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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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the picnic table scene

#this isnt going to make sense to literally any of you for a long time and im sorry about that #but FUCK was i writing this morning #man. man man man man Man the motivation Hit #this fic might get done after all...#i need. to go sleep. OUASGAHSAKJSNCADCLSKDVMS;#THEY MAKE ME INSANE THEY MAKE ME INSANE #YALL ALREADY KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT #THEY MAKE ME CRAZY AGH AGH AGH #ok. ok. ill sleep. and we'll see if the scene holds up when my brain is Refreshed #absolutely unprompted #throwing myself to the ground and howling #who do i need to BITE #oh 7 am me we're really in it now #literally getting myself too worked up. im. Emotional. i almost feel like tearing up #if that was something i could do lmao #fortunately crying does not come easily to me but in my heart im like. idk. Sobbing #anyway in order to calm down im gonna go think about something that makes me equally insane #which is the OG reason i designed a butterfly look for howdy. yass!howdy's origins <3 #slamming my face through drywall ok bye im off to crazyville where i can catch a layover to sleepytown

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elminsters · 6 months

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i love coming on here and finding out everyone lost their damn mind while i slept

#why are people acting like wotc are going to come to their houses and uninstall the game from their computer LMAO #and why are people acting like larian is washing their hands of bg3 when they literally said they have additional updates planned via patch #like did we seriously expect anything other than what we've been told? why is this news #wotc is shitty sure but no more than any other big corp.#this isnt a ya dystopian movie we don't have to defeat them ahsksfjk calm down #i also don't think we need to worry about how the characters are owned by wotc i feel like it's more for merch purposes #i do not think they're going to become the new poster children of dnd #that's not really how dnd is marketed #idk i think a lot of people gaslit themselves into believing that we were getting 2 dlc and bg4: astarion boogaloo #it's giving valentines day romance patch tbh #none of this is directed at mutuals btw u guys are normal ♥️ i just think in general this fandom needs a reality check

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todayisafridaynight · 4 months

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rgg tier list based on when antagonists have their villain monologues and when protagonists have their inspirational speeches ranging from Most Appropriate Time to We're In The Fruit Aisle Can We Do This Later

#snap chats #thinking of this cause im 90% sure my friends gnona cancel on me and i started going into my own villain monologue #and i was like 'lmao wait was nishiki doin this shit while buying hair gel and seeing his coupon expired yesterday or'#nishiki doent even really monologue does he wtf am i on about #and then i was thinking about how my dad will start giving life speeches over Nothing and i was like #'has haruka ever asked kiryu for like A Pen and now kiryu's going into the importance of small acts of kindness'#like old man she just needs to write a letter or something idfk calm DOWN #anyway i just think itd be funny to categorize the characters this way .........

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oatmeal-stans-the-trash-rat · 4 months

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I'm impulsive with blogs because I love making the aesthetics of them, so now I have a moodboard blog!

The blog: @insomniacmoodboards

It'll run on requests and asks. Everything is organized with tags.

Check it out if ya wanna! No pressure to do so, of course. Just a fun I'll be doing for now.

#blog announcement #i need to calm down on making blogs lmao #this one i think will last a long while #as long as ppl aren't supreme assholes y'know #moodboards are really fun <3

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piplupod · 3 months

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i think i had a normal person nightmare for the first time in ... well honestly i can't remember having a normal person nightmare like ever. I'm sure I have but usually they've always got a big dose of trauma mixed in. but this one was totally normal, I'd just gotten lost in a big city and some shopkeeper got vaguely irritated with me for realizing I'd forgotten my wallet back at the hotel after she'd rung me up, and then I got lost in a neighbourhood, and then tried to ask this old gay couple for directions and they were so unhelpful that I woke up out of disappointment DBDHDKL

IT WAS JUST SO BORING AND ORDINARY, I woke up and was like. huh. that was... an absolute nothingburger. where were the horrors. that was so incredibly tame compared to the horrific shit I usually deal with on a nightly basis ??? hello ????

#like my dreams usually have smth to do with me being in trouble w a person in a position of authority #or running away from something or being trapped #and I won't go into specifics because a lot of the other things are things that i will Never talk about w anyone ever fhdkdl #it's absolutely horrific and i dont even bring it up with mental health professionals bc it's so scary fhdkdl #and i just have these nightmares every goddamn night SO THIS WAS REALLY WEIRD ???#LIKE. I FEEL NOTHING AFTER WAKING UP THIS MORNING DHDKDL #usually I'm like having to calm down and mentally steel myself for the day as soon as i wake up #this was just. a little bit of confusion at most. because it was so tame.#and the only reason im dreading the day is because I didn't sleep much so im rly tired lmao #but there is no trace of the usual nightmare horrors.... THIS IS SO WEIRD #NO WONDER PPL DON'T DREAD SLEEP FHFKDL THIS IS EASY STREET #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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cloudcountry · 1 year

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see i was 100% correct when i said aster and dove were the only ones that understand me LMAO /lh

#auburn's rambles <3 #getting told you like a character you hate by so many people can be silly #but it can also get frustrating REALLY quickly #im glad it's calmed down though since this afternoon #i love it when my moots have fun but sometimes i feel like it's taken a bit too far #but that's on me i need to communicate that LMAO

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burinazar · 1 year

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i’ve not linked the Ganja squad server on here recently for The Usual Reasons but i currently have a free trial of fancy nitro so i boosted the thing and, by member request, immediately added a completely irresponsible amount of new emojis that will most likely perish in a few weeks. if you like the gang weeders ganja squad characters join us and use our ((checks)) …S I X DIFFERENT Despairing Belaf emojis while we have em. (link) (note: please be 18 or older!)

#vueko #belaf #wazukyan #belavue #wazubela #pakkovue #irumyuui #pakkoyan #it's been really active lately but goes through laid back periods but we collectively can't calm down this week idk why #'The Usual Reasons': feeling vaguely awkward- yet resolute - about it being 18+ andalso i’m not at all lookin to grow it for growth’s sake #but i hope anyone who Needs It can find it. it spotlights fanwork/discussion of a very special arc/group with sparse but devoted fans #though short and concluded their story is (to me. maybe to you?) endlessly analyzable and interesting. like a shakespeare tragedy is lmao #this is the approximate reason i have tagged this post with character and ship names #if you like this gang enough to be looking up charas by name or even KNOW these ships (note: they have their own channels) you may like it #If You are also Abnormal about Vueko And Belaf And Their Child and Friends. Join Us.#orphan hole tag

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imwritesometimes · 6 months

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pro tip: if you've just done 11 miles in 45 mins on a stationary bike, maybe wait a little bit before you do 40 squats

#I am *really* hoping a day of rest will calm my left leg muscles down and I won't have pulled like #every muscles in that leg #again 😑#my calf especially is barking and I'm like damn bitch OK we will chill today I was super busy anyway #so I was alread 50/50 on working out today but goddddd I really overdid it yesterday 😔#I'm sorry I'm shutting up now I'm just like WIRED today now from all the shit I had to do & convos I had to have #I need like a sedative lmao #erin explains it all

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bangcakes · 8 months

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#ive finally calmed the fuck down NDNDDDDJN #realistically... we've only been buddy buddy like the past 2 months.#and like i think i was doing a lot of assuming. like he may be playing it cool bc hes not sure if i like him... Like That. you know NDJDJD #IDK. i think i was rishing bc i was scared id never see him again #hut now that i saw him... after graduating... and being out of school.... and we have semi plans to meet in feb....#really dont think theres a need to rush. like i want him in my life and i think at least that feeling is mutual JDJDJDJKDMDMDM #like he basically signed up for double hang outs with me. idk if he realized it JDJDJDJJD #bc every month or 2 we'll have plans with the bigger group AND ones with just me him n our other friend (that wants no part of the #bigger group JDJDJJDJDJD) so !!!@@@@ ya....#feeling much better and calmer !!!#i do miss him tho JDJDJDJDJJD. i wanna message him but idk what to say. but ik i'll think of something heheheh #and who knows... he may message me too !!!!! ya....#gotta focus on getting a job anyway HDJDJDJDJDJDND #my applied to count is still 1 LMAO #a lot of the companies.... dont seem real????? idk being a software company and not having a website.... or having a website #and having lorem ipsum or like the dedault wordpress blog post on pages.... its giving scam JDJDJDJJDDKDKD #but ya... the search continues...#personal

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encrucijada · 11 months

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guy too scared for horror keeps writing it

#haze dogs ✍️ fores with teeth ✍️#i feel myself finding my niche and it's either literary with fantasy... or horror lmao #which makes me want to do (MORE) changes to evergreen lung #but not to self check the notes app i think we fixed that book so calm down #i know it's good to not restrain yourself creatively and write whatever you want #but girl writing whatever i want has led me to never finishing things 😭#so i want to make a books queue and see if i can stick to it #i'm gonna need to find an outlet whenever the urge to write something else rears its head....#i did have the idea to write short stories of all my book ideas to kind of quench the need lmao #maybe i'll add flash to the mix to work on whenever i want to suddenly do something else in the middle of a project #rn i really want to maybe write haze dogs next year???#and write more short stories because i have one (1) ready for publication lmao #maybe short stories will be my december goal. write at least 2 #pia.txt

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invisiblyvisiblejay · 11 months

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i do not feel good <3 i want to go home but i really want to finish my homework before the weekend. wrote one paper gotta write another (it's like 5 pages :( but i already have an outline and did the research)

#screams #also think im gonna hang out w girl im dating today but her work ended like 30 minutes ago and i have not heard anything so #not sure #like its fine but now idk what's going on so im anxious #but we didn't say we were gonna hang out like right away or anything so i really just need to. calm down lmao #also i have this weird ass headache where it's not like bad but light is bothering me and i keep squinting for like no reason #want to get in my bed and turn all the lights off :(#also i didn't do a good job of eating so i feel sick #not doing well today apparently 😭😭😭

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gatheryepens · 1 year

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Benefits of working on Sundays: I get paid to mainly stand around and do nothing

Drawbacks of working on Sundays: The shopping centre is closed early so it took me about 20 minutes to find an exit

#gatherrambles #not even kidding half my shift I just stood there either cleaning the grill or just standing and talking to some peeps #it got really busy at the start then it calmed down for a little busy #then calm down #then got busy just before I left Lmao #then I took so long trying to find and exit to leave #I also needed the toilet but one was looked #so had to walk all the way down then the exit near the toilet was also blocked #it was basically a maze 😭😭#my next couple of shifts are all closers so I’ll be finishing really late #plus I’ll probably have to end up doing paperwork #which will make me finish even later rip 💀

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asterdeer · 1 year

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i am SHAKING i am DISTRAUGHT i can't believe they made me think richard was a cop. GOD. the worst ten minutes of my life. i had to take a few laps around the house. jesus christ

#reminder that i'm not breaking a commandment i'm praying. jesus christ are you seeing this shit. amen #making this a richard centric thing and establishing that he's really a vigilante gremlin is great but god my heart will never recover #anyway. yes let's do another 'bring richard back to face some past guilt and then forget that he exists again' circus #if they go against yet MORE canon from 'the homecoming' i'm going to lose my shit btw he said he'd apologize to nicholas #it's like they forget 'the homecoming' exists honestly #maybe i'm protective because it's my favorite aio episode of all time and always has been so i remember ....... a little too much about it #but still! it's your own canon! at least i have the decency to tag my fanfic as canon divergence #anyway i guess i care about these comics now??? fuck me #mythtakes #aio #richard maxwell #i have more shit to say about whit's and eugene's dialogue to richard but i've probably said enough for now #i need to go like. have a drink to calm down lmao

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catsniffer420 · 1 year

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re-triggering / re-traumatisation 🤝 resurfacing stomach and eating problems

#😀 i really hope i can calm down my nervous system enough before my trip to the USA #i need to be able to eat so i can enjoy the vacation and not freak Andrea out…. lmao

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guinevereslancelot · 1 year

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i was sooo cringefail at my job interview 😵‍💫

#i think they're still going to offer it to me but i was so dumb #they asked if i had any questions at the end and i was like uhhhhhhh then asked a question already answered 🤡#and they didn't ask me for my weaknesses but i volunteered one and my answer abt my strengths was really dumb #i couldn't even tell them what i wanted to do i was like oh im interested in everything :)#and i didn't tell them enough abt my experience and screwed up with the resume aaaaaa #but at the end they basically said when can you start so i think they're still going to hire me 🥲#but the stress!!!#i thought i would feel better once the interview was over but bow im just obsessing over the dumb things i said #i was sooo unprepared 🤡#but they were really nice and i think they still want to hire me they were just trying to decide where to put me #and i didn't have a good answer lol #basically i said i can do anything that doesn't involve chemistry #lmao #anyway ughhhh #i need to calm down so baddd #but i think it went well overall #this has been a shitpost #goodnight <3

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skaluli · 1 year

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guess who finally got to go to a therapist again today after losing their other one

ME!!!!!!!!!!!

#im so sorry that happened youre really strong #o get through it #afterwards i had to walk back to my mums which was around 20 mins #i just ended up playing fine by lemon demon on repeat to calm me down lmao i didnt have earbuds so i just played it out loud while walking #stayed at her work for the rest of the day helping her and got back home at dark #the appointment went well i think. i fumbled my words to an ungodly amount and couldnt think properly #i barely could keep eye contact and just ending looking all over the room and then just wall. ty wall. was just slumped in the chair adsfgh #it was weird having to tell someone about myself #and whats happened in my life #while i was talking i was just like damn huh that did actually happen to me #i guess ive just repressed a lot of stuff and then having to bring it all back up again and trying to explain it as well was just weird #like when i told her about some of the stuff that happened to me during school she was like etc and it was weird because i dont really see #t but i just feel like she shouldnt be saying that to me. i dont know it just feels weird. i dont see it as anything even though it is some #hing i guess. like when she asked about me self harming i just said how it is because i guess to me its just nothing. even though i know se #f harm is not good to me it kinda doesnt feel like anything. its just yeah i do/did. nothing of it i just yeah. i need to figure out how to #feel again. thinking and understanding as well i suppose.#okay skaluli shut up i dont care stop talking.

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