#remade this bc the previous one was shit

[dapper-lil-catgirl]

ever feel sad about the abhorrent state of the gaming industry resulting in franchises or game companies with a lot of success and promise dying with a whimper. Stuff like arkane studios, who had some of the best modern immersive sims of all time, dropping a shitfest of a game and so many of the employees quitting. We will never have another dishonored or prey. Stuff like wolfenstein who had returned to its peak absolutely shitting itself to death with young blood in a game that broke all of the style of the previous ones and built with nothing on an awfull gameplay loop The fallout series is becoming a parody of itself. Fallout 76 was a fucking scam. We got older examples like dead space 3 being utterly counter to the previous games and shitting on its own legacy. it had a fucking love triangle on it. and literaly only is making a comeback bc it remade the good original first game Payday 3 tried basicaly nothing new and generaly just wanted to be the same as the previous one, with a fresh coat of paint that really doesnt shine brightly enough. With less content than the previous one, inherently unoriginal. and uninteresting (i cant fucking believe they didnt make a heist game in the dystopic future where you kill robocops. jesus fuck what a wasted oportunity) or even my least favorite case, borderlands games, which literaly is were best looter shooter in a genre thats pretty damn empty, utterly destroyed every aspect of its universe with god awfull writing and flanderization of the setting and its characters, there is nothing to look forward to about the series and my goodness its a dissapointment. Like, this is just a few examples off the top of my head. but what the hell, man. Anyways, there's a lot of really good games out there, specialy on the indie scene; im having a real good time with them, i just wanteded to highlight a couple of fucked up cases i thought of. sheesh the industry is odd.

[namtanlovesfilm]

a ranking & summary of my thoughts on gmmtv 2024 part 1

pluto: this is my everything already. A GL??? with two of my fave actresses film & namtan??? AND a complex, interesting plot??? I'm obsessed already!!! this looks so good I'm so happy it's happening & it will become my whole personality once it airs!!!

the trainee: I genuinely believed, even with the rumors that off, gun, view, kapook & sea would be in a show together, that we wouldn't get an offgun show this year. AND I WAS WRONG!!! is this what it's like to always fucking win??? like genuinely, my ship is THAT ship, I'm so lucky & happy and I love them so much <3

peaceful property on sale: duuuude, this looks so fun??? I was already hooked when I saw new's over the top character, but a ghost haunting show with taynew, jan & mook??? absolutely incredible! this looks ridiculous & I know I'm gonna love every second of it!

my golden blood: bruh, thank goodness I was warned about jossgawin in advance or I might have had a heart attack, but honestly????? THEY ATE THAT! and mond playing the villain????? babe, that casting is incredible & perfect, I'm obsessed!!! I usually don't like supernatural stuff but I was also a teen wolf fan bruh so atp I'm gonna EAT that shit UP!!!

wandee goodday: you might not know it, but I have a super power. every time I start being a fan of someone who hasn't done bl, they do bl the following year. this year it was nonkul, and next year it's gonna be great sapol. AND I LOVE THAT FOR ME!!! this looks really good & fun, the characters are interesting and the story not too crazy or too basic. I can feel that it's gonna be good!

ploy's yearbook: a female-led show & the return of mond as a main??? BLESS!!! I love most of this cast, this looks fun as hell, I adore my gmmtv girlies... gotta watch this for sure! love seeing earth in more roles outside of his ship too!

enigma 2: I still haven't watched season one, am planning on watching it very soon, but I've heard great things so I'll be sure to catch season two as well! especially since I really liked toey jarinporn in the recent lakorn to the moon and back so I'm excited to see how she does!

my precious the series: as you know I've watched the movie in theaters, but I'm excited for it to be out as a series too, especially since there's extra scenes! seems like it might be even more lovable, and also if it's on gmmtv's youtube channel I'll finally be able to gif the iconic scenes :')

high school frenemy: this looks interesting & I like sky, but I feel like the plot doesn't make sense if it's not a love story... idk I feel like since this is adapted from a kdrama it's just gonna be a frustrating story that should be a romance but is reduced to bromance instead... I might still watch though :')

only boo: this looks kinda cute though basic. I don't know both main leads but might watch it.

we are: this has all ships I like, especially marcpawin & aouboom who deserve more spotlight, so I will be watching, but the plot seems really basic so I'm not expecting anything out of this world...

kidnap: this plot seems interesting but the cast isn't so... yeah.

summer night: I was so confused by who is supposed to be with who in the show lol, honestly I was down for dunkphuwin lmao, but this looks too messy for me :')

my love mix-up: I absolutely despise remakes even though I enjoyed kieta hatsukoi & like geminifourth, and although I'm certain this version will fix the chemistry issues of the original, I'm not gonna be watching it.

ossan's love thailand: same thing as for the previous show but even more so bc ossan's love is such a product of its time & shouldn't be remade in 2024 imo...

[eemcintyre]

Random thoughts I had during my fifth viewing of the cinematic masterpiece "Cocktail" (1988)

Well... more like my 5 2/3 viewing bc I got like 2/3 through it and then my mom was like "why didn't you tell me you were gonna watch it, I would have wanted to watch it too" so I lied about how far I was through it "there's still a lot left we can start it over" and I watched the same movie almost twice in a row in the span of a few hours :)

"Wild Again" by Starship is one of the only good songs tbh, although "Addicted to Love" and "When Will I Be Loved" are also pretty alright. But the soundtrack is lowkey horrendous imo

I stand by my previous standalone post- no one has ever been that excited to get on a fkin Greyhound bus

Benefit of the bus, however- the scene with him and the baby; I feel like Tom just vibes really well w kids because he's such a smiley, fun, and chaotic lil guy and gREAT now I have baby fever again thx 💖

Oh the blatant plot exposition about his parents that they beat us over the head with oh-so-subtly

Oh the foreshadowing throughout that is even less subtle

One of my favorite quotes in any movie, bc it makes me feel better about my life being in disarray and not knowing what to do about it, I guess, is the “Most things in life, good and bad, just kinda happen to ya.”

Tom's still got his high little baby voice 😩

Even as a college graduate, the interviewing scene hits way too hard 🥲😩

Someone needs to acknowledge that the Red Eye looks like the most disgusting thing

Wish the dress shirt and tie fit had been featured more because it does things to me, but the scenes contrasting his first and second shift at the bar are when I first developed TC brain rot and fell in love w that lil goofball

I can’t judge the girl giving him the "fuck me eyes" bc have you seen him, plus she’s showing restraint compared to what I would do tbh

The adult learners usually drove me nuts in my classes (which I know is terrible but shhhhh) but I felt so bad for Sheila Rivkin

This professor really thinks he’s doing standup comedy or smth

Honey don’t put your face on the subway stairs that's arguably more disgusting than a Red Eye

The timeline of this movie is pretty hard to follow tbh; much as I adore it, you never know every time a scene changes whether it's been two days or like 3 months

What the actual fuck was the whole yuppie poet thing about- it's like when I used to watch those 60s Frankie and Annette movies where the weirdest shit would just happen for no reason and I felt like there was some social commentary or inside joke or smth that was just going way over my head that, if I had existed in that time, would have just been like "oh yeah that makes total sense"

The amount of raw sexual energy that this man exudes- I remember someone's post from a while back that was like "why is Cocktail like a 'mom' movie that all the moms are still obsessed with" but just like imagine if you saw this in theaters when it first came out

The only man allowed to wear beach shirts and look sexy, change my mind

I've always thought Elisabeth Shue is so incredibly underappreciated as an actress, smth about her line delivery and expressions just seems very genuine and naturalistic idk

She just orders “a beer” WHAT KIND???

So scary tbh how much he was becoming like Doug even being apart from him for a while

The side eye and shade Jordan gives Doug in this scene cracks me up every time without fail

The reggae singer absolutely popping tf off in his silver lamé suit ✨

Brian and Jordan both pulling the “I’m not like other girls” lmao

Sure she’s lowkey a manic pixie dream girl but I still love her

WATCH THE ROAD WHILE U DRIVIN THE CAR BRIAN 😤

If this movie was remade in modern times (God forbid) Brian would 100% be one of those guys with a hustle culture boss up motivational entrepreneur Instagram account. And Doug would perhaps be one of those cringy creepy pickup artists that talks about low-value women and compares them to horses and thinks he can mind-trick them into falling madly in love w him

If someone was waking me up early every morning to drink carrot juice I would commit crimes

The artist guy who made that exhibit looks like the oiliest man I’ve ever seen

Jordan’s dad says “bartender” like it’s a slur

When Brian tears up the check it always makes my lil heart just 💗💫���� the character evolution

Why did I only have this thought on my like fifth viewing of this movie, but I wonder if he hadn’t escorted Kerry back to her apartment if he would have gotten back in time to save Doug, and then who knows what would’ve happened bc then he wouldn’t have felt compelled to tell Jordan how much he really loved her and ask Pat for help and all that

WHEN HE FIGHTS EVERYONE OFF TO GET TO JORDAN what can I say, I'm a sucker for grand and melodramatic romantic gestures and proclamations of love

The teasing and singing along at the wedding is getting a little too real guys stop making this awkward 👀😬

I don’t care how unrealistic the end is, and that in real life they would have 100% soon gotten divorced, bc I want to believe that people can change and that all of the tribulation was worth it + enough for Brian to become a good dad/husband and successful but with it not being above and at the expense of his family; he would be such a fun and chaotic dad and their life would be so hectic w twins but I want to believe they could do it :( it comforts my cynical and depression-addled brain to believe they could do it :(

[striveattemptfail]

it's my 10 year anniversary for this blog, so sure, i'll bite~!

this is actually my third blog account—i made my first one back in 2010 when i was 15 and just started my sophomore year in high school. i made some friends via facebook and they introduced me to tumblr. that blog lasted for less than a year and i remade into another account by september 2011.

and then i just never left 😅😂

while i kept using my personal blog, this specific account i made in august 2013 originally as an archive to all the artwork i was making. i meant for it to be a portfolio of sorts bc i was heading into my fifth year in high school (long story) and was about to start applying for post-secondary and art schools. i wanted a hub for my artwork that was separate from the whining nightblogging weird shit general shenanigans of my personal blog, so i created this one.

once i eventually started college, this blog morphed into a place where i dropped anything i wanted to keep separate from my personal account, from gifs and edits to prose writing to tumblr themes.

and then for the past year this just became my main blog lmao. i liveblog, shitpost, and occasionally share actual work here, but for the most part i now treat it like my previous accounts where i have fun with blogging.

and it's been pretty great~! 😌💙🤍

How did you find tumblr?

I really enjoy talking with tumblr users so I thought I'd try posting more prompts to get some conversations started.

I was in a nostalgic mood this week and was trying to remember how I first came to tumblr. It got me thinking that it would be cool to learn other's origin stories. I'll go first.

Even though I'm a big nerd who loves Star Trek (DS9 4 life) and Anime (Fairy Tail forever) it was WordPress that brought me to tumblr. Back in 2010 while in college I worked part time for a WordPress theme shop called Obox Themes. They were looking for new markets and decided that tumblr themes would be a good area to get into. I fell in love with how easy it was to modify my digital home and how there was a whole community of people hacking and releasing themes. Creating a WordPress theme from scratch would have been impossible with my skillset then but with tumblr I could do anything with my handy CSS guide and a few energy drinks.

Over the years what kept bringing me back was the themes. They were funky, weird and sometimes a little broken but who cares. It seemed like the entire web was trying to be grown up but tumblr was Toys R Us, they said it’s ok to be a kid. I loved that. Whenever I felt like I didn’t belong anywhere else I’d come back to tumblr and make a new theme (https://www.tumblr.com/themes/by/nick). I use to love clicking on the installs and seeing what kind of fun folks were using my stuff. What kind of people liked the weird stuff I did. It's your turn. What brought you to tumblr?

[malteseboy]

translated from @funwithlanguages‘ post

Maltese verbs do not have an infinitive form, verbs are shown in the past 3rd person singular masculine.

to be

the present form of “to be” in Maltese works with the personal pronouns and they act as the verb also!

I am - Jien(a)

You are - Int(i)

He is - Hu(wa)

She is - Hi(ja)

We are - Aħna

You are - Intom

They are - Huma

there is - hemm have - kellu do - għamel go - mar want - ried can - seta’ need - kellu bżonn think - ħaseb know - af say - qal like -  għoġob speak - tkellem learn - tgħallem understand - fehem

Conjunctions

that (as in “I think that..” or “the woman that..”) - li and - u / w or - jew but - imma because - għax / għaliex though - għalkemm so (meaning “therefore”; e.g. “I wanted it, so I bought it”) - għalekk / allura if - jekk

Prepositions

note that some don’t have a fixed translation, and are mostly fused with the definite articles & personal pronouns as part of the grammar rules

of - ta’ to - għall- from - minn in - fil- / ġo at (someone’s house for example) - għand at (a time) - fil- with - ma’ about - dwar / fuq like (meaning “similar to”) - bħal / tipo for - għall- before - qabel after - wara during - matul

Question Words

who - min what - xiex (if you want to say for example “what boy?” add the suffix x’ to subject word: x’tifel?) where - fejn when - meta why - għala / għaliex / għalfejn how - kif how much - kemm which - liem / liema

Adverbs

a lot - ħafna a little - ftit well - mela badly - ħażin only - biss also - ukoll / wkoll very - ħafna too (as in “too tall”) - wisq too much - iżżejjed so (as in “so tall”) - tassew so much - ħafna more - iktar / aktar less - inqas as.. as (e.g. “as tall as”) - daqs most - l-iktar least - l-inqas better - aħjar best - l-aħjar / l-aqwa worse - agħar worst - l-agħar now - issa then - imbagħad here - hawn there - hemm maybe - forsi always - dejjem usually - normalment often - spiss sometimes - kultant / xi drabi never - qatt today - illum yesterday - ilbieraħ tomorrow - għada soon - daqt almost - kważi already - diġà even - anke enough - biżżejjed

Adjectives

those with link change depending on gender and amount

this - dan that - dak good - tajjeb bad - ħażin all - kollha some - xi no - ebda any - xi many - ħafna few - ftit most - aktar other - ieħor same - l-istess different - differenti one - wieħed two - tnejn / żewġ a few - ftit first - l-ewwel next - li jmiss last (e.g “last Friday”) - l-aħħar last (meaning “final”) - l-aħħar easy - ħafif hard - iebes hard (difficult) - diffiċli early - kmieni late - tard important - importanti interesting - interessanti boring - mhux interessanti beauiful - sabiħ ugly - ikrah big - kbir small - żgħir happy - kuntent sad - mdejjaq busy - għandu x’jagħmel (lit: he has stuff to do) ready - lest favorite - favorit new - ġdid old - qadim right (meaning “correct”) - korrett wrong - ħażin true - veru

Nouns

everything - kollox something - xi ħaġa nothing - xejn everyone - kulħadd someone - xi ħadd no one - ħadd Maltese - Malti English - Ingliż thing - ħaġa person - persuna place - post time (as in “long time”) - żmien time (as in “I did it 3 times”) - darba friend - ħabib (m) ħabiba (f) woman - mara man - raġel money - flus country - pajjiż Malta - Malta city - belt language - lingwa word - kelma food - ikel house - dar store - ħanut office - uffiċċju company - kumpanija manager - maniġer coworker - kollega job - xogħol work - xogħol problem - problema question - mistoqsija idea - idea life - ħajja world - dinja day - ġurnata year - sena week - ġimgħa month - xahar hour - siegħa mother, father, parent - omm, missier, ġenitur daughter, son, child - bint, iben, tifel (m) tifla (f) wife, husband - mara, raġel girlfriend, boyfriend - għarusa, għarus

More Verbs

work - ħadem see - ra use - uża believe - emmen seem - deher come - ġie love - ħabb leave - telaq return - irritorna give - ta take - ħa bring - ġab look for - fittex find - sab receive - rċieva buy - xtara try - pprova start - beda stop - waqaf finish - lesta continue - kompla wake up - qam eat - kiel drink - xorob happen - ġara feel - ħass create - ħalaq meet - ltaqa’ ask - saqsa reply - wieġeb read - qara write - kiteb listen - sema’ remember - ftakar forget - nesa choose - għażel decide - iddeċieda be born - twieled die - miet kill - qatel live - għex stay - baqa’ change - biddel help - għen send - bagħat walk - mexa dress (put clothes on) - libes desire - xtaq dream - ħolom ride - rikeb smile - tbissem win - rebaħ lose - tilef dance - żifen sing - kanta open - fetaħ close - għalaq gather - ġabar

Phrases

hello - ħello bye - ċaw thank you - grazzi you’re welcome - ta’ xejn / m’hemmx imniex excuse me - skużani sorry - jiddispjaċini It’s fine (response to an apology) - tinkwetax / mhux problema please - jekk jogħġbok yes - iva no - le okay - owkej my name is - jien jisimni what’s your name? - x’jismek? nice to meet you - għandi pjaċir how are you? - kif int? I’m doing well, how about you? - jien tajjeb/tajba, u int? sorry?/What? (if you didn’t hear something) - xiex? how do you say _? - kif tgħid_? what does _ mean? - xi tisser _ ? I don’t understand - m’inhiex nifhem could you repeat that? - tista‘ tirrepeti? could you speak more slowly, please? - tista‘ titkellem iktar bil-mod, jekk jogħġbok? really? - vera? I guess that - naħseb li It’s hot (talking about the weather) - xi sħana It’s cold (talking about the weather) - x’bard

[cringelock]

as promised, here’s a brief write-up of what arwel said during his keynote at the depaul pop culture conference! 

the pilot being remade like it was is extremely unusual for most television. also, he said that the design of the original 221B was supposed to be more victorian, with more references to previous adaptations. however, it became clear that what made sherlock excel really came out in the truly modern moments, so they updated 221b to have a more modern and lived-in feel

they switched out the wingback chair from the unaired pilot because it made over-the-shoulder shots basically impossible

he showed the coveted 221b floorplan but i don’t have the spatial brainpower to remake that lol

he also showed lots of bts pics and some raw footage of establishing shots filmed during series 3 which was sooo cool

there was a pre-production meeting specifically about what phone sherlock holmes would have. arwel said there was no way sherlock would have the newest iphone (derogatory), then moff made a face and pulled out...his brand new iphone.

multiple people questioned arwel’s choice of the iconic wallpaper! he said it was a win for him that it became so iconic :)

when making TAB’s 221b, they wanted it to be a victorian version of arwel’s 221b, not a rehash of previous victorian era 221bs. also, he pointed out how the kitchen became a study...painted scarlet ;)

john’s chair is actually janky as fuck, with broken springs and stuff, but martin freeman wont let anyone come near it to fix it!!!

fun easter eggs in molly’s flat - they decorated with some taxidermied animals to represent the presence of death in her life, but balanced that with some plants to symbolize life/growth, bc death isn’t her whole life

the production team actually got the same or less budget to work with for each subsequent season, and really had to stretch it to keep upping the quality!

he called sherrinford the “bond villain lair” lmfao

he’s about to start working on something new - another book adaptation, with a woman showrunner

the venue in TSOT actually has white walls, they painted them yellow for the episode

he mentioned people giving him too much credit for incidental easter eggs, ie kitty’s wall

he put a bunch of broken printers and shit in 221b because he thinks sherlock wouldnt bother throwing something broken away, just shove it aside and get another one

he talked about the elephant in the room thing, saying people misinterpreted him, but this time he said the elephant in the room came from an actor saying his work is so good that no one notices or something??? which was NOT his story before 

one of his fave moments from making sherlock was when he first brought mofftiss into the 221b set and they couldnt stop touching everything

he said he wanted 221b to feel like “a den, a safe place to go on adventures from”

AND MOST IMPORTANTLY!!! he said that everything from set is in bbc or hartswood storage bc “you never know!” but then he made an oh fuck face and hurried to say that this was NOT a confirmation of series 5, bc if he said that, “I’d be shot!”

[screamydreamy]

new suicide squad is actually pretty good. not sure how I feel abt movies that are tremendous failures can just be easily remade couple of years later with an even bigger budget. brute force franchising..

bc that what it is, it's a remake. Idris Elba's shooty guy is Will Smith's but better. Rick Flag is back and is also better. Shark guy is as one dimensional and ultimately useless as killer croc but has some heartfelt moments. highlights go to Ratcatcher and Peacemaker. John Cena's character is actually really well done.

In this movie for some reason Amanda wallers techy staff are like, quirky millennials which is weird bc this is supposed to be cia black ops shit and I'm a pretty sure she like murders her previous ones in cold blood in the last movie.

also idk about anyone else but it's really, really obvious when a movie is gonna have a bit where someone dies really suddenly and gruesomely for comedy. it wasn't really that funny when it happened in deadpool 2 and this movie does the exact same thing for the first scene of the film except I guess it actually makes sense in plot since the first team is a distraction for the real one instead of just some dumb five minute long joke. it still does it later in the film so yeah it gets tired, especially when its moved past expendable joke characters into one's you like. nothing sadder than having an actual character you enjoy and have spent time with and thinking "he's going to get crushed in an comedic moment" 15 seconds before it happens

other than that it's good. Like it's predecessor, it asks the very major question of, isn't the justice league around for this?

[jamsofdeath0]

Having it in Silver and Gold second games was pretty cool. playing through the game and then the post game is just the previous game but slightly different baller.

I can give leaf green and fire red a pass for being the firsr remake. the original games were kind of bad, don't come at me, it's just a fact of life. so having a mostly faithful remake on slightly better hardware with less bugs nicer graphics and more post game is fun. One could argue they should have waited one more console generation to really make a better game. But then they'd have had to compete with SoulSilver and HeartGold another game with the Kanto generation and an objectively better games than whatever they'd have come up with.

speaking of Canto being in soul silver and HeartGold is also fine because it would have been weird if they remade the Johto games and cut half the game.

Lets Go is the first one im like "are we suuuure 'bout this?" Bc I get wanting to use a pre-existing region for the gimmick spin off. and I get they think they can nostalgia bait people who haven't played Pokemon in a long time with the Kanto region. let's go is a game for casual fans and people who weren't even fans of Pokemon. (just pokemon go) but I do think they should have picked a more interesting region. or to really lean into how much you can do with the switch hardware and made Kanto beautiful. but then if they had gone too hard and let's go it would have upstaged the main line game. which the mainline game for let's go being sword and shield it already did that. because they were both pretty half-assed. let's go just has the benefit of being more unique for being a spin-off.

Lets Go is also the last use of Kanto as of now. one might say "what was the point of the original post if you don't even think it's that big of a deal kanto was used as much as it's been used"

Well the point is there probably going to keep doing it. and it's probably only going to get worse because the pokémon company doesn't give a shit about quality control with their games. and by the time let's go came out it was already too much Kanto. let's go could have been a really cool game even if it was set in the Kanto region if they were just willing to make it a "home console game". I'm not saying they had to change the gameplay. but it really should have been a second coming visually of the gamecube games. if they had put kanto in a 3D space (that actually looked good and like a new gen game) it would have made this old world interesting.

they really need to stop remaking Kanto because there's only so many times you can play the 2nd worst pokémon map before you realize how dull it is. and this is not an insult to pokémon or even Kanto. it being the first region means it's a good thing it's one of the worst maps. but it being the first also means people keep trying to nostalgia bait it without taking the risk of reconstructing the map to be more interesting.

[starryburglar-archive]

2019 was a weird year

In many ways, it was a weird and hectic year. IRL I was just all over the place with my studies and stressing A LOT over them, I was taking two classes again that I had failed last year and I feared during the entire year that I would somehow not pass again and it made me feel like the worst. On top of that, I still owed a final from last year and I only had one last chance to do it and do it well, otherwise, I’d have to re-do that class again. I took fewer classes than usual but somehow felt more overwhelmed, stressed and tired.

On the other hand, this was the year where I got to hang out and spend my Winter holidays with my best friend, the person who helped me grow during my late teen years and gain a new perspective of life, something that I still value and treasure to this day. I got to hang out with them and talk in person, not just via our phones or through social media, and it felt wonderful, magical and special.

This was also the year where I remade my blog to have it be more clean, precise and, most importantly, only follow people who I know will get interactions, new and old. I loved my previous blog but it was bugging me a lot just how messy it was plus the tags plain sucked and my old icons are poo-poo garbage. I’m still in the process of having better and cleaner icons ( and it will take me A LONG TIME ) but to think I have a blog that I feel happy with, a space where I feel safe and where I finally decided to prioritize my needs first and stop being afraid to say no when I felt uncomfortable or not interested felt... Well, good.

There are many people who I wanna thank for making 2019 a tolerable and not-shitty year but some people deserve special mention.

Lazy, aka @kindcstguardian : my best friend and the person who shaped me the most and helped me overcome many mental obstacles and shadows. I wouldn’t be who I am if it weren’t for you, I’m so happy to have been able to spend my college break with you in person and I’m super mega excited to go to your place this time around and suffer the heat with someone who also hates it like me. Honourable mention here to Martu / @muselobby for being the one person in control of our shared brain cell and for being the actual responsible adult, teach me your ways senpai (?)

Monie, aka @heartruths / @oceanamed / @techedevil : one of my biggest meme friends out there. We’re both somehow equally active or not even here but for different reasons and yet we continue to talk and joke and meme every day via discord. I still feel so grateful to have met you and for you, being one of the first people to have welcomed me into the Disney fandom when I had my Cindy only blog, to have given me that chance when I was a newbie. We’re one brain cell and nobody knows who has it.

Nana and Lucien, aka @studyinscarletx and @fakeredshoes : for being my meme friends since forever and because our Spanglish will live on forever. We’re always talking about random shit and somehow I am the one with the brain cell in our little trio ( maybe bcs u two always joke about murder idk (??) ). Love u two, wish I could physically hug you and I love your cats.

Josie, aka @galaxyveind / @makescoffee : one of the most patient and kind people out there. Someone who I was able to connect quickly once I broke out of my shy shell and now plotting with u and suggesting ideas is an everyday thing for us. We have so many things we wanna try and we lack the time to do so ; v ; but one day we shall do them all.

And, of course, everyone else is someone I think of dearly and feel grateful to have as a friend, no matter how much or how little we have talked or interacted: @floofiisms @mythosbornc @paramithi @pyroteched @filostimi @prsonatm / @icireign @aiontm @vandbaerer / @aerokinesiiss / @skathmarked @geniusborn @aelsell @pasttorn @pinafcl @melcdiam @merveiilles @madnessinthishouse @asortofsensation @musetory @13xwishes @fatesforged​ @lotuschest @ghaisgeach @goofymuses @sparkadream @saranghacs​ @strcngered​ @gottamuseemall​ @decalcoxrity​ @firefavoring​ and many MANY more ( so sorry if i forgot to include u here, goldfish memory and end of the year ;; )

[sanriobewwy]

answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs id like to get to know ♡

tagged by the precious @holy-nozomi

gender: female 

star sign: gemini

height: 4′11 i’m v smol

time: 11:01am

birthday: june 3rd

favorite bands: kpop: bts, monsta x, kard, bap, exo, twice, red velvet, nct all units, blackpink, day6, got7, and more.

non kpop: fall out boy, bring me the horizon, asking alexandria, twenty one pilots, can’t think of anymore lmao

favorite solo artist: luhan, hyuna, marina and the diamonds, that’s all that comes to mind rn

song stuck in my head: nothing at the moment

last movie I watched: fate/stay night unlimited blade works the movie

when did I create this blog: a few months ago! i remade my blog since my other one had been up for 6 years

what do I post: pastel things, positive things, anime, kpop, memes, that’s about it!

last thing I googled: i don’t think i wanna share what i last googled because it made me really sad.

do I have other blogs: yep! @http-yandere (monochrome blog), @bpd-yandereangel (vent blog), @xmemegod (memes and shit posts blog)

do I get asks: sometimes ! they’re all v v sweet and i love them!!! ♡

why did I choose my url: a friend of mine was talking about strawberries with me and she said i remind her of a strawberry bc they’re cute and i got “milku” from a previous url of mine (milku-desu)

following blogs: 304

followers: 437 

avg hours of sleep: either 3 or 48 hours there is no in between.

lucky number: 27 !!! ♡

how many blankets do I sleep with: 4-5 because i’m always cold ; ^ ;

dream job: house waifu. graphic designer

dream trip: japan! ♡ it’s been my dream trip since i was a child!!

favorite food: i really like chicken! ♡

nationality: american

favorite song now: peakaboo by red velvet, i just by red velvet, forever by exo, mic drop by bts, and you in me by kard!  ♡ ♡ tagging: @ponikko @mxdusas @ellsi @pinktsun @milkpuppy @softsparklystuff @custard-the-cat and @shinjij

[shitpostpidge]

24 questions tag

i was tagged by @littledeathangelo who is a real cool cat thanks for tagging me!! i fuckign love these u dont even know

[rules: answer these questions, then tag five(or more if u want!!) people]

1) nickname - i don’t really have one? sometimes my mom calls me asshole

2) star sign - gemini!! someone roast me

3) height - 5′3″ im little

4) time right now - 5:22 PM

5) favorite music artist - SHIT probably the ready set?? like i would be nothing without your love n the bad and the better really help me deal with That Cool Fun Depression™ along with my love of bubbly ass emo pop haha kill me 

6) song stuck in your head - all i wanna do by jay park

7) last movie watched - labyrinth

8) last tv show watched - fuckin CHOPPED i love me some cookin shows

9) wearing right now - a really baggy longsleeve from this year’s holiday bowl, leggings, n halloween socks

10) blog created - i remade with this blog in july 2016

11) what do you post - fuck bullshit thats what

12) any other blogs - i have an nsfw blog 

13) do you get asks regularly - ha i wish pls send me things

14) why’d you choose your url - when i made this blog i was mainly just into voltron so i wanted a voltron url; the url for my previous blog is actually my favorite tho i kind of like it better but That Blog Is Dead

15) gender - depression

16) hogwarts house - slytherin

17) pokemon team - idk probably that meme one

18) favorite color - pink!!

19) average hours of sleep - i dont know?? i wish it was more

20) lucky number - i like the number 7

21) fave character - fukck ,man.. probably pidge?? i love her so much my daughter

22) blankets you sleep with - at least one 

23) dream job - i want to be a famous author!! one that has lotsa books n people look up to me bc i want to be able to inspire people n help kids/teens/etc see that “hey man even if ur facing lots of personal obstacles or just have shitty mental health there’s always something to live for and u can be happy” also i want to own a cute lil sandwich shop

24) how many people you follow - 829 lmao i never finished refollowing people from my old account this Isnt Enough

five people: @thefluxqueen @discerp-punk @nicodiyurio @narwhalsarefalling @miraculous-hearts yoo u dont have to do this if u dont want OR if u do want n i didnt tag u just. do it. do it anyway fuck the system

[knight-of-trash]

All the odd ones for the video game ask bc I'm always a slut for video games 👌

Heck yes!

1.) Do you try to stay away from walkthroughs?

Typically, I try to stay away from them, until I need help finding whatever collectibles there are in the game.

3.) Best game you’ve ever played?

Dragon Age Origins. It’s a well balanced game for being as old as it is.

5.) A popular series/game you just can’t get into no matter how much you try?

Assassin’s Creed. I can’t really get into it and I’ve tried.

7.) A game you’ll never forget?

The original Tomb Raider. It’s the oldest game I have memories of.

9.) A game you turn your volume off every time you play it?

Left 4 Dead 2. I don’t play with my mic on, and with the volume down because I get tired of listening to guys argue online.

11.) Hardest game you’ve played?

Probably any horror game ever, because I’m a chicken shit.

13.) A game you were the most excited for when it wasn’t released yet?

Portal 2. I was so PUMPED when that was announced, especially when it was announced that it was going to be independent, give us more story, and be an overall longer and more in-depth game, with a co-op function.

15.) Which two games do you think would make an awesome crossover?

Hmm...I’m not entirely sure, since a lot of my favorite games are very similar to begin with, since I’m primarily an single player, RPG kind of gamer

17.) What game do you never tell people you play?

I try not to tell guys I play things like cooperative shooters like Battlefront and arcade style fighting games like Injustice, because then they want to brag and end up wanting to play me, and the few times I’ve done that, they’ve always been sore winners when they beat me at fighting games, or treat me like a novice player in the cooperative shooters. So I try to keep those things to myself.

19.) Which game do you think deserves a revival?

I don’t know if it’s as much a revival as it is a remastering? But I really want Soul Caliber 3 to get remade, or updated. The game has a bunch of unique character creation features, including the Chronicles of the Sword feature, unique fighting styles, various stores where you could buy new armor and stuff instead of relying on unlocking them to gain access to new armor choices, which I really loved! The down side, the graphics are poor compared to newer games, being a PS2 game from the early 2000s, and despite having more armor and weapon choices for your chracter, the customization wasn’t as good as it’s been in previous games that give you more control over your original character’s body. I just feel like a remaster of this game would be like my perfect game.

21.) How old were you when you first played a videogame?

Two. That’s the benefit of having an older brother who loved gaming as a kid. He would let me play Tomb Raider and Spyro.

23.) Biggest disappointment you’ve had in gaming?

The ending to Fable 2. I was originally letting Lucien monologue, expecting a big boss battle to follow, but then Reaver just-...shoots him? I just? Was so mad about that.

25.) Be honest; have you ever used cheats (like ActionReplay or Gameshark)?

No. I don’t.

27.) Has there ever been a moment that has made you cry?

Ohhhh plenty in Dragon Age.

29.) Which is more important, gameplay or story line?

Story line. Hands down.

[lesbianexorcist]

just realized ive been on tumblr for a decade now i started bc of my chloe moretz obsession and would check the only fanblog of hers at the time like everyday i dont think i actually joined until nov/dec same year and when i did it was bc i wanted to follow this weird blog bc it was named after my fav hunger games character (annie cresta lmfao) bc i had just finished reading all the hunger games books and like i have deleted and remade so many times over the years at least once or twice a year until like 2015? and i had that blog til 2017. i p much only remade from that last one bc i was trying to avoid this girl that i was friends w that turned out to be a huge terf (she kept it secret and she got that hard block on every social media as soon as i found out. cunt). oh i also wanted to distance myself from my previous tar*ntino obsession lol.  and then i remade into this one which will prob be my last remake bc i like this blog and dont take it/tumblr as ~seriously~ as before like i just do what i want idc if people follow me or whatever like. its just for my fun. and its been almot 3 yrs since i made this one whch is cool. but i wish i never remade so many times i wish i still had my first blog bc that would be the closest thing to a diary/archive id have :/ like my interests and life changes and stupid/fun shit that i could look back on and i cant bc i was impulsive lol but. this current blog still showcases how ive changed and stuff so its not all bad. but god i wish i could see what 13 year old me was blogging omg

[idksheepthoughts]

Conversations Me: you actually soft blocked me....                                   any reason why?

Her: lol the fact that you noticed this late   but it happened on accident actually and i went and unblocked               but at that point i was like lmao like she'll notice so i never mentioned it              

Me: If you hate me just say so. No need to lie.... I don't check shit like that every day but it's not that many days since I know it was maybe a week or less ... Whatever. I'm so splitting atm. So I'll shut up before I say something else             

Her: hate? when the fck did i mention that?         yes, better shut up before you stick your foot in your mouth as usual                 since i've done nothing hostile to you as if me feeling like i matter to no one and have the smallest amt of friends possible is somehow how an Attack on You.

Me: you blocked me... on "accident" how does that even happen.... i've told you tons of times that the amount of friends depends solely on yourself. and your willingness to talk to people and work past the anxiety and fear that talking to people causes. . . otherwise I wouldn't even have friends. because if i isolated and neveer talked to anyone ever first that nobody would talk to me in the first place. . . ugh whatever. i've said too much im just going to sober up and talk later i guess.... I can't always be here I try to be but like we said previously, i didn't know what to do between give you loads of attention and give you nothing at all...

Her: tumblr mobile? lol. if you can't believe me when i say that then i don't really want to talk to you since everytime i feel bad or have like, negative feelings regarding my own situations you always take it so personally (1) and then i have to dread these fcking conversations so when we've been talking normally on twitter                 it all goes to fcking shit because you can't accept that i get to feel bad and feel upset about stuff regardless of whether or not im taking actions to help myself in my own way at my own pace...doesn't mean you get to think that i hate you so i blocked you      because what the fuck how does it work when we've been chatting like everyday on twitter?                   and it was (what i thought) fine? good? (2) if it really was the case i wouldve blocked you here or just flat out deleted since then i'd only have one fucking follower :) so just. let me have emotions. and don't assume things. this is so funny because i remember you getting mad at me months ago for the same exact thing   and here we are, situations reversed  

Me: BECAUSE i have a huge fear of abandonment.... it was fine but this stuff even if its an accident just idk .... i guess you never saw how much abandonment even if its an accident sends me into depressive spirals??? have i ever left you no. i've been distant yes but i've never full on unfollowed or left... idk you block me a lot and delete and it hurts every time.                                    

Her: "even if" can you believe me????? first off???? (3) and no you havent god if it was such a problem just follow me and then ask me about it because why would i lie lol (4) i don't like friendships built on lies i'll never talk to someone like that genuinely   i have insecurities too. i have enough

Me: ok it was an accident.

Her: i didn't even think it was a problem first off considering all those people you put on your thanksgiving post. and then you never noticed/messaged me about so i was like k, so that's that! and just talked w/ you normally here  (5)           so let's just accept the fact that we've got our problems and there's better ways to handle this than assuming motives

Me: so you did change url because of that post??? like my paranoid ass thought???? i was right on that???? cause i noticed that and was like... maybe its not related but was it????? cause I just want to know... im not mad at that at all just... i want to not assume things atm.    and i notice stuff slowly because I try not to fall into obsessive traits. its not healthy to check who im following or who is greyed out or blocked every single day. . . I try to just let things be but when I do notice stuff i can't help but explode. I tried to be calm by just asking why.... but i clearly failed at that. its whatever. I followed back. if it happens again just like.. tell me please??? this stuff makes me so close to slitting my wrist                                    

Her: no, i changed my url because i was sitting on that url for a while and i wanted to use it              

Me: okay, it was just a paranoid thought.                             

Her: well, i really, really, really, don't like when you start assuming things even after i tell you or not believing me. we've been friends for how long? does it mean nothing? you'd think i'd lie at this point? x____x       (6) .those thoughts make me want to die      

Me: i'm sorry for thinking irrationally, but with how many people just up and leave, all the time even with being friends for long periods its hard not to jump to conclusions. I am in the wrong for falling into my own paranoid thoughts. You explained things and I don't believe that you are lying so its fine.                        

Her: oh, now you believe me                     after i have to hold your hand when i'm upset (7) whatever i'm probably not going to follow back because i hate that i have no friends and my mutuals ignore all my posts when i try to put myself out there     it's gotten to a point where i can't post stuff on tumblr anymore because i know no one gives a shit             like even as happy as i am about my commission i know if i post that on my tumblr i'll make the artist seem bad when no one likes my post  idc. i'm bitter and alone and probably always will be because i don't have any friends aside from you o/                           like, be grateful you even have that many people to be grateful for   (8)      i'd kill for it i feel like dying when i think about this and i think about it a lot     but ofc i don't moan about it anywhere except on this stupid fucking twitter account                   where you seem ot think i live a dandy life   (9)                                    it fcking sucks bc im trying my best!                                           anyways im done lol           oh and then you post shit like *Edit* (Screenshot of some tags where I said I always listen to people but nobody likes listening to me so I talk to my cats a lot which is true because I’m a burden and i hate bothering people with my problems so much)                    that when you damn well no i have no one else to listen to except you online      and we've been civil lately                         but ok! i guess i don't care!  because im living it up!       #sarcasm    (10)

Me: you havent followed me in probably over 10 or so months, whenever i remade, cause i don't think you followed me when i delteed either,  i didn't expect a follow back at all. i just expect us to be not mutuals but still friends? THEN TALK TO PEOPLE TALK TO PEOPLE AND TALK TO PEOOPLE thats all i did was work past my fears and talk to people and some stuck around some didn't. i dont know what else to say. some of those people haven't actually spoken to me in months either but im still grateful for them. I have nothing else to really advise on that other than you gotta put the talking in first. thats all i've done and its somehow managed to not fuck it up for this long??? i dont think i've had any friend longer than whenever we started being friends... so around 2 years...    

Her: no offense but just talking to people doesn't do shit :) but seriously, thanks :)       (Phone lagged) So I repeated my previous message by accident)                           

Her: yeah probably the only reason you havent fucked it up is because i dont want to be fucking alone and i dont give up easily so ive stayed with this even fi you make me feel like fucking shit when this happens   & since you said nothing to everything else i just said i guess im right :)             god im over this i dont want to fight and i dont want to talk to you becaus eim always explaining my problems and you just like. tell me the same shit each time as if it'll magically do stuff   liek the fact that im trying doesnt mean anything                 i dont wanna talk to you if its always going to be like this ill take the goddamn loss and be lonely while youve got your fucking harem of friends idc if its an exaggeration the point is everyone i considered a friend has just stopped talking to me completely and the only thing i get here is you telling me what to do like i need cold hard instructions for making a friend  

ME: Harem??? You know nothing about anything. Ya know what..... forget it. If it's better I don't say anything because nothing I says helps and  I'm a broken record. You want to assume because I tagged a lot of people doesn't mean I wasn't just fishing for validation. Me trying to help is just being a dumb mistake. I can't help anyone and why I try is also confusing because I am pointless. I'm keeping you in my note regardless you have been here and listened and that hadn't changed.  But if this is just going to explode it's going to explode. All I do is ruin everything and I don't even care anymore I'm going to buy a gun soon anyways. So what's the point in trying to make something work. I've always been a shit friend and it's just not worth it to you at this point. So okay.                   

Her: HERE let me qutoe for you something    "idc if its an exaggeration"                                      ^^^^^^^             unlike you im aware when im being irrational lmao    (11)     apparnetly you get to be and i dont                             thats how it always is            did you ever think about it feels for me   when my only friend does shit like this constantly    like lmao                                ofc not bc why would you consider anything from my point of view  this conversation is over until you want to stop fucking assuming i dont care       LOL     and acting as if me letting you go is the best thing that could happen to me       like we couldnt j ust talk on twitter and let it fucking be but you have todrag it all in at least i get to get stuff off my chest thats the only fucking good that comes out of this  like you dont get that you telling me the same thing hurts because it doesnt fucking work and i dont have any fucking friends  i have college to deal with and studies and that pressure but you dont know the half of it?    but you just want to assume, assume, assume   (12) i cried already out of anger    

Me: I didn't have friends in college either                                 

Her: big offense but i dont want to continue this conversation

ME: Okay

Her: unles syoure willing to admit to your bullshit       because ima lways doing that and im always getting the end of your shit      

Me: I am made of nothing but bullshit I'm nothing but a huge fucking shit storm and I always will be. You should have left a long time ago because I don't know how to not be toxic   It's not That I won't be upset by you leaving far from it but you deserved better people and maybe if you had left and kept trying as you have been things will turn around. Because literally everyone that has ever done that with me ended up fine and in a good spot. I hold people back. And that's all I can think of. I ruin other people's lives by being in it. And I've certainly made your life worse. And I'm just better off dead because I am a selfish fucking loser.     I'll shut up now.