#sad too but yk isn’t that kinda why we’re here lol

[alleyskywalker]

Ok but. When the CoD came for Marius, they kidnapped not just Armand but all the other boys who had lived with Marius, boys who had been Armand’s friends, and boys he felt protective of. The CoD kidnapped and burned them. And as they burned, they cried and shouted for Armand to help them. But fledgling Armand couldn’t do anything against a bunch of (older) vampires; so he watched these boys burn as they begged for his help.

Fast forward to Paris in the late 1940s, where Armand is coven master, and he might not exactly like them but he’s attached and, more importantly, does feel responsible for them. Think about… or maybe don’t. Don’t think about how Armand is the most powerful vampire there. Don’t think of how as coven master he’s been responsible for handling and resolving all their troubles, small and large, and there’s 200 years of conditioning for that there. Don’t think of how maybe not everyone was super enthusiastic about the coup/not a Santiago fan, even though they went along with it. Definitely don’t think about the telepathic vampire powers and how Armand might have heard some of their desperate thoughts as they burned, felt their fear and panic. Don’t think about how some of them might have tried to call for his help telepathically, because if anyone could save them, it would be Armand, right?

But once again Armand can’t do anything - this time by choice. And perhaps they betrayed him first, but how much does that matter? How much does that matter when you once again fail to protect people who depended on you, and so you feel them burn?

[sonybees]

me rewatching dead poets society instead of doing my assignments

i’m not sure if anyone would even care about this but i am really bored soo here we go

neil looks so down when he’s with his father stopdjejdkfjnr

poor todd got forced to stand up i would get pissed eujehd

the best preparatory school? lmfao ok.

KEATING YAY

THE PRESSURE THAT TODD HAS TO GO THROUGH I CAN SEE IT IN HIS EYES HE DOES NOT WANT THIS WTF

poor kids being forced to go there

LMFAO SPAZ

i still don’t know what a stiff means is that even what he said?

OOPS LMFAO

attractive pieces of sht leaning on a door frame help

“keen.” HA

YESSIR USJSJSJ

why does meeks kind of sound like me when i meet someone new

“he flatters me.” LOLSJNDKSHSJJSKSJDC

“i thought you’d gOne.”

freaking hell stfu tom

i’ve always thought this who calls their father “sir” ???

THE LOOK CHARLIE AND KNOX SHARE HDNEJDJF

“BRAIN DAMAGE” HSMEJD

they all look so confused like same

BRO SPAZ LMFAO

their smiles are so cute awwjdnejsnjd

POOR PITTS SHJWJS

MEEKS SMILE WHEN HE SAID AN UNFORTUNATE NAME

DING

“turn cold and die.” damn that took a turn fast

caaaaaarpeeeee dieeeeeem @siezethedaypoets (sorry! sjjejs)

“that means you daLtoN” the way he says it lfmaosjjd

i thought he was gonna do history he pulled out his chem book dhjshdbd

take a breath knox damn

them just not at all understanding math is a mood

too bad :/

AWW THE WXCITEMENT IN PITTS AND MEEKS EYES

“very funny, dalton.” hehehhehehejjdjdjfjrkdn ccmv mf

AWW MEEKS

CHARLIE WTF YOU DRAWING

RIP SHRED TEAR

RIP RIP RIP

oh shit

ahh one of my fav scenes, charlie basically eating that ball of paper

i hate looking at this it’s so awkward like hello mr. mccallister

what will your verse be?

THE MASHED POTATOS

“no, keating.” LMFAO YES GO KEATING

is that stick? on the end of the table?

“don’t come please.”

“no shIt, sherlock.” HA I LOVE THIS GUY

“pittsie, cmon!” “his grades are hurting, charlie.” i literally just love this conversation

“i’ll try anything once.” “except sex!” “ha ha ha.” HSJWJJSND ANOTHER ONE OF MY FAV CONVOS

“WOMEN SWOON HA HA HA” THE EVIL LAUGH WTF SHEJJS

“CHARLIE @tellmewhytheyswoon” SORRY I HAD TO LMFAO

LMFAO SHUT UP WILL YOU

this is so chaotic and messy damn

the treatshsjdj

they’re loud asf

i wonder who’s who while they were running with the hoods

OH CRAP THE SUN IS OUT WHAT that isn’t in the movie sorry

I LOVE MEEKS AND CHARLIE’S RELATIONSHIP SM

i could never take note of the minutes when something happens how will he do that

YESSIR PART TWO

HOW DID PITTS TAKE THE OTHER HALF SO FAST

EVEN TODD KNOWS CAMERONS STORY LMFAO

LMFOA KNOX IS STARING AT THE PICTURE

MEEKS HOOO THEN I SAW THE CONGO CREEPING THROUGH THE BLACK

THE LITTLE BOING NOISE LMFAO WHAT IS THAT

“are you a man or an amoeba?” i’m sorry lol what the hell do you mean sjdjiend

TO WOO WOMEN

“why do i stand up here? anybody?” “@tofeeltaller” HA I LOVE DOING THIS IM SORRY

i would cry if i found out that i had to make a poem AND read it aloud in front of everyone

poor todd thougsjwhidfj

i wanna marry todd. lmfao where did that come from

RADIO FREE AMERICA

AWW THEM DANCING STFU THIS IS SO CUTE

i can’t hear the audio hellloooooojdjwksbdken

AWW we got some anderperry content here

lol i wanna wear their sweaters

:/// TODD

“no.” “no? what do you mean no?” “no.” *smirks* HAJDJDJWKNS

DONT BE IMMATURE

IDK WHERE TF THE INSTRUMENTS CAME FROM BUT I LOVE IT

the birds are so pretty

nice outfit knox

STOP STARING DUDE YOU’RE MAKING IT TOO OBVIOUS CMON

“sounds to me like you’re daunted.” JSJS

TO INDEED BE A GOD

MEEKS AND PITTS WOTH THEIR HEADPHONES ON AWW

“PUCK YOU” LMFAOAJSJJDJ

i bet todd’s poem is actually great

“the cat sat on the mat.” DNDIDHJDJDJDHS i love how keating still said it wasn’t all bad though

BRO DAMN DONT CALL TODD AND I OUT LIKE THAT

lmfao todd’s just hating every second of this

“sweaty toothed madman” i can see that too whatsbjdjdjsn

THIS IS BETTER THAN ANY POEM I EVER TRIED TO WRITE GREAT JOB TODD

NEIL IS AMAZED

when keating pushed their foreheads together wtf aww father son love typa thing that’s so cutejjedujsidj

LMFOA NO KNOX TRIPPED

YAYY GOAL

wtf this seems so fun

“your parents collect pipes? oh that’s really interesting.” LFMAOOAJSJD I LOVE PITTS

poetrusic by charlie dalton

laughing crying mumbling tumbling

DAMN HES GOOD

the little kind of aggressive hair ruffle awwjendn

OOO VOCABULARY

LMFAO THE LITTLE CHUCKLE KNOX DOES

AWW THEYRE ALL SO HAPPY FOR KNOX

THE SCARFSJJD

“exercising my right not to walk.” smartass

it’s todd’s birthday and no one greeted him excpet neil stfukqbxqbcdbkrw

the first unmanned flying desk set yes yes

THEY ALL JUST STOOD UP LMFAO

merlin knox you are DRUNK

PLEASE DONT ISTG KNOX

THATS NOT WHAT HE MEANT BY CARPE DIEM

well you’re in deep trouble now

“it’s God. he says we should have girls at welton.” as much as i love this scene what the hell were you thinking my man

i don’t get how this was legal back then. wtf is it gonna do? you’re just hurting the kids bro

the pain in his eyes stop

“@dangitneil the name’s nuwanda.” pain brokqdb jdjf

CRAP CRAP CRAP MR PERRY GET OUT

the pic of keating’s wife/gf aww

neil you’re gonna make me cry stop

that is so odd why are their lockers like connected from the left side isn’t it usually from the right?

JSKSIJDEIUWKDRUEJSJX CHRIS IS SO DONE NODKDMD

that piece of bread

THIS GUY JUST SHOVED A KID CMON KNOX

“WHAT DO YOU MEAN NOTHING?”

AWW WHEN TODD MESSED UO CAMERONS HAIR

CHARLIE LMFAO I MENA NUWANDA

KNOX IS DONE W THEM TOO

chris is gorgeous omg

the snow in her hair stop marry me

“you are SO infuriating”

i hate how i’m just completely forgetting what’s gonna happen in like 10 minutes

PUCK

LMFAOTHEM HOLDING DOWN CHARLIE

“he’s really good.” AW YES HE IS FUCSHWMDMD

wait the holding hands is kinda cute thoughsjdnd

bro mr perry is making me want to kill someone maybe him

NEIL’S SMILE IMMEDIATELY WENT AWAY IHATE YOU TOM

damnit you idiot i hate you sm let your son live you bastard

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sobs sobs sobs

merlin neil

IM JUST NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT THIS YK

HA HA HA NOT CRYING

SIGHS AGAIN

DEAR LORD

NO TODD IS GONNA MAKE ME CRY TOO STOP

THEY ALL SEEM LIKE THEYRE IN SHOCK NO

damn everything

SIGH WHY DIDNT I STOP WATCHING? IDFK

“it’s beautiful.” NOFNEJWGHSGEMWGE NEED WH

KEATING NO

lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol

charlie just sitting down not singing i hate this

i probably should’ve just stopped watching yk but i didn’t but that’s okay i think

i got so pissed the first time they said that they were gonna ask questions like??? did mr perry did no at all realize that it was his fault?

sigh cameron you aren’t always that bad but in this scene i loathe you

NO RICHARD

DAMNIT YOU MADE TODD SNAP

AND CHARLIE SNAPPED TOO YOU JUST MESSED UP TOO MUCH MAN

i hate how it went from a happy dark academia movie to this cmon

todd’s dad is so mean shut up he was just asking a question

it feels so sad in the room i hate it

the empty chairs pls no

keating’s little chuckle man i miss their smiles

BRO SROP THEY LOOK SO SAD TODD ISTG

*GASP OF HAPPINESS IN THE MIDDLE OF CRYING* HUHUHUH

TODD MEEKS STICK SPAZ PITTS KNOX GEORGE? HA I LOVE YALL

and we’re done. damn okay

thanks for reading ig fjdbshsbjwhdjsj

anyways i’m tired goodnight or morning or wtvr thanks! and sorry <3

[patchofsunlight]

(Omg this is so much I’m sorry lol)

Aw no worries! I’m always gonna hype you up! 🥰💗 I’m glad it went well!! Lmaoo that’s so relatable 😂

Aw yay okay!! I’m looking forward to it!! Okayy I promise I’ll try not to overwork myself! I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself 🙈 I actually got a lot done today so I only have to work on 3 more assignments due later this week.

Aww I miss getting excited about shows. I’m definitely gonna look into it! Where did you watch it?

Loll I think it’s pretty good so far! One of the characters (I don’t remember his name oops) kinda annoyed me at first just cause he’s a wee bit too optimistic for my liking and I’m really pessimistic soo 😂 but anywho he’s growing on me so he’s not that bad anymore lmao. One of my friends is like obsessed with the show and recommended it to me so I’m sure it’s worth a watch! I’ll update you on my thoughts once I watch some more eps loll

Ah yes what you said makes sense!! And you’re totally right!! I’m gonna start trying to be so like focused on school and try to live a little loll. I literally feel like my life just consists of working on assignments, going to work and not having a social life oops lmao

Ouu a movement 😏 I mean you’ll get lots of attention that way so its not a bad idea at all. That’s exactly why I decided to do school at home this year cause the cases of covid in my area have started to rise and some staff and students at some schools have already been diagnosed with covid soo.. But anywho stay safe and good luck and let me know how everything goes!!

AW THATS SO SWEET 🥺 k but like that’s so mean he couldn’t have let you down nicely?? Why just oh?? :( bro don’t even get me started on confessing to your crushes. I’ve got a long and painfully embarrassing history of all the times I’ve tried confessing my feelings to guys I’ve liked in the past lmfao 🙈

Sounds like a pretty eventful day to me! 😂 overthrowing your school board doesn’t sound like a bad idea. Just saying.. ;)

Aw thank you!! Love you too!! 🥰 -🌙

(bro don’t worry i LOVE reading and answering your asks it’s FINE 😎)

bby 🥺🥺🥺 thank you i’m always here to hype you up too!!!! being your simp is a full-time job and i’m COMMITTED also yes please take care of yourself!!! you deserve to be happy and healthy and well-rested!!!

i watched it on animekisa.tv! it has all the episodes subbed!!

LMAOOO BRO I TOTALLY GET THAT in bnha the protagonist was too nice and selfless at the beginning so i was like “where’s the FLAVOR?” i live for morally gray characters 😌😌😌 and YES do update me when you can!!!

YEAH honestly my school’s disregard for everyone’s safety and health is literally sad so. i’m glad we’re not letting it go over our heads. and yes you’re totally write!!! stay safe!!!! take care of yourself!!!! the school board about to be ATTACKED also one of the teachers keeps saying covid isn’t even “that bad” and everyone’s just like. bitch say that to the more than 100000 dead in brazil? wtf!!! anyways i’ll definitely keep you updated!!!

IKR!!! he’s so nice and he always says stuff like that and i always feel very loved. and i meannn YEAH LMAOOO IT WAS KINDA INSENSITIVE but we were on idk freshmen year or whatever and we were best friends and he had no idea so i think he was more surprised than anything else yk? it’s fine tho we didn’t talk for a while then we became best friends again!!! with no weird feelings this time!!! and fkekxowksj MOOD!!!!! every time i started having something with someone i got fucked so honestly i prefer to live my love life through fanfiction for now LMAOOO

HAHAHAHA YEAH IT GUESS IT WAS EVENTFUL OOF it was alright tho!!! so it’s fine!!!

🥰🥰🥰 hope you have a good day babe!!!! talk to me when you can!!!

[kyetalksshit]

Oof. It’s been a fucking long time. I’m gay and sad lmao let’s go

I’m not going to get too into detail about anything right now, but here’s to hoping I update more frequently in the future! I don’t even remember the last time I posted here. I think it was... hahahahaha wait omg i think it was a gay crisis about somebody else lmaoooo OOPS

anyway

there’s this girl because of COURSE there is

it’s... complicated.

and i keep getting a vibe from her? but like... ok idk if you know about twin flames or karmic relationships and maybe i’ll do another post about that at some point but basically that’s what i feel like this is, like we’re twin flames but she’s currently in a karmic relationship and most of the time i’m cool with it, like i’m patient and i’m psychic like i kinda know what’s gonna happen in a vague sense yk and like i’m fine being platonic until then but like

fuck dude

tonight i just got so... frustrated? like out of nowhere, like had a mini meltdown because like “it’s not fair” and “why do i always put myself in these situations” and like “why can’t i just be in love with someone who isn’t married (even if he’s a piece of GARBAGE) and is in the same mental place as I am” like

it’s

wow, it’s so frustrating, honestly. and i mean that’s how twin flames ARE you know, it’s frustrating, it’s difficult, but once they fully come together it’s amazing. (And I recognize that twin flames can just be platonic... but at this point my feelings aren’t. If that’s all she wants with me, idk I’ll figure it out because I don’t want her out of my life, but... Anyway. I’m in love with her.) 

So, yeah. This week has been super emotional and wonky and like we had been talking like nonstop on like every platform (which normally would irritate the shit out of me but because it’s her I still smile when her name pops up on my screen), but all of a sudden this week it’s like

still every platform right, but like super less frequent? And like there have just been multiple messages of mine she’s just deadass not responded to, and idk like

there’s always a period of separation and maybe that’s what this is but it’s very hard and I’m like

angst haha

anyway

I scribbled down some mediocre poetry in my car, because I got restless and went out there to smoke a cigar, and left my phone in the apartment. So here, have this I guess lol: 

4/24/19

Barefoot in the driver’s seat, legs crossed against the steering wheel, I remain parked outside my lonely apartment, sucking on a cigar and savoring the burn on my lips.

She is at her house, abusive husband and three darling dogs to run after. My throat is sticky and closing, words swallowed in smoke, streaks still glistening wet down my cheeks. 

I must be a masochist,  a self-proclaimed twin flame suffering over the silver-plated ring she wears even when she  tells me she does not love him,  even when he hits her, berates her, and yet she still chooses him.

Not for love, she tells me, but she cries when she threatens to leave, and I cry when she decides to stay, forever a second choice to even the woman I have loved in every lifetime before this, to even the soul that I share.

Perhaps it is I who puts myself second, who hurts me and leaves me to rot. I can swear up and down that I love me, but chaos speaks louder than poetry, half scribbled in the sliver of flickering streetlight peeking through my blacked out windows.