#rin's ramblings

[plutorine]

i've been thinking about how the 2014 adaptation managed to humanize stavrogin even just a little (for me, at least) by letting him have a butterfly hobby. i feel like that's what made the experience of reading the book so bleak to me, because there was nothing for me to "hold onto" in a way that would make me feel like he's (hypothetically) an actual person. i tend to do this a lot when i read, because it helps me understand why certain characters do what they do in a story. but for nikolai, there was just nothing. i felt that sense of emptiness, albeit on a lesser degree.

anyway. back to the butterflies. it was certainly A Choice, and a good one, dare i say! the symbolism of transformation in relation to nikolai just fits perfectly with his character. recently i started connecting it to ethel cain's "sun bleached flies" — the flies that get stuck and fly into a window pane over and over until they die without knowing freedom are so reminiscent of the butterflies that nikolai had in his study. they're all pinned down and frozen behind glass; the ones in the bell jar, too, are unable of escape despite the enclosure granting them a full view of the outside world. but they remain stuck.

nikolai was like that, somehow. he had the whole world in front of him to experience, but he had no way of escaping the hell that he had plunged himself into, and so eventually, he succumbs to the lukewarm air of his bell jar. his life ended without him ever truly leaving that self-made limbo.

[yumemirurin]

(PROSHIP, COMSHIP, ANYTHING OF THE SORT DNI!!!!!! BEGONE!!!!!!!)

hello hello! my name's riri (he/she). i am indonesian! i am seventeen!

i'm pretty new to the selfshipping community on tumblr, but i've been around for a while! this is a sideblog for my yume / selfship talk, and my main is @hearts-4-riri !

u wont even be able to tell who my favs r tho... i have so many of them... (shameless)

my interests...

☆ vocaloid, especially deco*27!

☆ project : eden's garden

☆ my chemical romance

☆ needy girl overdose

☆ dunmeshi

☆ all the official dangan games

tags :

#rin's scribbles : any of my writing (if i do post it lol)

#🐑⭐ / #🍰🌸 / #🪶⭐ : anything related to my (romantic) f/o!

[mikurinkuwu]

something funny i noticed about them

(ramble below)

its fun how they're both so different yet so similar, their personalities are nothing alike but the way they process things, their decisions and reactions are nearly identical, both went through a "roleplaying" phase in their youth, adopting the roles those around them wanted them to play

miku has never been mean or evil, but people, the circumstances, forced him to adopt a role he was never made for playing, same case with rin, she was forced to turn into this flawless being who makes no mistakes and is always kind to everyone

in the end, both took the decision to play along to protect themselves, to fit in just like anybody else, to have a role, a set position, something stable to hold onto, but it wounded them deeply, and it takes them a long time to heal and learn to be themselves again

[ratpoizonz]

yk how it is, reblog for a larger sample size pls!!!!! ^_^

[leviathansbiggestkinnie]

Me n who frfr (I'm Homura trust)

[butiknowiloatheyou]

you do not know the epic highs and lows of being a huge fan of my chemical romance

[captain-hawks]

“stop checking your phone,” rin’s voice cuts sharply through the murky sea of idle thoughts simmering in your head, and you let out a defeated puff of air before placing it face down on the coffee table. 

letting your eyes slide back to the television screen, you make a feeble attempt at figuring out what’s going on in the movie that’s playing—though it’s been on nearly an hour now, and you can’t even remember what it’s called. 

suddenly, your phone vibrates, and you jump, reaching out to grab it. rin makes an annoyed sound, pushing it just out of your reach with his foot. 

“rin!” you huff, leaning further off of the couch to grab it. 

your fingers just barely graze the tip of it before your entire body is swiftly pulled backward, and you land halfway in rin’s lap. 

the phone vibrates again, the noise clanging loudly against the table’s surface. 

rin’s arms slip around your middle before you can even try to move this time, holding you firmly in place.

(and your heart fumbles for several reasons.)

“what if it’s—” you protest weakly.

“he cheated on you twice.” rin’s breath is hot against the shell of your ear.

“but what if he—”

“ignore him,” rin murmurs, his nose brushing against your hair as he turns his face into the side of your head. “please.”

you shiver.

(he has every right, considering how you showed up sobbing on his doorstep last night.)

(—and given the way he told you not to give his brother the time of day in the first place.)

it’s confusing—this hot, dizzy swell of emotion fluttering in your chest. this urge to sink further into your best friend’s touch, to look him in the eyes and tell him to make you ignore sae.

(you wonder if he would.)

(you wonder what he’d do.)

itoshi rin's never one to back down from a challenge, after all.

[tumatawa]

I wish she had more scenes... Whateva

[tyblackthornsheadphones]

i just saw a tiktok comment saying “never again doesn’t apply to jews” on an edit of magneto

[plutorine]

today's shower thoughts are about this random-ass detail about the stavrogin-gaganov beef (the duel) — even before things went down, gaganov got outright PISSED at stavrogin (more than he already was) arriving at the scene on horseback and not by carriage, because it implied that he (stavrogin) was confident that he won't get injured so severely by gaganov that he'd need to be transported in a safer, more elaborate ride. and like just. damn. artemy pavlovich hated him so fucking bad 😭

[ruruumin]

recommended rin itoshi fics/hcs ₊˚ෆ

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ inspired by @tsukimirecs' post ₊˚ෆ

i wanted to share a few of my favorites from not only my mutuals but other writers! there will be a mix between archive of our own & (mainly) tumblr writings.

⤷ terms & conditions: read the tags of each individual fic!

archive of our own fics ₊˚ෆ

nothing more than love sick by milkteabythree

won't you lend me your faith? by prettyboykatsuki (aristotlewrites)

the first snow by silkflwrs (tumblr @tenjiiku)

why are you at my door at 10:57pm by wttcsms

supernatural by isatoru (tumblr @isatoru)

tumblr fics ₊˚ෆ

kiss me right! & soulmates! by @rinnstars

11/30/24; 06:07pm & 10/30/24; 05:23pm by @shomatoriashi

our little secret & ten minutes by @kaiser1ns

i think i wanna marry you by @rindreamery

bf!rin & rin with a girly girlfriend by @choccorin

spittin' out like listerine & wake me up when september ends by @doobea ⤷ honorable mention: stand clear of the closing doors please

aquarium by @aleixis

all my flaws & petty!rin by @ode2rin

heart like yours & afterglow by @earthtooz

2am by @nagifleur

compass points you home & thin line by @itoshiexx

this must be love by @seoulmatez

never took me quite where you do by @hydrobunny

rare visit by @coffeerecords

liquid courage by @chocochozi

silly stickers by @iid-smile

tumblr headcanons ₊˚ෆ

to be loved is to be seen by @rindreamery

bf hcs by @cheappickle

bf hcs by @bachiras-toaster

college crush & a minute on your lips by @ryescapades

memoria: dates by @vynlouvre

soul eater resonance by @kaiser1ns

when you steal their hoodies by @shomatoriashi

cuteness overload & interviewer! reader by @retroaria

⤷ notes: can you tell i basically read everything related to him lol

[bluelockmaniac]

i'm sorry but i get super bad vibes from sae and rin's father. also, what the heck did he do to sae.

why is he standing like that lmfao, creepy

if you're abusive, it's over for you

[lizbix]

out of all the different types of anime guys i chose black haired emos and main characters

[chibinasuu2]

One of my favorite ZoSan lore has got to be how their rivalry actually only started in Little Garden.

It wasn't "hate-at-first-sight" for them – believe it or not, Zoro and Sanji were quite amicable when they first met!

Exhibit A: them chilling together at the party post-Arlong Park

Exhibit B: Zoro giving Sanji an "order" at Loguetown and he just said "Got it!!" without a single name-calling or complaint?? Unheard of nowadays.

They had some other civil conversations around that time as well – no bickering in sight!

[spoilers for Little Garden below the cut]

This. This page right here is where everything started.

Ever since that first "contest", they became the ever-bickering, always-head-to-head Zoro and Sanji that we all know and love.

Their rivalry has become such a staple in all of their interactions – a force of habit, a routine, the status quo – and it has been going on for sooo long that I doubt Zoro and Sanji themselves even remember what started it anymore...

Just like another pair of rivals we know (whose 100-year rivalry also started with an argument over who caught the bigger prey).

This obvious Zoro/Sanji–Dorry/Brogy parallel has always been so interesting to me, especially since Dorry and Brogy were very explicitly presented as equals.

Those two giants had had a whopping 73,466 battles by the time the Straw Hats reached Little Garden, and not a single instance had one ever won over the other.

They were equal in strength, and even prior to their feud, they were in equal positions as co-captains of the Giant Warrior Pirates.

This is exactly the dynamic that Oda assigned Zoro and Sanji, presenting them in equal positions as the Wings of the Future Pirate King (probably also why Oda never explicitly stated that Zoro is First Mate)

Zoro and Sanji are also clearly very strong in their own rights, each with their unique abilities and skillsets. I truly believe a full-power battle between them would end up exactly like Dorry and Brogy's: a never-ending duel between two equally matched fighters.

TL;DR – I don't care what powerscalers say, Zoro and Sanji are equals in every sense of the word, period.

[spoilers for Wano and end of Egghead below]

Also, now that Dorry and Brogy are back in the picture, I really hope that Oda would circle around to this rivalry parallel in Elbaf.

I think it would be interesting to see further development in Zoro and Sanji's dynamics that goes beyond "rivals-that-actually-really-care-for-each-other-but-their-egos-are-too-big-to-show-it".

The Death Pact in Wano gave us probably the deepest glimpse so far into the nature of their relationship, showing us, clear as day, the incredible bond between them and just how far their trust for each other goes.

I mean, Dorry and Brogy ended up reconciling at the end of Little Garden and became best buddies again after fighting for one hundred years, so who knows what Oda has planned for ZoSan? I, for one, am really excited to see what he has in store for them in the Final Saga.

[etherealrin]

ᯓ★ just my (very opinionated) opinions on rin...

rin doesn't even try to be rude like poor boy. it's a force of habit for him at this point and if he tried to correct it people would think he was possesed or that he murdered someone.

rin probably has recurring nightmares where it's just that one snowy night of his and sae's 1v1, and he wakes up in tears and cold sweat. he probably sleep talks and it's some monologue of how he'll crush his brother's dream and whatnot.

he has a habit of drawing circles on his paper that spiral and spiral and get darker and darker as he jams the 2b lead of his pencil into the whiteness (this is bc one time i read somewhere that a kid went crazy when his mom or someone died and started drawing these circles again and again on every paper he got. i think sae made rin start this.)

rin can't really cook. like dude is just a 16 year old boy so he's staring at an excruitiatingly dry, painfully unseasoned, piece of chicken breast paired with some type of vegetable (anything but brussel sprouts) and rice on his dinner plate.

truly does enjoy music and rin can lose himself in it.

rin has no close friends. he doesn't think he needs those. he's also really really scared of love and being unable to be alone, by himself. yk like when he was upset that blue lock wasn't letting him play alone? i think that's only on field though. in daily life, rin does feel the pain of solitude, and some tiny part of him wishes he had someone. back to the scared of love bit i think it's more that he's scared of being abandoned (again sae's fault...) and that insecurity eats him up but with a lot of time and the right person i can see him genuinely loving somebody and wanting to give them everything he has and then some.

hyperfixation with horror and horror games stems from the fact that it makes him feel safer seeing others go through worse things than he's experienced. i think he's somewhat emotionally numb anyways so it probably just doesn't impact him that much.

in conclusion itoshi rin needs therapy but don't worry, i can fix him!!

[captain-hawks]

vampire!itoshi rin (timeskip)

it should scare you—the unnatural flecks of gold that now dance freely in the irises of rin’s teal eyes.

they seem to move as he holds your gaze, shifting and reflecting in the light, and a voice in the back of your mind quietly murmurs: for compulsion. 

it should scare you—but it doesn’t.

you reach out, and rin’s long fingers loosely wrap around your wrist, holding it in place. a shiver runs down your spine as the warmth of your skin meets the cold of his own. 

“let me see.” there’s a tinge of desperation in your whispered tone.

rin’s grip tightens a fraction.

“please, rin.”

the gold dances and swirls.

you wonder if he can hear just how fast your heart is beating—if he’d mistake its eager, curious tempo for fear. 

(itoshi rin taught you not to be afraid of the dark long before he fell into it.)

he relents, letting go and opening his mouth, and your breath catches in your throat. sharp canines rest against his plush bottom lip, gleaming white against soft pink. 

without thinking, you reach out to run a finger along one, following the curve of his right fang to its lethal point. though you hardly feel it happen, bright red blood instantly blooms across the tip of your thumb. 

rin’s eyes flash, nostrils flaring.

“this is why i didn’t—”

you cut him off by pressing your thumb to his lips, and he freezes, eyes widening slightly.

“don’t waste it,” you whisper.

rin takes ahold of your wrist again, pulling your thumb just out of reach of his mouth, and you know there’s no masking the disappointment on your face. his lips are stained with your blood.

he sighs, leaning in, and his eyes never leave yours as he slowly drags his tongue over the shallow puncture wound. something sweet fizzes in your veins, and your toes curl into the carpet against the heady, cloying sensation. when he pulls away, no trace of the cut remains, only a thin layer of his saliva.

“you should be afraid of me,” rin murmurs, carefully guiding your arm back down to your side.

you grasp the sleeve of his sweatshirt before he can pull his hand away.

“you’re right, i should be,” you nod. “but i’m not.”