#school killed all my energy to read and my time to draw

[namelessroyalraven]

Hey guys I’m still alive

Here’s a trc Ronan and Adam wip as proof

[srovtl]

(in here, a magic that connect hearts) Rutile SSR Card Story Translation

Translator note: This, and all the fifth anniversary card stories, reference each character’s affection story (which can be read here) and I recommend reading them beforehand.

What will you write in the report card - Episode 1

Akira: I'm looking forward to tasting Nero's cake. 

Rutile: Yeah. I'm getting hungry now.

(Crashing sound)

Akira, Rutile: Whoa!?

Akira: I-I just heard a loud noise...

Rutile: It's from outside, right? …..ah.

Bradley: I'm gonna blow your head right off!

Mithra: That is impossible. I'll kill you before that happens.

Looking out the window, Bradley and Mithra were fighting in the air with magical tools in their hands.

Bradley:《Adnopotence》

Mithra:《Arthim》

Gunshots rang out in the blue sky, and a giant ghost-like thing flew around in the sky.

Akira: (It's a familiar sight, but... it's still bad for my heart every time...!)

Meanwhile, gazing up at the same scene, Rutile leisurely smiled.

Rutile: Mister Mithra, you're in high spirits today too. Mister Bradley too.

Akira: Eh... I think that long surpassed the level of high energy?

Rutile: But that's just how Mithra and the Wizards of the North are. It's the same as me being carefree and Master Sage being kind.

Rutile smiled softly, as if watching over his students.

Rutile: Fighting is certainly scary. But if Mister Mithra and the others stopped fighting, wouldn't that be a bit worrying?

Akira: That's...certainly true...

Akira: Wha...?!

The impact shook the magic manor. The two's quarrel had not subsided, but rather became even more heated.

Akira: Snow and White are out, and Oz is away on a mission. We really had to stop them...!

Rutile: You're right. It's about time we called out to them.

Rutile opened the window and leaned out.

Rutile: Mister Mithra, Mister Bradley!

Mithra: Rutile?

Bradley: Ah!? Stay out of the way, you bastard!

Rutile: Sorry for interrupting your fight! Would you like a snack?

Mithra: …….

Mithra: Snacks?

Rutile: Mister Nero baked a cake using a new recipe.

Rutile: We're going to go try it now, and I was wondering if you two would like to join me.

Mithra: …….Now that I think of it, I'm a little hungry.

Bradley: What? Where are you going?!

With Bradley's yelling behind him, Mithra came flying in without a word. He swerved over the window frame and entered the hallway.

Bradley: Hey! ….hah…

Akira: (Ah... Bradley flew away. I guess the fight is over...)

Mithra: What kind of cake is it? Venison?

Rutile: It's an orange cake. Apparently they got a lot of fresh oranges at the market.

Rutile speaks with a cheerful voice, as cheerful as a spring breeze. Even though he has interrupted a northern wizard's fight, he doesn't seem shaken.

Akira: (Rutile is a young and energetic wizard, but maybe because he's a school teacher, he's more aware of these things than his age would suggest.)

Akira: (Come to think of it, I thought something similar when I interviewed him before…)

What will you write in the report card - Episode 2

A few days later, I happened to pop into the lounge...

Chloe: Rutile...

Mitile: nii-sama...

Chloe, Mitile: We're sorry!

Rutile: ……

Akira: (Huh? Chloe and Mitile are apologizing profusely to Rutile...?)

Akira: Umm, you three. Did something happen?

Chloe: Master Sage! You see, we were messing around and knocked over a glass...

Mitile: We spilled juice on the picture nii-sama was drawing...

When I looked at Rutile's hands, I saw orange splashes splashing all over the corner of the picture he was working on.

Chloe: I'm so sorry!

Mitile: I'm sorry, nii-sama!

As the two of them apologized profusely, Rutile frowned dramatically.

Rutile: I'm soo angry. You two are going to be punished.

Rutile: As a punishment... you have to draw with me!

Chloe, Mitile: ….!

Rutile: Now, bring the tools from my room. And two glasses of juice. One for the one you spilled, and one for Master Sage.

Mitile: Yes! Of course!

Chloe: I'm off now!

Rutile: Have a nice trip!

Rutile sent them off with a smile as they hurriedly left.

Akira: ...Um, Rutile. You're not actually angry, are you?

Rutile: Yeah. Not at all.

Akira: Then why did you punish them?

Rutile: I don't mind a stain this small, but Mitile and Chloe will probably be bothered by it.

Rutile: They're both kind, but when they're depressed, they tend to hold it in, so I thought it would be better for them to be properly punished so they could move on with a clear mind.

Akira: (It was a way of dealing with them that suited their personalities... He's really a teacher after all.)

Rutile: They were apologizing profusely, but I'm happy about this stain.

Rutile: The fact that they messed around and screwed up was proof that they had become close.

Looking down at the painting, Rutile smiled, embracing it. The way he looked at the newly formed stain was endlessly warm, like the sunlight.

But his clear eyes were not only kind, but also intelligent and fair.

Akira: (...I wonder what the magic manor looks like from Rutile's point of view.)

Akira: (I'd like to know how the magic manor looks through Rutile's eyes, like having a teacher write a report card.)

Akira: (I was also thinking about updating the contents of the sage's manual a bit…)

Akira: Rutile, I have a request.

Akira: I'd like to interview you again to write in the sage's manual. Is that okay?

Rutile: An interview? Of course, I'd be happy to.

Rutile: : How about tonight? I'll be waiting for you in my room.

What will you write in the report card - Episode 3

Rutile: Here you go. It's my favorite tea these days.

Akira: Thank you. Wow, what a nice smell...

Rutile: Hehe. It was like this in the last interview too.

Akira: That brings back memories. Even back then, I was really impressed by Rutile's kindness and strength.

Akira: It's been a while since then, and the Magic manor has changed a little, hasn't it?

Akira: That's why I wanted to know what Rutile thinks about the current manor.

Akira: In my world, there is a "report card" where teachers would give comments about your daily life, so that's how it feels...

Rutile: I see, that's the teacher's role. Well, I'll have to do my best!

Rutile: About the current magic manor...Hmmm...

Rutile: …………………..

Akira: ...Rutile? S-sorry, it's hard to answer right away.

Rutile: Ah. No, it's not that.

Rutile: I just thought about it a lot, and in the end, I think it comes down to "love".

Rutile shook his bright, sun-colored hair and laughed, as if ticklish.

Rutile: There are all kinds of people at the magic manor, so there are fights, people getting too excited, and all kinds of things happen every day.

Rutile: It's \the manor is always being turned upside down, it's always messy and disorganized, and things aren't going well...

Rutile: But that's why I cherish the time I spend here, and I love everyone who has shared that time with me.

Akira: Rutile...

My heart feels warm.

A lot has happened since I came here. We've clashed, stumbled, been hurt, helped each other, shared...

It felt like everything, all of it, made me smile. All of it was what we needed.

Akira: ….Thank you for your wonderful answer. I feel the same way as Rutile.

Rutile: Really? I'm so happy!

Rutile: But, since I'm here, I'd like to hear it in your own words, Master Sage.

Rutile: Master Sage, what do you think about the current state of the magic manor?

Looking at me with excited jade eyes, I think and try to find the words.

Akira: Ummm… There are many difficult things, but I love you all, even with all that.

Akira: ...And I hope that everyone who chose to remain here as a sage's wizard feels the same way...

Akira: That's why I was so happy when Rutile said that to me earlier.

Rutile: Master Sage...

Rutile smiled slowly, dazzlingly, and took my hand.

Rutile: I'll say it again and again. I love this place, all of you, Master Sage.

Rutile: Please write that in your report card in the sage's manual.

Akira: ...Yes, I'll write it down!

I nodded vigorously and shook Rutile's hand.

I hope that we will continue to make many more wonderful memories, like a stain on a painting.

I can only say because it’s now - Card Episode

Akira: Rutile, thank you for answering the interview for the sage's manual the other day.

Akira: It's not really a continuation of what we did back then, but is there anything you can tell me because it's now?

Rutile: Hmm. I say what I think right away, so I can't really think of anything.

Rutile: Oh, that's right. On the other hand, is there anything you would like to say, Master Sage? Something you can say to me because it's now.

Akira: Huh? Hmm, let's see… it's not  really because it's now but...

Akira: When I first met you, I thought you were a fragile type based on your overall vibe.

Rutile: Huh! Really? I've never been told that in my hometown. Maybe it's because we've all known each other since we were little?

Rutile: ...But I guess I'm fragile...

Rutile: ...Nice to meet you, Master Sage.

Akira: Oh! That was exactly the image I had in mind!

Rutile: Really? I was making an impression of Heath just now. I'll keep it up.

Rutile: My favorite thing is rain!

Rutile: Oh no. I'm too energetic.

Rutile: Something more like, pretty and gentle... Elegant, Rain…

Rutile: What do you think, Master Sage?

Akira: Perfect! ephemeral!

Rutile: Yay! I got the Sage's "ephemeral"!

Akira: (Contrary to my first impression, I really like how energetic and easy going he is…)

Homescreen voiceline

Promises are chains that can restrict our lives, but at the same time, I want to believe that they can be something that enriches our lives. I will do my best to make that a believable reality.

[vitaminseetarot]

PAC Pick a Palette: One Small Thing That Will Help You Grow ☕🌞💴

Welcome back to my pick a card readings! This time we're looking at the time between our New Moon sowing and our Full Moon flowering. At this stage of the magic making process, work has gone underway to build upon the seed that was germinated and growth happens. Soon it will reveal the peak of its work through the flower, but before then the stem and leaves also deserve attention. They're the ones helping to power the whole thing!

It's important, then, to look at what you're using and where you are in the process. Not everything is meant to grow at the same rate, but sometimes the right ingredients like plant food or pruning clippers can do an incredible job at providing a needed boost.

Pick one of these three color palette swatches to find out what you can add or remedy to assist the growth of your own magic!

(Forgive me if the spread out looks a bit funky this time, it's all about finding the part of the house with the best natural lighting!)

Pile 1: Coffee Beans

Draw: Four of Wands; Queen of Pentacles, Page of Wands, Death 18 - Communication, Aries Rising - Act, Heartsease - Compassion "Tread a little more tenderly."

You need more space to grow whatever it is you're creating. A bird can try to lay an egg without a nest, but it's never going to be easy. Building a sturdy nest increases the young's chance of survival. You should try considering the space in which you're using to create your project or desire: are you writing a novel in a cluttered room, or cooking a meal when you can't find half of your measuring cups and saucepans? Are you meditating in a place where it's difficult to tune out the background noise?

Four of Wands talks about creating the space for you to thrive like the corn in Queen of Pentacles. The Queen is able to cultivate her garden in peace and certainty that abundance is hers. You are meant to take what it is you're doing and allow it to grow, so the Queen is being quite literal here. But she wants you to do it from a place of joy and enthusiasm instead of dread.

The Page is fired up from drinking coffee and is ready to go. But you must be in a place of ease with yourself to do this. Your message is to act upon your growth, but do it from a gentle place and at a gentle pace. Do not try to over exert yourself when you do have the space to practice or create. Do not try, for example, to squeeze 45 minutes of exercise into 5 minutes, thinking that it's all the time you're allowed, so why not go overboard, amiright? This is the fast lane to killing what you're growing and your joy for it, pile 1, and what you're growing is still in a very delicate stage. You have time to work out the details, so don't rush this. Heartease was the first card to pop out and the only card to jump, so it's really emphasizing the need to be careful with how you spend your time and energy.

The Communication card is the only one that really stands out to me. Perhaps what you're developing has to do with communications. Writing a book, preparing a speech, blogging, interview, etc. but it could also have to do with growing your connections with other people through how you communicate. You could be rekindling an old friendship from school or meeting someone for coffee? In any case, Compassion is the keyword here. Be gentle and ready to listen more to feedback, while creating a safe space for your friend or colleague to communicate clearly with you. This is a meetup you'll want to act upon, but do so from a place of kindness.

Also for some reason, maybe it's because I heard the song recently while out, but Tom Petty's "Free Fallin" is in my head while typing your reading and only your reading. Argh, such an earworm! If this person you're meeting up with hurt your heart in some way way back in the past… yeah it's cool to be on the defensive, assert your boundaries. Heartease, however, still asks that you treat this situation with diplomacy.

Pile 2: Radiance

Draw: Eight of Wands; Queen of Pentacles, King of Swords, Knight of Pentacles 19 - Healing Grief, Pisces Rising - Dream, Wisteria - Longevity "Plan for and take the dedicated path."

You have some similarities to pile 1, so if you were interested in that pile I recommend checking it out for messages. For starters, you have Queen of Pentacles in the exact same space on your spread, so that tells me there's a lot of collective push for undertaking rapid growth at this time. The Queen does it from an appearance of near effortlessness, but it's not without considerable effort on her part. She's able to handle a lot with grace and consistency.

It seems like in your cards, pile 2, you're pretty solid when it comes to growing towards your goals. You've become used to trucking along without must reprieve, as if it's from one thing to another as smoothly as the train cars pass the railroad crossing. You're being asked to remember about the power of momentum, and about the little things that add up. Think of how a bird takes off. When it starts flapping, it flaps hard. Once it's high in the sky, it spreads out and soars with ease. It requires a lot of steady pushing, one flap at a time, but eventually when it takes off it gains more speed than ever.

Again like with pile 1, you have all the time you need to make your dreams grow and flourish. Just don't be surprised if this takes a rather long time to accomplish. The Queen of Pentacles is less interested in quantity or time efficiency as she is in quality. It's not that she isn't punctual, far from it, but she and the Knight know that the best fruits are ones that ripen when they're ready to. You're being encouraged to plan for the long term, with wise judgement as the King of Swords suggests, and to open yourself up to envisioning more brilliant avenues to fly through. Imagine what would make your heart soar, and grow that instead of something that you merely feel "obligated" to do. Great things can take time, but it'll be completely worth the wait.

Also, my sun catcher reflected a rainbow perfectly on the osprey in this Eight of Wands card, it's nice. There is a radiance that comes from taking time to grow something to how you want it to be, like the bird with its fish catching talents (it can pluck them right out of the water and fly around boasting its catch). Your skills will shine here, just be sure to care for yourself in the meantime.

Pile 3: Perfect Penny

Draw: Nine of Wands; II High Priestess, XIV Temperance, Seven of Wands 25 - Truth, Taurus Moon - Relax, Belladonna - Silence "Listen more and quiet be."

So this was an interesting spread because at first I couldn't tell if the message was to hold on or let go. Maybe that's your current dilemma when it comes to growth. And it's a valid one, cause it's a lot like the pruning stage. You have to decide which leaves are valuable to your health, and which leaves are dead and must be clipped away.

The penny is like… saving a wishing penny for a rainy day. You're on the defense with Nine of Wands. Do I use this penny now to accomplish this, you ask, or I should I save it for later when I might use it for something else? Nine of Wands is a lot of energy being deliberately held back for a reason, like an arrow ready to fire. It could be that you're maybe putting a little too much perfectionism into the idea. What you're growing has not yet been grounded into the material world, it's still a passion idea or a fire in your heart but you're holding it back. But Nine of Wands is also a Sagittarius card, doubly so since Sagittarius is the 9th sign. The requirement here for growth is pushing forward with optimism that your wish will not go to waste. There's an energy of perfectionism here especially as it took me exactly nine photos before I settled for this one. I finally decided it didn't have to be perfect, it just had to feel ok enough!

My first reaction was to say "trust your gut and you'll learn to balance the give and take," then High Priestess and Temperance came out together! Somewhere inside you already know what it is you would like to do with "the penny" of an idea you're casting into the wishing well. You don't have to overthink this. It's a matter of coming from a heart-centered place of Truth. Belladonna is showing you how to tap into your intuition: "listen more, silent be." Listen closely to what your heart is wishing to do. Balance this out with how others may perceive your goals or growth. There may be people who say something like, "you're going to use what you got on 'that'?" or "are you really sure that's what you want to do?"

It takes practice to choose from a place of intuitive open mindedness, but it will reward you in this case. You're being reminded to stay relaxed and steady about this. Making the next move doesn't have to come from a place of high pressure or unneeded stress, even if it's time sensitive. But by learning to listen to your intuition more, the part that tells you how to proceed from a place of optimism within reason, you'll be able to more quickly expand and grow upon what it is you're creating. With penny's copper corresponding to Venus as well as Taurus moon, it's suggested here that you could receive monetary or financial growth through this, as well.

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2023, @VitaminseeTarot ™

[lifmera]

Hey there, I would like a male! hazbin hotel match-up please!

I go by Devil Lily on all platforms I use and I normally use any pronouns.

My nickname is Rabbit.(Don't ask why.)

I am aromantic but the type that still fawns over fictional characters because let's be honest there's not a lot of good people to be in a relationship with in my opinion.

Personality: I'm very sarcastic but the chill type like you can clearly hear it in my voice. I'm considered the "mom/millennial" of the group. The mom comes from my therapist mind and the millennial is because of the music I listen to and my grunge style. But I'm very good with tech and photography/graphic design. I have a temper but I bottle it up and take it out on my brother instead. (I don't like having a temper tantrum in public with either someone important with me or my peers/guests.) He's an asshole to be honest and is an alcoholic which pisses me off so bad. Lastly, I have a lot of PTSD and trauma and I won't go into detail because that will lead to trauma dumping.

Hobbies: reading, drawing, writing (pen and paper), listening to music, photography/tech work, and cooking.

Random facts: I'm a Sagittarius(I don't really believe in astrology though but I do study it) I don't like alcohol (mainly what happens when people get drunk and how they act, same with drugs.) I'm considered to be hypersexual according to my friends and my doctor too. (Which causes problems being aromantic) I hate the radio, I have ever since I was a kid. (Because of the amount of ads and the "podcasts" that are so f**king stupid!) I like butterflies/moths (They follow me like I'm a beacon of light for some reason.) I took fashion designing in high school and I still do designs for a friend of mine and helped her start her business in the fashion world.) I sit on my brother's ribs whenever he comes home drunk and try to break them. (If something pisses me off then I'll either kill it or break it.)

That's it. Sorry if this isn't enough info and please reach out if you need more.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and feel free to delete if you're busy, I'll understand.

HELLO HUNNN!! thank you for requesting ! I got you !

Your matchup is......... Vox!

Now you see... I have good reason!

You both totally match each other's energy,,, like,, almost all the time.

He loves when you are sarcastic a lot, since he tends to be too. like peas in a pod, although just don't be too much. Vox can get annoyed quickly.

he loves the fact you are the "mom" of the friend group, although he isn't the biggest fan of having everyone take up your time..... he also needs a mom of the friend group to cry to.

BIGGEST fan of your style and music! he'd find it so interesting and intriguing. although he'd say his is better. (he'll sneak in some of your songs onto his broadcasting series....)

He wouldn't be the biggest supporter on bottling up your feelings and taking it out on someone; cause he does the same thing. you both need to go to rage rooms. (so do I!)

He wouldn't ask for depth on traumas; but he would 100% respect your boundaries.

if you wrote/read/drew while he was working on stuff? he'd love it! he loves having a quiet place to work and he'll also be able to relax at the same time with you in the room! (I personally believe he's super possessive.)

He would hate on the radio with you. even if you didn't care much for alastor....

If you helped out the Vee's? with fashion designing? already part of the gang! they'd all love you.

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Thank you for requesting ! I'm sorry this took so long </3

I love you all!

[thenukacolachallenge]

OC Bio: Urami Yamikiri

A character bio for my Jujutsu Kaisen OC, Urami! Spoilers for the story up to the Shibuya arc below!

GENERAL INFO:

Full Name: Urami Yamikiri(Family-name first: Yamikiri Urami) Gender: Female Universes: Jujutsu Kaisen Age: 27(at the time of the Shibuya Incident) Place of Birth: Kyoto, Japan Birthday: November 11, 1990 Star Sign: Scorpio Species/Race: Human Languages: Japanese Sexuality: Bisexual Occupation: Third-year instructor at Jujutsu High Faction: Jujutsu sorcerers Grade: Grade One sorcerer Status: Alive

APPEARANCE:

Faceclaim: n/a(none yet) Body Build: slim but athletic, with some visible muscle Height: 5'10"(178cm) Weight: 140lbs Skin Color: Pale(she GOTH) Hair Style: Ponytail is her signature style. As a high school student, she has straight fringe, and wears her hair in a high ponytail. As a teacher, her bangs are longer and more face-framing, and she wears her ponytail low. Hair Color: Black with red undertones Eye Color: Brown Prominent features: Permanently angry looking face, even when she's not angry Body Modifications: lots of ear piercings Personal Style: Gothic. as a student she is more traditional goth, wearing all black, with fishnets and combat boots. As an adult, outside of her school uniform, she has more of a whimsigoth style: still mostly black clothes and lots of fishnets and boots, but a lot more long flowing skirts, big cardigans, and generally more laid back in style.

FIGHTING ATTRIBUTES:

Combat Style: Good at all types(close, mid, ranged) Cursed Technique: Tarot card-based combat and manipulation Abilities/Skills: Can use her tarot cards imbued with cursed energy like throwing knives, as well as bring the cards to "life" and use weapons/abilities based on what cards she draws Field of expertise: Teaching. She's a capable fighter but better at drawing others' potential out of them. Strengths: fighting crowds, providing backup, leading the charge Weaknesses: her colleagues and students getting hurt Weapons: her body and her cards

PERSONALITY:

Traits: Calm, rational, strategic, agreeable, dependable Flaws: Extreme pride, stubborn, refuses to let go of grudges/the past

RELATIONSHIPS:

Family: Yamikiri Clan Friends/Allies: Jujutsu sorcerers, Jujutsu High students, Kento Nanami, Satoru Gojo(in the AU where she marries Kento), Shoko Ieiri, Suguru Geto(former), Love Interest/Crush: Satoru Gojo(engaged by the events of the Shibuya Incident)/Kento Nanami(AU, married by the events of the Shibuya Incident), Suguru Geto(former, fling in high school), Hiromi Higuruma(post-events of the manga) Enemies: Cursed spirits(especially Mahito), Suguru Geto(the events of JJK0), Kenjaku(The Shibuya Incident onwards), Sukuna Ryomen, Jujustu society's higher ups

OTHER INFORMATION:

School enrollment method: Family lineage Likes: Training, teaching, drinking, savory food, spending quality time with loved ones, fashion Dislikes: Satoru Gojo(when he's being annoying on purpose), her loved ones getting hurt, annoying people, curse users who aren't sorcerers, arriving late anywhere, overly sweet foods Hobbies: self-improvement, meditation, physical training, reading Goals: To make her students' time at school better than hers ever was Habits: Angry foot tapping, shuffling decks of cards into the faces of people that annoy her Fears: Losing her loved ones, her students getting hurt or killed Voiceclaim: none yet Playlist: none yet! Trivia: Her favorite food is spicy seafood ramen, and her least favorite foods are sweets. She has an alcohol tolerance just below Kento and Shoko's. She is currently the only sorcerer from her class still alive(with Kento and Yu Haibara being her direct classmates)

BACKGROUND:

Urami was born into the Yamikiri Clan, a clan of curse users that recently(within the last 200 years) defected to become sorcerers(with a rift; some of the clan broke off and still are just curse users), who are known for being able to use divination tools as weapons in their sorcery. They're a fairly powerful clan, although not nearly on the same level as the major three clans, or even other smaller clans like the Inumaki clan. Urami was born with the innate ability to draw out power from tarot cards, and although it is a powerful ability, is it not the clan's signature technique, going to a boy in her clan around her age. Because of this, Urami is constantly overlooked as a sorcerer in her family, and this instills a strong drive in her to improve her abilities from a young age. Out of spite alone, she becomes one of the stronger sorcerers in the clan before even attending her first year of school.

Urami is enrolled in her first year at Tokyo Jujutsu High along with Kento Nanami and Yu Haibara, both of who are intimidated by her at first because of her naturally intense facial expression and dark clothing and makeup. She is much stronger than both of the boys in her class, and through helping them train, she discovers her love for teaching others and her natural ability to help people reach their potential. She becomes very close to the two boys over the course of their time together.

At some point in her first few weeks, she meets the second year students, among them Satoru Gojo. She of course knows who he is; every sorcerer does, and she was often told growing up that she would likely be going to school with him, and that he was the strongest. She immediately challenges him to a fight, wanting to test her skills against his(she knows she likely will not win, but she wants to see where she stands against him regardless). He doesn't take her seriously at all, and instead chooses to flirt with her, asking her to agree to a date when(not if, when) she loses the fight. This enrages her and puts her off of being too friendly to Satoru, and in the fight she even manages to get a few hits off on him, which mildly impresses him. He still wins, and she's now more determined to defeat him specifically than anyone in her own clan, finally recognizing how small she was thinking about being the top of just her clan alone.

As the school year continues, she continues to grow closer to her schoolmates. She becomes noticeably softer in both demeanor and tone with Kento and Yu, and tends to be the middle ground between Yu's boundless optimism and Kento's intense pessimism. She even becomes friends with the upperclassmen, becoming very close to Shoko Ieiri and even developing a mostly friendly (one-sided)rivalry between herself and Satoru, although she still dislikes his abrasive personality and constant flirting.

She is not initially super close to Suguru Geto(not for any particular reason, they just don't interact much at first), but she does respect his calm demeanor, and they share a lot of similar worldviews on the places of sorcerers in society at large. After they go on a successful mission together, they connect more, and end up hooking up together unexpectedly. Urami however is not looking for a relationship in school, too focused on becoming a better sorcerer, and doesn't want people to find out, especially Satoru, who'd never let either of the two live it down. Suguru agrees to keep their night together a secret, and that's the only time it happens.

Urami is at school fighting the Fly Heads Toji Fushiguro unleashes during the assassination of the Star Plasma Vessel that Suguru and Satoru are charged with protecting. Urami vividly remembers this day as the end of her happy times at Jujutsu High, and the events that follow are what inspire her to become a teacher: she wants other students to have an easier time at school, and wants to help them to become strong enough to protect each other.

Over the next year following the assassination, she becomes despondent over the fact that Satoru now completely outclasses her, and it causes her to withdraw into only spending time with her own classmates for the most part. She is riddled with grief when she and Kento are unable to save Yu Haibara from the misgraded curse. Kento falls into a deep despair after, and Urami spends much of her time making sure he eats, sleeps, and takes care of himself. At one point, he snaps at her, asking how she can function after losing their classmate, and her facade of being put together crumbles, and she explains that she has to be strong for her remaining classmate. The two become even closer after that and refuse to run solo missions after that, becoming more reliant upon each other.

Because Urami is so busy with her own feelings, she doesn't notice Suguru's descent into madness, and is with Shoko when they find out he killed an entire village of normal people. Both of the girls confront him, and Urami stays after Shoko calls Gojo and leaves. Suguru notices Satoru approaching and decides to use that moment to bring up the night he and Urami had in front of him, as a manipulation tactic to fracture their friendship. Urami is upset at him doing so and runs away, crying. Satoru tries to ask her about it but she refuses to discuss it with him, and he finally stops flirting with her after that, realizing she truly isn't interested in him romantically.

When Urami and Kento graduate, and Kento decides to leave the world of jujutsu sorcery, Urami does not take it well, telling him she hates him and will never speak to him again. Even after his return, four years later, she refuses to speak to him, and actively tells people to not talk about him with her around.

Satoru and Urami both become instructors at the school around the same time, with Urami being put in charge of third-year students following Yaga's promotion to principal, and Satoru in charge of first-year students. Urami is annoyed at first(and remains annoyed at Gojo's less-than-stellar teaching methods), but she becomes much closer to him as a coworker than the two ever were as classmates. She finds she agrees with him about a lot of things, including the current power imbalances in the world of jujutsu sorcery(though she does not share his wish to kill all the higher-ups), and his desire for their students' happiness.

Around the time of the events of JJK0, Urami and Satoru start spending more time together between classes, even spending time at each others' homes. It's taken them both many years, but they're finally able to speak about things from the past, including the incident with Suguru trying to fracture their friendship. Satoru admits he was jealous of Suguru, and that he still finds her attractive, but he realized after that, that she really wasn't interested in him. Urami is sad from this revelation, but she doesn't fully understand why.

Even though Yuta Okkotsu isn't yet her student, she is very concerned for his wellbeing after his enrollment to Jujutsu High, and is extremely annoyed by Gojo throwing him to the wolves with no training almost immediately. She's also extremely concerned as Suguru Geto returns to cause trouble, knowing his strength quite well, and knowing he wouldn't be planning something he didn't think he could win.

On the evening of the Night Parade, she is in Shinjuku with Satoru, principal Yaga, and her students. When Satoru sends Toge Inumaki and Panda back to the school, Urami requests to be sent back with them, but Satoru asks her to trust him and send them alone, and she hesitates for a second before agreeing. She doesn't return to the school until Gojo does later, and witnesses Suguru Geto's death. She is overcome with grief for her old friend, and realizes she has to make things right with her old classmate, Kento Nanami. Satoru teleports her to Kyoto where Kento has been fighting the curses unleashed by Geto and his cult, and she reunites and apologizes to him. Kento is just happy his friend wants to speak to him again, and they make up fairly quickly, flying back to Tokyo together.

On the flight back home, Urami also realizes she's in love with Satoru, and has been for a while, but just didn't understand her feelings before. She makes a brief stop to pick up some sweets for him, and drops by unannounced to his home, which she never does. He's surprised but happy to see her, and while he's distracted by the sweets and his back is turned to her, she wraps her arms around his waist and confesses her feelings to him, getting self conscious at the last second and telling him she understands if he's moved on. He of course has not, and tells her so, and they begin a relationship.

Between that point and the start of the main story, Satoru proposes to Urami in secret. He wants to marry her, but not until he's able to keep the higher-ups from targeting her should they announce their engagement. She wears the ring he gets her on a necklace under her school uniform.

Much like with Yuta, Urami is very concerned for the wellbeing of Yuji Itadori after he becomes Sukuna's vessel and becomes enrolled at the school. She is very upset when he dies and overjoyed with his revival. She agrees to keep his revival a secret along with Shoko, Ijichi, and Nanami.

She is very concerned at the appearance of the special-grade curses, especially Mahito. Being close to Kento, he confides in her that he finds a young girl being held captive in the sewers by the patchwork curse(that girl being Chiyo Yoshida, another OC of mine!), but she refused to come with him, and they check the girl's house for evidence of how she ended up down there, and to check on her grandmother and cat as the girl requested before running away from Nanami. She takes the girl's cat, Momo, to take care of him, hoping they are able to rescue her and reunite her with her pet.

Urami is with Satoru when he reveals Yuji's still alive, and supervises along with the other school faculty for the Exchange Event. She's extremely distressed by the intervention of the cursed spirits and does her best to return to her students side. She begins doing tarot readings to see if she cant find some insight into what the curses are planning, but keeps drawing the Death and Tower cards.

In Shibuya during the Incident, Urami is on her own, a backup for Satoru Gojo, much like Mei Mei and Ui Ui. She finds out he's gotten sealed at the same time most people do, when she hears Yuji shouting it from the rooftops. She's able to fight through the transfigured humans to get to the lower levels of the terminal, but she runs into Mahito, and Chiyo Yoshida(my other OC), and fighting both of them on her own proves to be too much. She manages to escape with a smokescreen attack, and leaves to find backup, eventually running into second-year student Panda and her fellow teacher, Atsuya Kusakabe, as they're trying to find B5 to get to Gojo(or, more accurately, where Kusakabe is misleading Panda in order to avoid going to B5).

Before the group can decide on a course of action between fighting Mahito and making their way to Gojo, the remnants of Suguru Geto's former cult arrive to accost them, and then Jogo and Sukuna's battle interrupts both groups, and the ensuing fight buries her under the rubble of the city along with Kusakabe.

The group manages to reconvene and head to the final showdown with the man piloting Suguru Geto's corpse, with Urami and Kusakabe protecting Miwa Kasumi from the Uzumaki make of Mahito's absorbed cursed energy. Urami, like the others, is not able to counter Not-Geto, nor Uraume's ice powers, and is unable to prevent the duo from leaving.

In the aftermath of the Shibuya Incident, Urami becomes extremely disillusioned with the world of jujutsu sorcery, but continues to play the dutiful teacher role, though she finally understands her fiance Satoru's desire to kill the higher ups after their declarations of his and Yuji's execution. She is able to get Chiyo Yoshida enrolled as a student, the final student Yaga is able to enroll before his own execution sentence. She introduces the girl to the students still around and conscious post-Shibuya: Maki, Megumi, Yuta, and Inumaki, before continuing her duties as a teacher and a sorcerer. On the side, she speaks privately to Yuta about saving Yuji's life and stopping the upcoming Culling Game the sorcerer Kenjaku is planning. AND IM ANIME ONLY SO THATS ALL I GOT FOR NOW LMFAO

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[campbyler]

okay I collapsed…

Was expecting a masterpiece but thea you really outdid yourself with this one.

I was already freaking out reading the first half of the chapter, but the second half had me floored. Just in case you have the audacity to doubt your excellence, I come with receipts.

to clarify I was lying down the entire time… (this was taken a few mins after i finished the chapter so yes that final jump was in fact cuz of that last part)

i loveeed the car stuff, MIKE TRUSTING WILL WITH THE CAR AND WILL BEING ALL SKXKJSKXIS WHILE ALSO FREAKING OUT LOVEEE THEM

THE PERCY JACKSON MENTION LOWKEY KILLED ME, SO TRUE

the Starry Night Over the Rhône is actually one of my fav Van Goghs as well, got it on my wall at home

I also just maybe happened to wear a comfy oversized Van Gogh hoodie while reading this💀

OKAY BACK TO THE TWO IDIOTS IN LOVE

THE SKETCHES AND POOR JADE, MIKE BEING “JEALOUS” ISTG HE’S INSUFFERABLE.

ALSO I FEEL LIKE HE’S ABOUT TO START GETTING DRAWINGS FROM WILL REGULARLY AFTER THIS.

WILL BYERS IS SO FUCKING DOWN BAD THAT IM GEN SCARED FOR HIS WELL BEING BUT GOOD FOR HIM

NO HIS BRAIN IS GENUINELY NOT FUNCTIONING ANYMORE, BUT IT’S OKAY CUZ NEITHER IS MINE AFTER THIS

SPEAKING OF ME NEVER RECOVERING, THE WAITRESS AND MIDDLE SCHOOL SWEETHEARTS MIKE WHEELER WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

THE PHOTOBOOTH!!!! SOMEONE DRAW THOSE PICS ASAP IT’S A NECESSITY. DEF ONE OF MY FAV PARTS OF THIS CHAPTER

ALSO SOMEONE IS SOOOOO ABOUT TO FIND THOSE PICS

honestly I cant even comment on that last part other than im deceased and a lil bit stressed.

IM KIDDING I CAN COMMENT THEA WTF. WILL AFTER REALIZING HE’S BEEN ON A DATE WITH MIKE WHEELER THIS ENTIRE TIME, YOU’RE A LIL BIT LATE BESTIE BUT ALL FORGIVEN

ALSO HE’S SO IN LOVE I FEEL SO SINGLE LIFE IS CRUEEEEL

*PLAYS BABY BY JUSTIN BIEBER*

OH GOD MIKE IN THE NEXT CHAPTER??? SUNI GOOD LUCK AND SEE YA SOON CANT WAIT

ris this entire thing is INSANE which is a very appropriate energy to have to match the insanity of 9.2 <3 from the heart rate to the VAN GOGH SHIRT (and the great taste of preferring the rhône) this has gone down in history as one of my fave comments we have ever received!!!!!! can't wait for you to see what suni has in store for ch10 (spoiler alert: she is also insane)

[sizzlingchaosprince]

|ɪɴᴛʀᴏᴅᴜᴄᴛɪᴏɴ|

Hello! You can call me whatever you like, I just don't know how to call myself and not be cringy XD. Also, I don't speak English well since I'm Kazakh.

In this blog I'll sometimes draw(I'll maybe draw like a toddler, especially when it comes to shades but I'm still learning) and mostly write on my own if I have the energy and I don't have any requests. This is my first time doing such thing so I'm really excited and worried at the same time :')

I'll ask you to be specific on what you request, not just "____ x reader??". I'm just worried about writing/drawing something you won't like and I'm not full of ideas sometimes.

|ʀᴜʟᴇs ꜰᴏʀ ʀᴇǫᴜᴇsᴛɪɴɢ|

What I WILL write and draw?

• SFW, fluff. It'll be one of the most common things I'll do in this blog

• Angst. I'm okay with depression and self-harm stuff, but DO NOT cross the line

• Yandere stuff, but I'll write/draw without g0re things except some bl00d spots in drawings(but be sure that I'm not good in drawing liquid, especially when it leaks down) and mentions of bl00d and dead c0rpses in writings

• Romantic and platonic writings and drawings, however for some characters I'll accept ONLY PLATONIC requests

• School crushes of child character x child!reader. It'll contain ABSOLUTELY INNOCENT THINGS like holding hands or hugging. I'll put warnings on the characters I'll write such thing

• Drawings and writings as birthday gifts. I can ignore some rules for a birthday gift(I'll write what exactly I'll ignore and which rules I'll still keep), but keep in mind that I'm a human who still has limits and feelings

• Oneshots. But please be specific on what you want

• Character x OC. Again, be specific: what your OC is like, their character, ect.

• The reader of ANY gender. I don't know some genders so I'll do some research on the internet. If you don't like the way I described them, don't be scared to mention it. Even though I write and draw for free, I still want everyone to be comfortable with what I do

• Write/draw 3 characters MAXIMUM. I find it difficult to write and draw multiple characters since I need imagination and energy to do it

What I WILL NOT write and draw?

• NSFW content. I read some of NSFW fanfics, but I'm not quite comfortable with writing it myself

• Character x Character. Exception for birthday kids BUT I don't wanna draw kissing scenes unless it's censored. For example, the scene is censored with a fan

• Any sensitive topics like r@pe and p£d0philia. It's just really one of the worst things I would never write or even think about. Aging up child characters counts as one of sensitive topics since it still means that you're attracted to a child

• Too much g0re. I'm okay with horror movies and games like Poppy Playtime, but I don't feel like writing/drawing it in details

• Change the character's original sexuality. It comes without any exceptions. I respect everyone and every sexuality, including fictional characters

• Poly relationship(Character x reader x character). I don't know how to write it and to be safe and not feel any guilt I won't take any requests relating to this topic

|ꜰᴀɴᴅᴏᴍs ɪ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ/ᴅʀᴀᴡ ꜰᴏʀ|

WARNING: THE CHARACTERS MAY NOT HAVE THEIR CANONICAL PERSONALITY, BUT YOU STILL CAN WRITE COMMENTS ABOUT ANY OF MY ERRORS

• Villainous

5.0.5 is PLATONIC ONLY, everyone else can get ROMANTIC and PLATONIC requests

• FNaF: Security Breach/Security Breach: RUIN

Animatronics will be PLATONIC if the reader will be a human since I'm not pretty sure about robot x human thing. I don't mind writing ROMANTIC stuff if it'll be robot x robot

NO WILLIAM AFTON/SPRINGTRAP/GLITCHTRAP/ANY OTHER -TRAP! I haven't watched all FNaF chapters so the only thing I know surely about William is that he killed children

Gregory can have a school crush on child!reader. But mostly, I'll take only platonic requests

• Brawl Stars

I don't even know about "robot x robot" rule here since Rico has a crush on Piper and maybe other robots have something like that too. I think I'll take human x robot requests but still be thoughtful about what you're asking for. Children are PLATONIC ONLY, exception will be only for teenagers who are old enough to have a school crush

• Poppy Playtime(3 chapters)

I'll do PLATONIC ONLY for Poppy since she is a small doll for children: it's hard for me to see her as a romantic possibility.

As for Smiling Critters, Huggy Wuggy, Mommy Long Legs and ect I'll do ROMANTIC and PLATONIC but without shipping them with human!reader.

• Bendy and the Ink Machine/Dark Revival

Small Bendy will be PLATONIC ONLY since he literally acts and looks like a child. But I don't mind writing ROMANTIC stories for Ink Demon.

• Bendy and Boris: The Quest for The Ink Machine

Everyone can be ROMANTIC and PLATONIC since they've reached 18, but the exception will be Jackpot, any mentioned child and Boris: they're PLATONIC ONLY, but Boris can have a school crush since he's 12 . Felix is staying with his original sexuality: homosexual

• Better Half

I never saw any ____x reader works with this fandom so I wanted to start doing one! Everyone can be PLATONIC and ROMANTIC. I'll consider drawing poly relationship with Happy and Depressed Thiu.

|ᴍᴀsᴛᴇʀʟɪsᴛ|

I'll add characters and link for my works here. Be free to request me anything, but still following the rules. If I haven't answered your request for 3 weeks, consider it as a declare. But if I'll write a note that I'm going to disappear for ___ time your request being answered is still an option. Changes in what fandoms I'll write/draw for and change of rules are possible

Poppy Playtime:

The Toy's favorite Child: PLATONIC Cat Nap x child!reader

ᴛʜᴀɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰᴏʀ ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ɴɪᴄᴇ ᴅᴀʏ/ɴɪɢʜᴛ!❤️✨

[blizzardrush]

Experiments with Sleep in Russia

                                  Dragunov Week Day 1: Origins

Welcome to my entries to Dragunov Week! These were written in response to seven prompts issued by @dragunovweek1. 

Content warnings for this story: body horror, canon-typical violence, and references to bullying. 

Can be read here or on AO3.

Please enjoy, like, and leave comments! Thank you for reading!

                                           1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7

                                               -  -  -

    Your name is Sergei Alexandrovich Dragunov, you are nineteen, and you see patterns where others do not.

    That's why your favorite subject in school was science -- after physical education, of course. Science is about patterns. Observing them, testing how they work, coming to conclusions. Methodical, delineated steps. You like those, and things that involve those. Sometimes you think you would like a career in science. Biology, maybe. Get your hands dirty. You like that too.

    But that would involve going back to school, and that's a hard sell. It's not a question of coursework difficulty. It's your fellow students.

    You see patterns, and you know when you don't fit in them. Your silence, your scars are enough to draw the scrutiny of your peers. Some do not like what they find. Your mere existence gives them cause to hate. To them, you are a cockroach.

    Very well.

    Your carapace is defiance -- you will not be made a victim. Your eyes are compound -- this is not your first fight. Your claws are sharp -- your right to life will not be torn away.

    They can stamp on you all they wish. You have survived worse. They are soft and easily broken.

    When the dust and lawsuits issued by parents settle, you wear your bruises with pride.

    You do not go to university. Even if your grades were sufficient, you don't want to go. You've had your fill of so-called colleagues.

    The army is happy to have you instead. It's an adjustment, like any major life change, but you adapt. Strict routines and discipline are the same, whether in boot camp or a laboratory. You come to like your training.

    Three-quarters into basic, you find the opportunity to do some science too.

                                                      -  -  -

    No one has slept well in over two weeks.

    You could chalk it up to a number of reasons. Your drill sergeants certainly do. Stress, of course. Strenuous schedules. Guts and bowels conditioning themselves to military cuisine. Your superiors take the opportunity to call you lazy and weak.

    But you see patterns, and you know something is wrong.

    You observe who's the testiest at mealtimes, the slowest at practice, the yellowest, crustiest around the eye. The deprived live in the same buildings, though not all are targeted at once. The insomnia travels in waves. Something is letting them recoup their energy before striking again. Something is farming your fellows.

    It can't go on. Someone is going to be drained to the breaking point. The cracks are going to crumble completely. There have already been four fistfights in the mess hall. Hypothesis: someone is going to seek refuge in the barrel of a gun than continue enduring this torment, possibly taking out others in the process in what they see as a mercy.

    You don't want to wait for results. You're training to kill people, yes, but you'd rather they deserve it.

    You wait instead until it's your barracks' turn for reaping. Curfew has come and gone. You should be in your bunk, but you're not. You're hiding in the bathroom ceiling, courtesy of a loose panel that didn't fit in. The only light is the glow of your watch. 0217 hours. Go time.

    You drop to the floor as quietly as possible and sink to your belly. You crawl like a cockroach, innocuous, from linoleum to wood scuffed with years of boot-prints. You do not want to draw the attention of whatever is making everyone's lives hell.

    You follow the scent of graveyard dirt.

    What you find skews everything you thought you knew.

    She is the product of a mad sculptor given clay of human tissue slathered over the bones of a colossal rat. Sitting on her haunches, perched on the chest of your adjacent bunkmate -- she would've selected you if you had been sweetly dreaming, you realize -- her elongated jaws hanging above his face. A steady stream of gray mist wafts from his slack mouth past her saber fangs into her gaping throat. His body jolts and cramps from head to toe, eyes frenzied beneath closed lids.

    Your stomach wants to vacate the premises. She -- whatever she is -- she does not belong in this world. Part of you says to bolt. Get the fuck out of the barracks, out of the base, until you can run no longer.

    Another part -- a greater part -- is so angry it makes your hands ball into shaking fists. It makes you rise to your feet and, as carefully as you can, pick up a nearby folding chair.

    She has no right to prey on the defenseless.

    And so you do what you wish someone would've done for you when you were being victimized.

    The chair connects with the side of her head with a clank that's more sound than substance. It leaves a dent in the metal -- her skull is harder than you thought. It does accomplish two things--

    One: it knocks her off-balance, and she spills out of the bunk in a spasm of long, spindly fingers and--

    Two: it wakes everyone else up. Groaning, slowly other soldiers rise from their stupor. Her parasitized host sobs, rolls onto his side, and vomits on the floor.

    The creature slinks around the end of the bunk. Again your gut twists with visceral horror at the sight. She has a woman's face stretched over a rodent muzzle, and her nostrils flare a split second before her orange fur stands on end and she screams from the deepest pit of her lungs.

    The noise forces your eyes closed, pierces your eardrums, and makes your skin feel splashed with prickly oil. You nearly lose hold of the chair. You fight through the pain -- under the sharp ring in your hearing, there are ticking claws--

    She leaps, teeth reaching.

    You don't think. You let your body do what it's been trained to not only for these past weeks, but earlier too.

    You like science, but your best marks were always in wrestling.

    Dodging her snapping jaws, you let the creature's own momentum propel her throat into your grip and drag your weight with her, slamming her to the ground. You pin her legs under your own, her scrabbling paws under the chair. Her tail is just long enough to curl around your thigh.

    The revulsion that fills you fuels the fists that fall on her face.

    You don't know how long you keep punching. Eventually the others run over to help. They throw blankets onto the thing, smothering her attempts to bite, stomp on swiping claws. To her monstrous credit, she keeps struggling until you tear the gold crucifix your mother gave you from its chain around your neck and drop it onto the thrashing pile of cloth. She shrieks one last time, then goes still.

    You learn a lesson that night, one that does not lose its importance in years to come: demons remain flesh and blood.

                                               -  -  -

    "Video call for you, Private Dragunov."

    Three days have passed. No one talked about it openly, but you know word got around. An unused, now locked storage unit in the back of the garage grew a bumper crop of religious icons in seventy-two hours, and in the mess hall, no one meets your eye.

    You aren't expecting a call at all, let alone video. If this is your dishonorable discharge, at least you went out on a high note.

    You are taken to an office. Projected on a screen is a man sitting at a desk. Spotlights behind him conceal him beyond a black silhouette.

    You salute. It feels like the right thing to do.

    "At ease," the man says, "Take a seat."

    You let your hand fall. The chair provided is cushioned and not suitable at all for beating giant rat-women into submission.

    "I wish to discuss the event that took place two nights ago between 0222 and 0228 hours with you," the man continues. Before you can react, he adds, "You are not required or expected to speak."

    You like this stranger already.

    "The subject that entered your barracks is a nocnitsa. Are you familiar with their kind? Have you encountered one previously?"

    You have not. You shake your head.

    "Do you have any prior experience with anomalies? Objects, substances, or entities believed to be supernatural in origin?"

    You do not.

    "Our operatives have removed the nocnitsa from its improvised containment for permanent, more suitable captivity. Initial examination revealed multiple fractures to the mandibles and cranium." The man leans forward. "Private Dragunov, during the event, how did you feel?"

    Disgust. Righteousness. Outrage. Courage. Victory.

    Good. You felt damn good.

    The office door opens. A woman in a white lab coat -- a scientist -- approaches you. She hands you a business card. It is blank, save for a golden raptor, its wings raised and talons poised to strike.

    The man has a smile in his voice. "Are you interested in joining very special forces?"

    Your name is Sergei Alexandrovich Dragunov. You are nineteen. You see patterns where others do not.

    And you are.

[puddlesl1me]

oh im just doing so great. so fantastic.

and it doesnt even matter! none of it matters at all! because in the end no one sees this, no one cares about this, and no one can help me!

and its so awful of me, to want to get help from others in this way, to want to get help from people who are struggling so much more than i am. they dont have the energy to help. they cant help because they need to help themselves first. so im not allowed to ask for help, and yet i do, like the selfish crab i am.

and i expect help as well! i want all my problems that i bring up in vent posts to be mentioned by someone, and thats so awfully needy of me! who am i to ask for that, to ask people to help me in this way? im not nearly important enough for that, nor can anyone actually help me.

...theres actually no reason that i should be feeling like this. that i should want to die, that i should want to feel worse so i can die. everyone else actually has reasons to feel bad. bad parents, horrible accidents, any number of things. and guess what?

I DONT EVEN HAVE ANY TRAUMA!!! IM NOTHING!!! THERES NO REASON I SHOULD BE LIKE THIS!!!

and yet here i am, attempting to steal the spotlight from others, just to feel like something. here i am, attempting to act like others, so i can feel important. theres nothing actually wrong with me, is there? my parents have almost always been good to me, ive never gotten seriously injured in a way that would affect me mentally, ive never experienced a great loss, ive got no reason to feel like this.

and yet. and yet i do. aaaaall to give me some sort of identity. aaaall to make me seem like an actual person rather than a cardboard cutout. a crabbing awful cardboard cutout, too, since i cant even play the role im supposed to play.

maybe thats it. maybe the key is to just continue with my role

BUT I CANT. I CANT DO THAT. ill kill myself before then

oh, but ill kill myself anyways, wont i? theres no reason for me to be here, and dont you dare try to argue otherwise. everyone i know can find a replacement for me. sorry. im not too concerned about all of you. youll lose me and itll all turn out fine.

i just need to make sure i stay feeling awful. i have to wake up awful and go to school awful and go home awful and go to bed awful. a week of this should do it. maybe more if im still feeling like a coward.

and i need to find a way to distract my therapist. i cant be talking about this if i want to die. theyll try to stop me and it wont go well and i CANT HAVE THAT. so i need topics to discuss without drawing suspicion. so that i dont lose my therapist but i also dont alert them that im not doing well. that would erase all my progress.

hhhhhh these vent posts are so annoying to make. i hate that im forced to make them. im sorry for subjecting you all to this. i know im terrible and awful. you cant help and im making you think that you can. im sorry. its awful of me to do that to yall. im the only one that knows better, and im setting an awful role model.

supposedly, i wanted to schedule this so i didn't feel bad about posting it when someone else is doing bad. i suppose ill schedule it for... 7:30, or maybe 7, well say. that way people have some amount of time to see it. maybe.

...not like anyone other than one person will. not like it matters. because people seeing this wont help. no one can reasonably respond to all of this. no one can reasonably help me either. i just need to suffer for the next week or so and i can kill myself. itll be fine. its fine. its fine.

...oh look at me, coming back to this over and over, trying to add more to sentence myself to worse fates. you know people wont read all of this. why bother. the more you add, the less theyll see, the less theyll read, the less theyll respond to. better to spam people like the crab you are.

...like you have been for the past week, with your daily vent posts. no one wants to see this. n-

no, stop. we arent doing this right now. we said wed end this, so lets do that. sorry everyone.

[mik0is0bored]

If anyone's curious (probably no one idk lmao) abt the dynamic between mine and a friends oc (hanako and satsuki) i recommend reading the short fic i wrote:

Cigarettes and the Holidays

(only on tumblr(check masterlist for it)

Anyway, I'm gonna like be more specific in the dynamic between the two and their personalities, designs, au/spinoffs, their bond, etc etc

⚠️⚠️TW⚠️⚠️there will be mentions of death, schizophrenia in one of the au's, gore, etc, all below the cut -> -> ->

Anyways so to start of with their separate personalities (and similarties to other popular characters):

Hanako Adachi: Hanako is my oc, and throughout I'll mention her in blue italics anyways her MBTI is istj (in perspective, think personality like megumi/giyuu/etc) and basically she hates cold weather, and loud and obnoxious people, and likes autumn, blankets, and watching thunderstorms

Anyways now Satsuki Yamako: Satsuki will be mentionwd in green italics is my friends oc, and off the top of my head I can't remember her mbti and such but I do remember my friend saying Satsuki is like Gojo, but knows when to shut up and is also obsessed with death

Anyways on how the two met is this; initially since their 7th year in middle school they kinda were like rivals/trying to one-up the other (Mainly Satsuki, hanako didn't give a fuck) and the summer from going from 7th to 8th, they hung out and were like "oh you're not so bad, your actually rlly cool" and their friendship sprouted from that.

For their designs please go take a look at my art blog @m1k-draws (Mainly the more recent posts or this animation specifically)

Me and my friend before the holiday break were working on a side spin off that they're 1st years and they're on their first winter mission (it's still in progress cus my friend went on vacation for the holiday break) but I also wrote a prequel to Cigarettes and the Holidays; which i may post tmrrw (12/22/24) or around that time (or maybe the 25th??)

Anyways yeah the main lore we have on them so far is the shibiya incident (which again, takes place in "Cigarettes and the Holidays") but to sum it up Satsuki dies (I'll go in more depth in the below paragraph) and how Hanako copes (again, I'll go in depth but it's in cigarettes and the holidays)

Anyway Satsuki’s death:

It's not much of a surpri3s when I say that she died during the shibuya incident. Pretty much how this happens, is after Hanako and her argument, they find a compromise and go off and meet back up in a few hours, but in those few hours, satsuki encounters a "fight"

⚠️⚠️TW: GORE AHEAD(skip this part if needed)⚠️⚠️

Satsuki finds sukuna, and obv he's in a fight against who knows (maybe jogo or smth) and w her scythe Satsuki leapt into the air to get a hit on sukina, but like swatting a fly away, sukuna casually swatt3d h3r away and satsukis arms and legs get cut off, mainly from flying through a building w a hole (below is a diagram??):

And then heres where Satsuki lands/map:

-> How Hanako copes is mainly apart of cigarettes and the Holidays (im sorry for saying it like a million times i SWEAR but most of the background rn is like in that thing):

But mainly to shorten it satsuki gives her a cigarette and blah blah later Hanako fights mahito and mahito trys to kill her and touches her leg leg but hanako cuts off her leg just in time (I'll write a spin off abt that later (will feature yuta okkotsu btw !!)

⚠️⚠️GORE OVER⚠️⚠️

Anyeay now onto aus/spinoffs:

Basically instead of Satsuki dying Hanako looses eyesight from injuri3s and blood loss (not a ton of backg4ound on that atm)

Hanako smokes the cigarette and satsuki gets revived (like curs3d smoke ig) and satsuki had now a curse energy glow around her and hanako thinks she's schizophrenic cus she doesn't know that it's ac4uqllt satsuki

Dialog for this one:

H: no, no, no. Satsuki- satsukis gone.

S: no, hey, hey, hanako it's okay

H: Satsuki’s gone!

S: hanako..

Note: So anyways that's all i got for now! I'm gonna post a poll soon for a new animation featuring hanako and satsuki, and hopefully this will give people a clearer thing abt the two ig idk😭

Also keep in mind I'll add onto this cus im kinda gonna keep this as like a think to keep track of info abt them

[gakkubi]

sorry to pop up on you kinda just wanted to check in. I was writing something about Konan and thought about you--i hope school is finishing up for you as well as possible and that you are still healing and getting healthier. Keep doing you bro 🌸

hellooooo G-P my dear! oh how I missed talking to you!

I wonder if you've finished writing about Konan yet? If so, can you link me where I can read it? lol I'm so interested!

I'm sorry for the time it took me to answer this message, as well as missing the previous. I'm finally graduated 🤩 Which means I am officialy an architect and urbanist!

However, it did come at a great personal cost. Most of my 2023 was spent either working non-stop on college or the studio I'm employed in - and, as crazy as it sounds, I spent the months of July/August sleeping less than 4hrs a night, every night. Sadly, not sleeping is normalized among architects. 😵‍💫 After I graduated in September, I found I couldn't stop sleeping and being in bed at every opportunity I got; which, of course, was only natural, given how many days I powered through without any sleep whatsoever lol. What I took a bit too long to realize was that all the stress threw me right into a depressive episode, of which now I'm just starting to get out of. Who knew being under extreme leves of mental distress and physical pain could have serious side effects? lol! Moral of the story: SLEEP. It's good for da brains.

I'm now on some meds for anxiety (not depression per-se, as the episode was a consequence and not a cause), and I'm feeling better. Admittedly I was terrified at first, wondering if my personality would change and all that, but I found now I have more energy to overthink the things that bring me joy (like Naruto), and that I've significantly less f*cks to give about things that make me stressed. lol 😂

I've thought a lot about you all this time, I wonder how you are, if you've partaken in more swimming competitions, and if you've been writing. I'll take a look at your Ao3 as soon as I can. (: 🥰

In time, I'll organize myself to be back, as I have a lot of drawings and fanfics to finish, as well as other projects to start. For the time, I'll attach a some sections of my final project; it is a building design to house and support patients that travel long distances to attend the hospital in my city. The motherf*cker almost killed me, but I am proud of it regardless. lol

I'm happy to (slowly) be back. I've missed you and all of this immensly. 🌻

[tetskuro]

Hihi my name is Rex, ima just do bullet points cause they are easier for me and also a pic of me, i dont care if you post em:)

Age:17

Gender: Non-Binary

Pronouns: They/Them

Skin Color:carmel or like a neutral tan(im just a black lightskin)

hair: changes a lot, my natural hair is a somewhat a curly shag, the color is dark brown and i style it right now by slicking down the front and clipping it to the back of my hair and then adding cute hair clips to the front. I also have shaved sides

Body type: I dont really know you to describe it but its like a chubby hourglass/thicc? I have hip dips on me though🧍🏽‍♀️And I have a large chest(im an O cup rn, and my back is killing me😭)

Height: 5’4

Personality:

MBTI: ENFP

- I like to hang out with my friends a lot and can be very social at times, but then social battery runs out and im tapped out

- I take pictures of everything cause I just like having a bunch of memories

- Im always sleepy cause a I stay up super late, so sometimes i show up to school in PJS, but 80% of the time im the best dressed

- Im really into visual art. I want to be a fashion designer in the future, and I just like fashion in general(I also draw and paint:3). Right now my style is in between like earthy black girl + y2k.

- Most days I wear a full face of makeup with my eye makeup being the center point. I meanly do darker eye looks with made eyeliner(under eye, eyeliner 2) and lashes

- Speaking of fashion I have a bajillion aesthetics, I can’t pick one to stick with so I try em all.

- Im a Dress to Impress addict🧍🏽‍♀️

- I can get pretty insecure sometimes about myself, but then 3 seconds later im like “Im the hottest bitch here” its very odd

- I have Anemia so i get nauseous and dizzy easy which sucks

- I also have ADHD so i can ether hyper focus, get hella distracted and space out, or get really overstimulated

- I can get fired up about issues or stuff I care about very easily, like its a bunch of bottle uped feelings spilling over

- love language: I would say my giving is physical affection and gift giving. I can be a lil clingy, but I also love cooking and I make food and desserts for my friends a lot. And for receiving it would words of affirmation and physical affection. I get hella insecure sometimes so I need someone to remind me that im still pretty n shit

My type:

- I am good with male or female(bisexual)

- Traits I like physically are someone at least same height or taller (im sorry nishinoya and hinata😔) and with nice hair. Personality wise I want someone who knows how to match energy well, like if im hype you can also be hype but if my social battery is running low you can also match that and chill with me. I like someone I can joke with but doesn’t treat me like im one of there friends.

- And my ideal hangout is ether fast food and a movie, a picnic, or walking around a little town with shops or the mall

Thats kinda it for me🫡

your matchup is...

bokuto kotarou

⭑ definitely matches your energy omg if you're hyped up, he's even more hyped up

⭑ bokuto is well over 6ft tall so he's got the height aspect down

⭑ his hair is unique for sure lmao

⭑ i think bokuto would be able to read your emotions well and know when your social battery is running out and respect your need to chill for a bit

⭑ you can be playful and joke around with him a lot

⭑ the two of you would have so many inside jokes that only you both would be able to understand them

⭑ bokuto would get so emotional if you cooked for him

⭑ he'd be like "you made this.. FOR ME??" and get all teary-eyes thinking about how you spent time and effort into making something just for him

⭑ bokuto also doesn't mind your clinginess at all

⭑ he likes having the attention on him a lot

⭑ bokuto is pretty straightforward with his words so his any reassurance he gives is stated very factually because he truly means it

⭑ it's because he's "simple-minded" that his praise and compliments come across as genuine since he has no ulterior intentions behind what he says

⭑ he finds your passion for fashion and visual art super interesting

⭑ if you ever wanted him to try on certain clothes and model for you, he'd agree instantly and probably bring up the suggestion first

⭑ i can see bokuto enjoying something simple for a date like a movie or getting fast food because it gives him less of a chance to be nervous

⭑ he'd honestly have a lot of fun going to the mall and getting food with you

your matchup runner-up is miya atsumu

[ruyalarincadisi]

Tagged by @penguinhug thank youu! for some reason it didn't notify me but i was lucky enough to see the post! <3 i would never ignore your tag, you could ask my home address here and i'd just post it for you /j

Soo it think this is called 15 questions and 5 mutuals

Were you named after anyone?

Nope! I was named after a poem's title. Romantic, isn't it?

When was the last time you cried?

I cried a few hours ago...

Do you have kids?

I have a daughter /j (it's my cat)

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Yes but not directed at people, i use it a lot when i'm making fun of someone who won't see it or a situation

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Not sure 🤔 i gues their style irl and their energy online

What’s your eye color?

brown

Scary movies or happy endings?

Both are good but i'm a big scary movie fan ^u^

Any special talents?

UHHH i probably know your enneagram tritype accurately if we talked for a few times.

Where were you born?

turkey

What are your hobbies?

this is the part i forget every single thing i do, isn't it... no no i got this

Drawing, singing, walking, doing puzzles, writing, gaming

Have any pets?

I have the cutest cat ever she's my angel and honeyworks girl

What sports do you play/have you played?

I used to play football with the guys when i was 10 😭😭 other than that, i really have no interest in sports but i like exercising on my own :3

How tall are you?  

151 cm

Favorite subject in school?

English, i guess! I liked most classes tho!

Dream job?

Game developer

Not tagging anyone but tagging everyone. If you read this, feel free to do it. I care. I'll read it all, i promise. I just feel like i killed your family when i tag you...

[penisbutterjellytime]

TY 4 tagging me @markodragic !

Last Song: First Date by James Shayfer. I have a playlist dedicated to my Durge and this song actually inspired me making him. A lot of James Shayfer pops up on there lol. I plan to make a piece with him based off the song … eventually

Favorite Color: All colors are specials in their own way but that being said, dark or dull greens and purples go hard.

Currently Watching: Not currently watching anything but last watched the new Fionna and Cake stuff. Mostly watched it cause I had time to kill and I loved Fionna and Cake when she was first introduced when I was little lol

Last Movie: I think the last movie I watched was Across the Spiderverse when it was out in theaters with one of my dorm mates! (she's an animation major so she's legally required to watch it lol)

Currently Reading: Not reading anything atm. Last book I tried to read was a couple months ago was Gideon the Ninth. Only got to the first few chapters. I love fantasy but I've learned I hate reading it lol. I can imagine my own fantastical stuff but my brain sucks at imagining other peoples worlds lol. Been really wanting for months to try and read Stone Butch Blues though. I'll read that whenever school gives us a break maybe lol.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Sweet and savory are very closely tied but I'd say savory. Give me a jar of pickles I'll scarf that shit down like a horse eating carrots or whatever.

Relationship Status: Single. to my knowledge no one's ever tried to shoot their shot. Either that or I'm too stupid to realize. They hate me for my boring, reserved energy yet awkward and peculiar mannerisms …

Current Obsession: Baulder's Gate 3 I'm so sorry to ppl sick of it on their dash lol. Also my own world building but I'm … not going to post that … unless people start asking me about it ... then maybe.

Last Thing I Googled: "cow face" and "cow skull". had time to kill in class so I tried to draw cows cause whenever I've tried to draw them from memory they end up looking more dog like than I care to like.

Currently Working On: Besides school work I'm trying to solidify all the gods and Pantheons of a world I've been working on since late high school. It's weird and confusing, I'm making little mood/image boards of sorts so I can narrow down their designs, aesthetics, vibes, etc. Most I'll explain is that the ones I'm working on all the Gods are based off different artistic mediums (god of clay and pottery, god of glassblowing/stained glass /blacksmithing, god of the 2D and cave art, god of destruction/experimental/multi media , gods of leather/weaving/fashion, gods of music and sound, etc etc ) (two of my projs (one i just finished and one currently) for school are environments based off my world building lol)

[crysdrawsthings]

15 questions

Was tagged by @akaviri-dovah to answer those and so here I am

1. are you named after anyone? The official version is that I was named after an Orthodox Saint. No, really.

2. when was the last time you cried? I don't remember, (un)fortunately.

3. do you have kids? Naaaah.

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? Sarcasm? I? Never in my life, never once have I, CrysDrawsThings, used a sarcasm.

5. what sports do you play/have you played? I am not a sport person, definitely, but I spent some time playing table tennis and want to do it again with my dad, but I have also done a bit of archery and I really want to again.

6. what's the first thing you notice about other people? I guess an overall sort of impression.

7. eye color? Grey, I guess. Currently also red, because something is causing a damn allergy out there.

8. scary movies or happy endings? Both? Both are good. Love me some scary stuff, love me some happy endings. Sometimes a scary movie with a happy ending too.

9. any special talents? I... don't think I have any. Like, I can draw/write a bit, but I don't think those are "special" talents.

10. where were you born? Unless my parents are hiding something from me, I assume it was like, in a hospital.

11. what are your hobbies? Art, writing, vidya gaeming, tabletop rpgs, reading. Many of those also involving OC or original settings.

12. do you have any pets? Two turtles.

13. how tall are you? Average height, which is a shame, I can't properly channel the ridiculous lanky altmer energy...

14. fave subject in school? History, definitely. Unfortunately one of our teachers completely killed my love for literature.

15. dream job? If I was able to get all the money and benefits needed... I would love to work in a library of some kind, I suppose. Or maybe still kept my office job.

[hello-sweetheart]

Been seeing a lot of controversy over posts like this and I have jack shit to do so here’s my two cents!

I think something that is regularly overlooked in the “except pedophilia and incest” arguments is that a lot of the times the people who ship these are, and bear with me, actual children. Children and young teens with massively underdeveloped frontal cortex and lack experience to truly understand the gravity of these topics.

Idc if yall hate me. When I was 11 to 13 I shipped Ceil and Sebastian (a minor and adult). I was 13 at most. The underaged character in that ship was 14. I found Sebastian hot and had a major crush on him!

And, a lot of times when you ship relationships, it’s because you’re projecting yourself onto a character to fulfill some romantic or sexual fantasy which, surprise! Children also experience. Children get crushes on adults. Children become sexually curious even before they reach puberty.

If that makes you uncomfortable, it’s because you’re an adult reading this and we don’t like to associate those behaviors with literal children but it’s important to acknowledge. Because if you don’t, you’ll become like the advocates who are against sexual education in schools and against accessible contraceptives for underaged kids.

Children are not all asexual and/or aromantic until the puberty fairy sprinkles their puberty dust over them.

Again I was 11-13 and I didn’t get hit puberty until 14.

But I was already reading ‘lemons’ on deviant art. those ships and artwork were majority written by other underaged kids. Yes even some of the really good art that you assume is created by adults.

Hell, I wrote some of them and had embarrassingly bad drawing in my notebooks that I would shit a brick if a teacher ever looked over my shoulder. I had accounts. I lied about my age online to access stuff, like other sexually curious kids.

I even shipped Canada and America, and England and America from hetalia (incestuous ships). Why? Because I was just a fucking child who thought their character designs were hot and I wanted to read about them getting it on.

Because they weren’t real. Their incestuous relationship is not real. They’re not real people with real familial relationships. They’re drawings and my underdeveloped brain didn’t associate real problematic issues faced by real people to drawings, even if in real life I was aware and disturbed to hear about real people in these traumatic real situations.

So when you’re yelling “you should kill yourself!!” And pointing fingers in your heroic attempt to save the kids, think about the possibility that it’s a kid you’re harassing and destroying their mental health over… Over fictional ships? But the save the kids right?

I’m not going to argue that it’s not engaging in risky behavior, or that there aren’t consequences to engaging in those behaviors. But that would be a bit like victim blaming wouldn’t it? To tell 13yr old me that if got assaulted by an adult I was attempting to romantically/sexually peruse cuz he happened to look like Sebastian was a consequence of shipping a fictional minor and adult. It still wouldn’t be my fault, at the end of the day the only one you can blame would still be the teacher for maintaining boundaries or following through my pursuit.

As for the adults writing these relationships, not all fanfic is a personal sexual fantasy story or meant to write a relationship in a positive light. Writers are not evil for depicting deeply disturbing and violent relationships in work.

Just like horror movie fans are not evil for enjoying horror movies.

I’d rather focus my energy on exposing actual pedophiles. Cuz most of them are not printing ceil x Sebastian fanfic on the public library printer, guys. They’re on Pinterest saving real photos of children even were there is nothing suggestive about the photos. They’re on tiktok scrolling through teens thirst traps that they posted cuz they’re hoping their crush from chem sees it. They’re on YouTube watching family blogs. They’re subscribed to pedo baiters on only fans.

This just in