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[mylarena]

image of han yoojin on a bike drawn by @the-bones-in-your-backyard ,,, bc of the drivers license extra,,,

[mylarena]

GODDDDD. theyre SO horrible. i hate them so much i need to hot glue them onto my wall.

hyunjae not being under the keyword is so fucking important to me man,,, hes feeling that way because he CAN, not because he HAS to yknow,,,, not that the others wouldnt love him but like, hes not inherently inclined to love yoojin because of a skill. the weird possessiveness and affection and interest he feels abt him is All Natural. he just Naturally wants to. [checks my notes] tear him apart piece by piece so he can explore him and know every one of his deepest secrets.

hyunjae knowing the lines and what would hurt yoojin and actively going "man i really would love to just do that, but itd make yoojin sad so i cant" is so funny to me. the way he does things because they would make yoojin happy too. him taking into account what yoojin wants is justhhghhhhGHHH!!!!

THEIR GODDAMN BITS TOO. their stupid little bits. that weird fucking tour guide-customer thing they constantly have going on. yoojin deciding on the spot not to teach hyunjae abt ways to use his powers and instead talking about knitting, and later on completely commiting to that and buying him an unreal amount of Custom Dyed Dungeon Yarn and dumping it on his head on his birthday. hyunjae actually fucking knitting and making yoojin a fucking cardigan. and gloves. and hat. and scarf. and yoojin WEARING those.

hyunjae letting yoojin fuck with him even though he has more than enough power in his pinkie to absolutely decimate him in an instant. the way he fucks with yoojin right back instead. their ridiculous banter and the way everyone looks at them weirdly and go "you two seem close." the way yoojin immediately denies it and hyunjae immediately agrees with it. GOD. AGH.

hello tumblr user hehearse. another ask BUT this time its NOT torturous song associations! i would just like to ask if you have specific thoughts on jinjae. because theyre SO fucking weird abt each other and they have me in a grip. i would like to know your thoughts on them ^^

GASP branching out aren't we? :D

i think they are incredibly fun. and horrible in their own way.

i love the fact that shj is NOT under yoojin's key word effect and he is Just Like That TM. bear with me for a sec. i was having yet another ted talk with dearest achro juuust recently about them, SO THERE ARE SOME HALF COHERENT THOUGHTS READY

i like how shj being the adult and not under the keyword effect gives some. agency in a way. so you know how yoohyun gets all the love despite him being the way he is. for the price of him moulding his entire being around yoojin? or more like HE decides THAT is the price and the only context for the love to be deserved and a fair trade so to speak. when he breaks the mould, he does not lose the privilege of being loved. he was chosen when he was that way to begin with. and anyway, yoojin gives so much leeway to yoohyun even in the frame of his views on good and bad - because love runs deep, and there are many things he'll let slide or let go, as long as yoohyun - and other kids - are happy.

but shj is an adult, not yoojin's kid. might sound obvious but. that gives him agency to fuck up his relationship with yoojin, and he actively chooses not to do it when he moves to the "partner" stage!! (because hyunje very clearly was feeling out the boundaries in the beginning, wasn't he? pushing and pushing and poking the rot until yoojin cracked. and what a surprise that was huh. huh, shj?? he stopped after that. the lines established (by him) and he was not. entirely happy about what he saw, even if incredibly intrigued)

additionally. there is something to say about the playful lines they draw. yoojin has his pride and wants to at least APPEAR strong even when he is struggling. and in places where yoohyun or yerim would fluster him with excessive care and worry, shj gives him enough space to pretend for a bit. even if they both know he's lying. he lies himself too, to save yoojin his pride, doesn't he? the "ah, it's just my whims" attitude? isn't it easier to accept the lavish gifts and such when it's not personal? might just use since he is clearly an eccentric rich s class, right? (that shoots them both in the foot with yoojin feeling insecure, like shj can drop him at any point in time, but that's different story)

plus! plus!! the thrill of biting back at someone so powerful. the excitement of toying with the guy everyone feels threatened by. ^^ (and of course the fun of peeling of perfect appearance and seeing this sung hyunje who doesn't eat bread crusts, likes fishing and being annoying and playing into jokes and is SO good at it he catches on instantly, just give him an opening. a secret persona. makes you feel special, doesn't it?)

while love for yoojin seems natural (oh yoojin. the most guy ever. gah.), sung hyunje too. makes adjustments to win points. like with him treating yerim seriously, him taking in account yoohyun's possessiveness when proposing giving only one of his eyes to blind yoojin (because you know. yoohyun would be unhappy if he didn't get a chance to give his eye to his hyung. and he is his hyung's number one. so shj can't not take it into account - he likes his place number two after all).

ANYWAY. i think yoojin needs an Adult TM who won't necessarily break apart without him. but who would still like to have him around and let yoojin bully him a bit as a treat. and sung hyunje needs someone who can not only tolerate his nasty personality up close, but would ALSO bite back without a fear of retribution. makes life more fun that way. i suppose you can say they both need someone who would entertain their bullying but not leave or get scared or break apart. ^^

[mylarena]

[absolutely hates ur guts. also wears the earrings and Hand Knitted Cardigan u made for me]

[mylarena]

hyunjae giving yoojin control is so fucking important to me honestly. bc he CAN just take whatever he wants from yoojin. break him, tear him apart piece by piece to study him and what moves him. but he DOESNT. im fucking obsessed with it. like,,,, theyre like that without the key phrase too. hyunjae is willingly bowing his head to yoojin. hyunjae is willingly offering yoojin parts of him. but hes also literally staking claim to parts of yoojin. theyre so fucking weird and possessive its so fucking. something.

more jinjae songs,,,

Strange Love by Halsey,,, all of it is very them but one specific line is "they know you walk like youre a god, they cant believe i made you weak." its so so them. yoojin being a weakness to hyunjae,,, showing him a softer side than anyone else gets to see,,,, no one being able to Comprehend that THE Sung Hyunjae could EVER be soft and even slightly vulnerable or emotional w someone,,,, and what do you MEAN its the f rank dude,,,, the public is baffled. imo.

Criminal by Britney Spears,,, not much to say for me on this one. Mama im in love with a criminal,,,,

Power & Control by MARINA,, yoojin being Weaker than hyunjae but still being In Control makes me fucking lose my mind. like. thats his dog on a chain bro. hes holding the leash. "a human vulnerability doesnt mean that i am weak" is very yoojin imo. his Humanity and Love doesnt make him any less strong than the others,, yknow,??

Halsey - Strange Love

no i think you're correct. also this:

also

cut to that roleplay of theirs with him bringing yoojin his coffee and acting all sweet. while the guys yoojin was meeting with thought yoojin is NOT the one in charge. heh.....

Britney Spears - Criminal

god. consider this. sung hyunje about han yoojin to song taewon. yoojin with his reputationt at the start. with eyes, that are those of a guy who killed before, according to sung hyunje (who, of course, ran a background check on him already). heh. ^^

just look at this:

tainted rotten heart, a dog astray <3

yeah ^^

Power & Control by MARINA

yeah. yeah. but also it's yoojin rationalizing. whatever they got going on. (he already grew fond. can't run that back.) him desperately trying to get sung hyunje to be the "but he fell harder" guy (he already is)

(i am also forever haunted by their. constant. how do i even say it... hyunje giving yoojin control over him in ways. cause he could always do what he wants, break yoojin apart and get whatever he is curious about. he'd have to fight off a bunch of furious s classes afterwards but it's not like he ever ran away from a fight, right? and yet. enjoyment and unpredicatbility of his life rests on yoojin's good will. he restricts himself for him. you know. the scarf bow on the leg. the "i'll give you one of my eyes" thing. head in hands......