#rena rambling

[rencoons-trashcan]

He means the world to me you have no idea...

(wanted to post this as an extra for the Valentine's day drawings, but could't have finished it on time X,l)

[Also lil' rambilng about the man under the cut hehe]

Even tough I love and adore all my skrungly wunglies so much, there's something about Sans that none of the other blorbos can do and it's that he would be the only one who could actually get to know the real me/ my true-self (I sound crazy lmao but if you know what I'm talking about/mean here you'll get me).

Like, with the other blorbos I HAVE to make self-insert "ocs" trying to make stuff up so it makes sense in the timeline or the story of the media (yeah, even though it doesn't look like it I do that when selfshipping but I never post about it lmao), but here with Sans I can fully insert myself y'know? Also the fact that literally the game is aware that IT IS A GAME makes it easier to trully feel yourself as your own character there, taking part of everything and making interactions a bit more personal.

All that stuff, the closeness you feel and imagining this man accompanying me through so many things makes him so important for me, like a good old friend that you've known all your life, even like some sort of personal guardian (even tho his ass canonically is lazy as fuck to be something like that, but he did have that promise with Tori to protect Frisk/the player after all, right?).

To sum up, I love this man so much and he will always mean everything to me ;;w;; <3<3

[renah]

Post cancelled, I have polls now

it took them only 20 days to give me polls, now look at my daughter Natalia

[purpspencil]

how writing miraculous characters with religious backgrounds then the crazy religious guilt and existentialism they experience after finding out about the existence of magical god creatures who can give them unnatural superhuman powers got me looking like:

[bitter-hibiscus]

Shane tried tripping Jason again..

this is specifically jayrena art from my fic series :)

[bisxualbucky]

i am not a marvel fan. i am a stevebucky fan. in my heart and mind it is still 2015 when all the fanfic writers contrived 100,000,000+ good and satisfying endings to steve and bucky's story, post-catws. those are all canon to me.

[hanajimasama]

-insert ‘Egao Happy Peace’ song here-

This is the most ludicrous thing I’ve ever made. Needed somewhere for my Higurashi/Umineko badges. Made Rena’s hatchet into an ita-bag!! It’s what Rena would want.

I love this so much. It’s not done yet but the front of it is XD

[renaroo]

Maybe I’m just a notoriously cranky gay lady or something, but there’s something really weirdly funky about how an officially published reference book like today’s DC Book of Pride comes out and without much fanfare has some curiously sanitized edits of many important character’s histories.

These histories are often messy and difficult, but being honest with them serves two purposes. For one, the characterization and history in-universe of the character are built off of those things, you don’t understand things like Hartley Rathaway’s decisions and quirks without knowing how being gay and negative reactions to him being gay shaped him.

On the other hand it’s also vital many times to real life queer history -- these stories become little parables of the struggle of this community over time. We become attached to these characters and stories because through the mess and the pain, we see our own struggles and capacity for triumph. Kate Kane being kicked out of West Point for living her truth, Renee Montoya going through the harassment and terror of being forcefully outed -- those aren’t just the character’s stories, those are our stories. We get comfort and encouragement out of them.

But maybe even more importantly and downplayed right now because it’s all but hidden inside the text of the reference book itself is the fact that they have, out of nowhere, seemingly completely retconned the family history of Alan Scott, Todd Rice, and Jennie-Lynn Hayden. 

Alan was not aware he had children. Their mother, without Alan’s knowledge, put Todd and Jennie both up for adoption. They both endured a lot of trauma and pain as a result that completely altered the course of their lives and, especially for Todd, is VITAL to understanding his character and behavior once the narrative picks back up with them in their teenage years, when Alan finally meets them. 

It’s also, by the way, why they all have different surnames. 

But apparently, out of the blue, this reference book has decided to inform us that this history no longer exists? This is DEVASTATING for Todd’s history in particular. I’m not sure how to reconcile this?

idk man. If you’re going to be a reference book, maybe make sure you’re clear about what the continuity of everything is first?

[themonotonysyndrome]

While it's all good that Prince Renae will be off having his adventure with Tigress, we know the life of a Crown Prince is filled with expectations. Expectations that his wife is already chosen for him.

But what if said wife or betrothed is role-playing as a lady-in-waiting for a certain Baroness? Wanna make it more scandalous? Serving for a Household known to hate your fucking guts.

So here it is! The new oneshot for Castin and Celica with Ain Pandora, the Baroness' rival and future Empress of the Coastal Empire via marriage to Prince Renae!

[d011zk1ll]

I have very strong opinions on the Heros season 6 designs and I'm not afraid to share them.

Let me start this off by saying, I do understand that It will look better in motion!! I am extremely hopeful this is the case and I don't necessarily distrust that this is the case, and actively wish it to be. I've seen the clips so far and they're gorgeous (Alya's bob omg <3333) so i do hope it looks better in the actual show. I love this show, a lot. Like a lot a lot, and this isn't any form of hate just my opinions!!

Okay, lets go left to right with what we've seen so far hero wise.

Carapace!!

You know what? I don't hate it. He looks a younger than before but then again, they're only 14/15 so hey! I like how it didn't change that much, and i like the additions. They kept the hood and googles, the pattern is similar and all together they didn't change him much. They could have done more, but with his shell this will look pretty nice! And i love the way part of his suit juts out for texture difference!! 2. Ladybug

It's not that bad. I do think the spandex is still weird, and wish she had some cool jacket and it doesn't seem like she has actual shoes (some combat boots would be FIRE) but i like the black. It's different but not overwhelmingly so and her hair being a bit longer reminds me of the anime PV ladybug (who was still quite awesome). Her iconic ribbons and her gloves reign supreme. I wish she could have some extra layers or cool textures but compared to the following two she isn't all around that bad.

3. Chat noir

Wow. I know he's a twink but wtf guys. That's not even his face shape he looks so strange. His hair looks tamer which i hate so much because he's supposed to be wild and scraggly. AND THEY KEPT THAT GOD DAMN BELL. It's pretty much the same, but TWINKIER??? And i'm a twink, i love the twink vibes but they fucked him up SO bad its painful oh my god. Why. Please. I do not like Chat's design his face shape is really putting me off. :((( BUT it will probably grow on me. I just hope they don't fuck up felix :(((

4. Rena rouge

Look. I love her. She's gorgeous. But. Wow. I cannot belive they made her skinny. as a chubby person, i want her to be like, back to how she was as ALYA in season 1-5. I'm so upset they didn't keep her body shape it's so upsetting. I hope they don't do anything like this to Mylene. Other than that, i love her. Her ears are so cool, pointy and almost look like a bow. Her hair looks gorgeous, stunning, beautiful. It's so cool. I love how they kept her suit similar because i've always adored her suit. I like the white palms and her flute looks a lot nicer now. The only qualm i have with her really is how they made her skinny.

I had to add this in there, just because i love it so much, Look at her hair oh my god. Short hair Alya is something I never knew i needed and they kept her clothes similar <33333 (I adore her outfit as is) gosh i cant wait to see her.

[renarots]

McLaren if you fuck the 1-2 up tomorrow at this point I’m not out for blood I’m gonna invoke the highest known trauma on your strategy team

[onelastskip]

Do you have any songs that you associate with any of your OCs or your keyframes and our life mcs?

NEAAA HI BELOVED MOOT!!! (ignore the edit i definitely dont refer to you as ember in my head)

and to answer your question YES ABSOLUTELY!!!

for rena (olnf) the song I associate the most with her auto-sabotage by last dinosaurs

and for chi (keyframes) it's between my teeth by orla gartland

and if you want even more than that I actually have playlists for the both of them!!!

[rencoons-trashcan]

Even though I made this blog mainly for posting my self-insert/self-shipping artworks, I also had in mind to use it for saying out loud random thoughts of mine- but man, it's really hard for me to do that.

I wish I could just write down and post stuff that I think about at times, it looks so easy when seeing other people do it and man I wish I had that ease to do it as well, even if it's just reblogging something with a silly goofy ahh comment.

Like, I could perfectly end up doing a monologue for myself in my room saying well structured thoughts out loud feeling as if was my own youtuber or something like that making gestures and everything as if I was talking to a crowd and when I get to finish having those moments I think " that was cool, maybe sometime I should try making a post about what I was rambling" but at the moment that the monologue ends all the ideas and stuff that sounded cool or nice are completely gone from my mind (and the fact that my mind goes too fast to be able write down all my thoughts and my bad memory don't help much)

Maybe I just got too used of not being heard while I speak or having my ideas/comments being completely ignored or shoved away and that's why I end up just having speeches on my mind and not being able to word propperly these thoughts when trying to say them out loud.

But the only thing I guess I can do to help me ease a bit about doing this stuff is starting to do it from time to time (when I can of course lol) to try getting better at it as well as having more confidence to do it and, well, this post could be a nice first step. (I hope so, but yeah- don't expect me to do it often or anything like that, that's why I kinda prefer having always the ask box open since ppl can directly ask topics that they're interested in hearing/reading x,d)

[renah]

If I had a nickel for every time the drummer from an anime based off a 4koma manga about highschool girls forming a band became my favorite character... I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice

[hearts4renaa]

i love being known. i think that being known and remembered is the ultimate way i know that someone loves me. i recently was given an arizona tea by a good friend of mine yesterday and i didnt even need to ask for what flavor i wanted. they just knew to get me the peach one. feels silly, but i am so loved and i see it in the form of metal cans of arizona tea.

[bitter-hibiscus]

read all of the issues with Rena in it for my fic except I forgot that DC doesn't like it when women have personalities or last names. I could've not checked anything and still have written a perfectly fine characterization of her because SHE HAS NONE

[bisxualbucky]

thinking about the medal ceremony scene. and how as each person gets their medal, it flashes to the reactions of their family and/or their s/o.

and. ok ok ok when tommy gets his medal, we get buck’s reaction. and then buck gets his medal, and we get EDDIE’S REACTION?!????????? (which coooouuuullld mean nothing I GUESS) and then it’s eddie’s turn and we see marisol and chris.

anyway I am and will always be a pining eddie truther!!! love love bucktommy of course they’re beautiful wonderful amazing show stopping etc. AND at the same time i look at edmundo and i see a deeply closeted comphet man who is Suffering!!!!! get him out get him oooouuuuuuttt!!!