#rrup

[blorb-el]

3 and 15 for the asks? happy new year! ✨

3. favorite line/scene you wrote this year (fanfic end of year asks)

uhm. idk if it's cheating a little to say something i haven't posted yet, but the heart of chapter 8 (or 9 depending on where the split ends up) of wsbf, between diana and clark, was my favorite to write. it's going to need a fair bit of revision when i get there in editing but it was what started me on writing the whole fic!

as far as single lines go the last line of isostatic still makes me go >>>>>:3ccccc because its a sillay little contextualization of the entire everything that came before it even if it is grammatically a little awkward. And a somewhat related line I've repeated most to myself from a wip: tanahvruhtodh rrup rrivahzh w rrehd khahp vo?! i'm pretty terrible at languages so any given kryptahniuo line is memorable because it takes me about 87 years to come up with it. but this one feels so satisfying to snarl out. it translates to 'do you understand what you DID to me?!' which may be familiar <3

15. something you learned this year

posting what i thought was gonna be really niche idfic and having it get an absolutely crazy positive response was a little eye opening and also very validating. it happened last year with tacere and this year with wsbf. it really reinforced the idea of writing for myself first, and along the way there might be people who are interested in the same things i am. and even if that isn't true i still end up with a story Perfectly Tailored to My Interests, so. win win

when i'm using sprinto in this very lovely supportive writer's discord it helps SO much not only to sprint with other people, but announce my target word count before the sprint begins so there's mild public accountability. weaponizing anxiety for my own benefit

i gotta read everything out loud in the editing pass even when i don't wanna... it's so helpful.....

the problem is either about 5 paragraphs before where i THINK the problem is or a fundamental dissatisfaction with the entire premise of the section that i gotta take a walk about and then sleep on. if neither of these solve the problem trying to explain the problem to someone else usually ends up in fixing it at the cost of me sounding unhinged. if THAT doesn't work it's time for the fic to go in the drawer for a while

sitting in cafes at lunch/during appointment cancellations with a cup of tea and a crepe and a Little Treat and my notebook and fountain pen FELT very satisfying and it did get quite a few words on the page but my God was it expensive. also not happening with my new job 💀 i ought to figure out how to make crepes at home

triple check ya damn contractions to make sure they're clear 😭😭

happy new year to you too!!!

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[CM] Genders & Pronouns

Pronouns in Claymew are based off of relation! They’re fully separated from gender. In fact, this system means that a cat’s pronouns change between contexts - you wouldn’t ask a ClayClan cat for their pronouns because it’s determined by your relation to them!

Below the cut: Pronoun explanations and gender

Pronouns are listed in the format of you, them

Prr, prrs For close family (parents, siblings, mates, and children).

Mya, myas For indirect family (grandparents, in-laws, cousins, niblings, etc).

Rrup, rrups For close Clanmates; friends so close that it’s like they’re your kin. Mentors and apprentices are supposed to have this sort of relationship. This is also the pronoun used for ClayClan’s two camps.

Mao, maos Generic pronoun for all Clanmates! Friends, rivals, acquaintances, anybody. Using this pronoun shows your allegiance to that cat as a fellow member of ClayClan. This is also the default pronoun for generalizations and hypotheticals.

Shaf, shafs For gods, folk heroes, and legendary figures - using this to refer to a living cat is small blasphemy. This is also used for religious sculptures.

Mwao, mwaos For trusted non-Clan cats - someone who lives beyond the Clan but who you know or trust. Most often used for donors and cats who left ClayClan to live elsewhere.

Mwrr*, mwrrs* For unknown cats living beyond the Clan. The pronoun for complete and total strangers - using this on a Clanmate is incredibly rude, akin to trying to exile them.

Yin, yins For inanimate objects, plants, and animals. Closer pronouns may be given to items that the speaker feels strongly about (for example, Lake and Upland camp being referred to with rrup/rrups).

A note on gender: ClayClan recognizes three genders - molly, tom, and jack. Gender is little more than a marker of identity, as gender roles aren’t a feature of ClayClan culture.

[that-genuine-genius]

*He walks over* Uncle Donnie?

Krrip rrrrr rrup?

«Wanna turtle pile?»

@futureboy-caseyjones

Oh- yeah sure.

Chrr rrrppp trrp kirrp?

«Did something happen?»

[iristhelegendofthestorm]

Hi, are you looking for the other side?

Feel like nothing ever seems quite right?

are you circling the drain pipe?

getting off on pain like

YOU'RE CO-RRUP-TED

I

NEED TO KNOW WHERE YOUR LOYALTIES LIE

TELL ME, ARE YOU GONNA BARK OR BITE?

DO YOU REALLY WANT TO TWIST THE KNIFE IN THE BELLY

OF THE MON-STER

[grumblr-confessions]

・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・

I, a DARK AND DEVILISH DAEM⛧N ⛧F ♱HE SEVEN♱H RING ⛧F HELL, am ⛧f♱en misunders♱⛧⛧d by ♱he f⛧⛧lish, s♱upid, m⛧r⛧ni☾, m⛧r♱al peers ⛧f my ☾urren♱ f⛧rm.

I envisi⛧n ♱heir PAINFUL AND RIGH♱E⛧US DEA♱HS a♱ ♱he hands ⛧f my very ⛧wn ♱wis♱ed and evilness… My DARK AND INSIDI⛧US MAGI☾KS, whi☾h will surely ♱ea☾h ♱hem N⛧♱ ♱⛧ MESS WI♱H ME EVER AGAIN, w⛧uld redu☾e ♱hem ♱⛧ mere ASHES! MUAHAHAHAH!

I L⛧A♱HE ♱hem, f⛧r ♱heir P⛧PULARI♱Y and SHALL⛧WNESS… ♱hey kn⛧w n⛧♱ ♱he DARKNESS IN MY ☾⛧RRUP♱ED S⛧UL…

If ♱hey did… heh.. well…

Le♱'s jus♱ say, ♱hey w⛧uld n⛧ l⛧nger ♱HR⛧W D⛧DGEBALLS A♱ ME n⛧r S☾⛧RN ME f⛧r my VERY IMPRESSIVE DEVIL L⛧RD ☾APE, bu♱ ra♱her, ♱hey w⛧uld ☾⛧WER IN FEAR ⛧F ME!

S⛧meday, I will rule ♱his land! MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!

・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・

Anon yOu’re a fuCking rioT whatS Your tRollian caN we hanG out?

[wewontfall-asleep]

Rrup-

Hehe!!

[slc-friend-blog]

.ó ò.

:3 rrup!

[aviancanine]

I go rrrmmgfof. Gwwawrr. Mmmrrpfh. Wawaamm.

Also rrup. rup. rrarraAWAWAWAAaa. rup.

important research question: do you go bark, woof, arf, or ruff

you can tell a lot about a person by their dog noise of choice, trust me

[chaos-parallels]

Heh…

Rrup!

[mrowmrowmrow9]

I went on the Kryptonian.info website and noticed that they do this cool thing where go over what the show says in Kryptonian and correct it, because you know, their grammar and pronunciation are pretty bad. I looked at the post about where Kara says "I love you Mom" and used that (and the very useful dictionary) to translate this for my fanfics in the future. I hope it's helpful to others as well!

Mon-El to Kara - :zhao w rrip eh Kara (I love you Kara)

Kara to Mon-El - :zhao w rrup eh Mon-El (I love you Mon-El) 

Vahdhah = too/also (goes after :zhao)

Zrhomin - husband

Zrhemin - wife

(Note that the gendered versions of "spouse" are considered extremely rude except in the most intimate conversations, so be careful)

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[CM] Clan Words

Woo, welcome the first of my Claymew “expansion pack” posts! These will be going through the lexicon sharing and explaining new words. I have fifteen planned for now, but there’ll be more as I expand the vocabulary. This one is particularly short - don’t worry, they’ll get longer as I go.

For this post we have Clan Words - translations for ClayClan, Upland camp, and Lake camp, and an extra verb at the end!

ClayClan - Glishwee-ulnyams  This is the same format as base Clanmew’s Clan names! As such, ulnyams* is a base Clanmew word. The word for “clay” here, glishwee, refers specifically to clay that’s ready for sculpting - this is meant to show how ClayClan is a collection of many cats that mold themselves into one community. There’ll be more clay-related words once I get to sculpting.

Upland Camp - Shelpan Derived from the base Clanmew words sheshe* (dry) and ulpan* (camp). Shelpan is located on a hill in the woods where the ground is dry, and is named to reflect that. Shelpan is referred to with rrup/rrups, the pronouns for close Clanmates - a friend so close it’s like they’re your kin. These special pronouns reflect how the camp shelters ClayClan, and how they’re grateful to the gods for providing such a location.

Lake Camp - Uloban Derived from the base Clanmew words blop* (wet) and ulpan* (camp). Uloban is on a boggy island that floods when the lake rises too much, so its name reflects that. Uloban is also referred to with rrup/rrups, for the same reasons as Shelpan.

To communicate via sign - Ababyarrab, ababyarr, ababya Derived from the base Clanmew words ababab* (to speak) and pwyyarr* (paw). ClayClan has sign language, this is the word for that! Like base Clanmew verbs, this word shortens based on tense - past tense ababyarrab, present tense ababyarr, future tense ababya. I looove that bit of base Clanmew so I’ve continued it here.

[myheartisbro-ken]

you mentioned in a comment on a supercorp fic (i feel like a stalker, yikes) that you got in contact with darren doyle and he gave you some tips on using kryptahniuo, the sentence structure, the krius thing, etc.. would you mind sharing them? because i feel like i've sucked all available resources dry, and as a huge kryptonian nerd, i'd really appreciate it! (ofc, feel free to ignore me and pretend like this never existed if i'm intruding or unknowingly acting like a jerk.)

Okay, soooo, this is all from 3 years ago and I don’t have the best way to make myself clear when talking to people, but I’m gonna put here the things that are relevant and cut out my cringey communication. This is also for anyone who writes and would like to know a lil bit more about the language, or just people who enjoy conlangs. The vocab is over at kryptonian.info, but this is a clearer explanation of some things I had a bit of trouble with.

It’s pretty long though, so strap in.

Here we go:

Me: I was kind of having a hard time trying to figure out what the present form of zhao would be since it already ends with an 'o' and the present suffix is 'odh', I wanted to say 'I love you' with zhao , and on your page I could only find the ukiem sentence. Would it be zhaodh? And how would the full sentence be? What about shovuh, would it be shovuhodh?

Doyle: Sweet! I'm glad to help (I only wish the writers of the show would help instead of butchering the grammar ... and pronunciation)

Ok ... give me a moment to work on this...

Ok ... /zhao/ ... this doesn't end in /o/ (as in go) it ends in /ao/ (as in cow) which is a different vowel. Even if it did, though, you would still go ahead and use the /odh/ suffix. Two vowels in a row in Kryptonian is going to be super rare (pun intended), but in those cases Kryptonian phonetics will use a slight "w" sound to separate the vowels.

So ... it would be /zhaoodh/which would be 3 characters in Kryptonian writing: zh + ao + odhSo, your sentences would be: /zhaoodh (khuhp) w rraop/ and /shovuhodh (khuhp) w rraop/The subject is optional

Also, this is a sentence that would likely be gendered (familiar and/or intimate speech)

So, "I (female) love you (male)." would be: /zhaoodh (khap) w rrup/

BUT

Let's talk about informal speech, because the I love you stuff gets weird ...

zhao and shovuh are primarily nouns, but at some point they got codified as type 1 verbs (taking suffixes)... and grammatically (especially formal writing) type 1 is kind of the "proper" way to use them. But in day-to-day speech, these usually get treated as type 2 verbs (no suffix)

I should back pedal briefly and say that all this applies to /ukiem/ (familial love) ... and actually to /:jev/ (n. happiness, joy) with /:jevodh/ meaning essentially "like" or "enjoy"

So anyway, the informal variant ends up as something like /zhao w rrup/ (you would almost never use the subject with the type 2 forms of these words) Total side topic ... (hope I'm not overwhelming you here) ...

Since type 2 verbs mark tense with a vowel change, there is an interesting result with /zhao/ ... since the past and future versions end up being /zha/ and /zhi/ respectively which also just happen to be the words for "yes" and "no" which also act as augmentative and diminutive markers...

It's a bit of a chicken and egg situation as it's unclear if the "will love/did love" meanings gave rise to the "yes/no" meanings or if the existing "yes/no" words guided the vowel shift as /zhao/ went from noun > v1 > v2

Me: Okay, first, in the verb section of your page you say that not using a suffix creates the potential form of the verb, yet there is a prefix, kai, for potential, so if someone were to ask 'can you do...' say, 'can you speak/say this' would it need the prefix and then the present suffix, or just not use either. Like, would it be 'ta-kai-ehworodh rraop w [thing]' or 'ta-kai-ehwor' or just 'ta-ehwor' or is all of that completely dumb and I totally misunderstood everything? (I'm also not sure when I should and shouldn't use the hyphen) And the second is simpler, I guess: going by 'us-kah' as like a petname for your child, would the same apply to a parent, such as saying 'jeju-te' in sort of the same way kids say 'mommy' and not just expressing relationship. And could that apply to a person's name as well? Like, idk if that works in english, but say you have a nickname for someone and then you say 'that's MY [nickname]', (I do that for my aunt in portuguese, which is why I'm asking)

Doyle: Dang ... the "suffixless form of the verb forms the potential" is actually a holdover from an idea when I first started making the language that eventually got abandoned. Thought I removed references to it, but I missed that I guess.

Hyphens are just there to help show the morpheme breaks when explaining the language. If you are just writing Kryptonian, then you wouldn't use them at all.

so /?takaieworodh rraop ki kryptahniuo/ would be correct

Ok ... the "familial-possessive-honorifics" ...

They kind of act like an honirific (Mr., Mrs., Sir, Ma'am, Señor, Señorita, San, Sama etc.)

They attach using the proper noun punctuation...

So ... Kal-El => /kal,ehl/

Mr. Kal-El => /kal,ehl,jran/

(I'm not related it Kal-El)

Let me start over on that last one

I am talking to you about Mr. Kal-El, I would say ...

* (neither of us is related to him): /kal,ehl,jran/

* (I am related to him, but you aren't): /kal,ehl,te/

* (we are both related to him): /kal,ehl,kah/

* (I am not related to him, but you are): /kal,ehl,ni/

* (Neither of us is related to him, but we are talking about someone who is related to him and that relationship is pertinent to the conversation): /kal,ehl,cheh/

So in that sense, these are honorifics ... they are more formal, not less

so ... us,kah for a child probably wouldn't end up being a pet name

and it means "our" child ... so even less likely in that sense (us,te would be "my child")

and it uses the less intimate gender-neutral form

wait ... scratch that ... /us/ is masculine (derp derp)

so, a more likely candidate for a pet name for your child would probably be /us kir/ (little boy) or /is kir/ little girl

you could also do something clever like /krius/ or /kriis/ (that second word would be pronounced "kree-yees") ... borrowing the "bright" prefix and applying it to the child noun

For Kryptonians that wouldn't have as much of the meaning that an English speaker would assign to "bright" (smart, clever, etc), but more of a sense of "joyful", "pleasant", "you-light-up-the-room" kind of sense.

An English equivalent to /krius/ would be something like when you refer to someone as "my little ray of sunshine"

getting back to your actual question ...  

/jeju,te/ and /ukr,te/ would also be more formal. Kids (especially older kids) would be expected to use this form in public when addressing parents

but at home it would probably be just /jeju/ and /ukr/

for the very youngest kids, /jeje/ would be "mommy", and /uku/ (or even /kuku/) would be "daddy" ... but, unlike some dialects of English (especially in the Southern states), those variants wouldn't last very long as kids would be encouraged to use /jeju/ and /ukr/ as their speech developed

So ... ummm ... I'm not sure if I've answered your actual question ... if I have, I may have indicated the opposite... Kryptonians would remove the "my" on a petname ... does that sound right ... hmmm ... thinking about it

Shoot ... I guess I don't really know how to give you a solid answer on that one. Pet names can be funny things, I think ... because even in English I can see formal titles being absorbed as "cute" ... like having a little fluffy dog that you pick up and in a cutesy voice call "Sir Snuggles"

so ... armed with the info for "normal" speech/grammar ... pick whatever feels right to you!

Me: The first I wanted to ask is if 'Awuhkhu zhadif khap w rrip' is correct for 'I'll never leave you'

And the second I tried to make it out, but the result looked weird so I was just very unsure about (while the other I'm a bit more confident about) so how would 'please don't leave me' be, cuz 'please don't' is a full prefix, right? so it'd be 'please don't' prefix + leave + present suffix and then the pronoun separately. By that logic it'd be 'sozhaoawuhkhodh khap' is that correct?

Now there's actually a third one that I don't even know where to begin (mostly because I didn't try too hard) but I wanted to know would you say the sentence 'she left me alone' or 'my mother left me alone'?

Doyle:

/.awuhkhu zhadif khap w rrip/ ... yep, that's correct!  

/sozhaoawuhkhodh khap/ ... yep, that's right too

or you might go with the future tense, especially if those two sentences are going together

/sozhaoawuhkhu khap/

actually ... whoops... /khap/ is the object of the sentence...

/sozhaoawuhkhu w khap/

Let's see for "she left me alone", I would use the malefactive and the past tense of "to go" (which I just realized wasn't in the dictionary - doh!).

So ... let's see... go+past-perf she w me mal.

hmmm... alone, though ...

cause/PST she be/PRS me w alone ki go/PST/PRG ... ?

/podh zhehd nahn khap w chahvymah ki rrosh/ (that last verb wouldn't take a suffix, derp) ... "She made me alone by going" ... hmmm...

You could always just use /podh zhehd nahn khap w chahvymah/ ... she cause me to be alone ... that's probably the closest to the English 

So that’s it, so much information that I thought it was actually a longer convo

[telnaga]

pretend this is a read more instead of me just making the text backward #animal death

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[me-myself-and-my-fos]

The only Kryptonese I’d know how to say is “khap zhao rrup vahdhah” which is “I love you too” and that’s only because Castor would teach it to me

[wewontfall-asleep]

Pubby! *Squish!*

*rrup!*

[soepicsokim]

CatWing 4

Chapter 4 - First Burn - Hamilton

    Jason puts on his helmet and walks to the staircase, “Come on Duchess I have a date with Sionis.” He lets out a chuckle and runs down the stairwell leaving me on the roof.

    Shaking my head, my eyes flash green, slowly my hair is braided to the side and I’m no longer wearing a ninja tunic. My clothes are replaced with leather leggings and a black leather jacket with a cat eye in green stitching on the back. “Black mask and the Zombie. I’ll pay tickets to watch this.” Taking a few steps back from the roof ledge I smile then run jumping off the roof and diving down to the street below.

    A red motorcycle comes out of a hole in the wall and speeds beside me as we race down the streets of Gotham city.  The dark empty streets are perfect for racing, I could see my reflection through the shimmer on the motorcycle. Jason smirking as I fly past him, "Not much further, be ready for a sudden stop." Jason begins slowing down, I turn around and get close beside him.

    Jason parks his bike and I land behind him. He gets off the bike and looks at me through the lens on his helmet. "Looks like I won. Sionis normally is a coward and hides up in the steel mill."

    Using my x-ray vision, I sense that he is inside, "Looks like seven people inside, including Sionis. What did you need him for anyway?"

    Jason chuckles again, as we stalk towards the entrance of the factory. "That's a surprise Duchess. Now watch Zombie in action. Would you prefer a stealth approach or guns blazing?" He takes the safety off of his pistols and I can see a smirk under that helmet of his.

    "Surprise me Red." With my three words, Jason bursts through the door, quickly killing 2 of the men inside.

    Jason looks towards the third man, "Take me to Black Mask, NOW." He puts the gun to the man's head, as the man leads the two of them to him. Leading them upstairs as he takes out more of the armed men in the process.

    "Only three men left In the building, Death."

    Jason's small smirk tells me a story. "He’s probably heard the shots, I assume he's on the highest floor, hiding away. Typical coward." We enter the 4th floor, looking around and seeing nothing but boxes. Jason yells out, "Normally I wouldn't cut you a deal, but the man I have here can be saved if you just cooperate Black Mask."

    “In your dreams Hood.” A glint of light shines off the barrel of Black Mask’s gun as he raises it up from the shadows aiming at Jason’s heart.

    I jump in front of Jason without even realizing it, the bullet fires, flying at a speed normal people would never see it. My eyes watch the bullet as it crosses the room. It hits my chest, at the bottom of my ribcage, leaving a hole in the leather jacket. I look down then back up at Black Mask with a smirk on my face. The bullet lands on the ground, crumpled and bent giving off the sound of a metal coin falling on a concrete floor. My eyes flash red as I tilt my head to the side. “You shouldn't have done that.”

    In two steps I’m across the room hiding in the darkness behind Black Mask. I’m close enough to see his body attempting not to tremble with fear.His breathing is slow and calculated while he still has his pistol raised in Jason’s direction. I reach out and grab the pistol throwing him against the wall. “Burn.” Papers next to his body start to burn from the focus of my heat vision.

    Fingers wrap around my arm pulling me back into Jason’s armored chest. “Stop. We only came to steal his client list.” His fingers leave my arm as he makes his way to the safe, “A little help Midnight.” His head tilts in the direction of the lock on the safe.

    I roll my eyes as I walk in that direction, “Lev rrup, (Behind you.)” My eyes look at the glass window at the complete darkness. I move fast as I rip off the door to the safe and grab as many files as I can before Batman and Red Robin bust through the window. “Told you Zombie.” I instantly hide in the darkness of the room and watch Jason lift a gun to Batman. I feel jealousy rush through Jason's emotions quickly before he snuffs out all his emotions.

    “Don’t take a step in my direction. You can’t be trusted around me.” Jason’s voice is cocky as a smirk plays under his helmet.

    Red Robin slowly moves to check on the people Jason has already shot before cautiously walking towards Black Mask and the burning paper around him.

    Jason takes a step around Batman and briefly whispers, “Hi Bruce,” as softly as he can before Jumping out the window. He laughs as he falls before he launches a grappling hook and lands safely below.

    I whisper from the dark making my way to the window, “Be careful with them, the Robins will all do whatever it takes to survive.” My eyes lock with Bruce’s as I crawl through the window seal. I see sadness and betrayal behind his eyes just like he can see the same emotions in mine. I hover a small ways away from the window seal before I speak louder so he and everyone else can hear me. “I’m erasing myself from the narrative. Let people wonder what happened when you all broke my heart. He has torn me apart for the last time.” I took a step back on the air and looked up at the boy in blue, “I'm watching it burn. The world has no right to my heart. You forfeit all rights to my heart.”

    I fall to the earth below stopping an inch from the ground while keeping eye contact with Nightwing sitting on the roof. A small tear slides down my cheek before evaporating from the heat coming from my eyes as I set a car on fire and launch myself into the atmosphere above. I stop right before I leave Earth's Atmosphere and just float. I don’t really need air to breath and I can cancel out the noises of down below and just let my mind rest.

    My eyes slowly close as my hair comes loose from its braid and floats behind me in waves, my clothes transform from the destroyed leather jacket and pants to an oversized t-shirt that says ‘Metropolis High’ and black sweatpants. Sniffles leave my noise as I think about everything. “My supposed soulmate has fallen in love with another woman. I can’t keep searching or scanning for him or my family anymore.I’m going to stand back and watch the world burn. My only possessions are my memories. The memories of when I knew he was mine.” A shuddered breath leaves my lips as I hear the fluttering of fabric approaching quickly.

     There was no time for me to become completely invisible before Superman stopped in front of me, “Lydia.”

    I keep my eyes closed and sigh, “Sir.”

    He crosses his arms in front of him and raises an eyebrow. “It is polite to look at the people talking to you, young lady.” He clears his throat, “Would you like to explain why Bruce just called me and told me to search the atmosphere for my rogue daughter?”

    I roll my eyes as I open them and tilt my head to the side, “Superman has a daughter? I must meet her and warn her that he might abandon her.” My hands ball up into fists at my side. I assume Jason can feel my anger because I feel calming emotions coming from him.

    “DON’T.” He takes a breath, “Don’t talk to me that way. I am still your father and I will still be your father even if you don’t want me.” His arms fall to his sides as he keeps a fixed gaze on me. “Would you like to talk about whatever,” he motions to my body, “this is?”

    I look away and quickly can hear a worried heart beat from the one heart I don’t think will ever love me again. “Can you be my dad for like a minute? Then you and everyone else can abandon the experiment again.” My eyes stay locked to his as he gives a quick nod. “You used to tell mom that this was the best way to relax when you were on constant missions. I wanted to try it and see if it could help fix a broken heart.” My hand shoots up between us, “Don’t, I can’t be trusted around you. And besides you broke my heart too dad."

    He moves a few inches back away and motions me to continue with his finger. "I know you all thought I was gone. But I imagined there would be this amazing family reunion and you all would welcome me back with open arms and he would be mine again. But instead I was forgotten and now I'm willing and ready to see you all burn." My eyes light up quickly then go back to my normal green color.

            "I'm not naive, I've seen him with women. I've seen you with people too. I just never thought I would be replaced." I close my eyes and just listen to the silence of space, "This won't be a normal thing between us. I'm 20, I don't need a father.”

    “So, you are just writing everyone off? We don’t have a say if we want back into your life?” Clark raises an eyebrow, his cape barely moving behind him. “What if we want to be part of the narrative?”

    My eyes drift down to the Earth below, all the blues and some of the greens merging together. Light bends around the curvature of the world causing it to look like the world is standing in a spotlight, almost like everything is burning. “Earn my trust. Show me I am truly needed. Know that I will not always be the good guy.” I give a quick tilt of my head as if I am challenging him.

    “So you went to Metropolis high?”

    My eyebrows scrunch together before I look down at my shirt. “No, the Master gave this to me the last time he spoke to the students in Metropolis.”

    Clark locks his jaw and grits his teeth, “Who is your master?”

    Feeling threatened, my eyes flash red and I instantly become invisible, “Nice chat Clark.” I quickly dive to the world below and land in the ocean. On instinct I curl into a ball and close my eyes trying to avoid the memories of Lex Luthor walking in as I am strapped to a medical table. Lex Luthor standing beside Ra’s Al Ghul as I’m being beaten senseless by assassins while pure Kryptonite is at my feet.

     Being forced to fight Batman, Robin and the Justice League over and over again to keep their attention away from him. Having things thrown at me or extra experiments happening to me because he thought he could brainwash me to kill my father. I blow air bubbles out of my mouth as my transparent state becomes visible. I swim up a river before I decide to find a shore line and dry off on the side of the river.

     I climb up the wall of the river and lay under cherry blossom trees. The breeze has been creating a soft background noise with the leaves gently brushing against each other. I don’t know if I lost track of time or if I honestly wasted the day away under a tree by the potomac river. Looking across the river at Arlington, Virginia watching the night life start to come out. Families walking up and down the street, a man passing by walking his pomeranian.

    “It’s a nice night Miss Kent.” A man's voice appears from behind me.

     “That it is.” I slowly turn around to face the voice, “You happen to know who I am, but I seem to not recognize you.” A fake smile appears on my face as I stand up to converse with the man.

     “It’s my job to know the inner workings of everything in and around Gotham. Including your family and every secret known to you, or him." He extends his hand as if he was going to shake mine. “How is Superman doing now that his oh so precious daughter is back?” He motions with his hand to come towards him.

    I approach and hug him as an old couple comes towards us, “Oh darling I have missed you. Please don’t ever leave again.” I hug him and watch the couple walk by us smiling. My eyes turn red when I notice they are at a safe distance, “Who the hell are you and what do you want?” I try to quickly get away from his hold.

    The man holds on tight and whispers in my ear, “The Court of Owls is intrigued to watch how you settle into your role in society.” He turns me to where I am facing the river, “Don’t follow me.” In an instant his body and arms are gone and I am alone again.

     Taking in a deep breath I look around then shrugging, “Time to go for a walk.” I head off in the direction of the Hall of Justice.