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tuliharja · 10 years ago
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I wanted to try draw something beautiful (from my mind)...I think I succeed in that quite well. 😉
Artwork: @tuliharja
Note: I’m fine with reblogging, but ask me first for my permission, if you want to repost my artwork.
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keikakudori · 2 years ago
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“  you’d accept a caress from the same hands that leave you bruised, just to feel warm.  ” / @godkilller
memes for that specific brand of ships
                 There was a weaving of sunlight in the office today, pouring in golden through the windows and slanting across the bowed head and setting golden sparks of fire to life in the tousled brown locks. The shoji doors pushed open just barely to allow a chill breeze to wash through the room, bringing with it a crisp, clean scent of further snow in the air to add to what already covered the division's grounds. Today was one of those days in which the second-in-command of the Fifth was slow in his work, slow for many reasons all his own; it would've been enough to raise questions had anyone else been there with him,him, but at the moment, he was alone in the office. His captain had vacated the area as soon as the notion of catching up on overdue paperwork had dropped out of Aizen's mouth and as for his little silver shadow... well, Aizen could sense Gin somewhere but he didn't pay focus enough to that hint of power to really place exactly where.
                 The frigid wisps of breezes slipped freely through the bangs that hung over his forehead, teasing gently at stray hairs, and Aizen simply focused in upon the brush he held. A slow day of work for already it promised to be cold and the cold ever distracted Aizen in some ways; he preferred the sharp chill of winter for many reasons. Winter, when he could slip by the eyes of others around him and never raise their notice, with the long hours of the dark there to keep him shrouded from eyes of searching hazel, eyes that would narrow at him from time to time when he was sure Shinji didn't know he was looking, the way his mouth would downturn for a moment at the corners as if he had caught wind of a smell that aggravated his senses.
                 But oh -- winter was beautiful, perhaps the most beautiful season. He enjoyed seeing ice during this time of the year and the way snow would blanket the Seireitei, muffling it, masking the blood that had seeped through it long ago. Beneath the veil of ivory powder, one could almost believe that it truly was as good as it claimed to be.
                 Almost.
                 But yes, Aizen had many reasons to appreciate the cold months of wintertime and how he might smile some days for reasons all his own -- not the least of which was the fact that he could often wear moesode beneath his shihakusho, snuggling down into the warm fabric as he pleased. It seemed to send his admirers into fits of swooning when he wore such things as these kinds of layers or when he might show up wearing a scarf that was patterned in some strange way or another; gifts from thin hands that he'd coveted throughout the years. The cold did always seem to bring out their admiration when he dressed warmly as the cold filled the air and he finally rose to go close the doors, sleeves falling back slightly from the warm fabric which covered his hands, his wrists. And Aizen was glad for that, for it gave him a chance to wear his uniform with longer sleeves, long enough to cover his arms down to the heels of his hands. He had reasons to wear the sleeves on this day.
                 So up he got, at last, moving to slide the shoji doors shut. When he turned around, Gin had somehow slipped in past him to perch in his favorite chair by Aizen's desk. It didn't surprise him to see the younger shinigami there in his usual spot, mouth curled up towards his ears at the corners and it drew a smile of his own as Aizen took him in with a single glance. He had known Gin was around since earlier, but whatever he'd been up to - visiting his classmate, perhaps - it did not bother Aizen to see that the boy had made himself comfortable as the air began warming with the circulation of a fan washing over a space heater to help fill the room with the sweet smell of camellia oil and more.
                 Today was a slow day, a day where his wrists ached quietly from the cold and from other reasons as he moved to sit down once more, staring down at the paperwork as something painful and heavy curled in his chest. It took a lot to make him ache anymore, the mornings after, but he was aching today.
                 It was not in the sense of the physical word, but an odd pang filled his chest and his throat time and time again; today, it seemed, it all pressed down on him. Aizen knew what he would see if he but slid the moesode up along his forearms and the older of the two in the office at current had no doubt that Gin would know as well, for the silver viper always seemed to know which days were the worst days when a night prior had been … busy, for lack of a better phrasing. He had seen them this morning when he'd stirred, awakened by the lingering presence of Gin at the door to his choice of room in the barracks.
                 Aizen did not speak of the dapples of blue which settled upon his wrists and while he had never expressly forbidden commentary upon them, it was seldom that his right hand - for already Gin had displaced Kaname in these last few years - spoke on them either. The brunet knew that those sharp blue eyes had ever clocked the darkened coils of skin when such nights had been involved, when it had been more use than actual, mutual want. Right then, he didn't want to speak on those marks, didn't try to bring them up at all. Instead, the elder simply moved a hand and set a plate of persimmons within Gin's reach, having absently gone to pick up such snacks earlier for the both of them.
                 Aizen had never tried persimmons before Gin had entered his life.
                 And now--?
                 Now, he was quite partial to them. So it seemed only fair to use his paycheck from time to time for such things when he knew they would be openly appreciated.
                 And yet, Gin was here, perched to his right where he usually favored to be, as if ready and willing for a hand to lift and direct him with a command. They were still learning one another and Aizen could admit that their learning was taking time for while he did not seek to reign Gin in, not entirely, he was pleasantly indulgent of him all the same. So those brown eyes turned to the youth, studying him as he found himself studied in kind.
                 Perched and observing him with a flicker of blue visible from beneath his lashes, a blue that seemed focused upon him -- or perhaps upon what Aizen had not fully revealed. Nine years since the night he had seen this youth under a spring moon, the silver moonlight on that evening  making him feel as if he were gazing upon a spirit of the forest instead of a Shinigami like himself. Whatever he had seen in Gin, he had been gleefully satisfied. Yes -- rumors abounded where this boy was concerned and Aizen had been validated in his assertions when he'd seen how easily Gin had dealt with the third seat; that fool of a man had put his hands where they didn't belong.
                 How easily ( if, it seemed, uncomfortably ) Shinji had accepted the youth, eyes flicking to where Aizen had set a hand upon Gin's shoulder, to the smile on Aizen's face, to the way they stood together. It was always easiest to make such moves if he used a person's lifestyle against them, as he'd done with the old Third Seat. The old man had been a hoarder of information, eyes cold and hard, and Aizen knew -- he knew what he'd overheard from the older man one day when he'd gone to take something to Shinji. Removing him from the picture had been a cold sort of joy and in the process, he had seen the skillset that had been promised by the paperwork included with the application to the Fifth from the boy who had come to be his own shadow.
                 So no -- he was not surprised his captain did not ask too closely, did not look too deeply, into the death of his subordinate. Two birds, one stone -- a benefit for both of them in the end. A benefit for Aizen for he had taken in the scraps of information the former third seat had curated, a benefit for Shinji because one threat to him and his public image had been removed. Aizen was not hesitant about removing threats to his captain, even if he remained one himself. Such was how it went. But he tried. He wanted and he tried. Yet trying had become such an effort of late, no matter what he did. Last night had proved one thing when he'd woken this morning; that gulf between them that sometimes seemed to lessen would never truly be bridged.
                 Aizen sighed, once, and then carefully lowered the calligraphy brush to the inkstone, dipping the pale bristles into the freshly made ink. The lieutenant enjoyed doing things with his own hands and he always had. A streak of creativity dwelt within him and even simple things like this could please him in a way and sometimes soothe an otherwise ragged mood; the precision that was demanded of his own hands made him focus on the ink strokes and far less dwelling took place where his own moods were in question.
                 Such little things, creativity; they had become a comfort for him. Making ink was one of those activities which could soothe and the dutiful second-in-command would spend his carefully curated funds on getting well-made inksticks for himself -- the older, the better. To grind them down was a ritual of sorts, and how neatly he wrote, his hand steady and his brush strokes were precisely laid out without any display of hesitation. There were such things as regular pens to be found, but Aizen was a traditionalist of sorts. He preferred the smell of fresh ink, the weight of the brush in his hand.
                 It was lighter than the weight on his wrists.
                 Sometimes Aizen preferred the quiet but today he was finding himself agitated by it, the silence only helping to agitate a somewhat surly and dour mood. The concept of talking did not appeal and there was no wind to speak of, no white noise to drown his thoughts out. Their excursions, himself and Gin and Kaname's, were starting to produce fruit. Out in the rukongai, no one cared if souls went missing. It was enough to make his lips curl with contempt in the days following the experiments, understanding that those in power did not care about the lost souls, these shinigami that he lived amongst, these individuals that were there to usher the dead along to their next stage of life.
                 There, in the Rukongai, living memories faded away slowly for some, quickly for others. But not for those like him, who'd been born into it. Silence clung to every corner of the room, every breath of air, and all the while he could feel that gaze upon him and it added tension to his shoulders. Too much silence and he was debating going to put on a record, to fill the room with the airy rippling of the jazz which Shinji had grown fond of - and, unbeknownst to him, Aizen as well - when Gin suddenly spoke up.
                 He spoke up and Aizen did his best not to freeze up for some reason he dared not name.
                 Sometimes, Gin's observations cut to the quick and Aizen's hands stilled in the middle of reaching for the paperwork. He knew it was a tell, but Gin enjoyed to test the boundaries, to see what was a button to poke, where the tender parts were. Here, in the twilight fading of devotion and something more pure, something warm and bright, that had turned sour, turned -- turned into something dark and cruel, all sharp edges and cutting notes -- Aizen truly found himself tender to such remarks.
                 So it was that he didn't expect Gin's hands to suddenly move for him, shoving up the sleeve of his uniform, of the garment he wore beneath the shihakusho, to stare at the chain that he was bound by. The links of it were rusting, rusting away, a leash he was no longer content to be held by, and Aizen took in the way those small fingers moved as if he would touch -- and his arm pulled back before contact could ensue, leaving him to reach and slide the sleeves back down. There was no need for him to look to Gin's face as he did so. It was not the first time that the little viper had seen the bruises and Aizen certainly didn't want to think about what had possibly been overheard by those small, sharp ears; but it was the first time that Gin had made such a move to bring direct attention to them.
                 Don't leave marks, he was always told. Sometimes, perhaps out of spite or some impish whim, he disobeyed that order to sink his teeth against skin and rake his nails over flesh to do that very thing yet he never strayed beyond the boundary of what could not be hidden. More often than not, lately, Aizen chose to disobey, no matter that Shinji would brush him off afterwards with a sharpness that would chew at his bones and burrow into the hollow void which dwelt in that powerful chest.
                 But the aching today was especially poignant, for he'd seen that rare softness in his captain last night, the way those eyes of olive brown had regarded him, the way fingers had seemed to brush his cheeks -- a softness that'd stirred the same feeble flicker of hope within Aizen as it always did, that maybe -- maybe this time, this time, he had begun to bridge that distance between them. And then they'd shot suddenly to gunmetal gray, steely, as the man he called his captain pulled back and away from him, turned to show his back and that long drape of sunlit hair, had flicked his hand in the way he did and oh so bluntly said that it was time for him to leave. That had been akin to ice water, a cold shock that had left the younger man still where he laid and with something much like tears in his eyes for how bluntly the words had been hurled at him.
                 Shinji pulled back and Aizen was sure, so sure, that his captain could not be so blind as to not see what the pulling back was doing to him in kind. How could Shinji not see it, not see how much his withdrawal affected the brunet every time he did so--? Perhaps that was why it felt like the bruises were far more common of late. As if his captain sought to contain him. And yet he would pull back when Aizen tried to reach out to him, even where no one else could see them.
                 Never again had the brunet attempted to repeat the one single time he'd reached for Shinji's hand at a festival that he had gone to and found his captain at. He hadn't expected it. He had only smiled on that evening, bubbling and bright, when he'd run into the older man. And then he had made a mistake. Just one mistake. He had tried to reach out for the other man where everyone could see them and that had been the worst thing he could have done it appeared; the look that had been cast his way had been sharp, a warning laden into that glance that had made AIzen's hand freeze and something cold had been crushed into his chest.
                 It had been an impulse, a desire to take the older man's hand, to take him over to a food vendor. Aizen had thought of treating him, buying him something to eat, had planned to laugh and perhaps even tease the older man. To be playful. It had been an inspiration of sorts, a whimsy that had been cut down before it could even bloom into life. He had not followed his captain immediately, busy feeling a burning shame and humiliation filling his chest and stomach and his gaze had gone to the ground. That single look that he received ensured that he'd never attempt that again. It was a lesson.
                 Only the sharp crack of his name in that accent and beckoning fingers had finally made him move at last to follow him but he had not repeated the gesture. And when they had walked by the river, out of view of others, when those spindly and thin fingers had found his hand ---... it'd hurt. It had hurt in a way he'd never experienced before.
                 Oh, it seemed that his captain would provide him with shows of affection --- but only, only, when no one else would be able to see them. Aizen never dared to use his Kyoka Suigetsu too often upon his captain; he didn't want to be subtle with him, to be hidden. But he was. Like he was --... unwanted. This was different from all those times before. The look -- something between disgust and hatred each. That was what he saw; that was something that he could never explain and something he didn't dare ask his captain about.
                 Shinji kept pulling back from him every time he thought that he might be able to lower the mask in full, to show himself, to speak of what should be changed. Surely the man could see that. Surely he had to understand. Why did children of the Rukongai have to suffer? Why couldn't they change that? But every time he tried to speak of those thoughts, eyes would narrow at him if he so much as hinted at his beliefs, no matter how innocuously he'd hint at it. So he had stopped doing that years ago.
                 No matter what Aizen did, Shinji kept pulling back from him, puling away, pushing to keep that distance between the both of them. How could his captain not see it, not see the yearning, not see what he so desperately desired and dreamed of and wanted--? A connection. Their connection to one another. He tried, tried, tried so much, tried so desperately to acquire the closeness that he desired with the man he loved.
                 Closeness. Something that so many had. So many wanted it. He wanted it but it was not something which he had.
                 A nearness between them that he could only call want, hope, desire -- born from an emotion which had curled gently in his chest for so long but now the pool from which it bloomed was going stagnant, growing rancid within him.
                 How long could one sustain themselves upon false hope, upon having the realization time and time again that no matter what they did -- it would never be good enough?
                 When he found those oft-hidden eyes of blue on him in the weeks following Gin's arrival at the Fifth, Aizen realized just what it meant for him to be seen by someone; even if the someone was a dangerous little viper that seemed eager to coil himself around Aizen's wrist, as if he would shield the skin from accumulating the bruises which were not always there -- but they were fully present today in vulgar shades of dark blues and purples.
                 How many times of seeing Shinji seem to overcompensate for those moments of seeming affection, of seeming care, only to feel something inside himself break again and again every time his captain turned away from him--? 
                 He'd found himself snared by an arm before he could leave for perhaps the older man had seen something in his face that'd produced a retroactive sense of guilt for what he'd said about how it was time for Aizen to leave, for it was rare for Aizen to be the first to leave the blankets which would become tangled from their intimacy, had been dragged back down to the futon for a time and had made his escape later to his own quarters once the older man had fallen asleep. There, the man who wore that badge had laid down and slept fitfully, restlessly, tossing and turning and waking up again and again in starts of awareness and had not truly gotten any rest whatsoever. 
                 So he sat there now, sandy-eyed, head pounding, staring down at his own wrist where it had been exposed before his eyes lifted to Gin. How long could a resource be tapped until it was no longer available--?
                 Gin had not been here for the bulk of their -- whatever they were to one another. Not lovers nor partners. Whatever Hirako Shinji and Aizen Sousuke shared, it was nothing so kind nor romantic nor respectful -- at least, not from the older man, no matter how much his adjutant tried over and over and over to make it be otherwise. Aizen had worked himself to the bone, it felt like, to make his captain look at him, to let him in. He had thought if he had been perfect, if he did everything right, if he was just good enough--- if, if, if.
                 But he wasn't good enough, was he? He wasn't good enough and never had been.
                 Because, if he was good enough, if he was enough at all--- ... then wouldn't Shinji have wanted him? Wouldn't that man want him, if he was good enough? But he didn't. That was the thought that kept curling through Aizen's head. He wasn't good enough. How Aizen tried to excel in everything he did, working late, taking on his captain's paperwork; everything he tried to earn that attention.
                 He was never good enough.
                 --- who would ever want a man who wasn't good enough?
                 ❝ -- I don't tend to find myself very warm anymore where those hands are concerned. ❞ 
                 He had spoken at last, breaking the silence which had dropped heavily into place between himself and Gin. Gin understood him where others did not -- he asked questions, saw what even Kaname missed. Kaname, who was afraid to disappoint him, to speak against him, who used him in kind as Aizen commanded him in turn. 
                 ❝ … I don't think i've felt warm under their touch in a long, long time. ❞
                 Gin seemed content to wait, to let Aizen speak at his own pace, his own rate. That was perhaps one thing Aizen adored about this young man. That Gin was content to sit back and allow Aizen to collate his thoughts, as if waiting to see what answer he would get to his questions. Even as Aizen's fingers moved to curl over the fabric, he found his mind turning things over. He wanted to keep that man and he wanted to break him. Break him the way he'd been breaking the brunet down over long years. He wanted to make him hurt and there were so many thoughts and ideas of how to vent out that slick viciousness that had been building for years.
                 A rage, a pain -- pain, from something that could have been so gentle and warm turning dark and vicious. What did it take for him to be seen by a man he wanted to see him in turn--? What did it take to make those eyes look at him and truly behold him--? He had allowed the mask to slip from time to time, watching the way the gaze which landed on him would take in the teeth, the claws. Only a brief showing of them. Only brief. And yet he would be called in to keep him warm.
                 All Aizen felt now was cold.
                 Cold, cold, cold -- cold from indifference, cold from distance. Cold, when once those hands had warmed him. Oh, true - his body responded to them. He was well-trained. He knew what looks meant, the way a hand might move, the slow curling of fingers to beckon him closer, closer, to come close and dip to press mouth to mouth, as the hands would lift to fist into the locks of brown were he on his knees. He knew. He knew what look meant to bend and what meant to kneel, what meant for him to lie back or roll over or -- he knew. Just as he knew the rule: don't leave marks.
                 How absently Aizen tugged at the fabric now, the fingers of his opposite hand curling into the warm fabric as he stared into the distance. Something dark wrapped in his mind snarled in the wake of what he said. Rage that made teeth itch to sink into flesh.
                 ❝ … I think, Gin … it's time we begin to move things along. The timetable. … I find myself curious to see what will happen next. ❞
                 And he did not see the souls that would fall under the sway of his Hogyoku. He did not see the potential for other shinigami to fall in its wake. His eyes looked ahead, forward -- towards a back that was thin. He knew where the muscles of that body were at their strongest, upon his back and abdomen. How well he knows the feeling of that body against his own, the scars his fingers have touched to for years upon years. Of how it could tense, of how he was never sure if Shinji would see how he would hunch in on himself more and more, head bowing to hide the burning in his eyes -- not of glossy wetness but something else, something he yearned for, craved, something he needed to feel.
                 How could his captain not see it--? How could he ignore it--? But Shinji was not here now. Meetings today, leaving the second- and third-seat to play captain and right hand. A precarious thing, that. Aizen filled that role easily. So did Gin. As if they were already woven together, but Shinji did not seem to pay heed to it.
                 ❝ --... I think it is time to begin seeing just how far we can push things and see if the experimentations will win through or not. And I think... ❞
                 His fingers drummed once over the surface of that desk. A desk where more than once, he'd had a thin frame bear its weight down upon his own, a frame his legs knew the slotting fit of, the frame where he would find bruises upon his inner thighs when it could be rough. But not always. He remembered when Shinji had been gentler. Almost kind. It only made him want to swallow now, to find himself besieged by doubt -- even now. Even now. But the doubt was a small thing compared to that obsidian sharpness that scraped through every vein; he had been hurt. It made sense to employ hurt in return. He knew the weak points. He knew how to apply pressure to them. And if his mouth curled into a cold, sharp smile whilst his eyes narrowed behind his glasses, he didn't seem aware of it.
                 ❝ I have the perfect candidate in mind. ❞
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james-silvercat · 3 months ago
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(Repost because tumblr ate the tags and the original doesn't appear on searches)
This is a deceptive little thing, a goddamn polar bear, out and about in the warmest day of summer stealing your beets, it would wear a jacket if it had one. This thing is just not equipped to withstand it's own frost sac and you are going to hunt this thing with the wrong element weapon at first when they tell you it deals frost damage
Like to milk him reblog to get horn stabs and chest lacerations, tell me what you think this boygirl's equipment looks like
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adorpheus · 4 months ago
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Recipe: Supernatural Devil's Trap Demon Proof Cherry Pie
Hello, tumblr family. Below is a repost of an article originally posted on adorpheus.com, and is being shared here for archival purposes. Original post date: Circa 2012.
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You know what's pretty cool? Fandom food things. I came up with this Supernatural themed cherry pie a few years ago. Here's the recipe I came up with.
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(sugar free, gluten free option, vegan) I make it up as I go along for this pie, so the measurements are approximate. Use your own discretion, you culinary genius, you!
For the crust we used Namaste Foods Biscuits Pie Crust and More Mix. We followed the directions for pie crust, except we substituted the butter with Earth Balance (the stick kind) and the egg with a flax "egg". You can use a pre-made pie crust if that behooves you.
For the filling
2 ten ounce bags of frozen pitted cherries, preferably organic (about 4-5 cups). Obviously you can use fresh cherries too, but do YOU wanna remove the seeds from 4 cups of cherries?
1 cup of water
1/2 tsp of sea salt
3 TBSP (or more to taste) of Stevia Baking Blend Powder, Coconut Sugar, or other dry sweetener
1 TBSP of organic cornstarch
For the Devil's Trap Again, I was winging it here. This also made way more chocolate than we needed (we ate the rest like fondue and dipped banana slices in it).
1/4 cup cocoa powder
2-3 TBSP coconut oil, melted
Stevia or other sweetener to taste
(You can also melt some vegan chocolate chips if you don't want to make your own chocolate sauce from scratch).
Method
Preheat the oven to 350f/176c. Make the pie crust according to the package directions if you're not using a pre-made crust. Put the bottom crust into a greased 8-inch pie pan.
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To make the filling, combine the first 4 filling ingredients in a saucepan over medium heat. Cook until the stevia or other sweetener is dissolved and the cherries are defrosted, and the water is boiling a little. Add more water if necessary. Once its boiling, add in the cornstarch and whisk until thickened. Pour the cooked filling into the bottom crust and prepare the top crust while the mixture cools. Add the top crust when ready.
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For the devil's trap, I etched it into the top crust with a knife prior to baking (above). We used this image from Super-Wiki as a reference.
Anyways, after that we put it in the oven until it looked done. Probably about a half hour, but I wasn't really paying attention. You bake it until the crust is browned a little and if you can see any of the filling, it should be bubbling. Before decorating with chocolate, set the pie aside to cool for at least 45 minutes. Especially if you're using coconut oil, you don't want the pie to be warm at all because it'll melt the chocolate. After the pie is cooled off, assemble all the chocolate ingredients in a saucepan and heat over low until the coconut oil is melted. Whisk them together to form a chocolate sauce. I used a knife to carefully (painfully) draw the design by dipping the tip of the knife in chocolate and drawing along the lines I had etched in the crust prior to baking. This was tricky and not that fun. If you have a better method for doing this, go ahead and try that. Let the chocolate cool. Eat.
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gaystims · 1 month ago
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By the way, this blog may become reblog and repost heavy for a little bit. This is because we've been trying to archive posts from recently deleted stim blogs. Original gifs will be mixed in, but given that we have over 400 drafts (which we will be going through today) it's unlikely that there will be that many in the grand scheme of things. As a bonus we will be upping the q to 4 or 5 times.
Also we now have a new tag which is 'eaten posts' referencing any GIf of ours that tumblr ate in its most recent glitch.
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lexyscross · 1 month ago
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Kirsch family headcanons! 💕 (Pt. 2)
(Reposting this in parts because Tumblr changed their shit and won't let me edit the original post now.)
All of them were upset when Richie told them he was moving to California (they’re from the Midwest, so that’s way across the country), but Quinn especially, who yelled at him and then stomped up to her room, slamming the door shut. Ethan just sat on the couch, pouting with his arms crossed, saying nothing. (Richie, of course, knew why he was going, but he couldn’t give them an answer other than that he wanted to, which is probably what hurt the most. It felt like he was just abandoning the family; that he had his own life now and was ready to move on from them.)
Once Richie moved to California, he FaceTimed/Skyped/whatever with them all of the time. Like, almost every day. They certainly texted daily. A lot of memes and stuff like that, especially between Quinn and Richie.
I don’t even- ...I don’t even know how to describe what it was like when they got the news that Richie was murdered and was involved in a killing spree in California. It was... it was sad is all I know. I imagine they were all home together when they got the news. They were definitely breaking down, mixed with denial. Wayne fell to the floor and sobbed once it hit him; his first baby was gone. Quinn practically had a panic attack right then; in fact, she probably did. And Ethan simply shut down; he just stood there against the wall for about 10 minutes, wordless, showing no reaction, staring at nothing, likely in a state of shock.
Ethan had a bit of a Roman Roy moment at Richie’s funeral. If you know, you know.
Wayne was so deep in his grief that the kids (more so Quinn, the Eldest Daughter™/now Eldest Child™) had to start taking care of him, making sure that he ate and got some sleep.
Quinn and Ethan saw the pictures that Wayne saw of Richie. I have varying theories about this that I enjoy, but all I know is that they saw those pictures. Did Wayne show them the pictures to motivate them? I like to think he tried to keep them from seeing them, but the man was so far gone in his devastation that who’s to say?
Wayne was so sleep-deprived that, when Ethan came to visit him in his office (home office, not at work) before bed one night, standing in the doorway, Wayne accidently called him Richie before realizing and correcting his mistake. He apologized, and Ethan just said it was okay. He wanted to be upset, but he knew it was a simple sleep-deprived mistake; he also knew that it had to be hard for his father to look at him and not see his first son.
Mom/Wife didn't want to talk about Richie after the funeral. She wanted to pretend that he'd never existed. Furthermore, she became cold (or colder, since he sounds like he really hated her in the script) toward Ethan because look at him. How was she supposed to forget her eldest son when her youngest looks and acts so much like him?
When Wayne brought up the revenge idea, and Mrs. Kirsch refused, freaking out and all (as one would do), Ethan knew they had to get rid of her, and he was so angry that she would betray Richie like that. He stormed off to the kitchen, grabbed a large knife, came back to the living room, and just stabbed the shit outta her! All of his rage toward her and about the entire situation just poured out. Quinn and Wayne were in shock. I have no idea how they handled that afterward.
Wayne actually misses his wife, which is why he still wears his wedding ring.
On Richie’s first birthday after his death (which would also end up being the only one they’d be alive for), they “celebrated” with a small chocolate cake (his favorite) and blew out the candles together. 🥺 (Richie is a September baby, to me. A Virgo.)
(Part 1)
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absolutebl · 2 years ago
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Ai’ with Aye & Akk - The Eclipse & Thai honorifics
hazmatilda asked: (and tumblr ate it so I’m reposting)
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So I went down quite a rabbit hole with your bl linguistics Tag (thanks for that, 3 hours of reading when I should have been sleeping or working on my masters thesis for Wednesday :/ ), and I am riveted. I started watching Thai BLs with bad buddy when it was airing, and have watched most of the ones that have aired since then and now working on the backlog. I love linguistics, and have been noticing the different personal pronouns etc in Thai especially, so it was really cool to see that all laid out in your posts! The third person one is particular is quite special to me, and I wish it existed more in English and German. It's very frustrating being a genderqueer person living in Germany because non gendered pronouns don't really exist, and when they do it's quite niche and hard to get others to use :/
I couldn't agree more. I've grown to have real affection and love for Thailand's pronouns.
I also adore the way in many Asian languages we can just say our own name for the "I" pronoun. So much harder to forget someone's name and ALSO  you're consistently reminded of what it is and how it shoudl be pronounced.
Just so you don't have to deal with my terrible (and hugely erratic) tagging system, I do have a language post meta guide (master post round up) just in case you want to rabbit hole some more: 
BL Language & Culture Master Post (mostly Thai) 
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Back to your question... 
Anyway, my question is, I noticed in The Eclipse the Ai' prefix (particle?) used between the boys, which you mentioned is not really used in BLs often, and I wanted your more detailed take on the way that Akk changes in his address of Aye in this regard, especially over the last couple of episodes. Is he being particularly rude?
Ai is an honorific originally used between peer/age mates/equals. (Like Phi or Nong.)
But now, depending on the stress/emphasis it carries different connotations including affection (Akk & Aye), insult (Ae & Pond in Love By Chance), annoyance/exasperation (Leo in Don't Say No), or pleading/whining (Fiat in Don't Say No).
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Is he being particularly rude?
Yes but also, no. He's being... rudely affectionate? He's changing the boundaries of their relationship with, what amounts to, what I'd call an “insult honorific or mode of address.” (Common within peer groups, particularly marginalized ones. See gay & masculine identified use of "bitch" in late 90s early 2000s queer culture, particularly in North American coastal cities.)
So amongst some of my queer friends, regardless of gender or orientation someone will often yell, "Hey Biiitchesss!" Technically an insulting term, in this context, a friends honorific among peers and a way of identifying oneself and ones friends as different from the surrounding social morays.
Back to Ai'.
It seems mostly used for relationship emphasis these days (friendly intimacy, of a jocular/teasing nature), and almost always among peers. I think of it occasionally as an insult honorific.
In California the word "dude" is often used for this. "Seriously, dude!?" when someone cuts you off on the FWY. "Hey, Dude" to a friend you meet for lunch. "Awe, Dude, that's rough" affection/sympathy. And so forth.
I haven't watched Eclipse in a while so I can't speak to the bit your actually referring to. So there may be an additional use pattern in play, but Ai is an interesting honorific, in that it's one of those that isn’t always, or even often, entirely honoring. So to speak.
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I do talk about Ai quite a bit in this post: 
Why Ai'Hia was so funny in Cutie Pie
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Never let me go also seems to be playing with the formality a lot, due to the class differences, which is cool to see. I'm sure the changing register and formality will play into PalmNuengs speech as the show progresses hehe.
Sorry for the ramble! 🧡🧡🧡
No apologies for rambling needed here, since I’m ruler of rambletown. 
Yes it’s very very fun to see. You also get this a little with RainPhayu in Oh My Sunshine night (young high class seme + older servant uke), and a TON with Ae & Pete in Love By Chance. 
If you haven’t watched it, I would highly recommend that one. Pete talks almsot entirely in high formal register and Ae in low. It’s a great way to train your ear for the two different registers. There’s no spoiled prince dynamic, so it’s an entirely different play on a class difference than NLMG. They are one of my all time favorite pairs for many reasons. Language is one.
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All the best and I hope you keep enjoying yourself with BL and the linguistics! 
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b1adie · 1 year ago
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ARCADIA ANGELVIRUS xxiv × mirror pronouns × aro lesbo
… or just ari, or cadi…
this is a sideblog, main is a secret ^_^
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FAQ;
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(any lore question)
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can you make a gif/edit/glitter of this?
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why didn’t you answer my ask yet?
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(worm theory) actually the noblesse worm died because it had so much knowledge so ratio cant be—
he’s a new worm. aha’s second worm. and, the first worm didnt die because it had too much knowledge, it died because aha took its power away.
do you ship (xyz) / how do you feel about (ship)?
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this thing you said was incorrect!
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you tagged a post with (character) but they’re not in it!
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i’ll add more as i think of it…
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ncisjes · 5 years ago
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One Last Time
PAIRING: TIVA
Rating: A really light M. It’s in there but you can skip if you want.
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The door swings wide as the room key flies across the air, sliding across the table, and eventually somersaulting to the floor.
What a day.
Attempting to multitask, Tony feels out the lamp on the side table and somehow manages to turn it on without knocking it over while removing his suit jacket. He really did not understand the need to get dressed up and go to dinner, but Senior insisted they needed to break the monotony of eating room service every day. Even though the exhaustion from the past two weeks was starting to really wear on him, Tony reluctantly agreed to go out and have an authentic Italian meal.
Tali looked beautiful in the velvet maroon dress they had bought for her earlier that day. It was all smiles and giggles as she made art with her spaghetti. A handful of noodles in each palm, she decorated the table, the floor, Tony’s face, and even the waiter’s jacket with red sauce and pasta.
If Ziva were only here to see this.
Tony was grateful that Senior had agreed to keep Tali in his room for the night to allow Tony to get some much-needed rest. After a bath, singing lullabies, and tucking in Tali with her keh’lev, he walked mindlessly to his suite down the hall.
The nights were the worst for him. Only when Tali had drifted off to sleep would he allow himself to break his playful dad demeanor and let his mind race and wander to Ziva. At first, he felt lucky if he was able to sleep, but the dreams of her seemed to be even more encompassing than his thoughts. No matter how many times he thought or heard or said she was gone, it still felt like a knife to the heart each time.
Letting out a sigh, he began unbuttoning his shirt when suddenly the air thickened and every hair on his body stood at attention. Someone was watching him from behind. Before he could turn around to see who it was, a hand clasped over his mouth in a vice like grip and another forced a dagger against his throat. Reaching for the SIG he no longer carried, Tony quickly scanned the room for an object to use as a weapon. Warm air caressed his neck as his assailant began to speak.
“When I let you go, please try to keep your voice down.”
His whole body goes rigid at these words. He feels the release of the knife first and then his mouth, and for a moment he can’t bring himself to turn around.
Could it be?
Their eyes lock when he turns to face her. Time stops, and every emotion he has been burying the past few days washes over him. He can’t move. He can’t speak. He can’t breathe. His mind is racing with thoughts, but he can’t quite seem to grasp them. It’s almost as if he is waiting for her to disappear again; for this all to be an illusion. Slowly shutting his eyes, Tony takes a deep exhale knowing this moment will be over as soon as his eyes open. When she is still standing there, his mouth seems to move on its own.
“Ziva…” he whispers.
She gives him a small but begrudging smile before responding, “Hello, Tony.”.
They stand in silence for a few moments more as Tony is still in disbelief that this is happening. It really doesn’t seem real until Ziva asks, “Where is Tali?”
She already knows the answer.
His eyes study her as he responds. “She’s down the hall. With Senior.”
Ziva’s face falls a little as she wrings her hands.
“I wanted to see her, but perhaps it is better this way.” She lets out a weak smile, knowing that this request was more selfish than beneficial.
“Look, Tony, I know I have a lot of explaining to do…” She starts to say as she makes her way towards him.
Tony doesn’t let her finish. In a flash, he closes the gap between them and wraps himself around her. Their lips meet as he pulls her entire body against him. His hands entangle themselves in her wild curly hair. Ziva responds by enclosing her arms around his torso. The kiss is filled with so much fervor that it is almost painful.
Wanting to feel every inch of her, Tony’s lips skate across Ziva’s jawline to her neck, then just below her ear making Ziva moan. Continuing his amorous assault, he kisses her neck down to her chest to the cup of her bra before removing it along with her shirt.  He begins to move them toward the bed, undoing the button and zipper on her pants in the process. Ziva finishes the job of unbuttoning Tony’s shirt, and quickly shucks it off before pulling his white undershirt over his head. Pushing her back on the bed, Tony yanks Ziva’s pants off, taking her panties with them, and deposits them haphazardly on the floor. Making quick work of his belt, button, and zipper, he drops his pants and boxers. Giving a swift kiss to her center, he slides into her waiting heat.
Staring down at her naked body bathed in moonlight, her hair splayed across the sheets, Tony begins to slowly thrust. Their eyes lock once again, saying everything they verbally can’t express. Ziva wraps her legs around his waist and lifts her hips to meet him. It doesn’t take long for them both to tumble over the edge. Tony collapses on top of her, breathing in the scent of her hair. Ziva wraps her arms around him, hugging him tightly, never wanting to let him go. They lie there silent for a few moments, skin pressed against skin, matching each other’s breathing.
The air seems to change as Tony withdraws and rolls over beside her. They both stare at the ceiling. The tension is palpable in their silence.
“You could have told me.” Tony says before he stands, squatting to pull up his pants. He walks across the room to retrieve his shirt.
Sitting up on her elbows, Ziva watches him move around the room, confusion etched across her face. They are going to do this now?  She knew it was coming, but she expected things to go in a completely different order.
“I know.” She whispers, not making eye contact. Her demeanor showed her remorse.
“You know?” Tony asks in disbelief.
Feeling vulnerable laying naked before him, Ziva gets up and quickly dresses. Running a hand through her wild hair, she finally meets his eyes, seeing the anger in them. She takes a deep breath before beginning.
“I know you must be upset Tony. I know the past few weeks must have been difficult with everything that was shoved onto your plate. That is why I came here. I believe I owe you an explanation.”
“An explanation?” He scoffs. “You kept our daughter from me for two and half years. You apparently faked your own death and sent her to me without even a phone call. It better be one hell of an explanation, Ziva.”
“Tony please. Keep your voice down.” She pleads with him. “’Faking my own death’ as you put it, was not my doing. There was an opportunity, and we had to take it. Of course, I did not want you to find out this way. If Orli knew I was here…”
“This is all her doing then? Did she tell you to keep Tali from me as well?” He seethes.
“No, the opposite actually. Not telling you was my choice.” Her face falls again, wringing her hands to control her emotions.
“Why Ziva, why wouldn’t you tell me?” Tony questions exasperated at this point.
“Because I did not know how!” It was her turn to yell. She begins to pace the room. “What was I supposed to do, call you up and say, ‘Hey Tony, I know that I said wanted time to figure things out on my own, but I am pregnant, and I need you?’ That is not me!”
 “You’re right. It’s not, but I had the right to know you were carrying our child!” He shouts back. Her stubbornness breaks as she turns away from him.
“You do not understand.” She whispers. Tony begins to ask her what he doesn’t understand, but she holds her hand up to silence him. “When I found out I was pregnant with Tali, I was still dealing with everything. Leaving NCIS, the pain and hurt I had caused people, letting you go. I still was not alright, and when you went back to DC everything just seemed to go back to normal for you. You got a new team member who seemed to mesh seamlessly. You were dating. It felt like your life picked up without me right where you left off. I did not want to take you away from that.”
“That wasn’t your choice-” He starts, but she silences him once again.
“I know that, but I also knew what I needed to do in order to feel safe and secure with my child. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be a mother Tony, but when I found out I was pregnant I knew I did not want her to have the same childhood as I did. Never knowing when, or if, Abba would come home. Not being able to interact with him when he was home because he was either still working or too stressed and tired. Missing school because there was a threat against him which put my entire family in danger. I did not want that for our daughter, Tony.”
“I would have given it up in a second if that is what you wanted.” He responds, the contempt in voice beginning to fade.
“Would you? Think about it, Tony. If I had returned to U.S. and stayed home with Tali, would you really have left N.C.I.S?”
Tony knows she’s right. He wouldn’t have.
“And even if you did, you would resent me for making you leave the job you love. You needed to make that decision on your own, the same way I did.”
“You are probably right, but even so that did not give you the right to keep her from me.” He crosses his arms and turns away.
“You are right. It is a decision I shall regret to the end of my days.” She says softly, her eyes filling with tears.
The silence falls between them again as Tony stares out the window at the rain and thunder that color the evening sky. Ziva stands rooted in her spot, waiting for him to speak.
“So what now? You’re off to save the world on some secret Mossad mission and you need me to take care of her?” He questions with disdain.  
Thrown completely off guard by his question, Ziva’s face contorts with confusion. “What?” Is all she can muster before her fury sets in. “Is that what you think? That I sent you Tali for some mission?”
“I don’t know what to believe.” He says curtly when he turns to face her. “Hell, a few hours ago I thought you were dead. A few weeks ago, I didn’t think I was a father. A few months ago, I thought you were in Israel still trying to find yourself, but boy was I wrong! So, excuse me Ziva, if I really don’t know what I believe right now!”
He turns to stare out the window once more. Staring down at her hands, Ziva begins to wring them together in another attempt to reign in her emotions. After a few steadying breaths, she begins to tread lightly towards him. She stares at his profile from behind, committing it to memory as she had done so many times in the past, before enveloping him in a huge hug from behind. Tony tenses for a moment, expecting some form of pain as Ziva usually resorted to when she really needed him to listen. When all he felt was the warmth of her body pressed against his, he allowed his arms to overlap hers, his palms holding her in place.
“I cannot change the past Tony.” She croons softly in his ear, when suddenly the air shifts once more. Tony turns and wraps his arms around her and pulls her tightly against him.
“I thought I lost you.” He whispers to her, his voice breaking. His hands tangle themselves in her hair once more as the soft tears fall from his eyes. He kisses her chastely, and Ziva feels the wetness on her lips.
“I know.” She whispers to him, their foreheads pressed longingly together.
“I came looking for you.” He says firmly.
“I know.” She allows herself to smile and laugh. “Eshel told me. He said you vowed to search every end of the earth until you knew I was longer on it.”
“I did. I may have been inebriated at the time, but deep down I didn’t really believe you were dead. Just didn’t feel right. No body, no crime. I had planned to keep looking for you until…” His voice began to trail.
“Until? You decided to stop looking for me?” She pulled away to study his face.
“I would have spent the rest of my life searching if it meant one day I would find you, but Senior said something to me, and it just made sense.”
A small pain stabbed her heart at Seniors dismissal, but she wanted to know what prompted this, so she asked, “And what did Antonio DiNozzo, Senior, say to persuade you?”
“He reminded me of how it was when my mom passed, and while he didn’t literally look for her, he looked for in every figurative sense of the word. Alcohol. Drugs. Sex. Women. Money. It wasn’t until he stopped looking, stopped trying to fill that void, that he was able to heal, and in turn I was able to start to heal.”
Ziva stared into his emerald eyes. She had seen them so many times before, but now they carried a little more pain and a little less sparkle.
“I didn’t want that for Tali, so after doing some soul searching and losing it for a little while, I decided to let my desire to find you die in Israel. To leave your memory in peace.”
Ziva stared down at the floor, not realizing the emotions her death would bring about in her own inner being. Tears begin to fall down her cheeks as Tony cupped her chin.
“Hey,” he calls, breaking her from her reverie while he thumbs her cheek back and forth. “It didn’t work. Even here I still look for around every corner. I don’t think I would have ever stopped looking Ziva, not really.”
“I know.” She laughs once more. Looking up at Tony as he brushes her tears away, she begins to tell him the real reason for her visit. “I knew you would never stop looking, which is why I knew I had to come see you.”
Tony’s eyes bored into hers as he stood up a little straighter, realizing this was important.
“When I did my soul searching after my father’s death, I went to apologize to people to I had hurt in my time at Mossad as I had told you the last time we saw each other. It was in doing this, that I made my presence known to people who thought I was dead. People who wanted to hurt me because I had hurt them. By trying to right my wrongs, I instead put a target on my back, and possibly yours and Tali’s as well. When I realized I was pregnant, I stopped making these pilgrimages and focused solely on my health and well being for the baby. Tali was about 18 months old when Orli began to get word that someone was looking for me.”
“Who was it?” Tony questioned.
“I do not know.” Ziva responded shortly.
“Well, where are they?” He continued.
“I do not know that either.”  
“Well we have to tell Gibbs, and Abby and McGee can help too and-” Ziva cut him off by placing her hand over his moth before he could continue.
“Tony, that is what I am here to tell you. I do not want anyone’s help. I brought this upon myself and I will finish it myself. Your help is not necessary.”
“Ziva you are not going to do this alone, how many times do I have to tell you, you are not alone in-”
“TONY!” Ziva yells, cutting him off for the final time. “I know that I am not all in this world, but my world consists of people I love and I would like to keep it that way! If I wanted to put Tali in danger I would have kept her with me!”
The lightning strikes and it is almost as if it illuminates the lightbulb in Tony’s brain. Tali. How would they protect Tali? He quickly scans through the people in their lives that he could trust to keep her safe, but no matter how many solutions he came up with, Tali would never be safe because she was the one key to hurt them both. Ziva could almost see it click in his mind on why she came to the conclusion she needed to do this on her own.
“When Orli started to hear traffic that someone was looking to kill me, she helped me dodge them by having Mossad say my whereabouts where anywhere but where I was. I was spotted all over the globe, but when they figured out that all these leads came up with dead ends, they came looking for me in Israel. Orli found out only hours before the attack was set into motion. Luckily we had a contingency plan in place.”
Tony stared at her, sensing whatever she was about to divulge was very difficult for her. “I knew it was time for me to send Tali to the one person I knew would protect her the same way, if not more, than I would… and that person was you.”
Ziva buried her face into Tony’s chest as she began to sob uncontrollably. Tony could not imagine what it was like to have to say goodbye to their daughter. He had only known her for a few weeks, and he could not fathom spending more than a day without her. He held Ziva tightly, kissing her hair and whispering to her it was okay.
“That is why I am here Tony. I need you to promise me. Promise me that you will not come looking for me. Promise me that you will keep our daughter safe. Promise me that no matter what they say they will do to me, you will protect her at all costs.
Ziva began to sob again and all Tony could do to comfort her was to repeatedly say I promise as he held her close. Rocking her back and forth gently, his own tears began to stream down his face as he realized he would be saying goodbye to her once again.
“I don’t want to lose you. Not again.” He whispered to her hair. Ziva looked up to him through bloodshot eyes and smiled a soft smile.
“You will not lose me Tony. No matter where I am, I am always with you. That is why I sent you my necklace, to give you a sign that I am still here and I am still fighting, for us.”
Tony cannot help but kiss her. He cups her face as their lips touch, and he feels her breathing hitch. Grabbing her by the hips, he lifts Ziva up and she wraps her legs around his waist. He carries them back to the bedroom. Depositing her onto the bed, he climbs between her thighs and begins to kiss his way up her body. Reaching the top of her shirt, he begins to unbutton it slowly, making her watch with hesitation. Once he is done, he kisses her belly, silently wishing he had seen her pregnant. Ziva reads his mind and gives him a small sad smile, but he wipes it away with a deep kiss. They take their time with each other, teasing and tempting one another closer and closer to the edge. They make love for what seems like hours, wanting to savor every last moment together. Ziva rides him to their release, screaming Tony’s name and collapsing on his chest.
They lie there together, coming down from their highs when the air shifts one last time. The realization that she must go hits them like a ton bricks, and neither says anything in hopes that it will prolong their time with one another. Laying with her cheek pressed to his chest, Ziva begins to draw circular patterns on Tony’s left arm. His right-hand skates down to small of her back and begins to do the same. They lie there in silence enjoying the others touch, very well knowing it may be the last time they feel it.
After some time, Ziva comes to her senses and lifts her head just enough to say, “It is going to be light soon. I must get going.”
Tony instinctively wraps his arms around her to hold her in place. Even though he knew this was coming, it is still so hard to let go. “I wish you would stay.” He says softly to her hair.
“I cannot.” She says with great pain in her voice. We’ve been through this.
“I know.” He whispers.
When Ziva moves to get up, Tony lets go without hesitation. Feeling an immediate loss when he withdraws from inside of her, Ziva moves to sit at the edge of the bed for a moment. Letting out a large sigh, she begins to dress, locating each item of clothing strewn across the room. Tony follows suit, wanting to properly see her out. When they both are fully clothed, he takes Ziva between his arms and holds her. Kissing her hair, he vows to himself this will not be the last time he does this.
“Take care of our girl.” Ziva says as she looks up at him, and Tony kisses her deeply to confirm he will protect their daughter with his life.
Ziva eventually pulls away, her mission calling her to return to the safe house Eshel had set up for her. They do not exchange I love you’s or even goodbyes, because deep down they each know how the other feels and hopes this will not be the last chance to say to one another.
With her hand on the handle, Ziva takes one last look back at Tony, smiles, and says, “Hardest 180 of my life.” Before slipping through the door without a sound.
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The next morning, Tony wakes to sunlight streaming through the windows, illuminating the room with warmth. After a quick shower he heads down the hallway to Senior’s room where Tali is playing with the blocks they bought her in Israel that have the Hebrew symbols. Senior has already ordered breakfast for the three of them and is preparing Tali’s pancakes when Tony walks through the door.
Was it all a dream?
When Senior smiles and asks, “Did you have a good night son?
Tony knows it couldn’t have been.
FIN
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anwenevergreen · 3 years ago
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It wasn’t falling. It was growing.
As she traced through the hostile maze of thorny vines and voracious tendrils of Mordremoth’s realm, she realised how fitting it was that her own heart was ensnared in an evergrowing hold, coiling like ivy and tightening with every moment under the canopy.
It wasn’t falling. It was growing.
Seeds planted one by one with every little moment - small attentions, whispered encouragements and lingering glances, stolen in the heat of the battle – blossoming and reaching towards a gentle light, burying roots into her soul till it smothered her and stole her breath away.
It wasn’t falling. It was growing.
A bitter harvest of battles lost and lives forsaken. A weight pulling at the strings attached on her heart with every fearful night and every vengeful wake. A scream growing in her chest and dying in her throat with every nightmare. A sorrowful pride leaving a taste of salt on her lips and a burn on her lids with every testimony of their sacrifice.
It wasn’t falling. It was growing.
Short-lived relief when her friends were rescued, a vision of Nightmare averted at the tip of her sword, slashing through the blighting pods. Shallow satisfaction at being a thorn in the dragon’s side. Profound unadulterated dread at the thought of everything she still had to lose. Guilt and despair when there should be joy and relief. The bitter taste of defeat in the midst of victory.
A thousand sharp thorns clawing at her. A thousand blighted branches slowing her advance. A thousand cruel tendrils quartering her heart as they mangled him.
It wasn’t falling.
A vertiginous drop, a chasm gaping like an open wound to the Heart of Thorns, a fall she would gladly take if it meant saving him.
It was growing.
Embers flaring into a searing brightness burning away the remnants of doubt and reducing the shadow to cinders.
It wasn’t falling.
A darkness remaining, beckoning him to succumb.
And raging against the cries and the roars of the Dragon, a call more beautiful.
“Our fates are bound together. I’m not leaving without you.”
And I will chase it back to you.
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willwriteforruns · 5 years ago
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Favorite Female Characters - Vera Claythorne from And Then There Were None
Vera Elizabeth Claythorne, that you did murder Cyril Ogilvie Hamilton.
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gothamopossum · 5 years ago
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Dips & Drabbles: M&M
More shenanigans featuring Stolas’s bathtub from my previous post.
Full disclosure: I’m probably going to turn this (bathtub scene) into a series (henceforth called Dips & Drabbles) that will also feature some members of the Hazbin cast
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thatwritingho · 5 years ago
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Edits for the prettiest tensai's birthday!
Happy Fuji Day!
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foamimi · 5 years ago
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Heyo!! To any CC artists, creators, or whomever is in search of  some inspiration, may I suggest checking out...
♥ ♥♥ the old Club Penguin wigs archive! ♥ ♥ ♥
there’s a ton available to look at throughout the website. this is just a small fraction of what’s there regardless of the fact that some are duplicates (mainly just recolors of one another). the majority come with additional pics, too.
I realize it’s Club Penguin of all places, but hey who knows, they may help spark some creativity in one form or another!
idk if this kind of thing meets the requirements by any means, so feel free to ignore if not ;; just thought I’d tag on the off chance it did @maxismatchccworld​
direct links for the ones previewed under the cut
Row 1.)
The Dark
The Electric
The Curly Lochs
Row 2.)
The Rows
Unnamed Pink and Black Wig
The Masquerade
Row 3.)
The Wave Washed
Blue Sweat Band
The Striking
Row 4.)
The Chief
The Willow Wisp
The Cinder
Row 5.)
The Flow
The Aquamarine
The Strawberry Braid
Row 6.)
The Secured
The Enchantment
The Stomping
Row 7.)
The Too Cool
The Chic
The Summer Jam
Row 8.)
The Rocker-chic
The Styled Messy
The Right On
Row 9.)
The Blue Ombre
The Replay
The All Star
Row 10.)
The Firey Flare
The Short & Sweet
The Glamorous
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shishiikura · 6 years ago
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@shimamineweek Day 2 - “Why are you like this?”/School/Beach
Ageswap AU anyone? 
The classroom door slid open, and Hatori looked up first.
“Oh Minegishi? What are you doing here?”
“I left my book here,” a bored yet smooth voice and the rustling of leaves shook Shimazaki from his looping thoughts. This person had an aura, just like himself, like Touichiro and Hatori and the rest of the council. An esper’s aura.
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sturdydenimblue · 6 years ago
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musings on Barry’s character (p2 of 3)
On the topic of Barry being super calculating…lets talk about what he’s bringing to the table skill wise
Dude’s got a solid penchant for mind control and possession, reflected in his relic. It really is kind of His Thing- in fact it’s specifically what Lucretia is worried about the red robe doing:
If they… if they do some sort of mind control on you, and they figure out what we’re doing here with our operation, that’s- that’s the ball-game, boys.
There are these recurrent themes here of Control. Whether it’s bodily taking someone over, casting command or straight up necromancy. All of his stuff is generally about taking control over uncontrollable situations. The actions of other people or, y’know, death itself.
Which feels a lot like a fun manifestation of Barry’s chronic anxiety. Constant sensations of helplessness being translated into a proclivity for genuinely spooky and ethically dubious magic is super fucking cool. I love it. I love this poor nerd.
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