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psychemcvx · 8 years ago

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Day 7: 10 Songs that you’re loving right now

The songs I like didn’t reach 10 though. But here:

1. Love Sick by Banks. I like the tone of this song. The message I also found quite sexy, especially the chorus: Ooh-ah, 'cause I'm lovesick I ain't even ashamed, ah-ah. And I'm hard up for some time in your sheets, ah-ah. Would you be down to spend all your time with me? Ah-ah .'Cause I'm lovesick.

It also kind of reminded me of Saiferi. I really like how the longing and “love sickness” was very apparent in those few lines. It’s really nice.

2. Kataomoi by Aimer. I just discovered this song just now. It has a playful tone! Aimer’s voice is really nice and calming. I like how the tone of this song is so playful, mirthful and cute. It’s youthful. It makes me think that speaker in this song, or the story in this song is about someone’s first love. Everything is just evokes that feeling you get when you’re so gigil na to the point that you’re like. “Okay I love you, but I can’t say it out loud, but please understand!” That kind of thing. It’s very cute.

The cute lyric (of course translated): Even if you forget me, even though it's a little painful... that's all right . If you go off on a journey to a far-away place before me, I won't forgive you . Even if we're reborn, even if our first meeting is a disaster; I'll fall in love with you again. My heart is always in a one-sided love with you. I love you; understand it, understand it, understand it.

3. Believer by Imagine Dragons. This in my opinion is a very powerful song. This has become my feel good song. The lyrics just speaks to me. A lot. Pain! You made me a, you made me a believer, believer. I love that lyric. But I also love the riff in this line: Pain! I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain. It’s really eargasmic.

4. Stardust Venus by Aimer. My favorite it just makes me cry listening to this song. Ok. I must interject that my sister is really good in analyzing stuff like this. I don’t know if she read the translated lyrics of this song. But it is really about grief. About losing someone. And she nailed it. Damn girl, so good. I am always in awe with her ability to pick up things like this and nail it hard. I like this lyrics: I laughed, not because I was 'Strong'. You don't want to see my crying face any longer, do you? Remember me at my most beautiful. Is it good-bye already? That last word is nowhere to be found.

5. West Coast by Lana Del Rey. I like this just because it gives me strong saiferi feels. That’s all. BUT. I think her lyrics are really lovely plus some hypnotizing tune: You push it hard, I pull away, I'm feeling hotter than fire I guess that no one ever really made me feel that much higher Te deseo, cariño, boy, it's you I desire. Your love, your love, our love

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noirlevity · 7 years ago

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Le Petite Mort/saiferi

Warning: Erotic Asphyxiation :D

Summary: Nothing beats the thrill of waiting for the intimacy that you so desperately wanted. Ferid was willing to do everything for it.

Nothing beats the thrill of waiting for the intimacy that you so desperately wanted.

At last. Ferid thought. At last, he whispered to himself as he lay in bed naked, waiting with bated breath for the warmth that he craved. The rustle of clothes and the sheets echoed inside the motel room. It made things unbearable for him. The narrow enclosure did not help him control how horny he was. It even made it worse.

He desperately wanted to fuck. He’s been waiting for a week already. Nothing was more important than that at the moment. Not even the fact that the walls were thin. He didn’t care whether or not their neighbour will hear his shallow breathing as he anticipated being made into a mess.

Excited, he clenched his toes against the sheets, wrinkling it because of the force he exerted.

“Thirsty aren't we?”

Saitou crawled on the bed. The bed creaked as he made his way. The mattress dipped to carry his weight. Ferid just stared at the ceiling, waiting for Saitou to come; he waited for his touch oh so desperately that he couldn’t help but sigh. The heat inside of him continued to make him sweat. When Saitou loomed over him, flashing that devilish smile of his, Ferid felt another wave of heat oppress him. Saitou always made use of his desire like this. He always used this to play with him.

Because he couldn't wait anymore, he planted his foot on Saitou‘s crotch. He rubbed his toes against the bulge, wrapping it with his big and small toe. Feeling the other’s genitals beneath his trousers made a muscle in Ferid’s lower half clench. Saitou smiled at the pinprick sensation of arousal the friction gave him. He grabbed the other’s leg and kissed Ferid’s feet. Dissatisfied, he kissed Ferid’s shin and pushed against Ferid’s calf to make way for himself in between the younger man’s thighs.

Staring at the younger man's eyes, he wondered what he was thinking as he trembled beneath him. Lust glazed eyes stared back at him. The desire was lovely.

Saitou leaned in to lick Ferid’s lower lip. He opened his mouth wide and pressed his tongue strongly against the other’s skin. He tasted a little bit of the sweat on Ferid’s skin. The chiffon cake scent of his body made Saitou shudder from the inside.

It was a thrill of a lifetime.

Ferid was young and beautiful. He was innocent. To corrupt him like this was fun. It thrilled him that he was different from him.

Yes. He was different from him. Saitou needed to reassure himself. Ferid was easily excited because of his age. He liked to indulge in the danger that is inherent in this kind of relationship. That’s why Saitou can do whatever he wanted to Ferid. He knew it would only make the younger man happy if he did.

Saitou’s tongue was hot. The wet trails it left on Ferid’s skin made the younger man moan in pleasure as it travelled across his cheek up to his ear. Ferid felt a pull inside of him as if his nerves raged. The slow build up of tension inside of him made him feel trapped in a coffin of taut skin. There was so much pressure concentrated at his cock that he was afraid that he won’t last long.

The hair all over his body felt prickly as the loud violence of Saitou’s tongue attacked his ear. The wet pain brought about by the other’s teeth as it nipped at the soft skin that housed a mere cartilage made his chest and throat tense. It produce a clog near his heart, as if something crushed his lungs and his neck.

Gasping for breath, Ferid lolled his head to the side weakly. His body craved for Saitou’s touch. Saitou breathed against him. The warm gust of wind from his mouth left him a burn like sensation that made his throat dry. It made him shudder as Saitou rubbed his lower half against him.

Ferid tried desperately hard not to indulge too much to the pleasure Saitou gave him. He wanted to remain rational in the face of his own pent up desire, but it only made him feel like he was losing control.

His own weakness confronted him in the way Saitou sucked his nipples. The way his warm mouth circled around it made Ferid unable to think straight. He wanted to fight back from the tension that consumed him, but Saitou’s deep laughter made his every effort useless. It gave him an illusion of a low voltage of electricity sparked from each and every one of his nerves. The tightening in his chest and his throat worsened as Saitou took off his top.

Despite the claustrophobia in his chest and throat, his head felt light. He breathed in to drive away the lightness he felt. As he did this, his eyelids felt heavy. Being buoyed by the pleasure and the feeling of losing control made him buck his hips and open his mouth to utter a long moan of pleasure. Another wave of heat rushed to his dick, and a sudden wave of insurmountable tension held him hostage. There was a sudden sense of rush flowing into him that left his extremities on fire. But all of a sudden there was a sudden halt.

“It hurts.”

The older man chuckled. He kissed the younger man’s neck before clamping his teeth down the column of the other’s throat, nibbling it. A bolt of pain ran through Ferid’s spine. It made him narrow his eyes and bite his lower lip at the pain.

“Please,”

Ferid raised his head to battle against the pain and the pleasure. Saitou held him down; One hand crushing Ferid’s organ, and the other around his throat.

Saitou’s grip was strong. The force he exerted made Ferid feel completely helpless. He felt like a cornered prey who was trying to escape but unable to.

Why do you have to feel pain to feel alive?

He knew this was madness; the kind of madness he wanted to consume him even though he knew it won’t do him good. What he wanted to do was to touch Saitou. He badly wanted to run his fingers through the older man’s hair. He wanted to feel his ridged back, and measure how wide his shoulders are. He wanted to taste again and again his sinful tongue that always forced a curse out of him whenever it does its magic. He wanted to kiss him; to bite his chin. He wanted to wrap his arms around his neck and bite him; leave him the same marks he liked to leave him to mark him as no one else but his.

But he can’t.

He knew he can’t.

Ferid closed his eyes and rolled his hips, thrusting sharply, rubbing against Saitou’s cock. Waves of heat made him feel as if he was being burned. His forehead was burning and his face too; his whole body. As Saitou continued to crush his throat, Ferid couldn’t help but think about how easy it was to unlearn how to breathe.

When it came to Saitou his lungs become a useless organ. Everything hurt. But even then, it still didn’t stop him from letting out a moan at the pressure of Saitou’s fingers around his neck. It drove him insane to be slowly killed like this; breath after breath, he was closer to death.

“Shit. “ Saitou cursed.

He took his hand from Ferid’s neck to use it to take out his dick. That gave Ferid time to relax. When Saitou was done, he grabbed Ferid’s hip and pushed it upwards to expose the mounds of his ass.

Before going down, Saitou smirked. He closed his eyes as be pressed his tongue and licked. There was a strain in Ferid’s lowerback as Saitou folded him. The wet feeling he felt at his core made tears form at the corner of his eyes. The pain he felt at his arousal worsened.

“Stop..” Ferid cried.

“Sai..” He swallowed hard.

Saitou spread Ferid’s skin to further expose the insides of the tight hole and continued licking.

*Saitou! uhhh..

“It hurts. Let me come.” Ferid begged.

Gasping for breath, Saitou knelt and threw his head back, exposing the thick thatch of hair that ran down his navel to the root of his cock. Ferid stared at Saitou’s well sculpted pectoral muscles, the fine ridges of his abs and the wing-like muscle near his sides. His eyes travelled down to the older man’s cock.

The sight of it made him swallow hard. He felt overwhelmed. Noticing this, Saitou ran his fingers through his messy hair and flashed a smirk. He grabbed his cock and guided it to Ferid’s hole and rubbed himself against Ferid’s scrotum.

��You want this don’t you?” Saitou panted as he rubbed in a manner that was excruciatingly slow against Ferid.

“You want my big cock don’t you Ferid?”

“Yes I want it!”

“Then beg for it nicely.”

“I want your big cock inside of me. Please.

“Put it in.. raw..

“Violate me with it. I beg of you!”

Saitou chuckled. He pressed it at the entrance and penetrated inside. Ferid threw his head back and bit his lip. Tears streamed down his face.

“It hurts,” Ferid moaned.

“But you like it to hurt don’t you?” Saitou said in between pants. He breathed hard and was still trying to enter him.

“Saitou.. It hurts..! uhh.”

Without bothering to listen to Ferid’s pleas, Saitou thrusted inside.

“But you’re... so aroused your insides... forget I’m entering,” Saitou whispered provocatively in between grunts.

“You’re so cute.

“So very cute.”

Ferid felt something hot run at his lower half.

Saitou pulled out and ran his index finger from the tip of Ferid’s chin down to the bulge of the younger man’s adam’s apple. He wrapped his hand around the column of Ferid’s throat and rubbed his thumb lazily across the bulge.

Their eyes met. Ferid gazed into Saitou’s obsidian eyes. His gaze was serious. He looked at him like how he always wanted him to look at him, like he was someone worth the bother at least.

The older man’s eyes could kill a man. That was for sure.

Saitou swallowed and moaned as he continued to rub himself against Ferid’s body. Ferid could see the look of pleasure in his face. The softness around his brows, the dazed sense surrounding his facial muscles. Sweat trickled down Saitou’s brow. His pale face was flushed and his biceps strained around itself.

He was at least aroused too.

Usually, whenever Saitou was aroused like this, he always looked at him with an empty stare, as if he wasn't really looking at him. That’s why he found it odd.

Ferid’s wandering thoughts were pulled back to reality when Saitou inserted his finger inside his hole to stretch him out this time. This always felt gentle. It made Ferid feel good despite the stingy feeling down below. The coldness of the lube now drowned his senses. Ferid knew however that it will still hurt.

Once Saitou was done preparing him, Saitou inserted his dick and wrapped his hands around Ferids neck again. Ferid moaned at the pressure of his fingers and the creaking sound Saitou’s sinews made at the force he exerted. As the older man’s hand tightened around his neck, the more he thrusted into him up to the hilt of his organ.

It was a violent thrusting; Desperate, needy. Saitou closed his eyes as he continued to thrust and tighten his hand around Ferid’s throat. The sound of Saitou’s moans and grunts synchronized with the creaking sound the bed made. The rustle that the sheets made Ferid unable to hold back anymore. He began to see red dots in his vision. His lungs and his throat clenched to preserve air. He felt everything so tight. Tension rose from his base of his dick up to the hilt. His whole body begged release. As his consciousness started to drift away, Saitou loosened his grip. In that instant, air rushed to Ferid lungs at the last second before he was about to faint. As Saitou let go of his genitals, Ferid came, splashing a thick cum across his chest, onto the mattress, and on Saitou’s chest.

Saitou came seconds later, trembling as his warm cum splashed across Ferid ridged chest. When he was done, the older man kissed him on the cheek and lied down beside him. Ferid tried to sit down but his body was too exhausted to do so. Getting the idea, Saitou sat up, took the tissues on the table near the bed, and wiped the cum off of Ferid.

“Are you alright? I'm sorry if I went overboard earlier.”

Ferid liked to be pampered like this. Saitou was always gentle whenever they finish. He smiled.

“It’s fine.”

Saitou affectionately sighed and went to the CR to wash a cloth to clean Ferid up.

Seeing his naked body walk around made Ferid blush. He couldn’t help but continue watching him.

“You're tired aren't you?”

Saitou smiled.

“Not if it’s for you.”

Ferid blushed even more.

Saitou wiped Ferid’s chest gently, affectionately. When he finished wiping Ferid, he carried him to take off the stained sheets. Ferid wrapped his arms around Saitous neck, clinging to him like a spoiled child. He pecked on Saitou’s cheek, planting kisses all over his jaw. Saitou chuckled. Feeling possessive, Ferid tightened his hold on Saitou as if he was afraid that the other will disappear.

When Saitou was done, he tucked him in bed. As Saitou wrapped him up, Ferid just stupidly stared at the older man.

“I love you.”

The words just came out without him meaning it to.

Saitou didn't say anything. He just smiled at him and petted him.

“Saitou,” Ferid began. “ I..”

Ferid’s speech was stopped by a sudden kiss that made his head spin.

“Sleep. You’re exhausted aren’t you?”

After a final kiss on the forehead, Saitou lied down beside him. A few minutes passed, Saitou turned and fell asleep. Ferid snuggled close to his back, thinking that he wouldn't mind spending his days this way, if it meant he could wake up to the sight of Saitou beside him like this.

It’s over now though. The days when he would wake up to his scent and to his half awake self has long been gone. When he craves for those days, Ferid’s only resort was to smoke. It drives away the desire for the sex that he shared with Saitou whenever he does. Driving away his craving for his large hands and for the face he makes when he thrusts into him was difficult to do.

Ferid takes along drag on his cigarette and exhales.

It was difficult to forget about the thrill of waiting for the intimacy that you so desperately wanted.

#fics #saiferi #late post because tumblr mobile should seriously rethink its purpose in life #owari no seraph #rigr stafford #ferid bathory #ons

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