#saki and tsukasa

[fruity-fruition]

THIS! In "A phoenix through those blurred eyes" side story, Tsukasa sat outside the house door, trying his best to figure out the right choice of words to make sure Saki wasn't worried when he came in. He straight up lied to her about him eating lunch with his friends because he didn't want her to know he's skipping meals.

Saki's not stupid, so I don't doubt that she, at the very least, knows her brother constantly hides stuff from her. But she doesn't know when he's hiding something serious or simply something mundane. It hurts her that she can't help him the way he's helped her. That Tsukasa REFUSES to trust her the way she unwaveringly trusts him. And that's not his fault either. He's so used to being the responsible older brother that the idea of relying on his sister was out of the question entirely

I do believe Saki's illness was a domino effect for a lot of things in the people surrounding her, but I think it's GENUINELY unfair how people push her aside just because "well, she got better". that doesn't remove the years of guilt. That doesn't remove the fact that Saki most likely is tired of feeling fragile, like all she could do is rely on people and not be relied ON. She's so overlooked in her OWN ISSUE.

But imo, I don't think people focusing on Tsukasa's neglect is totally a bad thing. It's always so interesting to read about his sense of responsibility, his lack of real friends during middle school, his whole memory loss thing that still needs to be addressed, etc. He doesn't dwell on it, but it clearly affects his character. So to ignore that Tsukasa was, unfortunately, left alone a lot is also unfair to him.

It's just a matter of balance. People need to treat Saki with more respect, and not just treat her as "Tsukasa's sick younger sister". People need to talk about how betrayed she must've felt, when her friends basically cut contact with her, and the fact that her own brother cannot rely on her. How guilty she must've felt when she realized Leo/Need grew apart bc of her absence, how stressed she made the people around her. PEOPLE NEED TO TALK ABOUT HOW, AT AGE 6, SAKI WASN'T SURE SHE WOULD MAKE IT TO THE NEXT DAY. That stuff traumatizes you.

I think Tsukasa's attention right now is pretty good, and his background is explored pretty well. So if just more people talk about Saki as in-depth, I would live in peace

Using saki for tsukasa angst is so lame in that I think overly focusing on him in middle school & giving zero thought to how saki must have felt is loser behavior. Sorry. But saki blames herself (unfairly) for so much I knowwww she absolutely blames herself for the tenma parents neglecting tsukasa as a kid (they did their best but. Yknow) and him being alone so often as he grew up. I don’t think it’s a stretch to say she even blames herself for worrying him/him being upset that she’s hurting. Even now when he skips practice to take care of her when she’s sick, she views it as her inconveniencing him.

Tsukasa doesn’t dwell on his past, because saki is healthier now and she gets to live her life - and he would go through things 100x worse just for her to be happy. He would never dream of blaming her. He’s more than happy to take care of her, it’s how he shows love. It’s not something that needs to be repaid, and even if it was she repays it just by being his sister.

And saki knows this. She knows he loves her and doesn’t blame her. but I feel like a part of her thinks she deserves for him to blame her and feel inconvenienced. Because to her it’s something she can never reciprocate. Tsukasa has always gone out of his way to hide when he’s genuinely upset/struggling from her and is so averse to being seen as anything but an unshakable source of support. So how can she be sure that he’s not more affected by being alone? How can she be sure it wasn’t worse for him than he lets on? She can tell when somethings wrong with him but he won’t tell her even if she asks. He does everything to avoid worrying her but she’s going to worry anyways because she loves him as much as he loves her.

& she can never ask him because obviously he would deny it, & she can’t apologize (she doesn’t need to but that’s not something she can accept) because he doesn’t think she needs to and it would just concern/worry him that she felt that way. Saki going “You’ve done so much for me please let me be a source of support for you” vs tsukasa going “I would rather run directly into traffic than be something for you to worry about.” His unconditional unselfish love being a source of guilt for her (as much as she both appreciates it and wants to return it) on top of her already existing guilt complex. Smiles.

[patko0]

Putting them all through the lasagna filter🐱

[clovermintys]

THE TENMAS AS TRIPLE BAKA SQUAD!!!!!!!!!!!

happy 16th anniversary to th Official mv

[heartorbit]

new species of bug just dropped

[toastyyjams]

pjsk families !! but make it......loss...?

[lucemiart]

☕️ "for me, the place where the two of them was..."

[sana5353]

[hey-its-puddlesock]

i haven't been able to find a good comprehensive project sekai height chart, so i made my own. used screenshots of the 3DMV models since a lot of the official renders are in weird positions for measuring

[soapyakships]

a new discovery has been made?!?!?!

[correctproseka]

Twice today i looked at a femruikasa art and went "ruisaki?" And had to look again it really is just

[xahi]

they look alike they might be related

[here-to-saturn]

SIBLINGS !!!!!

these are also available as charms >< i booth once in a while in local cons; check twitter for updates :DD

[nazbruhh]

Yes, they all have rooms now

[clovermintys]

TENMAS again Cause theyre silly littles

[heartorbit]

bugs when you lift up a rock

[toastyyjams]

femkasa...