#real life clients

[blueskittlesart]

cold fruit in a hot kitchen (so i had this great watermelon last weekend)

[sarah-yyy]

cannot believe i've been put on god's green earth to experience horrors

[endreal]

Job hunting is so much worse than being unemployed but unfortunately it's become a necessary evil this summer and I have to say that I'm impressed by this response I received from a job application.

I have never in my entire adult life been offered this level of communicativeness and transparency when working with recruiters or hiring managers before. Well done, [redacted]. Very well done.

[cijai]

Illustration 🤝 Real Life

Here’s my recent styling work, how did I do ?

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In the city!

Commission for  missyuniverse_ for her fanfic at Wattpad! ( account: Kittens_escapism or juanitasuniverse ) 😊😊😊

[lunasilvis]

I feel insane since I already do a (close to) fulltimer, but I'm gearing up the hours of work I put in my UX portfolio. Alarm set at 6 now every morning + work weekends until October 1st.

I really really want to finish all my work before the deepening of fall. This I plegded to myself. But writing out the research sections in particular (whilst ensuring it also looks "creative" and original, and isn't presented as just static, dry information) is incredibly time-consuming.

Yeah I succeed in keeping my head cool, but at times I feel all that is between my future life/realizing of dreams and now, is this darn portfolio and it feels challenging not to lose my shit over that and eat my desk whole lol

Again: patience, Michelle. It truly is a hell of a virtue

[fedorahead]

i'm so sad nerd culture has been corporatized because it's so accessible that it's been cheapened.

i don't mean this in a gatekeepy way; if i wanted a poster of fanart of, say, welcome to nightvale, i'd have to order it from the artist or buy it at a con or draw the damn thing myself.

now, fanart is still being made but i can log onto any of the various chinese sites (including amazon) and get a poorly manufactured print of someone's art without ever having the artist themself involved or paid. and i'll have a low quality wall hanging. and because it's so accessible, i can do this 50 times. cover a wall in it. overpay for something i could make on my home printer, get none of the satisfaction or human experience, but cultivate the aesthetic of that particular wall.

and it's completely loveless

there's no joy to the discovery of cheap crap on amazon that will fit the ~vibe~ i'm going for. there's no passion when i order a stack of ten arts that go together because they scream "nerdy" and use catchphrases that were played out in 2010.

i go to events and see people reselling stickers they got off wish for a dollar apiece, when the 50 pack was a dollar.

it's all so soulless

so when i say nerd culture sucks now, i don't mean "aaaa too many people i don't like have discovered that cool stuff is actually cool" like people love to pretend is the problem (though we can discuss the neurotypical invasion and subsequent ousting of autistics from traditionally social-reject circles later) the problem is that capitalism has sucked the joy out of it. 42 isn't an in-joke, it's a brand slogan at this point. everything is "wibbly wobbly" now. merchandise featuring d20s is some of the most popular cheap shitgifts you can get for holidays. everyone has seen how dragons consider you good with ketchup.

it's exhausting. none of the cheap crap is special. the market is oversaturated.

and now when i say i like xyz show, even though i liked it for 20 years, people do the whole "name three of their songs" type shit because they expect fandom to be so commodified that we have to be experts on every nuance if we've enjoyed something (or even loved it passionately) for so long. i haven't seen much doctor who past matt smith, but i've seen a shitload of baker and davison. being weird at me because i don't have an opinion on clara when i've only seen her twice is just obnoxious. because now, everyone's experience with a show or fandom is supposed to have some kinda alignment. when i was coming up, some of us had seen episodes others hadn't because they were still missing, or had to be torrented, or we went out of our way to find them, so every fan had a personal and unique relationship with the franchise. that just makes you out of touch now. if you haven't got all the info the youtube digests feed viewers, or the tiktok trends spread, you're a poser. if you don't like 5th ed d&d, you're boring and old. if you enjoy THAC0 you're a weirdo; but in a few years when the hipster zoomers discover it you can bet that my inability to calculate it myself will mean that i'm the poser.

i want the experience of having to order my specialty weeb shit from japan. i miss finding the vhs tapes of episodes of shows that didn't air anymore. yeah, that shit was more expensive back then, but it also meant that there was less drive to consume for all of it. each individual item i found was a special treasure, and that's just not the case anymore.

[ixtaek]

Please I’m begging you. Call and tell me you aren’t coming to your appointment BEFORE I print.

[asilosmagdalena]

Actually quite terrifying that ymk has a handful of shows available on US Netflix because that means there is a non zero probability that I might meet someone irl who knows who he is. Americans never watch j-dramas but the fact is I can mention him in passing and they could easily learn who he is. That's not okay

[potionwine]

Hate that I have to brace myself whenever I want to venture into the tag. Logically I know that a wall of silence + just blocking is absolutely the only correct response, because the fact that they've explicitly put their hate into the ship tag is all the reason not to feed the trolls, and I do do that,

It's just. So frequent and sustained.

I see one, I block one, yet I feel like I've been blocking at least one hostile intruder into the tag every week at a minimum? Rinse and repeat since late 2023.

And these remarks always manage to hit a bizarre note of sanctimonious insult that exposes a hilariously deep insecurity that other people dare to prefer something else.

I'm so. Tired. Even though I never respond and block them immediately, I've still been forced to see it, and I'm sick of putting up with this when simply trying to seek out a thing that brings me joy.

Saw a comment today about private QRTs on their hatepost and they were like oooo they're biiig mad in private—I don't know how to tell you this but it's your own people QRTing it in agreement. Those private QRTs are your supporters. The people on this side block and ignore, block and ignore, nobody would follow you and give you further attention, and nobody is discussing you in big mad mode because it's literally banned in our server, it's so taboo people don't even acknowledge the existence of the consistent hate directed our way or the single invariable shared characteristic of the haters, it's so prohibited to refer to it that we have to feel sad by ourselves instead of relying on fellow fans.

[snezus-christ-risen]

Post-vacation anhedonia has me dissociating at work wishing I was flat on my couch with THC flooding my veins and a brain full of beautiful words to finish this fic.

[six-of-ravens]

it's been a real rollercoaster of a night. now im supposed to be reading but im just sitting on the couch with an incurable* headache like "i need to change my ENTIRE LIFE"

*i took 2 Advil and either they're taking their sweet time kicking in or this is a weather/air pressure based headache that's not going to go away so easily. very likely the latter bc we're supposed to have a drastic temperature drop overnight

[alsaurus-loves-dean]

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[boyswanna-be-her]

it's sosososososososososo funny to realize how many ppl there are in my life currently who know nothing abt me other than the fact that i'm their petsitter and i drive a red station wagon and i have messy handwriting. This year has been WAY atypical for me--I did the same job all year, I lived in the same place, and maybe most significantly I didn't date anyone. I spent the year taking care of animals, traveling, reading, and learning. So maybe if you just met me, it'd be easy to assume that I've just sort of always had a stable, self-sufficient, simple way of living. Like, yeah! It suits me!

But i just. Have been so many things other than a pet sitter. The calmness of this year is totally aberrent in the context of my adult life. And I don't mean to "drop knowledge" on my clients, i just legitimately don't know how they perceive me and i'll mention something in passing that derails the entire conversation. The fact that i have more than a dozen novels published and out there. The fact that i have a late ex husband and his ashes are in a box under my bed. The fact that for many years I was the editor in chief of a real actual newspaper that these people still read. That I bought and sold my own house. That I was a fulltime caretaker for someone with debilitating schizophrenia. Or even just the benign jobs I've done to get by with academic editing/translation, being a baker, a copywriter, designing book covers professionally, being an "seo specialist" back when that was a viable thing, working as a library circulation clerk. That there was ever a time when I was a skinny blonde girl with no tattoos.

I'm happy that I've had a lot of variety and I'm happy that this year has been the way that it's been. And as I keep doing this, I'll have fewer conversations that stop halfway through with a 👀👀👀 moment, now that my clients are learning not to assume much about me.

[comradecowplant]

depositing a check and realizing i was a pack of gum away from overdrafting lolololollllllllllllllll

[luckyhodgepodge]

Flora 🌻

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