and it makes sense they replace his search for wanda as the search for tommy because tommy is the other half of his soul#agatha all along#also i love lillia this episode was beautiful front to back
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get you a girl who can give you everything
this started a long long time ago when I made a joke about how sega should put ringo in more dresses, and then my friend reminded me that oh yeah!! I can do that instead!!! and then one thing led to another and we joked about punk ringo and I drew that too. using ringo like a dressup doll is so cathartic it's kinda crazy
some bonuses (original designs, timelapse) under the cut bc I like these designs!! I might do some more with them!! please disregard the band poster in the first second of the timelapse that's something else!!!
#everyone look at my girl isnt she so pretty#puyo puyo#ringo ando#my stuff#please look at the timelapse it nicely packages a week of suffering into a minute :)#you cant tell at all from the recording. but all those teeny tiny scallops on ringo's dress? i drew all of those by hand#because the scallop brush i downloaded didnt look right. it never does why do i have that#plus the lace cutouts on the bottom i also drew by hand because i wanted them to look kinda like bunches of apple seeds#but thats not really a thing you can search for- 'lace brush that looks like apple seeds' is wildly specific#there's probably an identical brush to what i painstakingly drew by hand but dont tell me about it i want to think i did that for a reason#punk ringo on top was a lot less work on the lineart bit except for that godforsaken guitar#i had to make sure it looked right and it took forever#but what punk ringo gave me the most trouble with was posing#i knew i wanted an arm out to mirror lolita ringo but thw initial draft was meant to be her holding the guitar the opposite way she is now#(as in her hand was gonna be backwards)#and do you know how hard it is to balance a guitar like that. i had to grab my guitar and do a photoshoot to see what was most natural#while still having leg up arm out#this was fun to do even if i had about three crises in the middle of it#i tried doing my old rendering style again after a while and it was fun too#lolita ringo gave me a bit of trouble in the fact that my brain couldnt handle the dress being shaded but the apples being flat#but we got it lmao. i dont know if ill ever do this again it took too long#but maybe half of the time was because suddenly halfway through everybody needed my help for something or other that required me to leave#anyway wow thats enough rambling. i should go to bed now
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I get you don't like it but. People are allowed to have their headcanons and like the idea of them having kids. Genuinely who cares what some people's headcanons are on twitter? Live and let live dude.
I don't see how her being a teacher negates it tbh for me her talking about kids being the future and being a teacher made it more likely in my eyes. There's multiple reasons it could have appeal to someone. And saying it makes sense for sksw zelda cause of lore so she had to have a kid well. er. Isn't that botw/totk zelda as well as soon as the 3D game after totk comes out....
whoopsies I forgot to properly censor my tags on my bitching posts everyone sorry about that. I was about to ask how the fuck you got in my house
#I always forget mentioning a ship in your commentary tags will put it in a tag search even if you don't put. a dedicated tag on your post#anyway just so we're clear anon this was not a topic up for debate. you can like it and I can dislike it and whine about it#as for the second half of your ask a. we don't know where eow will be in the timeline so not necessarily#2. when it comes to sksw that is the ONLY ONE who I'm willing to admit has to be Lore Required Pregnant#cause she's the originator of the goddess bloodline and all that. any others have plausible deniability cause. families stretch out#and I still don't like content of her pregnant I'm just willing to admit she must have had kids. lol#anyway. I'm the no.1 supporter of Aborting That Thang. and also I'm not on twitter btw#ask#anon
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need xiao and kujou sara to meet asap btw.
- golden winged peng vs winged tengu (whose wings, incidentally, were damaged when she received her vision...)
- both dedicate their lives to their archons
- separated from the society (mortals, Inazuman troops/Tengou Commission) they were brought up in because of certain factors (karma, status as adopted child and tengu)
perhaps they’d understand each other. maybe they’d know what it’s like—an existence as a god’s right hand, and everything it entails. their eyes meet, gold on gold; they know: this person might only understand half of me but that's half more than anyone else. what’s it like to serve a god so deeply—what do you sacrifice and how does it remake you? sara believes that her vision was granted by the raiden shogun, saving her, and thus dedicates herself to carrying out the will of thunder across the land. xiao receives his new name from morax, and in return, agrees to protect liyue for however long it will need. sara’s wings, injured, as she falls off the mountain—alatus, lacking his golden wings, the bloodhound of that unknown god.
#theyre also really attached to rex lapis/raiden shogun merch btw xiao definitely has enough dragon plushies to match sara's collection of St#Statues of Her Excellency,the Almighty Narukami Ogosho, God of Thunder#anyways what i'm saying is that they should talk and maybe sort out their traumas bc they can see themselves in the other person#btw theyre also both cold/indifferent on the outside but gentle/passionate on the inside. i love characters who are mirrors#also the diff between x and ks is that liyue didn't have shitty archon q writing am i right or am i right#that was a half joke but god... unsure how i feel about sara's characterization wrt agency and what went down in inazuma in general rip#xiao#kujou sara#genshin impact#teyvat thoughts#genshin xiao#sara is one of the three 4* i still don't have so i didn't know she got fucking scolded for just playing w the soldiers as a kid until i sea#searched it up and#bro what the fuck. what the fuck. kujou takayuki im going to kill you
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its important to watch a new movie or read a new book sometimes. largely because 1) its nice to experience all the art this world has to offer but also 2) you might be able to find new scenarios to imagine your OCs in
#it gets the cogs turning if ur imaginary scenarios get stale#wait did anyone else do this. when i was a kid i played with my toys in the very storytelling heavy style#like every toy was a character type thing. ten million large spanning melodramatic stories of epic proportions with my littlest pet shops#like that was the type of play i liked. and i would#sit in front of the TV with whatever playing half watching cartoons#or watching some kids movie on vhs borrowed from the library back when they still had tapes#and the whole time i would be playing with my toys. seeming more engrossed in the story among my toys than the movie i was watching#but i WAS watching the movie i was just using it largely as a. jumping off point. to make up stories about like#my lps cat who can see ghosts and her search for her long lost twin sister or something#Oh god and when i was a little older like 10 years old making ms paint animations age#whenever i was watching a movie with like famiy or in class or whatever and maybe it was a little boring at parts#i would like. start focusing on the score only and just imagine my own sparklewolf OCs to it instead of paying attention#my dad often fondly remembers watching avatar in theatres with the whole family and looking over to me and seeing me mentally GONE hfkjdfhs#mother and older brother were pretty engrossed with the effects and visuals and i was like. eyes glazed over staring into space#imagining blue wolves with anime hair like :) my dad thought it was very funny. he cant judge the reason he was looking around was because#often hes more interested in watching other people react to a movie than the movie itself LOL we are cut from similar cloths..#i still dont remember a thing about that movie. but the score wasnt bad HJKDBJFKLSHJFDs#but yeah i dunno. watch a horror movie. think about putting your ocs through the horrors. thats how ive lived my entire life
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Ever just kill an entire child offscreen just so you can re-set a character to their early season one state but this time without their Mysterious Secret In Their Past?
#Julian Fellowes sure as fuck did.#They could have had a whole season of Peggy searching for her son???#and then a storyline of getting him back or trying to find a way to build a bond with him without ripping him from the security#of the only family he knows?#but let's have all that drama happen off fuckin screen#and plop her back on E 61st#because god fucking forbid we have any scenes that don't revolve around the white households#you've got powerhouses Denée and Audra dominating their miniscule scenes but then just have to waste another half an hour on Marian#whose job it is to just float around and have other characters exposition at her#and be a clotheshorse#(they're great clothes but PEGGY LOOKS HOT TOO WHEN ARE WE GETTING AN EVENINGWEAR LOOK FOR PEGGY???)#The Gilded Age#spoilers
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The universe loves me
#i can get the a i need for my online class after all!!!!!!#eeeeeeeeeeeeee#i just have to do 2 things and I'm gonna get the a#then I'll get my full amount of funds instead of half#I'm so excited#i mean first i have to do things for my in person class for that a but that one is super easy#this is such a gift and i don't know what deity did this#i don't worship any luck deities or ones associated with money or fortune or knowledge so idk#like all of mine are chaos and revelry and trickery other than one#but that one is like motherhood and stuff and i worship her to get the comfort of a divine mother#anyway whatever deity decided to blast my ass with fortune i love you#also i got what i needed to up my financial aid for the upcoming school year so double fortune#I'm vibrating with excitement#i may not be getting anywhere in my job search but my bank account won't be negative and I'll have the grades i wanted#life is beautiful today#i also got my doctor to switch me to gel for my t so i won't have a bad reaction hopefully and i see the gastroenterologist tomorrow#i'll get the swallowing problem dealt with soon even if i have to get a camera shoved down my throat again#and my college is doing a free tuition thing that while i don't think i qualify for will still be really good for other people who need it#and my dad leaves town for 2 weeks in the morning#I've just had a ton of good things happen in a row#also i got to see the living tombstone on Saturday and i swear that fixed the funk i was in from what i had to do last week#and i learned sweet tea doesn't taste like pure sugar so it's actually decent#damn I'm feeling good#anyway happy rant over#go be gremlins#and as always#drink water you heathens
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i wish i had a good excuse to just like go and spend 2-3 days in another city across the country
#sasha speaks#the most i've done on my own is a day trip into nyc#which is fun but you can only do so much in one day esp when your train is close to 3 hours one way#i want just like. two days in atlanta. three days in chicago. three in sanfran. yknow.#hell i'd take two days in nyc or boston that would be fun#i've spent one full day in boston before with my mom and that was great but it was sort of an appendix to a trip with a different primary#purpose (bringing my sister back to her college). i've spent two days in pittsburgh with my mom once too but that was when i was doing#college search myself so like more than half the time was dedicated to touring campuses#i've been to nyc twice Totally on my own once to go to a museum with my beloved mutual and once to take my sister to an embassy#to get a visa for her study abroad trip. my parents were like 'escort her to and from the embassy and then back on the train#and then you can stay the afternoon and do whatever you want. just get a train home in the evening'#which was fun i went to a museum and then did some market and bookstore shopping#but one afternoon does not a Proper trip make yknow#also goes w/o saying i would love to do the same thing for cities in other countries but. y'know. that's More Difficult#and i've seen very little of my own country in the grand scheme of things...i've only been out west twice and i didn't see very much either#time :( san diego when i was like 9 and then crested butte co last summer. which was beautiful and so much fun but also i got covid there s#anyway. shutting up now#i wanna talk about me
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Enraged that I am going to have to change my insurance this year because I like my dentist but of course he doesn’t take my new insurance.
#chit chat#the hygienist is so gentle and good at her job#and the dentist is super chill#and they do not take the insurance that my work provides#and i hate doing the 'new insurance new pcp' search#which is half the reason why i haven't seen a doctor for a physical since i was 18 tbh#the other half is ofc that i live in fucking nowhere and nobody is accepting new patients with my insurance#ughhhh#i wish i lived in a sensible country
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The next coworker to interrupt me for something stupid or to ask me to find something for them without giving me all the details is going to get a fucking smackdown 😤😤😤
#I am so done with people#one of my coworkers requested a document#with the wrong numbers#and I searched for like half an hour couldn’t find it#I grilled her a little more of what the document was#realized she fucked up#asked her ‘shouldn’t it actually be THIS number (which is very different from the first)’#and she was like ‘oh. yeah.’#so I had to search again#and now she’s trying to be all cute and sunny about iy#like *thank you!!! 🥰☀️🤗’#fuck off#I have wasted so much time today doing shit for other people#ughhhh#work#rant
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She would fix me
#desperately searching through ebay to find this particular emily the strange hoodie i had as a child#among many other things#everyone should have figured out i was autistic when this was the only piece of clothing a wore for like a year and a half#i need her again#cain.txt
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im judging her as much as anyone else would for having an affair with this creep, and this book appears to be self-published, but the fact that this is on the first page of results when i try to find a biography cited in the book im reading
im gonna start biting people
#messages from the ouija board#failed? she did the damn thing! and then like half a dozen other things! and unfortunately th*mas j*fferson#to be clear i do not hold it against her that she was cheating on richard. sounds like he was having a great time w plenty of other people#i just think she chose the most repulsive man she possibly could have#but also her life is way more than just an affair she had and this search result pisses me off
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I know this may come off kind of whiny and is possibly more specific to living in the US being as it’s so individualistic, but what I wish partnered people especially (and to a lesser extent folks who live with roommates) understood about being single/living alone is just how much fucking time I spend by myself.
I’m not a person who can’t handle time alone! I don’t mind doing things by myself, even public things like going to the movies or going out to eat! I think I’m great company! But the thing about being single & not having a default person/people for a lot of these things is that all the novelty of doing things alone, or any benefit you might get from taking some alone time, is kind of erased.
It’s not a ‘fun solo movie night!’ if every time I sit down to watch TV, I’m by myself. It’s not ‘taking myself on a date!’ if the majority of the time when I eat any meal, or go do anything, I’m alone. I keep busy, y’all. I have the most active social calendar of almost anyone I know, because I love my friends, and also by necessity. My coworkers - most of whom I would never choose to spend time with - are already the people I see the most of in a week. If I didn’t make an effort to see friends as much as possible outside of work, they’d be the only people I saw regularly, and that would be fucking me up even more than it already is.
I like living alone, I like being able to do my own thing, I’m proud of myself that I don’t let not having a person to do something with keep me from doing something. And sometimes I really fucking wish I had company for some of this shit. Wish I didn’t always have to run errands by myself, because it would be more fun with a friend. Wish I had someone I could ask to come with me to check on my friend’s cat, because I don’t know if her roommate is going to be home and it might be awkward. Wish there was someone to chat with while I did chores, or have an actual movie night with so it felt like an actual occasion, or, you know, literally anything mundane that could be done with another person, because sure I see and talk to my friends a lot, but that’s usually for an activity or an event - we’re going out to eat! we’re going to watch a specific show! - and rarely just to do the daily mundane shit that I always have to do by myself.
#I went to a baseball game by myself yesterday because no one was available/interested in coming with me#and it was fun! I'm glad i went!#but I was also surrounded by people who were there with their families etc. and I wished I wasn't by myself#things like the train being delayed half an hour just feel more doable when you have someone to chat with#instead of sadly eavesdropping on other people's conversations and trying to commiserate that way :(#and I have to run this errand to my friend's cat today and I wish I had someone to go with me#and then I'm watching the indy 500 alone and that's maybe for the best bc in the past when I've had friends over#they aren't that interested in it#but it's still just another thing I'm doing alone#it just gets tiring#and like I said I'm sure this is in some ways class/country specific#it would be different if I lived with roommates sure but I don't really want to do that#and it would be different if I had a partner too but I'm not trying to put all my eggs in one basket of searching for that#I just wish more ppl my age were interested in creating local community/friendship networks#and trying to circumvent some of this and do more things together#instead of just continuing the pattern of prioritizing one romantic relationship/the nuclear family structure#anyway. pity session over.#going to get off the couch and go check on my friend's cat#she's like the only friend I have that's also interested in *not* buying into the nuclear family monogamy BS so I gotta show up for her lol
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I have zero desire to complain about it in real life because honestly my assumption is that the last five customers before me were assholes and the poor girl behind the counter deserves a break, but. It is very jarring to politely request a sandwich and get treated like I personally murdered her grandmother
#she straight up THREW the sandwich at me while snarling ''HERE''#thus prompting me to fretfully soul search all the way home about what i did to offend her#i have been awake and traveling since 2 am so it's possible that i have a bit of zoned out resting bitch face going on#but like. i gave her a friendly smile and said 'can i get [x] please' and then i thanked her. so???#there was only one other customer in the store so there wasn't any rush. and it was an hour and a half before closing#obvs i should let it go but. that's not hyperbole? she literally threw the sandwich at my face??????? what did i DO#my posts
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i was nearly late for my exams AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im gonna have a damn heart attack at this rate
#driver wasnt able to pick me up this morning so my mom decided to take. public transport instead#i was like 'cant we just call a different taxi' and she replied 'nah we'll be fine! :)'#i got to the exam room 3 (3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) minutes before the actual exam started#and thats bc i sprinted (uphill!!!! the bus put us like what.. 30 metres away?) the second i got out of the bus#ough i was NOT feelin good#though i think i did good enough in the actual exams (they were english paper 3 & 4 so they were like relatively easy)#anyways. other news. today was a school friends bday :)#though she's younger than me so shes currently not going through exams. blissfully unaware of the horrors fhjfdghdfshgd#i gave her a custom bookmark! the ones i posted about a while back#she in return gave me a pastry :) orange flavored uh. what are they called.#searched it up. orange flavored eclair !#though she scared me half to death bc i was focusing on somethin else when she ran into me lol
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btw did you know your upbringing and environment play a role in the development of schizophrenia because i just learned that a few days ago.
#actually schizospec#actually schizoaffective#actually mentally ill#i remember when i'd fight with my mom and it was always just so paradoxical like there was never a way to be right or do right by her#so when we'd fight i'd go to my room and cry and my mind would desperately search for a way to make sense of what had happened#but because its was always the opposite of what i thought i should be doing i would end up in hysterics#i'd just keep thinking i was never going to do anything right and the futility of it eventually caused me to break away for a bit#i'd start laughing uncontrollably at how completely fruitless it was to try and get everything right#when just one mistake would erase all of my progress#and i remember how it felt to detach for the first few times and i was terrified and i felt so hollow#i felt like i was trapped inside my skull and i couldn't escape even my body if i tried#all the while i was still laughing and crying at the same time because i was so sad and so confused at all of it#i literally felt like those edgy pics where a character is split in half and one side is laughing while the other is crying#i would rapidly switch between laughing and crying and then eventually i would just. stop.#i would stop crying and laughing and emoting completely and i'd just feel a numbness spreading#i wouldn't have at thoughts at all i would just be laying there on my bed staring#ALLLL of this happened while i was alone in my room after fights with my parents (usually my mom)#and my mom LOOOOVED to yell and make comments and call me names from across the house so ofc that made it even worse#🥀
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