#rin's ramblings

[plutorine]

i've been thinking about how the 2014 adaptation managed to humanize stavrogin even just a little (for me, at least) by letting him have a butterfly hobby. i feel like that's what made the experience of reading the book so bleak to me, because there was nothing for me to "hold onto" in a way that would make me feel like he's (hypothetically) an actual person. i tend to do this a lot when i read, because it helps me understand why certain characters do what they do in a story. but for nikolai, there was just nothing. i felt that sense of emptiness, albeit on a lesser degree.

anyway. back to the butterflies. it was certainly A Choice, and a good one, dare i say! the symbolism of transformation in relation to nikolai just fits perfectly with his character. recently i started connecting it to ethel cain's "sun bleached flies" — the flies that get stuck and fly into a window pane over and over until they die without knowing freedom are so reminiscent of the butterflies that nikolai had in his study. they're all pinned down and frozen behind glass; the ones in the bell jar, too, are unable of escape despite the enclosure granting them a full view of the outside world. but they remain stuck.

nikolai was like that, somehow. he had the whole world in front of him to experience, but he had no way of escaping the hell that he had plunged himself into, and so eventually, he succumbs to the lukewarm air of his bell jar. his life ended without him ever truly leaving that self-made limbo.

[mikurinkuwu]

something funny i noticed about them

(ramble below)

its fun how they're both so different yet so similar, their personalities are nothing alike but the way they process things, their decisions and reactions are nearly identical, both went through a "roleplaying" phase in their youth, adopting the roles those around them wanted them to play

miku has never been mean or evil, but people, the circumstances, forced him to adopt a role he was never made for playing, same case with rin, she was forced to turn into this flawless being who makes no mistakes and is always kind to everyone

in the end, both took the decision to play along to protect themselves, to fit in just like anybody else, to have a role, a set position, something stable to hold onto, but it wounded them deeply, and it takes them a long time to heal and learn to be themselves again

[ratpoizonz]

yk how it is, reblog for a larger sample size pls!!!!! ^_^

[fishii28]

when he's a ten <3

[butiknowiloatheyou]

you do not know the epic highs and lows of being a huge fan of my chemical romance

[tumatawa]

I wish she had more scenes... Whateva

[tyblackthornsheadphones]

i just saw a tiktok comment saying “never again doesn’t apply to jews” on an edit of magneto

[captain-hawks]

“stop checking your phone,” rin’s voice cuts sharply through the murky sea of idle thoughts simmering in your head, and you let out a defeated puff of air before placing it face down on the coffee table. 

letting your eyes slide back to the television screen, you make a feeble attempt at figuring out what’s going on in the movie that’s playing—though it’s been on nearly an hour now, and you can’t even remember what it’s called. 

suddenly, your phone vibrates, and you jump, reaching out to grab it. rin makes an annoyed sound, pushing it just out of your reach with his foot. 

“rin!” you huff, leaning further off of the couch to grab it. 

your fingers just barely graze the tip of it before your entire body is swiftly pulled backward, and you land halfway in rin’s lap. 

the phone vibrates again, the noise clanging loudly against the table’s surface. 

rin’s arms slip around your middle before you can even try to move this time, holding you firmly in place.

(and your heart fumbles for several reasons.)

“what if it’s—” you protest weakly.

“he cheated on you twice.” rin’s breath is hot against the shell of your ear.

“but what if he—”

“ignore him,” rin murmurs, his nose brushing against your hair as he turns his face into the side of your head. “please.”

you shiver.

(he has every right, considering how you showed up sobbing on his doorstep last night.)

(—and given the way he told you not to give his brother the time of day in the first place.)

it’s confusing—this hot, dizzy swell of emotion fluttering in your chest. this urge to sink further into your best friend’s touch, to look him in the eyes and tell him to make you ignore sae.

(you wonder if he would.)

(you wonder what he’d do.)

itoshi rin's never one to back down from a challenge, after all.

[ruruumin]

recommended rin itoshi fics/hcs ₊˚ෆ

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ inspired by @tsukimirecs' post ₊˚ෆ

i wanted to share a few of my favorites from not only my mutuals but other writers! there will be a mix between archive of our own & (mainly) tumblr writings.

⤷ terms & conditions: read the tags of each individual fic!

archive of our own fics ₊˚ෆ

nothing more than love sick by milkteabythree

won't you lend me your faith? by prettyboykatsuki (aristotlewrites)

the first snow by silkflwrs (tumblr @tenjiiku)

why are you at my door at 10:57pm by wttcsms

supernatural by isatoru (tumblr @isatoru)

tumblr fics ₊˚ෆ

kiss me right! & soulmates! by @rinnstars

11/30/24; 06:07pm & 10/30/24; 05:23pm by @shomatoriashi

our little secret & ten minutes by @kaiser1ns

i think i wanna marry you by @rindreamery

bf!rin & rin with a girly girlfriend by @choccorin

spittin' out like listerine & wake me up when september ends by @doobea ⤷ honorable mention: stand clear of the closing doors please

aquarium by @aleixis

all my flaws & petty!rin by @ode2rin

heart like yours & afterglow by @earthtooz

2am by @nagifleur

compass points you home & thin line by @itoshiexx

this must be love by @seoulmatez

never took me quite where you do by @hydrobunny

rare visit by @coffeerecords

liquid courage by @chocochozi

silly stickers by @iid-smile

tumblr headcanons ₊˚ෆ

to be loved is to be seen by @rindreamery

bf hcs by @cheappickle

bf hcs by @bachiras-toaster

college crush & a minute on your lips by @ryescapades

memoria: dates by @vynlouvre

soul eater resonance by @kaiser1ns

when you steal their hoodies by @shomatoriashi

cuteness overload & interviewer! reader by @retroaria

⤷ notes: can you tell i basically read everything related to him lol

[bluelockmaniac]

i'm sorry but i get super bad vibes from sae and rin's father. also, what the heck did he do to sae.

why is he standing like that lmfao, creepy

if you're abusive, it's over for you

[plutorine]

Earlier today I saw a tweet from one of my mutuals (@/verkhovenskaya on Twitter) about the parallels between St. Peter's upside down cross (he refused to be executed the same way as Jesus Christ because he deemed himself unworthy to die the same way his teacher did), Pyotr Verkhovensky, and the upside down cross' simultaneous association with the devil and it made me think of a few things:

(spoilers ahead)

St. Peter went on to be the "rock" (the name literally means that) of the Christian Church (capitalized to mean that this is the people, not just the establishment), and upon him, the Christian God would establish His reign on earth; Peter was also the first pope, and is God's representative on this realm.

The upside down cross, if interpreted diabolically, can be the reversal of St. Peter's humility and vision of the people adopting Jesus' values and bringing them together. In Demons, this can be understood as Pyotr Verkhovensky's perversion of that goal — he acts as the rock of the (false) Messiah (Nikolai) and his Church (their fellows and such), and seeks to wreak havoc among people.

One can also read the inverted cross as a symbol of Pyotr's hubris (in contrast to St. Peter's humility), as he does things that are usually attributed to God (taking Shatov's life, "creating" Nikolai), and also as his rebellion against the very force that he's been afraid of since he was a kid.

[zhongrin]

someone hold me i'm unwell

waternaeng // plus_Q_

[earthtooz]

ik ur in ur reo phase BUT HEAR ME OUT EARTH ONLY YOU CAN DO THIS

rin ACCIDENTALLY publicizing ur relationship bec mf got jealous as hell when ur face appeared in the kiss cam IN HIS GAME??????? WITH A RANDOM GUY AND WAS HE FUMING??? YOU AND I KNOW HE WAS THROWIN HANDS

thats all

I'M HEARING YOU OUT. warning for unrealistic scenario, i wrote this in like 20 minutes so it's unedited :p apologies for any mistakes.

imagine being rin's secret partner, the one he keeps behind closed doors because he values you too much to let the invasive eyes of the internet see. he values your relationship too much to let it get tarnished by social media, so he hides any affiliation with you like his life depends on it, only to come home and shower you with the adoration and affection he wishes he could show to the rest of the world.

in the spotlight, he is itoshi rin, japan's prized striker, their golden player, but when he's out of the spotlight, he is your lover. the man who drapes himself over you when things get too rough and he needs a breather. he is yours to cherish, where you have to change your phone wallpaper every other week because there's so many good photos of you two. he is yours to love, he is yours to go to when you feel too lonely, he is yours.

but also imagine, itoshi rin's jealousy and possessiveness no longer being able to rest at bay. it'd been accumulating for the past few weeks, this desire to show you off and boast that it's him who gets to know you like no other.

then the cup overfills, his jealousy tearing him by the seams that he loosely stitched together to withhold this carnal beast resting within him.

all because of a damn kiss cam.

you had been sitting in the vip section of the stadium- where special members are granted tickets, and even though you tell rin that it's fine for you to just sit in the general area, he refuses and tells you that he's bought you the ticket anyway. leaving you with no room for arguments. well. not that there was any to begin with.

anyways, you'd just so happen to sit next to someone who bought vip tickets with no affiliation with any blue lock members. you think he's just a die hard fan, so when he asks you if you like them, you lie and say that you won these tickets at a raffle.

the guy wasn't the most favourable person ever, in fact, you found yourself awkwardly responding to what he was saying, sometimes giving him short and succinct replies because of how... weird... he was. not to be disrespectful but you did not like his vibes. you just hope these 90 minutes can be over quickly.

yeah well, how funny is it that the kiss cam lands on you and the insufferable guy beside you?

you're mortified when you see it on the screen but the person beside you doesn't warrant the same reaction. immediately, he turns to face you, anticipation heavy on his features. in fact, he looks rather... excited...

"no, no, i have a boyfriend, i-" you begin abruptly as he leans in and you have no choice but to helplessly lean back, evading his lips and delaying it as much as you can. you even try rejecting him by frantically waving your hands, panicked and unsure of what to do.

until you hear him.

"back. the. fuck. off!" comes a shout from the pitch; the voice very familiar to your ears that you can't help but instantly relax from hearing it.

your seat was relatively close to the field which meant that those around you could hear the distinct voice of itoshi rin ripping through the air, fury evident and baring its fangs as he all but punches the barrier with each word.

however, everyone in the stadium could see itoshi rin as all cameras pan to him, witnessing his wrath as he shouts from the top of his voice. everyone around you is silent and you don't know whether you want to shrivel up into the ground or run to him and embrace him as tightly as you can. to find sanctuary in his warmth, away from the pushy guy who can't wrap his head around the idea that no means no.

itoshi rin decides for you, effortlessly jumping over the (considerably high???) barrier and making a beeline for you, skipping some stairs. thank goodness for a side seat because he comes to a stop before you, adrenaline still coursing through his veins as he looks at you with heated passion, huffing and puffing.

"rin?" you whisper. he doesn't hear it, looking up at the various stadium screens to see if the kiss cams were still on you. smirking in satisfaction when he realises they are, rin all but pulls you up from your seat and kisses you with so much intensity and fervour that you feel lightheaded. very much so.

the stadium is cheering but you can't focus on it, not when rin's holding you to him so closely, practically trying to meld you to him. not even trying to push him away is enough to snap him out of whatever primal instinct has taken over him, so you grab his face and jerk away from him, not wanting to get too carried away.

before you can utter a word, rin looks behind you, and the coldness in his expression says everything you need to know.

he doesn’t care about dignity at this point. he just needed the world to know that you were his.

"you're dead if you try that again, you lukewarm fuckface," he then turns to you. you shiver from the intensity of his gaze. "i'll kill him next time," he promises before hugging you close to him once again, practically glaring at the cameras. "i'll kill anyone who tries to get to close."

THANK YOU FOR THIS ANON would u believe me if i said i'd been waiting for an opportunity like this? well i'm speaking the truth and i'm so glad u gave me the opportunity i've been waiting for AYEEEEEEE COME BACK ANY TIME YOU ARE SO WELCOME ON THE EARTHTOOZ BLOG, PRETTY <33

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[hummus-birb]

Happy birthday Kagamine Rin & Len!!

[princeblue]

Not to bring up a totally unrelated fandom from when I was 12, but Rin having catholic guilt and then doing something and immediately afterwards he does the cross motion and says “god, forgive me.” And then the exwires getting to watch as Rin breaks out in hives is incredibly funny to me.

[pantherloid]

Kagamines vertically long ver.