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The Most Wanted shop in Fleetwood failed to live up to its name and went out of business.
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Forever a turtle, but life update:
Got a job! It's a retail position at a local thrift store chain, which is a tiny bit disheartening for some dumb personal reasons, but it's certainly something - overall, though, it's a good thing. Hopefully it'll help get my finances back in order and a sense of routine again. It'll be a bit rocky at the start, catching up on bills and getting used to retail again, but it's something.
Just wanted to say a genuine thank you to those that helped out and gave well wishes during me rambling on here for a few months. It meant and still means a lot to me, it really does. Hope you all are doing well, too, as always. Rooting for you.
#Satari rambles#It shouldn't be too bad a job and there's actually benefits this time unlike my last retail job#It's just a bit disheartening because I went to retail after graduating the first time and now I'm back even though I have a master's degre#Which is privileged or spoiled-sounding thoughts to have even though I'm glad genuinely to have a job at all after six months without#I know this might only be temporary but I have trouble conceptualizing the future so it's sticking with me like it's a personal failure#Trying not to dwell on that though#Got a job so that means income and routine and hopefully working towards saving to get my own place#Gotta focus on that#Gotta keep positive#Rambling done though#Thanks for reading if you did
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#personal#tag rant#im not sure if it’s just because of the general stress and shit that’s been goin on lately but ive just been losing it today#like i just feel awful about myself and my life and like i feel so fucking stupid for moving away from home just to end up working a shit#retail job and not even going to college#trying to chase some fucking minuscule dream that ive made hardly any headway in#like how fucking stupid am i?#and the worst part is i don’t want to give up on it#cause i know ill never forgive myself if i do cause at the end of the day i love doing it so much#and that just makes me hate myself more#cause i should just go and try to make something of myself and make my family proud and not squander my life and my chances#i just want to make my life worth something#and right now i feel pretty fucking worthless and everyone can see it#fucking failure#and like i know the obvious answers are to just change it#don’t like your life? change it!#i jusy don’t know how when i feel like this#i just don’t know what to do#negativity#delete later
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full fledged concept coming soon but long story short: hallmark movie-esque concept ft. finance girlie that's going through it & heads back to her childhood hometown she's spent most of her life trying to run from x the boy she used to beef with all throughout high school who is now running a successful business - the onigiri shop that is the only place hiring in the general vicinity.
osamu miya x reader, childhood nemeses to awkward boss/employee to friends to lovers 🤭
general things to tackle in here: what happens when we prioritize what other people's perceptions of success is over what makes you feel happy and fulfilled, getting off on the wrong foot (and then continuing to have that same foot be the one in ur mouth) every time you interact with the person who's literally your soulmate, vanity is so overrated (you grapple with going from six figure salary corporate girlie to literal fast food cashier), realizing that "starting over" can be either the worst or the best thing to happen to you in life, don't be mean to the boy next door - he might grow up to be a super hot business owner... and your future employer
#my suna post had me reminiscing HARD lol#i worked at h&m after rejecting the return offer from the bank i was so hyped to work for#only to come home (more like to my airbnb) miserable tired stress and showing the first signs of depression LOL#and so i've spent a lot of time 'playing catch up' and trying to prove to everybody who accepted their offers that hey im not a total loser#and in retrospect that was so silly#like why was i entering my senior yr of college at 19 so stressed over working a seasonal retail job#all bc i was so worried abt looking like a failure#no i just needed a check to fund my sephora habits omg#anyway yea a fun fic that lightheartedly tells u to stop worrying abt what ppl think is the “right” path to take in life. the right path#is the one where ur happy. the end!
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nishiki’s the type to roast the shit out of majima in the 90s for choosing to wear such tight pants and would laugh wildly when majima retorts saying “just wait. everyone’ll be wearing shit like this soon, i’m just ahead of the curve”. and then when the 2000s come around and skinny jeans are the new norm he sits in his office in the dark, head down on his desk, and cries. because he’s proven to be a failure even at the things he’s most passionate about– and worse, he got bested by goro majima
#goro ‘snakeskin supremacist’ majima#poor guy#nishiki#majima#yakuza#akira nishikiyama#goro majima#these two have such good potential when it comes to interactions they’re fun to think about#rambling#this has the energy of ‘hey you’ve got a mushroom on your shirt’ ‘oh… i’m a failure’#nishiki circa 2009 having to collect up every ounce of courage possible to go to the store and buy slim-fit pants#some poor retail employee at checkout absolutely noticing how this guy seems like he’s about to have a breakdown in the#men’s business-casual section but not wanting to say anything#it’s just sad to watch#he doesn’t even dislike slimmer pants or anything he just keeps hearing majima in his head cackling and the voice of his father#calling him a disappointment
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Neta: training day, training day we're all here for training day. How are we all doing today?
Antho: it is 7:30 in the morning
Neta: yehhhh sorry about that but I have to train everyone and teach them how to close and open my store. So unfortunately for you...Antho. You also have to learn how to open.
Anto: *huff*
Neta: great! The mall is closed. It opens around 10:00 but we have to get here around 7:00. The first thing that I or mahi does is count money, fill the registers. While you guys have to unpack inventory, unload inventory from the trucks annnnd clean up the store. So that means folding shirts, picking up miscellaneous items. Make it look nice and presentable.
Vinny: what do we do first?
Neta: so what we usually do first is to fill the registers. So let's just go to the back here where the money machine is.......It's also my office so if you need anything feel free to come back here. The managers are in charge of withdrawing the money. You guys are responsible for depositing the money....so we usually get $100 worth of 20s for each register $50 worth of 5s, 10s we usually get $30 worth and and another $100 worth of 1s
Fugue: is that the amount we have to do every time?
Neta: this is usually the amount we put in but it can also change depending on how busy it is or how slow it is. So you know if you guys ever become a manager just go with your hunch and how much money you need the day.
Neta: All right so we got the money. Put them in the registers. Safety rule you can never deposit or withdraw the money by yourself. You have to have someone with you at all times just in case something happens.
Anto: like what?
Neta: well a lot can happen
Vinny: I knew this guy who used to stay in the store until closing and when employees were taking the register to the back. He'd push them and snatch the register and run out the door.
Anto: I'm assuming that person was you
Vinny: actually it was my babysitter. He used to watch me and my sister's all the time, he was a nice guy
Neta: ok let's change the subject so after we put in the registers. We go back to the back, the second door to the left next to my office is receiving I also call it storage and you can call it whatever you want.
Naomi: this is a lot bigger than I expected
Neta: yeah it is. We keep boxes back here. New releases, old releases, limited releases
Fugue: what happens when it get overcrowded?
Neta: usually when it gets overcrowded we have a big sale. So we don't do this every morning but this morning we had a truck today. So we go over here......... Lift up this door and you can see the cargo entrance.... It's only a few boxes.
Antho: and you expected to unpack all this?
Neta: No, you have to unload and then unpack.... And their specific ones that you can unpack and then the rest you can leave in the back. Looking at the labels you only need to unpack the 15 and keep the 20 in the back....ok... I'm going to split you guys into groups Vinny and I are going to stay back here to unload fougu you can unpack the items.
Vinny: great this is going to be easy.
Fugue: do you provide a box cutter?
Neta: yep I got a whole desk full in my office just to pick one out. Everything with a blue label we open up immediately. Anything with an orange label we don't open until the set date on it.
Vinny: what about the pink label?
Neta: those we don't open up until next month Those are splat fest tees.
Antho: splatfest tees??? So if we open those boxes we know which splat fest is going to be next
Neta: yeah totally... You also get an automatic termination and blacklisted not only from all the stores in the mall but also around the city. So.............you want to play some stupid games and win some stupid prizes? I'm serious like I'm not even allowed to open it I had to sign a waiver and everything
Antho: that sucks
Neta: yeah I know.....ok....you and Miss Naomi..... you're just going to have to pick up the store You know clean it up. Fold shirts. Organize everything... We do have a system. Everything with the green tag has to be folded. Everything with a red tag is hung up on the rack. Everything with a purple tag is hung up in the front of the store. Any questions?
Antho: I have a question
Neta: what's your question?
Antho: what happened to your ear?
Neta:.............................................................. Do you have any questions regarding your job?
Naomi: is there the proper way we have to fold the shirts
Neta: Great question. we fold them into rectangles so it's small and it gives us space for more shirts. So fold two times on each end....... and you put it together and.......here we go! Make sure that the band or logo is visible. And for the hanging clothes he puts the smallest in the front and largest in the back. ..... Anything else?
Antho: hu-
Neta:No great........ Antho come with me for a sec.
Antho: Am I fired already?
Neta: No, you're not fired and just going to need to ask a quick favor. Listen........You can be as mean and rude as you want to be with me. You can't hurt my feelings....* Inhale*....... The customers on the other hand..........unless they deserve it and trust me there are going to be some people who definitely deserve it but for the ones who don't.... please be nice. Okay?
Antho: ......................
Neta: and also be nice to your fellow employees. I know underneath this little meanie personality you have is a nice kind person
Antho: No, there isn't
Neta: Yes there is and I can sense it and you know what goes great with a nice kind person?
Antho: a reality check
Neta: No. Another nice kind person to keep them company........That's why you'll be working with Naomi! Yayyy!!! you two are going to be sharing the same shifts!! You're going to have a shift buddy.
Antho: whaat? Why?
Neta: because..... She's a nice girl. She's really sweet..... and she's also kind of sensitive and I don't think she'll be able to handle some of our.........
Antho: asshole customers?
Neta: yeah ............ Just be there to back her up if needed. You know I don't want anyone making her cry. Can you do that for me? Can you do this one small gesture or are you just incapable of kindness?
Antho: ..........ugh..... fine I'll help her.......... You better pay me extra
Neta: I'll make you an employee of the month.
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Antho:.....................
Naomi:....................
Antho:.......so............ What's your deal?
Naomi: hm?
Antho: why are you working here?
Naomi: oh...uh........um........I just....... wanted to get out of the house....... ...... yeah
Antho: hmm k..................* Inhale* * exhale*.........(Tap ..Tap.)................ So like you live around here?
Naomi: oh yeah.....I-i do It's usually just one train stop......
Antho: hmmmmmm...... I know you said that you weren't allowed to like disclose what manga you used to work on but like
Naomi: I work on "turf war heart break" and " I love princess Nami "
Antho:I think I saw Vivy read one of those...hm... Probably not....... So you got permission to talk about your work and you won't get fired or anything will you?
Naomi: ............ I only said I wasn't allowed to disclose because I was embarrassed...... I didn't know how y'all would react.
Antho: oh.........well.... They're popular books..... So do you write it or draw it or?
Naomi: I just do outlines for the books That's it............
Antho: that's cool....................
Naomi:........................... I actually work on my own stuff when I'm free.
Antho: oh..... So what's your book about
Naomi: well I'm still working on it. I still haven't gotten the plot or the characters. I'm so just writing ideas down. It's nothing. I'm sorry I'm actually just-
Neta: so how's everything up in the front?
Naomi: * gasp* uhhhh....umm
Antho: we're finished
Neta: I can see that the store looks great! Good job you two
Antho: hum
Naomi:. Hmmm thank you
Neta: well it's around 8:00. Everything is unloaded and unpacked. We just need to take it from the back and put it to the front. We'll do this until 9:45
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Neta: We're all done and it's........ Oh it's only 9:30. Usually that takes longer
Fugue: it could be because you have more people here
Neta: yeah, that's true..... Well while we wait, I guess I can teach you guys how to use the register. It's not hard at all let me put it on training mode and-
Warabie: GOOD MORNING!
Seth: hey guy .....
Neta: Good morning ... . Hey Candi.. ..... You look..... You look great babe....... Look at you you're glowing
Candi: uh huh .... yeah.......* Mumbling*
Antho: did she get hit by a bus this morning? Geez
Neta: shh!...
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Neta:ok we're going to learn how to use the register warabie is going to be right here to help you
Warabie: hi guys
Neta: alright so .... Vinny why don't you go first?
Vinny: alright!
Neta: Great! I'm going to be customers and hand you this item right here so can you ring that up for me?
Vinny: ok...... That will be....... $8 cash or card?
Neta: I'm going to split it
Vinny: ok.. so how do I-
Warabie: so you're going to go to split payment. If they give you cash first you press the cash icon you put in the exact amount that they give you. If they do the card first you go to the card icon and then you put in the exact amount they want to pay. Once the card is approved you take the cash and put it in the register.
Vinny: ok ...... So how much do you want to pay in cash
Neta: I'm going to pay... $4 in cash the rest of my card
Vinny: ok great....... All right, that's something hard to do
Neta: see it's easy. Antho You're up next
Antho: alright...... How can I help you today?.........
Neta: well I like to return this please
Antho:.....k........... I'm assuming you're returning these short shorts because it's not your size.
Warabie: *snort* ha! Hehehe I'm sorry....hehehehe.. that's not funny hehe....*ahem*...... be serious Antho.
Neta:................... Just return it
Antho: I'd love too but I don't know how to do that. So I guess you're stuck with this. If it makes you feel any better, we do have some fishnets and boots that will look great with this. I think you look good in it! you know..... In dim lighting.
Warabie: hehehehehe hehehe....
Neta:.................................
Antho: you might need to shave your legs though
Warabie: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Neta: okay.... okay!!! THAT'S ENOUGH!........ I get it just return it.
Warabie: ok..uh ahhah.haha.. I mean I think you'd look hot in it..
Neta: warabie!
Warabie:.. right! sorry....So you press return.... you scan the receipt and you scan the item and it'll give you an option to put it back on the card or to return it to them in cash. If they don't have a receipt with them, you can press this button right here and tell them to insert their card and you can find their last purchase with the store. When you find it highlight and click return. There's also work when they don't have the tag on it.
Antho: All right, great. Here you go sir. ... Your money went back on your card have a pleasant day
Neta: thank you.... You could have done that without humiliating the custome
Antho: I thought you said I can't hurt your feelings
Neta: you can't, but you might hurt someone else's feelings so let's not do this to an actual customer.
Antho: All right, I won't do that.....to their face
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Neta: All right so that concludes today's training. Tomorrow's training day you guys are going to do that....... .... Well....you're actually going to do that at home...... I just want you guys to watch five short videos. It's just going to talk about safety regulations..... Our tolerance policy...... One safety and one sanitary video and the last one is just going to talk about employee benefits and whatnot.
Vinny: I have a question about benefits?
Neta: shoot
Vinny: so like do you provide the benefits or does the mall itself provide the benefits?
Neta: It's the mall. The mall provides the benefits for everyone who works here, including me.
Vinny: do they cover dental?
Neta: yes ... All the information is in the video
Vinny:... Medical expenses like injuries like a broken arm or stitches
Neta:.......... Yes they provide all that......Yes
Naomi: * whispering whispering*
Vinny: yeah I need that too.......... Gender affirming health care
Nate: actually they do, yeah! You can get more information from the videos..... All right! So I guess we're done for the day. The store opens in 20 minutes so uhhhh you guys are free to head home. Enjoy the rest of your day or you can stay until we open and complete your whole shift up to you.
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Antho: ...*huff*.............hey
Naomi: hm?
Antho: you said you were working on your own book earlier
Naomi: yeah.... it's.... it's still in the development stage tho so. . Yeah
Antho:hmmm what about you puffy you have a hobby or something
Fugue:..... Don't call me that.... If you must know, I enjoy making ceramics
Antho: That's lame. I don't care
Fugue:...... Well then you shouldn't have asked
Antho: I thought you were going to say something interesting
Fugue: well it is interesting if you just let me finish.... I'm actually planning on making my own dish set for my drom room I even made one for my future roommate
Antho: uhhhhh Don't you play video games or some shit like a normal person
Fugue: I do... I'm normal...I ........ I don't have to prove anything to you!
Antho: oh shit! He's actually puffing up! Heheh
Neta: awwww look at them. They're getting along
Candi: uh-hu
Neta: I guess he's making friends in his own way....... Naomi seems to be opening up a little too........ Can't believe I'm going to have a new crew coming next year....... I'm going to miss you guys.
Candi: uh-hu
Neta: I mean that doesn't mean I'm not going to visit. Of course I'm going to check up on my old store and see you guys. I can also share shifts between stores but I don't know how it's going to work out. I have to drive 5 hours but you know it's worth it to see you guys I love-
Candi: Neta can you shut the fuck up for like 3 seconds? God.....why are you in such a good mood!?
Neta: well......when my shift ended I was going to taste test wedding cakes with ikkan.....I guess I'm just excited. I'm sorry....... I know you're tired.... You want to go home early?
Candi: no .......*ugh*.......mmmmmmmmmm....... I'm sorry......*crying*...... I'm just so fucking tired..
Neta: oh babe come here.......
Candi: *crying*.... I wanted chocolate waffles this morning..........
Neta: you did? Awww... What happened?
Candi: *crying* and I told Donn to go to the store and and and he bought back blueberries ones!! *Crying*...... I told him I didn't want those! He said that's all they had!!! He's fucking lying!! I know he is he picked up the wrong ones!! My morning was ruined *crying*
Neta: ohhh I'm sorry that happened
Antho: what's wrong with her?
Neta: hush....she's pregnant
Antho: that explains a lot.
Neta:..................... Go home
Candi: and this is one of those rare fucking mornings where I'm not sick..... It was my only decent morning and he fucking ruined it!!!!!! *Crying*..... this sucks... I don't like being pregnant.....*sniff*.... I mean I do. I love it..... I'm making life........ but you know.....*sniff * I just *crying* I'm so tired of sweat pants.....
Neta: ohhhhh*heh* I'm sorry........ You sure you don't want to leave early? You can go cake sampling with me.
Candi:...*sniff*........hmm ...ok .......
Neta: ok...(Peck).... Why don't we leave extra early and we can get you some maternity clothing?
Candi: you mean those stupid moo moos no..... I got enough of those from my mother-in-law.
Neta: we can get you a nice sundress perfect for spring.........huh? Doesn't that sound nice?
Candi: yeah......*snort* ok ....
Neta: ok....
Antho is the new work child that Neta has adopted. But he has to share custody with @fish-at-fish-fish-resort
#I have a very extensive knowledge of retail work#Naomi is trans femme we stan our shy trans girl failure#Vinny is up to your interpretation idk trans femme trans masc nb Vinny is trans regardless#I don't think their location is in Japan#but the term manga has evolved into a universal term for graphic novel/ comic book/ actual manga#Antho is a big meanie!!!#Candi is going through it her first pregnancy wasn't so bad but this one 😬#Donn did not lie they actually did not have chocolate waffles#Antho and Naomi work friends yay#Toguni will appear in the next one I swear#neta
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voice in my head telling me to quit my job getting louder and louder
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really gonna need people to remember that the 49ers haven't played in sf for like a decade, they should rename themselves to be the santa clara 49ers since the bay area 49ers clearly isn't sticking.
#by all means root against them but they haven't represented the city in a fucking minute so go back to get your jollies from the new york#post's endless posting about crime and retail failure in a city clear across the continent from their alleged home base
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okay okay i'm calm. hung w friends and talked through it and everything will be fine, i know that. i am looking forward to better days
#she bork#i will be so incredible once i'm in the right line of work. nothing is ever good enough in retail and that's why i constantly feel like a#failure. i will find a place with much lower pressure and in a professional sphere where my talents and strengths can shine and my#weaknesses will be nurtured and strengthened instead of exploited and bullied. i will i will i will.#on a sidenote lol i wish i knew why i always become the punching bag at my jobs. at literally every job i've held i become a target for#harrassment and mistreatment and i'm not sure why. i'm tempted to point to myself as the common denominator but it's not my behavior or my#performance??? at least i don't feel like it is lol i will admit i have a tendency to get complacent when i'm doing work that doesn't fuckin#matter to me at all but i don't think it's to the point that it warrants like dislike and targeting lol like i still do my fucking job just#with less earnestness and enthusiasm so it's not like i'm being fucking useless. idk i guess i just have one of those faces yay me :)
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how "No one would work these jobs if they didn't have to" mfs look when wide-eyed kids at the library and target and McDonald's and construction site come at them
#maybe no one wants to work these jobs because they never pay enough#and they're always treated as “stepping-stones” or “menial” and that you have failed your life if you didn't climb up the corporate ladder#which is partly why these jobs don't pay enough#But it's also because the rich and higher-ups get away with underpaying and abusing workers#and not only that but their wealth literally relies on the exploitation of workers who have to sell their labor and pay to live#oh and also#if you work at a retail job or a cafe it's obviously because you didn't study well and you're basically a failure of a human being#nobody would want to work these jobs if they didn't have to actually
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fuck me AND my stupid baka life broski
#didn't get promotion bc im inexperienced PER USUAL 🙄#idk why im upset i knew this was gonna happen#im a failure#i dont even wanna stay in retail forever im literally in school for funeral services#need to draw vitus comfort when im not a crying mess LOL#ignore this sorry#wuvz talks
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Driving home yesterday I saw a sheriff car completely covered in the DARE logo and phrase and something about that is really funny to me especially when we’re downtown and there’s a dispensary on every street
#dare program was failure when every single person I know has at least experimented in someway#most people I know at least smoke weed regularly#and I know a good few people who end up on much worse shit#unfortunately myself included#ghost rambles#and as far as I know dare being a failed thing isn’t even just central to who I know#cause I mean everyone I know either works retail or went to art school that feels like perfect grounds to end up knowing loads of stoners#but I’ve seen posts and articles n whatever before of dare failing
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I'm 40 and I still won't apply to a job that doesn't list pay, because that usually means it's appallingly low.
#especially in retail and food service#which i assume a lot of gen z kids are applying to if they haven't started college or are working during it or don't plan on going at all#like I'm a massive failure so I'm stuck in retail#and if they don't list pay that usually mean minimum wage or not much above that#employees at my store make $11 an hour which is HORRIFYING#and i have no control over that at all#it's all from corporate#but then they wonder why we can't keep people or why most of the people we do have are uh... not great
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not sure if theres anything more shameful and humiliating than having to drop out of a class because you are failing when all the coursework is objectively easy and youve learned half the material before anyways but you are just sooo unimaginably lazy and unprincipled you immediately dig a hole too deep to climb out of in time
#anyways. i dropped my science class.#🎉#yippee.#not planning on doing much more school anytime soon. not at all unless i can squeak by in ceramics#but idk. some part of me still feels compelled to save the gpa as much as i can i guess#i feel like. theres a big dark pit in me. in my chest and my brain#maybe im blacking out exactly how i feel because i know i cant handle it right now#i graduated high school almost 7 years ago now... thats as long as i attended that horrible place#why am i still such a failure. why am i not doing anything. why doesnt screaming STOP CRYING STOP CRYING make you stop crying at all#why did i think i could do it#i feel like my whole life i thought i was some kind of rising star athlete only for someone to finally break it to me that im not very good#and then fsr after working retail for a while i was like wow this sucks maybe i Should become a professional basketball player after all!#YOU STILL CANT DO IT DIPSHIT#okay judes been here for like. god probably an hour and ive been ignoring them to have this meltdown#so im going to go smoke some weed and calm down now
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I LOVE YOU PAST MILO -current Milo nauseas head in a sparkling clean toilet I cleaned literally a half hour ago and then got too high while celebrating how clean it looked and feel sick now😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
#but yipppee sparkly clean. gonna put a little sticky toilet gel thing on the inside while I’m in here#maybe throw up if another nausea wave comes before I can stand up 😭#I had too much cereal and a lot of water at once and like. yuck yuck yuck I feel yucky high on the floor yucky I wish I was normal I need to#back off of weed a little to become a real person but also. I’d rather dig my own grave and bury myself in it alive than work a real job#like. fuckkkkkk I want to cry. fuck retail fuck fuck fuck I’m a failure wahhhhhhh I cant even handle beginner jobs#rattling the bars of my cage screaming crying throwing up why am I alive waahhhhhh okay nvm that’s too far it’s not that bad I’m chilling#the toilet is clean! look at the bright side. my therapist when I talked about like my mom maybe wanting to set a goal for working like a#certain amount of doordash hours and my therapists number she came up with was three hours and I was so happy like. she gets it. I am#exhausted just existing and she was like hmm you should work three hours a week. like. at most.#love her so much. it was probably a mistake but also. keeping it in my brain forever#imagine a three hour work week being backed up by my therapist to my mom like haha my therapist said I only HAVE to do three hours#god three hours still feels like a lot rn#like two weeks ago I dropped a salad in a tight packed restaurant and everyone watched me drop it and then walk back to the kitchen and wait#for them to make a salad so I could leave and fucking deliver the food and it was so embarassing and I haven’t done a single order since#then bc I get so anxious that I just exit the app if I don’t get an order like immediately which I haven’t yet so no orders.#I just get high. too high. and admire my cleaning work. it’s nice. I have to do the bathroom floor still. dog hair. dust. brother beard hair#my hair and bleach specks. I need to clean the bathroom fr. I’m excited I’m redecorating the bathroom in my mind and it’s giving me#motivation to clean it and I want to work more dooordash shifts (when I’m not this high) to save moneys to update my room and the bathroom#a little before the summer. just. replace air matress bc it’s low key a trigger now. so that’s fun. so buy a futon or smthing. and update#the bathroom into a thing that I like in my extra Milo type way. while making room for three ppl to share one bathroom. bc. it’s small#small bathroom for sure. but I’ll get it lookin good. add some cute decorations. maybe a candle or two. an incense thing for when I tak bath#slay. slay. building my dream bathroom in my mind and also. my Amazon wishlist land. and Pinterest land. I love making lists of things.
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