#school of rock lockscreens

[p1325]

[mizuclique-art]

ALMOST FAMOUS- Beauty School Dropout

I Made this lockscreen a month ago, but I forgot to post It, i really like some of Beauty School Dropout songs, If you don't know them totally recomend

[waitingonher]

LOVER'S ROCK [h.o.o. characters in love]

percy jackson

memorizes your fast-food/gas station order. even if you didn’t ask, percy’s still gonna get you a lil something from wherever he goes. he has a shoe box that holds every single thing you’ve ever given him. may or may not still have the receipt from the restaurant after your first date. listens to the music you recommend him. usually, percy’s very opinionated about the music he listens to but he always gives yours a try. embarasses himself solely to see you laugh. yes, the time he dropped his ice cream cone into the hudson was on purpose.

annabeth chase

waits for you to watch the latest episode of your favorite show. annabeth will wait for you no matter what, even if it pains her to not know whether or not her favorite character just died. eases up around you. she appreciates not having to be completely on guard all the time. paints your nails for you. annabeth always finds it funny when she sees your non-dominant hand perfectly manicured while your dominant hand looks as if you did it blindfolded.

jason grace

annotates his favorite books for you to read. when it’s the occasional romance novel, jason writes “us <3” in the margin everytime the love interests do anything remotely romantic. gifts you a necklace with his initial. he smiles everytime he sees it resting against your chest. jason’s phone is entirely made up of you. his lockscreen, his home screen, his widgets…everything is you. jason randomly gives you massages. if you’re working on some school assignment he’d come up behind you and start massaging your neck and shoulders, getting out the knots you didn’t even know you had.

piper mclean

allows you to bypass her dnd. most of the time, piper’s on dnd so she made it so that only your notifications could bypass it. she does the chores you hate the most. even if she hates it just as much, she’ll do it just to see you happy. piper loves making those cheesy couple videos with you on tiktok. every day she’ll tell you how you two are basically tiktok famous?? piper only listens to you when it comes to fashion advice. yeah, she’ll acknowledge what others have to say about her outfits, but she truly only cares about what you think. 

leo valdez

loves you to the point of invention. you can’t even count the amount of gadgets leo’s made for you. he also comes home with little knicknacks made from spare parts of his projects. flowers made of metal scraps >> regular flowers. lets down his guard for you. leo doesn’t feel the need to keep up his happy, humorous persona when he’s with you. he lets you take whatever side of the bed you want. even if leo likes to sleep against the wall, he’ll let you because he knows it makes you happy.

hazel levesque

buys matching couple outfits. you two have your own pinterest board dedicated to your matching outfits. takes care of your hair. considering her own hair, hazel knows a lot about hair care. date nights where she oils your hair and washes it for you over anything else. ties your bows for you. she laughs when you finish tying the bow in your hair only to realize that the loops and tails are different sizes. wears matching jewelry. you two have lockets with photos from your first date. 

frank zhang

never the first one to let go from hugs. frank can and will stand there and hug you for the entire day if you want to. ties your shoes for you. whenever he notices your shoes are untied he entirely stops what he’s doing and drops to the floor, propping your foot on his knee to tie it. always gives you his food. even if you had said you didn’t want any, frank still shares some with you.

[livelaughloveloak]

𓂅 WISHUROSES ⊰ 🎡

𖦹 pairing : earth1610!miles morales x reader

𖦹 summary : random scenarios and headcanons of miles as your boyfriend

𖦹 author's note : y'all I'm literally running out of ideas so I would appreciate it if you guys sent me some requests 😭 btw this isn't proofread

you and him definitely have a snapstreak but it was on accident. he randomly snapped you and you'd snap him back on a daily so now you two are just stuck with a 200+ snapstreak.

he bought you a Polaroid camera for your birthday and you ended up using up most of the film on him.

you have the pictures up on the board hanging up in your room

HE'S A COMPLETE SWEET HEARTTTT through actions or through text he'll show his love for you either way.

you pulled back from the tight hug miles pulled you into and looked up at his face. "miles you have that smug look on your face again." you poked his cheek and laughed. miles gasped and was quick to defend himself although he was in fact smiling like an idiot. "I do not!!"

if he's not busy with spiderman business, school, family problems, or hanging out with you then he's busy texting you instead.

he might go to an advanced private school but he refuses to write sentences properly.

you'd receive messages from him like these

inaminit

whaddup

nuhuh

luv u

wya?

he'll abuse the living hell out of emojis when texting you

"yup 😎😎😎😎😎😎💪💪💪"

"wdym no ☹️☹️😒😒🤨🤨🤨"

omw Mami 😋😋😋🤟🏿🤟🏿🤟🏿🤟🏿🤟🏿🤟🏿

he'll ask you for help when it's washday for his hair. his scalp is sensitive so you make sure to be extra careful

he has your contact saved as mi alma. one time his mom saw the contact name pop up on his phone and questioned him about it. he freaked out and started blabbering nonsense

he tells you stories about his adventures when his uncle aaron was still alive.

he has a picture of you as his wallpaper and a pic of you guys together as his lockscreen

he draws you two matching pfps

will definitely give you a new drawing everytime he can

was sweating bullets when he finally revealed to you that he was spiderman.

the pressure was quickly lifted off of his shoulders once you said that you accepted him and understood.

he's still scared that you'd be his canon event and swears he'll never let you die

"even if I have to destroy this universe as long as you're alive I'll be alright." you pinched his cheek and smiled. "don't be silly miles" a groan escaped his mouth as you giggled. "mami stopppp I'm being serious right now."

he let's you win in games just to see you happy but if it's basketball he's not gonna hold back 😭🙏

has his face buried in your neck while sleeping. he says it's because "I'm cold and you just happen to be warm" but yet again it's the middle of summer.

will be jumping up and down our of joy when you bought him new Jordans for his birthday

he has a bracelet with your name engraved into it and he wears it proudly

his phone album is filled with pictures of you. you and him fight eachother whenever you catch him trying to take a candid 0.5 picture of you

he 100% calls you "my heart"

says the most old man type of comebacks when playfully arguing with you

"yeah well you can go kick rocks!!"

"boohoo buckaroo"

"too bad so sad"

"nuh uh" or in other times "yuh huh"

"whatever pal"

"listen here buddy"

you two wear matching pajamas when you have sleepovers

don't get me started on this man and saying the "rizz" jokes...

"rizzanator is what I am"

"let's have a rizz off"

"call me the rizzmaster"

he'll airdrop you the most random memes and burst out laughing when seeing your reaction

he gifted you a promise ring with both of your initials engraved into it as an anniversary gift

miles won you a teddy bear in a fair and now you both call it your "child"

don't expect to get a warning because miles will randomly FaceTime you out of nowhere.

he'd give you a spiderman suit so you could match with him

when you first met his mom she liked you without hesitation and asked to take a picture with you. she made miles take the picture 😭

overall a sweet guy and will give you the princess treatment you deserve!!

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July 4, 2023 | All rights reserved to @livelaughloveloak • Do not repost, reupload, translate, modify, or claim any of my work as your own. ✮

art in the polaroids are made by purpletunabread on twitter and koscribbls on instagram

[cupidseok]

things that evoke memories of riize

💒 — SHOTARO AS

the bittersweet tug of homesickness, the aromatic smell of freshly ground coffee beans that first hits you upon stepping into a cafe, unexpectedly meeting a high school friend you really missed on the streets, the solace found in being able to comfort you, the warmth of sunlight kissing your skin, ties with cute little patterns on them, the click of film cameras while taking photos of you, the lingering feeling after a hug, getting bungeoppang in the winter and chatting with the street vendor while waiting for his order, carrot cakes, a large collection of bucket hats, love countdown by nayeon, wonstein

🩰 — EUNSEOK AS

soft ballad music playing in the background, the gentle warmth of intertwined hands, early morning strolls, the adrenaline rush coursing through you while riding roller coasters, holding hands in haunted houses, long facetime calls spent in silence, brushing his lips over your forehead, trembling lips as he lets himself be vulnerable to you for the first time, exploring a place he has never been before, the feeling that you’re going to know each other for a long time, a handsome stranger you saw on an overseas trip once and never again, watching studio ghibli films together, carbonara pasta, breathe by lauv

💭 — SUNGCHAN AS

texts to check if you’ve eaten, greeting dogs that pass by, wandering aimlessly in an art museum, purposely stepping in a puddle of water just to splash someone, playfully fighting you for the tv remote but letting you win in the end, opening jars for you even though you can do it yourself, letting him play with your hair until it’s all tangled, the chime of school bells signalling the day’s end, taking photos with friends on the last day of school, the soft brush of elbows while writing side by side, keeping your hair tie on his wrist, eating vanilla ice cream on sunny days, 爱你 by kimberley chen

✨ — WONBIN AS

late night walks under the moonlit sky, someone’s hand slipping in yours, dark chocolate, dazzle of fireworks illuminating the night, reflecting on his eyes, learning how to play a new instrument, a faceless photo of you and him on his lockscreen, watching a drama together and rooting for different male leads, putting on a facade of toughness to impress you, gently reassuring him that perfection isn’t always necessary, clothes that fit you just right, love at first sight, matching earrings, only letting you touch his guitar, the reluctance to bite into cute chinese piggy steamed buns, wish you were sober by conan gray

💌 — SEUNGHAN AS

sweet goodnight texts, good luck charms handmade with endearing clumsiness, trying new food, finding something you thought you lost, autum leaves rustling in the wind, holding the door open for you, exchanging affectionate words endlessly, winning a soft toy at an amusement park on the first try, patiently teaching you how to play games, looking through his photoalbum when he misses you, doodling shinchan on the corners of your worksheet, taking a bite of your spicy bibimmyeon, then complaining that it was too spicy for him, die for you by the weeknd, ariana grande

👒 — SOHEE AS

shopping for caps together, a tranquil morning greeted by a gentle breeze, buying a new fuzzy blanket, curtains billowing in the wind, waiting for you to come home to him, the comfort of oversized plain white shirts and grey joggers, playing rock paper scissors to divide household chores, needing to pause and go outside for a breather every time he realises how down bad he is for you, trying to order a kids meal at a restaurant and getting embarrassed after the waiter doesn’t allow it, getting tteokbokki together after school, candy by baekhyun

🎧 — ANTON AS

wired earphones connected to an mp3 player, warm beach towels, trying to make an asmr video, eating cake off the floor so you wouldn’t feel bad for dropping it, constantly sending you tiktoks that remind him of you, water parks on hot summer days, classical music, old books with yellowed pages and worn covers, putting on sheet masks together, reading children’s storybooks for you to help you fall asleep, making eye contact across the room, the moment where you realise that he feels the exact same way that you feel at the same moment, snow on the beach by taylor swift, lana del rey

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[sparklingcid3r]

Do you ship cherry and sodapop? If you do, what hcs do you have for them

yk i didn’t think much of this ship when i saw it floating around and then i got nice and cozy under my blanket and it hit me like a bullet to the skull, i was jumping around banging the wall just being an actual freak for them. idek what happened

so yeah i’ll live and die on the cherry cola train

- They are exactly the person the other needs, and exactly the opposite of the partner that broke their heart

- Cherry needs someone who will see her and love her for who she is, who’ll listen to her when she talks and look at her like she hung the moon and the stars

- Soda needs someone who wants to love and be loved, who isn’t afraid of things getting tough and who will entertain his less serious side

- Two-Bit and Marcia are the ogs, but Cherry and Soda omg they’re so “Uptown Girl”

- Soda is obsessed with Cherry’s hair. He loves everything about it. Anytime they’re standing next to each other, he’s twirling it in his finger, playing with it, braiding it

- When they’re cuddling, Soda absolutely will be putting his face in Cherry’s hair because he thinks it smells so good

- Even though Soda’s dropped out, when he doesn’t have a shift they’ll make plans for him to pick her up after school so they can go on walks through nature trails

- Soda tends to go too fast because he likes being on the move and getting to their destination while Cherry likes appreciating the nature they see on the way

- Cherry loves how brown Soda’s eyes are. He says they’re boring and not as cool as her green ones but what she doesn’t tell him is that when her and her girls go on beach trips, she’s collecting little rock’s and shells that remind her of his eyes and putting them in a little cork jar tied with a ribbon

- In a perfect world, Two-Bit, Marcia, Cherry, and Soda go on double dates

- Absolutely Soda and Cherry are that couple that get one milkshake and two straws

- But they both end up getting one more for themselves anyway. They were disappointed at how awkward and unromantic it actually was

- Modern cherry cola would eat up all the romantic tiktok trends. Finding jewels at Michael’s that match each other’s eye color and making bracelets, slow dancing in the snow to “Until I Found You”, setting up their camera on the ground and making hearts with their hands to have a lockscreen, oml i’m so single

- More on that, it’s Soda recording Cherry in a white dress running down the shore to “Ceilings”

- Back to the 60s—they love exchanging music. Cherry gave Soda her records of Brenda Lee and Frank Sinatra to listen to and Soda lent her his only Chuck Berry and David Bowie records

- When Cherry’s parents were out of town, she invited Soda over and they didn’t even do anything like both their friends teased them about. They put Elvis on the record player and danced around all day. When they came back from the grocery store, they put him right back on and started baking cookies

- The Valances have a beagle that loves Soda more than anyone. You’d think she was about to fly away with how hard her tail was wagging when he walks through the door. Soda will roughhouse with the dog and she loves it because other than her walks, she doesn’t get to do much in the house

- Inevitably Cherry asked him to actually meet her parents. Soda was less than thrilled, but agreed

- It killed him when he had to ask Darry for help getting ready to have dinner with her parents. He wanted to make a good impression but didn’t know how to style his hair. He just remembers all the times he clowned on Darry for doing the same thing

- Darry has mixed feelings about the relationship, mostly because he doesn’t want to see Soda get hurt the way Paul hurt him, and absolutely prohibits Cherry from being over unless he or Pony is in the house too. In his head it’s to prevent another Sandy incident. At the very least, if Cherry is someone Soda’s as serious about as he was Sandy, then he’s using protection, no exceptions

- Soda starts wearing a bigger jacket like Dally’s when the weather gets cold in hopes that Cherry will say she’s chilly and Soda can give it to her. He just wants to see her wearing his jacket he’s so down bad

- Cherry’s absolutely NOT any better. She purposefully left her coat in her house and only wore a cardigan just so that she could say she’s cold and get Soda’s jacket for the day

- As much as she’d love to keep it, she knows he actually needs the jacket back for the winter since she doesn’t know if he can afford to buy another one

- It helps them have all those romantic moments all over again, so it’s absolutely a win in her book

- They both love to hum. When it’s quiet and just the two of them, Soda will start humming the start of a duet and stop so that Cherry can hum the woman’s part. They’ll get so into it that they might as well just start singing, they’re clearly just singing with their mouths closed

god i need fanfic about them fr

[your-divine-ribs]

seeing as it's that time of year, what do you think Dad Van would be like when it's the kids first day at school? Would he be happy and excited for them or would he get a little emotional? 🥺

💗 Van would be so emotional on Grace's first day at school, seeing her all dressed up smart in her little uniform.

💗 As an August baby (she's a fellow Leo of course) she's going to be one of the youngest kids in the class and to Van she still seems like a baby even though she's fiercely independent and very grown up for a four year old.

💗 "Look at her babe," he'd whisper in your ear as he watched her buckling up her freshly polished shoes with glossy eyes. "Seems like two minutes ago I was rocking and singing her to sleep and now she's all grown up!"

💗 He'd be wanting to spend extra time with her that morning, offering to braid her hair, making her a special breakfast and helping her pack her bag for the big occasion.

💗 There'd be plenty of first day of school photos being taken, Van wanting to capture the precious moment so he can use one of the photos as his phone lockscreen.

💗 He'd be showing everyone the photo, being such a proud dad.

💗 I imagine he'd cause quite a stir on the school playground when he dropped Grace off and picked her up!

💗 When Leo starts school a few years later he'd be even more emotional, it would feel like both of his kids were growing up way too fast.

💗 He'd definitely be getting broody then, on a mission to persuade you to take advantage of those child-free moments when both kids were at school to try for yet another baby!

[mikkyjay]

MODERN MARAUDERS HEADCANONS by mik

SIRIUS

- makes thirst traps on tiktok

- is lowkey ig famous

- has a classic rock stan twt acc

- septum piercing

- his pinterest is one of the most beautiful things ever

- has a 100hr long spotify playlist

- does tarot readings on instagram live

- ikea is his fav place ever. Him and Remus spend hours in there

- his fav tv show is the umbrella academy (klaus is his fav obvs)

- is a dedicated Duolingo user

- is in love with Damiano David

- his fav film is school of rock

- his fav film is ACTUALLY wild child

- Mother Mother listener

- Adore Delano stan

James

- always losing his phone

- his lockscreen is a picture of him and lily

- bit of a grandad when it comes to tech is often heard saying he “doesn’t really get twitter” and “Pete what the hell is a discord”

- DRAG RACE STAN!! has watch parties w the boys

- absolute beast at cards against humanity

- goes to Big Tesco with Remus all the time. (that’s their bestie time)

- drives a mini cooper

- plays the bass

- cried at Encanto

- Doja Cat stan

- unironically loves the Mamma Mia films

- musical enjoyer

Remus

- the KING of twitter

- has loads of seperate spotify playlists for each month etc

- loves a trip to Big Tesco

- always has headphones on him

- Loves Louis Theroux documentaries

- Nirvana stan

- absolutely obsessed with BBC sherlock

- surprisingly good at Just Dance which massively pisses off Sirius (“i’ve been in dance lessons since i was five FIVE MOONY! how did you beat me at Womanizer?)

- eyebrow piercing

- Scarlet Envy stan

Peter

- TWITCH STREAMER !!!

- plays the sims 4 religiously

- apple music user </3 (“Pads im on a family plan, my mum pays for it”)

- The Office, B99 and Modern Family stan

- Marvel stan

- monster energy drinker

- is learning how to make CC in the sims

- member of Kurtistown

- beats everyone at mario kart much to James’ dismay

- relates too much to Otis from sex ed

- Utica stan

- really good with tech

- the it crowd is his fav show

[vdelta]

💌🎤🦖🙃🐶

(If you’re comfortable answering all of those)

💌 Do you talk to yourself?

more than i'd like to admit lol

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?

there are a good few, mostly songs that i listened to a lot growing up (mostly classic rock), but also a good chunk of my current music taste. being a music student in high school will do that to you i guess lol

🦖 Favorite extinct animal?

the things i would do to see an anomalocaris in person

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?

the song "someone saved my life tonight" by elton john is about the man that voiced dr. robotnik in the original sonic cartoon

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

cat person definitely, i love dogs but they can be a lot comparatively

———

[once-was-muses]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

what’s your phone wallpaper : lockscreen is the second Phil here (he judges my notifications), homescreen is this Herm

last song you listened to : I got that nuclear autism and have music on 24/7 so this is kind of a trick question, but what's playing RIGHT NOW is Hey Baby by The Cactus Blossoms, before that was Still Feeling Blue by Gram Parsons (spoofy says western and country today apparently)

currently reading : I am an awful library worker and cannae remember wtf I read last orz

last movie : either School of Rock or the Invisible Man (1933)

last show : does. a 3 second glimpse of someone else watching Breaking Bad count? I don't watch much tv

what are you wearing right now : Fabric™️

how tall are you? : 5'8" or 9", idfk

piercings / tattoos? : piercings; two on both earlobes, right conch, right upper helix, left eyebrow. tattoo: the accordion and martini glass from the Frank's Wild Years album cover

glasses? contacts? : I wear blue light glasses to work/while doing projects on my computer, but I'm the only person in my family that doesn't need prescription glasses lmao

last thing you ate? : gouda cheese ovo

favorite color(s): blues, purples, yellows, and black

current obsession : Debbie Daylight 😔 (I was infected oops)

any pets : four cats, equally bastardly but in their own ways. Mulligan, Miss Lady, Bacon, and Albert.

do you have a crush right now? : cackles in grey aro òvó

favorite fictional character : BESIDES THE ONES ALREADY HERE,,,,,,, Count Orlok (Nosferatu), Dr. Jack Griffin (the novel/1933 film version, fuck you A.lan M.oore), Nyarlathotep (Cthulhu mythos), Rouge the Bat (Sawnick 😔), Espio the Chameleon, Miles "Tails" Prower, Raul Tejada (Fallout: New Vegas), Selina Kyle (Batman) and more!

last place you traveled : home? I went home after work last night?

Tagged by stolen from: @malevxxlence

Tagging: steal it. perpetuate the cycle. ovo

[windhades]

school of rock the musical lockscreens

like and/or rb if you save it!

requests are open

[defyingedits]

— like or c babsmaitland

credit to the artists: (x) (x)

[jozukejoestar]

My latest hyperfixation is a band, specifically a heavy rock band, which hasn’t happened since I was deep in my emo phase. I really am just having an emo relapse huh

[linkinlocks]

Lockscreen Linkin Park Old School — [requested]

•like or reblog if saved/used

[jjkgyu]

jaehyun as a first time dad! ♡

jaehyun would be ready for a baby since the day you both got married. you’re not even four months into your pregnancy by the time he finishes building the crib.

he can’t help but cry when lays his eyes on his daughter for the first time, and his heart melts when she smiles at him and he notices her identical dimples.

he makes fatherhood look so easy, which is helped by the fact that his daughter is such a daddy’s girl. even when she’s in your arms, she’s always looking around for jaehyun with wide eyes and making grabby hands at him so he can hold her.

he’s also the only one that can make her stop crying. as soon as that first tear falls from her eye, your passing her off to him and she calms down immediately in his arms. jaehyun holds her against his chest and lightly rocks her, pressing gentle kisses to the top of her head.

he can’t sleep unless he knows that she’s asleep and when she cries in the middle of the night he literally jumps out of bed to get to her.

he starts daddy-daughter dates from a young age, to let you rest and to spend more time with his little girl. chats to her the whole car ride as she babbles back at him, stealing glances in the mirror at her with a warm smile.

he takes her out in her stroller to scenic parks, talking to her the whole time about everything as she stares at her daddy in awe. he holds her up in front of him to show her the views, watching her with the fondest eyes.

jaehyun’s so happy that you had a winter baby because he’s obsessed with dressing her in hoodies with bear ears, because she looks so cute all bundled up.

he captures every single milestone on his phone. her first bath, first word, first steps, etc. his entire camera roll is full of photos and videos of his daughter, and when he has to leave for schedules he’s always scrolling through his gallery.

he loves taking her to see all of her uncles, and keeps a close eye on her at all times even when they tease him that he can relax but he can’t help but be protective over his little girl.

the absolute best at distracting her for needles. he hates seeing her in pain so she doesn’t even have a second to process what happened before he’s bouncing her on his lap and making her giggle.

makes you take photos of the two of them literally whenever you go anywhere (but you don’t mind because it gives you more choice for your lockscreen !)

jaehyun loves getting her ready to go out and you’re honestly not surprised to find out that he can do her hair super neatly, brushing it into little cute pigtails.

he’s the most patient dad ever, never turning down a movie night even if it’s the same movie they’d watched daily for a month now because it’s his daughters favourite.

packs her lunch for school every morning without fail and definitely cuts her fruit and sandwiches into hearts shapes.

gently stern with her if she needs to be disciplined, which is rare since your daughter is such an angel !

all in all he would be the perfect dad and his daughter would be the luckiest little girl <3

[star-anise]

Oh goddamn my brain just exploded.

I just watched F. D. Signifier's video on "I Don't Dream of Labour" and just how much the whole discussion operates in a while different reality from the one in which Black American men and the concept of working for a living have historically existed.

His take is enormously well-informed and informative, and this isn't an idea that's of his calibre at all, it's just that his take on the context this discussion is happening in was so insightful that it shook something loose in my brain as relates to my own experiences. Mainly, it helped me contextualize a reaction I'd had last week, in a post about dream jobs outside of capitalism and whether it was okay for "engineer" to be one of them, in my background in white lower-middle class.

Like yes, I do have intellectual reasons for believing what I believe. My work experience, my research, my education in the social sciences, my curiosity about the world around me, my readings of Foucault, have all informed my beliefs that society has chronically devalued forms of labour that, in fact, it depends on so much that the entire system freaks the fuck out if those devalued workers realize that they're valuable enough to demand better.

Signifier's video helped me connect with some of my emotional reactions to socialist and utopian thought, and recognize just how much my views are also rooted in hard gnarly matter of my lived experience, and the lived experiences of the people who raised me.

I dream of labour partly because I've found a line of work that I love and that gives me meaning. But the other thing is, I dream of labour because of a bone-deep tiredness in me that says: If I don't do it, the work won't get done.

I'm a therapist, and the birth of my vocation as a therapist was in the years when I didn't have one or feel like I was allowed to ask for them, and neither did anyone else I knew, and the amount of terror and pain that we all lived with because of it would have ripped a hole in my ability to trust the universe if I hadn't decided to make myself the hero I needed. I say that if I do my work well enough I might contribute to enough social change that I'll put myself out of a job, but in practical reality, I don't think that will happen in my lifetime.

I digress. A few years after that, my mom admitted she had depression and went on disability leave from work because she was pretty damn bad. I remember when we got home after she'd picked me up from school one day, and while she was out of the house, her female friends had come to our house and gone to town on all the housework she'd been struggling to do (and then some; we knew things were different from the front door, because the floor of our mudroom sparkled in a way it never had before).

I remember it so much because I think it was only the second time in my life I'd seen her cry. Because it was so unexpected and such an amazing relief, this sense that someone else would step in and do the work for her. (Yes, my dad and older brothers and I pitched in, but everyone's expectations were that if the house was still standing at the end of our tenure it'd be a net win, and yes, I still feel ashamed for not having done more even if I logically couldn't have.)

This is part of what it means to say my gender is "farm wife". My ancestors were white settlers in western Canada, where farms were divided up in a grid pattern that guaranteed that homesteads would be pretty isolated. My grandmothers were children during the Great Depression. For their mothers, being a farmwife meant doing work their family depended on to survive, and knowing that until their oldest daughter got old enough, there was no one to do the work if they didn't. That sense of necessity lives in us still. My mom will endure a job she hates for ages, but feel unable to quit without having another one lined up. I still have "you do not have to fix it" on my phone lockscreen, because unsolved problems cry out to me in the voice of my terror when I was 13 and nobody was saving me.

The thought of coming home and finding my floor washed for me is so impossibly amazing I don't know how I'd even cope with it. The only person I can currently think of who'd actually do it is my mom. And she and I are still trying to sort out the toxic effects of this legacy, where we take on work because we feel we have to and then get angry when we aren't respected or rewarded for it, or try to avoid being the target of that anger by not asking for help we need. The thought of leaving work undone inspires such a deep, visceral level of fear and shame that it's hard to think around sometimes.

All of which helps me explain and understand my reflexive "Oh, fuck YOU" reaction to people who say that in the future robots will flip our burgers and burp our babies, but in the meantime, it's being corrupted by a neoliberal agenda to try to make the backbreaking work of ordinary people five pounds lighter. I am the enemy if I ever hire someone to wash the floor for me.

I'm not sure that "Oh, fuck you" response is bullshit, though. Like, I feel like I'm supposed to say that my ideological enemy is the capitalist boss who mandates workloads, not the edgelord tankie who sends hatemail to insufficiently radical "liberals", but this entire thought process has just helped me formulate why I hate those goddamn tankies so fucking much.

The work of defeating capitalism is important and real and more people need to be doing it. But it's stark raving idiocy to pretend that it's the most important work there is, because before it comes the work of keeping people alive. The work of keeping people fed and clothed and housed, healthy and well, connected and cared about. And I'm always thrilled when I get to do so in a manner that also resists capitalism, but if the only people helping me do that are capitalists, that is who I'm going to fucking ally with. Because the work needs to be done, and I would like to die without the family curse of never feeling able to trust that people will survive if you pause for one moment making my bones glow in the dark.

So if your only reaction to that is to say I should heroically struggle in ideologically pure isolation because Capitalism Bad but also in Big Rock Candy Communism my work won't be necessary so it's not like you feel any need to help me?

Yeah, you're my enemy. Get out of my fucking way.