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I wish to sleep with lights in the sky

and not thunder in my mind.

I like the crisp ringing in my ears,

in my bones and in my heart

but not in my head

or in my eyes or on my tongue.

Oh, to sleep neath the woke sky

with my mind at rest.

- Sarah Sohaib

This is almost a year-old poem I composed, which still fits today. I wonder, has there really been any big change, or does it and will always lead me back to square one. The 4th of February felt joyful and soulful, because of the winds that wrapped around me, but mainly because of the necessary heart pour. Coincidence? The universe is ever so lazy.

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okay sooo ... gosh do you ever wonder how much you hate a voice Like just the bare voice. AND THEY ARE not even talking to you BUT YOU JUST DO. LIKE SHUT UP Please don't open your mouth ... and the worst part is , you used to like that voice once...

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January In Pixels

Check out my January Overview down below!

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January Overview

Hello, sooo January whizzed by in a flash. One moment, I was on a New Year’s Day call with my cousins, sharp at 12 am, and the next, I am sitting at the tiny desk in my room, on the 27th of January, recollecting the first month of 2024. Time baffles me sometimes. And space too. On the 2nd of January, I was on my way to surprise my relatives in Lucknow, with handmade besan ke laddoo. I think it was around this time, or perhaps a day or two before, when I started re-reading the Percy Jackson and Olympus Books. That was truly a joyous experience. To relive the bits and pieces of childhood I had forgotten somewhere in the school library’s centre table’s left corner seat. The thrill and excitement to finish a book series, embodying the 13-year-old Sarah, I finished the series within a week, that too while traveling and spending time with relatives and cousins (more like hiding from them during reading time lol). A great way to start the New Year, isn’t it?

Soon after that, around the 8th of January, I returned to my correspondence address, from where I was supposed to leave for my university the next day. Change of plans. Changes in mood. Loved it. Gave myself the deserved "me-time," which I don’t usually get in my hostel or Uni. Played games, video-called long-distance online bestie, baked fun stuff, and saved some for friends and for binge-eating in the hostel. Came to the College on the 14th of January and hung out with friends and acquaintances. Spent the next day productively rewinding and planning for the weeks ahead. The class schedules and course details, along with some preparation for classes the next day. I really liked how during this time, the distractions that had been stuck in my mind for the past few months were completely "unalive". And till this date are "unalive". Saw them on the 14th and felt euphoric that I felt nothing upon coming across that interaction. Then the hustle and bustle of college life began.

Waking up before anyone else, showering, and getting ready before 8. Light breakfast and then spend whatever time was left after reading. Then off to college with my friends. Arriving earlier than the sloths and being introduced to the new professors. Attending classes with full attention, practicing active retention, and trying not to "unalive" some creatures. Trying to save money and doing better than before but still in desperate need of some improvement. Spending mornings in classes and then afternoons in the Dome building cafeteria, catching up on the missed work and studying ahead. Evenings are more relaxed than the hectic but occupied days which I like. Keeps my head in the game. And nights spent peacefully, almost.

I am glad that I am becoming a more consistent person, in terms of completing my study targets, homework assigned, and praying at the right time, regularly. Persistence and consistency are the key, I am aware. And trying to incorporate that into my routine to achieve a disciplined lifestyle. I have also put up healthy boundaries which were most definitely necessary. And as you can guess, I am much more at peace now. This month does feel like I took the right steps towards my goals and ambitions. Not all, but the majority of them. I am really happy and, well, not satisfied but not completely dissatisfied, Thank God. I just need to not break my streak and continue to work with the fire in my eyes and trust in my heart, that if God wills, I will surely achieve more than just my goals.

That’s all for the January review

See ya next month

Sarah

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This is what I wanted a phone for

I mean come on ...can you blame me ?

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3/08/2023, 6:06 pm

Thought I caught

Without some people, life looks as barren as a rainforest with no fauna in it. No animals or birds to cause ruckus up and down.

An empty ecosystem which would barely function , yet would look so full and luscious to an outsider's eye.

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Dear me

, or anyone reading this in the future,

I have started this blog to have my journey of growing up or adulting stored up somewhere worthwhile. Because this human brain of mine won't just remember all the nice little and big details I wish to remember. So, if you are still reading this, I can assume you will read the blog too...

Welcome to Sarah's journey of unfortunately but fortunately growing up. In this space, I'll be sharing my daily college experiences, offering snippets from my notes app that capture the essence of my thoughts, sharing pictures I've clicked along the way, and ..venting about the people who, intentionally or not, left a lasting impact on my life. Sometimes, it's incredible how people can unknowingly influence you or, in some cases, just be utterly baffling. You'll find reflections on events that shape my path, plans I'm brewing, and the occasional study blog to document those intense academic days.

This blog is a sanctuary for the moments I want to cherish and the challenges I want to conquer. Join me as I navigate the twists and turns of this adventure called life. I actually made this sound not pathetic at all. Kudos to me!