#re-reading the manga chapters as i type this

[choccorin]

this fever is seriously beating my ass right now but at least the new bllk ep will release on my bdayy :33

[kuroshitsuji-sama]

I think I have it - finally!! (SebaCiel)

First I wanted to make totally another type of post but my laptop was screwing me over and that was maybe for a good reason? Cuz I think I finally connected the dots.

Thanks to this post I made, it stayed in my head what Sebastian said about their game. Then, I was re-watching BOC and this part -

Earlier, I thought that he might really wanted to hurt Ciel, play with him, scares the kid. And it didn't match with his protective energy he had when Ciel was in REAL danger. So I was forever confused with Sebastian behavior. But I think this is all about it - game and fake dangerous situation.

They are both the same, Sebastian and Ciel. They enjoy the game they are playing - how with their "roles", how the drama between them. And I have to admit, after I read @k-s-morgan fic Those Gentle Slopes that Lead to Hell, it helped me to understand nature of their relationship - they are playing with another people and with each other as well. That's what Sebastian likes about Ciel, and vice versa. Therefore, he is admitting here how Ciel is "avid player". And Ciel's reaction -

Ciel is not angry or worried. The enjoy this.

To made a point - Sebastian never wanted to hurt Ciel for real. Remember - he can't lie and we have it here -

And this is true. So no real harm from Sebastian has ever came to Ciel. Everything else which can happen, and it's not part of Sebastian mind, or it's unknow for him, will make him worried about his master. The ideal example I can put here is asthma situation. Totally unknow for Sebastian, so there's no track of him enjoying Ciel's pain -

Have I finally made it? I think I did..for now hahahha. So curious what will I learn from future manga chapters!

[k-s-morgan]

TGSTLTH related

Ok so I decided to do it here cuz I don't know will AO3 allow me to write essay hahahahah 😂😂😂

I don't even know how to start this. I've been reading fics for 13 years straight, like I don't remember the period of my life where I didn't read them cuz I always have some ship active and I'm crazy BL fan. Only a small number of them can make me crazy to the point I don't wanna sleep, eat, skipping my obligations, killing the pain and your sebaciel did everything. I haven't felt like this reading fic..,maybe ever? This is totally another level of me being fascinated by some writer.

I adore sebaciel, I'm in fandom since 2016 but the biggest problem I had with their fics is that - either people go too much OOC with them orr they rush up the things between them, going quickly with sex and feelings. It bothered me so much so I was crawling for good SC fics as crazy!!

After some break with SC, I came back to ao3 and saw your long fic. I started reading it but I dropped it after 3 chapters, I got bored cuz I thought you are gonna just re-type manga and do classic thing which another people do. Quickly, I got disappointed with another one and idk how but I decided to give your fic one more chance and dear lord......that was one of the best thing I have ever read. Maybe even the best.

Like, how smart are you? What's your IQ? Your manage to explain me some things about Kuro plot which I haven't udnerstand by myself. And the way you write Sebaciel relationship. That's everything I have ever wanted. Everything. They have normal conversation and that's it, that's all I need cuz there is everything. I feel electric every time when they talk, fight, do things together, goood the little touches svbjhsdjvbvbvbvbvbsdjvhbdf. I was tense whole fic. I read it for like 10 days, abandon everything until I finished it and now I feel sad ahahhaahha. But you are really something special, cuz I always used to say that manga itself is the best fiction cuz Yana knows the best how to create good Sebaciel energy. You, next to Yana, did the best job. You kept them as they are, never broke the character, and that's what I am most grateful. Slow burn, with drama and angst, love and attention, all misunderstanding, you put all necessary spices for 5 star meal. My fav part is when Ciel told Sebastian to add slamming doors to his most dramatic moments of his life ahahahahahahhaha 😂😂 I laughed like crazy, they are so precious♥ And I really wanted kiss to happen when Ciel lied Sebastian about another demon, that was sooo svbjhsvjhjhvbdf. But okay, you know the best, I trust you fully with this♥

The fact that they are ready to kill each other before they have normal conversation about their feeling is my fetish. I am in love with toxic things. Ciel ready to throw all game just to prove Sebastian that his value is not only his soul, right after he told himself for 1000 times he needs to stay on distance..... I LOVE ITTTT!!! I also need to say that you find PERFECT balance for good plot and romance. Your games and their cases...I just don't know, deep bow for you queen🔥💯After all, you didn't retype drama ahahaha but you manage to keep it canon without changing anything but still adding your spices so it's not ordinary Kuro plot we see every day....

I just have one question. From time to time, I was like a Bard ahahhaha, so sick of their games and my head hurting me, but on a good way. I am clear about Ciel but what about Sebastian and his disgust for Ciel's nicer, soft, emotional side? I know Ciel doesn't have it a lot, but would Sebastian still be grossed out about it as he was at the beginning of a contract or not? Keeping in mind that he is more and more obsessed with a boy?

So, that's all. I don't know how to use Patreon/PayPal, but for you I'll try cuz I only have credit card and that's all I know ahhahaha, I like to keep money in my hands😂 I'm sad about the situation in your country and all under - war countries. It's not bringing any good for anyone, specially for civilians. I hope you are okay and I wish you alll the best, the good karma must hit you really quickly cuz you made one person really, really happy here♥

Looking forward how will you finish this story, have a nice day❤

PS - this is the longest comment for fic I have ever left ahhaha, it's crazy how you got me sooo hyped up bjcvsdghvbds.

Hi! Ooh, thank you so much for your amazing, wonderful essay! I can't tell you how happy it made me! I think the electricity was already started being cut off when I got it, so I could see I have some really lengthy ask, but it wouldn't load. It was the torture of the most delicious kind :D

Like you, I've been reading fics for ages now, and the moments where I find some fantastic story that won't let me sleep or work or even blink are always the happiest and the brightest spots I remember. So it's extremely flattering to know that my story has become something similar to other people.

I love writing about smart characters, but most of them are definitely smarter than me! The benefit is that since I'm writing, I can think and plan everything in advance. In real life, I only wish I were as quick-witted and inventive. Alas, the best ideas and arguments come to me when they are no longer needed.

I love slow burns, and I love characters who abhor the idea of expressing their feelings, so Ciel and Sebastian have the most perfect dynamic in my eyes. I feel like I could spend the eternity just enjoying their Gothic world with their games, arguments, plots, and so on. Them antagonizing each other only to instantly team up against the common enemy is my most favorite thing in the world.

As for your question, right now, Sebastian would be thrilled if Ciel were to show a softer and more vulnerable side - at least in relation to him. Well, a part of him would feel the automatic need to mock him for it anyway, some habits don't die easily, but Sebastian's feelings have evolved a lot, plus Ciel is cold more often than he is not. So Sebastian treasures every word of praise, every hint of appreciation and need because they are so rare - he's come to crave them, and he has memorized all known cases of them by heart.

And no worries about supporting me! I really appreciate you taking your time to leave such a fantastic review, it made my day!

[bloodlessbelmounte]

Eternity Will Bring You Near - Chapter 1

Masterlist

Summary:

Wade understood that Logan was from a world where Alpha, Beta and Omega were everyday terms, not exclusive to red-pilled incel fuckheads who kept inventing new performative male genders. Wade would've been classified as a Beta. Logan, however, was an Alpha - Wade's read enough fanfiction and yaoi manga to know what that means. Though it doesn't explain why Logan keeps sniffing him.

Pairing: Alpha!Worst Wolverine/Deadpool

Genre: A/B/O, Smut, Domestic-ish

Warnings: A/B/O Dynamics, Blood, Mild Gore/Body Horror, Masturbation, Additional warnings to be added as more chapters are uploaded.

Beginning Note: This was originally meant to be a crackfic but the bitch decided to become a multichapter project instead. I never thought I would get brain rot this severe over a movie of all things. The toxic old man yaoi really is a hell of a drug.

Cross posted to AO3

Heya kiddos- well actually no I hope you’re not kiddos. The following events aren’t exactly G-rated. Scratch that, not G-rated in the slightest. See the author’s girlfriend asked them if they had written anything gay before because and I quote “You’re the type of person I imagine would – you are very gay” and was very surprised to find her partner had, in fact, not written gay porn for a rabid audience (though they once wrote reader insert smut for one of the most rabid fan-bases – BTS anyone?). Lucky for her, the author’s autistic ass is currently hyper-fixated on my movie and has watched it twice. Now I know what you’re thinking: another re-imagining of the icon and highly erotic Honda Odyssey scene that the Tumblr girlies are going feral over? Sadly no, there are over a hundred-and-sixty interpretations of that situationship on AO3 already and the author is not up to that task. Self-conscious and insecure fuckface they are. Oh b-t-dubs, this will have mixed perspectives. So without further ado, let’s fucking do this. Maximum effort.

Deadpool didn’t imagine his epic team-up with his hero of heroes to end this way. With his noble self-sacrifice, blue anti-matter coiled around his wrist, coursing through his veins and dismantling him atom by atom and him helplessly reaching for the matter contained on the other side of this fucking bridge. No, to be honest, he imagined it ending with maybe a few drinks in a bar to celebrate victory before trying to convince Wolverine to hate fuck him. When have things ever gone his way?

You will never save the world. Ya couldn’t even save a relationship with a god damn stripper.

“Not now, flashbacks.”

Grunts of effort and pain as he was on the verge of dislocating his shoulder to just fucking reach the other fucking side. He had to save them. Give Peanut the restart he deserved. Give this world the hero it deserved. Madonna’s ‘Like a Prayer’ was ringing through his ears as he knew he needed a miracle. And just like a prayer answered, Wolverine was right there with him, gripping tightly to his reaching hand and bridging the gap. He had a few precious seconds to appreciate the washboard glistening abs that were explosively -gloriously- exposed to his greedy eyes before Madonna and the pain crescendoed. Oh, what he would’ve done to at the very least get a bit of frottage from that meal of a man. Deadpool and Wolverine’s shouts of agony as energy tore through them intermingled, part of the chorus only he could hear.

White. Everything was white. Burning hot and blinding. Then there was…

Nothing. No pain. No heat. Just weightlessness.

Until his body collided with a wall with a thunk and sprawled onto the ground. He couldn’t get up immediately, his healing factor working overtime to patch up the spider webbing network of atomised damage. Once the pain was tolerable enough, Deadpool stumbled up to his feet with gritted teeth. What did people say? Pain lets you know you are still alive. Well, he was definitely alive then. The smoke and debris in the air made it hard to breathe let alone see through his mask, that wouldn’t do. Ripping the miraculously intact material off, Wade idly wondered why his clothes were fine. Did the universe decide he was too much of an eyesore to strip? Or more logically, Logan’s metal skeleton made him more conductive. Shit.

Wade scanned the destroyed room, trying to catch a glimpse of neon yellow. Panic seeped in when he couldn’t immediately spot the older mutant. Please don’t be vaporised.

“Wolvie? Peanut?!”

A groan came from across the other side of the wreckage. Groaning was good. Groaning – in this case – meant pain or annoyance, which meant functional nervous system. Good. Good. Now, how to get across. Bridge is out of the question, it’s royally fucked. Which left clambering over crumbled walls that blocked the walkways. Goal set, Wade navigated his way over to roughly where he heard the groan emanate from, muscles protesting the whole time. Bright yellow peaked out from underneath the rubble. Logan’s knee to be precise. Wade sighed.

“Maximum effort.”

Wade got to work, moving aside the bricks that had landed on top of his partner, revealing a barely lucid Wolverine and- Holy shit. Big fuck off piece of metal shelving right through the stomach. Wade was pretty sure the only reason Logan wasn’t bisected was because of those metal bones of his.

“Take a deep breath, Honey Badger, this is going to hurt worse than the reviews for the Borderlands movie. Can you believe they’ve gotten a nine percent critics score on Rotten Tomatoes while we have a seventy-eight? They weren’t too happy about all the rectal stabbings. Have they not heard of queer allegory? Though we’re ninety-five from audiences. Must be all the sexual tension between us.”

As Wade was prattling on – partly running his mouth as always and partly to distract Logan – he unsheathed his katanas and slotted them into the wound and wiggled them under the metal.

“The fuck are y’doing, Bub?” Logan seethed through gritted teeth, trying to sit up only to be pushed back down again by the merc.

See Wade wasn’t always an idiot- “Hey I take offence to that.” -but he could have a smart idea every once in a while, such as now. Knowing that he did not possess the strength to pull out - “My pull-out game is strong I’ll have you know.” - the sheet of metal, a proper application of force would allow him to lever it out. Taking turns with what katana he pushed down on, he eventually worked the shelf out far enough for him to straddle the other man’s lap and rip it out the rest of the way with a wet squelch. Next to come out were his beloved weapons which he wiped in his elbow crease then re-sheathed.

Immediately Logan’s thatched lickable abs started to knit themselves back together. And Wade couldn’t stop his hands from wandering; tracing up his chest and neck to grab those blowjob handles, lean down, and finally kiss the crotchety old fuck like he’d been dying to for the past seventy-two hours. Because in for a penny in for a pound, who knows if he’d see him again when all is said and done. Logan went stiff beneath him and Wade froze in place, knowing in his bones that he was going to get pushed off. But then Logan relaxes and his arms wrap around Wade’s waist to pull him closer, his tongue sweeps across the seem of scarred lips asking for entry. Which is enthusiastically granted. Blood and iron assaults Wade’s taste buds as teeth knock and tongues dance. Of course, being over two hundred would make Wolvie a great kisser, the man wasn’t contractually allowed a flaw under Disney. As much as Wade would have loved to carry on sloppily making out and maybe slip his hand down what remains of Logan’s suit, he knew that even though he wouldn’t mind beating the crap out of a bureaucrat with a raging hard-on, the man beneath him probably would. And so semi-reluctantly Wade broke away with a sigh, Logan’s hands shifting to lightly grasp his hips.

“We should show that motherfucker upstairs just how alive we are.”

Of course, you gays, gals, and non-binary pals know what happens after that. We march our asses up to those pencil pushers resulting in two iconic lines – one of which is an Oscar-worthy delivery of my favourite word. There were some extreme levels of sexual tension between B-15 and Peter, Logan and I regenerate my timeline meaning my plan fucking worked and Logan got to stay here. We also got a fat stack of compensation each for our efforts. Now we cut to shawarma and see things from a grumpy puppy’s perspective.

Logan knew to expect some differences between this universe and his original such as there still being living X-men. And he knew that there was the fundamental difference of a lack of secondary sexes here but the distinct absence of pheromones everywhere made the air here seem… cleaner? Almost overwhelming in its purity. The scent of pollution, of food being prepared, of dog piss on the pavement undiluted. No Alphas peacocking. No Omegas trying to suppress and get by. Just “average” people living average lives. Like what was happening in front of him.

Logan, with arms crossed over and leaning against a wall, watched in amusement (not that he’d ever admit to it) as Wade went to place his order at the shawarma place he had led him to.

“I’ll have one beedo beedo, a chocobo supreme, and a mountain boo bah. What would you like Honey Badger?” Wade asked his elbow on the counter top, head resting on his hand as his body was turned to face his partner, ignoring how the server was looking at him like he’d grown three heads.

“Sir, this is a shawarma joint, we only do shawarma here. I have no idea what a beedo beedo is-” The kid behind the counter tried to inform the ADHD-riddled regenerator only to be met with a finger over his lips as he was promptly shushed.

“We do the talking sweetums, you just be a little patient. Wolvie? Anything in mind?”

Some rest would be a good start, then a shower and bottle of whiskey. An explanation on that kiss back there. But food was a good start.

“Ignore his ramblings, he’s had multiple head injuries over the last few days. We’ll have two beef and one chicken, all the salad. Obviously tarator sauce in the beef and toum in the chicken. As for drinks, give us whatever beer y’d recommend.” Logan noticed Wade’s jaw drop out the corner of his eye as he rattled off a proper order. The kid behind the counter pushed the finger on his lips away and nodded, inputting the order and printing off the details to pass to the cook. “What? Did y’think I’d never had this before?”

Wade blinked at him, “Well… uh… to be honest yeah. Didn’t take you for the adventurist foodie type.”

“Need I remind y’of just how old I am, Bub? I was around when immigrants introduced this to the country.”

“Oh, so you’re the original trendsetter for your universe. Speaking of, I’ve seen the fanfictions and read the yaoi, did your world have fated pairs and heat cycles? Do male Omegas just have a dick and ass or do they have a vagina too? Or did they just have a vagina? Did you have to take suppressors for your ‘Alpha Ruts’ to reign in your primal instincts?” Wade’s eyes shone with curiosity as he fired off questions, “Oh are we going to have to deal with those now that you’re in residence here? Maybe I should ask that TVA lady to get you like an inter-dimensional prescription.”

Logan sighed and rubbed his face, he had been expecting this line of questioning. Honestly, he had expected them to occur in the Void after Wade got offended for being called a beta-

“What in the Andrew Taint bullshit is that? They have toxic masculinity red-pillers in your world too? And you’re one of them? For shame Logi Bear. That’s why you’re the Worst Wolverine.”

-and the subsequent misunderstanding was cleared up. At least in the Void, there were fewer witnesses.

“In order: Yes to both. Dick and Ass. Yes, it’s a pain to get by without them or a partner. And that’s all I’m telling y’because it doesn’t affect you.”

“That’s no fun. I need the juicy deets,” Suddenly Wade gasped and pointed at him, “Do you knot?! Bite on the nape of the neck? Oh, I think I might just pop a chub at this rate.”

Logan growled standing straight and emitting his pheromones on instinct, “Enough. As I said it doesn’t affect y’so y’don’t need to know.”

Silence. Finally silence. And the faintest smell of something sweet.

“Order up.”

Logan took his two beef and handed the chicken to Wade alongside a beer, his own stuffed into a jacket pocket. They sat outside the shop in silence and in the time it took for Logan to wolf down one and a half of his order, Wade had only finished half before he started talking again.

“You know, the Avengers discovered shawarma in the sacred timeline.” He said, mouth still full.

Logan glanced over at him, “They’d be lucky to have y’.”

Wade had a considering look in his eye as paused chewing then nodded. The guy still probably had his insecurities and self-doubt that Logan definitely exacerbated in the Honda. Just as they were about to take another bite, barking and the sound of scampering paws were heading right at the pair. It was that fucking dog.

“Oh~”

“Come on,” Logan groaned, head falling back.

“Fuck!” Wade threw his half-eaten wrap on the ground and began the daintiest clap Logan had ever seen done by someone other than a white girl, “Come over here my little munchkin! Yes, it’s you~. You’re a survivor.” Wade picked up the ugly little thing, squeezing her tight and kissing her on the head. “Oh, all is right in the world. Yes, it is.” Wade turned to him, eyeing him up and down, “So what are you going to do next?”

Logan shrugged, “I’ll figure it out. I always do.”

“That right? I’ll probably see you around,” A small smile was playing on his lips as he continued to gauge his response.

An impulsive thought wormed its way into his head, before he knew it he found himself quirking an eyebrow at the merc and proceeded to lie.

“Probably not. See y’, Bub.”

With that, he stood up and walked away as Wade continued to pet Dogpool. He threw the remains of his meal onto a table. A waste really. But all part of the plan. His pace was slow and measured, he was waiting. And when he heard the call of:

“Logan!”

He stopped, a small smile unable to be contained as Wade finally called him by his name. Not one of those childish nicknames. This had been what he was waiting to hear. He turned to face Wade, his expression schooled into a neutral facade.

“Stay with me- us.” Wade offered, pointing between himself and the dog.

Logan walked back over to him, “I thought y’shared a one-bedroom apartment with a lovely blind woman named Althea. Doesn’t sound like y’have much room for me.” Not much room in the apartment or his life. He wasn’t part of Wade’s world.

“There’s always room for one more. We have a pull-out sofa you can use. Not much privacy but it’s home. I only share a bed with Blind Al because I’ve been incredibly touch-starved since the breakup and need my bedtime cuddles.”

Logan huffed a chuckled, “That’s why I had to tie y’up, Bub.” A lie. In reality he had been planning to abandon Wade in that car. “Well, I’m not one to turn down a free roof over my head until I can sort out something more permanent.”

Before he knew it, he was following Wade to his home which was a lot closer to the TVA base and, subsequently, the shawarma shop than he had expected. Just down the street really. Meeting Al was sweet, it almost felt like being introduced to a parent back when he was a young man. And much like a mother, she swiftly turned in ire to Wade and slapped him on the arm with such precision Logan almost doubted her disability.

“Wade W. Wilson, you disappear after blowing out your birthday candles only to return with havoc in the streets and a man on your arm. You could have told us you were dating again. Peter was worried sick about you.”

It had been his birthday? The merc had spent his birthday trying to save his friends -his world – and was rewarded with a thorough verbal dressing down and a night of carnage in a car.

“Oh well, you know, it was the usual. I got abducted, told our universe was dying because someone had to go and nobly sacrifice themselves for the next generation of mutants. So then I hopped through multiple universes to find me a Wolverine who wouldn’t stab me on sight. Found this fella right here and got sent to the universal (not the studio) trash heap. Where I then proceeded to get my brain finger fucked by a bald long-nail-bedded bitch. Seriously they began at like her knuckle. Props to the costume department for that mildly disturbing detail.” Al’s inability to see didn’t stop Wade’s wild gesticulations as he described the events that happened to him. “And after a daring escape from her clutches, I had the best birthday car romp in a while. Became a real pin cushion for ‘im.” Wade sent Logan a wink.

Logan cleared his throat and avoided eye contact, a slight heat taking root in his ear at the implication behind those words. Al gagged.

“Wade, what I’m about to say is without a hint of homophobia: I don’t need to hear any more about your repulsive sex life. It’s bad enough I can hear you choking the chicken in the bathroom.”

Wade was laughing to himself as he meandered away from his now two room-mates and it was only slightly awkward until he returned with sweatpants and a tank top in hand. He shoved them into Logan’s chest along with a towel.

“Shower is through that door there,” He pointed to his right, “You reek of alcohol, blood, and Marvel H Christ knows what else. I doubt I smell much better – not like the Void had personal hygiene products lying around – but your odour can only be described as one of my twenty-eighteen suicide attempts from the second movie before I rewrote the events that triggered that spiral.” Wade looked off to the side, “You readers know which one I’m on about.” He mimicked an explosion sound as he ballooned his hands apart.

Logan was taken aback for a moment, processing that the seemingly always chipper buffoon had tried to kill himself at some point. However, he decided against acknowledging the trauma dump by just grunting his thanks. He took the offered clothes and beelined for the bathroom.

Alright fuck-os let’s focus on me again.

Shut up, Wade. I’m trying to write here.

Oh sure you are. I saw you reading other fanfics and some of my comic runs. And aren’t you on vacation now? I didn’t say you could take a break.

Sigh. Anyway…

Wade placed Mary Puppins on the floor and then immediately flopped onto the sofa, energy levels depleted and a deep set ache in his muscles. He waited for the sound of the shower starting before speaking.

“We’re not dating.”

“Not yet,” Al responded, somehow managing to give him a pointed look despite a) being blind and b) wearing sunglasses so he couldn’t see her eyes.

“The man hates me. Stabbed me many times on many occasions – not that I didn’t enjoy it.” Wade grumbled, sinking further into his seat.

“So why is he here?”

“He had nowhere else to go. I couldn’t just let him wander the streets after I abducted him. Not after he saved me.”

“So Vanessa announces she has a new boyfriend after you’ve been separated for two years and you went and kidnapped one for yourself. That’s a new kind of fucked up, even for you Wade.”

“Yeah I know, I’m a bigger fuck up than Ryan Reynolds accepting that Green Lantern role. I don’t need reminding. Again, we’re not dating. Manage to get your hands on some White Girl Interrupted while Feige’s attention was on the Void?”

“You might not be but you like him. You haven’t introduced someone to me like that since Vanessa. I still don’t know who the fuck Feige is but yes I did.”

“Good because I need some right now. I’m guessing you’ve put it in your sex toy drawer in an attempt to deter me but Al you always fail to remember very little disgusts me.”

Wade slapped his lap as he got up, signalling the end of the conversation. He went back to the bedroom and immediately opened the aforementioned drawer, sticking his hand in he rifled through dildos and vibrators of various shapes and sizes until he found a rectangular packet. Bingo. Oh, he was so going to build a snowman. Oh wait, this is fanfiction, not a movie, Feige has no control here. Wade can just say cocaine.

You guys are going to have to use your imagination here because the author doesn’t know how to write cocaine usage because they’re a pure little munchkin who only ever smoked weed like five times and sniffed poppers once.

Hey stop interrupting or I’ll make this a T rating.

Suitably buzzed and the throbbing ache of his muscles dulled, Wade grabbed a towel and a set of PJ’s to change into after his turn in the shower. His timing was seemingly perfect as he entered the living area just as Logan stepped out of the bathroom towelling his hair roughly, a steam plume framing him in a haze with the lighting hitting just right. The clothes lent to him a tight fit as they clung to the man’s muscular frame, hugging spots that weren’t completely dry yet. Dear lord, was that a dick print? Look at the size of that thing! He needed to French kiss whoever invented grey sweats. Whoever they are or were, he hoped they were getting laid six ways to Sunday. Wade found himself thanking whatever foresight he had since the white tank went near translucent in places like the dips of Logan’s abs and the swell of his pecs. He quickly wiped away the drool on the corner of his lips.

“Nice milk cans you got there, Wolvie. Hope you didn’t use up all the hot water,” Wade commented, eyes still roving over the other’s effortlessly erotic form. That’s the World’s Sexiest Man 2008 for you.

Logan slung the towel around his shoulders, a flush to his cheeks – from heat, Wade’s comment, or ogling who knows – as he seemingly took a moment to study the merc’s face.

“Is… Is that cocaine in y’nose? Y’pupils are dilated. Are y’high?” Logan scoffed in response, eyebrows pinched together.

Wade wiped his nose, “Did you know your pupils can dilate as much as fifty-five percent when you look at something or someone you love? Because I’m loving what a feast for my eyes you are.” He approached the grouchy man and rubbed a thumb between his eyebrows, which was swiftly slapped away with a grumble, “You shouldn’t frown so much, it’ll age you faster. As much as I am all for our old man yaoi dynamics I don’t want you looking like the Old Man Logan who shotgun blasted me.”

Wade patted Logan on the arm as he squeezed past him to get entry into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him. He chucked the towel and change of clothes onto the bathroom’s counter top, knocking over the toothbrush pot and a few other bits. He then stripped off the red leather suit, having to peel it away as dried blood and various other bodily fluids had acted as fucking glue. Bare as the day he was born, Wade turned the shower on and fiddled with the taps to get the temperature just how he liked it. Steamy, the same way he liked his homoerotic fight scenes.

Stepping in, Wade rolled his shoulders and took a moment to let the water ease his tight muscles.

“That’s the good stuff,” he moaned softly, tilting his head back eyes closed.

After what felt like a suitable amount of time had passed, he grabbed his loofah and body wash and went to town on getting the caked-on grime off of his scarred skin. The water flowing down the drain was a murky burgundy as sand, old blood, and who knows what else was washed away.

When the water turned clear Wade decided to focus on… other things. Mainly the beefcake wearing his clothes at that very moment, the walking wet dream he was. Visions of those sweaty tits floated through his mind, making his cock – which had already been at half-mast – twitch in interest. God, he had been dying to rub one out since he woke up tied against The Wolverine. He grasped himself firmly and gave a few tugs to get fully hard before teasing over the tip. His bottom lip was caught between his teeth as tried to stifle his whimpers. He worked over his shaft as he recalled how Logan had smiled during their scuffle in the Honda, how his blood had dripped onto the older man’s cheek and into his mouth – on those fangs. Logan had licked the blood off with an almost feral look in his eyes before launching him through the sun roof. Fuck. He wasn’t going to last with how pent-up he was. His grip tightened as he sped up his ministrations. He remembered the kiss after saving the multiverse as he came with an embarrassingly desperate groan. Logan had kissed him back. Had held him close. Yet when all was said and done, he had been ready to leave Wade behind. What a confusing, grumpy hunk. With a shaky exhale he turned off the shower.

Wade towelled off and got dressed. His chosen PJ’s for the night were lavender shorts and a Hello Kitty crop top. Hey – crop tops were invented by male bodybuilders to get around gym attire rules, so never let anyone tell you men can’t wear crop tops. With dramatic zeal, Wade threw open the door and strutted out of the bathroom. He was not expecting to have two pairs of hazel eyes looking right at him. One in disdain and one in… appraisal?

Laura. Laura was on his sofa. Why was she here? Oh god… did Laura hear him jerking off?!

“Oh.” Wade squeaked, mortified as his body tinged a dark red. “Hi there.”

The girl, so much like her father, grunted in response and turned away. Speaking of, Logan had yet to tear his eyes away and if Wade saw correctly, he seemed to be… sniffing?

“Enjoy y’shower, Red?” The smirking fucker asked, then gestured towards Laura, “The TVA just dropped her off. She has nowhere to crash so Althea kindly offered her y’spot on the bed.”

Wade gasped and marched round to stand in front of the pair, “What? Where am I supposed to sleep? On the floor?”

“I’m not going to make y’sleep on the floor in y’own home, Wade. Y’ll be bunking with me on the sofa.” Logan patted the free space next to him.

Wade stiffly sat down in the offered seat and whispered incredulously to the older man, “What about my bedtime cuddles?”

“I’m sure y’can make do without.” Logan deadpanned but that infuriating smirk was still plastered on his face.

It was quite the jump from it just being Wade and Al in the shitty one bed apartment to there now being four people in the space of a few hours.

Wade huffed and crossed his arms, “We need to find a bigger apartment… Anyone feel like Chinese food?”

There was a chorus of agreement. Wade took Al’s phone off the coffee table and opened up the delivery app he used most, his favourite Chinese take-out was top of the recommended list. He put in what he and Al usually ordered then passed the phone to Logan. His former eyebrows shot upwards as the bi-centenarian successfully navigated the menus and selected what he wanted. It was Laura who seemed perplexed by the menu and the food listed. It was a sweet moment, watching Logan awkwardly explain what everything was when asked. Despite being virtually strangers, there looked to be a genuine connection forming already. Kin recognising kin on that instinctual level only Wolverines can experience. Wade took the time to tell Al and Laura all about the epic battle in the streets and how they saved the world with the power of hand holding as they waited for their food to arrive.

“You know Peter will have told everyone by now that you’re back with company,” Al remarked, petting Mary Puppins who had situated herself on the elderly woman’s lap. “They’ll be over tomorrow, I just know it.”

Wade felt Logan go rigid beside him, was he worried about Negasonic and the other X-men in his makeshift family? Oh, that was going to be a weird meeting wasn’t it. Not because they’d be seeing a ghost of their Wolverine, no. Their Wolverine was still alive and kicking, after all it’s twenty-twenty-four at the moment not twenty-nine which was when his timeline’s Logan was scheduled to die. See, Wade had used that TVA device to jump forward in time and exhume his remains because for the TVA all timeline events are happening simultaneously. So these X-men would be seeing a stranger who looked like their Logan, and Logan would be seeing the faces of those he had already lost in his world knowing he was going to lose them here too. Wade made a silent vow to keep Negasonic, Yukio and Colossus away from Westchester when the time comes. He liked those ones.

…Wait. All that timey-whimey stuff meant that Paradox, the dickhead, was going to set off the Time Ripper five years before this timeline’s OG Logan was meant to die. Was he really so impatient to ‘prune’ the timeline that he wasn’t willing to waiting for the self-sacrificing fuck to actually do the thing?

“Everyone except Weasel – his actor has multiple sexual assault allegations against him and that’s not a good look for us,” Wade interjected in a most likely misguided attempt to lighten the mood. All it got him, however, was Laura and Logan staring at him. “Hey, I don’t keep people like that in my social circle. I’m a good boy. Consent is sexy and if someone doesn’t take no for an answer, stab ‘em. Solves everything.”

Laura nodded at the sagely advice then looked towards the door and stood up seconds before knocking resounded from the entry way. Wade handed her the tip money as she walked by to answer. Food secured, Wade stood up, washed up some cutlery that would be needed and handed them out as Logan helped Laura to sort out the food and Al turned on the TV – Golden Girls was already playing. They mostly ate in silence whilst Wade made comments about the episode that was met with “Shut up” from various people. It wasn’t long until Al was retiring for the night and taking Laura with her to sort some things to wear. The girl was briefly sent out with bedding, blankets and spare pillows for the sofa.

“We should probably get the bed set up, sounds like we’re in for a long day tomorrow,” Wade suggested while clearing away the take out containers.

“We should… but we still have those beers from the shawarma place. In the fridge, if y’d like to have them now,” Logan offered, collecting up the dirty cutlery to put in the already overflowing sink. He grunted at the sight of it.

Wade retrieved said beers and handed one to Logan who released a single claw and used it to pop the cap off. He then did the same to Wade’s, who found that all too attractive, he had to think of puppies being kicked to stop himself from popping a boner then and there.

“Cheers. To saving the world!” Wade toasted, clinking his bottle against Logan’s.

“To saving y’world,” Logan grumbled, immediately taking a deep swig.

“Any particular reason you wanted to share a drink with me, Peanut?” Wade asked, sitting back down on the cushion he had previously occupied, eyes following Logan as he sat on the opposite side of the sofa with legs spread. Slut.

“Deserve it after the shit we’ve been through. Not everyday people like us nearly die.” Logan answered, gesturing between them.

“Thank you, by the way, for not letting me face death alone in the end. Despite the noble sacrifice, I wasn’t lying when I said I was scared,” Wade said, shifting in his seat to bring both his feet up. It just never felt right to have them on the floor.

Logan growled, “Couldn’t exactly let y’. As I said, I had nothing left to live for. Would have left me stranded here with no fucking clue who anyone was if y’had succeeded. Asshole move on y’part.”

Wade nursed his beer as Logan spoke. Truthfully, he hadn’t thought that far ahead in his rushed plan to save everyone. He placed his drink on the coffee table and tried looking anywhere but at the man casually spread across his sofa. Candid moments came as naturally as bottoming to him. Not at all.

“In that moment, when you offered yourself up and held that picture, I thought I needed to save those I cared about. Apparently, in the three fucking days we’ve known each other for, you became the tenth person in my world. Saving everyone meant saving you too – despite the stabbing each other.”

The silence that came afterwards made him uncomfortable, had him reaching for his beer to keep his mouth busy. He could hear Logan gulping down his before hollow glass clinking on MDF resounded through the room with an accompanying sigh. Wade finally looked at the other man, who just seemed tired. Ready to call it a night.

“What’s done is done, Bub. Just glad we both survived to see another day.” Logan pointed to the mostly full bottle in Wade’s hands, “Y’gonna finish that?”

“Oh, uh yeah. Hang on.” In a similar display to what Logan had done in that dive-bar he dragged him out of, Wade necked the bottle of beer, some of the liquid dribbling out the corner of his mouth. He impressed himself with how he managed to chug it down without needing to breathe – he thought those binge drinking muscle memories had long since faded. Once empty, Wade lowered the bottle and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. His gaze drifted over to Logan whose eyes, which were darker than usual (but that may have been down to the lighting), were locked on Wade’s throat.

“You good there, Honey Badger?”

Logan blinked a couple of times and shook his head, “Yeah just… just lost in thought. Let’s get the bed set already.”

Wade nodded and picked up their bottles, depositing them in a plastic bag that contained other used glass items. He then manoeuvred the coffee table out of the way so Logan could pull the bedframe and mattress out. It all felt rather domestic; pulling the bottom sheet into place, setting up the blankets and pillows together. The lights were turned off and the two men got under the covers. Wade really did try to go to sleep but for all his effort he was left tossing and turning.

“Will y’quit it? Is your ADHD so severe you can’t stay still even in your sleep?” Logan groaned, arm slung over his face.

“I wasn’t lying about needing bedtime cuddles, Logi Bear,” Wade hissed back.

Logan huffed and threw the arm closest to Wade over the younger man, “Fine. Y’can cuddle this arm. But just the arm.”

“Yay!” Wade cheered, eagerly rolling onto his side and wrapping his limbs around the offered arm like it was a tree to be climbed. “Goodnight, Wolvie.”

“G’night, Bubba.”

Did he just fucking call me Bubba?!

Wade was out like a light, the physical contact anchoring his racing thoughts enough to drift off peacefully.

That’s where you’re gonna leave it? I thought we were going to Pound Town?! THIS IS RATED E DAMMIT!

This was getting too long for a oneshot Wade. You’ll still get your trip to Fuckville don’t worry. It’s not tagged slowburn. Now go the fuck to sleep and I’ll see you next chapter.

[sunbeamah]

Can I ask your top 10 fav fics ever (from any fandom, if you don't mind)?

Also, just curious, is there a story behind your name "sunbeamah "?

OF COURSE!!! I'M SO SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG TO GET BACK TO YOU D:

I currently have 999 bookmarksgdfjh so this is gonna take a moment. And I've also been in many, many fandoms over the years, so please forgive me!

As for my name— there's only a little story!

One of my (many, lol) names mean 'sunrise', and one of my nicknames is Mah (that's the shorter version tho). Sunrisemah was a little strange imo, and Sunraymah reminds me of my Aunty's name, so Sunbeamah it was! It rolled off the tongue a little nicer too, I thought!

When I first made this account I would sometimes get confused and accidentally type in sunbae mah haha. I was reading too many manhwa!

Below the cut, in no particular order, are some of my top favourite fics that came to mind!!

Nobamaki (JJK)— witches x mafia au, what a mix!!! Absolute genius, I need to re-read this fic, it's part of what got me into nobamaki and urged me to finish jjk season 1 last year. I love Nobara and how feisty she is, and how powerful Maki is. The power struggle and I really enjoy fics with magic, and this one has a really cool system mixed with cursed techniques! I've read heaps of Rigamaroler's works, they're so good

Dabihawks (BNHA)— I remember being on Tumblr the DAY the hotwings ship started. I can't remember the exact user who started it up, but I remember in the week following it just ramped right up. I hopped on the hotwings train immediately-- even though I was even worse at using Tumblr than I am now. These 2 are fics that I LOVE, they're tied! Both set in canonverse, top one is a soulmate au, angsty with a happy ending and reformation (SUCH good angst, sometimes when I cry I come back to read it). Second one is an au where Rei divorces Endeavour and Hawks is saved from the Commission, it's so good!! Juurensha is awesome

Zolu (One Piece)— THIS ONE GOES CRAZY!!! So the backstory is like one of those christmas movies where a woman (Sanji, ironically (jkjk)) with a high powered city job goes back to her snowy home village and reunites with a charming man she grew up with, a lost love if you will (Ace), falls in love and realises her relationship with boyfriend (Zoro) is going nowhere. And said boyfriend comes to surprise her, only to find she's moved on. WITH A TWIST! A zolu twist. I love their instant attraction, they're so funny in this fic. Very real of them. Background Frobin, too!!

Karonico (Runaways)— Does anyone remember runaways?? I loved Karolina and Nico when I watched it. I hadn't read any hades/persephone au's until this fic, and ever since I've always been reminded of this one. Love their relationship, Nico's gentleness shining through the walls she's built around herself, Karolina wanting to be with Nico no matter what. It's how I like their relationship, as two girls who have been through a lot and when they come out of hard times, they want to be holding each others' hands. Very sweet!!!! This fic made me want a relationship so bad when I was younger. I still remember the OCs this fic lowkey inspired, too.

Fraxus (Fairy Tail)-- university au where Laxus is a wrestler and Freed becomes the wrestling team's social media manager. It's so so good, I love their relationship and their raw attraction. All of Eryiss' fics are amazing, I binged every fraxus fic they ever posted while I was recovering from surgery earlier this year. So good, alleviated my pain 100x better than medication haha

Klance (Voltron)— ahh yes, my voltron phase. My dark past, if u will. Jk jk. I made on ao3 account just to bookmark this fic haha! It's been so long, but I have to give this fic its roses. Lost in space au, injuries, fighting, angst, getting together, the whole lot. It was amazing, changed my life, genuinely. Cw for past non-con in Lance's life.

Elhani / Teleanor (The Good Place)— I can't figure out which ship name I like better. This is the fifth fic I ever bookmarked, I read this instead of studying for an important test. It was absolutely worth it. I remember it took me hours to read 'cause I kept trying to picture every scene perfectly. And also because I'd stop to 'study' haha. Tahani and Eleanor struggle with their attraction to one another, and yet it's love at first sight (I LOVE love at first sight..).

Sasunaru (Naruto)— I have to admit something. I love omegaverse. I know it's not for everyone, but it's definitely for me. Usually I go for F!omega x F!omega (i have a nobamaki wip of this), M!alpha x M!beta, those dynamics are super fun to me. But this one is M!alpha x M!omega, which I also love of course.

Anyways, I loved this fic, read it all in one night and then re-read it the next day, and when the final chapter came out I reread it all again haha. I'm a Naruto glazer, every time I read a fic and Sasuke acts like he's doing Naruto a favour by dating him, I want to claw at him. He doesn't know how lucky he is! In this fic, Sasuke knows his place! Jk jk, but I really do love their all-encompassing love for and devotion to each other, and I think it's especially present here!

Viktuuri (YOI)— Another omegaverse! This is also royalty au, Viktor is a little dark here but not to Yuuri and that's what I'm all about loll. It also has mpreg. Anyways, the protectiveness and cold opulence is something I really enjoy, and whenever I feel terrible and don't want to write, I'll read this and feel comforted that, between me and him, at least one of us is having a good timejfbhdgk.

[bishonenspit]

you like two gay gag manga, soooo Do you hate the fans sometimes?

I’ve been wanting to read One Room TA which is a gag bl webtoon, it looks super fun and I like when parodies are made by people who actually like what they are parodying (though idk if the author likes bl, I dont use twitter and thats their only social). So I went to bakaupdates to search for info and shit and saw the “realistic homosexual relationship” tag and I just don’t want to read it anymore.

don't misunderstand please i'm a lesbo, but Something that I have seen lately is that series such as Patalliro and Eroica (or gags manga that make fun of bl tropes) as they have become more popular, the idea around them have shifted from This is Yaoi to These works are truly queer compared to BL or how better they are in depicting queerness/homosexuality compared to BL made by women, etc.  At least I have seen people talking about Patalliro like this, with Eroica not yet. 

6 years ago Patalliro was undoubtedly seen as yaoi but now it is queer and not yaoi << this being a compliment

Honestly, this always happens, Gakuen Heaven is a good example. But it really turn me off because you know the type of praise these manga get. “Finally, a BL author who also believes that yaoi is dumb as fuck". Especially because One Room TA has a chapter where they make fun of crazy and unrealistic sex in bl

I used to be the type to don’t care or even agree but I grew out of my “I am a bl fan who hates bl” phase long time ago so now these comment irationaly irritate me and like, have this happened to you? can u give me some advice sis? 

Honestly, what bothers me more is to think that the author also sees bl and the readers as stupid, so they wanted to create something to make fun of them.

Hmm, honestly I've never seen the type you're referring to in reference to Patalliro (or Eroica but it's barely BL infused to begin with lol) but with Patalliro in particular I think the issue is like kind of complicated in a specific way. To me the comedy/gag manga elements and the BL elements in Patalliro exist in tandem in a way that is almost entirely separate in terms of tone. The high drama and soap opera-esque moments are most commonly the most queer, it's one of the few BL flavoured gag manga that doesn't use its queerness as a recurring punchline simply because it exists so naturally within the series, in that way that is slightly separate from the ridiculousness when it wants to be. Though it isn't immune to the typical misogynistic take of "this is better than BL made by women", when talking about it to people who know nothing about it (and are decidedly not fujoshi) I've been met with the reaction of essentially "oh cool we love to see that" when I discuss Maya Mineo being a man, which has pretty clear undertones of "oh it's not a BL written by a stupid woman, now I'm more willing to bridge that gap." Also, in recent years the falsified differentiation between what is "yaoi" and what is "BL" also leads to this mindset. Like, "oh, you read Yaoi? That's just Fetishizing Pornography, whereas my superior BL is Sexless and Unproblematic and Wholesome." That type of thing got popular online before the masses got hold of phrases like "yaoi". In general I think with the surge of "mainstream" (and take that use of the word with a grain of salt, it's mainstream in the sense of very online fandom spaces that does not extend to "real normies" lol) yaoi jokes a lot of people approach BL as a genre now with this sort of irony poisoned lens, which is probably what you're witnessing. Rather than being specifically targeted to the less serious gag manga, I think it's just a symptom of an irony poisoned internet as a whole if that makes sense? People view BL as a whole like it's still series at the quality and plot content of things like Gravitation or Super Lovers or any of the sillier early 2000s-2010s stuff that was memed to death back in the day, and then when are presented with a series that DOESN'T read that vibe to them, they're pushed to specify it "isn't like other BL". Which is a foreign and strange thing to say for people who actually read BL beyond what was popular in 2010, but is relatable to the individuals online who are still sort of in their "BL is cringe and fujos are weird" way of thinking. They feel more comfortable reading it and interacting with it with a layer of safety around their person in the form of irony. I've expressed frustration with this kind of fan before, so I feel you, but unfortunately it's soooo common to hide your real likes and dislikes behind a thick layer of irony nowadays online so not much can be done. In terms of advice, I'm not really sure besides saying honestly ignoring the masses is the best thing you can do, especially when enjoying something that is so cemented in annoying pointless discourse. Any actual fighting falls on deaf ears at this point, the average antifujo is a "left leaning" American and they never take well to being told they're being misogynistic and racist. Americans love to be those two things more than anything. And if there were authors creating manga or webcomics with the intention of mocking fujoshi, they're also misogynistic homophobes who aren't worth giving the time of day. BL is sort of caught in the midst of a painfully unfunny internet micro trend which is just sort of worsening the general fandom public's view and knowledge of the genre and the labels within it. Most we can do is correct where possible and ignore everywhere else because let's be real, the people making those posts will move onto something else in a month or come to their senses eventually. 🤷‍♂️ The people who are BL fans who hate BL do, in fact, dislike BL for a lot of reasons and hopefully they either unlearn shame or clue in soon and remove themselves.

[stardustizuku]

I’m re reading this one Manhua abt a Saintess (for anyone interested is called ‘Saving My Sweetheart’). And I’m enjoying it but I’m as always, taken aback by this branch of narrative that focuses on Saintess as the moral backbone of a series.

Everything she does is good. Everything she cares for is justified. Every single action she takes against the (usually female) antagonist, no matter what it is, is correct.

This happens in Manhua but it’s also extremely noticeable in manga and webnovels - and why I find so groundbreaking what AoB did.

For starters, most of the narrative surrounding the Saintess thing is a sham.

Not like an actual sham, Rozemyne has some divine powers and incredible intellect, but when she’s given the title there’s no direct divine intervention to call her that. It’s an entirely made up title to justify her antics.

Two, she’s never given the moral high ground because she is a Saint. In fact, part of early AoB is about her understanding the way the world works. While, yes, she’s extremely empathetic and clings to her previous world morals - this is never framed to either the characters or the audience as something noble.

To the characters, this makes her weak. Naive and a bit dumb. Trying to resolve everything she deems “incorrect” with solutions that lack any nuisance to the way the world works, creates more problems.

And to the audience, is framed similarly. Which I kinda commend bcs, learning to understand a culture different than your own without trying to shape it to your own, is an extremely complex issue even western shows struggle with (looking at you game of thrones).

And three, and perhaps more interestingly to me, the way they discuss “devoted attendants”. This is, characters that are extremely loyal, to a “if anything happened to her I would die” kinda way.

And Hartmut is an exception, as it is Clarissa. They’re both obsessed with Rozemyne for seemingly no reason other than her power or Saint title.

But every other person who would pull an “I would die for your smile” thing, has a reason for doing so.

With Mathias being someone who was destinied to die, if not for her. Roderick has a terrible life and his only solace was the kindness that Rozemyne showed unconditionally even to him.

Perhaps shown in the most over way, it’s is Gretia. I love her. Her POV chapter at the end of P5V11 is really interesting, showing exactly what the mentality of these people have. They were destined to die and only saved by an extreme act of kindness by someone with inmense amounts of power.

Angelica has a similar situation, in which she was destined to be the shame of her family, unable to fit in, had it not been for Rozemyne. She saw value in Angelica, even when her own family didn’t.

And highlighting the fact that not EVERYONE is like this, is also refreshing.

Cornelius is very devoted to Rozemyne (I call him a SisCon as a joke but he very much loves her), but not in a crazy type of way. Leonora does too. As well as best girl Lieseleta.

Like everyone has a very in depth reason for being loyal to Rozemyne. They don’t follow her just because she’s a Saint, or some strange power compels them to.

It’s Rozemyne’s actions and the context with which they function in Noble society, that makes them look up and eventually worship her.

[aiura-stan]

Here we go, the first proper chapter of the Saiki K manga, 1-1!

Manga Saiki my beloved. How I missed you. I won’t comment on every single panel because I don’t want to spend —that— long talking about trivial things in this manga. But I’ll do my best to be annoyingly thorough in this re-read. Since I figure it will probably be my last proper re-read from end to end, sequentially. (Because quite frankly this manga is long. And I have other things to do. Hopefully.)

I’m not sure “lax” is the word I would use here? But I don’t like the anime’s use of “airheaded” much either, so?? “Considerably low key” maybe? In any case, the next panel sums it up “They both were the type not to think that deeply about things.” Let’s see… it says かなり緩かった. That seems to be about right, translation wise.

incheresting.

Also, it implies hypothetical strict parents of psychics exist, which… ironically enough, simply doesn’t exist in the Saikiverse. Come on Asou sensei. Give us an official continuation so we can meet some new psychic kid who meets this requirement of having grown up with strict parents.

I love how the very first page shows Saiki committing some selfless act with his powers. And yet he still gives us the spiel about how much psychic powers suck with his signature chronic >:(. Yes; Saiki has been a tsundere since the very beginning.

Saiki’s tsundere-ism aside, I have always liked how Asou sensei explains how psychic powers might be a significant drawback as much as a strength. The metaphor of a domestic dog who is fed and therefore doesn’t have the skill to hunt for itself, and the spoiled child who is given everything and thus robbed of agency, are both particularly good ones. (The curry and spoons one just makes me think of Mob psycho. Do you think One sensei read Saiki k???)

Saiki just lists all of his powers here. That certainly saves time. Though people who have already read the oneshots have the advantage of knowing exactly how these powers work (if we assume them properly canon.) There’s details about Saiki’s powers that get changed from the oneshots to the manga proper, like the timer on his spirit-body separation ability and his “clairvoyance” being called x-ray vision. Wait, no, that was the oneshot. Well, my point still stands.

I also like this part about a sense of achievement being impossible for him, since everything is too easy. It’s rather depressing if you think about it too much. Saiki definitely doesn’t belong in the “normal” life role that he forces himself into. But given his alternatives (Allow himself to become a government lab rat and subject himself to experimentation? Become a worldwide celebrity who fixes the problems of the world and maintains peace, essentially becoming a human god?? hang out with his amoral genius older brother who hates him???) his attempts at normalcy are understandable. And very entertaining.

No extreme emotions… I hope Asou sensei knew the can of worms he was opening by having Saiki say this. But I’m guessing he didn’t.

And the first of Kusuo’s problems in his titular disastrous life is the very normal problem of having to unlock the door for his father, who locked himself out of the house. But at this point, we the readers have no idea the extent of his powers and just how much his full potential is underutilized.

why doesn’t Kurumi have a job..? their mortgage is probably expensive and her son is an older teenager and fully capable of taking care of himself… i guess she just wants to be the doting mom for her son.

Ah!? Is that where Saiki gets his standards for how he uses his powers? Makes sense.

Sigh. watching your parents wrestle while waxing eloquent about coffee jelly. Never change Saiki. (and he never does.) He is really making me crave coffee jelly.

so cute.

XD his father’s thoughts are so ~kawaii~. Teehee.

Also, I never see anyone use forced telepathy in fics! More stuff that has so much damn potential… note to future me reading this.

The word used here in the manga is “psi user.” Let’s see… In Japanese, it is 超能力者(chyounouryokusha). Exactly what I expected; the same term as used on the cover. And that’s the word he uses in the anime, too, but in the subtitles, it’s translated as simply “psychic.” For those wondering, he says: 見せてやろう…超能力者の力おな… ‼︎ I am too low level to properly translate this, but I’d say it’s something like, “I’ll show you… a psi user’s power!”

Our translators: “I shall show you… the power of a psi user…!” (and they keep the punctuation and spacing used in the original Japanese.)

:,) He smiles… I love it when he smiles with the sparklies and the shine comes into his eyes. He doesn’t make this expression but a few meager times in the comic. And one of them is at the very end.

Papa also has a temper?? Ugh. He’s such a spoiled child. I can’t blame Kusuo for being a brat when his dad is like that.

And then Kusuo immediately smashes every window in the house using his psi powers out of coffee jelly induced jealousy. Another turn of events that just doesn’t make sense in the anime!!!

The translator note at the end is very sweet. I feel lucky that such a good scan team took on Saiki k; they really put effort into it, even the untranslatable stuff.

Alrighty, (wii fit meditation announcer guy voice) that’s… the end. It took me the better part of four hours to read and touch type all of this on my smartphone. Time well spent. (though I really should have used my computer. No, actually I’d better not, or all of my posts are going to be the length of 0-6…)

end of 1-1💫

[kellodrawsalot]

I'm sure you probably have heard of Yuri stories I usually don't read or watch Yuri stories Not because I don't like them I'm all down for watching any type of love, lesbian or gay or whatever It's just because I don't know what it's a good story from them, which one I should move watch. But I did write this really good one

But I read this really good one Yuri stories For this title [I married my best friend to shut up my parents.]

I know how much sounds like iskai title But this story was really good I definitely like the characters I definitely would recommend it My only complaint is it's way too short. It's only 3 chapters you can finish in 1 day.

I actually have that one and tok be honest it’s not my most favorite ? But I don’t hate it, I first didn’t get why the manga didn’t tickle my fancy but after re-reading it i think I don’t feel the chemistry between the two women

if I can recommend some titles I suggest try these!

[cruyuu]

Heya mel, i kind of noticed something about Sukuna (im re-reading jjk bc i feel like i missed some stuff)

But if yiu look closely, Sukuna went through the 5 stages of grief, and the last stage we see before he has acceptance (which is why he passed on) is depression. Remember how sukuna in one of his flashbacks looked 'bored' with yorozu? That might have been depression.

Yuuji let sukuna heal, and let him grieve. Which hard for those who have trauma, and sukuna has a lot of "imperfect" survivor. Also, he kinda displays symptoms of c-ptsd, npd, and sociopaths aspd. Yuuji was a nessacity for sukuna to heal.

(Hi wanted to add one more thing im the sukuna is an imperfect trauma survivor anon) He is in denial of yuuji. Him being in denial of a lot of things that dont match his views. Denial is a stage of grief, too.

Hi anon!

I don't necessarily agree with the 'five stages of grief' explanation but there are a couple of okay points you're making. I mostly don't agree because I don't recall ever seeing Sukuna grieving or showing remorse in this manga. Even in in the final chapter, he's pretty much "My life could've gone that way or that way. It is what it is." I like that about Sukuna a lot, and I like how despite being hated and probably estranged from people at that time (which is to be expected due to his form), he never really grieved nor wondered why. He instead just turned to himself and lived a good life (by his own standards). He isn't the type to sit around and mope about it, nor complain or cry about his situation. This, ofc, doesn't mean that he doesn't have trauma or that just because he says he isn't hurting, he isn't but rather that he's written to be strong despite all that's happened to him.

Still, "not showing emotions" could very well be because he isn't human but a curse and hence doesn't function like a human being (or has discarded his humanity). We don't really know, after all.

I see Sukuna dragging Yuuji through hell as a good point tho. Yuuji hadn't turned out cold and bitter but still laughs like nothing had happened to him. The same couldn't be said about Sukuna but then again we don't know exactly how he behaved in his teens or what his childhood was like to really say if he was hurt or if he really didn't give a shit even back then.

Still, Yuuji taught Sukuna that everything changes and that even though it does, some things do not which is what 271 showed off perfectly. You still have Sukuna changing a part of himself (embracing what Yuuji told him) but still being the same old sarcastic menace that many, as well as myself, had grew to love.

[figurativepieceoftrash]

Got briefly, somewhat, got interested in bnha again (possible manga re-read currently pending), so I read your fics Sympathy for the Devil and The Line, and going crazy for the psychological horror aspects in both omg? Just WOW, I love 'em! Are there any notes or ideas or literally any rambles you wanna share about these two fics?

Omg thank you sm for asking! I'd be ecstatic to share a bit about both actually, overjoyed that you decided to briefly return to my work bc you're one of my coolest mutuals and your comments are some of the best I receive, used to always so look forward to seeing your kudos signature at the bottom of my fics 🥺💕

Sympathy actually has a sequel in the works, but I'm not sure if I'll ever publish it considering the oneshot didn't perform as well as I'd like it to and I think the work stands alone fine as it is in terms of what I was hoping to say thematically. That said what's written of the next installment has a v heavy focus on identity (SHOCKING for my writing, I know lol): an on-the-run Izuku still doesn't trust his father despite being forced to rely on his resources/connections/knowledge for survival, and is attempting to figure out where the person he was ends and the person All for One's made him into begins so he can decide exactly how far his loyalty should extend. Although Izuku chose his father during the resolution of Sympathy, there was. Uh. Obviously a lot going on, at the moment, and people tend to make dubious decisions in the midst of heightened emotions, so it's natural that he might question things a bit in the aftermath

While the primary focus of sympathy was tackling my issues with the underlying messages conveyed by bnha's ending (I feel like most of my works nowadays broach that subject, at least to a degree), there was also a good bit in there about cycles of abuse and grappling with the less savory traits one might inherit from their parents, especially in regards to personality disorders and mental illnesses. Because of this, I wanted to really make it clear that although Izuku does share a lot of similarities to afo following the psychological redecorating he's performed, he is still capable of coming out the other end a person he can be proud of, even if it might take some real doing and constitute what feels like a lifelong uphill battle.

Because of this, the outline of the fic did slate for a happy ending; after plenty of conflict, introspection, and interpersonal drama, we'd get to a point where Izuku realized struggling to empathize with others didn't make him a bad person, there aren't good people just people trying day by day to be good, people have the capacity to accept and care for him even if he has changed, etc. etc. etc. all very and they rode off into the sunset type stuff. Even after he'd expelled afo from his mindscape he'd never go back to normal, but sometimes experiences change you and you have to learn to grow around them even if you personally can't find a positive spin to it. Not all of Izuku's friends are as close following the change and some drift away entirely (I do not write fluff and I have to stay true to my personal interpretation of realism, sorry 😔) but enough people are willing to adapt to this new version of him that he thinks he can eventually become someone he doesn't hate being.

The Line is similar both in that it dished out my beef with the bnha ending in a major way and that it got thrown in "Oh God, I wrote like eight chapters of this but no one likes it so I'll be damned if I ever publish them. Oh, the Shame! It burns!" limbo. This one also dealt heavily with themes of the self, though its grapples were less with perceived ethical deficit and more with (lack of) accomplishment-based feelings of inadequacy and the pressures of self-enforced interpersonal comparison. I feel like a large portion of fandom is in that age group where they're starting to figure out their lives, and they're either conventionally successful but grappling with the reality of leaving behind lifelong social networks/safety nets/friends (Uraraka) or failing to accomplish their childhood dreams and coming face to face with shame, aimlessness, and perceived inadequacy (Izuku).

I thought it would be really fun to explore this alongside Bnha's Issues With The Concept of Saving™️ and what it actually means to have failed to save someone. Bnha has this issue where it forces characters to infantilize and dehumanize villains for the sake of saving them. Here’s me going off about it in a private discord server with my friends bc I’m too lazy to rephrase it here lol:

But yeah! Line attempted to critique this by mirroring that same shallow dehumanizing thinking in the way the Toga and Shigaraki treated Izuku. Using a human being with agency and a complex internal reality as a personal project without considering their identity as an individual seems very sinister when the shoe is on the other foot, and although everyone involved has good intentions, dehumanization is never a constructive way to solve a problem.

I also obviously took issue with how the public reacted to Izuku and Ochako's frankly half-assed attempts at saving the villains? Shoto was very open with his intentions, but the fact that neither of the other characters with "marginalized dissidents are people too even if they use unethical means to address social issues" arcs actually went public with their desire to help means that any broader change that might've occurred as a result of their actions is negated. Weirdly enough Izuku pushes the responsibility of framing villains as people onto Spinner??? For some reason??? Which like. Okay. But I think the angry and demoralized public would be a lot more eager to listen to an ex-heroics student of considerable renown than a convicted felon, yeah? Seems kind of like you. Don't actually care??? Very weird handling of the story's central conflict, I'll say that much.

But yeah if any of those concepts interest you lmk, talking about this is kind of making me want to revisit it, if I'm being perfectly honest. Thanks again for asking me to talk about my fics, I'm super grateful, esp bc I just released another total flop lol, it means a lot to me in a time when it feels like no one likes my writing :P

[eurydicees]

Tbh I desperately need to reread haikyuu but i think if I will do that I will start crying again especially w/ karasuno characters + nationals again (no one is going to die no one is going to be brought back ++ we don’t need memories ++ kageyama backstory ++ Brazil arc) and I think if that happens the adrenaline I will get from finishing the manga will make me sign up for a marathon and I don’t want to do that

anyway! Enough abt haikyuu! What are your favorite bllk characters/moments (if you want to answer ofc) hope you have a great day!!

as someone currently rereading haikyuu, can confirm that the adrenaline rush of it all is REAL. and also so is the crying. i got to the end of the kamomedai match and nearly started sobbing in public at work. its the everything. we dont need the memories. mediocre me do you have time to look down. no one is going to die, no one is going to be brought back to life. it was the most fun i've ever had. the idle fleeting thought that he was a star. this too is volleyball. our spring is over. i wanted to go further with this team. what will you be tomorrow. sobbing as i type fr fr fr.

anyways enough of the crying!!! re: blue lock, favorite characters oh god. ok this list has changed DRAMATICALLY since i first started reading. but favorites are def bachira (it's the loneliness and the monster and the growth and the kindness) and kunigami (bring him back i miss him he's literally so fucking tragic and for what).

honorable mention to rin, who i have recently begun to feel fucking deranged about. i 100% blame this on the most recent chapter. i also think niko is neat and deserves more screen time/development. that scene from the very beginning with him crying and isagi saying this feels good lives RENT FREE in my head.

the entire u20 match is crazy and is def my favorite arc in the manga so far. im so excited for an entire season of that game. its gonna be so insane. the "LUCK" panel actually made me scream out loud. i felt crazy reading that shit.

other favorite moment is bachira's awakening where he throws away the monster and goes for goal himself....gODDDDD. bachira <3333333 also contender for one of the best moments in the manga is in fact isagi "how does it feel to be the clown of my story". OH and also isagi and barou i will devour your darkness and turn it into light. ALSO ALSO kaiser's mental breakdown. 10/10 character arcs right there.

sorry this took a literal year and ten days exactly to answer btw. i appreciate the ask i swear!!!! hope ur doing well anon <333

[nightlight-stardust-and-rain]

Polaris re-reads Nanbaka, in chronological order.

(beware of spoilers if you haven't gone past the Anime or if you stopped reading at some point I guess?)

This manga is so fucking sparkly. Love it.

You know, I had forgotten that the first time we see Samon he's in the warden's office. They are actually pretty close aren't they? It's a surprisingly wholesome relationship.

Love how Musashi is homicidal for a grand total of like three chapters and the instant he loses his powers (pretty much a wish he's had for years) he becomes the chillest, kindest guy. I had completely forgotten how many languages he speaks, this guy is insane.

Love how Musashi's wearing a skirt and no one says anything about it.

He's such an absolute nerd despite his appearance.

Jyugo's and Musashi's relationship is so cute. Puppies.

Fascinated by the workings of Samon's tail. Like this is clearly a tail but texture-wise it is clearly a belt. Way too smooth to be a tail. What the hell.

Tsukumo my beloved. Him and Jyugo being awkward beans who have no idea how their real selves are and have no idea how normal society functions together... Solidarity baby.

I love Samon's tattoos, they're so cool.

Uno meeting Musashi was actually so wholesome. Uno realizes this scary guy is actually timid and sincere and nice and goes oh well, no choice but to adopt him now. We already have Jyugo, what's one more. It's in moments like these where you see how truly kind Uno is.

Uno inviting Musashi to the game room!!

Samon as a whole. My beloved.

Mao why are you so mean. I wonder if what he's saying is true tho like he is absolutely the type to make shit up just to get under Samon's skin. (edit, a lot of chapters later : indeed there were bad rumors about building 5. Because Mao made them all up ! Dude how petty are you!)

Getting Aiolia-Aiolios vibes from Enki and Samon. You know, elder brother's a "traitor" therefore the younger brother is distrusted?

Samon is actually a good teacher. That's neat.

Completely forgot he actually swears a lot? It's fun.

In Qi's backstory, he's not wearing any (eyeliner?) makeup. I think it's sweet that he is wearing makeup in prison, he's more free (ironically) to express himself! Also it's so cute that Samon provides makeup for his inmates. (though he seems to be wearing nail polish in the flashbacks. At this point I am genuinely wondering if everyone wearing nail polish is a manga feature instead of Actual In-Universe nail polish)

It's so incredibly sweet that the building 5 inmates see Samon as the one who's giving them a second chance and helping them become better people. Like really all you would need to cure Samon's self-esteem issues would be to give him mind-reading powers and an hour with his inmates.

(chapter 91) really I can't with them. Qi holds Samon in such high esteem! That's genuine respect! And Samon trusting Qi and telling him that his skills (that have been used for such terrible things before!) are valuable and useful and good! And taking his inmates to see the gardens using a loophole to authorize it even thought it seems to be forbidden!

Samon being the one to reconnect Upa with his family! It was so wholesome...... Samon is just such a great guy, no wonder his inmates like him so much. He deserves it!

Kshshsh what do you mean the reason Honey and Trois are in this top prison despite committing the pettiest theft ever is because their escape attempts from previous prisons were actually about a hundred times more fucking intense and bloody than the crimes that landed them here in the first place?? Unfuckingbelievable. They cannot be real.

Jyugo having yet another crisis about the meaning of his existence. Baby it's not that deep, the meaning of existence is to be happy and enjoy life. You're overthinking again (very justified tho. Fuck Elf).

Love the contrast between Honey's special skill (extremely technical, extremely delicate, really hard to handle, extremely specific) and Trois' (Things That Make Huge Explosions). It mirrors the contrast between their personalities, Honey's being explosive and Trois' being sly. They're made for each other (I don't ship them, but it's very clear they're a package deal).

Honey finding out Tsukumo's a celebrity and keeping quiet about it because that's what Tsukumo wants is actually really cute. He's an asshole but he's not bad.

This chapter where they all exchange hair colors - Musashi with blonde-pink hair was surprisingly cute.

Samon can feel people's presence? That's fascinating. Enki can probably do it too given some of his comments. How does it works.

Enki's uniform is so ugly. Baby why did you think this red and this green together was a good idea.

Musashi being vulnerable with Yozakura! And talking to him! And Yozakura believing in him! And the way Musashi changed Yozakura too! It's because of Musashi that he thought about asking for Enki's motives, that he understood that criminals are not evil ! It's sweet.

Enki being offered an opportunity to ask for help and denying it. I wonder how many times he's done that. Motherfucker your brother adores you, would it kill you to open up a little for once.

"you wouldn't understand" fuck you Enki, Yozakura might be one of the only ones who would understand (on account of having listened to Musashi's story and believed it). Also that's a flimsy excuse when you didn't even try to make people understand!!

Kiji is scary. And good at feelings, which is arguably more terrifying in a manga like that.

I know Hajime's violence is meant to be comedic but uh. I don't really like how prompt he is to beating up the inmates or his coworkers.

Samon still believing in Inori even after his betrayal and the cruel things he said...... I love him. Hope Inori knew the amount of faith Samon had in him.

But also Samon baby you need to stop blaming yourself for everything that's just not healthy.

The other guards being worried about Samon working too much... That's sweet.

Samon and Hajime working together are undefeatable uh.

Me during the entire Enki arc : *chanting without stopping* someone give Samon a hug someone give Samon a hug someone give Samon a hug-

It's cool that Samon knows how to use all the different weapons that the guards of building 5 use.

Inori is pretty good. It's sweet how he thinks that Samon's strength is believing in others. I think it's nice that he's trying to spare Samon a confrontation with Enki because he knows Samon still believes in his brother, like, yeah guys stop blaming Samon for hesitating to fight his brother whom he adores.

Aw, Samon's learning to rely on his subordinates! Good for you baby!

the flashback about the organ trafficking case :( Samon tries so hard to help Enki and Enji just rejects his help so harshly.... I mean I'm pretty sure he was trying to protect Samon from the consequences of his actions but he simply did not have to be cruel about it. That kind of stuff, when said by someone you love and admire so much, stays with you for years if not your whole life. It's no wonder Samon's got self-esteem issues with a brother like that really.

Jyugo having his 56th identity crisis of the month. And I'm sorry to tell you it's nowhere near done!

Samon's and Enki's grandpa is weird. And their parents don't seem super good either. Did these kids have any good adults?? No wonder they've got issues relying on others.

"the strength I wish for is not something you can understand" Enki, baby, he's five. Of course he can't understand. You gotta explain at least a little bit.

The Gokuu brothers are on a interestingly similar wavenleght but they gotta learn to communicate with words.

Babies Noriko and Samon... They're so cute. Samon adding to his goal to become stronger so he can stand close to Noriko without fainting! So she won't be lonely! Definitely siblings. It's a different relationship from the one with Enki because he was already strong enough to touch Noriko to begin with while Samon really put in the effort for her. No saying Noriko's and Enki's relationship is lesser, I'm just biased because Samon's my favorite.

Noriko being able to say, to know without a doubt that she is not a monster thanks to Enki and Samon... That's love right there.

You know I was wondering why Noriko didn't believe in people despite having Samon and Enki and Houzuki but.

Holy SHIT

Her family imprisoned her. In a CAVE. For TEN YEARS??? When she didn't do anything?? Death for all of them.

Samon doubting Enki is framed as a bad things but like. He was literally there when "Enki" killed someone. I don't blame him for not automatically thinking of mind-control.

Is Kiji actually good at feelings or is he there to explain the internal reasoning of someone who won't do an internal monologue?

Samon using Noriko's ki shield.... That's love, too.

Awww, his tattoos are reminders of Noriko's lessons!

Samon promising to help his big siblings because they always try to do everything themselves... He's so precious.

That's also very painful, because I remember what comes next.

The more I see of Enki's and Samon's makeup the more I feel like they're birthmarks or something. Samon had it when he was five!

Ah, "what comes next" is here. SOMEBODY GIVE SAMON A FUCKING HUG.

Well, that's not quite a hug, but a headpat, a good cry, and a "you still have family here" is good enough. Well done, Inori.

Somehow getting the flashback of when everything was okay right after that hurts so much.

The warden patted Samon's head twice onscreen and absolutely many more times offscreen. It's hilarious and cute. She's not immune to his charms.

"I'm not that tall" Enki baby have you heard of a certain river in Egypt by any chance.

First of all. Samon sitting on Inori's shoulders is cute. Second, the fact that he needs to do that to look his brother in the eye, rofl.

It's interesting to think that Samon and Jyugo are linked now. Samon's siblings have changed Jyugo... Even if with the way those things tend to work, Jyugo will forget about them and they won't be mentioned again :(

"did my habitual truancy backfire?" Qi I love you so much-

(chapter 159) Qi and Musashi being nerds together was actually so cute. I wish we could see them interact more often.

The bath guys are fucking insane. Nanbaka really is a comedy.

Musashi asked Hitoshi if he could maybe talk to Qi again !!! That's so fucking cute. They're friends!! Good for them!! People who have had a hard life making friends again!!

Several of the dogs of building 4 have piercings!! Kshshshsh this is too much

Mao is still holding a grudge for Samon blaming him and saying he hated him when they were, what, Nine ? Ten? Is a bit, man, get over it. I personally think that Mao does feel guilty (even tho I'm pretty sure the bad guys would've found Noriko even without him, he did play a part in it) and can't deal with that so he is projecting the blame on someone else....

The biggest mystery of the manga is actually : does the warden have a really bad case of resting bitch face or is Hajime just really bad at reading people's faces?

Sometimes I forget some of those people are real adults. What do you mean Yamato's got a daughter. That changes his whole character.

There's quite a bit of teasing Samon about his intelligence or lack thereof but to be honest I don't really see where it comes from?

Literally two seconds after I wrote this : ah.

So he ranked last in the prisons written exam....

Come to think of it did he even have formal education??

"maybe he was just searching for a human who wouldn't die when wreathed in flames" and he found one :((((

! Noriko and Enki mentioned several chapters later! That's good, Jyugo hasn't forgotten the lessons they taught him yet.

Aw.... Musashi turning off his fire right when he could have killed Jyugo easily... And losing his sight in the process.... :( I love him

When Musashi talked about their past he made it sound like he turned homicidal the instant he saw the blades... Without mentioning that he apparently could have killed Jyugo but chose not to. I wonder if he didn't say anything about that because he thought Jyugo or the guards wouldn't believe him?

Jyugo didn't know Noriko and Enki were dead :(((

Love the dress Musashi's wearing in the flashback.

Wish he had kept the longer hair....

Jyugo clocked Musashi as a good guy the instant he met him. So cute. It's also interesting that he said that they were the same because 1) he didn't know Musashi had powers or a past with the man with the scar at this point, and 2) this might have been the first time Jyugo actually felt companionship, which is awesome for my they are siblings agenda.

Musashi sneaking out of his cell just to go to the library. I love him so much and as a fellow bookworm, I approve.

Aw, Musashi's teaching Jyugo things. That's sweet. I wonder if anyone else taught Jyugo things before?

Jyugo getting severely beat up just to bring Musashi a book... And he used to say that he didn't have any wants before. Clearly he always had at least one and it was making his friends happy.

Jyugo pointing out that Musashi's bad at sneaking and that's because our boy is a goody-two-shoes lmao. This flashback really shows that Musashi was just a good kid who did literally nothing wrong. He got framed and his life was destroyed just because of the way he was born :(

Aw, they really were good friends.

Which makes the falling out worse. Musashi felt betrayed because he thought Jyugo worked with the ones who destroyed his life and Jyugo felt betrayed because his (probably) first close friend attacked him for seemingly no reason. And technically they were both right :( such a mess

It is. So interesting that before using the shackles to harm Musashi he had barely thought about them. Getting them off was his goal since the start of the manga so it made it seem like he'd been focused on that since the shackles appeared but actually he paid them no mind at all until they were used to harm his only friend. The one reason why he wanted to find the man with the scar and get the shackles off is because they were the reason Musashi wouldn't talk to him (technically correct). The man "ruined everything" as I think Jyugo's said before, but only now do we discover that "everything" was his relationship with Musashi. He was really important to Jyugo, much more than just a simple former cellmate. It's just so.... To discover that his whole reason to live (finding the man with the scar) was actually about Musashi all along! It's huge! I joke about them being siblings but man I had forgotten how much they genuinely loved each other.

As someone who also thinks Musashi is great I relate :D

Musashi was actually investigating uh. I love when we get reminded of how smart he is.

Musashi trusting Jyugo because he never called Musashi a monster is kinda cute but also baby, you have the lowest standards. That's the bare minimum!!

Jyugo crying on Musashi..... I'm telling you they're siblings! Also it's sweet how Musashi doesn't panic at all despite very obviously having never experienced this level of emotion coming from Jyugo.

Aw, he was patching him up in the flashback.

Jyugo calling Musashi's warmth "like the sun"..... I love both of them and their relationship.

Alrlkshakl Musashi feeling bad about winning money in a drinking contest...... He is so fucking earnest. I love him so much. Also he looks good in non-black-and-red clothes.

Aw, he's teaching Hitoshi languages. It's sweet, and nice that he has company.

One big consequence of what happened to him is that he's bad at believing that when he speaks he will be heard and believed. It's really good that he's learning to speak up! All of them need therapy but I guess it's a start.

Ikkaku baby you need sooo much therapy. But so does everyone else so I guess you fit right in.

His nails are like claws. Cannot help but think of the practical aspects. How do you even scratch yourself without taking flesh off.

He was the one who gave Musashi his blindfold? That's.... Interesting given that he had no way to know that Musashi would be blinded. So his blindfold really is some random straps of leather (?) ? Does it says something about Musashi's feelings for Ikkaku that he kept it all this time? Or does he just not care since he can't see what he's wearing.

His fucking toenails are long and pointy ?? Not only does that seems impractical, it also seems unhealthy!

Musashi not wanting to fight Ikkaku because he helped him before... And trying to talk to him... He's so good and it's not working in his favor :(

Hmmm. So Zakuro's and Ikkaku's goal was to escape with Musashi and Jyugo?... Not sure if I believe it yet.

(really funny how they both point blank refused to leave without even taking a second to consider. Sorry, all the people they love are in this prison, there's literally no reason to leave)

Musashi seeing right through Ikkaku wanting to use him was so funny. In your face, motherfucker.

Turns out I was right to not believe in Ikkaku and Zakuro.

You know I feel like Musashi and Ikkaku could be great friends if Ikkaku was less of an asshole. Introverted friend and extroverted friend.

Musashi using physics to fight Ikkaku! And the dogs saying that Musashi's true strength is his mind! I really love when the manga reminds us how smart he is.

Him deducing Ikkaku's motives and how he was at the center of many things!! I really love how smart he is.

Lmao the contrast between Musashi's and Ikkaku's fight (bloody and dramatic) and Jyugo's and Zakuro's fight (over in five minutes because Jyugo's a weakling).

Aw, Zakuro :(

Yeesh. Dude really went through it. That's no way to live. No wonder he's a little bit insane.

And even with everything that happened to him, he still wanted to help someone in the same situation as him! What a good kid.

Jyugo's unthinking faith in Musashi is killing me. He knows Musashi won't turn on him or Zakuro, because that's just how it is! He also knows Musashi will win his fight, because he's strong. That's just how it is. He believes in Musashi so much!!.

Musashi tricking Ikkaku into close combat to win his fight! And using Hitoshi's sword because he's been fighting for Hitoshi too! He's so smart and cool I love him so much. I'm repeating myself about him being smart and it's because I really appreciate it.

Ikkaku getting captured by dogs.... Rofl. Just what he deserves.

Pretty sure that's where I stopped last time I read nanbaka. So from now on everything is new!

I know this is meant to be comedic but I don't think beating up a very traumatized guy is a very good idea??

Woof. Uno's fucking savage.

What the fuck is up with Dread.

Kojiro's cute.

Tauro seems good.

Wow, Jemi and Jeni are flat-out monsters.

Tauro is a good guy! I like him :)

Aw, Jun is great.

Hm.

Fuck Rokudo.

Ban :(((

Tauro really is a good guy.... It's good that he at least got to learn that his sister was alive before he died.

FUCK ROKUDO.

The one bright point in this backstory was Jemi and Jeni getting what they deserved (a violent death)

There's a lion lady! Love her design

..... Knowing this manga, is it a lady?

(chapter 236) Lmao Jyugo confirming that Musashi got his power back and his only reaction is "could you heat up my hot chocolate? :3". What's funnier is Musashi doing it despite being mildly offended.

!! Musashi accepting that his power is a part of him !!!

And obviously the first thing this absolute nerd does about it is trying to study his own power. What else.

Lololol Jyugo burning his tongue and Musashi scolding him but the next panel you can see Musashi holding a glass of water. He's such an older brother. The sibling energy in this chapter is off the charts.

Jyugo pointing at Musashi and Musashi scolding him is killing me for several reasons : first of all, the fact that Musashi is blind. Which means that he knew Jyugo was pointing just because he knows Jyugo well !! I love them so much. Also, once again, the big brother energy is strong. And, lastly, I feel like this is giving us a glimpse of how their relationship was before all the drama : Jyugo did say Musashi was teaching him things, and with that little interaction I am now 100% sure that "things" included basic manners. They're so sweet.

Musashi's getting out of the underground!! :D

Musashi stopping Zakuro from falling and telling him he was overwhelmed at the number of people too and it's okay to go at your own speed and you don't have to force yourself into everything right away and everything will be okay eventually 🥺 he's so good......

Aw, Musashi and Zakuro are pairing up at cards, that's cute.

Zakuro is such an awkward bean, but I like that he's awkward in a markedly different way than Jyugo. They have different traumas so it makes sense.

The bath guys scare even Upa!! Wow :D

Yozakura saying that he'll do his best to be useful to Shin and Shin being an ass about it. Fuck you man, leave our beloved dog alone.

That said, them bonding over their dislike of Hajime is hilarious (even funnier that they dislike him for the same reason).

Hitoshi being indestructible will never get old.

Yamato's wife and Nadeshiko meeting the mercenary brothers made me so uneasy. Please please please get away from them.

Ikkaku and Kojiro being friends is sweet. Even assholes like Ikkaku deserve friends I guess.

Ikkaku was the one who tattooed Musashi? How interesting.

Ikkaku saying that Musashi's power is great because Musashi is the one who has it... He really does respects Musashi. It really does feel like they could've been genuine friends in another setting.

Love the casual background Musashi-Jyugo interactions. Jyugo failing a test and Musashi bopping him on the head with said test. The reason he's irritated is probably because he tried teaching Jyugo stuff and it didn't stick haha

Wow, didn't think we'd be getting new supervisors at this point.

Is that a fucking sarcophagus.

Snake person!! Snake person!! Snake person!! :D

Shin being weirded out by the supervisors like any normal person would is so funny because 1) it implies that even the more normal guards are not, in fact, up to the in-universe standard of normal and 2) Shin is a goddamn weirdo, what do you mean he's the first one who's being reasonable about the supervisors' weirdness??

Kitsune-looking supervisor : *takes off his mask* *there's another mask underneath!* *wait, no, that's just his face*

Building 4 is the building of education? Oh, no wonder Musashi ended up here.

I don't like Shin, but his reactions to the supervisors introducing themselves are gold. Or maybe they're glass? *badum tsss*

(completely in accord with him about building 12's supervisor tho)

Building 12 is the building of the sun? What does that even mean.

Hajime didn't say what building 13 was of......

Some of the buildings like the building of art and the building of education make sense but some of the others... Do not.

I really like that Shin brought up Enki because I was scared he'd be forgotten. In a lot of mangas or books, things that happen earlier seem to have a tendency to be forgotten so I was afraid that'd happen to Enki and Noriko.

Orochi, I like you, but you're being suspicious.

Honestly, several of these people being some kind of immortal is not that surprising.

Love Kiji's culture. I feel like he and Musashi would get along.

It's interesting that Kiji and Samon were able to feel Elf's presence (Samon somewhat more clearly than Kiji?) despite not having elf cells.

Hmmm. I may have to revoke my dislike of Shin.

More Musashi flashbacks !! Yes !!

You know, he looks more tiny in the flashbacks.

Love how curious and analytic he was about Ikkaku. This guy just always wants to know things uh.

Musashi "recognizing" Ikkaku is interesting. Is there some sort of link between people with powers?

Ikkaku's a good actor, uh?

Maybe I've just been reading too many Clone Wars fics but it feels like naming someone, as Ikkaku does here, is significant.

Despite that and him being friendly and helpful, Musashi never really trusted him, which turned out to be the correct decision.

It's interesting that Musashi is still able to guess that Ikkaku's hiding something despite not really knowing him.

! He's hiding a place from the others (except Kojiro) !

(they really are friends uh)

He doesn't have elf cells ?

Me, five minutes ago : he vomited ink?? Nah, why would it be ink.

Me now : it was ink

Ikkaku letting the prison think that he was weaker than he was looked like really good power control but in actuality he was poisoning himself to not fry them all when he lost his temper. Guess his control was not as good as it looked.

We already knew those guys were somewhat evil but yikes. The casual mention of torture.

Interesting that his feelings about the man with the scar seem real. He probably used those to convince Musashi that he was actually against him.

Talking sharks :D

Ikkaku telling one of the sharks that he said to not go to the river because it was dangerous.... Uh! He cares about them!

Ikkaku eating raw crocodile. Baby what are doing.

Fuck these rich kids. Leave the sharks alone >:(

Ikkaku being mean but only to motivate Kojiro... It's... Sorta sweet in a twisted way?

Kojiro's first instinct being to talk it out.... Baby.... :(

And getting splattered with the blood of his friend for it!! Fuck these rich kids.

Feels like Ikkaku's trying to make Kojiro tougher so he will survive. It's a twisted way of caring but it's still caring.

Can't believe this guy is seeking vengeance for Jeni. Of all people.

Kojiro still giving one last chance to these assholes........

And these assholes not taking it! Man, have you got no sense of self-preservation? Or any sense at all? When someone who's got your life in their hands tell you he'll spare you if you apologize, you grovel ! Even if the apology is a lie!

Holy shit Kojiro has a lot of shark friends.

Awww. Ikkaku helped the dying shark! He was so talking shit when he said these cruel things to Kojiro!

It's so sweet that he helped Kojiro even though he's really weak right now and Kojiro probably didn't need his help.... Ah, can't help it, I like him again.

He cares about Kojiro's freedom so much!! Of course it might be because Elf having a bigger presence in Kojiro could mean trouble for his plans.... But still! That speech he gave Kojiro! He really does care! (I'm shipping them now)

Kojiro deciding to have fun. That's his goal in life and he's sticking to it. You go baby!

He was a child soldier? Are we finally getting some Ikkaku backstory?? :D

No way his nails grew back just because he got his power back up. That's not how it works.

Looking at the sharks closer.... Do some of them have tattoos ?? Did Ikkaku tattoo these sharks?? :D

A freaking megalodon???

*firm nod* Kojiro's powers are actually of cartoonish origin. There's no other way.

"it's fine, he's not my real dad" so it's fine if he dies just because he isn't your biological parent? Kid. :/

"I don't see gods as something to be worshipped, I see them as something to pick fights with". This old man is cool. And would enjoy building 5.

Aw, the kid was just being a tsundere [saying this, it threw aside a large rock]. Their backstory is cute. Two people who lost their families finding a new one with each other :) it's cute how worried he is.

Kojiro's too good for this world.

Ikkaku really isn't as ruthless as he makes himself look, uh.

The both of them making friends with the cops who came to arrest them. It's so light-hearted.

Yikes, the zodiac fishermen escaped a very messy death by like five minutes.

Taura!! Lady are you freaking haunted ??

Lion lady is not a lady

:(((

(chapter 266) Rock is being suspicious. Does this guy maybe..... Comes from money? I'm not very good at deductions so I'm probably super wrong but oh well.

(chapter 269) I should've expected Trois' calm personality to be a good match for Musashi.

Lmao, Nico asking Musashi to warm up his drink. I smell a running gag coming.

Jyugo giving Musashi a stupid nickname behind his back.... Sibling behavior I tell you.

This Chimney lady is so fun.

Liang getting some Naruto-style therapy! He needs it honestly. Or rather he needs actual therapy but I'll take what I can get.

Nanbaka really is a comedy. This is just like Hajime using Hitoshi as a club.

What a missed opportunity for Nico to go "just like a manga".

Rock also getting some mid-fight therapy.... Honesty I'm mostly having second-hand embarassment because everyone who watched the match could hear what they were saying.

I cannot believe that this joke of a match ended up being so important to Rock's and Liang's character development.

Their friendship is sweet tho.

This Chimney lady is so goddamn extra. Love her.

I was right about Rock ??? Uh. That doesn't usually happen.

RIP building 6, victims of their own aesthetic.

Is that a fucking watermelon vampire!!! :D

He made his cape out of curtains!!

Uno's fucking ruthless. My beloved.

The watermelon vampire is so bitchy ! :D

Tsukumo, I had not realized I missed you but I definitely did.

The inmates can get certifications! That's really good.

Lmao. Tsukumo casually taking commissions to act like a ninja for five minutes because it makes the inmates happy.

Why do I only now notice that Nico's teeth are fucked up.

The vampire's bitchiness is no longer funny. We go back to eating the rich I guess, even if I don't like watermelon.

Kshshshsh Tsukumo making traps in other people's buildings. Baby. Why. (it's even funnier than if he was doing it in his own building, but it'd be highly illegal either way)

The building 6 inmates have the range : they're mostly (Bio excluded, perhaps?) complete goofballs, and they're also dangerous and competent when in their own territory.

Two of them assuming that Jyugo's blades are a costume is such a normal reaction. Obviously if you saw someone with blades for arms you'd assume it was a prop, duh. That said they also have in their group someone who can somewhat manipulate illnesses by biting people or himself so.....

I thought "curse" was just a fancy way of saying poison but no, as it turns out curses and other supernatural occurrences are very much real in nanbaka. Deer lord.

Holy cow. Uno's playing 5d chess every time he fights.

So Rock can just. Flat-out. See and hear ghosts?? Because ghosts are real in this manga?? Jfc what are the chances it's never useful or even mentioned once the Halloween event ends.

The building 6 guard going "the last obstacle is A Lot of Really Difficult locks!!" and everyone from building 13 (+ Honey) going "ah." was pure gold. Those locks have met their natural enemy.

Oh dear. Mister watermelon vampire takes his sleep Very Seriously. How relatable (except for the firearms).

The whole coffin is a weapon. Wow. This really is a crack manga. How does mister watermelon vampire even manages to lift it? He's a noodle.

Sure just give an inmate an extremely dangerous weapon. Like, that doesn't seem very wise (of course the alternative was him dying so I guess it's alright).

So V was a literal, actual slave. Wonderful. He needs so much therapy.

"it's one thing after another!" you've done it, Hajime. You've summarized the entire manga.

V needs sooo much therapy.

Yikes. All these years Rock thought that V had killed himself because of him (in a convoluted way)? That's got to have left a mark.

Lololol and during this extremely violent sequence of events, Tsukumo and Honey were just serenely cooking breakfast. Are The rooms here soundproof??

Lmao. Jyugo can be so sneaky! Asking Tsukumo to convince Honey to help because he remembers Honey's a huge fan of Tsukumo! And Tsukumo just going along with it without a single question!

Tsukumo is no good at being a ninja but he is very good at costumes and disguises.

Oh! He just changed the color of his hair because he is now able to control the hair-changing disease he caught from Nico! Turns out he is not that good at disguises haha.

Bio's and Nico's powers are science-induced rather than being natural....

V baby you are way too extreme. Also embarrassing. Calm down.

Hajime is good at feelings (this is a threat).

It's a very agressive form of therapy and it's only by plot device that it works honestly.

Jyugo getting stuck in the coffin with the vampire..... And there was only one coffin!

In addition to being a watermelon vampire, he's also periodically possessed?? There is such a thing as too much for one character.... But that's not the case here, that guy's great.

Tsumuji (mask person) is really cute. Wonder if he's trans. That'd be great.

I'm glad I was wrong about ghosts not being relevant past building 6 :)

What do you mean the ghost's name is hell. Lmao.

When Taura got possessed, her entire appearance (clothes included) changed, but Isou didn't remark on it at all, which makes me think that he can't see the change. So either the change is entirely spiritual therefore only people who can see ghosts can see it, or there is actually no change and it's just for the sake of the reader. Leaning towards the first option tho.

It's sweet that Tauro was here with Taura and Hell the whole time. They got more time together :)

Hell's backstory killed me. It was just a gigantic accident haha

Jun..... Ban....

:(

:/

The one bright point in this is that Ikkaku looks good in normal clothes.

The man with the scar's face is definitely plot relevant.

Freeing the togabito seems like a noble goal but tbh I have less than zero trust in him or elf or the doctor.

I don't even need to say anything about the alien (except are they actually an alien or a togabito).

The inmates call him Sith?? Which star wars fan was responsible for this.

Absolutely fascinated by the fact that Tauro and Mei seems to know each other.... Relatively well? Were they friends?? Hmmm. I say exes.

Taura has a whole ass cow tail. And it's not even disguised as a belt like Samon's and Mao's. What the fuck. Is that normal.

Aw, baby Enki fighting the tiger supervisor with one finger just like Samon fought Rock! The parallels!

What counts as a togabito? Musashi's and Ikkaku's powers are obvious, but what about Hitoshi's ability to go through a concrete wall without a scratch? What about Hajime's strength? Do these three people who are exceedingly cat-like count?

Tengu!! Oh I love his hair.

It's sweet that he's friends with his supervisor.

Yamada and his snakes are so cute.

We've seen, like, five people from building 7 and I can already tell it's fucking insane.

Musashi's way too candid.

Tanaka, Yamada and Tengu's friendship is cute.

Lmao, Musashi calling Yozakura to help in the battle solely because he felt that Yozakura wanted to participate and he'd have felt bad if Yozakura couldn't have fun. Fire boy is doing this for entertainment and nothing else. He's super chill because he literally has nothing to lose.

Aw, Musashi's become even cooler! Also, don't call it a water wall if it's an ice wall.

Musashi being resigned about everyone hating him because he used his powers in public... :( he had zero doubt that he was going to be treated like a monster again :'(

But then! Everyone cheering and so many people saying that he and his power were cool and awesome!! :') I bet it healed something.

Sophia's a cutie who deserves better.

Oh dear, maybe it's a red herring but if she has the power of sleep it may interact interestingly with a watermelon vampire who apparently gets possessed while asleep.

I know Samon, Kiji, and Yozakura are meant to be closer to the warden because of their thematic but it's still sweet how they get excited when they see her for the first time in a while :)

Musashi and Jyugo bickering was cute too.

Lmao. Hitoshi's invincible. I love him.

Oh dear. I had forgotten that the vampire's not the only one who can get possessed when unconscious.

(for future me reading that later and not getting which capter I am referencing, Jyugo just got possessed by elf)

Oh no, mister watermelon vampire got kidnapped by highly unsavory characters :(

I believe that one of the reasons Hajime is so irritated by Samon is that Samon gets him. Hajime, as we've seen with his rather violent therapy speeches, is rather good at understanding people's motives, but I don't think he is used to being understood (which is exactly what Samon is doing).

Aw, the mummy person is cute.

Samon and Ruka bonding over destroying people who speak ill of Enki was fun too.

Ruka is so sly. It's fun!

Ruka didn't know Enki was dead... :(

Aw, Samon picking Ruka for the fight because if they win, Ruka will be able to visit Enki's grave.... He's so sweet I can't.

Samon is too good for this world.

Uno wondering when Samon and Ruka got so close is funny because I like perplexed POV but also sweet because Uno is so fucking observant he'd have noticed if the closeness was not genuine, which means it is! I'm happy for Samon and Ruka :)

[thelovelyghostwriter]

I probably said this before.

I tried to continue reading Tokyo Ghoul again. (I read this manga years ago, but I kept dropping it at the :re part during the Rose Investigation arc.)

I picked it up again and now I'm at Chapter 80. I must say, this is still my favourite part of the whole :re series. I totally like EtoKen, this scene awakens something in me (always). (My mutuals know how I totally roll with these types of ships - if it feels like a Lana del Rey song, I just know I'll love it).

[thecoolerliauditore]

Re: your Ouran rant on your main.

I haven't watched Ouran or read the manga beyond chapter 3 or something myself, but I am familiar with the concept. Honestly I'm somewhat shocked (but shouldn't be) that the story is that anti woman and so hardcore pro gendernorms. Wdym Haruhi isn't even gnc??

I think the concept would be so perfect to precisely try and think critically about gender roles. Gender is a performance, so why can't a woman play the part of a man?

This is highkey fueling my desire for an ouran high school au for hermitcraft/life series. I have had some brainworms about the traffic gals having a hostess club at a school and dragging Joel into it. Was gonna do it just to have a fun, Joel-centric harem story but now I wanna rectify an injustice lmao

No literally that's the thing it feels like it got scared of where its own messaging was going when the premise is. SO set up for challenging these things. And for awhile it really does seem like that's the direction things are going but then it just?? doesn't and the only real conclusion we get re: haruhi and gender is her taking off the long haired wig she was wearing when she goes to rescue Tamaki but even then the imagery we're left with is THIS so like lmao

It's like. It acknowledges gender roles are dumb and performative but never actually challenges said roles. I mentioned Haruhi making the active decision to cut off all her hair and the backlash she gets from Tamaki specifically because it's the only real instance of Haruhi actively choosing to be GNC, and it's... very much shrugged off by the end and everything else she chooses to wear and decorate herself with is outwardly feminine. It feels like it's trying to say "girls can have short hair" more than "girls don't have to look like girls" at times lmao.

I also only hinted at this because I think this is more me seeing things that aren't there and being mad the show isn't as based and woke as I thought it would be but the host clubs existence and the boys in it also act as living representations of these types of social norms being dumb!!

Like the twins who are very much a normal ass pair of brothers but as soon as they're performing for the girls at the host club they go full incest yaoi. And it's pointed out to us through their backstory and their fight episode that they have been very aware of peoples expectations of them their whole lives because they are twins and the one thing they have in common is that they desire independence and their own identities. That's!! A really good theme that could very easily run parallel to the gender stuff!!!!! It's all the same man!!!

Haruhi immediately being able to tell the difference between them because she sees them as people first and the thing they represent (twins, in this case) is what ends up endearing her to them too. C'mon man it's right. it's right there.

The same thing goes for Kyoya's family's high expectations of him or even Honey being infantilized and fetishized because he appears younger than he actually is and likes cute things.

The entirety of the host club being built around what they boys think make them desireable too is an AMAZING theme especially when so much of Haruhi's interactions with them prove them wrong. It's kind of unfortunately underlined with the same misogynistic "Haruhi loves the boys for Who They Really Are because she's smart while the annoying fangirls don't" undertone but the fact they literally categorize and market themselves by what they believe is their "trope" is. Hmm! (e.g. Kyoya is the "cool type" according to their designations, but he's actually most likable to Haruhi and to us when he's more vulnerable and/or chill)

BIG FYI i haven't actually read the manga so I don't know if the anime did it justice or not. I know probably the most major thing that left a bad taste in my mouth was the beach rape episode and that was a very much non-consequential plot I could see being an anime addition. And also this is. an anime I watched when I was 12 and occassionally think back on and go "what the fuck was that about" so my views on it are going to be pretty biased.

Anyway host club AU sounds fun! Maybe a little bit of a downer note from me though: host and hostess clubs irl have some much darker associations than anything in OHSHC so you might want to be aware of that. OHSHC has done wonders in sanitizing their reputation, I reckon. It's not a big problem or anything I think as long as you crank up the light-hearted silliness nothing can really go wrong, but still something i thought was worth mentioning.

[rudimentaryflair]

And if Yoshida doesn't side with Denji and still sides with public safety, will you accept he's not a "uwu baby" then?

So this is clearly bait, but because I am in a Yoshida-posting mood right now I'm going to pretend that you sent this ask in good faith.

First, nobody is calling Yoshida an "uwu baby". Chainsaw Man is not, in fact, an "uwu" manga.

Second, I'm not doing anything crazy by believing that Yoshida isn't a bad person. Fujimoto's been dropping hints about him since the start of Part 2 and all I'm doing is... not ignoring those. There's way too much effort being put into the ambiguity of his character just for him to be another Makima, and I think it's an oversight as a reader to disregard that.

I think most people who hate Yoshida actually just hate the exaggeratedly vile fanon version of him that's resulted from poor literature analysis and the fandom's infatuation with horny Denji whump. Canon!Yoshida hasn't done much except be unsettling and do (re: fail at) his job, which he's been implied several times to be conflicted about. Sure, he's served as a minor antagonist to Asa and Denji in some chapters, but he's also expressed remorse each time, and it's basically been spelled out that he's being strong-armed by Public Safety to do most of this.

But hey, anon, maybe you're right. Maybe after all the dithering he's still going to choose Public Safety. Fujimoto would definitely be the type to pull some dark shit like that.

But honestly, who cares? Liking a fictional character doesn't mean you 100% endorse and agree with their actions and morals. I enjoy reading Chainsaw Man because of its morally dubious characters. I like Yoshida because he's complex and interesting to me, and he will likely still be those things regardless of what side he ends up on. Obviously, I'll be disappointed if he opposes Deniji/Asa/Nayuta, but if the writing's consistent and his motives make sense then it's not going to ruin my enjoyment of his character in the story.

That being said, none of this has to have any bearing on you. Keep hating him if you want, I'm not here to police your fandom experience. But it's silly to barge into my inbox and condescend me when all I'm doing is paying attention to the text.