#ring i bought the day i met one of my tumblr friends irl that i keep on a necklace bc it stretched and doesnt fit anymore

[lesbicosmos]

someone: why do you wear so much jewellery every day??

me, a sentimental bitch who's never let go of anything that reminds me of my favourite people:

[doc-boredom]

sorry im kinda new to your blog and i dont really understand this drama or whatever with the people that keep sending you asks? are people mad at you for writing rpf or the shipping or something? i have no context for whats going on

Oh hello friend let me tell you

THE DRAMA

There’ll be a tl;dr at the bottom  but i really wanna tell this story cos it’s so funny to me

also read more because it gets LONG

So once upon a time Natalie got into a group called TWRP. Amazing wonderful LOVELY group of aliens (aliens and robot, technically? lore is silly fun and also part of this story so get ready to return to this) from the future of the 1980s -glorious chorus of heavenly angels in the distance- 

at the same time! natalie was also drafting up the VERY beginnings of her space pirate epic SWIFT LIKE MERCURY, the idea was this: Julian a space pirate, ding dong the reluctant alien space prince, but who would be in julian’s crew!? lots of suggestions were thrown around in YE OLDE DINGDULIAN CHAT back in august and none of them worked. maybe this wouldn’t be a fic, maybe it was all for naught.

and then the sexy sexy cone man hip thrusted his way into her life.

that IS to say I fell in love with TWRP at the NSP show i went to with my best friend. i didn’t know WHOMST the fuck they were so seeing them come out in stage in full costume HIGH OFF MY ASS was probably one of the most memorable things in my life. We drove back to the hotel, DD and Julian were streaming katamari, I bought tickets for ANOTHER TWRP show in my hometown that were twelve dollars and then I found 

THE WIKI

COMMANDER MEOUCH SOMETHING SOMETHING SPACE PIRATE

I was flabbergasted. NOT ONLY was there lore for this amazing band BUT here was the answer staring me right in the face. JULIAN WAS A FURRY, HIM HAVING A LION MAN AS HIS SECOND IN COMMAND WOULD BE PERFECT. i quickly told the chat (to which they all went ??? and didn’t quite take to it at the time) and then promptly CRASHED until the following morning.

so! i woke up, our CO adventure continued (we saw IT) and I started to discuss some plot ideas with the chat. At the same time I started to actually glance at the tumblr fandom. Oh wow! Everyone HAD THEIR OWN IDEAS! It was open to explore! How fun! They created face canons and personalities and stories for the boys and I’d be damned if my crazy plot making ass (who years before had looked at supernatural and said “crowley become the first cross road demon by making a deal with judas which killed judas and brought jesus back to life, thus creating the resurrection story” and was going to write a whole past lives destiel fic spanning back to ADAM AND EVE) wouldn’t take that and run. I made the post. TWRP IS GONNA BE IN MY OP FIC!!! I was so excited to start this, to make something amazing.

“dont put twrp in your OP fic”

I looked at the ask in COMPLETE confusion. wait! they didn’t even know HOW I was going to put them in! they could literally just be playing music in a scene! my petty scorpio ass felt a rage of which i had not felt in months. “fuck you.” it said. “NOW I HAVETO WRITE THE FIC YOU BITCH.”

(spite was one of the biggest driving forces in creating SLM and to me that’s why i think you see the story and the voice of it change over time because it became a thing of love but thaT’S NOT THE POINT)

so here i am having a grand ol’ time and im coming up with my boys and im like YEAH HELL YEAH and all my dingdulian friends are like oh hey i actually LIKE TWRP? and i got a PM from someone who will remain anonymous but who is a close friend of mine now

“hey, loving all the new stuff you’re bringing to the fandom!” they started. there was a bit more conversation and then IT happened.

“Just be careful about shipping.”

I looked at the message and another quickly followed. “nsfw gets weird too”

my scorpio ass, also fueled by love of all things sexual and romantic, looked at this with a growing sense of dread. I HAD ACTUALLY BEEN SETTING UP A SMALL SUNG AND MEOUCH SHIP. WELL SHIT! THAT HAD TO GO APPARENTLY?! I told my friends and we all rolled our eyes but we ACCEPTED IT. That’s what it was apparently.

Until I thought about Havve fucking Ding Dong with his robot dick while Sung held him in place and played up to DD’s praise kink

“oh no.” i said softly because that one fucking day dream planted the seed of needing to do something. sung would be so loving and so wonderful and who was i to let that just slip through my fingers! so i just approached cremedoodle (creator of WW, RR, and FF) and went “haha uh, what about ww chris and sung for a threesome in the fic crazy right”

and it wasn’t THAT crazy

especially when it became just WW and Sung

and god damn it were they in LOVE

“we can’t do this.” i said after a few hours of us coming up with all this ROMANTIC shit and some sexy shit too let’s be honest, it’s me after all. “oh god we’re doing this, aren’t we?”

so we decided to do it. fuck it. all caution thrown to the wind. the moment sung and ww “met” over the vid feed in chapter 6 i got a feeling of intense dread in my stomach. i couldn’t believe it, i was really doing this, they were really going to be in LOVE oh  my GOD.

no comments.

oh.

beach bonfire chapter where julian and dd point out how fucked sung was since he was obviously into ww 

no comments.

CHAPTER WHERE THEY WERE DRUNK AND MAKING OUT.

NO COMMENTS.

In that moment i realized something very sad but also very liberating.

the twrp fans that were all fucking awful weren’t reading my fic.

i wanted them to read it. i had put time into it. i wanted them to see my budding lore and like it, but at the same time the OP fandom was taking to it so well and enjoying TWRP so i said fuck it, ill take it.

We started to talk about Ring Rang and Phobos, sarah and I started talking about Meouch and Liara. it was going to be good, it was going to be fun.

and then i fucked up

that’s right

me

i came home from a crazy trip in MN and I was in a shit mood and I accidentally published Sung/WW fluff drabbles in the tag

I got fucking ripped a new one. i was a piece of shit for even ever thinking that was okay. “YOU’RE BEING DISRESPECTFUL! THEY’RE REAL PEOPLE! DON’T DO T HIS!”

yeah you read that right.

TWRP fanDUMB thinks that my adorable sweet Lepid Phobos, with his big eyes and his missing wings and his penchant for romance novels, my hyperactive sung with his star singing and his empathatic core WERE THE SAME GUYS ON STAGE.

This is literally what all of this drama is about.

It was in that terrible slew of fucking stupidity that I realized I didn’t care. It was TOO late at that point. They should have seen it sooner. They should have gotten me sooner. I had somehow slipped under the radar and I had beat them, in a strange sense, because not only did I care

i was going to keep doing it.

FAST FORWARD TO THIS YEAR (i know, this story is still going) i make a nsfw, i start posting my sung/ww extra chapters there because im too much of a pussy to put them in the fic still. my friend gets me to write a meouch/dd/julian fic. im just about to post a havve/sung thing when IT happens.

The fake screenshot.

a blog that posted jUST this and a post about the device (an album by the band) put this out into the open and deleted IMMEDIATELY afterwards. the fandom went into shitstorm mode. i cried on and off the whole day because i was being harrassed by anons and my friends were too. 

but the more i looked at it

the more i started to REALLY understand how it was fake.

not only does it not have the usual bubble to the right (it should show that twrp has seen the most recent message even if it’s their own) it doesn’t touch on the fact that the OP said something about lore? even to say “hey, lore’s cool! that’s not the problem” would make more sense

also

they never responded to any of my friends

sure they read it, but following a slew of desperate users trying to get answers they never made an official statement so my gay ass pulled out the wine and said YOU’RE GOING TO MOPE AND THEN YOU’RE GOING TO KEEP DOING YOU.

So we’re here now, with the fact that I know things about the band irl and the fact that I have shipping and people are pissed and I really don’t care. the info i know about the band i keep safe and SIMPLY SAYING A GENERIC WHITE DUDE NAME IS NOT REASON TO START A WITCH HUNT (not going to elaborate on this, this is only posted for the sake of anyone who is on the hate train who may be reading this) this is where fiction does not equal reality. i dont  look at havve and go AH YES THERE IS MURDER MAN, IF HE IS NOT MURDER MAN WHEN THEY GET OFF STAGE ILL BE UPSET because thats STUPID? Like literally the IRL band members created personas and lore that they then gave to the fans to expand upon and also sorry guys,,,, it’s the internet,, in the words of DD “it’s weird” but you can’t ask people to stop. it won’t stop. that’ll just fuel the fire

so yes, i like twrp shipping and i like shippng with my ocs and i like writing about how sometimes when you touch sung’s core it turns him on and about how meouch has a knot because im a fucking awful skanko but at least im having fun lmfao

so

TL;DR

shipping is apparently illegal and so is nsfw in the twrp fandom and i do both unapologetically and i hope i inspire  other people to start doing it more often. 

the twrp fandom is not like this anywhere else btw. this is just tumblr being tumblr, as usual. you’re not going to get brownie points because you didn’t let me write sung fucking his hot gf you absolute dumb dumbs, you’re not going to get anything from it except for an inflated ego which you’ll lord over everyone, so do me the favor of expiring in a trench and let the fandom do what it’s supposed to do

HAVE FUN!

[ihamtmus]

I have an essay to write which means it’s the perfect time to answer some questions instead of doing that, right? I was tagged by my dear @hufflepuff-jedi. <3

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

I tag @howlingdawn, @ultrawhalnar​ and @mailorderfictionalcharacter (not 20, I realise that)

Last;

1. Drink: tea (with milk) 2. Phone call: my sister 3. Text message: my mom 4. Song you listened to: wait for it from hamilton OH GOSH IT IS SO GOOD I WANT TO CRY 5. Time you cried: hah it was while watching videos about the original hamilton cast, i just love them so much. but i didn’t actually cry.. there were just tears in my eyes. so let’s say the last time i cried was two days ago after a stressful day at school when i called my mom to tell her about it. 6. Dated someone twice?: [insert that meme with the guy pointing at his head] you can’t date someone twice if you haven’t dated anyone once 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: bro read the previous answer carefully 8. Been cheated on: it is all connected you see, the answer is above 9. Lost someone special: my history teacher... oh and also my friend who hasn’t died but we’re not friends anymore. 10. Been depressed: like, for real? i had a really bad time like half of a year ago 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i don’t do this kind of stuff my guy

Fave colours;

12. bless you for giving space for three colours. that’d be dusty blue 13. brownish purple 14. green

In the last year have you

15. Made new friends: yes :’) 16. Fallen out of love: no 17. Laughed until you cried: umm sure 18. Found out someone was talking about you: i’d be disappointed if nobody mentioned me ever 19. Met someone who changed you: i think so, yes 20. Found out who your friends are: i made a new friend and she is my friend now and i found it out so you have your answer  21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list: dude, what even

General;

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl: there’s only one girl i haven’t met 23. Do you have any pets: not anymore 24. Do you want to change your name: i’m too sentimental for that 25. What did you do for your last birthday: i went to the park with my friend and he bought me lemonade and flowers (!!!) and in the evening i went with my sister for a drink to a lovely place and we wore pretty dresses and it was wonderful 26. What time did you wake up today: so my alarm clock started ringing at 9:05 but it doesn’t mean i got out of bed before 9:35 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: probably listening to hamilton 28. What is something you cant wait for: i want my cousin to finish listening to hamilton and meet with her and freak out with her about how good it is and watch some animatics and sing and maybe see it on stage again oh gosh 30. What are you listening to right now: nothing but wait for it is actually still playing in my head 31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i’ve talked to somebody named the Polish version of Tom, which is Tomasz 32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: when my sister wants to call her boyfriend and asks me to go to the kitchen (she cannot call him in the kitchen becase she doesn’t want out other flatmate to hear her talking to him xd) 33. Most visited website: tumblr 34. Hair colour: dark blonde 35. Long or short hair: long 36. Do you have a crush on someone: nope 37. What do you like about yourself: my smiling attitude 38. Want any piercings?: thank you, no 39. Blood type: was it ab?? or a?? 40. Nicknames: let’s not get into details, it’s gabi 41. Relationship status: still single 42. Zodiac: not sure, perhaps cancer?? maybe 43. Pronouns: she/her 44. Fave tv shows: star trek ds9 is the greatest show ever, along with star trek tos. i also liked merlin, zorro and sherlock 45. Tattoos: not even one, my dude 46. Right or left handed: *george washington’s voice* RIGHT HAND MAN 47. Ever had surgery: no 48. Piercings: wasn’t there a similar question earlier? the answer is still no 49. Sport: not really into sport. when it comes to physical activities i do like walking in the mountains, but it’s not a sport, is it. i used to LOVE playing basketball but it was so long ago. 50. Vacation: i just want to go to london and see hamilton again please 51. Trainers: whom *checks in a dictionary* oh no i don’t wear them

More general;

52. Eating: just give me food and i’ll be happy 53. Drinking: coffeeeeeeeee 54. I’m about to watch: hamilton’s america!! let me watch all the LEGAL FOOTAGE 55. Waiting for: it (ensemble *quietly*: wait for it, wait for it). no but honestly i’m kind of waiting for my essay to write itself 56. Want: my essay to write itself. and also i want to see hamilton on stage again, we’ve been here, next 57. Get married: oh sure! 58. Career: translator (or maybeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee children’s book illustrator................... maybe one day.... maybe)

Which is better;

59. Hugs or kisses: i haven’t kissed anyone i can’t answer that 60. Lips or eye: eyes 61. Shorter or taller: who are we talking about now. and shorter than who. a potential partner? i’d prefer it if he was taller than me 62. Older or younger: a little older 63. Nice arms or stomach: @questions why are you like this. i guess arms?? but i don’t think i share a popular opinion about what nice arms mean (don’t like arms that are too muscular) 64. Hookup or relationship: what’s the first one *checks in a dictionary* are you serious? relationship 65. Troublemaker or hesitant: we’re still talking about the potential partner? hesistant i think

Have you ever;

66. Kissed a stranger: bro 67. Drank hard liquor: um no 68. Lost glasses: lost and didn’t find? no 69. Turned someone down: oh yes 70. Sex on first date: BRO WILL YOU STOP, NO 71. Broken someones heart: ..maybe a little, but not my fault 72. Had your heart broken: not really 73. Been arrested: umm no  74. Cried when someone died: yes 75. Fallen for a friend: yes

Do you believe in;

76. Yourself: most of the time yes 77. Miracles: yes, God literally saved my life using them 78. Love at first sight: not really 79. Santa claus: no (there is a Saint Nicholas tho and i do think he exists, but he has little in common with santa claus) 80. Kiss on a first date: i mean, if you ask me if i “believe in” kiss on a first date then sure, i don’t doubt some people do that, but i’d rather not. 81. Angels: oh sure

Other;

82. Best friend’s name: idk!! my cousin’s name is Emilka, my sister’s name is Asia and my friend from uni’s name is Sandra and i love them all!!! 83. Eye colour: blue but sometimes green and sometimes even grey (what a mystery) 84. Fave movie: that has to be the lord of the rings 85. Fave actor: ummmmmmmm like a movie actor?? i think tom hiddleston. but at the moment i am filled with love for leslie odom jr. who is a musical actor. and also lin manuel miranda, i love him.

[djungelspark]

I was tagged by @frodoes!

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

i’ll tag: uhhhhhhh 20 people? I don’t have that many friends @filmamir @ramainen-elvie @sora-the-world-eater @b-unsolved @harludo You don’t have to do it if you don’t want to

Last;

1. Drink: water!!! (I was choking)  2. Phone call: I hate phone calls so much I can’t remember I think it was last year 3. Text message: “UGH I know”  4. Song you listened to: “into the west” (annie lennox)  5. Time you cried: uhhhh listening to “into the west” (annie lennox)  6. Dated someone twice?: Never dated so… 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: I kissed my dog when she was really dusty once 8. Been cheated on: can we stop talking about dating  9. Lost someone special: I lost my old dog and my guinea pig :(  10. Been depressed: Haven’t we all  11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i dont drink 

Fave colours;

12. The spectrum of blue 13. A really beautiful, glittery gold  14.  olive green 

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: Yeah!!!! 16. Fallen out of love: No, actually.  17. Laughed until you cried: Like every day  18. Found out someone was talking about you:  well no not really 19. Met someone who changed you: I MET CHRIS HADFIELD well I didn’t really meet him but I Saw him live and it changed me  20. Found out who your friends are: I’ve always known who my friends are!  21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list: Facebook? idk her 

General;

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl: srsly who’s this facebook girl 23. Do you have any pets: I currently have 1 dog, she’s a labradoodle and silly and I love her  24. Do you want to change your name: I really like my first name? I’m glad my parents named me that, it sounds nice and not too feminine, but I despise my last name with a passion. I can’t really change that though.  25. What did you do for your last birthday: I went to MEC and bought a TON of adventure clothing because I love that store  26. What time did you wake up today: 7 am which is not that early but. I hate any time before 9.  27. What were you doing at midnight last night: laying on my back in the dark having a midlife crisis 28. What is something you cant wait for: Going adventuring/birding to Costa Rica in march!! 30. What are you listening to right now: the sound of my brother hitting his keyboard really hard as he plays minecraft.  31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: UGH yes I really hate him he’s loud and annoying 32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: my brother playing minecraft  33. Most visited website: tumblr, thesaurus.com lol 34. Hair colour: Very intense red-blonde, it’s gotten more honey coloured over the years 35. Long or short hair: Long!!! I love my long hair but I’m probably going to chop it off one day 36. Do you have a crush on someone: jokingly but not really  37. What do you like about yourself: I get stuff done? Idk I’m a mess and procrastinate but I never fail to actually complete something  38. Want any piercings?: nononononono. They look really cool, but not for me.  39. Blood type: I should know this but I haven’t had a blood test in years  40. Nicknames: thankfully, none.  41. Relationship status: single 42. Zodiac: Capricorn (don’t associate me with them, I don’t believe in zodiacs)  43. Pronouns: she/her but they/them is fine too  44. Fave tv shows: Blue planet and planet earth II, anything attenborough  45. Tattoos: I would like a cool, small, symbolic one but I fear pain. And metal things.  46. Right or left handed: Right 47. Ever had surgery: no, I hope I never do.  48. Piercings: none!  49. Sport: I really hate team sports, but I like outdoor sports like hiking, biking, rock climbing, kayaking, etc 50. Vacation: Vacation? I don’t take vacations, I take adventures. Everywhere is next on my list.  51. Trainers: nike

More general;

52. Eating: Sushi! Rúllupylsa! my alltime fav is Vinarterta 53. Drinking: Water and smoothies 54. I’m about to watch: lord of the rings 55. Waiting for: graduation so I can get out of this small town garbage  56. Want: to travel the world!  57. Get married: I honestly have no idea 58. Career: I really should know by now but I kinda want to be a parks ranger? Maybe an artist, travel blogger, or adventure camp leader? Environmentalist? Orchestra member/composer? All sound good. 

Which is better;

59. Hugs or kisses: hugs hugs hugs  60. Lips or eye: eyeballs 61. Shorter or taller: It doesn’t matter 62. Older or younger: ^^^^ 63. Nice arms or stomach: yes 64. Hookup or relationship: why are there so many of these questions 65. Troublemaker or hesitant: honestly neither 

Have you ever;

66. Kissed a stranger: no 67. Drank hard liquor: no???!?! 68. Lost glasses: bitch yes 69. Turned someone down: yeah  70. Broken someones heart: I don’t know 72. Had your heart broken: yeah but not romantically 73. Been arrested: nope 74. Cried when someone died: yeah, carrie fisher 75. Fallen for a friend: no not really 

Do you believe in;

76. Yourself: I do in some ways!  77. Miracles: yeah I’m one of Those People 78. Love at first sight: Not really, but under certain circumstances possibly  79. Santa claus: I used to, and tbh I believed in Tolkien’s version lol 80. Angels: ofc I know them irl 

Other;

82. Best friend’s name: harley  83. Eye colour: a weird combo of blue/green/grey that is open to interpretation  84. Fave movie: Brother bear (2003)  85. Fave actor: oh there’s too many… but Billy Boyd is a sweetheart and absolute angel and I love him and I’ll have to go with that. 

[mew-mew-mothertrucker]

1-134

 1: Name

Andy

2: Age

16

3: 3 Fears

-Losing the people I love

-My mom

-Being not good enough

4: 3 things I love

-Chris

-Animals

-Books

5: 4 turns on

-Shorter than me?

-Being called Daddy

-Chris

-Just.....Chris?

6: 4 turns off

-People who are taller than me

-transphobes

-any of my exs

-my dad

7: My best friend

Uh

Other than Chris

Their name is Hayden and I call them Dad

8: Sexual orientation

Gay

9: My best first date

That i’ve had probably Burger King and walking around in New Mexico Summer heat. Not all that hard to beat

10: How tall am I

 5 foot 8

11: What do I miss

Dead people

12: What time were I born

1:23 pm (not kidding)

13: Favorite color

green

14: Do I have a crush

I have A Chris

15: Favorite quote

"That's what books do, they change us and make our outlooks on life diffrent. And I know you can do that too"

16: Favorite place

California

17: Favorite food

Cheesy potatoes

18: Do I use sarcasm

Noooooooo

19: What am I listening to right now

Chris

20: First thing I notice in new person

Hair/eyes

21: Shoe size

8

22: Eye color

“every color” Chris

23: Hair color

Green, blond, black, brown

24: Favorite style of clothing

Big sweaters

25: Ever done a prank call?

Ye

27: Meaning behind my URL

Chris is a hufflepuff

I’m in love with him

28: Favorite movie

Labyrinth

29: Favorite song

Airplane Mode 

30: Favorite band

Be More Chill cast

31: How I feel right now

Gay

32: Someone I love

@theprotectedpuff

33: My current relationship status

gay

34: My relationship with my parents

Difficult everywhere

35: Favorite holiday

Halloween 

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

ears, getting a tattoo on my birthday 

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

Lip ring and a spider on a web in a heart on muy chest collar bone area 

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

b/c my old account was hacked

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

Some - yes

some - no

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

I mean I usually say good morning to Chris if we’re both awake and good night. (B/c we are always on video cahts) 

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

I want to

very much so

42: When did I last hold hands?

With my mom in vegas because she was drunk

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

5 minutes 

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

no

45: Where am I right now?

my bedroom

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

@theprotectedpuff

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

Loud

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

My mom 

49: Am I excited for anything?

YES CHRIS COMING

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

no

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

every day?

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

like.....over a week ago

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

okay? cool? I don’t care

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

Nope

55: What is something I disliked about today?

I woke up thinkng baout my baby sister’s death

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Chris Irl

57: What do I think about most?

Chris

58: What’s my strangest talent?

my doodiling style

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

people thinking im not good enough

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind

61: What was the last lie I told?

“I’m fiiiiine”

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Video Chatting

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

yup and yup

64: Do I believe in magic?

Magick yes 

65: Do I believe in luck?

Kinda

66: What's the weather like right now?

Cloudly probably

67: What was the last book I've read?

Night angels (re reading it)

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

yes

69: Do I have any nicknames?

daddy, drewdrop, bunny

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?

broke my shoulder

71: Do I spend money or save it?

try to save

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?

yeah

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

a blanket

74: Favorite animal?

All

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Reading fanfiction

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

Trump 

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Endlessly 

78: How can you win my heart?

be @theprotectedpuff

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

“Was gay and trans, you gonna catch these ghost hands” 

80: What is my favorite word?

Chris

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

@theprotectedpuff

@nightmarejasmine

@awkward-avocado-of-death

@celiawhatsherlastname

@sanders-trash-4ever

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

“Christopher (insert the rest of his name) is M I NE. Also, fuck you trump” 

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

Yeah

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

Changing possibilities

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

Cant think of one

86: What is my current desktop picture?

Chris

87: Had sex?

Yes

88: Bought condoms?

yes

89: Gotten pregnant?

no comment

90: Failed a class?

yes

91: Kissed a boy?

yes

92: Kissed a girl?

yeah (when i was like 5)

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

Yup

94: Had job?

yup

95: Left the house without my wallet?

yup

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

nope

97: Had sex in public?

i mean

if rape is sex

98: Played on a sports team?

Soccor in 3rd grade

99: Smoked weed?

yes

100: Did drugs?

yes

101: Smoked cigarettes?

like once

102: Drank alcohol?

yes

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

i am a kinda egitarian? I try to not eat meat

104: Been overweight?

yup

105: Been underweight?

oh yeah

106: Been to a wedding?

Yep

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

*laughs*

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

probably 

109: Been outside my home country?

yup

110: Gotten my heart broken?

yeah

111: Been to a professional sports game?

If a collage baseball game counts, then yes

112: Broken a bone?

yup

113: Cut myself?

oh yeah

114: Been to prom?

nope

115: Been in airplane?

yeah

116: Fly by helicopter?

no

117: What concerts have I been to?

too many

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

Yes?

119: Learned another language?

French and Russian

120: Wore make up?

Costme make up

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

yes 

122: Had oral sex?

yeah

123: Dyed my hair?

yup

124: Voted in a presidential election?

nope

125: Rode in an ambulance?

yup

126: Had a surgery?

yup

127: Met someone famous?

yup

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

not like in a creepy way

129: Peed outside?

yeah

130: Been fishing?

yeah

131: Helped with charity?

yeah

132: Been rejected by a crush?

yup

133: Broken a mirror?

oh yeah

134: What do I want for birthday?

Chris to not leave later that month :( 

[medicatemedrmccoy]

Holy Survey Batman

I was tagged by @outside-the-government  (*shakes fist* haha j/k <333 )

Tagging: I haven’t kept up with who has and hasn’t been tagged. If anyone wants to, feel free and tag me :D

Keep reading tag because fuck, 85 questions, good lord.

1. Drink? Red diamond tea at work, homemade at home with a smattering of water here and there

2. Phone Call? My last phone call or who I call the most?  Hang on let me dust off my recent calls list. Oh, right, no one, because even my mother knows to send me a FB message at the least if she wants to get ahold of me. Phone calls are the devil.

3. Texting? Oh lord, I have a ton. The bff, my mom, my dad, handfuls of random friends at any given time, coworkers, boss, will include tumblr messaging - same thing, @imoutofmyvulcanmind @bkwrm523 @arrowsshootyouforwards all day everyday<33 . I like to chit chat, can you tell? xD

4. Last song you listened to? I’m weird, I had It Ain’t Me - Kygo & Selena Gomez playing on my phone and had Just Like Fire - P!nk on my laptop.

5. Last time you cried? About a month or so ago after some bad news

6. Dated someone twice? Oh yeah, I should have saw all the warning signs way back when.

7. Kissed someone and regretted it? Yes, god so much

8. Been cheated on? Yes, it fucking sucks. Do everyone a favor and end the relationship first if you’re even thinking about cheating.

9. Lost someone special? Yes

10. Been depressed? Quite frequently

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up? Hahahaha oh god yes, but that’s a story for another time kiddos

Favorite Colors

12. Blue

13. Purple

14. Grey

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends? *gestures to all of Tumblr* All of you lovely people, and quite a few local ones.

16. Fallen out of love? Oh hell to the yes.

17. Laughed until you cried? Ahhh earlier today, but that’s also another story for a different time

18. Found out someone was talking about you? Uhhm, nope? Because I will talk shit about me right along with you haha

19. Met someone who changed you? I don’t think I’d use changed, as much as I would say someone who helped me get back to some semblance of the person who I used to be

20. Found out who your friends are? Hahahahaha oh yes. Let’s just say I had to make all new ones, from the ground up.

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list? Yup.

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl? The majority of them but I have a few close internet friends that I have on there.

23. Do you have any pets? I wish :(

24. Do you want to change your name? Yes

25. What did you do for your last birthday? Sat in my house quietly and waited for it to pass.

26. What time did you wake up? 5:30am almost everyday I cry. My brain thinks I like to be up at that time most days. Sometimes earlier

27. What were you doing at midnight last night? Cruising reddit, or playing a game/reading most likely

28. Name something you can’t wait for: Summer to be over. Is 121F even sustainable for life? Someone send us some cool air.

29. When was the last time you saw your mom? Sunday

What happened to 30?

31. What are you listening to right now? The AC chugging along, trying to keep up with this heat and The Sun Will Rise - Kelly Clarkson

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? I probably have in all reality, but I can’t think of any off the top of my head so I’m going to say, no.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves? The fact that I bought this house brand new barely a year ago, and its fucking falling apart already it seems xD, the cost of buying a car tag/plate, this fucking heat, work, ect

34. Most visited website? Aside from Tumblr? Probablyyyyy Reddit

35. Hair color. Darkish brown

36. Long or short hair? Short, short, super short!

37. Do you have a crush on someone? Nah, ain’t got time for that nonsense.

38. What do you like about yourself? Uhhhh, fuck, can I phone a friend?

39. Piercings? Just one in each ear. I am not very exciting, Im sorry.

40. Blood type? AB+, iirc

41. Nickname? Kat, kitten, neko, gato and basically anything else anyone comes up with

42. Relationship status? siiinngglee but I’m taking applications

43. Zodiac? Virgo/Libra cusp

44: Pronouns: She/Her.

45. Favorite TV Show: Oh geez. Maybe Game of Thrones? Walking dead? Supernatural(although not so much as of late) Its really hard to choose :(

46. Tattoos? Nope, although I do want one

47. Right or left handed? Right.

48. Surgery? Oh lord, uh I fell through a window when I was like 4, so that was pretty extensive surgery on my hand and foot, still have the scars, drunk driving accident when I was around 15(wreckage inspiration), lasik on my eyes, which has failed already(hello glasses my old frienddd), TFCC tear on my wrist(fucking sucked) and I think thats it?

49. Piercing? See question 39…?

50. Sports? I used to play soccer up until high school, not much anymore unless you consider the occasional jog a sport? I like to go kayaking as much as possible, also not sure thats a sport?

51. Vacation? Vacations? What are those? I haven’t had a proper vacation since I went to Cancun in like 2002.

52. Pair of trainers? I am a woman who loves shoes, please don’t make me choose. I do dig my Roos and Nikes though

53. Eating? shelled peanuts

54. Drinking? Water and tea.

55. I’m about to? Get a hand cramp typing out all these answers

56. Waiting for? For my metaphorical ship to come in *grows beard*

57. Want? Someone to come and knock on my door and either hand me a big check, or say “Hi, I’d like to take care of you and pay your bills for the rest of your life.”

58. Get married? Hell no, never again. See #8

59. Career? Im a jack of all trades, master of none at the office. My title encompasses a lot and don’t have a specific title, but mostly Accounting.

60. Hugs or kisses? Hugs

70. Turned someone down? Yup, its becoming old hat at this point

71. Sex on the first date? No, hello demisexuality

72. Broken someones heart? Yes, it was pretty terrible. I still feel awful about it

73. Had your heart broken? That would require you to have a heart in the first place, right?

74. Been arrested? Not officially, but since my uncle is a sheriff, some of the guys think its hilarious to pull me over in town.

75. Cried when someone died? Yes.

76.. Fallen for a friend? Yeap

do you believe in…

77. Yourself? Hahahaha nah, I’m just wingin it

78. Miracles? Uhhhmmm, no, not really, just circumstances.

79. Love at first sight? Nah

80. Santa Claus? Nah, never did, my dad is a scrooge and never put up the charade

81. Kiss on the first date? Eh, it depends, usually its just awkward, or that could still be my demisexuality talking

82. Angels? Only the angels among us. In the medical field, saving lives, the people feeding the hungry, clothing the homeless. The people here trying to truly do good.

83. Current best friends name? I’ll go with two. Local - Tamara and here @imoutofmyvulcanmind aka loveable little nerd aka Luci

84. Eye color? Hazel. Brown inner ring with green on the outside

85. Favorite movie? Definitely Wonder Woman now. Sorry Star Trek :(

[jaeminlore]

tagged by @-happytbh- !! I tag whoever wants to see it

LAST…

1] drink: water

[2] phone call: my mom? I don’t call many people

[3] text message: my sister

[4] song you listened to: really really by winner

[5] time you cried: a few sundays ago when my choir director announced he would be leaving our church

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: I haven’t even dated someone once lol

[7] been cheated on: no

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: you gotta kiss someone to regret it ayyy

[9] lost someone special: yeah

[10] been depressed: yes

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: yeah right

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

[12] purple

[13] black

[14] silver

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: online, yes

[16] fallen out of love: no

[17] laughed until you cried: YES. Two days ago my friend was driving and she ran into a pigeon and we were laughing so hard bc we didn’t see it coming and it scared us

[18] found out someone was talking about you: yeah

[19] met someone who changed you: yes [20] found out who your true friends are: oh yeah

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: yeah right

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them? I don’t use it anymore by I only friended people I knew

[23] do you have any pets: 6 cats and 2 dogs

[24] do you want to change your name: no

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: my cousin took me to see beauty and the beast and my aunt bought me a cake :’)

[26] what time did you wake up: 7:45 am

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: showering I think

[28] name something you cannot wait for: i can’t wait to finish all my requests and start on new ones

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: this morning

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I was better a being a friend.

[31] what are you listening to right now: nothing

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: I don’t think so?

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: fake friends

[34] most visited website: tumblr

[35] elementary: it’s gone now :’(

[36] high school: I’ve been homeschooled all of high school

[37] college: I don’t know if I’m going

[38] hair color: blonde

[39] long or short hair: medium

[40] do you have a crush on someone: i mean sorta but I don’t actually know him so I don’t think it counts

[41] what do you like about yourself: I’m funny irl

[42] piercings: used to have ears but I let them close

[43]blood type: AB I think but idk

[44] nickname: people call me dest or des

[45] relationship status: single

[46] zodiac sign: pisces

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show:ouran high school host club (this counts, right?)

[49] tattoos; no

[50] right or left hand: right

FIRST…

[51] surgery: I’ve never had one

[52] piercing: ears

[53] best friend: none irl

[54] sport: I used to play softball.

[55] vacation: Florida for a wedding 😒

[56] pair of trainers: these little brown size four sneakers that I loved very much bc they had velcro

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: nothing

[58] drinking: pineapple coconut ice drink

[59] i’m about to: cut brownies for my youth group fundraiser

[60] listening to: the silence of my house

[61] waiting for: I have to leave for said fundraiser in an hour

[62] want: to like myself and appreciate myself

[63] get married: yeah boi

[64] career: a writer

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs

[66] lips or eyes: eyes

[67] shorter or taller: they’re both great

[68] older or younger: older

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: tummy!!!!!!

[71] sensitive or loud: both

[72] hook up or relationship: realtionships

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesistant

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger? no

[75] drank hard liquor? no

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses? yes

[77] turned someone down: someone’s got to like you for you to be turned down amirite

[78] sex on first date? no

[79] broken someone’s heart? no

[80] had your own heart broken? yes

[81] been arrested? no

[82] cried when someone died? no

[83] fallen for a friend? not really

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself? on good days yeah

[85] miracles? yeah

[86] love at first sight? yes

[87] Santa Claus? sure

[88] kiss on the first date? I don’t think so

[89] angels? yes

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: I don’t have one

[91] eye color: blue

[92] favorite movie: Lord of The Rings and Les Miserables

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Jesus, okay, let’s go: 1: Name: Madolyn but many just call me Maddy
2: Age: 20
3: 3 Fears: birds, outside, squirrels 
4: 3 things I love: cuddling with my kittens or like anyone I guess, the sound of harsh wind against a building, and anything Legend of Zelda 
5: 4 turns on: collarbones, I really love collarbones, I like when people can keep up with me when I’m joking, manners, eyes
6: 4 turns off: people who think too highly of themselves, people who don’t respect my privacy and anxiety and take it personally, people who make fun of others and call it ‘funny,’ and people who are rude to others like servers, etc.
7: My best friend: Grace and Hannah 
8: Sexual orientation: Probs pan but I don’t label it so 
9: My best first date: I’ve only been on like three? But one time we just drove around the hills of a small town and talked for hours and I had a good time.
10: How tall am I: 5'3
11: What do I miss: I miss my favorite English teacher at my highschool back in my hometown. 
12: What time were I born: no idea 
13: Favorite color: gray 
14: Do I have a crush: kinda but like its a distance crush, I don’t actually know anything about them and amToo nervous to talk to them 
15: Favorite quote: idk
16: Favorite place: my bed 
17: Favorite food: ice cream or pasta 
18: Do I use sarcasm: literally all the time 
19: What am I listening to right now: the kooks
20: First thing I notice in new person: manners 
21: Shoe size: size 5 or a kids 3
22: Eye color: blue 23: Hair color: brown but I dye it
24: Favorite style of clothing: socks idc about anything else 
25: Ever done a prank call?: nope, considering I can barely call my mom, I’ve never tried.
27: Meaning behind my URL: I have a past with self harm, and ramblings imply a sense of unimportance, so I think it sums me well. 
28: Favorite movie: Aristocats and Boxtrolls 
29: Favorite song: really into Naive by the Kooks 
30: Favorite band: Arctic Monkeys 
31: How I feel right now: pretty nauseous 
32: Someone I love: Grace and Hannah 
33: My current relationship status: single as hell 
34: My relationship with my parents: not great, but we try 
35: Favorite holiday: Christmas because it’s the one day my family is somewhat normal 
36: Tattoos and piercing i have: ears pierced, septum pierced. Back tattoo, a tattoo on my thigh, and a semicolon on my inside ring finger 
37: Tattoos and piercing i want: have my entire body planned for tattoos, except neck and face, and I wanna get a triple forward helix 
38: The reason I joined Tumblr: no one irl likes me and I felt so alone and was so tired of pretending to be okay 
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: I’m not sure, I think he hates me 
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: yes
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? no
42: When did I last hold hands: December after a date 
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: if I’m doing makeup, 1 and half hours for everything Otherwise I don’t do anything except put a bra on so 5 mins 
44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Yes
45: Where am I right now? Home 
46: If I were drunk and I can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? I don’t drink so no one has to worry about this 
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? I have very poor hearing so Probs louder to lost but reasonable for me 
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?No 
49: Am I excited for anything?I’m excited to get my PhD and meet Hannah and Grace 
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?Yes, his name is Rayn and he’s incredible 
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?All the time 
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?Idk Probs like a few months 
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?Good for him
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?Yea 
55: What is something I disliked about today?Being awake 
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?Kate Middleton 
57: What do I think about most?The future 
58: What’s my strangest talent?I have a really good memory so I know entire phineas and ferb songs by heart and can name season and title episodes.
59: Do I have any strange phobias?Birds. 
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?Probs in front because I take makeup selfies
61: What was the last lie I told?Last night, I told my cousin I was Doing Well. 
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?Video chatting 
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?No to ghosts, yea to aliens. 
64: Do I believe in magic?No 
65: Do I believe in luck?Kinda 
66: What’s the weather like right now?Raining and wind.
67: What was the last book I’ve read?Heart of Darkness 
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?No, makes me nauseous 
69: Do I have any nicknames?Tons 
70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?Uh I have a bone disease so that, and I broke my kneecap, like completely split the back of it off
71: Do I spend money or save it?Spend, I’m the worst at saving 
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?Yea 
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?My sheets are a light pink 
74: Favorite animal?Sloth 
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?Watching Phineas and Ferb 
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?Trump 
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Chelsea Daggar (Fratellis)
78: How can you win my heart? Be nice, I literally don’t care about much but how you treat me and others 
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?‘Finally'
80: What is my favorite word?Couth 
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr@sickofbeingsuicidal@happilyheartbroken13@pain-with-no-gain@br0ken-and-lost@suicide-is-my-father
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?Can we just be nice? 
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?Hm I don’t think so 
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?Infinite knowledge 
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?I’m not sure, I’m pretty open.
86: What is my current desktop picture?My cat in Spokane sleeping on my bed.
87: Had sex?Yep
88: Bought condoms?Yep 
89: Gotten pregnant?No 
90: Failed a class?No 
91: Kissed a boy?Yes 
92: Kissed a girl?Yes 
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Yes 
94: Had job?Yes 
95: Left the house without my wallet?All the time 
96: Bullied someone on the internet?No 
97: Had sex in public?Sorta 
98: Played on a sports team?Yes 
99: Smoked weed?No 
100: Did drugs?No 
101: Smoked cigarettes?No 
102: Drank alcohol?No 
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Vegetarian 
104: Been overweight?Yes 
105: Been underweight?Yes 
106: Been to a wedding?Yes 
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?Lol, of course 
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?Yes 
109: Been outside my home country?Yes 
110: Gotten my heart broken?Yes 
111: Been to a professional sports game?Yes
112: Broken a bone?Yes
113: Cut myself?Yes
114: Been to prom?Yes
115: Been in airplane?Yes
116: Fly by helicopter?No 
117: What concerts have I been to?Bruno Mars, Modest Mouse, Black Sabbath 
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?Yes 
119: Learned another language?Yea 
120: Wore make up?Yes 
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?No 
122: Had oral sex?Yes 
123: Dyed my hair?Yes 
124: Voted in a presidential election?Yes 
125: Rode in an ambulance?No 
126: Had a surgery?Yes 
127: Met someone famous? No 
128: Stalked someone on a social network? Yes 
129: Peed outside? No 
130: Been fishing? Yes 
131: Helped with charity?Yes 
132: Been rejected by a crush?Yea 
133: Broken a mirror? Yes 
134: What do I want for birthday?Socks, always socks

Boom, nailed it. Now you know how boring I am :)