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hiiiii thank u for the ask

3. What is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)

ok so this is less a scene and more an entire fic concept but i literally cannot figure out a context to put it into and it hurts because i really like it

there’s a family living there now, from what he’s heard. a mom and a dad, and two daughters. maybe he should tell them about the money. but what would he even say? hey, there’s a twenty dollar bill somewhere in your walls. also, a part of me died here and i’m afraid his ghost might be wandering the halls. is he overstaying his welcome? i’m sorry if he is, by the way. i’d recommend you a nice priest for an exorcism, but he’ll probably just leave if you tell him to go.

peter thinks maybe he’ll slip a note under the door instead, but there’s too many words to fit on a page to describe the way his bones ache when he passes by the building, how he still wakes up in the morning expecting to smell burnt toast and hear may singing along to some garbage song from the 80’s she claims is the best thing she’s ever heard, or all the different creaks and moans of the apartment, all its quirks and flaws that he once knew like the back of his hand.

he could explain it all away; that faucet leaks because i was an overachieving nine year old who thought he could take it apart and put it back together without a problem, or that weird brown-ish stain on the ceiling is from when may accidentally flung spaghetti across the room, or why are you trying to rid this apartment of all the evidence of it being a home?

maybe i make it into something post nwh?? idk. this isn’t even all of it

20. Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you’ve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)

i wish i could say that all my writing is really deep and there's clues everywhere but most foreshadowing in my fics is something i did on accident and then went holy shit i can use this. i'm a genius.

i will say though, the way tony rhodey and peter's dynamic changes throughout everything i have posted for r&r (and everything in my drafts oop) is probably my favorite thing ever like idk i'm a huge fan of the walking dead and the way relationships shift with each new experience and that is exactly what i wanted to do when i started the series

i was gonna look through a couple of my fics to see if i could find specific references but ao3 is fucking. DOWN and i'm too lazy to pull up my google docs. god bless

22. Do you reread your old works? How do you feel about them?

i reread them all the TIME omfg. a lot of the times i'm cringing at spelling or grammatical errors (and then i fix them) but idk there's something so fun about being able to go back to a fic and think wow i would've done that differently if i wrote it today. it's also fun to read through a fic i don't remember writing at ALL and being like holy shit............ banger.............. it's an ego boost i guess

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my top 2020 fics!

okay! so i recently jumped back into this fandom after a couple of years, and started reading fic again, and i wanted to rec some of my favorites that were written this year. there’s ten on this list, and i probably could’ve done like 30 but this is already so long lol. it’s kind of in a general order, so #1 is my fav for this year, but i tried not to focus on the ranking too much because it stresses me out and i don’t need any more anxiety so it’s ended up being a pretty vague system.

1.  Our Lives, Non-Fiction (113k) by @indiaalphawhiskey 

listen. I’ve reblogged this fic like 10 times. I’ve read it twice already and it came out less than 3 weeks ago. It is an instant classic, right up there with fics like TIF or Wear it like a Crown. It has gorgeous, gorgeous writing, a thoroughly developed plot and well written character development, and such a compelling story. It is a marcel/louis fic, and I usually shy away from that kind of thing, but i’m so glad i didn’t this time because god, this one is so good. Seriously, if anyone ends up reading it, come and rant to me about it and we can cry together. Halfway through the second chapter, I created a note on my phone so I could keep track of everything I loved, and my comment on that fic is essentially a love letter to @indiaalphawhiskey. It's just so good. If you’re going to read one fic off this list, read this one. 

2. Loving You's a Bloodsport (106k) by @rosesau

okay i’m pretty sure this one made me cry like four times, which is a feat for me because i’m not usually a crier. Its soulmates with a little bit of a twist, and the plot is so well developed. Harry and louis’ feelings and their progression are written so vividly and i wish i could forget that i read it so i could go and read it again for the first time. It's also got some enemies to lovers, which is my favorite trope, and all of the side characters are beautifully developed as well. Prince!Harry, soldier!Louis, angsty soulmates. What more could you want? Oh and if you’re not convinced enough, here is a quote that fucking follows me around because its so beautiful: “Love and hate are two sharp knives balanced on a very fine line and I’ve cut myself on both because of you.” (ohmygod)

3. Mine Would Be You (114k) by @crinkle-eyed-boo

okay this one is listed at number three but it really should be 1c lol. I started this one at 11 pm like an idiot, and i don’t think i slept that night at all. It's Exes to lovers, and it's so well written. It switches between the past and the present, it's  heartbreakingly beautiful, the breakup and resolution are both so realistically written as well, and there's a great ot5 plotline too that i really loved. This one was also an instant classic- i bookmarked it before i even finished reading it. It's also got beautiful art and Louis and Harry are both artists in NYC, which I'm a slut for. Please read this one, it's so good.

okay i just realized how long this got so i’m putting the rest under the cut

4. The Murmur of Yearning (93k) by @mediawhorefics (for some reason tumblr isn’t letting me tag them??) | mediawhore on ao3 

I just finished this one, and my goddddddd it's so good. I read it in a day, and it's essentially 100k. Which isn’t that unusual for me except I did skip a class to get through it (an exam prep class. Not my finest moment but I passed. so.) There are tons of original characters that draw you in, and the whole world that is created is so fascinating and detailed. There's also no homophobia, so if you like historical fics but get triggered by that kind of thing, this is for you! Also, if you’re worried about the non-con elements, I'm sure you could message the author but also feel free to check in with me! I’ll definitely be rereading it in the near future and am totally up for discussing and crying over this fic with anyone.

5. Remember Me Fondly by @bluejeanlouis | kiddle on ao3 

ahhhhhhh this one made me sob too! It's set in both the present and the past, and I fell in love with all of the characters. This one is also heartbreaking, but I promise there’s a happy ending. Also, they way this fic deals with the fame and the homophobia and tours that harry and louis went through -even if it isn’t actually canon and is set in the 90s- is so vividly painful and realistic. It's written half through a journalist’s eyes and half through harry and louis, yet the switch in pov is so seamless and fluid and adds so much to the piece. 11/10.

6. Nothing But You On My Mind (83k) by @absoloutenonsense | nonsensedarling on ao3

okay. I started this in the middle of the night, and told myself I'd read one chapter to see if I liked it and then I would go to sleep. I'm pretty sure I read like 6. It sucks you in right from the beginning, and there's such a well developed plot. And it's so unpredictable and all of the details are so nuanced and tiny and then you look back at everything after you’ve finished it and go oh. Ohhhhhh. This one is also enemies to lovers. Are we sensing a pattern here?

7. An Invincible Summer (44k) by @twopoppies | Brooklyn_Babylon on ao3 

so as you can see this one is only 45k but i just love it so much that i’m rec’ing in anyways. It’s such a gentle, exploratory piece of literal art, and I kind of want to stay in the world that was created forever. Its set in the 1940s on a farm and i know @twopoppies has said that it started off as an excuse for barn sex, but it such a vivid story and its heartbreaking and emotional and uplifting all at once and please please please go read this. The only critique I have of it is that it's only 40k.

8. Somewhere in Between Lightning (99k) by @nauticalleeds, @shiningdistraction, and jassy117 on ao3

So this one's exes-to-lovers as well, and it's written in such a realistic way. Also i’m in love with the concept of louis on love island, despite the fact that he said he hates it. There's a sauna scene that I still think about sometimes. It's got just the right amount of angst and fluff and pining and despite the fact that it's set on a show that is usually pretty dramatic and unrealistic, this is written in a really beautiful but pragmatic way. I love it. i’ve got it  downloaded on my phone so I can read little snippets of it sometimes if I have to wait somewhere.

9. You’ve Got My Devotion (Hate You Sometimes) (95k) by @harryrainbows | lucythegoosey on ao3 

god so this one incorporates some of Fine Line into it, and wouldn’t say it's a song fic so much as it is written as a canon compliant fic that ties harry’s songs into it and its done so fucking well oh my god. Harry and Louis are exes in this one too (lol i'm sorry) and the build up of them getting together and the pining and longing is written really well.

10. At Risk, I Fold (15k) by @bearmustard | clare328 on ao3 

so i know this one is only 15k, but I put this in the list anyways. It's canon compliant, and it does mention the stunts (as stunts), but don’t let that deter you. Harry and Louis are written almost exactly as i’ve imagined them, and this one is such a heartbreaking look into the resilience and love and bravery that they have. It made me cry despite the fact that it’s not really a glum fic. The only reason it is last on the list is because it's shorter and i was mostly intending this to be a long fic rec. The love that they have for each other really shines through in this one, and it’s super gentle and soft and sad and happy all at once and just please go read it.

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Broken Like Me (Part One)

Pairing: Draco Malfoy x Eventual Reader

Warnings: implied self harm, bullying, might get worse as the parts go on.

A/N: So I’m not entirely sure how long this is going to be, but it is quite a dark fic so if you don’t want to read, I’d leave now. Also, the reader is muggleborn and a Gryffindor <3

MASTERLIST

Tag list; @accio-rogers @angelinathebook

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You pushed the food that was on your plate around, not feeling hungry at all. Hermione watched you, frowning deeply. Your eyes were kind of cloudy, almost like you weren’t actually in the Great Hall, but more like you were somewhere else, somewhere in your mind.

“Hey.” Hermione said softly, still frowning at you. When you didn’t respond, probably because you didn’t hear her, she nudged you slightly. You jumped back in surprise, not expecting to be touched. You instictively pulled the robe sleeve down your arm, hoping it would escape Hermione’s notice.

“Are you okay?” She asked you, worry etched onto her face.

You plastered on the realist smile you could conjure up, hoping it would do the trick. “Of course.”

Hermione narrowed her eyes slightly, as if trying to figure out if you were telling the truth. If she could tell you were lying, she seemed to have let it go by the fact she had started chatting about what you would be doing Potions later.

Hermione was your best friend, you bonded on the Hogwarts express and soon became fast friends. You are also extremely close to Harry and Ron, but not as close to them as you were to Hermione.

After a few minutes of nodding along to her chatter, she informed you that was in fact time for Potions with Slughorn.

You hated Potions, but more specifically, who you had to sit next to.

Draco fucking Malfoy.

The Slytherin Prince himself.

His hatred for you was on par to his hatred for Harry, you believed it was because you were a pureblood Gryffindor. But apparently, it was far more deep rooted than that. He hated your entire existence.

He hated how his sneers and insults wouldn’t affect you, how you either rolled your eyes or sniped back at him. He hated how you were a Gryffindor, but he also hated the fact that you were a pureblood for some reason. He always told you that you were a sad excuse for a pureblood. He hated your entire being and he made it his mission to show you just how much he hated it.

Hermione grabbed your arm, thankfully it wasn’t the arm you worried about, and started pulling you towards the door.

You tried to stand your ground, but apparently she was much more stronger than she looked.

“Come on, Y/N!” She groaned at you, stopping for a second. She turned around and faced you, with a disapproving look etched onto her face.

“I don’t wanna.” You pouted. Hermione looked at you, the disapproving look still plastered onto her face.

“Is it because you have to sit next to Malfoy?” She asked you, to which you nodded.

“You can’t let him get to you.” She sighed, making you shake your head vigorously.

“He doesn’t get to me. He’s just annoying.” It was now your turn to groan. “Merlin, he’s so fucking annoying.”

Hermione rolled her eyes before gripping your arm and pulling you along much harder this time.

“Careful, ‘Mione. You might dislocate my shoulder.” You said. “Wait, dislocate it, that way I’ll get out of Potions.”

Apparently she ignored your stupid request, and carried on pulling you towards the classroom.

Somewhere along the way, you managed to wrench your arm out of her vice like grip, smiling triumphantly.

Hermione turned around and narrowed her at you. “I’m not going to run off, I’m not seven.”

She looked at you almost like she was waiting for you to run off. When you proved to her that you weren’t going anywhere, she swivelled on heel and continued making her way to Potions.

“Hey, wait up!” You shouted. Hermione slowed down her walking pace, moving her arm in a way that made you speed up.

Before you knew it, you had both arrived infront of the door to the Potions classroom. You stayed there for a second, psyching yourself.

Hermione stood there, staring at you. She watched for a second before she had decided she had enough. The witch pushed you into the classroom, making you yelp. You turned around and narrowed your eyes at her, which made her smile cheekily at you.

You were about to curse at her, but she sat down before she could do so.

Sighing to yourself, you plopped down in your seat, leg bouncing up and down. You instinctively pulled your sleeve down, wincing slightly. In hindsight you probably shouldn’t have done that this morning.

You waited for Malfoy to make his entrance, probably with Pansy Parkinson clutched at his side. She also hated you, probably because he hated you.

Almost as if on cue, the two of them walked in, attached at the hip. You fought the urge to roll your eyes at the sight.

Draco caught sight of you at the table already, hair flowing down your back. He saw your leg bouncing up and down and how you were biting your nails.

You felt him sit down next to you, far from elegantly. You could tell that he didn’t want to be there either. Atleast that was something you could both agree on.

You went to grab your book out of your bag, but you hissed slightly when you moved your wrist in a weird way. Draco was quick to pick up on it, “Hurt yourself already, did you L/N?”

You rolled your eyes at him, clenching your jaw slightly. You don’t even know the fucking half of it, you pompous arse, you thought to yourself.

Slughorn walked to the front of the classroom, and informed you that you were only going to be taking notes this lesson. You let out a sigh of relief, happy that you wouldn’t have ended up embarrassing yourself in front of Draco. You had never been good at Potions.

After about twenty minutes into the lesson, Draco was engaging in conversation with Blaise, who was coincidentally sat in front of you both. You heard snippets of the conversation, but tried to avoid hearing the whole of it.

You quickly glanced around the classroom, catching Harry’s eye. He smiled sympathetically at you before turning back around. Apparently Draco had finished his chat with Blaise as he whispered into your ear, “Hey, L/D.”

You gritted your teeth and turned to face him, “What?”

“You will never have a chance with Potter.” He said, smirking. You frowned at him, obviously confused.

Draco rolled his eyes, presumably at your stupidity. “He may be your friend, but if he had any sense, then he wouldn’t go for someone like you. You might be a pureblood, but you are more of a mudblood than Granger. ” He spat, you flinching slightly. He noticed you flinch, and he was surprised for a split second, but he dismissed it.

“Whatever, Malfoy.” You rolled your eyes and turned back to your work. It was going to be one long day.

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3, 4, 6,8,13, 17, 24?

3. What is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)

answered here for the main one (the finnpoe historical au). 

4. Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

"And I'm not sorry. For leavin’. But how I did, sayin' what I did, I…” he’s not particularly sorry for that either — hurting Chas had been the best way to keep him from following — and it’d worked, after all. But he lets himself trail off, and hopes Chas fills in the blanks the way he needs to — the way John needs him to. John gives one last quick shrug, and rolls onto his side again, curls up around himself.

An arm wraps around his waist. The warmth of Chas’s chest presses tight against his back.

And, after a moment: “You’re still smoking like a damn chimney.”

John exhales. Doesn’t bother holding back a smile — Chas won’t see it, anyway. “I’m a bloody addict, mate. It’s a filthy fucking habit —"

“That nearly killed you."

That did kill him, technically, but he’s not about to bring it up. “That nearly bloody killed me, right. A filthy fucking habit that very nearly killed me, but in the end, ’s all I have left, yeah?"

Chas….laughs. A low, sleepy chuckle, slightly sad, slightly fond. Drops a kiss to the nape of John’s neck. “Yeah,” he says, and pulls John back against him. “Yeah, I know something about that."

(from Adrift, still one of the fics i’m proudest of having written.)

6. What character do you have the most fun writing?

In a sense I both love and hate writing John Constantine bc getting the accent/rhythm even passably right (which is the best I can really do) is hard (bc show!john’s accent esp is a MESS. like supposedly bc Matt Ryan’s pulling from several places, not just Northern/Liverpudlian specifically, to reflect that John’s kind of LIVED all over the place, but also it’s just -- weird. Esp with how much show!john esp has way more time in America than any other John Constantine, so I guess that’s an excuse to uh. neuter it a bit, for ~American Audiences or w/e.)

BUT otherwise John really is very fun to write bc he’s a dick and says dumb shit sometimes just for kicks I think? Which i would love to do IRL but like, we’re not all white blond Englishmen and can’t get away with things the same way. 

8. Is what you like to write the same as what you like to read?

I mean in a sense yes bc i don’t like to read OR write anything. 

But also yes generally I like to read the same kind of stuff I write -- I mostly CAN’T w/ longfic, for instance, and I definitely never write it. I also have preferences for established relationships (getting together stuff usually bores me to read and esp bores me to write), I never write slow burn (well -- i never write slow burn to consummating the relationship. I like to both read and write emotional slow burn ie, they’re fucking the whole time but only realize they have feelings a few chapters in, and it takes another few chapters for them to DEAL with that.)

I would love to read more fusion AUs (which are some of my favorite things to write) but no one writes them well, so alas.

13. Do you share your writing online? (Drop a link!) Do you have projects you’ve kept just for yourself?

c'est moi

17. Do you think readers perceive your work - or you - differently to you? What do you think would surprise your readers about your writing or your motivations?

I’m so bad at even guessing what other people might think of me -- I mostly imagine they don’t. 

I write a lot out of spite and annoyance lmfao but I think I’m pretty open about that. I’m incredibly vanilla when it comes to kinks and stuff but I think that’s also plainly obvious if you read my fic. 

Do people know I’m not white? That is one thing I do wonder about, when it comes to people who read my fic casually. I think it’s more obvious when I’m writing non-white characters but y’know i’m a race traitor & white dicks get more clicks & thus give net more validation, so I don’t do that as often, unfortunately. 

24. Would you say your writing has changed over time?

I mean I think/hope it’s improved, but even like, re-reading my clintcoulson stuff (which I don’t do very often, but sometimes when I get a new comment on something I’ll glance at the fic itself) my general style (heavy on subtext, light on. men who are actually capable/willing to talk about their feelings) has not changed. Like in some ways my writing is (I think) very direct and simple (I’ve never been a big purple prose person), but there’s occasional wild card words/phrases that show up sometimes which are much more in tune with my ~real world profession. Something that’s always been very important to me as a writer is like -- keeping things within the voice of the character, so when I’m in third person limited (which is what i’m most comfortable with, and basically all I write) I try to stick with vocab and idioms and preferences that are the character’s and not my own. Is that just a humblebrag? Maybe. 

But yeah I think I’ve always had and still keep a very bare-bones style when it comes to fiction writing lmfao. Like i don’t want to say Hemmingway-esque but also I do, mostly bc I think it would piss Hemmingway off. 

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1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7 for the writing ask- I AM SO SORRY I COULDNT STOP!!! xoxo

aaaah these questions look SO GOOD thank you so much <3 <3 for this ask meme, which will be open all weekend!

1. tell us about your current project(s)  – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?

i pulled open all of my WIP google docs for this and my laptop started whirring ominously, lmao. this is going to be a Little Long but i love talking about my wips so who cares!! (under the cut because EXCERPTS)

guys and dolls but gay - very, very casual rewrite of guys and dolls if sky masterson was a woman. i’m loving how chill i’m being about this one because it’s so much fun to not have to worry how i’m going to write lyrics in a not-weird way and just focus on the story. this one’s first because it’s theoretically closest to being finished.

sky, laughing: “oh? people. all the people you turn down every day. well, i imagine there’s someone out there that’ll catch your eye.”

sarah, stiffening: “...yes, there will be.”

sky: “and what might this person be like?”

sarah: “he will not be a gambler, for one.”

sky does not miss the pointed pronoun. “i’m not interested in what he won’t be, i’m interested in what he will be.” she sits down on the desk, in a pointedly masculine pose, and sets her fedora next to her - at her most Hot Queer, basically. “how will you know when he gets to you?”

my fic for the aos rarepair fic exchange - i can’t give any plot or ship details, for obvious reasons, but it’s 1.3k and i’m having fun with it!

steven roadtrip of destiny - canon divergent fic set at the end of steven universe future where steven goes on a roadtrip instead of... canon. it deals with some heavy emotions and it’s also a character study so it’s tentatively shelved until i get around to rewatching suf. but i am projecting on steven like crazy and it’s really, really cathartic. it’s taught me a lot about myself too lmao.

He’s never been anonymous before. He kind of likes it. It means he can fold his arms on the table and put his head down without Pearl worrying about his posture, or someone asking him if something’s okay.

In the last few months, he’s grown to hate people asking him how he’s doing, or if he’s okay. He always ends up lying, because he doesn’t want to worry them, and he ends up feeling worse.

Probably because it’s more of him supporting other people without supporting himself.

He should have told someone how he was feeling. He should have reached out. Sadie could’ve helped him. Lars would’ve listened. Connie would have hugged him and then found him the appropriate mental health professional.

(God, Steven wants a hug. Also the appropriate mental health professional? Whoever that would be.)

untitled aos fic - i don’t want to give a lot of details because :eye emoji: and also i don’t know much about what the plot of this is going to be anyway, lmao. but here’s an excerpt:

daisy “that actor who doesn’t shut up about data harvesting” johnson (@daisyquake) tweeted: two weeks :eyes emoji:

Elena Rodriguez | Seven Cents S2 Streaming On Netflix Now! (@yoyorodriguez) retweeted and added: the problem with being friends with daisy is that you SHOULD have some insight into what her tweets mean but you still have no idea

Fitz (@justfitz) retweeted and added: Try being married to her

untitled star wars twins fic - because i am a total and massive nerd. i’m just kind of stuffing everything i have feels about from the post-anh era into this and planning on figuring it out later? i’m really loving talking about the culture of alderaan (and the culture of the survivors) and also i just love writing luke and leia’s relationship... so much......

(no excerpt for that one because i’ve basically posted all of it in various posts lmao)

aos ds9 au - i’ve posted a LOT about this already and i want to keep the plot a surprise but fsk is in this and married and half the cast is aliens, what else do you need in life.

“Good morning,” says Jemma, coming into the room with her hair wet and her uniform crooked. “Hello, darling.”

“Hi,” says Daisy, turning her face up for a kiss. Jemma obliges absently as she walks past, looking around the room.

“Has anyone seen my hair clip?”

“No,” say Fitz and Daisy in unison.

and of course, last but never least in my heart, chapter 3 of the magnum opus - writing this is on hold until my brain decides to stop hitting me over the head at every possible moment, but there’s like... 2k written so far? it’s. it’s going.

“Yeah, yeah,” says Coulson, and makes quick work of the right gauntlet. It’s only halfway through the left one that his fingers slow and he says, quietly, “Simmons designed these, didn’t she?”

She lets out a quick breath. “Yeah.”

He stays quiet for a few more seconds, finishing up the last of the straps, making sure they’re tight enough. Finally, he says, “She should be helping you with these.”

Daisy pulls her arms back and swallows down some words, or maybe a couple of feelings, or maybe a sob. “Yeah, well.”

2. tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project

the last sentence of the magnum opus!!!!!!!!!!

no, lmao, i’m gonna try to be serious. i really, really want to write some librarians fic in the near future? also MORE OF THE SENSE8 AU. i’m DYING to write some stuff about that. especially sam’s cluster, for some reason? Let’s Make Him Suffer (Comedically)! one day i’m gonna finish that list of what cluster/situation each song is about and then it’ll be over for all of us!

3. what is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)

i spent about eight months imagining a scene where riza hawkeye was really injured and mustang was holding her in his arms (basically the promised day scene but with more privacy) so does that count?

hmm, just for some other possibilities: glinda telling dorothy about elphaba, laura somehow seeing or speaking to natasha during catws, a good omens au of the good place (specifically the ”i don’t even like you!” / “you doooooooo” scene), kencyrath au of star wars (ESPECIALLY THIS ONE, except setting up the first scene alone would take 7k, but i want to talk about leia and luke and their MESSED UP TRUST ISSUES in this au).

oh, also, something about star trek tng where jean-luc and beverly and jack were in love and then jack died and picard left. more specifically a scene set during the pilot episode where jean-luc very cordially offers beverly the option to transfer off the enterprise, that he wouldn’t dream of holding it against her, and beverly very cordially telling jean-luc to go fuck himself. i want to write 30k of that broken triad. i want it so bad. i dream of that fic. maybe one day when i find myself with a completely empty month or two, i’ll binge all of tng and Write Some Stuff.

4. share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

since you and i have tww in common, i’m gonna do a tww fic! otherwise i’d have to reread literally every fic i’ve ever written, lmao.

(this is long but i put this post under the cut so i have RIGHTS. also consider this a sneak peek for the j/d fic in the sense8 au?)

“It’s okay,” says Helen. She sits for a moment in silence, seeming thoughtful. “The Congressman and I are in the same cluster,” she says eventually. “I’d- I supposed that’s easier on the Secret Service?”

“Yes,” says Donna. “The-”

She stops herself from saying anything further. President Bartlet and the First Lady aren’t exactly quiet about who’s in their cluster, especially with senior staff, but that doesn’t mean she should go talking about it in an unsecured room in LA, of all places.

To cover for her blunder, she gives up something else: “The same with Josh. They got really lucky with him, actually. It’s just him and me, so they won’t have to worry about anyone threatening the Chief of Staff through the barista in the local Starbucks.”

Helen looks up from the Ohio numbers she’d drifted back to, a slow smile creeping up on her face. “Josh is in your cluster?”

“Uh-” says Donna, feeling like national security wasn’t worth whatever she’s just blundered into. Oops. “Josh- Josh is my cluster, ma’am.”

She catches her mistake the second it’s out of her mouth, but Helen doesn’t call her on it, more focused on other revelations. “No wonder you two look at each other the way you do!” she says, sounding delighted. Donna shuts her eyes, praying for this to go away. It’s not that she’s ashamed of Josh - it’s just so, so complicated, and other people never think about how difficult it was. Still is.

i’m just... i really liked the idea of donna fumbling and having to reveal this to cover up for what else she was going to say? i don’t know why i’m so charmed by this. i think it’s because it would be impossible in the show - you can’t show what someone was going to say on television, not without a lot of setup and very careful scripting. it’s just a really fun situation to write about and i’m really proud of this conversation in general.

also helen santos was a dream to write and i love her a lot. i kind of want to write one of the fics in the series about her and her cluster solely because like... look at her. she’s a delight in literally every scene. i love her.

5. what character that you’re writing do you most identify with?

daisy johnson!!! i love writing daisy johnson!!!! she is the most adhd character i’ve ever written and i literally just have to transcribe my own inner monologue and it works perfectly!!!!!

Swing shift: 1600 hours to 2400 hours. Daisy always ends up getting back to her quarters at like 0030 hours, when Jemma is asleep and Fitz is reading some kind of technical journal. Then she has to eat replicated pizza, alone, and freshly replicated pizza is actually pretty hot but it feels cold at that time of night, like, spiritually.

6. what character do you have the most fun writing?

...whoops i literally just answered that lmao. uh. i also really love writing sky masterson in the guys and dolls fic? she’s just weaponized hot queerness in a suit and i love her for it. she is intentionally trying to seduce this repressed lesbian and it’s really funny and also really hot of her and it’s so much fun to write.

also, i wrote chidi for the tgp fic and it was possibly the most fun i’ve ever had with a pov, although that was also because i was purposefully trying to mimic the tone of the show. i still think that line about michael and a grenade is, like, the funniest i have ever been in my life. but chidi’s panic was surprisingly easy to write? all of tgp’s characters have such STRONG voices, it makes writing fic ridiculously easy as long as you don’t get stuck on a plot for six months.

7. what do you think are the characteristics of your personal writing style? would others agree?

oof, this one is ALWAYS tricky. uh? uhh?? i’m going to ruin everything by saying this but i basically alternate between the same two sentence structures and i am really frustrated about it. i also alternate between the same two styles of endings and i always use the same beginning (set scene, main character pov, thoughts-as-exposition, back to scene).

BUT ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE i like to talk about emotions and relationships and character development!! i have my “queer subtext goggles” superglued to my face, lmao. i like to think about how characters must have felt about things in canon and how it must’ve influenced them. i like making people deal with the consequences of their actions, especially how it’s influenced they themself. i also just really, really like writing people who love each other, whether it’s romantic or platonic or anything in between. i just want them to be happy! i just want them to stick together! doesn’t matter what fandom, i stand by it.