#really showing she's not actually there. not anymore.

[heartyluv]

I luv luv how you write your stories. Idk if you watched the kdrama when life gives you tangerines cuz I just finished it and it made me bawl my eyes out of every episode. There was this one scene in there that husband said to his wife that when they get old he hopes that she dies first and she teases him saying why is it so you could be with another woman. He responds to her saying he wants to send her off with a beautiful and proper burial that she deserves and would eventually join her. That scene made me so sad. It got me thinking what if you said something similar to the LADS men instead of saying they die first you hope that you would die first cuz you couldn’t live without them and wouldn’t know what to do without them by your side. Specifically Zayne and Sylus cuz they are my favs. I’d believe they’d be a bit upset and they would tell you they don’t want to hear that nonsense cuz they can’t imagine when that time comes they have to be without you that’s how much they love you. Sorry if it’s a bit much and you don’t want to write it. Thank you for your time though.😭💗

Note: I think this is the cutest and saddest thing ever. I haven’t watched a drama is so long, but I’ve heard a lot of good things about this one! The last one I saw was Happiness and it’s was 1000/10, sooo good. Also, I only did Sylus and Zayne since you said they were your favs, but if you’d like the rest of the guys, just let me know! I hope you enjoy, luvly!

Creds to @/enchanthings for the dividers!

Warning: Mentions of dying

Zayne

It’s one of those rare days where your boyfriend is actually free for lunch. When he called you an hour ago to let you know that you could come by if you’d like, you instantly got ready and went out to buy some food from one his favorite places.

You always missed him, especially on days where you were off and he wasn’t. You’d take as much time with him as you could.

As you converse with him while indulging in your meals, you start to tell him about a show you’ve been watching. You even tell him you’re willing to rewatch it with him if he’s interested in checking it out. The more you talk, the more you delve into the story and tell him about a certain part that stuck with you. You found yourself wondering how could I ever do life without Zayne? It was in that moment that you realized you couldn’t, and you shared that with him.

“Whenever we die, it has to be me to go first,” you say nonchalantly as you cover your mouth after taking a bite of your sandwich.

Zayne was multitasking, completing some things on his computer while he ate his own. He froze mid type at your words. “Why would you say such a thing?”

You frown, shrugging your shoulders. “I just couldn’t live without you. I know a lot of people wouldn’t be able to go without their partners, but I really mean it. Like, I can’t even imagine a life without you in it.”

Removing his hands from the keyboard, he turns his body so that he’s facing you head on, all his attention now yours. “And you think I could? Live without you?”

“Not necessarily live without me,” you sip your water, feeling the shift in conversation turn from simple to seemingly serious. “I do think you’re stronger than me and that you could handle my absence better.”

He studies you, making you dart your eyes left and right because you don’t know what to say.

“You’re wrong,” he says simply. “I’m stronger for you. You should know that without you, there is nothing left for me to continue to be strong for.”

“Zayne, babe…” you frown. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to—”

“Come here,” he cuts you off. You listen, standing from your chair. He pulls away from his desk as you round it, letting you stand between his spread legs. His hands caress the back of your thighs as you look down at him.

“I don’t want to hear you talk like that anymore. I know you were just sharing your feelings, and I never want you to hesitate to tell me about them. I also know that death is an inevitable thing for all of us, but it’s never something I want to ruminate on when it comes to you. Do you understand?”

“I won’t say anything like that again,” you nod, moving a black strand of his hair from his forehead. “I promise.”

“Good. Live in the moment with me.” He presses a gentle kiss to your stomach that’s covered by your dress. “Besides, I love you too much to let you leave me, no matter how you’d try.”

You chuckle, leaning down to kiss his lips. He doesn’t let you pull away so soon, deepening it as his hand holds you firm by the back of your neck.

“I love you too,” you breathe against his mouth when he finally gives you a moment to breathe.

“Good,” he stares at your lips before looking back into your eyes. He pulls his glasses off, resting them on the desk. “Why don’t you go lock the door so you can show me how much?”

Sylus

You and Sylus lay in your shared bed, talking about a whole bunch of things. It’s usually how the night ends for you two.

He tells you about work, the twins, plans he has for you, even down to what he plans on making you both for breakfast tomorrow. You tell him about your progression in your hobbies, books, shows, and what you’d like to get around to doing with him soon. Sometimes when you talk, you and him will randomly start getting into deeper topics like kids, marriage, and just life in general.

You mention to Sylus how you don’t even remember what life was like for you before you met him and how now, you don’t see a future where he isn’t there.

“Living without you is not an option for me. When it’s time to go, I have to be the one to go first. I just couldn’t deal.” You shiver at the thought.

He looks over at you, his eyes narrowing. The gentle light of the lamp casts a shadow against his handsome face as it sits on the nightstand behind him. You’re resting your cheek on your knuckles, pursing your lips at his sudden silence.

“What?” you smile as he continues to stare.

“Not only are you saying nonsense, but I’m curious as to why you think there’s any instance where I’d remain here without you by my side, kitten. In the event that you’re gone because neither of us had a choice in you staying, there would be no purpose for me.” His voice rumbles and he speaks so simply, like if you were to die right now, you should expect him to be right behind you.

“But the twins—”

“I care for, yes. But you?” His hand comes up to your face, gently holding your jaw like you’re so fragile. “If I ever lost you, I’d lose myself. There is no me without you, I’m sure I’ve told you that. You are the reason I have meaning.”

Your eyes water at that. “There was a you before me though, Sy.” You place your hand on top of his.

“Unfortunately,” he smiles. “But there will never be anything after. It’s either I go first or we go together, sweetie.”

“I don’t like this conversation,” you push out a laugh, trying to suppress the emotions in your chest.

“Neither do I,” he admits, moving closer to you and wrapping you tightly in his arms. “I’d prefer if we don’t have it again. There will never be a world where one of us will have to survive without the other, not if I can help it. Besides, kittens have nine lives, don’t they? You’re not going anywhere anytime soon.”

You bask in his strength, feeling grounded by the weight of him. You press a kiss to his pec, then his jaw until you reach the corner of his lips. “Oh babe, you know that was sooo corny!”

He releases that rich laugh that has dollar signs all around it, making you laugh too. “I’d reshape universes if I could ensure I’d find you in every one,” he says gently, kissing your forehead. “Nothing is too much for you.”

“You’re so sappy.” Your cheeks subtly ache from smiling so hard.

“And in love. You have yourself to thank for giving me such an experience.”

“You’re more than welcome,” you tease, knowing that he understands the sentiment is mutual.

He presses a firm kiss to the top of your head. “We have forever for me to show you how grateful I am.”

“I really love you, Sy,” you whisper.

“And I really, really, love you,” he adds. “More than you’ll ever understand.”

[kcrabb88]

I'm spinning around the themes of haunting in Andor this morning. Things that haunt the narrative. Things that haunt the characters.

The Death Star, obviously, haunts the narrative from the word go because of Rogue One. You see Cassian starting to assemble the weapon that will eventually kill him in season one. Ghorman happens. Mentions of Jedha. The horror over it grows slowly but surely until you see Krennic looking at it through the window.

Palpatine, as I've said a few times, is constantly haunting the narrative. You never see him, but every single time I heard a reference to him I felt it in my chest. I gasped. The "save the sermon for Palpatine" in one of the final episodes almost took me out because they so often just called him "the emperor" so to hear a rare mention of his actual name was powerful. And it's Mon who finally speaks the name of the monster in the previous episodes. And when she does, it takes away some of his power. Things start to slowly unravel for the empire from that moment on.

The Force haunts Cassian through the entire show. This is where you need to be this is where you need to be this is where you need to be, it says to him, via Luthen, the Force healer, Bix, Kleya. He still has to choose it, though. He has to decide for himself. The Force will give you a clue, but it doesn't make your choices for you. To choose that fate is to choose the light not really just for himself but for the entire galaxy, but he still GETS to choose it. He gets to choose it to make everything he's sacrificed worth it.

Two genocides haunt Bail. The Jedi genocide--he was one of the only people in the galaxy to speak out against it. His own genocide that he doesn't yet understand will occur. The camera kept panning to him when Mon spoke of the Ghorman genocide. In the last episode, you could just FEEL it hanging over him. Padme's death, too, haunts him. She's not there but she is. The knowledge that he bears about who Palpatine really is, who Vader is, what happened to Obi-Wan, and the truth of his own beloved adopted daughter. Having to be apart from Breha so much, you can FEEL how lonely he is carrying all of that.

Bix is haunted by her torture. You see how much she struggles. How she takes drugs to sleep. She gets to kill her ghost so he can't hurt anyone else, but it still wounded her so, so deeply (and then more bad stuff happened which only aggravated that!)

Dedra is haunted by her parents. They were criminals, CRIMINALS, and she'll never be like them, no, she'll be the empire's good soldier with all these men, but those men chew her up and spit her out until SHE is the one in prison having committed horrible atrocities in the empire's name, and she's just like her parents in the end, because the empire decided she was.

Mon is haunted by the things she's had to do for the Rebellion (even as she recognizes and appreciates the things Cassian has had to do). Letting her childhood friend be assassinated. Letting go of her dreams of peace, of what she knew before any of this, the senate, her home since she was a teenager, because it's not working anymore. Handing her daughter over to child marriage, and that daughter somehow WANTING that marriage.

Anyway! I'm sure there's more! But I just think it's Neat.

[xxcrossroadsxx]

(Sorry for the long ahh paragraph) Im really desperate to know the answer of this😭, you know chapter 1 the third or fourth image showing chise a future prediction of herself as a mage right? (Thats what i know but its when she’s wearing a white robe) And that also got animated on the anime but there’s something im always curious about. If its a scene from the future but she actually looks young and her hair is short just like season one… not even a little tall and i can’t see her left cursed arm if im right the right one she’s holding the stick with and left one is the red cloth but it doesnt have any sign of her curse and no ring (i dont remember if she keeps wearing it anymore) so like is it a future reference or am i tripping 😞

So far we have this little info from the Supplement 1, but nothing has been confirmed yet. We still have a long way to see the end of Chise's journey.

Edit: I just realized that Chise was called "Priestess" by Goddess Morrígan... Who also asked for mistletoes as offerings. So there is a lot to unpack here 👀👀👀

[captainpriceslilwife]

pt. 3 of gaz x insecure!reader :)))))

[part 1, part 2, part 3]

He’s late.

He went through all that trouble of convincing you of how genuine he was about taking you on a date, just to be late. 

He just wanted to do something nice for you. Something to actually make you smile in his presence instead of tense up or cry, but the universe seems to work against him when it comes to making you happy. Which is how he ended up here – desperately trying to buy flowers from the old Scottish woman on the street corner that he’s certain has been around since the Cambrian age. He really needs to stop taking Johnny’s advice. 

“How much for the sunflowers, ma’am?” He’s been trying to be as polite as he can, but the poor woman doesn’t seem to notice how his hand is tapping nervously at his thigh or how he checks his watch every two seconds. She just hobbles around with a smile, pointing at all of the other flowers on her stand and telling him some long-winded story of her youth about each of them.

“Eh?” Oh, and she was deaf in one ear. Something that wouldn’t be a problem if he didn’t have to keep repeating himself every single time he asked a question. “Wha’ did ye say, luvie?”  “The sunflowers.” He enunciates impatiently as he leans towards her right ear, only for her to blink in confusion at him. “How much?”  A wide smile breaks out on her face as she gestures to the bucket of sunflower bouquets, and Kyle softens a bit now that he thinks he can finally finish this up. Maybe he might even make it on time if he really books it…

 ��Ah, ye can take as many as ye’d like!” 

Christ.

“No, no-“ A tense sigh escapes his lips as he takes out his wallet, trying to get it in her frame of vision before he loses her attention again. “Money. How much money?” But she’s not even looking at him anymore. Her white, fluffy brows are furrowed like she’s deep in thought, and she’s got her eye on one of the giant displays of pink and red flowers next to him. “Say, didn’ ye say this is fer yer girl? Ah still think she’d like some roses instead…more romantic, ya ken? Ah’ve got plenty different ones for ye, just gimme a wee second. Ye really should take a look-”  “No, ma’am, please…I-I don’t have a second.” He’s starting to wonder if he should just give up, but the thought of showing up late and empty-handed makes him feel so guilty that it makes his stomach lurch. “Please, I just want to pay for the…” But it’s too late. She’s already toddled off behind the cart, hunched over and spouting some story about how her late husband bought her roses every Sunday. “…the sunflowers.” 

He can only imagine what you must be thinking right now. 

And then there’s you. 

You, who had gotten up embarrassingly early that morning to get ready for your date. You had cursed yourself for agreeing to meet him so early as you rushed around your room, trying to pick out an outfit and do your hair in a way that made you feel like you looked alright without drawing too much attention to yourself. You had changed five times – constantly questioning if you looked like you put too much effort in – so you put even more effort into dulling yourself down. 

You even had to give yourself a pep talk in the mirror before you could gather the courage to leave the house. 

You’re okay. This is okay. This is what normal people do. They go on dates. If he sucks, you can just leave! That’s allowed…yeah…yeah, I can just leave. And I look good…I look…great. It’s his loss! Well, he hasn’t lost anything yet, but-

And now here you were – poor thing. All alone at one of the tables in the corner with a cup of coffee in front of you.

You were already a ball of nervous energy when you had walked in – messing with your hair and fixing your outfit every couple of seconds as you hovered around the entrance, looking around and waiting for him. You lit up when you're phone dinged with a notification, but your smile fell as quickly as it came when you read the words. 'I'm running a bit late, but I'll be there soon, I swear'

Oh.

It really is a prank. He’s not coming.

You could feel your hands trembling as you looked down at your phone, feeling utterly betrayed as those tiny black words stared back at you. 

What’s even worse is the fact that you realize that you feel betrayed by yourself, not him. You should have known better; you should have known that this would happen. Your brain preens at the realization that it was right – you weren’t someone worth his time - but your heart begins to develop that familiar ache it's gotten so accustomed to.

‘I’m so sorry, love. I’m nearly there, I promise.’

You can feel your eyes begin to brim with tears, but you can hear a tiny little voice in the back of your head telling you to wait for him - just to see. Maybe he really is running late. Maybe something came up. Maybe he's just as nervous as you are and he took to long to get ready.

Maybe, maybe, maybe...

Maybe you're just the idiot that can't seem to learn her lesson.

You take in a sharp inhale, steeling yourself as much as you can as you slip your phone into your purse, ignoring the incessant buzzing coming from within as you make your way inside the coffee shop.

You had spent so long getting ready - you weren't about to go home and waste all of your hard work just because of some idiot guy. No...you'd get yourself the coffee that you had been excited for.

Because you're all you have.

All you'll ever have, apparently.

You try to seem casual as you place your order, but even the barista can hear the waver in your voice and the way you look around the coffee shop, like you're waiting for some hidden group of friends to come out and laugh at you - the punchline to some sick joke.

But nothing comes, except for your coffee, which you take and shuffle over to some secluded corner where you can wallow on your own. Luckily for you, nobody seems to pay you any mind, even when the tears you had been holding back finally begin to slip down your cheeks and you have to take a sip your coffee to stop the sob that threatens to escape from your lips.

You're so lost in your own thoughts that you don't notice his form sprinting past the window beside you, but your head snaps up when the bell above the door jangles abruptly and the door slams against the wall.

Your heart practically leaps from your chest when you see how disheveled he looks - chest heaving as he wipes the sweat from his forehead, and he has...flowers. Sunflowers, to be specific. Your favorite.

He brought you flowers?

He stands in the doorway - ignoring the disapproving look that the barista sends his way as his head swivels around to look for you.

You begin to wipe at your tears hastily, partially hiding yourself from view as you curse quietly to yourself for ruining the makeup you had worked so hard on that morning.

Once his eyes land on you, you can see his eyes flash with relief before he begins to make his way over to you - murmuring politely 'excuse me' 'sorry, love' 'right behind you, darling' as he pushes through the tables that lie between the two of you.

“You’re still here! Oh thank god…here.” He pants breathlessly, holding out the sunflowers, which you take hesitantly – and he tries not to fall to his knees to beg for forgiveness when he sees the red rim beneath your eyes, or when he hears you sniffle quietly. "Oh, god, love…I’m so sorry. I’m sorry, I-"

You wave your hand pathetically, trying to brush off the fact that you had been crying - but for some reason you can't stop your lip from wobbling once more, though this time it was because of something you've never felt before. Something you couldn't name. But it felt like some old version of you was finally getting what she deserved.

Someone who actually liked her.

And poor Kyle - he can see how you're eyes are growing glossy again, and he thinks he's ruined absolutely everything.

"Ah, shit…” He motions to the bouquet pathetically, silently trying to communicate why it took him so long to get there, but he feels more and more like an idiot the longer he looks at it. 

It’s not enough. 

Maybe if he was late because of a thousand bouquets, he’d feel less guilty, but right now? Seeing you with tears streaming down your pretty face? 

He wishes someone had run him over when he ran through oncoming traffic to get to you.

“Flowers. I was just trying to bring you flowers, a-and the woman – she was so old.” He blubbers, clearly still out of breath as he rests his hands against his hips, but he still scrambles over himself to try to explain the situation – honestly, he feels like he might faint with how flustered he is. “I wanted to do something nice for you, you know? Just to, you know...make up for everything. A-And I asked my idiot friend for advice, and I swear he must have it out for me – recommending a family friend…a bloody Mrs. Gillies-“

And the whole time he’s stumbling over his words, he’s just waiting for the moment where you stand up and throw those flowers right back in his face. Maybe your coffee for good measure. He feels like his heart is about to beat out of his chest, but his rambling immediately comes to a halt when he sees your wobbling lips stretch into a smile. 

You’re smiling. 

You’re smiling. 

Why on earth are you smiling?

He’s frozen in shock as he blinks down at you, and he swears his heart comes to a stop when you choke out a little laugh. 

Oh, god, he’s done it now. You’ve lost it. He’s gone and made you absolutely lose your mind. 

Your teary eyes meet his, and you give him a pitiful, watery smile that knocks the wind right out of him like a swift punch to the gut. It’s not until you open your mouth that his hands stop shaking, and he finally understands what mercy feels like.

“Mrs. Gillies?” You giggle out through your tears, bringing your hand up to wipe at your damp cheeks. You don’t seem like you’re mad at him. You should be, honestly – even he’s mad at himself. “Oh...well, no wonder you were late. She’s, uh…certainly a talker. I used to work with her when I was a teenager…surprised she’s still alive, honestly.”

He’s never felt himself relax so quickly in his life. 

His shoulders drop as he lets out a breathless chuckle, thanking whatever god was listening that he hasn’t entirely screwed this up. He rubs the back of his neck nervously before he sits down across from you, flashing you a smile that shows how guilty he’s still feeling.

“God, I feel like such a prick. She just kept going on and on and I was losing my head thinking of you waiting on me, so I just…I just left her fifty quid and took the flowers while her back was turned.” 

The laugh you let out is music to his ears, and he swears he must look like a love-struck puppy as he watches you lift your hand to cover up your sweet smile. One that he had worked so hard to try to pull out of you, even if you're still wiping the leftover tears away from your eyes.

He’ll get you to stop hiding it soon.

“You know, I bet she hasn’t even noticed that you left.” You keep your voice low as you lean in, like you’re scared she’ll somehow hear you speaking poorly of her, but it doesn’t stop you from giggling quietly to yourself. “She’s probably talking to a couple of lilies right now, thinking it’s you.” 

The corner of his mouth quirks up into a small smirk as his eyes roam over your face, trying to take in every detail of the gorgeous smile pulling at your lips - the one that he finally gets the privilege to see. “Lilies? I’ll be honest, love, I always struck myself as the rose type.”

It’s such a stupid joke – one that he silently curses himself for the second it leaves his mouth – but you laugh so genuinely that he feels like the sun has burrowed itself in his chest. He knows he's gone the moment he realizes he'd do anything in the world to hear that sound spill from your lips just one more time.

“You look gorgeous, by the way. Absolutely stunning. Did you- you curled your hair didn't you? It looks nice..."

And instead of tensing up like you did before when he tried to compliment you, your smile turns shy and you hide your blush behind your mug as you take a sip - murmuring a bashful 'thank you' in response.

He feels like he could take over the bloody world with the way his chest swells in pride.

But his eyes flit down to your drink as you place it back down on the table, tucking a piece of your hair behind your ear as you try to work up the courage to glance back up at him.

"That the drink I owe you?" He nudges his chin to gesture towards the coffee in your hands, still feeling a slight pang of guilt in his chest for being late and making you doubt yourself, and him.

But you just shrug your shoulders and give him a playful smile - one that makes his knees grow weak and his heart grow three sizes in his chest. "Should've been here on time."

Now it's his turn to laugh, and he shakes his head as he leans his arms against the table to tilt himself closer to you. "I should've. It's a shame, really...making an angel like you wait on me."

You let out a quiet scoff and roll your eyes, but there's no malice in it - especially when you sport another bright blush and supressed smile.

"Guess I still owe you, then." He murmurs softly, a bit more genuinely - just to show how serious he is about you.

He watches as you cast a glance over at the bright yellow bouquet you had propped up on the seat beside you, and he can see how hot your cheeks are, even as you hide your smile behind your hand - and he can’t help but smile along with you. He’d listen to that old woman talk for days just to fill every room in your place with sunflowers if it meant he could see that look on your face every time he saw you. 

"I guess you do." You nod coyly as you run your thumb over the lip of your mug, finally pulling your eyes up to meet his. "You'll have to make it up to me next time...and don't be late."

Next time.

He huffs out another relieved laugh, already melting under your gaze as he brings his eyes up to meet yours.

"Wouldn't dream of it, love."

A/N: I'm so sorry for the wait for this! I hit a block halfway through and was struggling to get my thoughts into words, but I hope this was okay! I’m not sure that there would be another part after this, unless some specific scenario between the two of them was requested. I also thought abt doing some random blurbs or headcannons with the two of them but idk! also the amount of Gaz + sunflower content I saw while writing this was insane. I’d like to think that everyone was blasted with a universal divine imagery of Gaz with sunflowers and everyone did their own thing and it’s all magical. Though, I also felt like I was going insane seeing everyone’s content bc I thought I was manifesting it. Anyway.

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[yuan4i]

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hello! i apologize for such short notice of this message but i’ll try to make it quick!! i know it’s been awhile (roughly 6 months since my last post) and i’d like to apologize for ghosting tumblr. i have been extremely occupied with school and i’ve been really focusing on my education and mental health from a past abusive relationship (which i will not be getting into 🙂‍↕️) i’ve also been experiencing a big writer’s block (?) and i don't play genshin impact due to the fact that i think i simply have grown out of it. i stopped playing genshin actually started a long time ago (started when around natlan’s release) and to this day i haven’t logged on. 

now as for the writings, i don't have the motivation to write anymore. i still have ideas and everything, however, now i find updating and writing to be like a chore– which is unhealthy. this means the kavetham smau (cult of dionysus) and lyney smau (angel eyes) will be left incomplete. i completely do not blame you if you are upset with me for this. 

that’s all i have to say! this blog will stay archived and my alt/personal blog will be deleted @yuanairies 🙂‍↕️ thank you all so much for the past 3 years, i’ve made so many happy memories and thank you all soso much for the support, kind words, and patients. i’m really sorry to disappoint you for discontinuing my works, i hope you can understand. 

i have most of the story for each smau planned out (more revealed after the undercut) and they are for adoption/feel free to use these ideas however please do credit me/tag this account (@/yuan4i) if you do use or adopt them! //spoilers (?)

cult of dionysus: 

(all occurs after latest chapter, 47. ) kaveh shows up to yn’s apartment and they have a bonding moment → yn confronting al haitham about kaveh’s troubles (kaveh doesn’t know) → yn confesses to al haitham about how she had a crush on him → al haitham and yn arguing (al haitham’s frustrated) → al haitham and kaveh arguing again → kavetham break up → kaveh and yn have a talk → yn and al haitham also have a talk → yn helps al haitham and kaveh talk things out → polyamory starts → the end!

based on playlist : cult of dionysus, cruel summer, fool, no one noticed, i love you i’m sorry, style

angel eyes: (all occurs after latest chapter, 19. ) yn realizes scara has feelings for kazuha → they have a talk and break up (peacefully) → however, yn’s still sad about this break up → they sob about it to lyney, lyney comforts them (comfort crowd based chapter) → scara & kazuha gets together (yn’s supportive about this) → lyney x yn groupchat (consists of all shitalkers + the adoption center + 6reeze) → lyney and yn have this “situationship” (at some point he’ll admit to writing enchanted)→ yn asks lyney what they are, lyney responds with “just friends!” (he thinks lynette wouldn’t approve of this relationship/family’s first) → yn crash out, situationship break up #emo</3 → lyney suddenly leaves uni without a word (#dropout</3) → timeskip, yn and lyney meet again (in the timeskip, it is found out that lyney left to take over the orphanage) → the end :) 

based on playlist : enchanted, sparks fly, comfort crowd, casual, the 1, king of my heart

false god: mualani drags yn to a party → they end up playing spin the bottle → yn lands on kinich, yn and kinich kiss (at this moment kinich doesn’t know who yn is)→ news of yn and kinich are dating were spread around the school → yn denies it while kinich doesn’t → yn confronts kinich about this → they make this “fake dating” deal → yn still has this one sided rivalry towards kinich (he doesn’t know) → lots and lots of “study dates” → university/college applications → it is revealed that yn feels the need to be no.1 due to expectations, kinich comforts them about this → yn develops feelings for kinich → yn self sabotage era (“it’s only fake dating”) → yn “breaks up” with kinich before they catch deeper feelings → yn avoidant era → it’s revealed that mualani is the one who started the rumor of yn and kinich dating (she had good intentions) → yn avoids mualani → kinich shows up at yn’s door → they make up, they start actual dating → yn texts mualani and apologizes for avoiding her, mualani doesn’t feel offended (#understanding queen) → everyone gets accepted into the post secondary of their choosing → the end ^^   

based on playlist: false god, close to you, i can see you, so highschool, everything has changed, that’s how you get the girl 

thank you all for this wonderful journey. i am so blessed to meet every each and one of you <3

[upallnightallday]

I'm seriously starting to think Tim wants this show canceled.

Like this Oliver/Ryan press tour with a bunch of buddie questions is one thing before this lack luster of an episode. That is a clown make up I have used of wearing. Even if "it really never was mine" is such an OOC thing to say but whatever.

But the fact that EVERYTHING IMPORTANT in the firefamily happens outside the screen. There isn't any coherent plot there. And Hen YET AGAIN is only good as a mother. She is a fucking badass lesbian who has gone through fucking medical school and she doesn't take the job?

And if Bobby really is dead dead, where is the actual mourning of him? His funeral was a fucking after thought.

And don't even get me started on Eddies storyline. What fucking story happens mainly outside of the screen? If you have to do that to a storyline you enstablished last season YOU ARE A BAD WRITER.

I might not be back for the season 9 honestly. Tim just got his new shiny toy and doesn't care about this one anymore.

[tryandbehappy]

okay maybe it’s just me but i’m so sick of people being like “nick should love the wife he was forced to have in the fascist police state that he can’t escape from!!! if he doesn’t love his fake wife then he’s a horrible person!!!” like yall. bffr “nick has a family now” that is not his family lmao. HE says it in the show because that’s HIS reality but it’s not real. shipping rose and nick is weird. i think some people have lost the plot. gilead/nb/real life fascist states make people afraid in order to get them to comply. a lot of what nick has done is just to stay alive. that’s how good people end up doing “bad” things / do things they don’t want to do. i hope nick is able to make a decision based on what HE wants before the season is up. that’s true freedom. if rose/the baby live and he still leaves them that does not make him bad or a dead beat. rebellion in fascist states is not going to be pretty or tied with a bow.

I agree, Anon. the show is actually not about what’s “right” or “proper.” It’s about true freedom. And “doing the right thing” is exactly what June keeps trying to do and we see how much it hurts her. It tortures her, it tortures Luke, and it tortures Nick because, in the end, she doesn’t choose him either not because she doesn’t love him, but because she feels obligated to Luke.

And about Nick: I used to think he was forced into that marriage. But in this season, I realized: Rose was his attempt to forget June. That’s the truth. Because we saw all throughout season 4, and really all throughout season 5 too, how hard he was trying to move on. He even said it to Lawrence: “I can’t move on.” And Lawrence said, “She’s never coming back to you, and you know that.” And Nick said, “I know. I just want her to stay alive.”

He knew this love was destroying him because he couldn’t have her, and he had to build some kind of life. He also knew that he’d be expected to marry and if he didn’t choose someone, the system would do it for him. And then he’d end up with a Handmaid and all the other Gilead horror. So he took it into his own hands. That’s how I see it. He picked someone himself to avoid worse.

And he really tried to make that marriage work. We know he told Rose about June which is huge. That’s such a deep level of trust. Why would he do that? Because he wanted that relationship to be honest and real. He really tried. He’s incredibly loyal and we see that, how much it tore him up, how he tried to keep his distance from June all through season 5. He told her again and again: “We won’t be able to talk anymore.” In episode 3. In episode 9: “it’ll be hard for us to see each other.” Even though we saw how much he still wanted to be with her, in every scene. On the phone, when he imagined kissing her. When he told her Rose was pregnant, he even leaned in to kiss June, then stopped himself.

He tried so hard to bury all his feelings, to bottle them up and move on. But you can’t do that forever. The pressure built. And then it exploded. We saw the growing tension with Rose. We saw him snap, for the first time ever!!!! when he punched Lawrence in public and totally blew his cover. He cracked. He couldn’t take it anymore. All those bottled-up feelings just broke through.

At the beginning of the season, I thought maybe he’d just wait, keep quietly hoping for June to choose him. But he didn’t even wait for that. He was already ready to throw everything away. Because he realized: he can’t keep living like this 😭

And that doesn’t make him a bad person. Like I said this show is about freedom. Both external and internal. Internal freedom is the ability to choose for yourself, regardless of what’s “right” or what other people expect. And I truly believe it’s all leading to Nick breaking free, from these chains, from this prison.

Yes, it’s unfortunate. Yes, Rose is a victim in this. But sometimes life just is like that. It’s complicated. And it makes him human.

[bestly]

could u see mud in the past could’ve been overprotective towards Ken as he is towards Mel? Like maybe Ken took that from him & muds trying to get him to ease down, wishing he’d done that sooner?

I personally see it as the reverse. As in Mud would be incredibly reckless and Ken has to fish him (as well as himself in some cases) out of whatever new shit he’s in.

Maybe the same still applied in their younger years. The whole “endless cycle of living and dying” thing just made Mud’s careless behavior even worse, seeing as there’s no fatal consequences anymore. Not really. Hence he’s very lenient with Mel compared to Ken. Though, he isn’t aware she’s the human yet.

I AM a fan of the “Mud worked at Virtue Corp to help Ken out of the Inferno” theory though. One of the few exceptions where Mud shows he might actually care for his family, perhaps. But those moments are so especially rare, it’s easy to miss them.

[naehja]

@endlessburningdarkness

Airplane had never been able to do whatever he wanted with his own story.

First his editor insisted that it was a stallion book. So Harem stuff had to happen. With villains with a limited smartess so the progagonist would be shining better.

He had a lot of idea for Ming Fan, for exemple, but no he had to be a villain shixiong, jealous and stuff like that. Nothing else. Nobody wants to know more about him.

They discarted Shen Jiu's backstory extra because he was the main villain. who wants to have his backstory? Who wants to understand him better and understand why he's like that? Who wants to know that the rumors about him are false? Who wants to know that Haitang didn't said the true when she said that he was well treated by her family? Who wants to know that he actually tried to SAVE Liu Qingge? He's the main vilain and people wants to hate him. Don't make them feel bad for hating him!

The Editors insisted for have more sex scenes. More wifes. No real enemy. Luo Binghe had to be perfect, unbeatable, and stuff like that. And Shen Qingqiu couldn't have a quick death after he had done. People hate him, they said, they want him to suffer, they said. So he had to suffer for long.

Airplane hated it. He really didn't want to make his scum son suffer like that. This poor guy had already a shitty childhood and a lot of traumas. And now that? The editors were even not satisfied when he finally wrote Shen Jiu swallowing the Shards of the Sword of Yue Qingyuan. It was too quick. Some readers, including a certain cucumber, were even whinning that this end was too nice. How dare the scum vilain escape his punishment? How dare him die like that, causing Luo Binghe to have a tantrum about it, during which he killed some of his wifes? Poor Bingge, his revenge wasn't complete and it has made him kill some of his wifes

Something, Airplane didn't understand his readers.

He tried to makes Bingge look bad, impliying that he was a r*pist, that he broke family, friendship. He implied how he had ruined the different kingdim by fusionning them. How people were living in fear that he stole their daughter/wife or kill their son. How some demons loved to terrorize humans. How Bingge didn't care about all that. How he manipuled Mobei-Jun to kill Shang Qinghua. How he didn't really care about his children. How he had, in fact, manipuled Yingying to make her believe about the rumors that her Shizun was grooming her.

People didn't care. Some still defended Bingge. Editors still asked for Harem stuff and sex scenes.

He was so tired.

He loved the universe he created, he loved his characters, and hated how he had destroyed it, turned them into characters that he didn't like anymore. Killing them in so horrible way. Making some of them stupid when they were smart people. He had tried to show that Bingge was problematic, that he did bad things but people still defended him. Some were blaming only his sword, other were blaming Shen Qingqiu, calling him a scum like if what Bingge did wasn't way worse!

Cumcumber wrote meta after meta to explain that Bingge was a innocent man who were forced to do bad thing, manipuled by his sword and traumatized by his horrible scum shizun who had not enough suffered! Airplane sometimed wondered if Cumcumber reallr read the new chapters. Sometimes, Bingge didn't have his sword with him. And being abused by his shizun doesn't excuse all the atorcities that Bingge had done over the years! Doesn't excuse how he treated women.

So he decided to do like Conan Doyle and kill his main character, putting a final end to his story. And he would do it in a way who would please HIM and who would erase any possiblity to Bingge to come back.

1) He contacted by editors, his new responsable who had just took her post, replacing the former one. He told her that her that he wanted to put a end to his story, explaining her that he didn't have more Harem ideas but a fabulous ending idea! She was interestedd about it and tell him to write it.

2) He wrote that Heavenly Demon can't really have children with human. Sometimes, everything is good. With luck. But too often, they are too powerful. The human part can't bear it for too long. As long the seal was here, everything was good. But Bingge rejectedhis human side and used demonic powers all time. His body start to suffer of it. It's one of the reason for why not a lot of his children reach their teenage years. But nobody know. Bingge doesn't understand. He thinks it's a kind of flu for demon and use the only way he know to heal it. Nothing work. He starts to get more and more tired. His body aches a lot when he uses his powers. Over the weeks, he start to cough blood. He has vertigos, fevers. Black spots appear over his skin, everywhere. They are painful to touch. Mobei-Jun understand what happen but doesn't want to be killed in a tantrum so doesn't say anything. But a extra chapter shows him speaking with a loyal advisor about it. He's pissed toward Luo Bingge for have manipuled him to kill Shang Qinghua so fuck the emperor, for him.

Bingge becomes more and more weak, soon he can't even fight. Moving is painful. He can't even have sex anymore. He's too tired for everything. His fever raises. His cough becomes worse. He had kept Mu Qingfang as captive because he was a good healer but even him doesnt know what he has. And let's be honest, even if he knew, he would not do anything. But there are nothing to do. It's not something who can be healed.

At a point, he's bedridden. His wives are not worried for him, except some (the most closest/loyals) but almost every one of them fought so her son will inherit.

3) And then something happen. Say, Shen Jiu's body vanished after his death. A demon felt bad about him and decided to bury him in a peaceful location, away of Bingge's obsession. But ShenJiu became a Ghost and over the year, he became a ghost King, more and more powerful. He stole his ashes and hiddes them in Liu Qingge's grave, where nobody would dare to search. Ghost King Shen Jiu enters in the palace, killing demons over his way to the emperor's bedroom, but sparing children and women, even the women who betrayed and/or hurted him. And then Shen Jiu kills Luo Binghe and it was almost mercy seen the state where was Bingge.

4) It was the best chapters of all the story that Airplane wrote. His editor was very surprised but loved it, she asked if he even wrote extra about the characters ands he says yes but your predecessor didn't want it. She's like "show me" And he did. She decides to publish it, along with the end. In those last chapters, he wrote worldbulding, lore, mythology, history…angst…everything he would have wrote before.

5) Everyone is spechless because that's so much better that before? The Drama? The lore? Even Bingge's fans adore it. Some say "ha karma" and with Shen Ji'us extra published along the end, some people starts to love him. But Shen Yuan died before reading this ending.

And Airplane dies before seeing the success of this ending. Only that his editor adored it.

6) And so when Shen Yuan starts to get worried for Binghe who is more and more tired, has often fever and stuff like that, Airplane starts to get worried too. He remembers the ending. He has never dared to tell Shen Yuan, first because he thought his friend know, and then (when he learned that SY died before reading the ending) because he sees how much this fan of Bingge wouldn't accept it. Until the day where SY asks him if Bingge, in the original story, has had a wife plot where he was sick. And where Airplane is forced to tell him that yeah he's sick and you can't do anything.

Shen Yuan: WHY DID YOU WROTE THAT?

Shang Qinghua: I HATED THE WAY MY STORY HAD TURNED AND I WANTED TO PUT A DEFINITIVE END TO IT!

Shang Qinghua: And you know what? People have ADORED this end!

Shen Yuan: what kind of author kill his main character.

Shang Qinghua: Conan Doyle. Agatha Christie...

Shen Yuan: YOU KILLED BINGGE

Shang Qinghua: like if he didn't deserve some karma.

Shen Yuan: And Binghe, he doesn't deserve that!

Shang Qinghua: i fucking didn't know about the fact that my characters would really exist you know or that everything i wrote would happen!

Imagine Airplane is so tired and angry because of his work became, of what people force him to turn his story into, of what Binghe became (a criminal, a rapist, a murderer, a sadist), of what SQQ's fate was....(his poor meow meow)

that he wants to stop it.

And he heard a potcast about how Agatha Christie and Conan Doyle killed their character to put a end at their stories.

And he's like "you know what, i'm doing that"

And he create a no cure sickness that only half demon can have because being 50/50 is bad for the health on the long term. Like if the human part was rotting away slowly.

And there are no cure. None. He even create lore to justify that. He even invente a rule who say that Binghe can't reincarnate because he's half demon and half human and that the two have different way of reincarnation and since he's perfectly 50/50, he can't use any of them.

And after have wrote that...he dies. Yeh it's like Shen Jiu's backstory, he never had the opportunity to post it.

So SVSSS happens and at the end Airplane remembers what he wrote in a moment of anger and he's like "shit" because he knows that it will happen soon since everything happens SOONER in this timeline. And he uses so much energy to wrote lore to justify the whole "no cure sickness" that he knows that....Well the happy end will not last for long.

"For my defense, i was drunk when i wrote that"

taking this headcanon and running with it! gonna believe binghe just rots away slowly and dies at the end and we just never got to read it.

thank you for that idea, it's lovely!

[louwhose]

Zelink Week 2024 | Day 2 | Breath of the Wild | Fading

Fading impressions of someone important to you... no I'm not crying you are.

@zelinkcommunity

[hermidetta]

if yuri is ever 'cruel', she will stake everything she has on it being a product of necessity, a product of a cruelty wrought onto them first, and for so many reasons she knows of, too. that's why she doesn't shriek, doesn't run, doesn't take criminal at face value like she would with just about anybody else. it's already clear she's poisoned people for less.

... but now they might really be a criminal for this. that grin. that look. that sentence in that voice. and maybe she is doomed, maybe she always was. the blood in her face rushes back with a vengeance, and right when she'd finally shooed it away.

it's almost just too easy for them to mess with her. bernadetta slaps her hands back over her eyes with a tiny squeak, fingers spreading opened and closed just as they had earlier. the mousy stare behind them is not affronted, so to speak. and not scared, never scared. scandalized? maybe. uncertain? well... curious?

"t-tea," she stammers, "tea, teacher?! about crime things, right? c-crime... things..." that's right. yuri has to mean teaching her about crime things. nobody in their right mind would have implied the other option. just look at her—scrawny, scared of her own shadow, creepy and just plain ugly. (and unmarriageable, and unlovable, and all of the other things trained into her head.)

yet much to bernadetta's own horror, her gaze accidentally falls again to their lips. the fingers snap shut. "crime things!" another squeak. "y-yeah, i bet! that you're a really great teacher. the best there is. a-about those criminally, criminal crime things!"

and somehow despite all of her floundering, one thing strikes out to her, an unanswered sentiment that bernadetta abruptly drops her hands and perks up for with so much earnestness, too much earnestness. always only earnestness.

"wait! don't feel bad, yuri!" because that would be the absolute worst. worse than a thousand years of jail. she splays a hand over her chest, professing to them as openly as she can, "um, that's right, i'm not lonely anymore! because, because unkissable degenerate bernie has her best friend here who's going to teach her all about crime things! or whatever else they might want to, but only if they want to because nobody actually wants to kiss bernie. so..."

it's then that she shrinks again, fidgeting where she sits, shoulders swaying idly with her nicked fingers picking at each other in her lap. her gaze falls to it, doubly sheepish from her outburst. there's a gentle concern in gray eyes that doesn't even need to be there, but she can't help it. when will she ever not care for them? "so... are you okay? not feeling bad? and, just now... you were just picking on me, right? i-it's okay if you were."

it seems she will always flip the blade in their hand as long as she can help it, even guide it up to her throat and show them just where to cut. she can do that for yuri. all she's missing is permission to bleed, after all.

*⚘ crimes one and two

⠀ continued. ⚘ ethereal ball 2025 ⠀

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

ford: would you be interested in a dd&md campaign where nothing bad happens whatsoever

stan: what’s the fun in that?

ford: the escape from our chronic depression

stan: …can i raid a dragon’s hoard or somethin

ford: you can. you can even mock the dragon so hard it dies

stan: holy shit yeah i’m in

[superkooku]

Okay, here is part 2 !!

So, like I said in my now deleted post (R.I.P), this second part left me with different tastes in my mouth, even more than a few hours ago.

Let's just say that it really sucks to have what could be a good retelling be held back by a few glaring flaws. Btw quick reminder : this is just my opinion and my experience, I'm not a literary critic, don't take my words as the truth. And I won't say anything against the author, just reviewing her book.

Btw, if it was an object, it would be a rollercoaster 🎢. Because there are cool highs but lows that rub me the wrong way.

Here's the bingo, btw. (Green = well handled. Orange = neutral. Red = ugh 😩)

I changed the Ares thing because it's not that interesting (though his lil role in the myth is super neat) and replaced a mistake that @jejesoso pointed out.

Also, there WAS a healing scene but it was setting up the friendship, not romance (also they were kids), and Atalanta was just bitten by a snake. But who knows ? @gingermintpepper could be right and there WILL be a battle before a romantic healing scene later on.

Edit : since no one reblogged yet, I can add that the summary is on my next reblog, if you want to have the slightest idea on what's going on. I forgot to include it earlier 😅

Part 2 - Chiron

The good (from best to decent)

Well, Atalanta isn't OP anymore ! She actually learns things, has emotional dilemmas and even has to rely Asclepius in order to save her from a snake bite (well, she refused, but it's framed as her being prideful, not some "she doesn't need a man" situation). She's a solid protagonist for now.

@aliciavance4228 will probably like this one (at least she would in a better retelling) : Melanippe, here named Ocyrrhoe, was noticed ! She makes a cool appearance as Chiron wants some infos about Atalanta's future (since ir sounds uncertain). There's the reference to her predicting Asclepius' future and demise

I forgot to say it before, but the prose is quite nice ! I also like the lil format change when Ocyrrhoe predicts the future.

Asclepius' personality is actually pretty interesting and I like the way his craft was handled : a bit of mysticism but also him using actual remedies, herbs and operating on sick people.

And he's characterized as a bratty, proud but well-meaning kid who cares about saving others.

The little glimpse we have of his adult self show him already humbler, cheeky and, idk, he's nice to read about. He's not eccentric like on the Epidaurian inscriptions, though 😂.

Chiron too is handled in a cool way. I know, he's not the hardest character to write, but I genuinely liked him. He has a mesh of strict but caring mentor.

Still no badly executed "feminist" message. The characters actually behave like normal people.

The mid :

The author went with Coronis as Asclepius' mother. This isn't a problem, but my judgement will just depend on how Coronis' actions will be treated (I hope with nuance)

Since Asclepius looks like mini-Apollo, it's mentioned that women and men simp on him in this book, lol. A funny irrelevant detail, I know.

Atalanta, from now on, is only said to have been blessed by Artemis. Even the book itself was like "nope, Ares and Aphrodite doing it too is overkill. Let's just keep Artemis" 😉.

As an adult, Asclepius is like "oh hey, Atalanta is hot 😳". Lol. Btw, yes, they have the enemies (to friends) to lovers relationship. Called it ! Also, I would've preferred the feelings to bloom out of emotional proximity instead of the classical "she's pretty" trope. It's not terrible but, yeah

Meleager comes as Asclepius' "manly rival" yayyyy !! My bingo's getting pretty steady. @just-1-scorpio and @amostcuriousmythicist , you were correct 😂 ! He just made a quick appearance so I can't judge him, but yeah, I called it.

Btw, thanks to a name search, I can say that Hippomenes doesn't exist

I like that Asclepius feels so close to Chiron, that he sees when his mentor feels uneasy, that he trusts him so much. And the message "Your family is the one you choose" is nice. Too bad that I hate the context behind this conclusion.

The bad (from tolerable to Apollo)

Chiron (in Atalanta) : you can't become an Amazon if you kill someone in cold blood.

Penthesilea killing Acheans in the Iliad : 👁️👄👁️

The Amazons attacking Athenians in the Attic war : 👁️👄👁️

-Because Theseus took their queen-

This plot point was introduced after Atalanta killed those centaurs, but since they attacked her first, it's okay.

This one is just funny 😂. It makes the Amazons more innocent than they should be, which is a shame because I like some terrifying powerful women.

What's next ? "Maenads don't do sparagmos in cold blood" ?

Where is Chariclo ? If Ocyrrhoe is here, her mother should be near, or at least mentioned. Come on ! Let Asclepius interact with his half-sister !

There are only two other flaws but trust me, those are the BIG ones.

Asclepius and Atalanta have a cute friendly chemistry and I want it to stay that way. But I know it won't ! Listen, we don't have to turn every interesting relationship between a man and a woman into a romance and this is a big example. If they were advertised as friends from the start, then their relationship would be a positive. A classic but fun buddy story. It's a personal pet peeve how friendships between men and women are underrated

I saw this one coming. I saw it coming and yet I'm still disappointed: Apollo's relationship with Asclepius. Or rather the lack thereoff.

Yup, Apollo is a deadbeat that Asclepius only dreams of ever meeting. No, he didn't appear yet, he was only mentuoned but I hate how he's handled so far.

Let me explain: basically Asclepius explains that his father saw him ONCE when he was born then dumped him to Chiron and left to get some milk.

I saw it coming by the way Asclepius sounded uncomfortable talking about his father and how he didn't seem to be close to him. By how, just absent he was throughout Atalanta and Asclepius' childhood to adolescence.

When Atalanta calls Apollo a superficial womanizer, Asclepius sighs but doesn't contradict her (mind you, he's a real loudmouth in this retelling and he found Atalanta arrogant back when the scene happened. So if he was comfortable with his father, he SHOULD have said something).

And why did the book choose to make Apollo a deadbeat? I have a hypothesis coming from what this reveal leads to : because it could end the scene with Asclepius and Atalanta realize they have a "similar" background.

So, to further Atalanta x Asclepius, the author not only sacrificed good plots Epione, Hippomenes and Meleager as the ACTUAL love interests, but ALSO Apollo's relationship with his son ??????

(no, Meleager being "the other guy" isn't enough btw).

Also, info file : she was abandoned by Iasos, her father, and also like Asclepius, she didn't know her mother.

I'm sorry, but abandoning your daughter in a forest to die is NOT the same thing as a busy Olympian god letting his son in his previous disciple's tutelage while still being around go teach him and developing such a close bond to him that his death provoked a devastating grief.

Hahahaha, no. This is another reason why I hate how romance is seen as the be-all end-all situation in media. So instead of the beautiful father-son relationship we have in the myths, we have this absence of anything interesting for these two.

Instead of ranting any further about how good of a father Apollo is in mythology, I'm gonna drop you some actual proof :

(I love this post so much)

Between that one book about Alcestis that @gingermintpepper was reading and this retelling, Apollo's getting dragged in the mud in these retellings, without even having the chance to appear and defend himself 😅😅

So yeah, there's quite a lot of neat stuff in this retelling BUT there also are some very annoying flaws. I hate them a lot.

Edit : also, the lack of relationship between Apollo and Asclepius motivates me to work on my own ideas even more :3. I want to do something with these two.

Atalanta retelling (review)

Since it's divided in multiple parts, I'll divide this review according to those parts.

Here is a prediction bingo I created out of my and my moots' predictions, I'd like to thank @gingermintpepper , @go-rocksquadsfan , @amostcuriousmythicist , @just-1-scorpio , @jejesoso and @margaretkart (in dms) for giving me the ideas.

Note that not all of these predictions are necessarily negative, but pretty obvious for the genre. The free spaces are for "Stuff I should've seen coming"

Since I made it AFTER reading the first part, I'll be nice and only start counting their realization in the next ones. Although I could already be crossing :

Out of place names

"Not like other girls™"

"It's no place for a woman"

Part 1 - Childhood

I must admit I'm pretty relieved.

Since @aliciavance4228 's heated review of Crown of serpents, I'd fear this retelling would be as bad and completely stray from the source material.

But, although it isn't excellent by any means, it does follow the trend of "non-American retellings not being as disastrously inaccurate".

If the whole book has the same level of quality as this first part, it'd easily earn 3 stars, aka kind of decent, has its flaws but nothing too horrible.

Since I review as I go, I may be wrong about some things. If I end up proven wrong, I'll state it in the reblogs.

Summary

It basically tells us little Atalanta's childhood: from her being abandoned by her biological father's orders as a baby to her living with a mama bear, then two hunters meeting and adopting her.

Her rowdy but isolated childhood gets turned upside down when she comes across wild centaurs who burn houses and kill insects for their pleasure. After a difficult fight, she ends up killing them both.

She ends up being taken by Chiron, who saw the whole thing, and also meets a kid Asclepius.

The good (from best to decent)

I'm a sucker for found family stories 😂. So I found the little plot of Atalanta living with her adoptive dads very classic but nonetheless pretty cute. It's my favorite part of the whole thing.

Btw no, they're not a gay couple, they just raised her together. They're basically a hunter family, they taught her to use a bow and arrow, introduced the wild little girl who lived in the forest to humankind and they're just pretty cool guys.

Which gets me to point n°2 : this book doesn't demonize every single man. So the feminist message won't be as heavy handed and clumsy as other retellings. Heck, maybe it may be decently used.

The author seems to have some knowledge of mythology. Yes, this is an actual quality compared to some of the other retellings out there

The book takes place in Greece. There's even a map (something I always like). Bare minimum, I know, but so few retellings reach it these days.

The gods don't seem to be super demonized (for now)

I like Atalanta's little hiding place with lil flowers and all. And her having to give it up in order to grow up, go with Chiron and live

This book makes me more invested in the myth version of Atalanta, whom I only knew from afar (contrary to Asclepius, I didn't spend hours researching her fof personal reasons 😂)

The bad (from actual dislikes to nitpicks)

There's nothing super awful but I have some nitpicks.

Atalanta is way too overpowered. As a 4yo child she is said to be "as strong as a man". At a young age, she can effortlessly carry a tree trunk. Chiron says he never saw anyone as quick and agile as her while she's still an untrained kid.

If she was her adult self, I'd be way more lenient, especially since most of her described feats happened in the myths (like killing the centaurs). Actually, except the beginning, the book is surprisingly myth-accurate 😂. For now.

But my main problem is that she's a KID. After all, she's just a mortal child trained by two mortals but she can defeat two centaurs with only a slight difficulty and a perfect arrow aim ? As a CHILD ? It's too much. Maybe her own training with Chiron will show her weaknesses and what she works on.

If Atalanta was slightly, and I do mean slightly less skilled, I wouldn't be bothered with it.

Tthe book spends way too much time describing how strong she is.

There IS an explanation on why she's OP but I find it out of place, to the point that no explanation would've been a bit better. Basically, it's because she's blessed not only by Artemis (this one makes sense) but also by Ares and Aphrodite??? Who just came walking in the woods for no apparent reason other than "Plot". It's something I'd expect from Pandora and even then, she wasn't blessed with "kid Heracles" levels of strength. I'd expect hard work, difficult beginnings but impressive progress by Atalanta. Not some backstory akin to Wonder Woman

Yeah, she has "not like other girls™" energy. Even as a baby, before being blessed by the gods, she never cried or something.

I'm sorry, but as much as I kinda like her dads as a character, the fact that someone is named Azariel in an Ancient Greek setting immediately bothered me. It's a Hebrew name btw.

The mid

Atalanta isn't a particularly interesting protagonist but she's not that bad either. The two first bad points bother me, but she's not annoying. She's just a typical wild girl who wants adventure and seeks justice.

Atalanta likes the Amazons and wants to join them. It was on the summary so I am not surprised. I'll see how the rest of the book handles it before judging.

The book states that Artemis is fond of them. While Artemis isn't the n°1 member of the Amazons fan-club (that's Ares), iirc she did take a few of them as hunting companions. Correcr me if I'm wrong. So it's okay

Asclepius is here 😂. He appeared for 2 pages in total (towards the end) and is characterized as a bratty boy who's like "ew a girl !". Since he's a kid and kids can be immature, I'll forgive it for now, but I'll be extra nitpicky about this man once he's an adult.

The gods aren't demonized for now and Artemis watches over Atalanta. Though I wonder if gods would need a magical crystal ball to watch mortals instead of having the innate ability to do so

I'll post part 2 in a few days as a reblog.

[tryandbehappy]

I also wanted to ask you when did your passion for this relation between Nick and June start ? When did you start making vidoes and write about ?

That’s actually such a great question, because Nick and June came into my life at the perfect time. See, I’d been a shipper and a fangirl for a long time already, watching tons of shows. And right around the time The Handmaid’s Tale season 1 was airing, I had just lost Peter Quinn. my long-term obsession from Homeland. And it destroyed me. That whole arc was so painful. Quinn was this CIA agent who’d been recruited as a teen, a very similar setup to Nick, actually except the big difference was, Carrie never really gave him anything in return. He loved her deeply, but she barely reciprocated, only one kiss!!!

So there I was, heartbroken over Quinn’s awful, pointless death (and the fact that the show basically gave us no reaction from Carrie wtf? I mean, he was just a secondary character in the big scheme of things but still), and then The Handmaid’s Tale starts airing. I joined right around episode 8 of season 1 and I was immediately hooked.

I realized I had never felt this way about a ship before. No joke. I mean, when have we ever had a ship where we know this much about their sex life for instance how many times someone came, in what context, with what intensity? It was layered. It was loaded. And the focus on them was huge. It was like a fangirl dream come true.

I still regret that I started watching when episode 8 was already out, because that meant I only had two weeks until the finale. I made my first fan video after episode 8 and then bam, the season was over and I was facing a 9-month wait for season 2! I swear to you, that was the worst hiatus of my life. I don’t know how I survived it, I was starving for more.

Luckily, I had already been editing videos for a long time as a hobby, so I entered the Handmaid’s fandom already skilled. That’s why my early videos were already quite deep and polished, I knew how to capture the layers of their story.

As for writing on Tumblr, I only started this year. Before that, I was mostly posting on Twitter. But this year? I just exploded. I couldn’t contain it anymore, I needed a place to talk about all of this, to share my thoughts, break things down. So here I am ☺️

My first baby, love it so much:

[theloverislost]

constantly thinking about how the night nurse was portrayed in dead patrol