#saeyoung x judas

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Hang ‘Em High

Pairing: Saeyoung Choi/Judas [Male CMC] Description: Saeyoung's mind wanders as Judas' hands wander. The fire he feels is something he never wants to be extinguished. It's a damn good thing his boyfriend wants to burn alongside him.  Word Count: 2306 [Read on AO3]

“I’m starting to think you might be more enraptured with me than you want to admit,” those haughty words came as a taunt from Judas’ lips like a discordant melody. “It wouldn’t be a first for me. You just wouldn’t believe how many men I’ve seduced over the years after they decided to hold me captive. Of course, I got rid of them in the end… but you, oh, Saeyoung. You’re the lucky one.” 

The trickle of his boyfriend’s chuckle made his spine quiver. Saeyoung wasn’t the type to let go of control or inhibitions, but if there was one person in this world who’d proven himself more than capable of getting under his skin—it was Judas. It was his target-turned-ally-turned-lover who knew the ins and outs of his body like it was a piano he played for years.

Judas knew what it was like to be tortured, maimed, and left for dead just as well as he did.

That was why it was so easy to look him in the eye and blow off some steam. After all, that was how it started in the first place. Gnashing teeth, wandering hands, and wild eyes in the middle of the makeshift interrogation room Saeyoung set up in his bunker. 

It all melted in nothingness… nothing but a burning desire that brought him conflict, unlike anything he’d ever encountered. He never felt anything like that before and he wasn't sure he would ever feel anything like that again. Judas was the only person who ever made him feel it. That desire… that yearning… that fire… the kind of selfish dream that a Priest would make him sit in confession for until he admitted everything he wanted to do… and have done to him. 

Judas was the only person to ever make him want to bite something just as much as he wanted to be bitten in return. It was different with their girlfriend, Minji. When Saeyoung was by her side, it was like he was blanketed with a buff of flour and cinnamon. She was a gentle fire right when he needed one in the dead of winter. She made him want to survive another night even if the world outside of her warmth was cruel and unforgiving. What she gave him was… the hope he never had. 

But, Judas?

What he felt when he was with him wasn’t like the cinnamon and honey he tasted when he was in the kitchen with Minji. Oh, no. It was a different desire altogether, and if he were to put it in mere words, no word could ever come close to what he needed to say. It wasn’t the sensation of wanting to hold someone all night long with a tender look burning in your eyes. It… was much more akin to an insatiable hunger for more. If he was a glutton for anything, it was what he felt whenever he kissed Judas in the heat of the moment. 

Saeyoung wasn’t supposed to want anything like that. Hell, he wasn’t supposed to be loved or love another person because of the sacrifices he made as a child to do what he thought was the best thing at the time. Even now, to this day, there was a part of him that couldn’t believe he’d not only been given the freedom he wanted for his brother, much less that he was in love with two people who loved him just as much as he loved them. It almost didn't seem… fair in some ways. 

How could the world give him desire and yearning when he never wanted to let himself taste the apple in the Garden of Eden in the first place? Was he even worthy of such a thing, anyway? Sure, he made sacrifices, but he did so knowing he would forever taint his soul with damnation. Was it okay for him to receive and give the very thing… he took away from others? That was the kind of thinking no amount of therapy could make better for him. 

Even as he was trying to get better, that thought always lingered. 

It would be a part of him for the rest of his life no matter how far he got away from the living hell he experienced. Saeyoung knew that like the back of his hand. 

But, when Judas looked at him, with that cocky smile and those come hither eyes—

Saeyoung cracked under pressure and he couldn’t say he regretted it now. Back then, though, Vanderwood would’ve killed the two of them and moved on to his next assignment without a second thought. It was the thrill of something dangerous that spurned him to act. Saeyoung… had never been a selfish person in his life. He always acted with the thought that his twin had to have everything first. If there were scraps left, he would take them. 

He never took anything because he wasn’t allowed anything. He wouldn’t ever allow himself to want anything. Judas tested that mentality, though. His tongue dipping out between his lips as he spoke tempted him in ways he never had to fight before. His desire for Judas had been there from the start. The urge to act on it, however, had been what he had to fight. 

For somebody who never let himself have anything, it was harder to hold himself back than it should have been. That was the influence Judas possessed over him. That was the power of his sharp blue eyes and wavy black curls. It wasn’t just a game. They called it a game for a while to avoid putting a label on what they were doing, but they both knew better than that. Even with the experience Judas had over him by the chance of being born just three years before him—the reality was undeniable—they had become intertwined before they knew how to stop.  Judas would pull his hand, let his hand linger against Saeyoung’s shoulders, whisper in his ears so close that his lips would brush against the shell of his ear, and spurn Saeyoung to corner him when their interrogation process got them nowhere. If Vanderwood had been in the room, the process would’ve been more streamlined. But, Vanderwood hadn’t been there most of the time and Saeyoung had to delegate the process by himself. 

But… it wasn’t like Saeyoung didn’t push back when they were stuck in that small room. There were no lies he could tell about what he did to avoid Judas’ advances. He never avoided them to begin with. He reciprocated every single one. He played into Judas’ hands just as much as Judas played into his. 

He would pin Judas against the wall with vicious words that only seemed to be just enough to entice him to play, let his eyes linger in all the perfect places, and his guiltiest action—how he never stopped himself from letting his hand rest against Judas’ hip the second the man took a seat on his lap to watch the CCTV footage as they unraveled the mystery of who lured Minji into Rika’s apartment. 

If anything, they were both guilty of playing a dangerous game that wasn’t at all a game. They knew better than to play with fire, but they danced right into it. Judas knew they were going to kill him when they got everything the agency wanted, and Saeyoung knew it was his job to get rid of him when that day came. In reality, they should have been at odds with each other until the bitter end. 

But, as fate would have it, they leap into the flames they knew like the back of their hands like it was something they were destined to do. Saeyoung let Judas in at his most vulnerable moment and Judas didn’t take advantage of him. He drew him in and gave him a reason to survive and see the next day in a way that Minji just— couldn’t. It wasn’t that she wasn’t good enough for that. She was perfect. 

Her gentle reassurance gave him back the wings he lost when he accepted the agency’s deal, and Judas’ hands grounded him from getting swept away into the stars. 

The fact of the matter was—Saeyoung realized he needed them both to become himself again. He was just so damn lucky that they loved each other just as much as they loved him. To think that never would’ve been possible had he not given into temptation… to the desire in his loins that beckoned him to take more, more, more, more, and more.  

Saeyoung’s orders had been clear about how to handle the informant his agency had taken in for intel. 

He and Vanderwood were supposed to let him think he was safe until he spilled the beans on what he had on the human trafficking ring that was run by his former lover. It was the deal of the century. The agency got what they wanted and they didn’t have to go underground to get it. They only had to use one man to get years of work. 

Once they had everything he had, Judas was supposed to be disposed of. He wasn’t supposed to live beyond that. He was supposed to have been killed years ago. Yet, here he was, as alive as he could be with his chest pressed against Saeyoung’s back and his hands around his waist as if they were always meant to be there. Nobody would ever have Saeyoung the way he did… if only because Judas was the person who Saeyoung would allow to stand behind him. 

The agency could’ve never expected what happened between the two of them, though. None of them would have ever accounted for how easily the two of them worked together. It was almost like they were meant to be a dynamic duo. If they’d been the ones partnered by the agency at the start… Well, Saeyoung knew the underground wouldn’t have lasted for very long. Everything in their way would have been eviscerated. 

The agency had created its undoing by putting the two of them together in the end. They were the ones who destroyed everything. He and Judas were meant to be nothing more than a couple of pawns… spare pieces that could be traded away for a King… but, they proved to them that pawns were more than what they seemed. 

It was funny in a way, to think he would allow somebody who could easily kill him in a matter of seconds behind his back. He was always paranoid that someone or something would get the slip on him… to the point where he would never let anyone get behind him. He wouldn’t even let Minji stand behind him unless someone had a gun pointed at her and he needed to become a human shield. It was nothing against his trust in her care. 

Saeyoung just couldn’t leave his back exposed. 

Not just to anybody, anyway. 

Judas was the only one who could stand behind him without a single complaint. He knew his boyfriend would guard his back. If anybody so much as tried to do anything, Judas would end it for him. That was the dynamic of their bond. It was something he could only give to another person who knew what he was like in his visceral state of fear and anger. It was a brand of trust he could only give someone who would be willing to kill him or be killed by him if something ever went wrong. 

He could only entrust that position to Judas. 

“I’m the lucky one?” Saeyoung leaned against him, lifting his hand to grasp at Judas’ hair so he could pull at the strands and catch a glimpse of his knowing gaze. “I seem to recall otherwise… I think you’re sorely mistaken, again. You seem to forget just how small you are… and how easy it was for my hands to wrap around your throat back when you threatened me.” 

“Oh, you just hate to admit you want someone like me to dominate you,” the response flowed off of Judas’ tongue like it was nothing. He leaned into the pressure from Saeyoung’s digits on his scalp. His hands were hovering dangerously close to the space between his hips. “You know, I wanted you to pin me down, sweetheart. That’s why you did. You know as well as I do that I could give you exactly what you want… as long as your pride will let you admit how much you want to be coddled.” 

“Try me,” he hissed. 

“Oh, I’d love to try you… again and again.” Judas brushed his lips against the side of Saeyoung’s throat. He seemed proud of himself. He was always proud of himself when he got his way. The same way he inspired Saeyoung to be. “Isn’t that what we always do, darling? You push me and I push you? Until we fall together into the fiery pits of the Hell that you believe in… until Minji comes down to whisk us away to Heaven where neither of us truly belongs but… goddamn, if it doesn’t feel good to be in the sun.” 

Saeyoung inhaled, sharply. It was the same thing over and over again but he would never have enough of this. There would never be enough of this. He was always going to want more and more and more. One taste was never enough. Saeyoung would never be satisfied and Judas was more than willing to feed into his gluttony by opening the palm of his hand and letting him eat his fill forever and ever. 

Here they were again, playing a dangerous game, but they both knew what the outcome would be in the end. 

“Kiss me.” 

“I thought you’d never beg.”

[Art Reference: @/Half_A_Genius_]

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OOUGH I TRIED TO GET THEM BEFORE IT PASSED BUT HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KAIT!!! have seven and his sweeties goofing off with multiples of his glasses because these are party people who will make the party part slap. but lila and saeray are the main event and i hope these scribbles are a.) able to be parsed and b.) something that brings you joy... i hope your birthday has been great! 🎉 🎊🥳 —Submission

OH MY GOD SKELLY THEY'RE ALL SO GOOFY I ADORE THEM I'M GONNA PUT THESE ON MY FRIDGE

Judas, Saeyoung and Minji would make the best party, ever. I think it'd be cheesy and personalized. Minji would make the best treats to taste, Judas would distract me with a shopping trip, and we'd come home to Saeyoung tangled in a box of streamers with Saeran. Sobs. But, Saeray and Lila are so. precious. THEY'RE JUST SO SMALL AND SQUISHY. I'M GONNA PINCH THEIR CHEEKS THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.

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I frankly do not make enough content for my polyship. So, I thought I’d do a little something for them since it’s been a while since the last time. They have a very interesting dynamic. All them are capable of tormenting each other, but there is a certain quality to the way they do it that makes it... well, fun. Judas is one of the very few people who can get underneath Saeyoung’s skin and not pay for it with his life. Their relationship is very “You won’t do that, coward,” and “You bet?” We gotta love enemies to lovers.

Whereas, Minji and Saeyoung is that playful kind of love that makes you laugh every time. They pinch and pull at each other, knowing the limits of how far they can go before it’s too much. It’s like your first love that never leaves that stage of honeymooning.

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hello hello!! it is i, once again!! so here's a fun little thing for you: do you have any little headcanons or drabbles or anything, really, rattling around in your head that you would like to share but haven't yet had the chance to? like any little character thought that you don't think is big enough to post on its own or something, this is your free space to toss it out, no bigger context or work needed

-embroidery anon

(i thought of this because i just put together something really small for one of my stories and feel like celebrating the ideas of things. all the stuff we don't mention that becomes part of something larger later <3)

God. There are a lot of things I'd love to write or work on! Sometimes, I just don't have the spark to work on it, or I don't think it'd get love in the way I'd love it. My head is filled with prompts all the time! So, the answer to this is, where do I even begin? This is about to be so long, I swear to God.

I have so many thoughts about my Obey Me x Mystic Messenger crossover that I'm working on in the background of other stories right now.

There's a lot of character development and analysis that I would love to do for that but I just haven't got the chance to do it yet. I don't want to just write the main story, there's a part of me that wants to write things that are happening to other characters in the meantime.

Like, I would love to explore Saeyoung’s faith. I want to see what happens when he is presented with Lucifer, given that’s who he named himself after. Even without the crossover, I think it would be really interesting to explore that part of his faith in a way that helps my own religious trauma.

There is a part of me that wants to do a deep exploration of character sexuality and gender expressions, too.

I would love to sink my teeth into the concept of Saeyoung’s gender fluidity. It's something that a lot of people have talked about over the years, but I have never put in my thoughts and feelings about it in a way that would allow me to truly explore his character the way I want to and share my interpretation.

Another concept I want to work with is my personal take on Jumin being asexual. There is a lot to that specific headcanon of mine and I would love to go into detail one of these days. I just haven't had the energy to replay Jumin’s route lately!

I haven't really talked about that in a long time, unfortunately. It's something I feel passionate about when it comes to his character, but it can be a hard time talking about it because there are a lot of acephobes out there that pop into my posts. Which, hey, if anyone reading this is acephobic, get out of here, you are unwanted by my demisexual ass. <3

I don’t get to write Yoosung or Zen enough. I feel like there's potential for me to explore their characters a lot better but I just haven't found the right concept that I want to work with them on. There's a part of me that wants to flesh out Yoosung in my Cowboy universe. I just haven't put together the pieces yet but once I do, we're going to finally have me riding about him properly in a story that is all his own. Maybe I’ll get to Zen someday… 

He, unfortunately, always winds up as the best friend to the Readers in my stories. But that's kind of how I see him so it's hard for me to write about him in any other way.

God, I think the thing that is on the back burner most of the time are CMC-driven stories.

One story I want to write is centered around my Poly Trio since they fall behind Saeran and Lila so often! Judas and Saeyoung have this dynamic that bounces between enemies to reluctant friends to lovers that makes me feel some kind of way. There's a part of me that really wants to explore their dynamic quite often. I think about the time just before Minji appears a lot.

Like, Judas is an informant who has been working to get revenge on his ex-boyfriend who used and abused him for years after scooping him up off the streets as a teenager. He almost got what he wanted, to kill him in cold blood, but they put a hit on his head and his only choice was to sell himself to the Agency Saeyoung works for to save his skin momentary. The agency wants his information and then they want Saeyoung and Vanderwood to kill him. The cat and mouse that shapes them sends me sometimes.

Minji is the sunshine between them. She is their guiding light who guides them back to happiness after bathing in sin, but I want badly to write about that time between she appears in the apartment just to see Saeyoung and Judas bite each other's heads off.

I have even more ideas for Saeran and Lila, but I typically tend to scratch that itch when I have it. Besides, you're asking for those things that I think about but never wind up doing no matter how much I want to do it.

Unsurprisingly, there are so many things that I still haven't written for Ray, Suit Saeran, GE Saeran, VAE Ray, VAE Suit Saeran, Unknown, or SE Saeran. I don't think I can fit everything that I've ever wanted to write about when it comes to that character but I certainly can't do it in a single post.

There are a lot of little things that I would love to write about when it comes to each and every one of them. Sometimes, though, the concepts that I have are so little that it would just turn into a post that looks a little bit like: 

“Ray is the little spoon. Send Post.”

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Oh, look, me drawing 2/3 of the Poly Trio for once instead of Saeran and Lila. I know, what a rare treat. I also just think cute when I imagine Saeyoung lifting Judas around because really, honestly, the man deserves to be adored just as much as he adores Saeyoung and Minji. Hopefully I’ll get around to a single piece with Saeyoung and Minji soon. 

ref: AdorkaStock.

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TFW your tall girlfriend has to bend down so you guys feel better about yourselves. I’m kidding, kidding. Taken Five Seconds before disaster because why are you three just taking selfies outside of the cult? Who doesn’t love the Poly Trio? Honestly! I wanted to make my own edition of the selfie in Seven’s Route so I did. References are definitely making this easier as I go. 

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Hi! Im curious about the poly trio (#obviously)

Ive read quite a few of your works, and so i know how they knew each other and fell for each other, but I’m curious about what happened between Saeyoung and Minji that led to Judas’ inclusion. IIRC, Judas was gonna step back and let them do their thing but they pretty much said nope youre in too

I was wondering if you could (or already have and i missed it) explore how that went down a little more. Did Saeyoung and Minji talk about it beforehand? Was it just so natural it was a foregone conclusion?

Thanks for sharing so much of your amazing work with us!! 😍😍

In Petunia, some of this gets covered and talked about but since that story primarily focuses onto Unknown and Lila's relationship, you miss out on some of the key factors of the Poly Trio's gentle dynamic. It's been a while but I have a oneshot plotted out where I explore how that came to be but I just haven't had the time to do it. I need to get on that.

However, I'm happy to talk about it here. You are most definitely right about that specifically. That is what Judas intended to do. He is the one that bridges the gap between them. 

He knows them both and he's always felt a pull. In canon, Judas met Minji first. She was walking on the wrong side of town and he didn't want her to get into trouble, so he escorted her back to her house. She was a real sweetheart to him and he couldn't forget her smile. He felt a natural connection to her but at the time, he was so wrapped up in his revenge plan that he's never acted on it.

So he interacted with her one evening about a year before the events of the story take place. He never forgot her face. As you know, Judas is an informant. It's a long story of how he ended up on that point. To give you the long of the short of it, both of his parents wound up leaving him and he had to fend for himself. He was a kid with a really pretty face and by the time he turned eighteen, he was a pretty good pickpocket who knew how to deceive people. One of the people that he targeted happened to be the son of a very influential mafia boss.

That man would have become his boyfriend. This man would specifically train and help Judas to help him ensure he would be able to be the next in line to be in charge. 

He fed on Judas' emotions and for a few years, he pretty much emotionally compromised him. That man would do a lot of horrible things and yet, he would give Judas just enough to feel like he was appreciated. This man was not the one building power, it was Judas. He was the one that was taking down people and learning their secrets.

He would use his charm, his body, his everything. All because he thought he was going to be praised by the man that he thought loved him. It wasn't the case. 

Because that man decided that once he pretty much was guaranteed to get what he wanted, he stopped hiding how horrible he truly was and Judas would eventually see him cheating. He would get angry and try to lash out at his boyfriend, but it wound up getting him beat within an inch of his life. He did live, and he vowed to destroy everything.

His informant life was built upon the idea of trying to destroy that Mafia Family. He would use his body and everything that he learned against them. He actually got pretty close to ruining everything. 

He was so angry and constantly trying to get back at the man that hurt him. But when he finally got close, a hit was put out on his head and Judas couldn't escape it. Keep in mind that he even met Minji during that time.

He managed to make a deal with the agency, though. 3 years of his power and the agency wanted it. Seven and Vanderwood were assigned to get everything out of him and then dispose of him. 

Vanderwood wanted to get it done now. But Judas knows how to buy time and he knew what to do. He started giving Seven advice on targets to buy himself time to see what to do. Seven did take the offer, and covered for him because this was another excuse to dodge work and keep the madam at bay.

So, they're living in this grey area where Judas and Seven know that they're destined to kill and be killed. Yet, they're slowly getting closer and closer... Seven feels a spark because he's never had someone validate him like Judas, or even side with him when he's struggling with his sense of self. Judas becomes a confidant. Because he knows how to keep his mouth shut... and if he's supposed to die... well, it won't hurt, right?

The two of them are around each other for roughly 3-4 months before the Apartment incident. By that point, Judas has gotten close to kissing Seven and vice versa. It's a dangerous game they're playing but they just felt that urge growing.

Until one day someone enters the little apartment and Judas narrows his eyes, telling him that "that girl, again? Darling, there's no way she's a hacker or even a menace. She works at a pastry shop and she'd hug a Porcupine because she thinks they're sad they're too prickly for hugs."

So, Judas vouches for Minji, alongside her online handles that clear her from the crime. Seven gets that confirmation and runs with it. 

Now, here's the tricky part. Seven and Minji really start going at it on the phone.... a lot, and since Judas is all about body positivity and relationship support, he is honest with Seven and tells him if he likes her, he should take the risk. They talk a lot about that grief and guilt Seven has about not feeling like he deserves to be happy. 

Judas chats to her when Seven is working, too, nudging her to take the shot because he sees the tension and he needs them to just kiss.

It seems okay.

Until the bomb happens.

Judas and Seven both storm the apartment... Judas can't stay. Vanderwood would kill him if they got the chance. So, they confront Unknown, Seven breaks down and tries to pull away. 

Minji struggles and Judas is her confidant. He coaxes her and urges her to be patient. Minji feels like she can breathe knowing Judas is there and be understands her plight. He's honest with her that he cares greatly for Seven but he knows that the big lug loves Minji inherently. He wants support the two. He wants to see Minji and Seven shine.

God, she kisses his cheek once and he knows it's over for him. She smiles at him and that night when she's really upset, they wind up cuddling. She strokes his hair and he fiddles with the back of her shirt. It feels so good. It may not be quite romantic but they both feel a spark.

"Thank you, Judas."

"Anything for you, Minji, darling. I desire to see you have all you want."

"You're always the charmer, Judas... I swear, you made me heart flutter the first time we met. You know how to use to your words."

"Don't worry, dear. I won't steal your heart."

Quietly, she knows he has.

Minji makes him feel warm and fuzzy inside. Her smile was something that he could never forget. For a man that was so angry and lost to the world, even her smile reached him. Seven was the first person to ever validate his anger. He was the first man to ever look at him and say that he had the right to be pissed. He made to his feel like he was allowed to be himself.

You have to understand that Judas has major fears about relationships. He's scared to get himself involved in that again because it might hurt him. He also doesn't want to hurt other people. 

At that moment, even though he feels such a natural desire for the both of them, he doesn't feel like he can do that. He's also not sure that he has the right for it. Even though he's definitely felt tension with the two of them and attraction, he tries to convince himself that the ideal thing to do is to support them.

Judas is really in his head about this. Even as Saeyoung admits that he was wrong and that he needs to work on himself, and Minji starts to become brighter and happier, he feels like even if there's something there, he doesn't have the right to it. 

And it's kind of silly, because he's the kind of person that's always very aware of how people are feeling. Yet when it comes to his own feelings he tries to stifle himself.

Even after that confrontation and they all decide to go look for his twin, nobody's really rushing into a relationship, but there is really obvious romantic tension. This all doesn't get addressed properly until the situation in the cabin. Because it's been brewing this entire time. 

Judas and Seven wind up having this talk late at night about how they shouldn't take things for granted because they don't know how long they have to live. Judas is the one to tell him to go ahead and take a risk with Minji. Seven is a little hesitant to bridge that gap, but Judas decides to give Seven the confidence to kiss someone and desire them by giving him a warmup.

He asks if he can do something... and then he kisses Seven... a couple of times. Seven is left winded because he's been trying to suppress those feelings about Judas for so long, but damn, he did want that kiss. Judas gently nudges him with a smile, "If you can survive a kiss with me, you can survive kissing Minji."

"Don't you want to..."

"It's alright, darling. I know you love her and she loves you. I would give anything to kiss her and see her shine, myself. But I want you and Minji to be happier then I ever was. That's why I want you to grasp your chance before it's too late."

"...Judas."

"Shoo, shoo. Win her heart."

Judas nudges Seven to go to the other room where Minji is since she’s been resting there for the time being while the two of them were working on these clues per Vanderwood. It’s in that moment that Seven and Minji do wind up kissing again and start really talking about their feelings. 

There’s tension, there’s emotion, and there’s everything else in between those things. However, something is... very clearly missing as they’re together, toying the line of intimacy. Minji gives him one look as she rests her forehead against his, “This isn’t right without Judas, too.” 

Seven is taken back by that statement because... well, he didn’t realize that she liked Judas like that. He’s still reeling that he was subjected to confronting his own feelings like that for Judas because he had been bottling that shit up for so much longer than he had with Minji’s feelings. As much as he loves Minji, he has to admit to himself that she’s right. 

It doesn’t feel right without him. 

“You...” 

“I heard you kiss him,” she murmured, golden eyes watching him closely. “I’m jealous you got to kiss first. I love you, Saeyoung, but I’ve felt a pull towards Judas since he saved me. Don’t you feel it, too? I’ve heard the way he talks about you, and we’ve... towed a very dangerous line when we’re alone where I almost kiss him myself... if this is our last night, if this is the last time we can be together safely, then I want to be with Judas, too.” 

And Seven kisses her, sighing because he knows that she’s right. She’s seen right through him. “You’re right... you’re right. It’s not fair to do this without him here, too.” 

Giggling, Minji calls out for Judas and tells him to come there. Judas had settled in the other room of the cabin, staring at his phone as he tried to ignore those buzzing feelings in his guts. Yet, when she calls for him, he doesn’t hesitate to come crawling. Minji springs to her feet and makes sure that he comes to bed, hard to say no to the pretty 5′10ft lady when you’re a lithe 5′6ft pretty boy who is easily lifted. 

“Darling, I assumed you were getting what you wanted.”

“Silly, you belong here with us, too. Saeyoung and I want you, too.”

“She’s right.”  

So, that night, they all really have long talks, steal kisses, and work on their relationship together... it gets steamy and interesting. So, I hope this gives you a better idea of how it happens. There’s a lot of talking and communication in this relationship and they all have a lot to work on since Judas and Seven are the ones that are stubborn and butt heads a lot.

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Hi, I love your poly tri content and I was wondering if you could please write how they would take care of a reader who has a really bad fever and is partially deletions from the fever? I am coming down from a really bad fever, and I was wondering if you could make it fluffy? Please?

The Poly Trio is outright determined to take care of each other. Minji was kind of used to taking care of everyone around her because she spent a good portion of her teenage years taking care of her younger siblings. Judas had learned how to take care of himself at a young age because his parents wouldn’t do anything for him when he was a baby. Saeyoung knew how to fend for himself and his twin to ensure their survival. 

A little flu or cold wasn’t going to take any of them down, and it wasn’t going to cause any trouble or get in the way of anything in this bunker! You had nothing to fear and nothing to be frightened of. They were a working team and it didn’t take long for someone to notice you weren’t feeling well. 

Judas was the first to notice because he was home with you. He often spent his time lounging around with you because he’d earned that time off after trying his best to protect Saeyoung from harm. He caught you with blurry eyes and a hasty murmur against your lips that said that you were “okay.” 

You weren’t okay. He sighed at that lie and immediately pressed it his palm to your forehead. You had a fever, which meant that you needed to get back into bed. “Alright, little darling, you’re going back to bed.” 

His immediate action would be to drag you back to bed as soon as possible and get you changed out of your clothes into something fresh. He would let you get some rest for a little bit and sit by your side, running his fingers through your hair and humming underneath his breath to pass the time. 

If you woke up, you could have Judas murmuring sweet wishes and promises in your ears to comfort you. If you feel bad enough, he’ll help you into the tub and he’ll spoil you rotten in the bubbles.

Minji would know after Judas texted her while she was working with Jaehee on the job. She would be sure to make a list of things to pick up that you didn’t get on hand in the bunker, like soup or any other little snacks that you like when you happen to be sick. 

She’s got a list and she’s going to make sure that she follows it to the letter. It doesn’t matter what Judas or Saeyoung say, she has a routine and she likes to follow it when she’s caring for the people that she loves the most. If she could prepare for a nuclear war in a day, she would. A simple cold means that she gets out of hand.

When she returns home, she’s the one that helps you make sure that you’re eating and getting fluids down. She scolds you for not telling everyone that you were getting sick sooner. This sort of thing requires help as soon as possible, after all!

She coddles you quite a bit, kissing your cheeks and cooing over you as you settle in bed. If you’re able to stomach it, she’ll bring you something sweet to help you feel better.

Saeyoung is the one that brings everyone together at the end of the day after he steps out from his workroom. He finds Minji and Judas curled up with you in bed on either side of you and he sighs at the sight. 

He was really caught up in his tasks but he never realized that the three of you would be together before he got the chance to dive in. He thought that only one of them would be tending to you but... well, he had to make up for not being by your side. 

He would shrug off his sweater and slowly crawl up into the bed, pooling his body on top of yours. You might groan as he settles against you but you’ll lift your head and see his golden eyes staring into yours with warmth and worry in his heart. 

“Sorry to make you wait, little kitten. I’m sure Judas and Minji made sure you were taken care of while I was gone, though. Try to get some more rest, okay? Now I’m going to make sure that you’re safe and sound in dreamland. You get to be the middle spoon tonight.” 

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It’s biphobic that I’m not in a cuddle pile with minji, Judas and Saeyong as they kiss my nose

Here's a read you might enjoy.

Do you want to be in the middle of a cuddle puddle? Oh, boy, my dear Anon.

Then you need to know how the dynamics work. Everyone rotates their spot now and again so there's an equal turn of who gets to be the one that is smothered and kept warm in the middle, and who gets to go and sprawl

The most common position, however, is Judas curled up in the middle because he's the shorter and he huffs if he can't be touching both of them at the same time.

They humor him. So, you're free to close your eyes and imagine Judas holding you close, your head tucked underneath his chin as you breathe in the spice of his cologne. That would leave Minji curled up behind him with her arm sprawled across you and Saeyoung on the other side.

Meanwhile, Saeyoung is petting your hair and cooing affectionate things next to your ear as you sigh peacefully.

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I don’t draw them enough. I sincerely don’t and frankly, let’s start changing that today because the Poly Trio rightfully has earned their spotlight as well. You’ve got to admit that there’s just something really wholesome about two guys trying to learn how to open up not only to themselves, but to each other, and to this girl that means the world to them. Though, no thoughts head empty is surely a good motto to standby. 

They’re smart individually but together, it’s a fever dream. 

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Ref

Listen, I hardly ever draw the Poly Trio, but frankly, that’s a crime on my part and I should be ashamed of myself. They’re always my favorites when it come to like relationship dynamics because it’s all over the place. Like, for example, Minji is the tallest in this relationship, then Seven is, and then Judas is. Seven’s the nerd, Judas is the drama queen, and Minji is the most down to earth. Seven is the middle spoon always. There’s plenty to gush about. 

He deserves a boyfriend and a girlfriend. He’s got two hands. He should use them. 

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It wasn’t often that it was the two of them alone. 

Life just wasn’t how it used to be, but that wasn’t a bad thing. All that time together felt more like they had been alone. In a way, that wasn’t wrong, he was lost in his anger and vengeance, and she was caught up in her jealousy and the twisted means of protection. 

Faraway was the time spent alone in that room. Suffocating and isolating four walls even though they were merely a few feet apart back then. Now, it actually felt like they were together in the same room. Sure, things were a little different than they once were, but he wasn’t upset about it. 

Although it hadn’t been his choice to turn away from that life, he was... okay that someone had dragged him out when they did. Had they not done that, he would have not been able to go on living after seeing the blood on his hands. Her blood on his hands. 

Sometimes, it felt like his hands were still coated in that sticky ember, but when he looked or scrubbed, it wasn’t there. It just felt like it was. He supposed that it was the price of living. It was only a blessing that Lila hadn’t died back then, he’d not take her commitment for granted. 

Not now, not ever. 

It was hard to say, but, he felt grateful that he was alive. 

“You know, I can’t remember the last time that they all left the bunker at the same time,” her voice caught his attention, and when he turned to face her, her forehead bumped against his. Rather than pull away, her hand tentatively raised to brush his cheek. 

“He thinks we need a babysitter,” Saeran snorted. It was a bitter sound, but not as bitter as it might’ve been in the past. There was always one of them around no matter what happened, be it Minji, Judas, or Saeyoung. It went without them having to say it. They might have trusted their recovery, but what they probably didn’t trust was an episode. 

As if he’d ever lash out and hurt her, or vice versa. 

Still, ridiculous as those idiots were, he knew that they meant well. Just like how they meant well whenever they filled the house with the sounds of laughter that felt grating against his eardrums. He wasn’t used to that sound, nor was he used to being around so many people. 

“Coming from the man who’s girlfriend holds him by the hood of his jacket when he’s too excited, I don’t think he has much room to talk,” she countered. Leaning forward to meet him, she brushed her lips against his. There was just the faintest taste of strawberry balm faded away after hours of wear and tear. 

“I don’t want to think about whatever those idiots are doing,” he corrected her train of thought on the spot. He lifted his hand to brush against the edge of her short curls. She was often ashamed of them, and looked away whenever eyes would linger on her for too long. 

She couldn’t hide anymore. 

Something that she’d long done even before he’d known her the way that he had. It seemed ridiculous that one of the worries that she had while they were kept apart was that he’d be disinterested in her because she hacked her hair away in the midst of a breakdown. 

It was just hair, but, he understood that to Lila, it was a part of her identity. It was something that helped her feel tangible, real, and alive. It wasn’t petty, or some stupid thing like that. 

Taking that away had been a self-punishment. Just as he had done to himself by clawing at his arms when he found himself in a trance of anger or a memory that would not go away. They both had a lot to work on and see through, but even if they were... a mess, at least they were a mess together. 

“Oh?” she asked. “What were you thinking of, then?

The glimmer in her eyes sparkled with something dangerously unspoken. She was daring him to try something. Saeran would give her credit for one thing, she was incorrigible and no matter what happened or how tired she was, that part of her personality stayed the same. 

He opened his mouth to respond but the heavy door lock from the the other side of the room clattered open as if someone had kicked it. He took one look in the direction and narrowed his eyes, already exasperated by what he saw. 

His idiot brother carrying Judas without a care in the world as Minji chatted to him as if that was something normal to do with your partner(s) only to call out when they made eye contact. “Don’t worry, kids, we’re home—!” 

Of course, Saeyoung probably didn’t expect to see Saeran or Lila that close to each other and he literally dropped Judas with open hands as he pressed those hands to his mouth, “Oh my God, we interrupted their date night! Quick, abort mission, we need to go back outside!” 

Judas hit the floor with a thud, and gasped, glaring at the redhead as he hit his leg hard. “You asshole, you dropped the baby!” 

Saeyoung snapped his head back down and cocked his head, “When did we get a baby?” 

“I’m the baby!” he growled, his blue eyes narrowed. “If you want to cart me around like a rag doll, the least you could do is treat me with some respect and care, I am a delight! I am your boyfriend! I am the best thing you have apart from Minji!” 

Minji had hobbled over next to him, but not to help him, she was too busy laughing. She couldn’t stop laughing, to be specific, she clutched at her sides and wheezed, unable to believe her boyfriends were doing this right now once again. Knowing them, this happened seven times already. 

“This house is a fucking nightmare,” he grumbled. 

“At least, they forget about us this time,” Lila supplied with a reassuring smile, meant to make him feel somewhat better. He wouldn’t lie and say that he it did nothing, because it did at least remind him that someone knew that this mess was not normal. 

He wasn’t in the mood to stick around this time. 

“You wanna head out and get some ice cream until they collect themselves?” 

“You read my mind.”

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Ihhh can I please request the poly with an mc who does wear a bra but instead wears corsets daily. Sorry if this is weird but I absolutely love corsets and I only wear a bra if necessary cause I switched over to corsets, and honestly my back has thanked me for it. Sorry if I was rambling

Oh, oh, oh. Judas is whole-heartedly supportive of you from the start. He’s glad to see that you’ve embraced some style into your wardrobe. He’s got a few that he wears himself with his own outfits, everyone knows that if he has the choice in the matter, he’s going to look princely. So, expect this man to start making a lot of outfit choices so you can either match or complement each other. He’ll be there to gloat to the others that you both look so damn good, it’s a shame that not everyone gets to see it. 

Minji thinks it's delightful that you’ve made some outfit changes for your health and comfort. She’s very supportive of the idea. She’s never considered it for herself since she tends to prefer looser clothing with soft textures, but, hey, she is there to compliment you and tell you how much brighter you look wearing them all the time. It may convince her to try it out herself now and again to see how it makes her feel. 

Saeyoung is somewhere in between how Minji and Judas are. He’s just happy that you feel better about your body. It’s easier to sweep you off your feet and dote on you whenever you smile broadly and feel good about your body. He’s the kind of guy to dote on you and kiss you more when you look so bright about things. He and Judas are relentless with compliments and passion.

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How do Judas and Minji react to being called ‘dad/mom’ for the first time?

Also, how does Saeyoung react to not being called either? Because I might call him mom when I’m annoyed but not consistently like the others

Minji relishes the attention because hey, this is a compliment. It means that any person that says that thinks that she’s really nice and caring. She had a normal childhood so really, it’s not a big deal to her when someone does that. She just laughs and says that you should really be careful calling her that because she’s known to take things seriously when it comes to caring for others. So, you really need to prepare yourself for when she reminds you to eat. There’s no escape from that.

Judas would be... well, we all know that he’s got parent issues. His mommy issues are far stronger than his daddy issues. He’s okay looking out for others but he’s got a deer in the headlights look on his face when you call him that name. Fuck, now he’s stuck looking after you because he’s not going to leave anyone who—... this issue is a bit too deep-seated. Just know that he’s quite for a while, then he decidedly says, “Of course, you think that of me. I suppose we’ve coddled you too much.”

Saeyoung’s got his own range of parental issues but I don’t think he’d let it get to him like that because he does want to be a parent himself at some point in his life and there’s no denying the glimmer of amusement on his face if you call him mom. You know he enjoys when people call him miss or a woman now and again simply because we see him as a genderfluid icon around here and he’s rarely receiving she/her pronouns and when he does, oh boy, he’s buzzing. If you call him dad, here comes the dad jokes. He will not stop teasing you, but honestly? He thinks it’s a compliment. 

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Reference 

 I drew for the Good Ending, Secret Ending, and then I said, don’t stop, we need Ray too, and then Suit Saeran, and then Unknown. And, if I literally drew all of the variants for Saeran and Lila, then it’s a crime to not draw Minji, Judas, and Seven as well. So, here you go. Poly Trio time. 

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I read your tag about what if lila was shipped with saeyoung instead and it was so cute. i want to see him dressed like a lolita too! do you have any more headcanons on how it would go? 👁️ And what if Saeran was with Minji and Judas. What would that be like? I feel like Minji and Saeran would have a fun time cooking together. But its hard to imagine how Judas and Saeran bonding looks like.

I think I’ve talked about it before, but it’s definitely been a while since I’ve had the thought on my mind. So, let’s consider the possibility here and play around with the timeline and see what would happen if we swapped around the MCs in their relationships. 

Now, I suppose would be smarter to start with Judas since he is involved with Saeyoung much earlier than Lila meets Unknown, or Ray, it just depends on the timeline. Judas, as we all know, is a former informant and would take power by gaining secrets using his body or his promises to get what he’d wanted. He was fixated on revenge and destroying his ex-boyfriend who was to become the next head of a Mafia ring.  

 He spiraled wildly out of control until he fucked up one day. He made a mistake and took down the wrong guy, and it landed a hit on his head. They saw him as a nuisance until he proved himself angry and crafty, and he knew he was rightly fucked. He made a deal with Saeyoung’s agency to trade his secrets for some kind of protection, but we all know the agency wanted his secrets and then they were going to kill him. 

Judas actually met Minji one evening and escorted her home when she walked int the wrong side of town and that was what helped Saeyoung vet Minji when she appeared in the apartment. Now, if we were to say that instead of making one mistake, he meets Rika at some point and she wants him for his powers of true coercision. She sees his anger and righteous fury and loves it. He could make a good boy who deceives others for the cult. It’s hard to trick him, but I think if he offered to help him kill his Ex, he’d take it, and she’d trick the trickster because of his weakness. 

That puts him interacting with Unknown very often. Judas loves to flirt and play around with others for fun. He, like Lila, tends to prefer fashion that is princely in nature and we all know how Unknown feels about fancy clothes and pretty folks. That’s a weakness. I imagine he and Unknown could both bond over revenge in a rather easy way. It’s possible there is tension between the two of them over a lot of power. Trust me, this is the only way that it’d work. They’re both angry and they’re both determined to destroy everyone that hurt them. 

I can see them having this love-hate relationship where they argue a lot and it turns into I-hate-you-but-I-want-to-kiss-you tension. However, they both have a lot of vulnerabilities. They both have mother issues. They both want to be seen and noticed. They both craved to be loved. It’s easy for them to use each other to cope. Unknown would give Judas hell over the small height difference that they have and assert himself and Judas would bite back. 

Now, if Unknown changed his mind at the last second with what he wanted in an assistant, and he took Minji instead... well, that just means that he’s picked Ms. Sunshine incarnate. Minji has a big heart and she knows nothing of suffering and misery. All she knows is that she wants to keep striving towards her dreams of being a baker. It’s odd with them because Minji is taller than Unknown is but he’d had a way of making her uneasy. 

She might have questioned why she was helping him break into an apartment and he got the upper hand on her by surprise. She’s a lot stronger than he is so he didn’t get the slip-on her that’d be messy. She wouldn’t know how to act with him biting and being so patronizing at first. Yet, she’d help him because she can see that she’s got no choice. She decides to get to know him and understand Mint Eye better so she can see why he is the way he is. 

I imagine Minji would be forced to spend a lot of time making sure that Unknown ate something other than liquid sugar. She’s hopeless at hacking. That’s what he would settle for. He would tell her what to do and she wouldn’t fight him but she would try to pick him apart piece by piece until Lila because she isn’t entirely in danger of being hurt. 

Let’s see, her cheery optimism that doesn’t die bothers Unknown. She would do these kind things to him and he would be so fucking lost, man. His heart would pound wildly for some reason when she ruffled his hair and did things for him with no prompting needed on his end. I imagine that he finds that the longer that he’s around Minji, the more he feels like he has a partner that he can trust. That is until Judas starts pushing in. 

Rika wants Unknown to get someone in that apartment right now. So, she pushes Judas to work with him and his new assistant to find out who would be best for this situation. Judas remembers helping Minji and flirts with her quite a bit, and Unknown warns him that she’s his. Judas is going to keep pushing his buttons and he’s going to keep pushing at Minji. It’s going to be tense and Minji is going to find herself working with these two guys, trying to protect the next person that winds up in the apartment she was meant to walk into—

And at the same time, she’s finding more and more that she’s got feelings for the two guys that she’s working with. Unknown is angry but when he has nightmares at night and needs comfort, he shows her that he’s got a heart. Judas helped her in the past and she trusts him, even if she’s lost in his hatred. Her kindness in the face of cruelty is to be admired. 

 I imagine this relationship is one where all parties have feelings for each other but are pretty torn and confused about how to bring the pieces together. In the end, if they’re able to be saved from Mint Eye, I can imagine that SE Saeran will have the most fun just devoting his time in the kitchen helping Minji and being her assistant, hilariously. She just makes him feel safe and warm. Who wouldn’t feel safe when their tall girlfriend scoops them up and dotes on them? Now, it would be harder with Judas. 

I know that they’re going to have sassy banter and they’re going to be snarky, even catty. Their relationship is one where both parties keep pushing the other to their limits, and then they wind up kissing. It just works for some reason that I can’t explain. Judas can be very... high-maintenance but that doesn’t mean that Saeran can’t bite back. 

Can you imagine their cuddle pile? Minji is in the middle and both of the guys are curled up next to her and it’s kinda cute, wtf. 

Now on the flip side, let’s talk about what would be going on with Lila. We all know that Lila more or less left home after she had a big blow-up with her sister, who misunderstood just how much their mother was bullying Lila after she had moved away. It was a big spat. She left because she needed to... not be near the family anymore. She’s hurt and upset but she just wants to be as far as she can get from home. So, this is the first place her hand landed on the map and she went with it. 

She’s insecure, and the only time that she feels like she can be herself is when she’s in Coordinate. If she’s not wearing a cute dress, then she’s looking at the ground and clutching onto the ends of her sleeves. She’s quiet, but she will say things if she has to. She’s also a painter that gets lost in her thoughts, I would call her paintings a blend of Rococo style and Impressionism if that makes any sense. The objects on the canvas feel Rococo but the style itself on the board is Impressionist. 

Let’s say that she wasn’t the object of Ray or Unknown’s infatuation in this AU of yours. I think that Judas would pick her from the crowd and Minji would have given the idea to go and pick someone quiet and easy to manipulate, even if she didn’t say it like that, she gave him the idea. Judas takes it upon himself to bug her phone by tricking her and saves Unknown and Minji the trouble of getting her to open some phishing email. 

She winds up in the apartment, just as confused as everyone else is and she realizes that she got tricked. She just wanted to help someone because she’s a selfless type. She’s lucky if she doesn’t have a panic attack from that happening, but that aside, I think Seven would realize really fast that she’s just a girl who’s from overseas who got tricked because she didn’t think things through. Her use of Korean is a little messy, too, which sort of helped the fact that it was easy to trick her. 

You can Seven felt drawn to her the minute that he started looking into her past and her social media. After all, how can he not find a girl that spends her free time sewing and crafting outfits delightful? He can see that she’s hiding behind a mask just as he is from the start. She’s rather polite to him but he knows that it’s lovely to hear her laugh. She always humors his jokes and pranks for some reason that he can’t understand but it isn’t long before Lila sounds a bit sad whenever she talks to him late at night. 

He means to say, how can she be so polite and straightforward on the chat, and yet, he’s got her laughing so hard she’s crying on the phone? 

He probably won't get the answer until he’s locked in that apartment with her and there’s nowhere for him to go but the corner. Lila clearly is barely holding herself together but she’s biting her tongue and her fears to make sure that Seven feels like she doesn’t blame him because she doesn’t. She’s kind of blaming Rika for asking for a fucking bomb. Who asks for a fucking bomb? 

It isn’t until Lila breaks down in front of him and admits why she feels so happy and at peace with Saeyoung, and it’s because his jokester mask reminds her of her big sister. Her sister is always smiling and laughing, but there’s a pain in her heart that she’s hiding. Whenever Lila talks to Seven now, she thinks about how much she misses her sister but at the same time, she thinks about how much pain Seven must be in. She saw him hear that everyone had lied to him and he had been hiding so much for the sake of everyone around him. 

She’s able to confront him about lying about who he is. She tells him that he can’t hide behind a mask. That won’t make anyone happy, and it won’t make him happy. It’s what she failed to say in the past, and now she finally has the power to confront this problem head-on. She cares about Seven because he makes her laugh and forget about everything, but she also cares about those moments they have had where he whispers his fears to her and she listens to him say it all in the dead of night. 

Seven has to admit that she’s right. He’s not happy, but he wants to be happy and nobody has ever told him that he has the right to fight for his happiness if he wants it. He tried to break her by saying that she’s hiding behind her own mask of some polite princess, and Seven pushes her outside of her bubble and all of a sudden, she’s been tested. She finds herself standing taller and looking people in the eyes, without fear anymore. 

They push each other to bring out the good inside of themselves that they’ve been hiding because they were too scared to be themselves. 

I can see Saeyoung and Lila as this couple that tests each other. He pushes her buttons and makes her believe in herself. She pushes him to be himself, and not once fear that. They’re supportive. Saeyoung gets to explore his gender identity more with Lila and boy, does he not mind being called she/her, or they/them, he isn’t picky, but there’s something about being able to dress up and be doted on in this fashion that makes Saeyoung feel good. 

I HC him as NB/GenderFluid, have to throw that in there. I just want Lila to playfully call Saeyoung her girlfriend when they’re dressed up together and that redhead to turn into a mushy mess. I think there’s potential with the two of them to get along really well, I just never think of them in a romantic way because I’d fear that people would assume that Lila is projecting onto Saeyoung kind of like Yoosung does with RIka. 

Oh, boy. I said too damn much.