#rexulti

[emilemily]

I’m pulling myself off of all my psychiatric meds one by one and it has been hard, but I’m already feeling the positive effects. I was on an antipsychotic called Rexultifor the last year and successfully cold turkey’d it. Took my last one a month ago.

Now I’m pulling myself off of Trintellix, which is my antidepressant. I’ve gained a lot of weight on it and I’m just not happy with myself. Why am I even on so many meds? My doctor said that after she’s had me on an antipsychotic for a year, she actually doesn’t think I’m bipolar and instead thinks I just have extensive trauma.

Thanks I guess?

Anyway, today is my first day skipping my Trintellix. I’ve spent the last month in hellacious anti psychotic withdrawal, so anything this throws at me will feel like a cakewalk in comparison.

I’ll be staying on my Vyvanse, Guanfacine and Buspar. The Guanfacine works as a heart med for my POTS while also evening out the negative parts of being on a stimulant.

After coming off this anti depressant I will be coming off of gabapentin. That I will need to taper. I tried last summer to come off of it and almost offed myself as a result. I went catatonic and just laid on Stephen’s lap, rocking my body and humming to stop the terrible thoughts I was having.

I didn’t taper it though, so that was my issue.

I’m going to free myself from the shackles of all these medications. I’m 30 years old and I want to enjoy it. I want to feel everything deeply again instead of feeling this fuzzy numb feeling 24/7. I’d rather feel everything and cry than walk around this world letting time pass me by because I feel apathyx1000.

My medication journey started in rehab in 2020. I hadn’t taken meds since I was a child taking stimulants for my adhd. I was put on a cocktail of things and gained an insane amount of weight when all I needed was some fucking therapy and help addressing the death of my father.

Gonna set it all straight now and undo what I thought was just my new norm. It doesn’t have to be.

Here’s to lots of withdrawals coming my way, ha.

Hoping for strength.

[dancingwithdoom]

AGAIN not judging,However

I see peps on tik and stuff saying “omg my morning lexapro has me 😵‍💫” or “missed my 100 mg zoloft 2 days in a row and my brain is zapping”

I’m on my own meds. Maxed out on some..

Guess my question is

Can you actually feel nauseous or have a head ache from starting dose first generation SSRI like Zoloft? It never worked for me actually always thought it was placebo. Which brings me to next question

How much is it placebo effect (starting new med low dose and reporting side effect as early as >week

[ghostzzy]

hard to believe there was a time when i didn’t almost puke every day. several times a day, even

[achingroses]

Something that I've found to be quite interesting is how many contrasting events have been happening from about a week and a half ago to today.

On one side it has been one of the most challenging, gruesome, heartbreaking, difficult, etc times of the year. So many things have happened, accidents, medical emergencies, family issues amongst other stuff that I'd rather not talk about publicly! (anxiety bla bla bla), I've been feeling so drained and tired, I've been dreading certain parts of my day-to-day life, I've dealt with a lot of physical pain as well which hasn't been fun at all, as it also stopped me from doing things.

On the other hand, I've never felt as loved and cared for, specially from certain people who I really love. All of them have helped me to deal with all of what's happened and I couldn't be more grateful about it. I've had to remind myself that despite my fears and anxieties I still have love.

I still have a lot to live and love for. As someone said to me today, what is happening to me is just life itself. That thought grounded me a lot and cleared my mind as well. I cannot say how I will feel when I wake up, but I can safely say I feel a little bit better now.

[music-for-them-asses]

Saw my psych this morning, and I'm getting switched to a new add-on med!!! I'm also getting increased on my Adderall, we'll see how that works out lol

Hoping this is a new start and will help me feel better soon ☺️

[haberdashing]

you know things are getting bad again when you're relating to the "before" part of an antidepressant ad

[godtears]

I've been taking Mucinex and Excedrin at the same time for the past couple days without realizing that it says right on both packages to Not Do That

I hope I don't die

[edjectedly]

Love being on meds that let me get intoxicated this shits great

[spikeyjo]

Couldn’t get with the gay psychiatrist so now my bitchass has to go to a completely new one.

[kawaiichanclas]

can I just share something so utterly ridiculously with yall - when I stop taking my meds I feel the need to be a troll online lmao not hateful comments, just like reeeal sassy ones. that’s how I know my mental health is declining and I need to catch up.

I had a really bad cold this week and only took cold meds. I’ve been trolling TikTok all week lol

[kingofmyborrowedheart]

Whey does the instrumental in the rexulti commercial sound like delicate

I finally heard it and it really does anon!

[ghostzzy]

if i’m just not gonna be able to sleep rn can i at least get some mania. as a treat.

[some-stars]

[THIS POST IS NOT MEDICAL ADVICE. TALK TO A PSYCHIATRIST.]

if you have treatment-resistant depression and you've been on every SSRI and SNRI available, you tried abilify and seroquel and rexulti, you tried TMS and ketamine and basically every single option short of ECT, or maybe you did try ECT and that didn't help either, you've done inpatient and partial hospitalization and intensive outpatient and none of it did shit: you want to try Auvelity.

i can't guarantee it'll work, obviously, but that was my exact situation for over six years and Auvelity literally Saved Me. in two months my PHQ-9 went from 21 to 3. it went on the market in 2022 so your doctor may not know about it yet. if you have insurance, there's a discount card that brings it down to $10 a month. (if you don't have insurance you're probably out of luck, because america is an evil country, and i'm sorry. maybe ask if your psychiatrist can get a regular supply of samples. if you can scrape together enough to pay the premium each month, it might be worth getting a marketplace plan and just using it for this.)

what it is, bizarrely, is dextromethorphan plus buproprion, and apparently the buproprion is NOT the key ingredient, it's just there to potentiate the dextromethorphan. which, yes, is cough syrup. i have no idea how it works but it does. also if you've tried buproprion (wellbutrin) before and it didn't work, don't worry, i did too. the cough syrup is where the magic is.

for me there have been zero side effects. i can read books again, i can watch a full episode of tv without needing a buddy to keep me focused, i don't get high every day and stare at youtube for hours. i'm not even passively suicidal anymore. i like sex again. i enjoy exercise now, because i actually get the endorphins my body was refusing to produce for years. if you are also in depression hell and you've been there forever and nothing has made any real difference: this might.

(and feel free to show your doctor this post if the prospect of starting the conversation is overwhelming! i have Been There.)

[godtears]

I should probably stop talking about smoking weed on here because now I'm getting ads for shrooms. No thank you, I'm good. I literally am not interested in anything else on the planet. Hell, I don't even want to take my prescribed meds anymore, they also suck.

[spikeyjo]

i think i should proooobably be on some form of anti anxiety med. probably