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becoming your enabler has been an absolute privilege ✨😈✨
I know you all think I took a long hiatus and I’ve just been not writing but what you do not know is I have in fact written 111,725 words of a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT STORY that literally nobody asked for or wanted.
#rowansparrow#skdjdj i accidentally put this in my drafts instead of rb at the time#a whole new au has been born since this 😂
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☕️ Coffee’s Fic Recs: Fives, Part 1
Echo
This man is my husband and I have way to many to recommend
I miss you by @likeshootingstarsinthenightsky
Good Morning by @danger-xylophones
All the things You Say by @alderaani
Look at Me by @rowansparrow
Priceless by @clonewarsimagines
Reunited by @photogirl894
Coming home by @showerthoughtsonly
The long way home by @frostycatblr-fandom-files
Fives x Reader by @arcsimper5
Turn the Page by @the-rain-on-kamino
Be my lover by @moonlightwarriorqueen
If Trouble Smiled by @eternal-transcience
Rebel Yell by @moonlightwarriorqueen
I want you forever and always by @jedipoodoo
#moots#moonlight#ET#simper#star wars#coffee speaks#fives x reader#arc trooper fives x reader#coffee’s fic recs
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Commission of Captain Rex and my OC, Talia Riva from the WONDERFUL @sleepingsun501. more NSFW version below the cut.
Based on this scene in Chapter 4 of Illicit Affairs:
The sun, still low on the horizon, was blaring into Rex’s eyes; this location on the beach placed them right in the path of the sunrise. He grumbled, rubbing his eyes with his free hand, coming into the realization that his other arm was numb, with Talia still sleeping on top of it as she held onto his chest; he slowly flexed his fingers to the best of his ability, but he didn’t risk more movement for not wanting to wake her. He had pulled the tarp on top of them before he fell asleep, but it rested just at her waist, clinging to the curve of her body. She rested sideways against him, the plush of her breasts against the side of his body. Her rosy lips slightly parted as breaths slipped past, her face calm and at a peace he never saw her in; normally her brow was furrowed in thought or with tension, but now she looked almost younger in relaxation. Her hair was waved from the salt air, slightly knotted, but the sunlight brought out streaks of gold in her tresses as they haloed around her head in the sand.
IA Taglist: @stankferrik @nyravioppri @pinkiemme @fivesarctrooper 1 @twistedstitcher27 @frietiemeloen @galacticgraffiti @a-c-lee @ashotofspotchka @itsagrimm @rexandechosandwich @stankferrik @mavendeb @rain-on-kamino @alwayssnivellus @amyroswell @Sailingthehighseas @lucyysthings @manqoz @lady--kenobi @punkpirate82 @rowansparrow @starstofillmydream @sunshinesdaydream @lucyysthings @hotpinkplastoid @fordo-kixed-rex @ilikemymendarkandfictional @babygirlrex0504 @seriowan @samspenandsword @purgetrooperfox @burningfieldof-clover @seriowan @djarrex @justanothersadperson93 @paige6768 @saltywintersoldat @clonecyaree @dinner-djarin @whore4rex @raven--queen @swlover2187 @collectoroffics @immortalhdx @aquaamethyst96 @staryskyforever @paperplanes2211 @saturnsokas
#captain rex#captain rex x oc#captain rex fan art#the clone wars fan art#star wars oc#jedi oc#the clone wars oc
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If you could get to know and/or write with another writer (or more) who would it be?
Hey there! Sorry for taking all day to answer this. You really got me thinking and I didn't want to give an answer halfway just to get it done quickly.
I would first and foremost want to write with my dear friend @photogirl894. As a fellow major fan of The Bad Batch, I think a mutual love for this show and the characters would make way for an awesome story, and plus, the way that she can bring her original characters to life is stunning to me. Y'all should read her works, such as Sun and Rain (Hunter x OC) and Mirrors in the Force (Kanan x OC)
I would also love to get to know @freesia-writes since I know the love for TBB is also mutual. I'm so in love with the way she writes Crosshair particularly.
Another writer I respect greatly is @nahoney22. Not only does Honey capture each bad batcher fantastically well but her personality is top tier and I think everyone should get to know her.
@darthzero22 is very dear to me as well, and we share many fandoms besides Star Wars that we have bonded over the years with. She is a kind, wonderful soul who writes beautifully and I'm honored to know her.
Of course @lizartgurl your writing does not go unnoticed as well!!
And there are so many other writers I'd like to give a shout out to! @eyecandyeoz @eloquentmoon @firstofficerwiggles @arctrooper69 @rowansparrow @arctrooperechy @emperor-palpaminty @dragonrider9905 @angelltheninth @imabeautifulbutterfly @justalittletomato and I'm sorry if I forgot anyone!! Y'all are incredible and getting to know any of you / write with you over fandom love would be AWESOME!
Thank you for this ask, Lizart!! I had a lot of fun giving this little shout out :D
#moonstrider answers#writers on tumblr#star wars fanfic#the bad batch fanfic#the bad batch fanfiction#star wars fic recs#the bad batch fic recs
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I am still here !
I am not gone from this site!!!!
So, now that this is out of the way, here comes the update on me.
First of all, mom is doing pretty good considering the fact she has had some health troubles and all. She is still having some issues, which is why I am still there at her place helping out her and my brother for as far as I can. But, she is slowly improving an dgetting better!
When all things seemed to calm down enough, I started to have some trouble with my chronic health thingies and , well... I just really was pissed and annoyed, but hung in there and had my pain medication increased a little, it is helping and going better. Pain attacks and just simple attacks from Fibromyalgia and such are happening, but it is more manageable now.
In november I managed to go to the Comic Con again, and ofcourse I bought me some nice SW thingies ( duh ), including a nice food bowl for Boba Catt and a nice lill harness for the summer time when we go out and about! It was awesome and I enjoyed it while missing my lill love bug Boba.
Back in December we had a huge scare though. My dad was hospitalised and we found out he had some serious heart issues. He needed to get angiaplasty, which is to unblock some arteries at the heart. He has several severly blocked arteries and the surgery was high risk. I was in and out of the hospital for him every day, but he made it! He is doing very well now, but they did warn him that a new atatck might not end well. We take things one day at a time and he seems to have taken the warning to heart and is doing his best.
Now, to end this tale of woe is me with something good!!!!!!!!!!!!
Boba Catt, who is doing very well has also gotten a little brother! In December I picked up this little farm cat who is 3 months younger and the moment they met? They were thick as thieves! In the pictures you will see my beloved redhead Boba and his little brother: Jango Catt !
I really will be back again here and have so much to catch up on and enjoy. You can bet that each time I receive an update on all those awesome stories, I smile and know I will have lots to enjoy once I am back home, have things sorted and can really sit down and read nonstop!
I love you all and miss you all and think of you often!
Here is some pictures of my sweet guys the Catt brothers ! Boba and Jango.
Tagging my ( old ) list: @imabeautifulbutterfly@chaoticvampirejedi@hellothere-generalangsty@cyroku@reluctant-mandalore@uponrightful@zinzinina@saradika@galacticgraffiti@ashotofspotchka@dindjarindiaries@dinbeskarbaby@djarrex@djarinsbeskar@rowansparrow@photogirl894@rigelmoonshine@rigel-the-moonstrider@nahoney22@loth-wolffe@neon-junkie@bobafetts-princess@cyarbika@charnelhouse@zoeykallus@kin-rokku@jgvfhl@honestly-shite@here-comes-the-moose@dindjarindiaries@firstofficerwiggles@fictional-men-ruin-lives @ladysongmaster @lozalot @moonstrider9904@lorjukka@m-o-o-n-s-g-o-o-n-s @rain-on-kamino @monako-jinn-stories @middimidoris @wild-karrde @cross-my-heartt @arctrooper69 @eyecandyeoz @marierg
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WIP Tag Game
Share the last line of your work in progress, then tag as many people as there are words in it.
Thank you, @brokenphoenix99 for the tag.
Denal huffs. “You’re not pathetic.” Axe smiles at him. “Thanks.”
From my Clone Ship Big Bang fic 👀👀
No pressure tags to @marbled-polecat, @seascribbling, @sellanslashgeode, @nimata-beroya, @thatonegreyghost, @posstrophe, @rowansparrow
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Let’s get some fun recommendations goin around here! What’s a piece of clone content (art, fic, etc) that has stuck with you as being notably excellent? Tag it in your answer so we can all find some new fun to read! If you want, of course; feel free to ignore! 💕
Ack I really can't pick favorites, so I'll list a few I revisit often.
First is @wings-and-beskar's immaculate Wrecker fic A Gentle Touch. Masterful Wrecker writing. Last chapter in the series is spicy, but the rest are pure fluff.
@djarrex's Remembering is another that I reread often. It's such a beautiful Echo piece.
For longer fics, I'd recommend
Dominos over on A03 by meridianpony (What if fix-it fic where Domino Squad wakes up still as cadets ... but each one knows how he died. They try to fix things - including the inhibitor chips - this time around. This is rated T.
In Command by @wild-karrde - Post Order 66, Rex is selected for an undercover assignment on Lothal with Senna, a green technical specialist with an unknown past. While both are skilled in the field, neither has much experience navigating their attraction to one another. This is a spicy fic.
By Any Other Name (and subsequent sequels What Blooms in Thunder and The Light Between Oceans) by @rowansparrow. This features an incredible well fleshed out Torrent Company trooper OC and a Reader who's very much at the center of that group of soldiers. It follows canon for a while then diverges. This is M - no overt spice, but mentions and themes of war, grief, pain, regret, etc are heavy but balanced by comfort.
All are emotional journeys that are so worth going on.
There are literally so many other fics I could talk about and this is by no means a comprehensive list. If you need more or want recs for specific clones, feel free to send another ask!!
#thanks for the ask!#so many amazing writers on here and beautiful fics#this is by NO means all of them#just the ones i've reread recently
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Hey so I'm not dead lol
This semester has been crazy busy (and I haven't had time to watch Andor and I wanted to avoid spoilers) but I am indeed alive and alright ❤️
I have an extended Christmas break because I'm going abroad next semester so I'm going to try and get some fics out!
In the mean time, I'd love some asks to get my finals blues under control so feel free to ask me anything!
Tagging some mutuals who I have missed dearly.
@captainrexisboo @vesperstalksclones @rowansparrow @pinkiemme @letitrainathousandflames @writer1 @snippy-tano
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@rowansparrow
don’t you ever read a piece of fanfiction so good you just
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Rules: In a new post, show the last line you wrote and tag as many people as there are words. (Personal adjustment: Or as many people as you want to nosy with)
Was tagged a week ago, saw it at work, forgot, then just remembered. But thank you for both the tag and your patience, @dreaming-of-lu
Here is the last thing I wrote on one of my many many many wips.
He couldn’t help the shudder that ran down his spine as he watched them carefully, a foreboding feeling clinging to the edges of his mind.
Contrary to the ominous tone, the plot is a little silly and more hopeful than the sentence suggests. Who knows? I might even finish it one day.
Tagging @fieryartemispublications , @cafecourage, @thesoftieanon , @linkedhearts, @nordictwin, @rose-writes-shit, @thebonnylads, @starlightnova, @gale-gentlepenguin, @wearebabygroot @cinawolf, @serenityharkness, @flaim-ita, @rowansparrow, (and because why the hell not and I'm curious) @neil-gaiman , @xiranjayzhao @ransomriggs,
and you, dear follower.
#tag! Youre it!#tagged#tagging game#I am Nosy and I Want to Know.#I just wanna know what people are writing
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Falling
A/N: Well hello there! This is a little Tech drabble I just had to write after watching the TBB season 2 finale. It has been a while that I have been very active and I am planning on being active again soon, more active that is. If you have not watched the S2 finale of TBB, then this does contain spoilers! As always, all likes, shares and especially comments are more then welcome!
Character: Tech
W.C: 349
TW: Implied serious injury
Darkness. A deep darkness now seems to surround him completely.The last thing he saw were Omega and Wrecker reaching for him. At first there is a distant sound of the mountains and the surrounding terrain that provide him with some comfort. All too sudden that too fades into nothing. Now, all that is left is the sensation of actually losing all of his senses. Where there used to be sounds, silence remains. Not even the beating of his own heart can be heard. The feeling of the wind blowing across his skin and his muscles contracting after eventful times have slowly numbed. Taste was the last sensation to go. The taste of bile that found its way into his mouth when he realized the situation he and his brothers and sister were in, the decision he immediately made. “I am falling.”
He is left with his thoughts as he falls. “I have failed and so I fall.” He waits and it seems to take forever to reach the end of itl. Suddenly, all sensations return , all at once. His body overwhelmed by the sudden shock of their return, the last thought before his mind completely shuts down is for his family, all of them. “Be safe.”
When the stormtroopers reach him, what stands out is his little smile.
Hemlock observes the medic through a transparisteel window before he taps it once, gesturing for the medic working on the person lying on the cot to come to him. “I will be taking those goggles now.” Taking the goggles from the side table, the medic takes a quick look at its owner now lying in a deep coma, hooked up and well monitored. “I will be offworld to collect a new specimen. Comm me as soon as he is awake and bring the other one to the medical trials.” Hemlock moves away, goggles in one hand as he looks at a message he received not too long ago speaking of the female clone he will soon have control over and thus over the Kaminoan scientist currently in a holding cell.
Taglist: @imabeautifulbutterfly@chaoticvampirejedi@hellothere-generalangsty@cyroku@reluctant-mandalore@uponrightful@zinzinina@saradika@galacticgraffiti@ashotofspotchka@dindjarindiaries@dinbeskarbaby@djarrex@djarinsbeskar@rowansparrow@photogirl894@rigelmoonshine@rigel-the-moonstrider@nahoney22@loth-wolffe@neon-junkie@bobafetts-princess@cyarbika@charnelhouse@zoeykallus@kin-rokku@jgvfhl@honestly-shite@here-comes-the-moose@dindjarindiaries@firstofficerwiggles@fictional-men-ruin-lives @ladysongmaster @lozalot @moonstrider9904@lorjukka@m-o-o-n-s-g-o-o-n-s @rain-on-kamino @monako-jinn-stories @middimidoris @wild-karrde @cross-my-heartt @arctrooper69 @eyecandyeoz
#Tech TBB#tech#tbb headcanons#tbb fanfiction#tbb spoilers#the bad batch#tech is alive and I will die on that hill#clone force 99#tbb#star wars#sw tbb#bad batch
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*looks at all the writers I love and adore* If you want quality writing, give these lovely folks a follow. ❤️
@tech-deck @neon-junkie @zoeykallus @rain-on-kamino @nahoney22 @eyeluvmusic21 @stardusthuntress @mylifeisactuallyamess @starqueensthings @sinfulsalutations @shyranno @pizza-writes @eyecandyeoz @degreeinsimping @murdertoothpick @amorfista @nobody-expects-the-inquisitorius @spicy-clones @endo-bunny @aeli-tan-art @moodymisty @rowansparrow @clone-whore-99 @embeanwrites @tecker @all-hallows-evie @
I know there are many more talented writers, both in fic and comic form, but I used my #tbb fic rec tag to find who I could because my memory is that of a turnip. 🫠 I wanted to put as many in that have written some of the best work I’ve read since The Bad Batch first aired, so dive deep into the tags as you’ll be rewarded thusly.
"But you already wrote that trope."
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Tag 9 people you want to get to know better!
Tagged by @oh-opossum
first ship: Sea or air? LOL (schooner and a Cessna 150 respectively, though thinking about it now, I probably was inside B-25/6s before I was in a Cessna). Okay fine, this is about fandom ships. Codywan
three ships: Foxiyo, Codywan, Vaughn/Sterling
last song: King of Disappointment by Echoes
last movie: There are so many movies I want to see, but I usually end up starting a movie and getting bored with it. I think the last movie I watched all the way through was Marvel's Shang-Chi. Kinda wanna rewatch Kevin Costner and Whitney Houston's Bodyguard.
currently reading: Nothing atm. I wanted to do the 52 books in a year challenge, but I'm not organized enough for that.
currently consuming: coffee
currently craving: I haven't eaten yet today. IDK what I want
tagging @thatonegreyghost, @marbled-polecat, @rowansparrow, @littlefeatherr, @introverthill, @brokenphoenix99, @nimata-beroya
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I posted 3,345 times in 2022
That's 253 more posts than 2021!
123 posts created (4%)
3,222 posts reblogged (96%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@lady--kenobi
@pro-fangirls-unsocial-life
@bobafettuccini
@baba-fett
@galacticgraffiti
I tagged 1,906 of my posts in 2022
Only 43% of my posts had no tags
#cass’s art recs - 163 posts
#cass’s fic recs - 92 posts
#cass’s inner monologue - 67 posts
#cass’s reference - 66 posts
#kenobi spoilers - 56 posts
#kenobi - 54 posts
#tbobf spoilers - 43 posts
#tbobf - 43 posts
#abd: fbw - 31 posts
#the book of boba fett - 30 posts
Longest Tag: 136 characters
#and thats not even counting the 3+ years of training and schooling (yes with more tests) that goes on top of just picking it as your job
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Still not over the fact that CANONICALLY we only see Rex laugh TWICE
Once in the Clone Wars movie at Anakin and Ahsoka
then in season 7–Siege of Mandalore when Ahsoka jumps from the gunship after saying she didnt need a jetpack
THIS MAN ONLY LAUGHS TWICE
WHAT THE FUCK
oop—wait does Rex laugh in Rebels!?
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#4
“HIGH AS TITS OFF THE BRAIN LIZARD”
- @truechaoticneutral
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#3
I’m sorry (not really) but season one Rex, the KING, with the STUBBLE
LISTEN— I WANT TO FEEL THE BURN BABY
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#2
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My #1 post of 2022
Old man Rex THOTS
18+ below the cut
Not thinking about how mhmm—fucking Broad he got with age. How he’ll need to spread your thighs further than when he was younger in order to accommodate his frame.
His hands were rough from the war, now more calloused from his time on Seelos. Those hands in contrast with your soft skin 🥴😵💫 as he grips the flesh of your hips, drawing them closer to his own grinding his cock into your pussy.
“You’re always so soft mesh’la. Fuck, so soft.” Wandering hands work over your breasts, lightly pinching your nipples in contrast with the hard flesh you feel prodding your entrance.
“Maker Rex, I may be soft to you but I can take it rough.”
tagging who i think would appreciate some poorly written thots😅 : @djarrex @rowansparrow @writingbylee @truechaoticneutral
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Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →
#tumblr2022#year in review#my 2022 tumblr year in review#your tumblr year in review#these made me CACKLE#oof also my tags are booooriing
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I posted 19,070 times in 2022
50 posts created (0%)
19,020 posts reblogged (100%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@letitrainathousandflames
@i-got-no-bones
@pinkiemme
@lilhawkeye3
@rowansparrow
I tagged 942 of my posts in 2022
#the book of boba fett spoilers - 296 posts
#tbobf spoilers - 295 posts
#kenobi spoilers - 195 posts
#obi wan kenobi spoilers - 190 posts
#queue confuse me - 91 posts
#pro speaks - 53 posts
#well done - 22 posts
#oh my god - 14 posts
#this is beautiful - 10 posts
#w o w - 8 posts
Longest Tag: 100 characters
#😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Okay okay
Hi
Love u
I need more Cider content
How does he get his scar???
And that hair??? Gorgeous
He’s beautiful
Will he let me hold his hand??
You have no idea how happy it makes me that you like Cider I got up and did a little dance when I got this ask🥺❤🥺❤🥺❤
Ok ok so... the story of how he got his scar is filled with angst so be prepared.
So he got it very young, as a cadet (like the ones that are around Boba's age in AOTC). His batch was always a little bit odd. His twin, Rum, is the complete opposite of him. Always joking around and having fun, but when the two of them are on the battle field together, the work like a well oiled machine. But... Cider didn't always used to be so closed off.
The rest of their cadet squad was a bit disconnected from Rum and Cider, seeing the bond that they shared, but they were still as close as could be. One day, during a training simulation, one of the members of his squad who had always had a little trouble seriously messed up. He mis-stepped, causing one of his squad to fall off of one of the platforms and break his leg, and getting himself caught in the center of all of these repurposed commando droids (this is a melee simulation for possible outcomes where they do not have their blasters)
Cider sees his batchmate calling for help with tears in his eyes as he stands over the other boy who is clutching his leg on the floor, cowering as one of the droids is about to strike. He rushes forward, blocking the blow of the droid and standing over his two brothers, he fends them off, nearly taking out every droid until Rum can arrive to help. He turns to give Rum an order, ready to tell him to get the injured and run while the other covered their backs. But, as he's detracted, one of the droids slashes at his face, causing him to fall back as he is blinded by his own blood.
He hears a buzz, the one that signals that the simulation has been terminated and frantically wipes his eyes. The trainers come in, between them on of the kaminoan caretakers. They say that they have come to take the young cadet who "caused so much trouble" to be decommissioned as it is clear that he is not fit to be a soldier. Cider shouts at them, holding his brother close to his chest as the rest of his squad joins him, saying that he is not defective and that he won't let them take him.
Of course, eventually, they do, and Cider and the rest of his squad are left, incomplete and broken at the lost of their brother. After that, they are all separated, put into different squads until they graduate. Rum and Cider were still put together because of how well they worked together, but Cider was given extra "training" because he was found to be too emotional at the time.
That is why he pushes everyone away and does not let himself feel. You only get hurt that way...
Sorry, that got away from me. I told you it was angsty though 😭😭😭😭
As for his hair, it is naturally that color! A "defective" gene. As his story goes on, he lets it grow out and doesn't slick it back as much and he gets magnificent auburn curls 🥰
I'm so glad you think he's beautiful though. I tired to make him quite attractive.
He'll fight you on it, and it may take a while, but he'd eventually let you hold his hand ❤ but only for a second lol
Thank you so much for this ask. I love talking about my boys
Tag list: @snippy-tano @writer1 @simping-for-fives @just-some-girl-92 @halzore @ct7567329 @a-dorin @rowansparrow @pinkiemme
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#4
Thoughts on Hondo?
I love Hondo. Honestly, I think a big part of that is because of Jim Cummings (who voiced him and improvised a lot of the one liners that we all know and love) but I just like how he's a bit of comic relief in such heavy episodes. Plus, he's unpredictable and his loyalties change so much, but he still has a bit of morality and his own code of ethics.
Not saying he's the most in depth character there is, but I enjoy seeing him
Ask me anything
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#3
MY TAROT CARDS ARRIVED AND I AM IN LOVE
THANK YOU SO MUCH @pinkiemme I AM SO HAPPY
See the full post
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#2
Goodbye.
A/N: Hello Everyone! Its been a while since I've posted but I have finally gotten out of my writing slump! It's good to be back and I hope you enjoy this short little angst fest to kick off my return. And, thank you so much to @captainrexisboo beta reading this for me!
Length: ~700 words
Warnings: ANGST, death, mentions of dead bodies, talk of wanting to die, Rex is really going through it
Rex sank to his knees before Jesse’s grave, his face emotionless as he stared far beyond the graveyard that was covered in smoke. “Was it all worth it?” he asked the empty air in front of him. “If all we were meant for was to be pawns to be thrown away, then why were we made to care? Why were we made to be alive? Why weren’t we just droids?” He paused, looking down at the raised dirt just in front of his knees.
“We might as well have been. Sent to our deaths without a second thought. Produced in mass quantities and given a number to keep track of how much someone was to pay for us. Treated as if everything else in the galaxy was more important. Hell… Even General Skywalker cared more about his R2 unit than he did my brothers that died recovering it.” He clenched his fist, his eyes closing as he felt another wave of tears coming, streaking down the now dry paths on his face from his grieving sobs when he dug out every single body from the wreckage of the crashed venator.
“Why?” His voice broke on the word, catching in his throat as he tried to contain his grief once again, knowing that the effort would be meaningless. “Why was I chosen to be left alive? Why was our existence nothing but pain?” He looked back up at Jesse’s helmet, his soul nearly breaking entirely at seeing the blood on the side and remembering the sight of his brother lying dead in the sand. “Jesse!” he cried, hating the reflection of himself that he saw in the visor. “I’m so sorry!” He keeled over, pressing the heel of his hands into his eyes as his forehead came to rest on the dirt of Jesse’s grave. “It’s all my fault! I did this to you!” He gasped in breaths, nearly choking on the dust that came with it but not having enough will to care. “If I had just believed Fives! If I had just listened! You would still be alive! You all would!”
He threw his head back, looking up into the sky and letting out a guttural scream, one that was filled with torture and agony and regret. He didn’t care if Ahsoka saw. He didn’t care about anything. How could he? Everything was gone.
“Why couldn’t you let me die!” He collapsed back down onto the ground, once again gathering the dirt in his fists.
It must have been hours before he finally moved again, sitting back on his heels with a stiff back and a raw throat. All the tears he had to shed were long gone, soaked into the dusty earth that surrounded him. It was dark then, the stars looking down on his sorrow and reflecting light off of the visors that were still intact just to remind him once again, that he had failed.
He stood, letting the dirt fall back to the ground and fly off into the wind. His whole frame slumped with exhaustion, finally giving up any hope that some merciful force might come and strike him down where he stood. The man he was is gone. Only a broken memory of him still exists.
He bowed his head to the graves, closing his eyes as he slowly let out a breath. It was cold out now and his breath appeared in front of his face as he regarded his brothers one last time. “I’m sorry…” he croaked out, his lip quivering as he struggled to compose himself. “I’m sorry that we never got to live, vod…”
He opened his eyes, straightening his posture and taking one last look: saying one last goodbye. “You were the best men I will ever know… I’m just… so sorry that I failed you… And that we have to say… goodbye.”
He forced himself to turn away then, knowing that if he didn’t do it now, he never would. He took one step. And then another. Each one carrying him further from the people he loved the most and the ones that he would never see again. But that is what they were made for.
To die.
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44 notes - Posted January 13, 2022
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Perfect Imperfections Cody x Reader
A/N: Hey everyone! It's been a little while but I hope that you enjoy this fic! It was kind of therapeutic for me and I'm hoping to keep writing now that I have kind of dug myself out of the slump I've been in for a while. Thank you all for your ongoing support and I hope to have something new out for you guys again soon! Enjoy! The reader is gender neutral. Also a big thank you to @captainrexisboo for beta reading this for me!
Length: ~1300 words
Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, some self hate/insecurities about appearance and the self in general
You had been standing in the bathroom long after you finished getting ready for bed, just staring at yourself in the mirror. It had just been business as usual, doing your routine after a long day of work and fun out on the town with your beloved Commander when something caught your eye.
It was always that something. The thing that you thought about and wished would go away. The thing that stuck out like a sore thumb, reminding you just how imperfect you were.
Yeah. You didn’t look like everyone else. You were not what everyone seemed to find desirable, and you knew it. You knew it and you hated it. You hated that part of yourself that would never make you worth the love that you so desperately craved.
And it always started with that part of you. The marathon of self-hate that you would give yourself, seeking out everything that was wrong with you and everything that made you unworthy of any kind of affection. It made you so tired, made you so worried that one day, Cody would realize just how ugly you were.
You had never known what made him seek you out. You were too shy to ask and were almost scared to, thinking that if you had him think about it too much, he would realize just how imperfect you were. But right here, right now, you needed to know. You were having such a hurricane of thoughts running through your mind that you could not stop yourself from asking.
The fresher door opened with a hiss, and you looked out from where you stood in the doorway to see him sat up against the head of the bed, scrolling on a data pad to no doubt finish a few reports before bed. It calmed you a bit to see how at peace he was. His face still carried a bit of its telltale tension, but he was still relaxed, obviously comfortable in the pajamas you had gifted him and relaxed at how safe your apartment made him feel.
“Cody?” You asked, your voice barley above a whisper.
He immediately looked up at you. He always does when you call for him, giving you his full attention like he didn’t want to miss a single moment of taking you in. His brow furrowed, obviously sensing the uneasiness in your voice and the rigidness of your posture. “Cyare?” He asked. “What is it?”
He set the data pad aside, swinging his legs off the bed and immediately crossing over to you.
You were holding yourself, brushing your thumbs in arcs against your arm as you avoided his eye. That was enough to tell him that something big was bothering you, so he did not yet reach out for you, not wanting to invade your space and make it worse.
The two of you stood in silence for what felt like forever, him giving you the time that you needed to tell him whatever you wanted to, and you working up the courage to actually ask him the question that had been plaguing your mind. Finally, you turned your eyes towards his face, locking onto his own concerned stare with tears threatening to spill forth from you at any moment.
“Do… Do you think I’m beautiful?”
Cody actually reeled back, taking a few seconds to process what he had just heard. “Cyare…” He said, his voice sounding sad as he finally reached out for you, gently taking your hands in his. “Why would you ask that? How could I not think that you are beautiful?”
Despite your efforts, a tear slipped down your face, making you follow its path towards the floor with your face, not wanting to see the look in Cody’s eyes. “Because… I’m not perfect. I’m not beautiful. I’m… just me. I have scars and am not what I’m supposed to be. I don’t look like what is expected of me.”
Cody was silent for a moment, just looking at you with eyes full of hurt as he watched you talk so harshly about yourself. “Mesh’la,” he said quietly, tucking a knuckle under your chin to lift your face to his. “Look at me,” he softly demanded.
You obeyed, your lip quivering as he stepped closer to you.
“You are beautiful. You are the most beautiful person I have ever laid eyes upon.” He leaned forward, kissing your forehead as he pulled you into an embrace.
“But…” you whispered, “But I’m not perfect.”
He pulled back from you, gently leading you both to sit on the edge of the bed. “My love. No one is perfect.”
“You are,” you sniffled, reaching to wipe the tears as they still fell from your eyes. “You were made to be perfect.”
A small smile quirked up on Cody’s lips as he tilted your face to his yet again, brushing his thumb against the back of your hand to soothe you. “No, I’m not,” he said playfully. “I’m just some bastard who was lucky enough to get put in charge. I mean, look,” he said as he turned his head to the side, showing you his scar. “If I was perfect, I wouldn’t have this. And I would like those kriffing awful stuff they dare to call food back on base. There are so many things that make me imperfect, but that is what makes me… well… me. And all of those imperfections you see in yourself are why I love you.”
He scooted closer to you, pulling you to his side and wrapping his arm around your shoulders. He leaned in, placing a kiss just above your ear before pulling back to whisper in it. “Tell me what you see wrong with yourself, mesh’la, and I’ll tell you just how much I love that about you.”
You hesitated for a moment, but finally relented, trusting that Cody would not let you fall further into the pit of despair you were already in. You began telling him everything. How you didn’t like your build, your scars and how you did not look like what you were expected to look like. How you hated certain things about yourself because of something someone had said years ago but that you never forgot.
With each word you uttered, each thing you pointed out about yourself that you did not like, Cody would press a delicate kiss to your body, working his way around you to reach every bit of yourself that you did not love, and giving it his. He worked his fingers into your neck, massaging the tensed muscles there until you melted back into him, resting against his chest as he held you like you were the most precious thing in the world.
“Your imperfections are what make you perfect to me, cyare. No one else is like you and no one else ever could be. Just like you accept all of my imperfections, like how I stumble on that trick step every time I come over and you giggle, or how I accidentally scared that little girl across the hall when I tried to share those sweets we got at the market, or how I can’t bake. You love me for all of those things, don’t you?”
You nodded, your heart warming as you thought over everything he had said about himself. Those things made him Cody. They are what made him the man you love. “You’re a blanket hog too,” you giggled, turning a bit to face him. “But,” you leaned up to press a kiss to his jaw, “your cooking skills make up for that.”
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hi, again! thank you so much for answering my ask and giving some advice it was very helpful 😊
would you be able can you recommend some other oc creators to follow? (and any other sw writers too) thank you again 🤍
You’re so very welcome!! And of course; I’m going to just tag a bunch below off the top of my head because there are so many fantastic ones, and many more that I’m sure I’ll accidentally leave out!
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