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books i read in 2024!

so i got back into reading in 2023 after almost a decade of not doing it (thanks uni for killing the passion lol) and so last year i decided to make a list of all the books i read! here they all are in order followed with my thoughts (*=reread)

Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen Rebecca - Daphne du Maurier The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks Fight Club* - Chuck Palahniuk Lullaby - Chuck Palahniuk The Harpy - Megan Hunter A Voyage for Madmen - Peter Nichols Moby Dick - Herman Malville The Little Prince - Antoine de Saint-Exupéry Flatland - Edwin A Abbott The Left Hand of Darkness - Ursula K Le Guin Frozen in Time - Owen Beattie & John Geiger Superheavy - Kit Chapman This Is How You Lose The Time War - Amal El-Mohtar & Max Gladstone Affinity* - Sarah Waters A Room With a View - E.M Forster The House at Riverton - Kate Morton The Perfect Storm - Sebastian Junger Tell Me I'm Worthless - Alison Rumfitt Crow Moon - Suzy Aspley South: The Endurance Expedition - Ernest Shackleton The Hunger - Alma Katsu

as you can see i read some Absolute Bangers this year. there were only two books that werent for me and that was 'tell me im worthless' and 'this is how you lose the time war'. while it sounded interesting and there were some parts i really liked, the writing style of the former just really wasn't for me and the amount of sexual violence was not something i was expecting so that threw me off as well (there was a tw at the beginning so obvi no fault to the author there! i just personally wasnt expecting it to be the main plot of the book). the main qualm i had with it though is that there were no likeable characters, which is just not something for me as i like someone to root for when reading. i like a bit of escapism when reading but i dont mind heavy subject matter but oof the whole thing was a proper downer lol, just not for me personally!

for the latter it was So Hyped Up for ages so i decided to read it but all the way through the book i couldn't help but think that the two characters had fallen in love without ever meeting each other and in fact had only glanced at each other once across a battlefield. i know its probably not the point but i just couldnt help thinking about that and it just made the whole romance seem a bit silly to me? idk maybe that just the aro in me lol

2024 also marked the first time in my life id ever read non-fiction and besties i am absolutely HOOKED. read some really interesting true stories and have some more lined up for next year. i always thought it wasnt something i was interested in but i couldnt be more wrong, and being real life stories i think the perils and heartbreak hit me harder than fiction bc i Know that this really happened to someone.

anyway, choosing book of the year was Difficult but in the end i knew i could really only come to one conclusion. honourable mentions to 'pride and prejudice' and 'rebecca' - both completely changed me as a person, with the ending to 'rebecca' coming like a punch to the gut which i Still think about to this day.

however - i must give book of the year 2024 to 'a voyage for madmen' by peter nichols. as well as it being the first non-fiction book i had ever read, this book got me into boats and maritime expeditions and its now my number one interest! im not an emotional girlie but i cried my gd eyes out toward the end at the fate of one of the men, just absolutely harrowing to find out one of the men you followed through the entire book and rooted for through thick and thin ended his life not long after, hurts even more bc he was a real life person with real thoughts and feelings and desires and all that. got to thank this book to being my gateway to start reading about other boat journeys and now im Obsessed with doomed polar expeditions, particularly the franklin expedition of 1885, thanks peter nichols! 10/10 recommend!

there will definitely be more boat books in 2025 - i got apsley cherry-garrards biography of the terra nova expedition for christmas and am hoping to read that next! im also really interested in reading about the crew of the belgica in 'madhouse at the end of the earth'. im hoping to read 'house of leaves' this year as ive wanted to read it ever since i heard about it way back in the late 2000s but it was out of print, then a few years ago my sis+sil got me it for christmas! hope i find some absolute bangers this year!

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Chapter 1 - I Saw You In The Water

Mini-Series Masterlist

Tags: Dean Winchester/Female Reader, Sam Winchester/Reader (platonic), angst, very light fluff, mutual pining, Dean's got the Mark of Cain, uh oh.

Summary/Warnings: You and Sam try something new to help Dean with the Mark of Cain. Usual Warnings.

Author's Note: I'm trying to distract myself from life, so here. Have a miniseries!

Title from Cringe by Matt Maeson

Word Count: 3.7k

Read on A03!

“This looks kind of stupid,” you mutter to Sam, and he makes a small nod of agreement, neither of you looking away from the scene before you. Rowena reciting a bunch of words that don’t sound real, and Dean sitting in a kiddie pool, scowling with his eyes screwed tight.

“It’s not just stupid,” Dean snaps your name, and you flush. He wasn’t supposed to hear that. “It’s pointless, and I am not getting adult baptized. You know what? screw this-“

He starts to stand, but Rowena pushes on his chest and sends him back into the water on his ass.

“No moving, or you’ll make me have to start over. And none of us,” Rowena looks Dean over with a dramatic shudder. “Want that.”

“Does it, um, does it have to be an inflatable pool, Rowena? Can’t we just put him in the shower?“

Rowena scoffs, dismissing Sam with a wave of her hand. “That is not how magic works, Samuel. We’re already making a gamble by hoping the spell counts this as a communal bath filled by the clean of soul, and a motel shower would be far worse.”

“Clean of soul-“

“That wee little bellhop.” Rowena gives you a sweet smile, a glint in her eyes that makes your stomach turn slightly. “Only dirty thoughts in his head were about you and your lovely breasts.”

“What.” Dean’s head shoots up, his scowl somehow more violent. “What do you mean, her breasts-“

“I mean her tits, you dimwitted boy.” Rowena gives you a disbelieving eye roll. “Men.”

“Who the fuck was looking at her tits-“

“The bellhop, Dearie, keep up-”

“Can you just do the spell, Rowena?” You cross your arms over your chest, half folding into yourself in a play to get the conversation off of your boobs. “Now?”

Rowena rolls her eyes, but nods and goes back to all her incoherent mumbo jumbo as Dean begins to look violent.

You bump Sam’s shoulder, standing slightly on your toes to whisper, “What if this doesn’t work?”

“It will.” Sam shakes his head, and his hair hits you slightly in the face. “Rowena’s the best in the game, and we’re only stretching a few of the ingredients. It’ll be fine.”

Neither of you believe that, but you’re also running out of options. You’ve lost all your leads on the Book of the Damned, and Dean can’t keep killing people. It’s killing him, and Sam, and you, and also the people. And this is, in a roundabout way, a solution. And Rowena says it will work, and you’re not stupid enough to trust her, but you’re also desperate enough to make a deal with her. She’ll do a spell to make Dean’s bloodlust refocus—make it more about things that make him happy, and less about murder—and you and Sam will stop trying to kill her for three whole months.

If it works, it’s a win for everyone. Rowena doesn’t get shot, you and Sam get Dean back, and Dean can maybe, hopefully, be happy again.

Rowena draws back up from Dean and walks over to you and Sam, extending her hand. “Hair.”

“What-“

“Hair, lass. The spell needs your hair.”

“Sam’s hair?” You frown. “Or my hair?”

“Preferably, both.”

You and Sam exchange a look of what the fuck, and Sam keeps his voice low—inaudible to Dean—as he mutters, “Why our hair?" Why not the, uh, the bellhop guy-“

“The bellhop is of no significance to Dean’s life. You two are the people he loves most in the world, so unless you want him to remain under the Mark’s corruption,” Rowena flexes her hand, her voice becoming stern. “Hair.”

Sam pulls out his hair quickly, but you’re a little slower. You’re not someone Dean loves. You’re someone Dean cares about, but you’re not Sam. You don’t belong on the spell’s weird ingredient list, you barely belong in this room. Watching Dean in such a strongly vulnerable position, making decisions about his life for him. He’d resisted this, you’d said please, and he’d caved almost immediately, but you mostly think he just didn’t want to argue. You've all been arguing a lot lately—Sam and Dean arguing about most everything, you and Sam arguing about next moves, and you and Dean arguing about you sticking around, near him, through this—and it’s getting exhausting.

But Rowena gives you an impatient look, and you pass your hair into her hand. If it doesn’t work, you can just start over and only use Sam’s hair. He has a lot of it to spare, he’ll be fine.

When the spell finishes, Sam and Rowena go outside to talk and you sit on the bed, watching Dean in silence. He’d insisted on wearing his clothing in the pool—jeans, boots, flannel and all—he’s cross-legged in the water, and he still hasn’t opened his eyes.

He still looks good. There’s an expression made of deep lines and tense frustration on his too-handsome face, and you want to touch him. You want to touch Deanwherever he’ll let you. Run soothing hands over his frown, find out of his grown-out scruff is soft or prickly, kiss his full, pink lips until he smiles, and drift down his body. Over his chest, his stomach, lower and lower until you’re wrapping your mouth around him, and he knows that you care. You really, really care about Dean, and he’s not a burden, and if this doesn’t work, you’re going to stay right at his side until you find something that does, because you like to think you’d look up at him under your lashes and he’d see that you love him, and throw his head back and groan, and maybe his hands—big and rough and so carefully skilled—would touch you-

“Be honest with me, Sweetheart.”

His low, deep voice pulls you out of your fantasy, and you blink at him with a flush that you pray he won’t notice. “What?”

“Be honest,” he repeats, and his eyes open right onto yours. He doesn’t look to be in pain anymore, he mostly looks tired, so you nod.

“Yeah, okay. What-“

“This is dumb.”

You huff a soft, dry laugh. “It’s a little ridiculous. But it will work, Dean.”

“No spell that I know of calls for an inflatable kiddie pool.”

“Well, you’re not a witch.” You shrug. “And think of it this way, we bought that forever. We bring it back to the bunker, that’s fun.”

“Bought my ass.”Dean drawls your name, giving you a pointed look that makes you squeeze your legs together a little. “Don’t think I didn’t notice that you and Sam stole this thing.”

“It was like, $40.” You mumble, staring at the floral patterns of the motel carpet. “I am not paying that much for some plastic.”

“Even for a spell to save my damned soul?” Dean’s teasing, but there’s something in his voice you hate. Something that make you look up at him with a frown, unable to hide the slight desperation in your voice.

“You’re not damned, Dean.”

He just shrugs, refusing to meet your eyes, and before you can push it Sam returns, tossing Dean the keys and announcing that it’s time to figure out what the Mark wants.

So now, in an old, dusty bar, Dean’s smiling. He hasn’t really, really smiled in a few months, and it’s incredible to see.

It aches a little that he’s smiling away from you. Across the bar with his I can show you the world, sweetheart stance and expression. The one where he’s leaning the counter with one arm, and his eyes have a promise of fun while his every word is charming and drawling and teasing. You think he learned it from movies—he’s told you he likes the charisma of old western heroes, and there is something about his whole show that says cowboy—but there’s a pretty strong chance it’s just Dean. It’s how he is. Who he is. All he does is be handsome and stupid and annoying in a way that makes you want to punch him and then immediately kiss him after.

He’s hasn’t been Dean like that in a while, though. It’s been mostly frowns that turn in on his face, and a refusal to look in the mirror that he tries to hide, but you’ve still noticed. But right now, this is your Dean. The Dean who follows you into countless dreams with his pretty lips and eyes and strong hands and body, the Dean who’s managed to haunt you while you're awake and plant an ache in your heart when he’s in pain, and the Dean who you might know a little better than you know yourself. It’s why you ordered a cheeseburger when he went to sulk at the bar, and why you’re facing the door in the booth—Dean always faces the door—and why it hurts something deep and hopeless inside you that the grace of Dean’s smile is all focused on a pretty girl that isn’t you.

“Are you sure you’re okay with this?”

Your attention turns to Sam—who’s looking at you with a sympathy that is not welcome—and you give him a flat glare. “What am I supposedto say to that.”

“Um, the truth? I think?” Sam turns in his seat to look over at Dean, and you kick him. “Hey!” He yelps your name, whipping back around with an almost pout. “That hurt-“

“Don’t look at him.” You hiss, jerking your head to Dean. “He needs this.”

“Yeah, but-“

“No but, Sam. The spell is supposed to make him crave things he likes, he likes sex, let him have sex.”

“I don’t…” Sam sighs, shaking his head. “It’s weird. I read the spell-“

“Of course you read the spell-“

“Shut up, I always read the spells, it’s safer. And this one,” Sam looks you over with a frown and tight-lipped, grimacing expression. “This one’s odd.”

“Oh no,” your voice is sarcastic and cold, and it makes Sam flinch a little. “An odd thing. If only we knew some people who knew how to handle odd things.”

“This is why I wish you would just talk to him.” Sam mutters, giving the waitress a kind smile as she hands out the food. “You get mean when things like this happen. And I don’t think it would be as horrible as you’ve decided it would be.”

You pull the cheeseburger to your own side of the table in a blatant Dean-trap. “That is very easy for you to say, Sammy. Worst case for you, you become a child of divorce.”

He shrugs, poking at his salad with a fork. “I think that’s the worst case for Dean. You’d win custody.”

“Fair.” You look back to the cheeseburger, small smile threatening to pull at your lips. “I do have a higher rate of income.”

“No, you don’t,” Sam frowns. “You make exactly what he does. Nothing.”

“Wrong. I’m a better pool hustler than he is, so my return rate is higher.”

Sam laughs, shaking his head. “Don’t let him hear you say that, we’ll be stuck here until he beats you in a game.” He makes a mock face of disgust. “We’ll die here.”

You let yourself fully smile, even as you mutter, “kiss ass.”

Sam just shrugs, grinning himself as he takes a long drink. You really miss smiling. You really miss easy jokes, and you really miss making fun of each other without being consumed by too much grief or pain to do so.

You really miss Dean. He’s just across the room, but you still really miss him. And you want him—your Dean, the one that’s a little ridiculous and overly charming and the strongest, best man you’ve ever known—back. Over here, smiling at you, teasing you, or saying something shockingly genuine that makes your heart his even more than it already has been.

You look back to him in the bar—you can’t really help it, you think Dean and you always start to look for him in any crowd—and for a second you could’ve sworn he was looking at you. His smile has faded a little, and there are lines on his forehead, so if he was looking at you it wasn’t because you’re something good to him. He probably just saw his food, and then saw you, and now he’s antsy. His foot is tapping on the floor, and he’s fidgeting with the cuff of his flannel, so either Rowena’s terrible at her job, or the Mark is eating at him again.

You’ll fix it. Whatever Dean needs you to do for this, for him, you’ll do it silently and without asking for anything in return. No matter how many lectures Sam gives you about being selectively observant and kind of an idiot, you’ll just help Dean, and he won’t have to think twice about it. Helping Dean is what you do, it’s what you’ve done. Your whole life, in some way, has become how can I help Dean. How can I do something for this person who does everything for everyone else, and maybe he’ll turn his attention to me, and maybe he won’t, but no matter what I’ll have helped Dean.

It’s not like he doesn’t help you. Dean opens doors and saves your life and patches your wounds, and he never asks for anything back. But that’s why you want to help.

And this is helping Dean. It might be killing you a little, but it’s helping Dean, so you’ll still fix it, and then drown your sorrows with ice cream, strong drinks, and small moments of his joy when he’s better.

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Dean is really, really conflicted. It’s ripping him in half, because he knows he’s supposed to be polite to chicks—like the one in front of him, with the sweet smile and sweeter words he doesn’t deserve to hear—but her voice sounds like nails on chalkboard. She doesn’t feel right, she doesn’t feel good, and the bloodlust inside him doesn’t want her.

Bloodlust is the wrong word. It was the right word, but over the past few hours it didn’t feel like it anymore. Dean’s not great with words—he’s great with guns, and cars, and sometimes drawing, but not words—and even he gets that bloodlust really isn’t the correct word for wanting something in a way that’s clean. Pure and raw, but not innocent. It’s still a craving, it’s still insatiable, but it doesn’t feel tainted. It’s driving Dean to things he couldn’t really hate being dependent on. It had started softer and abstract, right after the spell, with drinks and food, so he’d driven to a bar. Then it had asked for care and love, and Dean didn’t have either of those things readily at his disposal, so he looked where he usually found something close to it. In a pretty girl, with a big rack and unburdened smile.

Then his attention had wandered for half a second, and now it couldn’t come back. The not-bloodlust—that wasn’t a good term for it either, he’d need to come up with a better, catchier one later—had tugged his gaze over to Her and Sam, and suddenly everything had been sharper and a lot more specific. Dean should go back to the booth. The booth had beer, and a cheeseburger, and Her and Sam. Mostly Her, but Sam was cool too. Dean was allowed to love two people.

And that’s where the conflict came in. Dean needed to be over there. His stomach was turning, and his skin was growing itchy and hot the longer he wasn’t there. But if he went over there, not only would he not only be leaving this very sweet girl, who seemed fine, but he might be in real danger of telling Her things he was not supposed to tell her. Things Sam kept telling Dean to tell Her, and things Dean kept having to remind Sam weren’t any of his business. He would not lose another good thing because he couldn’t keep himself in check. He would not poison something that didn’t deserve it, no matter how much the bloodlust kept telling him to. Kept telling him that She was caring and lovely, so Dean should drag her down to his level and kiss her in the grime and guts.

The not-bloodlust wanted Her too. The not-bloodlust really liked the idea of just being closer to Her, because she usually helped things. She helped everyone—Dean wasn’t special—but the not-bloodlust seemed to think that simply breathing air that had been inside her more recently would fix a lot of things that were boiling and cracking and hissing in Dean’s body.

That’s what won the conflict. He wouldn’t have to say things for this to be better, they just would be. So Dean gave the pretty girl an apologetic goodbye—she’d be fine, there were other men who were better than Dean and weren’t overtly craving their best friends in the bar—and almost ran back to Her and Sam.

She looks up at Dean as he scoots into the booth, her brows furrowed and mouth tugging down. “You’re back.”

“Well done, sweetheart, I am back.” Dean grins at Her, and that only makes her frown more.

“Did you, um,” She looks over to Sam, who shrugs. “Did you strike out?”

“Nah, just hungry.” It wasn’t a lie. Dean had been hungry. Dean had been starving, but he felt better now. He’d still eat the cheeseburger, but the hunger had dulled from a mind-numbing desperation and withdrawal to just a growl near his throat of cheeseburger. Cheeseburgers are good.

“Well, how are you feeling?” Sam’s voice is insistent, and Dean rolls his eyes, because he knows where this is going. “Do you want to kill someone? Rowena said the spell might take a few hours to work-“

“Workin’ now. I feel good.” Dean takes a large bite of his cheeseburger, and She and Sam exchange looks.

“Good?”

Dean nods, shooting Her a wink. “Real good,” he says Her name through his mouthful—crumbs falling out of his mouth—and she sighs. Her hand twitches on the table, and Dean wants to hold it. He can’t hold it. He’s not even supposed to be talking right now—that was the deal he’d made with himself—so holding hands if defiantly off the table. It would probably freak her out, too, and that’s the last thing Dean wants to do. He’s freaked Her out enough for a whole lot of lifetimes, so she should be smiling instead.

Dean’s usually really good at making Her smile. He’s proud of that, because She worries more than Sam and has more nightmares than Dean, but he can always make her smile.

She’s not smiling now. She’s tense, and she keeps looking between Dean and the girl at the bar.

“You’re good.” She repeats his words slowly, but it doesn’t sound like she believes them. “And you think the spell worked.”

“Did work.” Dean swallows, and immediately takes another bite. Cheeseburgers are good, the not-bloodlust had decided, so Dean should eat more cheeseburgers. “Don’t think it did, I know it did.”

“How do you know?” Sam asks, pulling the cheeseburger across the table, away from Dean.

“Hey!” Dean reaches for his plate, and Sam moves it away faster. “What the fuck, Sammy, do not touch my burger-”

“It’s distracting you, Dean, and this is serious. We really need to know if the spell worked-“

“It did work. I don’t want to gank anything, I just want my cheeseburger and-“ He has to cut himself off, because that is exactly why he wasn’t supposed to talk. “Look, man, it worked. Trust me, I feel good. No bloodlust, just, uh, not-bloodlust.”

Sam glances at the cheeseburger, then at Her, then at Dean. Dean gives him a very winning grin—all teeth and bright eyes, and give me back my burger, I’m not going to kill anyone—but Sam’s attention just moves back to Her. She mostly looks confused and tired—Dean still needs to make her smile—but she nods, making a loose gesture of surrender, and Sam, finally, slides the food back to Dean.

“If he’s really good,” Sam’s pretty clearly talking to Her, but Dean listens anyways. They’re a team, he’s allowed to hear this stuff. “We should get back to Kansas tonight. It’s not smart to linger in a town after a hunt finishes-“

“I know,” She glances back to Dean, and he offers her his widest, most reassuring smile. She doesn’t smile back, but her face relaxes a little, so Dean counts it as a victory. “Do you want to finish that, or-“

“Gimme three-“

“Chew, Dean.”

He does, holding up three fingers in a silent signal, and inhales the rest of his cheeseburger.

“Holy crap, dude.“ Sam blinks between Dean and the empty plate. “That was really fast, even for you.”

Dean shrugs, standing out of the booth. “Don’t blame me, blame the not-bloodlust. Cheeseburgers or murder, Sammy, gotta be one.”

Sam rolls his eyes, starting to the door, and Dean lingers until She’s on her feet and they can follow Sam together.

“Not-bloodlust is a bad name,” She mutters, staring at the floor as she walks. “What about, uh, what’s the opposite of blood?”

“Dunno.” Dean watches Her carefully, raking his brain for a good answer. “Water? Waterlust?”

That gets him a small, huffed laugh. “That doesn’t make sense, Dean.”

“Doesn’t have to. It’s my lust.”

“It is.” She meets Dean’s eyes, and her attention is soft, but it feels strange. Like she’s trying to find something on Dean’s face he doesn’t know how to get for her. “And if you really want, we can call it waterlust, but I like betterlust.”

“Betterlust?“

“Starts with B,” Her attention turns back to the floor, and Dean feels something sour twist around his heart and forearm. “Fun to say. Makes sense, too, you’re lusting after better stuff.”

Dean was lusting after better stuff. It was a good name—better than not-bloodlust—and he was willing to concede waterlust to Her. It was, overwhelmingly so, the least he could do.

“Betterlust it is, Sweetheart.” He tried his most charming, cocky, look at me, I’m a cowboy and I can be yours if you offer me just a few kind words because I’m a pathetic, worthless wet dog that barks and bites, but man am I good at sex, smile on Her, and this time, he got a real smile back.

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This Week in Tomarrymort (15 – 22 August 2024)

Wow, a lot of amazing updates of ongoing fic this week! And even some double updates for a number of fics!! So much to read! 🎉

As before, these are all either ongoing Tomarrymort fics that I’m subscribed to or one shots that I found while browsing that were updated in the last week. My goal is to compile these lists on Fridays, so that everyone has lots of juicy fic to read going into the weekend 🤍 I find myself missing updates all the time, so I hope this will be a helpful compilation of updates of ongoing fic that you may have missed! Happy reading. 

Last week's Tomarrymort weekly: 7-15 August 2024

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Tomarrymort One Shots and Completed Fic

One Shot | Dream of me by @jjaegerb0mb 

One Shot | A Snake Love Story by sparrowshellcat

One Shot | All Will be Equal by sparrowshellcat

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Tomarrymort Ongoing Fics

Chapter 65 of draw me after you (let us run) by @toast-ranger-to-a-stranger

Chapter 4 of The Unintentional Consequences of Prison Reform by @badluck

Chapter 4 of the scar remains by @noctelier

Chapters 4 and 5 of Anytime, Anywhere, Always by @moontearpensfic

Chapters 111 and 112 of Liquida Tenebris (Remastered) by @dymis

Chapters 29 and 30 of Part One - The Solitude of Suffering by @iseliljathedreamer

Chapter 39 of you're a parasitic, psycho, filthy creature (finger-bangin' my heart) by @toast-ranger-to-a-stranger

Chapter 13 of Learning to love by @l-archiduchesse

Chapters 1 and 2 of How Not to Kidnap a Mafia Boss by @sri-verse

Chapters 3 and 4 of Saint Harry by @alenablack @chaos-bear

Chapter 6 of Do It Over by @thefangirlibrarian

Chapters 4 and 5 of His condition by @ciacconne

Chapter 18 of What In Me Is Dark, Illumine by @telelli-writes

Chapter 4 of For If I'm Going Down, I'll Take You With Me by @apocryphalzenith

Chapter 8 of Cocytus by @xenomorphology-ao3

Chapter 3 of These Fragments We've Shored by @rowena-rain

Chapter 19 of Time Stumbler by Wintumn

Chapter 10 of Catching up by lemonchase

Chapter 2 of perfect boys with their perfect lives by @duplicitywrites

Chapter 12 of Outrunning the Villain in You by @zenyteehee

Chapter 36 of With a resolute heart by Act_Naturally

Chapter 2 of midnight train by @girl-with-goats

Chapters 1 and 2 of Dreams Beyond Blood by @hikarimeroperiddle

Chapter 18 of Occultation by TimaeusKosmou

Chapter 1 of quid pro quo by marshall_1300

Chapters 1 and 2 of Thin Skin by @iseliljathedreamer

Chapters 1 through 3 of Fate's Coffin by @noxxytocin

Chapter 1 of a pound of flesh by @ictyn

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A list of W.I.T.C.H. fanfictions (non-exhaustive, non-Guardian-centric)

Here’s a list of fanfictions I have read and appreciated over the years, as well as the ones I have written. They will be divided by pairing and/or trope and I'll try to keep it up to date as I keep reading and writing stories. If you find something that inspires you, go show the authors your support!

I’ll tag the authors if I know their Tumblr. If you see yourself in the list, let me know so I can tag you!

· · ─ ·𖥸· ─ · · Pairing: Cedric x Orube

Canon fics and missing moments in canon

These stories are about missing scenes during the time Cedric and Orube spent together in the comics, or in any case canon-compliant stories (no fix-its, Cedric stays dead)

Fics in English 🇬🇧🇺🇸

Scenes from a bookstore by Elizabeth McMarsh 

For Now, an Earthly Revelation by magical_sovereign 

Insomnia by epiphyte 

Unique/Matching by @theneptuneviolin

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The Book of Elements (Arc 5 rewrite)

Fics in Italian 🇮🇹

Due alieni by Sylphs 

Scacco matto by Marge (explicit) 

Sotto la maschera, attraverso lo specchio by Sylphs 

L'ultima speranza by Elelith 

Un sentimento fin troppo umano by ImperialPair 

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Fix-it and post-canon Fics

These stories are alternative endings and/or epilogues to Arc 5 attempting to fix its ending.

Fics in English 🇬🇧🇺🇸

The Path Ahead by epiphyte

The Librarian by Elizabeth McMarsh

Out of the Book by Zoja

When Hope Prevails by @vampirenaomi

Here are mine: 

Ink and Blood 1

The Twin Suns of Basiliade (Ink and Blood 1.5)

The Twin Suns of Basiliade - Missing moments (explicit)

Ink and Blood 2

Ink and Blood 3

Home

The Gift of Time (reloaded)

Fics in Italian 🇮🇹

Save me by Rowena

Quello che aveva perduto by ToscaSam

Ritorni by MaxT (based on an incomplete story of mine - which was the original concept of Ink and Blood)

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Pairing: Cedric x Phobos 

(check the fics to see if cartoon- or comic-based)

Fics in English 🇬🇧🇺🇸

Pressed and Faded Roses by @ror-witch

An exotic's cultivation by wastingmypotential

Meridian Traditions by magical_sovereign

bleeding petal by @linoxee

The Price of Forgiveness by @ror-witch (explicit)

Here are mine:

Stay 

What Loyalty Means 

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Multiship / No Ship / Other Pairings

Fics in English 🇬🇧🇺🇸

The Image of Love by magical_sovereign (Elyon x Caleb)

Drosera by @vampirenaomi (Elyon & Phobos)

Murmurs on the Wind by @theneptuneviolin (Elyon & the Murmurers)

Dear Nerissa by Tabby_Shieldmaiden (Cassidy x Nerissa)

Veredictum by wastingmypotential (just Cedric)

When I was down (I was your clown) by Tabby_Shieldmaiden (Cornelia x Irma)

5 seconds ago by Malingale (Cassidy x Nerissa)

Mauvais Jour de Cheveux by EVA_beatrice (Cassidy x Nerissa)

New Hope by DreamyMoonlight (Kadma x Halinor)

Fear by @ror-witch (Weira & Phobos)

Of Customs and Flaws by @krchar (Himerish x Yarr)

The Scar in His Hand by @krchar (Himerish x Yarr)

Sick Fruits Biting the Roots by avaloncat555 (Weira & Phobos)

Entangled by @krchar (Endarno x Luba)

Sweet falling apart by Casskim93 (Halinor & Kadma & Yan Lin)

Here are mine: 

The Galahot, the Prince and the Warrior (contains both Cedric x Phobos and Cedric x Orube)

The Right Choice (Himerish x Yarr)

The Swap collaboration with @atane-is-here (contains Cedric x Orube, Cedric x Phobos and Cedric x Miranda; crack fic with cartoon/comic crossover accompanied by comics)

The Maiden (Cedric x Phobos; Phobos & Original Female Character; a bit of Cedric x Orube towards the end)

Fics in Italian 🇮🇹

Dolore ardente by Casskim93 (a short Italian fic about Luba)

[zepskies]

Omgosh I loveeee the imagines for Sam having a crush on deans gf!!! And the part 2 SO ANGSTY. And you write dean and readers interactions so well! (Feel free to ignore if you don't wanna do this) But I'm so curious to know how the conversation went between Dean and the reader after finding out! I just need to know how dean talks about the situation with them!! Anyway HAVE A GREAT DAY 🩷🩷

Hello my lovely anon!

I'm so glad you enjoyed those angsty little imagines. 😂 For those who don't know, they're referring to these:

You are Dean's one exception. (In which Sam is in love with Dean's girlfriend - and how Dean reacts.)

Sam crosses the line. (The sequel: Sam finally sees his chance with you after he's hit by a witch's spell.)

I tried to imply what followed between the reader and Dean after this section:

Your eyes widen further. You look from Sam, to your boyfriend. Dean's jaw is clenched tight.

"Okay, what the fuck is going on?!" you ask in earnest.

Dean meets your gaze for a moment, his face tense. His reluctant eyes communicate to you things you never knew. Things that clog emotion in your throat.

But since you asked so nicely, this is my headcanon for that conversation between the reader and Dean (after Sam is knocked out by Rowena lol):

Of course, you would demand to know why Dean didn't tell you earlier.

Your heart and mind are a maelstrom of emotions: shock, not wanting to believe it's true, anger and hurt at both of these men for lying to you for so long about what's been going on.

Because a lie of omission is still a damn lie.

Dean is quiet at first, and you're forced to read into his silence. You peer at him closer, grabbing his wrist.

"Dean...did you really think it would change anything?" you ask incredulously.

His brows furrow. "No."

But you don't quite believe him.

"I just...didn't want you to have to deal with this shit, that's all," he eventually admits.

Your eyes narrow as you stare up at his face. You're trying to discern the truth.

"Is that really why?" you ask.

"Yeah, okay?" His voice is gruff and frustrated.

You move in closer, gripping the open edges of his plaid shirt. He knows what you're demanding in your gentle silence.

Don't lie to me.

Your hand reaches up to his cheek, a tender gesture that softens him. Your thumb brushes across his lower lip.

"Good," you reply. "Because if I have to remind you that I am entirely, undeniably, irrevocably in love with you, then I might just have to punish you."

A slow smirk spreads across your man's face.

"Oh yeah?" he says. His hands find your hips, drawing you closer. You're satisfied by the hint of doubt washing away from his demeanor. From his tight shoulders loosening.

"Just outta curiosity, what might that entail?" Dean asks.

Your lips curve. "Oh, you'll find out, after we fix your brother... Dean, I'll need to talk to him."

Dean's burgeoning good humor fades, but you take his face in both your hands and make sure he meets your gaze. You are firm in your convictions, and he sees that.

He nods in acceptance, before he dips down to press his lips to yours. It's gentle at first, but all too soon becomes claiming, born of hidden frustration and passion.

When he parts from you, it's slow, reluctant. His fingers draw a strand of hair behind your ear.

In his eyes, you see the true depths of him. Something not many people get to see.

It's there that you always know that you're loved.

I hope that satisfied you, my dear! 😘 I miiiiight do a more official 3rd part to this imagine-verse where Sam gets his happy ending (with Eileen).

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[dean-winchester-is-a-warrior]

Say What You Wanna Say

Summary: Y/N is incredibly nervous to tell her dad she's Bi. How will he react?

Pairings: Teen!Reader x Dean (Non romantic pairing)

Warnings: None. Some angst. Mostly fluff. Coming out. Bisexual reader. Papa!dean.

Word Count: 1,212

A/N: About a week ago I received this anonymous ask for a fic about Dean's daughter telling him she's Bi. I was happy to write it, but warned the lovely anon that it might take a while for inspiration to hit as my muses have been off lately and not playing nice.

Then this morning I got this response from them, and it absolutely charged my brain for this fic and it just came pouring out. More proof that #kind words fuel authors.

On a slightly separate note, I just wanna thank everyone who's been so kind to me regarding my creativity stall and mental health hiccups. All your words (whether in the form of well-wishes or kind comments on fics!) have made a difference, and they are so very appreciated.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy this fluffy fic. To the lovely anon who requested this - I hope it's what you were looking for. I went with a teen reader around 17 or 18 (she mentions choosing a college) just because it felt right for me in the story. But feel free to age her up or down as you'd like. Thanks for jump-starting my creative juices. (Sorry I said juices.)

Dean One Shots || Dean Master List || Main Master List || Tag Lists

Y/N walked into the library to see her dad bent over a massive, old, leatherbound book. At least, she hoped it was leather. You never could tell with books in the bunker. One time when she was six she’d managed to sneak her way into the shelves in Room 7B and picked up a harmless looking book. Turned out to be a cursed book bound in dragonskin and she'd exhaled flames for a full day before her Auntie Rowena had gotten there to undo the curse.

She never went wandering through the shelves again.

But the book her dad was reading seemed innocuous enough, even though it had him scowling darkly at whatever he was reading. She couldn’t tell if he was angry, annoyed, or just concentrating. That scowl could mean a few things. The problem was, the conversation she had planned sort of called for him to be in a decent mood.

She considered turning around and coming back when she had a better read on his frame of mind, but just then Dean’s hunter senses kicked in and he looked up and caught her standing in the doorway.

She waved a little lamely. “Hey Dad.”

He grunted at her and went back to scowling at the book. 

She took a few steps into the library. “Something in there that’s bothering you?”

Dean shook his head. “No, it’s just pissing me off cause it’s not helping me figure out…” He trailed off and took another, closer, look at a sentence, skimming his finger along the page before shaking his head again and slamming the book closed. 

“Whatever, piece of shit.” He said, rubbing a hand down his face and then looking at Y/N. “What’s up kid?”

But Y/N was convinced now wasn’t a good time and she just waved at him dismissively. “No, nothing important. You’re obviously busy. We can talk later.” 

She turned to leave, but froze in the doorway when her dad’s deep voice called out to her.

“Hey! Nope. Stop. Turn.”

Y/N slowly turned back to face him to see he’d leaned back in his chair slightly and folded his arms over his chest. He lifted one hand to point at the chair beside him, turning slightly towards it.

“Sit. Talk.”

Y/N opened her mouth to once again tell him they’d talk later, but his raised eyebrow brooked no argument and told her she wasn’t getting away without talking to him. She contemplated making up something else to talk to him about. Something that wasn’t as likely to send him into a tailspin, but it wouldn’t work. Her dad saw through her lies way too easily. 

Nope. This was happening.

She walked over slowly to sit down beside him, tucking her feet up under her on the chair and twisting her hands in her lap. When she hesitated to speak, Dean unfolded his arms and leaned forward slightly.

“Talk to me, kiddo. What’s going on?”

Y/N shrugged. God, I don’t know how to start this conversation, she thought.

But she could see her dad’s scowl turning to worry in his bright green eyes which made her feel guilty so she smiled at him. It didn’t make the worry leave his gaze, but he offered a small smile back.

“Are you okay, baby? Did something happen at school? Did someone do something? Do I need to kick the shit out of someone?”

Y/N chuckled and shook her head. “No, Dad. School’s good. It’s fine.”

Dean nodded. “Okay, are you…are you changing your mind about going to Kansas State? Cause we talked about this, and I thought we-”

Y/N cut him off, shaking her head and waving her hands back and forth. “No, no, nothing like that. It’s not…it’s nothing with school. Look, just…” She cleared her throat. “Let me just try to say it, okay?”

Dean’s eyebrows settled back into a frown, the little double line of worry staying etched between them. He shrugged. “Okay, baby.”

His casual use of that endearment brought a dampness to her eyes. God, I hope I’m still his baby when this is done. She thought.

She took a deep breath. “So, I’ve been wanting to talk to you about this for a while now, a couple of months anyway, but I’ve just…I didn’t really know how to bring it up. I mean, I think, it’s actually something I’ve wanted to talk about for a couple of years, but I just kept denying it. But I can’t anymore, I can’t just pretend, and I don’t wanna and…”

She trailed off slightly, looking up at her dad and seeing only confusion and concern in his eyes. She exhaled the words out quickly.

“I’m bisexual.”

She watched understanding erupt in her dad’s expression as his eyes widened and his mouth slackened. He stared at her, just blinking for a few seconds and then he nodded slowly.

“Wow. That’s…that is not what I was expecting to hear.”

Y/N swallowed over and over, nervousness making her stomach ache. She was ready for the barrage of questions and possible challenges that were bound to come her way.

So, she was slightly thrown when he took a deep breath and spoke one word.

“Okay.” He said with one corner of his mouth lifted.

It was her turn to frown. “Okay?

His half smile turned into a full one. “Yeah, okay.”

“What does that mean?” Y/N asked with confusion.

Dean chuckled. “It means what it always means, kiddo.”

“So, okay…like, you’re fine with this? You don’t have…I don’t know, questions or arguments. This doesn’t bother you? I was expecting a bit of caveman in your response, to be honest. I mean, it doesn’t make you feel weird, or like…I don’t know…bug you?”

Dean pushed out his lips and raised his shoulders in a shrug. “Hey kid, I’m Gen-X, nothing bugs us.” 

Y/N scoffed and he laughed and conceded. “No, I don’t know, maybe if you’d told me twenty years ago, I wouldn’t have known what to do. Or it might have felt weird to me, or made me uncomfortable or awkward or something. But I learned a long time ago to let people be who they are, and I especially want you to be just exactly who you are. You’re an incredible kid, which means every part of you is incredible.”

He leaned forward and cupped her cheek. “Seriously, baby. I’m really glad you told me, and if you’re happy, I’m happy.” He kissed her forehead and she threw her arms around his neck and held on for dear life, tears of relief and happiness flowing. 

“Thank you, Daddy.” She whispered.

When she pulled away, he held the back of her head in his big palm, the way he had when she was little. “Love you, kid.” He said gruffly.

“I love you too, Dad.” 

His eyes were a little watery as he sat back in his chair and cleared his throat. “And, you know, if you end up dating a chick, or marrying her, that’s one less asshole I have to punch in the jaw as a warning not to mess with you.”

Y/N rolled her eyes and chuckled. “That’s very progressive, Dad.”

Dean smiled brightly. “What? You gotta allow me a little bit of caveman.”

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@fanfic-n-tabulous @traiitorjoe @lastcallatrockysbar @b3autyfuld1sast3r

[spntoxicfemslashevent]

SPN TOXIC FEMSLASH 2025 FULL PROMPT LIST

welcome girls and gays to the official pre-start of spn toxic femslash 2025. we've pared down our per-day prompts to a svelte four as opposed to last year's six, and we've added a new category of prompt: character prompts. these are what it says on the tin: single characters without a specified ship. YOU get to choose the femslash. additionally, characters who only appear in a few episodes and only have one name are clarified by the name of the first episode in which they appeared, ao3 style. alright babes, go wild.

MILF WEEK:

day one: marking // corpse // rowena mcleod/billie // constance welch

day two: gothic // humiliation // eileen leahy/mary winchester // gwen campbell

day three: mommy kink // vivisection // hannah/naomi // eleanor visyak

day four: age gap // jealousy // missouri mosely/jo harvelle // tracy bell

day five: worship // right hand // lilith/ruby // ambriel (the devil in the details)

day six: reign in hell/serve in heaven // mindwipe/lobotomy // eve/lenore (bloodlust) // ava wilson

day seven: munchausen by proxy // barefoot and pregnant // alex jones/celia (alex annie alexis ann) // lydia (the slice girls)

AU WEEK:

day eight: roller derby au // doll // ruby/astaroth (malleus maleficarum) // maggie zeddmore

day nine: guilt by association // executioner // bela talbot/cassie robinson // amy pond

day ten: autopsy // poison/drugging // raphael/billie // athena lopez

day eleven: murder-suicide // isolation // charlie bradbury/charlie bradbury // marin (the born-again identity)

day twelve: nun kink // handmaiden-feudal lord // linda tran/abaddon // cecily (road trip)

day thirteen: vore // comp het // becky rosen/amara // kate milligan

day fourteen: coffeeshop au (evil) // ritual sacrifice // kelly kline/dagon // tessa

GENDERBEND WEEK:

day fifteen: crossdressing // outsider pov // cassie robinson/fem!dean winchester // tamara (the magnificent seven)

day sixteen: forcefem // petplay // fem!jack kline/harper sayles // haley collins

day seventeen: piety // brat // fem!castiel/raphael // madge carrigan

day eighteen: unreality/lying // butch // linda tran/meg masters // olivia (ask jeeves)

day nineteen: turn the straight girl // soulmates // fem!lucifer/fem!sam winchester // hester (reading is fundamental)

day twenty: substance abuse // on the rack // fem!bobby singer/fem!crowley // casey (sin city)

day twenty one: brainwashing // rot // anna milton/ruby // tasha banes

ALTERNATE FANWORK WEEK:

day twenty two: manipulation // scratch her eyes out // patience turner/claire novak // dumah (war of the worlds)

day twenty three: "what happened to her first husband?" // infidelity  // missouri mosely/mary winchester // amelia richardson

day twenty four: somnophilia // true crime // billie/jessica moore // pamela barnes

day twenty five: kidnapping // episode rewrite // kate (bitten)/tasha (paper moon) // lily baker

day twenty six: unreliable narrator // stacy's mom // meg masters/ellen harvelle // stevie (the rupture)

day twenty seven: closeted // demon deal // mary winchester/billie // krissy chambers

day twenty eight: "i ran into a door" // babytrap // jody mills/donna hanscum // paris hilton

[powdrz]

Hii!! I’m looking for a rp partner!! :) 

I’m currently 18!!I don’t have a specific preference age wise, but I do prefer 17+. I know the gap isn’t big, but it’s totally different maturity levels!! I’m okay with all sorts of themes, such as romance, platonic pairings (friends or siblings), angst, fluff, nsfw (as long as you’re 18+, and also obviously in a romance aspect. I’m not comfortable with anything like sexual assualt or that! Mentions are fine, as long as they’re past type things, not something that happens during the time of our rp if that makes sense!)i shouldn’t have to say it, but I do NOT support any sort of proshipping, dni if you do. 

I don’t do fandomless rps, and i don’t rp with or against ocs, sorry! I am into many fandoms and ships, and if there’s a fandom or ship on the list that you wanna ask if i’m up for, just ask, i honestly might be! :] i’m also up for doubling!!!

I’m gonna rank it from what i wanna do the most to least, but if it’s closer to the bottom, don’t fret! I put it on the list for a reason :)

Arcane

Powder/Jinx x Ekko (preference for Powder/Jinx)

Vi and Powder/Jinx (Jinx/Powder pref)

isha and Jinx (Jinx pref)

Xmen/deadpool

Origins Deadclaws(will write either)

Deadclaws(will write either)

Vanessa x Wade (wade pref, willing to write vanessa)

Scogan (will write either)

Cherik (will write either)

Negasonic x Yukio (will write either)

Cablepool (Wade preference, not really up to write cable)

Supernatural

Destiel (either)

Samwena(Sam preference, kinda up to write Rowena…idk how good i’d do though LOL)

Drowley (Dean pref not wanting to write crowley)

Megstiel (either)

Sastiel (haven’t explored it…kinda curious, and i’ll write either)

LisaDean (either)

JoDean(either)

Claire x Kaia (Claire preference)

Sam and Dean (either)

Castiel and Claire (Either)

Hannibal

Hannigram (Will preference. Won’t write for Hannibal, sorry!)

Will x Alana (either)

Margot x Alana (either)

Abigail and Will

Abigail and/x Marissa (ship or platonic, either works and i’ll write for either)

Shameless

Gallavich (Ian, Mickey, Mandy preference! Won’t write for either Sandy or Debbie sorry💔)

BonnieCarl (bonnie preference, will write carl ofc)

Jasmine x Fiona (Fiona preference)

V x Svet (either)

V x Kev (Kev pref)

any of the sibling duos!

The hunger games

Everlark (either)

Stranger things

Lumax (Max pref)

Elmike (el pref)

Elmax(either)

Ronance(Robin pref)

ChrissyEddie (before anyone says shit, chrissy is 17 and 9 months, Eddie is 19 it is genuinely not that bad😭) (chrissy preference)

There’s probably more, but these are the ones i’m most interested in as of right now!! I don’t have any specific plots in mind, and if you read all of this, thank you!!! I’m open to aus, and open to canon based stuff, open to whatever!! One of my favorite aus have been college aus for some reason, but, yeah! Just reach out with either an idea or we can brainstorm together !! :) also, i prefer to write on discord, and do NOT add me if you’re gonna give me one liners, i prefer description, at LEAST 3-5 paragraphs, and I can write up to two nitro messages max :)! I mirror lengths! If you’re interested do NOT just like the post!!! Please comment or dm me. State your age, the fandoms and pairings your interested in, who you’d like to play, plot ideas(if you have any), triggers, and preferred themes(if you have any)!!!

[allurilove]

Crackhead question…BUT!…how’d our favorite husband handle having 12 daughters?!

I ask because Catherine O’Hara voiced the Duchess Rowena in Barbie and the 12 Dancing Princesses…so this is where my whack question is coming from!

Oh that sounds…. hectic.

In his office, he has a huge calendar filled with the extracurriculars Henry does. The karate classes, when school starts and all of the breaks, playdates, the first time the tooth fairy visited (yes, Henry celebrates that), and his birthdays. If yandere husband were to have twelve kids, oof.

He would have to hire an assistant and multiple nannies and tutors to help him. Maybe he'll even get his sisters to look after them too lol.

Yandere husband takes five-ten minutes out of his day to spend time with each of them. Five minutes hearing them ramble on about whatever shows they watched, playing dress up or other princess tea parties, reading them books and going through old comic books he used to read, and he'll even show up to his workplace with tiara. Deep down, he knows he looks good them.

He probably wouldn't be able to show up to all the sports games or any dance recitals, so he'd have his wife film everything for him to watch before bed and see how his cute little kids did.

Good thing I have a list of names yandere husband would use:

Alora or Elora

Anne

Blythe

Eleanor

Cecilia

Cyndi

Jane or Janie

Leah

Maeve

Magnolia

Moira

Sloane

[apocalypseornaw]

Rather have You

Dean Winchester x reader

Follow up to Last Night

Warnings: cursing, mention of violence, attempted suicide?

You felt your heart drop to your feet when the door of the cabin slammed open and in walked an extremely pissed off looking Dean.

Before you could move from your spot he'd flipped the table in front of you causing a wide assortment of spell ingredients and blood to splash across the room. "WHAT THE FUCK WAS GOING ON IN YOUR HEAD?" He yelled as he stood over you.

You quickly climbed to your feet, facing him as both of you stared each other down. You watched as his anger quickly dissolved, tears brimming in his green eyes "You left me" He sounded so damn broken it made your own tears threaten to spill "Dean, it's not that simple"

He waved a hand towards the mess that was littered around the room "So this was?" You swallowed hard "Rowena promised she wouldn't tell you until it was done" he laughed humorlessly "oh that's where you messed up sweetheart, cause she kept the promise but you didn't make her promise to not tell Crowley and it was easy to get a hellhound to sniff you out considering"

"Dean, the spell would reset everything. You and Sam would never be hunters, you'd had a normal..safe life and it would even shield the people you've saved..they wouldn't be effected" you knew he'd never have agreed to it. That's why you'd left when you found the spell, hidden amongst the journals long buried in the men of letters bunker you'd uncovered in New Orleans.

You'd snuck into Billie's library and read over a thousand of his and Sam's ending, they were all bloody and violent. You couldn't lose anyone else like that. Bobby, Ellen, Jo, Ash, Rufus...the list was too long. You refused to light the pyre on either Winchester.

He shook his head slowly, tears sliding down his face making your heart crumble "What about you?" You swallowed hard again, trying not to let your emotions get the better of you "My life would be the fuel for it. I'd be erased from having ever existed" "let me guess but you figured out a way to shield the people you saved too right?"

You nodded slowly and he scoffed "And it never occurred to you to ask if that's what we wanted? A safe, normal life..notice you didn't say happy. How the hell am I supposed to live a happy life without you?" You felt tears start to slide down your face "Dean, yours and Sam's endings are always bloody. I read so many..it's not worth it"

He took a step towards you and that was when any resolve you had broke. Without thinking you were in his arms. "Fuck fate, everything that says what's supposed to happen can go to hell. We can change it. I have faith in me, you and Sam, I know we've handled everything that's came our way but I can't let the Winchester trait of self sacrificing take you from me. I love you and I'd rather have you and a bloody, violent life then a safe one without you. Sam's your best friend and I know he feels the same"

You were sobbing in Dean's arms by the time he was through talking. You looked up at him and he smiled softly, wiping your tears away "Can we go home?" You asked and he nodded before asking "Can I trust I can fall asleep without the woman I love disappearing and trying to sacrifice herself for me?"

"I'm sorry" you whispered before he brushed his lips against yours in a gentle kiss, full of everything he couldn't put into words. When he pulled away he leaned his forehead against yours "Don't do that sweetheart. Don't apologize, hell you learned this shit from us just talk to me please...I don't want to think about what would've happened if I hadn't made it here in enough time"

You moved to catch his lips in another kiss, pulling him as close as humanly possible "Take me home Dean"

@deans-spinster-witch @leigh70 @winchestersgirl222

[ardentpoop]

do you have any fic recs where dean does make it worse for sam pretty please <33

only including fic I've read within the past year because I don't trust my assessment of the stuff I read when I was a teenager tbfh lol

sometimes a kind of singing by adi_rotynd (@/adihildilid 💖) the singular best samndean-and-jack-and-cas fic I've found thus far by a mile. also rowena is there :) also sam's issues with food :) exactly the sort of late-seasons fic I want to read!

lethe by goldmonger what I remember from this one is that it nailed late-seasons samndean i.e. sickening (complimentary). the premise is s15 sam regressing to s1 sam which is a delicious fucking concept. jack is there!!!

try and love again by sahwen sam comes out as a woman to dean and it doesn't go well. featuring a little tiny crumb of sastiel that makes me want to cry just thinking abt it lmfao. this one has a hopeful ending!

up close, personal by themegalosaurus expands on the christmas lap dance that dean bought for sam - mentioned in 13.05. set during s10, so.... you know.

lesser evils by dyed_red this is the only wincest fic in this list and it features graphic rape, so tread lightly. I just read this one the other night so it's fresh in my mind. set during early s5. dean making sam's shame over his Monstrosity infinitely worse.

I wish i had more to recommend but I'm not exaggerating when I say it is very hard for me to find fic that meets all my criteria in this fandom. w/ that said if you have any sam-centric recs feel free to drop them in the comments <3 any ship (or no ship) is fine

also if you wanna read a weird longish exploration of samndean's relationship over the years (ft wincest and samcrowley and sastiel, among other things) then check out my thing from a few months ago: scapegoat ceremony. many flavors of Dean Making It Worse in there :)

[jariten]

Manga I've read that were licensed in english in 2022-2023

Meant to do this roundup forever but I some pleasant surprises the last 2 years when I saw these titles I enjoyed in Japanese be licensed/re-released in English and wanted to do a very short roundup. I unfortunately can't attest to the quality of the print editions or the translations as I haven't been able to justify a double purchase just yet but still recommend these as fun and interesting reads. (Also using the JPN covers since the pub websites and store listings have kind of bad image quality lately....)

Ramen Wolf and Curry Tiger by Emboss [Seven Seas, trans. Nan Rymer] (Furry and human cast, gay but not because of any overt romance)

Thermae Romae: The Complete Omnibus by Mari Yamazaki [Yen Press, trans. Stephen Paul] (Time slip comedy connecting ancient roman and Japanese bath culture, semi-recent anime adaption on Netflix, sequel manga series currently on Jump+)

One More Step, Come Stand by My Side by Toryumon Takeda [Yen Press, trans. Jason Moses] (One shot collection, impressive art, wide span of themes and settings, most of the stories were originally self published)

The Secret of Friendship by Kazune Kawahara & Aiji Yamakawa [Seven Seas, trans. Hana Allen] (High School setting, exploration of friendship and romance and how it might conflict, little gay if im being honest)

Gold Kingdom and Water Kingdom by Nao Iwamoto [Seven Seas, trans. Alan Cheng & Rowena Chen] (The sweeping tale of rivaling kingdoms, adapted into an acclaimed anime movie in 2023, imo we need more Nao Iwamoto translated she's kinda brilliant)

[aethon-recs]

This Week in Tomarrymort (7 – 15 August 2024)

Testing out a new format for recs! Trying this out as I don’t always have time to put together detailed themed rec lists, and there’s always SO MUCH good fic getting published every day on AO3. So these are all either ongoing Tomarrymort fics that I’m subscribed to or new one shots that I found while browsing that were updated in the last week. 

My goal is to compile these lists on Fridays, so that everyone has lots of juicy fic to read going into the weekend 🤍 I find myself missing updates all the time, so I hope this will be a helpful compilation of updates of must-read ongoing fic that you may have missed! Happy reading. 

Also, I didn't even realize so much Tomarrymort fic gets updated every week until I sat down and started doing this. Like, this is why I don't have a life, because I spend all my time reading AO3 (and I'm sure many of you feel the same way 😅) The incredible range of talent and insane output in this ship is absolutely awe-inspiring and breathtaking.

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Tomarrymort One Shots and Completed Fics

One Shot | Heartbeats by @cyandenial

One Shot | yours forever, harry by i_am_a_tree

One Shot | Quid Pro Quo by anonymous

One Shot | Expelliarmus Red by @poljupci

One Shot | Black Fire by sparrowshellcat

One Shot | Let's never wake up (Stay With Me) by @blackseatwenty

One Shot | And all the devils are here by @i-dream-of-libraries

Chapter 9 (complete) of Fourth: The Ritual's Consequence by @ramabear

Chapter 2 (complete) of Tom Riddle's DIY Disaster by @sri-verse

Chapter 9 (complete) of Still Into You by @moontearpensfic

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Tomarrymort Ongoing Fics

Chapter 7 and 8 of Sits the wind in that quarter by @mosiva

Chapter 5 of Ills of Murder by @shadow-of-the-eclipse

Chapter 23 of would that i'd loved (long ago) by @sprst1tion

Chapter 21 of Paved With the Best Intentions by @perhaps-sunlight

Chapter 17 of A Simple Request by @shyinsunlight

Chapter 2 of Cane Sugar by @blogalinda @cindle-writes @reggieblk @telectronique

Chapter 9 of Catching up by lemonchase

Chapter 9 of Shattered by Flipdarkchill

Chapters 1 and 2 of Saint Harry by @alenablack @chaos-bear

Chapter 3 of Anytime, Anywhere, Always by @moontearpensfic 

Chapter 9 of a touch of fate by @virgil-anon 

Chapter 1 of Atonement [Tomarry Edition] by @just-a-whorecrux

Chapter 3 of the scar remains by @noctelier

Chapters 5 and 6 of we made universes out of bitten lips and broken hands by @boyneptunee

Chapter 14 of When time and reasons fail by citrumade

Chapter 7 of Every Trick in the Book by tomrddle

Chapter 17 of Occultation by TimaeusKosmou

Chapter 2 of the vault by @milkandmoon-ao3

Chapter 16 of Pledged by @moontearpensfic 

Chapter 7 of A Snake in the Grass by @teaandsweaters9

Chapter 11 of Outrunning the Villain in You by @zenyteehee

Chapter 3 of Moon Rite by @isalisewrites

Chapter 2 of These Fragments We've Shored by @rowena-rain

Chapter 110 of Liquida Tenebris (Remastered) by @dymis

Chapter 36 of Revolution of Configured Stars by @tollingreminiscentbells

Chapter 28 of Part One - The Solitude of Suffering by @iseliljathedreamer

Chapters 11 and 12 of Learning to love by @l-archiduchesse

Chapter 9 of sandpaper kisses, paper cut bliss by @xodahafez

Chapter 5 of Do It Over by @thefangirlibrarian

Chapter 1 of Dark Water by Dariahn

Chapter 17 of What In Me Is Dark, Illumine by @telelli-writes

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[loserchildhotpants]

hello i am sooooooo sad and lethargic and sick and it would make me soooooo happy if you gave my exhaustively researched Titanic!AU w destiel and samwena, Three Princes, a read ; A ;

i didn't put warnings on it (for Reasons) but also jsyk do not STOP reading before the epilogue :)))))

but look! i made art for it and there's songs for each chapter and switching POVs and there's extensive smut and there's booze smuggling and dancing and tragic backstories and pining and all sorts of stuff!!!

is Cas a Russian priest? almost! does Dean have Stage 4 Mommy Issues? you bet! does Sam sweat loudly around a milf that could kill him w a glance? more than once! is Rowena complex and morally grey while still maintaining a likable charm? i - i mean, god i hope i worked really hard on this one, guys!!

if u give it a chance, leave a comment on it or let me know what u thought of it here or on the cursed bird app - my focus is shot rn bc of meds and illness so i can't really get any further w my current WIPs atm and i need external validation or i shall simply whither away to dust on the wind T A T

imma tag folks (if u want me to remove u from the list lemme know slkdhfj this feels a little brazen of me to tag people ?? but everyone im tagging seems so nice and supportive and im a poor little meow meow rn so)

@queerstudiesnatural @starcrosseddeancas @casblackfeathers @casdeanel @emeraldcas @castiel

[spnfanficpond]

New Member Spotlight July 2024

The Pond is always growing and we want to make our new members feel welcome! Here’s a list of recent additions to our fishy family and a little info about them!

GIF by akaribaby

Guppies, Jellies, and Mutuals, oh, my!

RainyThursdayNight

Tumblr handle: @rainythursdaynight

AO3: miss_bored_tf_outta_her_mind

What is your SPN OTP? Dean/Castiel

Are you in any other fandoms? The Umbrella Academy, She-Ra, Attack on Titan, The Legend of Korra, Avatar the Last Airbender, The Owl House, MCU, Harry Potter, Detroit Become Human, The Walking Dead (Telltale), etc.

What are you looking for in the Pond? A place to write alongside others/learn from other SPN writers/jump into writing for SPN with other authors and readers from the fandom!

What types/pairings do you like to read? Dean/Castiel, Castiel/Meg, Sam/Eileen, Dean/Jo, Sam/Jessica, Sam/Rowena/Gabriel, Claire/Kaia

What genres do you like to read? What are your favorite tropes Hurt/Comfort. Angst with a happy ending, Pre-series/Stanford Era, Solo Hunters Dean and Cas, Found Family, Wrong Number AUs, Time Travel AUs

What kinds of fics do you like to write? Introspective Character Studies with plot, Time-Travel, Found Family, Crossovers, Secret Agent AUs, Media Inspired AUs, literally almost anything tbh

Is there something you have not written but would like to try? Writing for Supernatural is completely new to me. I was part of a large-scale rewrite a while ago so I've rewritten episodes of the show but never really a fic, so having you guys be exposed to my writing first before I post it would be really nice. Having people who've read similar stories reading mine before I give it to the general public is the goal!

AylaCaveBear

What is your Tumblr name? @aylacavebear

What is your SPN OTP? Sam and Eileen, or Sam and Jessica

Are you in any other fandoms? Dabbles in Vampire Diaries

What are you looking for in the Pond? Interacting with others who share the same interests, i.e. Others who enjoy SPN fanfics, reading and/or writing. Learning more about navigating Tumblr better and enhancing my writing, as well as helping others if I can.

BOOST: Honestly, I'd like to promote my sister. She made something for me to promote my tumblr on youtube. (I'm not looking for subscribers or views. She's just amazing at what she does and thought there might be other users who might be interested in what she offers.)

What type/pairings do you like to read? Reader Inserts mostly, A/B/O dynamics, Dean x Reader/You and even some Sam x Reader/You.

What genres/tropes do you like to read? All of them honestly. I have to say though, Smut with Fluff and Angst are my absolute favorites. I also love a good plot twist.

Do you have a favorite Fanfic writer? I can't say I have one favorite. There are so many amazing authors on there. @holylulusworld has some amazing A/B/O fics, as well as many others. I've sort of been binge-reading them at the time of answering these, lol.

What kinds of fics do you like to write? I love to write fics that are Dean x Reader/You. The "reader" is typically also an OC and they typically have some bizarre 1-in-a-million trait. I love writing series with lots of parts and typically have a slow burn filled with fluff, angst, and all sorts of fun little things.

Tumblr Master List

Your most underappreciated fic!

Is there something you have not written but would like to try? I have three, lol - A/B/O, Choose Your Own Adventure (already have a plan in mind), Cas x Reader (as per a request on a one-shot I wrote asking for more and I'd love to write it).I'm not entire sure about help with any of these, as I have others I need to finish before I can even start on these.

TheCatSaysMew

What is your Tumblr name? @thecatsaysmew

What are you looking for in the Pond? I've been writing Supernatural fics for over a decade, but it has been mainly for myself so I don't publicly publish them. I absolutely love writing fics and doing character studies, and I really like reading them on Tumblr too. I was hoping to connect with the community, make some friends, get inspired to write more and also inspire others.

What pairings/type do you like to read? I'm a reader-insert girlie through and through. I usually go for the Dean x Reader fics!

What genres/tropes do you like to read? Angst. I sometimes read smut, but I find angst far more delicious than smut!

Do you have a favorite Fanfic writer? All my fic reading is mainly done on Tumblr. I feel like I've read every Dean x Reader fic on the platform, so I'm always excited when new ones pop up. I love reading stuff from @avanatural, @mind-empty-just-fictional-people and @wearywinchester among many others!

What kinds of fics do you like to write? Reader/Self-insert, angst, mixed in with a little soulmate trope

I don't have a masterlist as I don't usually post stuff publicly, but I did rewrite a theme from my current longfic to take part in a writing challenge.

Your most underappreciated fic!

Is there something you have not written but would like to try? A casefic. I actually want to incorporate it in the final part of my longfic, and I really want to get the early seasons aesthetic on point. It's so difficult to verbally describe something that we're so used to seeing visually: the gloomy shots, the dingy motels, the impala parked in front of a small town home in the rain, etc. It would be lovely to discuss on how to best write visual / cinematographic descriptions like that! Also, I'm not very good at detective-style writing, so I'm finding it quite the challenge to write a 'solve a case and defeat the monster of the week' fic.

CrowleysMistress

Crowleysmistress (ao3 not on tumblr)

Discord: Sacha04534

What is your SPN OTP? Sam/Lucifer (I mean not like shipping them but it’s all I write even if in a non-con way)

What are you looking for in the Pond? Other SPN fans - particularly angsty Sam ones

BOOST: I have a a witchcraft podcast called The Brujas Broadcast

Fic types, tropes, pairings, genres: I skip slow burn, super long ones, all reader insert, most OC, all crossover. (I like) Angst for sure, AU, adventure, smut and fluff some days depending on mood.

Do you have a favorite Fanfic writer? So my (AO3) history says I like ultimatefandomtrash, angelszn,

What kinds of fics do you like to write? Sam/Lucifer

AO3 Master List

Your most underappreciated fic!

Is there something you have not written but would like to try? A long multi chapter piece. I feel like I need to have it all done and ready to post together and not be working on something and just post pieces of it.

xPurdyGlambertx

Tumblr: @xpurdyglambertx (on all socials), including Discord and Wattpad

What is your SPN OTP? Too many - multishipper

Are you in any other fandoms? TWD, Stranger Things... those are the big ones

Pairings, genres, tropes, fic types: Ships and poly both, Mostly smut and angst

What kinds of fics do you like to write? Smut and angst, mostly oneshots but I'll pump out a multichaper fic every now and then!

Tumblr Master List

Your most underappreciated fic!

LucasBarr

Tumblr: @lucasbarr

AO3: Ophelia_Yvette

What is your SPN OTP? Dean/Cassie or Dean/Benny

Are you in any other fandoms? Mermaid Melody and Harry Potter!

What are you looking for in the Pond? fellow writers! People to talk about fic with and to help with fic writing (bc spelling is my nemesis lol)

Pairings, tropes, genres, fic types: Dean pairings for sure 😂 I am a multi shipper at heart tho so I enjoy a lot of pairings (besides like reader inserts). Found Family, Angst, Fluff, AU

Do you have a favorite Fanfic writer? Basically any spn fic writer who writes about his Amazon daughter Emma or any of the female characters of SPN 😂

What kinds of fics do you like to write? Ones about the kids of SPN like Jody’s girls, Kaia, the Freaks and Greeks gang, Ben, and Dean’s Amazon daughter Emma 😂

AO3 Master List

Your most underappreciated fic!

Is there something you have not written but would like to try? I want to get better at writing Sam and generally capturing the atmosphere of the early seasons in a fic (if that makes sense?)

Meryl1988

Tumblr: @meryl1988

AO3: Meryl1956

What is your SPN OTP? Well: I'm going to be honest here. You may feel free to kick me out Castiel/Dean. Sam/Dean. Love both equally.

Are you in any other fandoms? Starting 911

What are you looking for in the Pond? I am in complete awe of the wonderful writers of son fiction. If I can provide any support or good for thought, I would feel honored.

Pairings, genres, tropes, types of fic: Castiel/Dean. Sam/Dean. Castiel/Dean/Sam. Dean/Benny. Sam/Jessica. even though I am a total m/m reader. I love fics where she's alive and posseses a good personality. Every single one. I love stripper tropes, enemies to lovers, any AU with my boys. Hooker fiction. Poor/Privileged pairings. I also love Omega verse and Mpreg. Also RPF

Do you have a favorite Fanfic writer? This HARD! There are many but I will list a few @Felisblanco @Justinedelarge @friendofcarlotta On A03 Dollyluxe Nyxocity. Tumblr Flesflutter. Tumblr Hellhoundsprey Morgan Sunglasses Spn_kinksock Lukinha_jesus Compo67 taymarpigeon Applecrumbledore Ashtraytheif Castielslostwings Castiel_left_his_mark_on_me Amypond45 Rivkat Boydean Komodobits Naughtypastrychef Lovethemwinchesters Abs_cats Smackthedevil Chaotictrinity Anyrei. Queerwolf. Co authors Dmarie92

Sardonic-The-Writer

Tumblr: @sardonic-the-writer (and on AO3)

What is your SPN OTP? destiel, but i'm extremely partial to sabriel and crowstiel

Are you in any other fandoms? mainly spn right now, but i also love the umbrella academy and the gorillaz

What are you looking for in the Pond? mostly just to insert myself into the spn fandom space more, as well as find a safe space to share fanfics and stuff

Pairings, genres, types of fic, tropes: mostly reader inserts, but a solid ship fic of literally anyone is also good. pretty much anything genre wise, as long as i have a fun read. some of my favorite tropes would have to be friends to lovers, or just straight up a reader inserts where there's no romance and just them working a case alongside the guys. it appeals to me as an aroace guys

Do you have a favorite Fanfic writer? unsure, but i really enjoy gabriellives, The_White_Rabbit_42, and relic_amaranth's works all over on ao3

What kinds of fics do you like to write? reader inserts! mostly platonic, but i try romance sometimes. i also write a lot about my spn sona ezra (azrael) but that's mostly for me and the few people that know about him

Tumblr Master List

Your most underappreciated fic!

Is there something you have not written but would like to try? i haven't written a ton of ship content before, but i know that if i want to i will!

Codepend

Tumblr: @codepend

AO3: theknife

What is your SPN OTP? sam & dean

Are you in any other fandoms? good omens, hannibal

What are you looking for in the Pond? share my fanfics and make friends!

Pairings, genres, fic types, tropes: ships, angst, fluff, pining, unrequited

What kinds of fics do you like to write? one shots although I am working on larger projects

AO3 Master List

Your most underappreciated fic!

Is there something you have not written but would like to try? I find multi-chapter fics more overwhelming

That's all for this month, folks! (If we're missing anyone, let us know and we'll add them to next month's list!) Make sure to say hi to the newbies and make them feel welcome! Thanks to all from @manawhaat @mrswhozeewhatsis @mariekoukie6661 @thoughtslikeaminefield and @heavenssexiestangel