#sanity 1.0

[sanityisforthesane]

I got a good look at the eclipse today! Safety first of course 😎

[poomphuripan]

exclusive picture from the hint item google form yyds posted this week. what about my sanity yyds (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠) imagine this being joe 1.0's lockscreen ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

edit: indeed, it WAS joe's lockscreen... joe loved ming so much... joe going to work and smiling at his cute couple lockscreen 💔

[becausebuckley]

i'll show you mine (will you show me yours?) | buddie | explicit | 5.8k

when buck feels insecure about his nudes, he asks eddie for help. for 911 kinktober day 27: non-penetrative sex!

“Well, we ended up exchanging some, ah, some pictures,” Buck continues, the words tumbling out faster now. “And at first it seemed fine, but then he started making these comments. Like, laughing about my poses and how I looked and stuff. He even said my dick looked weird.” Eddie’s free hand clenches into a fist at his side. “What an asshole,” he mutters. He doesn’t need to be experienced in the art of nude photos to know that that’s a dick move. Like, how could anyone say those types of things to Buck, of all people? Buck is gorgeous, a real work of art. Eddie has no doubt that the same applies to his nudes, as much as he tries not to think about those for his own sanity. “You should stop talking to him.” “Yeah, I guess,” Buck says, sounding deflated. “The conversation died out pretty soon. But now I can’t stop thinking about it.” Buck’s voice drops even lower, almost a whisper. “What if... what if he's right, Eddie? What if my nudes really do look weird and everyone’s just been too polite to say anything? Cause, like, I used to send them a lot, you know? Before we met, when I was still Buck 1.0? What if I’ve been sharing really bad pictures with everyone? Shit, what if my dick really does look weird?”

read the full fic on ao3 here!

[booksandpaperss]

average rate my professor collection of reviews for the only professor that fits your schedule:

5.0: she's super nice and has clear grading criteria! one of my faves

3.0: will give you an easy A and is pretty reasonable

1.0: oh my god do NOT take her. she treated me horribly and has super vague grading criteria. the 5.0s here are LYING

1.0: shes a raging trump supporter and makes super biased assignments do not take her if you care about your sanity

[monkeyislandtwo]

oh yeah fun fact the demo/1.0 version of puzzle agent has an unused sanity meter for some reason, stored with the other progress trackers like puzzles solved and hints used

[doubledeadstudio]

Hey I just got into your games and I am loving them so much! I just had a few questions cause as I was playing I was a lil confused

For Reanimated hearts, it said that 1.3 was finished and released to the public but the files on itch said it was 1.0. Is 1.3 a patreon only thing or am I missing something? (Also how long is 1.3? I am seriously liking how things are going and I will literally cry if I hit a sudden cliffhanger like it’s sooo good)

I’m trying to get all the endings in PF but there’s no option to torment Florentin to go into the woods. Did I miss something here as well?

Will you make more yandere games? I seriously like what you’re doing here and the art is so pretty!

Thank you, anon!!

Oh, for RH, this is a bit hard to explain... The folder that we code the game in is named 1.3.0, but when we build Distributions for the public, Ren'Py renames it to 1.0. And it's such a minor thing that I don't even care to change the name. So, basically the version out in public is 1.3.0, everything is up to date.

For the yandere games thing, who knows, probably! Tbh I don't actually set to make "yandere" games specifically, it's just I get tantalized by a certain concept, then I make the game, lol. It just happens to be that things I prefer to write falls in line with the popular yandere genre in fortunate ways, so I take advantage of the zeitgeist while the iron is hot HAHAHA. But horror and fucked up love has always been a thing I'm into since I was a teenager.

For the PF question, it's spoilers, so I'm putting it under a cut.

During the Florentin shower, you have to pass the first Grab the Scissors health check with extremely low sanity (like, as close to 0 as possible). Then you will have the option to Torment him.

[lemotmo]

Just wanted to ask you and Ali why do BT fans think they're getting together when Buck literally told him to his face he did not have feelings for him and he used him as a rebound 1.0 style because he was missing Eddie

At this point I really don't know anymore Nonny. If I were in their shoes, I'd have given up already. It's obvious that the relationship is over and T will soon be out the door forever. Everything in the narrative is telling us this. But for some reason they have chosen to ignore every single thing the show has been showing and telling us.

So I don't know. Ali has given up trying to understand as well. So for your own sanity, best to just move on and not to think about it too deeply.

It is what it is. 🤷‍♀️

[swallowtail-ageha]

I was thinking yesterday about all the speculations about where the workshop umbilical cord came from, and i have suddenly rembered a post where someone tried to argue that it came from Maria and it was the cause of her suicide and. I mean. I do think its an awful theory because it would cheapen by maximum her entire storyline and would just thread Arianna's again, but i do think that something like that might have been planned in the early stages of developement.

Maria, likely, never existed as part of the original plan of bloodborne and was just a dlc addition. There *was* the subject of Gehrman's disciple, but due to them being ambiguously gendered in the main game and maria herself having zero other proof of being a thing in game files, i think they just took the apprentice, the doll whom they didnt explain the origins of, and conflated the characters to create her.

Anyways, this established, i have been looking at cut content and well. We do know that the doll and the vilebloods had a serious connection even in the early stages of development, not through Maria, but through Annalise herself . In very early in-game files, some of Annalise's voicelines are dubbed by Evetta Muradasilova, the Doll and then Maria's voice actress (source under the cut). I do think it was likely that Annalise was supposed to be the woman the Doll was based upon (and Annalise herself in those lines acts more meek and sweet), whom had an unspecified type of situationship with Gehrman.

The last piece in this puzzle is the Workshop Umbilical Cord itself, which in the 1.0 description of the game is said to originate from "The Child Of The Vilebloods", implying it was Annalise's kid and the reason why the Church raided Cainhurst.

So likely Protomaria was supposed to have had the cosmic impregnation and (supposed) death due to it which caused Gehrman's spiral as a plotline, but due to Cainhurst losing most of its in game importance and cut storylines, they decided to split her into Annalise and Maria, and honestly (aside from Cainhurst being main plot irrelevant now), i can't even complain too much about it

I... genuinely don't know where i want to go. This is just heavy speculation, but i do think it's fun in general to analyze what made it in game, what didn't make it, how things changed and what was the original vision of the game. Its a fun exercise

As a final note, it is interesting how in canon maria, who arguably (if her bossfight is to be used to extrapolate the powers she had when alive and it wasn't just kos fucking with her) looks to be more attuned power wise to the pthumerians compared to all the other cainhurst women, seems to be completely estranged from the cosmical impregnation storyline herself. Its almost as if she, trying to distance itself from the gendered violence that she would have been doomed to by her sheer existance as a cainhurst woman, threw herself into the byrgenwerth research first and then healing church research, wanting to find another method to contact great ones that didn't mean selling one's womb (and sanity) to them, only to end up inflicting that same bodily autonomy violation on kos and the patients of the research hall

(Thank you val for giving me the link)

[hermioneismyrealname]

My Stand in Ep 11. Ah the curse

OK. So this felt rushed. Do I care? Kinda. My entire rant below

Joe's mum got a letter exposing his relationship with Ming. I cringed. But then it was supposed to be resolved. "We'll go and see her this afternoon?" Did that happen off screen?

Then we have May being an absolute queen who deserves none of this shit.

Then the Mum. She was the one who sent the lawyer. I cant defend her but I do understand her desperate actions. But then she relents to the man when he gets to feed Ming. Love her dreaded face cause there was still hope in her face when that idiot gave Ming an ultimatum.

Speaking of that dinosaur. HAH! his face. His face. That was it. The conflict in his face. The fact that he wants his son to be happy but in HIS way is interesting. When Ming pulls two up on him and WINS is hilarious. He was so sure that Ming was the one who exploited his wealth the most (he isn't wrong), so to him, it WAS clear what the simple choice would be.

Oh YOU! older brother. I cannot wait for you to bring the secretary to the dinner table and give that geizer a heart attack. Please. But HIS ENTIRE CHARACTER IS CONSISTENT BUT HIS CHOICES ARE NOT! He was reluctant to let Joe near him. But relents when he hears what happens with Joe mum. "As an apology"? My guy, if you didnt do it why are you apologizing? Then it goes to him not believing Ming's belief that this is Joe. Ming hasnt eaten and has proven to be psychotic sober and stupid when drunk. I dont blame him for not believing him. I would have called quits if he didn't. Then one vomit spill later and he consults the wise cryptic man for advice. May i remind everyone how vague his answers are? How the hell did he get a straight answer that he was convince that was Joe 1.0 in Joe 2.0 body?

Next. Tong. Fuck you.

Following this was Sol. I do not like you. You give me an ick. You are the "Kawaii" but add the "-sou" and that is you, sol. But he is a friend.

Joe. Hey Joe. You good? Hah. You go into the light, man. You deserve it. And how was the cryptic man? did he save you from making a dumb mistake? Perhaps but why you had a montage in the third person in a cinematic lens, i'll never know. Also you getting shot? Predicatable. He is a heart of gold. But when Joe fell down the stairs, I cackled like a sanity deprived witch. PFt.

Now finally, Ming. YOU PSYCHO. YOU BRILLIANT LOVE SICK PSYCHO. So far, you did good. Kept beating your father at his own game. Won his mum over. Got his brother to break laws. Broke his sister's rose coloured glasses. He asked good questions like when will Joe stop being the good person. Then, he puts himself at risk for this stand-in. No notes, apart from that he should have punched Tong when he saw him at the studio.

That was a rushed episode. But i think with the run time they had, this was the best we would have gotten. There is still so much to cover in the 12th episode and not having a preview is a wild choice. A good one. This raises the stakes and keeps people on edge. Perhaps they will release it but it would be wise to keep things as a mystery since the trailer is already out there. This series has drastically changed from the book and I appreciate both separately. I've always had the opinion of keeping the book and the series separate. Pepsi is brilliant in keeping the beauty of the story while Up and Poom portray the characters with such detail. A whole series cannot be judged on a single episode that only lacks in a certain attribute - in this case, pacing.

I cannot wait for episode 12 and May's signature on the divorce papers. One thing though, if Tong gets to apologize, i want Mek to pull off so much patheticness that you can only feel pity. And if Joe does end up in a wheelchair, I want him to be drowning in money. Nope. None of this stuggle in poverty. Enough of that in real life. If switching souls exists, i want infinite money for the afflicted, too.

Welp thats my take.

[hippolotamus]

Song 44 for a spotify inspired drabble please? If possible to Buddie? If not any ship is good!

Hello, friend!!!!! I thought for sure yours would be sad but the words took a very different direction. Also it's not even remotely drabble length... *shrugs*

Buck doesn’t remember exactly when the dreams started, just that it was sometime during his 1.0 phase. Like his subconscious realized before he did that sleeping around wasn’t cutting it. That he craved something deeper and more complex than purely physical relationships.

The first time he brushes the experience off as odd, but not necessarily unwelcome. He remembers “waking up” in his dream, laying in his bed. The thing that makes this different is the sense of calm and belonging. The feeling of being wanted. As far as he can tell, he isn’t imagining anyone else with him, yet he still feels like he’s being held. Truthfully, it’s nice. 

Night after night the dreams continue whether he’s at home or the station. Then, when he least expects it, they suddenly change. The entity cocooning around him begins to take on more shape, progressing with every sleep until there’s a fully formed person. 

The revelation, however intriguing, is frustrating because he isn’t allowed to see them. Whoever it is has strong arms, is about the same height, and holds him so close. Like Buck is the most precious person to exist. Sometimes he swears he can feel warm breath tickling the back of his neck. 

And then Buck begins dating Abby. As he spends the night more often, the dreams stop. He would be lying if he said that didn't bother him. Buck is happy with Abby – she’s sweet, beautiful, and the sex is nothing to complain about – but there’s something missing. It creates a persistent longing. An ache for a person who only exists in his dreams. Kinda pathetic when he thinks about it. That doesn’t stop the flood of relief when Abby leaves and the dreams begin again as if they never stopped.

Now, though, Buck gets more details. This person – man – has soft, chestnut hair; cheekbones that could probably cut glass;  thick, dark eyelashes; and a hint of stubble Buck longs to trace with this thumb and have it be real. He’s beautiful. A term Buck’s never really considered in terms of the guys he’s found attractive, but it fits here. 

The man always appears peaceful and unburdened, though not completely. As if there’s an undercurrent of worry that only leaves when he’s asleep. 

Buck starts to question his own sanity when he finds himself longing to soothe whatever is bothering his… person. If he didn’t think it would get him sent straight back to the department therapist he would say something to Bobby. And he’s not sure if he can take it to Hen either. So he keeps it to himself, researching anything he can find. Needless to say the results are disappointing. Every promising article or forum posting leads to an eventual dead end. He begins to consider that he may never have an explanation. 

~

“Now that is a beautiful man,” Chim exclaims.

“Where’s the lie? And I like girls,” Hen adds. 

Buck whips around to see who they’re talking about, nearly dropping his phone in the process. 

“Holy shit,” he murmurs. “It’s him.”

send me 1-100 and i'll write you a drabble based on the corresponding song

[feckinhaggis]

lastfm Monthly: November

• Napalm Death - From Enslavement To Obliteration

• Septage - Septic Worship

• Curta'n Wall - Yr Gwyddbwll

• Dystopia - s/t

• Carcass - Reek Of Putrefaction

• Ploho - Бумажные Бомбы

• Brutal Truth - Need To Control

• Defeated Sanity - Chronicles of Lunacy

• Dystopia - Human = Garbage

• Axegrinder - Rise of the Serpent Men

• Pissgrave - Posthumous Humiliation

• Grief - Dismal

• Agalloch - The Mantle

• Total Fucking Destruction - Compact Disc Version 1.0

• Deathless Void - The Voluptuous Fire of Sin

• Sijjin - Sumerian Promises

• Alement - Banished Sphere

• Immortal - At The Heart of Winter

• Leaving Time - I + II

• Subscum - s/t

• usedcvnt - ultraviolet

• Satyricon - Dark Medieval Times

• Andreas Rönnberg - Train Tracks

• Hulder - Verses in Oath

• Repulsion - Horrified

• Skaven - Flowers of Flesh and Blood

• Amebix - No Sanctuary

• Iniquitous Savagery - Edifice of Vicissitudes

• Kino - Группа крови

• Ministry - KE*A*H** (Pslam 69)

[rypkema]

Zari ships

Here is what I think about some of the Zari ships with Zari Tomaz and Zari Tarazi. Zari Tomaz and Nate - I think this ship actually works well and makes sense for Zari, specifically for Zari Tomaz. The reasons being we know Zari 1.0 was in a apocalyptic timeline, She did not have the most stable life before she met the legends, and while the legends aren't exactly stable (we have seen the episodes it gets crazy and weird) They are more stable than what Zari originally had. And I know people thought Zari was Asexual in the first few seasons (I did too.), but I think Zari was probably more Demisexual where she didn't start feeling sexual attraction until after forming a strong bond with Nate and I think it took awhile after all Zari has trauma, and her trying to figure out a lot of things about herself off screen probably needed to happen. Now onto why I think this ship is good and I really like it. I think Nate is a safe space for Zari Tomaz. Like in the Time loop episode Nate was there for Zari he believed her immediately, and tried to help her solve it and keep her sanity. Nate is a safe guy and I think that is what Zari was most attracted to in the end. Was that Nate would be something safe, something stable, something that she as a person who has been through so much desperately needed in a partner. Because Nate is a Stable person on a lot of levels, and for someone who didn't have much stability that is something they would prioritize. Zari Tomaz/Tarazi and Charlie - I like this ship in a sense. I am always down for some more representation, but it's not one of my favorites in long term couples. Do I think they have great chemistry? Yes. Do I think they could have been a thing? Yes, in more of a short term relationship. For Zari Tomaz I think her and Charlie would have been great for Zari to learn more about herself and her sexuality, its hard to do that in a post apocalypse. But I don't think it would have worked out long term, because (while I love Charlie) Charlie is chaotic, they are punk they are about fighting the norm for good reasons, and that is great. but for someone who has been fighting her entire life who has been surrounded by chaos, she is not want going to want that for long term. Which is why I think Zari Tomaz and Charlie is a good relationship to help Zari be more comfortable with herself, but not for a long term realtionship. For Zari Tarazi I think her and Charlie would have been a good friends with benefits/ no expectations. Reasons being this Zari is by far more comfortable with herself and her sexuality, but she is a lot more self absorbed and likes to be the center of attention. With Charlie though I think both of them would have trouble with each of them wanting to be the center of attention, and while that is not a bad thing. I don't see it working long term because of that.

[maraudingforflesh]

Buddie recs even though I was severely disappointed with season 8 and need a break from this

https://archiveofourown.org/series/4731889

No One’s Ever Had Me (Not Like You…) (series); a really good exploration of Buck, Eddie, their relationship, their family, and what they mean to each other

https://archiveofourown.org/series/3461665

Rewrite (series); whole show rewrite season by season if Buck and Eddie met and fell in love much faster

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65203312

my place, my peace (8,351 words); Buck becomes tiktok famous after Eddie leaves for El Paso

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65138260

mirror in the sky, what is love? (14,889 words); Buck and Eddie maintain their codependency over FaceTime

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65134591

rivers 'til i reach you (25,090 words); Eddie figures his shit out since absence makes the heart grow fonder and all that

https://archiveofourown.org/works/62152285

the sweetest apparition (20,215 words); Eddie moves to El Paso and Buck starts accidentally telling people he’s dead

https://archiveofourown.org/works/58458346/chapters/148912477

We’re Overdue for a Revival (60,850 words); Buck and Eddie get married so Christopher will move back to LA

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64238941/chapters/164876425

deep in the heart of texas (30,382 words); Eddie realizes he’s gay and in love with his best friend while he’s in El Paso

https://archiveofourown.org/works/60767728/chapters/155194600

oh brother, I see (you burn like me) (47,911 words); Adriana visits LA to see her brother while he’s struggling with Chris moving to El Paso

https://archiveofourown.org/works/58860316

ice cream before dinner (58,577 words); Eddie is missing Chris and Buck volunteers him to babysit Mara and Jee-yun on Tuesdays. Tuesdays become Eddie’s favorite day.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/60869218

Who the Hell is Evan? (14,802 words); Chris finds out who his guardian is if anything happens to his dad, but unfortunately he only knows Buck as Buck

https://archiveofourown.org/works/58938313

Eddie Diaz VS The Buck’s Boyfriend Agenda (23,419 words); Eddie hates Tommy and he’s not alone in feeling like this but he does lowkey have the most skin in the game re: getting Buck to break up with Tommy

https://archiveofourown.org/works/59923840/chapters/152875123

you’re in my blood like holy wine (50,718 words); post the fire at Bobby and Athena’s house Buck let’s them live in the loft while he stays with Eddie and helps guide the Diaz boys through healing after the whole Kim situation

https://archiveofourown.org/works/63215539

boy, we ain't got nothin' to lose (26,226 words); Buck gets amnesia and wakes up as Buck 1.0

https://archiveofourown.org/works/59360662

What’s Your Love Language? (18,332 words); Buck is on a mission to help Eddie figure out what his love language is

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55628455

A Series of Unfortunate Attempts (10,402 words); Buck tries to come out to Bobby about being in a relationship with Tommy only to find out the entire 118 has a betting pool about him dating Eddie

https://archiveofourown.org/works/59161087

Bobby Versus Buddie (10,391 words); Bobby has to walk a fine line between nudging Eddie and Buck toward realizing their feelings and losing his sanity enough to just yell at them that they’re in love

https://archiveofourown.org/works/24047908/chapters/57866764

I Hit the Accelerator (But the Car was in Reverse) (68,139 words); Buck comes to terms with his breakup with Abbie and immediately falls into a friends with benefits relationship with his new coworker

https://archiveofourown.org/series/4685875

All of This Mixed Up and Baked (series); two absolute behemoth fics that are just powerhouses of complicated emotional turmoil. Everybody should give these a read once but idk if I’ll ever be able to re-read bc it’s so painfully relatable at times

[beatlebrittle]

⊹ ࣪﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪˖

lucid dreaming is a hoax 1.0

Lily is a troubled teenage girl, homeschooled and desperate to leave her home. One day, she starts seeing things, hearing things, feeling things. She might be losing her grip on her sanity, or she might just be realizing some truths about herself.

Lillian Penn, aged 17, Filipina-American, diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. Homebody due to her anxiety, with staggering grades and attendance due to her depression. She's been through a lot, and she's still going through it.

The poor girl doesn't have very many friends, especially not ones within walking distance from her house. Combined with a lack of motivation to get out due to the other occupants in her home, she doesn't leave her room much. She's fairly lonely, and a complete hopeless romantic.

Lucky for her, her life is about to change—for better or for worse, let's hope for the former.

note:

lily is my kind of self insert/persona. all characters and current events are purely fictional, with possible inspiration from real life. lily's past is based on my own, likely with very little tweaking. writing this story is my way of coping. any mentioned locations will likely be inspired by real places near me, but with fictional names.

so for anyone wondering… my premise was like "lesbian imaginary friend with benefits" but i don't really like writing smut so we'll see what happens lol i just let the words sort of flow out of me, ykwim? ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )

(warnings will always be clearly indicated)

possible tws/cws for this collection: eating disorders, ptsd, rape, grooming, pedophilia, homophobia, transphobia, racism, suicide, self harm, analogies to death, drugs, alcohol, and violence.

this story will not be entirely wholesome or sweet, it will not always be happy and easy to digest. it is based on my experiences and my mind. despite all of the darkness, there will still be reasons to smile or laugh. i don't want to garner pity or just give you material to jerk off to, i want to make you feel, to understand.

[theothermorganh]

I haven't talked about my Mannequin OC in a hot minuet.

And updated drawin with some info.

Text:

The Mannequin Age: 15 He/Him Height: 5',3"

Abilities: Eats rocks Can mend clothing for health Specialized weapons and armor Can switch body parts for new ones- Each body part has durability and will affect speed. (Arms- Crafting speed and attack speed/dmg. Legs- Walking speed. Head- No durability. Torso- Over all health.)

More info if you want it under cut: (And sketches :3)

Full sets of upgrades (Parts):

-Base: (You start with it and you go back to it once your other parts break) (They are under the new parts) Health: 150 Sanity: 150 Hunger: 200 Speed: Normal Durability: Infinite

-Marble: Health: 200 Sanity: 150 Hunger: 200 Speed: + 0.5% (From base) Durability: 100 health

-Thelucite: Health: 250 Sanity: 180 Hunger: 200 Speed: + 1.0% (From base) Durability: 250 health

-Dreadstone / Moon shard Health: 280 Sanity: 200 Hunger: 200 Speed: +1.5% (From base) Durability: 300 health

Weapons:

-The Mannequin's sword: Dmg: 80 Durability: 150 Debufs: If a survivor that isn't the Mannequin uses it they have less atk power and a chance for it to slip out of their hands (It is smaller than regular swords and unwieldly to the non stone-like hands) Crafting: 1 gold, 1 thelucite, 4 sticks, 2 marble

Armor:

-A new coat: Health: 150 Protection: 99% Debufs: Mannequin has no plus wearing it but other survivors will feel warm and comforted. (+ Heat, +Sanity) Crafting: 2 Beefalo wool, 3 silk, 1 thermal stone, 2 nightmare fuel

-A fashionable hat: Health: 90 Protection: 40% Debufs: No sanity drain but no sanity gain.

-A New Mask?: Health: ??? Protection: ??? Debufs: Inflicts 100% of health to wearer. (Instant kill) (Decoration piece but you can end everything by taking off your old mask.)

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Full list of abilities:

Eating rocks gains health and hunger, normal food do nothing but gain sanity. They eat by mushing it into cracks in their body. Marble gains extra hunger and health.

Sanity doesn't go up or down by normal means.

Every 5 days makes one glob of nightmare fuel.

Drops rock and marble when hit.

Can't 'eat' Fish.

Looses extra health in the dark (Charlie hits him extra hard) (About 20-30 extra points of damage.)

Gains speed in the dark (Adrenaline does wonders. Also fear.)

Can't carry the large marble statues.

Mends clothes, armor and weapons with health.

Ghost wears everything at death, doesn't drop your stuff.

Takes more damage than usual. (Except to boss creatures)

Deathly scared of Nightmare creatures (Can't fight them)

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Back story:

His mentor had made Charlie's dress (Her favorite one). His mentor died and Charlie wanted another dress so she dragged him into the constant to make her another one. He did but saw what she was doing to the survivors so he destroyed it. She got angry at the act and had mutilated his face so no one could even look at him. She sown a mask into his skin where nightmare fuel seeped in and keeps it there. He had tried to take it off but died from blood loss. Nightmare fuel leaks from the mask slowly. His body slowly fell apart and so he made new parts from stone so he could move.

He sticks with Maxwell because Maxwell was a familiar face and could relate to being ostracized by the group. He doesn't know why Maxwell is being hated and he never told him due to the fact that it would make the boy shy away from him to.

He is scared of Winona due to her looking like Charlie but is warming up to her since she helps him make new parts when he breaks his old ones.

Sketches: Body horror (Kinda) TW

I believe I have more notes on him but I have to find them...

[nikatyler]

Zeph 1.0 ✨

Surprise. I wanna archive my very first bg3 run over here also, because it's pain in the ass to revisit it on twitter. I didn't quite live tweet this one, but I tweeted it a bunch too. The usual applies, spoilers are inevitable*, do with that what you want, and as per usual, if you haven't played this game yet: Go. Play. It. NOW. 😡

*but also this one is wayyyy less spoilery than my livetweeting of later runs haha

So let's go back to the beginning, March 7. Little Nika had no idea she's about to unleash her greatest hyperfixation since her Winx Club days.

I'm feeling like. Proper shy about this game 💀 It's just a game these people are fake no need to feel shy you'll hurt no one's feelings dammit

(it's still installing btw, because apparently my internet hates me today of all days)

Still about 80 minutes to go 💀 my own stupid ass anxiety will kill me before that

(x)

nice

(x)

FIVE MINUTES UNTIL I LOSE THE LAST SHRED OF MY SANITY BESTIES

(x)

friends i'm too shy to click the play button

(x)

See this is why I have zero friends because I'm too intimidated to even open a game with people who DON'T ACTUALLY EXIST alright alright i'll go do it you know i want to and i know i want to but i'm gonna sit here blushing like a fool the entire time

I also need to yell before I do a new thing

I'm in

Being a complicated asexual means I have no ducking idea if I want it or not Eh we're going with it

Yes I suppose this will now be the live thread of my initial thoughts and shenanigans, welcome welcome, or use that cute little mute button if you don't care ✨

I can already tell I'll have only two facial expressions playing this game: 👁️👄👁️ and 👁️🫦👁️

That was some fucked up asmr right there in the beginning. 10/10

Fuck it whomst do we create now chat Do we do it Do I do that thing we talked about

I'm overwhelmed by the amount of ways I could go about this, I think I'll create a random character at first and then when I play some other time I'll bring my boi in when I know better what to do and how 🫣

Girl help I don't know what kind of character I want to play with

As someone who dropped out of university I kinda feel like I need to have this hair 💀

them need a name (idk why i said it like that but i'm keeping it my brain is mush ok)

aintnoway it's been 15 minutes and i still haven't picked a name, am i possibly overthinking this? does anyone get the vibe that i'm overthinking this because i certainly feel like there may be a chance that i'm overthinking this

BUT I AM HAVING FUN I PROMISE

I'm still playing I just have nothing to say, I'm learning, and I'm waiting to meet you know who

Here we go 😗

Had dinner irl and I feel like I should take a break but so far I'm loving this! I'm a bit dumb but eh we'll get there. Would love to try out the multiplayer at some point (but don't count on it, I say that now and then I'll be too anxious to play with you 💀)

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I just realized my guy Zeph (they/them) looks like a yassified Ladislaus the Posthumous and idk what to do with that information

here's a slightly better look at my guy. do i need to say i'd die for them

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babes the minecraft hole will be abandoned for another game i'm afraid

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That little thingy that tells you the character approves will ruin my life. Pathological people-pleaser reporting for duty 🫡

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Y'all weren't lying this game is addicting

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i'm so fucking weak already he just lays there like that and i fgjklsdfsjkljdsf thoughts i will not handle this game well

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i'm so schoolgirl with a crush coded at the moment it's so embarrassing

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I haven't played bg3 since before lunch

Midnight and I still haven't played it's been like almost 12 hours at this point I'm completely normal abt this

I'm too tired but I want to play but it would be a bad idea but I mean I'm dumb at this game anyway so what's the harm but I don't want to mess up but ok bed first ig

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did someone ask for homemade niche memes that only apply to me

(he would get it though)

wait that picture is even funnier than i intended for it to be bc like this happened canonically in the nsb legacy, he burned because i was too busy doing something else

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I killed my character 💀 whoopsie it's reload time sorry bud

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Teehee won a battle and knew what I was doing most of the time, maybe I'm getting better at this

I'll go put some lasagna in the oven and continue playing

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Chanting "eat shit, eat shit, eat shit" in a very squeaky voice every time an enemy goes down

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all too well you say?? wind in my hair i was there i remember it all too well?? did you leave your scarf at his sister's house???

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lemme tell you how to make my simple bi ass happy

i'm bi first and people pleaser second. or vice versa. dunno

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Oh yissss the bite scene here we go :3

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oh don't you worry i will so be on my vigilante shit for you

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Not to be weird again but this game is unlocking emotions I didn't know I had

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You know how I thought I was getting better 💀 yeah nvm it's reload after reload today 💀

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Oop I'm already on 14 hours 🫢

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Okay I'm gonna play for just like five minutes and then go to bed If I'm still online at 2am you're allowed to yell at me

lord save me I said five minutes

I'm showing great restraint right now

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Oh something is happening ohhh something is happening can my laptop catch up and stop lagging pls

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You know it's gonna be so jover for me and I'm gonna be so beyond saving when I start putting together detailed information about my boi Zeph

(they/them btw, I call them boi or bud but in a nonbinary way)

Also can't decide what Zeph is short for. Was their deadname Joseph and they kept just half of it? Is their full first name Zephyros or something? What's their full full name? See it starts with little things like this but give me an hour and I'll have their full history 💀

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Big spiders...big fucking spiders ;----;

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hELLO

fuck that's not the best screenshot i could've taken 💀 I PANICKED OKAY

live nika reaction

Why do I get the feeling *everybody* wants to have fun with me

i didn't click it yet guys i'm 💀💀💀

so do i torture myself and leave it to tomorrow or do i go back in the game now? 👀

Fuck it let's go asexuality leaving my body as we speak

Oh boy

👁️👄👁️ gnight

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My sibling: *sends me a picture of their blorbo* Me: THAT'S NEAT, ALSO I F🤭CKED MY BLORBO YESTERDAY

And yes, those are our first messages today. No "good morning, have a nice day", more like "so this fictional man dammit", straight to the point 😌

Asking the real questions (abt their blorbo)

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Having an Annabeth Chase in Mark of Athena moment (and I don't mean that I'm doing something smart, I mean there's spiders)

FUCK YEAHHHHH WE WON (and almost died) (and in Zeph's case literally died) (but we're so back) (seriously though why do I always manage to kill just my character) (this was the worst battle I hate spiders I hate spiders so much)

I'm still shaking 😭

Having a real dummy day, besides the spider fight I'm not doing well 💀

nvm we got the pwetty book, it only took me like an hour to get here, it's fine😂

the blood, i like it 😌😏

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Oop I've got over 24 hours in the game already 🤭

btw I don't think I ever told you, my savefile name is "girl help"

Also I just quickly hopped in again now but I didn't really do much, I'm too tired to think at this point, I'll probably go to bed soon. I thought I figured something but nah not really and then I accidentally crashed the game oops 💀 my bad

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bi panic intensifies

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Something about me forgetting there could be traps and letting Zeph run straight through them over and over again…no wonder they're always on the verge of death 😭🤣

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um yeah i guess we weren't supposed to do that huh 💀

Don't worry, I reloaded 💀

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I miss my boi Zeph I wish I could be playing rn

They are so getting a backstory and like actual development once I get more into the lore and everything, just watch. And then we'll come full circle and I'll create them in ts4

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we are here

sorry not sorry but also occasionally i'm too self aware so i will be sorry but most of the time i will just not be sorry. sorry about that. but actually not sorry. sorry --

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