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1k words, dean’s 15x20 death speech reworked into a wholesome moment where dean is helping sam prepare for the ceremony. wincesties i will torch you. 

Dean watches as Sam adjusts his tux with a deep and nervous breath. Dean shakes his head with understanding. Just over one month ago he was in the exact same state. He knows there's nothing he can say to abate the nerves, but he most certainly still has something to say.

"Take a deep breath, Sammy," he says, walking over to give Sam a clap on the back and swing him around to look in his brother's eyes. "Remember - I don't know how - but you knew it was always gonna end like this for us. It's supposed to end like this, right?" he seeks Sam's eyes and waits for a terse but honest nod. There's an adjacent conversation happening that they both barely dared to dream could happen.

"I mean, look at us," Dean removes his hand from Sam's shoulder to fiddle with his wedding ring, "Saving people, hunting things... that's all we used to do, used to be... We had one hell of a ride, man," they share a short laugh. "No going back, okay? You know... you know that would end bad." We're out of the life for good. And that's... that's good. It was meant to be this way. Or it wasn't! The universe sure seemed to think otherwise. But this is our story now.

"Trust me Dean, I have no intention to." Well, that still stings a bit. 

"Yeah, yeah, I know... I guess I'm also telling myself. This is all new for me, too, ya know." I am still learning to be happy.

"Yeah, Dean... I do." It's Sam's turn to hold Dean's shoulder, though his eyes are elsewhere. With a sniffle, his gaze turns downwards.

"Okay, my tough guy voice is fading pretty quick, so... there's a few things that I need you to hear. Come here. Let me look at you," he ducks to catch Sam's eyes. If he's gonna do this, Sam better see it. Sam looks up with a smile. "Yeah, there he is. I'm so proud of you, Sam. You know that? I've always looked up to you," yep, yep, his resolve is dropping, but he doesn't care, "Man, when we were kids, you were so damn smar..." Dean sniffles, "Smart. You never..." a hiccup, "You never took any of dad's crap. I never knew how you did that. And you're stronger than me. You always have been." I learn from you every day. I learn from the lessons you tried to teach me years ago. 

Sam just nods, tears well formed, encouraging Dean to keep going.

"Did I ever tell you... Did I ever tell you that night that, uh... that I ca..." fuck it, I'm commiting to this, tears and all, "That I came for you when you were at school? You know, when dad hadn't come back from his hunting trip? I must have stood outside your dorm for hours... because I didn't... I didn't know what... What you would say. I thought you'd tell me to... to get lost or get dead." His laugh is empty and he breaks eye contact. It's Sam's turn to chase Dean's eyes. He looks at his brother with a hint of disbelief - not just how ridiculous Dean's assumptions were, but that they're having this conversation at all. Man, being in love has really softened Dean up. Man, being in love has really softened me up.

"And I don't know what I would've done... if I didn't have you. 'Cause I was so scared. I was scared, 'cause when it all came down to it, it was always you and me." The road ahead looks so uncertain without you by my side. "It's always been you... and me." All the same, Dean fiddles with his ring, an act of self-soothing for the life Dean knows they are both growing out of and adoring gratitude for the lives they are growing into. Bittersweet, like all good things are.

"Dean, I'm nervous... all this is so new, so unbelievable. It feels like I'm in a Djinn dream just... waiting." Dean understands - he's shared the sentiment. And the experience.

"Give me some credit. If this were a Djinn dream, I'd've gotten you out by now, time warping be damned." They share another weepy laugh. It's gonna be hard not living to protect you. "Things are gonna be different, man. I dunno how often we're gonna see each other, but..." and that's exactly it, isn't it? They're moving on - onwards and upwards.

Dean looks up with renewed confidence and snatches Sam's tastefully emerald tie. "I'm not leaving you. I'm gonna be with you... Right here... every day. Every day you're out there and you're Li... And you're living and you're loving, 'cause you... You always keep loving. You hear me?" I have no doubts you will, Sammy.

"Dean..."

Looping the tie with practiced fingers, saturated with the neglected hope now renewed that this moment is possible. "I'll be there every step." Even though... well... I won't. Not really. "I love you so much." Dean tightens the knot and looks up with a sigh. His tears are warm with pride. "My baby brother."

That's when Sam's resolve officially breaks. Dean pulls him into a hug.

"Oh, man... I did not think this would be a day. But it is. It is, and that's... Man... that's crazy. I need you to... I need you to promise me," Dean gently pushes Sam away to look back in his eyes. "I need you to... To... to tell me... that it's okay. I need you to tell me that it's okay."

That we've reached a denouement. A destination. That we're still figuring out who the fuck we are outside of the life. That we aren't responsible for saving the world anymore. That we're not the same people we were years ago.

That Cas and I are deeply in love. That you and Eileen are perfect for each other. That we're all so damn happy. That you and I are gonna be apart more often than we're gonna be together. That we're always gonna be brothers. That it's no longer just us. That what we have found is better.

"Dean… it's okay," Sam's voice is surprisingly strong, "We can let go now."

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