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The Substance (2024) dir. Coralie Fargeat
#the substance#demi moore#margaret qualley#no post has ever been just for me tbh#this was a total gag!#the third act was like wait what the actual fuck?!?!#never really seen a demi movie tbh#feel likes there’s a good essay about her taking this role given the subject at hand#in all the interviews that have seen afterward they keep emphasizing her long career etc#insert this is cinema meme#like nicole should redo her amc ad and be like we come to this place to be gagged!#saw one person walk out halfway through lmfao
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pentiment not giving a definitive answer to the act i and ii mysteries isn't because all the suspects are equally likely to be guilty. i've seen people interpret it that way and then complain that the ending is a copout but like does anyone genuinely think ottilia did it. i know "possibly but uncertainly" is not that far off "equally likely" but i think it's an important distinction to make when it comes to understanding what the game is focused on.
it's not about who were the actual killers, it's not even about the circumstances that make it impossible for that to be known, it's about what made YOU point the finger at someone and the consequences of that choice. did you actually think they were guilty, or were they just an asshole? did you think it was someone else but held your tongue because they deserved to live? what about their age? community standing? did convenience factor into it? alternatively, what would happen if you dirtied someone's name and they were still around years later?
if there was a fixed answer everyone would just get caught up on whether they picked up all the hints and if they were chose the "right" or "wrong" path. that would detract from everything the game is trying to say. as it is, i think people who come away really wanting those mysteries solved, saying "i don't know who it was and therefore i might as well have spun a wheel and not wasted 15 hours to get here" have missed a lot of what it's really about.
#zann talks#pentiment#some complainer did think the ambiguity was commentary on the difficulty in finding justice. which imo IS correct#but i think overall that's a vehicle and therefore secondary to the broader idea that the stories we decide to tell are powerful#so we should have some introspection and consider things carefully cause life (the consequences of your actions) comes at you fast!#sidenote i have seen multiple let's plays of the game. i don't have numbers so it's anecdotal but#at the end of act i everyone is super uncertain about their choice which is almost always ferenc#in act ii people seem more certain of their selection but who it is is more evenly split#idk what that means exactly yet other than act ii really isn't a direct rehash of act i
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There’s no way Jayce came out of the fucking Infection Dimension perfectly healthy except for his leg (and his mental health)
He had an open wound on his back before he even went in!! and then the one we saw on his leg! (which was broken in fucking half!!) like did y’all see how thick the fog was?? He was breathing that shit in for months!! That man was probably dying!!!
#we should have seen him take a pause in his speech to cough for like thirty minutes#what kind of fucked up cocktail of gas was in that fog bro#like The Gray and every other drug smog gas from the factory’s mixed together with fucking magic#how much crazier would the Jayvik parallels be if Jayce had coughed up blood at some point#still crying over how much weight he lost#my baby…#did he even get to see his mom before he and Vik disappeared?#did he get to hug her?#tell her he was sorry and that he loved her?#did she get to make him his first hot meal in months?#did she hold him while he cried?#did she even know he was back before he was gone again?#imagine being Ximena and your son shows up at your door after being missing for months over half a year#and he’s lost weight his hair is grown and unkempt and he’s covered in scars and he has a brace on his leg which is clearly injured#and he cries in your arms when you hug him like he hasn’t since he was seven#and you tell him to come in to eat to tell you what happened and if he’s okay and he tries but none of it really makes since to you except#the grief. the grief you can understand you lost your partner after all you know what that kind of grief looks like#and after you’ve feed him and held him and took care of him he leaves again to try and save his partner and then you never see him again#and you’ll never know what happened to him and his partner#but all you can hope for was that he was able to save him and where ever they are their together#I am spiraling over Ximena Talis right now in the tags of my mostly jokey post#I love the Talis’ so much#jayce talis#ximena talis#I’m tagging her because of the tags#it is 11 at night I have a cold and I am spiraling about the Talis’ right now#and just like Jayce should have been I am coughing like there’s no tomorrow
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this is something i have been thinking about basically since i got back into fandom and it feels especially relevant right now with some of the posts i've seen floating around
something that's very common to hear in fandom is "there's no ______ explanation for this" (fill in the blank with straight, normal, platonic, non-sexual, etc) and i get it, we're all guilty of it, i do it all the time, i think it's part of the fun of fandom is having a space to go insane about something and that's fine!
but i think it's also really really important to remember that there is literally endless ways to interpret something because no two human beings are the same, and the same thing can mean different things to different people
let's use me as an example. in my last relationship with my ex, we would regularly tell each other that we loved each other and wanted to spend our lives together and in that context, it was a very romantic sentiment. however, in my current relationship, we tell each other constantly that we love each other and we want to spend our lives together and there's not a single ounce of romanticism in either of us, because neither of us want or express romance to each other. most of my friends are convinced we're boyfriend/girlfriend, because to them our relationship WOULD be dating, but that doesn't mean we are
the same can be said about fandom. you can take a scene that is VERY romance heavy and one person might genuinely see that as a sexual expression, and someone else might genuinely see it as a platonic expression, and someone else might genuinely see it as a hateful expression, and i think it's really really important to remember that all of these takes are valid.
there's no one right or wrong way to interact with fandom (unless you're deliberately being harmful and hateful towards the characters and the community at large but that's a different topic of conversation) and i think people get really hung up on their takes and headcanons and forget that there's always going to be endless ways of interpreting fiction and that other interpretations are just as valid.
and this isn't to say you can't go insane about your blorbos or ships and you can't say they're obviously in love or whatever, because that's half the fun of fandom!! i just really wish people would realize that, no, there are actually multiple ways to view that scene or relationship and that's entirely valid
#let me be clear i'm not calling out any one person or fandom#i think a lot of people are unintentionally guilty of this#and i don't think people are being malicious or intentionally rude about it#but i think we do have a responsibility to be aware of how the things we say in any community come across to others#and implying certain characters can only be seen in one sexuality or one ship or one type of headcanon#can be really damaging to other fans who view it differently#and idk i just think fandom is so heavily built on community and i think it's an important part of fandom and idk#i just think we should all try to be more aware and more inclusive of different/opposing ideas#anyways#that's just my thoughts on this#fandom#not stargate
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So... new chapter came out early to celebrate the 6th anniversary of TCF
First of all, yay!
Secondly — so the bad guys keep finding new exciting ways to be absolutely terrible...
…I think the God of Chaos might be the divine equivalent of Shou Tucker from FMA, if this is the kind of stuff his followers are into. Sooo.... I vote to seal him up and throw him into a fiery pit ASAP
Also, I never thought I'd say this; guys I think we should be thankful that Venion was utterly stupid 😐 Because if this is the kind of stuff he could have done to Raon I think we all got lucky
#tcf#trash of the count's family#lcf#lout of the count’s family#god of chaos#tcf god of chaos#shou tucker#venion stan#throw them all into fire#we all agree venion was a stupid piece of garbage right#but at least a stupid piece of garbage did not know how to do anything nastier than torture#which i just found out that REALLY ISN'T the worst you can do to a young dragon in captivity....#i mean maybe i should have seen this coming with the dragon halfblood being a thing and all but i really didn't#tcf part 2#tcf part 2 chapter 277
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I was here yesterday~
It was actually fun (except for all the anger and frustration). I didn’t even notice time passing... Everything was really well-organized! Everyone sang, exercised, and chanted together.
Never vote for politicians who scurry away to protect their own party and power over the people. I watched it all live. Imagine how I felt, seeing grown politicians—several times my age—running away. Those people will definitely make their way into the history books, and not in a good way. They should have at least stayed to vote. Here in Korea, we ask politicians to vote; it’s not the other way around. The irony, huh?? God. How can this even be. They should be ashamed of themselves.
Everyone waited and called for them to come back and vote for hours. Over a million people had gathered!!! My throat hurts so much from chanting, “Come back and vote!” (By the way, the chant at the end, which sounds like too-pyo-hae, is “투표해,” meaning “vote!”) And, of course, they ignored us.
EVEN IF THEY WISHED TO STAY IN POWER, there are basic things you must do to be a decent human being in the 21st century. How can anyone defend a person who attempted a coup??? It's crazy!! If this continues, I’ll keep rejoining the protests again and again. This isn’t about being conservative or liberal—our basic rights were nearly stripped away! What are these politicians even doing? They’re too cowardly to show up and vote.
I really don’t want to talk so much about politics—I want to draw fan comics, for goodness sake! I'm an indoor person and yesterday was cold. I have to though? I haven’t been able to sleep well these past few days because of this ridiculous news.
But I have to say, Korea’s protest culture is admirable. Even in these frustrating and grim times, people managed to make the protests feel welcoming and even entertaining. I’m still proud I went—it was a positive experience. It could only be this peaceful because people fought so hard to achieve democracy, even shedding blood to get here. Even protests can be fun sometimes, things were so peaceful and everyone who joined demonstrated mature civic awareness! Being a witness to it was memorable. Def ready to do it again.
#random blabbering#I hope things get resolved before christmas#it's not only the president that's out of it- his party is all corrupt#I've never seen such shameless and cowardly people before. Is that what it takes to be a politician?#but I really respected the speaker of the democratic party. he was so mannerly#we chanted the names of the politicians who ran away to come back. I'm never forgetting their names#they should have at least come back to play their part#with that being said..; I'll draw today '-')9!!!#wow it feels weird to have taken a break the past few days#Youtube
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"[Elizabeth Woodville] was the only member of [Crown Prince Edward of Westminster's] original 1471 council not already on the king’s council and her name headed the list of those appointed as administrators in Wales during Edward’s minority. [She remained on the council after it was expanded in 1473 and granted significant new governing and judicial powers]."
"In 1478 Prince Richard [of Shrewsbury] married the Mowbray heiress. Like his elder brother he had a chancellor, seal, household and council to manage his estates. His council, like that of Prince Edward, comprised the queen [Elizabeth Woodville] and a group of magnates and bishops, few of whom were Woodville supporters [...] It was Elizabeth who mattered, for Richard resided with her and Rivers treated his affairs as their own."
-J.L. Laynesmith, The Last Medieval Queens: English Queenship 1445-1503 / Michael Hicks, Richard III and his Rivals: Magnates and their Motives in the Wars of the Roses
#good👏🏻 for 👏🏻 her#historicwomendaily#elizabeth woodville#15th century#english history#princes in the tower#my post#Reminder that these sort of additional official positions in governance were very unusual (unprecedented) for late medieval English queens#Elizabeth's formal appointment in royal councils (+ authority over her sons) should not be ignored or downplayed in the slightest bit#It should instead be considered one of the most defining aspects of her queenship that spanned over a decade and lasted right till the end#& should also be highlighted as one of the most vital topics of discussion when it comes to broader queenly power in late medieval England#I think it also says a lot about Elizabeth's relationship to Edward IV and the regard he seems to have had for her capabilities#'The only member of the original 1471 council not already on the king’s council' that speaks VOLUMES. Once again: good for her.#It's also really frustrating how some historians (Katherine J. Lewis; AJ Pollard; Laynesmith etc) have incredibly lopsided perspectives on#Elizabeth that fundamentally *do not work* when you remember these actual facts and what they reveal about her power and influence#I'm also still baffled at Lynda Pidgeon's claim that 'Elizabeth's influence with Edward IV was less than with family members who were#part of the king's council or that of her son Edward prince of Wales'. Like???????#First of all - we *already know* that Elizabeth had the most personal influence with Edward and was the one he trusted the most#The case in 1480 & his own will in 1475 (where he referred to her as the one 'in whom we most singularly place our trust') make both clear#Second of all - ELIZABETH WAS LITERALLY ON HER SONS' COUNCILS HERSELF. HER NAME HEADED THE GODDAMN LIST. How have you missed this????????#It's actually bizarre because it completely ignores the fact that 1) Late medieval queens *weren't* generally given positions like this?#If we accept Pidgeon's (false) interpretation we have to claim that NONE of them were influential at all#Which I'm pretty sure nobody agrees with? So why have I seen people agreeing with Pidgeon's FALSE take on Elizabeth based on that lmfao?#2) Elizabeth WAS in fact given such positions. She genuinely was given unusual authority and was an Exception™ rather than the rule#Forget emphasizing her atypical role - Pidgeon has outright erased it in an effort to diminish her#She does the same thing when talking about Elizabeth's role after Edward IV's death and it's equally ridiculous and incorrect#There's stupidity and then there's willful misreading & rewriting of history according to your own imagination. This fits the latter
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do you remember when we first heard about the vertigo thing and everyone was analysing the hell out of it and we found out she changed her appearance to match the dead wife and we were all like obviously it won't go that far.......
jokes on us huh
#can't believe they actually went there#it's so twisted but we really should have seen it coming#911 spoilers#eddie diaz#911#911 abc
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My best friend and I moved in together with his closest friend from his MA program, and while I had met her before (the friend; my bff is a man), we hadn't spent much time together because I've never lived away from the West Coast (and only two years out of the PNW) and she's never lived outside of North Carolina and only briefly visited the PNW once, when she went to Portland last year.
It's been a delight to show her around the PNW and realize we need to explain things that are just sort of omnipresent in our lives. The bff and I were casually griping with each other about having to run an errand to Trader Joe's at an inconvenient hour, and were telling her, "it's okay, you can stay in the car and avoid the people if you want" and she was like "NO I MUST SEE IT, I'VE ONLY HEARD OF THEM" and nearly ascended to another plane when we showed her around the store.
The bff and I grew up in the same town in NW Washington (him for his first 18 years, me from 9 to 19) and he lived in Bellingham and Seattle for years before he went to NC for grad school (I went to the SF Bay Area for mine, a very different experience). Both of them are hardcore coffee aficionados, but he struggled with the different Coffee Ways of the South, so for the true PNW experience they want to tour various indie coffeeshops next.
Also, she adores Kaidan in Mass Effect and we were like, oh, is your passport up to date? We could take a trip sometime and show you your boyfriend's beloved English Bay. It's very beautiful :)
her: O_O
me: Actually, it's worth going to Vancouver BC for its own sake as well, it's truly spectacular. We used to go all the time as kids.
bff: And Victoria!
her: O_O
#as much as i very openly love my homeland (read: the pnw. sometimes the whole west coast) at all times#it is truly special to experience it through someone who's never lived anywhere remotely near here. she's never seen vegas or seattle or la#we were super hungry after moving stuff yesterday and the bff was like 'i'm not sure i have a real restaurant in me...#let's just pick up some stuff from jack in the box'#her: 'what's a jack in the box?'#even the department store chains we're used to are different#also she's queer and was concerned about having queer friendly dating options out here and we're like '...oh sweetie'#and since she's from eastern nc we were also explaining that the pacific ocean up here is not like the atlantic#her: 'what are your hurricanes like?' us: '... we um. don't really have them'#then we were like... i mean rainier's lahars are going to melt seattle someday but these are infrequent events#and there will be seismic warnings. even mt st helens gave some warning!#i think the only disappointment for her so far was our building codes (she's very into proper infrastructure)#the roads are nice but our buildings are not designed for combating nature by her standards#it's interesting because we're so unused to the idea of nature as generally something to combat#in fairness someone from say astoria might think about that differently or in very rural areas. but in the parts we're familiar with#usually 'natural' dangers are 'poorly timed human fuckery' and things like rain generally come as friends#like yeah don't go antagonizing a bear or cougar or moose or whatnot but you'd really have to go out of your way#anghraine babbles#cascadia blogging#the adventures of space redacted#anghraine's gaming#us american blogging#i should probably have a bff tag#long post
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every time i see discourse about fundraisers go by on here im just fully struck with the realization that not a single one of you people have either taken a cybersecurity fraud prevention course or bothered to take one singular second to consider the website youre on. this is the broke bitches website. none of us can afford to fund our mutuals' grocery bills, much less entire evacuation funds, and CERTAINLY not FAKE evacuation funds taking advantage of genocide victims. all this shit abt how people are deliberately choosing not to fund every post that passes their dash because they hate palestinians literally just does the work of actual scammers for them by laying the high-pressure sales tactics groundwork, and the "do you guys have any idea how hard it is to keep coming up with new attention-grabbing fundraiser posts?" ones just ring EXTREMELY hollow because YEAH! YEAH I DO! and so does everyone i follow! and everyone they follow! because all of us are FUCKING BROKE and surviving on crumbs! i just saw one that said "i make sure to keep $40 in my wallet at all times so i can give $20 to any panhandlers i see, this is the same" and its like!! good for you, thats very nice, but like!!! you need need NEED to take a step back and realize that /being able to do that/ is a position of privilege, not the default setting to be a good person. i wont discount that some people do ignore fundraisers specifically because of racism because Of Course, but like. a) yelling at them isnt gonna make them stop, or more accurately yelling at /everyone else/ isnt gonna make those people stop, and b) trying to apply that as a blanket motivation for everyone just. realistically doesnt work. not donating is a nonaction, it is the literal default status, and while in specific situations you can use CONSISTENT absence of SPECIFIC actions to track a person's motivations SOMETIMES, broadly speaking that just. doesnt work.
there are 8 billion people on this planet. most of them will never know you exist. of the ones that do, most will not be able to help you. of the ones that can, most will not be on the broke bitches website passing the same communal $20 around. consider your audience and stop shitting on fellow poor people for having the gall to need to be careful with their money. and if you are genuinely only posting your fundraiser to tumblr, like. im sorry, but you need to anticipate not reaching your goal and prepare accordingly. theres a reason the last big scam scandal people talk about actually getting the money is like. all-or-nothing era, as a website none of us have the funds to make that kind of thing happen anymore or the security to risk it. a fundraiser not meeting its goal on here is not a personal sleight against whoever made it, its just how life goes sometimes. and it's unfair and it sucks and we should help however we can, but. sometimes you just arent able to help someone else, and continuing to feel responsible serves only to torture yourself. and blaming OTHERS serves only to move that guilt from yourself off onto another person. i imagine that has to be where a lot of the vitriol comes from, is people who cant afford to donate more getting pissed at people they see as having the funds but choosing not to share them, but again, sometimes you just are not able to achieve the goals you set out towards, through no fault of the specific parties involved.
people on tumblr choosing to buy groceries rather than potentially donate to a scam are not your enemy and are not the ones facilitating a genocide. we're all victims of the same horrific system, the question is just how that system manifests its influence on each of us. poverty kills just as thoroughly as a bomb. everyone is just doing their best to survive, and as much as we like to pretend that everyone should be a perfect selfless angel that puts others before themselves no matter what, humans are by default a selfish species, and it is a lot easier to say what youd do in theory than actually do it. and there's a reason you have to put on your own oxygen mask before helping the person beside you, youre of no help to anyone if youre too dead to do anything.
#origibberish#and inb4 someone goes 'are you saying poverty is as bad a situation as GENOCIDE' be so fucking fr with me i s2g#yall know thats not what i mean so if we can just skip the part where we pretend you dont and quibble about semantics thatd be great#also ive seen multiple posts being like 'i cant believe yall are saying EVERY FUNDRAISER FROM PALESTINIANS is a scam' which#uh. no one was saying that?#people were saying that. some scammers were using the genocide as their scam? which. is true? there have been? several confirmed?#like. most arguments in this i can see where theyre coming from but that just. literally is inaccurate#i cant even call it disingenuous even though it clearly is because thats just. so far off of what literally anyone was saying that i have#trouble interpreting it as anything other than a deliberate exaggeration to stir emotional responses.#like. ive said before i see little value in going 'zomg a psyop!!' but that more than anything made me be like#if there was anyone on this website i had to pick to be running a scam using palestine as a cover it would be that person. because just. how#the fuck do you get that interpretation unless youre deliberately trying to emotionally manipulate people into not using#their critical thinking skills to determine scams from real fundraisers.#oh also the posts being like 'even if some are scams‚ so what? you should still risk it'#like genuinely if you have shared that one i have 0 respect for you. like that just. is not how things work in the real world when you#need money to survive.#and when the stakes are 'help save someone from genocide or help someone taking advantage of genocide victims' like.#you really cant see why people would be a little nervous abt that without it being some deep seated personal hatred?#you cant see why picking the wrong one there might weigh on a person?#just. idk. ppl on here need to get better at trying to see others' perspectives i think
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once again sad we never got to see any of the Banuk react to Aloy rolling up with and controlling a tame machine
#you're telling me this whole tribe having a crisis of culture and faith#caused by the very thing aloy's override is reversing#is just shrugging that off#ESPECIALLY them#we don't even have to get into the mechanics of the override#and how that could potentially be seen negatively#but you've got liam over there in song's edge talking about banukai#and no one even bats an eye when aloy comes past on top of a charger that's clearly helping her out#and i know original concepts had the banuk cooperating with machines a lot more#which didn't really make it into the game#but with everything that's been going on? with what we learn during 'a moment's peace'?#there should be some kind of reaction#don't mind me i'll forever be screaming into the void about this#alternatively some glacier crack#anyone got a glacier to scream at at hand?#hzd
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You know, in retrospect, it's quite funny how Dead Friend Forever spoiled Non's fate and the ending of the show by... being named Dead Friend Forever.
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Listened to the latest WCD episode and I had to turn it off. Like, am I technically making myself upset, yeah. But it's like, actually making me think about how much I don't like that apparently a thing was happening, and there's less of an open interpretation now, among other things.
#cats musical#cats the musical#cats the jellicle ball#cats: the jellicle ball#pac nyc#i'm being vague#i don't know why#i think i'm trying to collect my thoughts on it#or i don't want to come as kinda petty about something#i guess the difference is dava baby and shireen going: oh we thing this is happening#versus jenny going: we were told to play it this way to add background rep#and like#you could have had foreground rep with another pairing#which sounds ship petty#and it kinda is#but like if another popular ship can be canon in this version why cant the other one#why does the only wlw rep need to be up to the actors or in background interactions#i'm not saying the show needed to have wlw rep#i recognize that just because something is queer doesn't mean it's going to cover all queer rep ever#but like#could you put it on some equal footing#or think about how that would come across#i don't think anyone was shipping the one they decided on#like in theory yeah#but i've never seen anyone ship it#even when i posted about it people mostly went: interesting and moved on#versus when i talked about dava and baby and everyone was really excited#last thing i'll say#if you're gonna make a relationship canon#then it should be presented in the same way as other canon relationships
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men will get mildly annoyed with a woman and abandon her in clearly unsafe situations as "punishment" like that's normal
like. i very much walked away from him to go home by myself
(because i re-organised and re-arranged my whole birthday trip down to london (at the expense of something i would have liked to do and would have been both very funny and deeply satisfyig) and changed the dates and everything to accomodate him and he threw that in my face
but regardless you still fucking check don't you. like. hello.
#i was gonna just go down. go to the exhibit. surprise someone i ahvent seen for 5 years by turning up at his dj slot#and go home#but i changed it to spend extra time there (he's not been to london as an adult) and come back BEFORE said dj slot party happened#to go to an event here bc he's always moaning we never go out but also didnt want to go to that thing#only for him to a) not want to do anything in london and make it just. what i want to do.#(we're here FOR YOU i didn't want to be here this long AT ALL)#and b) say we then couldnt go to the thing here we deliberately came back for#so really i could in fact have just. gone with the original plan#bc the look on other-rhys' face would have been PRICELESS if i just. appeared behind him out of the blue#when to the best of his knowledge i should be 500 miles away
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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sick of people acting like pedophiles (especially in the queer community) are a kind of boogeyman made up to turn us against each other. it's insulting & isolating to people who have actually been abused. it's disgusting that the queer community has made space for these people & continue to make it clear that their victims are unwelcome, at risk of being accused of abuse & bigotry themselves & being attacked & harassed for it. I'm so fucking tired. do you even understand the damage you're causing
#as someone who's seen how this shit ruins lives & even kills i'm fucking done with people defending this bullshit#do people really think ''freedom of speech'' means ''freedom to do technically not illegal shit without social consequences''#do people really hear about people being traumatized & think ''but my ships'' because from my point of view that's what i'm seeing#''not my trauma not my problem!'' soooo funny how the leftism just up & leaves people's bodies#when it comes to analyzing behaviours called into question by people who've witnessed said behaviours at their worst#you should want to grow & be a better person. if you refuse you can't be mad when people don't wanna talk to you#because you romanticize & emulate their abuser's. well. abusive behaviour#congratulations on being an asshole. have fun with your personality stagnating. we all love standing water & the diseases it carries right?
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